You see me in tinted rose Colors of the rainbow The world falling so My angel tears glow Sorrow from the window Living death row
It’s so far the surface Drifting without purpose Focused on worthless Heart is hopeless
Tomorrow he’ll be gone Like sunrise The moon withdrawn This ain’t Babylon
Any offer is a good offer You took a chance to be The only way to prosper Escaping gravity
Double hex I’d rather die Than live With this mess
Hurt him to save him Carving out main limb Synonym Heart felt grim He’s original sin
Game over For us Merry Christmas 🎁🎄🎁
Gonna go after him With everything I got Stomach not in a knot Sky clear as thought God’s in your parking lot Spitting snot Your time my clock Tick-tock
There is darkness here Crows and curses Unwritten verses Tears like cashmere
I apparently don’t believe in abortion or euthanasia.
“Thou shall not kill” hits differently for Angel Baby.
Non stop worry and crying followed by a dopamine boost of milk, cinnamon and sugar… left before my free refill, welp… (and left crying lol) (also learned I’m not into normal things)
The little mutt may be a Frankenstein made in a lab, but he has a soul and a heartbeat, and I’m not getting in the way of God or his plans and whatnot.
So I have a hellhound in this timeline. He hates it here (this location) as much as John Jones hates that cave.
Hear, hear
The crows were never here the prior four years.
Neither was BlackRock – who took control of this building
I need out the city
The Titanic is sinking overrun with racism and murder of white folk by Black Lives Matter but white lives don’t
Check the census. It’s not just how people are reporting stupid.
“So you don’t believe in interracial marriage”
You can marry who you want but I don’t want to live in a predominantly black neighborhood ever again…
I’m autistic angelic
I curse and say “autistic”
I’m gonna get committed
The enemy is in a white coat and White House
My mama think I got a “dirty mouth”
Over and out…
To those still lurking, thank you. Maybe one day, a night bloom.
Dogs and cats were made in a lab in Asia. Traced back their timeline.
Not shocking.
Cats and dogs are plagued with parasites.
The elites were plagued with parasites.
Connect the dots
“Pregnant women should not be around the cat box”. Applies to everyone!
Gavin Rossdale says cats are filthy, won’t have em in his palace. Good King.
I’m very observant. Army trained.
I got the good Army training.
Listen or don’t listen
GenX about to have a throw down, we nearly healed but at risk for ASDS heaven
It’s humans vs demons down here
Narcissism is a plague (someone with a psych degree)
My best friend died of suicide, and then her mother and I’ve been trying to die by suicide since I was in the womb but then I decided to study why everybody was so fucking depressed and it’s because of China 🇨🇳
Porn. Propaganda. Predators. The Internet should be 21+. Walmart and The Mall too. (They’re selling sex toys in front if kids)
FYI: I identify as 15 but act 500
I’m a complicated creature and require special handling
He doesn’t get me at all
How do you play the game when you know their next move?
I’m afraid of what I can do… (to self) (near through)
Can find compassion in Crow and the elite hate Crow so much – she don’t get an emoji
FYI: safety check update; if you have an Amazon wishlist, they are now sharing your address with the buyer unless you uncheck the box
I think it should be illegal for a company to add new features and automatically sign you up for them.
They are doing this in the real world now too
Like how an addendum will become a permanent feature
90% of all murders happen by men
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Christianity in its current massively re-written state, serves Lucifer
It’s Luferian worship
Everything in society – especially “manmade” is a contraption set by LUCIFER
Of course, I don’t really believe in your fucking made up God and devil, but this is the reality and propaganda I’m fucking stuck in.
I believe in the Good Creator
The Source
I think life was an explosion everywhere
Not an actual boom
Life appeared simultaneously and everywhere (the great expansion like your precious fake Big Bang – which I told you wasn’t real)
I never believed in evolution theory as a child, or teenager or in eighth grade; I holy fucking argued about everything that was being taught as theory as fact
Can NASA show you anything other than dots?
Y’all believe the cartoons they push
I’ve noticed they use cartoons to push their propaganda
Uhm, I’m sick of the Internet is Dead
Propaganda. Porn. Predators. It needs to be made 21+
Same with Walmart who are selling sex toys online in the health department
I’m sick of an LCD monitor, don’t wanna look at a screen
The day resets The bath grows cold He’s no regrets Said life is love But mostly debts Let luck manifold And you’ll have no sweats Little gold Cuz I stole success And you cannot fold
I love how a Taco Bell subscription is $10 a month – Walmart $13 a month, the car wash $19.99 per month, but because I’m a commoner, and most men have a porn and gambling addiction, and most men wouldn’t spend a dime on me, let alone a penny, because they’d rather send me marriage proposals or tell me how much I make their dick hard, for three years on social media, because “your pretty” is the validation one needs and they just sold their house or whatever, and I’m suppose to chat with these men on the daily, without them so much as ever buying me a coffee, or joining my incredibly cheap Patreon tier of ONE DOLLAR, even though they tell me they visit my blog and “enjoy” the content and “I’m gonna go far”
I know why everybody’s gone, halfheartedly The Devil is a finely-tuned mistake Just off center front stage Sitting in a black box Drinking champagne His eye a spotlight
He keeps a letter in his pocket Dark corduroy lint free He smells of oak and pine And her expression is a look of expectation she will never meet He finds her in the most desolate ruin
Out of breath Wasted time Ready to die
Regret is a curtain pulled aside And she dances with fury He’s convinced the moon is under her spell Gazing Engorged
She prefers the clouds her audience The quiet solitude Where destiny won’t find her Where broken promises and debts will never be paid…
I honestly had no idea that covering my bruises with cute socks, would help my mental health, but it does… (proof on the OF)
The algorithm must’ve finally learned English and grammar
After I threw out the Smart TV 📺
PROGRAMMING
Albeit it recorded shame as SHEIN in caps so
I want an annoying old typewriter
Not synthetic fibers
Finally got my hands on some plates that say MADE IN THE USA and holyshite that’s rare
To be from a country where everything is sourced from China India Mexico Thailand Japan – if it does say USA now sometimes it’s a trick and most items were sourced from Brazil
THEY WANT TO COMMIT ME BECAUSE I KNOW THEY ARE MURDERING ME
IT’S A HITLER DEATHCAMP INSIDE THE MEDICAL SYSTEM
I FOUND THE ENEMY EVERYWHERE
BRO, POETRY ALL WEEK FOR YOU
I can’t sleep at night for what they’ve done to us
To what they’re doing
I fantasize about digging you out
“I want out”
“I hate this cave”
Bro, I’m so angry at the folks at the VA
I’m fantasizing about *insert positive context*
Recovery huh
You’re 400 feet from the entrance 100 feet below
Tattoo your name on my heart already
I’m coming to get you bro… come hell or high water
Don’t want the water, already contemplate some shit like that happening digging
“What the hell is that sound”
Desert floods. Welp.
Do I need to worry about gas being built up down there?
I have no problem dragging you out one bone at a time
He literally doesn’t want to be down there
His last will and testament verbally was he wanted to be broken in half to be pulled out
“Break me in half”
They dropped him on his head instead 👍👍
Tied the main pulley support on some clay
AND
Jerked harder when everything was going just fine
“It’s working, it’s working, pull harder”
WHY CHANGE IT UP IF IT WAS WORKING
GREAT RESCUE Y’ALL
Terrible management
Two kids got stuck there in that same section 6 months prior and it took like a 10 hour rescue and instead of marking that territory off they made a new map with MISSING DANGEROUS FEATURES
“I’m not where I thought I was…” John Jones
Well let’s go ahead and victim blame OK
See it in every article
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
And once our enemy gets the people with the paychecks to kill off us then they’re going to come kill them off
Sometimes I want to let the darkness take over
John Jones died on Thanksgiving so
THAT IS WHY
Also, might’ve kinda met while I’ve been dying
“I talk to dead people” tearfully
Anyhoo there may be more poetry about the shit happening
His story is the icing on the cake in this hell
Nobody should be jealous of a dead boy (new band name)
I’m still quarantined Like a zombie Can’t feel a fucking thing But my anger growing Like Constantine Got the Devil humming Like his offspring Forever running
Yesterday I carried the Smart TV to the bin. It’s stupid. The Internet is dead and ran by an algorithm. It should be made 21+. It’s full of propaganda, porn, and predators.
Walmart is selling sex toys in front of children – and online too in the “health” section.
This is not healthy or good. Growing up all my life, that stuff was found in Adult 21+ stores only.
Now I’m exposed to it shopping for essentials. I don’t own any toys. I don’t want to see anal plugs next to Lava Lamps or in the “health” section. Porn has destroyed humanity. FYI. I know you don’t care. 90% of all murders happen by men and since 1970 68% of ALL LIFE has gone extinct.
It’s synthetic everything now. Can’t even find some cotton from my hometown. I feel a stranger in my own land and country I fought for.
It was always the dollar tree, always. That junk was never worth more than pennies. Fucking GAWD. IMMIGRATION
I don’t want any part of toxic America society which has been destroyed by our enemy through globalism and narcissism.
I continue to receive the rainforest in my mailbox to eat at places or to shop at places I will never shop at.
I can’t opt out anywhere from anything. It’s toxic and sick.
They are trying to commit soldiers who are going after 100% disability for mental health through the VA.
I will go all Hannibal Lecter on your ass. I will. God knows. 👀
The suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and military because the OER’s and NCOER’s aren’t matching the Mission statement or what’s going on in the real world
I’m very depressed and suicidal but you’re not gonna lock me into a fucking jail cell because I don’t agree with this dictatorship society and never have
And now when you go out and about there are a bunch of desensitized GenZ and Millennials who only care about instant gratification, quietly quitting, or the LGBT community.
I am quietly quitting society
I’m not gonna sit back and let the enemy commit me for what they’ve done to me
I’m leaving here soon
This identity
It’s all gone
Back to reading books (I still have yours with ripped out pages and I’m still speaking to ghosts)
They want to commit us…
The rubberband is gonna pop
They keep pushing us and FYI we busted our ass more than any generation alive – with nothing but scar wounds to show for it – and they want to commit us – instead of paying us compensation.
It’s sick what the enemy is getting away with because the Millennials are so emancipated
I’m trapped like John Jones only I currently got a toilet which is now under BlackRock ownership
There’s no rent control out here
They are gutting us from the inside with policies that do not fit America
Joining an app or signing up for an account just means they are going to sell your private personal data and you can never fully leave
“Everything’s okay” The sky is grey The streets are flooded May sound cliché But hope cold-blooded And hell to pay My faith is studded And he is my valet The Devil mudded Dirty like the clay He won’t sound thudded Rotting on display His position rugged New earth to survey
I wasn’t ready for Halloween to end lol but I do have some Christmas items arriving soon – they made it to Orlando. 🙂
Veterans Day is tomorrow but the streets might be flooded and I may be homebound and required by law 🙃
The lights have been flickering on and off so storm Nicole is near (I think that’s her name)
Florida does lose power
I’ve lost it for a week at a time on two occasions where I live 🙂
Not ghosting
I’ve been really busy in the real world but I do have some cute lingerie sets here already that are not holiday themed – as well as a halter and booty short set that sold out on Dolls Kill – in a small – that fits!!! I do wanna get proper photos in these things.
The halter set is vinyl. I wanted it in red. It sold out. Was lucky to get the mocha – in small – and it fit. Yay! Pics soonish! 🤪
It’s just… I’ve never had Christmas lingerie before – and my package is nearly here 📦
As far as I’m concerned, Christmas started when my skates arrived – and fit!
Was lucky to score a pair at all!
And I absolutely adore these. Kinda unisex. Fits my goth grunge style.
Like the bat, I am the dark
Oh, remember how I said we need to enter a black hole feet first
John kinda took it literal and is leading the way
He is the closest to the center of the earth
Where do you think the Sun is falling?
Even NASA (if you believe) stated we were 2000 light-years closer to Sagittarius A* than previously thought
Yeah because the math is wrong…
Management should have been replaced when two kids got stuck at Nutty Putty cave – but instead they decided to make a new map that did not feature parts of the dangerous cave and re-opened it for John Jones to get stuck
The dust is on the mirror, not the clothes. I can’t keep up. 🤪
I didn’t really know it was there. It’s only been two weeks since I last dusted it. How dare it. Get dirty. Just sitting there.
Today I shook hands with the Devil. He extended his hand. I took it with grip. Said “thanks for seeing me, Happy Holidays”. Practicing gratitude.
Also, nearly was not seen at the VA clinic because they are under orders to evacuate, as is everyone beachside. Scary storm again. Arrives tomorrow. Been raining two days non-stop.
Instead, a male doc took me on since the female care team are “insert something nice”
EVAC in order. Everyone had to exit the building by noon. Appointment over.
Clocked in at 112 pounds too (weight not speed)
Anyhoo
Everything has been halted again
And I’m still drinking Black Walnut Wormwood religiously
Herbals of the gods
I made the most amazing soup again – had a bowl today – God grows the most amazing things, and I need a bigger pot to put cook them in
I was slurping the broth out of the bowl, “thank you for healing me”
My skirt fits. I may have a future. I may not be yeeted out of society yet.
I’m ready to say yes to some of these side gigs
“I’ll give you 10-12 hours, with the potential for an additional 8, under one condition”
But I also filed for an increase again, and those take time, and it needs to be done right
Tests have been ordered
I’m lucky to be alive
This year has been a straight up fight for my life but no wonder no clothes was fitting me at 112 pounds 🤪
Gingerbread cookies are definitely in my future
Love me skirt. Denim. Perfect fall attire. I went with a medium (size 6). ROMWE. Said it would not be restocked. Doesn’t matter. I’ll wear it til it works no more.
Made the peach look good, not flat. Or maybe that’s the rebound fitness sessions 👀
I’m not allowed to go beachside, it’s shut down and under strict curfew and EVAC orders
Do you think me and that group hanging out on the beach last storm (the dude swimming in it) had anything to do with it?
Because they weren’t this pressed about Ian
According to all the official stats out here, Daytona Beach is going to continue to experience “severe flooding over the next 30 years”
Wanna go skating so bad but it’s been raining so much. Wanna do the outdoor skate parks first. Open air. Sky. Zero costs. Fitness exercise. The rinks cost the dollars. I’ll hit those up eventually.
I’m not wearing a mask skating tho no – just to take it off to eat.
Free skate park built here in 2019. 👍👍
Gonna test the new skates there.
I’m sorta nearly done shopping at Dolls Kill and Shein tho 🙂
Walmart is selling sex toys under the health department online. We once had to visit “adult bookstores” for any adult content.
21+ to enter
If Walmart is selling anal plugs, I guess the gas stations will be doing it next
America is toxic
I want out or far far away from society
And definitely stop supporting the enemy 🙂
I’ve scored some awesome things that will improve my life tho
Kinda need clothing that fits
Or that I want to wear
That isn’t business attire or military related
The whole mothership getting a makeover
Been getting so many job offers in the real world that I know I over qualify for, that’d I’d love to say, “I’ll give yah 10-20 hours”
But I have a hard time breathing 🙂
Skating will be so greattttttrttttrrttttrtr
“It can’t rain all the time…”
Some places it feels like it never ends. And I ain’t complaining. It looks creepy and scary out. Floods incoming again. End of the world.
Shook the devil’s hand today
Hold on, level up! 🤪
Challenge accepted
What are the terms? 🤪
“You go where I go”
112 pounds eh. Still gotta tone up. Shedding fat. But also need to fatten up and plan to include real butter in my diet again. Not vegetable oil. Not soybean. Not natural flavor lab made.
I’m still eating good
Until I fucked things all up with that Halloween candy
And nearly wound up in Urgent Care
And thank fuck the female team couldn’t do their job and the male doctor listened to me and things are moving forward with progress even though everything’s been halted because of the storm and the Evacuation orders
Happy holidays y’all
There are people out here still fighting for their life because of the vaccines and other things
Gulf war related thangs
Real soldier. Real battle wounds.
Friday is Veterans Day! HOOAH
I don’t know if anything will be open for me to go out and get any of the free meals or benefits due to the storm
I do like getting all the free thangs
Subs. Coffee. Donuts. Meals from Applebee’s and all sorts of places. Usually start early in the morn, pace myself, and make a day, evening included.
I am hungry. To eat another bowl had amazing soup.
I wish I’d hear news of your death I’d be winded Overcome with giddy You think I’m kidding?
I’d start a committee Organize their pity Piss on your city Sorrow is silly
He likes to use the word “our” But I’m not allowed in his yard At any hour The wind blows hard
I need to bunker down Spend six months alone Get out of this town Let him feel the undertow
I’m reactive Chemical explosive proactive Positive attracted Faith compacted
“Baby’s not allowed to see” Words said cruelly Cut right through me Trust left fully Got nowhere left to be
He wants me in a red bow Lingering low Black night and espresso Staggering combo
He’s not a friend He’s a one-way street To a dead end Devil called “shotgun” seat
I spend too much time and money for simple validation Guys are cheap There’s never a rose or coffee waiting But another message complaining they are aching Meanwhile, bills are paid and fridge is full – none of which they are responsible for None of them would pick me off the floor So I’m closing my own door
It feels redundant Swimming up a current I know I’m not stunning Losing’s unbecoming
I deserve the cold earth Rotting in the ground Born with so little worth Not gonna stick around
Should I start over under a hidden identity with my face and tattoos never shown? And my opinion never disclosed? It seems I would have better odds if my mouth were closed.
John, what are you doing down there?
“I thought I was somewhere else on the map”
It’s November. John died in November. I’m grateful I can remember he was murdered.
All my special items I ordered from Shein have shipped! 🙂 I really do love the quality of the material and items I buy! Got some more limited edition stuff from ROMWE that will not be restocked. Plus special XMAS eye candy treats 🎄
Got 2 sunshades coming for my Jeep. My God I discovered the woven pot hangers and they are gorgeous and well priced. So future home makeover stuff will continue, I need real plants on my wall. Maybe start with 1 or 2 and see how I do. Plants purify the air and the good spiders will have a new home. Please stop destroying everything. Animals would evolve and live longer if science and man wasn’t involved to tax us to death and destroy everything natural and organic that God made. I’m sick of BIOENGINEERED foods, GMO, “natural flavor” (it’s made in a lab by scientists who are putting it in EVERYTHING – IT AIN’T VEGAN)
Last night I uploaded some stuff in my story – the paid one – and I received a big tip! That’s cool. Thank you! 🙂
I’m trying new thangs!
I write and make all my content fresh, thanks for allowing me to live and express myself.
I got a new lace veil today at Spirit Halloween but would you know they were out of their infamous bleeding candles here and at every store nearby! Sold out! So wasn’t able to score another pair, nor will they have any at the huge after Halloween blowout sales lol
New lace comb veil (because she kept poison in the comb and this is a black comb lace veil) MINE
I got a military discount today and will likely sneak back and see what the vultures left behind for the huge blowout sale
Box of tricks from Spirit Halloween 😈
But I still have one candle unburned and one that I just lit for a set that is still more than half (and now they feel even more special for the set I’ll use them since I wasn’t able to score any replacements this season. Boo)
Sometimes I score tee-shirts (plain but black or green or some other color but 100% cotton or near)
New lunchbox from Spirit Halloween
I really wanna save my dough for Dolls Kill and Shein – see what I can grab there this time – got my trick or treat shopping in early tho at Spirit – and with that military discount – but dammnit if they didn’t have the ONE THING I WANTED and really no point in going back but I know I will 👻
I do like grabbing the journals and the home stuff at discounted prices and I did score a really cool lunchbox that includes a poem 🎃
I can use it when I take my walks to the beach and park or travel wherever OR as a keepsake box or to store my gun in 🙃
It’s practical and my first real lunchbox since a kid that doesn’t look like I’m going to work or a hike. But remember when lunchboxes would have really cool things inside them (kind of like vinyl records).
😈
Oh and I got a new skull for the bookshelf 💀
And my military discount paid for those decals but I don’t know if I can use them in any of the photo sets on onlyfans because we’re not allowed to use blood, or say the word blood, or bleeding, so I don’t know if I can have bloody handprints even though they’re decals 💀
I can use them to decorate my Jeep tho or a wall or put it on forever furniture – I DON’T KNOW
I HORDE THINGS LIKE A SQUIRREL
I WAS INVITED TO A HALLOWEEN EVENT THAT INCLUDES PRIZES AND A SMALL MEAL
I RSVPD
I HOPE I GO 🎃
(Please go)
(I’ll let you know if I go)
(Free food even if I win nothing I won a free meal and I wanna get invited to the bigger Jeep events on beachside on Main Street when ONLY JEEPS ARE ALLOWED TO DRIVE ON IT
I’m trying to be a positive part of my community
My little Jeep is old and it could win a free part but I’m not decorating it but if I go – I could go in a costume, maybe I might win something for it or myself, but still free small meal) (networking)
(It requires communication and I’m an introvert so I probably won’t go)
Or go but not leave my ride 👻
Also more writing and stuff to come
My poetry is so fresh it normally comes with mistakes (no editor). ☠️
Yo. I mean, I have more content coming. But I make everything hot. 🤪
I don’t use a poem generator.
I don’t have a husband who could be my poem generator (like David Gilmour and his wife write lyrics together, I don’t have that)
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