There are only fragments of where you once were
I can draw a line from you to her
These walls have shadows of your terms
A plea of prayer or concerns

Pretty bias exists
Like a blade around your wrist

I tell the Devil all my moves
I know that he will lose

I tell him all my plans
Across lightyears they span

I tell him all my secrets
He stores them in a sequence

All my hopes and grievance
Killing off my demons

He’s punishing me because the need is great
I can feel the world like a weight
But there’s a boulder in place –
I can’t participate!

Red light, green light
Was there, not here
No bye
Everybody has a price

I’ve prayed for all their deaths
I prayed –
With every single breath

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Post script (trigger warning potentially!?!)

The baby daddy DEAD

The big sister DEAD

Prayed for all of them and there’s more on that list🙏

YOU BLEED ENOUGH AND THEN THE BLEEDING STOPS

You won’t get my forgiveness

I’m not here for that

Also! Thank you for the belated birthday moneyz! 🥰

There’s such a warm feeling inside knowing I’m shopping for soup thangs soon

Also, I’m giving Walmart pickup a try. It’s free on orders of $35 or more

I’ll let them shop for my groceries again. Only this time I will drive to pick them up. They bring it to your car.

I won’t have to deal with the COVID crowds or mask up with a partial working lung (the left lung is doing better and I’m taking deeper breaths now, hopefully not the death call)

I may do a sunrise livestream from the beach this weekend on my TikTok

There’s a lot of negative dark energy here in the city, I’d like to avoid

I JUST WANNA BE HOME

It’s the worst place I’ve ever lived but for now it’s the only place I want to be

I’ve been moving my furniture around in my bedroom though and now I have a new view

I’m searching for a decent mattress topper because I’m sick of sleeping on wires

I think I may have finally found one without all the bs

They only have 2 inches but it’s decently priced and it’s gotta be better than sleeping on these fucking wires

I wanted 6 inches and the 3 inch egg shell + 3 inch memory foam but they don’t exist anymore

They keep trying to push the products with infusion in it which will dry out eventually and make your bed crack and I don’t want to sleep with chemicals

Anyhoo

I think I settled on that one and it’ll be decided on next payday

I may take a peek inside the actual Walmart but I can’t stand going inside that place lol

CROWDS

UGG

GROSS

I’m nearly ready to start sleeping on my floor tho

The bed I’m sleeping on was donated by the church cuz my stupid ass went homeless briefly during the government furloughs and hiring freezes

I love that I studied so long in college for a job just for the government to stop us from working and give all of our jobs away to the immigrants

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🇺🇸

MADE IN CHINA INDIA MEXICO

(Native American slave)

But the black Americans want me to pay financial repercations for propaganda crimes I never committed (nor my bloodline)

GET IN THE FUCKING SEA

I will go AWOL if you don’t stop taxing me

NASA IS A FRAUD!!!!!!!

WE CAN’T LEAVE EARTH!!!

I’m hungry thus hangry but not so much cuz the cart is getting full soon and the free pick up makes me less anxious to shop myself

I never worked at Walmart but damn that would’ve been a much better job to have been picking out other peoples groceries, taking it to the car, or even delivering it to them, that sounds like a fantastic way to spend eight hours instead of just standing there scanning shit nonstop without a break

In England, they sit down on the job to scan your groceries…

I fucking hate it here (in America)

THE GREAT SLAVERY

THE GREAT WALL OF DECEIT

THE GREAT PYRAMID SCHEME

I think I may have a Bible here or two that might be worth putting on eBay

I’m kinda having difficulties accessing my account tho

And I’m fairly certain I locked myself out of my Facebook on purpose

So Mark Zuckerberg will be selling my data permanently forever without my permission

Same thing is going on with my Etsy…

I’m done with this fucking establishment

They shouldn’t be allowed to update their policies and add stuff like that and automatically have it selected yes for you

BUT THEY DO

Also, I’ve started receiving mail from spectrum again and when I called they said it was automation so the rainforest has been cut down for fucking spam in my mailbox that I don’t want every goddamn day or any day!!!

THE ONLY ESCAPE IS GOING AWOL / GETTING A PLOT OF LAND WITH MY OWN COMS

Luckily, I know a Soldier or two an expert in communication

LUCKS

They will come when I call…

When I went homeless, some of the officers I shared a foxhole with was offering for me and my pets to come stay…

I did not go but alas I was homeless in 2017 for 4 months

Still climbing out of that financial hole

I lost my entire Thrift savings (retirement) + regular savings just staying afloat

Should have cut the cord sooner

Thank fuck I got discharged before the entire “you must vaccinate or get kicked out dishonorably” bullshit occurred

Stay strong y’all

I didn’t have a husband or family to fall back on

My head is still kind of a mess from everything especially getting a vaccine injury but I’m in deep therapy trying to recover mentally physically everything

Appreciate y’all so much

I want my own little bit of land so I can start helping others and pay it forward

My mortgage payment would be way less than my annual rent increases

“Yeah but you have to do everything yourself”

Oh thank fuck, I don’t think I can handle hearing the Mexicans blow the leaves around the goddamn parking lot any longer

READY TO JUMP FROM THAT BRIDGE OR GO AWOL

(I’m going to use the birthday money to get groceries so thank you)

Psst I’m not racist. I’m tired of the policies being changed to benefit other countries while America becomes a third world country

I’m allowed to complain about the country I fought for

Even though the fighting was all bullshit too