Curfew doesn’t apply to me ENCOURAGING I’m outside foraging Nighttime flourishing
Forgive my offenses Leaping over fences Soul consequences No shame dispenses
Maybe I’m like liquids My blood is wicked This tongue explicit Soul sin omitted
Cop and crow Linger on death row I got front show Walk with vertigo
You’re on speed dial? Definition of reconcile? My aim is hostile Sit down awhile
Eggshell or limestone Wait til I’m in prone Crawling through milestone Tearing down all throne
They are watching Dark eyes mocking I’m out here walking White girl so shocking
I don’t want to wear pretty dresses made with poison Competing against everyone and their perfect lies Even in death Forged and eulogized Casket closed The truth is never wide Silence on our face The dead won’t cry!
He is danger; know him like a stranger I react with anger Tunnel through the trigger Lock and load with vigor Cold as glacier I am endangered
I don’t know whether to be offended or withdrawn I don’t know the rules at all He’s automaton I dare not crawl
I’m folding Guess heart is delicate Space dimension Satan is malevolent Wrapped up in King Wildcard is element I am Queen And God can handle it Angel on my wing
Me and the neighbors decided to get along But we don’t know for how long With gifts received And gifts have gone
I want to destroy the very bridge you build to cross my land Fences and shrapnel Won’t keep you out at all Won’t fall to command Don’t care where I stand Don’t care if you’re banned
He’s the weight of the universe On my mind A string to wind A snake twirling on the vine A crack in time
Nine meals from anarchy 9 miles to the sea Cross of calvary Hold line faithfully
Loose nails Mixed messages Maps without haphazardness Excuse my negligence Trapped up to my neck Hell is a wreck
She always carried poison in one of her hair combs Got suicide in her bones Same chromosomes Suffer from the same syndromes Know I ain’t John Jones
We’re trapped at the event horizon 11 dimensions and rising A hologram reflection of me crying Every moment we’re climbing A carbon copy barely surviving
He said I’m a sexy witch My spell has a perfect pitch But he is living under bridge And I love him just a smidge
He tells me things I don’t want to know HE TELLS ME EVERYTHING THOUGH Expression cold And I’m left to fold
Soups, stews, treats, and pepper sauce – all made from scratch and with love
Memaw always said heat the vinegar to extract “the heat” from the pepper
Measure out what you need in the jar, then heat to a simmer and remove from heat and pour over your peppers (you can leave them whole but remove the stems)
Slowly pour the vinegar over the peppers and set aside and let them cool and then put them in the fridge and forget about them for at least two weeks
The longer they sit in the fridge the hotter they will be and you can top up the vinegar by adding more hot vinegar to the peppers as it diminishes
I’ll eventually eat the peppers too but memaw said they are good for at least one year in the fridge – I’m gonna need a bigger jar ๐คช
Currently I’m making stew with green cabbage
Fresh vegetables and herbs ๐ฟ
It’s been simmering ten thousand years and I’m investing in a bigger pot soon
I also recently made spicy pasta
It was tasty and I’ll try different versions soon
Lots of fresh tomatoes, herbs, and peppers ๐ถ ๐ซ
Fresh garlic, olive oil, onions….
Tomatoes, more tomatoes, and a small tin of organic tomato sauce
I was out of penne pasta but had whole wheat spaghetti but used bow-tie noodles instead
I also added 3 bean trio cuz protein (it’s good)
Overall, my experimental spicy pasta was a hit (could make minor changes) (more garlic too)
And then, there’s the oatmeal peanut butter protein balls
Take 1 cup of peanut butter (a good one) and gently mix over low heat with 1 cup of maple syrup (a good one)
Once it has a light bubble – remove from heat (takes maybe 2-3 minutes) (maybe 5)
Add 1 cup of rolled oats by gently folding
I added flax and raw pumpkin seed to the mix – cuz tis the season ๐
Put them in a better cooling tray and set in the fridge until they harden – then put in a storage container – these protein balls make around 2 1/2 dozen and could last you two weeks in the fridge but mine never go past 1 week
I could have used more oats cuz they were kinda sticky this time. Full of protein, vegan, and organic. That’s all for now. Gotta get back to the pot on the stove… ๐คช
We can’t stop tomorrow Falling in the center of all hollow Black hole is sorrow Do you have hope to borrow?
And where I’m crawling narrow Do you really care though? Always chasing pharaoh Name sinner sparrow
I can eat a meal with Abraham Or Gideon Fight the city of Sodom Blindsided with no hand
They call me FALLEN Say my name – Never see me crawling Calling poison pollen
His self-worth Is wrapped in numbers and money Thinks darkness is sunny
Swallowed by sinkhole Earth on cruise control Got my spirit low I live on limestone
Love is a feeble and fragile fire Under denial He will still smile Lie while under trial Claim that he misdialed He’s a pedophile
I’m not interested in validation But more of if today I will eat a salad
Maple Blood of the gods Drink it in gobs Amber makes tongue throb Need it a lot Plot for my crop
He can’t believe he crawled into that hole Based on the lies he was presented His death could’ve been prevented He uses me to speak it
Lives are born and never recorded They are important
If eyes were closed His love disposed His blood runs cold Like death decomposed
The worst of all possible punishment Put it on a monument Pay the earth a compliment Nevermind where heaven went Paid with life and not one cent Left us broke to an extent You think dying’s intimate?
Well my hand was drawn at midnight 13 minutes after bad luck Tiny feet kick through sheet rock I don’t give a fuck
He’s glaring attentive The sun burning incentive He stands with attention Will burn through dissension
Better to be a warrior in a garden, than a gardener in a war That’s my rapport Put it on a flag and let’s explore The garden is what I’m fighting for
Photos from last nights try on session (so casual stuffs)
I’m still rearranging my bedroom and my bed is now on the floor and I gave my neighbor my lazy chair recliner because I’m still getting rid of furniture and might be homeless soon thanks to Black Rock dictatorship
I can’t fall in love with things I don’t like Some dogs makes you want to end your life
Luck and fortune I want an option Hope found at auction? I burn every doctrine Feet keep marching I’m cursing often Earth will be my coffin Chasing after nothing
First off, you can use whatever veggies, herbs, and meats you like. But this pot is organic and vegan and made with love. No recipe book! โค๏ธ
Jesus said when he comes back he’s hitting my door for some soups
I didn’t use all my cherry rainbow tomatoes or tomatoes on the vine (or peppers and herbs) cuz I’m using some to make pasta sauce
I don’t have a fancy kitchen setup yet but I’m using a glass pot and Florida spring water
I do advise that you drink spring water locally wherever you are
I used a can of tomato sauce this time – it made absolutely no difference in taste turn out – it did however help since I was using less tomatoes this time to make my base
Glass pot + Spring water + sauce + handful of medley cherry tomatoes ๐ + low heat (simmer around 3-4 heat)
Start dropping herbs and spices (you will be cooking with your eyes and nose for the next few hours)
I tossed in a couple small handfuls of green split peas + lentils
2 + 2 and stir frequently but gently so they don’t stick (I do not presoak in poison)
We’re making witches stew (vegetable soup – can be made with a fire and cauldron potentially)
Now I’m dicing peppers and celery to get the broth nice and tasty – these can be diced small – we’ll add more later towards the end – so don’t put it all in now
This is how it’s going
You can add salt and pepper now – slow and steady wins the race (no taste testing until the potatoes are being tried) (we haven’t put any potatoes in the pot yet so stop freaking out). I use about a quarter amount of salt in my palm – about 4 pinches worth – THIS TIME AND EACH TIME
I also used a dash of sea salt that states it does not provide the necessary nutrients – and I’m still on the hunt for the correct salt to use
My doctor did say I needed more salt and that was when I was just using the sea salt that doesn’t provide the necessary nutrient
A quarter amount of salt
You wanna add all your spices now – but not at one time. They were out of fresh rosemary but I had some dry herbs on stock (I am not growing my own herbs and peppers and tomatoes because I don’t have a balcony or porch to do that and all the apartments I lived in before I could at least grow some herbs and peppers and shit)
I did use fresh cilantro and parsley ๐ฟ and lots of it too (saved some for the upcoming pasta)
And you’ll likely need to add a touch more water later – you don’t want the beans using up all your water and the extra fiber will be very hearty (also these require half an hour at normal temps to cook on their own, these will require the full simmer time of 2-3 hours, you’ll need to stir gently and often to ensure proper rotation
At this point I’m still dicing peppers, onions, and adding herbs ๐ชด
I use seeds yes – skins and seeds ๐
My soup turns out mild so I gotta kick up the heat soon
During the broth making session, the items are diced (celery, onion, tomatoes on the vine – I kept the cherry tomatoes whole and did not pop them unless they popped on their own)
Celery makes for a delicious broth
I generally add more to the soup during the end – so I have a slightly crunchy celery and pepper (no carrots this time but lots of cabbage)
With the rosemary (pre stir)
But now you can start adding yer tators! I used 3 this time! I wanted extra potato since I had no fresh carrots!
And I plan on making homemade baked fries with skins on! Potato logs!
Trying new thangs!
LOOK AT IT ๐คฉ
I kept skins on! All the thangs! (Not the onion)
Once the tators are near done, you can add cabbage, more peppers, celery, onion, salt n spices
It’ll smell divine
It’s soup fit for a king ๐
I’m carefully adding MORE cabbage
Don’t spill a drop!
It’s almost done and you can add more salt and pepper but once I put mine in a bowl it does not need anything else but I literally could add salt and pepper until I was dead
I also carefully added dark red kidney beans because the heart needs!!!
And this is the end result of hard work and love
Several bowls and will last several days in a fridge if eating alone (unless you go hog wire)
I didn’t add any jalapeรฑo sauce or cheese or extra salt or pepper or anything afterwards but it probably could use any of those things and make it taste even better
I GOT ONE GIANT DOUBLE BOWL REMAINING
I’ve also been drinking this tea and I recommend it or any version that is a healthy version without the poison but it’s the ginger turmeric that helps inflammation/heart/gut health
I gotta start using the real stuff
Coffee and tea and soup. It’s like my soul purpose.
I made Vegan oatmeal protein balls and I’ll do an upcoming blog post and how to make those! Simple! Easy! Maybe 20 minutes from prep to finish!
Thanks for stopping by my blog! ๐
I reactivated my Insta but with boundaries ๐คช
My awesome hot pants workout set will be arriving Friday! They shipped it out same day! ๐
The vegan treats are worth sticking around for and don’t let the word vegan scare you. PROTEIN BALLS ๐คค
You should’ve kept your mouth shut So deep my wound you felt the cut I guess you’d say you bleed somewhat If you stab in the gut
Sometimes I feel rushed The weight of a feather crushed As long as voice is hushed The praise will gush
I’M ACTUALLY NATIVE AMERICAN BROWN WITH SOME ALBINO AND SUN SPOTS FROM THE SOURCE
I bring you gifts Of all the things you hate Kick you from cliffs And blame you for the weight
You’re a savage and a servant You’re a lion and a lamb Lessons you never learned it And regret You won’t feel a milligram
Are you a gap in reflection? A two way mirror complexion? Can you give me protection? Such priceless affection?
I want to disturb the place you rest Uneasy under crest The earth must love you best Won’t let go your chest
I don’t follow the trends They lead to dead ends!
Long ago I was discarded Does faith keep one safeguarded God is brokenhearted Gone extinct his harvest I cry the hardest
Remove the harness Underneath the carcass Decay just a garnish Layer earth with tarnish We all die regardless
Top of the list huh Right next to “she is dumb” So above and below your thumb Better argument and income That’s the mirror you’re seeing from REMOVED MYSELF FROM THE EQUATION
A GHOSTLY INVASION
I can see through hell’s shadow He’s drinks coffee like espresso I removed self from the status quo I KNOW MY POSITION THOUGH
I’m up, you’re down? Quantum entanglement We wear it like a crown?
My gifts come with all the things he hates Open up these flooded gates Love obviates Nothing he appreciates
Tart Like black cherry Contempt he’ll carry Bag overflowing heavy Sin his sanctuary
P.S. I’m not giving up on the dog. We went for two bike rides yesterday. I finally got the bike out of the house. Most of the black neighbors looked like they wanted to run over me and one white neighbor stopped in his car and warned me that they do 90 around the bend and “be careful”.
I’m not racist I swear. (Everyone hates me for my skin color or my soul. I don’t know which anymore but the city IS dangerous and folks being murdered left and right).
They are targeting the disabled and single white girls. FYI (old people and generally anyone looking weak)
I stitched you into fabric Maybe not elaborate Tiny bit of havoc Maybe out of habit
With some twigs and magic Spilled blood and tragic Wind blown erratic Pages blank but classic
Well now I’ve found the warmth Wrapped up in your world From east to north Stepping back and forth
I have been to hell and back Got the almanac Full sins on attack My wings are carbon black
If photons had a clock The clock would never tick Don’t you question it My love for him It’s just physics
I think he is precious Sun burning contentious Heavy metal pretentious Like moon is reckless Tiny little crevice Will appear speckless Diamond for necklace Can leave lung breathless
How to avoid a road to hell? I think it’s where we fell? Should have gone left? What do you suggest?
He’s got a crown and sword I want to fall on
To die tenderly Kinetic energy Your words – Are haunting me
You will find God if you look lower Crawl feet first but slower Remove bad clover Like a whistleblower
My growth has been stunted Under moon words hunted Why you are confronted All my love abundance Love you in hundreds
Sometimes wounds are gutted Jump in holes redundant Forget the summit Pitched in black no judgment My hope is funded
Through your words I’m blooded Heart beats on like flooded I know what you did Whole world screams forbid Death cannot disconnect our power grid
And if your words are a puddle I’d jump in again and again Don’t care how deep it gets Love you from within
I JUST WOKE UP AND STOLE THE IMAGES FROM TIKTOK AND TURNED THE IDEA INTO A POEM. NEW TREND. SUE ME. The creator is in the poem.
GODDESS
I’ve been praying for answers though on what to do, on how to take down the elite and all these goddamn mushrooms keep popping up all around this lake and now this very clear information came through to me and this is something that we all can hold them back from
LEAVING EARTH
(We can’t go anyway but we can absolutely stop them)
WE CAN STOP THEM ๐๐๐๐
Also – I firmly believe that we dropped a giant bomb on Mars and we’ve been cloning for a long time
There is now evidence coming out that a bomb was dropped on Mars – (they’ll say an Asteroid โ๏ธ)
They keep spraying poison over all the flowers on the road and now they want us to pay for them to plant flowers that they killed
And I did
The enemy is sitting rich on his throne while he fucking poisons my food air and water
WE CAN STOP THEM
I WANT BIG BOI ON MY TEAM
I’ll be lingering near the safe zone of the beach when the shit hits the fan
But it won’t matter if I have an old working jeep or are new working jeep, I can’t outrun the Lord!!!
I would like a floaty device tho
Jesus: you get one question go:
Me: how to save a barnacle? How to save the world? ๐
Right now the message imcoming is: WE CANNOT LET THEM LEAVE
Ready to sell my TV and destroy the elite
If you let your children use virtual reality gaming you are ruining their brain and if you use it for porn you are ruining your brain – you’re not supposed to have that much dopamine being released and it’s literally destroying the fabric of your identity and CELLS
Advertising is just as intrusive
That’s why sometimes you want to cry after an ad
ADVERTISING IS CONDITIONING AND MOST ADS LIE!!!!!!! THE GOVERNMENT IS OUR ENEMY NOW IN EVERY CAPACITY OF THE WORD – THERE IS NO HIDING THE EVIL NOW
Walmart was completely out of eggs, coffee, red potatoes, and other items I ordered
When I asked if they had “less eggs available”, the employee replied, “we have no eggs”, and there were a few items that got substituted instead and I was actually grateful for that
The organic maple syrup was being bought out online as I was buying, along with many items, and the time slots available for delivery or pickup were already filled until 9 am Monday (today)
So I’m lucky I got any items at all
2 pounds of rolled oats! Only need 1 cup (uncooked) for the vegan protein balls! ๐คช
The substituted Maple will do just fine (and can be used for pancakes too)
I recommend using a good peanut butter but I didn’t fit it into the budget – mostly because I have six jars of donated jars I wanna use up – and I’m relying less on the food banks as my main source of food
Got all sorts of edible thangs!
I still have regular pumpkin seeds to add to my nut and seed mix, but topped up on the roasted seeds and glad I scored a bag cuz they only had 4 left!
Food is healing and I got stuff I can eat if the lights go out
Tomatoes on the vine!
Fresh herbs, peppers, spices!
Apparently you can sprinkle flax on anything so it’ll probably get in the trail mix for starters ๐คช
Peppers galore
I’m famished ๐คช
Scored a purple and green head of cabbage!!! ๐คฉ
Witchy vegan stew incoming soon ๐คช
My dog is driving me insane and I do wish our nightmare would come to an end
6 excellent years followed by 5 terrible
And no, I don’t want him anymore. He ain’t a dog.
5 pounds of potatoes and despite how terrible the dog treats me, he eats like a king
Pound of dry beans + canned beans in case
Him: any additions?
Me: beans
Loads and loads of good eating this month
More of the good salt which may not be good after all but SALT
And this tea to help with inflammation but I need to learn to use the real stuff and baby steps….
The only water available…
And I still have a pound of raw cashews and 3 bottles of detox incoming
They were out of coffee and eggs tho and this was the only dairy I got (I’m trying to quit cheese and yogurt currently)
I didn’t show all the herbs but I’ve got some fresh cilantro and parsley to toss in the soup – not to mention like 6 or 7 fresh jalapeรฑos (and a bag of sweet peppers).
Unfortunately the banana chips and the dark chocolate have natural flavor in it so I won’t be able to do those again but for now it will be a good snack. The dark chocolate is intended for the coffee. Luckily, the container I just popped makes 148 cups! But wasn’t able to restock this month!
Him: any addictions?
Me: coffee and cabbage ๐คช
I got green and purple! I just desperately wanted a head! God made sure I got two!!! I’ll make good use! No eggs but protein balls and extra cabbage! Plus, that bag of oats was bigger than I thought! 2 pounds! My nuts are also the big boys!!! Happy to have a stocked fridge and pantry tis all!
I’ll find water but I need a filter for the sink! God wants me to become more self-reliant! Less plastic! Less waste!!! Less poison!!!!!! I can’t believe nobody is protesting the water being poisoned but I may start showing up at City Hall soon. But I’d rather buy an acre with a mobile home. Witchy stew and protein balls.
THANK THE LORD! ๐
Gonna make some hot pepper sauce with the fresh peppers and vinegar! Homemade soup and pepper sauce!!! ๐
I posted stuff on TikTok and Insta before I went down
That dude was not drunk
He was walking a straight line in hurricane winds
Now meybeeee he had a drink
But he was not staggering and had full control
I was worried I was gonna get booted off of my live for dangerous activities so I was letting people know that I was not part of that group but looking back on it he had so much courage, will, and strength
He was exercising and taking dips in Hurricane Ian
The way that bird hovered near him
It was like watching a real life gladiator undergoing some sort of spiritual thang
THIS COULD BE NORMAL ACTIVITY FOR HIM
Meanwhile, I was standing with my legs shoulder length apart holding the damn camera arm with both hands with all my might being blown left and right!!!
My lower back was hurting from being beat by the wind!!!
There were two others in his group that were undressing to go in that chose not to
I was live on TikTok so it took me by surprise – didn’t want dude to drown
That motherfucker is the son of Poseidon or some shit – like he is in god mode or something exercising his demons or gaining full control of them
I get chills watching back on it lol
I’m afraid for the water to touch me and this dude was baptizing in the storm
LOL
Not just any storm either…
Apparently one of the worst hurricanes to hit Florida in 100 years
My power has been down an hour or so
I definitely was not prepared but I have several hours maybe days worth of candle light that I can use and I’ll probably mostly use it at night time for 2 to 3 hours only
FYI the wind was so gnarly I had to stand with my feet shoulder with apart, leaning into the wind battering me to death AND it required TWO HANDS just to hold my device
I was getting blown away and he was taking dips like a bird
Sidestepping a hurricane
And the way the bird kept rhythm with him entering the ocean
Not a sign of doom
GLADIATOR DUDE
I want him on my team for the apocalypse
Let’s feed him good
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He conquered something because his step was getting more powerful the closer in
STOMPING THE STORM
I’m terrified of the ocean calm so this was kind of incredible to see
He didn’t seem drunk, more determined
STUPID COURAGEOUS (oxymoron!?!)
He woke
And he definitely pissed off
SEA MONSTER CONQUERED SOMETHING TODAY
His fears? ๐
I could barely stand and the wind nearly blew my Jeep door off
GUSTY
Also, I met a one legged bird and nearly wept
And an outcast because weak
But that seabird was so strong ๐
Sad but strong
Struggling to survive with one leg ๐
Now I’m gonna cry again ๐
The one legged bird and gladiator vibes at the beach today
It’s never dull even when it’s dull
Because people were complaining about the live lmao
Not all but some
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Most enjoyed getting to see the fury but I can’t do anything about the sound quality
I’m not wasting time, energy, gas, running around for scraps
TIME TO RATION SUPPLIES – SOMETHING THESE GREEDY NARCISSIST KNOW NOTHING ABOUT
The town is under curfew
Most businesses are closed or are closing early (I was gonna cheat and get fast food after finding zero water but the universe said NOPE don’t want you eating that crap)
The lights were on and they were open and workers were inside on the clock getting paid to do nothing – quiet quitting every chance they get on our dime
THE LAZY GENERATION
WANTS TIPS BEFORE SERVICE AND ZERO QUALITY SERVICE AT THAT
DELUSIONAL
I’ll post some videos on TikTok if I’m allowed and while I still have power
It might not get that bad but I have lived through two hurricanes where I live and power was out for a week
No fucking water anywhere
NONE
I’m gonna look on Walmart delivery or pickup if they have it…
I’M EXPECTING THEM TO NOT OR TO HAVE JACKED UP THEIR PRICES FOR BASIC LIVING NECESSITIES WHICH SHOULD BE ILLEGAL
Haven’t had any Evec orders but we are under curfew
I still have 4 gallons of water so hopefully I’m okay
I need out of the city tho
It’s not safe here
In any capacity
I went live for a few minutes, got entirely soaked walking around the ocean, I’ll get the videos posted since none of the locations had drinking water
Had some pissy people on the live apparently. Acting as if hurricane ocean is safe. ๐คก
I ain’t dying for views. But I am a blogger and I do share my environment.
Things are taking forever to upload too ๐คช
My fridge is empty and so are the stores which are closing early
The power can go out and my electric bill probably still gonna be through the roof
I don’t want modern luxury if it takes three jobs to pay your electric and your rent
Volusia county is listed in the warning link above – The Governor of Florida recommended it! โ ๏ธ
I promptly went to visit.
I have lived through TWO hurricanes where I currently live and did lose power both times for a week!
I am not prepared at all… ๐คช
But hopefully I can get some necessities in a few days.
I’ve got 4 gallons of water currently so the panic is setting in.
Boo season is here!!! ๐
Just an FYI if I lose power and whatnot
๏ฟผ I don’t need power to jump on my rebounder and I don’t need power to ride my bicycle unless it’s flooding but we’ll see how it goes๏ฟผ…
The fridge and pantry is low tho and I’m living on the edge (Mostly paycheck to paycheck like every American and I’m not gonna feel ashamed about it๏ฟผ)
But if I disappear from the face of the earth, I’m just surviving Hurricane Ian – headed directly my way. Same county and all.
They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health
Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS
Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16
I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence
I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose
That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time
COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES
Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration
Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?
I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere
I feel a stranger in my own land
But I’m not allowed to talk about it
I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect
I swore an oath
I SWORE
To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism
The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers
And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either
I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health
And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012
IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated
And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty“I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”
He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free ๐
He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs
He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)
But God will be reigning on him soon
He was warned
Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel
Possibly his guardian angel
He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!
Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd
I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment
I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people
I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge
But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art
I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people
I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband
I am naรฏve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn
And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if
CLUELESS
I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment
We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet
Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy
The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system ๏ฟผ
Especially as a female….
“Never go anywhere alone”
“If you get lost, stand still”
Like, I can keep going…
I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits
I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)
Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! ๐ช
You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control
I’m trying to save you
I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace๏ฟผ
I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)
He can have his freedom I fought for
But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God
I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies
I don’t have anything to offer When he can buy it all A narcissist will not suffer Like an angel will fall
Let him run to Paris! Let him have his fun! My name’s Polaris Like lightning from a gun!
Have you been to the petrified forest in North Dakota? Have I lost my quota?
God made galaxies to be seen The calm and serene The moon and evergreen The sun and me
Full moon tomorrow And I’m all sorrow
Mary Magdalene was a whore Who slept with men for honey Wanted bread, not money What’s to abhor?
The homeless are an invasive species Or so the TV tells me As rent continues skyrocketing The problem aren’t the elites
I’m organic It makes the Devil frantic! Hand stitched by God The Devil cannot stand it!
See the full set on my OnlyFans (thank you so much for your support, as I like food a lot, despite the petite appearance…)
11 hours go by 17 make me cry
Why you take so long to respond to me Takes an eternity
Mercury in Retrograde Not like the softness in my tears The way you disappear Demand both sin and aid! God’s not counting years So the moon will not persuade Though full when he appears With only faith to trade God’s not missing here
The King is a fool Burning his confidant of truth
93 million miles away huh (all photography by @poeeternal)
The next time God sends you something with wings It won’t have feathers Looks like bad weather Be damned is what it means I warn of things
When in doubt Burrow Like a fox Make it thorough
Not going in – is what the sign reads (red flags 101) RIP JOHN JONES
Can we start over? Since we never have before? An open shoulder? Not a closed door?
Father,
I have lost all sense of worth I put in the work Darkness was my crutch Jumping cliff to perch Swearing off the church I know Satan’s lurch Full sin born at birth Decades roaming earth Hell, heaven or hearth
Please save me
Freckles galore – kisses from the source (lots and lots) 9/25/2022 (time is bullshite) (Ethiopia is seven years behind. April Fool’s!!!!!!!!!) Stupid Americans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I fell like a sword Over propaganda I am abhorred God did not abandon Heart can be restored Faith my companion
He treats me like a number in the crowd He’s a puddle and I can’t get out
I found myself a lost wanderer Surrounded in fear With water creeping near But without wonder Year after year I know I am average I am shrinking here
And now, under moon A ceremonial ego death Hard to draw a breath John Jones go left! I wake up in sweat I lost a brother Maybe the best
I am covered in agony One lifeline to heaven please God is feeding me Gave me life and seed Said get creating Heart has energy Blood is poetry
The earth took my blood Water turned bone to stone Earth is my home!
Earth is lying!!!!!!!
AND I MUST WEEP ALONE!!!!!!!
Tiny raindrops pouring down Your energy speaks volumes There in the Bayou Lies who?
Cutting blood ties With moonstone What could go wrong Hissing with his lies Missing is his tries Left to roam alone
I’m not crawling to my doom I take cover under moon My cloth isn’t costume My favorite color isn’t gloom I’m not chasing after you
The baby likely died last Down in the valley Family finale
I’m aware my artistry is waning like the moon (sometimes thangs are better but I always put full heart in)
I hope there was something you enjoyed and there is more content coming! ๐คช
I got folks coming to my blog telling me to cover up. Last I checked I was a GROWN WOMAN and nudity is NOT A SIN
God made me capable of having children at 13 and I believe I should’ve been allowed to choose a husband while under the age of 18
SOCIETY IS A SCAM
*leaps from bridge*
They want me covered up in jab cuz they can’t control their urges
They teach their children women are to be seen as sex objects only – only nude when servicing man
The guy coming to my blog telling me to cover up is the same guy who supports porn stars and the porn industry and jerks off to porn religiously but then goes to church and drops some money in the tray and thinks everything is OK
Glad he’s enjoying farm life and three meals a day plus infinite snacks
BUT YOU PISSED ON ONE OF GOD’S ANGELS
HE’S TAKING NOTE
I am grateful for your viewship. I shouldn’t have to censor myself on my own blog. It goes against my purpose of full transparency and truthmongering. Sorry not sorry.
“I don’t want my kids to see this”
You mean the same kids you let loose in the mall and at Walmart whom openly sale erotic adult sex toys IN FRONT OF CHILDREN – not behind a curtain ๐
You’d be surprised at how much $5 can lift my spirits and buy me fuel or coffee! If you can’t afford a subscription, please consider a donation or tip! ๐๐๐
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALLOWING ME FREEDOM OF SPEECH ON MY OWN BLOG
I don’t have to change who I am or the things that bring me purpose to find a fucking husband
I’m gonna goth the fuck outta my bedroom
As soon as the things in the dolls home goes on sale and I refurbish my little bit of savings money to do a little bit more splurging for the home ๐คช
YOU SHOULD SEE THE ITEMS IN MY WISHLIST
THE GOTHY PINKY BLACK THANGS
MAKE MY COFFIN GOTH
K, thanks, bye
EDGAR ALLAN POE WAS GOTH AND I AM HIS DAUGHTER INCARNATE
I don’t know if he would’ve been my dad or my brother or my cousin because he married his fucking blood cousin but whatever
HE WAS GOTH
DUHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU KNOW YOU LIKE IT
STOP GASLIGHTING
I’m in a cult – it’s a goth cult – and no amount of money will ever get me to leave
That’s like asking me not to breathe ๐
Maybe if Trent Reznor drops out
MAYBE
He married an effing witch
Yeah no
Ain’t happening
My calling is being called
I AM A VAMPIRE GODDESS
I DO NOT BOW WITH FORCE OR MANIPULATION OR LIES
A KING HAS NOT A KINGDOM WITHOUT A QUEEN
I deleted you from my phone contact list and I’m not ghosting you, I’m setting fucking boundaries since you clearly, clearly have expressed differences with callous and stone
Fairly certain God is spitting on you and if he’s not, he will be reigning on you soon…
He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget
I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that
How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!
I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even
SOLD OUT!
I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.
Jesus completely submitted to his queen and gave over his ministry to her, FYI
SMART KING ๐
Anyhoo, just some comments that came on my blog today about how I should manner myself
My art is unbecoming
(Still holding top 51 tho thank you)
I MIGHT CAN GET GROCERIES NEXT WEEK TO MAKE MORE HEALING VEGAN SOUP AND GOD APPROVES
He thanks you because most men want to look but not share their fucking bread!!!!!
It’s written in the Bible!!!!!!
“Nice peach”. No, I ain’t got nothing for you to eat. Word of advice tho….”
I’VE GONE INSANE WITH HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF
GOD IS HELPING ME GET MYSELF AND MY KING TOGETHER SO WE CAN UNITE
THERE ARE FORCES AT WORK OUTSIDE OF AI OR THE ALGORITHM OR THE EVIL ELITES
COSMIC THANGS
MY KING AND I ARE UNDERGOING AWAKENING AND CLEANSING BEFORE WE UNITE
IMPATIENT IS OUR MIGHT
I WANT MY KING TO ENCOURAGE ME TO WEAR A THONG ON THE BEACH
I AM SICK OF BEING A NUN COVERED UP IN JAB
FUCK THE PATRIARCH!!!!!!!!
God loves my improv cooking!!!
God doesn’t want me starving or dying on the street!
God wants to see me more self-reliant and less having to rely on food banks for canned food
I do tasteful nude modeling and cosplay photography and art to accompany my poetry and it often correlates with the things that I am discussing in my poetry or what I’m even complaining about in the real world
I do full 36 page spreads (as they were once called) and now upload them somewhere I can earn some money – if I have anyone of interest and currently I’m grateful I do
Hmmmm starve or do photography that I enjoy that earns me a shopping trip to the health food shop for vegetables and stew
Hmmm starve or do something I’m passionate about ๐ง
Die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe or try to overcome the odds ๐คจ
Most of them will say I wish I could buy you the moon while locking you on the bottom of the Titanic
I’d like to get to a point where I don’t have to fear losing my income or my housing
I’m already living under my means but yeah starve or stop displaying myself
Hmm I mean it’s a tough one cuz I apparently like to eat ๐
But I have absolutely had this conversation with God 1 million times and I am not doing anything to disrespect myself or my future husband or anyone who is supporting my content
That’s the real problem and why I don’t have more supporters because I’m not an online nasty girlfriend
I’m not saying all men or bad or this fits all shoes
But I’ve maintained my purity and I’m only getting married once
I like producing content for my blog
Some of my stuff is very controversial and taboo ๐คช
I think I’m autistic a bit because I always say what I think and I curse and I can be unempathetic during critical times as a survival mechanism and I always give too much info
I haven’t learned safe boundaries or acting on these sorts of online triggers
I don’t hate people for having incorrect opinions or viewpoints on me
These viewpoints are why I’m so isolated in the real world
Nudity wasn’t seen as a crime in Europe and nudity was in the commercials there
Now Walmart and the mall is openly selling sex toys – XXX sex toys in front of children
It traumatized me so much I don’t want to shop at Walmart or return to the mall
I don’t even own a sex toy and I’m not doing anything with my art that is shameful
I’m not into anything artificial and have been preserving myself for my king
Most people shame me for showing my body because it’s not full of plastic surgery or for not being thick
PRETTY BIAS ALSO EXISTS
You can tell by a lot of the comments these types of commenters leave me that they think I just stand in front of a fucking camera and have a photo taken and there is so much work involved in modeling and photography and directing and editing
“They got it so easy”
STOP GASLIGHTING โ๐โ
Since 1970, 68% of all life has gone extinct
HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING FARM AND FAMILY LIFE AND 3 MEALS A DAY
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
I’m now too small for a small ๐ซ
Gotta start shopping extra small for the peach ๐ค
PLEASE VALIDATE ME BEFORE I DISAPPEAR INTO NON EXISTENCE
You taste of Judas Iscariot Betrayal you’ll marry it I’ve paid twice for sins Won’t pay again
144 awakening 7th seal opening Judgment hour No hoping (John’s still coping)
One, two See through all of you
Hell hath arrived THERE ARE NO GOODBYES
Oh, Princeof This World They aren’t your gifts to give Heaven rules over all but this God is the Void But Satan rules this world
I am a beggar Crawling eternally
Helpless to stop it Remove self from equation The devil is invasion I’m losing patience! Careful crossing occasion Will get stuck persuading Hopeful helpful information
Nature becomes conscious of itself through you
I NEED YOU LIKE ETERNITY Hell is separation I’M BURNING
If I die here Nobody will know I didn’t want to But nobody will ask you
Fallen Angelic Trying to ascend
Need him more and then Eleven hours spent Not bad omen
Number signs godsend I do listen And then repent
Foreshadowing But if he’s dropping flags I’m walking in Red carpet rolling With a halo full of sin God said keep walking But I want him instead
He turns me SOFT Like the Grand Canyon will flow Paradigm shift halo He owns my soul
I’m sorry he betrayed you A devil said to shrewd I think with gratitude The sun burns the moon I rest in solitude Black as blue But oh so devalued
I do not dream of labor The moon a gaper Place our love on paper He calls – I turn to vapor
We’re reaching terminal velocity Death is nearing Is this the correct speed? Thought you needed me?
He’s wrapped up in deceit Like a sheet Am I a ghost I am discreet
I’m without kingdom Guarding eternity Trident I’m not lying
WHAT LIES Beyond the horizon CRIMINAL EYES But the sun’s still rising AND I’M HERE FOR BLOOD
Touch me So the curse will lift Kiss me on the lip Keep me near your hip
More poetry and photography coming! Thank you for your interest in my content! I work hard at it! I hope you are enjoying the Halloween theme! Lingerie bodysuit by Dolls Kills! ๐
I just dropped a set on the OnlyFans! 40 photos! Like when PlayBoy did 18 & 36 page spreads! SAME! ๐คช
I’ve been busy writing and working out! I’ll post behind-the-scenes soon!
It’s BOO season!! ๐๐๐
I’m ready to dawn the Halloween costume daily! I wanna go on a hayride!!!! ๐
All my content is original and I do not use an AI generator to write my poems nor do I scour the web for overused images by others. Sorry not sorry!
In makeup and filter ๐คช
Thank you for your viewship and feedback! Highly appreciated! โค๏ธ
I made the stew! I stopped by Publix and grabbed a few items to enhance the pot!
But I wanted to celebrate getting pushed into the top 50s by going and getting some additional ingredients to put into the vegan stew
Fresh rosemary, 2 red potatoes, 1 purple onion, bag of sweet peppers red orange yellow, celery stalks, and 1 giant Jalapeรฑo pepper
Just a few fresh items from the produce section
Also stocked up on my spring water from the Dollar Tree
And I’m avoiding those little plastic bags and bottles as much as possible
I AM STILL EATING HEALTHY AND THRIFTING
But I found TWO better stores to thrift – where the prices are clearance prices and the items are NEW
Both the stores are also very popular, so it’s really challenging to get the items that I want and personally I’m starting to find it a whole lot more fun than driving around to all these different thrift stores around the city and only finding over priced used items (gas prices are killing me)
People coughing left and right from God knows what
I’M STILL RECOVERING FROM HEART INFLAMMATION
And I’m taking the little bit of income I am earning from the hard work that I’m doing and I’m investing it back into my health and my work which is the sole purpose of me doing all this anyway ๐คช
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I don’t want to drop dead of COVID like my sister did in January at the age of 45
There are people out there who don’t want to see me get healthy or to move and basically they want to see me drop dead
THEY ARE ROOTING FOR ME TO DIE
*sigh* the aliens are us. Religion. It’s all just us. We do have a creator tho. But this society is a false entity. Anyhoo.
Chris Cornell (FROWN GARDEN) had just performed a sold out show before he went back to his hotel room and tapped the lights on and off from an app to let his wife know that he was checking out permanently and BOOM he’s gone
MONEY ISN’T THE ANSWER
I make my stew with spring water. Fill the pot half up.
His mother follows me on Instagram and they don’t care about nudity, they don’t care about that fucking shit, but what they care about is mental health and me not fucking dying
I do not need a fancy kitchen to make soup for a king
It’s weird when the love of your life does not watch your stories but Chris Cornell’s mother does (hello heaven)
Making a tomato vegetable broth from scratch
My best friend died by suicide and Soundgarden was her favorite band
๐
Everything I love is going extinct
Start adding your spices – a little here and there will do. Use REAL SALT THAT SUPPLIES THE NECESSARY NUTRIENTS
They spent weeks tearing up the earth and now I no longer hear pretty bird sing ๐
I’m being driven insane ๐
I cook in a glass pot I scored from the thrift. My kitchen is under a SLOW REMODEL. Ditching all plastic and Teflon. Stainless steel, glass, bronze, or copper only.
In 2018 when I had to go to court ONE TIME (I’ve sorted everything so chill) – the female judge would not even speak to me until I took a few breaths
Fresh rosemary. Use a lot! I think I could have used it all!!!!!!! I was afraid it would overpower. It did not! I used 1 stem! Should have tossed the entire pack in! It gonna turn to broth!!!!!!!!!!!
She stated I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me
I told her my parents didn’t teach me about those monsters under the bed
She said her parents did teach her but she still made mistakes
I would like a live rosemary plant
By the end of the court session we had everyone in the room laughing and it was full
I had zero reasons to be humiliated even though I was
And she knew the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes nearly
I lost everything I had saved for many years
My Thrift retirement savings GONE
My personal savings GONE
SEEN: Brown & red potatoes. Medley sweet peppers. Rainbow carrots. Red onion. Purple/red cabbage. Sweet onion. Celery stalks. Giant Jalapeรฑo. Tomato from the vine.
Then they went after my physical health with this pandemic because this is biological warfare
I’m doing everything that I can to climb up out of this hell hole
I have no reason to feel shame
So far in the pot: cherry tomatoes (the rainbow kind), tomatoes from the vine diced, fresh rosemary DO MORE, finely chopped celery, real salt and pepper
But for some reason these monsters have drilled it into me to feel bad if I’m not giving them the attention that they don’t deserve
Read it again…
I’m struggling with answers on what to do with my own blood line
Use the good salt
And I’m trying to fix my health so that I can create my own tribe before I check the fuck out permanently
All I know is I love eating homemade vegan soup more than I like eating canned expired food from the food pantries
The vegan soup is healing my heart
The can soup has poison in it
No taste testing yet. Use your nose and eyes to cook as well. Does it smell good? Keep going. ๐
All the pretty labels are lies
Natural flavor was mad in a lab with MAD SCIENTISTS!!!!!!
SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
I spent hours cooking up this pot to perfection
I AM STILL SIMMERING AND MAKING THE BROTH – WE ARE NOT ADDING THICK CUT VEGGIES YET
I HAVE LEFTOVERS
And 1 bowl was so hearty I struggled to get through it ๐คช
No bread this time! Just soup!
So without further ado I took photos for you but I don’t use directions and I make everything from scratch – just like my memaw taught me
She always said a way to a man’s heart is through his belly
MINE TOO
I use lots of tomatoes and then some ๐คช
A way to my heart is through my belly
She wasn’t wrong
Our mental health is directly connected to our gut
I even tossed in dry rosemary cuz I’m still learning to perfect perfection ๐คช (this soup is perfection make no doubt)
I can’t stand living with these insane children around me and no more pretty bird singing
I HATE LIVING HERE LIKE JOHN JONES HATES THAT CAVE
AND ALL THE CHILDREN ARE INSANE – Jim Morrison
It’s been simmering 15-20 minutes on low heat – now time to POP THE CHERRIES ๐คช
Because they need to fucking deworm
*starts slamming bathroom doors*
MY FAVORITE PLACE TO LIVE ๐คฉ
*STARTS MAKING MORE LOUD NOISES
I’m taking a shot of detox soon so I don’t fucking shoot myself ๐
Now drinking from stainless steel instead of plastic (kinda) (reducing my plastic consumption waste)
I get to wake up to the racist children now and no longer pretty bird
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO MOVE
I WOULD RATHER LIVE IN A MUD SHACK ON MY OWN TINY PIECE OF LAND
THAN TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS DEVIL SOCIETY
LOOK AT ALL THOSE RAINBOW CARROTS GOING IN THE POT – I KEEP THEM WHOLE FOR A “MEATY MEAL”. I make vegan witches stew ๐คจ
Despite this, y’all don’t want us living in fear so ensure you do everything to make sure we are indeed living in fear
Stopped by the beach after my vegan feast to enjoy after sunset and no…
The beach is green
I ain’t going in or near naw. God wants me making content for y’all and stew at home. I’m healing.
Ya no
My feet ain’t touching that
I haven’t forgot that a 14-year-old drowned here a couple months ago
He was found an hour later 1 mile away – that’s how far that riptide took him
Also evening death like John Jones
Went for another round
Got out and went back in
Toss in whole
Bye bye ๐
I’m sorry you died in fear so young
It’s not safe here
MAGICAL GOODNESS ๐คฉ
I was afraid of the fucking vegetables growing
They so good
Start filling your pot up and don’t forget to put pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper
More spices, more herbs
I keep the skins on the potatoes and I also leave all the seeds in ๐
At this point I’m still cutting and adding
I simmer it on low until the potatoes are nearly done and then I add the cabbage
I carefully push in slices of the head
Vertically I reckon
And then as it cooks down the top bits I’ll gently push in
You can dice all your vegetables really small and probably take less time to cook it and it won’t be as hearty and the vegetables will be mushy like fucking canned soup but
You will spend a lot of time dicing your vegetables as well so I don’t really know if you’re saving time
It turned out delicious. Doesn’t need a thang! But going in the belly!! ๐คช
If you eat the leftovers up slowly the vegetables will maintain their yumminess and freshness!
Lemme know if you have any questions and how it goes! You can use whatever veggies you like when making soup. I call this a ONE POT WONDER STEW (vegan and magically healing)
Let me know if you want me to share more of my cooking adventures.
Made from scratch and with love. Good ole country cooking! Heart healthy! Loaded with vitamins and thangs the heart needs! Yes, the cabbage bleeds purple. You can eat it crunchy. Don’t over cook it!!!!
I’ll crash the party even without an invitation ๐คช
A fence is there for me to jump ๐คจ
So. The love of my life called. We talked about the theory of everything for 11 hrs. and then some.
We don’t want to share separate bedrooms in a marriage
Honeymoon phase shall continue til the end of my days and respawn and love him again
I confessed I loved him in my twenties
We ain’t never even kissed
Not on earth yet anyway…
And I’m doing everything I can to fix my gut/immune system
I’m scared of people but want to learn to exist in the same room as him
I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT HIM
Also, the Poe tat has relevance in that “deep in earth my love is lying”
Yep
He my fucking existence earth sign and all
And I do weep for him
I FUCKING DO
We have each other’s phone numbers and addresses now so the ghosting needs to fucking stop
He gonna need a restraining order to keep me away ๐คช
He gonna need 2 or three ๐คช
(Shame about the lady who just had her head dismembered from a psychopath she had 3 restraining orders from. Welp. He cut her head off – in front of the kids – ๐)
It’s the end of the world but he’s finally calling
WRITE HIM THE LETTER EVEN IF IT TAKES TWENTY YEARS FOR THE RETURN
I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –
I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…
And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….
Should I cancel the order? ๐คช
In the wishlist… ๐
In the Dolls Kill wishlist ๐
They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)
This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)
And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month ๐คช
I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)
So grateful to share my makeover progress with you
THE THIGH HIGH BOOTS ARE VEGAN ๐คฉ
I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry
I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)
THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN
COMING SOON
(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)
I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty
All the men prior in my life body shamed me
I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down ๐
I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support
It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you
I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments
Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows
DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING
I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on ๐คช
Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?
I NEED TO KNOW
My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D ๐
CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT ๐
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around ๐คจ
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… ๏ฟผ
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scam๏ฟผ
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants ๐ช
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
DON’T BUY RAW MILK WITHOUT A DATE LABELED ANIMAL FEED
Nobody ever taught me this ๐
“I think I’m dumb…”
Or eggs…
THEY WERE PRICED FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION ๐ณ
Farm Fresh? Eh. WHO KNOWS
THERE IS NO DATE
I THOUGHT I WAS SOMEWHERE ELSE ON THE MAP
HUGE GOT DAMN MISTAKE
Even with the MEGA SALE and all
The milk and eggs cost MORE than a normal store or health food shop
I WANT TO EGG THEIR SHOP
Halloween is coming ๐
And I have Halloween goodies coming from dolls kill and I hope it gets here quickly so I can start redecorating my bathroom and my bedroom and not get arrested
THAT IS ALL
I wish I did have a husband though because he would probably be making a phone call saying you sold my wife some rotten eggs and milk
And then had the audacity to not “list the price of the nuts because they had gone up”
I do recommend that big bag of great value dry powdered milk for eight dollars and never ever ever fucking raw milk without a goddamn date on it that’s labeled animal feed and why are they selling it to humans you fucking assholes
This is exactly why John Jones got stuck in a fucking hole and I’m allowed to be pissed off about it because that eight dollars could’ve gone towards some shit at Dolls Kill that I want
I’m nearly fucking vegan after all this shit
“You could of said no”
They stole $8 from me ๐
And I don’t know what to do with the milk because my dog doesn’t even want to drink it so if I put it outside it might contaminate the water
Tempted
TEMPTED TO ACCIDENTALLY SPILL IT ALL OVER THEIR DOOR
Helps. I’m in hell. ๐
If I had a husband I wouldn’t be buying animal feed ๐
IT WAS RIGHT THERE ON THE LABEL
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
How long had it been sitting on their shelf in the fridge?
HOW LONG?????????
There’s no date anywhere!!!!
How many red flags does a person need???????
HARD LESSONS LEARNED IN HELL
It was a lesson though
777 numbers from the heaven
The discount didn’t even cover the cost of the rotten milk ๐
There’s consequences to timeline jumping, you get brain injuries and become really fucking stupid ๐
I don’t even think I can use this milk as a photo shoot to pour on my body because it’s chunky even though the label says to “shake well”
For the record, I wasn’t studying every single label in the new shop which was a Health store
It was almost as if I was being chastised for looking at the prices or the labels and then they sold me some rotten milk and God knows how good the eggs are now because I’m fucking afraid of the eggs
RETURN THIS CARTOON
SOLD AS ANIMAL FEED
MOTHERFUCKING DAMN
That’s another $8 stolen ๐
Those motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!
AVOID AT EVERY COST ๐
I didn’t even have this bad of an experience drinking goats milk in Kuwait and Iraq
My mama didn’t breast-feed me and I apparently like milk because I’m undernurtured and I’m trying to get rid of my milk addiction but they are poisoning everything including the soy beans
Some good news with the coffee…
This Doll model has a very tiny peach (this is not my peach)
I mean her peach is TINY
And I’ve been freaking out over losing over 18 pounds detoxing and my peach getting smaller even though I do work out, bike ride and walk and rebound and clean fucking house even though it doesn’t look like it
Babes with a small peach are worthy of affection and love too
And I’m not gonna show you the entire outfit because I got it ๐
I got a Halloween bodysuit ๐คช
This holiday slowing down the shipments but at least when they say they’re doing a mega sale they fucking mean it and they sell you really good quality stuff that is 1000 times better than Amazon or Walmart
Or Peggy’s Discount whom sale rotten food to despairing hungry humans ๐
My doc appointment is tomorrow
I can’t stop laughing about how incredibly stupid I was though, I mean I know I was hungry and gaslit
I know I have a brain injury
It was a new environment
But the red flags were there
I mean, they failed to even list the price of the nuts on the container or the shelf
Just like Michael Leavitt failed to put features on the map showing danger zones
“But he said he was an expert”
“But there was dust on the walls”
Like, I’m out $16+ bucks over gaslighting and not reading signs and ignoring red flags
I’m an animal, I will drink milk straight from the cow tit OK, I’ll be frank with you, but that shit was fucking ruined
Like, I would have a goat around for milk and cheese
There are certain species of animals that I have never eaten nor touched nor plan to digest
Goat is one
But their cheese and milk and fur – in the right conditions – I wouldn’t be opposed to
There was no cow milk in Iraq or Kuwait and the only milk we were offered was goats milk but the only way I would drink it was warm
Warm goats milk in my box cereal
My king needs to know the conditions in which I starve
I will bite the hand that feeds when the food is rotten and poisoned
THIS IS WHY EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
I am grateful for your support because people out here stealing from me left and right
“You didn’t have to buy the milk”
YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO LIE
How long has that lie been sitting on the shelf?
HOW LONG
I am nearly vegan and it isn’t because you have a heavy hand because you can’t have a heavy hand and also eat pizza from a fucking box and be part of the fucking problem
THEY ARE SELLING ROTTEN MILK ๐ฅ
“Shake well”
I FUCKING PLAN TO
KEEP PISSING ON ME
JUDGMENT HOUR
I’m gonna expose you all
Narcissism is not rare
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
Despite the fact that I had nearly $20 stolen from me (and I’m still out eggs and milk now by the way, that I can’t replace)
These goddamn demons make it so hard for me not to commit a criminal act
It’s better to blog than spray paint
I really want to be the best efficient hunter killer but I’ve got to learn how to control my emotions especially my anger when it arises
“Hunter killer”
UHM
I am efficiently trained by the United States Army to take down a human with one shot one kill and with my bayonet
You don’t think they just played with us in basic training do you? ๐
God: you wanna go to heaven?
Me: oh yeah for sho
God: you need special training that in which I cannot say and you cannot kill
Me: I’m up for the challenge ๐คจ
God: everything will be a lie
Me: I WANT OUT, LET ME OUT
Anyhoo
The Great Filter is narcissism
Every society has at least two great filters they need to overcome if they want to be a species that doesn’t go extinct
What are your Great Filters?
We must have individual filters as well
Don’t shop at Peggy’s Discount
I’ve got eggs and milk I don’t know what to do with
I have lessons I still need to learn
I’m trying to share even the smallest ones with you
I don’t like to lose money
I don’t like to gamble
I don’t like being gaslit
I don’t like being wasteful
I’m curious and like trying new things
“How quickly should I drink it”
“Uh within a few days. Bacteria”
Dear Gen Z
That isn’t bacteria, that is fucking rot
Your parents look like cruel dictators and I can tell you are confused about your sex and wanna please the parents but never do
You still sold me rotten milk…
The eggs don’t have a date either
Your boomer parents have a house and a business and I’m struggling to pay my rent
I’m condemning you all to hell
Take it up with God
He sent me here to see what you do through my eyes
He sent me here to judge
144,000
SAY MY NAME
FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
All that vegan packaging with natural flavor in it from a fucking lab
I AM WOKE BUT BLIND
“Free will” but “they will do anything”
He gonna divorce me
“You spent $18 on a tiny container of nuts and another $16 on animal food”. “What are we eating this month, honey?” ๐
(I did get the money back for the unopened nuts)
I should call though to say the milk was expired
But I want to cut the cord on that experience which was a fucking nightmare and I will spend many days potentially months or even a year trying to figure out why why why why when I was hungry I did this shit
I was completely out of my comfort zone at Peggy’s but because I’m nice and programmed to not say no or offend these demons, I made bad mistake ๐
Welp. How to ignore red flags 101. The fear was very real. God is in information. Listen to the source when he is calling. Those warnings are like little fingertips by God touching you
Tickle tickle
Don’t go that way
And you may get an additional warning or two, like Jacob in the whirlpool, he got three, that I counted
But he got out
And he went back in
A second time….
I have an irrational fear of dying but there is a pattern and Apophis is a nuclear bomb if we do not stop the NEW WORLD ORDER
(With those bad shrooms we’re not allowed to touch)
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF
Black Walnut Wormwood detox if you wanna save your life or purge the Devil (is that what’s stopping you) ๐ง
Tsk tsk
I can’t believe I bought some rotten fucking milk and eggs that literally says animal food on it but it’s being sold as human food on human shelving without a date and shouldn’t that be illegal?
Gaslighting should be a crime
I’m in fucking hell…
I am a witch though and I love spooky season
I make the best damn pot of stew
WITCHES STEW
Dash of burn in hell, dash of I don’t give a fuck… pinch of they’re all out of luck
You should see the writings on the wall where heavens gone mad
50 years ago they would have drilled a hole in my head
The way we treat depression is barbaric
We need to ban big pharma commercials
I don’t mind drinking milk past the expiration date or eating expired food but what the fuck
Wanna turn somebody vegan?
SELL THEM ROTTEN MILK
I curse in hell because it’s the only way I don’t commit a crime and they’re trying to take my freedom of speech in the real world
If you take my speech, I take my money and business
And I will never shop where I can’t spend cash which is what I’d like to start doing but find me a place I can shop that isn’t selling sex toys in front of children…
I don’t want to support businesses that are selling sex toys in front of children like Walmart and the mall
I don’t want to support a business that sells you rotten fucking produce that you can’t return
“Has it been opened”
*THROWS BOTTLE AND EGGS AT BRICK WALL*
*gets arrested*
*doesn’t get money back, gets fined instead*
(Stays home to avoid potential downfall)
You remember that Nirvana song, “I think I’m dumb”
SAME
Also, Kurt had gut issues which directly impacts mental health, he needed to debug ๐คจ
I took my Jeep to Pep Boys and got my tires sorted and they said I needed to replace three of them soon, that the tread is showing
I stopped by the store after and got the produce!
Got the good red purple cabbage + rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes + tomatoes on the vine
It’s gonna be a great stew
Got my nuts ordered online since that mega sale was mega bullshite and they were charging $18 for ounces, not pounds, and not listing the prices anywhere ๐
I HAVE A BRAIN INJURY
I don’t need my husband yelling at me when I come home because I somehow got charged $18 for some tiny little nuts – despite asking questions here and there – and doing my best to budget and buy stuff without NATURAL FLAVOR
I’ve got 2 1/2 pounds of nuts arriving at some point – shipping dates are bullshite these days – but currently it says Sunday
$27 for pounds – not ounces – that will last me all month – and I can snack daily
The price varies over there, but the price in the grocery store was MORE for LESS (They’ve turned into convenient store prices)
I’m buying these nuts directly from the seller – they’ve been doing me alright for the few months I’ve been switching to a vegetarian diet
Sometimes the price is cheaper
But now knowing that main businesses are being absolutely GREEDY GASLIGHTING ASSHOLES – they can keep selling to the yuppies
I need my own land with nut trees growing
A nut and fruit garden
Chickens running around!!!
But I am so happy that I have several pounds of red cabbage in my fridge again, tomatoes from the vine, plus garden medley tomatoes and rainbow carrots (I still have sweet & baking potatoes and onions)
I probably should learn to make something other than stew but currently I don’t want to
I like the stew ๐คจ
I make it completely from scratch and it’s healing me
Minus the fact that the herbs are dry and not fresh
BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE MY OWN GARDEN YET
I’ve got my first bodysuit and my first Halloween costume that included accessories from dolls kill arriving whenever the fuck the package gets here and it’s worth living for the soup and the packages are worth living for and the potential possibility of finding a fucking partner in the future when I’m not quarantined
I hope moving to the country is less noisy
I am going out of mind
I woke up fucking crying
“Get up Trinity, get up”
And I did
I headed right to Pep Boys to sort my tire issue as the light was on the entire way I was driving yesterday
But the shops were closed for the holiday…
I saw a video on TikTok of a guy stating he was snowboarding and decided to go back “one more time” (A SECOND RETURN) and now he’s got a brain injury and can’t do shit for life
And I have a brain injury so I’m grateful I can still make soup
I mean maybe he can make soup I don’t know but like he went back a second time and that’s the thing I’ve been noticing – pay attention to that – pay attention to how people go back a second time and fucking die or nearly do (like me with that damn vaccine)
I also picked up some pumpkin spice bread with lots of nuts & seeds, no GMO, no natural flavor from a lab…
I need to learn to make my own bread (aside from homemade biscuits and cornbread)
It was this or the pumpkin pie ๐
I may make my own pumpkin pie this season
Get a pumpkin
Carve that bitch out
I’m not buying meat anymore but I did buy some ancient grains and pumpkin seeds yesterday
Some have already gone in my homemade trail mix and I’m anticipating my pistachios and my cashews to arrive as I’m nearly out and was in a panic
The store yesterday was out of most things I needed
And the only milk they had was the milk with the red label and bacteria and I’m terrified to even open it but I will – I’m gonna get around to trying it
But I think I’m done with dairy after this
Milk was the only thing I got for this month, I didn’t get any cheese or yogurt
I’m gonna see how my gut does giving it a load of probiotics
But I’m learning dairy is terrible for hums…
And I had no idea they were walking and standing in lime or whatever it was
I’ve been seeing videos on TikTok and I’m just like “thank you for turning me vegan” and this is direct to farmers
“It doesn’t hurt the cow”
IT HURTS MY EYES TO SEE THO ๐
I’m gonna shrivel up into nothing ๐
I’m working on a new set soon!
Just need a day or two to recover from the madness ๐คช
I also have a doctors appointment on Thursday so I’m just in the mindset of getting shit done as the first week of the month is usually chaotic
My dog is driving me absolutely out of my mind but I cannot send them to the gas chamber
I was able to buy his special Vienna sausage today and he took his medicine without a problem because he’s stubborn as fuck and apparently he will only take his medication with these Vienna sausages now
He’s got a 50mg dose of Trazodone in him now so he’s knocked out
I learned that I don’t like shopping at Publix today and I had been avoiding it for several months because of the bullshit pricing that they have going on and how most of the food is poisoned and I’m trying to get away from the big chains and buy local produce
Gosh it ain’t easy
The farmers don’t make it easy…
I miss the days of people selling produce on the side of the street and not fearing buying it
I PLAN TO HIT UP SOME FARMER MARKETS NEXT MONTH
There are a few in New Smyrna Beach and surrounding areas
PROBABLY RICH YUPPIE PRICES
We’ll see…
They don’t make it easy for poor people to eat healthy
I’m sorry I’m so thin ๐
I am eating and working out ๐
I can’t participate in the slaughter of animals when 68% of all life has gone extinct
Humans had to adapt a gene to consume dairy
I’m in descension still
I woke up crying hard
Haven’t even had a coffee because I’m afraid to touch the milk… ๐
I gave up drinking coffee for awhile because I thought I could only drink coffee with sugar but then I learned that I could drink coffee without sugar and now I’m gonna have to maybe learn to drink it without milk too ๐คจ
I would like to try making my own almond milk
I don’t have my poor ass kitchen set up to be a dream kitchen
I recently got one glass pot from the thrift store and I’ve been cooking out of that bitch
I would like to go thrifting again for my kitchen makeover
I’ve been getting rid of everything that causes cancer or is plastic
The Teflon, the aluminum, the plastic
Switching to glass, stainless steel, and eventually hopefully copper too
I really want to start drinking my water out of copper
And at some point get away from plastic jugs and containers and invest in water filters
They are putting Covid in the fucking bathwater
I KID YOU NOT
Your skin will soak that shit up
The devil is everywhere in society, everywhere, in everything, he is there…
This is inspiring so thank you!! ๐
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I’ve already got an item or two in the Dolls Kill cart ๐คช
Got the bills paid, the groceries bought, I’m not alive just to pay the bills…
I was able to get my cabbage and nuts today!!!!!! It literally stopped me from crying.
Having a head of cabbage in the fridge
Gives me the happies ๐คช
The heart needs the red and blue thangs
Red cabbage, beats, wild blueberries (there’s more thangs that directly boost the heart)
Him: honey what do you need to be happy today
Me: a head of purple cabbage and rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes
And a kiss ๐คช
Me: what are you doing
Him: planting you a cabbage garden ๐
Not starving this month (even tho I’m thin af)
Be careful with adrenaline spikes that will crash your heart
That’s the ticket out if you’ve been vaccinated and triple boosted
IT AFFECTS PEOPLE OVER THE AGE OF 40 TOO
People of all ages are dropping dead and it’s not from the fucking sun
This just in: “fresh air now the rising cause of depression”
I crash landed and woke up so hard I don’t believe in alien propaganda anymore
People think robots have feelings and that you can get abducted by an alien
They probably injected a parasite in you too
The establishment is going to drop a bomb and call it Apophis
I drove to the health market down the road which was closed – maybe for the holiday – maybe always on Monday too
So I looked up another location and called and decided to drive to Port Orange
The sign read on the door huge sale!
Mega bullshite in fact…
But I was positive and hopeful to find some nuts as my stash is depleting and I was avoiding online shopping for them
This store does not have a cafe or outdoor seating and is a 20 minute drive away – one way
BUT THEY WERE OPEN FOR THE HOLIDAY AND THERE THE SIGN READ MEGA SALE
So I entered
And I begin putting things in a basket (which they do provide an actual basket that I overlooked and asked, “do you have a buggy or basket?”. Welp. Starring right at me. The real kind. Not plastic. Duh)
I asked about pricing as some things weren’t listed or were incorrectly placed
Now I’m on a budget but was a tiny bit flexible
I knew I needed to get produce and thangs they did not have
But, I opted to get the “raw milk” and farm eggs despite the pricing
Understanding that I’d get some sort of discount the Gen Z employee assured me…
The eggs weren’t much more than store
They were out of most nuts and seeds
But I’m trying thangs I never have before like these wheat berries (ancient grains I hope)
You just boil them and put them in a bowl
Maybe might make a good protein treat
Ginger is supposed to be ridiculously healthy and the bag was not expensive
I thought for the most part, aside from the big ticket items like the eggs and milk, that I was doing alright “mega sale” and all ๐
Got one bottle of this, I mostly drink water, milk, coffee, (hopefully tea again)
I gave up juice and soda detoxing
This has elderflower –
Anyhoo time came to check out
And I was confused by the total, maybe even shell shocked and asked, “you applied the discount”
But I didn’t think to check the receipt in the car, and waited until I got home to “inspect” the prices like I normally do (to see if I got the discount prices or whatever)
My stupid ass should have checked before I left town – as it was 3 bags only
Sometimes having a brain injury ptsd get home don’t die routine is costly BECAUSE
The nuts turned out to be nearly $18 for a few ounces
I nearly cried. Welp.
I just seen just now that the can of duck food that I thought I bought for my dog’s medicine was actually cat food…๐
Apparently I fucked the nuts and the one can of dog food – which is cat
Him: you spent how much on the nuts ๐
Seriously tho, don’t ever threaten divorce because I was gaslit
Those fucking nuts were $18 ๐
Anyhoo
I called the store and she said I could return the nuts tomorrow for a refund which means I’m gonna be driving a 40 mile round-trip which would likely use up all my gas money and gas tank
She stated the prices went up and they didn’t have them listed
Anyhoo. By very principle I cannot eat the nuts. I can buy 1.5 pounds of Pistachios for less than that and I can buy a pound of raw cashew nuts for less than that
So I’m going for a drive – tomorrow – humiliation factor and all
To return 9 ounces of dark chocolate almonds that I very badly want to consume – but not at that price ๐
And I have no idea if I’m supposed to put the wear and tear on my precious vehicle to get my $18 back but whatever
I don’t want my husband yelling at me for spending too much at the grocery store because they lied
Thank fuck I can get a refund but…
I’m gonna stick to local shopping only (and online until I can fully cut the cord)
Sex toys are meant to be sold at the adult stores, not at the fucking mall, and not at Walmart
Now I gotta waste my precious time and energy returning a tiny tub of nuts because the SIGN ON THE DOOR LIED
A second trip
I feel uneasy ๐ซ
It’s a hard lesson to learn
I tried to do so good and within my budget
I still gotta buy produce to get me through the month
More soup is planned
I just thought I could buy my nuts and seeds at a health food store this time instead of off of Amazon and Walmart
I went back for that second Moderna vaccine which nearly fucking killed me
That kid went back “one more time” and the riptide took him
2 recent cave divers nearby drowned when they went back a second time (came up, went back down)
I wish someone would have stopped me from going back for that second vaccine even though the first one injured me
“It’s safe”
“The CDC”
The numbers 777 appeared before me today
I have information channeling to me but I don’t know what to do with it
I’m trying to eat healthy and within budget
I’m tired of having to chase my tail because of the narcissism and gaslighting
Go get the refund? Don’t get the refund?
Go back a second time when I don’t wanna…
I knew that would be the last shopping trip at Peggy’s for me
Asking for a refund is humiliating ๐
Running around chasing my tail
I WANT MY OWN PLOT OF LAND WITH A CHICKEN OR TWO FOR EGGS
I want my neighbors to be the roosters and the croaking toads
Apparently spiders will take water from you
The animals need our help
WE ARE ANIMALS TOO
STOP GASLIGHTING
What was mega about that sale??????????
I NEED TO KNOW
๐
Angelic numbers keep following me. I don’t know what to do about the nuts. I’m returning the nuts.
“Researchers” are injecting OrganEx to revive dead pigs
ZERO ETHICS IN SCIENCE.
JUST REPLACE REINCARNATION WITH CLONING! THEY LOVE DIGGING UP THE DEAD!!!
It’s been going on thousands of years
Trying to reincarnate Ramses the great third fuck you I’m gonna fucking goddamn crush you
Sorry channel glitching ๐
Building an army of zombies
I’M SELLING MY TV AND MOVING TO THE JUNGLE
HUSBAND WANTED
I wasn’t allowed to imprint on a man at the age I wanted
RELIGION AND SOCIETY SHAMMED ME
Said I must wait until I’m 18 or married
GOD GAVE ME THE ABILITY TO START MAKING BABIES AT AT 13
YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO STOP ME FROM MY PURPOSE
NOW YOU CALL ME OLD AND SAY I HAVE NO WORTH
SOCIETY IS THE DEVIL BUT NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE SPREAD BY ASIA INDIA MEXICO
68% OF ALL LIFE HAS GONE EXTINCT
I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
I’VE TRIED SO HARD TO REMAIN PURE
NOT REMOVING MY SEX ORGANS FOR PLASTIC
NOT EATING BIRTH CONTROL
NOT DOING DIRTY COMPROMISING THINGS IN THE CHAT
MAN HAS CREATED HIS VERY OWN HELL IN WHICH HE MAKES ALL LIFE SUFFER FROM HIS HEAVY HAND
LIFE CAN HAVE MEANING BUT YOU STOLE IT FROM ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY
NOW CHINA HAVE “TOO MANY MEN”
They aren’t up to anything good digging up the dead
I’M SICK OF SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
ZERO ETHICS!!!!!!!!!
THEY HAVE NO SOUL OR REMORSE!!!!!!!
PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!
NEO TRINITY NEEDS HELP!!!!!!!
Don’t forget the scene when her heart goes down and don’t forget who you are
TURN OFF THE PROPAGANDA
CONNECT TO THE SOURCE
Find your purpose!!!
You have many!!!
It’s not watching hardcore desensitizing xxx porn any chance you
Sneaking around
BEING UNJUST
Your very own actions are destroying the world and everything you love
Porn is a distraction while they do the bad things ๐
We need to course correct
MAYDAY MAYDAY!!!!!
THIS IS OUR ONLY EARTH!!!!!!!!
WE CANNOT DESTROY WHERE WE SPAWNED TO GO TO MARS!!!! MAKE IT STOP!!!
We need to start protesting the spam mail coming into our mailboxes, the rainforest needs our help!!!!!!!!
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT!!!!!!
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m gonna go put a pot of coffee on and walk my dog and get a little rebound session in so I don’t jump off the fucking bridge
I just needed to channel that information out
My device was off
I recommend you turning your devices off and protecting your brain waves and your energy as much as you can
I have to venture out into the world and go buy supplies
I’m avoiding Walmart like a plague but may have to get some thangs there
Looking for local health shops but I’m on a budget
Stay strong y’all
WATCH YOUR BACK
When I got vaccinated, I climbed into the hole head first but then I went again despite getting injured the first time
I let them fucking talk me into it to getting the second one in which I nearly died
๐
There have been a lot of people dying lately and I think what I’m learning is when they go back the second time that’s their mistake – so pay attention to the moves you’re making when you’re on vacation or having fun or whatever it is you’re doing if you get a bad vibe about something and then you decide to go do it again it’s probably gonna be your ending
Don’t ignore the signs or uneasy feelings
WE DO HAVE A CREATOR
IT IS NOT ASIA (sorry)
I think they did something bad to him when he was visiting an exotic location
He’s lost
I’m here
Trying to reach him
You can’t confess all your sins to your priestess and then crucify her for your own actions
Dumb dumb
We imprinted on one another
I imprinted on you
That’s love
God is in love
God is imprinting
Stop the segregation!!!!!!
68% all life includes us!
Life has purpose!
You could have started your purpose when I was 13 ๐คช
By 15 I was absolutely miserable and ready but not allowed
PRISONER IN HELL
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My grandmother was married to my granddaddy at 15 years of age and they had 12 babies together and he was buried across the street from where they lived
I’m tired of the elder women stopping the younger pretty things from having a fucking life when they are young and capable
That does not mean monsters preying on children but that is what porn propaganda and the Bible program
They are selling sex toys in front of the children at Walmart and the mall and I don’t want to go to the mall anymore because I was exposed to sex toys while browsing for a hat so I don’t wanna go to Walmart either because someone told me they were selling sex toys there as well
Sex toys were always at the adult stores
STOP CONDITIONING THE CHILDREN TO BE SEX BOTS
I was not prepared to see triple X content when I was in the mindset of shopping for a fucking hat and all in child like mode at the mall wanting a cute outfit and pretzel
I got the pretzel and left the mall immediately and have never return since
I’m still shopping for my hat and will probably get one from dolls kill eventually if I can catch one on sale but the ones that I have found that I wanted sold out so fast that by the time I hit purchase they were gone lol
I’ve learned to put things in my favorites because they do restock and eventually maybe I’ll get what I want, like a husband ๐คช
I always defined a woman as someone who could carry a baby, as someone who bled between their legs and had periods- but then that would diminish the fact that when I stop bleeding that I’m no longer a woman and I don’t think that’s true either because I’m gonna wanna have sex past having babies age I’m sure of it…
The devil wants me to believe that I have no worth when my ability to create children ends while men get to continue the ability to have children up until they’re 80 but women only get it until they’re 50 and then they keep a huge portion of our good years away from us from having children by shaming us
I started having periods at age 13
I should’ve been popping them babies out at 15 like my grandmother
I should have imprinted on a husband and vice versa but porn makes a lot of money doesn’t it
I still have the ability to imprint on someone and vice versa
Got a therapy session incoming
I can’t run marathons anymore but I can at least get up with you and go on part of the hike
I’m still running from the devil with a wounded heart snd lung (soup is healing) (not from can) (nuts and spring water) (need nurturing and love)
(Thank you for your support in any capacity. It’s all healing me)
It was almost as if they were telling the gang to “back off”
If anything, there would be a witness
The dog wasn’t impressed and did not pee despite begging me to take him out
He hates living here as much as John Jones hates that fucking cave
SAME
Also can we stop attacking character and start attacking the propaganda that are uploading on us 24/7
You can’t change or cure addiction overnight
awe – it’s so nice to see the woke dudes
I block Tate content lol
The more I block something or hit the “not interested”, the algorithm will feed me more of the content I don’t want (gaslighting)
I’m starting to turn off the wifi and the data and phone when I sleep
If I knew the love of my life was going to call me or to text me, I probably wouldn’t mind having a Fitbit
It’s just espionage these days
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND PROTECTING YOUR BRAIN WAVES
Plus it sends a mass FUCK YOU call sign to the elite
MASSIVE
UNPLUG
They are trying to give you cancer with your phones and phones are putting out a lot more of it these days
I’m glad there’s still some people in Daytona Beach who got my back
And God from the heaven
I finally got a nap and was wondering why it was so quiet
Just the neighbs chilling outside
THANX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Needed the rest!
And before you tell me to move, my job was stolen from me with the government furloughs and hiring freezes and forced me to live somewhere which compromised my safety and allowed the cops to push their propaganda so the devil could have us self-destruct sooner or commit a crime
The suicide rate continues to rise among veterans
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
HIT IT HARD AND GO STRONG!
Don’t take any breaks!!!!!!!
Drink lots of water – spring water from the earth if you can and eat lots of nuts from the trees if your body allows you too because it’s healing me and get you some soup in and if you want chicken in it go for it but 68% of all life has gone extinct so just remember that when you’re consuming it
I think moderation is key but narcissism ensures we live in excess
The Bible clearly is spreading lies when it says the ocean is limitless with fish for us to eat
Over fishing has wiped out ocean life
That and the establishment continue to drop nuclear bombs everywhere on our precious earth space land sea
MORE TIMES THAN YOU KNOW
So the next time a whale washes up on the beach or people are going but why is the sealife dyingwe don’t know but the scientist say we don’t know – they fucking know – the scientist are destroying everything so that they can make everything artificial – they can turn everything artificial and make money from it and make you believe that they created this fucking hell
IT IS A LIE
WAKE UP NEO
DEBUG
And just because I’m paranoid doesn’t mean I’m not being followed….
I took the tip money and bought something nice! ๐ฅฐ
I took advantage of that labor day sale!
I scored the curtains for under $8!! I really wanted that set!! Cheaper than Walmarttoo and absolutely cuter (and gothy)
I got a Halloween costume from the new Halloween section on Dolls Kill for 80% off ๐
The curtains and the costume!! ๐๐๐
And a lace bodysuit (my first) โบ๏ธ
But that wasn’t all
BARGAIN HUNTER
Was able to pick up accessories like thigh high socks, jewelry, daddy cosplay attire, and other thangs
I spent the $3 extra for the 3-5 day delivery
They get your order out so much quicker
Or you can wait two weeks for them to mail your stuff out to you or pay the three dollars extra and they’ll get it mailed out to you within 3 to 5 days
I love the secret and flash sales! ๐คฉ
Stuff goes so quickly
I saw they had the valentine set back up and I was going to go ahead and get another set because it was $.96 and I thought what the fuck I haven’t received my first set but I’ll go ahead and get those and double it since they’re only $.96 and I’ll be damned if those bitches weren’t already sold out…
I really hope y’all let me mail you some snail mail
I’m excited to get that Mixed Messages card set, especially knowing how popular it is โบ๏ธ
But my set will be arriving any day, they already shipped
I got them for a good price but not under $1
I think the mixed messages would be fun to mail out for Halloween Thanksgiving Christmas and all the way up through Valentine’s so I’m not waiting months or however long it is
Hopefully somebody will let me mail them a card to their work or wherever!! ๐ฅฐ
Anyhoo
There’s enough to go around
Trying to send some despairing cheer
I got some Daddy cosplay stuff with the tip money ๐คช
Goth BB will be making a future appearance
Especially since spooky season is here
And I used that tip money to buy my Halloween costume from my favorite store!!!!! Thank you!!!
I’m buying size small which feels really weird because I have not been a small since I was probably 17
And this is my first time in my life ever buying lingerie
I don’t want to show you the costume, you just have to wait!!
It was originally $60 but I got it 80% off for their labor day sale + a mystery code!!! Extra bonus discount!!!!!!
I’d love to celebrate Halloween this year and go on a haunted hayride but I’d get kidnapped especially in that costume
I have guys who follow me out to my vehicle in my little shorts with no make up on and I don’t have a fucking filter on when I walk outside
It’s dangerous where I live especially for a gal like me
He was scanning the parking lot…
His truck was big…
Anyhoo
Maybe I’ll just stay home and take photos for you ๐คช
I’m excited!!!
I have a Halloween costume and I really wanna show you the daddy cosplay stuff but I can’t, I can’t show you yet, I can’t fucking show you yet
I’m not dropping anything about it in my story
Sorry
Halloween feels like Christmas
And BB wants to look cute for you
Maybe a lethal doll
DOLLS KILL (let the neighbors know)
๐
Should I show you?
I really wanna show you ๐คช
Well I got the curtains and you know the curtains I wanted to get and I do think I got a good deal for them and everybody needs fucking curtains
I have no curtains in my apartment
I’ve lived here for five years without any fucking curtains, if anybody is giving me shit for spending less than eight dollars for some fucking curtains right now, you just need to go away with your negative energy, these are for my master bedroom privacy
I made a tip and I spent it
I invested it in myself and my art and mental health
WITH YOU IN MIND
You inspire me
And I got the rent paid
I still need to go grocery shopping so I didn’t spend that much money over there and again I used my tip money
I’m not gonna stop sharing my life experience just because I’m over there working now
God wants me to have a husband
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect him
I don’t have a man but you know I’m out here, I’m out here doing the hard work for him to fucking destroy my self-esteem and tell me I have no value
I would have married him at 12…
He tells me his secrets then punishes me ๐
He hasn’t spoke to me in weeks ๐
He’s got another girl ๐
She probably does dirty things for him ๐
He makes me regret being born ๐
But ordered my first bodysuit and the regret is less
Plus my first proper Halloween costume in years
God said it was OK if I spent my tip money on myself
GOD LOVES MY IMAGINATION
And the child in me was not compromised or tainted
God says I’m special, not broken
And all the things I feel are part of being human
There’s good nature and bad nature
Sometimes we make mistakes but when you acknowledge something that doesn’t suit your soul purpose and you stop doing those things, that makes you human not a demon
Waking up was part of my journey and it has taken me so long…
Can’t quit now
The Devil trying hard to get me…
But he can’t have me and I got a cute Halloween costume to mock him instead ๐
Halloween is my favorite season I think
I’m pretty certain I was burned at the stake in a past life
Also, there are ways in which I never want to die
“Haven’t you died 12,000 ways”
“I ain’t going that way, the answer is still no…”
Prime example:
Nope. Leaving that convo between me and God
Ain’t putting it in the ether…
FLORIDA IS KNOWN FOR THEM THO
Fuck it
SINKHOLE
The earth just opens up and swallows you
This guy was in his bed sleeping or jerking off and it was the only place in his entire house that went under and now that whole area is condemned with a fucking piece of plastic do not enter tape line
My fears about dying are starting to get irrational and I already have a therapist so I need a husband…
I got some thigh high socks to combat the fears
That red satin bow set was my first
And now I’ve got another set incoming soon
All these years and never wore socks over the knees and now I don’t wanna stop
I love you ๐
I wanna dress cute for you
Deadly but cute
DANGER CANDY LIKE THE SHROOMS
Sometimes good, sometimes bad ๐คช
I just need a husband to sort me
But I’m absolutely grateful for your viewership
You keep me going
The tip did not go for something bad (like alcohol or gambling)
I’ve never had a makeover in my life!!!!!!!
I’m glad I can share it with you
xoxo
(Could you let him know I need him)
I CAN’T BREATHE WITHOUT HIM
He released feel good hormones when I was dying
That’s why John wanted one more phone call
But he was denied ๐
He lost all hope ๐
But I’m not gonna jump from the bridge because I’ve got shit coming but the gang is out and about and they’re probably going to taunt me again tonight so I probably won’t get any fucking sleep tonight either
Where the fuck can I ride my bike with my LED lights and not feel like I’m gonna get murdered???
CUZ THE BIRTHDAY LED SETS ARE ON THE WAY
I even got a wall butterfly!!!!!!!!!!!! LED!!
And I’m gonna burn this grey shower curtain from Walmart
Or put a bunch of old oversized clothes in it and roll it up and make it look like a body and toss some of my cosplay blood on it and take it to the dump as the kids are off to school
I don’t think it’s normal to be having these ideas or laughing the way I do ๐คจ
I just let the entire medicinal shop know that the Daytona Beach gang was after me but that the universe was speaking to me right now with this song and that y’all are the dumbest criminals ever
THEY WERE ALL SMILING
And then I started feeding off of that energy and bouncing up and down
THE STAFF WAS SMILING
I even said I was going to do a TikTok video with this song dedicated to you
I stated that
YOU WILL NEED A RESTRAINING ORDER TO STOP ME
Cause-and-effect
HAVE FUN
And I’m already skipping up and down the sidewalk with this playing on repeat
Just checking my mail skipping
Just taking my dog for a pee
Minding my own business
I hope the gaslighting is working
The vehicles have mirrors
I can hear you breathe
GET OFF MY DICK
๐
*skips*
*smiles*
*song on repeat any time I leave the house*
The devil has an invite to bust my fucking door down I double fucking triple dare you to fucking bust my goddamn doors down bust my fucking doors down cross my motherfucking shadow do it fucking do it you little fucking piss ants that will never amount to anything and you’re never coming to heaven with me I fucking dare you to fucking cross my shadow
IT’S THE END OF THE WORLD AND I FEEL FINE
Let the love of my life know I’m nearly healed
I might let him near me in the future for a hug
I threw a glass Coke bottle at his head once a long time ago but I knew he wasn’t gonna move so I put a slight spin on the bottle right at the very end
MIGHT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR SOME OF THOSE THINGS HAPPENING
“But what’s really going to boggle your noodle later is, would you have still broken it if I hadn’t of said anything…?”
I’ve been spending a lot of time detoxing and purging the devil from my system not watching TV or propaganda except for the shit that I see when I do open up the newsfeed regretfully on Instagram or TikTok
I want to spend more time looking at things that other people do but the invasive ads that cause brain damage and probably do have subliminal messaging in it because I learned in college is a scam that they are using subliminal messaging
I’m ready to have the Internet removed from my home
There is a lot of cancer being exposed from these phones
I’M TRYING TO REACH YOU
THE SOURCE WANTS YOU TO WIN
The Devil already lost and you’re on the wrong side
Final warning
(Iraq is where the Devil fell)
(I lived inside foxholes during war freezing with my m16 praying for the sun to rise and looking at the salt lines)
Iraq once was underwater, 3 times to my count
I know I told you to be still but don’t get too settled
I told you things were going to get harder
Apophis is closer
If I’m only living to 50, according to my very own calculations, I have six years remaining or less
John Jones had a favor
He used it on me
I am not taking for granted the second chance at life he is giving me
His life was not in vain
I will honor him by living mine as clean and honest as I can
But I cuss, I have stretch marks, I’m not a fucking virgin…
Sometimes I’m so aware about how insane they have made me that I go into these laughing spells but it feels so much better having the laughing spells than it does going into a fit of dark madness where I want to take out the city block so laughing definitely does feel closer to my purpose ๐คช
I’m not allowed to use blood cosplay makeup (can on Patreon tho and I’m considering thangs but don’t wanna be stuck producing one type of content only)
NOT A ONE TRICK PONY
I’m barefoot (socks) with a Bayonet
The army trained me how to gut another human being – one shot one kill – in every way imaginable and possible
I played with big toys
Threw real grenades
This motherfucking Daytona Beach gang is making me remember deep down in my core what a little fucking warrior I am and how badly I want someone to cross my shadow so I can practice the second amendment that I fought for ๐
I was little so the army trained me to take out groups or to work alone
The stars are out and I’m writing poetry while I’m outside and I’m actively anticipating my cute little things to arrive from dolls kill so I can make the inside of my jail cell a little bit better but I’m going to be spending a lot more time getting fresh air and looking in the eyes of every neighbor that comes and goes while I sip my fucking coffee
And smile…
Smiling and fresh air ain’t illegal yet
I don’t live in fear
I am the fear
God made me brutal
“The Soldier above all prays for peace…”
You don’t know the ways in which I suffer and these motherfuckers are bred to hate
I told my neighbor NO he couldn’t live with me for three months when him and his girlfriend broke up and then he blew out the back of my jeep window and I’ve been getting harassed by the Daytona Beach gang ever fucking since because they want me to leave my apartment I guess so they can sell dope to somebody here
They get their children involved in the harassment
I have videos and evidence of everything
It’s not in my head… ๏ฟผ
And it cost me nearly $300 to repair the back of my fucking window he blew out which they knew I would not be able to cover with my goddamn insurance that I paid full coverage on
*sips coffee*
I’m fine honest
But if I wind up on the top o’clock news it’s not a fucking hate crime – at least not from me – don’t you fucking believe the gaslighting propaganda lies
THE GOD DAMN DEVIL
I CAN HEAR HIM BREATHE WHEN HE SLEEPS
I’m not only a danger to disgoddamn establishment but to the Daytona Beach fucking gang
Just an FYI if I wind up in a swamp
I will get me a head or two before I leave this fucking hell LEGALLY
MARK MY WORDS
*must contact OF to inquire about weapon policy*
Me in some cute lingerie + my bayonet ๐คฉ
See, photography and defense and offense is the core of my nature
THE CORE
I’d love to not be in my masculine roll but I am walking around barefoot with my fucking weapons
I can fire bullets in the dark
Or wearing night vision goggles
Or a gas mask
Not only that, I can cock my weapon sideways wear a gas mask and get the best shot out of the entire fucking unit
GET OFF MY DICK
YOU’VE BEEN WARNED
YOUR CHILDREN FEAR ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE
I CANNOT BE SOMETHING I CAME FROM (darkness)
GOD LOVES ME I ASSURE YOU EVEN THOUGH HE KNOWS I DOUBT
I’m trained to take out the children, the Army trained me to take out the fucking children, the army trained me that the children are the threat
“Don’t let them get close to your vehicle”
Apply that to YOURSELF
The CDC said children were spreading the COVID virus and then my sister caught covid from her kid and died
And I’ll probably never stand more than 10 feet in front of my child ever again
My competition mostly at age 44 still ovulating – is a bunch of obese confused girls sex bots who probably removed their ability to have children
And if they haven’t yet, they will in their 30s, Hallelujah!!!!
YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING THAT THE MEN WANT AND DESIRE
AND IF NOT, YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING GOD WANTS AND DESIRES
DON’T LEAP FROM THE BRIDGE YET BABE
COLLEGE IS A SCAM
IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT YOU WERE SEXUALLY MOLESTED
YOU STILL HAVE WORTH WITH DEBT AND SAGGY BOOBS!!!!!
I GOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP OPENING YOUR EYES AND REACHING FOR THE PHONE
SOCIETY IS TOXIC
YOU HAVE WORTH BABY GIRL
I’M SORRY THESE DEMONS KNOW NO BOUNDS
I KNOW IT HURTS
YOU’RE RIGHT TO BE PISSED
BABE 144!!!!
“I see dead people”
They’re everywhere!!!!
LOST SOULS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
THE WORLD TODAY IS PLAGUED BY PARASITES
If you’d like to not be obese black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not be dying of cancer black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not have IBS black walnut wormwood if you’d like to live a little bit longer black walnut wormwood
How long before it’s taken off the market because I told my fucking enemy the big secret magic ingredient to this shit and he wrote it down, he wrote it fucking down, he wrote it down! I blogged about it immediately cuz the entire hour session he didn’t fucking write anything down until those three words came out! he didn’t give a fuck about the other detox medication, it was only those three words he wrote down
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
WORTH OBSERVING AND NOTING
I OBSERVE EVERYTHING
And if I’m angry over the insensitive conditioning these faggot boys are doing
Maybe God is too
JUDGMENT HOUR IS HERE
GUESS WHOSE EYES HAVE SOME FUCKING WORTH
“But we like virgins”
I’M GONNA RIP YOUR PENSIS OFF
*goes back to sleep*
I HATE TIKTOK AND INSTAGRAM
I’M ONLY THERE FOR YOU
I DON’T KNOW HOW ELSE TO REACH YOU
The reason I’ve been confused on whether you should get right with God or me because same ๐
And yep he can strike me dead any moment
I AM ONLY A VESSEL
*goes back to delusions and sleep*
I’m gonna burn it all down
Apophis is coming
We can’t leave earth
The establishment are scared๏ฟผ
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF CUZ MONEY IS NARCISSISM IS A MANMADE DEVIL SOCIEY DOGMA
Sorry
Channeling ๐
*breathes on window, draws weird symbol*
I DON’T KNOW WHAT ANYTHING MEANS
THE GREAT FILTER IS REAL
THE SUN IS ELECTRICAL
WE LIVE ON A WATER WORLD
No one ever said, “maybe earth was icy and smashed into other objects (uranus) pushing it closer to the sun and thus life”
It’s the demon neighbors don’t chill out with making all this unnecessary goddamn noise
Oh, they are working in groups to rob single women, elderly, and disabled
These motherfuckers won’t hesitate to shoot me in my back to steal my bike
COPS ARE DOING THEIR JOB SPREADING PROPAGANDA
DON’T BE FOOLED BY THE CROCODILE TEARS
ASIAN DICTATORS IN UNIFORM
That black guy was worried about getting caught with his weapon when his life was ending
I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR
I WILL SKIN ME A HEAD OR TWO
SHOW ME HOW MUCH I DO NOT MATTER
You love your virgin mentality so much that 68% of the species has gone extinct so fuck your goddamn propaganda ideology fuck you fuck you fuck you
It’s conditioning these other monsters to “ruin us” and sacrifice us to the dark entity early on
I CAN’T IMPRINT ON THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL CANNOT IMPRINT ON ME
FUCK YOU
We are organic computers and if the government doesn’t get their toxic shit together there’s going to be dire consequences
DIRE
THE SEVENTH SEAL IS OPEN
(There’s nowhere safe for me online social media wise. It’s so toxic for an angel) ๐
People think people just stand in front of a camera and that’s it, like no, that’s not it, there’s a lot of posing, camera work involved, lighting, makeup, costume, location/scene/mood. Post editing.
Pretty bias exists
“She has it easy”
This is WORK and it comes from WITHIN and it requires ENERGY to produce content worthy of your TIME
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect my future husband
People try to shame me for my content because it is taboo ๐คจ
My grandmother was married and having babies at age 15
SOCIETY STOPPED ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY
I LIKE MAKING PHOTOGRAPHY AND DISCOVERING WHO I AM AS A FEMALE AND NOT A MALE SOLDIER
I’m tired of being in my masculine
I’ll never give up the combat boots or training
But that doesn’t mean you get to shame me out of femininity
And I’ll be able to feed the potential future hubby various versions of soup
No cabbage this time but added a couple handfuls of dry split peas
More rainbow carrots (grateful for the birthday donations, feeding my belly)
Lots of organic spices and a shit ton of the good salt!
A BIG potato
And I know I don’t have a fancy kitchen but I want to be able to cook soup out in the fucking forest over a campfire ๐
I even added lots of peppers and fresh would have been better!
The stew even got a thing of spring water!!
But, not for the rich emancipated kid who gutted me in my heart
He wounded my spirit when he said he wouldn’t eat from my kitchen and if I was offended with it, it was my fault ๐
He treats me the way others treated Mary Magdalene ๐
God said if he doesn’t get his shit together he won’t be invited into the heavens ๐
IT’S AMAZING ๐คฉ
My future husband must like soup a lot!!!
๐
I just picked up another bottle of detox and got my large dose in!
The world is plagued by parasites, don’t be ashamed
History repeats itself because they make money from gaslighting our health issues and laugh about us chasing our tails while feeding us nothing but poison then saying, “stupid Americans”
74 drops once daily currently for me
Well that rich emancipated kid can eat his cold ass pizza from that box with his cold ass heart while 60% of the fucking species go extinct over commercial farming and that fucking cheese he’s eating…
I’M OFFENDED
But the belly is full
And there’s maybe one bowl left after simmering the witches stew for hours! ๐คช
But I’ll be getting a rebound session in soon!
I gotta be careful tho
I’m ready for the booty to start returning
I still have muscle to work with all over
But I’ve shed over 18+ pounds in 5 months detoxing
It does take time to rebuild
You can’t expect results overnight
I do not live in the gym
I have a heart and lung injury from the death jab ๐คจ
I can’t expect the potential future husband to be using me as motivation to push him to run a fucking marathon
I get up before sunrise
Make coffee
And try not to leap from a bridge…
It would be nice if I could get out of my masculine role
If the poles could reverse
And he’d be less of an emancipated little bitch…
With that said, he’s gonna be left in the dust
I won’t be parking my mind on him when I’m connected and imprinting on someone else
LOYALTY IS EVERYTHING
It’s all real tho (petite doll)
I’m only getting married once…
Yes please ๐คช
I can’t wait for my little butterfly LED light to arrive from Dolls Kill (and the new bedsheets and bathroom set)
On the way ๐ฅฐ
Healing. Detoxing. Rebounding. Making over. Doing the hard work.
The mess does not reflect the effort
There are more things to organize and let go
Sometimes I’m just happy I’m making it another day
I’ve been asleep for so long…
After 44 years at it alone, I’d be so grateful for just a decade with a partner to not do it alone.
Things don’t have to be like they’ve been
“You’ve been down that road, Neo. You know where it goes…”
Life is in the journey, not the destination
Don’t get stuck…
Need more skirt thangs (size small tho as I’m petite now)
Thank you to everyone who shows me positive support, you are keeping me alive!!! โค๏ธ
There are sometimes people who make fun of me for being poor or try to shame me and Chris Cornell’s mother still follows me and watches my stories and sometimes she comments and she never shames me
People in Europe show skin and it is not a big deal to them
I don’t know why people want to body shame you or shame you for your financial status, it’s not like I fucking chose to jump into a government hiring freeze or government furlough ๐
I’m doing the best I can
My partner will never make me cum if he makes me fear the very ground I walk on ๐
I’ve broken into too many pieces to collect And sin he is buried up to his neck
A demon ran past his curfew Patience is a virtue Hard work is what I do Truth is taboo
I misinterpret perception The book of hope is deception Misguided direction Waiting for insurrection
I know I’m headstrong I read the data wrong Hang head low on throne “144” on the headstone
I’m tired of the overrule Narcissism How they always ridicule
The banks block the poor from spending hard money earned Well if you transfer this or transfer that They’ll track every move you got And God forbid you have extra dough You’ll be met with a spending limit yah know!!!
Raw + edited photos on the new OnlyFans! I’m still on the leaderboard! ๐ฅฐ
I dropped a new set last night and I am utilizing the “Story and Hightlight” features as I got/still get penalized a lot by Mark Zuckerberg and at least now I have a safety zone to do drops!
I have lost so much weight from detoxing and my little skirt is a medium and I clearly need a size small now (which is fine) but I was panicked and freaking out because I wanted my hair down and I didn’t do my pigtails and blah blah blah – I can always find a reason why the set could have been better but I received my first tip ๐คฉ
So I stopped beating myself up
I’m getting a rebound session in soon but I want my morning coffee first today
Yep
I drink water all freaking day and all night, let me have a fucking coffee OK, I’m 5 pounds, I’m gonna have a fucking coffee before I work out
I know that sounds different from what people do but I’m doing things different down here in this timeline
I’m so annoyed that somewhere in the world right now the year is seven years back and I want to jump into that fucking timeline and have a baby
My clock is ticking and I keep asking it to chill the fuck out but it is in overdrive ๐คช
I don’t want anyone hurting any children
But I started my period at 13 and I should’ve been allowed to get married by 15 and have 12 babies with my husband the way my grandmother did with hers
Immigration absolutely has been a Trojan horse and I’m fucking horny, deal with it
I’m not out there doing anything to disrespect my potential future husband though and if he’s worried about me stripping to pay my bills or to keep a roof over my head, then he’s too vanilla for me
As far as I’m concerned, the OF is as good as therapy
I get to express my art and not get penalized by the dictatorship out there
They did steal 20% of my tip tho ๐
I AM SO GRATEFUL I GOT A TIP AT ALL
But there will probably be a poem in the future about how the establishment is stealing the tip money of its hard workers
AND I ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHY EDGAR ALL POE DIED
HE NEEDED TO DEBUG
Like apparently the entire population
I already got a load of dishes washing
About to get a coffee going
RELAX
REBOUND
REPEAT
I’m anxious for my LED bike lights to arrive so I’ll probably pump up the tires and make sure everything’s good to go
THE SUMMER HEAT IS NOT GONE
But early morning and late evening bike rides are about to start
You definitely need lights riding in the city and bright colors sometimes isn’t even enough because I’ve been out several times in bright colors and still have almost been ran over several times with one person coming back to acknowledge it and saying “that was really close”
And I was just like “it was my turn” ๐
I’m gonna try leaving the lions den again
It ain’t safe in any capacity
Which is why I am actively boxing and packing mostly the entire rest of my house and trying to get the master bedroom, closet, and bathroom together, so at least have a little apartment area to not go mad
GILLED AND WITH TEETH. PHOTO BY ME FROM THIS VERY AM. ๐คจ
A DISH SERVED COLD ๐คจ
DANGER SHROOMS POTENTIALLY BEWARE (all photography by @poeeternal)
Thank you so much for supporting my content or reading my blog or just being a positive influence in my life overall because I know that I’m toxic and I’m working on that
PoeEternal 