poem – Page 4 – PoeEternal

Posted on July 26, 2023July 27, 2023 by poeeternal · 13 Comments

Do You?

I miss the stars
Rotating
Around your love
And do you ever think of me
Far above?
When silence is howling
And there’s not enough?
Do you call my bluff?
Have thoughts to discuss?
Or am I just a memory
For your hate to engulf
Do you regret giving up?

Guess whose birthday is next month?

I miss you…

Posted on July 17, 2023 by poeeternal

Judged (poems)

Better to be judged by 12 than carried by 6
And your enemy won’t let you forget
You remember this?
You remember that?
The enemies on my throne
He’s wearing my damn hat!

You can’t unbreak the broken
Take back words spoken
The spell in your eyes
The holes that you hide

They were bred to kill and steal
I’m behind the wheel
Driving full speed
And it ain’t you’re automobile

Bred to kill and steal
Like they made the Devil’s deal
I will send you back to hell
That’s the real ordeal

When one door closes
Nail a board over it
Plant some roses
Don’t submit

The fury inside me
Hot as the sun
The fury inside me
Someone’s gonna burn

You can’t escape from prison
Until you realize you’re in one
Like the Devil’s maze
Calling shotgun

Remove yourself
Put your tail between your legs
And get some help
Support withheld
Look in mirror and do foretell
We’re parallel
The way your lies do spin
You’re a carousel

I’m gone
Fucking replace me
Won’t let you face me
I’m racing
Dust in cloud
I’m hasty
Like laced lace
Revenge is tasty

Too cold to care
Fuck me with I dare
You build despair
And I linger there

Sometimes I think I’m talking to a ghost
And he’s dropping breadcrumbs
Like he’s the one that I love most
But I’m still hungry…

Regret will eat you alive
Nightmares become visions you wear

We are going forward in reverse
Like the truth makes it hard for the knowing
Or where we’re actually going
Like living in a hearse
The spell is his verse
And try to break this curse
It’s poison that we’re sowing

My parents ruined my life
They only sought to bring me strife
Smile at me then stab me in my back
Complain it’s God I lack

Say I’m full of darkness
Laugh at me regardless
I wish my parents were dead
I’d piss on their grave instead

Already being trolled by a Boomer cuz my student loans were forgiven that he thinks I should pay so he can enjoy his retirement at GEN X expense

College was a scam met with government furloughs and hiring freezes

Government programs favor giving our best jobs to the immigrants cuz they work harder and are smarter (according to their accord)

I’m aware only X amount of people will qualify for student loan forgiveness

And I should keep secrets to myself

But a reporter know-it-all on TikTok said you’d get an email from the Department of Education if you qualified.

I haven’t received any emails at all

I’m not even certain if I paid anything on my loans or just kept them in good standing

Cuz I’ll get it paid back if I did and will need to pay taxes on it again, like I won the damn lottery – and it would probably put me in a different tax bracket

I’ll worry about that toilet clogging when it clogs

I’ve only just received two letters informing me that my debts were cancelled and that my obligation to pay them is over. Tell the Boomers to deal with it.

My loan providers are no longer allowed to contact me, according to the letters.

The weight is off my shoulders but the worry lines remain…

I’ve been in fight or flight mode so long now I don’t know how to shut it off and just be.

My birthday is next month, on the 19th

I’ve already spoiled myself

I have goals of paying off my 2 credit cards and buying some land not land locked and far far away from a city of despair and demons

I want it to take 15 minutes to walk to my mailbox times two squared

I need an umbrella, not for the rain but for the sun

People will look at me like I’m crazy

Byeee

My student loans were forgiven despite the Boomers wishes…

Posted on June 24, 2023 by poeeternal

Trouble

I got in trouble
For being nice
I guess the good girl
Gets sacrificed

Double penalized on TikTok for leaving a positive review.

Gotta walk on eggshells to avoid a ban.

TikTok rewarded me with a $15 coupon for the ass beating tho.

Then during the live chat to figure out WHY I’m in the doghouse, I was nearly booted for inactivity after being asked to wait 2-3 minutes to sort it…

Damned if I do, damned if I don’t

But the 15 dollar coupon helped…

I was pretty heated after taking time to review and upload photos to help support my review as it’s allowed – only to get penalized for giving a 5* rating…

It’s hell down here…

I bought a romper from the TikTok shopping

And some other things. Better photos when/if I stop breaking out in hives. 🙂

Posted on June 24, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Halo

I can see your halo
Far beyond the payload
Where you might implode
Your sanity erode

I can see your halo
Written in lost code
Changing course the road
Where you rest below

Photo doesn’t belong to me but neither does my hard-earned money.

And I’m finding my most viral videos uploaded on YouTube without my permission, without any payment, without any request of use, without any way to message or contact those using my work, without having downloads turned on for anyone to use at will.

I film a particular way – when I’m shooting the sea, or whatever I’m filming.

It’s all a fucking shitshow and I need 100k followers or something to turn ‘tips’ on.

Recently someone wanted to send me $200 – but they also have invited me to ‘live free’ at one of their condos they own.

Nothing about my life sounds safe or too good to be true.

Furthermore, I had to delete my PayPal, Cash App, and Venmo accounts due to spam and whatnot cuz not even my money is safe.

Banks are shutting down. Billionaires are being offed or are maniacally suicidal risk takers, at the expense of our tax dollars.

I’m not even certain if the IRS is legal.

And the Lie House is funneling our money to criminals in the Ukraine and God knows where else.

I finally put a work order in to service the AC for mold.

Cuz maintenance is always “I don’t smell any mold” but I’m fucking still breaking out in hives, either from a nervous fucking breakdown or actual moldy conditions not noticeable “it’s in the walls” reviews will say…

And I haven’t smoked any weed since May – so I’m past the two week window but it takes a minimum of 4 months to recover from CUD (Cannabis User Disorder) and I still have brain fog.

I’m doing a lot of cleaning tho – and I actually do my laundry and put it away immediately, a slight miracle to not be sleeping next to clean clothes.

I still have no furniture and sleep on the floor and I made another clothing purchase – albeit I slept on the decision first – like I nearly always do.

And even tho the flash code of 25% had already ended, it was still valid further sealing the deal.

I’m obsessed with Dolls Kill boutique and hunt down the cotton stuff, though have bought a few cute sets that were poly blends.

I also got house thangs and shoes which I’ll likely never wear and will stay in the box…

I’m pushing myself to go skating despite the hives and nervous breakdowns.

I bought bath rugs and kitchen oven mits from DK – cuz obsessed

And sales + discount codes on top of sales

You should see the jogger set’s I’ve scored and maybe one day you will

I think I’m looking less hideous than my recent TikTok posts but at least I’m not lying on the bottom of the seafloor in pieces.

So there’s that.

It feels nice getting things in the mail other than spam and bills.

I can’t opt out of the spam and the US post office is selling our data, just like I learned Papa John’s was doing – so I deleted my account (like 2 or 3 years ago) and basically stopped supporting big business.

I should be allowed to order pizza without my data being sold.

I hate (even worse) how society is ran now.

All the pencil dick dictator leaders brownnosing Big China – who wants to nuke us and have us live in fear 24/7

I had another nightmare last night, this time trying to escape zombies.

I’ve not been watching any horror movies or zombie things.

My nightmares always consist of me trying to escape something and finding myself in a closure I cannot escape.

Whether it be a room with no windows or doors, or something else. It’s always the climax I wake up on.

Have to reassure myself, “pew, it was only a dream”

I was consistently going down – hills – roads – grass – indoor walkways at incredible speeds all while trying to avoid the numerous zombies coming after me.

My dreams are always fucking nightmares…

It doesn’t help that the Devil is always after me when I’m awake

I hope I leave the house for something other than food or doctors visits of medical malpractice

Maybe to do something within the community like church or skating

But then I risk the chance of catching Covid or some other disease being spread with malicious intent and purpose

People are always coughing

I literally roll up my car window when I hear a bystander or another rider coughing

My immune system was compromised

I just wanna be home

But this don’t feel like home

It feels like a deathtrap

Just like the unsinkable Titan

TITANic

I take a shit ton of vitamins like immunity support supplements that I have to order from a different country cuz everything is poisoned here

I’m trying to fix my eating habits

And I’m still obsessed with his stories

Which are probably responsible for my nightmares

(I blame war FYI)

My laundry is almost done and I’m craving a shopping dopamine boost

“We have everything we need bb”

“I know but I really want it”

“Okay but this is the last time”

“I’m almost done getting the things I need and at least I’m spending less”

“We get paid soon again”

*sigh*

“Okay but just one more thing…”

I got rid of everything in my life cuz I hated it and told myself we could replace it with things we want/need

I’m in replacement mode but refuse to buy a bed or furniture until I move

The neighbors make me wanna do bad things

The city drives me insane

The entire earth could be Eden but naw, invasive species left and right

“This country was founded on immigration” and they vote with malicious intent and purpose

I may like your stories but I know you voted for Biden and I want to punch you

I’m still homicidal and suicidal but I’m no longer signing waivers

For anything…

Posted on June 22, 2023 by poeeternal

Worse Case Scenario

Worse case scenario
Not the way to go
But it happened so
12,000 feet below

Vessel or coffin?
You be the judge then

The hope is very thin
And little stretched within
Hope is not high
It’s barely surfacing

They’re starting to find debris from the unsinkable Titan…

I don’t think a teenager is capable of mitigating the risk involved.

This comment is terrible but why did I laugh? Like damn….

People absolutely hate billionaires. The comments unfolding…

It’s safe to say, they’re no longer suffering.

I haven’t slept in days so probably some spelling mishaps.

I’ve slept a little that were filled with tossing and nightmares.

Grateful to still be fighting for my life. Having shoppers guilt and I don’t understand why.

Mostly think “what’s the point, will I even live long enough to enjoy it”

Followed by “my sister died at 45, buy the stuff”

Followed by “we could be dead tomorrow so what’s the point”

Followed by “I really want it”

Followed by “I know”

Why am I having buyers guilt? Not remorse? Cuz I do not regret anything in my closet.

I mostly regret being sick and dying…

I told myself I’ll stop shopping eventually

LIKE WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO DO

I’m not even doing it for views…

It’s the first time I’ve ever owned clothing I actually like

I’m no longer spending hundreds of dollars monthly on medicinal that made me worse

And I know I need to move but it ain’t happening overnight

Long ago I could pack up and drive around, look at a few places, and get a key

It’s no longer that easy or affordable

I’ll likely be just as miserable and my AC is probably full of mold

Putting a work order in…

Rent increase in August but it’s still 3 or 4 times cheaper than a 1 bedroom elsewhere

Damned if I do, damned if I don’t

And I did get new carpet here

I’m just gonna keep fixing it up

Until I have land + a tent

But there’s cracks in the ceiling

CRACKS IN THE CEILING

I fear sinkholes

Also Florida is in hurricane season nearly again

I’ve lived through THREE hurricanes here

2 of them I lost power over a week…

In the summer heat…

I’m sure that’s excellent for moldy conditions

And Wolfy hasn’t shown her face since I screamed bloody murder twice

She probably wanted me to feed her like I do the other house spider

I have terrible arachnophobia

I’m pretty much scared of everything

I think she’s gonna have babies and need to relocate the sack

But she’s guarding it

This isn’t going as planned and I keep feeding her

I’m turning into a witch and Halloween commences August 31st this year – hopefully still alive to wear my cute Halloween themed outfits (throughout XMAS)

Clothing gives me a reason to live

Do other people feel guilty spending money on things they want and need?

I did say I wanted to start over and got rid of 95% of my belongings which I hated and brought me zero joy

It sucks because I have zero family or friends to confide in

I have to be my own best friend and say “baby girl buy it”

And then I thank myself and God and God and God when I do…

Cuz I’m grateful but ain’t allowed to let my neighbors know…

Any time I drive I bless my car and thank her

Do other people talk to spiders and machines?

Posted on June 21, 2023June 21, 2023 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Question (and poem)

How does a battery work in the cold?

That tin can submarine was electric

The CEO stated in an interview, the battery was being worked on, so he didn’t want to turn it on, right before he tossed the controller

The battery died? Not the controller battery but the main?

So they would’ve lost buoyancy and sunk to the bottom

They’re not floating in the middle

They’re either top or bottom

I just have a bad feeling about all this

So poem…

The risk doesn’t outweigh the reward
They’re stuck on the sea floor
With nothing to explore
I wonder what they’re living for

They may not be gone yet, but time is nearly out…

It’s either up or down, there’s no middle ground…

This thing spells bad luck, many don’t give a fuck…

More chitter chat cuz squirrel is my spirit animal

Grateful to have a floor to stretch out on

New bed when I move, that’s the deal

Meanwhile, more clothes were bought today.

Just a few…

And… the face serum I’m using from Victoria Health, is actually improving my skin tone, some of the weathered spots aren’t as dark – but I woke up to a nasty comment – in which I immediately blocked user – he stated, “nothing worth moaning about”

First off, I moan about everything

Secondly, the vitamins are saving my life

And my skin has improved

So will likely get something for my hair and body next, as I learned most shampoo and conditioner causes hair loss…

And that missing package cost a pretty penny

The mailman didn’t even put the correct term as it stated it was left with an individual, which meant some motherfucker stole my package

Turns out it was in the lockbox, and I wasn’t given the key

I shook hands with the mailman and all was forgiven

But I lit a fire under the post offices ass and it was a pain in the ass filing out that declaration of honor for the UK – but I was happy to email VH back and say package found!!!

It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to…

They have about 9 hours of air remaining

That robot submarine they are sending down, can’t bring them up, only help get them unstuck if they’re stuck

I think it’s safe to say they’re stuck regardless

But some answers will be nice

Have they imploded?

Are they still alive?

What an expensive way to die

Honestly, I’m hoping for the best

I learned another sub was saved with only 12 minutes remaining

But they weren’t on the sea floor

I don’t know if they gave us false hope just to $$$$$ use more resources and bill the government whom the tax payers will pay

This is coming out of our pockets, this rescue/recovery

RIP John Jones

The experts are trained to not become a casualty

They don’t do shit…

But sit on the clock $$$$

Time/energy is $$$

And I ain’t Einstein…

They say don’t eat late at night but it’s when I’m most hungry…

I’m HUNGRY

And I can’t stop thinking about that damn electric submarine – I mean submersible

He was invested in his electric toys

He was in debt

A drowning man will drown another

If a Baby Boomer jumped from a bridge would you follow

Wait, that’s not how it goes

If a boomer led you off a cliff, would you follow…

Wait… I forget how it goes…

5 bucks says that CEO is a boomer…

Posted on June 21, 2023 by poeeternal

Sources

If they’re not already dead they will be
That’s what the sources tell me
And I have a feeling sinking
With that submarine…

I need to move from this shithole before I die

Posted on June 21, 2023 by poeeternal

Deep

They are deep in trouble
With moments to spare
Or maybe blown to rubble
Is there any hope down there?

Posted on June 21, 2023June 21, 2023 by poeeternal

Astronomical (poem)

It’s astronomical odds
To be saved
I hear no applauds
At the depths they braved

Free speech, prayer, and rage…

Their oxygen levels run out 7 am Thursday morning – 96 hours was all they had

Maybe shouldn’t have brought the teenager

Wonder if they’ve panicked and used up O2 or remained calm, if still alive…

So much effort to find and save the crew

It’d be an absolute miracle and maybe one we need

I feel so bad for them, I do

But my go-to is to get angry when someone dies or is dying

The audacity

To die on my watch

I don’t deal with death well at all

Sometimes I go silent

Sometimes I laugh

Mostly I get angry

And then cry…

I can’t imagine being stuck in that tin can

He swore no matter what happened it was safe

Lying and gaslighting should be illegal

I fucking hate this world

Demons everywhere

No wonder I’m so miserable

And was before I was born

I had awareness

Understood language

I didn’t want to be born

All my life tragically suicidal

They’ve made assisted suicide legal in Canada

Folks getting approved for anything

Nihilistic environment

Nihilistic government

Separation from God

Science is nihilism

My heart is so heavy for them, in that tuna can

One person said, “they have no water” followed by “it’s dripping with condensation”

*rolls eyes

They all took a sandwich and bottle of water

And if the tuna can is dripping with condensation – uhm – drinky?

At least they have a toilet with a view they can’t see through

I’m not getting any sleep tonight

Bless

The ocean terrifies me

I got my kitchen tidied up and plan to shop for God grown foods soon – hopefully not poisoned

Need some comforting homemade soup

Glad to have feet on ground

And able to keep moving

Not ready to die

I am breathing deeper now, like can get air to my belly

Must focus on the gains

The fact that I can take deep breath’s again

Terrified to do anything cuz people are unhinged and insane

My neighbors make me want to commit some crimes

Without remorse

The will it takes to not snap

All these monster men killing their children and family but keeping the mom alive – for revenge

Need hung immediately

Narcissism is a plague

But these monsters need to be rid of the earth

Let’s start with Chyna

And the de-lites

Bless their hearts, the ones lost at sea

The regret they must feel

The anger

The delusional CEO is probably convinced they will be found

Probably will gaslight them until the end

It will be nothing short of a miracle if they are found alive

I don’t know what lessons God has for us here

We have freewill

I don’t know why John kept crawling in that fucking hole

“I thought I was somewhere else on the map”

“I thought it would open up”

Panic – he was thinking and he was given an incorrect map

That section should have been blocked off after two boys got trapped inside

I’m just so fucking mad!!!!

At the nurses, at the doctors, at the Chinese!!!!!!!!!!

Don’t want any of them in my feed!!!!

Give them angry looks when I’m out and about!!!!

IDGAF

The first Bible can be traced back to Asia

You think I’m gonna smile at the Devil!!!

I have fury!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stop micromanaging me!

Stop hacking me!!!!!

Fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever seen lightning on the ocean?

P.S. I think earth was a frozen planet, we maybe hit another planet and was pushed closer to the Sun’s orbit, things melted – but why is this never discussed in science?

And does science take into account that objects are closer than they appear – with those mirrors they use to peer?

I’m telling you, the math is fucking wrong

The darkness can act as a mirror

And the famous speech from the moon happened on earth

Aliens aren’t real

Area 51 is where they rehearsed the moon landings

Aliens aren’t real

It’s American propaganda

Most “alien sightings” happen in America

The dumbest nation

Thanks to China

Ch ch chyna can burn in hell

For all eternity

Our enemy is Asia

And most disease comes from Africa

And white people are less prone to disease

White slavery is real

The Great race war is real

I wanna fuck them up

You don’t know the dreams I have

The nightmares….

God scares me but the Devil don’t

WEAK CHARACTERS – wake up!!!

Get right with God

The great judgment is coming…

Hell is already here

Posted on June 16, 2023June 16, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

TikTok is going to ban me (poetry)

Content restored
After it was deleted
And just for record
I’m fucking heated

Free speech like sword
I feel defeated
Where’s my reward
Always mistreated

They ain’t getting another dime from me

Also, I blocked said user & every one they were following

I’m hardcore

*goes shopping anywhere but TikTok for a dopi boost*

K, thanx, bye

T3 Sara mode & Florida no longer requires a carry permit *weapons nearby*

Posted on June 16, 2023 by poeeternal · 4 Comments

Muse (poetry)

He’s still writing for his muse
Under the full moon
I’m still walking in her shoes
With the cold blues

Oh hi

Freckles brought to you by the sun (no filter or sunscreen)

Byeeee

Posted on June 13, 2023 by poeeternal

Web (easy rhyme)

Web of secrets
Facetious
In sequence
No thesis
He’s my weakness
Lost allegiance
Sin’s leakage
I’m sleepless
A grievance
Stupid genius
Love Jesus

Posted on June 12, 2023June 12, 2023 by poeeternal

Distractions (easy rhyme)

There’s too many distractions
Can’t even read a book
Unless it is your writings
Then I may get a second look

🙂

Why does light travel in a straight line? Why does something round move straight? I haz questions.

Free speech below be warned

The way John Jones died keeps me awake at night.

Maybe get some land in Utah. Do a low crawl. Whip out the hacksaw. Call me an outlaw.

I’m still breaking out in hives. I did a 30 day raw ginger detox and hit it TOO hard. I’m not a sweater but first shot broke out in sweats. Kept going tho.

Nearly fell asleep last night until the consequences of John’s action really settled in.

Must be the worst way to go.

He didn’t even wanna be there. Just thought he could show off a little. He was wanting to eat some Turkey. Or maybe dressing.

I’m not gonna be able to rest until somebody pulls him out of that hole.

Recovery mission.

Use a robot, I don’t care!

Get him out of there!

Cuz I don’t learn my lessons well either.

2nd week felt nauseous after every shot and by the third, hives.

Guess I’m preparing myself for the end

I really really don’t want a traumatic ending

My whole life has been a tragedy

So Cracker Barrel has a cancer warning on their website that eating their food will expose you to bad stuff

And when you click on more info, it won’t tell you exactly which foods

This is what happens when other countries rule us and the Great Race war theory is reality

Check the fucking CENSUS

Reports say certain Chinese Americans (how they prefer) identify as “the new white”. They even get common names like John or Michael.

Certain Mexicans also identify as “the new white”

And BLM is up 230%

I don’t know where I’m going, but I can’t stay here

Land is cheap near Yellow Stone

Pros: cheap

Cons: near volcano

People have been boiled alive at the acidic hot springs

They are my favorite natural wonder and the one’s I fear the most

Always wanted to visit but have this feeling it would pop

Many scientists and people have died from volcanic eruptions randomly

I would have been driven mad living with demons inside a cave

Who constantly gaslight

I don’t know if I believe in reincarnation but sometimes I feel like I’m still learning a lesson from 6000 years ago

China needs to take a chill pill

Most of us are fairly fed up

Eating raw salad today

Maybe just need to stick to a raw diet forevermore

Fucking sick of dying a slow tormentious!?! death

You ever be drifting off to sleep until something bad makes your eyelids pop wide?

For me, last night, it was JJ.

I need an old typewriter

I probably could just use pen and paper again

Ink sucks these days

I hate AI

I’m always writing from my phone

One little tap at a time

Constantly correcting the algorithm

It likes to not space

It likes to change words on me

I’m basically sick of the narcissism which is a plague

But any article you read will state, “narcissism is rare”

Believe none of what you read and less of what you see

He was suppose to take the one that had claw marks all above

But he probably was dared or gaslit to go in the wrong one

It was 9pm at night

He should have been in bed

His wife re-married 3 years later

I ain’t been married once

Some people have it too easy

China has the most ridiculous dictator’s who are nihilistic and their own policies have made it hard for them to recover as a whole due to the “one child law” and I hope they fall but they are stealing white man’s identity with malicious intent and purpose and American names…

I’m allowed to be angy….

I’m sick of being micromanaged

And poisoned

Got some more rhyme incoming but freestyled this as soon as I opened my eyes

Couldn’t even brush my teeth first – already rhyming

Brain still foggy

When I was 16, I would break out in hives every night because of the stressors

For several months, I had to take Benadryl at bedtime

I was even put in a rehab against my will for a month solid, wasn’t able to communicate with boys, had to do stupid meetings

Escaped the insane asylum so many times they had to re-write the rules every time

Sometimes locked myself in my room and refused to come out, using my body and feet against the walls to stop them from breaking in

Demanded air time (fresh air) cuz I was on suicide watch most of the time, not allowed to go outside, not allowed to shave my legs

Broke out in hives every fucking night there

Left the leader tho…

Eventually I was released

My parents were the only ones to not show for the final week to do therapy

It was clear who the fucking problem was and why I was breaking out in hives

I wasn’t supposed to be there

The same John wasn’t supposed to be in that hole

“There are things that happened down there that will never be disclosed”

Yeah like what though?

I can still remember the name of the boy I sat next to in 2nd grade

We made up a game

We’d draw little maps of roads and the other would hold the pencil while the other held the paper to “drive”

We did this quietly and after assignments were done

And every time the teacher re-arranged where students sat, we were allowed to still sit next to one another

Cuz we both got angry and probably refused to do assignments lol

I went skating a lot back then

And even at 16, had rollerblades and would go street blading for hours

I bought me a brand new pair of skates at Christmas, but still haven’t been 😦

So I really hope I change that soon

I know I have a valid excuse “dying” but damn

One day we won’t be able to do the things we want, even if we wanted

I don’t want that day to sneak up on me

It’s like I’m still stuck in a hole I can’t crawl out

And no one’s coming to save me

We have to save ourselves

But God does listen

And prayers do come true

Sometimes

Within reason

Or it’s just l-u-c-k (labor under controlled knowledge)

But I still believe in God

And I don’t know how I survived my teenage years

The quarries, the 50 foot bridge jumps, the standing in front of trains

Suicidal yep

Even in the womb….

Didn’t even want to be born

And don’t want to die….

Posted on June 10, 2023June 10, 2023 by poeeternal

Tarmac (poem)

“We want your feedback”
Too bad my feelings you lack
Like roses are black
Take the tarmac

My opinion comes with a price. If you ain’t paying, I ain’t slaying.

Stop leaving reviews for companies to control you

Whatever you like, they will fuck it up

Over society

Posted on June 10, 2023 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

How? (poetry)

How do you do it?
Take my mess?
And turn it into puzzle?
Six foot hole with shovel?
Buried deep is trouble?
Humming like you’re humble?
Dear it’s never subtle?

Collecting comments
Crashing comets
Trashy content
Make me vomit

Cross with commas / burned diplomas / stank aromas / pajamas /

We are two plus one
Minus what we’ve done

He steals the sun and turns it into limelight
His pen will give me frostbite

I HATE APPLE / unholy chapel / nowhere to travel / UNRAVEL

Posted on June 8, 2023 by poeeternal

Do Not Press Enter (says the Devil) poetry

I didn’t press Enter
I pressed Return
So the Devil will linger
Like he has concern

I’m a recovering passive nihilist
I’m always acting childish
Just ask my stylist
Fired for being biased
We’re not an alliance
Fall dead to silence
But I’m full of violence
Underrated and defiant
Won’t find me quiet

In an alternate universe
I didn’t jump soon enough
Guess the train caught my bluff
My friends had already given up

Stick a needle in his eye
Listen to his fake cry
Pooling from his alibi
Set a spell so he may die

The water smells like chlorine
I bet he thinks I’m boring
I guess I’ve lost count scoring
The hate is over pouring

The devil loves my bitterness
Right now I am rigorous
It makes not a difference
Heading for the wilderness

We’re the worst crash
That never happened
Like lightning flash
But we’re still laughing?

The feeling of imminent death
Took the wrong step
Made a wrong left
Death is terrifying
He knows I ain’t lying

Pretty toes
Because the highs are lows
And colored rose
I’ve changed tempos
Searching the afterglow

God loves a good joke

And the Devil being mad

*sigh* despite having video downloads off, found my best viral TikTok video posted by another on YouTube (he did credit me – but where’s my $$$ for it going viral on YT) (fuck you)

Society is a scam.

Poem inspired by a scammer scamming a scammer

Why does it aggravate me so much when people copy me? Because I’m Gen X? And we’re the only generation who are individuals? Yes? No? Maybe?

Please return

Posted on June 3, 2023 by poeeternal · 8 Comments

Grandiose (poem)

He takes my ideas
And turns them into grandiose amusement thrills
He steals
The yellow daffodils
He’s got too many skills
Landslides and foothills
Rotting thrones
Where he fucking kills

I don’t know what you are. But I definitely know you are the devil.

More poetry incoming if I don’t fucking dieeeee from this battle

108 pounds of solid fucking fury

Good thing I haven’t boycotted my favorite boutique yet and got my nails painted instead

God save me

Posted on June 1, 2023June 1, 2023 by poeeternal · 4 Comments

Stay (rant & rhyme)

“Made in China” and should stay there
Like your feelings, I just don’t care

Kayaking all by your lonesome?
Not cuz you’re wholesome?

Those who play by the rules are the mark
I’ve got out my chalk
Refuse to talk
Right hand my glock
Born out of wedlock
Married to my walk

He thinks she should be paroled
Once she is dead

I’ve spent all my life
In captivity

Love will never blossom here again
Tie the knots
And tie the endless twigs
But love –
It won’t blossom here

Sleep in a cloud of prayer
Like running into a server farm
Have no idea if I have come to harm?
Like sleeping on a prayer
With halo in my hair
I’m so dumb I will sound the alarm

So I’m just baggage
Armed with a camera
Can do some damage
It’s an advantage

Centenarian
Want to live to then

He said it’s safer
In the lion’s den
Like hate is my neighbor
But he ain’t friend

Father,
There’s almost nothing left
My sister is dead
I’m bereft
Sick in the head
Near out of breath
Got money in the bulkhead

Compartments upon compartments
Secret dirty pockets

He’s a no outlet
I’m driving full speed
Like he’s a preacher for me to confess
But he’s a no outlet

Am I walking to the gate of resentment
Where there’s no contentment
I am so relentless
It’s a consensus

Below: rant and rhyme

Weighed in at 108 pounds today despite eating $100 dollars worth of Cracker Barrel over the last 3 days.

My new small clothing is already too big, and the extra small are loose. Extra extra small exists but I’m probably too fat for it.

108 pounds because “my labs are fine” despite cancer eating me alive

Medical malpractice is common

I don’t want anywhere near a hospital when dying

And like Bob, I would call 9/11 and hang up.

I recently did that, after giving my 201? (location) and she had the audacity to ask me the location.

I responded, “I just fucking told you” and click.

Call disconnected

I did not answer the return

And spoke with the cop when he arrived who informed me that “all of Daytona is bad. Move.”

My lease is up in April

I really don’t want to renew

I also don’t know where to move?

I need land (1-5 acres and a down payment of like a lot)

Can you start dropping coordinates

Of potential places

Where there aren’t many faces

I’m stuck in stasis

Skipping over bases

We’re tied just like laces

Let the sign read faceless

Erasing traces

Following the void

God is gracious

But my neighbors are so racist

I ain’t complacent

Need new spaces

(Help pretty please)

I hope TikTok gets banned

I made my account private and uninstalled the communistic spy app cuz I’m in trouble again for sharing LGBT fashion and stating I was boycotting it

My hate extends all the way to “Made in China”

Stamp it

Engrave it

I fucking hate it

The Great Wall of deceit

WordPress too

The phone is dead come September

Don’t want a new

Not dropping $500+ every two years to be punished on social media

Literally ready to just disappear

By Uncle Sam

My parents are still alive but I don’t know their phone or address

Like a kid, I feel helpless

Acting out of will

Guess I’m growing feckless

Avoiding road of reckless

And feeling so desperate

Just need a quiet place to rest

Maybe God’s chest?

I love him the best

God 1st

Fuck AI

Stop training the AI

I will fuck him up

The Chinese will use AI to commit crime as they are attempting to avoid karma

I do not comply

With any change happening

You fucking asshole

You voted for Biden eh

And have the audacity to say “I can’t trust you”

Oh do-do

I can’t be in the same room as a man

Hardly any women

99.9% of the population denounced God

Stop gaslighting you soulless pricks

“I’m not having children”

Yeah cuz you are bad witch

Nihilist

You all went grey in your 30s

Cuz you removed yer sex organs

For plastic

To look like you’re about to have a baby

But you can’t

And are not

And I’m still bleeding

My life was stolen from me

God feels pain

The dog is driving me insane

I know who is to blame

There’s only one name on my blacklist

*insert shit that could hurt me in the future*

So which path do I take?

Revenge or forgiveness?

It ain’t none of your business

Sincerely as your witness

Kisses sealed with suspicious

Pepper sprayed cuz I’m vicious

What if all these freckles on my body are shadow burns from other stars we can’t actually see cuz our own Sun

Like how the shadow of people were burned into the wall when they were nuked

Like an xray

A mirror reflecting the cosmos

If we could really leave earth, we would

Man killed the dinosaurs

6th mass extinction

You’re gonna burn in hell

For all eternity

Reincarnation is another word for cloning

*sigh* I spend so much time fixing the algorithm

And don’t get paid for it

I no longer answer surveys or give my opinions

Unless you gonna $$$$ me

I’m not racist, I just don’t like you

Be someone worth liking

You’re a walking HollyWood soundbar

Propaganda is all you spew

Cox and his cocks, I mean clocks

Science is nihilism

I wish the dog was dead

I want my life back

Sorry not sorry

People changed him

I’m a passive nihilist in recovery

God save me

But the darkened ones in Generica

The majority

I don’t want to save

Would step back from my own family in flames

Have done and did

Regrets? Oh yeee

Going dark for 6 months or so

There are demons running this world

Satan’s domain

I’ve overstayed my welcome

Losing faith but seldom

Sharpening it like weapon

Cuz devil is depression

As above so below

You ever worry about just being ones and zeros

Like Pinocchio hoping for a soul

Like jumping in a hole

I ran out of stories of cave dying

And have moved onto “crocodile’s eating humans”

I’ve done some seriously dangerous shit as a teen

Nothing like jumping off a ship into shark infested waters at night

This one guy wanted to visit the nudest colony in Death Valley

By miracle he was rescued

But opted a second time to go again

HE DIED

There is a pattern with the seconds

Like how I got the second shot

I’m at risk for Adult Sudden Death syndrome

My immune system was compromised

I’m alive by sheer will and the grace of God

If I knew I only had X amount of time remaining

I’d probably exact my revenge

It’s extremely hard walking a path of holy

In the devil’s land

What dimension are we in again?

It’s a proven fact that Gen Y and Z are dumber than previous generations

I can’t relate to anyone but Gen X and him and him

Him and Him – new book name

I identify as a GIRL

Men cannot have babies

Everybody is a fucking pedo

Fuck LGBT

Fuck TikTok

Fuck “Made in China”

The cops: indecent exposure

Me: the clothes make me burn

Cotton or au gratin?

Apparently most cheese isn’t cheese

Why does God spare some and not others?

Potential?

Not an NPG?

Anything that can happen does and will

Possibility?

Both wave and particle

Timeline jumping

I was going at least 80 miles an hour when I moved into the middle-lane at the exact moment thousands of hands of lightning struck my Jeep, all 4 windows down, arm out

“Fuck” I cried as I whipped my arm in and looked through my rearview and side mirrors taking my foot off the pedal

The sound deafening

Lightning touched my arm

The whole Jeep was surrounded by arms of lightning

God is behind every miracle

Deny him three times no never

My love you can never sever

God gave me the cosmos

Man gave me counseling

Posted on May 25, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Burn the Boats

If you want to take the island
Burn the boats
I’m near the horizon
And taking notes

Inspired by this speech

Posted on May 15, 2023 by poeeternal

Alarms

The alarms are calming
Saw someone was coming
The fourth numbing
My faith is humming
Battle axe now summing

I was trained to not run out into danger, “play dead” when overtook

“Don’t become a casualty yourself”

“Don’t play hero”

“Make sure the scene is safe”

“Triage”

“Ration”

“Defense”

“One shot, one kill”

Targets chest and head

= dead dead

Never failed at range

Range was at least twice a year – not just Basic Training

“Trained killer”

The Army imprinted on me

You never lost my stripes

Just my sense of direction and uniforms

Which I can replace with ones that fit

I can wear my uniforms anytime anywhere

And you will address me as my title if I am in such role

Deal with it

VETS MATTER

But go on and keep pissing in the Veterans memorial and getting Walmart closed down

The alarms bring a sense of calm

I’ll use it to my advantage instead of having a ptsd meltdown

I’m looking entirely natural and cute while going out – most people are treating me nicer – I’m seeing loads more BLM who want to unalive me – including the children who wanna pop us (and 3 teenagers were just charged with killing a white person)

I’m not ready to die, I’m fighting for my life

This fucking cancer is eating me alive

Go on and make fun of my body again – even though I work out – I don’t live in the gym – but I don’t sleep all day (or at all?)

Going weapons shopping soon 🙂

Gotta lay low for now

My rent is cheap as fuck – I don’t call this home – it’s hell and cheap for a reason – but I can’t flee yet – or would let them have this place – which is being gentrified – the cop Sunday said this whole town is bad.

Just going for gas or food is a gamble

Just checking my mail

They want us living in fear

Posted on May 14, 2023May 14, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Invalid Date

Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?

Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.

Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.

244.

I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)

I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy

All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –

My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe

I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month

Gotta keep em guessing

I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming

I just hit delete notification and uninstall

I hope TikTok gets banned

And Instagram

And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact

We’ve never communicated there

It was an anonymous thang

And like X amount of years later – first contact

I almost paid you back

But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho

And got tired of the outting and the spam emails

And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was

I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion

MUTILATED mutilated

Oh well now I got it

Whatever

Fuck it

“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”

My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)

So I no longer own a TV

My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related

Just an observation – she’s a cunt

(The Boomer mom)

My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me

And I blocked her and never looked back

Then last year my sister died

And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital

The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies

I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks

My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”

His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me

I ghosted my father when I was ten

People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation

The Boomers

Who hold most of House

Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge

I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief

“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”

Because he was a fucking psychopath

She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her

It’s not my job to save you

You gotta save yourself down here

Stop being an asshole

I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from

The phone can’t even type the letters I press

I got a hacker from India inside my phone

My modem was destroyed

I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear

I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word

I spend more time correcting than I do writing

I don’t care if I misspell anymore!

It’s the algo, not me!

More poetry coming soon

P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.

CONCERNING

Just gonna erase history huh

Wipe us out, take over

The Great Race war is real

I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do

White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!

I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us

No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave

Take money from me for it and there will be consequence

Byeee

Posted on May 6, 2023 by poeeternal

Rags to Riches

From riches to rags
From rags to riches
It must be such a drag
Doing nothing that he wishes

And I’m raising the red flags
Pulling monsters from the ditches
Reminding God of broken airbags
The Great Anomaly comes with glitches

I found the pot at the end of the rainbow

But I’m still dying

More cute clothes arriving

And organic cotton joggers n tees cuz t3 sarah mode

Gotta be comfys and calm and collect

Revenge is served coldly with a smile

I was double cursed

But Edgar (my daddy) already died naked on the street (been there, done that)

I know why Cleo died

I’ve traveled far through time

I’m not sinking with the Titanic again

I fear those waters for a reason

I know things to happen before they do

Major events

Little events

Been questioning authority from in womb / day 1

Depressed?

You’re not living how I God intended

The Great Judgment has arrived

Get right with me God

I want so many bird houses on my property that I forget where they are

Bring the pressure washer when you visit

I’m sure everything will need a clean

Bring pieeeeee (not poisoned)

(Anything bought is poison)

(Even the expensive vegan things)

(Bring all the ingredients for me to make a pie instead)

“I wanted to bring you a pie but they were all poisoned”

I know you’ve never had a real biscuit before

My memaw taught me to make them

Said, “the only way to a man’s heart is through his belly”

Or was it stomach?

You tiss it when u big enuff cuz you ain’t big enuff yet

She had 5 acres with a 3 bedroom trailer

I ain’t asking for much

She had 12 kids with her husband

I ain’t been married yet

The Boomers stole everything from me

And now BLM have the audacity to ask me why I move where there are black people?

Bitch for real?

I will fucking hang you on a tree

Without remorse

*stay humbled*

I’m only a messenger

ANGEL

When you want to feed pretty bird but also skin a head…

Posted on May 5, 2023 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

Riots

Jim Morrison was capable of creating riots
I’m terrible changing diets
But I’m feeling twice as violent!!!

How many woke Boomers were murdered or went into hiding!?!

Posted on May 4, 2023 by poeeternal

Rare

You have dreams from my nightmare
Plant a flower that is rare
Tell me how you don’t care
I’ll be there
With flower in my hair
Dancing but nowhere
Erase me like your software
Drop down now in prayer

Things you should know about me: I’ll never ask for a Senior discount.

Never ask a lady her age

It’s your job to make me feel as young and youthful as I feel

Dying and still clutching the “Goddess of Youth” title

My nightmares become your dreams

Plant or pluck

Pluck maybe seems implied if it’s now in my hair – and what exactly don’t you care about nihilist?

But, we don’t know who plucked the rare flower now do we?

We can only assume

And you hate assumptions?

Found something the Devil doesn’t like.

Assuming

My favorite game to play

Oh goodie

It’s a full moon

I must manifest purification and a husband

Some guys don’t mind the miles especially when they see you make effort to keep it mint

And apparently, I may be worth more now than before…

Because the actual Jeep place wants to buy my ride. “Worth more now” – eh maybe

She kinda imprinted on me

I worked hard to get her paid off

Need a mechanic I can trust

Wanna see how many miles I can get – but they go quick

It’s not a good time to buy a house or car

BUT

I am looking for land

Maybe a sleep barn

Gonna hide cash like a squirrel

Let’s play Easter egg hunt 2.0

Who can find the treasure chest?

I can’t even find another apartment to vacate to

I’m not paying for cable

Plus everything else

But please, don’t call the cops on me when I wind up in misery

Posted on May 3, 2023 by poeeternal

Give Thanks

George,
Maybe if we met in different timelines
In many lifetimes
While singing these hymns
You won’t leave my mind
Give thanks like windchimes

Don’t let these demons gaslight you into believing God isn’t real

The ether told me you live two times. The first when you’re born, and the second when you discover your purpose.

Sometimes we have really intense connections with people we will never see again.

People we wish we could know on a different level.

A mutual energy exchange.

God works in mysterious ways.

I hope he finds me a husband like *insert so-in-so*

I hope for a husband instead of a grave

Posted on April 27, 2023April 27, 2023 by poeeternal

Two

We are two entangled quantum objects
It’s not complex

Posted on April 24, 2023April 24, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

10 things I hate about you

You live on a flat plane on a flat disc
You act like you are worthless
You live without questioning risk
You won’t give me an inch

You run with a circus
Like hell you will surface
Bringing light to purpose
Curled up like a serpent

For this I’m certain
Or simply hoarding
What you’re averting
I know you’re lurking!

“The VA have made a decision on my behalf.”

Should I get it tattooed on me? Lucky 13?

I need a baptism in a hot spring first (one I don’t accidentally boil in)

I swear once I wash my face, I will look fresher.

Florida has brain eating amoebas and kids and adults are getting wiped out, playing in the splash parks and doing sinus washes and reports from politicians in the press say drinking tap water is just fine, just don’t “wash your face with tap water” “in the shower or the sink” and I thought the splash parks and baths was my last safe haven (the devil be finding me everywhere)

(That’s why Jesus was always with him)

(Restraining orders don’t work)

(He’s obsessed with me)

And I have Savior complex potentially (see poem)

Demons will gaslight you and say “God isn’t real” cuz they are expert faith destroyers

But God made me an explorer…

“Only 13%”

Well, I do always seem to wiggle myself in the tightest places and I’m afraid of tiny dark holes

Riddle me this

I was pushed off a 50 foot bridge at 15 during sunset weighing some 110 pounds – at one point during the fall I forgot what was happening – I sank deep and fast – how far?

How far down was the initial plunge? Cuz I was dropping fast and thought “wonder how long I’ll keep falling” “maybe better go up for air” and started to kick my legs (I felt a shift) and was watching the tiny bit of light thinking “it’s so far” “I’m not going to make it”

And there was no preparing to take a breath before I was pushed

There was no “breathing” during the fall

Must have fell 10 or 15 seconds? What about in water? Another fucking 5 or 10?

Of falling – not ascend

That took another X amount of time to surface

So I dunno how I survived

I swam the Tennessee/ Mississippi more than once?

Without a float?

“I think I can make it”

I swam in a quarry!?!?

I don’t know if I’m alive?

In 2018, I was inside a lightning storm strike – 80 miles an hour – all windows down – arm out – a band of heat light touched me

How am I alive and the car!?!?

I looked in all my mirrors – the entire Jeep lit up all over

It was thousands of arms of lightning

Was it 2018?

What am I?

Why is everything electrical?

The sun is not 93 million miles away and I knew this at age 5

“It’s right there”

“How do we know”

“You shone a light on a wall”

“Why did we change time”

“Who is in charge of what is being taught at school”

“You can’t make me believe that”

“Well then give me a C”

“I will see myself to the Principal office”

*argues with the professors about globalism and inflation*

*barely passes math with a tutor*

*cries*

In hindsight, I know things before they happen

My first and only time at a dog race, I predicted which dog would win, but no one would place a bet on him, or let me, and I didn’t want to be there

Afterwords they wanted my opinion but I wasn’t interested in tapping into my psyche

I knew the space shuttle was going to blow right before it blew

“They’re going after Soldiers who want 100 in ptsd”

Me: “oh yeah”

“I’d like to see them try”

*panics for several months*

*yells at self for crawling into hole*

“We were fine living in the slums”

“It’s better than being homeless”

“We were gutted”

“What the fuck did we do to get here”

*gifts can come with curses*

*gets rid of 95% of everything I own*

And you can keep the jewelry, it’s fake

It really wasn’t the thought that mattered anymore

If the thought mattered, it would be in alignment with my values

*yells at some stranger on the road acting like God* I’m drifting buddy!?!?

*sobs*

Because it’s all I ever do is cry (like in the movie – God literally tells him I’ll be depressed if he ghosts me)

So I’m crying in the streets broad-day and some dude with a sign is telling me “I’m gonna die of a good time down here”

But I don’t know how to grow a plant or be in the same room as a person

And they did not lock me up (thank God)

(Can I file for state and double dip? Yes I can)

(Can I still work and make $$$$) (probably but I’ve not called and confirmed)

(Do I want to be on zoom calls or looking at a monitor all day or talking to people or solving problems or doing maths)

Fuck you

I have thought about other jobs like selling popcorn but everyone be coughing

Me: “why the fuck did you cough in my direction bro”

“Them fighting sounds”

“Why you standing so effin close to me”

Like bros be filming my ass while I’m grocery shopping or getting my ride fixed

I’m gonna kick someone’s fucking phone accidentally ~~and get gutted like Bob~~

I’m not getting gutted like Bob

I’m going weapon shopping

Trinity mode

I’m hearing all of France is protesting BR

I want to sleep on a bed of weapons

Safety first

Did you know I’m good at using weapons and thangs?

I got the good Army training!!!!

Circa 2001 🙂

I actually married my country on valentines day 🙂

I swore to defend this country on my heart and honor 🙂

I stupidly gave them my dna 🙂

They took hair, signatures, blood

What are they doing to me?

Why do I feel two places at once?

Why do I know things?

Why do I have to get your permission about how I interpret your art?

Posted on April 24, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Fate

Are the fate of empires?
Held in your words?
Gated records?
That you hurl towards?
Like a landlord?
Landslides on board?
To my own accord?
The way we both build rapport?
Like you know just what I’m asking for?
I couldn’t love you anymore!!!!

Is any more a word? Is is any more or anymore? I’m not saying no more… 😐

I’m trying to say it’s nearly impossible to squeeze MORE of something you ENTIRELY already have

Like, I already love you so much

Where do I put the love?

Posted on April 24, 2023 by poeeternal

Two places at once

We are split by space and time
And still our interference shows
Hidden patterns of reality
The fact that you still love me
Our creator watching his creation
You and I equation
Met with ramification
Calm down love acting so graven

~~Stop~~ making fun of my green thumb and dirty windows

Posted on April 23, 2023 by poeeternal

Despite

You know your words are priceless
But I’m not for whom you write them
I’m not even allowed to like them
They make me whole despite this

The Forget-Me-Nots are doing something!?!

Posted on April 20, 2023 by poeeternal · 22 Comments

It’s a good day not to die

The verdict arrived
Like God on smoke
In a cloud full of hope
He pulled spear out of side
I am here and I’m alive!
It’s a good day not to die!

Tell him I got it. The thing I was fighting for.

Posted on April 19, 2023April 19, 2023 by poeeternal

Challenge

I know the clues that lead me here
Precise mishaps
To a disengaged existence
One where we are present
The book that lies torn
In my absence
Pages do forewarn
A disadvantage
But trash
Was never much its form
A different passage
One where we can mourn
I took the challenge

Household 98% gone but still clinging to something I could replace.

Well if you’re not doing this and you’re not doing that then that leaves… XYZ

God made me analytical to a degree

I’m stuck on the Great Filter theory

The Drake equation

The first or the last

Made in his image

To go on – must overcome two great hurdles as a species

To span the galaxies

(And I don’t mean the artificial manmade great filters that we also must break like religion and porn)

The last because our creator is already gone and he made us in his image or we have to overcome the obstacles to not go extinct

The first – because where the fuck is everybody at!?!

Thoughts? We can’t leave earth, this is home. Mars isn’t for bots and billionaires.

Or, let’s go to the Moon – no trickery. Right now.

Stop gaslighting.

You ain’t been.

I don’t believe you went through that tiny dangerous window through the VAB.

That you “made worse“

Let’s be honest, you made it – and you killed the dinosaurs

I’m organic AI

Or, the propaganda has conditioned me to believe I am a computer becoming aware

The Great Awakening

ALAS

God wants me to turn this sick building into a happy one

But that doesn’t stop BLM calling the cops on me at 3pm in the day drinking water birdwatching and feeding squirrel

I’m not going out like Bob…

Also today my medical card expired!!! 4/19!

I did top up more than I have in my life to help “ween” myself

Right as I found the shit I needed

But my dream of leaving the city is more important than escaping the noise of existence (and my neighbors hating my white skin)

(Racism is bad here, and it’s a one-way kind of street racism but the hate is equally matched)

Actually, I’m going extinct – there isn’t a word that exists in my core for the darkness brewing

(I need your words like JJ needs out of that hole)

Not just me, God too

I don’t speak for God, but I do

And I yell at him or her, “how am I to leave here with the things I’ve seen”

“Why have you forsaken me”

But then I pray to be closer to pretty bird and they move in to a tree outside my window but then they came 2 weeks later and overpruned it – I nearly died at how terrible the palms looked – all the arms cut off on other trees as well – just wrteched looking

And 3 or 4 days had to hear the chain saw going off

I can’t breathe in this artificial manmade existence – you’re killing everything

It should be illegal to have 1 or 2 workers on staff – with 25 people in line

It should be illegal to sell seed starting kits with seeds from China

And don’t get me started on that too

I don’t come from Africa or monkey

Organic AI maybe – clinging to the Great Filter theory like Bob was clinging to his phone

But I don’t believe in dark matter, dark suns, dark worlds, nihilism, Cox and his clocks

I don’t believe in manmade religion

I don’t know what I am

But I’ve know many things to happen before they do

And I believe in God

Some say earth is one great computer AI – but we’re too smart as one, we’ve been divided into all living things

Some say it’s an experience for God

A challenge (with maybe potential forever consequences)

Heaven and hell on earth

Our choices matter

Don’t crawl in the wrong hole

Don’t go out after dark with people mad at you down a dark, empty street, Bob

Nothing good ever happens after dark

The McDonalds didn’t want to serve me because of my skin color (not my attitude) and that’s okay – I’m going to be grocery shopping for real food instead and cooking – I no longer eat at such trashy establishments

I will however be ordering food in the drive thru and when it’s time to pay, reply “I don’t like you” and drive off card in hand

Cause-and-effect my love

Have fun

Posted on April 15, 2023April 15, 2023 by poeeternal

Shuffle Feet (15 word rhyme)

Mr. Shuffle feet
Walking down the street
Dead with no receipt
Life is not complete

Posted on April 14, 2023April 14, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Bob’s dead (poetry)

He won’t give his twenty
Claims he is bleeding
Disconnected –
Call is ending
Streets are empty
Can anyone hear Bob screaming?

Angel investor
Married but not together
Machine his predecessor
A wife he couldn’t pleasure

~~All hail AI~~ ~~/ Bob has died~~

Caught stumbling all alone
Gripping his phone
Dripping blood
Like a trail of bones

Stabbed and shunned
Car with hazards on
A billionaire with no gun
City center is fun!

Close enough to be stabbed in the chest twice – with a kitchen knife

Bob was perfect at everything but being a husband eh (gaslighting)

I’m not stupid, Bob. How dare you. “I sleep with men but I’m not gay”. LOL (God)

M’kay whatever ~~you say~~

(This is how I mourn. It’s called the 7 stages of grief. I’m on ANGER)

Seeking help but wouldn’t give the one call your location – fucking lost – on a street you mostly lived – c’mon!!!!

You should have stayed down! The adrenaline spikes got yah!!!!

“Angel investor” NO BRO – DEMON who doesn’t even Tweet or acknowledge women – it’s sharing “bro this”, “bro that” and comments to other boys about “why aren’t you here already” and current posts from said person ain’t shed a tear of your passing

Delusional bro

AI is not the way

White pawns are under attack

White lives don’t matter

Bob, you should have stayed down

Your lovers fake plastic sister living in a 2 million highrise – in the same building you own

I got the popcorn out

You remember the Looking Glass?

God already won

The Devil taking his fine time drawing his last move – getting as many souls as he can – drowning demon

Image is everything to these demons – they wrote the playbook for crying out loud – in the closet gay!!!! He’s ruined the world! His daddy too!

Maybe I’m sorry but maybe I’m not!

Sidenote: they don’t get it – but I inherently get it. I wouldn’t normally either. However, this instance, it’s like a direct arrow to my broken soul. Boom this way to the singularity. No no this way to heaven. It’s like you and I play pull rope (what the hell is that rope game actually called)

I can’t recall JJ’s nn either – and he’s the one who sent it to me through the ether. I was all offended and like “no bro”. He loved it.

I’m trying to quit this Russian weed – my brain needs time to sort the pathways

I mean, if I had a phone, and I needed HELP, I’d like CALL the authorities and like “I’m at a glass building, I’m dying”

He knew them streets like the back of an Android

YOU OUTTA THE CLOSET NOW BRO

Gave it a decade huh then ran back home to live with daddy

GAG

“My best friend”

I wanted to punch my mom when she said that about her first born – as I was the family slave ghosted (triangulation)

Posted on April 10, 2023April 10, 2023 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Directions

It’s like you told the sun to stop spinning
And on these roads – there’s no beginning
For us
A roundabout
From which we’re sprinting
Doubting thus
The ending
Still acting like
We have no meaning
There’s no trust
For which we’re leaning

I haven’t cleaned my windows yet I’m sorry. And now there’s dirt on the windowsill. It started raining gently so I popped open the window and said “wake up” and gave it some of my spring water. I see a tiny piece of green.

Day 2. Mystery plants. Potentially edible. I don’t know what I’m growing. So I reckon fucking it up won’t be the end of the world. I’ll still think it is. But first attempt at growing something. 🙂

Posted on April 7, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Open Doors

You turn open doors to silence
Great wide expanse
Look how you guide us
Galloping in advance

I still love you best

I wish you well like starlight
I’m seeking tonight
Kept my heart tied

The perfect existence
The one I found you in
But you’re so nihilistic
There’s no room to win

I know how you lie
Dressed in crown
And agony
Twisted thorn
Of tragedy

You’re lost
You don’t have identity
Heavy cross
A penalty
Come walk with me

Is this how we soothe it
Our love is prudent
Somehow I’ll prove it
Driving nail right through it

Old mixed with new
Like promises overdue
I don’t have a curfew
Under you

Surfing too
With parachute
In full monsoon
We rendezvous

Let me say with oath
He wanted promises stretched out unto infinity
And so the great expanse was his domain

I know how much you hate me
Run around berate me
Am I poison sumac
The girl you couldn’t stomach?
Would you block me if I cometh?
Maybe create a covet?

Indestructible. It will not corrode, rust or tarnish, and fire cannot destroy it.

Our love like gold

Tornadoes form
When you arrive
Like thunderstorm
Or thorn in side

Man can’t travel to the beginning, it’s forbid
Moving backwards through time
There’s always going to be a dead end

Psst…

I followed the American gold trail all the way back to Japan. I had to “read more” “read more” visit “read more” and said number of times – to find the end trail.

Also – they tax gold A LOT and the government can confiscate it anytime they want

(I’d like to see them steal my nuggets tho for real, I’m unhinged)

(I don’t have any nuggets – it was an impossible dream)

So phones only last around 6 years

By the time I purchase one 3-4 years in – it’s 2-3 years from its final update

“How long will this iPhone last”

Can we go back to pagers and whatnot?

Dropping letters in the mailbox without any postage?

Knocking on the door and leaving notes

“Be back in 10 ~~minutes~~ 1 hour”

Leaving packages on the door “sorry I missed yah”

Or, maybe stop charging so much for “the latest phone”

Journalism is crap these days – websites swarmed with ads eating your data – and now they want us to pay for the “free press”

Pay for the propaganda and lies – more than we already do

Other countries that adopted the “American dream” policies are tanking

Not only did the parents of GEN X not like us – they want to give our jobs to the millennials – they sold us out – and stole half our retirement without remorse

None of them care about the future

Sex content should be behind a paywall

“Must verify age”

They need to put triple black curtains up at Spencer’s

I don’t want to see “adult content” 24/7

WP is turning into the FB algorithms in terms of how people are putting out content and slipping in desensitizing content

GenX needs to band together and get a farm and ghost everyone else (kinda)

It won’t be until 2060 or so until the Boomers are all gone

I thought I’d get to live to see something cool like go to the moon – but all the boomers produce are LIES

Isn’t your poetry like a little headlamp in a damp, dark cave.

Thank you

(Please stop destroying everything and feed the birds and wildlife whatever you are eating)

I’ve decided to bond with a house spider who took residence in my bathroom in the corner of the sink

She was small – she growing

I told her I must relocate her at some point “due to fear”

For now, she’s soaking up the dew from my shower time

She fixed her little web of string connected to my pop up trash bin after instructed

She loves my hot showers

She’s an animal

There’s a lot of responsibility in her trust of me

I have arachnophobia

Apparently she’s a common Florida house spider

When I was a child, unsupervised, I wanted to see how long it would take the June bugs to “coat me” and when my mom came outside to check on me, I was standing still covered head to toe in June bugs

She said I was the devil

I would let granddaddy long legs crawl on me too

“Oh look another one, put him on me”

Now I see a bug and nearly die

So I dunno where my disconnect with nature happened (my boomer mom)

I would eat the scallions growing in the grass – unwashed

I drank water from the hose

The school made me swish with fluoride

They lined us up in the hall and made us drink some pink stuff

We weren’t allowed to wear advertising or “Black and proud” t-shirts to school

Our shorts and skirts had to be knee level

I weigh now what I weighed then – only now I got tiny tiddies

I just spent over $400 on a new phone 2 1/2 years ago – and now come September – final update

So no.

I’ll start blogging from the library computer or something

50% of my retirement savings – in the pockets of the boomers

They still don’t care about us and don’t plan on handing over the torch which is why they ghosted and gutted us –

Wait til more have a place to direct their anger (stop spending)

(Crucify them!?!)

I don’t think the purpose to life is death and destroy.

I may be a passive nihilist tho

I’m working on ‘me’

Posted on April 4, 2023April 4, 2023 by poeeternal · 93 Comments

5 million years

I need 5 million years to recover from the desolate desert you erupted from
With a rapid loss of hope occurring

Who will write earth’s obituary
The way you’ve written my hand
And turned all to stone?

Do you honor the dead
The way you immortalize impermanence?
Disappearing without affliction
Leaving dust on the door

I found you
Right where I had left you
Disorderly categorized

I am holy proud
The sun lifted you from shade
Made your skin burn
Left a scar or two

You are a placemat for the sun to rise
And if your words were the reason it rose
Alighting will and aligning truth
You are the golden valley where my love will grow

Resurrected: www.instagram.com/poeeternal

PoeEternal on TikTok

Posted on April 4, 2023 by poeeternal · 4 Comments

GOLD

I’m looking to buy gold
But my soul ain’t sold
I’m the cusp of the threshold
Like marigold
Growing nearing my household
It’ll manifold
My portfolio
Tenfold

Jewelry? No.

Blocks of gold? Yes.

1. https://www.jmbullion.com/1-oz-american-reserve-gold-bar/

2. https://www.apmex.com/

Posted on April 1, 2023 by poeeternal · 10 Comments

Morgue

There’s a body in the morgue
A cold mentor
Like a mirror I can’t ignore
I don’t know what I’m living for

Free speech and peace and quiet is a God given human right!!!!! These monsters have stolen basic decency! But I’m not allowed to discuss immigration or sex toys sold openly everywhere in America!!!! I’m censored!!!!! To discuss matters in group therapy making me suicidal!!!! Oh god, fuck you! Fuck “therapy”!

You should be fighting for free speech! Stop being a pushover! As a consumer, we should have some say how businesses are run! Too much waste! Stop destroying the rain forest and ocean!

I live in fight or flight mode, so my poetry never has time to sit on the shelf.

Lately, I’m trying to “play dead” and be in fawn mode. This is a legit strategy taught by the Army and used in the wild to bore the predators who want a “fresh meal” and “not dead meat”.

Just don’t let the elite cover you in “natural flavor”.

He’s a hypocrite if he eats that shit.

Furthermore, they put it in the cheap food and the organic food – it was made in a lab! It ain’t natural! Stop gaslighting!!!!!

Y’all dropping hundred dollar bills for foam shoes – that cause cancer.

I can’t even find small cotton panties and now I need XS potentially.

The sizing charts have changed and I’m elite being 110 pounds in America with roughly two out of three adults being overweight.

Yet, yesterday hanging out with squirrels and feeding them, the big kids were rolling their eyes at me – just like the overweight BLM female entering the mall –

We’ve been asking “do cellphone’s cause cancer” and they said everything but what we wanted to hear. Now when shopping for phones, they come with a cancer warning.

FYI

“Reproductive harm”

They’re nihilist’s destroying the world with synthetics and AI!

Black and Latino and Asian lives matter! But Native American and white lives don’t! Check the CENSUS!

And they identify as us!!! Laughs! Wait what!?!

The Great Race war is real – and Asia moving in on the news

The Great Replacement theory!

White man isn’t the only one corruptible or evil! He’s the pawn used in the whole game! By the Asians and yellow fever propaganda!

Posted on April 1, 2023 by poeeternal · 7 Comments

Matthew 7:13

John Jones took the narrow gate
He did not hesitate
But ohh the words he cried
Upside down he died

My poetry is so elementary huh

He yells at me to grow up and I cry that I never did

Men aren’t doing what they were originally programmed to do

I’ve been busy trying to save the world while they destroy it – I haven’t had a chance to work on me

America was sold out and topics are being censored in group therapy which means my free speech has been impeded upon, I will throw a fit and not participate (quit/disconnect the video call/walk out)

I draw lines

Sometimes I draw guns

Disabled not dead

Trigger happy

Able and capable

Don’t think I can play with the big toys yet – like my m16 – kickback

I got a girl / you want to meet her / her name is 9mm

Posted on March 31, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Ghosted

I’ve ghosted God
Down in the thick fog
Sent him a note
Called self a fraud

I’ve ghosted God
My love is broad
Yellow like a goldenrod
Quarantined but outlawed

I’ve ghosted God
Go ahead applaud
Turn your head and nod
I am a hotshot

Chill out. I talk to God daily. I’m just quarantined. I don’t want him to see me. It’s just a poem.

Baby squirrel brought a boy squirrel around. He had nuts. She’s maybe a few months old, him too. He’s timid and shy. Her pp did not have nuts. Now I’m not an expert on squirrel biology or anything – but she’s probably going to have babies.

They love whatever I feed them.

Lizard climbed the drain pipe to the roof, he also jumped and climbed the tall palm tree. I was amazed by lizard’s skills, not getting blown away by the wind, or eaten by a big bird

The neighbors think I’m wacko

I don’t think they can see the wildlife the way I do

Red bird has been appearing so I took her some seeds

They are eating my own personal organic stash of nuts, rice, seeds, all the things

Gonna make them some peanut butter treats soon – the butter with nuts n seeds rolled in balls. Just for them.

Nothing that I put out stays out

It’s foraged immediately

I like bonding with nature

But I have to deal with the hellhound now

He drains my energy like a black hole

I figured out how to put the blinds in such a way that I can see out too much – but you can’t see in from the sidewalk

Insects are animals – even those bugs we hate – I bet they were huge back in the day – but the elite love dropping bombs and depleting our o2 (and thus size)

Posted on March 24, 2023 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Singularity

It’s like we’re moving stationary
Still caught up in the past
The topping on the cherry?
Humanity is coming in last

Hi. My name is Delia. I follow/unfollow blogs. Sometimes I’m afraid to follow at all (even tho I want to). My comments are usually rude. I’m in therapy. K, thanx bye.

Posted on March 19, 2023March 19, 2023 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Prayers from purgatory

Father,
There’s almost nothing left
My sister is dead
I’m bereft
Sick in the head
Near out of breath
Want money in the bulkhead

Compartments upon compartments
Secret dirty pockets

Here I sit
Here I remain
Losing grip
Can’t change the game

Mirror mirror on the wall
Reflecting curse
And where I fall
Fuck you all

Bonds come in many forms
Like my love
It comes in swarms
Electronic storms

Investments
Feels like I’m restless
I’m vested
Better than arrested

I thought investment always meant high-risk / cutting at my wrist

If a paper bond is lost, stolen, destroyed or otherwise mutilated, a replacement electronic bond can be requested.

“MUTILATED”
The wife called aggravated
Divorce threatened
Says husband is hated!

New purchase
But it won’t help my purpose
I’m worthless

Late bloomer?
But don’t be discouraged
Blame the Boomer’s

Forced obsolescence
And second guesses
Year-long stresses
Everything depresses

Secular science / sleeping lion’s / full of compliance \

My nutritionist complains that spring water “has no calories” but I get cranky when it takes me 3 days and several stores later to find it

Florida and Texas have parasites in the water – and if we can’t wash our face with it – so it won’t get up yer nose – I checked – the ear canal is also a route – but then I would think the eye

Sylvia Plath LIED

I gotta start boiling my water to bathe

If your houseplants are dying, stop feeding them tap water. Pro tip.

I’m still 110 pounds – despite eating a shit ton of mostly vegetarian food – and not rebounding for a solid week.

Kept eating like a pig – nope can’t gain any weight

Getting back to rebounding tho – just been deep down wallowing and trying to fatten up

My heart is obsessed with rebounding tho – the carpet still hasn’t been replaced but it’s still March and time is awful slow

Also me: I’m running out of time

I don’t have an ounce of patience after wasting my 20s & 30s

I cry so much

Posted on March 13, 2023March 13, 2023 by poeeternal

Water from the hose

Write a letter to your 100-year-old self.

I used to drink water from the hose
How I’m alive nobody knows 
Or God, has the ratios 
I’m full of lead from head to toes 
Line my deathbed with black rose

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Posted on March 13, 2023 by poeeternal

From Hell (poetry)

I’m wailing
Climbing walls
Jumping halls
Blackmailing
Tell God I’m sailing
Direct from hell to heaven
Breaking spells
Inhaling
Predicting lies prevailing
The Devil got me detailing
And if you’ve done it
I’m telling
Double dare you
I’m yelling

Postscript: (beware)

I downloaded the JetPack cuz I’m tired of fighting the current.

But my bank pulled some shady shite today and I’m ready to bury my money.

Shit like where you can only use the app now to upload a check and automatically enrolling me into Bill Pay when I clicked on “learn more”.

The app was uninstalled but then you can’t use the check deposits feature or check your check deposits via the website (I’m tired of being forced to use an app or automatically signed up for things just for learning more)

But buried cash doesn’t earn interest

But I don’t trust the banks

Now would be a good time to drop recommendations on where to stash your cash (like a checking and savings)

I looked up the top ten worst banks – I mean the Federal reserve just took down a bank.

It’s hard to get a handle on my paranoia these days – and it don’t help when folks are always calling the cops on you.

Does someone want to gift me a paper bond? I need one for my 50th.

I suddenly have goals to live to see my 50th – and enjoy it – with a big lump sum of cash.

And so I’ve prayed to God, “I’m saving for my future. My 50th.”

I probably only have a few seconds left but I’m bargaining.

I cry and ache so much.

But maybe, if I am alive, in say, 6 ish years, I could celebrate.

Anyhoo, I’m already invested into that plan – I started this very month.

Even nearly dead, I’m planning for my future

(I hope it involves my own yard to plant these seeds I’ve started hoarding)

And then this happened… and now I’ve lost all hope

The Chinese must have got ahold

It’s a gamble saving for your future when you’re already dead

I can’t believe I got this fucking death jab – I hate the medical system with everything I have

Banks are collapsing

Governments are beyond corrupt

Have you seen the amount of murder/suicide lately?

They say we can’t wash our face with tap water anymore.

And I was stupidly here and there snorting tap water up my sinuses like a dummy – after blowing my nose or something – putting a drop on my finger – I ain’t the brightest crayon in the box

But a man in Florida recently died from a brain eating amoeba doing a tap water sinus rinse

They say drinking the water is fine – but don’t shower with your face in the water, don’t wash your face with tap water but drinking it is just fine

And I had just washed my face in the shower – with the tap getting all over – mouth closed – cuz earlier reports said stop showering with your mouth open

But a kid died from a splash park

And now – a man – rinsing his nose with water

DEAD

So stop washing your face with tap water (per official guidelines)

I guess we gotta start boiling the water before we bathe

At this point, I’m afraid to brush my tooth

I had a splash of shower water get in my nose – had a headache all night – panicked – said this is it

I ain’t dying in a hospital

Only 4 folks survived a brain eating parasite – and that kid that died at the splash park – well the employees were quietly quitting and not cleaning the water properly or documenting it

None of these official employees or states or governments ever get in trouble for the shit they do

Like that mass murder suicide in 2018 with the lesbian couple and 6 blm kids – the youngest jumped from a 2 story building and begged the neighbor not to go back

She should have ran far away (bless her heart, she tried so hard) (the state stood by and let her get murdered) (all of them)

Drove off a cliff

No escape

Locked in…

State murder lots of folk scotch free

Apparently, those who play by the rules are the mark

I’m coming to terms with that

I hate all these “new changes” as if it’s in our favor, benefiting us

It’s not

I made coconut cake

It’s a meal and a treat in one

Flax, and oats, and pumpkin seeds

Eggs, coconut milk, coconut flakes

Topped it with lots of oats and seeds as well (not just in the mix)

Anyhoo

The world is ending but I made cake

Slice?

Seriously, do not wash your face with tap water…

(At this point living near an active volcano may be safer than living with this government)

(Some crushed pineapple in the batter would have made this cake divine)

Posted on March 4, 2023March 5, 2023 by poeeternal

Silver and Copper (poem)

Silver and copper
My favorite topper
Wounds and blood and pauper
Jumping cracks like leafhopper 

Blackened skin maybe monster 
Bridges burning over water
Flying high helicopter
He never loved her

Posted on March 3, 2023March 3, 2023 by poeeternal

Torch (poem)

You hold distance like a torch
The sun is setting
I’m watching from my porch
The devil betting
But time has run its course

Sidenote: I still don’t know who or what I am.

Posted on March 3, 2023 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

Regret (poem)

I regret crawling into that cave
Claw marks where I engrave
Rage like a heatwave
Headlamp won’t light the way
I rest here today

I don’t want wifi anymo

It’s got to go

More seeds for the dream yard

They are non GMO so I don’t have to burn them

Also scored a free book (limited supply) from the library

Unfortunately, despite NASA being a great joke, The Martian is still a favorite film (minus the gay hollywood music)

I don’t know what I’m allowed to have in life, or keep

Like why am I hoarding seeds and dreams?

And can things grow at Yellowstone? (Pro)

Will I accidentally boil myself in a hotspring? (Con)

Land near Yellowstone is cheap (pro)

But it’s also near a volcano (con) (unless maybe you’re suicidal!?!) (tbd)

Cheap land comes at a cost huh

So does visiting your old url

~~Fuck you~~

Posted on March 1, 2023 by poeeternal

Gravity (poem)

The moon gives me tilt
Seasonal travesty
Without any guilt
Go stand on her
I will give you lip

I should be sleeping. I’m not.

You got plans to go back to the moon in a decade huh. Gonna take ten years to manipulate the data/crowd.

Besides, April 2029 / the final time

Apophis is probably just an atom bomb

We probably bombed the moon

We probably bombed Mars

They can’t stop bombing earth

I’m probably closer to the truth than you are to standing on the moon

NASA is a scam

Stop taxing me

I can’t wait for the space shuttle to crash into our beautiful ocean – destroying sealife

It isn’t “in space” it’s “free falling earth’s gravity”

Fuck you

Posted on March 1, 2023 by poeeternal

Directed (poetry)

A purchase has been scheduled / directed by the devil / but nothing I can’t handle

The United States / a nation of immigrants / minus the Native’s they enslaved to get it

Dear Father
Please respond
It’s a matter of death
I’m overcome

But I’ll push the latter
While falling off the ladder
Which one will matter
I’m growing madder

From seconds to 40k / I want my own driveway

Seed collection

I’m saving more than copper and silver, fuck you.

Tell God I’d like some place far from here to grow them.

This is hell. I wanna plant these babies somewhere else.

Even tho, they could be grown in the windowsill.

This.Is.Hell.

Help.

I hate how expensive it is to do anything. I hate the boomers.

There are things I don’t hate.

Seeds. Sunshine. Shade. Spring water. Nuts. Squirrel. Pretty bird. Crow.

I once liked having a job too. I’m considering remote work.

I’ve lost my mind but still have a Bachelor degree. Whatever that means.

I hope remote work.

Otherwise engaging at a sit down job at Aldi sounds potential.

“You plan on tossing him on the grill”

“Yum”

I’m sick of chasing my tail inside the deathcare health system

I ain’t better yet

But I’m sick of sitting around waiting to die

Working the movie ticket booth sounds ideal – weekends and weird hours no one wants.

Also me: I can’t fucking breathe

But I got my 20 minute rebound session in – getting fit with gravity

The rent is paid. They are dicking me around about my carpet “more time”

M’kay but calling the Health Department soon and whoever else I gotta…

I gotta download another app to do anything huh

Jetpack? A filter ontop a filter ontop a filter

Please no more

I don’t want to grow my seeds here

I don’t want to live here

I don’t want to die here

I’m sick of being sick

All woe ~~is me~~

But I had a multigrain bagel with cream cheese and avocado for brunch (groceries from home) with hot chocolate and some sort of milk with probiotics but no lactose and yum

I am trying to get fat

109 pounds currently

(Steel abs, peachy peach)

(Looking zombie in the face)

(Need him)

Land near Yellowstone is cheap (pro)

But it’s near a volcano (con)

Flip a coin?

I do like my investor inbox, FYI

I want my own business cleaning shit no one else wants to do

“Phew that was rough but we got 3 bags done”

“High five”

Like I wanna help people who are nearly dead and dying – not die

I need purpose

Which isn’t working 3 jobs to pay the electric rent insurance

There’s verifiable proof immigration makes the rental and housing market increase

I’m not getting anything out of being alive

When every dime goes to keeping afloat