My name on the lease
Not Marquis
NO MEANS NO
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Dear Daytona Beach gang
Since you are so obsessed with me ๐คฉ
I’ll be hanging out a lot to get familiar with your every fucking move, your neighbors, when you come and go, your sleeping hours, your nesting hours, your jerking hours, who your friends are, who your enemies are, when your fucking mail comes
I need fresh air ๐คฉ
Quiet hours: 7 am – 10 pm
Well the Army trained me to never sleep
To hunt alone or to take out a pack
You’re definitely barking up the wrong tree, hi
Do you like hearing me come and go now?
I AM VERY ACTIVE INDEFINITELY
๐คฉ
HI!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAMERAS EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!
HELLO!!!!!!!!
HI!!!!!
WOOO HOOOOOOOOO
BE DRINKING COFFEE SUNRISE
THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME STRONG WHILE YOU GROW WEAK
HA!!!!!!!!!!
HELLO!!!! I SEE EVERYTHING
THE COPS TOO
DUMB DUMBS
GOD DAMN YOU
BLOCKED
*schedules appointment for a tattoo immediately*
DEBT FREE HUH
I’M GONNA CUT YER DICK OFF
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GOOD LUCK FINDING SOMETHING THAT NO LONGER EXISTS
My competition mostly at age 44 still ovulating – is a bunch of obese confused girls sex bots who probably removed their ability to have children
And if they haven’t yet, they will in their 30s, Hallelujah!!!!
YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING THAT THE MEN WANT AND DESIRE
AND IF NOT, YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING GOD WANTS AND DESIRES
DON’T LEAP FROM THE BRIDGE YET BABE
COLLEGE IS A SCAM
IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT YOU WERE SEXUALLY MOLESTED
YOU STILL HAVE WORTH WITH DEBT AND SAGGY BOOBS!!!!!
I GOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP OPENING YOUR EYES AND REACHING FOR THE PHONE
SOCIETY IS TOXIC
YOU HAVE WORTH BABY GIRL
I’M SORRY THESE DEMONS KNOW NO BOUNDS
I KNOW IT HURTS
YOU’RE RIGHT TO BE PISSED
BABE 144!!!!
“I see dead people”
They’re everywhere!!!!
LOST SOULS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
THE WORLD TODAY IS PLAGUED BY PARASITES
If you’d like to not be obese black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not be dying of cancer black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not have IBS black walnut wormwood if you’d like to live a little bit longer black walnut wormwood
How long before it’s taken off the market because I told my fucking enemy the big secret magic ingredient to this shit and he wrote it down, he wrote it fucking down, he wrote it down! I blogged about it immediately cuz the entire hour session he didn’t fucking write anything down until those three words came out! he didn’t give a fuck about the other detox medication, it was only those three words he wrote down
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
WORTH OBSERVING AND NOTING
I OBSERVE EVERYTHING
And if I’m angry over the insensitive conditioning these faggot boys are doing
Maybe God is too
JUDGMENT HOUR IS HERE
GUESS WHOSE EYES HAVE SOME FUCKING WORTH
“But we like virgins”
I’M GONNA RIP YOUR PENSIS OFF
*goes back to sleep*
I HATE TIKTOK AND INSTAGRAM
I’M ONLY THERE FOR YOU
I DON’T KNOW HOW ELSE TO REACH YOU
The reason I’ve been confused on whether you should get right with God or me because same ๐
And yep he can strike me dead any moment
I AM ONLY A VESSEL
*goes back to delusions and sleep*
I’m gonna burn it all down
Apophis is coming
We can’t leave earth
The establishment are scared๏ฟผ
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF CUZ MONEY IS NARCISSISM IS A MANMADE DEVIL SOCIEY DOGMA
Sorry
Channeling ๐
*breathes on window, draws weird symbol*
I DON’T KNOW WHAT ANYTHING MEANS
THE GREAT FILTER IS REAL
THE SUN IS ELECTRICAL
WE LIVE ON A WATER WORLD
No one ever said, “maybe earth was icy and smashed into other objects (uranus) pushing it closer to the sun and thus life”
It’s the demon neighbors don’t chill out with making all this unnecessary goddamn noise
Oh, they are working in groups to rob single women, elderly, and disabled
These motherfuckers won’t hesitate to shoot me in my back to steal my bike
COPS ARE DOING THEIR JOB SPREADING PROPAGANDA
DON’T BE FOOLED BY THE CROCODILE TEARS
ASIAN DICTATORS IN UNIFORM
That black guy was worried about getting caught with his weapon when his life was ending
I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR
I WILL SKIN ME A HEAD OR TWO
SHOW ME HOW MUCH I DO NOT MATTER
You love your virgin mentality so much that 68% of the species has gone extinct so fuck your goddamn propaganda ideology fuck you fuck you fuck you
It’s conditioning these other monsters to “ruin us” and sacrifice us to the dark entity early on
I CAN’T IMPRINT ON THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL CANNOT IMPRINT ON ME
FUCK YOU
We are organic computers and if the government doesn’t get their toxic shit together there’s going to be dire consequences
DIRE
THE SEVENTH SEAL IS OPEN
(There’s nowhere safe for me online social media wise. It’s so toxic for an angel) ๐
(I only went in the feed for a second) ๐
And my value was completely stolen from me
Top 57! OMG
I moved up on the leaderboard! ๐คฉ
Top 57 thank you!!! ๐ฅณ
The content: https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual
Thank you for your support!
People think people just stand in front of a camera and that’s it, like no, that’s not it, there’s a lot of posing, camera work involved, lighting, makeup, costume, location/scene/mood. Post editing.
Pretty bias exists
“She has it easy”
This is WORK and it comes from WITHIN and it requires ENERGY to produce content worthy of your TIME
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect my future husband
People try to shame me for my content because it is taboo ๐คจ
My grandmother was married and having babies at age 15
SOCIETY STOPPED ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY
I LIKE MAKING PHOTOGRAPHY AND DISCOVERING WHO I AM AS A FEMALE AND NOT A MALE SOLDIER
I’m tired of being in my masculine
I’ll never give up the combat boots or training
But that doesn’t mean you get to shame me out of femininity
My OF is therapeutic ๐คจ
I’m healing
And crawling up the leaderboard
2 sets in… ๐คช
In the mid 50s
Maybe not bad?
Maybe I can have 2 coffees today?
I already want to eat the other bowl of soup which means I would’ve ate the entire pot of soup myself (how the fuck am I so thin)
(I’ll get use to weighing as much as a feather again)
Now I got a watch out for the wind because it can be a potential threat because it could knock me into the ocean or into a damn rip current
I’ll be glad when the future husband protects me
And I can chill with the flight or fight mode
Damn
I just wanna make a miracle baby, grow some vegetables, and make some soup
I mean, and photography and poetry from the mini plot of land / sleep barn
I don’t want the future husband segregating me from my purpose ๐
He should be taking the photos ๐คช
(It actually takes a lot of courage and I’m extremely shy)
Grateful for your feedback as I’ve never worn anything cute before!
I’m going up against some tough competitors and grateful to be on the leaderboard!! ๐ช
When Edgar was about my age he died on the street so this feels like a bonus OK
Half dead but not yet…
Skinny as fuck tho ๐คช
But I did eat an entire large cheese pizza by myself
I don’t know what to tell you
I’m eating
I think if I had a husband I might be getting more meals in but it’s cool, I’m eating and good eating too and fasting is not bad
I’ve already had a handful of raw nuts and seeds just since eating the vegan soup
And I am doing everything in my power to ensure I get a bowl for tomorrow ๐คจ
I still think I’m fat in areas at 118 pounds (yeeee society)
I may look a size ????? but I’ve never been a size 4
I may be back to a size 5 tho
But I’m pretty much at this size where I need to start just making my own clothes
I took a sewing class in Home Economics
And, I’ve got a few sewing kits around here
I learned how to stitch humans in medical school
I should just get to sewing already
I’m becoming my grandmother and so the future husband needs to be okay with my weird cycles
She made quilts and dolls and shit
I mean, mindfulness mental health
The earth is magical and I want to grow shit from it
That doesn’t mean that we can’t play card games or hide and seek
ANYHOO BATH TIME
And my new birthday shower curtain remodel from Dolls Kill is on the way
Top 57 and getting new bathroom views
That is definitely better than dying on the street, so thank you!!!!!!!!
The Vegan stew ๐คฉ
So I’ve mastered the art of vegan stew
And I’ll be able to feed the potential future hubby various versions of soup
No cabbage this time but added a couple handfuls of dry split peas
More rainbow carrots (grateful for the birthday donations, feeding my belly)
Lots of organic spices and a shit ton of the good salt!
A BIG potato
And I know I don’t have a fancy kitchen but I want to be able to cook soup out in the fucking forest over a campfire ๐
I even added lots of peppers and fresh would have been better!
The stew even got a thing of spring water!!
But, not for the rich emancipated kid who gutted me in my heart
He wounded my spirit when he said he wouldn’t eat from my kitchen and if I was offended with it, it was my fault ๐
He treats me the way others treated Mary Magdalene ๐
God said if he doesn’t get his shit together he won’t be invited into the heavens ๐
IT’S AMAZING ๐คฉ
My future husband must like soup a lot!!!
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I just picked up another bottle of detox and got my large dose in!
The world is plagued by parasites, don’t be ashamed
History repeats itself because they make money from gaslighting our health issues and laugh about us chasing our tails while feeding us nothing but poison then saying, “stupid Americans”
Well that rich emancipated kid can eat his cold ass pizza from that box with his cold ass heart while 60% of the fucking species go extinct over commercial farming and that fucking cheese he’s eating…
I’M OFFENDED
But the belly is full
And there’s maybe one bowl left after simmering the witches stew for hours! ๐คช
But I’ll be getting a rebound session in soon!
I gotta be careful tho
I’m ready for the booty to start returning
I still have muscle to work with all over
But I’ve shed over 18+ pounds in 5 months detoxing
It does take time to rebuild
You can’t expect results overnight
I do not live in the gym
I have a heart and lung injury from the death jab ๐คจ
I can’t expect the potential future husband to be using me as motivation to push him to run a fucking marathon
I get up before sunrise
Make coffee
And try not to leap from a bridge…
It would be nice if I could get out of my masculine role
If the poles could reverse
And he’d be less of an emancipated little bitch…
With that said, he’s gonna be left in the dust
I won’t be parking my mind on him when I’m connected and imprinting on someone else
LOYALTY IS EVERYTHING
I’m only getting married once…
I can’t wait for my little butterfly LED light to arrive from Dolls Kill (and the new bedsheets and bathroom set)
Healing. Detoxing. Rebounding. Making over. Doing the hard work.
The mess does not reflect the effort
There are more things to organize and let go
Sometimes I’m just happy I’m making it another day
I’ve been asleep for so long…
After 44 years at it alone, I’d be so grateful for just a decade with a partner to not do it alone.
Things don’t have to be like they’ve been
“You’ve been down that road, Neo. You know where it goes…”
Life is in the journey, not the destination
Don’t get stuck…
Thank you to everyone who shows me positive support, you are keeping me alive!!! โค๏ธ
There are sometimes people who make fun of me for being poor or try to shame me and Chris Cornell’s mother still follows me and watches my stories and sometimes she comments and she never shames me
People in Europe show skin and it is not a big deal to them
I don’t know why people want to body shame you or shame you for your financial status, it’s not like I fucking chose to jump into a government hiring freeze or government furlough ๐
I’m doing the best I can
My partner will never make me cum if he makes me fear the very ground I walk on ๐
FYI
A little poem, a little photography
I’ve broken into too many pieces to collect
And sin he is buried up to his neck
A demon ran past his curfew
Patience is a virtue
Hard work is what I do
Truth is taboo
I misinterpret perception
The book of hope is deception
Misguided direction
Waiting for insurrection
I know I’m headstrong
I read the data wrong
Hang head low on throne
“144” on the headstone
I’m tired of the overrule
Narcissism
How they always ridicule
The banks block the poor from spending hard money earned
Well if you transfer this or transfer that
They’ll track every move you got
And God forbid you have extra dough
You’ll be met with a spending limit yah know!!!
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Raw + edited photos on the new OnlyFans! I’m still on the leaderboard! ๐ฅฐ
I dropped a new set last night and I am utilizing the “Story and Hightlight” features as I got/still get penalized a lot by Mark Zuckerberg and at least now I have a safety zone to do drops!
I have lost so much weight from detoxing and my little skirt is a medium and I clearly need a size small now (which is fine) but I was panicked and freaking out because I wanted my hair down and I didn’t do my pigtails and blah blah blah – I can always find a reason why the set could have been better but I received my first tip ๐คฉ
So I stopped beating myself up
I’m getting a rebound session in soon but I want my morning coffee first today
Yep
I drink water all freaking day and all night, let me have a fucking coffee OK, I’m 5 pounds, I’m gonna have a fucking coffee before I work out
I know that sounds different from what people do but I’m doing things different down here in this timeline
I’m so annoyed that somewhere in the world right now the year is seven years back and I want to jump into that fucking timeline and have a baby
My clock is ticking and I keep asking it to chill the fuck out but it is in overdrive ๐คช
I don’t want anyone hurting any children
But I started my period at 13 and I should’ve been allowed to get married by 15 and have 12 babies with my husband the way my grandmother did with hers
Immigration absolutely has been a Trojan horse and I’m fucking horny, deal with it
I’m not out there doing anything to disrespect my potential future husband though and if he’s worried about me stripping to pay my bills or to keep a roof over my head, then he’s too vanilla for me
As far as I’m concerned, the OF is as good as therapy
I get to express my art and not get penalized by the dictatorship out there
They did steal 20% of my tip tho ๐
I AM SO GRATEFUL I GOT A TIP AT ALL
But there will probably be a poem in the future about how the establishment is stealing the tip money of its hard workers
AND I ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHY EDGAR ALL POE DIED
HE NEEDED TO DEBUG
Like apparently the entire population
I already got a load of dishes washing
About to get a coffee going
RELAX
REBOUND
REPEAT
I’m anxious for my LED bike lights to arrive so I’ll probably pump up the tires and make sure everything’s good to go
THE SUMMER HEAT IS NOT GONE
But early morning and late evening bike rides are about to start
You definitely need lights riding in the city and bright colors sometimes isn’t even enough because I’ve been out several times in bright colors and still have almost been ran over several times with one person coming back to acknowledge it and saying “that was really close”
And I was just like “it was my turn” ๐
I’m gonna try leaving the lions den again
It ain’t safe in any capacity
Which is why I am actively boxing and packing mostly the entire rest of my house and trying to get the master bedroom, closet, and bathroom together, so at least have a little apartment area to not go mad
A DISH SERVED COLD ๐คจ
Thank you so much for supporting my content or reading my blog or just being a positive influence in my life overall because I know that I’m toxic and I’m working on that
That ain’t no chicken of the forest. And what do vegans say of eating these parasites? ๐คจ
THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME HOW TO DESTROY THE ELITE FYI
Danger candy everywhere
EVERYWHERE
WHAT ELSE DOES THE MAP MEAN? ๐ง
When you do something right (and are rewarded) ๐ง
When you make that tip on Friday night
I see girls make TikToks about getting tips ๐คช
So I can blog… ๐คช
Daddy cosplay (photography)
Daddy said he needed me right away ๐
More coming soon… (and dropping on my OF storyboard n wall)
My Insta story is already getting some action but the hottest and best stuff is over on the OF where I won’t get in the troubles
Confession (sex talk)
I HAVE GIVEN GUYS MULTIPLE ORGASMS
IF A GIRL FEARS YOU, SHE AIN’T GONNA BE SATISFIED IN THE BEDROOM
AND MAKING SURE YOU ARE WILL BECOME RESENTFUL
HE CAME, AND LESS THAN SIXTY SECONDS LATER CAME AGAIN
He said, “that has never happened to me before”
Shame men do me dirty
Made him come twice and he’s never once helped me in my time of need
“He’ll share a bed with you but not his bread…”๏ฟผ
Yeah, and you ain’t invited into the heavens…
It’s cool..
I DO REMEMBER YOUR NAME
AND HOW I MADE YOU CAME
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You need to get connected to yourself and probably get control over your sexual addictions if you’ve never came twice or have an issue with it and maybe not all guys can – I don’t know – but maybe I have some magical fucking powers that other people don’t have
WHY IS HE SO FIRE THO
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I’m feeling so inspired ๐คช
Getting on the rebounder soon and then sharing some new outfits of my own
I have things from my birthday from both Shein and Dolls Kill that I have not fitted
I still have a yeti microphone from Christmas that I have not opened ๐คช
BUT I’M INSPIRED TO NOT DIE – GET BETTER – FIND THE HUSBAND
But if I don’t make room to squeeze in spoken word/poetry/photography I will eventually jump off the bridge because expression is my purpose and I can’t keep stopping myself
He’s so fucking inspiring
I’m allowed to fangirl
This post may self-destruct
*sigh* I might have a slight obsession… (Dolls Kill)
I mean the rent is paid
The VET bills are paid
I’m sick of starring at a grey shower liner from Walmart that I overpaid
AND
A SECRET WISHLIST SALE
YOU HAD ME AT SECRET ๐
And thus, I got home improvement thangs that had been in the wishlist
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU
I lost everything when I became homeless in 2017 after the government furloughs and hiring freezes
EVERYTHING
I could lose thangs again
But I got some bike LEDs coming ๐คฉ
Me and the dog will be cruising the racist parking lot at night
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MENTAL HEALTH AND FITNESS IS IMPORTANT
THE PRETTY LIGHTS WILL CALM ME
And encourage me to go for an evening ride
I’m still living in fear about riding my bike after that couple got murdered and the eyes around here work in groups to steal thangs
I’ve got my shit together though and the cops are on speed dial ๐
Personally I wish we could just have a walkie-talkie because they’re only a mile away but they seem to live here on weekends so now I can ride my bike and not give a fuck about the racist gangs
Uncle Sam trained me to fight male Soldiers in GROUPS
I’d win
They’d get all butthurt
At this point, the ex better be praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do ๐๐๐
At this point, I’m praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do because I’m trying to make a baby, start a commune, ascend
If the immigrants raise my rent one more time who knows what the fuck I’m gonna do, maybe buy some more fucking shit from Dolls Kill
I didn’t even know secret sales existed over there, I was just window browsing my wishlist
TAKE AN ADDITIONAL 25% OFF SECRET WISHLIST SALE
*runs to check balance, the rent cleared*
FUCKKKKKKKKK
It’s literally $8 for the curtain babe
That’s not a curtain or daily or monthly expense
THAT IS A MENTAL HEALTH BOOST
And I might start taking some photos in my fucking bathroom instead of just in my closet or bedroom or other bedroom where I used to take photos but right now there’s important paperwork & evidence of trauma everywhere
I’m not gonna find a husband with my shower curtain looking like the home of Eeyore
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL THIS TRAUMA
Some of it is being sold at the pawn
Eventually I will hack into my eBay account again or start a new one and put some rare commodities up
Some thangs are going to the junkyard
Some stuff is already freshly boxed and ready for the next timeline multiverse jump
“Where we are now is not permanent, keep packing”
“What is all this shit”
“A piece of HIM, we’re going to burn him alive”
“Too easy”
“Put it in the trash piles”
*places it in the EVIDENCE I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH PILE*
“I’m sorry that happened to you. I know why you needed my help”
“I’m here now….”
“It’s okay”
“Be patient with me”
“I can’t fix this mess overnight”
“What the fuck is this”
*closes bedroom door*
*Disassociates*
I am working on getting my master bedroom together tho!!!
So I can come out of the closet officially ๐คช
Not like that…
I’m a vampire
The closet is the coffin
And the cleanest room currently on the whole ship
One tiny safe space
Don’t enter cuz it’ll be the last thing you ever do…
YOU’VE BEEN WARNED
“Where is Delia”
“In the closet”
“…I wouldn’t go in there mate, she’s been in there like 200 years”
“No one ever returns….”
If Chris were here, I mean Kris, wait who?
We could write the most amazing cryptic stories
Do you want to know what stops me from writing stories for y’all? fucking punctuation…
That’s my major roadblock
That and “that was in her head”
I PET BLEEDING DYING TREES YA’LL
I would just like to say that God likes my weird dark tales and so does John Jones and I’d like to share them more with you so I probably will just avoid punctuation altogether and I’m not hiring anybody yet to help me because I don’t make that kind of money and I don’t have any sort of bond with anybody like David Gilmour has with his wife where they write fucking lyrics together so this is the compromise – good storytelling with shitty grammar and punctuation!?!
I mean, I do have a brain injury, could you cut me some slack a little bit? There are people out there drawing paintings with their fucking feet, can maybe like I avoid punctuation and grammar and just try to get the message and the tone out before I don’t have the ability to do that at all?
Asking for him
Because he’s never once liked or commented on anything that I do ๐
I like to like peoples content and then get mad at them for absolutely ridiculous reasons not based on reality and then UNLIIKE EVERYTHING I LIKED
And then unfollow
Sometimes I come back and do it again ๐
EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
CHRIS CORNELL WAS TURNING THE LIGHTS ON AND OFF WITH AN APP
TAP TAP TAP
He was checking out ๐
I’M TRAUMATIZED
But essentially I’m acting out doing the same
I’m extremely suicidal and act out often
I got in trouble for trying to kill myself in kindergarten at age 5 on the playground with a piece of string
“Your weird” and then NO BODY WANTED TO PLAY WITH ME EVER
Chastised
For not being a sheeple
I hated school
I hated home
My parents never bought me my dream sheets or gave me my dream bedroom so that’s what I’m working on now and I really hope I like this sheet set that’s coming and that it fits
Because sheets for the wired mattress are coming
From the Dolls Kill
Sharing my shopping tips and favorites with you
I’ve never had my dream bedroom
And now I got sheets and a curtain coming for the master bath and bedroom that I pay top dollar for to have a roof with ugly ass popcorn ceiling that falls in my throat when trying to sleep
“WHAT THE FUCK IS TRYING TO CHOKE ME NOW”
“JUST SOME ANCIENT DUST FROM 10,000 plagues ago, these motherfuckers”
*opens window*
John just wanted air in his lungs again
The wind on his face
I KNOW
CRAWLING IN THE CAVE WASN’T WORTH HIS LIFE
Mother earth is both heaven and hell but bad management got him killed and gaslighting
Ignoring the red flags
But also being given an incomplete map that didn’t disclose dangerous features that were purposely left off that other people had gotten stuck in six months prior
“I thought I was somewhere else”
“I’m fat”
I want to feed Michael Levitt’s balls to him
PLEASE SOMEONE LOVE ME AND MAKE IT HAPPEN
I chose the free shipping even though I want my stuff right away
Been scrubbing the bathroom
Got the current bed sheets stripped and washing
I gotta scrub the walls
Also working on new content
Writing. Photography.
I’ve been feeling very angelic but also dark
I come from the Void
I am the Void
Oh look, a wave of energy now
*ZAP* โก๏ธ
Canceled out…
P.S. I ordered some anti happy cards to send out to people/bloggers/friends/fans/Penpal/??
I don’t know how many are arriving in the bundle
I thought it might be fun to send out for Thanksgiving and the Christmas holiday
Some sarcastic hatemail ๐คช
It’ll be gaslighting (don’t jump from a bridge)
Does anybody want to be my penpal the season?
It can be a one-way penpal (you don’t even have to write me back if you don’t want because I wasn’t actually planning on putting my address anywhere)
I wanted to get a little post office box from the post office but they charge an arm and a leg now to be secretive ๐
I wanted a little addy thang…
A P.O. box
I think I already gave the fucking serial killer my address and heart ๐
It’s scary out here
Uhm, so I splurged and got this Mixed Messages card set in the hopes that folks will let me send them an anti holiday card for the holiday – wrong theme – wrong month ๐คช
Just for fun
I am quarantined as many still are
PLEASE LET ME SEND YOU ONE
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Remember having a penpal in grade school?
I’d like to try that again
Back to the basics
I know it requires some form of trust
I’ve held security clearances and I don’t fuck with peoples personal data or private data or bank accounts or Social Security’s
I have never keyed anybody’s car for cheating on me
Anyhoo
They have this sale going on up until midnight if you wanna try to put some things in a wishlist and put the code in your cart
Stuff does sale out fast
I had about five or six other items in my wish list that I tried to add to the cart that were already sold out, cute little bags and over the knee socks, some other home-improvement items
A red latex dress that normally cost $50 was under $4 but gone in every size ๐
It just makes it that more fun and special when you grab a bargain
Let me know if you want to see my master bedroom, bathroom and closet when I get it completely made over
Or in progress updates…
I haven’t really said it much but I’m really looking forward to the new sheet set coming in
I’m not only shopping for myself but my future husband ๐คช
Ladies, whatever motivates you to get better
There are good men out there who do not think women in their 40s are obsolete!!!
And you don’t have to be the person you were before…
You can change
You don’t have to keep shopping at Walmart or the thrift store
REINVENT
I never knew I could wear triangle tops or bikinis because guys were always dissing on my body and I’m not ashamed for taking photographs of myself
I’m not doing anything to disrespect my future husband
I’m not doing anything behind the scenes nasty or trying to steal anybody’s husband
I’m not an online girlfriend or dirty talker
Back in the 90s, I knew good girls who stripped their way through college, to buy a house, or to pay off their student loans and they weren’t expected to perform sex acts or to be that way
I would like an opportunity to pay off a bill or to buy a house but right now I’m just trying to stay afloat and buy some fucking food and make a penpal or two during the apocalypse
Are stamps even affordable? ๐คช
P.S.S. I could do a card and email a digital version instead if you don’t have an aunt or uncle or cabin to receive snail-mail
I’m not doing anything illegal nor planning anything evil
I’m just going back to the basics and I saw those cards and had this idea
Our spaceship took on the form of a pyramid FYI
Are you out there? Do you still read my blog? Do you love me? ๐
Health nut (fitness & diet)
Checked out an organic shop today and used that belated birthday donation for some good foods
Also got a fitness session in today and went live on the TikTok during
My heart and body is struggling but enjoys and appreciates keeping up the ability to flee from the devil
I’m skinny as fuck and got mental health issues because apparently being skinny is a crime in society while 60% of the population is obese
The other push is for plastic surgery so the ass can be silicone BIG BRAZILIAN BOOTY
So if you’re not obese or thick you might as well jump off a fucking bridge…
Society is toxic. Be a weight you are happy with. I need some meat on the bone and I’m working on rebuilding muscle mass – but I still got stuff to work with.
It’s hard tho when guys are only interested in the fake plastic female bots who can’t even have a baby
Our enemy has destroyed the family value tribe and tradition from within
I also love this vegan nail polish, it’s so pretty, but the fan who got it for me for my birthday, unfollowed all of my accounts ๐คฉ
Apparently this place has a deli and a salad bar and a juice bar so I’ll be back when I actually have five dollars to splurge
I’ve got some vegan dogs I need to grill, so picked up some buns, and a jar of peppers, because I like everything spicy. EVERYTHING
I’ll be making more soup, and got some stuff for tacos, cuz those are my favorite, and I just had a birthday and I don’t buy fake meat anymore (the dogs were a food bank donation)
I’m actually getting ready to try some new food banks that I haven’t been to and I’ll let you know how those go
I do like hitting them up for the canned goods
But I’ve been living on junk food and canned food my entire life and I’m now cooking everything from scratch again like my grandmother taught me – which is my purpose
I got some really good healthy wraps to try with the tacos – and I have chicken breast in the freezer that may go on the grill and in the wrap
So I haven’t quite settled on what I am going to do with the beef or the chicken yet
I still have sweet potatoes and big giant Idaho potatoes to cook up
I ignored the doctor about “no dairy, eat sugar” and got some cheese curds and milk
My body is responding well to the things I am giving it
I don’t need people driving me
I KNOW WHAT I NEED
Also we are electrical before we are chemical
It’s important to connect your feet to the earth and get sunshine on your skin during the good hours
THE SUN IS GOOD FOR YOU NEO
The brain, the heart, ELECTRICAL
My chest has been pounding since I started rebounding and I’m coughing stuff up detoxing
But whatever I’m doing is working better than what the VA had been doing…
I’M NOT THE ONLY ONE BEING MURDERED BY THE HEALTHCARE DEATHCARE SYSTEM
FUCK
I FORGOT TO CALL
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Now I gotta wait til next week to apply for help
At least I got a workout sesh in and ventured out into hell to find some organic food
I’m sure I probably could have spent that money at Victoria’s Secret but I’m looking forward to having some tacos and whatever I plan to make with that box of food I just bought so thank you
I had an ex once not worth mentioning that said I talked about food a lot and it was boring
How boring of an individual must you be to find food topic boring
I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT FOOD ๐คฉ
I’m literally obsessed with putting taste on my tongue
THEY CAN’T TASTE A FUCKING THING AND SHOULD DIVE INTO A BLACK HOLE HEAD FIRST
There is still plenty of good ingredients in my fridge right now to make a delicious vegan stew
I’ll be dry humping the kitchen soon ๐คช
I moan when I eat good food ๐
In the military, we’d go out in little groups, order food, then put it all in the middle of the table and share each other’s
I’ll have some of this please
And, we’d pay separate checks with just what we ordered
But sharing was caring
We also lived in Germany and we hit up every restaurant that we could all the time and tried every fucking dish we could
I need real Jasmine tea in my life
I need REAL TEA in my life again
Not little bags poisoned with chemicals on a string (also poisoned)
They don’t want us enjoying anything
Fucking narcissism
I can’t believe summer is nearly over
I don’t have much time left…
“No one flies around the sun” (we can’t leave earth)
Neil Degrasse said on his TikTok that what those astronauts are doing up there is not in space and he wants to go to the moon so let’s send him because I don’t think we’ve been and I want to be proven wrong. I know I’m fucking stupid, prove me wrong, humiliate me in front of the entire fucking world please, go for it, do it, prove me wrong
Neil Degrasse also said what the astronauts were doing up there was boring and he didn’t want to do what hundreds of others have done
I bet he doesn’t find food boring tho or the person cooking for him ๐
The Dark (micropoetry)
I’m asymmetrical
But science is unethical
The dark brings on the stars
My favorite part
You influence heart
No love like ours
Dearly departed
Come to me uncharted
Temple of discarded
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Dropped some spicy stuff – on the OF storyboard- that would most definitely get me banned elsewhere –
A few photos already got some hearts so I can breathe ๐คช
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https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual
Hearts are better than penalties (and for the mental health too)
I need a snug bug
Or giant body pillow ๐คช
Fragments (poetry)
There are only fragments of where you once were
I can draw a line from you to her
These walls have shadows of your terms
A plea of prayer or concerns
Pretty bias exists
Like a blade around your wrist
I tell the Devil all my moves
I know that he will lose
I tell him all my plans
Across lightyears they span
I tell him all my secrets
He stores them in a sequence
All my hopes and grievance
Killing off my demons
He’s punishing me because the need is great
I can feel the world like a weight
But there’s a boulder in place –
I can’t participate!
Red light, green light
Was there, not here
No bye
Everybody has a price
I’ve prayed for all their deaths
I prayed –
With every single breath
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Post script (trigger warning potentially!?!)
The baby daddy DEAD
The big sister DEAD
Prayed for all of them and there’s more on that list๐
YOU BLEED ENOUGH AND THEN THE BLEEDING STOPS
You won’t get my forgiveness
I’m not here for that
Also! Thank you for the belated birthday moneyz! ๐ฅฐ
There’s such a warm feeling inside knowing I’m shopping for soup thangs soon
Also, I’m giving Walmart pickup a try. It’s free on orders of $35 or more
I’ll let them shop for my groceries again. Only this time I will drive to pick them up. They bring it to your car.
I won’t have to deal with the COVID crowds or mask up with a partial working lung (the left lung is doing better and I’m taking deeper breaths now, hopefully not the death call)
I may do a sunrise livestream from the beach this weekend on my TikTok
There’s a lot of negative dark energy here in the city, I’d like to avoid
I JUST WANNA BE HOME
It’s the worst place I’ve ever lived but for now it’s the only place I want to be
I’ve been moving my furniture around in my bedroom though and now I have a new view
I’m searching for a decent mattress topper because I’m sick of sleeping on wires
I think I may have finally found one without all the bs
They only have 2 inches but it’s decently priced and it’s gotta be better than sleeping on these fucking wires
I wanted 6 inches and the 3 inch egg shell + 3 inch memory foam but they don’t exist anymore
They keep trying to push the products with infusion in it which will dry out eventually and make your bed crack and I don’t want to sleep with chemicals
Anyhoo
I think I settled on that one and it’ll be decided on next payday
I may take a peek inside the actual Walmart but I can’t stand going inside that place lol
CROWDS
UGG
GROSS
I’m nearly ready to start sleeping on my floor tho
The bed I’m sleeping on was donated by the church cuz my stupid ass went homeless briefly during the government furloughs and hiring freezes
I love that I studied so long in college for a job just for the government to stop us from working and give all of our jobs away to the immigrants
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ๐บ๐ธ
MADE IN CHINA INDIA MEXICO
(Native American slave)
But the black Americans want me to pay financial repercations for propaganda crimes I never committed (nor my bloodline)
GET IN THE FUCKING SEA
I will go AWOL if you don’t stop taxing me
NASA IS A FRAUD!!!!!!!
WE CAN’T LEAVE EARTH!!!
I’m hungry thus hangry but not so much cuz the cart is getting full soon and the free pick up makes me less anxious to shop myself
I never worked at Walmart but damn that would’ve been a much better job to have been picking out other peoples groceries, taking it to the car, or even delivering it to them, that sounds like a fantastic way to spend eight hours instead of just standing there scanning shit nonstop without a break
In England, they sit down on the job to scan your groceries…
I fucking hate it here (in America)
THE GREAT SLAVERY
THE GREAT WALL OF DECEIT
THE GREAT PYRAMID SCHEME
I think I may have a Bible here or two that might be worth putting on eBay
I’m kinda having difficulties accessing my account tho
And I’m fairly certain I locked myself out of my Facebook on purpose
So Mark Zuckerberg will be selling my data permanently forever without my permission
Same thing is going on with my Etsy…
I’m done with this fucking establishment
They shouldn’t be allowed to update their policies and add stuff like that and automatically have it selected yes for you
BUT THEY DO
Also, I’ve started receiving mail from spectrum again and when I called they said it was automation so the rainforest has been cut down for fucking spam in my mailbox that I don’t want every goddamn day or any day!!!
THE ONLY ESCAPE IS GOING AWOL / GETTING A PLOT OF LAND WITH MY OWN COMS
Luckily, I know a Soldier or two an expert in communication
LUCKS
They will come when I call…
When I went homeless, some of the officers I shared a foxhole with was offering for me and my pets to come stay…
I did not go but alas I was homeless in 2017 for 4 months
Still climbing out of that financial hole
I lost my entire Thrift savings (retirement) + regular savings just staying afloat
Should have cut the cord sooner
Thank fuck I got discharged before the entire “you must vaccinate or get kicked out dishonorably” bullshit occurred
Stay strong y’all
I didn’t have a husband or family to fall back on
My head is still kind of a mess from everything especially getting a vaccine injury but I’m in deep therapy trying to recover mentally physically everything
Appreciate y’all so much
I want my own little bit of land so I can start helping others and pay it forward
My mortgage payment would be way less than my annual rent increases
“Yeah but you have to do everything yourself”
Oh thank fuck, I don’t think I can handle hearing the Mexicans blow the leaves around the goddamn parking lot any longer
READY TO JUMP FROM THAT BRIDGE OR GO AWOL
(I’m going to use the birthday money to get groceries so thank you)
Psst I’m not racist. I’m tired of the policies being changed to benefit other countries while America becomes a third world country
I’m allowed to complain about the country I fought for
Even though the fighting was all bullshit too
Rotten Fruit (poetry)
Rotten fruit falls by itself
If you’re compelled
Don’t bid farewell
Could you drop good news with the bad?
Could you learn happy just means sad?
Could you leave but still come back?
Or are you ever planning that?
There he goes again
Slamming the door!
And I still don’t know
What we’re fighting for!
Where did your will come from?
Was it bought from the sun?
What will you become?
Is your will firm?
John,
You should have kept your head in the book
You should have took a second look
You should have chose a different route
You should have crossed a bigger chute
I know I’m not what you need
That’s why you keep walking away
I know I’m not what you bleed
That’s why you have nothing to say
Been down a ways
Get little praise
Been down always
Been down always
I made a mess
Of these prison walls
Out of order
The sad owner
Of these pitfalls
I am the still of the lake
With underwater currents circling
The whirlpool in your eye full of hate
Forgiveness won’t be surfacing
No mercy at the break
Why does weight cause gravity?
Like my love for you
You will disappear
But I am stuck like glue?
Last seen
Smoking on the Bayou
Got the deep blues
Gonna cut loose
Restarted just to leave,
Alive just to grieve,
Got what you need?
Stop bailing on me!
If I could do it all again
I’d let you be my influence
Blood to pen
Influent
Jesus: didn’t you say he left your bed?
Yes.
Jesus: and he won’t share a slice of his bread?
*feather tremble ๐
He slams the door
He makes an entrance
He begs for more
He is relentless
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Original content: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Dรฉjร vu (poetry)
I feel him mourning
Like thick moss growing on vine
He’s always yearning
The way I twirl around on pine
You got a returning subscriber!
Just kidding! He’s a liar!
I need oxygen but it’s corrosive
I need love but he’s explosive
Got me losing focus
Maybe his main motive
He doesn’t know how hard my heart is
I was born of darkness
Somewhere from the darkest
Never bow regardless
I want to distract him from morning
The way I’m overturning
Darkness is for learning
I bid you fair warning
Hanging with the dead and crying
An angel’s only trying
But oh ye faith I’m eying
And I know when you are lying
I think he’s Polyamorous
I know I couldn’t handle it
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I woke up to my second supporter! And a lovely message!!! So very grateful, thank you!
Postscript ๐
In my past life I have been in open relationships and handled it just fine
But I’m completely possessive over the love of my life
I can feel my stomach churning with the thought
No kneel
WTF
You better be paying for my housing so I can hump all over your existence
You should be taking my OnlyFans photos and saying, “no babe, that’s your money, buy yourself something nice”
When I bring you money to pay the bills, you should be like, “baby, I’m taking care of you”
STEP UP
Be my K-I-N-G and I’ll be your Queen and submit
Pff you have some magical powers going unused that you know you can’t get anywhere but from ME
And vice versa
We got our own Great Filter upon us
I had to jump here first cuz that’s what it took
I HATE being OLDER than you
MAKE ME YOUNG AGAIN
YOU HAVE ONE JOB
New account! New set dropped! ๐ ๐ https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual
Flew (poetry)
There were times I flew in like a tree hammering a window in a winter storm
The wind so loud you couldn’t hear the glass shattering
I called to him and he ran over transgressions like they were wounds
Now they are gone
Buried like the dead
I can’t give you something I never learned
Forgivenessโฆ
And if walking away is what you do, it’ll never be earned
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Postscript ๐
I got folks fleeing left and right but I also received a nice message from someone who said they’d be a future subscriber on my new OF
Plus, I got my first subscriber when I was off sleeping
And so that’s inspiring and worth focusing on instead
They say they like looking at pictures of me ๐
I like making them for y’all
I don’t like digging through the web for stock photos
I took Drama in school and college
Not to mention I have a nut addiction and my detox medication isn’t cheap
I’ve never been able to dress like a girl lol
It’s always been military uniforms and boys tees
I like getting to explore who I am through words and photography
I’m glad I have an audience
I prefer a small crowd
It’s more intimate
Welcome to Damnation (freestyle poetry)
I’m surrounded by crows
And other creepy creatures
Midnight a late night feature
There’s warnings in these screechers
I listen like a preacher
He loves my poetry so much:
He’s never left a comment
He flew away quicker than a comet
He left no dust, pays no homage
I think my looks would make him vomit? ๐ค
I’m still alive
Despite your better wishes
Despite you haven’t wished it
Despite you’re superstitious
Got blood of witches
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I gotta start buying small. Petite ancient doll.
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Oops I did it again (OnlyFans) *photography*
Someone put yer gal on the leaderboard? ๐คช
Full link to new account: https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual
This set includes raw and edited photos
Different visuals
Hope you enjoy the new set ๐
Current leaderboard position: ZERO
Part German, part Native American, all vampyre aged 440 years
The complete set is on the OF! 32 new photos! ๐
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Am I You (poetry)
Am I fractal
Crawling backward
Up a hill
Are you crackle
Like lightning
From a spear
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Thank you to everyone who made my birthday special this year xo
The Vegan nail polish x 2, the vegan power snacks, the gift cards, the messages, the voicemail too
No word from my creators who birthed me
I IZ ORPHAN FROM NOW ON
THE FOLKS ARE DEAD
LIKE JIM MORRISON SAID OF HIS FOLKS
SAME
And I made white cake with egg whites, coconut milk, and coconut oil and it’s good
There was no poison in the cake
I don’t feel bad about baking my own cake
I’ve got a little coconut milk left and plan to make a wild blueberry coconut milkshake soon
There are birthday treats involved
And goods coming from Dolls Kill & Shein
There is no crying involved
I survived another period and year around the sun
I can’t tell you how incredibly painful it is to shed versions of yourself
And still not know if you’re alive
Like, what sort of fucked up gravy train am I on
I think consciousness simply evolved from awareness
I don’t even know if I’m real
Let me fire up this thing
Risk
He risked it all for that if
He risked it all for her kiss
He risked it all at that cliff
He risked it all and did not miss
He did not missโฆ
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I’m sorry they left out details on an updated map not showing risk or location where 2 others had been stuck – and took hours to rescue
I’m sorry that management thought it best to remove features on a map – instead of blocking off entrance and stating instead that anyone with common sense would know “dusty” means “don’t go” “not well traveled” (victim blaming)
I’m sorry you thought you were somewhere you weren’t
And that the dangers and risks weren’t disclosed
“Why did you put me here…?”
Could you imagine if my last mission was a suicidal attempt to come get your bones
Last we saw of her was outside the cave location of John Jones, we think she went inside….
200 years later: bones of John Jones found in mysterious location with the remains of missing….
What’s even stranger is the position they were found in….
*cue the fairytales the establishment dish out as fact*
And thus a new religion was born
Hail whoever the fuck I become in the future
I mean, I do wanna go get his bones tho
*leaves suicide note near dug up entrance / and a black backpack*
CHECKMATE FUTURE ME
*doesn’t die*
*turns 44*
I was screaming for John recently tho – silently from my soul
He came up and was like, “you’re screaming like I’m in Utah..”
Cuz he haz jokes ๐
P.S. if you don’t know who or what I’m talking about, only the greatest tragedy in my living history. An angel was crucified upside down by a demon – who later received a bonus and likely a promotion for “heroic efforts”.
I want to throw up ๐คข
His body was left there with over 100 rescue personnel on the clock.
Our tax dollars hard at work.
His bones are still in that cave and one day I’m gonna go get em’…
He hates that fucking cave…
There are things that had happened down there that Michael Leavitt says “will never be disclosed” and I’m gonna make him disclose them…
The patience and the craft of a warrior gone rogue
30 years time
This ain’t Minority Report
Although a kid did get arrested for making a threat during a video game
My PS4 has been factory reset and is in the STUFF TO BE SOLD AT THE PAWN box
The content is propaganda and subliminal messaging
I’m trying to get through to you
Espionage everywhere
But what do you see
Also – PayPal has listed someone as a contact who once donated to me anonymously
I found out about the anonymous donor – or rather who it was – about six months or so later – in an end-of-the-year PayPal statement
Fucking fantastic
The goddamn glitches in this timeline
The anomalies
And now Instagram tells people “followed by so-in-so”
There is no privacy here
My TV hasn’t been turned on in weeks
I wanna turn into one of them vets who live in the country with their own radio coms
Telephone? We ain’t got one of them here. You gotta drive into town…
I made it to 44, thanks to John Jones
I don’t know if I’m gonna get out alive, but he’s down here with me
And those electrical jolts to my heart was him repairing the damage big pharma caused when I injected myself twice with that deadly poison
I was barely alive, hanging on by a thread
I’m spitting less in a cup but I’m still spitting in a cup
I keep hearing people say they’re catching Covid and I can’t catch Covid, my immune system has been compromised from the death jab and heart inflammation and people are now dropping dead by that adult death syndrome which I’m at risk of
I need to be quarantined
I need to be that girl in a bubble
I wanted to have photos for you today
But then that 7 day treatment is taxing on the liver, this detox I’m doing – coupled with me starting my period with the full moon like clock work
I’m spent…
But I made it to 44!!!!
I’ve lived 43 years!!!
Now it ain’t easy
My sister died in January at age 45
She didn’t make it to 46
And I’ve been saying since I was a little kid that I wouldn’t live past 50 so I have that weighing on me
I’ve been saying since I was about 12 years old that Leo’s have heart and feet problems so I predicted my own fucking death
I’m paying better attention to the red flags now I hope
And when I feel myself falling into a violent dark rage – I’m gonna paint my nails instead and play dress up or ride my bike or bake a delicious meal
That’s the intention anyway
I’m still in intensive therapy and putting in the work…
I’m starting this new detox regime soon
And then probably the liver cleanse
And some of the other formulas he has
Vegetarian too from what I’ve seen
It’s less expensive than dying or treatments from Big Pharma which nearly all include toxic poisons – yellow/red/blue dyes
These nurses and doctors don’t give a fuck about you
They think the NDA they made you sign trumps their oath
IT DON’T
Take revenge in the courtroom and not on the street (or self-destruct)
Stay woke
P.S.S. America is a corporation where its occupants are owned by communistic China – who holds hands with the Russian mafia – who is the Illuminati – and keeps you distracted with porn, religion, politics, Hollywood, propaganda and subliminal messaging
TikTok says I’m a threat
Instagram says I’m a threat
You better know it
Dear John (freestyle poetry)
I’m in your mines
Exploring around
With an old headlamp
I found
I’m not where I’m meant to be
Knees are muddy
Nutty Putty
I’m upside down
Searching
Excuse me
I’m mapping
Destinations unknown
Going places never before
If I could just squeeze through
There’s so much more
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
The poison is the cure (journaling)
That seven day treatment was not a cure all
It did however help
It may have worked if the VA had treated me in a timely manner – instead of waiting until I was knocking on my death bed and threatening a law suit
Still, progress was made
I’m still gonna have to drop over a bill for a new holistic treatment next paycheck
I can’t sit around and wait for the VA to order this and that and having me chase my tail until I’ve ran out of breath
We’re done with that game
The self-treatment continues with Black Walnut & Wormwood, Apple Cider Vinegar, Turmeric & Ginger, and CandAid.
I’ve got bottles unopened still yet to swallow
I’m taking daily doses, sometimes multiple
That 7 day treatment was pretty taxing on my body, I’ve needed a couple days of rest
Today I’m having coffee with milk
I’m resting on the side of the cliff
I’m gonna be making a white cake with coconut milk, coconut oil, brown eggs, and wild blueberries. Cupcakes & half pound loaf. For the upcoming birthday on Friday.
I’m gonna be crawling to the finish line
I’ve almost lived 43 whole years โบ๏ธ
I received a gift card for Shein today. ๐คฉ
I’ve never shopped there but I’m already earning points just for daily check-ins.
They have everything there and you have to hunt for the good stuff and bargains (stainless steel, wood, cotton, ect) – but everything from home to body.
I’m looking forward to spending my gift card. Gonna apply my points and any coupons I can to stretch it out!
๐
I really appreciate y’all thinking of me for my birthday.
My parents don’t care of my existence – same life as our dear Edgar Allan Poe. ๐ค
They were apologizing about a low gift card and that’s not a low number.
Not to mention I’m a Leo so I love to bargain hunt. I love finding the good stuff at the run down thrifts.
I love sifting through a yard or garage sale.
I’ll go to the bereavement sales too.
“Oh look, somebody died. Let’s go buy their shit”. And you’re actually helping out the family members move on. Win win. I’ve no shame. God bless the dead. But not the demons.
I’m saving my pennies to buy some land but currently I need to make some pennies and I’ve got something in the pipeline to try and do
(I don’t do sex work ever, please stop thinking my content is XXX)
I’m old-fashioned
I STRIP
And these days all I’ve got is bone to share
STRIPPED TO THE BONE
But yeah, I did order something from Dolls Kill again – for the birthday – they only had one pair left in my size – I’m praying them suckers are mine ๐
Now when you visit the page – there are no sizes available
*sigh*
COMETOMAMA ๏ฟผ
I mean, I do have a shoe fetish but it’s the pair of shoes I’ve been dreaming about and I can wear them with all my lingerie, all my shorts, all my dresses, all my outfits, minus my military uniforms duh
I didn’t lose all of my uniforms when I went homeless, I just left a lot behind, but I don’t know why I decided to rescue an entire suitcase worth of propaganda
But because “she” held onto it, I’ve repacked them in a small moving box
They don’t go to the donation bin yet
I think she wants them near her own garden… I dunno…
I’m trying to help her reach her goal
There are still old boxes to sort through
Old unopened mail
Evidence my parents are shit
Trauma left and right
I told her I’m not here to judge, only to help her organize and sort the mess
Keep what’s to keep
I’m also not only doing a makeover for myself but for my homelife
In small tiny increments
I’ve changed banks again
Everything is getting a makeover
EVERYTHING
I’m still expelling things from my body
I can’t stop detoxing or all my progress will be lost
Now I see how my body responds to no more 7 day treatment doses and a coffee
It’s risky, I know
I’m having die-off symptoms still
IT’S STILL INSIDE ME
I WANT IT ALL GONE
I see now how a cancer patient will give up on treatment
And just dieeee
You have to change your diet and have an incredible amount of willpower to fight it
You have to drink that nasty ass Black Walnut & Wormwood everyday (I still don’t understand the difference between every day and everyday: it was a hard concept for me to get in fifth grade and now I have a brain injury and both the examples just are the same to me, when people give me examples of the differences they are the same to me. I don’t know what to tell you – I’M STUPID)
Show me an easy way to learn them
I really want to get it but I don’t *sigh*
I’m rearranging my room – pushing the bed to the wall
I’m tired of sleeping on wires so at some point I’m buying a normal eggshell without any infusion
Lots of cushy pillows
The body pillow at the wall
My stupid ass is still on bedrest
QUARANTINED
OMG BUT DID I TELL YOU I BOUGHT THE CUTEST SHOES BUT IT WAS THE LAST SIZE AND I BETTER BE THE ONLY CINDERELLA OUT THERE
They had only ONE SIZE LEFT AVAILABLE WHEN I SAW THEM
SIZE 7
The rest were sold out
Then all gone once I bought em
DON’T LET ME DOWN UNI
These are an heirloom at this point and they haven’t even shipped…
The heels were regularly priced at $45.
But I scored them for $9.58 and want to be buried in them
Though they haven’t arrived and I’ve not had a shoe fitting
I can’t wait to get healthy and wear these grocery shopping though
Gonna get me a husband real quick ๐คช
The pigtails are getting long
I need a bodyguard husband
And yes I cook but are you going to be a traditional man and pay all the bills? Cuz if I’m all in and you’re half assing it then you won’t have me as a wifey
These men turn wives into slaves and then get pissy when it’s time to treat them for a holiday or a birthday
They want us playing the traditional role and be sexually free and pay half the bills and run all of the household and make all of the decisions and raise the children on our own (with them doing the “fun stuff”)
And I’ve known a lot of women to strip to pay off their college loans and debts and I’m getting ready to do the same but I will not be doing any nasty stuff ๏ฟผ
I don’t even know if it’s nasty, I just know it’s not for me and it doesn’t serve my purpose but sensuality does
I like exploring my feminine side through cosplay and camerawork
I have a certain way I shoot and film
And many men say I don’t need a filter but they don’t mind if I use them
And I took art in school but it’s not my best subject, I’m not an artist that way, I can’t draw for shit. I’m not very good at being a makeup artist so this allows me to be theatrical a bit because I did take drama in school and I love drama and theatrics
And I do have a background in arts and entertainment (including lighting)
I’m not an expert but I have a passion for it
Long post… surprised if you’re still here listening to me ramble on!
Coffee!!! ๐คช
Medium roast and the first caffeine I’ve had in over 7 days! โ๏ธ
So now that you know everything nearly but my bra size (36b)…
I did recently learn that I should stop shopping for large and medium items
Because I’ve shed over 18 pounds of the devil’s toxic poisons from my system
SYMBIOTIC ๐๐
I CAST YOU OUT
So they’ve decided to do construction out here and there’s been these bomb like noises going off for several weeks now and my PTSD has a maximum overload button
I’m gonna get back to packing in a bit
This boat is sinking and when it’s time to jump ship I’ll be boxed and organized with only the minimum amount of things out for a decent living
I’m not taking shit with me that I don’t want to come
Those junk drawers turn into junk rooms and junk boxes
Naw man
She was drowning so I’ve jumped into this timeline during that electrical storm to help her-me
I’m split in two
I exist in multiple timelines
And goddamn I can’t remember your birthday but I love you
But if you keep hurting my daughter I’m gonna cut your dick off and kick it down your fucking throat execution style
Dig?
You’re the only one that can make us regret doing things and I know it’s you because my chest is swelling up with sickness
(I’ve never sent a man pictures of me self-gratifying – I don’t do porn, I don’t even own a toy. I’m not desensitized. PLAYING THE ANGEL)
Coffee is getting cold
And now I don’t know what’s making me tremble, the caffeine or my fucking anger
I HATE YOU I KNOW MY WORTH
Wildfire (mini poems)
I love him for awhile
Drop bombs and act hostile
I’ll love him for a mile
Send invite then exile
Narcissism is a plague
Wildfire like my rage
Your flag is acting vague
Say what you mean to say
I’m sorting everything I have
Every single thing I own
Been logging too much weight
I’m never feeling home
Been crawling with my skeleton
I’m getting out of prone
I’m turning on the lights
I’m heading for unknown
I’m tired of washing clothes
I hate to wear
I’m tired of open roads
Of just despair
The aftermath apparent
Like an errant animal
It’s so overbearing
The way deep space
Won’t stop starring
Or acting like
He’s not caring
118 pounds
Can barely afford a smile
He goes by too many nouns
Won’t you feed me at the fairgrounds?
I might put on a frown
A tear for the clown
Wearing a hospital gown
Starving little cloud
He knows my birthday without a doubt
I just haven’t figured it out
You kneel
I heal
That was the deal
We have to make order out of chaos
Forget about the hard loss
Betrayal is a hard bust
We never quite will adjust
I’m going through metamorphosis
I gave no notice
Guess I’ll change my coordinates
I am the cold porcelain
Dear John,
I’m still spitting in a cup
But I haven’t given up
Lost my way and now I’m stuck
Guess I haven’t any luck
Re: Mark Zuckerberg
Someone silence that puppet
Put a bullet in his nugget
Don’t ask, Don’t tell who done it
Label created
Clouds must be elated
Happy belated
Words I never stated
Love’s overrated
Eventually you get tired of –
The papers piling up
Evidence of –
I never gave a fuck
He’s always causing so much ruckus
I’m losing focus
Gave my two week notice
He’s close to homeless
I’ve got decades of mail unopened
Obviously I’m barely coping?
I’ve been lost in my own shadow
Falling down every hole
How long will the bears live?
God: 100 years
How long will the humans live?
God: 100 years
What color will the bears be?
God: brown/black/white
What color will the humans be?
God: brown/black/white
I REST MY CASE
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I’M SO GLAD YOU WON’T EAT FROM MY KITCHEN. MORE FOR MEEEEE
Rental life & the cost of clean clothes (journaling)
I pay $50 extra a month on top of my rent for some old run down washer and dryer – for the privilege – to be able to wash and dry in my own apartment – but that isn’t included in the monthly costs – and I’m surprised they don’t charge us extra for plumbing
That’s $600 annually for my clothes to get ripped and shredded apart by the oldest fucking machines ever built
They don’t update any of our appliances with the annual rent gouging increases
I WANT MY OWN WASHER AND DRYER
I WILL PUT A BIG STAINLESS STEEL BUCKET IN THERE AND GO BY HAND
COME GET YER WASHER N DRYER
I’m gonna stink for awhile
Save my $50 per month
They make mini washing machines now
The goal is to find a free one or the other or even a cheap model
But one that is MINE
That $600 a year could be paying for land where I could be hand drying my clothes out in the sun with the trees and a line and some clothes pins which is free to dry
I told my enemy what I was up to and he said it was “smart”
I need some land out here in Florida
I’ve been disassociating for way longer than I realize but I’m organizing my entire life but my bathroom is going to get a makeover just like my entire life is getting a makeover
Yesterday I found a suitcase full of magazines in pristine condition and I couldn’t understand why I left behind three bags worth of fucking military uniforms but managed to hang onto some fucking magazines
Not magazines to put bullets in
Propaganda
And I couldn’t figure out my priorities but then I had to remember my new motto: I don’t know how we got here but let’s just fix it
I’ve re-packed those magazines in a small new packing box.
I have no idea why I held onto the collections but I reckon I’ll hang onto them for a tiny bit longer
It’s sort of the; I don’t know what to do with pile
I have also found a lot of evidence of an ex groveling to a mistress and all the trauma that was involved
I understand why I jumped into this timeline to fix myself
My entire life is getting a makeover
I’m currently detoxing and on an extreme treatment through the VA – I think I’ll need more than one round but it’s certainly working
Yesterday I’m certain I coughed out an alien looking creature
So I found this store ๐
When I have the extra dough I will be spoiling myself from there
You earn points, free gifts, they have stuff for a dollar that’s better than Walmart or the Dollar Tree
I’ve signed up for the coupons but haven’t been able to shop yet!
I’m ready tho!
They seem to have some nice stuff for the home and body
Wouldn’t mind a bedroom sheet set – great prices
Also am looking at the shower curtains and cute rugs
๐ค
I just want to improve my prison sentence on earth without it costing me an arm and a leg for mindfulness or cute panties without holes or blood stains (TMI – full moon – ovulating)
Write (poetry)
I notice when he’s gone
Even though clouds are glowing moonlight
But in the breeze my thoughts are blown
I haven’t even words to write
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Next Friday I turn 44. Potentially. Still putting up the good fight even though I’ve shriveled away to 118 pounds.
All fleshy stuffs.
No Botox/plastic/fillers
Just a whole lot of gravity and mess softness
Teardrops ๐
I just picked up this little triangle bikini top from the thrift today – and also recently learned that this style first originated in the 40s.
Having die off symptoms +
This treatment is a very aggressive treatment but they have me on the lowest dose (it can hurt your liver)
I’m now throwing Black Walnut & Wormwood, Apple Cider Vinegar, Turmeric & Ginger, CandAid, & Big pharma at the beast
Was restless sweating all night and possibly passed some thangs
I don’t go rooting around
I say good job expelling and flush
My gut has improved
My lungs
My breathing
But it ain’t over yet….
I LOVE MY GOODIE BIRTHDAY BOX
HEALTHY SNACKING
APPRECIATE
These spicy banana chips spoke my language ๐คฉ
It’s morning. I promised myself I’d boil some eggs and have wild berries for breakfast – but there’s no reason I can’t have a protein bar treat from the vegan Bunny box first
This is a new day after all and I get 2 new choices
I’m trying to save the big protein cookies for my birthday
TRYING
There’s 20 items in the box to select from and of those only 2 I have ever tried.
So it’s a very exciting and new treat box!
So many items inside still! Underneath and outside the box too!
Item 5
I’m 118 pounds ๐
The doc appointment went good today
I’m working with a new care team
She started me on a course of treatment and ordered me testing and visits to the specialist
She said, “you need to eat some sugar. I don’t want you cutting out all sugar”
And to cut back on dairy…
You will lose weight detoxing
That is not my end goal
I will work on rebuilding muscle mass and thangs when I can
I’m working on getting my 2nd bedroom redone – to utilize my yoga system the VA donated to me and start rebounding and booty gains on my Gold’s Gym fitness rebounder.
Health issues first
I’m beating a cancer like parasite eating me alive
It likes sugar
I WAS STARVING IT
Try having a sugar addiction on top of the symbiotic thing inside of you that also has a sugar addiction and can control your hormones and make you crave it
Go for it
I’ll wait…
So the exorcism continues
“Jesus Christ, that thing was real”
Yes Neo. You need to debug.
Trinity out…
P.S. making homemade soup soon – with red cabbage, rainbow carrots, potatoes, onions, celery and all
I started this new 7 day course treatment today
On top of my detoxing routine
But now I’m allowed some sugar and no dairy
*sigh*
No coffees with cream! ๐
I’m back home now and I want to go through my bunny box! ๐คฉ
Amazon Wishlist gift arrived ๐คฉ
You got me the Vegan Bunny Box!! ๐คฉ
Hoarder problem 101 cuz I’m keeping the cool bunny box for special mementos and thangs!
So many vegan edible goodies inside! ๐ฅณ
It’s not quite my birthday so I haven’t gone through the box!
Attempting to wait! I may change my mind! ๐คช
Cuz the belly is growling!
And now I gotta practice patience and not eat the entire box in a day! ๐
That is an absolutely cool gift box and I love how the bunny ears pop out!
The treats are vegan! ๐คฉ
I had no idea this bad boy was arriving so I wasn’t sure if I was opening a box of meds from the VA or not.
It was not a box of meds…
It’s a box of heaven!
The Devil was coming at me hard today (that’s a different blog post) and it was so nice to arrive home to an early birthday treat
My little order from DollsKill has shipped but there was no way it would have arrived this soon.
The bunny box was a definite surprise!
I haven’t tried any of the goodies yet and I’m certain they are delish!
Why do I love the box of bunny ears so much? ๐คฉ
I’m gonna repurpose this box once the goods are spent and are dissolving in my tummy.
It will not be in the trash bin…
The trash becomes the treasure…
This box is not trash worthy.
Send someone this surprise goodie.
I had it in my Amazon Wishlist for the goodies – had no idea the packaging was so cool! ๐
I spend time reading reviews and inspecting items –
I’ll be back with photos of the delicious treats
I rarely eat a vegan treat I don’t like…
I have nothing but love for my box!
I still love my Vegan nail polishes too!!! โค๏ธ
Thanks for thinking of me for my birthday!
I appreciate the spoils ๐ฅฐ
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Warmth (poetry)
I know how much you like the warmth
Crisp morning air circling
I see your light
It’s the same as water sparkling
Pale moonlight
Blood and roses
Our poetry
Going through osmosis
Severed wings
The way God approaches
He won’t kneel for me
I’m beyond explosive
The frothy sea
I love him helplessly
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I’m a vampyre. Got the elite blood from the elder Gods. Authentic. They can’t corrupt my DNA. ๐คจ
The Devil tried to kill me and I slept the fucking year to heal. Doing warrior thangs. Reverting back to what the Army taught me. And sometimes wounded warriors need a long time to heal cuz they get the worse wounds in battle.
I told you I was marching around the trenches and now I done got myself stuck. ๏ฟผ
I’ve been praying for answers, some of them I answered myself.
I’ve been disassociating for years. Maybe decades.
The evidence clearly shows.
My new self motto: “I don’t know how we got here, let’s just fix it.”
And when you start fixing holes in your ship, more will appear.
Don’t panic.
Find a way to plug the hole and abandon dreams if you must.
I know. Hang on. ๏ฟผ
The waves will be harder…
Don’t jump from the cliff.
Don’t give up.
If you’d like to support this blog or my poetry, I’m on Patreon! Thank you for inspiring me! โค๏ธ
Thanks for giving this old gal a chance.
Other places to spot me: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
It Mattered (poetry)
It mattered while it mattered
Stuck upside down
Soul still shattered
Saw smile for frown
Then all light scattered
Fell down our crown
When hope was battered
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I’m jumping on the Patreon wagon! Thank you for considering to support me!
But also… ๐
I started a new OnlyFans – it just now got approved, I’m terrible with secrets, that’s why I’m telling you
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Count (mini poems)
She told me on the phone
You weren’t doing good
Felt good to my bone
You suck at motherhood
I don’t know how we let it get this bad but we did
We’ve been in fight or flight mode since a kid
Do you count the times I visit?
You and the Devil in business?
God as my witness
I’ve been acquitted
Love don’t match the physics
The rock is livid
Are you good at listening?
Do you think it’s christening?
Do you even miss me?
Feel the hatred crippling?
The hours wasting
The Devil is your painting
Weapons and fingernail polish
Gifts for a goddess?
There’s a river flowing through the ocean
That’s where I’m going
Omnidirectional
I’m never chosen
What am I supposed to do father
Sit around and watch in haste
I watch the whole world spinning
While their soul goes to waste
Murder attached to bad management
Let’s call it “an accident”
Near the tomb inscribed “very tragic”
John Jones would claim it
I’m pretty good at bad decisions
There is faith but no ambition
The mirror’s not what I envision
I wear a cloth but hate religion
I’m making friends but not with wisdom
Prayer feels like only wishing
I’m still pulling his hair from my creases
He’s still putting together his thesis
Wrapped up in all of me
Until all life ceases
I’m cleaning out my closet
I’ve got monsters on the run
The walls they’ve got my claws in
Digging for the sun
Hit the high ground
Don’t want you around
But wait don’t go
Guess you can leave slow
I don’t want you here
But you mustn’t leave the show
Taking pride in my belongings
Put a reign on the longing
Homes should come with manuals
Basic do’s and don’ts – we’re animals
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Heyyyyy it’s almost my birthday!! ๐ฅณ
Woo hoo! I’ve got stuffs in my Amazon wishlist!
The big ticket items you can scroll past. That’s like a what if lottery ticket. The little items are just as important to me.
My therapist says painting my nails and self-care is good mindfulness practices.
So far, since starting my list, weapons and vegan fingernail polish have been gifted to me. Thank you for the gifts! ๐คฉ
So very grateful for your support out there! For keeping me safe, fed, and in a happy place.
It lifts my spirits.
The birthday falls on August 19th. I am a Leo baby. Fire sign.
Leader of all the signs of course. ๐
Spots the establishment punish me: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Psychology 101
A BABY MONKEY WILL CHOOSE DEATH WITHOUT ANY NURTURING OR COMFORT
IT WILL STARVE WITHOUT LOVE
Stargazing
Me: I hope you’re happier out there
God: Everything eats everything in hell
Me: I wanna go
God: There are demons who look human
Me: How do I get a ticket
God: Everything is a lie
Me: It’s the perfect adventure ๏ฟผ
God: Nothing will love you
Me in the womb: I’m ready to come home, I don’t wanna do earth ๐ซ
Hawk (poetry)
I watch him like a hawk
He invades every thought
But when it comes to making moves –
He’s got me in deadlock
So I can’t lose?
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
When there is nowhere left to go, go further in. Still that wasn’t the case for John Jones…
His map purposely left out dangerous details where others had been stuck before – and took several hours of rescue
Management said “if they were smart enough they’d know not to crawl where it was dusty” instead of putting up no crossing lines & updating the map to remove the danger zones where six months prior a rescue took place (management took it off the map completely and updated the map to remove those areas – SMART)
John Jones: I’m lost – I’m not where I thought I was
SAME BRO
I LOVE YOU
THE MAP – THE MANAGEMENT – IT NEARLY BROKE ME
DON’T BE SURPRISED IF THE STREET I WIND UP ON IS YOURS
FOUND IN A FOXHOLE NEAR YOUR FEET
God owed you a favor huh
And you used your magic powers on me
Your holistic heart approach from the heavens
Or purgatory cuz I live between realms now
The devil tried to murder me but that motherfucker didn’t succeed
He imprinted on me and now I know where he hides
You may have me in the holding cell cuz you played out all your moves and you know how this ends
I walked into this trap “free will” and you think karma won’t find you
Well hello
I’m in your lap
I’m keeping my soul
Down into the Great void you go
Ever drifting into endless purgatory
When did you lose your soul?
Do you know the moment it cost you?
I’m gonna meet you at every crossroad and burn the bridge
The Great Doom
I’m coming for you…
Her name is Apophis
You can’t leave earth or visit the moon
But please PROVE ME WRONG
The moon landings were rehearsed
With a sci-fi director
LOL
I never voted for any of this shit
I hated it here before I was born
I was trying to commit suicide on the playground at age 5
LOL
I’m gonna add some rope to the wishlist…
TikTok is a Chinese military communist app
We work hard to make them first for them to throw us scraps
Well I don’t give a fuck anymore
I deleted the app
Thank you for beating me so that I could enjoy more of my free time and not support this fucking insanity
My PS4 is packed up – and ready to be sold at the pawn
My TV is never turned on
IDGAF
*locked and loaded*
*opens door*
COME GET ME YOU FUCKS ๐๐
Places to find me offline: the firing range ๐
Places to find me online in the future: OnlyFans (potentially – but not for porn – but definitely nude modeling cuz self-love & cosplay & photography bring me purpose – and I enjoy producing my own content for my blog & not plagiarizing from upsplash or whatever those sites are
THERE’S A GOOD CHANCE I MIGHT DIE ON THE STREET LIKE EDGAR ALLAN POE
But then someone bought me 2 vegan nail polishes from my Amazon wishlist – and that also brings me purpose
There were only 10 left in that color when it was added to my list & now there are only 9
And it’s part of my favorite color of the rainbow
And it is a birthday gift
I’m grateful for the 2 new vegan nail polishes – they don’t have any of the bad poison or chemicals in them – and having pretty nails will boost my self-esteem
Painting my nails is part of my mindfulness practices and my therapist agrees with it
Color is a mood changer – water too – or just introducing a calming element when you are about to take out the entire city
I could hunt the establishment down and go rogue but I’m waiting on my pretty nail polish to arrive instead ๐คฉ
Thank you of thinking of me for my birthday
It’s been several years since I’ve got to celebrate my birthday since I’ve been fighting this illness and basically since the pandemic started
I’m lucky to be alive and I’m still in recovery
I’m still quarantined and can’t have no fun
Basically photography is the only thing I can focus on and I want to focus on so I’m thinking of getting on onlyfans in the potential future
I need an adult account – not for tacky tasteless content
But to be an adult and post what I want (no porn or self gratification – I want to focus on sensual content and being a female – I like cosplay even tho I’m not very good with the makeup aspects of it)
I was on it once before and made it to the top 20s just doing nude modeling & I was going up against giant creators
I want to focus on just the content I put out – and my tribe I draw – if any. I don’t want to compare my account to other accounts and what they are doing and what I should be doing and how much I should post and how much I should charge and this that and the other. I just wanna focus on putting out good content.
And y’all, supplies aren’t cheap. My time isn’t cheap. But I want my content to be affordable and not compared to what others are doing. They have teams!!!!
OnlyFans keep 20% of profits, on top of tips. The IRS take another 20%. They’re raised the cost of everything cuz they don’t want us earning a penny.
I want to earn a penny and whatever pennies I do earn, I want to put towards my goal of buying land.
So I’m working very hard to get better mentally, spiritually, and physically enough to put out monthly content.
I’m not there yet.
I also have a new care team at the VA.
They basically just keep having me chase my tail until I die but I’m self treating behind the scenes.
The holistic treatments I’m starting next month are over $100 for 2 bottles.
I’m not out here blowing my money on pointless crap.
And I work hard to put out amazing content that keeps TikTok number one and they make a shit ton of money and keep 80% of any of the earnings I get over there but then will just banish me from the fucking platform.
I love being a slave just to earn some scraps and a beating just to be tossed out in the wilderness alone – and they get to keep all my fans and continue on the party like I never existed at all ๐คฉ
VIOLATION cuz TikTok is a communist military app (armed & dangie)
Woke up to an ass beating by the establishment of course
My truth doesn’t fit the narrative
But Jesus was crucified and now it’s my turn again
*sigh*
I knew turning commenting on would get me in the doghouse
Went to bed with it blowing up and woke up to the stoning zone cuz the establishment are insane and I barely want to participate in the madhouse anymore anywhere
I’D RATHER SIT ALONE IN SILENCE AND DAYDREAM THAN SUPPORT THE DEVIL, HIS MINIONS, OR NARCISSISM
I’m not mad about it but some of the comments were disturbing ๐ณ
I had a few tell me they loved me
It was an experience and it brought me in loads of followers – whom could be removed from me at any moment – laughs insanely – it’s unethical when we make these companies rich
TikTok is an Asian communist military app
I’m not its friend
But those in charge don’t even like their own people because it’s all about slave labor over there
I really want to grow my own food and become self-reliant
My birthday is this month
I’m trying to make it to 44 and not leap from a bridge or have a heart attack before then
They want us living in fear
I’m not gonna do it
I’m sleeping with my windows open and if you get anywhere near me I will fucking cut your head off
I will gut you before my eyes are open
FOOK OFF WITH YOUR DEMONIC HATE
We need to start protesting these apps
They’re unethical for consumption
And you shouldn’t be letting your children anywhere near shopping centers that sell adult toys out in the open in front of children and the VA now have Do Ask Do Tell signs everywhere – with LGBT trained coordinators ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฉ
We need to go back to keeping your sexuality undisclosed
It’s a fucking cult
DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN AT THE MALL UNLESS YOU WANT THEM EXPOSED TO ADULT SEX CONTENT OR POTENTIAL SHOOTERS
RED FLAGS RED FLAGS RED FLAGS
SUBLIMINAL MESSAGING IS USED BY THE ESTABLISHMENT TO CREATE HARM
THEY PUT IT IN MUSIC AND FILM AND I’M CERTAIN TOXIC PORN
If the establishment don’t lose their grip, everything that they worked hard for to get to the top is going to crumble into nothingness
They think they have the mountains and the caves but they’re not safe there
We’re hunting them down
I’ve trained for this all my life and please let me go Vladimir Tepes on them
To my TikTok account where I’m HIGH RISK TO THE ESTABLISHMENT: https://www.tiktok.com/@poeeternal?_t=8UUpQb8pV1e&_r=1
GOOD ๐
I’m still medically disabled and they gonna pay out of pocket for stealing my jobs and then trying to murder me
They are leaving a trail of sickness
They get off on being wicked
These doctors signed an oath and making us sign an NDA doesn’t excuse them of their oath
I knew the video would get taken down if I turned on commenting and this is why I don’t ever listen to others but now I’m waiting on the appeal
BAM (the TikTok is blowing up)
More action than your beloved whoreeee
More likes, more views, more comments too
๐
It’s blowing up still and about an hour ago I had a request on another video to turn on the comments – and with the fear of the lord – I obliged
Well I can barely keep up with the comments, let alone all the follows…
The video: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRU17GJV/?k=1
I have another video getting some action too, I can’t breathe…
Gonna put the kettle on for a coffee and have a bath holyshit….
And turn my device off for a bit
Introvert ๐คช
Hell (poetry)
Things I keep unpacking
I’m moving or I’m not
Got love stored in a box
Hell is a paradox
Just like my life then
I’m alive but not a lot
Finalized my living will and directives
Burning every bridge I know
I’ve got objectives
YOU ARE UNRECEPTIVE
I’m dead inside
So there won’t be a spark
If that is what you are after
Then you shouldn’t kill the laughter
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Canyons (mini poems)
He won’t talk to me, he won’t acknowledge my existence
But crash his gate with a comet, and there won’t be any resistance
Did you know his shoulders rise like limestone
Rugged and sky-piercing
Grizzled and grey
His eyes a jewel-blue stream
Heading for my wonder
Do you know how deep the canyons were that I carved
Running from you
I know now how deep it runs
When we love like we do
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I don’t think the Mall should be selling adult toys. I went in for a cute hat, now I’m traumatized. Anal plugs and vibrators right next to the Lava Lamps. ๐
There’s nowhere left to chill or shop.
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
JINX (you’re it) *this post may self-destruct*
My video blew up (a tiny bit): https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRDHq9b1/?k=1
I dunno why
I used 1 hashtag only, it was a TRIGGER WARNING hashtag cuz I assumed the algorithm would keep it sitting at zero views
I turned commenting off because it wasn’t up for debate
It was an early morning rant
It was casual content, not necessarily anything viral worthy
And I was prepared for the video to tank
Instead it’s had over 350 likes, 7 saves, 1 share, and over 1900 plays ๐
It’s also brought me in a ton of new followers, like a ton.
And now my overall like tally is sitting at 29,600. Insane.
I think you’re allowed to accept gifts and tips at 10,000 followers (I could be wrong)
TikTok pay out how they want per TOS
So it’s a biased platform and they keep most of the profits and reward unethically
It’s still cool
I’m happy I still have enough followers to go live
My brand new microphone is still sitting packed up in a box, I have several new cosplay outfits I never got to use (bloody theatrical makeup too), and I haven’t been able to do much cardio since getting the death jab, I’ve been fighting for my life
I’m currently initializing my PS4 because I intend to sell it at the pawnshop, along with accessories and games (unless I get back on eBay which is also a plan)
Gaming isn’t what it used to be, the content isn’t worth the price, the community sucks
I’m taking back my life and time (I rarely play or watch TV)
And at my own speed
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I started 2 new bottles of detox to my routine
The other new bottle is Turmeric and Ginger, also no bad stuffs.
But also ordered 2 more bottles of Black Walnut & Wormwood because it will kill cancer and is clearing out the mucus
I’ve got out most of the bad shit that was making me stank
I’m not gonna lie, I was having die off symptoms where my under arms were smelling like sulfur
I’m getting to the point where I don’t even need to wear deodorant anymore
But also deodorant causes cancer and hormonal imbalances
If you stink you need to detox your gut
Other countries deworm annually
America is a FOR SICK PROFIT CAMPAIGN RUN BY THE MAFIA (China/Russia/Mexico)- BIG PHARMA (India), THEY DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU
I also restocked my nut supply
I thought long and hard about not ordering chicken this month for groceries
Even considered getting some of those vegan chicken patties and burgers
Naw
I’m eating clean
Eggs. Chicken. Turkey. Less dairy. Lots of Beans. Nuts. Water. Minimal fruit, I don’t want the sugar while detoxing
I also cold quit drinking soda and eating fast food, chips, and junk food several months ago
I uninstalled the chipotle app and emailed them and told them to delete my data
FUCK THIS ESTABLISHMENT
I support real farmers
I want some chickens of my own to care for and pull guard duty
For the fresh daily eggs
I got the insomnia anyway
I’m a soldier so I know how to reside around many people with different cultures backgrounds and diets and it’s probably why I am a flexitarian
I’m not a big meat eater, never have been
But I’m anxious to start my rebounding journey again
My booty has a little wiggle to it now but I’m happy to still be alive
My lungs are improving but I do still have difficulty drawing breath and my heart has trouble circulating
I no longer feel blood clots throughout my body or trying to push through my arteries and veins
Rebounding is resistance training – which is exactly what someone in my age group should focus on – strength training
Rebounding includes cardio tho so I gotta be careful
It’s summer though and the bike rides are imminent
I’m over 400 years old and people are calling me old ๐
MY BLOODLINE COMES FROM ANCIENT GODS
I have one of the oldest and rarest blood-types
I’ve had a number of things trying to kill me lately left and right
The more they try to alter my DNA and control me, the less control they have
THE GREAT ANOMALY
Perhaps we’re all born with Great Filters of our own
They use fearmongering to rule
It’s like a negative energy wave rolling through
Those who don’t hang on get yeeted out of life, or left homeless
I saw the bad things happening when I was working for the Department of Defense and the policies continued to get changed which was affecting my military career
Then came the Government furloughs and hiring freezes
The immigrants are sitting like kings on thrones
But are delusional and don’t understand why no one wants to work for low wages and in toxic environments
I’d fucking quit if a job made me use Zoom or FaceBook on the job
If the entire system collapses I still have my skill sets to fall back on and that will go a long way in a community when the lights are out
I might need some help climbing a fence or a wall but that’s never stopped my comrades from helping me get over it
I know I’ve been cutting a lot of people out of my life but it’s because I’m trying to develop into the person I want to become
I love you. I really do. ๐
Gotta start dusting the PS4 now, it initialized
Feels weird to dump all that data
I love detaching from the establishment
They lost the plot
They believed their own lies
“Stupid Americans”
Maybe we were playing dumb
The Devil ain’t getting my soul
CHECKMATE
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Breadcrumbs (poetry)
I transcribed your dream
The message read: BE STILL
But there could be a landslide
On this hill
Careful where you’re putting
Down your gear
And maybe ground your fear
Just be still
You need courage
The end is near
I love you.
I’m living in a parallel universe
Four simultaneously
The search for purpose
Only finding curses
Weathering leather
And bloodied verses
Unholy wishing
Gaslighting nurses
Controlling lightning
I come through circuit
Rarely truly surface
Far reaching
Angelic
Though sun a furnace
The Devil’s hand is sternness
I’m too damn earnest
Homeostasis
The racist call me racist
His poetry as an oasis
I’m running out of patience
Invite only
I’m growing lonely
They’re planning an invasion
The Asians
It’s like he’s pushing me to the edge
So he can follow suit
And if I leap from the ledge
It’s something he’ll pursue
Dating is like trying to find the least damaged item at the thrift store
“Problem loading content”
Not sure where hope went
He’s rarely present
These halls are haunted
I need less resistance
But I keep pushing the distance
Confusing the algorithm
Changing logistics
And he’s persistent
Budding appearance
Creating division
Swollen and twisted
How to not fall into a pit –
I haven’t learned it
There’s a spider living near me
He keeps building webs
And though I’m surely cleaning
He knows my habits well (true story)
Every mirror is haunted with my reflection
I’m suffocating
Crawling through your mines
120 meters inside
30 feet below a deadline
How to create healthy boundaries instead of building walls?
How to find stillness instead of crawling down the halls?
He’s sabotage
Removes my camouflage
One second applause
Then next dislodge
Knows just what I want
His hand will taunt
I got your message
Unintentionally
I felt your presence
Was it meant for me?
Earth will become hell
I’m holding the seventh seal
All of heaven will fall silent
I’m not here to heal
My closet is full of dead dreams
The drawers filled with hurting
The handles broke and dirty
I’m over 40โฆ.
I was born with an extra vertebrae
I got the death jab
They altered my DNA
Feel I can close hell’s gateway
The more they order
The less I obey
People dropping dead
Next month is my birthday
Some call me evil
God I won’t betray
He’s running circles
Watching me evolve
Climbing crimson skies
He knows how hard I fall
Fall down seven times
Get up eight
I’m morally bankrupt
With a penny on my plate
It’s like I’m crawling into a sinking ship, and he’s dying to come with…? ๐
Sometimes he leaves me breadcrumbs of where he’s been
Maybe kisses of magic
Maybe stitching in havoc
I’m here idling
I’m looking at star trails
And I’m burning all my matches
Leaving webs for what he catches
Or a map leading to more spells?
John is down here with me
I talk to him like he’s living
These guys out there buying fake diamonds
And truth is like silence
Have you found the secret book?
It’s a world of deceit
Well I’ve ripped your pages
Feel incomplete for what I took
13 months of 28 days
With an added day of resurrection
13 constellations
Hesitating every direction
365 days of lost conception
SEPT equals seven
OCT falls on eight
Allow me to elaborate
NOV enduring nine
DEC is ten
JAN means eleven
Your eyes look just like heaven
FEB is twelve
I know you’d love me if you didn’t serve yourself
MAR ends with thirteen
April is for birthing! (the starting one)
Now count them up
April is the first month
We’re living a different time
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
APRIL IS THE FIRST MONTH, THE CALENDAR IS 13 – feel free to check the star charts – the sky – whatever you want – 13 constellations – tell the Devil he’s losing time – he’s not getting mine ๐
The truth don’t lie – Neo open your eyes
SEPT MEANS SEVEN NOT MOTHERFUCKING NINE ๐๐
13 x 28 = 365 (you’re welcome) (don’t forget the plus one to grow on – resurrection)
LEVEL UP ASCENSION GOD MODE ON (humbly and universally) (you die in the Matrix, you die for real for real) (have fun)
The source wants you to win
I DON’T WANT TO DROP DEAD – CHANNELING
Open up Pandora’s box โ
Peer through the Looking Glass โ
Visit earth and learn to be a lightbringer
Learn compassion
Learn forgiveness
Give more love than you receive โ
Might go dark again: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Trespassers (poetry)
Shut the eyes of trespassers
The sun is down all day
Antarctica is turning red
My tongue careless what to say
Can you lead me heavenwards
I don’t show lines of grey
But you’re like a figurehead
I am lost either way
He’s like a shutter rarely open
Torrential rainfall in the forest
If your lens is in focus
We’re really hopeless
Freckled spots among the leafless
Limbs are growing
Though we’re porous
With constant flooding
Accumulation of our fears
Without love
So malnourished
Nothing but a debris field
I hope he lives here
Larger than the ocean
I really need him
You’re a sentinel program sent to destroy
Age 36 but still a boy
Go through the ceremony but don’t get the certificate
Get married but don’t have the state involved with it
Give them details but don’t get specific
Crash into depression, but tell everyone you’re terrific
I’ve got a bad attitude but maybe I’m not bad
And if you see me smiling, it’s likely that I’m sad
God or wild beast – my prayers heard the least
He seems to hate me with contempt
The lines were crossed
Up went a fence
The sign read not welcome
Whatever I did
I forget
SHE KNOWS I KNOW YOU KNOW WE KNOW SOMETHING OR SO
We are the Bermuda triangle ๐บ
Intense radiation heat can leave behind a shadow. Poetry or portfolio. You are my meadow.
All the laughing, excitement and sensationalizing on someone’s sorrow; They don’t have a moral compass to follow.
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Postscript bullshite๐
I’m basically housebound with this illness. My health is up and down. My mental health is suffering. I continue to practice mindfulness but I swear I feel my depression is growing worse. I’m practicing gratitude more. I’m trying to live in the now but it’s growing extremely difficult with the current establishment. I’m lost but then I’m found. I’m compassionate and then I’m swimming in darkness and hate.
All the neighbors are getting along. Hello we continue to mumble. We’re getting letters on our doors on if we’re in “good standing” or not. Everything is a dictatorship. Every turn the burn of a whip.
AND I’M FUCKING INSANE
I might as well start coloring the walls.
I am simultaneously moving and not moving at the same time.
“Well, this can go in a box, we won’t be here forever”.
“Well this might as well get put away, we can stick around for awhile”.
It’s a fucking insane asylum in here.
But, I’m working on getting my extra bedroom organized and re-done.
I got my trampoline back those motherfuckers stole my goddamn fucking key and lock.
And I mean this was a lock I didn’t want to lose, I even got the CEO involved and those motherfuckers stole my goddamn lock anyway.
I got to lose sleep, several nights of sleep, over the fact that my lock got stolen.
Every conversation to God: “this is hell and I’m a monster” ๐ฉ
I don’t know how to be a human, I don’t even know how to exist in the same room as another person.
Shit is deep
I don’t even know who you are and I can’t live without you.
I’m a mean girl
I don’t wanna be nice
But I’m in intense therapy which extends outside the office visit hours
It requires constant self-reflection and control
It’s exhausting and not at all easy re-programming yourself to not be self-serving
Or completely fucked up from previous traumas
And I got to continue to hear on TikTok about how women are obsolete over the age of 40
Women have been obsolete since they started their fucking periods… ๐
I’m getting back to rebounding soon tho – I rescued my trampoline and I’m gonna go back to rebounding at home. I am small and petite but would like to work on my booty gains. It won’t ever be picture perfect. I’m a mama with stretch marks and saggy boobs! โ๏ธ
I don’t really get to play the role of mama tho unfortunately.
I don’t get to be a human at all.
Your porn and propaganda is working.
Shame you don’t have the willpower to be who you were meant to be.
And I’m sick of everybody with the same personality. It’s a cult. ๐
I want to play dress up again and be more proactive in the blogging community but I’m still fighting for my life.
And I can’t help but cry about the state of everything.
And your poetry brings me life.
Are you performing anywhere?
Do you appreciate your fans?
(*whispers* please do an audiobook so I can fall asleep to you)
You feel that way too, that women are obsolete over 40?
He said we can all have our cats ๐
I’m trying not to disappear so – it would be nice to hear your voice for a change instead
You do everything so perfectly how hard could it be
I’m over 40 so I’m supposed to be obsolete now but I don’t even have a grey fucking hair
*jumps from bridge*
But that great white has been revisiting so I could just you know take a dive out there into the ocean- it would be really easy to get swallowed up in that tide like that 14-year-old last week or that great white who is taking bites out of Human’s
He’s big too
What a way to meet your fears
I’d probably have a heart attack before he’d get near
I freak out just seeing the tide at the seawall ๐
I might be out there in the morning watching sunrise
I need the vitamin D
Fuck that asshole
Fuck you
Fuck everything
The world is shit
I love hate ???? you
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Saving lives with the 2A is cool
“We’re sickened by…” as the cops sit around and do nothing
“It’s a federal matter” as our country and policies get destroyed by propaganda and immigration
More civilians are aware that cops are USELESS to protect the citizens
And just like that the 2A was used to stop a gunman at the Mall who was targeting and killing innocent women
A 22 year old male STOPPED the gunman
And now more people will start playing hero of the day
I suspect subliminal messaging is being used – on those who watch porn and horror or listen to certain music
“You will buy a gun”
Yes you will
And you will go to the range and you will start practicing to learn to defend yourself and those around you ๐๐
And maybe you’ll save a 12 year old girl from being shot at the mall
SHE SURVIVED
(Another shooting happened in Indiana on Thursday. Just stay home or get you a weapon and a carry permit)
If you’re a soldier with a DD 214 you won’t need to go to any kind of civilian classes because you’ve already been trained by the fucking militia so you’ll just need to worry about your carry permit and whatever else your state requires
But you get to pass Go, you’ll still need to pay some dollars for the permit ๐คช
We wasn’t worried about immigration when we were playing Monopoly were we
Hollywood is pumping you full of mental trash – that causes mood and behavioral changes – as well as brain damage
I’m glad you and your porn star can talk about the latest Batman movie though but you won’t catch me in the fucking theaters
FUCK YOU and the Minions too ๐
And I hate Google. I’m not sharing any articles because many of them are forcing you to pay for their junk now – which is mostly gaslighting and propaganda – so you can just Google a different article until you find one that is free information. Fuck subscribing to this insanity. You’re literally funding it. I SAID LITERAL. DEAL WITH IT
Dark Energy (poetry)
I’m parting galaxies to say goodbye
Dark energy is a force that repels
But space was occupied
And like the The Great Attractor
You’re 300,000,000 million light-years wide
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Hotspots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Florida teen drowns in Daytona Beach during ocean swim Thursday evening
A 14-year-old Altamonte Springs boy drowned during a swim in the ocean in Daytona Beach, according to Volusia County Beach Safety Ocean Rescue.
โ Read on www.news-journalonline.com/story/news/local/volusia/2022/07/08/florida-teen-drowns-daytona-beach-during-ocean-swim-thursday-evening/10012010002/
14 ๐
Bless his heart ๐
I’M NOT GETTING IN THE OCEAN. EVERY TIME I GO TO THE BEACH THERE ARE RED FLAGS. IF YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND MY FEAR, WATCH THE PINNED VIDEO ON MY TIKTOK.
I DON’T WANT TO DROWN. I DON’T WANT TO DIE.
JUST STAY HOME. CAN’T EVEN GO FOR A BIKE RIDE WITHOUT NEARLY DYING.
GOD IS TRYING TO KEEP ME SAFE
I have the WORST fear of drowning
I’m scared of all bodies of water, sometimes including my bath tub.
DEATH IS EVERYWHERE
Wager (poetry)
City shapes
Burning dreams
No fire escape
Prying stranger
Pulling on shadow
Devil I wager
Access denied
Salt for sandbag
Forced unsubscribe
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Side-note: my therapist said she was proud of my improvement and mindfulness practices
Keys (journal entry)
I gave you keys to my trust and you broke it when I was vulnerable
Barging into the night a maniac drunken on furor
All around you the ground dishonor
You’ve been AWOL in spirit and now demand rescue
Your only form of payment sabotage
You’ve pissed all over my door
And even now the stench is more than I can handle
Full throttle now as I drop my stern
There are bodies collecting under the hull
My regrets are tiny fractions compared to your sin’s shadow
And every moment now it is growing taller: see what you’ve done
Your bridge is so far burned that galaxies are splitting dimensions
I sat in the dark void dying
How the ocean crushes you the deeper you fall
God was the only one who heard my crying
Even now, my heart beats differently
You should have left it fantasy. Or, at the very least, not reduced me to a working free whore.
I don’t need anyone or anything devaluing my life.
Therapy is a lot work, you’re a train wreck.
You act a child as if a prize.
You’re gonna get blocked.
Even better, a restraining order.
I had a little fun with you behind closed doors, attempting to role-play, but your intentions are clearly sinister.
I never asked you to divulge who you were, or personal details of your life, mixing fantasy with real life.
And having the audacity to treat me like trash during the worst time of my life. ๐
Yeah cool but we’re done.
You can fuck off now.
I want to work on building healthy relationships with normal human beings.
I am in intense therapy to change my bad habits and thoughts.
I don’t owe you a fucking thing.
I don’t have to tell you to never call me again because I’ll change my fucking number and address.
I’ll never make the mistake of having fun behind closed doors either.
I am not a sex worker nor have I ever taken or sent photos of me performing sex acts.
I have done nude modeling in the past, I’m not ashamed.
I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TACKY WITH ANYONE.
You’re a disgusting individual.
Stay away from me.
I don’t need you coming into my inbox treating me like a sex object and I know you keep all your favorite porn stars number one – so get the fuck out of my life
I’m a GOOD GIRL
I’ve just fallen on some hard times and unfortunately bad people take advantage of that.
You’re two different people.
I wouldn’t even give a fuck if you knew how to treat me with an ounce of dignity and respect but you don’t even know how to treat yourself that way.
I don’t wish any harm of you.
I’m just not gonna waste my time praying you will get better.
You’re sinking my ship.
Don’t make me cut you off.
You’re crossing lines you cannot return from.
I CANNOT RETURN FROM THE DEPTHS YOU ARE PUSHING ME.
YOU MUST LET ME GO NOW
Fixed (poetry)
It broke my heart
Then fixed my vision
I’m deconstructing
With loose precision
No color chart
Mouth found derision
My soul eructing
Opposing decision
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
So change is hard. Reprogramming requires commitment. Daily sacrifice. Stopping negative thoughts. Mindfulness. You gotta climb after that shit like Mount Everest. YOU GOTTA WANT IT.
“But I like being sinister”. You’ve never tried anything else. And that’s the Devil talking. You should be put down. Like a homeless pet. Or an animal with the taste for human blood.
You shouldn’t be allowed to wander the streets of a “civilized society”. ๐
Personally, I’m under development currently.
UNDER CONSTRUCTION
I want to learn to exist with another when the time comes.
I also need a class on organization or for somebody to help me but I am still trying to figure it all out.
Windows open. Fresh air. Detoxing on Apple Cider Vinegar and Black Walnut & Wormwood DAILY
I MADE IT THROUGH ANOTHER NIGHT
I’M GOING TO TRY TO MAKE IT THROUGH ANOTHER DAY
I don’t have any design skills
I move furniture and things around from one spot to another
There’s got to be some better order
I hang things up with thumb tacks
Curtain’s are a foreign concept
I’ll eat food cold from the can ๐
Some people are rich and eat from pizza boxes while judging from their empty thrones
Meanwhile, spirits hang with me in the foxholes
I talk to the dead
I HAVE BETTER RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE DEAD ๐
I WANT TO BE HUMAN
*In therapy*
That’s what my welcome mat should say… ๐คช
Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal
Two societies (an idea)
We need two different societies at this point.
One for the soulless remorseless narcissists’ who live in AI & sin – & humans who prefer natural/nature
Why should all the good people continue to reward criminals with free housing, dental, and fame
Go forth into the future without me
Bye ๐
PoeEternal 