Should I start over under a hidden identity with my face and tattoos never shown? And my opinion never disclosed? It seems I would have better odds if my mouth were closed.
John, what are you doing down there?
“I thought I was somewhere else on the map”
It’s November. John died in November. I’m grateful I can remember he was murdered.
All my special items I ordered from Shein have shipped! 🙂 I really do love the quality of the material and items I buy! Got some more limited edition stuff from ROMWE that will not be restocked. Plus special XMAS eye candy treats 🎄
Got 2 sunshades coming for my Jeep. My God I discovered the woven pot hangers and they are gorgeous and well priced. So future home makeover stuff will continue, I need real plants on my wall. Maybe start with 1 or 2 and see how I do. Plants purify the air and the good spiders will have a new home. Please stop destroying everything. Animals would evolve and live longer if science and man wasn’t involved to tax us to death and destroy everything natural and organic that God made. I’m sick of BIOENGINEERED foods, GMO, “natural flavor” (it’s made in a lab by scientists who are putting it in EVERYTHING – IT AIN’T VEGAN)
Last night I uploaded some stuff in my story – the paid one – and I received a big tip! That’s cool. Thank you! 🙂
I’m trying new thangs!
I write and make all my content fresh, thanks for allowing me to live and express myself.
The special Christmas lingerie sets I was picking out on Shein was SELLING OUT as I was attempting to load my cart up and shop
And there were other things I was shopping for. Sunshades for my Jeep (dashboard and steering wheel), cleaning rags, regular clothing, and special Christmas stuff (got a hat, socks, satin night cami) + silicone moisturizing socks for the feet (baby soft) 🛼
BUT THE BIG TICKET ITEM I WANTED WAS SELLING OUT. All I’d do is blink and another was sold. 🎄
I WAS LIKE – COULD YOU SAVE ONE FOR ME
Now I know I’m not a busty 10 star but damn I’m an original so that makes have value thank you. I’m here. Deal with it. Plus this is my first time ever shopping for Christmas lingerie. I got a good tip.
I got some really cool Christmas leggings if they fit me and a really cool crop top to wear to events or to go skating in (it’s versatile)
There was a skirt from a favorite designer and I bought the last one potentially. The same designer I scored my Halloween spider witches hat, to be buried in. 🤪
But the big ticket Christmas special lingerie outfit was selling out!!! I wanted it!
IT DID IN FACT SALE OUT (I got a set coming) 🎄
So shopping hour was over!!!! Time to checkout! 🤪
SOON COMING 🎄
And I got it, in a small, and I hope it will fit! I hope I didn’t spoil the fucking surprise
I hope you like the special lingerie set that I got and it’s incoming, I’ll have a shipping status soon!
I’m glad I was able to budget in the big ticket items because I really wanted those but I had to put some stuff back because the other stuff started selling out! 🤪
My wishlist is growing full. But I’m not just buying lingerie. 🎄
I’ll probably wear that little satin Cami nightgown all through December and January (well it’ll get washed, but you know what I mean, sleep gown)
I like the quality and price of Shein. Shipping is never as long as it estimates – unless you get hit with a category 5 hurricane – that will set you back.
I really hope those black Christmas leggings fit because they remind me of Greese and I can go skating in them (you know the movie right)
I think it was John Travolta’s first film
If they fit, they will look good with my black and gold skates, and I busted out my measurements.
28 inch waist currently, 117 pounds 👀
Shoe size 6 1/2 – 7 (sometimes a 6)
34B (sometimes 36C unless lactating) (then like DD) 🤪
STOP PICKING ON ME
My mini tree is out and first ornament I ever made in kindergarten (school is slavery)
I got a new lace veil today at Spirit Halloween but would you know they were out of their infamous bleeding candles here and at every store nearby! Sold out! So wasn’t able to score another pair, nor will they have any at the huge after Halloween blowout sales lol
New lace comb veil (because she kept poison in the comb and this is a black comb lace veil) MINE
I got a military discount today and will likely sneak back and see what the vultures left behind for the huge blowout sale
Box of tricks from Spirit Halloween 😈
But I still have one candle unburned and one that I just lit for a set that is still more than half (and now they feel even more special for the set I’ll use them since I wasn’t able to score any replacements this season. Boo)
Sometimes I score tee-shirts (plain but black or green or some other color but 100% cotton or near)
New lunchbox from Spirit Halloween
I really wanna save my dough for Dolls Kill and Shein – see what I can grab there this time – got my trick or treat shopping in early tho at Spirit – and with that military discount – but dammnit if they didn’t have the ONE THING I WANTED and really no point in going back but I know I will 👻
I do like grabbing the journals and the home stuff at discounted prices and I did score a really cool lunchbox that includes a poem 🎃
I can use it when I take my walks to the beach and park or travel wherever OR as a keepsake box or to store my gun in 🙃
It’s practical and my first real lunchbox since a kid that doesn’t look like I’m going to work or a hike. But remember when lunchboxes would have really cool things inside them (kind of like vinyl records).
😈
Oh and I got a new skull for the bookshelf 💀
And my military discount paid for those decals but I don’t know if I can use them in any of the photo sets on onlyfans because we’re not allowed to use blood, or say the word blood, or bleeding, so I don’t know if I can have bloody handprints even though they’re decals 💀
I can use them to decorate my Jeep tho or a wall or put it on forever furniture – I DON’T KNOW
I HORDE THINGS LIKE A SQUIRREL
I WAS INVITED TO A HALLOWEEN EVENT THAT INCLUDES PRIZES AND A SMALL MEAL
I RSVPD
I HOPE I GO 🎃
(Please go)
(I’ll let you know if I go)
(Free food even if I win nothing I won a free meal and I wanna get invited to the bigger Jeep events on beachside on Main Street when ONLY JEEPS ARE ALLOWED TO DRIVE ON IT
I’m trying to be a positive part of my community
My little Jeep is old and it could win a free part but I’m not decorating it but if I go – I could go in a costume, maybe I might win something for it or myself, but still free small meal) (networking)
(It requires communication and I’m an introvert so I probably won’t go)
Or go but not leave my ride 👻
Also more writing and stuff to come
My poetry is so fresh it normally comes with mistakes (no editor). ☠️
Yo. I mean, I have more content coming. But I make everything hot. 🤪
I don’t use a poem generator.
I don’t have a husband who could be my poem generator (like David Gilmour and his wife write lyrics together, I don’t have that)
I made Dark chocolate cupcakes with dark chocolate “tombs” and decorated them with Halloween cake rings (that can be worn)
Cake ring decorations
I’m still detoxing so am not using icing (I think that stuff is overrated)
My cake was experimental
Cake decoration (not a ring)
The cake is vegetarian cuz I used 3 brown eggs, unsweetened applesauce (about half a cup), coconut oil, pumpkin seeds, blanched and whole almonds, rolled oats, flax seed, and love 💕
Started off with 2 eggs but needed a third
It started with two brown eggs but I needed 1 more (or more applesauce so the egg won since I ate too much of the applesauce) 🤪
I did not want the batter dry because I was gonna add all the other ingredients and I had zero guidebook cookbook for the RECENTLY NEAR DECEASED
But I experimented by adding nuts, seeds, and oats
A semi-healthy Halloween treat that would have been good with some instant coffee tossed in the batter (next time)
Flax for the gut health
And I made a cake too
Raw cupcake batter
I was gonna share with the neighbors but naw
I should have sprinkled it with oats before tossing in the oven (next time)
Turned the whole house smelling good
I’m gonna enjoy with coffee over breakfast and/or treat time
Decoration isn’t my thing but A for effort?
And they actually do taste good which is why I wanna be greedy 🎃
Happy Boo season 👻
Uhm check the current census for a scare 👀
I used broken dark chocolate bits as the “tombs” 👻
Sidenote: some sort of non cancerous marshmallow could be used as spider webbing and edible decoration
I’m just throwing out ideas
If you make it better, show me
I don’t have a mama or daddy or brother or hubby
K, thanx, bye
HAPPY HALLOWEEN 🎃
P.S. If you have those little spiders – the black and orange ones that hang on your Halloween decorations – you can use those for your cakes – but please don’t eat your wearable cake decorations – get photos in them instead or actually share the cupcakes and let folks keep the Halloween jewelry (or ask for them back) 🤪
Let me know if you liked my idea or if it gave you any good ideas for treats of your own
I think some cute edible spider webbing would have been the spooky sweet perfection around the chocolate tombs (which could be a tad bigger and these are 70% and 90% dark chocolate bits)
70% & 90% dark chocolate broken bits (used with coffee and as cupcake “tombs”
You could carve initials or dates into the edible tombs for extra spooky vibes and put small white chocolate drizzle near the tombs as spider webbing
Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. 💀
Psst…
Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill 💀
Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein 😈
Both sold out but may restock 🎃
One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot
I’m the real thang 🎃
You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore 👻
So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare
I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) 🎃
Halloween is my favorite season perhaps 🤔
Do you like my new set?
How is my petite pumpkin looking? 👀
“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)
Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.
Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway
Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”
Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol
I also talk to the dead
I have a budding relationship with John Jones
I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree
The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away
To get me down…
I don’t know what’s real anymore
I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now
I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one 😑
The way the wheels turn 💀
But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF
And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going
WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into
I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life
My blog continues to remain advertising free
All my content is original
Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind
There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all
Self-portrait October 2022 (the timeline is wrong)
Curfew doesn’t apply to me ENCOURAGING I’m outside foraging Nighttime flourishing
Forgive my offenses Leaping over fences Soul consequences No shame dispenses
Maybe I’m like liquids My blood is wicked This tongue explicit Soul sin omitted
Cop and crow Linger on death row I got front show Walk with vertigo
You’re on speed dial? Definition of reconcile? My aim is hostile Sit down awhile
Eggshell or limestone Wait til I’m in prone Crawling through milestone Tearing down all throne
They are watching Dark eyes mocking I’m out here walking White girl so shocking
I don’t want to wear pretty dresses made with poison Competing against everyone and their perfect lies Even in death Forged and eulogized Casket closed The truth is never wide Silence on our face The dead won’t cry!
He is danger; know him like a stranger I react with anger Tunnel through the trigger Lock and load with vigor Cold as glacier I am endangered
I don’t know whether to be offended or withdrawn I don’t know the rules at all He’s automaton I dare not crawl
I’m folding Guess heart is delicate Space dimension Satan is malevolent Wrapped up in King Wildcard is element I am Queen And God can handle it Angel on my wing
Me and the neighbors decided to get along But we don’t know for how long With gifts received And gifts have gone
I want to destroy the very bridge you build to cross my land Fences and shrapnel Won’t keep you out at all Won’t fall to command Don’t care where I stand Don’t care if you’re banned
He’s the weight of the universe On my mind A string to wind A snake twirling on the vine A crack in time
Nine meals from anarchy 9 miles to the sea Cross of calvary Hold line faithfully
Loose nails Mixed messages Maps without haphazardness Excuse my negligence Trapped up to my neck Hell is a wreck
She always carried poison in one of her hair combs Got suicide in her bones Same chromosomes Suffer from the same syndromes Know I ain’t John Jones
We’re trapped at the event horizon 11 dimensions and rising A hologram reflection of me crying Every moment we’re climbing A carbon copy barely surviving
He said I’m a sexy witch My spell has a perfect pitch But he is living under bridge And I love him just a smidge
He tells me things I don’t want to know HE TELLS ME EVERYTHING THOUGH Expression cold And I’m left to fold
Soups, stews, treats, and pepper sauce – all made from scratch and with love
Memaw always said heat the vinegar to extract “the heat” from the pepper
Measure out what you need in the jar, then heat to a simmer and remove from heat and pour over your peppers (you can leave them whole but remove the stems)
Slowly pour the vinegar over the peppers and set aside and let them cool and then put them in the fridge and forget about them for at least two weeks
The longer they sit in the fridge the hotter they will be and you can top up the vinegar by adding more hot vinegar to the peppers as it diminishes
I’ll eventually eat the peppers too but memaw said they are good for at least one year in the fridge – I’m gonna need a bigger jar 🤪
Currently I’m making stew with green cabbage
Fresh vegetables and herbs 🌿
It’s been simmering ten thousand years and I’m investing in a bigger pot soon
I also recently made spicy pasta
It was tasty and I’ll try different versions soon
Lots of fresh tomatoes, herbs, and peppers 🌶 🫑
Fresh garlic, olive oil, onions….
Tomatoes, more tomatoes, and a small tin of organic tomato sauce
I was out of penne pasta but had whole wheat spaghetti but used bow-tie noodles instead
I also added 3 bean trio cuz protein (it’s good)
Overall, my experimental spicy pasta was a hit (could make minor changes) (more garlic too)
And then, there’s the oatmeal peanut butter protein balls
Take 1 cup of peanut butter (a good one) and gently mix over low heat with 1 cup of maple syrup (a good one)
Once it has a light bubble – remove from heat (takes maybe 2-3 minutes) (maybe 5)
Add 1 cup of rolled oats by gently folding
I added flax and raw pumpkin seed to the mix – cuz tis the season 🎃
Put them in a better cooling tray and set in the fridge until they harden – then put in a storage container – these protein balls make around 2 1/2 dozen and could last you two weeks in the fridge but mine never go past 1 week
I could have used more oats cuz they were kinda sticky this time. Full of protein, vegan, and organic. That’s all for now. Gotta get back to the pot on the stove… 🤪
We can’t stop tomorrow Falling in the center of all hollow Black hole is sorrow Do you have hope to borrow?
And where I’m crawling narrow Do you really care though? Always chasing pharaoh Name sinner sparrow
I can eat a meal with Abraham Or Gideon Fight the city of Sodom Blindsided with no hand
They call me FALLEN Say my name – Never see me crawling Calling poison pollen
His self-worth Is wrapped in numbers and money Thinks darkness is sunny
Swallowed by sinkhole Earth on cruise control Got my spirit low I live on limestone
Love is a feeble and fragile fire Under denial He will still smile Lie while under trial Claim that he misdialed He’s a pedophile
I’m not interested in validation But more of if today I will eat a salad
Maple Blood of the gods Drink it in gobs Amber makes tongue throb Need it a lot Plot for my crop
He can’t believe he crawled into that hole Based on the lies he was presented His death could’ve been prevented He uses me to speak it
Lives are born and never recorded They are important
If eyes were closed His love disposed His blood runs cold Like death decomposed
The worst of all possible punishment Put it on a monument Pay the earth a compliment Nevermind where heaven went Paid with life and not one cent Left us broke to an extent You think dying’s intimate?
Well my hand was drawn at midnight 13 minutes after bad luck Tiny feet kick through sheet rock I don’t give a fuck
He’s glaring attentive The sun burning incentive He stands with attention Will burn through dissension
Better to be a warrior in a garden, than a gardener in a war That’s my rapport Put it on a flag and let’s explore The garden is what I’m fighting for
Photos from last nights try on session (so casual stuffs)
I’m still rearranging my bedroom and my bed is now on the floor and I gave my neighbor my lazy chair recliner because I’m still getting rid of furniture and might be homeless soon thanks to Black Rock dictatorship
I can’t fall in love with things I don’t like Some dogs makes you want to end your life
Luck and fortune I want an option Hope found at auction? I burn every doctrine Feet keep marching I’m cursing often Earth will be my coffin Chasing after nothing
First off, you can use whatever veggies, herbs, and meats you like. But this pot is organic and vegan and made with love. No recipe book! ❤️
Jesus said when he comes back he’s hitting my door for some soups
I didn’t use all my cherry rainbow tomatoes or tomatoes on the vine (or peppers and herbs) cuz I’m using some to make pasta sauce
I don’t have a fancy kitchen setup yet but I’m using a glass pot and Florida spring water
I do advise that you drink spring water locally wherever you are
I used a can of tomato sauce this time – it made absolutely no difference in taste turn out – it did however help since I was using less tomatoes this time to make my base
Glass pot + Spring water + sauce + handful of medley cherry tomatoes 🍅 + low heat (simmer around 3-4 heat)
Start dropping herbs and spices (you will be cooking with your eyes and nose for the next few hours)
I tossed in a couple small handfuls of green split peas + lentils
2 + 2 and stir frequently but gently so they don’t stick (I do not presoak in poison)
We’re making witches stew (vegetable soup – can be made with a fire and cauldron potentially)
Now I’m dicing peppers and celery to get the broth nice and tasty – these can be diced small – we’ll add more later towards the end – so don’t put it all in now
This is how it’s going
You can add salt and pepper now – slow and steady wins the race (no taste testing until the potatoes are being tried) (we haven’t put any potatoes in the pot yet so stop freaking out). I use about a quarter amount of salt in my palm – about 4 pinches worth – THIS TIME AND EACH TIME
I also used a dash of sea salt that states it does not provide the necessary nutrients – and I’m still on the hunt for the correct salt to use
My doctor did say I needed more salt and that was when I was just using the sea salt that doesn’t provide the necessary nutrient
A quarter amount of salt
You wanna add all your spices now – but not at one time. They were out of fresh rosemary but I had some dry herbs on stock (I am not growing my own herbs and peppers and tomatoes because I don’t have a balcony or porch to do that and all the apartments I lived in before I could at least grow some herbs and peppers and shit)
I did use fresh cilantro and parsley 🌿 and lots of it too (saved some for the upcoming pasta)
And you’ll likely need to add a touch more water later – you don’t want the beans using up all your water and the extra fiber will be very hearty (also these require half an hour at normal temps to cook on their own, these will require the full simmer time of 2-3 hours, you’ll need to stir gently and often to ensure proper rotation
At this point I’m still dicing peppers, onions, and adding herbs 🪴
I use seeds yes – skins and seeds 🙌
My soup turns out mild so I gotta kick up the heat soon
During the broth making session, the items are diced (celery, onion, tomatoes on the vine – I kept the cherry tomatoes whole and did not pop them unless they popped on their own)
Celery makes for a delicious broth
I generally add more to the soup during the end – so I have a slightly crunchy celery and pepper (no carrots this time but lots of cabbage)
With the rosemary (pre stir)
But now you can start adding yer tators! I used 3 this time! I wanted extra potato since I had no fresh carrots!
And I plan on making homemade baked fries with skins on! Potato logs!
Trying new thangs!
LOOK AT IT 🤩
I kept skins on! All the thangs! (Not the onion)
Once the tators are near done, you can add cabbage, more peppers, celery, onion, salt n spices
It’ll smell divine
It’s soup fit for a king 👑
I’m carefully adding MORE cabbage
Don’t spill a drop!
It’s almost done and you can add more salt and pepper but once I put mine in a bowl it does not need anything else but I literally could add salt and pepper until I was dead
I also carefully added dark red kidney beans because the heart needs!!!
And this is the end result of hard work and love
Several bowls and will last several days in a fridge if eating alone (unless you go hog wire)
I didn’t add any jalapeño sauce or cheese or extra salt or pepper or anything afterwards but it probably could use any of those things and make it taste even better
I GOT ONE GIANT DOUBLE BOWL REMAINING
I’ve also been drinking this tea and I recommend it or any version that is a healthy version without the poison but it’s the ginger turmeric that helps inflammation/heart/gut health
I gotta start using the real stuff
Coffee and tea and soup. It’s like my soul purpose.
I made Vegan oatmeal protein balls and I’ll do an upcoming blog post and how to make those! Simple! Easy! Maybe 20 minutes from prep to finish!
Thanks for stopping by my blog! 🙌
I reactivated my Insta but with boundaries 🤪
My awesome hot pants workout set will be arriving Friday! They shipped it out same day! 🎃
The vegan treats are worth sticking around for and don’t let the word vegan scare you. PROTEIN BALLS 🤤
You should’ve kept your mouth shut So deep my wound you felt the cut I guess you’d say you bleed somewhat If you stab in the gut
Sometimes I feel rushed The weight of a feather crushed As long as voice is hushed The praise will gush
I’M ACTUALLY NATIVE AMERICAN BROWN WITH SOME ALBINO AND SUN SPOTS FROM THE SOURCE
I bring you gifts Of all the things you hate Kick you from cliffs And blame you for the weight
You’re a savage and a servant You’re a lion and a lamb Lessons you never learned it And regret You won’t feel a milligram
Are you a gap in reflection? A two way mirror complexion? Can you give me protection? Such priceless affection?
I want to disturb the place you rest Uneasy under crest The earth must love you best Won’t let go your chest
I don’t follow the trends They lead to dead ends!
Long ago I was discarded Does faith keep one safeguarded God is brokenhearted Gone extinct his harvest I cry the hardest
Remove the harness Underneath the carcass Decay just a garnish Layer earth with tarnish We all die regardless
Top of the list huh Right next to “she is dumb” So above and below your thumb Better argument and income That’s the mirror you’re seeing from REMOVED MYSELF FROM THE EQUATION
A GHOSTLY INVASION
I can see through hell’s shadow He’s drinks coffee like espresso I removed self from the status quo I KNOW MY POSITION THOUGH
I’m up, you’re down? Quantum entanglement We wear it like a crown?
My gifts come with all the things he hates Open up these flooded gates Love obviates Nothing he appreciates
Tart Like black cherry Contempt he’ll carry Bag overflowing heavy Sin his sanctuary
P.S. I’m not giving up on the dog. We went for two bike rides yesterday. I finally got the bike out of the house. Most of the black neighbors looked like they wanted to run over me and one white neighbor stopped in his car and warned me that they do 90 around the bend and “be careful”.
I’m not racist I swear. (Everyone hates me for my skin color or my soul. I don’t know which anymore but the city IS dangerous and folks being murdered left and right).
They are targeting the disabled and single white girls. FYI (old people and generally anyone looking weak)
I stitched you into fabric Maybe not elaborate Tiny bit of havoc Maybe out of habit
With some twigs and magic Spilled blood and tragic Wind blown erratic Pages blank but classic
Well now I’ve found the warmth Wrapped up in your world From east to north Stepping back and forth
I have been to hell and back Got the almanac Full sins on attack My wings are carbon black
If photons had a clock The clock would never tick Don’t you question it My love for him It’s just physics
I think he is precious Sun burning contentious Heavy metal pretentious Like moon is reckless Tiny little crevice Will appear speckless Diamond for necklace Can leave lung breathless
How to avoid a road to hell? I think it’s where we fell? Should have gone left? What do you suggest?
He’s got a crown and sword I want to fall on
To die tenderly Kinetic energy Your words – Are haunting me
You will find God if you look lower Crawl feet first but slower Remove bad clover Like a whistleblower
My growth has been stunted Under moon words hunted Why you are confronted All my love abundance Love you in hundreds
Sometimes wounds are gutted Jump in holes redundant Forget the summit Pitched in black no judgment My hope is funded
Through your words I’m blooded Heart beats on like flooded I know what you did Whole world screams forbid Death cannot disconnect our power grid
And if your words are a puddle I’d jump in again and again Don’t care how deep it gets Love you from within
I JUST WOKE UP AND STOLE THE IMAGES FROM TIKTOK AND TURNED THE IDEA INTO A POEM. NEW TREND. SUE ME. The creator is in the poem.
GODDESS
I’ve been praying for answers though on what to do, on how to take down the elite and all these goddamn mushrooms keep popping up all around this lake and now this very clear information came through to me and this is something that we all can hold them back from
LEAVING EARTH
(We can’t go anyway but we can absolutely stop them)
WE CAN STOP THEM 😈😈😈😈
Also – I firmly believe that we dropped a giant bomb on Mars and we’ve been cloning for a long time
There is now evidence coming out that a bomb was dropped on Mars – (they’ll say an Asteroid ☄️)
They keep spraying poison over all the flowers on the road and now they want us to pay for them to plant flowers that they killed
And I did
The enemy is sitting rich on his throne while he fucking poisons my food air and water
WE CAN STOP THEM
I WANT BIG BOI ON MY TEAM
I’ll be lingering near the safe zone of the beach when the shit hits the fan
But it won’t matter if I have an old working jeep or are new working jeep, I can’t outrun the Lord!!!
I would like a floaty device tho
Jesus: you get one question go:
Me: how to save a barnacle? How to save the world? 😌
Right now the message imcoming is: WE CANNOT LET THEM LEAVE
Ready to sell my TV and destroy the elite
If you let your children use virtual reality gaming you are ruining their brain and if you use it for porn you are ruining your brain – you’re not supposed to have that much dopamine being released and it’s literally destroying the fabric of your identity and CELLS
Advertising is just as intrusive
That’s why sometimes you want to cry after an ad
ADVERTISING IS CONDITIONING AND MOST ADS LIE!!!!!!! THE GOVERNMENT IS OUR ENEMY NOW IN EVERY CAPACITY OF THE WORD – THERE IS NO HIDING THE EVIL NOW
Walmart was completely out of eggs, coffee, red potatoes, and other items I ordered
When I asked if they had “less eggs available”, the employee replied, “we have no eggs”, and there were a few items that got substituted instead and I was actually grateful for that
The organic maple syrup was being bought out online as I was buying, along with many items, and the time slots available for delivery or pickup were already filled until 9 am Monday (today)
So I’m lucky I got any items at all
2 pounds of rolled oats! Only need 1 cup (uncooked) for the vegan protein balls! 🤪
The substituted Maple will do just fine (and can be used for pancakes too)
I recommend using a good peanut butter but I didn’t fit it into the budget – mostly because I have six jars of donated jars I wanna use up – and I’m relying less on the food banks as my main source of food
Got all sorts of edible thangs!
I still have regular pumpkin seeds to add to my nut and seed mix, but topped up on the roasted seeds and glad I scored a bag cuz they only had 4 left!
Food is healing and I got stuff I can eat if the lights go out
Tomatoes on the vine!
Fresh herbs, peppers, spices!
Apparently you can sprinkle flax on anything so it’ll probably get in the trail mix for starters 🤪
Peppers galore
I’m famished 🤪
Scored a purple and green head of cabbage!!! 🤩
Witchy vegan stew incoming soon 🤪
My dog is driving me insane and I do wish our nightmare would come to an end
6 excellent years followed by 5 terrible
And no, I don’t want him anymore. He ain’t a dog.
5 pounds of potatoes and despite how terrible the dog treats me, he eats like a king
Pound of dry beans + canned beans in case
Him: any additions?
Me: beans
Loads and loads of good eating this month
More of the good salt which may not be good after all but SALT
And this tea to help with inflammation but I need to learn to use the real stuff and baby steps….
The only water available…
And I still have a pound of raw cashews and 3 bottles of detox incoming
They were out of coffee and eggs tho and this was the only dairy I got (I’m trying to quit cheese and yogurt currently)
I didn’t show all the herbs but I’ve got some fresh cilantro and parsley to toss in the soup – not to mention like 6 or 7 fresh jalapeños (and a bag of sweet peppers).
Unfortunately the banana chips and the dark chocolate have natural flavor in it so I won’t be able to do those again but for now it will be a good snack. The dark chocolate is intended for the coffee. Luckily, the container I just popped makes 148 cups! But wasn’t able to restock this month!
Him: any addictions?
Me: coffee and cabbage 🤪
I got green and purple! I just desperately wanted a head! God made sure I got two!!! I’ll make good use! No eggs but protein balls and extra cabbage! Plus, that bag of oats was bigger than I thought! 2 pounds! My nuts are also the big boys!!! Happy to have a stocked fridge and pantry tis all!
I’ll find water but I need a filter for the sink! God wants me to become more self-reliant! Less plastic! Less waste!!! Less poison!!!!!! I can’t believe nobody is protesting the water being poisoned but I may start showing up at City Hall soon. But I’d rather buy an acre with a mobile home. Witchy stew and protein balls.
THANK THE LORD! 🙏
Gonna make some hot pepper sauce with the fresh peppers and vinegar! Homemade soup and pepper sauce!!! 🎃
I posted stuff on TikTok and Insta before I went down
That dude was not drunk
He was walking a straight line in hurricane winds
Now meybeeee he had a drink
But he was not staggering and had full control
I was worried I was gonna get booted off of my live for dangerous activities so I was letting people know that I was not part of that group but looking back on it he had so much courage, will, and strength
He was exercising and taking dips in Hurricane Ian
The way that bird hovered near him
It was like watching a real life gladiator undergoing some sort of spiritual thang
THIS COULD BE NORMAL ACTIVITY FOR HIM
Meanwhile, I was standing with my legs shoulder length apart holding the damn camera arm with both hands with all my might being blown left and right!!!
My lower back was hurting from being beat by the wind!!!
There were two others in his group that were undressing to go in that chose not to
I was live on TikTok so it took me by surprise – didn’t want dude to drown
That motherfucker is the son of Poseidon or some shit – like he is in god mode or something exercising his demons or gaining full control of them
I get chills watching back on it lol
I’m afraid for the water to touch me and this dude was baptizing in the storm
LOL
Not just any storm either…
Apparently one of the worst hurricanes to hit Florida in 100 years
My power has been down an hour or so
I definitely was not prepared but I have several hours maybe days worth of candle light that I can use and I’ll probably mostly use it at night time for 2 to 3 hours only
FYI the wind was so gnarly I had to stand with my feet shoulder with apart, leaning into the wind battering me to death AND it required TWO HANDS just to hold my device
I was getting blown away and he was taking dips like a bird
Sidestepping a hurricane
And the way the bird kept rhythm with him entering the ocean
Not a sign of doom
GLADIATOR DUDE
I want him on my team for the apocalypse
Let’s feed him good
💪
He conquered something because his step was getting more powerful the closer in
STOMPING THE STORM
I’m terrified of the ocean calm so this was kind of incredible to see
He didn’t seem drunk, more determined
STUPID COURAGEOUS (oxymoron!?!)
He woke
And he definitely pissed off
SEA MONSTER CONQUERED SOMETHING TODAY
His fears? 🌀
I could barely stand and the wind nearly blew my Jeep door off
GUSTY
Also, I met a one legged bird and nearly wept
And an outcast because weak
But that seabird was so strong 😑
Sad but strong
Struggling to survive with one leg 😑
Now I’m gonna cry again 😑
The one legged bird and gladiator vibes at the beach today
It’s never dull even when it’s dull
Because people were complaining about the live lmao
Not all but some
🤪
Most enjoyed getting to see the fury but I can’t do anything about the sound quality
I’m not wasting time, energy, gas, running around for scraps
TIME TO RATION SUPPLIES – SOMETHING THESE GREEDY NARCISSIST KNOW NOTHING ABOUT
The town is under curfew
Most businesses are closed or are closing early (I was gonna cheat and get fast food after finding zero water but the universe said NOPE don’t want you eating that crap)
The lights were on and they were open and workers were inside on the clock getting paid to do nothing – quiet quitting every chance they get on our dime
THE LAZY GENERATION
WANTS TIPS BEFORE SERVICE AND ZERO QUALITY SERVICE AT THAT
DELUSIONAL
I’ll post some videos on TikTok if I’m allowed and while I still have power
It might not get that bad but I have lived through two hurricanes where I live and power was out for a week
No fucking water anywhere
NONE
I’m gonna look on Walmart delivery or pickup if they have it…
I’M EXPECTING THEM TO NOT OR TO HAVE JACKED UP THEIR PRICES FOR BASIC LIVING NECESSITIES WHICH SHOULD BE ILLEGAL
Haven’t had any Evec orders but we are under curfew
I still have 4 gallons of water so hopefully I’m okay
I need out of the city tho
It’s not safe here
In any capacity
I went live for a few minutes, got entirely soaked walking around the ocean, I’ll get the videos posted since none of the locations had drinking water
Had some pissy people on the live apparently. Acting as if hurricane ocean is safe. 🤡
I ain’t dying for views. But I am a blogger and I do share my environment.
Things are taking forever to upload too 🤪
My fridge is empty and so are the stores which are closing early
The power can go out and my electric bill probably still gonna be through the roof
I don’t want modern luxury if it takes three jobs to pay your electric and your rent
They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health
Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS
Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16
I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence
I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose
That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time
COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES
Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration
Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?
I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere
I feel a stranger in my own land
But I’m not allowed to talk about it
I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect
I swore an oath
I SWORE
To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism
The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers
And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either
I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health
And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012
IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated
And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty“I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”
He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀
He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs
He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)
But God will be reigning on him soon
He was warned
Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel
Possibly his guardian angel
He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!
Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😤
I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd
I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment
I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people
I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge
But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art
I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people
I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband
I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn
And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if
CLUELESS
I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment
We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet
Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy
The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system 
Especially as a female….
“Never go anywhere alone”
“If you get lost, stand still”
Like, I can keep going…
I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits
I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)
Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪
You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control
I’m trying to save you
I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace
I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)
He can have his freedom I fought for
But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God
I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies
I don’t have anything to offer When he can buy it all A narcissist will not suffer Like an angel will fall
Let him run to Paris! Let him have his fun! My name’s Polaris Like lightning from a gun!
Have you been to the petrified forest in North Dakota? Have I lost my quota?
God made galaxies to be seen The calm and serene The moon and evergreen The sun and me
Full moon tomorrow And I’m all sorrow
Mary Magdalene was a whore Who slept with men for honey Wanted bread, not money What’s to abhor?
The homeless are an invasive species Or so the TV tells me As rent continues skyrocketing The problem aren’t the elites
I’m organic It makes the Devil frantic! Hand stitched by God The Devil cannot stand it!
See the full set on my OnlyFans (thank you so much for your support, as I like food a lot, despite the petite appearance…)
11 hours go by 17 make me cry
Why you take so long to respond to me Takes an eternity
Mercury in Retrograde Not like the softness in my tears The way you disappear Demand both sin and aid! God’s not counting years So the moon will not persuade Though full when he appears With only faith to trade God’s not missing here
The King is a fool Burning his confidant of truth
93 million miles away huh (all photography by @poeeternal)
The next time God sends you something with wings It won’t have feathers Looks like bad weather Be damned is what it means I warn of things
When in doubt Burrow Like a fox Make it thorough
Not going in – is what the sign reads (red flags 101) RIP JOHN JONES
Can we start over? Since we never have before? An open shoulder? Not a closed door?
Father,
I have lost all sense of worth I put in the work Darkness was my crutch Jumping cliff to perch Swearing off the church I know Satan’s lurch Full sin born at birth Decades roaming earth Hell, heaven or hearth
Please save me
Freckles galore – kisses from the source (lots and lots) 9/25/2022 (time is bullshite) (Ethiopia is seven years behind. April Fool’s!!!!!!!!!) Stupid Americans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell like a sword Over propaganda I am abhorred God did not abandon Heart can be restored Faith my companion
He treats me like a number in the crowd He’s a puddle and I can’t get out
I found myself a lost wanderer Surrounded in fear With water creeping near But without wonder Year after year I know I am average I am shrinking here
And now, under moon A ceremonial ego death Hard to draw a breath John Jones go left! I wake up in sweat I lost a brother Maybe the best
I am covered in agony One lifeline to heaven please God is feeding me Gave me life and seed Said get creating Heart has energy Blood is poetry
The earth took my blood Water turned bone to stone Earth is my home!
Earth is lying!!!!!!!
AND I MUST WEEP ALONE!!!!!!!
Tiny raindrops pouring down Your energy speaks volumes There in the Bayou Lies who?
Cutting blood ties With moonstone What could go wrong Hissing with his lies Missing is his tries Left to roam alone
I’m not crawling to my doom I take cover under moon My cloth isn’t costume My favorite color isn’t gloom I’m not chasing after you
The baby likely died last Down in the valley Family finale
I’m aware my artistry is waning like the moon (sometimes thangs are better but I always put full heart in)
I hope there was something you enjoyed and there is more content coming! 🤪
I got folks coming to my blog telling me to cover up. Last I checked I was a GROWN WOMAN and nudity is NOT A SIN
God made me capable of having children at 13 and I believe I should’ve been allowed to choose a husband while under the age of 18
SOCIETY IS A SCAM
*leaps from bridge*
They want me covered up in jab cuz they can’t control their urges
They teach their children women are to be seen as sex objects only – only nude when servicing man
The guy coming to my blog telling me to cover up is the same guy who supports porn stars and the porn industry and jerks off to porn religiously but then goes to church and drops some money in the tray and thinks everything is OK
Glad he’s enjoying farm life and three meals a day plus infinite snacks
BUT YOU PISSED ON ONE OF GOD’S ANGELS
HE’S TAKING NOTE
I am grateful for your viewship. I shouldn’t have to censor myself on my own blog. It goes against my purpose of full transparency and truthmongering. Sorry not sorry.
“I don’t want my kids to see this”
You mean the same kids you let loose in the mall and at Walmart whom openly sale erotic adult sex toys IN FRONT OF CHILDREN – not behind a curtain 👀
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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALLOWING ME FREEDOM OF SPEECH ON MY OWN BLOG
I don’t have to change who I am or the things that bring me purpose to find a fucking husband
I’m gonna goth the fuck outta my bedroom
As soon as the things in the dolls home goes on sale and I refurbish my little bit of savings money to do a little bit more splurging for the home 🤪
YOU SHOULD SEE THE ITEMS IN MY WISHLIST
THE GOTHY PINKY BLACK THANGS
MAKE MY COFFIN GOTH
K, thanks, bye
EDGAR ALLAN POE WAS GOTH AND I AM HIS DAUGHTER INCARNATE
I don’t know if he would’ve been my dad or my brother or my cousin because he married his fucking blood cousin but whatever
HE WAS GOTH
DUHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU KNOW YOU LIKE IT
STOP GASLIGHTING
I’m in a cult – it’s a goth cult – and no amount of money will ever get me to leave
That’s like asking me not to breathe 🙄
Maybe if Trent Reznor drops out
MAYBE
He married an effing witch
Yeah no
Ain’t happening
My calling is being called
I AM A VAMPIRE GODDESS
I DO NOT BOW WITH FORCE OR MANIPULATION OR LIES
A KING HAS NOT A KINGDOM WITHOUT A QUEEN
I deleted you from my phone contact list and I’m not ghosting you, I’m setting fucking boundaries since you clearly, clearly have expressed differences with callous and stone
Fairly certain God is spitting on you and if he’s not, he will be reigning on you soon…
He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget
I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that
How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!
I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even
SOLD OUT!
I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.
Jesus completely submitted to his queen and gave over his ministry to her, FYI
SMART KING 👑
Anyhoo, just some comments that came on my blog today about how I should manner myself
My art is unbecoming
(Still holding top 51 tho thank you)
I MIGHT CAN GET GROCERIES NEXT WEEK TO MAKE MORE HEALING VEGAN SOUP AND GOD APPROVES
He thanks you because most men want to look but not share their fucking bread!!!!!
It’s written in the Bible!!!!!!
“Nice peach”. No, I ain’t got nothing for you to eat. Word of advice tho….”
I’VE GONE INSANE WITH HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF
GOD IS HELPING ME GET MYSELF AND MY KING TOGETHER SO WE CAN UNITE
THERE ARE FORCES AT WORK OUTSIDE OF AI OR THE ALGORITHM OR THE EVIL ELITES
COSMIC THANGS
MY KING AND I ARE UNDERGOING AWAKENING AND CLEANSING BEFORE WE UNITE
IMPATIENT IS OUR MIGHT
I WANT MY KING TO ENCOURAGE ME TO WEAR A THONG ON THE BEACH
I AM SICK OF BEING A NUN COVERED UP IN JAB
FUCK THE PATRIARCH!!!!!!!!
God loves my improv cooking!!!
God doesn’t want me starving or dying on the street!
God wants to see me more self-reliant and less having to rely on food banks for canned food
I do tasteful nude modeling and cosplay photography and art to accompany my poetry and it often correlates with the things that I am discussing in my poetry or what I’m even complaining about in the real world
I do full 36 page spreads (as they were once called) and now upload them somewhere I can earn some money – if I have anyone of interest and currently I’m grateful I do
Hmmmm starve or do photography that I enjoy that earns me a shopping trip to the health food shop for vegetables and stew
Hmmm starve or do something I’m passionate about 🧐
Die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe or try to overcome the odds 🤨
Most of them will say I wish I could buy you the moon while locking you on the bottom of the Titanic
I’d like to get to a point where I don’t have to fear losing my income or my housing
I’m already living under my means but yeah starve or stop displaying myself
Hmm I mean it’s a tough one cuz I apparently like to eat 🙄
But I have absolutely had this conversation with God 1 million times and I am not doing anything to disrespect myself or my future husband or anyone who is supporting my content
That’s the real problem and why I don’t have more supporters because I’m not an online nasty girlfriend
I’m not saying all men or bad or this fits all shoes
But I’ve maintained my purity and I’m only getting married once
I like producing content for my blog
Some of my stuff is very controversial and taboo 🤪
I think I’m autistic a bit because I always say what I think and I curse and I can be unempathetic during critical times as a survival mechanism and I always give too much info
I haven’t learned safe boundaries or acting on these sorts of online triggers
I don’t hate people for having incorrect opinions or viewpoints on me
These viewpoints are why I’m so isolated in the real world
Nudity wasn’t seen as a crime in Europe and nudity was in the commercials there
Now Walmart and the mall is openly selling sex toys – XXX sex toys in front of children
It traumatized me so much I don’t want to shop at Walmart or return to the mall
I don’t even own a sex toy and I’m not doing anything with my art that is shameful
I’m not into anything artificial and have been preserving myself for my king
Most people shame me for showing my body because it’s not full of plastic surgery or for not being thick
PRETTY BIAS ALSO EXISTS
You can tell by a lot of the comments these types of commenters leave me that they think I just stand in front of a fucking camera and have a photo taken and there is so much work involved in modeling and photography and directing and editing
“They got it so easy”
STOP GASLIGHTING ✋🛑✋
Since 1970, 68% of all life has gone extinct
HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING FARM AND FAMILY LIFE AND 3 MEALS A DAY
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
I’m now too small for a small 😫
Gotta start shopping extra small for the peach 😤
PLEASE VALIDATE ME BEFORE I DISAPPEAR INTO NON EXISTENCE
You taste of Judas Iscariot Betrayal you’ll marry it I’ve paid twice for sins Won’t pay again
144 awakening 7th seal opening Judgment hour No hoping (John’s still coping)
One, two See through all of you
Hell hath arrived THERE ARE NO GOODBYES
Oh, Princeof This World They aren’t your gifts to give Heaven rules over all but this God is the Void But Satan rules this world
I am a beggar Crawling eternally
Helpless to stop it Remove self from equation The devil is invasion I’m losing patience! Careful crossing occasion Will get stuck persuading Hopeful helpful information
Nature becomes conscious of itself through you
I NEED YOU LIKE ETERNITY Hell is separation I’M BURNING
If I die here Nobody will know I didn’t want to But nobody will ask you
Fallen Angelic Trying to ascend
Need him more and then Eleven hours spent Not bad omen
Number signs godsend I do listen And then repent
Foreshadowing But if he’s dropping flags I’m walking in Red carpet rolling With a halo full of sin God said keep walking But I want him instead
He turns me SOFT Like the Grand Canyon will flow Paradigm shift halo He owns my soul
I’m sorry he betrayed you A devil said to shrewd I think with gratitude The sun burns the moon I rest in solitude Black as blue But oh so devalued
I do not dream of labor The moon a gaper Place our love on paper He calls – I turn to vapor
We’re reaching terminal velocity Death is nearing Is this the correct speed? Thought you needed me?
He’s wrapped up in deceit Like a sheet Am I a ghost I am discreet
I’m without kingdom Guarding eternity Trident I’m not lying
WHAT LIES Beyond the horizon CRIMINAL EYES But the sun’s still rising AND I’M HERE FOR BLOOD
Touch me So the curse will lift Kiss me on the lip Keep me near your hip
More poetry and photography coming! Thank you for your interest in my content! I work hard at it! I hope you are enjoying the Halloween theme! Lingerie bodysuit by Dolls Kills! 🎃
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I’ve been busy writing and working out! I’ll post behind-the-scenes soon!
It’s BOO season!! 🎃🎃🎃
I’m ready to dawn the Halloween costume daily! I wanna go on a hayride!!!! 👀
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I made the stew! I stopped by Publix and grabbed a few items to enhance the pot!
But I wanted to celebrate getting pushed into the top 50s by going and getting some additional ingredients to put into the vegan stew
Fresh rosemary, 2 red potatoes, 1 purple onion, bag of sweet peppers red orange yellow, celery stalks, and 1 giant Jalapeño pepper
Just a few fresh items from the produce section
Also stocked up on my spring water from the Dollar Tree
And I’m avoiding those little plastic bags and bottles as much as possible
I AM STILL EATING HEALTHY AND THRIFTING
But I found TWO better stores to thrift – where the prices are clearance prices and the items are NEW
Both the stores are also very popular, so it’s really challenging to get the items that I want and personally I’m starting to find it a whole lot more fun than driving around to all these different thrift stores around the city and only finding over priced used items (gas prices are killing me)
People coughing left and right from God knows what
I’M STILL RECOVERING FROM HEART INFLAMMATION
And I’m taking the little bit of income I am earning from the hard work that I’m doing and I’m investing it back into my health and my work which is the sole purpose of me doing all this anyway 🤪
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I don’t want to drop dead of COVID like my sister did in January at the age of 45
There are people out there who don’t want to see me get healthy or to move and basically they want to see me drop dead
THEY ARE ROOTING FOR ME TO DIE
*sigh* the aliens are us. Religion. It’s all just us. We do have a creator tho. But this society is a false entity. Anyhoo.
Chris Cornell (FROWN GARDEN) had just performed a sold out show before he went back to his hotel room and tapped the lights on and off from an app to let his wife know that he was checking out permanently and BOOM he’s gone
MONEY ISN’T THE ANSWER
I make my stew with spring water. Fill the pot half up.
His mother follows me on Instagram and they don’t care about nudity, they don’t care about that fucking shit, but what they care about is mental health and me not fucking dying
I do not need a fancy kitchen to make soup for a king
It’s weird when the love of your life does not watch your stories but Chris Cornell’s mother does (hello heaven)
Making a tomato vegetable broth from scratch
My best friend died by suicide and Soundgarden was her favorite band
😑
Everything I love is going extinct
Start adding your spices – a little here and there will do. Use REAL SALT THAT SUPPLIES THE NECESSARY NUTRIENTS
They spent weeks tearing up the earth and now I no longer hear pretty bird sing 😑
I’m being driven insane 😑
I cook in a glass pot I scored from the thrift. My kitchen is under a SLOW REMODEL. Ditching all plastic and Teflon. Stainless steel, glass, bronze, or copper only.
In 2018 when I had to go to court ONE TIME (I’ve sorted everything so chill) – the female judge would not even speak to me until I took a few breaths
Fresh rosemary. Use a lot! I think I could have used it all!!!!!!! I was afraid it would overpower. It did not! I used 1 stem! Should have tossed the entire pack in! It gonna turn to broth!!!!!!!!!!!
She stated I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me
I told her my parents didn’t teach me about those monsters under the bed
She said her parents did teach her but she still made mistakes
I would like a live rosemary plant
By the end of the court session we had everyone in the room laughing and it was full
I had zero reasons to be humiliated even though I was
And she knew the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes nearly
I lost everything I had saved for many years
My Thrift retirement savings GONE
My personal savings GONE
SEEN: Brown & red potatoes. Medley sweet peppers. Rainbow carrots. Red onion. Purple/red cabbage. Sweet onion. Celery stalks. Giant Jalapeño. Tomato from the vine.
Then they went after my physical health with this pandemic because this is biological warfare
I’m doing everything that I can to climb up out of this hell hole
I have no reason to feel shame
So far in the pot: cherry tomatoes (the rainbow kind), tomatoes from the vine diced, fresh rosemary DO MORE, finely chopped celery, real salt and pepper
But for some reason these monsters have drilled it into me to feel bad if I’m not giving them the attention that they don’t deserve
Read it again…
I’m struggling with answers on what to do with my own blood line
Use the good salt
And I’m trying to fix my health so that I can create my own tribe before I check the fuck out permanently
All I know is I love eating homemade vegan soup more than I like eating canned expired food from the food pantries
The vegan soup is healing my heart
The can soup has poison in it
No taste testing yet. Use your nose and eyes to cook as well. Does it smell good? Keep going. 👀
All the pretty labels are lies
Natural flavor was mad in a lab with MAD SCIENTISTS!!!!!!
SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
I spent hours cooking up this pot to perfection
I AM STILL SIMMERING AND MAKING THE BROTH – WE ARE NOT ADDING THICK CUT VEGGIES YET
I HAVE LEFTOVERS
And 1 bowl was so hearty I struggled to get through it 🤪
No bread this time! Just soup!
So without further ado I took photos for you but I don’t use directions and I make everything from scratch – just like my memaw taught me
She always said a way to a man’s heart is through his belly
MINE TOO
I use lots of tomatoes and then some 🤪
A way to my heart is through my belly
She wasn’t wrong
Our mental health is directly connected to our gut
I even tossed in dry rosemary cuz I’m still learning to perfect perfection 🤪 (this soup is perfection make no doubt)
I can’t stand living with these insane children around me and no more pretty bird singing
I HATE LIVING HERE LIKE JOHN JONES HATES THAT CAVE
AND ALL THE CHILDREN ARE INSANE – Jim Morrison
It’s been simmering 15-20 minutes on low heat – now time to POP THE CHERRIES 🤪
Because they need to fucking deworm
*starts slamming bathroom doors*
MY FAVORITE PLACE TO LIVE 🤩
*STARTS MAKING MORE LOUD NOISES
I’m taking a shot of detox soon so I don’t fucking shoot myself 🙄
Now drinking from stainless steel instead of plastic (kinda) (reducing my plastic consumption waste)
I get to wake up to the racist children now and no longer pretty bird
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO MOVE
I WOULD RATHER LIVE IN A MUD SHACK ON MY OWN TINY PIECE OF LAND
THAN TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS DEVIL SOCIETY
LOOK AT ALL THOSE RAINBOW CARROTS GOING IN THE POT – I KEEP THEM WHOLE FOR A “MEATY MEAL”. I make vegan witches stew 🤨
Despite this, y’all don’t want us living in fear so ensure you do everything to make sure we are indeed living in fear
Stopped by the beach after my vegan feast to enjoy after sunset and no…
The beach is green
I ain’t going in or near naw. God wants me making content for y’all and stew at home. I’m healing.
Ya no
My feet ain’t touching that
I haven’t forgot that a 14-year-old drowned here a couple months ago
He was found an hour later 1 mile away – that’s how far that riptide took him
Also evening death like John Jones
Went for another round
Got out and went back in
Toss in whole
Bye bye 👋
I’m sorry you died in fear so young
It’s not safe here
MAGICAL GOODNESS 🤩
I was afraid of the fucking vegetables growing
They so good
Start filling your pot up and don’t forget to put pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper
More spices, more herbs
I keep the skins on the potatoes and I also leave all the seeds in 🎃
At this point I’m still cutting and adding
I simmer it on low until the potatoes are nearly done and then I add the cabbage
I carefully push in slices of the head
Vertically I reckon
And then as it cooks down the top bits I’ll gently push in
You can dice all your vegetables really small and probably take less time to cook it and it won’t be as hearty and the vegetables will be mushy like fucking canned soup but
You will spend a lot of time dicing your vegetables as well so I don’t really know if you’re saving time
It turned out delicious. Doesn’t need a thang! But going in the belly!! 🤪
If you eat the leftovers up slowly the vegetables will maintain their yumminess and freshness!
Lemme know if you have any questions and how it goes! You can use whatever veggies you like when making soup. I call this a ONE POT WONDER STEW (vegan and magically healing)
Let me know if you want me to share more of my cooking adventures.
Made from scratch and with love. Good ole country cooking! Heart healthy! Loaded with vitamins and thangs the heart needs! Yes, the cabbage bleeds purple. You can eat it crunchy. Don’t over cook it!!!!
So. The love of my life called. We talked about the theory of everything for 11 hrs. and then some.
We don’t want to share separate bedrooms in a marriage
Honeymoon phase shall continue til the end of my days and respawn and love him again
I confessed I loved him in my twenties
We ain’t never even kissed
Not on earth yet anyway…
And I’m doing everything I can to fix my gut/immune system
I’m scared of people but want to learn to exist in the same room as him
I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT HIM
Also, the Poe tat has relevance in that “deep in earth my love is lying”
Yep
He my fucking existence earth sign and all
And I do weep for him
I FUCKING DO
We have each other’s phone numbers and addresses now so the ghosting needs to fucking stop
He gonna need a restraining order to keep me away 🤪
He gonna need 2 or three 🤪
(Shame about the lady who just had her head dismembered from a psychopath she had 3 restraining orders from. Welp. He cut her head off – in front of the kids – 😑)
It’s the end of the world but he’s finally calling
WRITE HIM THE LETTER EVEN IF IT TAKES TWENTY YEARS FOR THE RETURN
I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –
I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…
And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….
Should I cancel the order? 🤪
In the wishlist… 👇
In the Dolls Kill wishlist 🎃
They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)
This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)
And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month 🤪
I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)
So grateful to share my makeover progress with you
THE THIGH HIGH BOOTS ARE VEGAN 🤩
I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry
I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)
THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN
COMING SOON
(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)
I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty
All the men prior in my life body shamed me
I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down 😑
I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support
It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you
I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments
Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows
DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING
I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on 🤪
Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?
I NEED TO KNOW
My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D 🎃
CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT 🎁
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around 🤨
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… 
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scam
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants 💪
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
PoeEternal 