You see me in tinted rose Colors of the rainbow The world falling so My angel tears glow Sorrow from the window Living death row
It’s so far the surface Drifting without purpose Focused on worthless Heart is hopeless
Tomorrow he’ll be gone Like sunrise The moon withdrawn This ain’t Babylon
Any offer is a good offer You took a chance to be The only way to prosper Escaping gravity
Double hex I’d rather die Than live With this mess
Hurt him to save him Carving out main limb Synonym Heart felt grim He’s original sin
Game over For us Merry Christmas 🎁🎄🎁
Gonna go after him With everything I got Stomach not in a knot Sky clear as thought God’s in your parking lot Spitting snot Your time my clock Tick-tock
There is darkness here Crows and curses Unwritten verses Tears like cashmere
I apparently don’t believe in abortion or euthanasia.
“Thou shall not kill” hits differently for Angel Baby.
Non stop worry and crying followed by a dopamine boost of milk, cinnamon and sugar… left before my free refill, welp… (and left crying lol) (also learned I’m not into normal things)
The little mutt may be a Frankenstein made in a lab, but he has a soul and a heartbeat, and I’m not getting in the way of God or his plans and whatnot.
So I have a hellhound in this timeline. He hates it here (this location) as much as John Jones hates that cave.
Hear, hear
The crows were never here the prior four years.
Neither was BlackRock – who took control of this building
I need out the city
The Titanic is sinking overrun with racism and murder of white folk by Black Lives Matter but white lives don’t
Check the census. It’s not just how people are reporting stupid.
“So you don’t believe in interracial marriage”
You can marry who you want but I don’t want to live in a predominantly black neighborhood ever again…
I’m autistic angelic
I curse and say “autistic”
I’m gonna get committed
The enemy is in a white coat and White House
My mama think I got a “dirty mouth”
Over and out…
To those still lurking, thank you. Maybe one day, a night bloom.
Dogs and cats were made in a lab in Asia. Traced back their timeline.
Not shocking.
Cats and dogs are plagued with parasites.
The elites were plagued with parasites.
Connect the dots
“Pregnant women should not be around the cat box”. Applies to everyone!
Gavin Rossdale says cats are filthy, won’t have em in his palace. Good King.
I’m very observant. Army trained.
I got the good Army training.
Listen or don’t listen
GenX about to have a throw down, we nearly healed but at risk for ASDS heaven
It’s humans vs demons down here
Narcissism is a plague (someone with a psych degree)
My best friend died of suicide, and then her mother and I’ve been trying to die by suicide since I was in the womb but then I decided to study why everybody was so fucking depressed and it’s because of China 🇨🇳
Porn. Propaganda. Predators. The Internet should be 21+. Walmart and The Mall too. (They’re selling sex toys in front if kids)
FYI: I identify as 15 but act 500
I’m a complicated creature and require special handling
He doesn’t get me at all
How do you play the game when you know their next move?
I’m afraid of what I can do… (to self) (near through)
Can find compassion in Crow and the elite hate Crow so much – she don’t get an emoji
I went in to make changes to my Amazon Wishlist and they have new features – already selected for you – about disclosing your address to the buyer
“The seller may disclose your address to the buyer”
Wait. What. 👀
I have a brain injury and maybe I’m misinterpreting what that says!?!
I’ve since unchecked the box – and I’ve no one spoiling me – but I very much intend to spoil me – as these are items I want/need.
That’s a dangerous new feature Amazon has added
I wasn’t even aware until I was acting emo and making privacy changes
Anyhoo…
If you have children using it or anyone under the age of 18 and they have an Amazon wishlist account and people spoiling them, then they may be getting access to your home address now.
I care about the unsuspecting adults too (like self) and people with mental illness who may try and obtain an address for harm
I don’t understand how it’s legal for a business to do something like this, it’s fucking dangerous
They are using grams as weight now cuz America belongs to the immigrants and their children born here naturalized
The immigrants get to vote before our children legally turn 18 to do so
LMAO
I wish I had known all this before I started College is a scam.
Quietly LOUDLY quitting society
Information is knowledge so please let folks know that their lives are in danger now – unless they want complete strangers with their shipping address!?!?
I don’t like giving out my phone number or email and now we’re just giving folks our home address huh.
Why not just give the buyer your address and fuck Amazon all together?
Why use a third party at all? Which was the entire fucking point I thought.
Amazon is dead
There’s hardly a place worth shopping
I like thrift stores and antique furniture shops
I will find the most ugly shop in Florida you can find.
FYI: safety check update; if you have an Amazon wishlist, they are now sharing your address with the buyer unless you uncheck the box
I think it should be illegal for a company to add new features and automatically sign you up for them.
They are doing this in the real world now too
Like how an addendum will become a permanent feature
90% of all murders happen by men
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Christianity in its current massively re-written state, serves Lucifer
It’s Luferian worship
Everything in society – especially “manmade” is a contraption set by LUCIFER
Of course, I don’t really believe in your fucking made up God and devil, but this is the reality and propaganda I’m fucking stuck in.
I believe in the Good Creator
The Source
I think life was an explosion everywhere
Not an actual boom
Life appeared simultaneously and everywhere (the great expansion like your precious fake Big Bang – which I told you wasn’t real)
I never believed in evolution theory as a child, or teenager or in eighth grade; I holy fucking argued about everything that was being taught as theory as fact
Can NASA show you anything other than dots?
Y’all believe the cartoons they push
I’ve noticed they use cartoons to push their propaganda
Uhm, I’m sick of the Internet is Dead
Propaganda. Porn. Predators. It needs to be made 21+
Same with Walmart who are selling sex toys online in the health department
I’m sick of an LCD monitor, don’t wanna look at a screen
This is a special Christian thrift store – you can only visit X amount of times to shop
Sitting near the entrance of the store – cookie instructions
But anyone in the world is allowed to shop free there (free shopping, I know it’s weird)
Loaded the Jeep up – all 3 bags from the Thrift shop 🙂
I never know what I will find and there is a 25 item limit each visit. The Jeep was stocked.
One worker said, “I got a bag fresh in if you want it” cuz I had found a cool vintage wicker basket and they thought I’d like this. They were right. In fact, I’ve been looking all over for something but didn’t like the plastic junk currently out there. Universe said “gotcha, know just the thing you need”. Precisely.
Zero holes or tears. Zips correctly and without aggravation (thus far). I think it might be insulated and for kitchen/food use… not what I’ll be using it for. Or will I? 🤔
Also scored a full size Cannon quilt – these thing’s don’t ever run cheap
It’s comfy and making my terribly uncomfortable bed more comfies. It’ll fit the Jeep when I’m homeless again. I already put it through the wash. Need some sheets to match. Love the colors. Not too thick for Florida. Absolutely nothing wrong with it.
Also scored a hardback dictionary from back in the 70s, before the timelime was switched.
A book I’ll understand.
And got this magical purple velvet box with an angel inside – and one of a kind – she’s resting on clouds – but the art is painstakingly done on the inside of the ornament (I mostly wanted the box)
Purple velvet box with special ornament inside
Because it’s glass and has a mirror effect, it’s hard to get a picture of…
She is special and resting on clouds. I don’t know how to get a better photo. All you see is me in the reflection. Inside under her contains this note.
But the wicker basket was a nice find. I mostly cared about the basket.
Inside was three all cotton embroidered Christmas hand towels from Thailand – along with vintage soup with hand drawn art on it. Vintage.
I removed the soap and washed the towels and cleaned up the wicker basket.
100% cotton Christmas embroidered hand towels from Thailand
Vintage art soap from Thailand (my guess is this was also hand painted)
There was also non-edible cinnamon bark with decorations inside with the towels and soap.
Vintage handwoven wicker basket
Got 2 matching sets of 100% all cotton bath towels
And a couple plates
A ceramic spoon holder (now in the wash)
Some clothing like sweaters and nice fancy t-shirts
A small petite robe by Pink
A very long and beautiful crotchet table runner with my small dream home and a tree
Also this paper tablecover and a little Gospel of John propaganda book about the story of God
It’s a special thrift store and can only be visited a certain amount of times.
Anyhoo. The cost is absolutely free and it’s not junk. I’ve been all over town trying to find a bag.
Online too. God hooked me up. Special delivery fresh in. “It just arrived, thought you might like it”. I absolutely did. God bless. I didn’t know I needed a food delivery bag, but hey, have you watched made in heaven yet?
I don’t know if it’s a food delivery bag, but it would work well for picnics and things like that or to put in the back of my Jeep in the trunk area and put items in it like groceries
You could store blankets and things in it. Love my wicker basket and black travel bag! Absolutely great to store the groceries to and from! If that’s what I’ll use it for…
Mikey didn’t know what to do with the shovel. I’m in a similar boat.
I have things part of my purpose that I haven’t sorted yet.
I don’t know how to store and organize the important things.
Got 3 important boxes. All varying sizes. Velvet and satin lining. Wicker woven. Black potentially insulated. Do I keep the ornament and box together?
I thought that little wicker basket would be great to store my pads and tampons in, but surely there’s a better use for it than that…
Already washed and put out… love that all my towels and blankets are cotton! (Synthetic fibers are highly flammable and hard to put out)
Check out Frog Ministry of Edgewater, Florida (free to anyone in the world – but you get X amount of visits) 🎄
The day resets The bath grows cold He’s no regrets Said life is love But mostly debts Let luck manifold And you’ll have no sweats Little gold Cuz I stole success And you cannot fold
I love how a Taco Bell subscription is $10 a month – Walmart $13 a month, the car wash $19.99 per month, but because I’m a commoner, and most men have a porn and gambling addiction, and most men wouldn’t spend a dime on me, let alone a penny, because they’d rather send me marriage proposals or tell me how much I make their dick hard, for three years on social media, because “your pretty” is the validation one needs and they just sold their house or whatever, and I’m suppose to chat with these men on the daily, without them so much as ever buying me a coffee, or joining my incredibly cheap Patreon tier of ONE DOLLAR, even though they tell me they visit my blog and “enjoy” the content and “I’m gonna go far”
I know why everybody’s gone, halfheartedly The Devil is a finely-tuned mistake Just off center front stage Sitting in a black box Drinking champagne His eye a spotlight
He keeps a letter in his pocket Dark corduroy lint free He smells of oak and pine And her expression is a look of expectation she will never meet He finds her in the most desolate ruin
Out of breath Wasted time Ready to die
Regret is a curtain pulled aside And she dances with fury He’s convinced the moon is under her spell Gazing Engorged
She prefers the clouds her audience The quiet solitude Where destiny won’t find her Where broken promises and debts will never be paid…
I honestly had no idea that covering my bruises with cute socks, would help my mental health, but it does… (proof on the OF)
The algorithm must’ve finally learned English and grammar
After I threw out the Smart TV 📺
PROGRAMMING
Albeit it recorded shame as SHEIN in caps so
I want an annoying old typewriter
Not synthetic fibers
Finally got my hands on some plates that say MADE IN THE USA and holyshite that’s rare
To be from a country where everything is sourced from China India Mexico Thailand Japan – if it does say USA now sometimes it’s a trick and most items were sourced from Brazil
THEY WANT TO COMMIT ME BECAUSE I KNOW THEY ARE MURDERING ME
IT’S A HITLER DEATHCAMP INSIDE THE MEDICAL SYSTEM
I FOUND THE ENEMY EVERYWHERE
BRO, POETRY ALL WEEK FOR YOU
I can’t sleep at night for what they’ve done to us
To what they’re doing
I fantasize about digging you out
“I want out”
“I hate this cave”
Bro, I’m so angry at the folks at the VA
I’m fantasizing about *insert positive context*
Recovery huh
You’re 400 feet from the entrance 100 feet below
Tattoo your name on my heart already
I’m coming to get you bro… come hell or high water
Don’t want the water, already contemplate some shit like that happening digging
“What the hell is that sound”
Desert floods. Welp.
Do I need to worry about gas being built up down there?
I have no problem dragging you out one bone at a time
He literally doesn’t want to be down there
His last will and testament verbally was he wanted to be broken in half to be pulled out
“Break me in half”
They dropped him on his head instead 👍👍
Tied the main pulley support on some clay
AND
Jerked harder when everything was going just fine
“It’s working, it’s working, pull harder”
WHY CHANGE IT UP IF IT WAS WORKING
GREAT RESCUE Y’ALL
Terrible management
Two kids got stuck there in that same section 6 months prior and it took like a 10 hour rescue and instead of marking that territory off they made a new map with MISSING DANGEROUS FEATURES
“I’m not where I thought I was…” John Jones
Well let’s go ahead and victim blame OK
See it in every article
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
And once our enemy gets the people with the paychecks to kill off us then they’re going to come kill them off
Sometimes I want to let the darkness take over
John Jones died on Thanksgiving so
THAT IS WHY
Also, might’ve kinda met while I’ve been dying
“I talk to dead people” tearfully
Anyhoo there may be more poetry about the shit happening
His story is the icing on the cake in this hell
Nobody should be jealous of a dead boy (new band name)
I’m still quarantined Like a zombie Can’t feel a fucking thing But my anger growing Like Constantine Got the Devil humming Like his offspring Forever running
Yesterday I carried the Smart TV to the bin. It’s stupid. The Internet is dead and ran by an algorithm. It should be made 21+. It’s full of propaganda, porn, and predators.
Walmart is selling sex toys in front of children – and online too in the “health” section.
This is not healthy or good. Growing up all my life, that stuff was found in Adult 21+ stores only.
Now I’m exposed to it shopping for essentials. I don’t own any toys. I don’t want to see anal plugs next to Lava Lamps or in the “health” section. Porn has destroyed humanity. FYI. I know you don’t care. 90% of all murders happen by men and since 1970 68% of ALL LIFE has gone extinct.
It’s synthetic everything now. Can’t even find some cotton from my hometown. I feel a stranger in my own land and country I fought for.
It was always the dollar tree, always. That junk was never worth more than pennies. Fucking GAWD. IMMIGRATION
I don’t want any part of toxic America society which has been destroyed by our enemy through globalism and narcissism.
I continue to receive the rainforest in my mailbox to eat at places or to shop at places I will never shop at.
I can’t opt out anywhere from anything. It’s toxic and sick.
They are trying to commit soldiers who are going after 100% disability for mental health through the VA.
I will go all Hannibal Lecter on your ass. I will. God knows. 👀
The suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and military because the OER’s and NCOER’s aren’t matching the Mission statement or what’s going on in the real world
I’m very depressed and suicidal but you’re not gonna lock me into a fucking jail cell because I don’t agree with this dictatorship society and never have
And now when you go out and about there are a bunch of desensitized GenZ and Millennials who only care about instant gratification, quietly quitting, or the LGBT community.
I am quietly quitting society
I’m not gonna sit back and let the enemy commit me for what they’ve done to me
I’m leaving here soon
This identity
It’s all gone
Back to reading books (I still have yours with ripped out pages and I’m still speaking to ghosts)
They want to commit us…
The rubberband is gonna pop
They keep pushing us and FYI we busted our ass more than any generation alive – with nothing but scar wounds to show for it – and they want to commit us – instead of paying us compensation.
It’s sick what the enemy is getting away with because the Millennials are so emancipated
I’m trapped like John Jones only I currently got a toilet which is now under BlackRock ownership
There’s no rent control out here
They are gutting us from the inside with policies that do not fit America
Joining an app or signing up for an account just means they are going to sell your private personal data and you can never fully leave
And being the observant that I am, I read the details. It included a secret on the back. God wanted me to know. I feel it is a universal sign. I’ve been making many stews after all. And today, included cinnamon bark.
(Protein of choice can be used – I’m avoiding lab made proteins – but am Flexitarian and mostly consume a vegetarian/vegan diet. I’m a picky meat eater too; beef, chicken, turkey mostly and fish on the occasion).
Making stew with spring water and cinnamon bark
I made my broth from scratch again – but memaw (my grandmother passed) never tossed out the fat from the meat and today I decided to do the same. Since I keep skin and seeds on, FAT PLEASE.
Ingredients used: spring water, Tomatoes from the Vine, cherry tomato medley (later popped), cinnamon bark, fresh garlic, onion, celery, cilantro, sweet yellow, orange, and green peppers with seeds, rainbow carrots, dry green split peas, wild rice blend, rosemary, thyme, parsley, salt with the necessary nutrients (maybe), pepper, potato with skin on and washed, red kidney bean (but I can’t buy canned beans anymore because they are putting things in them that they should not and I’ll stick to adding dry lentils, split pea, rice, ect). Added half can of tomato sauce too which it absolutely did not need and the stew would have survived without it)
I cooked up ethically sourced organic beef with onion and spices and put 4 spoons of the fat into the stew. I continued cooking the beef to a nice texture and gently added it to the stew – and then a shit ton of cabbage 🤪
I let the cabbage cook down some and then I added even more cabbage
But that wasn’t enough. So more.
IT’S THE BEST SOUP I’VE EVER MADE AND I SAY THAT ABOUT EVERY POT BUT THIS ONE CONTAINS A SPECIAL SECRET INGREDIENT
Cinnamon bark. It’ll be going in everything now. Practicing gratitude. Thank you Lord. Now maybe my stew is fit for a king.
A lump of cinnamon bark in the leftovers
And I put it with the leftovers. Apparently cinnamon is a great anti-parasitic and pet friendly too.
The dog went mad for my soup. He got second’s plus additional bites.
My bowl consumed in light-speeds – did not add a pinch of anything.
So the stew would be good without a meat protein source but the heart demanded. Just don’t add meat.
I made homemade vegetable beef this time. Probably not like anyone else makes it.
I’m terribly full but already greedy for another bowl. I’m stuffed. And definitely wanna enjoy leftovers so gotta ration and need a bigger pot! 🙂
Happy holidays. Still eating my nuts and things. I’m going to a food drive on Friday. Curious to know if the universe will gift me any secrets. I’m invested. 🙂
Oh and, scored my 3 pack detox for the price of 1. Grateful. The detox continues…. the heart journey, the healing.
“Everything’s okay” The sky is grey The streets are flooded May sound cliché But hope cold-blooded And hell to pay My faith is studded And he is my valet The Devil mudded Dirty like the clay He won’t sound thudded Rotting on display His position rugged New earth to survey
I wasn’t ready for Halloween to end lol but I do have some Christmas items arriving soon – they made it to Orlando. 🙂
Veterans Day is tomorrow but the streets might be flooded and I may be homebound and required by law 🙃
The lights have been flickering on and off so storm Nicole is near (I think that’s her name)
Florida does lose power
I’ve lost it for a week at a time on two occasions where I live 🙂
Not ghosting
I’ve been really busy in the real world but I do have some cute lingerie sets here already that are not holiday themed – as well as a halter and booty short set that sold out on Dolls Kill – in a small – that fits!!! I do wanna get proper photos in these things.
The halter set is vinyl. I wanted it in red. It sold out. Was lucky to get the mocha – in small – and it fit. Yay! Pics soonish! 🤪
It’s just… I’ve never had Christmas lingerie before – and my package is nearly here 📦
As far as I’m concerned, Christmas started when my skates arrived – and fit!
Was lucky to score a pair at all!
And I absolutely adore these. Kinda unisex. Fits my goth grunge style.
Like the bat, I am the dark
Oh, remember how I said we need to enter a black hole feet first
John kinda took it literal and is leading the way
He is the closest to the center of the earth
Where do you think the Sun is falling?
Even NASA (if you believe) stated we were 2000 light-years closer to Sagittarius A* than previously thought
Yeah because the math is wrong…
Management should have been replaced when two kids got stuck at Nutty Putty cave – but instead they decided to make a new map that did not feature parts of the dangerous cave and re-opened it for John Jones to get stuck
The dust is on the mirror, not the clothes. I can’t keep up. 🤪
I didn’t really know it was there. It’s only been two weeks since I last dusted it. How dare it. Get dirty. Just sitting there.
Today I shook hands with the Devil. He extended his hand. I took it with grip. Said “thanks for seeing me, Happy Holidays”. Practicing gratitude.
Also, nearly was not seen at the VA clinic because they are under orders to evacuate, as is everyone beachside. Scary storm again. Arrives tomorrow. Been raining two days non-stop.
Instead, a male doc took me on since the female care team are “insert something nice”
EVAC in order. Everyone had to exit the building by noon. Appointment over.
Clocked in at 112 pounds too (weight not speed)
Anyhoo
Everything has been halted again
And I’m still drinking Black Walnut Wormwood religiously
Herbals of the gods
I made the most amazing soup again – had a bowl today – God grows the most amazing things, and I need a bigger pot to put cook them in
I was slurping the broth out of the bowl, “thank you for healing me”
My skirt fits. I may have a future. I may not be yeeted out of society yet.
I’m ready to say yes to some of these side gigs
“I’ll give you 10-12 hours, with the potential for an additional 8, under one condition”
But I also filed for an increase again, and those take time, and it needs to be done right
Tests have been ordered
I’m lucky to be alive
This year has been a straight up fight for my life but no wonder no clothes was fitting me at 112 pounds 🤪
Gingerbread cookies are definitely in my future
Love me skirt. Denim. Perfect fall attire. I went with a medium (size 6). ROMWE. Said it would not be restocked. Doesn’t matter. I’ll wear it til it works no more.
Made the peach look good, not flat. Or maybe that’s the rebound fitness sessions 👀
I’m not allowed to go beachside, it’s shut down and under strict curfew and EVAC orders
Do you think me and that group hanging out on the beach last storm (the dude swimming in it) had anything to do with it?
Because they weren’t this pressed about Ian
According to all the official stats out here, Daytona Beach is going to continue to experience “severe flooding over the next 30 years”
Wanna go skating so bad but it’s been raining so much. Wanna do the outdoor skate parks first. Open air. Sky. Zero costs. Fitness exercise. The rinks cost the dollars. I’ll hit those up eventually.
I’m not wearing a mask skating tho no – just to take it off to eat.
Free skate park built here in 2019. 👍👍
Gonna test the new skates there.
I’m sorta nearly done shopping at Dolls Kill and Shein tho 🙂
Walmart is selling sex toys under the health department online. We once had to visit “adult bookstores” for any adult content.
21+ to enter
If Walmart is selling anal plugs, I guess the gas stations will be doing it next
America is toxic
I want out or far far away from society
And definitely stop supporting the enemy 🙂
I’ve scored some awesome things that will improve my life tho
Kinda need clothing that fits
Or that I want to wear
That isn’t business attire or military related
The whole mothership getting a makeover
Been getting so many job offers in the real world that I know I over qualify for, that’d I’d love to say, “I’ll give yah 10-20 hours”
But I have a hard time breathing 🙂
Skating will be so greattttttrttttrrttttrtr
“It can’t rain all the time…”
Some places it feels like it never ends. And I ain’t complaining. It looks creepy and scary out. Floods incoming again. End of the world.
Shook the devil’s hand today
Hold on, level up! 🤪
Challenge accepted
What are the terms? 🤪
“You go where I go”
112 pounds eh. Still gotta tone up. Shedding fat. But also need to fatten up and plan to include real butter in my diet again. Not vegetable oil. Not soybean. Not natural flavor lab made.
I’m still eating good
Until I fucked things all up with that Halloween candy
And nearly wound up in Urgent Care
And thank fuck the female team couldn’t do their job and the male doctor listened to me and things are moving forward with progress even though everything’s been halted because of the storm and the Evacuation orders
Happy holidays y’all
There are people out here still fighting for their life because of the vaccines and other things
Gulf war related thangs
Real soldier. Real battle wounds.
Friday is Veterans Day! HOOAH
I don’t know if anything will be open for me to go out and get any of the free meals or benefits due to the storm
I do like getting all the free thangs
Subs. Coffee. Donuts. Meals from Applebee’s and all sorts of places. Usually start early in the morn, pace myself, and make a day, evening included.
I am hungry. To eat another bowl had amazing soup.
I wish I’d hear news of your death I’d be winded Overcome with giddy You think I’m kidding?
I’d start a committee Organize their pity Piss on your city Sorrow is silly
He likes to use the word “our” But I’m not allowed in his yard At any hour The wind blows hard
I need to bunker down Spend six months alone Get out of this town Let him feel the undertow
I’m reactive Chemical explosive proactive Positive attracted Faith compacted
“Baby’s not allowed to see” Words said cruelly Cut right through me Trust left fully Got nowhere left to be
He wants me in a red bow Lingering low Black night and espresso Staggering combo
He’s not a friend He’s a one-way street To a dead end Devil called “shotgun” seat
I spend too much time and money for simple validation Guys are cheap There’s never a rose or coffee waiting But another message complaining they are aching Meanwhile, bills are paid and fridge is full – none of which they are responsible for None of them would pick me off the floor So I’m closing my own door
It feels redundant Swimming up a current I know I’m not stunning Losing’s unbecoming
I deserve the cold earth Rotting in the ground Born with so little worth Not gonna stick around
PoeEternal 