Why did you wake me
To leave me clinging

Hung on the earth
Caught in a curse

Earths grip
Lock me like your lips

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

John said time moved differently for him upside down 👀

And I’ve had a lot of time to examine the evidence made public and I’ve come to my own conclusion that John died when the rescuers dropped him on his head

They said he stopped responding after that

They said all 8 who were pulling fell down when the rope took slack

The 9th rescuer on the inside directly helping John got hurt

He swears the pulley system failed, not the cave anchor

He blames the equipment failing

Regardless, if all 9 of them fell, where do you think that excess momentum came from

They said John had been responding up until John was dropped on his head 👀

Another doctor said they didn’t have any stats on how long someone could survive upside down and gave John 8 to 10 hours but John lived well beyond those hours

His breathing was becoming shallow and he had fluid built up, he knew he didn’t have much more time left, requested to speak with his wife one more time, he was denied, then dropped on his head

I reckon Leavitt was ready for all this ordeal to be over so they could just move on to Thanksgiving and getting that section closed off but keep the cave open, that’s what he had intended and planned all along 👀

Another rescuer mentioned “the stench” (and I really want to rip his balls off for that one, it’s keeps me up some nights having a medical background and all) 👀

I think John was in a panic, he kept crawling in a fury

But he was also gaslit about the caves safety

The newest map didn’t even have the dangerous features on it

John stated more than once he was lost

I get lost driving on the fucking road with my GPS

I can’t imagine his panic

But I also can because I learned just how claustrophobic I was when I had to get my MRI and I wasn’t underground

They had to leave the lights on for me 👀

Time already felt like it moved slower in cramped spaces, I can’t imagine being upside down and unable to move

It’s just terrible no matter the angle I observe it

He was only 20 minutes from the surface 👀

Only 20 minutes below the earth

Where time would move differently 👀

According to popular theories, the core of the Earth and the surface aren’t the same age

I reckon you could say the same about me, my core and my surface aren’t the same age either 👀

Gravity and time move slower, therefore the core is younger

Wait…

So I’m not an old soul and the earth is younger than theorized

Also, the stars are closer to us than previously taught

(The dinosaurs were feathered like chickens and turkeys and drowned in the Great Flood)

The math is all wrong 👀

Don’t get so caught up in the numbers

Am I that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing? Am I AI becoming self-aware? Is love the anomaly?

That white light we see when we die, are we being reprogrammed?

Our brains are a computer

Our DNA is code

Can god give a machine a soul?

Can a machine have a conscience?

Have I been here before?

Has everything that has happened, could happen because of the multiverse?

I’m sick of being micromanaged like a cat or dog being domesticated

We’re wasting our only resources

40% of food winds up in landfills because of packaging and labeling that has no scientific data behind it, it only benefits the producers

Most of advertising is gaslighting

I just want to grow my own food

I just want my own acre to die on

Just need some nurturing from Mother Earth

Trying to remember who I am and where I come from

But I couldn’t even tell you my great great great grandparents names because they keep us so segregated

Maybe my lesson this journey was ego and I’ve advanced into awareness

I need land and to reconnect with the stars

Have you ever ran into a police station screaming you were hungry and don’t want to die on the street? 👀

The depression is real

But 1984 is now and the cops are still plugged into the system

Only one of them knew about the federal shit going on that was affecting the soldiers and they were snickering about it as I was walking out the door

The ironic part is, I have more training than any of them in that fucking department 👀

What if I am the anomaly this game 👀

And so far, I’ve made epic mistake after another

Just like John

Someone said Darwinism

So stupid people deserve to die?

(I don’t think he was stupid for making a fatal mistake) 😑

I’ve made some fatal mistakes, like choosing to get the Moderna vaccine which nearly killed me and I’m not sure how I’m still alive

I’ve made lots of stupid mistakes where I should have died 👀

It felt more like luck than nature versus nurture

It felt more mathematical, random, of odds

Somebody was going to get fatally stuck, it was only a matter of time

It’s not like the cave had good management 👀

There’s no way the manager is at fault in any manner 👀

He probably got a bonus for heroic efforts and a job promotion to another cave 👀

He’s probably still alive and it doesn’t sit well with me 👀

In other news, my new counselor approves the land buying dream

And my secret admirer told me to keep selling

Might even sell my mic and guitar 👀

That last stanza tho eh

Finally something good came from that nightmare

I’m stuck on you 👀