There’s no out except through
Derealization
There’s no I within you
I can’t cut the rope in two!

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I like my hat
I just wanted to show you
That’s all
*cricket cricket*
There’s no out except through
Derealization
There’s no I within you
I can’t cut the rope in two!

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I like my hat
I just wanted to show you
That’s all
*cricket cricket*
We can’t stop tomorrow
Falling in the center of all hollow
Black hole is sorrow
Do you have hope to borrow?
And where I’m crawling narrow
Do you really care though?
Always chasing pharaoh
Name sinner sparrow

I can eat a meal with Abraham
Or Gideon
Fight the city of Sodom
Blindsided with no hand
They call me FALLEN
Say my name –
Never see me crawling
Calling poison pollen

His self-worth
Is wrapped in numbers and money
Thinks darkness is sunny
Swallowed by sinkhole
Earth on cruise control
Got my spirit low
I live on limestone
Love is a feeble and fragile fire
Under denial
He will still smile
Lie while under trial
Claim that he misdialed
He’s a pedophile

I’m not interested in validation
But more of if today I will eat a salad
Maple
Blood of the gods
Drink it in gobs
Amber makes tongue throb
Need it a lot
Plot for my crop

He can’t believe he crawled into that hole
Based on the lies he was presented
His death could’ve been prevented
He uses me to speak it
Lives are born and never recorded
They are important
If eyes were closed
His love disposed
His blood runs cold
Like death decomposed
The worst of all possible punishment
Put it on a monument
Pay the earth a compliment
Nevermind where heaven went
Paid with life and not one cent
Left us broke to an extent
You think dying’s intimate?

Well my hand was drawn at midnight
13 minutes after bad luck
Tiny feet kick through sheet rock
I don’t give a fuck
He’s glaring attentive
The sun burning incentive
He stands with attention
Will burn through dissension
Better to be a warrior in a garden, than a gardener in a war
That’s my rapport
Put it on a flag and let’s explore
The garden is what I’m fighting for
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
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Photos from last nights try on session (so casual stuffs)
I’m still rearranging my bedroom and my bed is now on the floor and I gave my neighbor my lazy chair recliner because I’m still getting rid of furniture and might be homeless soon thanks to Black Rock dictatorship
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I can’t fall in love with things I don’t like
Some dogs makes you want to end your life

Luck and fortune
I want an option
Hope found at auction?
I burn every doctrine
Feet keep marching
I’m cursing often
Earth will be my coffin
Chasing after nothing
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I made spicy pasta today. And still munching on the oatmeal protein balls. I’ll share more homemade recipes soon + poetry + photography.
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First off, you can use whatever veggies, herbs, and meats you like. But this pot is organic and vegan and made with love. No recipe book! ❤️

Jesus said when he comes back he’s hitting my door for some soups
I didn’t use all my cherry rainbow tomatoes or tomatoes on the vine (or peppers and herbs) cuz I’m using some to make pasta sauce

I don’t have a fancy kitchen setup yet but I’m using a glass pot and Florida spring water
I do advise that you drink spring water locally wherever you are

I used a can of tomato sauce this time – it made absolutely no difference in taste turn out – it did however help since I was using less tomatoes this time to make my base

Glass pot + Spring water + sauce + handful of medley cherry tomatoes 🍅 + low heat (simmer around 3-4 heat)

Start dropping herbs and spices (you will be cooking with your eyes and nose for the next few hours)

I tossed in a couple small handfuls of green split peas + lentils

2 + 2 and stir frequently but gently so they don’t stick (I do not presoak in poison)

We’re making witches stew (vegetable soup – can be made with a fire and cauldron potentially)

Now I’m dicing peppers and celery to get the broth nice and tasty – these can be diced small – we’ll add more later towards the end – so don’t put it all in now
This is how it’s going

You can add salt and pepper now – slow and steady wins the race (no taste testing until the potatoes are being tried) (we haven’t put any potatoes in the pot yet so stop freaking out). I use about a quarter amount of salt in my palm – about 4 pinches worth – THIS TIME AND EACH TIME

I also used a dash of sea salt that states it does not provide the necessary nutrients – and I’m still on the hunt for the correct salt to use
My doctor did say I needed more salt and that was when I was just using the sea salt that doesn’t provide the necessary nutrient

You wanna add all your spices now – but not at one time. They were out of fresh rosemary but I had some dry herbs on stock (I am not growing my own herbs and peppers and tomatoes because I don’t have a balcony or porch to do that and all the apartments I lived in before I could at least grow some herbs and peppers and shit)

I did use fresh cilantro and parsley 🌿 and lots of it too (saved some for the upcoming pasta)

And you’ll likely need to add a touch more water later – you don’t want the beans using up all your water and the extra fiber will be very hearty (also these require half an hour at normal temps to cook on their own, these will require the full simmer time of 2-3 hours, you’ll need to stir gently and often to ensure proper rotation

At this point I’m still dicing peppers, onions, and adding herbs 🪴
I use seeds yes – skins and seeds 🙌
My soup turns out mild so I gotta kick up the heat soon

During the broth making session, the items are diced (celery, onion, tomatoes on the vine – I kept the cherry tomatoes whole and did not pop them unless they popped on their own)

Celery makes for a delicious broth
I generally add more to the soup during the end – so I have a slightly crunchy celery and pepper (no carrots this time but lots of cabbage)

With the rosemary (pre stir)
But now you can start adding yer tators! I used 3 this time! I wanted extra potato since I had no fresh carrots!

And I plan on making homemade baked fries with skins on! Potato logs!
Trying new thangs!

LOOK AT IT 🤩
I kept skins on! All the thangs! (Not the onion)

Once the tators are near done, you can add cabbage, more peppers, celery, onion, salt n spices

It’ll smell divine

It’s soup fit for a king 👑

I’m carefully adding MORE cabbage
Don’t spill a drop!

It’s almost done and you can add more salt and pepper but once I put mine in a bowl it does not need anything else but I literally could add salt and pepper until I was dead

I also carefully added dark red kidney beans because the heart needs!!!
And this is the end result of hard work and love

Several bowls and will last several days in a fridge if eating alone (unless you go hog wire)

I didn’t add any jalapeño sauce or cheese or extra salt or pepper or anything afterwards but it probably could use any of those things and make it taste even better
I GOT ONE GIANT DOUBLE BOWL REMAINING

I’ve also been drinking this tea and I recommend it or any version that is a healthy version without the poison but it’s the ginger turmeric that helps inflammation/heart/gut health

I gotta start using the real stuff

Coffee and tea and soup. It’s like my soul purpose.

I made Vegan oatmeal protein balls and I’ll do an upcoming blog post and how to make those! Simple! Easy! Maybe 20 minutes from prep to finish!
Thanks for stopping by my blog! 🙌
I reactivated my Insta but with boundaries 🤪
My awesome hot pants workout set will be arriving Friday! They shipped it out same day! 🎃
The vegan treats are worth sticking around for and don’t let the word vegan scare you. PROTEIN BALLS 🤤

You should’ve kept your mouth shut
So deep my wound you felt the cut
I guess you’d say you bleed somewhat
If you stab in the gut
Sometimes I feel rushed
The weight of a feather crushed
As long as voice is hushed
The praise will gush

I’M ACTUALLY NATIVE AMERICAN BROWN WITH SOME ALBINO AND SUN SPOTS FROM THE SOURCE

I bring you gifts
Of all the things you hate
Kick you from cliffs
And blame you for the weight

You’re a savage and a servant
You’re a lion and a lamb
Lessons you never learned it
And regret
You won’t feel a milligram

Are you a gap in reflection?
A two way mirror complexion?
Can you give me protection?
Such priceless affection?

I want to disturb the place you rest
Uneasy under crest
The earth must love you best
Won’t let go your chest

I don’t follow the trends
They lead to dead ends!

Long ago I was discarded
Does faith keep one safeguarded
God is brokenhearted
Gone extinct his harvest
I cry the hardest
Remove the harness
Underneath the carcass
Decay just a garnish
Layer earth with tarnish
We all die regardless

Top of the list huh
Right next to “she is dumb”
So above and below your thumb
Better argument and income
That’s the mirror you’re seeing from
REMOVED MYSELF FROM THE EQUATION
A GHOSTLY INVASION

I can see through hell’s shadow
He’s drinks coffee like espresso
I removed self from the status quo
I KNOW MY POSITION THOUGH

I’m up, you’re down?
Quantum entanglement
We wear it like a crown?

My gifts come with all the things he hates
Open up these flooded gates
Love obviates
Nothing he appreciates
Tart
Like black cherry
Contempt he’ll carry
Bag overflowing heavy
Sin his sanctuary
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
THERE’S MORE POETRY COMING SOON – I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU
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P.S. I’m not giving up on the dog. We went for two bike rides yesterday. I finally got the bike out of the house. Most of the black neighbors looked like they wanted to run over me and one white neighbor stopped in his car and warned me that they do 90 around the bend and “be careful”.
I’m not racist I swear. (Everyone hates me for my skin color or my soul. I don’t know which anymore but the city IS dangerous and folks being murdered left and right).
They are targeting the disabled and single white girls. FYI (old people and generally anyone looking weak)

It’s a slow march to a death camp
Crawl in with a headlamp
Squeeze so tight no sin left
Don’t take on the wrong quest

I’m certain he’s the devil
Manifested on a different level
These walls are made of metal
Head first equals peril

If I were a wave plummeting him
He’d still be able to swim

I sleep on a bed of bayonet, switchblades, and regrets
My dreams are silhouettes

Fatal convenience
Sinning seemless

Am I separate from my shadow?
Do you keep my thoughts low?
Do you know I’m fallow?
Galloping the hallow?
Tripping to the tempo!

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Thanks for stopping by my blog! xox
I stitched you into fabric
Maybe not elaborate
Tiny bit of havoc
Maybe out of habit
With some twigs and magic
Spilled blood and tragic
Wind blown erratic
Pages blank but classic

Well now I’ve found the warmth
Wrapped up in your world
From east to north
Stepping back and forth

I have been to hell and back
Got the almanac
Full sins on attack
My wings are carbon black

If photons had a clock
The clock would never tick
Don’t you question it
My love for him
It’s just physics

I think he is precious
Sun burning contentious
Heavy metal pretentious
Like moon is reckless
Tiny little crevice
Will appear speckless
Diamond for necklace
Can leave lung breathless

How to avoid a road to hell?
I think it’s where we fell?
Should have gone left?
What do you suggest?

He’s got a crown and sword
I want to fall on

To die tenderly
Kinetic energy
Your words –
Are haunting me

You will find God if you look lower
Crawl feet first but slower
Remove bad clover
Like a whistleblower

My growth has been stunted
Under moon words hunted
Why you are confronted
All my love abundance
Love you in hundreds
Sometimes wounds are gutted
Jump in holes redundant
Forget the summit
Pitched in black no judgment
My hope is funded
Through your words I’m blooded
Heart beats on like flooded
I know what you did
Whole world screams forbid
Death cannot disconnect our power grid
And if your words are a puddle
I’d jump in again and again
Don’t care how deep it gets
Love you from within

I’m an advanced prototype
You know I’m right

He’s racially prejudice
Erasing the best of us
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Thank you for reading xox
THOSE IN POWER ONLY CARE ABOUT GREED

WE MUST NOT LET THEM LEAVE

SCIENCE REBELLION!!! IT’S VERY COMPELLING!
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I JUST WOKE UP AND STOLE THE IMAGES FROM TIKTOK AND TURNED THE IDEA INTO A POEM. NEW TREND. SUE ME. The creator is in the poem.
GODDESS
I’ve been praying for answers though on what to do, on how to take down the elite and all these goddamn mushrooms keep popping up all around this lake and now this very clear information came through to me and this is something that we all can hold them back from
LEAVING EARTH
(We can’t go anyway but we can absolutely stop them)
WE CAN STOP THEM 😈😈😈😈
Also – I firmly believe that we dropped a giant bomb on Mars and we’ve been cloning for a long time
There is now evidence coming out that a bomb was dropped on Mars – (they’ll say an Asteroid ☄️)
They keep spraying poison over all the flowers on the road and now they want us to pay for them to plant flowers that they killed
And I did
The enemy is sitting rich on his throne while he fucking poisons my food air and water
WE CAN STOP THEM
I WANT BIG BOI ON MY TEAM
I’ll be lingering near the safe zone of the beach when the shit hits the fan
But it won’t matter if I have an old working jeep or are new working jeep, I can’t outrun the Lord!!!
I would like a floaty device tho
Jesus: you get one question go:
Me: how to save a barnacle? How to save the world? 😌
Right now the message imcoming is: WE CANNOT LET THEM LEAVE
Ready to sell my TV and destroy the elite
If you let your children use virtual reality gaming you are ruining their brain and if you use it for porn you are ruining your brain – you’re not supposed to have that much dopamine being released and it’s literally destroying the fabric of your identity and CELLS
Advertising is just as intrusive
That’s why sometimes you want to cry after an ad
ADVERTISING IS CONDITIONING AND MOST ADS LIE!!!!!!! THE GOVERNMENT IS OUR ENEMY NOW IN EVERY CAPACITY OF THE WORD – THERE IS NO HIDING THE EVIL NOW
THEIR ACTIONS DON’T MATCH THEIR WORDS
I don’t like to brag about the places I’ve been but today I went to the grocery store 😎




I made the whole thing from scratch, no guidebook




Him: any addictions?
Me: I’ll die without food 👀




The pantry and fridge is full!!!! 🤩

Walmart was completely out of eggs, coffee, red potatoes, and other items I ordered

When I asked if they had “less eggs available”, the employee replied, “we have no eggs”, and there were a few items that got substituted instead and I was actually grateful for that

The organic maple syrup was being bought out online as I was buying, along with many items, and the time slots available for delivery or pickup were already filled until 9 am Monday (today)

So I’m lucky I got any items at all

2 pounds of rolled oats! Only need 1 cup (uncooked) for the vegan protein balls! 🤪

The substituted Maple will do just fine (and can be used for pancakes too)

I recommend using a good peanut butter but I didn’t fit it into the budget – mostly because I have six jars of donated jars I wanna use up – and I’m relying less on the food banks as my main source of food

Got all sorts of edible thangs!

I still have regular pumpkin seeds to add to my nut and seed mix, but topped up on the roasted seeds and glad I scored a bag cuz they only had 4 left!

Food is healing and I got stuff I can eat if the lights go out

Tomatoes on the vine!

Fresh herbs, peppers, spices!

Apparently you can sprinkle flax on anything so it’ll probably get in the trail mix for starters 🤪

Peppers galore

I’m famished 🤪

Scored a purple and green head of cabbage!!! 🤩

Witchy vegan stew incoming soon 🤪

My dog is driving me insane and I do wish our nightmare would come to an end

6 excellent years followed by 5 terrible

And no, I don’t want him anymore. He ain’t a dog.

5 pounds of potatoes and despite how terrible the dog treats me, he eats like a king

Pound of dry beans + canned beans in case

Him: any additions?
Me: beans

Loads and loads of good eating this month

More of the good salt which may not be good after all but SALT

And this tea to help with inflammation but I need to learn to use the real stuff and baby steps….

The only water available…

And I still have a pound of raw cashews and 3 bottles of detox incoming

They were out of coffee and eggs tho and this was the only dairy I got (I’m trying to quit cheese and yogurt currently)

I didn’t show all the herbs but I’ve got some fresh cilantro and parsley to toss in the soup – not to mention like 6 or 7 fresh jalapeños (and a bag of sweet peppers).

Unfortunately the banana chips and the dark chocolate have natural flavor in it so I won’t be able to do those again but for now it will be a good snack. The dark chocolate is intended for the coffee. Luckily, the container I just popped makes 148 cups! But wasn’t able to restock this month!
Him: any addictions?
Me: coffee and cabbage 🤪
I got green and purple! I just desperately wanted a head! God made sure I got two!!! I’ll make good use! No eggs but protein balls and extra cabbage! Plus, that bag of oats was bigger than I thought! 2 pounds! My nuts are also the big boys!!! Happy to have a stocked fridge and pantry tis all!
I’ll find water but I need a filter for the sink! God wants me to become more self-reliant! Less plastic! Less waste!!! Less poison!!!!!! I can’t believe nobody is protesting the water being poisoned but I may start showing up at City Hall soon. But I’d rather buy an acre with a mobile home. Witchy stew and protein balls.
THANK THE LORD! 🙏

Gonna make some hot pepper sauce with the fresh peppers and vinegar! Homemade soup and pepper sauce!!! 🎃
Power is out

And everything went dark
But bro inspired me so much
I’ve been writing and in survival mode
Need to save the juice
I’ll post more when I can
Say hello to Hurricane Ian

These shots were taken before the power went out
The dark was Ian…

Could be out of power for days…

I posted stuff on TikTok and Insta before I went down
That dude was not drunk
He was walking a straight line in hurricane winds
Now meybeeee he had a drink
But he was not staggering and had full control
I was worried I was gonna get booted off of my live for dangerous activities so I was letting people know that I was not part of that group but looking back on it he had so much courage, will, and strength
He was exercising and taking dips in Hurricane Ian
The way that bird hovered near him
It was like watching a real life gladiator undergoing some sort of spiritual thang
THIS COULD BE NORMAL ACTIVITY FOR HIM
Meanwhile, I was standing with my legs shoulder length apart holding the damn camera arm with both hands with all my might being blown left and right!!!
My lower back was hurting from being beat by the wind!!!
There were two others in his group that were undressing to go in that chose not to
I was live on TikTok so it took me by surprise – didn’t want dude to drown
That motherfucker is the son of Poseidon or some shit – like he is in god mode or something exercising his demons or gaining full control of them
I get chills watching back on it lol
I’m afraid for the water to touch me and this dude was baptizing in the storm
LOL
Not just any storm either…
Apparently one of the worst hurricanes to hit Florida in 100 years
My power has been down an hour or so
I definitely was not prepared but I have several hours maybe days worth of candle light that I can use and I’ll probably mostly use it at night time for 2 to 3 hours only

Woah. Phenomenal. Thanks.


If I lose power, there will be no warning, and last two hurricanes my area went dark for a week
I ain’t ghosting no one
I was unable to stock up on water as it was ALL OUT EVERYWHERE 🤨
I went beachside again and this dude TOOK A SWIM/WALK/CAT BATH in the damn sea!
Think he was attempting to step on water at some point 🎃
👇
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRmAKqTS/
FYI the wind was so gnarly I had to stand with my feet shoulder with apart, leaning into the wind battering me to death AND it required TWO HANDS just to hold my device
I was getting blown away and he was taking dips like a bird

Sidestepping a hurricane
And the way the bird kept rhythm with him entering the ocean
Not a sign of doom
GLADIATOR DUDE
I want him on my team for the apocalypse
Let’s feed him good
💪
He conquered something because his step was getting more powerful the closer in
STOMPING THE STORM
I’m terrified of the ocean calm so this was kind of incredible to see
He didn’t seem drunk, more determined
STUPID COURAGEOUS (oxymoron!?!)
He woke
And he definitely pissed off
SEA MONSTER CONQUERED SOMETHING TODAY
His fears? 🌀
I could barely stand and the wind nearly blew my Jeep door off
GUSTY
Also, I met a one legged bird and nearly wept
And an outcast because weak
But that seabird was so strong 😑
Sad but strong
Struggling to survive with one leg 😑
Now I’m gonna cry again 😑

The one legged bird and gladiator vibes at the beach today
It’s never dull even when it’s dull
Because people were complaining about the live lmao
Not all but some
🤪
Most enjoyed getting to see the fury but I can’t do anything about the sound quality

Got some photos I’ll upload and maybe that bird
Bless its heart one leg and all 😑
I’m too sensitive and too empathetic
I nearly lost it on the live – emo 😑

Water is sold out everywhere
I’m not wasting time, energy, gas, running around for scraps
TIME TO RATION SUPPLIES – SOMETHING THESE GREEDY NARCISSIST KNOW NOTHING ABOUT

The town is under curfew

Most businesses are closed or are closing early (I was gonna cheat and get fast food after finding zero water but the universe said NOPE don’t want you eating that crap)

The lights were on and they were open and workers were inside on the clock getting paid to do nothing – quiet quitting every chance they get on our dime
THE LAZY GENERATION
WANTS TIPS BEFORE SERVICE AND ZERO QUALITY SERVICE AT THAT
DELUSIONAL
I’ll post some videos on TikTok if I’m allowed and while I still have power
It might not get that bad but I have lived through two hurricanes where I live and power was out for a week
No fucking water anywhere
NONE
I’m gonna look on Walmart delivery or pickup if they have it…
I’M EXPECTING THEM TO NOT OR TO HAVE JACKED UP THEIR PRICES FOR BASIC LIVING NECESSITIES WHICH SHOULD BE ILLEGAL

Haven’t had any Evec orders but we are under curfew
I still have 4 gallons of water so hopefully I’m okay
I need out of the city tho
It’s not safe here
In any capacity

I went live for a few minutes, got entirely soaked walking around the ocean, I’ll get the videos posted since none of the locations had drinking water

Had some pissy people on the live apparently. Acting as if hurricane ocean is safe. 🤡
I ain’t dying for views. But I am a blogger and I do share my environment.
Things are taking forever to upload too 🤪
My fridge is empty and so are the stores which are closing early
The power can go out and my electric bill probably still gonna be through the roof
I don’t want modern luxury if it takes three jobs to pay your electric and your rent

20220926 Governor Ron DeSantis Issues Updates on State Preparedness for Hurricane Ian | Florida Disaster
— Read on www.floridadisaster.org/news-media/news/20220926-governor-ron-desantis-issues-updates-on-state-preparedness-for-hurricane-ian2/
Just an FYI my county is under hurricane watch:
Volusia county is listed in the warning link above – The Governor of Florida recommended it! ⚠️
I promptly went to visit.
I have lived through TWO hurricanes where I currently live and did lose power both times for a week!
I am not prepared at all… 🤪
But hopefully I can get some necessities in a few days.
I’ve got 4 gallons of water currently so the panic is setting in.
Boo season is here!!! 🎃
Just an FYI if I lose power and whatnot
 I don’t need power to jump on my rebounder and I don’t need power to ride my bicycle unless it’s flooding but we’ll see how it goes…
The fridge and pantry is low tho and I’m living on the edge (Mostly paycheck to paycheck like every American and I’m not gonna feel ashamed about it)
But if I disappear from the face of the earth, I’m just surviving Hurricane Ian – headed directly my way. Same county and all.
Yay!!!!!!!!!’ Scary season!!!!! 🎃
Pray for me. For safety and thangs. 🙌🙏📿
I’ve survived TWO living right here.
🌀🌀

At all costs!
They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health

Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS
Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16
I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence
I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose
That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time
COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES
Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration
Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?
I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere
I feel a stranger in my own land
But I’m not allowed to talk about it
I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect
I swore an oath
I SWORE
To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism
The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers
And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either
I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health
And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012
IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated
And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty “I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”
He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀
He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs
He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)
But God will be reigning on him soon
He was warned
Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel
Possibly his guardian angel
He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!
Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😤
I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd
I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment
I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people
I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge
But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art
I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people
I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband
I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn
And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if
CLUELESS
I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment
We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet
Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy
The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system 
Especially as a female….
“Never go anywhere alone”
“If you get lost, stand still”
Like, I can keep going…
I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits
I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)
Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪
You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control
I’m trying to save you
I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace
I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)
He can have his freedom I fought for
But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God
I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies
Top of his lists
Of doesn’t give two shits

I don’t have anything to offer
When he can buy it all
A narcissist will not suffer
Like an angel will fall

Let him run to Paris!
Let him have his fun!
My name’s Polaris
Like lightning from a gun!

Have you been to the petrified forest in North Dakota?
Have I lost my quota?

God made galaxies to be seen
The calm and serene
The moon and evergreen
The sun and me

Full moon tomorrow
And I’m all sorrow

Mary Magdalene was a whore
Who slept with men for honey
Wanted bread, not money
What’s to abhor?

The homeless are an invasive species
Or so the TV tells me
As rent continues skyrocketing
The problem aren’t the elites

I’m organic
It makes the Devil frantic!
Hand stitched by God
The Devil cannot stand it!

See the full set on my OnlyFans (thank you so much for your support, as I like food a lot, despite the petite appearance…)

11 hours go by
17 make me cry

Why you take so long to respond to me
Takes an eternity

Mercury in Retrograde
Not like the softness in my tears
The way you disappear
Demand both sin and aid!
God’s not counting years
So the moon will not persuade
Though full when he appears
With only faith to trade
God’s not missing here
The King is a fool
Burning his confidant of truth

The next time God sends you something with wings
It won’t have feathers
Looks like bad weather
Be damned is what it means
I warn of things
When in doubt
Burrow
Like a fox
Make it thorough

Can we start over?
Since we never have before?
An open shoulder?
Not a closed door?
Father,
I have lost all sense of worth
I put in the work
Darkness was my crutch
Jumping cliff to perch
Swearing off the church
I know Satan’s lurch
Full sin born at birth
Decades roaming earth
Hell, heaven or hearth
Please save me

I fell like a sword
Over propaganda
I am abhorred
God did not abandon
Heart can be restored
Faith my companion
He treats me like a number in the crowd
He’s a puddle and I can’t get out

I found myself a lost wanderer
Surrounded in fear
With water creeping near
But without wonder
Year after year
I know I am average
I am shrinking here
And now, under moon
A ceremonial ego death
Hard to draw a breath
John Jones go left!
I wake up in sweat
I lost a brother
Maybe the best
I am covered in agony
One lifeline to heaven please
God is feeding me
Gave me life and seed
Said get creating
Heart has energy
Blood is poetry
The earth took my blood
Water turned bone to stone
Earth is my home!

Earth is lying!!!!!!!
AND I MUST WEEP ALONE!!!!!!!
Tiny raindrops pouring down
Your energy speaks volumes
There in the Bayou
Lies who?
Cutting blood ties
With moonstone
What could go wrong
Hissing with his lies
Missing is his tries
Left to roam alone
I’m not crawling to my doom
I take cover under moon
My cloth isn’t costume
My favorite color isn’t gloom
I’m not chasing after you
The baby likely died last
Down in the valley
Family finale
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
All poetry and photography by @poeeternal
I’m aware my artistry is waning like the moon (sometimes thangs are better but I always put full heart in)
I hope there was something you enjoyed and there is more content coming! 🤪
I got folks coming to my blog telling me to cover up. Last I checked I was a GROWN WOMAN and nudity is NOT A SIN
God made me capable of having children at 13 and I believe I should’ve been allowed to choose a husband while under the age of 18
SOCIETY IS A SCAM

They want me covered up in jab cuz they can’t control their urges
They teach their children women are to be seen as sex objects only – only nude when servicing man
The guy coming to my blog telling me to cover up is the same guy who supports porn stars and the porn industry and jerks off to porn religiously but then goes to church and drops some money in the tray and thinks everything is OK
HE THINKS HE CAN COME TO MY BLOG AND SHAME ME
“You’re pretty but cover up”

How about shut the fuck up
I love when they attach “friend” to the insult
Delusional
Glad he’s enjoying farm life and three meals a day plus infinite snacks
BUT YOU PISSED ON ONE OF GOD’S ANGELS
HE’S TAKING NOTE
I am grateful for your viewship. I shouldn’t have to censor myself on my own blog. It goes against my purpose of full transparency and truthmongering. Sorry not sorry.
“I don’t want my kids to see this”
You mean the same kids you let loose in the mall and at Walmart whom openly sale erotic adult sex toys IN FRONT OF CHILDREN – not behind a curtain 👀
LOL m’kay
GO BACK TO SLEEP
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DISPLAYING IT ALL 🤪

God said galaxies were made to be seen and all things in-between; including me

That is all…
THIS IS HOW TO BECOME OBSOLETE OVER 40

I WILL BE TOLD TO BE COVERED IN FULL JAB

BETTER NOT SHOW ANY RUINED SKIN

BETTER HIDE THE PEACHY PEACH

WOULD NOT WANT THE MEN INTERESTED IN OUR RUINED MAMA BODIES EH

GOTTA COVER THEM SAGGY BOOBS UP

GOT BLOGGERS COMING TO MY OWN WEBSITE TELLING ME TO COVER UP

I CAN’T EVEN FINISH THE ARTICLE AND STOP TELLING ME HOW TO DRESS, WHEN TO HAVE SEX, HOW TO NOT BE FEMININE – WOULD’NT WANT TO STEAL ATTENTION FROM THE GAYS!!!!!! GOTTA MAKE SURE THE MEN FEAST ON THE LITTLE CHILDREN!!!!!!! FUCK SOCIETY!!!!!!!

NOW I GOTTA CALL THE LANDLORD TO FIX THE HOLE IN THE WALL AND IT’S UNRELATED I THINK 🤔
I HATE LIVING HERE AS MUCH AS JOHN JONES HATES THAT CAVE

DOLLS HOME MAY CONTAIN HOLES 🕳
STOP FORCING ME TO WEAR FULL DRAB BECAUSE YOU NEVER LEARNED SELF CONTROL
Forget the hole in the wall….
I GOT MY OWN DEMONS I AM DEALING WITH
Trent Reznor is rich and he dresses like a goth
He married a witch!!!
She dresses in black!!!!!!!!!
THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU
*proceeds to move goth bookshelf near bed*
*continues doing goth thangs*
I don’t have to change who I am or the things that bring me purpose to find a fucking husband
I’m gonna goth the fuck outta my bedroom
As soon as the things in the dolls home goes on sale and I refurbish my little bit of savings money to do a little bit more splurging for the home 🤪
YOU SHOULD SEE THE ITEMS IN MY WISHLIST
THE GOTHY PINKY BLACK THANGS
MAKE MY COFFIN GOTH
K, thanks, bye

EDGAR ALLAN POE WAS GOTH AND I AM HIS DAUGHTER INCARNATE
I don’t know if he would’ve been my dad or my brother or my cousin because he married his fucking blood cousin but whatever
HE WAS GOTH
DUHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU KNOW YOU LIKE IT
STOP GASLIGHTING
I’m in a cult – it’s a goth cult – and no amount of money will ever get me to leave
That’s like asking me not to breathe 🙄
Maybe if Trent Reznor drops out
MAYBE
He married an effing witch
Yeah no
Ain’t happening
My calling is being called
I AM A VAMPIRE GODDESS
I DO NOT BOW WITH FORCE OR MANIPULATION OR LIES
A KING HAS NOT A KINGDOM WITHOUT A QUEEN
I deleted you from my phone contact list and I’m not ghosting you, I’m setting fucking boundaries since you clearly, clearly have expressed differences with callous and stone
Fairly certain God is spitting on you and if he’s not, he will be reigning on you soon…
IT IS WRITTEN, IT IS SO
He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget

I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that

How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!

I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even

I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.
Yeah, I’m 44 and still a goth
BITE ME
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRacSGFp/
P.S. I don’t even know what my style is because I wasn’t allowed an identity growing up!!!! I like it now, maybe not forever!!!!!!
GET OFF YOUR HIGH THRONE!!!! YOU’RE GONNA DIE ALONE!!!!!!!!

DISPLAYING MYSELF PHOTOGRAPHY COMING SOON

COLLECTING STONES FOR PHOTOGRAPHY AND POETRY

Jesus completely submitted to his queen and gave over his ministry to her, FYI
SMART KING 👑
Anyhoo, just some comments that came on my blog today about how I should manner myself
My art is unbecoming
(Still holding top 51 tho thank you)
I MIGHT CAN GET GROCERIES NEXT WEEK TO MAKE MORE HEALING VEGAN SOUP AND GOD APPROVES
He thanks you because most men want to look but not share their fucking bread!!!!!
It’s written in the Bible!!!!!!
“Nice peach”. No, I ain’t got nothing for you to eat. Word of advice tho….”
I’VE GONE INSANE WITH HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF
GOD IS HELPING ME GET MYSELF AND MY KING TOGETHER SO WE CAN UNITE
THERE ARE FORCES AT WORK OUTSIDE OF AI OR THE ALGORITHM OR THE EVIL ELITES
COSMIC THANGS
MY KING AND I ARE UNDERGOING AWAKENING AND CLEANSING BEFORE WE UNITE
IMPATIENT IS OUR MIGHT
I WANT MY KING TO ENCOURAGE ME TO WEAR A THONG ON THE BEACH
I AM SICK OF BEING A NUN COVERED UP IN JAB
FUCK THE PATRIARCH!!!!!!!!
God loves my improv cooking!!!
God doesn’t want me starving or dying on the street!
God wants to see me more self-reliant and less having to rely on food banks for canned food
I do tasteful nude modeling and cosplay photography and art to accompany my poetry and it often correlates with the things that I am discussing in my poetry or what I’m even complaining about in the real world
I do full 36 page spreads (as they were once called) and now upload them somewhere I can earn some money – if I have anyone of interest and currently I’m grateful I do
Hmmmm starve or do photography that I enjoy that earns me a shopping trip to the health food shop for vegetables and stew
Hmmm starve or do something I’m passionate about 🧐
Die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe or try to overcome the odds 🤨
Most of them will say I wish I could buy you the moon while locking you on the bottom of the Titanic
I’d like to get to a point where I don’t have to fear losing my income or my housing
I’m already living under my means but yeah starve or stop displaying myself
Hmm I mean it’s a tough one cuz I apparently like to eat 🙄
But I have absolutely had this conversation with God 1 million times and I am not doing anything to disrespect myself or my future husband or anyone who is supporting my content
That’s the real problem and why I don’t have more supporters because I’m not an online nasty girlfriend
I’m not saying all men or bad or this fits all shoes
But I’ve maintained my purity and I’m only getting married once
I like producing content for my blog
Some of my stuff is very controversial and taboo 🤪
I think I’m autistic a bit because I always say what I think and I curse and I can be unempathetic during critical times as a survival mechanism and I always give too much info
I haven’t learned safe boundaries or acting on these sorts of online triggers
I don’t hate people for having incorrect opinions or viewpoints on me
These viewpoints are why I’m so isolated in the real world
Nudity wasn’t seen as a crime in Europe and nudity was in the commercials there
Now Walmart and the mall is openly selling sex toys – XXX sex toys in front of children
It traumatized me so much I don’t want to shop at Walmart or return to the mall
I don’t even own a sex toy and I’m not doing anything with my art that is shameful
I’m not into anything artificial and have been preserving myself for my king
Most people shame me for showing my body because it’s not full of plastic surgery or for not being thick
PRETTY BIAS ALSO EXISTS
You can tell by a lot of the comments these types of commenters leave me that they think I just stand in front of a fucking camera and have a photo taken and there is so much work involved in modeling and photography and directing and editing
“They got it so easy”
STOP GASLIGHTING ✋🛑✋
Since 1970, 68% of all life has gone extinct
HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING FARM AND FAMILY LIFE AND 3 MEALS A DAY
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

I’m now too small for a small 😫
Gotta start shopping extra small for the peach 😤
PLEASE VALIDATE ME BEFORE I DISAPPEAR INTO NON EXISTENCE
You taste of Judas Iscariot
Betrayal you’ll marry it
I’ve paid twice for sins
Won’t pay again
144 awakening
7th seal opening
Judgment hour
No hoping (John’s still coping)
One, two
See through all of you
Hell hath arrived
THERE ARE NO GOODBYES

Oh, Prince of This World
They aren’t your gifts to give
Heaven rules over all but this
God is the Void
But Satan rules this world

I am a beggar
Crawling eternally

Helpless to stop it
Remove self from equation
The devil is invasion
I’m losing patience!
Careful crossing occasion
Will get stuck persuading
Hopeful helpful information

Nature becomes conscious of itself through you

I NEED YOU LIKE ETERNITY
Hell is separation
I’M BURNING

If I die here
Nobody will know
I didn’t want to
But nobody will ask you

Fallen
Angelic
Trying to ascend
Need him more and then
Eleven hours spent
Not bad omen
Number signs godsend
I do listen
And then repent

Foreshadowing
But if he’s dropping flags
I’m walking in
Red carpet rolling
With a halo full of sin
God said keep walking
But I want him instead

He turns me SOFT
Like the Grand Canyon will flow
Paradigm shift halo
He owns my soul

I’m sorry he betrayed you
A devil said to shrewd
I think with gratitude
The sun burns the moon
I rest in solitude
Black as blue
But oh so devalued

I do not dream of labor
The moon a gaper
Place our love on paper
He calls –
I turn to vapor

We’re reaching terminal velocity
Death is nearing
Is this the correct speed?
Thought you needed me?

He’s wrapped up in deceit
Like a sheet
Am I a ghost
I am discreet

I’m without kingdom
Guarding eternity
Trident
I’m not lying

WHAT LIES
Beyond the horizon
CRIMINAL EYES
But the sun’s still rising
AND I’M HERE FOR BLOOD

Touch me
So the curse will lift
Kiss me on the lip
Keep me near your hip
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
More poetry and photography coming! Thank you for your interest in my content! I work hard at it! I hope you are enjoying the Halloween theme! Lingerie bodysuit by Dolls Kills! 🎃
I just dropped a set on the OnlyFans! 40 photos! Like when PlayBoy did 18 & 36 page spreads! SAME! 🤪
I’ve been busy writing and working out! I’ll post behind-the-scenes soon!
It’s BOO season!! 🎃🎃🎃
I’m ready to dawn the Halloween costume daily! I wanna go on a hayride!!!! 👀
All my content is original and I do not use an AI generator to write my poems nor do I scour the web for overused images by others. Sorry not sorry!

Thank you for your viewship and feedback! Highly appreciated! ❤️
I made the stew! I stopped by Publix and grabbed a few items to enhance the pot!

But I wanted to celebrate getting pushed into the top 50s by going and getting some additional ingredients to put into the vegan stew

Just a few fresh items from the produce section
Also stocked up on my spring water from the Dollar Tree

And I’m avoiding those little plastic bags and bottles as much as possible

I AM STILL EATING HEALTHY AND THRIFTING
But I found TWO better stores to thrift – where the prices are clearance prices and the items are NEW
Both the stores are also very popular, so it’s really challenging to get the items that I want and personally I’m starting to find it a whole lot more fun than driving around to all these different thrift stores around the city and only finding over priced used items (gas prices are killing me)

People coughing left and right from God knows what
I’M STILL RECOVERING FROM HEART INFLAMMATION
And I’m taking the little bit of income I am earning from the hard work that I’m doing and I’m investing it back into my health and my work which is the sole purpose of me doing all this anyway 🤪
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I don’t want to drop dead of COVID like my sister did in January at the age of 45
There are people out there who don’t want to see me get healthy or to move and basically they want to see me drop dead
THEY ARE ROOTING FOR ME TO DIE

*sigh* the aliens are us. Religion. It’s all just us. We do have a creator tho. But this society is a false entity. Anyhoo.
Chris Cornell (FROWN GARDEN) had just performed a sold out show before he went back to his hotel room and tapped the lights on and off from an app to let his wife know that he was checking out permanently and BOOM he’s gone
MONEY ISN’T THE ANSWER

His mother follows me on Instagram and they don’t care about nudity, they don’t care about that fucking shit, but what they care about is mental health and me not fucking dying

It’s weird when the love of your life does not watch your stories but Chris Cornell’s mother does (hello heaven)

My best friend died by suicide and Soundgarden was her favorite band
😑
Everything I love is going extinct

They spent weeks tearing up the earth and now I no longer hear pretty bird sing 😑
I’m being driven insane 😑

In 2018 when I had to go to court ONE TIME (I’ve sorted everything so chill) – the female judge would not even speak to me until I took a few breaths

She stated I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me
I told her my parents didn’t teach me about those monsters under the bed
She said her parents did teach her but she still made mistakes

By the end of the court session we had everyone in the room laughing and it was full
I had zero reasons to be humiliated even though I was
And she knew the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes nearly
I lost everything I had saved for many years
My Thrift retirement savings GONE
My personal savings GONE

Then they went after my physical health with this pandemic because this is biological warfare
I’m doing everything that I can to climb up out of this hell hole
I have no reason to feel shame

But for some reason these monsters have drilled it into me to feel bad if I’m not giving them the attention that they don’t deserve
Read it again…
I’m struggling with answers on what to do with my own blood line

And I’m trying to fix my health so that I can create my own tribe before I check the fuck out permanently
All I know is I love eating homemade vegan soup more than I like eating canned expired food from the food pantries
The vegan soup is healing my heart
The can soup has poison in it

All the pretty labels are lies
Natural flavor was mad in a lab with MAD SCIENTISTS!!!!!!
SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
I spent hours cooking up this pot to perfection

I HAVE LEFTOVERS
And 1 bowl was so hearty I struggled to get through it 🤪
No bread this time! Just soup!
So without further ado I took photos for you but I don’t use directions and I make everything from scratch – just like my memaw taught me
She always said a way to a man’s heart is through his belly
MINE TOO

A way to my heart is through my belly
She wasn’t wrong
Our mental health is directly connected to our gut

I can’t stand living with these insane children around me and no more pretty bird singing
I HATE LIVING HERE LIKE JOHN JONES HATES THAT CAVE
AND ALL THE CHILDREN ARE INSANE – Jim Morrison

Because they need to fucking deworm
*starts slamming bathroom doors*
MY FAVORITE PLACE TO LIVE 🤩
*STARTS MAKING MORE LOUD NOISES
I’m taking a shot of detox soon so I don’t fucking shoot myself 🙄

I get to wake up to the racist children now and no longer pretty bird
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO MOVE
I WOULD RATHER LIVE IN A MUD SHACK ON MY OWN TINY PIECE OF LAND
THAN TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS DEVIL SOCIETY

Despite this, y’all don’t want us living in fear so ensure you do everything to make sure we are indeed living in fear
Stopped by the beach after my vegan feast to enjoy after sunset and no…
The beach is green

Ya no
My feet ain’t touching that
I haven’t forgot that a 14-year-old drowned here a couple months ago
He was found an hour later 1 mile away – that’s how far that riptide took him
Also evening death like John Jones
Went for another round
Got out and went back in

Bye bye 👋
I’m sorry you died in fear so young
It’s not safe here

I was afraid of the fucking vegetables growing

They so good

Start filling your pot up and don’t forget to put pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper
More spices, more herbs

I keep the skins on the potatoes and I also leave all the seeds in 🎃

At this point I’m still cutting and adding

I simmer it on low until the potatoes are nearly done and then I add the cabbage

I carefully push in slices of the head
Vertically I reckon
And then as it cooks down the top bits I’ll gently push in

You can dice all your vegetables really small and probably take less time to cook it and it won’t be as hearty and the vegetables will be mushy like fucking canned soup but
You will spend a lot of time dicing your vegetables as well so I don’t really know if you’re saving time

It turned out delicious. Doesn’t need a thang! But going in the belly!! 🤪
If you eat the leftovers up slowly the vegetables will maintain their yumminess and freshness!
Lemme know if you have any questions and how it goes! You can use whatever veggies you like when making soup. I call this a ONE POT WONDER STEW (vegan and magically healing)
Let me know if you want me to share more of my cooking adventures.
Made from scratch and with love. Good ole country cooking! Heart healthy! Loaded with vitamins and thangs the heart needs! Yes, the cabbage bleeds purple. You can eat it crunchy. Don’t over cook it!!!!
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I guess he’s not around
The sin’s compound
I am earthbound!

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Blocking near imminent
Barricaded
He claims he’s jaded
Guess we over played it
Black ain’t faded

MESSAGE LOUD BUT STILL NOT CLEAR
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
People playing Pop Block huh 🤔
I’ll crash the party even without an invitation 🤪
A fence is there for me to jump 🤨

So. The love of my life called. We talked about the theory of everything for 11 hrs. and then some.
We don’t want to share separate bedrooms in a marriage
Honeymoon phase shall continue til the end of my days and respawn and love him again
I confessed I loved him in my twenties
We ain’t never even kissed
Not on earth yet anyway…
And I’m doing everything I can to fix my gut/immune system
I’m scared of people but want to learn to exist in the same room as him
I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT HIM
Also, the Poe tat has relevance in that “deep in earth my love is lying”
Yep
He my fucking existence earth sign and all
And I do weep for him
I FUCKING DO
We have each other’s phone numbers and addresses now so the ghosting needs to fucking stop
He gonna need a restraining order to keep me away 🤪
He gonna need 2 or three 🤪
(Shame about the lady who just had her head dismembered from a psychopath she had 3 restraining orders from. Welp. He cut her head off – in front of the kids – 😑)
It’s the end of the world but he’s finally calling
WRITE HIM THE LETTER EVEN IF IT TAKES TWENTY YEARS FOR THE RETURN
We met when he was 19 turning 20
He 36…. 🤤
WANT FOREVER STILL AND ALWAYS
He make all the atoms orbit
ALL
I hope you haven’t buried your head
Too deep in the darkness
Lost in the forest
Sleeping near the dead
I hope you can forgive things said
Dress your sins like a florist
Place your pain in the storage
Name the cemetery DREAD

I hope you’re happy now
But I’m not
Still miserable
And wanna jump from a high rock

Sometimes I wish you’d have my back
Like the courage that you lack
Or the trail of sin you track
Your soul is black

Crown Thorn
Where were you born
Crowd torn
War worn
Heart alarm
Changing form
Reason warm
I confirm

He tells her things
He should tell me
He knows
He don’t mean those things

The covert narcissist
I will dig him up
Like good and evil
Come to rid this curse

© Delia Ross. 2022
All poetry and photography by @poeeternal
More content coming. But first rest. The demons are sleeping. This my only chance. 😑
Mama said it was “bad luck” to open an umbrella inside






Kinda artsy set

Full set on my OF

🎃🎃🎃

I’ve got poetry but I’m so tireeeed 😌

Night night or good morn
It’s not even my birthday! 😍

I received a gift from my Amazon wishlist 🤩

Vegan eyeshadow makeup!!!!!!!!!! 😍

It includes a brush kit!!!! 🤩

And 16 gorgeous plant based colors!!! 🎃

Thank you for the amazing gift!!!!!!!

So inspired! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –
I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…
And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….

Should I cancel the order? 🤪
In the wishlist… 👇

They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)
This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)
And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month 🤪
I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)
So grateful to share my makeover progress with you
THE THIGH HIGH BOOTS ARE VEGAN 🤩
I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry
I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)
THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN

COMING SOON

(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)
I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty
All the men prior in my life body shamed me
I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down 😑
I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support
It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you
I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments
Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows
DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING
I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on 🤪
Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?
I NEED TO KNOW
My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D 🎃
CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT 🎁
Dropping this here
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around 🤨
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… 
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scam
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants 💪
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
A bigger pinch
Bigger
Now do it again… 🎃
DON’T BUY RAW MILK WITHOUT A DATE LABELED ANIMAL FEED
Nobody ever taught me this 🙄
“I think I’m dumb…”

Or eggs…

THEY WERE PRICED FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION 😳
Farm Fresh? Eh. WHO KNOWS
THERE IS NO DATE
I THOUGHT I WAS SOMEWHERE ELSE ON THE MAP

HUGE GOT DAMN MISTAKE
Even with the MEGA SALE and all
The milk and eggs cost MORE than a normal store or health food shop
I WANT TO EGG THEIR SHOP
Halloween is coming 🎃
And I have Halloween goodies coming from dolls kill and I hope it gets here quickly so I can start redecorating my bathroom and my bedroom and not get arrested
THAT IS ALL
I wish I did have a husband though because he would probably be making a phone call saying you sold my wife some rotten eggs and milk
And then had the audacity to not “list the price of the nuts because they had gone up”

MEGA BURN IN HELL
The label is red

States it is “sold as animal feed” (I’m an animal m’kay but)
There is no date anywhere
It smelled of rot
I did a sniff and taste taste
The dog sniffed and passed
Didn’t even get a taste…
It’s opened
I know they won’t take it back
The yuppies
I mean Peggy’s Discount stole $8 from me
“Free will”
I could have said no 😑

I had some dry milk on the shelf FOR THE SAME PRICE
And just made me a fresh batch for my coffee

And about to toss some marmalade on this pumpkin bread full of seeds and nuts and spices
And enjoy my coffee with powered milk
And the yuppies can BURN IN HELL
You sold one of God’s angels some rotten fucking milk

I don’t even know how many years an eternity is but it ain’t enough!!!!!
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
I do recommend that big bag of great value dry powdered milk for eight dollars and never ever ever fucking raw milk without a goddamn date on it that’s labeled animal feed and why are they selling it to humans you fucking assholes
This is exactly why John Jones got stuck in a fucking hole and I’m allowed to be pissed off about it because that eight dollars could’ve gone towards some shit at Dolls Kill that I want
I’m nearly fucking vegan after all this shit
“You could of said no”
They stole $8 from me 😑
And I don’t know what to do with the milk because my dog doesn’t even want to drink it so if I put it outside it might contaminate the water
Tempted
TEMPTED TO ACCIDENTALLY SPILL IT ALL OVER THEIR DOOR
Helps. I’m in hell. 😑
If I had a husband I wouldn’t be buying animal feed 😑
IT WAS RIGHT THERE ON THE LABEL
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
How long had it been sitting on their shelf in the fridge?
HOW LONG?????????
There’s no date anywhere!!!!
How many red flags does a person need???????
HARD LESSONS LEARNED IN HELL
It was a lesson though

The discount didn’t even cover the cost of the rotten milk 😑
There’s consequences to timeline jumping, you get brain injuries and become really fucking stupid 😑
I don’t even think I can use this milk as a photo shoot to pour on my body because it’s chunky even though the label says to “shake well”
For the record, I wasn’t studying every single label in the new shop which was a Health store
It was almost as if I was being chastised for looking at the prices or the labels and then they sold me some rotten milk and God knows how good the eggs are now because I’m fucking afraid of the eggs

RETURN THIS CARTOON
SOLD AS ANIMAL FEED
MOTHERFUCKING DAMN
That’s another $8 stolen 😑
Those motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!

AVOID AT EVERY COST 🖕
I didn’t even have this bad of an experience drinking goats milk in Kuwait and Iraq
My mama didn’t breast-feed me and I apparently like milk because I’m undernurtured and I’m trying to get rid of my milk addiction but they are poisoning everything including the soy beans
Some good news with the coffee…
This Doll model has a very tiny peach (this is not my peach)

I mean her peach is TINY
And I’ve been freaking out over losing over 18 pounds detoxing and my peach getting smaller even though I do work out, bike ride and walk and rebound and clean fucking house even though it doesn’t look like it
Babes with a small peach are worthy of affection and love too
And I’m not gonna show you the entire outfit because I got it 🎃
I got a Halloween bodysuit 🤪
This holiday slowing down the shipments but at least when they say they’re doing a mega sale they fucking mean it and they sell you really good quality stuff that is 1000 times better than Amazon or Walmart
Or Peggy’s Discount whom sale rotten food to despairing hungry humans 😑
My doc appointment is tomorrow
I can’t stop laughing about how incredibly stupid I was though, I mean I know I was hungry and gaslit
I know I have a brain injury
It was a new environment
But the red flags were there
I mean, they failed to even list the price of the nuts on the container or the shelf
Just like Michael Leavitt failed to put features on the map showing danger zones
“But he said he was an expert”
“But there was dust on the walls”
Like, I’m out $16+ bucks over gaslighting and not reading signs and ignoring red flags
I’m an animal, I will drink milk straight from the cow tit OK, I’ll be frank with you, but that shit was fucking ruined
Like, I would have a goat around for milk and cheese
There are certain species of animals that I have never eaten nor touched nor plan to digest
Goat is one
But their cheese and milk and fur – in the right conditions – I wouldn’t be opposed to
There was no cow milk in Iraq or Kuwait and the only milk we were offered was goats milk but the only way I would drink it was warm
Warm goats milk in my box cereal
My king needs to know the conditions in which I starve
I will bite the hand that feeds when the food is rotten and poisoned
THIS IS WHY EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
I am grateful for your support because people out here stealing from me left and right
“You didn’t have to buy the milk”
YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO LIE
How long has that lie been sitting on the shelf?
HOW LONG
I am nearly vegan and it isn’t because you have a heavy hand because you can’t have a heavy hand and also eat pizza from a fucking box and be part of the fucking problem
THEY ARE SELLING ROTTEN MILK 🥛
“Shake well”
I FUCKING PLAN TO
KEEP PISSING ON ME
JUDGMENT HOUR
I’m gonna expose you all
Narcissism is not rare
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
Despite the fact that I had nearly $20 stolen from me (and I’m still out eggs and milk now by the way, that I can’t replace)
These goddamn demons make it so hard for me not to commit a criminal act
It’s better to blog than spray paint
I really want to be the best efficient hunter killer but I’ve got to learn how to control my emotions especially my anger when it arises
“Hunter killer”
UHM
I am efficiently trained by the United States Army to take down a human with one shot one kill and with my bayonet
You don’t think they just played with us in basic training do you? 😈
God: you wanna go to heaven?
Me: oh yeah for sho
God: you need special training that in which I cannot say and you cannot kill
Me: I’m up for the challenge 🤨
God: everything will be a lie
Me: I WANT OUT, LET ME OUT
Anyhoo
The Great Filter is narcissism
Every society has at least two great filters they need to overcome if they want to be a species that doesn’t go extinct
What are your Great Filters?
We must have individual filters as well
Don’t shop at Peggy’s Discount
I’ve got eggs and milk I don’t know what to do with
I have lessons I still need to learn
I’m trying to share even the smallest ones with you
I don’t like to lose money
I don’t like to gamble
I don’t like being gaslit
I don’t like being wasteful
I’m curious and like trying new things
“How quickly should I drink it”
“Uh within a few days. Bacteria”
Dear Gen Z
That isn’t bacteria, that is fucking rot
Your parents look like cruel dictators and I can tell you are confused about your sex and wanna please the parents but never do
You still sold me rotten milk…
The eggs don’t have a date either
Your boomer parents have a house and a business and I’m struggling to pay my rent
I’m condemning you all to hell
Take it up with God
He sent me here to see what you do through my eyes
He sent me here to judge
144,000
SAY MY NAME
FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
All that vegan packaging with natural flavor in it from a fucking lab
I AM WOKE BUT BLIND
“Free will” but “they will do anything”
He gonna divorce me
“You spent $18 on a tiny container of nuts and another $16 on animal food”. “What are we eating this month, honey?” 😑
(I did get the money back for the unopened nuts)
I should call though to say the milk was expired
But I want to cut the cord on that experience which was a fucking nightmare and I will spend many days potentially months or even a year trying to figure out why why why why when I was hungry I did this shit
I was completely out of my comfort zone at Peggy’s but because I’m nice and programmed to not say no or offend these demons, I made bad mistake 😑

Welp. How to ignore red flags 101. The fear was very real. God is in information. Listen to the source when he is calling. Those warnings are like little fingertips by God touching you
Tickle tickle
Don’t go that way
And you may get an additional warning or two, like Jacob in the whirlpool, he got three, that I counted
But he got out
And he went back in
A second time….
I have an irrational fear of dying but there is a pattern and Apophis is a nuclear bomb if we do not stop the NEW WORLD ORDER
(With those bad shrooms we’re not allowed to touch)
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF
Black Walnut Wormwood detox if you wanna save your life or purge the Devil (is that what’s stopping you) 🧐
Tsk tsk
I can’t believe I bought some rotten fucking milk and eggs that literally says animal food on it but it’s being sold as human food on human shelving without a date and shouldn’t that be illegal?
Gaslighting should be a crime
I’m in fucking hell…
I am a witch though and I love spooky season
I make the best damn pot of stew
WITCHES STEW
Dash of burn in hell, dash of I don’t give a fuck… pinch of they’re all out of luck
You should see the writings on the wall where heavens gone mad
50 years ago they would have drilled a hole in my head
The way we treat depression is barbaric
We need to ban big pharma commercials
I don’t mind drinking milk past the expiration date or eating expired food but what the fuck
Wanna turn somebody vegan?
SELL THEM ROTTEN MILK
I curse in hell because it’s the only way I don’t commit a crime and they’re trying to take my freedom of speech in the real world
If you take my speech, I take my money and business
And I will never shop where I can’t spend cash which is what I’d like to start doing but find me a place I can shop that isn’t selling sex toys in front of children…
I don’t want to support businesses that are selling sex toys in front of children like Walmart and the mall
I don’t want to support a business that sells you rotten fucking produce that you can’t return
“Has it been opened”
*THROWS BOTTLE AND EGGS AT BRICK WALL*
*gets arrested*
*doesn’t get money back, gets fined instead*
(Stays home to avoid potential downfall)
You remember that Nirvana song, “I think I’m dumb”
SAME
Also, Kurt had gut issues which directly impacts mental health, he needed to debug 🤨
When you see one lie, you start seeing them all
So grateful for the donation I received 🥰
I took my Jeep to Pep Boys and got my tires sorted and they said I needed to replace three of them soon, that the tread is showing
I stopped by the store after and got the produce!

Got the good red purple cabbage + rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes + tomatoes on the vine
It’s gonna be a great stew
Got my nuts ordered online since that mega sale was mega bullshite and they were charging $18 for ounces, not pounds, and not listing the prices anywhere 🙄
I HAVE A BRAIN INJURY
I don’t need my husband yelling at me when I come home because I somehow got charged $18 for some tiny little nuts – despite asking questions here and there – and doing my best to budget and buy stuff without NATURAL FLAVOR

I’ve got 2 1/2 pounds of nuts arriving at some point – shipping dates are bullshite these days – but currently it says Sunday
$27 for pounds – not ounces – that will last me all month – and I can snack daily
The price varies over there, but the price in the grocery store was MORE for LESS (They’ve turned into convenient store prices)
I’m buying these nuts directly from the seller – they’ve been doing me alright for the few months I’ve been switching to a vegetarian diet
Sometimes the price is cheaper
But now knowing that main businesses are being absolutely GREEDY GASLIGHTING ASSHOLES – they can keep selling to the yuppies
I need my own land with nut trees growing
A nut and fruit garden
Chickens running around!!!
But I am so happy that I have several pounds of red cabbage in my fridge again, tomatoes from the vine, plus garden medley tomatoes and rainbow carrots (I still have sweet & baking potatoes and onions)
I probably should learn to make something other than stew but currently I don’t want to
I like the stew 🤨
I make it completely from scratch and it’s healing me
Minus the fact that the herbs are dry and not fresh
BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE MY OWN GARDEN YET
I’ve got my first bodysuit and my first Halloween costume that included accessories from dolls kill arriving whenever the fuck the package gets here and it’s worth living for the soup and the packages are worth living for and the potential possibility of finding a fucking partner in the future when I’m not quarantined
I hope moving to the country is less noisy
I am going out of mind
I woke up fucking crying
“Get up Trinity, get up”
And I did
I headed right to Pep Boys to sort my tire issue as the light was on the entire way I was driving yesterday
But the shops were closed for the holiday…
I saw a video on TikTok of a guy stating he was snowboarding and decided to go back “one more time” (A SECOND RETURN) and now he’s got a brain injury and can’t do shit for life
And I have a brain injury so I’m grateful I can still make soup
I mean maybe he can make soup I don’t know but like he went back a second time and that’s the thing I’ve been noticing – pay attention to that – pay attention to how people go back a second time and fucking die or nearly do (like me with that damn vaccine)

I also picked up some pumpkin spice bread with lots of nuts & seeds, no GMO, no natural flavor from a lab…
I need to learn to make my own bread (aside from homemade biscuits and cornbread)
It was this or the pumpkin pie 🎃
I may make my own pumpkin pie this season
Get a pumpkin
Carve that bitch out
I’m not buying meat anymore but I did buy some ancient grains and pumpkin seeds yesterday

Some have already gone in my homemade trail mix and I’m anticipating my pistachios and my cashews to arrive as I’m nearly out and was in a panic
The store yesterday was out of most things I needed
And the only milk they had was the milk with the red label and bacteria and I’m terrified to even open it but I will – I’m gonna get around to trying it

But I think I’m done with dairy after this
Milk was the only thing I got for this month, I didn’t get any cheese or yogurt
I’m gonna see how my gut does giving it a load of probiotics
But I’m learning dairy is terrible for hums…
And I had no idea they were walking and standing in lime or whatever it was
I’ve been seeing videos on TikTok and I’m just like “thank you for turning me vegan” and this is direct to farmers
“It doesn’t hurt the cow”
IT HURTS MY EYES TO SEE THO 👀
I’m gonna shrivel up into nothing 😑
I’m working on a new set soon!
Just need a day or two to recover from the madness 🤪
I also have a doctors appointment on Thursday so I’m just in the mindset of getting shit done as the first week of the month is usually chaotic
My dog is driving me absolutely out of my mind but I cannot send them to the gas chamber
I was able to buy his special Vienna sausage today and he took his medicine without a problem because he’s stubborn as fuck and apparently he will only take his medication with these Vienna sausages now

He’s got a 50mg dose of Trazodone in him now so he’s knocked out
I learned that I don’t like shopping at Publix today and I had been avoiding it for several months because of the bullshit pricing that they have going on and how most of the food is poisoned and I’m trying to get away from the big chains and buy local produce
Gosh it ain’t easy
The farmers don’t make it easy…
I miss the days of people selling produce on the side of the street and not fearing buying it
I PLAN TO HIT UP SOME FARMER MARKETS NEXT MONTH
There are a few in New Smyrna Beach and surrounding areas
PROBABLY RICH YUPPIE PRICES
We’ll see…
They don’t make it easy for poor people to eat healthy
I’m sorry I’m so thin 😑
I am eating and working out 😑
I can’t participate in the slaughter of animals when 68% of all life has gone extinct
Humans had to adapt a gene to consume dairy
I’m in descension still
I woke up crying hard
Haven’t even had a coffee because I’m afraid to touch the milk… 😑
I gave up drinking coffee for awhile because I thought I could only drink coffee with sugar but then I learned that I could drink coffee without sugar and now I’m gonna have to maybe learn to drink it without milk too 🤨
I would like to try making my own almond milk
I don’t have my poor ass kitchen set up to be a dream kitchen
I recently got one glass pot from the thrift store and I’ve been cooking out of that bitch
I would like to go thrifting again for my kitchen makeover
I’ve been getting rid of everything that causes cancer or is plastic
The Teflon, the aluminum, the plastic
Switching to glass, stainless steel, and eventually hopefully copper too
I really want to start drinking my water out of copper
And at some point get away from plastic jugs and containers and invest in water filters
They are putting Covid in the fucking bathwater
I KID YOU NOT
Your skin will soak that shit up
The devil is everywhere in society, everywhere, in everything, he is there…
This is inspiring so thank you!! 👇

I’ve already got an item or two in the Dolls Kill cart 🤪
Got the bills paid, the groceries bought, I’m not alive just to pay the bills…
I was able to get my cabbage and nuts today!!!!!! It literally stopped me from crying.
Having a head of cabbage in the fridge
Gives me the happies 🤪
The heart needs the red and blue thangs
Red cabbage, beats, wild blueberries (there’s more thangs that directly boost the heart)
Him: honey what do you need to be happy today
Me: a head of purple cabbage and rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes
And a kiss 🤪
Me: what are you doing
Him: planting you a cabbage garden 😍
Not starving this month (even tho I’m thin af)
Be careful with adrenaline spikes that will crash your heart
That’s the ticket out if you’ve been vaccinated and triple boosted
IT AFFECTS PEOPLE OVER THE AGE OF 40 TOO
People of all ages are dropping dead and it’s not from the fucking sun
This just in: “fresh air now the rising cause of depression”
I crash landed and woke up so hard I don’t believe in alien propaganda anymore
People think robots have feelings and that you can get abducted by an alien
They probably injected a parasite in you too
The establishment is going to drop a bomb and call it Apophis
APRIL 2-0-2-9
THE FINAL TIME
THE END MY FRIEND IS NOT NEAR
THE HOUR IN FACT IS QUITE HERE
I drove to the health market down the road which was closed – maybe for the holiday – maybe always on Monday too
So I looked up another location and called and decided to drive to Port Orange

The sign read on the door huge sale!

Mega bullshite in fact…
But I was positive and hopeful to find some nuts as my stash is depleting and I was avoiding online shopping for them
This store does not have a cafe or outdoor seating and is a 20 minute drive away – one way
BUT THEY WERE OPEN FOR THE HOLIDAY AND THERE THE SIGN READ MEGA SALE
So I entered

And I begin putting things in a basket (which they do provide an actual basket that I overlooked and asked, “do you have a buggy or basket?”. Welp. Starring right at me. The real kind. Not plastic. Duh)
I asked about pricing as some things weren’t listed or were incorrectly placed
Now I’m on a budget but was a tiny bit flexible
I knew I needed to get produce and thangs they did not have

But, I opted to get the “raw milk” and farm eggs despite the pricing

Understanding that I’d get some sort of discount the Gen Z employee assured me…
The eggs weren’t much more than store

They were out of most nuts and seeds

But I’m trying thangs I never have before like these wheat berries (ancient grains I hope)

You just boil them and put them in a bowl
Maybe might make a good protein treat

Ginger is supposed to be ridiculously healthy and the bag was not expensive
I thought for the most part, aside from the big ticket items like the eggs and milk, that I was doing alright “mega sale” and all 🙄

Got one bottle of this, I mostly drink water, milk, coffee, (hopefully tea again)
I gave up juice and soda detoxing
This has elderflower –
Anyhoo time came to check out
And I was confused by the total, maybe even shell shocked and asked, “you applied the discount”
But I didn’t think to check the receipt in the car, and waited until I got home to “inspect” the prices like I normally do (to see if I got the discount prices or whatever)

My stupid ass should have checked before I left town – as it was 3 bags only
Sometimes having a brain injury ptsd get home don’t die routine is costly BECAUSE
The nuts turned out to be nearly $18 for a few ounces
I nearly cried. Welp.

Apparently I fucked the nuts and the one can of dog food – which is cat
Him: you spent how much on the nuts 👀
Seriously tho, don’t ever threaten divorce because I was gaslit

Anyhoo
I called the store and she said I could return the nuts tomorrow for a refund which means I’m gonna be driving a 40 mile round-trip which would likely use up all my gas money and gas tank
She stated the prices went up and they didn’t have them listed
Anyhoo. By very principle I cannot eat the nuts. I can buy 1.5 pounds of Pistachios for less than that and I can buy a pound of raw cashew nuts for less than that
So I’m going for a drive – tomorrow – humiliation factor and all
To return 9 ounces of dark chocolate almonds that I very badly want to consume – but not at that price 👀
And I have no idea if I’m supposed to put the wear and tear on my precious vehicle to get my $18 back but whatever
I don’t want my husband yelling at me for spending too much at the grocery store because they lied
Thank fuck I can get a refund but…
I’m gonna stick to local shopping only (and online until I can fully cut the cord)
Sex toys are meant to be sold at the adult stores, not at the fucking mall, and not at Walmart
Now I gotta waste my precious time and energy returning a tiny tub of nuts because the SIGN ON THE DOOR LIED
A second trip
I feel uneasy 😫
It’s a hard lesson to learn
I tried to do so good and within my budget
I still gotta buy produce to get me through the month
More soup is planned
I just thought I could buy my nuts and seeds at a health food store this time instead of off of Amazon and Walmart
I went back for that second Moderna vaccine which nearly fucking killed me
That kid went back “one more time” and the riptide took him
2 recent cave divers nearby drowned when they went back a second time (came up, went back down)
I wish someone would have stopped me from going back for that second vaccine even though the first one injured me
“It’s safe”
“The CDC”

The numbers 777 appeared before me today
I have information channeling to me but I don’t know what to do with it
I’m trying to eat healthy and within budget
I’m tired of having to chase my tail because of the narcissism and gaslighting
Go get the refund? Don’t get the refund?
Go back a second time when I don’t wanna…
I knew that would be the last shopping trip at Peggy’s for me
Asking for a refund is humiliating 😑
Running around chasing my tail
I WANT MY OWN PLOT OF LAND WITH A CHICKEN OR TWO FOR EGGS
I want my neighbors to be the roosters and the croaking toads
Apparently spiders will take water from you
The animals need our help
WE ARE ANIMALS TOO
STOP GASLIGHTING
What was mega about that sale??????????
I NEED TO KNOW

Angelic numbers keep following me. I don’t know what to do about the nuts. I’m returning the nuts.
MAYBE RIGHT NOW
“Researchers” are injecting OrganEx to revive dead pigs
ZERO ETHICS IN SCIENCE.
JUST REPLACE REINCARNATION WITH CLONING! THEY LOVE DIGGING UP THE DEAD!!!
It’s been going on thousands of years
Trying to reincarnate Ramses the great third fuck you I’m gonna fucking goddamn crush you
Sorry channel glitching 😝
Building an army of zombies
I’M SELLING MY TV AND MOVING TO THE JUNGLE
HUSBAND WANTED

I wasn’t allowed to imprint on a man at the age I wanted
RELIGION AND SOCIETY SHAMMED ME
Said I must wait until I’m 18 or married
GOD GAVE ME THE ABILITY TO START MAKING BABIES AT AT 13
YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO STOP ME FROM MY PURPOSE
NOW YOU CALL ME OLD AND SAY I HAVE NO WORTH
SOCIETY IS THE DEVIL BUT NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE SPREAD BY ASIA INDIA MEXICO
68% OF ALL LIFE HAS GONE EXTINCT
I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
I’VE TRIED SO HARD TO REMAIN PURE
NOT REMOVING MY SEX ORGANS FOR PLASTIC
NOT EATING BIRTH CONTROL
NOT DOING DIRTY COMPROMISING THINGS IN THE CHAT
MAN HAS CREATED HIS VERY OWN HELL IN WHICH HE MAKES ALL LIFE SUFFER FROM HIS HEAVY HAND
LIFE CAN HAVE MEANING BUT YOU STOLE IT FROM ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY
NOW CHINA HAVE “TOO MANY MEN”
They aren’t up to anything good digging up the dead
I’M SICK OF SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
ZERO ETHICS!!!!!!!!!
THEY HAVE NO SOUL OR REMORSE!!!!!!!
PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!
NEO TRINITY NEEDS HELP!!!!!!!
Don’t forget the scene when her heart goes down and don’t forget who you are
TURN OFF THE PROPAGANDA
CONNECT TO THE SOURCE
Find your purpose!!!
You have many!!!
It’s not watching hardcore desensitizing xxx porn any chance you
Sneaking around
BEING UNJUST
Your very own actions are destroying the world and everything you love
Porn is a distraction while they do the bad things 😑
We need to course correct
MAYDAY MAYDAY!!!!!
THIS IS OUR ONLY EARTH!!!!!!!!
WE CANNOT DESTROY WHERE WE SPAWNED TO GO TO MARS!!!! MAKE IT STOP!!!
We need to start protesting the spam mail coming into our mailboxes, the rainforest needs our help!!!!!!!!
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT!!!!!!
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m gonna go put a pot of coffee on and walk my dog and get a little rebound session in so I don’t jump off the fucking bridge
I just needed to channel that information out
My device was off
I recommend you turning your devices off and protecting your brain waves and your energy as much as you can
I have to venture out into the world and go buy supplies
I’m avoiding Walmart like a plague but may have to get some thangs there
Looking for local health shops but I’m on a budget
Stay strong y’all
WATCH YOUR BACK
When I got vaccinated, I climbed into the hole head first but then I went again despite getting injured the first time
I let them fucking talk me into it to getting the second one in which I nearly died
😑
There have been a lot of people dying lately and I think what I’m learning is when they go back the second time that’s their mistake – so pay attention to the moves you’re making when you’re on vacation or having fun or whatever it is you’re doing if you get a bad vibe about something and then you decide to go do it again it’s probably gonna be your ending
Don’t ignore the signs or uneasy feelings
WE DO HAVE A CREATOR
IT IS NOT ASIA (sorry)
I think they did something bad to him when he was visiting an exotic location
He’s lost
I’m here
Trying to reach him
You can’t confess all your sins to your priestess and then crucify her for your own actions
Dumb dumb
We imprinted on one another
I imprinted on you
That’s love
God is in love
God is imprinting
Stop the segregation!!!!!!
68% all life includes us!
Life has purpose!

You could have started your purpose when I was 13 🤪
By 15 I was absolutely miserable and ready but not allowed
PRISONER IN HELL
😡
My grandmother was married to my granddaddy at 15 years of age and they had 12 babies together and he was buried across the street from where they lived
I’m tired of the elder women stopping the younger pretty things from having a fucking life when they are young and capable
That does not mean monsters preying on children but that is what porn propaganda and the Bible program
They are selling sex toys in front of the children at Walmart and the mall and I don’t want to go to the mall anymore because I was exposed to sex toys while browsing for a hat so I don’t wanna go to Walmart either because someone told me they were selling sex toys there as well
Sex toys were always at the adult stores
STOP CONDITIONING THE CHILDREN TO BE SEX BOTS
I was not prepared to see triple X content when I was in the mindset of shopping for a fucking hat and all in child like mode at the mall wanting a cute outfit and pretzel
I got the pretzel and left the mall immediately and have never return since
I’m still shopping for my hat and will probably get one from dolls kill eventually if I can catch one on sale but the ones that I have found that I wanted sold out so fast that by the time I hit purchase they were gone lol
I’ve learned to put things in my favorites because they do restock and eventually maybe I’ll get what I want, like a husband 🤪
I always defined a woman as someone who could carry a baby, as someone who bled between their legs and had periods- but then that would diminish the fact that when I stop bleeding that I’m no longer a woman and I don’t think that’s true either because I’m gonna wanna have sex past having babies age I’m sure of it…
The devil wants me to believe that I have no worth when my ability to create children ends while men get to continue the ability to have children up until they’re 80 but women only get it until they’re 50 and then they keep a huge portion of our good years away from us from having children by shaming us
I started having periods at age 13
I should’ve been popping them babies out at 15 like my grandmother
I should have imprinted on a husband and vice versa but porn makes a lot of money doesn’t it
I still have the ability to imprint on someone and vice versa
Got a therapy session incoming
I can’t run marathons anymore but I can at least get up with you and go on part of the hike
I’m still running from the devil with a wounded heart snd lung (soup is healing) (not from can) (nuts and spring water) (need nurturing and love)
(Thank you for your support in any capacity. It’s all healing me)
The good neighbors were sitting outside
They aren’t normally sitting out that late
It was almost as if they were telling the gang to “back off”
If anything, there would be a witness
The dog wasn’t impressed and did not pee despite begging me to take him out
He hates living here as much as John Jones hates that fucking cave
SAME
Also can we stop attacking character and start attacking the propaganda that are uploading on us 24/7
You can’t change or cure addiction overnight

awe – it’s so nice to see the woke dudes
I block Tate content lol
The more I block something or hit the “not interested”, the algorithm will feed me more of the content I don’t want (gaslighting)
I’m starting to turn off the wifi and the data and phone when I sleep
If I knew the love of my life was going to call me or to text me, I probably wouldn’t mind having a Fitbit
It’s just espionage these days
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND PROTECTING YOUR BRAIN WAVES
Plus it sends a mass FUCK YOU call sign to the elite
MASSIVE
UNPLUG
They are trying to give you cancer with your phones and phones are putting out a lot more of it these days
I’m glad there’s still some people in Daytona Beach who got my back
And God from the heaven
I finally got a nap and was wondering why it was so quiet
Just the neighbs chilling outside
THANX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Needed the rest!
And before you tell me to move, my job was stolen from me with the government furloughs and hiring freezes and forced me to live somewhere which compromised my safety and allowed the cops to push their propaganda so the devil could have us self-destruct sooner or commit a crime
The suicide rate continues to rise among veterans
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
HIT IT HARD AND GO STRONG!
Don’t take any breaks!!!!!!!
Drink lots of water – spring water from the earth if you can and eat lots of nuts from the trees if your body allows you too because it’s healing me and get you some soup in and if you want chicken in it go for it but 68% of all life has gone extinct so just remember that when you’re consuming it
I think moderation is key but narcissism ensures we live in excess
The Bible clearly is spreading lies when it says the ocean is limitless with fish for us to eat
Over fishing has wiped out ocean life
That and the establishment continue to drop nuclear bombs everywhere on our precious earth space land sea
MORE TIMES THAN YOU KNOW
So the next time a whale washes up on the beach or people are going but why is the sealife dying we don’t know but the scientist say we don’t know – they fucking know – the scientist are destroying everything so that they can make everything artificial – they can turn everything artificial and make money from it and make you believe that they created this fucking hell
IT IS A LIE
WAKE UP NEO
DEBUG
And just because I’m paranoid doesn’t mean I’m not being followed….

I took the tip money and bought something nice! 🥰
I took advantage of that labor day sale!
I scored the curtains for under $8!! I really wanted that set!! Cheaper than Walmart too and absolutely cuter (and gothy)
I got a Halloween costume from the new Halloween section on Dolls Kill for 80% off 😍
The curtains and the costume!! 👁👄👁
And a lace bodysuit (my first) ☺️
But that wasn’t all
BARGAIN HUNTER
Was able to pick up accessories like thigh high socks, jewelry, daddy cosplay attire, and other thangs
I spent the $3 extra for the 3-5 day delivery
They get your order out so much quicker
Or you can wait two weeks for them to mail your stuff out to you or pay the three dollars extra and they’ll get it mailed out to you within 3 to 5 days
I love the secret and flash sales! 🤩
Stuff goes so quickly
I saw they had the valentine set back up and I was going to go ahead and get another set because it was $.96 and I thought what the fuck I haven’t received my first set but I’ll go ahead and get those and double it since they’re only $.96 and I’ll be damned if those bitches weren’t already sold out…

I really hope y’all let me mail you some snail mail
I’m excited to get that Mixed Messages card set, especially knowing how popular it is ☺️
But my set will be arriving any day, they already shipped
I got them for a good price but not under $1
I think the mixed messages would be fun to mail out for Halloween Thanksgiving Christmas and all the way up through Valentine’s so I’m not waiting months or however long it is
Hopefully somebody will let me mail them a card to their work or wherever!! 🥰
Anyhoo
There’s enough to go around
Trying to send some despairing cheer
I got some Daddy cosplay stuff with the tip money 🤪
Goth BB will be making a future appearance
Especially since spooky season is here
And I used that tip money to buy my Halloween costume from my favorite store!!!!! Thank you!!!
I’m buying size small which feels really weird because I have not been a small since I was probably 17
And this is my first time in my life ever buying lingerie
I don’t want to show you the costume, you just have to wait!!
It was originally $60 but I got it 80% off for their labor day sale + a mystery code!!! Extra bonus discount!!!!!!
I’d love to celebrate Halloween this year and go on a haunted hayride but I’d get kidnapped especially in that costume
I have guys who follow me out to my vehicle in my little shorts with no make up on and I don’t have a fucking filter on when I walk outside
It’s dangerous where I live especially for a gal like me
He was scanning the parking lot…
His truck was big…
Anyhoo
Maybe I’ll just stay home and take photos for you 🤪
I’m excited!!!
I have a Halloween costume and I really wanna show you the daddy cosplay stuff but I can’t, I can’t show you yet, I can’t fucking show you yet
I’m not dropping anything about it in my story
Sorry
Halloween feels like Christmas
And BB wants to look cute for you
Maybe a lethal doll
DOLLS KILL (let the neighbors know)
😋
Should I show you?
I really wanna show you 🤪
Well I got the curtains and you know the curtains I wanted to get and I do think I got a good deal for them and everybody needs fucking curtains
I have no curtains in my apartment
I’ve lived here for five years without any fucking curtains, if anybody is giving me shit for spending less than eight dollars for some fucking curtains right now, you just need to go away with your negative energy, these are for my master bedroom privacy
I made a tip and I spent it
I invested it in myself and my art and mental health
WITH YOU IN MIND
You inspire me
And I got the rent paid
I still need to go grocery shopping so I didn’t spend that much money over there and again I used my tip money
I’m not gonna stop sharing my life experience just because I’m over there working now
God wants me to have a husband
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect him
I don’t have a man but you know I’m out here, I’m out here doing the hard work for him to fucking destroy my self-esteem and tell me I have no value
I would have married him at 12…
He tells me his secrets then punishes me 😑
He hasn’t spoke to me in weeks 😑
He’s got another girl 😑
She probably does dirty things for him 😑
He makes me regret being born 😑
But ordered my first bodysuit and the regret is less
Plus my first proper Halloween costume in years
God said it was OK if I spent my tip money on myself
GOD LOVES MY IMAGINATION
And the child in me was not compromised or tainted
God says I’m special, not broken
And all the things I feel are part of being human
There’s good nature and bad nature
Sometimes we make mistakes but when you acknowledge something that doesn’t suit your soul purpose and you stop doing those things, that makes you human not a demon
Waking up was part of my journey and it has taken me so long…
Can’t quit now
The Devil trying hard to get me…
But he can’t have me and I got a cute Halloween costume to mock him instead 😈
Halloween is my favorite season I think
I’m pretty certain I was burned at the stake in a past life
Also, there are ways in which I never want to die
“Haven’t you died 12,000 ways”
“I ain’t going that way, the answer is still no…”
Prime example:
Nope. Leaving that convo between me and God
Ain’t putting it in the ether…
FLORIDA IS KNOWN FOR THEM THO
Fuck it
SINKHOLE
The earth just opens up and swallows you
This guy was in his bed sleeping or jerking off and it was the only place in his entire house that went under and now that whole area is condemned with a fucking piece of plastic do not enter tape line
My fears about dying are starting to get irrational and I already have a therapist so I need a husband…
I got some thigh high socks to combat the fears
That red satin bow set was my first
And now I’ve got another set incoming soon
All these years and never wore socks over the knees and now I don’t wanna stop
I love you 💕
I wanna dress cute for you
Deadly but cute
DANGER CANDY LIKE THE SHROOMS
Sometimes good, sometimes bad 🤪
I just need a husband to sort me
But I’m absolutely grateful for your viewership
You keep me going
The tip did not go for something bad (like alcohol or gambling)
I’ve never had a makeover in my life!!!!!!!
I’m glad I can share it with you
xoxo
(Could you let him know I need him)
I CAN’T BREATHE WITHOUT HIM
He released feel good hormones when I was dying
That’s why John wanted one more phone call
But he was denied 😑
He lost all hope 😑
But I’m not gonna jump from the bridge because I’ve got shit coming but the gang is out and about and they’re probably going to taunt me again tonight so I probably won’t get any fucking sleep tonight either
Where the fuck can I ride my bike with my LED lights and not feel like I’m gonna get murdered???
CUZ THE BIRTHDAY LED SETS ARE ON THE WAY
I even got a wall butterfly!!!!!!!!!!!! LED!!
And I’m gonna burn this grey shower curtain from Walmart
Or put a bunch of old oversized clothes in it and roll it up and make it look like a body and toss some of my cosplay blood on it and take it to the dump as the kids are off to school
I don’t think it’s normal to be having these ideas or laughing the way I do 🤨
Thank fuck for curtains and pretty lights tho
THEY’RE COMING

Ah fuck yeah, and bed sheets
I’ve been so caught up on getting murdered
I’m not allowed to enjoy my life
They want us living in fear
I REFUSE
Halloween is here 🎃🎃🎃
TELL ME YOU LOVE ME BEFORE THEY MURDER ME
He imprinted on me 😑
He knows
At least, I think now
Or we both do 🤔
Because no matter what form he appears
He is the ONLY ONE I respond to in such a manner
He probably thinks I’m like that with all guys
I’m not 😑
He took advantage of our bond 😑
He gave me a map with details not disclosed 😑
I thought I was starting to experience Stockholm syndrome
But it was just him 😑
And he abandoned me 😑
I don’t respond well to trauma bonding or narcissism
He can’t use those tools on me
He needs to learn control 😑
He’s never gonna make me cum if I fear him 😑
He’s not a sex god
He’s an abuser 😑
I never did nothing like that in that chat
But I did do role play stuff with him that I’ve never done with anyone 😑
I was already imprinted on him because my soul knew it was him 😑
But my mind didn’t know 😑
And then he slowly started disclosing details about his life
Things I probably would rather not know
Because he can’t handle the fact that he told me
He thinks I’ll use the information against him 😑
He shoots the listener 😑
I thought I was falling in love with some guy with no teeth and was ready to be kidnapped and settle down with some guy with no teeth but it turned out to be the love of my life
And he abandoned me after he video called and said, “I need you”
He ghosted me 😑
And the Daytona Beach gang are taunting me 😑
And I ran off my favorite poet 😑
I’m all alone 😑
And everyone is leaving toxic Instagram
EVERYONE
And the ones that are staying on Instagram are just simply unfollowing me 😑
And I’m ascending into another level 😑
But I’ve got one more bowl of vegan soup to eat and that immediately stopped my tears
I also have lingerie sets I haven’t got to try on, a brand new pair of shoes, new make up and eye tattoos from my recent birthday
But I need to be in the headspace to create
I need to not be crying while I’m putting my makeup on 😑
I want to move 😑
I’m gonna spend my tip money and buy something nice I think
I LOST EVERYTHING IN 2017

I wanna get these curtains I found at Dolls Kill and I found several cute outfits – including a Halloween set, all for the tip price
I need clothes to wear and if I had a husband maybe people wouldn’t be fucking with me
I wanna imprint on someone who wants me 😑
I’m an organic computer 😑
God made me 😑
GET THE CURTAINS BABE
WE DON’T HAVE ANY
YOU ARE ALLOWED TO WEAR CLOTHES THAT FIT YOU
YOU’RE AN AMAZING BARGAIN HUNTER
WE’RE NOT ALIVE JUST TO PAY THE BILLS
YOU ARE NOT OBSOLETE
Keep detoxing and doing the hard work
He tried to make me feel shameful 😑
He’s mean 😑
I can’t trust myself around him 😑
He’s untrustworthy 😑
I need a safe space to imprint 😑
I’m tired of being in my masculine role 😑
I want a real husband 😑
I’ve never done anything in the chatroom that was porn or triple x
I don’t compromise myself 😑
He said he needed me then cut the cord 😑
He lied 😑
How can he be so cruel 😑
He’s always cutting holes and damaging our true love
I’m moving on 😑
I want my heart, mind, and soul pure for my partner
I’m not putting in the hard work to quit
Eventually, I’ll slow down and halt
But right now I’m in therapy and detoxing and cleansing my spirit
I think I just need to get these things off my chest
So I can figure out who I am and be the best version of myself
Even when/if I’m wrinkled
I want to bond with a man
A true bond
I want to imprint on him and him on me 😑
He’s gotta be out there
Let him know I’m trying to get better
❤️🩹
I don’t want him to be my therapist
I don’t want to fear him 😑
I fear enough 😑

Oh noes
Another launch scrub
But not when it could’ve actually saved lives
MILKING THE TAX PAYERS DOLLARS
I just let the entire medicinal shop know that the Daytona Beach gang was after me but that the universe was speaking to me right now with this song and that y’all are the dumbest criminals ever
THEY WERE ALL SMILING
And then I started feeding off of that energy and bouncing up and down
THE STAFF WAS SMILING
I even said I was going to do a TikTok video with this song dedicated to you
I stated that
YOU WILL NEED A RESTRAINING ORDER TO STOP ME
Cause-and-effect
HAVE FUN
And I’m already skipping up and down the sidewalk with this playing on repeat
Just checking my mail skipping
Just taking my dog for a pee
Minding my own business
I hope the gaslighting is working
The vehicles have mirrors
I can hear you breathe
GET OFF MY DICK
🖕
*skips*
*smiles*
*song on repeat any time I leave the house*
The devil has an invite to bust my fucking door down I double fucking triple dare you to fucking bust my goddamn doors down bust my fucking doors down cross my motherfucking shadow do it fucking do it you little fucking piss ants that will never amount to anything and you’re never coming to heaven with me I fucking dare you to fucking cross my shadow
IT’S THE END OF THE WORLD AND I FEEL FINE
Let the love of my life know I’m nearly healed
I might let him near me in the future for a hug
I threw a glass Coke bottle at his head once a long time ago but I knew he wasn’t gonna move so I put a slight spin on the bottle right at the very end
God has mercy sometimes
He’s lucky
But don’t push his luck…
I need more weapons
Like that scene in the Matrix
But I got my teeth
I bite 👀
The Amazon molly fish is an all female species
The egg picks the sperm and on a cellular level you are 95% your mother
We need to dismantle them
Eat soup
Get clean
Turn off the bad things
We had more oxygen
Trees were bigger
Fruit was bigger
Humans likely too
The Dinosaurs died from lack of oxygen
And in the Great Flood
The establishment can’t stop dropping nuclear bombs everywhere
There’s a place out in the ocean that has nothing and they’ve been dropping bombs and just because nothing is there doesn’t mean something wasn’t going to be there in the future but they ensure that nothing is able to evolve
Not unless evolution is AI by the hand of MAN
Science is compliance
NASA is a fraud
Every war has been man made and avoidable
They program us when we are children
I’m selling my TV…
The cops are going to make a martyr out of me and then the press will list it as a hate crime

Having a bowl of leftover vegan soup

Homemade with love
I’ve never invited the devil to my kitchen and I think that’s the real offense here, he’s just gaslighting and sick of eating pizza from a box…
Edgar would still be around if he had someone to make him some soup
He was into incest and maybe for the best (sorry dear)
I’m never eating anything but rainbow carrots ever again…
Not forever and only
This has got to be the destroying death Angel

I don’t know if it is edible or not
I don’t eat mushrooms
But many species are popping up everywhere
With gills. With pores. Red. Yellow. White.
They all seem like danger
Or a message from the lord
“How do we destroy the elite”
God: GIVE THEM A TASTE OF THEIR OWN MEDICINE

I’m scared of them
All of them
Terrified
A fear as big as the ocean
I want to wear a mask near them
Are they allowed to just invade another planet and destroy a species?
Why am I mostly here to observe and to judge?
Why do I know things to happen before they happen, major things to happen before they happen, directly to just me or to the world!?!
What are these mushrooms popping up all around me and what am I supposed to do with the information that John Jones continues to feed me?
Apparently angels know how to cook soup
God will give you special thangs he grew from the ground
And they will HEAL YOU
THIS IS A MAGICAL BOWL OF SOUP
Not artificial pizza from a box
Humans had to develop a gene to consume dairy
THIS AIN’T NO ORDINARY SOUP
YOU CAN MAKE IT TOO
The crazy thing is, food can be grown for free 🙄
But we have to pay triple the price for health food because that doesn’t serve their purpose of keeping us sick
Magical soup
Can be made over a fire pit
Soup and spring water
Not only does it connect me to my purpose and calm me and fill up my belly, but it’s healing me
I need to move so will get back to sorting and packing again soon
Avoiding the beast
I need as far away from the city as possible
Can’t stand the fake ass devil gaslighting propaganda racist society
You don’t need a fancy kitchen or pot to cook a healing meal
Enjoy your cold pizza dear…
The billionaire does not think about money on his deathbed
You can beat cancer but not by destroying your immune system with chemo

THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
I get off on knowing how fucking weak my enemy is
I KNOW HIS WEAKNESS
YOU CAN’T KILL ME THE SAME WAY TWICE
Ha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suckers!!!!!!
But I can kill the Devil the same way over and over and over and over again
EMPOWERMENT
HE CAN’T IMPRINT ON ME
MY MOTHER AND FATHER IS THE DEVIL
Probably need to detox….
They (the doctors and nurses) are injecting parasites into our food and water source
In the vaccines
Making money from all the sickness
I worked in healthcare for many many years and was really good at my fucking job and we never ever ever ever ever ever ever discussed deworming
MY ENEMY IS GROWING WEAK
GOD IS WINNING
They will drop bombs tho
Like little children throwing fits not getting their way
Narcissism
Need hung from the neck
From a tree
That ain’t hate you see, it’s judgment dear
JUDGMENT HOUR IS HERE
And I get so scared and freaked out that God is gonna leave me down here with all you little demons
Foaming from the mouth, “don’t leave me here”
I KNOW WHAT THE VOID FEELS LIKE
“WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME”
I will not bow to the devil and I will not continue coming here trying to save your lost little fucking soul
I DON’T NEED A BLADE, I HAVE TEETH
GOD HAS MY BACK EVEN WHEN I DOUBT
“Thou shall not kill” UNLESS YOU CROSS MY SHADOW
YOU CROSSED MY SHADOW
THE WARNINGS END
I see you walking in your little fucking gangs and I’m gonna start walking out with my fucking cane please think I’m weak
THE CHILDREN ARE SCREAMING WHEN I EXIT MY DOOR
I’m gonna start laughing like DRACULA
I AM THE DARK
But it bounces off of me and hits you back
lol
I have to do daily baptisms so I don’t fall off into the fucking abyss
I’m not gonna die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe because that’s already fucking happened
You can’t kill me the same way twice
But I can kill you the same way twice lol
They can take my voice and they can take my fucking Second Amendment but they can’t take my skill sets
They can come after the guns but they need to remove my teeth
These motherfuckers will shoot you in your liver and then butt fuck you in the face when they go get their chips off the counter
I could easily disappear into the night and never be seen again and be OK
*snarls*
The Army trained me to be up for days and still be able to fight
I hope you can see how much of a threat I am in my eyes when I’m smiling
You better get off my dick before I go talk to the leader of the KKK
NO MORE WARNINGS
SHUT THE FUCK UP
OMG Y’ALL HE THRIFTS 🤩

He thrifts and shares it in his story 😌

*feels good thangs returning to soul core*
*calms down*
SUNDAY IS FOR WORSHIP 🤪

HE MAKES ME FEEL THE THINGS I FORGOT I COULD FEEL
*doesn’t leap from bridge*
*he thrifts*
Thank you Lord for these precious gifts
Well he is the eye-candy
That smile
The little hair fluff
He thrifts
I can’t
I.CANT.
I can’t block his IP
Quick favor?
HE NEEDS TO DIE
MARK BURGESS OF THE UK
K, THANKS BYE 👍

Part of the 144
Here to JUDGE
ANGELIC
KNOW THINGS BEFORE THEY HAPPEN
MIGHT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR SOME OF THOSE THINGS HAPPENING
“But what’s really going to boggle your noodle later is, would you have still broken it if I hadn’t of said anything…?”
I’ve been spending a lot of time detoxing and purging the devil from my system not watching TV or propaganda except for the shit that I see when I do open up the newsfeed regretfully on Instagram or TikTok
I want to spend more time looking at things that other people do but the invasive ads that cause brain damage and probably do have subliminal messaging in it because I learned in college is a scam that they are using subliminal messaging
I’m ready to have the Internet removed from my home
There is a lot of cancer being exposed from these phones
I’M TRYING TO REACH YOU
THE SOURCE WANTS YOU TO WIN
The Devil already lost and you’re on the wrong side
Final warning
(Iraq is where the Devil fell)
(I lived inside foxholes during war freezing with my m16 praying for the sun to rise and looking at the salt lines)
Iraq once was underwater, 3 times to my count
I know I told you to be still but don’t get too settled
I told you things were going to get harder
Apophis is closer
If I’m only living to 50, according to my very own calculations, I have six years remaining or less
John Jones had a favor
He used it on me
I am not taking for granted the second chance at life he is giving me
His life was not in vain
I will honor him by living mine as clean and honest as I can
But I cuss, I have stretch marks, I’m not a fucking virgin…
Fucking pedophiles everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SAFETY ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh it’s 7:15 am
*DROPS BOTTLE IN THE TUB*
Sometimes I’m so aware about how insane they have made me that I go into these laughing spells but it feels so much better having the laughing spells than it does going into a fit of dark madness where I want to take out the city block so laughing definitely does feel closer to my purpose 🤪
NOW YOU KNOW THE NAME OF MY ENEMY
I know how to get the bull’s-eye on the dartboard too