There are dangers of pornography that ensnare people every day. Knowing those dangers will help us avoid its devastating consequences.
— Read on www.allprodad.com/4-dangers-of-pornography/
Kids are gone in America. Little demons.
3 Reasons Why Watching Porn Is Harmful (And Research Is Proving It)
Just like it took decades for science to prove that smoking cigarettes was harmful, we are learning a similar lesson with porn in our society today. Science and research are proving that porn harms…
— Read on fightthenewdrug.medium.com/3-reasons-why-watching-porn-is-harmful-and-research-is-proving-it-bc572b1b0abf
The elite are building a society of psychopaths and narcissists period. They serve Satan, Black Holes, Dark suns, worlds, darkness in general, they are demented demons without a soul. They are nihilistic at their core.
*sigh* (journal log)
I went and got some medicinal
After several days of cold cutting
And zero sleepz in the nightz
I caved
Got 1 vape the size of Texas, a 10 pack of indica blueberry edibles, and 7g worth of “premium ground”
Back home – hit the pen twice – feel the happies
I arrived “can you check my pen, I don’t know if it’s charging/working or in my head”
Gave myself 3 options tho
1. Cold cut quit (aggressive)
2. Not renew my state license in April – ween myself – slow quit
3. Not quit – pay the ridiculous fees – to maintain
4. Vote for recreational (nope, you’ll have to cut my dick off before I ever get out again and vote)
Look where voting for medicinal got me: an addiction
Prior to the government getting involved, weed never gave me no kind of addiction
Unless you count the feel goods
I’m literally more motivated on it
Suddenly, with my new flock of bird neighbors – and the medicinal two toke hit after several days none, I feel like I could clean up the slums
There’s a Gold’s Gym down the road – could like join
I’ll have to disassociate from dudes watching me
I think the guy at the shop is into me
Not sure how I wound up with six bucks back but took my buck and he was like “you got another five”
I only took X amount of cash in to avoid overspending
But between the 50% off deals + another military discount + more cash back than I had calculated, I’m square
Paid like 40 bucks or something
Also, the blueberry eddies are 10mg pieces, so I’ll be eating one with my dinner / evening bath
Not smoking to disassociate, just to function :p
I’m at a crossroads in my life
I decided to throw everything overboard!
I may jump!
Not to die!
To jump ship!
It’s terribly hard being autistic and suicidal: “how yah doing today”
“I ain’t looking for a bridge to leap, and the sun is out!”
Politically probably not correct but honest to the core
The other customer was listening to me order and him give me all kinds of recommendations lol
“I haven’t slept in 3 days and sometimes I just need a sativa”
I think he pretty much ordered everything – I went in as a walk-in
But he seems keen to service me
And she was like “sorry for listening” lol
But I was trying to hurry cuz others arrived and I even offered to get out of line – anyhoo – he listened to what I needed – his suggestions were good – including where I could buy a decent pipe to smoke the flower, cuz the shop I went to sold me a non working glass pipe – and I love wasting my money
Right now I got rice papers from the medicinal shop – and those were tricky to learn – but they are slow burning – and aren’t as strong (very smooth paper but probably poisoned)
Like I registered to vote for recreational a couple months back – but that was before my meltdown
I’m having a midlife crisis
Right now I’m sitting on clean linen and thinking I might could manage this dump a bit longer – if it means land for me in the future
If I were to renew, I’d want fresh paint and carpet.
I mean, the apartment is nearly empty and I’d pay them an extra $200 to lay some fresh paint
(The carpet would need to be a free replacement as part of the renewal agreement – especially as long as I’ve been here – and the COVID pandemic)
This isn’t a good time to be homeless
People aren’t returning emails or phone calls about places I wanna live
And “Astoria” was a big mistake
I don’t want anywhere near this county or HollyWood
I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m going to do
I have a very busy day doing real world stuff
I hate real world and would rather disassociate
Because people are involved
And I have to be civil
I identify as Angelic and this is spiritual warfare
I’m like fight mode 24/7
The birds moved near me
It’s changing me
I don’t disassociate making content and I wanna get in the headspace to get back at it
I’ve been self-loathing
But also working out – I wanna get the peach in shape
The boobs need a little weight
Half my kitchen was donated or trashed
Some is packed – it might get trashed too
Pantry is empty
Everything is on the table remaining
The lease is up in April
There’s been no invite to renew yet nor have I given any 60 day warning
Don’t know what month to month rent would cost (like if I needed an extra 2 or 3 months to find my new home) (and stay without a 12 month lease) (if they still do that the costs go up)
I don’t want to be homeless dying
My bathtub is good enough
As far as rebuilding my financial wealth – I’m working on it
The little cushion I have, doesn’t go far in a 40% inflated economy – realistically – and per research
If I could get to a gym – and get outside these walls
I’m just re-inventing myself – even if to start fresh
I need a sterilized and stable foundation
I prayed to God “I need to be closer to Pretty Bird” and he sent me a flock
Swear to fuck
Clean bed sheets tonight
Weed
I have to be careful with this new age shit, it can trigger my ptsd and suicidal ideation
Sometimes you need to take a break and let other people order for you
I don’t really want folks offing themselves – I say terrible things – I’ve slept with the devil
God knows I sinned
I tell him often I’m not worth anything – while begging “don’t let me die here”
It’s complicated
I’m hungry
Food is good
I have leftover soup and bread
I’m trying to find my place in this world – and balance
I’m a Soldier, I like working out – but now I do things differently since I’m at risk of ASDS
So proud of myself for finally reaching my ten minute rebound goals this week
And then 20… 🙂
I’m glad people notice my efforts in the real world – I’m sensitive about my skin scars and stretchmarks tho
Don’t mind my giggly boobs but they need some foods (been ill but also working out and detoxed too)
Got down to 110 in fact, now putting the weight back on
Was 112 last at the VA (will check soon)
Been several weeks tho and I’ve been rebounding most of January 🙂
I’m starting to see thick in the front – like the quad maybe or thigh area
My leg muscles are forming more and tight
My stomach is pretty flat but could be better
I want more tattoos 🙂
Would help make the new me 🙂
Something feminine and cliche
Flowers
Wouldn’t mind some tasteful flowers on my hip area but I gotta find a real artist
I don’t want to decide what will look good on me and the exact spot
Like bro, do your fucking job
I need to hire a decorator for my new lifestyle
I’m a Soldier and poet
I know war and I know words (terribly)
These days it’s the algorithm fucking me up 95% of the time
I miss being a Soldier
I miss my comrades
Gift giving is the heart of tribal union – exchanging gifts. Now I know why I do this.
It’s not my fault others think it’s “too much” or never return anything. I wasn’t in it for returns.
I give because I want to
It’s tribal
I have the eldest and rarest bloodtype – with only 6-11% of the population having it
Part of the 240k woke too
I’m kinda in a cult aren’t I
Hungrz
Must eat!
Value (micropoetry)
‘Girlfriend experience’ and ‘porn star experience’ – the facts vs the myths.
Seeing a sex worker for the first time is one of life’s greatest thrills. But it comes with a bit of a learning curve. If this is a recent hobby, you may have noticed two of the most common phrases in the escort industry: ‘girlfriend experience’ (GFE) and ‘porn star experience’ (PSE).
— Read on tryst.link/blog/girlfriend-experience-and-porn-star-experience-the-facts-vs-the-myths/amp/
“Life’s greatest thrills” huh!
Regular women should stop having sex with men. Let them pay for it forever more, the fantasy! They’re so bored with us anyway. They don’t want sensual sex. That isn’t what the porn industry conditions them to do, nor the prostitutes.
And it states right here, “porn isn’t real. Big dicks and endless sex isn’t real”. “You have to treat your PSE professionally”
Meanwhile the divorce rate is over 85%
I feel I was left behind sexually.
The only justice is knowing these prostitutes are actually miserable and disassociating while performing sex work. It’s fake fantasy. Delusions of grandeur. Unrealistic.
But the money is under the table and tax free and many men go during “working hours”
So I’m no longer looking at man in the real world – in any capacity
They won’t stop looking at me tho
Big Porn & prostitution (not opinion, FACT)
They’re in-love with the porn stars and prostitutes (according to scientific studies)
Except, it’s not real.
The prostitutes – according to studies – create alternative personas while doing sex work – causes negative mental health – and men do not need to be tested for STD or STI – even though they are the silent carriers – often without any signs or symptoms – which can lay dormant for years – and parasites and cancer can be spread from semem, as well as simple skin-to-skin contact.
I’ve shared every study backing this up.
The prostitutes “rub their back” before doing sex work – and they do not use the same style to connect in their personal lives – they make up personas to get through the sex work – many were abused as children, forced into sex work.
Prostitution is a direct link to sex trafficking – making prostitution legal creates MORE human trafficking – which they now have undeniable proof of.
Many countries have made prostitution legal, while other countries have made it illegal but still sell sex via entertainment – creating street hookers, violence, and other negative social impacts. The doors to America remain open for sex trafficking.
Furthermore, the divorce rate is over 85%.
Prostitutes do not “enjoy” their line of work – disassociating from what they do – separating personal life from work – over 75% remain “single” and “would never marry the men they service” – even though they program them to love them (some maintaining sex relations with “repeat customers for years”)
And the fact that they can’t fall in love or show signs – makes it more exciting to them
They walk in with their dicks hard and ballsack full – ready to shoot them their biggest load
These prostitutes don’t even like the line of work
Porn and prostitution is creating monsters in a soulless society
Women and children at home – suffer extreme abuse
Porn isn’t real – it’s fantasy football. It’s soap operas in the nude on repeat. Porn stars fucking themselves in the ass with a wine bottle for decades – then taking a drink
Same story over and over
And the men get hooked as CHILDREN – many get into porn and prostitution by their own fathers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They have brain rot! Their primal side of the brain is activated – hence all the crime!!!!!!!!!
It’s the devil!
They’re selling sex toys at the mall and Walmart, CVS, Walgreens, Dolls Kill, and many more! It’s not behind a curtain!!!
It’s a society of sickness
Our very foundation is built on a sin and lie
All so men can go to war in exotic lands and experience exotic women – while the wives are at home
It’s turned into a well-oiled beast
It’s demon vs human down here (likely opinion but I identify as Angel Baby)
They say in the press that “narcissism is rare” but it’s actually a plague
They say psychopaths “are born” but a “narcissist is made”
Yeah, and it starts in the Bible (narcissism is throughout), with porn and prostitution
Big government is to blame
“The sins of the father”
Apparently you will experience 3 deaths: one when you die, the second when you are buried, and third and finally, the last time your name is ever said.
I’ll probably wind back in “Misery” because there’s only one person I want to see me dead – or bury me.
So if I wind up in his yard half-alive, it won’t be long. I will likely be nude – like our dear Edgar, to keep with tradition
Don’t make fun of my emaciated frame
You don’t know what holes I crawled out to get here
I was reaching depth blackout – but I am slowly retreating – and repenting these days – I think that’s what the holes in the wall mean – repentance and awakening
God put me down here on this earth to judge you
Taking my freedom of speech – silencing me from atrocities – will not stop me from truthmonging
But I’m still a woman with needs unmet, with a private strip club, where the devil is kept (poetry)
LAUGHS
Apparently it’s not a good time to move but I feel I will die if I stay here (it’s not just a “feeling”, there are many red flags)
90% of all homicide happen by men (verifiable)
Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct (verifiable)
We are in a 6th mass extinction (verifiable) (over never ending porn, prostitution, sex trafficking over 6000 years)
The leaders running things serve Luci
Apparently I was right about the enemy in the White House because the females are upset the law was changed (mostly voted in by men) – that they cannot show their shoulders
LAUGHS
They kept fucking with the female Soldiers changing the regulations telling us how to wear our hair, nails, makeup. I got out.
It was already strict when I swore my life to “America and our way of life” – which has been completely destroyed by immigration
Had no idea the waters I was swimming in
I had no idea the seabed could drag you down due to gravity – and with the pressure of the ocean above – you sink quickly
They are turning Florida into Dubai – but FL is limestone – and sinking – so not a good idea
The floods, the condos collapsing, I ain’t all talk
You have to turn it off if you want to change
I know you think you want how you are – but I don’t buy it
You have to remove predictive programming
I never said it was easy
I’m done supporting toxic masculinity society
I just still have hope I might get through to someone – who might change for the better
As far as the hypocrisy of doing nude art, I’m not compromising my soul, I find it therapeutic, I’m not disassociating to make photography or poetry
At the moment I’m overcoming dying and a major illness – heart inflammation and depression
I’m barely working or putting out content unless you count my blog work – and WordPress says I’m on a 19 day streak or something
I’m also in the middle of getting rid of everything I own – either in an attempt to save my life or end it
The odds are set
I’m just awaiting the verdict
And if I’m gonna be “responsive or reactive”
Don’t judge me
That’s my job, that’s what God put me here to do (potentially)
In the court room: “because God ordered me to do it”
The only thing God should be ordering you to do, is “tender mercy” (tho I’m not obliged to be telling him what you outta do)
God can hear me cursing outside his church
I live in hell…
But it’s what men want…
catwinternational.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Ten-Reasons-for-NOT-Legalizing-Prostitution.pdf
Prostitution is a root cause of sex trafficking, but it’s what men want…
They want us living in fear, not just Black Lives Matter.
Yesterday I was having chest pains and no weed but today some birds moved in next to me and I got a nap
The sun is finally out 
Why Do Men Buy Sex? – Scientific American
They form attachments and bonds
— Read on www.scientificamerican.com/article/why-do-men-buy-sex-2012-10-23/
I’m no longer available as a girlfriend or a wife
Yellow Fever (poetry)
I’m not Asian. I’m not a 10. I’m over 29. I’m God’s orphan.
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
They bleach their skin. Cuz Black Lives Matter. And according to the census, White lives don’t. FACTS
Asia number one
And I would’ve probably believed in the whole biblical bullshit had they not tried to convince me about some magical woman getting pregnant without any cum or some dude walking on water and now they want me to believe in dark matter, dark suns, dark worlds, dark planets – I mean you’re fucking delusional and I believe in death.
Narcissism is a plague
Those in “control” are nihilists
Man comes from vagina
Woman does not come from rib of man but vagina
FACTS
The first Bible can be traced back to Asia
“Made in China” – that’s what every Bible should say – not just the version cuz it’s been rewritten to serve Satan a million times
The Good Book with “words of Christ in red” should have never been rewritten. Period. Red flags. It’s conditioning.
And I knew it was all about control when I was just age 5.
I hated the cold atmosphere of school – and the misinformation taught
I even asked my mother, “who is in charge of what they teach us”
She is possessed by the Devil
She swears it is me…
LAUGHS
It was a terrible toxic environment
The folks need dying and dead
Gutted in the fucking street
Maybe then I’d get some sleep…
Principalities and Powers
Demonic forces never stopped running through human affairs. We just stopped seeing them.
— Read on www.theamericanconservative.com/principalities-and-powers/
People like killing dogs and cats too. Facing my own issues with an animal; I find end-of-life services to be inhumane and Hitler regime.
Many just give up, shelter’s are full – animals will be sacrificed.
I’m not making this up. They are eager to take that money too.
One humane society charges more for you to “go back”. A significant amount more.
I’m autistic, “what do you mean “go back” and she explained – “to watch – to be with them” – “that cost more”.
And, an additional cost if you want a “box or urn”.
He’s had 3 end of life appointments made – one with his primary veterinarian, two with the humane society.
I called eventually a third time and stated, “I won’t be able to do this by appointment, I’m having a hard time letting go”
Because – I researched the chemical used to stop their heart – their bodies jerking around.
When someone ODs they go out peacefully and you can call it humane, but I disagree that End Of Life Services are anywhere but “humane” when their bodies are literally jerking around.
My grandmother let her dog “die naturally”.
Anyhoo – I’m against abortion and apparently against manmade animals from a lab getting sacrificed to the dark entity
My dog has a strong heartbeat and will to live. He may be a hellhound – but he’s my hellhound for “better or for worse”.
He may qualify for end-of-life services, and that may be the “easier” path for me – but it requires ending a life, stopping a heart. I do not comply.
And I’m so fucking depressed and suicidal that I would rather jump off a fucking bridge than figure out what to do with my dog, which means I’ve quit weed so that I can figure out what to do with my fucking dog because apparently this new age weed complicates PTSD (hear, hear) and causes suicidal ideation
Also, these drugs folks are doing, probably have code written in them, that’s why they see “the same thing”. 
Autistic doesn’t mean “dumb”.
Gullible sure. I know that they use art and cartoons to imprint on us.
NASA is extreme religiousness – they “the physicist” now are pushing “dark worlds” with “dark suns” and “dark planets” – made of “dark matter”.
It’s one extreme to the next – from walking on water to miracle pregnancies – to “dark worlds”.
They serve a dark entity.
Can I please have a tech free zone? Tech free state? 

Forsaken (freestyle poetry)
Father,
I’ve been forsaken
Fell on earth
Still shaking
Whole world undertaking
You feel me aching?
Cursing while I’m breaking?
Nightmare got me waking!
I am awaken?
How light will break in?
Always knocking, Satan!
Tell him, I hate him!
My soul ain’t vacant!
I hope God is patient
Before world naked
I’m basic
Darkness so pervasive
I’m growing complacent
Getting stuck in places!
Knowing what John faces!
I’m faceless!
Falling down ain’t gracious!
I’m persuasive!
Smiling where I’m hated!
Holes in wall frustrated!
Emaciated!
Hung on cross related!
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
“Where do you get your truth?”
I am the truth – that’s why I’m facing you
6000 years of deleting my word
But you don’t know what’s coming
Or you do
So I expect you’re running
Split in two
Soulless, too
Through and through
I don’t actually have a problem with “dry rot write” (dry well, writing droughts)
I need to learn to shut the fuck up
And I felt like I could continue this poem on for several more lines…
So I stop for fear of going “overboard” but I really wanna just keep going four pages if I must…
I write. With brain fog edit. Post.
I don’t know when I will get another chance
The clock is ticking
I’m obsolete forsaken
😑
I Do Not Sleep (freestyle rhyme)
I do not sleep in a rose-painted bed
With doves above my crown
I’ve got sorrow lying around
Like pillows drifting below
I do not sleep in a rose-painted bed
Where dreams assemble and grow
The visions of yesteryear
Left me somewhere dead
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Postscript: Free speech below
What does it mean when shadows in your mirror appear?
Yeah, I can’t fucking sleep…
I’ve reached a new level of insanity
Please, not the streets.
There it is again!
Am I dying!?!? 😫
I mean, the poem turned out okay though?
God only made me average but I try and do it so well…
I fuck everything up, that’s a give
I want a rose-painted bed
I want a night of rest…
I want in his arms – I want to be valuable enough to be in the same room with a man – and not want to murder one another or break bonds
I’ve never imprinted
Feeling worthless is the baseline of depression
Global study on homicide
About 90 per cent of all homicides recorded worldwide were committed by male perpetrators
— Read on www.unodc.org/unodc/en/data-and-analysis/global-study-on-homicide.html
90% of all murders happen by MEN
Porn activates the PRIMAL side of the BRAIN 🧠
Females go in heat too
Learn to control your urges
Clearly you can’t handle leading a double/triple life
Now we have documentation: Women earn less than men in the same job
Norwegian women earn 9 per cent less than men, even if they work in the same workplace, have the same occupation and the same job. Fifteen countries, including Norway, have been investigated in a large international study.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/economy-gender-and-society/now-we-have-documentation-women-earn-less-than-men-in-the-same-job/2120512
“Never catch up”
It’s narcissism. They don’t want us in the game when we come from “rib of man” – like they see us as sex objects only. Why would we get equal pay when we belong in the kitchen.
Men do not care about us and neither do the gays.
What distinguishes the men who buy sex from men who don’t?
Men who paid for sex were more often dissatisfied with their own sex lives.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/mens-health-sex-sexuality/what-distinguishes-the-men-who-buy-sex-from-men-who-dont/1821864
PORN
We could be teaching children healthy sexual habits and connections – instead of traumatizing them because of the BIG PORN industry.
We’re meant to bond and imprint young.
Not take your kids to the hooker and “not tell mom”
Why men use prostitutes | Sex work |
The reasons why many men pay for sex are revealed in the interviews that make up a major new piece of research
— Read on amp.theguardian.com/society/2010/jan/15/why-men-use-prostitutes
😑
“The sex was never, ever fun”
When a man pays you for sex, you will feel many things — but arousal will not be one of them
— Read on www.salon.com/2015/09/30/the_sex_was_never_ever_fun_my_lessons_in_prostitution/
They convince themselves we want it, “so it’s okay”. He got a hard-on just looking at a 14 year old from the street.
These aren’t men, they are monsters.
But I’m censored everywhere online for mentioning “men” or “monsters” and they don’t have to be in the same sentence.
But I am a sexual abuse survivor, so why is my voice being censored.
Because China have us right where they want us. Segregated while they take command.
And the prostitutes exchange no love – it’s only transactional but the big dream by the men is they fall in love and run off together. Gag me.
Most of them say “men are terrible lovers” and it’s clear the prostitutes do all the work
The prostitutes hear them complain about fighting about money at home life but yet they’re paying for sex (and probably other addictions thus the fights with spouses) 
It’s all narcissism and nihilism.
And if you’re a woman over 40 without a chechmark, are you okay!?!
‘I don’t come here for the conversation’
Why do ordinary, respectable men visit prostitutes? Jacquelynne Bailey spoke to customers at Australian brothels to find out. Her interviews provide a rare insight into how some men see not just sex, but women.
— Read on amp.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/08/gender.uk
“It’s always better with a whore”
“Older, but not over 35…”
Mess (poetry & free speech)
I don’t like showing him pictures
When I know he’s into perfection
And I’m leaning a different direction
Part of his daily “mess” collection!?!
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
I suppose when they’re paying for it, in their mind, they believe they’re getting top-tier sex, huh?
File me under Dante’s 7th level
You should have a file system like Inception – 9 levels deep (put me level 7)
Lucky number 7
Not first, not last. Made top ten.
Maybe with a ⭐️ on the file folder
Locked
“The chosen one”
Oddly enough my lifeline was 7 – I’ve done this seven times!?!
I’m on 7 now
The Matrix twas 6 times
If love is the anomaly, and they all think they love the fucking fake porn stars, and the prostitutes… uggggg
My grandmother stated “you must have a tapeworm”
She wasn’t far off potentially
My horoscope read age 15: “leo’s suffer from feet and heart issues”
My best friend before she died of suicide age 13, “something bad will happen to the world in 2003” – she was distraught – it was 1993
She didn’t live long enough to see her prediction come true
We went to war in 2003, I was part of the initial push into Baghdad, as a combat medic during the start of the war (she was long dead but it still fucks with me)
She literally came to school freaking out saying that she had a bad dream and that “something bad was going to happen in the year 2003, but she didn’t know what”
She died by suicide maybe a month later
She was 13…
Several years later her mother also died by suicide and they are buried next to one another. Their bones got a coffin! ❤️
A coffin plus one of those metal boxes that goes over the coffin…
Her bones have a home for now… ❤️
The point tho – predictions coming true
How!?!
I crawled into them!?!?
Someone up there is looking out for me!?!
I think it’s possible I might actually be locked in a computer against my will somewhere
The government took my DNA, blood, hair, signature, pledges and swears before the flag, like I was sold an idea about the US and that training imprinted on me 🙂
Just like porn imprinted on you
I’m trying to stay alive – get fit enough – to go down in battle
Total warrior
Like I’m still a Soldier who holds rank
They may have changed the uniforms, but I was never stripped of mine
I know the enemy wants me and my comrades dead
I’ve already lost family and friends
And I don’t know how responsible I am for my other family members who never even listen to me because they’re so fucking demented and toxic
My sister is dead, age 45
My fucking parents are still alive – and I’m growing resentful and weary of it
Agent Smith didn’t like the stench of humanity and I feel the same of narcissists 
Every state should make sex offenders, lifelong. I wanna know who my fucking neighbors are.
And pedophiles say that they were born that way, they swear they were fucking born that way, so they can’t change, so it’s not like they’re going to be different in five or six years or 10 or 15 or 25, that’s just long enough for them to start fucking your grandchildren
They will have the best relationship with their own children just so they can fuck their grandchildren, and there are studies out there of this, it’s not hearsay
I also have a degree in psychology, so I study human nature
I swear pretty bird has started saying “thank u” instead of “pretty bird” lately – and normally soon after I’ve tossed out seeds n’ nuts
I swear it
“Thank u thank u thank u”
I don’t care about these abandoned cats tho – not natural to the environment – made in a fucking lab – carry disease – and are terrorizing the wildlife here
I will fuck a motherfucker up
And it’s extremely hard being an angel because I don’t know what I’m allowed to hurt, and what I’m allowed to not hurt
Fuck that demented cat, but it shouldn’t be my karma to call the pound on him
He didn’t even eat the tuna I put out
What a fat kunt
I like lions but hate “man’s best lab friend”
So the American Asians identify as a Chinese American, and probably wish to drop Americans all together once they fully take over our country – they value “Chinese culture” and are pushing their way of life on us here
I don’t recognize my own country
I come from a generation where we had to page people to communicate or go to their fucking door, and I’m kinda ready to go back to that sort of lifestyle…
I sold my TV
I don’t even want a smart phone
I want sex toys behind a black curtain because I don’t want to see it and I’m a fucking adult
I need food
But I stopped going to the grocery store buying anything and I’m trying to eat what I have in my house
When was it acceptable to blow your horn in the parking lot for someone to come down?
What is this trend of people turning their fucking cars off at the red light?
I’m done with society
They want a 15% tip for ringing you up and they can’t even get your order right or smile
I don’t want to do any of this anymore
If I wanted to live in Asia I’d fucking move there
I do not have yellow fever
And I will never support another Asian franchise in America ever again or buy anything from China, India, or Mexico
“You’re racist”
Correction: I’m homicidal
If you’re gonna accuse me of something, make sure you get it right
Homicidal is the new suicidal and we don’t fucking talk about it these days 🙂
Happy to help
Remember heal and save
Sharpen your blades (they will invade at night, at rest, they will not follow GENEVA)
I’d really like to show God what sort of warrior I am and it’s not getting gutted it in the street
And this is like minority report now, they will fucking commit you for saying something
I’m still on the good side of god (I fight and live for God) – this establishment worldwide needs to END and be dismantled and destroyed
The entire reason they do these wars is just so they can have their fucking prostitutes in different countries…
It’s mostly military and white men apparently (according to studies)
An entire nation lost
They are also making the animals suffer and it has to stop
What the fuck are they doing to these gators at the amusement parks? Selling teeth? I have some. As a reminder – of how fucked up immigration ruined my country – turning everything into a Sims theme park – creating depression – addiction – addicts – monsters – lost souls
The doctors and nurses are criminals
I still have my medical background that the enemy didn’t account for
“No one will listen to her”
“Censor her”
Me: sells TV, stops supporting society
And I spend time in the sun now without sunblock, and I don’t get burned
I absolutely can be taken down by the elements very quickly though, the cold, the heat, I have a heart condition
Thanks to the government and my gullibility
RIP John Jones
P.S. your rugs are dirty
Study Finds Men Want Love With Prostitutes
Are Men Looking For Love With Prostitutes?
— Read on www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2012/08/13/relationships-men-fall-in-love-with-prostitutes_n_1772680.html
It’s all been conditioning – these men have been buying sex since children
And now children can see and buy sex toys – toys aren’t behind a black curtain….
The Devil’s society…
Give it time, LGBT will have an orgy in the street.
Porn has ruined man
They fall in love with an idea – and the porn industry repeats the same story throughout years – with all sex workers.
They need the girls in the pictures so much that they use “commoners” as fleshlights
“No one knows why” – ahem bullshite it’s porn
Porn segregates us from unity, imprinting
Well – these boys are exposed to porn at a very young age and it imprints on them.
And image is important to them – gaslighting – so the Church offers a safe haven for these demons – who want us paying for their housing and meals.
They disassociate when they use porn so it’s like they become a completely different person and that’s why there’s no remorse when they do the shit that they do to you
They have an addiction created by the enemy to break up the traditional family value home – all while the immigrants take throne during “yellow fever”
Suicide is a top leading cause of death worldwide
Porn is the gateway drug to ruin
It could be easily censored like they do my free-speech
All the little commoners who get on onlyfans, they just use us up like they do in the real world 
Most anyway
OnlyFans say most users loose out – it’s only the top folks with value (society is the Titanic)
They steal money from users too
And as much as I love blogging, I don’t want to continue paying the enemy
Pay to play
I’d rather die than give the state another penny
And I can’t even visit Orlando without having to pay four tolls to return and they aren’t cheap anymore 
It’s the same fucking county, but I have to pay to return to the city I’m registered to live in.
Florida is gone
Overrun with evil and immigration
I mean immigrants get here and naturalize faster than we can even procreate or vote 
Native Americans were doing just fine here until my bloodline was nearly wiped out by the fucking immigrants that you say bring so much greatness to our country
I fantasize about dying by suicide in terrible and terrifying ways
I know you’re a nihilist and do not care what happens to me…
”To be seen and not heard” while man destroys everything
But as long as we are making him a meal and doing everything for him
While he jerks off to the pretty women prostitutes
And by telling a man not to fall in love with you, they probably absolutely fucking do fall in love with these prostitutes (not commoners)
Because even the guys without any teeth, think they deserve a ten star 
And I’ve never been rated a 10 or treated with any value
Lots of marriage proposals though 
Fleshlights….

Life Expectancy in the U.S. Dropped for the Second Year in a Row in 2021
National Center for Health Statistics
— Read on www.cdc.gov/nchs/pressroom/nchs_press_releases/2022/20220831.htm
“Non-Hispanic white people in the United States had the second biggest decline in life expectancy”
VS
Asians: “slight decline“
WHITE LIVES DON’T MATTER
Inflation Experiences for Lower and Higher Income Households : Spotlight on Statistics: U.S. Bureau of Labor Statistics
This Spotlight presents consumer price indexes for groups of households at the lowest and highest end of the income distribution for urban households to examine how different spending patterns can change measures of inflation.
— Read on www.bls.gov/spotlight/2022/inflation-experiences-for-lower-and-higher-income-households/home.htm
It’s gentrification and narcissism and those in power set the inflation rates.
They are the reason the rent keeps going up.
They weren’t hurting or remorseful when we were suffering. They were spending money on travel, entertainment, phones and cars. We were trying to pay rent and eat.
They’re amused by our suffering.
A 10% difference is a lot when the majority can’t eat while the rest are at play and having fun. Killing the world is fun!!! We’re kings!
I’m done. With everything. I no longer support society. I am withdrawing from everything. It does not serve God or the natural way.
This is so sad. We only get this one life. Our nation was crippled by immigrants who are not crippled.
Those at the top are the immigrants!
Charts show immigration have our best jobs
In 2019, there were 28.4 million foreign-born people in the U.S. labor force, comprising 17.4 percent of the total.
— Read on www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2020/foreign-born-workers-made-up-17-point-4-percent-of-labor-force-in-2019.htm
I know what it says but look at the chart – immigrants have overtaken 3 of those categories and are quickly nearing the other 2 categories of work filled
And, according to the color, Florida is absolutely gone (same as California and New York – all owned by immigrants)
THEY HAVE ALL OUR BEST JOBS
And you’re a fucking child…
Please don’t refer to me as an “older woman” again
Or group me there
I know you’re a pedophile
And I’m GENX
But I’m only your 8 years senior
And that’s with the 10 year “decade” window
It’s considered NORMAL
And the couple that was recently murdered here in Daytona Beach – during bike week – double homicide from a BLM immigrant – she was only 8 years older than him – they had recently bought their dream home that they were biking home to
He stalked them and gutted them near a school
Now he gets better treatment for his mental health than I do and I served my fucking country and am facing homelessness (again) (sigh)
“You will own nothing and you will be happy”
You mean like stalk people?
Hunting them down like you want to gut them in the street.
I mean, yeah
You get 3 meals a day, an hour of sunshine, dental, free rent.
Where is the punishment?
I sit in an overpriced run down 4×4
The amenities aren’t even opened on the weekends, no 24/7 gym pool but paying the price like a fool
But due to gentrification in the housing market – it’s kinda hard to move up to the east side
This entire society is built on narcissism, the very foundation is a lie
Did all your dreams come true in Nam?
I’m about to jump off a fucking dam…
Don’t call me older ever again
It’s barely 8 years
Oh, it’s because I’m over 29 huh
And you’re a pedo
Don’t call me old when I’m still bleeding from my legs every three weeks you fucking insensitive asshole
I hate you
But, I do have the eldest blood of all the bloodlines
It’s kind of hard to bleed yourself dry when you think on yer superpowers
Fucking old
Like 13.7 billion years or something
At least get it right…
I’m not old, I’m glorious and that’s why guys are chasing me down when I’m in the isles crying
They just wanna spend time with me
I look like a dying zombie but many are mesmerized
I don’t know what they see
The age always disappoints them
I don’t talk to men anymore anyway
The new responses will be, “oh honey, I’m not Asian”
“I’m not a fleshlight”
OR
“You can’t afford my fleshlight”
That’ll really fuck em’ up
God didn’t make me hush
It’s possible he left his ministry to me because everybody seems to keep calling me a whore
And treating me with little value
I probably have a fortune in Bibles lying around, but you know
“I asked you to prove to me the Bible was re-written and not give opinion”
“The version is on the cover”
“This comment no longer exists”
Pop goes a demon
This is why heaven is empty
This is why my views are low
“Because of you, I can only smoke down here now”
Oh goodie, I’m glad I make messes in heaven still
The way I do on earth…
“God is love”
“Love is the great anomaly”
God was here!?!
God lives here!?!
Gotta get his house cleaned up
He doesn’t treat me ill
Creating bonds just to break
Breaking souls
To get a rise cuz you are numb and void and soulless and without remorse
Women over 40 have value – even if society has ruled us obsolete
Because you’ve been brainwashed by society to be a pedophile
And we’re meant to socially bond very young…
Imprinting
We’re not born to be your fleshlights
I got educated to save a life
It’s not my fault that doesn’t impress you
Or my tiny savings
One and five men have an STD and a divorce under their belt
Not interested in your opinion of me any longer…
Dig?
Women over boost men’s egos to not get murdered – in general
Men obviously are crazy and go through hormonal changes if “90% of all murders happen by men” and you know women get prosecuted harder for crimes cuz we rarely do
If more women committed crimes, the punishment would be less severe (like men)
And a demon has no remorse so therapy is invalid
My mental health is being destroyed with malicious intent and purpose, and has been since I was born
But I get called crazy for having to deal with being told what to do 24/7
Man has put his overrule over everything – trying to be god
Changing time
Literally trying to control women’s periods with birth control and everything else they do
Trying to control every aspect of time
“Time is energy” and they control the energy crisis too
Trying to fix the weed – the premium weed is weaker than homegrown from the 90s – it ain’t premium – it’s expensive junk and shite
Trying to control the food supply
“Natural flavor” in everything
The Great Filter of nihilism
Destroy everything God created
Man trying to take over and control
Making humans in a lab
Cloning
Honestly, you can’t even listen to the music because they did something to the frequency to cause depression
They are using weather modification and they openly talk about it now, so you can’t keep calling me a conspiracy theorist
It’s ruining the earth
Causing disasters
“But the insurance will cover it” (another filter)
No one wanted insurance, but they pushed it on us, just like they pushed the one child law on China residents (whom had been brainwashed into believing it was a good thing) (over 1 million parents lost their only child – and too late for many women to conceive after it was lifted – and many men left their wives for a younger one. But there aren’t enough women anymore and “too many men” due to their science! (All planned)
The white race is systematically being destroyed through racism (it’s not how we’re reporting dummy)
I don’t want to live my life through a computer screen or an algorithm
Most of China is depressed – apart from gentrification and “them”
Also, that Chinese politician who implemented that law and went to jail, he lives in America now
All the bad ones are allowed entry here…
They are fighting wars from a computer screen now and accidentally blowing up families an Afghan and going Oh sorry you can come live in America though.
They bring their entire family here
Violent upbringing and all…
Black Lives Matter
RIP couple gutted in the street – this isn’t the same country I fought for – I’ve wanted out of Daytona Beach since that violent crime – and crime continues to rise here despite reports of “best place to live” (it is not)
And they are forcing workers to work alone, and people are robbing the place and getting murdered – fuck that – I’m not dying for you and your goddamn taco
Jim Morrison was from Florida and loved tacos 🌮
And I love a little taco job – but I ain’t dying for this society – which is sinking faster than the Titanic
Go USA (the American Asians identity as “CHINESE American” and value Chinese culture” and only vote 1 way
We’re just pawns in their sick game
Just because you work in a factory 18 hours a day and allow your fucking government to dictate how many children you have – it doesn’t make you smarter – it makes you fucking dumb, not hardworking
And I’m so glad that family value and living together generations together like cockroaches is valuable to you because you’ve broken up the family home in America to have this – to fucking have America
Immigration is a Trojan horse and only the immigrants are happy here
FYI
They’re miserable in China too, because they fucking brown nose their government
My boomer mom believes anything the Bible or government says too
And you can’t tell her otherwise
It’s been cold here all day. The lizards haven’t even come out and I wish I had a little heater for them.
I made a vegan dish and I’m eating it and I also got a rebound session in
I may take a break from blogging for awhile, while I try to figure out how to detox from fucking weed – never had a problem with weed until government and science got involved
But now I have an addiction and suicidal ideation, and PTSD complications for voting yes for medicinal
I’m done voting – anyone can do it
And the immigrants who come here and their fucking teenage children, they actually get naturalized and get to vote sooner than the people fucking born here
I’m no longer participating in society therefore, I am not voting or doing any of this man-made bullshit anymore
Toxic masculinity
You barely hear of any women in the Bible, and when you do, they’re called a whore
“Men can have babies” (you see the conditioning) (cloning LGBT human rights vs AI has feelings)
The men are just monsters who are pedophiles and will do anything to get to the children fleshlights
I read about how y’all are buying wives and how horribly you treat them because you bought them
Shame you can’t take care of your creators (men come from vagina)
I’m sorry you’re mad about it – we didn’t make the rules
Men do spread parasites through their cum which can cause cancer and other health problems
It doesn’t affect men the way it does women (many men have no signs but are ill)
Anyhoo
The government gave me an addiction with malicious intent and purpose
“Premium content”
And pay the state to enter a medical building for wellness – while sex toys are sold in front of children (conditioning)
LGBT is a cult and all over the walls of the VA now
Why was I always shamed for being a girl and told to cross my legs growing up but gay men are fucking dry humping everything and dressing tacky in public 24/7
Just because it’s a song or art doesn’t make it okay or right
That stuff was always at the gay bars and that’s where it should be along with the sex toys at the 21+ stores
I said what I said
Apparently, China have a “savings problem” and they don’t want to spend and that’s my problem now, I have a savings problem, I don’t want to spend either…
I don’t have a man who wants to build me a house, but it would be fucking amazing if we could build one together
I’ve never even been valued enough to be taken to the opera, or given a piece of jewelry with any worth
Still – men seem taken back by my ugliness or beauty (I’m undecided which)
Pretty enough for them – just don’t like my petite frame (but you do Asians huh)
I don’t remember the guy I was dating for three or four months, but he was really into me I thought until one day he broke up with me and said that my pussy was great. He liked my personality, but he hated my tits.
I was in my early 20s
And even with all the negative conditioning, I still did not go get plastic surgery, even though there were times I could afford to do so, instead of traveling
But I got to breast-feed, and had hopes of doing it again
I think I’m human still
It’s human vs demon here (and many of you disassociate from what you truly are, a monster)
But you choose to be despite things and entities trying to push you that direction
Every time my true soulmate gives himself away to another lover, I go further extinct
I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore because none of you want to change anything
You all want the world to end
I’m outnumbered unfortunately
You had me believing I had no worth when it was really you
I was hoping to save someone
And are you paying attention to the 18-year-old and 56 year olds dying?
Vaccine death jab (I’m at risk for ASDS)
Adult sudden death syndrome
I’ll never get another flu shot or vaccine again and I’ll never trust a doctor and I’m just gonna go with what God gave me
Men are pulling the veil on us while destroying the world
90% of all murders happen by men
There’s enough food, and everything to go around for everybody, but they have us in this dark field
In China, growth policy compounds the toll on parents who lose a child
One-child policy leaves some parents childless, hopeless and facing financial ruin in old age
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/in-china-one-child-policy-compounds-loss-of-child-for-parents/2013/08/07/063716fe-e877-11e2-a301-ea5a8116d211_story.html
It’s tragic. Our mental health is directly connected to our dicks and vaginas. They sterilized and aborted an entire nation!
They’re still doing it with vaccines!!!!!!
I also learned the vaccines contain aborted babies (it’s real)!
The government needs shut down!!!!!!
This is tragic!!!!
It’s narcissism! It’s all serving the Devil!!!! Or darkness! It’s not unity or being one with earth!
Stop killing everything! Women and babies especially!!!!!!
Y’all are insane but want to commit me!!!
Immigrants have taken over California and New York and they are coming after Florida. Most Floridians say Florida has changed for the worse. 
The VA is corrupt and so is the White House
And according to the official stats, the majority of immigrants vote one way 
I will rise up
And if it takes five people to arrest me, five people will go fucking down
I’m fed up!
The fact that most Chinese thought the one child law policy was a good idea…. 
It also creates narcissism
They’ve ruined America with insurance and taxes and COLA 
They’ve ruined everything and everyone it seems
Too much control
And Genzie and millennials don’t give a fuck about anything so they’re not gonna rise up and fight anything except for the wind to light the fucking lighter for the goddamn weed
And their sex toys
LGBT is a cult
Sex toys are being sold everywhere in front of any age…. little curious boys looking at the anal plugs at Spencer’s
Can buy online at Walmart, CVS, Dolls Kill, Walgreens, ect
Dildo’s and vibrators for “health and wellness”
Disgusting 🤢
China drops one-child policy
Lavishing attention on an only child takes its toll on parents.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/china-drops-one-child-policy-but-exhausted-tiger-moms-say-one-is-plenty/2016/10/14/336f1890-8ae7-11e6-8a68-b4ce96c78e04_story.html
China is the biggest political fuck up power in the world 🛑🥴⚠️🫣👀🛑
And they took over America 🇺🇸
Constantly telling us what we can and cannot do
Crippling a nation with divorce, disease, depression!
I don’t fucking trust you if you’re in a position of power or brown-nosing these ridiculous policies.
And I think a lot of Americans are ready for the big immigration push back.
Too much conflict of interest – everything benefiting other nations (who took throne here).
Check the migration stats, jobs, and census. Do you have reading comprehension though?
This is 2023 (not really – it’s a manmade calendar and they took away a month! April fools! The gaslighting in this society never ends.)
Always got us chasing our tail!!!! 
It’s 7 years behind in Ethiopia
I wasn’t learning about that in school when they were teaching about “time zones”
I hated every moment of school and working 90 hours a week (2-3 jobs) to pay my electric and rent
I keep hoping to have hope – that my future includes a real bond with a man, as God intended. A pure love where he isn’t giving his best energy and time to other women.
But, even if a man is going through a Great Awakening, when he settles down, he’ll go for the young one.
I’m obsolete
Thank you for pushing me into the extinction zone
“Men can have babies”
Have fun with that
In China and India, men outnumber women on a massive scale.
China and India have 70 million more men than women. The consequences are far-reaching.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/graphics/2018/world/too-many-men/
All the violence. And we open our borders in America and let them extend the same violent upbringing on us. Porn is an issue but let’s just destroy the world so you can keep gaslighting and jerking off.
He bought his wife and demanded sex four times a day and beat her when she did not comply. Then she fled and left her 3 year old daughter with him.
Pedophilia starts in the home.
“Too many men” and too much violence. Porn activates the primitive side of the brain. Rape, murder, lies.
This society is all built on a crumbling lie.
Those in power want the world end so they can rebuild it under their fucking rule – using AI, and the DNA ark in Antartica.
They are playing god and creating a matrix filter (the great filter is real) where generations born will be made under them.
So they can claim all this as their own – as they believe they are god
The Bible has been re-written many times (it’s called versions dummy) and is Satanic
There is so much fearmongering and narcissism in the Bible. Just like Hollywood and NASA (asteroids are bombs)
I’m not saying asteroids aren’t real, but they can’t stop dropping bombs everywhere….
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
“6th mass extinction”
But as long as you can cum….
The blogging community is full of demons
The way these narcissist delete lives and comments without any remorse
Therapy is just a stage for them to practice lying
Narcissism isn’t rare, it’s a fucking plague…
Spread by the Bible via Yellow Fever propagandist
And scientist say we’re in a six mass extinction and the Bible has been around 6000 years so you do the fucking math or don’t I don’t fucking care anymore
The census show BLM at over 230% rise and White Lives Don’t matter at a 10% decrease
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Nihilism!!!!!
Women create. Men destroy.
And they don’t give anything enough time to replenish. The sea is not endless food for us. Your Bible is a lie!!!!!!
And it’s been pushed down my throat since I was born.
NASA is a dogma stealing your money
I don’t think CGI cartoon is what I had in mind when being taxed to death – to visit a dead planet because you can’t sit still long enough to stop killing this one
“90% of all murders happen by men..”
Yeah but…. don’t even look at me unless you want WW4
The wars will never end because the people in power have delusions of grandeur and are sending cars into fucking space
And now they’re moving asteroids and shit around?
My cell service continues to drop and lines are all in the ocean…
So basically, if you’re talking to me, you’re lying
That’s how fucking woke I am
Y’all believe aliens are real, and that computers have feelings
I do have one question for God and that’s: do Asians have the smallest penis of all and that’s why they fucking gaslight and do all this!?!
“Mirror mirror on the wall, Asian men have the smallest penis of all”
“So we’ll lie and program the world to think our childlike women have magical vaginas!!!!!!”
It’s all full circle now
It’s a game of the elite and I’m sick of playing delusions of grandeur
The cookie crumb traces back to Asia
And I’m sort of getting to the point if you don’t get me away to my own land and away from these fucking immigrants – things are gonna go fucking west pretty quick, and I don’t give a fuck if I wind up in a goddamn ditch
The fact that they raised taxes so much crippling a nation
But if you read articles about immigration, they will all claim they are doing well family and financially, but Americans will say the opposite, and the low paying wage jobs and homelessness proves it.
But you won’t listen over your green card or Yellow Fever
I’m fed up!
This is why I say I’m homicidal instead of suicidal and this is why I encourage people to just go fucking mad in the streets because fuck everything – they probably had it coming that goddamn street
That fucking morning shift deserved everything they got
How much you like your job again?
You like it that much huh
To treat customers and residents like we ain’t got no value
That calm you see from me
Ain’t really good
But I guess I’m learning to gaslight too
I’m starting to stalk people on the road
And I will wind up on a ditch if I don’t leave the city
At least I’m quitting the new age weed
So more emoness incoming
And poetry too
If God allows me to continue making a mess of everything
Those NASA images are just a fairytale
Elon’s education and hair is fake
He had connections
I can’t believe the fucking moon landings were rehearsed
If the government is talking, I don’t care to hear what they have to say
The holy inquisition yellow fever madness (free speech)
Let him get back to the holy inquisition yellow fever madness
Magical pussies
Walking on water
Delusions of grandeur
Hello God
*waves*
It’s astounding to me that these yellow fever men do not have the sensibility to see – on the cover itself – which edition of the Bible they are reading
Because there are many versions
And they are different
The Old Testament versus the New Testament
The new revised standard version
The King James version
New International version
New Living translation
Just the fact that it was translated is a red flag – I watch basic movies in both languages – the original or translated – and the translated version most always certainly changes the meaning
Remember that study, where you tell someone something – and by the time it reaches the other end of the room – it’s completely changed.
Something simple like “the sky is red” will turn into “the sky is bleeding”! It’s obviously misleading (The Bible)
(I think I’ve read them all – I have a stack of varyingly different versions, some with the word of Christ “in red” (the conditioning), some that are super tiny, some large, and the first I ever received age 4 – in color, with a map).
Men try to control my every thought and move – but didn’t think I’d be smart enough to study the Bible and learn anything other than “to be seen and not heard”, “women come from rib of man”
No Asia, everyone comes from vagina – and not just magical Asian ones
Men come from vagina
Men cannot have babies
I will go down fighting
God exists outside the yellow fever Bible – that has been re-written many times – and the edition can be found on the cover – it’s not opinion asshole
Furthermore, I do have a degree and did study World Religions.
But because I’m white and female – my word will always just be “opinion” to man who creates and controls this entire delusional world – that I don’t want to participate in!
I don’t have value because I’m not an Asian with a magical sideways pussy.
Y’all are fucking insane
Porn destroyed you
But keep blaming marijuana as the gateway drug OK?
You’ll soon be selling sex toys at the church for health and wellness
The way you are now selling sex toys at Walmart, Dolls Kill, CVS, Walgreens, the mall…
You don’t even need to be 21+ anymore to enter
It’s all been conditioning
And because Asians supposedly are the “most educated and hard working” they come over here and they take all our best jobs too and that’s also not fucking opinion
I’m pretty much done voting, dating, or looking at men
If you are white, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever
If you support the Bible, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever
If you are married to an Asian, you most definitely have yellow fever
If you look at me with any interest, I’m gonna assume you have yellow fever
If you are alive, you have yellow fever
If you act interested in me, I’m just gonna reply “I’m not a ten, I’m not Asian”
“I don’t want to be your fleshlight”
And that’s what living with real autism is like
Many of Genzie and millennials, who claim to be “autistic” are really just emancipated
I’m kinda disgusted with humanity and those “in charge” ruining everything with religion and race
They use art and cartoon to get yeah
And NASA admitted it’s all “CGI artist interpretation”
James Webb only sees in red
I don’t know how else to get through
The rest is just data and numbers
Dots
They assign colors to numbers
It’s not even art, it’s an algorithm
And I’m tired of being conditioned to think that AI is art, it’s fucking not
It’s cutting corners
It’s lazy
It’s cheap (tho expensive lol)
Like I worked really hard to be a decent woman for man
And you all have yellow fever
At least the majority do
The fact that I’m still ascending (descending into hell)
The fact that God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore
“Where do you get your truth”
Not from the Bible – it uncovers the grand lie
The Great Pyramid scheme
The Great Wall of Deceit (is being disassembled on the black market and sold to build homes yassssssss – tear down the wall)!!!!!!!!
Did it ever occur to you that I am the truth
I’m one of God’s angels (I declare this and identify as angelic)
I am a truthmonger
I’ve been questioning my parents and the establishment since I was very young and I knew this was all bullshit
“How do you know the sun is so far away, you’ve been?” (Asked age 5)
“We shon a laser on a wall”
And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, or whatever news it is because you won’t believe me anyway, but the sun is electrical and closer to us than you’ve been told
Now I don’t mean plug in a socket electrical
But water exists as a fourth stage: plasma
Also, the Moon is a dead star (earth probably actually formed from her but whatev)
Again, I never believed the earth-moon theory
Never believed in the Big Bang model
Or the evolution theory
Or, that “women come from the rib of man”
If that somehow makes Asian women better than me – because I don’t believe in delusions of grandeur – and instead equality – then so be it. I’ll die alone without any worth from man cuz I’m not plastic surgery or yellow nor will bow to them simply to bow
Respect is earned
I know my worth even though I’m constantly crying to God “I’m worthless”, “I don’t deserve anything”
Apparently, this new age weed can cause suicidal ideation, and further complicate PTSD.
I’m getting off it now as I’ve never been more suicidal in my life
Big pharma also made me extremely homicidal
I will be real with you – so-in-so needs to go ahead and file multiple restraining orders- and I hear the more you have – the less they work
“90% of all murders happen by men“
But the other 10% – !?!
Are people worth going to jail for? No
But if you’re already dying and dead…
And you’ve sold or trashed everything you own…
What’s to lose!?!
It’s not murder if eye for eye
“You took my life”
But I have faith that God wants more for me than dying on the street or revenge from atrocities
It can go either way
I’m prepared for the worst outcome – dying
It won’t be jail or committed
DO NOT MOURN FOR ME
Porn has made it that man has no value at all – though he is racist to his core
I read into many articles about yellow fever – and migration patterns to the USA
It’s only the immigrants who say that are satisfied with their income and family here – and I summed it up to gentrification.
And now Biden made it so non- citizens can vote.
Americans are slaves to the Asian and Asian Americans who identify mostly as “Chinese American” and mostly only care about Chinese culture
Chinese culture has taken over America including yellow fever
Magical childlike pussies huh
Y’all are disgusting
I don’t wanna look at anybody in the eye
Some guy paying me a compliment: “I’m not Asian, shut up”
I don’t even wanna hear what any have to say…
I’m not Asian therefore white lives don’t matter
Demons (poetry)
He’s got demons on his back
An angel full on attack
In an order of the fallen
His heart is black
But I bet –
He can hear me calling!
I know where success recedes
I hope God notices my little deeds
Despite making mistakes in excessive speeds
Crawling headfirst to sacred needs
I know where hatred breeds
How repentance precedes
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Free speech below 🛑⚠️🛑
It should be illegal to sell our data or spam us at our private home address.
The rain forest is being turned into a McDonald’s coupon
I’ve always felt uneasy wiping my ass with a tree
Since age 5 or something
FYI
We’re turning earth into mars
Remember the great dust bowl? Here on earth
Keep chopping down the trees…
Earth will turn into a dead planet
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Don’t shoot me if I wind up in your yard
Naked out of my mind….
Don’t have me committed
Don’t do anything
Just pretend I don’t exist like you do now
Labs (10 word poem)
My labs are fine
But man I’ve lost my mind
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
It’s not just in the koolaid, it’s in the water too
FYI
I not only have to fight the urge to not leap from a fucking bridge, I have to also not get committed against my will.
I made bean soup yesterday and there’s only one bowl left. Shame.
Ate half the pot in one sitting. What a gluttonous little bitch. Followed by a fat slice of upside down pineapple coconut cake 2.0.
One slice of cake, one bowl of beans left. It was a good run.
I’m still throwing my life away.
I hope I’m not next
Trust (poetry)
My trust setting is lower than yours
Like opening sores
Instead of closing doors
I am dead for sure
I’m lost
And in despair
The maps will lead you there
Dying
Does anybody care
Men are capable of great things
Except for taking care of me
I’m so far from reach
Tongue has lost its speech
The big sweep
Got me on my knee
Locked in misery
Losing sleep
Depression is a roundabout. I need a different route!
Found my worth
Dying on the cross
But it isn’t your loss
Nor the hole in the wall
It isn’t your turf
But don’t let me go, Murph!
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
STOP 🛑 Free speech below ⚠️⛔️⚠️
The way the forest was crying. So I tossed out a homemade trail mix. I swear I hear tweets of “thank u” and cute little calming chirps from the squirrels. When I hear crow arrive, I boldly and loudly say “CROW” out my window to greet him/her. A couple evenings ago Crow said something and a kid loudly yelled “shut up” to the crow.
Also a kid violently threw away some trash and I saw a squirrel fly from the bush onto a tree – in fear.
So all things live in fear here – thanks to BLM ✊🏿
Someone was loudly playing a “pussy” song out here from their car.
Charming
An abandoned wildcat is terrorizing the squirrels. We have 6 or 7 living in the slums now.
Being homeless might not be so bad in the summer.
There was a tent but it was sold at the pawn.
Along with all the other cheap shit that didn’t mean a thing.
Been tossing perfectly fine hardback books away in the trash.
Yet holding onto some book with torn pages.
I’m to blame for the ripped pages.
I place value in things I shouldn’t.
I deserve nothing.
The weed stopped working, and God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore. Boo.
I spent a load of money buying hardware and now they decided to stop selling that hardware and they replaced it with new hardware so you can’t replace the batteries and recharge or anything like that and so like I’m just done with the goddamn bullshit everywhere including my phone
They want us to pay for the phone – and the service – and the storage – and now you need an account or an app to read or do anything
It took a shit ton of effort to delete my PapaJohns account – had to call them – took them several minutes of jerking off – and supposedly it is done. They are selling your data, to the enemy. Tracking you.
I just wanted to order pizza man. I’m done ordering pizza. Cool beans.
And then, if you don’t keep all these apps updated, they’ll just keep changing their policies, spying on you.
Bombarding you with ads “you will buy this”
Newsflash: energy is not endless like the sea. Those in power are delusional.
NASA is delusions of grandeur
America is selling sex toys in front of children everywhere, and me! It’s disgusting!!!!!!!
Fine! Starve me on the cross! I refuse to participate!
The weed don’t work no mo!
The eddies. The flower.
Long time ago homegrown lasted longer than this overpriced, GMO modified junk!
Tier 1, tier 2, tier 3
Fuck all that
And… the kicker… having to pay to enter a “medical building”
I have to jump through the hoops to get to my legal weed, but y’all are selling sex toys in front of the fucking children for “health and wellness”
And apparently on the street, they’re selling junk as well and you get sexually harassed and your goods stolen
Where the fuck did the mindfulness and community unity go!?! You could smoke a joint a be set for a good 7 or 8 hours in the 90s
Meet up at the tree. Break time. Wee
I don’t even wanna go to the movies or go to the restaurants or buy anything because everything is fucking poisoned and everyone has a goddamn attitude
And they want a 15% tip for ringing you up
Bitch, you didn’t even greet me nor were you smiling
I worked 3 jobs with a smile…
Gentrification exists
And NASA and Hollywood are the same entity. We can’t expend all earth’s resources getting to a dead planet – we probably destroyed with bombs and fearmongering
We killed off the dinosaurs too
Narcissism and nihilism is killing off everything
I’m sick to fuck of crying…
The day is starting
There was no sleep again…
“Scientists” continue to say that we are in a sixth mass extinction (new world order agenda) but overconsumption is due to narcissism.
I’m tired of environments being destroyed for a fucking shopping mall that will be a abandoned in a few years
It’s clear the enemy took over America
Give it time, the church will be selling anal sex toys for “health and wellness” too…
Get it off the icecream truck
Probably cheaper than the icecream these days
It’s all conditioning
One gen to the next
It’s a utophian nightmare
We can’t leave earth!!!!!
Stop killing her!!!!!
The divorce rate is 85%+!!!
90% of all murders happen by men!!!!!!
Wake up!!!!!!!!!
Please father, don’t let me die on the street
Down here with all these demons
“You’re gonna die of a good time down here”
WHEN!?!?!
The gaslighting 😩
Can’t even watch a film
Throwing out all my band memorabilia in the trash bin 🤩
So much moneytimeenergy wasted 🤩
There won’t be much left to bleed soon…
I’m done voting (free speech)
Non-citizens are allowed to vote now
Our best jobs are given to the brightest and most brilliant immigrants who move here and naturalize – have children – and give those children the good jobs; the president said “they come here and take our best jobs”. Yep.
Our children (native) must wait 18 years to get a say…
They come here, and ruin Americans with propaganda and take their right to vote away, thousands of Americans are not allowed to vote because of crimes they already paid for.
I love everything
But the immigrants continue to destroy the environment to build a mall or shopping center that will be abandoned in a few years
Narcissism is a plague
Nihilism
I can’t stand it
And I’m tired of people trying to force my mouth closed when I am a soldier and politics is what I’m aware of
Florida is sinking
The whole of America has sunk
This isn’t about your green card!
Native Americans live on plantation’s like suppressed little slaves
Unless Hollywood TikTok has given them limelight
Narcissism
Manmade cats are unnatural for the environment – destroying nature
Dogs and cats spread disease
Also “made in China” and the first Bible can be traces back to Asia
Gonna follow the trails to the caves in Antartica and cut off their heads
(Thinking out loud again)
They keep adding all these additional charges to carry a smart phone and I’m ready to sell mine or downsize to a boring dumb phone.
The Internet is all predator, propaganda, and porn. Spam and spyware. Viruses. And they make us pay for it….
I’m over everything
Voting especially.
It’s all glaringly corrupt
I will not shut up…
Things need to be fixed
People from other countries shouldn’t get to move here and vote sooner than our own children and selves who are native to here
But that’s not what the article’s will say
Just like the bullshite globalism agenda spread through the college professors – that I always argued with – the articles will say non-citizens being allowed to vote is a good thing
I disagree
Conflict-of-interest
Period!
Remember them telling us “don’t discuss your income in the workplace”
That’s because shady business was going down
Now some states are requiring full income disclosure
I don’t believe the government can have transparency without gaslighting and a lie
This whole society is built on lovebombing, triangulation, gaslighting, lying.
“Don’t block me out, Emmet. I know you can hear me!”
Because the Christian God is narcissistic and evil. The Bible today is a fallacy – and to your own accord – a sin.
Emmet was always around the children. And smoking.
He can’t keep a straight face!
Pedo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scene forward:
“And you can keep the jewelry! It’s fake!” *sinister laugh
And I was holding onto the gold like it had value because I put value on the cheapest things
“The thought NO LONGER counts” fixed
Men have devalued me for so long I no longer wanna look them in the eye
Annie no longer cares about the toys, she stated this.
Annie was depressed because Emmet said she would be
Tough love
“Keep your eye on the toys Annie, you know about toys”
How about stop conditioning me!!!!!!!!
Free will please!!!!!!!!
But not so much free will I jump in a whirlpool on ketamine like Jacob!
God bless what the fuck
I barely can dip my toes in the water without screaming
I don’t like anything in this society
Edgar was right to die on the street – naked – out of his mind
“The children have gone insane” and are boomers in position of power
Gen X the silent dangerous generation
I’m glad we’ve been ghosted by society
Won’t see me coming
And… while we’re on the subject
That cheap junk you’re wearing, that isn’t cotton, actually causes insanity, is extremely flammable and hard to put out
I bet the people in Pompeii were wearing synthetics
People dropping bills to buy foam shoes (which cause cancer/insanity)
All that sports clothing
JUNK
And I hate how they came over here and changed the meaning of silk, satin, and Cordaroy to now mean synthetics
“Men can have babies!!!!”
Well, I mean that’s good and all that you’re growing babies now because you’ve pretty much made most women infertile with nihilism or the death jab or emancipation
Fake tits are gross
Plastic surgery is the devil
Narcissism at its root
I said what I said
Happy to help
I can’t even look at Melanie Griffith anymore, because of what she did to herself
I’m ghosting HollyWood
Grooming everyone to fuck children
Many famous people won’t let their children around TV
Red flag!
Rules for thee, not for me!
I hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feed the wildlife! They’re crying asshole!!!!!! Stop destroying everything to build a shopping center!!!!
Get the fuck out of my house!
Immigration is a Trojan horse!
Feed the birds! Squirrels! Trees!
Start bonding with earth!
As intended and designed!
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Please wake up now!!!!!!!
Sell your TV!!!!
Crow (poetry)
I wish I understood language of the crow
Been contemplating though
Talking to him through my window
And outside when I go
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Tendons (freestyle poetry)
I am boney tendons
I am without intention
I am deep in ascension
Got your attention?
Like comets missing
Circling new dimensions
I need intervention
Holy brigade of his suns
Shining light on this one
His favorite weapon
Energized confession
It’s called possession
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Postscript (contains free speech) 🫣
Holyshit, the wave is picking back up now. I’m in the eye of the storm.
I’m that scene when Trinity leaps from the building and falls into fawn mode
“Get up Trinity, get up…”
She had Neo to live for. The great anomaly. Love.
They wouldn’t even give John Jones a second phone call and it was Thanksgiving.
The real life ain’t the movies (but they made one about him and changed the most important details to suit Hollywoods agenda).
Now John has a nickname in heaven but I don’t like it very much. “LJ”
He likes his nickname but I don’t
It was on my upside down pineapple coconut cake
An L and a J
“LJ” was here
LJ (squared) (John Jones)
And if you don’t get the L reference – NICKNAME (too fucking bad)
Ask John what the L means
He will tell you
Or read some articles
I read every statement he said dying down there
Stuff from official Utah sources
Comments during the time
I READ COMMENTS FROM MICHAEL LEVITT VICTIM BLAMING
Recently a shadow formed on my wall in an L shape with a man hanging
He loves his new nickname but is sensitive to the fact that I’m yet not…
I made cake and I like feeding the squirrels and John has a new nickname
One day I’m gonna visit the caves
“LJ lives here”
It’s not even funny
It broke me
And I was dying of heart inflammation
He imprinted on me
His spirit
I want to cut Michael’s dick off
I want to do very bad things…
I bake experimental cakes instead
And the weed don’t work!
My meds stopped working!
“Get up Trinity, get up”!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am getting a new blog soon
This one can just exist as an archive of major fuckup disasters
New pen, new identity
New deck of cards
I did it for love. I don’t know what God has in store for me
I hope it’s not dying on the street
The good news:
I don’t actually have to jump from a bridge
I can buy a gun
🙂
(Which is better than hanging yourself with a belt in your hotel room like Chris Cornell and Michael Hutchence)
Bless
I was so upset when I learned Michael died of suicide when I was 10.
EVERYONE I LOVE IS DEAD (-)
Did I tell you that John has been saving my life
I should not have got vaccine number two after vaccine one caused me heart issues
I’ll never get another flu shot or vaccine again
How much do you love your job to push your agenda?
I’m a Soldier, going down in battle sounds better than this bullshit of self-sabotage or “committed”
I probably failed my review board as I feared even mentioning being homicidal – although it’s the reason they ask all vets at the VA now
“Are you feeling suicidal or homicidal today”
It was always just suicidal until I was saying, “oh I’m feeling more homicidal these days“…
And I graduated to group therapy but there’s holes in my walls
“I fantasize about dying”
“It’s not a field day out here”
But it will be if the cops show up for me
(If I die here, nobody will know I didn’t want to…)
Although I’ve been blogging pretty heavily about it
“I hate it here as much as John Jones hates that cave”
LJ bless
Love you bro…
Rather (poetry)
I’ll never wear fake jewelry again
And gifts received –
Returned with “I’d rather be dead”
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Lie (poetry)
“I’m not good with goodbye”
I know why you lie
Your head in her smile
Making me immobile
It’s all-or-nothing thinking
Oh look, I’m sinking!
“Depression is treatable!”
Unless you’re unagreeable!
I must be some kind of fool
I’m stupid too
Sinner or saint
I crossed a line
I filed complaint
Near heavens gate
What if my only plan is to love you
Like a wild sea
I’m raging
For you to pursue
One, two
Passing out the card
On top
First
To discard
I’m letting go of floppy drives
Pulling from my back the knives
How do I reach you?
Through the fog?
No dialogue?
The sky is blue?
There are still parts of me a virgin
Like my love for you
And I fell in my youth
I sit behind no curtains
Maybe old burdens
Cold and cursing
These serpents
Feast on virgins
I want to hurt them
Still converting
God is learning
My spirit forms in verses
Satan’s not in service
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
So apparently, I’ve ran more people off again, and this time it’s because I was busy… 🙃
Busy having a midlife crisis
Laughs
Dear Edgar,
We’re the same
With love from hell,
Your daughter!?!?
With Love From Hell (new book title idea but no idea has ever been my own and Google is broken)
Still fixing the mothership and vessels
48 hours ago was so intense
In the eye of the storm now
Gonna make upside down pineapple coconut cranberry cake today (with nuts and seeds)
Gonna eat it all….
I don’t know why I crawled deeper in the hole
It’s scary down here
No one could save me
STOP 🛑 ✋🛑 This section of the cave is not worth exploring. 2 people have required rescue.
Scratch that idea
Let’s close the cave for six months and make a new map without the dangerous location. That’ll keep em out.
6 months later…
John Jones crawling around with a headlamp from his childhood because even with strict entrance rules, the management was narcissistically terrible, and though quick to victim blame, twas managements fault. He got a promotion and award for killing Jones, FYI
“Why did you put me here?” John Jones (love you bro)
When there’s so much intensity followed by so much calm.
Make cake…
With coconut milk, coconut oil, coconut flakes.
NOM
Just a box cake glorified
Whatever they did to the medicinal, it doesn’t work for me anymore.
Florida is trying to make it recreational
Which is good cuz I’m done paying the state every 7 months to enter a 🏥 building
Fucking criminals creating addicts while modifying and poisoning the goods – it ain’t natural anymore – or generationally grown. It’s lab designed and shit. Stripped everything good out of it. Waste of time and money. Money drain pit.
And if you live in Missouri, you have to pay the state extra money if you want to grow your own weed, because fuck this establishment
“Globalism will be great” they said. I wasn’t convinced in college. I was right.
Never do listen to myself
This will change
That’s the intention anyway
Over and out
Slums (poetry and confession)
I’m down in the slums
Marching around
Counting my crumbs
Mostly dumbfound
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Two days ago I fed a squirrel.
Yesterday a squirrel grabbed my attention and brought a gang of his friends.
I fed them too.
I also added dry split pea to the seed and nut mix.
Now I got a bird grabbing my attention.
I’ll feed him too
I’m tempted to start buying squirrel and bird feed, and start spreading it everywhere (currently they’re eating my stash of food supplies) (I’m five pounds)
Stop on the side of the road, toss a bit
The city gonna start fining me for saving the world
It starts at home
And in your enemies backyard
They’re killing everything
Nihilism yah know
Psst I jumped into a deep pond
Now I’m somewhere 150 feet deep
I don’t want depth blackout
Thank God it was a full moon (I think)
It’s so cold down here a tear in my suit could send me to shock
I don’t know what’s next but the answers are coming (frighteningly)
I didn’t really have to crawl down here – but I panicked – and I did
I really deserve better than this
I think I’m learning my lessons and ready to try again
Need safe space
Where there is water moss will grow – especially when a source of warmth is involved
We can’t leave earth
Space exploration is a cool idea but that’s all it is and they go through great amounts to keep everyone asleep and hustling confusion
Astro physicist Neil Degrasse stated that the astronauts in the space station are not “in space”, he says “that is not space” and that he wants to go to the moon. He even stated the space station was “boring” and “didn’t want to do what 100 people have done before”
Let’s send Neil to the moon
Oh you lost all evidence on how to go eh
Oh the moon landing was rehearsed
Oh they didn’t have a phone line on the moon nor a way to talk from the moon to earth thus that famous quote we hear Neil say was actually recorded on earth (during rehearsal) (laughs)
So I might be moving
Onto the street
Come April 1st
Or, doors could be opening for me
There is no plan B currently
There is only isolation, packing/donating/selling/trashing my entire existence (minus some things I find valuable and I’d rather bury them in the dirt than tell you what they are)
I still sleep with my bayonet 🙂
I kept my vegan makeup and new closet items
And I’ve since added 4 new pairs of leggings to the collection (giving me 6 new pairs of comfies, nearly a week’s worth)
But some cause cancer
Laughs
So been hunting all cotton, wool, leather for wearing (sorry not sorry, natural does not hurt the eggs or delivery goods)
I’m not interested in memory foam no matter the name or price
That shit is toxic
Soon, the furniture will be removed from the apartment
The deep cleaning has already begun
I may need a shredding session like WaterGate
Only… I don’t know what files to keep or shred
People are dead
The deeds no longer matter
How long do you keep a receipt
And the looming tax files are the only thing I know for certain I should probably keep (medical and military records too)
Aside from that, I’ve got memories from folks and family I don’t want to remember
Or maybe I do
But all these things got to go
Things I’d like to do:
Yep so that’s about it…
Happy depression 2023
Offer (poetry)
There the offer stood
Like humiliation in the door
I guess life ain’t good
Unless you’re in a brotherhood
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Apparently the thing I was fighting for does have value.
Most everything else that was gifted to me was cheap, fake shit.
LAUGHS
Jumping ship
To where, to which?
To be continued…. (praying)
“Don’t let me go, Murph”
“Don’t let me sell, Murph”
Great time to sell, not-so-much to buy.
Couldn’t really turn things around.
Sometimes nurturing old faithful is the better (and less expensive choice) (lesson learned after much research)
3 too many doors too many
I’ll chill here awhile
God: “what are you doing out here, it’s been ten years.”
Me: fuck the god damn doors, they all lead to hell…
God: “come inside”
Me: I’m fine in purgatory thanks
The noise is sometimes reduced to soul screaming only
“I talk to dead people”
God: “I made hot chocolate”
Me: why didn’t you say!!!!!!!!
*crawls inside*
Did y’all know the Bible that has been re-written many times (red flag) is actually Luciferian
Tis is…
The earth is alive
We spawned from here
Nihilism is a plague
“Too many men” according to Asian science (with malicious intent and purpose)
Narcissism is a plague
Sold/donated/trashed nearly 44 years of my life
Was gonna sell my uniforms but probably outdated and old (tho some new lol)
But not old enough to be vintage sought after
Just basically obsolete because gentrification exists lol
Once the uniforms are gone, I’m completely lost down here
Can’t even take my training with me when I die
Welp
Dear World (poetry)
Bond (poetry)
I come without bond
Broken
Look inside
Heart ain’t coping
Like leaping ledge
Just barely hoping
Your foot will land
But surface sloping
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Man I am obsessed with cave diving deaths. Death in general because we were holding hands. Depth blackout terrifies me.
We can’t leave earth. We can’t even explore past 150 feet safely inside the earth.
What were you doing down there, John.
People will easily talk you into your death.
Give you maps withholding information needed to make valid decisions.
These demons try and avoid karma and fate by getting you to choose the wrong door.
I don’t want to go down with the ship.
There’s gonna be light at the end of the tunnel for me and that’s gonna be my way out of here.
Got an online offer on my Jeep. Not sure the avenue I’m going here – but why not downsize my ride.
I love her too much and I can’t take anything with me to heaven.
I also looked to see what they were being sold at with my mileage and year.
An SUV no longer serves my purpose here.
Would go down with the ship but why.
There were spaces on the lifeboat’s.
Lives could have been saved…
I’ve stopped crawling headfirst (still headstrong unfortunately)
“The answers are coming, rest Neo”
Nearly died, completely turning my life around.
Still learning basic concepts
Like how no man has ever seen me with any value – and destroyed everything I owned – while watching me work so hard to prove my worth/existence
But gentrification exists, because the rich hoard everything and they love us watching us fight for the cheap shit
A bone just to survive
I’m resetting my game. I’m allowed.
End game/Quit. Reset/Start over.
This time I go forward knowing my value to man is NONE.
Which is fine because 1-5 have an STD and I can’t look at any of them and take them serious.
Even if I wanted to date, the pool is tainted.
It ain’t worth the dive.
I live for God now. Sorry not sorry.
And I went back to the Mall. Spencer’s had even more hardcore sex toys out – and little boys were around.
I nearly threw up.
I don’t want anything to do with this porn infested devil society.
I’ll never know what it’s like to be valued or loved by a man – because I don’t have fake tits or come with “instant gratification” mode.
Sex with us commoners is boring to them
They hate our existence in general
The divorce rate is 85% and 1 in 5 men have an STD.
I know I’m boring and cheap so why you looking anyway.
You can’t afford me.
Honestly, it’ll take a miracle to get me to date now knowing one in five can give you cancer (there are some known parasites that can be spread through human contact) (they didn’t give us the nitty gritty in school but I got the good education some of the time)
Research parasites that cause cancer – then “human contact” (they won’t tell you it’s in the man’s sperm)
But you can catch a parasite from a cat box or kissing on an animal or eating food
The labs aren’t designed to see them (with malicious intent and purpose)
The elites were plagued with parasites
LAUGHS
I live for God now (unless he finds me a husband without an STI/STD or porn addiction or addiction of any kind unless to me)
🤪
BABES you can do this
It’s not end all
I did a CARMAX offer
If the physical offer holds up near as good as the digital, I may bite
Suddenly want a car…
Love the Jeep to much
Took good care of her, she’s at 75K miles
Feel frighteningly suicidal but at least this way she’s safe out of my hands
I want a little feminine car
And maybe some work from home or a hotdog stand
Do not want to die here
Do not want this hand
RESET GAME
“Are you sure, all data will be removed”
NO YES
No car, no address!
LAUGHS
Needed to lighten my load
Buoyancy
So many people have died exploring caves.
The earth is alive
Stop selling sex toys in front of minors. Like what the fuck
1 in 5 men have an STD and a divorce or three on their belt.
I got new skates for Christmas. Too much value, too much fun.
I once lived for man but they are obsessed with porn stars and always have money to impress and spoil and buy sex workers.
They love the backdoors and backrooms. Even the cleanest of them, the ones you’d never suspect cheating most definitely are. They use burner phones, identities, and make good use of work away from home.
In college I learned one husband gave his wife HIV/AIDS but started medication without telling her thus sealing her fate (it’s illegal to do this but men do not care) (the medication did not work for her because they did not start it together and he kept infecting her)
1 in 5 y’all
I may leave America all together
It’s disgusting here
My neighbors are gross
I want my neighbors to be the crocodiles and the crows
And a man that isn’t infected or at risk or risky behavior
Stop looking at me
Keep back ten feet
(I also researched other countries and their sexual health isn’t any better)
My best friend always said before she died by suicide age thirteen, “don’t be silly, put a condom on your willy” – Meika Capps
Miss yah babe!
In Case (poetry)
I tried to shake him off
He wouldn’t go
He’d only flutter
And bop around
Organize the clutter
Prepare for undertow
“I love you” he will mutter
In case I didn’t know…
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
He’s a very clever otter and must have been one in his previous life. He doesn’t mind my storms. He collects the debris to build a stable foundation and home. 🦦
New writing game. Write a poem about my mistakes. Tell the world.
Eminem made a name of himself being a fuck up and Edgar died on the street and I’m somewhere in between of I don’t know what’s next for me
So there’s your theme 🤪
I am dealing with some serious real life issues and it seems the devil enemy has got me surrounded
“I hate it here” John Jones
Hear, hear
All the shops are closed. I’m having a meltdown and they’re enjoying a 3-4 day calendar holiday that they invented
This timeline isn’t real
April fools because 13 months originally
When I realized two weeks ago that the entire world is not on the same calendar and Ethopia is seven years behind….
I sold my TV 📺
I have 8,000 photos scheduled for deletion
My best friend got rid of everything before she offed herself too
I just wanna move…
From this building to another off property and preferably out of city
I know it’s asking a lot when I don’t deserve anything
Or maybe I deserve better things
Than the things people monsters have destroyed
Turns out they look a lot like family and friends
I dunno, they’re all dead to me
I’m trying to ghost Apple
But I’ll likely have a comeback
It’s why I’m fighting for my life
It’s called will
Once you lose your will to survive, the mold will get you
Especially if your foundation was built on a swamp and is ran by an evil Chinese dictator overlord slumlord
GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY, DO NOT PASS GO
If globalism is the reason, the land keeps going up and all the taxes, then please for the love of fucking God, stop immigration
Living in a tent soon (if I’m lucks)
Ohhh tent never used – going in the to be sold at the pawn
One less item to worry with jumping ship
CMON John Jones! We getting da fuck outta here bro!
He ain’t been saving my life in vain….
(If only my therapist knew I was communicating with the dead)
(She knows about the holes in my wall…)
(She understands why the sex toys being sold in front of the children triggers me)
(Cuz I was sexually abused as a child)
(“Oh”) *quietly sobs*
The sins of the Father 🤩
Satan is the Devil ran by an evil Chinese dictator
I mean, I wrote a love poem.
It is the end of the world.
His love is the equivalent of “stopping to smell the bloody roses”.
I like when he cleans me hypothetically.
“You’ve got some on your nose…”
Same (poetry)
Midlife crisis
Or awakening
The sacrifices
They all look the same to me
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
First poem drop of the year
Hell Responded (poetry)
I lost all my worth, but Jesus has loved the worst
The Moon
A dead star
God’s mirror
Of a big scar
The start and finish are harder than the middle
But I’m not with good with riddle
Games that cost so little
Will leave your soul so brittle
Faith can neither be created or destroyed
It must be born
Crippling sky torn
Heaven scorn
“Love is the anomaly” they wanna kill it all
Watch God fall
Satan’s protocol
Written on the wall
I’m judgment call
Duly sworn
It’s what we wanted
Hell responded
Despondent
Regret is constant
Trust not an option
The cost of conscience
Into the sun a comet
☄️
Blame me I done it
But the sun won’t quit
I’m sincere in my insincerity
I’ve done stopped caring
Veins swollen from crying
Waiting on the greys from climbing
I’m not moving to Astoria
A town of euphoria
Urgent! Your plan is going to expire!
Like your book, it’s going in the fire!
It’s time to retire!
From sea to summit
Tell God I’ve done it?
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
I made an experimental toasted coconut almond lemon cranberry pound cake – and I love cooking thangs God grows. Even melted 1 teaspoon of butter and squeezed an entire lemon over the butter – added zero sugar – and glazed the top of the loaf with the sugar-free lemon butter nom.
My life is a mess and I might soon be homeless but today there’s a lemon loaf God bless.
The shit at the deli / bakery is poisoned. And they are charging triple to murder you.
My loaf was made with love, 3 eggs, coconut milk and coconut oil. I tried to better it. Especially with unsweetened coconut flakes, cranberries, and whole almonds.
My entire kitchen is ripped out and boxed up. My lease is up in April. I’ve no idea what’s happening next.
This is why Edgar wound up on the street.
And, I’m selling everything I own.
Do you remember that scene in Made in Heaven?
Emmett (playing as himself as God)
“Because of you, I can only smoke on earth now…”
I am a troublemaker but do not want to fall to Satan (sidenote)
But the scene was on the road and Mikey looked like shit
And Emmit was scolding him still and calling him a drifter
Mikey got offended and puffing off away from said stranger accusing him of “only being able to smoke down here on earth” and “a drifter”
“Me… I’m drifting buddy…”
Emmit demanded, “where are you going” and with a puff of the wind knocked him down
Put his foot on him and told him he was running out of time to find her…
That entire scene of Mikey ripping off his cheap, fake jewelry and throwing his cup of beer in the mirror.
THAT SCENE IS MY LIFE
I’m also the girl crying in the street
Because time is running out…
Warn (poetry)
This must be what it’s like for God to mourn
Fall down with thorn
Hope stillborn
I’m here to warn
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
The sign read: buy, sell, trade. But the sign was a lie. I plan to return and pass a note to the demon owner: it will flood again.
LAUGHS
“I’m only doing trades right now”.
I can’t wait to pass him a note like a little kid from school. Gonna skip off too.
He’ll be watching his monitors for weeks in a panic. Thinking I’m unhinged.
Laughs.
“The floods will come again”.
The Devil’s Hangman (mini rhyme & confessional)
There’s no ethics stored in science
And complaining is not compliance
I’m in hell on the wrong alliance
Now switching teams without guidance
Father is a predator
“I’m not good with metaphor”
Lies spun from the tongue
Feasting off the young
I’m so far segregated from my family tree
My neck is hanging
This place is cursed 🛑✋🛑
I’d rather live in a box
Out in the boondocks
Hunting with the crocs
Open meadows, zero locks
I hate it here
The neighbors in the rear
The cheaply atmosphere
Acting fake when not sincere
The fights always near
The loud knocking dear!!!
I wish therapy came with a cleaning course, demons have no remorse…
Like princess and the pea, I woke up with a needle under me….
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
So the reason I am so sensitive to sex toys being sold in front of children is because I was sexually abused as a child and my therapist kind of brought this point up to me yesterday, but it was a revelation point – like oh – I started crying.
And I am extremely triggered being exposed to sex toys especially when teenagers and children are around (my recent experience at the mall for example – I’ll never return). Humiliated and frightened to death. I don’t even own sex toys. It desensitizes the area. It’s Satanic (sorry not sorry) (manmade not of original design or use)
That stuff was always behind 21+ adult stores – behind black walls – the secret backrooms have become open orgy in the street.
This isn’t the same country I fought for. My values don’t match with what’s being forced on me.
My therapist has seen the worst of me and is proud of me. FYI. I’m like okay but there’s holes in my wall…
It took a lot to stop disassociating just to figure out what my values were and I know that they are not being a band, groupie propaganda whore, or sex bot
I have done some stripping in my life yes. But I was terrible at it. They all wanted more from me and got pissed when the answer was no. Pretty bias exists. The money no. I was rated a 5 in my 20s. Laughs out loud.
How to get rid of mold? Evacuate the premises. Don’t build on top a swamp ran by an evil Chinese dictator slumlord.
Gentrification is a thing, and the Fair Housing act just means this:
Base pay + give it time and they will start charging to wipe your ass
So forced to live in deplorable conditions – where white lives are in deletion (check the census asshole, it’s not just how people are reporting)
Black Lives Matter!!! White lives don’t!
Yay!!!!!!!
Being on fixed income doesn’t mean one can’t pay rent but now they are including all this other bullshit to keep people out 🚩
Who the fuck wants to pay $95 a month for cable reruns when the Internet is free?
Who the fuck wants to pay an extra $250 a month just to park their vehicle where they live?
Who the fuck wants someone else controlling their electricity and the temperature of their home?
The rich gents do. Gentrification. The Fair Housing act is bullshit.
Who the fuck wants to pay an extra $40 a month just to have storage space? Oh yeee a garage! That’ll be an extra fifty please. Go to jail. Do not pass go.
And… 100k in insurance for the cheap shit I no longer own!
$100 app fee ($25 in the 90s, it keeps creeping up each year) + now an additional $200 “admin fee”
Tell the pedos to get fucked
I’d rather live in a box
Than under BlackRock who are taking ownership of all the major towns and cities in the ungreat state of Florida, which has quickly turned to shit like California and New York, because the immigrants have fucking ruined it
I said what I said
Narcissism is a plague
Dogs were made in a lab in Asia and now they want to charge you for owning one in your home because pet rent you know and slavery
I hate living here as much as John Jones hates that cave
The map is hangman everywhere I go
And now they are fucking with the Second Amendment and trying to take our guns. By creating rules on who can own one if plagued by a mental illness (that they caused). Just like they changed the definition of a woman to benefit man. Anything to get closer to the children. Porn could be censored like our free speech. The way Elon Musk can censor a picture circulating of himself that he don’t like. Too much control and power. They don’t believe in God and they think they are gods. Just like they edited the Bible to suit their agenda. Condition you, change the rules. History rewritten before our eyes. But as long as you keep hitting your vape pen and being poly cuz lgbt is a cult and Satan is in society.
This timeline ain’t even real. Manmade traps to serve man only. They fucking hate women being in charge of creation and are destroying everything and plan to edit dna and rebuild a new earth where they are gods. It must end. 90% of all murders happen by men. Honeybees have a 50% reduced lifespan now thanks to gene editing. Human population is also down.
Doctors aren’t your friend. I’m not here to make amends; judgment hour: angel. What’s hard to comprehend? It’s hell or ascend.
Follow me if you wanna go off map and get lost….
RIP John Jones (as above, so below)
(What’s happening to me, happened to him)
Patterns are key to survival. Don’t ignore warnings or red flags.
The Great Void isn’t real. I want it to be but then I studied it. It’s made up to fit their expansion model. The Big Bang isn’t real. Science is fake. “We create our own reality”. Computers can’t feel. Please wake up.
I sold my TV.
I might be selling my military uniforms, but then I think oh my God, how fucking suicidal am I now
It’s this or the mold
I’m trying to escape gravity
Mold comes from the deep void
But the void ain’t real and we can’t leave earth
Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct
But now the honeybees are at 50% half-life thanks to science 😍
I watched a demon toss a live tree in the trash. Christmas is over. No remorse. What’s next to own and/or destroy? Fuck the poor. Fuck the white.
Fuck Native American too
Asia number one
Hurry die
Checkmate
Pornography Destroys American Morals and Culture
Step-by-step, pornography decays moral character, and when character decays, so does culture.
— Read on www.nationalreview.com/2016/04/pornography-destroys-american-morals-culture/
Men have been programmed to be monsters (and most men got into porn age 6)
They have no soul
The ‘E-Pimps’ of OnlyFans
Clever marketers have figured out how easy it is to simulate online intimacy at scale, ventriloquizing alluring models with cheap, offshore labor.
— Read on www.nytimes.com/2022/05/16/magazine/e-pimps-onlyfans.html
Y’all getting off on ghost writers.
Justice maybe.
You got an addiction and wasting your dough on e-pimps.
Selling sex toys at Walmart and turning every woman into a sex worker.
At least some are making money at it and not having their mental health destroyed.
Local Void (poetry)
Alas, The Great Nothing
I warned what was coming
Every single morning
Why’s no one running?
I’m sick of slumming
Overlord act cunning
Tell him I’m humming
I’m done succumbing
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Postscript *please do not read*
You ever have a near death experience that lasted a long time?
I just saw a demon toss a live tree in the trash.
Onto the next holiday.
Apparently honey bees have a reduced lifespan by 50% thanks to science.
I don’t recall voting on whether we were allowed to edit the DNA of bees.
Like I. Give. Up.
I’d really appreciate it if the doctors and scientists would stop killing everything. I know there’s a DNA ark in Antartica and since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct and honey bees are half life cycle now – so chill.
Not made by China India Mexico
Stop World War 3! 🛑✋🛑
Wakey wakey!!!
The weed don’t work cuz they fucked with it
Stop wasting your money
Unless you got some non gmo herb from before the 90s
Asking for a friend
Mold kills more trees every year than fires or people
Mold is of intelligent design and evil
Mold is from the fucking void
It’s in the walls
It can shapeshift
It can control animals
It loves darkness, death, and decay
Violence
I’m convinced we’re in hell
And holidays aren’t real – manmade time traps
Stop cutting down trees to decorate and trash
Stop murdering everything you fucking demons
I fed the lizards chilling on the air conditioning units today
Feed the god damn animals
Save the trees 🌲
Undertow (poem)
Moving forward, turning corners, never finding home
Keep listening, less speaking, and most are always wrong
I go the distance that few ever roam
Universal lessons keep me on my own
Often tribulations can only be learned alone
Weakened and discouraged I’ll stop but not for long
My heart more calloused and hard like bone
Whatever it takes to keep me strong
With wisdom of knowing looking back will turn me to stone
And so this lesson I pack up and carry
The weight of them always seem to vary
Some are black and some are cherry
Some will taste like a strawberry
Some will make you say Hail Mary
Some are found in the obituary
Most will leave you cold and weary
With eyes that sting and oh so blurry
These streets have roadkill of doubt and worry
Self-medicate to try and heal
Get the energy to climb uphill
Another battle of self-will
Another demon I have to kill
Swallow the pain just like a pill
Buried deep so I can’t feel
There’s mostly lows and little thrill
And not an exit out of here
By now my soul is feeling ill
The answers here are never clear
Tie my boot without goodbye
Can’t sit around and watch me cry
More of those with every sigh
If you open and peer inside
It will appear tie-dye
Like an endless horizon in the sky
Pinks and purples which mystify
There my soul longs to fly
Not depths of low but certain high
And not a tear in my eye
You’ll never get close to me
I live by this decree
Very few are worthy
But God has a skeleton key
Buried under a Joshua Tree
Searching will leave you thirsty
The depths I’ve cried fill up a sea
And by this I’m already drowning
It’s past my knee
The undertow came quickly
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
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