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Study Finds Men Want Love With Prostitutes

Are Men Looking For Love With Prostitutes?
— Read on www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2012/08/13/relationships-men-fall-in-love-with-prostitutes_n_1772680.html

It’s all been conditioning – these men have been buying sex since children

And now children can see and buy sex toys – toys aren’t behind a black curtain….

The Devil’s society…

Give it time, LGBT will have an orgy in the street.

Porn has ruined man

They fall in love with an idea – and the porn industry repeats the same story throughout years – with all sex workers.

They need the girls in the pictures so much that they use “commoners” as fleshlights

“No one knows why” – ahem bullshite it’s porn

Porn segregates us from unity, imprinting

Well – these boys are exposed to porn at a very young age and it imprints on them.

And image is important to them – gaslighting – so the Church offers a safe haven for these demons – who want us paying for their housing and meals.

They disassociate when they use porn so it’s like they become a completely different person and that’s why there’s no remorse when they do the shit that they do to you

They have an addiction created by the enemy to break up the traditional family value home – all while the immigrants take throne during “yellow fever”

Suicide is a top leading cause of death worldwide

Porn is the gateway drug to ruin

It could be easily censored like they do my free-speech

All the little commoners who get on onlyfans, they just use us up like they do in the real world 

Most anyway

OnlyFans say most users loose out – it’s only the top folks with value (society is the Titanic)

They steal money from users too

And as much as I love blogging, I don’t want to continue paying the enemy

Pay to play

I’d rather die than give the state another penny

And I can’t even visit Orlando without having to pay four tolls to return and they aren’t cheap anymore 

It’s the same fucking county, but I have to pay to return to the city I’m registered to live in.

Florida is gone

Overrun with evil and immigration

I mean immigrants get here and naturalize faster than we can even procreate or vote 

Native Americans were doing just fine here until my bloodline was nearly wiped out by the fucking immigrants that you say bring so much greatness to our country

I fantasize about dying by suicide in terrible and terrifying ways

I know you’re a nihilist and do not care what happens to me…

”To be seen and not heard” while man destroys everything

But as long as we are making him a meal and doing everything for him

While he jerks off to the pretty women prostitutes

And by telling a man not to fall in love with you, they probably absolutely fucking do fall in love with these prostitutes (not commoners)

Because even the guys without any teeth, think they deserve a ten star 

And I’ve never been rated a 10 or treated with any value

Lots of marriage proposals though 

Fleshlights….



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Charts show immigration have our best jobs

In 2019, there were 28.4 million foreign-born people in the U.S. labor force, comprising 17.4 percent of the total.
— Read on www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2020/foreign-born-workers-made-up-17-point-4-percent-of-labor-force-in-2019.htm

I know what it says but look at the chart – immigrants have overtaken 3 of those categories and are quickly nearing the other 2 categories of work filled

And, according to the color, Florida is absolutely gone (same as California and New York – all owned by immigrants)

THEY HAVE ALL OUR BEST JOBS

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And you’re a fucking child…

Please don’t refer to me as an “older woman” again

Or group me there

I know you’re a pedophile

And I’m GENX

But I’m only your 8 years senior

And that’s with the 10 year “decade” window

It’s considered NORMAL

And the couple that was recently murdered here in Daytona Beach – during bike week – double homicide from a BLM immigrant – she was only 8 years older than him – they had recently bought their dream home that they were biking home to

He stalked them and gutted them near a school

Now he gets better treatment for his mental health than I do and I served my fucking country and am facing homelessness (again) (sigh)

“You will own nothing and you will be happy”

You mean like stalk people?

Hunting them down like you want to gut them in the street.

I mean, yeah

You get 3 meals a day, an hour of sunshine, dental, free rent.

Where is the punishment?

I sit in an overpriced run down 4×4

The amenities aren’t even opened on the weekends, no 24/7 gym pool but paying the price like a fool

But due to gentrification in the housing market – it’s kinda hard to move up to the east side

This entire society is built on narcissism, the very foundation is a lie

Did all your dreams come true in Nam?

I’m about to jump off a fucking dam…

Don’t call me older ever again

It’s barely 8 years

Oh, it’s because I’m over 29 huh

And you’re a pedo

Don’t call me old when I’m still bleeding from my legs every three weeks you fucking insensitive asshole

I hate you

But, I do have the eldest blood of all the bloodlines

It’s kind of hard to bleed yourself dry when you think on yer superpowers

Fucking old

Like 13.7 billion years or something

At least get it right…

I’m not old, I’m glorious and that’s why guys are chasing me down when I’m in the isles crying

They just wanna spend time with me

I look like a dying zombie but many are mesmerized

I don’t know what they see

The age always disappoints them

I don’t talk to men anymore anyway

The new responses will be, “oh honey, I’m not Asian”

“I’m not a fleshlight”

OR

“You can’t afford my fleshlight”

That’ll really fuck em’ up

God didn’t make me hush

It’s possible he left his ministry to me because everybody seems to keep calling me a whore

And treating me with little value

I probably have a fortune in Bibles lying around, but you know

“I asked you to prove to me the Bible was re-written and not give opinion”

“The version is on the cover”

“This comment no longer exists”

Pop goes a demon

This is why heaven is empty

This is why my views are low

“Because of you, I can only smoke down here now”

Oh goodie, I’m glad I make messes in heaven still

The way I do on earth…

“God is love”

“Love is the great anomaly”

God was here!?!

God lives here!?!

Gotta get his house cleaned up

He doesn’t treat me ill

Creating bonds just to break

Breaking souls

To get a rise cuz you are numb and void and soulless and without remorse

Women over 40 have value – even if society has ruled us obsolete

Because you’ve been brainwashed by society to be a pedophile

And we’re meant to socially bond very young…

Imprinting

We’re not born to be your fleshlights

I got educated to save a life

It’s not my fault that doesn’t impress you

Or my tiny savings

One and five men have an STD and a divorce under their belt

Not interested in your opinion of me any longer…

Dig?

Women over boost men’s egos to not get murdered – in general

Men obviously are crazy and go through hormonal changes if “90% of all murders happen by men” and you know women get prosecuted harder for crimes cuz we rarely do

If more women committed crimes, the punishment would be less severe (like men)

And a demon has no remorse so therapy is invalid

My mental health is being destroyed with malicious intent and purpose, and has been since I was born

But I get called crazy for having to deal with being told what to do 24/7

Man has put his overrule over everything – trying to be god

Changing time

Literally trying to control women’s periods with birth control and everything else they do

Trying to control every aspect of time

“Time is energy” and they control the energy crisis too

Trying to fix the weed – the premium weed is weaker than homegrown from the 90s – it ain’t premium – it’s expensive junk and shite

Trying to control the food supply

“Natural flavor” in everything

The Great Filter of nihilism

Destroy everything God created

Man trying to take over and control

Making humans in a lab

Cloning

Honestly, you can’t even listen to the music because they did something to the frequency to cause depression

They are using weather modification and they openly talk about it now, so you can’t keep calling me a conspiracy theorist

It’s ruining the earth

Causing disasters

“But the insurance will cover it” (another filter)

No one wanted insurance, but they pushed it on us, just like they pushed the one child law on China residents (whom had been brainwashed into believing it was a good thing) (over 1 million parents lost their only child – and too late for many women to conceive after it was lifted – and many men left their wives for a younger one. But there aren’t enough women anymore and “too many men” due to their science! (All planned)

The white race is systematically being destroyed through racism (it’s not how we’re reporting dummy)

I don’t want to live my life through a computer screen or an algorithm

Most of China is depressed – apart from gentrification and “them”

Also, that Chinese politician who implemented that law and went to jail, he lives in America now

All the bad ones are allowed entry here…

They are fighting wars from a computer screen now and accidentally blowing up families an Afghan and going Oh sorry you can come live in America though.

They bring their entire family here

Violent upbringing and all…

Black Lives Matter

RIP couple gutted in the street – this isn’t the same country I fought for – I’ve wanted out of Daytona Beach since that violent crime – and crime continues to rise here despite reports of “best place to live” (it is not)

And they are forcing workers to work alone, and people are robbing the place and getting murdered – fuck that – I’m not dying for you and your goddamn taco

Jim Morrison was from Florida and loved tacos 🌮

And I love a little taco job – but I ain’t dying for this society – which is sinking faster than the Titanic

Go USA (the American Asians identity as “CHINESE American” and value Chinese culture” and only vote 1 way

We’re just pawns in their sick game

Just because you work in a factory 18 hours a day and allow your fucking government to dictate how many children you have – it doesn’t make you smarter – it makes you fucking dumb, not hardworking

And I’m so glad that family value and living together generations together like cockroaches is valuable to you because you’ve broken up the family home in America to have this – to fucking have America

Immigration is a Trojan horse and only the immigrants are happy here

FYI

They’re miserable in China too, because they fucking brown nose their government

My boomer mom believes anything the Bible or government says too

And you can’t tell her otherwise

It’s been cold here all day. The lizards haven’t even come out and I wish I had a little heater for them.

I made a vegan dish and I’m eating it and I also got a rebound session in

I may take a break from blogging for awhile, while I try to figure out how to detox from fucking weed – never had a problem with weed until government and science got involved

But now I have an addiction and suicidal ideation, and PTSD complications for voting yes for medicinal

I’m done voting – anyone can do it

And the immigrants who come here and their fucking teenage children, they actually get naturalized and get to vote sooner than the people fucking born here

I’m no longer participating in society therefore, I am not voting or doing any of this man-made bullshit anymore

Toxic masculinity

You barely hear of any women in the Bible, and when you do, they’re called a whore

“Men can have babies” (you see the conditioning) (cloning LGBT human rights vs AI has feelings)

The men are just monsters who are pedophiles and will do anything to get to the children fleshlights

I read about how y’all are buying wives and how horribly you treat them because you bought them

Shame you can’t take care of your creators (men come from vagina)

I’m sorry you’re mad about it – we didn’t make the rules

Men do spread parasites through their cum which can cause cancer and other health problems

It doesn’t affect men the way it does women (many men have no signs but are ill)

Anyhoo

The government gave me an addiction with malicious intent and purpose

“Premium content”

And pay the state to enter a medical building for wellness – while sex toys are sold in front of children (conditioning)

LGBT is a cult and all over the walls of the VA now

Why was I always shamed for being a girl and told to cross my legs growing up but gay men are fucking dry humping everything and dressing tacky in public 24/7

Just because it’s a song or art doesn’t make it okay or right

That stuff was always at the gay bars and that’s where it should be along with the sex toys at the 21+ stores

I said what I said

Apparently, China have a “savings problem” and they don’t want to spend and that’s my problem now, I have a savings problem, I don’t want to spend either…

I don’t have a man who wants to build me a house, but it would be fucking amazing if we could build one together

I’ve never even been valued enough to be taken to the opera, or given a piece of jewelry with any worth

Still – men seem taken back by my ugliness or beauty (I’m undecided which)

Pretty enough for them – just don’t like my petite frame (but you do Asians huh)

I don’t remember the guy I was dating for three or four months, but he was really into me I thought until one day he broke up with me and said that my pussy was great. He liked my personality, but he hated my tits.

I was in my early 20s

And even with all the negative conditioning, I still did not go get plastic surgery, even though there were times I could afford to do so, instead of traveling

But I got to breast-feed, and had hopes of doing it again

I think I’m human still

It’s human vs demon here (and many of you disassociate from what you truly are, a monster)

But you choose to be despite things and entities trying to push you that direction

Every time my true soulmate gives himself away to another lover, I go further extinct

I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore because none of you want to change anything

You all want the world to end

I’m outnumbered unfortunately

You had me believing I had no worth when it was really you

I was hoping to save someone

And are you paying attention to the 18-year-old and 56 year olds dying?

Vaccine death jab (I’m at risk for ASDS)

Adult sudden death syndrome

I’ll never get another flu shot or vaccine again and I’ll never trust a doctor and I’m just gonna go with what God gave me

Men are pulling the veil on us while destroying the world

90% of all murders happen by men

There’s enough food, and everything to go around for everybody, but they have us in this dark field

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China drops one-child policy

Lavishing attention on an only child takes its toll on parents.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/china-drops-one-child-policy-but-exhausted-tiger-moms-say-one-is-plenty/2016/10/14/336f1890-8ae7-11e6-8a68-b4ce96c78e04_story.html

China is the biggest political fuck up power in the world 🛑🥴⚠️🫣👀🛑

And they took over America 🇺🇸

Constantly telling us what we can and cannot do

Crippling a nation with divorce, disease, depression!

I don’t fucking trust you if you’re in a position of power or brown-nosing these ridiculous policies.

And I think a lot of Americans are ready for the big immigration push back.

Too much conflict of interest – everything benefiting other nations (who took throne here).

Check the migration stats, jobs, and census. Do you have reading comprehension though?

This is 2023 (not really – it’s a manmade calendar and they took away a month! April fools! The gaslighting in this society never ends.)

Always got us chasing our tail!!!! 

It’s 7 years behind in Ethiopia

I wasn’t learning about that in school when they were teaching about “time zones”

I hated every moment of school and working 90 hours a week (2-3 jobs) to pay my electric and rent

I keep hoping to have hope – that my future includes a real bond with a man, as God intended. A pure love where he isn’t giving his best energy and time to other women.

But, even if a man is going through a Great Awakening, when he settles down, he’ll go for the young one.

I’m obsolete

Thank you for pushing me into the extinction zone

“Men can have babies”

Have fun with that

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In China and India, men outnumber women on a massive scale.

China and India have 70 million more men than women. The consequences are far-reaching.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/graphics/2018/world/too-many-men/

All the violence. And we open our borders in America and let them extend the same violent upbringing on us. Porn is an issue but let’s just destroy the world so you can keep gaslighting and jerking off.

He bought his wife and demanded sex four times a day and beat her when she did not comply. Then she fled and left her 3 year old daughter with him.

Pedophilia starts in the home.

“Too many men” and too much violence. Porn activates the primitive side of the brain. Rape, murder, lies.

This society is all built on a crumbling lie.

Those in power want the world end so they can rebuild it under their fucking rule – using AI, and the DNA ark in Antartica.

They are playing god and creating a matrix filter (the great filter is real) where generations born will be made under them.

So they can claim all this as their own – as they believe they are god

The Bible has been re-written many times (it’s called versions dummy) and is Satanic

There is so much fearmongering and narcissism in the Bible. Just like Hollywood and NASA (asteroids are bombs)

I’m not saying asteroids aren’t real, but they can’t stop dropping bombs everywhere….

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

“6th mass extinction”

But as long as you can cum….

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The holy inquisition yellow fever madness (free speech)

Let him get back to the holy inquisition yellow fever madness
Magical pussies
Walking on water
Delusions of grandeur

Hello God

*waves*

It’s astounding to me that these yellow fever men do not have the sensibility to see – on the cover itself – which edition of the Bible they are reading

Because there are many versions

And they are different

The Old Testament versus the New Testament

The new revised standard version

The King James version

New International version

New Living translation

Just the fact that it was translated is a red flag – I watch basic movies in both languages – the original or translated – and the translated version most always certainly changes the meaning

Remember that study, where you tell someone something – and by the time it reaches the other end of the room – it’s completely changed.

Something simple like “the sky is red” will turn into “the sky is bleeding”! It’s obviously misleading (The Bible)

(I think I’ve read them all – I have a stack of varyingly different versions, some with the word of Christ “in red” (the conditioning), some that are super tiny, some large, and the first I ever received age 4 – in color, with a map).

Men try to control my every thought and move – but didn’t think I’d be smart enough to study the Bible and learn anything other than “to be seen and not heard”, “women come from rib of man”

No Asia, everyone comes from vagina – and not just magical Asian ones

Men come from vagina

Men cannot have babies

I will go down fighting

God exists outside the yellow fever Bible – that has been re-written many times – and the edition can be found on the cover – it’s not opinion asshole

Furthermore, I do have a degree and did study World Religions.

But because I’m white and female – my word will always just be “opinion” to man who creates and controls this entire delusional world – that I don’t want to participate in!

I don’t have value because I’m not an Asian with a magical sideways pussy.

Y’all are fucking insane

Porn destroyed you

But keep blaming marijuana as the gateway drug OK?

You’ll soon be selling sex toys at the church for health and wellness

The way you are now selling sex toys at Walmart, Dolls Kill, CVS, Walgreens, the mall…

You don’t even need to be 21+ anymore to enter

It’s all been conditioning

And because Asians supposedly are the “most educated and hard working” they come over here and they take all our best jobs too and that’s also not fucking opinion

I’m pretty much done voting, dating, or looking at men

If you are white, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you support the Bible, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you are married to an Asian, you most definitely have yellow fever

If you look at me with any interest, I’m gonna assume you have yellow fever

If you are alive, you have yellow fever

If you act interested in me, I’m just gonna reply “I’m not a ten, I’m not Asian”

“I don’t want to be your fleshlight”

And that’s what living with real autism is like

Many of Genzie and millennials, who claim to be “autistic” are really just emancipated

I’m kinda disgusted with humanity and those “in charge” ruining everything with religion and race

They use art and cartoon to get yeah

And NASA admitted it’s all “CGI artist interpretation”

James Webb only sees in red

I don’t know how else to get through

The rest is just data and numbers

Dots

They assign colors to numbers

It’s not even art, it’s an algorithm

And I’m tired of being conditioned to think that AI is art, it’s fucking not

It’s cutting corners

It’s lazy

It’s cheap (tho expensive lol)

Like I worked really hard to be a decent woman for man

And you all have yellow fever

At least the majority do

The fact that I’m still ascending (descending into hell)

The fact that God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore

“Where do you get your truth”

Not from the Bible – it uncovers the grand lie

The Great Pyramid scheme

The Great Wall of Deceit (is being disassembled on the black market and sold to build homes yassssssss – tear down the wall)!!!!!!!!

Did it ever occur to you that I am the truth

I’m one of God’s angels (I declare this and identify as angelic)

I am a truthmonger

I’ve been questioning my parents and the establishment since I was very young and I knew this was all bullshit

“How do you know the sun is so far away, you’ve been?” (Asked age 5)

“We shon a laser on a wall”

And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, or whatever news it is because you won’t believe me anyway, but the sun is electrical and closer to us than you’ve been told

Now I don’t mean plug in a socket electrical

But water exists as a fourth stage: plasma

Also, the Moon is a dead star (earth probably actually formed from her but whatev)

Again, I never believed the earth-moon theory

Never believed in the Big Bang model

Or the evolution theory

Or, that “women come from the rib of man”

If that somehow makes Asian women better than me – because I don’t believe in delusions of grandeur – and instead equality – then so be it. I’ll die alone without any worth from man cuz I’m not plastic surgery or yellow nor will bow to them simply to bow

Respect is earned

I know my worth even though I’m constantly crying to God “I’m worthless”, “I don’t deserve anything”

Apparently, this new age weed can cause suicidal ideation, and further complicate PTSD.

I’m getting off it now as I’ve never been more suicidal in my life

Big pharma also made me extremely homicidal

I will be real with you – so-in-so needs to go ahead and file multiple restraining orders- and I hear the more you have – the less they work

“90% of all murders happen by men“

But the other 10% – !?!

Are people worth going to jail for? No

But if you’re already dying and dead…

And you’ve sold or trashed everything you own…

What’s to lose!?!

It’s not murder if eye for eye

“You took my life”

But I have faith that God wants more for me than dying on the street or revenge from atrocities

It can go either way

I’m prepared for the worst outcome – dying

It won’t be jail or committed

DO NOT MOURN FOR ME

Porn has made it that man has no value at all – though he is racist to his core

I read into many articles about yellow fever – and migration patterns to the USA

It’s only the immigrants who say that are satisfied with their income and family here – and I summed it up to gentrification.

And now Biden made it so non- citizens can vote.

Americans are slaves to the Asian and Asian Americans who identify mostly as “Chinese American” and mostly only care about Chinese culture

Chinese culture has taken over America including yellow fever

Magical childlike pussies huh

Y’all are disgusting

I don’t wanna look at anybody in the eye

Some guy paying me a compliment: “I’m not Asian, shut up”

I don’t even wanna hear what any have to say…

I’m not Asian therefore white lives don’t matter

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I’m done voting (free speech)

Non-citizens are allowed to vote now

Our best jobs are given to the brightest and most brilliant immigrants who move here and naturalize – have children – and give those children the good jobs; the president said “they come here and take our best jobs”. Yep.

Our children (native) must wait 18 years to get a say…

They come here, and ruin Americans with propaganda and take their right to vote away, thousands of Americans are not allowed to vote because of crimes they already paid for.

I love everything

But the immigrants continue to destroy the environment to build a mall or shopping center that will be abandoned in a few years

Narcissism is a plague

Nihilism

I can’t stand it

And I’m tired of people trying to force my mouth closed when I am a soldier and politics is what I’m aware of

Florida is sinking

The whole of America has sunk

This isn’t about your green card!

Native Americans live on plantation’s like suppressed little slaves

Unless Hollywood TikTok has given them limelight

Narcissism

Manmade cats are unnatural for the environment – destroying nature

Dogs and cats spread disease

Also “made in China” and the first Bible can be traces back to Asia

Gonna follow the trails to the caves in Antartica and cut off their heads

(Thinking out loud again)

They keep adding all these additional charges to carry a smart phone and I’m ready to sell mine or downsize to a boring dumb phone.

The Internet is all predator, propaganda, and porn. Spam and spyware. Viruses. And they make us pay for it….

I’m over everything

Voting especially.

It’s all glaringly corrupt

I will not shut up…

Things need to be fixed

People from other countries shouldn’t get to move here and vote sooner than our own children and selves who are native to here

But that’s not what the article’s will say

Just like the bullshite globalism agenda spread through the college professors – that I always argued with – the articles will say non-citizens being allowed to vote is a good thing

I disagree

Conflict-of-interest

Period!

Remember them telling us “don’t discuss your income in the workplace”

That’s because shady business was going down

Now some states are requiring full income disclosure

I don’t believe the government can have transparency without gaslighting and a lie

This whole society is built on lovebombing, triangulation, gaslighting, lying.

“Don’t block me out, Emmet. I know you can hear me!”

Because the Christian God is narcissistic and evil. The Bible today is a fallacy – and to your own accord – a sin.

Emmet was always around the children. And smoking.

He can’t keep a straight face!

Pedo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Scene forward:

“And you can keep the jewelry! It’s fake!” *sinister laugh

And I was holding onto the gold like it had value because I put value on the cheapest things

“The thought NO LONGER counts” fixed

Men have devalued me for so long I no longer wanna look them in the eye

Annie no longer cares about the toys, she stated this.

Annie was depressed because Emmet said she would be

Tough love

“Keep your eye on the toys Annie, you know about toys”

How about stop conditioning me!!!!!!!!

Free will please!!!!!!!!

But not so much free will I jump in a whirlpool on ketamine like Jacob!

God bless what the fuck

I barely can dip my toes in the water without screaming

I don’t like anything in this society

Edgar was right to die on the street – naked – out of his mind

“The children have gone insane” and are boomers in position of power

Gen X the silent dangerous generation

I’m glad we’ve been ghosted by society

Won’t see me coming

And… while we’re on the subject

That cheap junk you’re wearing, that isn’t cotton, actually causes insanity, is extremely flammable and hard to put out

I bet the people in Pompeii were wearing synthetics

People dropping bills to buy foam shoes (which cause cancer/insanity)

All that sports clothing

JUNK

And I hate how they came over here and changed the meaning of silk, satin, and Cordaroy to now mean synthetics

“Men can have babies!!!!”

Well, I mean that’s good and all that you’re growing babies now because you’ve pretty much made most women infertile with nihilism or the death jab or emancipation

Fake tits are gross

Plastic surgery is the devil

Narcissism at its root

I said what I said

Happy to help

I can’t even look at Melanie Griffith anymore, because of what she did to herself

I’m ghosting HollyWood

Grooming everyone to fuck children

Many famous people won’t let their children around TV

Red flag!

Rules for thee, not for me!

I hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feed the wildlife! They’re crying asshole!!!!!! Stop destroying everything to build a shopping center!!!!

Get the fuck out of my house!

Immigration is a Trojan horse!

Feed the birds! Squirrels! Trees!

Start bonding with earth!

As intended and designed!

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

Please wake up now!!!!!!!

Sell your TV!!!!

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The Devil’s Hangman (mini rhyme & confessional)

There’s no ethics stored in science
And complaining is not compliance
I’m in hell on the wrong alliance
Now switching teams without guidance

Father is a predator
“I’m not good with metaphor”
Lies spun from the tongue
Feasting off the young

I’m so far segregated from my family tree
My neck is hanging

This place is cursed 🛑✋🛑

I’d rather live in a box
Out in the boondocks
Hunting with the crocs
Open meadows, zero locks

I hate it here
The neighbors in the rear
The cheaply atmosphere
Acting fake when not sincere
The fights always near
The loud knocking dear!!!

I wish therapy came with a cleaning course, demons have no remorse…

Like princess and the pea, I woke up with a needle under me….

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

So the reason I am so sensitive to sex toys being sold in front of children is because I was sexually abused as a child and my therapist kind of brought this point up to me yesterday, but it was a revelation point – like oh – I started crying.

And I am extremely triggered being exposed to sex toys especially when teenagers and children are around (my recent experience at the mall for example – I’ll never return). Humiliated and frightened to death. I don’t even own sex toys. It desensitizes the area. It’s Satanic (sorry not sorry) (manmade not of original design or use)

That stuff was always behind 21+ adult stores – behind black walls – the secret backrooms have become open orgy in the street.

This isn’t the same country I fought for. My values don’t match with what’s being forced on me.

My therapist has seen the worst of me and is proud of me. FYI. I’m like okay but there’s holes in my wall…

It took a lot to stop disassociating just to figure out what my values were and I know that they are not being a band, groupie propaganda whore, or sex bot

I have done some stripping in my life yes. But I was terrible at it. They all wanted more from me and got pissed when the answer was no. Pretty bias exists. The money no. I was rated a 5 in my 20s. Laughs out loud.

How to get rid of mold? Evacuate the premises. Don’t build on top a swamp ran by an evil Chinese dictator slumlord.

Gentrification is a thing, and the Fair Housing act just means this:

Society is a scam

Base pay + give it time and they will start charging to wipe your ass

So forced to live in deplorable conditions – where white lives are in deletion (check the census asshole, it’s not just how people are reporting)

Black Lives Matter!!! White lives don’t!

Yay!!!!!!!

Being on fixed income doesn’t mean one can’t pay rent but now they are including all this other bullshit to keep people out 🚩

Who the fuck wants to pay $95 a month for cable reruns when the Internet is free?

Who the fuck wants to pay an extra $250 a month just to park their vehicle where they live?

Who the fuck wants someone else controlling their electricity and the temperature of their home?

The rich gents do. Gentrification. The Fair Housing act is bullshit.

Who the fuck wants to pay an extra $40 a month just to have storage space? Oh yeee a garage! That’ll be an extra fifty please. Go to jail. Do not pass go.

And… 100k in insurance for the cheap shit I no longer own!

$100 app fee ($25 in the 90s, it keeps creeping up each year) + now an additional $200 “admin fee”

Tell the pedos to get fucked

I’d rather live in a box

Than under BlackRock who are taking ownership of all the major towns and cities in the ungreat state of Florida, which has quickly turned to shit like California and New York, because the immigrants have fucking ruined it

I said what I said

Narcissism is a plague

Dogs were made in a lab in Asia and now they want to charge you for owning one in your home because pet rent you know and slavery

I hate living here as much as John Jones hates that cave

The map is hangman everywhere I go

And now they are fucking with the Second Amendment and trying to take our guns. By creating rules on who can own one if plagued by a mental illness (that they caused). Just like they changed the definition of a woman to benefit man. Anything to get closer to the children. Porn could be censored like our free speech. The way Elon Musk can censor a picture circulating of himself that he don’t like. Too much control and power. They don’t believe in God and they think they are gods. Just like they edited the Bible to suit their agenda. Condition you, change the rules. History rewritten before our eyes. But as long as you keep hitting your vape pen and being poly cuz lgbt is a cult and Satan is in society.

This timeline ain’t even real. Manmade traps to serve man only. They fucking hate women being in charge of creation and are destroying everything and plan to edit dna and rebuild a new earth where they are gods. It must end. 90% of all murders happen by men. Honeybees have a 50% reduced lifespan now thanks to gene editing. Human population is also down.

Doctors aren’t your friend. I’m not here to make amends; judgment hour: angel. What’s hard to comprehend? It’s hell or ascend.

Follow me if you wanna go off map and get lost….

RIP John Jones (as above, so below)

(What’s happening to me, happened to him)

Patterns are key to survival. Don’t ignore warnings or red flags.

The Great Void isn’t real. I want it to be but then I studied it. It’s made up to fit their expansion model. The Big Bang isn’t real. Science is fake. “We create our own reality”. Computers can’t feel. Please wake up.

I sold my TV.

I might be selling my military uniforms, but then I think oh my God, how fucking suicidal am I now

It’s this or the mold

I’m trying to escape gravity

Mold comes from the deep void

But the void ain’t real and we can’t leave earth

Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct

But now the honeybees are at 50% half-life thanks to science 😍

I watched a demon toss a live tree in the trash. Christmas is over. No remorse. What’s next to own and/or destroy? Fuck the poor. Fuck the white.

Fuck Native American too

Asia number one

Hurry die

Checkmate

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I live for God now (poetry in 8 words)

Tender mercy
Sharpening knives
Overwhelming worry
Ending lives

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

I apparently don’t believe in abortion or euthanasia.

“Thou shall not kill” hits differently for Angel Baby.

Non stop worry and crying followed by a dopamine boost of milk, cinnamon and sugar… left before my free refill, welp… (and left crying lol) (also learned I’m not into normal things)

The little mutt may be a Frankenstein made in a lab, but he has a soul and a heartbeat, and I’m not getting in the way of God or his plans and whatnot.

So I have a hellhound in this timeline. He hates it here (this location) as much as John Jones hates that cave.

Hear, hear

The crows were never here the prior four years.

Neither was BlackRock – who took control of this building

I need out the city

The Titanic is sinking overrun with racism and murder of white folk by Black Lives Matter but white lives don’t

Check the census. It’s not just how people are reporting stupid.

“So you don’t believe in interracial marriage”

You can marry who you want but I don’t want to live in a predominantly black neighborhood ever again…

I’m autistic angelic

I curse and say “autistic”

I’m gonna get committed

The enemy is in a white coat and White House

My mama think I got a “dirty mouth”

Over and out…

To those still lurking, thank you. Maybe one day, a night bloom.

Hell is freezing waters. Heaven has daughters.

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Christmas is Canceled (poetry)

I blame the world
For all my problems
Every single one
☝️

But I’m responsible
For what I’ve done
Every circumstance
The Devil spun

Drawing blanks
Loaded gun
Eyes clearly focused
Though in the sun

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

If I cut the cord, I’ll never be the same

In hindsight, it’s what I want, but not this way

An opportunity, to fix mistake

To save oneself

But at the cost of another…

So who is really being saved

Have you seen that zombie film with Arnold Schwarzenegger?

He couldn’t fix his mistake either

Prolonged the suffering…

It’s one of his best films next to Terminator. Highly underrated.

Cuz it’s all emotion.

That ending scene…

He couldn’t do the one thing she asked her dad.

Coward.

Being vague, because I don’t want to spoil the details.

No one cares about that film but me

Currently I’m going through a situation in where I don’t wanna do what I probably clearly outta

And my only outlet of expression is a poem to a private blog

*laughs insanely*

The isolation is starting to drown me

And you know what they say about a drowning man

Revenge

It really is better served cold and calculated

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Walmart is selling sex toys online in the health department (proof)

When I was growing up, sex toys were in the “Adult stores” that were age 21+ and only

But now anyone can buy sex toys at any age – (the Mall is also selling adult toys in front of children; conditioning).

Look how the algorithm includes suggestions

And over 1000+ search results….

So this is America now.

I am LOUDLY quitting

And I just thought you should know

What our children have been exposed to

And how you should stop supporting the enemy

Boycott Walmart

Boycott Walmart

I did send up feedback in the app to the AI in control

I am uninstalling the app

I’m gonna keep starving until I find food that isn’t poisoned 🤢

No one is doing anything to protect my precious energy

I do not own sex toys and have not for years

They desensitize

It’s not actually “healthy” despite being sold in the health department online

What’s next? The gas stations? Next to the crack pipes?

Also, Walmart is adding natural flavor to the beef. It ain’t vegan if it’s got natural flavor in it.

Go look for yourself if it will help you transition

The firming agent in the beans is actually ruining the beans!

When is the uprising again?

Y’all all have so many addictions.

Synthetic material is highly flammable, and when they go to drop their little bombs in the air, you’re gonna go poof poof

It’s extremely hard to extinguish

Corduroy was always 100% cotton (no synthetic fibers)

But now that the Chinese government openly control everything – they are changing the literal definition and meanings of words.

The first Bible can be traced back to Asia.

“Made in China”

The Bible has also been rewritten so many times that it’s Luciferian in nature.

Still think porn should be widely circulated on social media – while our free speech is not?

The Internet should be made 21+

I see one little thing and get traumatized

My sexual energy is pure

My body

There are parts of me untouched and untainted

I have a shit ton to learn with a man

If and when the time ever comes

And God knows the sacrifices I’ve made to cleanse myself of a curse

I’ve got holes in my fucking wall…

I need out of the city

I don’t want to support the enemy

There are people in China suffering from their own fucking government that I can’t fucking stand who has taken over America.

I’m still a Soldier!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are going after soldiers who want 100% for PTSD. They’re trying to fucking commit us because the goddamn enemy is inside the White House.

Can anyone hear me through their addictions and own personal hell?

Or naw? Pretty certain naw…

Because sex toys are being sold at the health department at Walmart

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Amazon is sharing your address Wishlist with the buyer

I went in to make changes to my Amazon Wishlist and they have new features – already selected for you – about disclosing your address to the buyer

“The seller may disclose your address to the buyer”

Wait. What. 👀

I have a brain injury and maybe I’m misinterpreting what that says!?!

I’ve since unchecked the box – and I’ve no one spoiling me – but I very much intend to spoil me – as these are items I want/need.

That’s a dangerous new feature Amazon has added

I wasn’t even aware until I was acting emo and making privacy changes

Anyhoo…

If you have children using it or anyone under the age of 18 and they have an Amazon wishlist account and people spoiling them, then they may be getting access to your home address now.

I care about the unsuspecting adults too (like self) and people with mental illness who may try and obtain an address for harm

I don’t understand how it’s legal for a business to do something like this, it’s fucking dangerous

They are using grams as weight now cuz America belongs to the immigrants and their children born here naturalized

The immigrants get to vote before our children legally turn 18 to do so

LMAO

I wish I had known all this before I started College is a scam.

Quietly LOUDLY quitting society

Information is knowledge so please let folks know that their lives are in danger now – unless they want complete strangers with their shipping address!?!?

I don’t like giving out my phone number or email and now we’re just giving folks our home address huh.

Why not just give the buyer your address and fuck Amazon all together?

Why use a third party at all? Which was the entire fucking point I thought.

Amazon is dead

There’s hardly a place worth shopping

I like thrift stores and antique furniture shops

I will find the most ugly shop in Florida you can find.

Get on my knees and hunt

Getting offline forever soon…

I don’t understand the point

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Thrift finds 🤩 (journal log)

This is a special Christian thrift store – you can only visit X amount of times to shop

Sitting near the entrance of the store – cookie instructions

But anyone in the world is allowed to shop free there (free shopping, I know it’s weird)

Loaded the Jeep up – all 3 bags from the Thrift shop 🙂

I never know what I will find and there is a 25 item limit each visit. The Jeep was stocked.

One worker said, “I got a bag fresh in if you want it” cuz I had found a cool vintage wicker basket and they thought I’d like this. They were right. In fact, I’ve been looking all over for something but didn’t like the plastic junk currently out there. Universe said “gotcha, know just the thing you need”. Precisely.

Zero holes or tears. Zips correctly and without aggravation (thus far). I think it might be insulated and for kitchen/food use… not what I’ll be using it for. Or will I? 🤔

Also scored a full size Cannon quilt – these thing’s don’t ever run cheap

It’s comfy and making my terribly uncomfortable bed more comfies. It’ll fit the Jeep when I’m homeless again. I already put it through the wash. Need some sheets to match. Love the colors. Not too thick for Florida. Absolutely nothing wrong with it.

Also scored a hardback dictionary from back in the 70s, before the timelime was switched.

A book I’ll understand.

And got this magical purple velvet box with an angel inside – and one of a kind – she’s resting on clouds – but the art is painstakingly done on the inside of the ornament (I mostly wanted the box)

Purple velvet box with special ornament inside

Because it’s glass and has a mirror effect, it’s hard to get a picture of…

She is special and resting on clouds. I don’t know how to get a better photo. All you see is me in the reflection. Inside under her contains this note.

But the wicker basket was a nice find. I mostly cared about the basket.

Inside was three all cotton embroidered Christmas hand towels from Thailand – along with vintage soup with hand drawn art on it. Vintage.

I removed the soap and washed the towels and cleaned up the wicker basket.

100% cotton Christmas embroidered hand towels from Thailand

Vintage art soap from Thailand (my guess is this was also hand painted)

There was also non-edible cinnamon bark with decorations inside with the towels and soap.

Vintage handwoven wicker basket

Got 2 matching sets of 100% all cotton bath towels

And a couple plates

A ceramic spoon holder (now in the wash)

Some clothing like sweaters and nice fancy t-shirts

A small petite robe by Pink

A very long and beautiful crotchet table runner with my small dream home and a tree

Also this paper tablecover and a little Gospel of John propaganda book about the story of God

It’s a special thrift store and can only be visited a certain amount of times.

Anyhoo. The cost is absolutely free and it’s not junk. I’ve been all over town trying to find a bag.

Online too. God hooked me up. Special delivery fresh in. “It just arrived, thought you might like it”. I absolutely did. God bless. I didn’t know I needed a food delivery bag, but hey, have you watched made in heaven yet?

I don’t know if it’s a food delivery bag, but it would work well for picnics and things like that or to put in the back of my Jeep in the trunk area and put items in it like groceries

You could store blankets and things in it. Love my wicker basket and black travel bag! Absolutely great to store the groceries to and from! If that’s what I’ll use it for…

Mikey didn’t know what to do with the shovel. I’m in a similar boat.

I have things part of my purpose that I haven’t sorted yet.

I don’t know how to store and organize the important things.

Got 3 important boxes. All varying sizes. Velvet and satin lining. Wicker woven. Black potentially insulated. Do I keep the ornament and box together?

I thought that little wicker basket would be great to store my pads and tampons in, but surely there’s a better use for it than that…

Already washed and put out… love that all my towels and blankets are cotton! (Synthetic fibers are highly flammable and hard to put out)

Check out Frog Ministry of Edgewater, Florida (free to anyone in the world – but you get X amount of visits) 🎄

Frog Ministry doing good deeds

Pay-it-forward when you can. 🎄🎁🎄

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The Smart TV (freestyle morning rhyme)

The Smart TV
In the trash
Propaganda machine
Gone in a smash

Glass flying like a limousine
Zero backlash
Fuck quarantine
But I am marching last

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Yesterday I carried the Smart TV to the bin. It’s stupid. The Internet is dead and ran by an algorithm. It should be made 21+. It’s full of propaganda, porn, and predators.

Walmart is selling sex toys in front of children – and online too in the “health” section.

This is not healthy or good. Growing up all my life, that stuff was found in Adult 21+ stores only.

Now I’m exposed to it shopping for essentials. I don’t own any toys. I don’t want to see anal plugs next to Lava Lamps or in the “health” section. Porn has destroyed humanity. FYI. I know you don’t care. 90% of all murders happen by men and since 1970 68% of ALL LIFE has gone extinct.

It’s synthetic everything now. Can’t even find some cotton from my hometown. I feel a stranger in my own land and country I fought for.

It was always the dollar tree, always. That junk was never worth more than pennies. Fucking GAWD. IMMIGRATION

I don’t want any part of toxic America society which has been destroyed by our enemy through globalism and narcissism.

I continue to receive the rainforest in my mailbox to eat at places or to shop at places I will never shop at.

I can’t opt out anywhere from anything. It’s toxic and sick.

They are trying to commit soldiers who are going after 100% disability for mental health through the VA.

I will go all Hannibal Lecter on your ass. I will. God knows. 👀

The suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and military because the OER’s and NCOER’s aren’t matching the Mission statement or what’s going on in the real world

I’m very depressed and suicidal but you’re not gonna lock me into a fucking jail cell because I don’t agree with this dictatorship society and never have

And now when you go out and about there are a bunch of desensitized GenZ and Millennials who only care about instant gratification, quietly quitting, or the LGBT community.

I am quietly quitting society

I’m not gonna sit back and let the enemy commit me for what they’ve done to me

I’m leaving here soon

This identity

It’s all gone

Back to reading books (I still have yours with ripped out pages and I’m still speaking to ghosts)

They want to commit us…

The rubberband is gonna pop

They keep pushing us and FYI we busted our ass more than any generation alive – with nothing but scar wounds to show for it – and they want to commit us – instead of paying us compensation.

It’s sick what the enemy is getting away with because the Millennials are so emancipated

I’m trapped like John Jones only I currently got a toilet which is now under BlackRock ownership

There’s no rent control out here

They are gutting us from the inside with policies that do not fit America

Joining an app or signing up for an account just means they are going to sell your private personal data and you can never fully leave

I CAN THO. YOU CAN’T MAKE ME WATCH TV

I’M NOT ANSWERING SURVEYS TO TRAIN THE ALGORITHM

I DO NOT LIKE ANY OF THIS

SUICIDE IS HUMANE

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Shotgun (poetry)

I wish I’d hear news of your death
I’d be winded
Overcome with giddy
You think I’m kidding?

I’d start a committee
Organize their pity
Piss on your city
Sorrow is silly

He likes to use the word “our”
But I’m not allowed in his yard
At any hour
The wind blows hard

I need to bunker down
Spend six months alone
Get out of this town
Let him feel the undertow

I’m reactive
Chemical explosive proactive
Positive attracted
Faith compacted

“Baby’s not allowed to see”
Words said cruelly
Cut right through me
Trust left fully
Got nowhere left to be

He wants me in a red bow
Lingering low
Black night and espresso
Staggering combo

He’s not a friend
He’s a one-way street
To a dead end
Devil called “shotgun” seat

I spend too much time and money for simple validation
Guys are cheap
There’s never a rose or coffee waiting
But another message complaining they are aching
Meanwhile, bills are paid and fridge is full – none of which they are responsible for
None of them would pick me off the floor
So I’m closing my own door

It feels redundant
Swimming up a current
I know I’m not stunning
Losing’s unbecoming

I deserve the cold earth
Rotting in the ground
Born with so little worth
Not gonna stick around

Kink and Coffee
Blowjobs and toffee

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

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The US white majority will soon disappear forever

The US white majority will soon disappear forever – The Chicago Reporter
— Read on www.chicagoreporter.com/the-us-white-majority-will-soon-disappear-forever/

RACISM IS BRED

ACCORDING TO OFFICIAL STATS COVID KNOCKS OUT WHITE PEOPLE LESS

OUR ENEMY HAS BEEN TAKING US DOWN

THEY ALWAYS USE A WHITE MAN TO PIN AND BLAME

COLUMBUS

MARK ZUCKERBERG

THEY AIN’T IN CHARGE

NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

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Hurricane Ian has arrived

Water is sold out everywhere

I’m not wasting time, energy, gas, running around for scraps

TIME TO RATION SUPPLIES – SOMETHING THESE GREEDY NARCISSIST KNOW NOTHING ABOUT

The town is under curfew

Most businesses are closed or are closing early (I was gonna cheat and get fast food after finding zero water but the universe said NOPE don’t want you eating that crap)

The lights were on and they were open and workers were inside on the clock getting paid to do nothing – quiet quitting every chance they get on our dime

THE LAZY GENERATION

WANTS TIPS BEFORE SERVICE AND ZERO QUALITY SERVICE AT THAT

DELUSIONAL

I’ll post some videos on TikTok if I’m allowed and while I still have power

It might not get that bad but I have lived through two hurricanes where I live and power was out for a week

No fucking water anywhere

NONE

I’m gonna look on Walmart delivery or pickup if they have it…

I’M EXPECTING THEM TO NOT OR TO HAVE JACKED UP THEIR PRICES FOR BASIC LIVING NECESSITIES WHICH SHOULD BE ILLEGAL

Haven’t had any Evec orders but we are under curfew

I still have 4 gallons of water so hopefully I’m okay

I need out of the city tho

It’s not safe here

In any capacity

I went live for a few minutes, got entirely soaked walking around the ocean, I’ll get the videos posted since none of the locations had drinking water

Had some pissy people on the live apparently. Acting as if hurricane ocean is safe. 🤡

I ain’t dying for views. But I am a blogger and I do share my environment.

Things are taking forever to upload too 🤪

My fridge is empty and so are the stores which are closing early

The power can go out and my electric bill probably still gonna be through the roof

I don’t want modern luxury if it takes three jobs to pay your electric and your rent

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Governor Ron DeSantis Issues Updates on State Preparedness for Hurricane Ian | Florida Disaster

20220926 Governor Ron DeSantis Issues Updates on State Preparedness for Hurricane Ian | Florida Disaster
— Read on www.floridadisaster.org/news-media/news/20220926-governor-ron-desantis-issues-updates-on-state-preparedness-for-hurricane-ian2/

Just an FYI my county is under hurricane watch:

Volusia county is listed in the warning link above – The Governor of Florida recommended it! ⚠️

I promptly went to visit.

I have lived through TWO hurricanes where I currently live and did lose power both times for a week!

I am not prepared at all… 🤪

But hopefully I can get some necessities in a few days.

I’ve got 4 gallons of water currently so the panic is setting in.

Boo season is here!!! 🎃

Just an FYI if I lose power and whatnot

 I don’t need power to jump on my rebounder and I don’t need power to ride my bicycle unless it’s flooding but we’ll see how it goes…

The fridge and pantry is low tho and I’m living on the edge (Mostly paycheck to paycheck like every American and I’m not gonna feel ashamed about it)

But if I disappear from the face of the earth, I’m just surviving Hurricane Ian – headed directly my way. Same county and all.

Yay!!!!!!!!!’ Scary season!!!!! 🎃

Pray for me. For safety and thangs. 🙌🙏📿

I’ve survived TWO living right here.

🌀🌀

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Protect the second amendment 💪

At all costs!

They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health

Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS

Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16

I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence

I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose

That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time

COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES

Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration

Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?

I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere

I feel a stranger in my own land

But I’m not allowed to talk about it

I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect

I swore an oath

I SWORE

To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism

The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers

And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either

I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health

And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012

IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated

And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty “I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”

He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀

He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs

He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)

But God will be reigning on him soon

He was warned

Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel

Possibly his guardian angel

He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!

Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

😤

I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd

I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment

I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people

I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge

But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art

I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people

I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband

I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn

And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if

CLUELESS

I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment

We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet

Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy

The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system 

Especially as a female….

“Never go anywhere alone”

“If you get lost, stand still”

Like, I can keep going…

I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits

I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)

Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪

You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control

I’m trying to save you

I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace

I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)

He can have his freedom I fought for

But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God

I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies

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A little poem, a little photography

I’ve broken into too many pieces to collect
And sin he is buried up to his neck

A demon ran past his curfew
Patience is a virtue
Hard work is what I do
Truth is taboo

I misinterpret perception
The book of hope is deception
Misguided direction
Waiting for insurrection

I know I’m headstrong
I read the data wrong
Hang head low on throne
“144” on the headstone

I’m tired of the overrule
Narcissism
How they always ridicule

The banks block the poor from spending hard money earned
Well if you transfer this or transfer that
They’ll track every move you got
And God forbid you have extra dough
You’ll be met with a spending limit yah know!!!

Conditioning the future daddy 🤨

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Raw + edited photos on the new OnlyFans! I’m still on the leaderboard! 🥰

I dropped a new set last night and I am utilizing the “Story and Hightlight” features as I got/still get penalized a lot by Mark Zuckerberg and at least now I have a safety zone to do drops!

I have lost so much weight from detoxing and my little skirt is a medium and I clearly need a size small now (which is fine) but I was panicked and freaking out because I wanted my hair down and I didn’t do my pigtails and blah blah blah – I can always find a reason why the set could have been better but I received my first tip 🤩

So I stopped beating myself up

I’m getting a rebound session in soon but I want my morning coffee first today

Yep

I drink water all freaking day and all night, let me have a fucking coffee OK, I’m 5 pounds, I’m gonna have a fucking coffee before I work out

I know that sounds different from what people do but I’m doing things different down here in this timeline

I’m so annoyed that somewhere in the world right now the year is seven years back and I want to jump into that fucking timeline and have a baby

My clock is ticking and I keep asking it to chill the fuck out but it is in overdrive 🤪

I don’t want anyone hurting any children

But I started my period at 13 and I should’ve been allowed to get married by 15 and have 12 babies with my husband the way my grandmother did with hers

Immigration absolutely has been a Trojan horse and I’m fucking horny, deal with it

I’m not out there doing anything to disrespect my potential future husband though and if he’s worried about me stripping to pay my bills or to keep a roof over my head, then he’s too vanilla for me

As far as I’m concerned, the OF is as good as therapy

I get to express my art and not get penalized by the dictatorship out there

They did steal 20% of my tip tho 😑

I AM SO GRATEFUL I GOT A TIP AT ALL

But there will probably be a poem in the future about how the establishment is stealing the tip money of its hard workers

AND I ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHY EDGAR ALL POE DIED

HE NEEDED TO DEBUG

Like apparently the entire population

I already got a load of dishes washing

About to get a coffee going

RELAX

REBOUND

REPEAT

I’m anxious for my LED bike lights to arrive so I’ll probably pump up the tires and make sure everything’s good to go

THE SUMMER HEAT IS NOT GONE

But early morning and late evening bike rides are about to start

You definitely need lights riding in the city and bright colors sometimes isn’t even enough because I’ve been out several times in bright colors and still have almost been ran over several times with one person coming back to acknowledge it and saying “that was really close”

And I was just like “it was my turn” 😑

I’m gonna try leaving the lions den again

It ain’t safe in any capacity

Which is why I am actively boxing and packing mostly the entire rest of my house and trying to get the master bedroom, closet, and bathroom together, so at least have a little apartment area to not go mad

GILLED AND WITH TEETH. PHOTO BY ME FROM THIS VERY AM. 🤨

A DISH SERVED COLD 🤨

DANGER SHROOMS POTENTIALLY BEWARE (all photography by @poeeternal)

Thank you so much for supporting my content or reading my blog or just being a positive influence in my life overall because I know that I’m toxic and I’m working on that

BUT WHAT ARE THEY PHOTOGRAPHY BY @poeeternal

That ain’t no chicken of the forest. And what do vegans say of eating these parasites? 🤨

THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME HOW TO DESTROY THE ELITE FYI

Danger candy everywhere

EVERYWHERE

WHAT ELSE DOES THE MAP MEAN? 🧐

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Saving lives with the 2A is cool

“We’re sickened by…” as the cops sit around and do nothing

“It’s a federal matter” as our country and policies get destroyed by propaganda and immigration

More civilians are aware that cops are USELESS to protect the citizens

And just like that the 2A was used to stop a gunman at the Mall who was targeting and killing innocent women

A 22 year old male STOPPED the gunman

And now more people will start playing hero of the day

I suspect subliminal messaging is being used – on those who watch porn and horror or listen to certain music

“You will buy a gun”

Yes you will

And you will go to the range and you will start practicing to learn to defend yourself and those around you 👍👍

And maybe you’ll save a 12 year old girl from being shot at the mall

SHE SURVIVED

(Another shooting happened in Indiana on Thursday. Just stay home or get you a weapon and a carry permit)

If you’re a soldier with a DD 214 you won’t need to go to any kind of civilian classes because you’ve already been trained by the fucking militia so you’ll just need to worry about your carry permit and whatever else your state requires

But you get to pass Go, you’ll still need to pay some dollars for the permit 🤪

We wasn’t worried about immigration when we were playing Monopoly were we

Hollywood is pumping you full of mental trash – that causes mood and behavioral changes – as well as brain damage

I’m glad you and your porn star can talk about the latest Batman movie though but you won’t catch me in the fucking theaters

FUCK YOU and the Minions too 🖕

And I hate Google. I’m not sharing any articles because many of them are forcing you to pay for their junk now – which is mostly gaslighting and propaganda – so you can just Google a different article until you find one that is free information. Fuck subscribing to this insanity. You’re literally funding it. I SAID LITERAL. DEAL WITH IT

Circa April 2021 ish
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The Great Void (poetry)

The Great Void
I’ve stood the edge
Gave humanity my hand
I have tried to help the damned
God has licked the wound where bled
And I stand near him unfledged

I peer the end
All nothingness
Not overjoyed
Not his to dress

I am the world
Though light is love
Taste amaroid
Like darkness tough

Fell through the rough
Found heaven’s grace
Have keys to gate
No name to face

I’ve stood the still
Frame by frame revealed
Lost my soul and will
Yet God is here….

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Coming full circle now ⭕️

We’re in God’s simulation. But we’re living inside the devil’s Matrix, it’s crumbling. Society is a cult. Guaranteed.

The Bible has been manipulated to worship false idols

God doesn’t want you to feel any shame

God wants you to win!

He already did!

Lu is dragging out his final moves! He knows he is through!

He’s a drowning man and wants to take you down with him!

Don’t comply!

Cast the devil out!

Tell him to leave your ship! Your words have power!!!!!

Wake up!!!!!

The Matrix has you!!!!

Knock knock!!!!

Stay in the light ⚡️🔆⚡️

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Mandatory vaccines for all active military enforced

apple.news/AHLyFHrp_Qqe3VdTdxREKjA

I predicted this. Next it will be made mandatory for all veterans.

People were becoming too self-reliant and too healthy and now they’ve made sure that the medical system can continue making money because India sure makes a lot of money off of us being sick and Big Pharma too and India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world!!

In fact, we give the foreigners incentives to come over here and study 4 subjects including science and tech and then we give them the jobs here in America instead of the Americans!

Bush made sure with the Post 9/11 Signing Statements that we have no rights.

We have no voice.

It’s no longer “for the people”.

Globalism and advertising are ruining the world.

You install any app and you don’t read the permissions. You let strangers spy on you.

You allow them to track and control us through advertising.

Wake the fuck up!!

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America equals generica; thank you globalism & slavery

“It’s called the American dream because you have to be asleep to believe it” George Carlin

I love (sarcasm) how all these jobs are starting to offer tuition as incentive to go back to work yet the hiring freezes have kept those with college degrees out of work for quite some time

Also, programs out there are hiring immigrants directly after college instead of citizens born here and fresh out of college

They also give immigrants incentives for majoring in certain studies like math, tech, and science 👀

Over 160,000 newly graduated American students wasn’t able to get a job but those immigrants could and did 👀

I tell no lies and have been sharing news articles on my blog frequently that you should take time to read 💪

It goes over all this better than I do

America is great for anybody who isn’t an actual American

I realize some of y’all are in some nice financial bubbles but you really need to take a look at what’s going on in America to Americans who have been living here their entire life and they are worked to death until they die without any benefits from these jobs or corporations, no health benefits, no health insurance, not even proper work breaks

No way to even save a penny or dime because many of us are forced to rent and they control the housing market prices and have inflated it

It’s hard for families to even buy a home and it’s even harder for single people to live in America

Most of us are checking out

Most of us no longer have the will or the energy to work for these businesses without any incentives or pay raises and if their incentive is to give you $500 sign on bonus and to pay for your tuition, it’s fucking bullshit because you’re just gonna turn around and deal with hiring freezes like the rest of the population who actually have a college degree already and experience and student loans we’re paying for 👀

I was five years away from retiring before they started doing all the government hiring freezes 👀

The Recession has gone on longer than The Great Depression 👀

Our veterans (me included) are treated like shit

They also come after our pensions

Lots of folks who do retire have to continue working just to pay the bills 👀

Laws are being made to benefit non Americans 👀

Globalism is ruining everything 👀

And other countries know how to skate between the tariffs

America equals generica

If you don’t understand what that means you need to start googling and educating yourself about the economy because if you were born here life probably isn’t very good for you right now but if you’re an immigrant or you have a green card or something you’re probably doing all right 👀

Stay woke

Can we start making laws to protect Americans? 👀

I mean buildings are falling down in Miami but boy they’re rich now and they know they don’t have to do anything about anything because the insurance will take care of it

The game is rigged 👀

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Peer pressure is the COVID vaccinations

I’m not supposed to be feeling like I’m already knocking on my grave

I’m so paranoid to believe / they whipped up the perfect formula to get to me…

So yeah, taking an aspirin a day now for blood clots – well uhm – to thin my blood out and maybe keep less clots destroying my heart.

If you already suffer from underlying health issues – you need to understand the risks involved when you get that goddamn vaccine

M’kay

People have died from it, it’s not a fucking joke

I have nothing to gain from being the whistleblower

But everything to lose

👀

The phone conversation went worse.

Why the fuck did I do that second shot

If you feel it in your fucking soul to not do something, you need to listen to yourself and not what the media is peer pressuring you to do and everyone around you

That vaccine is fucking peer pressure

I collapsed and look where it got me!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn’t wanna die in my bed and now I can’t even fucking leave it!

Checkmate goes to the NWO/CDC

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KISS MY ASS BIG BRO (Censorship) 😫😫😫

Welp. I just got the warning about account deletion from Instagram. I basically said, “I made Santa’s naughty list, visit my OF to find out how”.

Many of us are having to spend Christmas alone and away from our friends and families due to the quarantines that are placed and I’m just trying to make Christmas a little less lonesome and gloomy for everyone including myself (who just lost my dad).

So going forward anything I post on Instagram will be speechless that is IF big bro doesn’t delete me from my audience like he just threatened to do!!!

I literally just had my shower and wanted to cheer up my admirers. For God sake I haven’t even had a chance to put my makeup on yet and I’ve already got a fucking warning from Instagram that they’re going to delete my account including all my messages and my followers!!! Please stop me from having a meltdown right now. 😵😵😵

Petite bums need love too
More Christmas content coming to my onlyfans if I can calm down from big bro giving me an anxiety attack
I was literally just trying to get a quick bum shot to promote my OF. It wasn’t my bum that got me in trouble, it was my fucking mouth. And this has been an issue since kindergarten okay.
I didn’t think anyone would be interested in my tiny ass but I’m going to be putting more shots of it on my OF. It was just a behind-the-scenes photo encouraging people to join.

But Instagram has now threatened me that my account may be permanently deleted.

I think businesses need to start boycotting Facebook and Instagram to protect the little guy like me.

I mean I couldn’t even say, “hey I made Santa’s naughty list, find out how”.

Welp. Y’all remember when witches were being burned at the stake?

I feel violated. Do you know how long and how many years I’ve been working on my Instagram?

And just like that, they will take it from me.

So when I calm down from all this I’ll get back to getting dressed and putting my makeup on and doing the photoshoot like I wanted to do.

Fucking hell

WELP THE PRESS WON’T PUBLISH MY WORDS. I GONNA DIES IN THE STREET LIKE POE.

But, you don’t have to let that happen.

I’m running crazy good deals on my OnlyFans where I’m allowed to speak (kinda, you can’t say child or other terms I’m learning).

Only in America do they make nudity and sex a crime yet you can’t even watch a Hollywood film without there being some sex scene 5 minutes in. Nudity is consistently thrown in your face here but made illegal.

Thank you for your subs and follows and love, and especially all the nice things you’re telling me about my body and even the request you’re putting in (because I’ve now got some foot porn coming soon). 😍

And I have cute little Cinderella feet.

I’m also starting a new workout routine soon and I was going to share my progress on Instagram but I’ve received an eviction notice basically.

So if a musician is like “hey go check out my new track on my onlyfans” are they going to get their fucking account deleted too???? Because onlyfans is not just for nudes. That’s just one platform that sex workers can work safely.

I’m over 2020.

So if one day you can’t find me on Instagram, it’s probably because I’ve been banned.

Welp. 1984 is now.

If you want to see my Christmas content that’s going to be dropping, follow this link: https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal

My LinkTree will take you places: https://linktr.ee/poeeternal

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SHADOWBANNED- IT’S A THANG!

Instagram will never use the term “shadowban” but that’s exactly what it is. So if you’ve been searching my hashtag, you’re not going to find me in the results.

GHOSTED BY BIG BRO, YO (but you were too). BAHHHH BAH SHEEPLE *I WANT OUT / LET ME OUT* (Neo heard my actual cries because The Matrix 4 IS BEING MADE)

Same goes for you. And you. And you…

We’ve all been ghosted.

I’m just giving you a heads-up that we’ve all been shadowbanned, so if you’re out there using hashtags on your social media sites, they’re not even working.

I don’t know how long the shadowban is going to go on but I imagine it’s going to go on for until after the election results come in and probably for even days after.

But like using a hashtag in a story that last 24 hours, useless.

And expecting people to find your work under your hashtag, also uselesss until the Illuminati allow us to not be fucking shadowbanned anymore.

After which hopefully hashtags show up in the search again.

Facebook and Instagram are the same entities and owned by the same company (so I don’t understand people who go, ‘I’m getting off Facebook’ but then stay or get on Instagram). *facepalm*

THEY ARE ONE AND THE SAME BASICALLY. BIG BRO OWNS INSTA TOO.

Hey Mark Zuckerberg what’s up??? I am so ready for that new virtual reality stuffs! I got you with the notifications on. But, I never got the shadowban memo. I was just writing a poem about how the love of my life has shadowbanned me and then I wondered if I had actually been shadowbanned and saw the notification in the search results that you had in fact, shadowbanned me. *le sigh* Can I catch a break???

The key information to take from all of this is, if you’re trying to search for your favorite artist via hashtags- recent stuff will not come up in the search results- as well as to know- that the flow of information is being controlled on the internet. Stay woke!

I haven’t been on Twitter in days but I imagine the same shit is happening over there too. Twitter is not owned by FaceBook/Instagram but most of these companies support the Illuminati. *ahem cough*

I’m a nice bitch so I just thought you should know because it’s a lot of work sometimes using hashtags for them to not even work properly. MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS FOR REAL. OMFG.

If you’re out there wondering why you’re getting lack of likes, or follows, or attention in general, this shadowban could be why.

You’re welcomes. Knowledge is power! Spread the words! I did goods detectives werks! xxoo @poeeternal 👍

Edit: more info about the shadowban from from the horse’s mouth

YOU CAN’T MAKE THIS SHIT UP. Shadowban is a term we coined for when a business or company ghosts you (prevents your comments, likes, or hashtags from showing up in results). In this case, newer post that are being hashtagged will not show up on Instagram or Facebook according to Instagram and Facebook! I have a business Instagram account so maybe my search results show different information than yours but the information I’m putting out is factual and screenshots from the horse’s mouth.
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Tristan and Jonathan’s Survival Fund

So, my kid has fallen on hard times. But because they are gay, finding help is harder. The Apple doesn’t fall far from the tree and my financial problems have probably tilted over into another generation but we’re all in this boat together and some of us are seriously struggling.

Missouri is high crime and I don’t want my kid to wind up dead so if anybody could help it would be fantastic. It’s harder to find help because they are gay and Salvation Army is against LGBT.

Share this link too, it can help! 🙏 https://gf.me/u/y4mgzk

Because I myself am in a financial apocalypse, I can’t even donate to it currently and it would help ease my mind if somebody out there could pay it forward. I don’t want to be visiting my kid in the cemetery. I’m just about done with 2020 to be honest.

Look, they found themselves without an apartment and there’s moving expenses, first and last month’s deposits, application fees, supplies and rentals for hauling their things.

They are sleeping in their car in a high crime rate city. In the cold.

They are working. But they live paycheck to paycheck like the majority of the poor.

So I’m reaching out and asking for help. Please help them if you can. Everyone deserves a safe place to live. They didn’t have that and now they’re on the street.

Everyone needs a hand from time to time. There’s no shame in asking for help. What is shameful is hearing the cries of others and ignoring it. That happens all too often, I know. Because I myself became homeless for the first time in my life in 2017 and it wasn’t because I was lazy.

Izzy aged 9 months who now goes by Tristan. I gave births to this. It grew inside me. It fed from the milk in my breast for a year. Life is weird.

I am a mother, this is my ONLY child. Have mercy. 🙏

Self (left), Tristan (right,my kid). Peeps say we look like sisters LOL. THAT’S YER MOM they say!!!! Yups. Then I gets called olds. It’s a vicious cycle out there . I prefer being called a cub still, not a cougar. 😂
Being a mom is a big part of who I am. I take on the “mom” role for anyone younger and any chance I get. That’s me (left) and my kid (right).
The person I made a baby with is gone. He left this Earth already. Died a few years ago. This is him. I was 17 and pregnant with our baby. I rarely talk about him and this is a first time sharing this photo (of a photo). We considered this our first “family photo” because I was a very 6 months pregnant here. 🙂 I know people have babies all the time but it really does hurt. 🙂

We all 3 got 1 more photo together before he died of cancer. This is our last photo together. We were born into a broken home and made our home broken as well. I never married him though he asked (with hand and ring). I left him when my child was just a few months old. I remained a single parent until his death. Now single parent forever more.

Last photo all together, Tristan (left), Scott (middle), self (right). Taken June 2016 at the hospice in Nashville, Tennessee before he passed away of cancer. It was a hard fight. We stayed awake and for him until his very last breath. He fought some 3 very long days. I know this is hard to look at, the cancer had eaten him away. Not a moment after he passed the light flickered beside him, the first time since we’d been there, and his face fell soft and smiling like in peace. I hope he finally found it. You can’t convince me that life ends after death. I wasn’t the only one who saw the light flicker or felt the room get cold. You can’t take away my faith. It’s my middle name after all and more than a motto or tattoo on my chest… I’ve also lived in fox holes in the middle of a war in Iraq and that will teach you a thing or two about faith as well. But can someone help get my kid off the street because I can’t??
Self and my baby aged 9 months old (happily breastfed). Me age 18 and in a pair of Doc Martens. Some things never change. Photo by Scott (RIP).

I don’t have anything to do with the campaign, I didn’t create the campaign, this is their campaign. Just an FYI. When I get my next check, I’m going to be making a small donation from my tiny paycheck, that all goes to bills, and it won’t be very much to help out. So any help or shares will greatly ease my mind as a parent. To know that my kid is no longer sleeping in their car, in one of the most highest crime rated cities ever, and I can’t even help to get them off the fucking street. And it’s getting COLD there.

To whoever sees this out there and helps them, thank you. From one parent or human to another…

Thanks for listening! Please share this link – however you want- someone may heed the call! My kid is 23 and sleeping in the car! Helps!!!! Please!!! 🙏🙏🙏 https://gf.me/u/y4mgzk

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Chipping Into Madness

I’m slowly chipping away at the madness
Panics in the twilight with silence loud as riots
There’s smiling on my face but my head is filled with sadness
I thought he had a hand but it turns out he is spineless

I start out each day as if I’m facing Goliath
At any moment I am ready to face violence
Though humble are my feet when they are sleeping quiet
When you hear me roar you’ll learn I am a lioness

We need entire continents to separate my rage
And I don’t give a fuck if you think I act my age
Make a note on your calendar or erase the fucking page
It doesn’t change the fact we deserve a decent wage

Starving for food and love during a year long plague
I’m fairly fucking certain I’ve been yelling from my cage
But to the world full of green it’s a giant fucking stage
And they don’t ever hear a word I fucking say!!!!!

© Delia Ross. 2020

I don’t want your support if it costs me my peace of mind. I’d rather starve. Or die in the street like Poe which is exactly where I’m heading if I don’t learn to LET IT GO.

I SEE THROUGH MONEY TO SEE YOU EMPTY AND WANTON AND NEVER HAVING MY FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, OR RESPECT. YOU CAN’T BUY THAT. YOU CAN’T BUY ME. IT’LL BOTHER YOU ONE DAY. BUT I’M ALREADY GONE. 👍

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Twitch Live Streams :-)

Hi Y’all,

I hope you are well! I’m sorry I’ve been quiet in the blogging world, I’ve kind of needed a break from writing and WordPress (but not you). I wish I could put me in vaca mode, not just my email. Summer has me in outside mode (when it’s not feverishly raining) 24/7.

I want to put together a schedule for my Twitch live streams, and I’m curious to know which time frames work best for your schedule. I’ve started a poll on Twitter where you can vote anonymously, but you can also answer freely here. I am committed to streaming once a week, but I likely can stream two to three times weekly. I am on EDT, so take that into consideration.

Personally my favorite times to game are late at night or early mornings. Obviously, any time an event for a game is on-going, I will be more active. I also like to game around / after dinner time. Weekends and late evenings preferred.

I fully intend to go live outside of gaming too. For everything and anything. Maybe to show you around a park I am visiting or to read you a mindfulness book. Who knows! Florida isn’t fully open and operating yet but I’m pretty good at thinking outside of the box (I’m just terribly shy). I live in a very active touristy area. Daytona Beach is home to the famous Daytona 500 and Daytona Bike Week. We’re also famous for our white beaches and draw in all the spring breakers. We have a ton of parks around here, and for the most part, those have been reopened.

I need to start working off this quarantine weight. The gym and pool where I live are still closed. And it’s either been too hot or raining to get any bike rides in. I’m getting in a few. But I’m committed to losing this weight and getting back in shape, ugg, too many quarantine donuts and I’ve got 3 more today. *insert drool nom nom emoji*

It’s easy for you to tell me to give up the donuts when you’re getting laid. You’re getting laid and getting to eat donuts, so I don’t want to hear it. Sex burns more calories than running. And I don’t run anymore. Unless it’s to the ice cream truck in the rain. Stop judging.

Anyhoo, I’m slightly working out. I have to trick my depression into believing it’s doing something magical, because my energy done got up and jumped into a galactic black hole. Now add the fact that there is no joy in anything but eating and sleeping. And sleeping has to be drug induced, I gather eating does too. I’d literally have no energy to breathe if my body didn’t do it automatically. Breathing is fucking exhausting tho. Especially with anxiety and nightmares. I wish I could go float in the pool but no, closed. I pretend I’m floating in my tub after a half a bottle of wine.

Anyhoo, I’m kicking quarantine up a notch. So if you wanna watch me do stuff, stuff like eating and breathing, I’m getting online weekly. Yay. Stuffs to do!! And to be honest, having a schedule both excites and scares the shite out of me. I like to be spontaneous. But I also have cryptic stage fright. But a schedule makes sense in the TV world, and I understand its importance regarding return viewers. Obviously good content is important too but if I’m always going live when everyone is sleeping, I won’t have anyone to interact with.

I’d love to see my Twitch reach 50 subscribers, so drops and other in-game loot becomes available for viewers. Goals are good to have (and share).

Also, let me know what content interest you. What games are you into? Do you want to see me review games weekly? Are you into a certain genre? Would morning or night streams work for you? Weekly or weekend? Are you interested in seeing the city I live in? Are you interested in real life or gaming? I will be using YouTube live as well but that’s an entire new puppy to adopt. Feel free to email or message me privately if you prefer. Thanks for checking out my Twitch channel!

Vote on time frames here (or drop me a DM/comment): https://twitter.com/PoeEternal/status/1297573592226574340?s=09

Poll open the next 7 days! Vote here: https://twitter.com/PoeEternal/status/1297573592226574340?s=09
Hellos.
My burfffday was a few days ago and now I’m on another return around the suns… 🙂
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Inquiring minds want to know!

So, Twitter banned me from doing several actions for three days but yesterday I was allowed back and I started a peeing poll right away. Yes, you heard correctly. I needed to lighten the load from politics and pandemics to peeing. Sometimes I’m not online because I’m not allowed to be. LOL LOL I’m not little miss perfect after all… 😂

I am a writer so of course I tried to make the poll interesting! And the votes coming in are amusing! So what say you, is peeing in the shower cool or not? Inquiring minds want to know…

Check out the poll and cast your anonymous vote! You know you wanna!! 👍👍 https://twitter.com/PoeEternal/status/1288134918925688838?s=09

This is likely the most important vote of 2020… 😂

There’s still a few days left to get to your vote in!! Over 40 votes have rolled in so far! 😊

Votes on Twitter are completely anonymous but if you want to drop me a comment below and let me know your thoughts we can start a discussion!

If you found the Twitter poll funny hit the like button please! On Twitter or my blog!

Thanks for playing!! Have some fun!

Do you pee in the shower?

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Share Your Books/Projects Here / Promote Yourself

Hi. I’m on a tiny posting break because I’ve been posting poetry nearly on the daily for the better part of 2 years now. And now I have a Patreon where I write as well. So, before I burn out, I’m chilling out. I also share poetry on my Instagram that I don’t share here and despite being on a break I’m still writing poetry.

With that said, there are some great writers on WordPress. And I really would like to get to know you better and your work. So drop links to your books and projects here, and I will slowly start to buy some (I’ve already bought one bloggers book and joined another bloggers Patreon campaign). My finances have been a wee tight because I pay all my own bills but life is not worth living without entertainment and I’m not alive just to pay bills. So drop your stuffs! And if you know that I’ve already bought your book, drop your link anyway because someone else might want it.

If you don’t have a book or a project to promote, then drop the link to your website or your blog so I can give you a visit.

By-the-way, I’m grateful for your support on my blog. Your comments, your likes, your follows, your visits. It’s all appreciated. Big thanks. I hope you are well and keeping safe. I’ll be back to reading your blogs soon.

xoxo @POEETERNAL

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Dear Tribe

I love you. And I’ve got so much, I don’t know where to put it all. So sending love, lots of love. Because any one of us could be gone at any minute. And I don’t want to waste an ounce of my love. I’m just going to keep giving it until I can’t. And these are very dark days. But the love is the light. Stay in the light. Don’t let hate and anger become dark matter. They say there’s more darkness than there is light in the world, so in a way, the light is always fighting to be seen. And I believe that our souls are energy and that energy goes somewhere when we die. Energy seems to be the only thing that’s constant. And my love. I may be petite but my love is expanding like the universe. Spiral out, keep going… 😊 xxoo

KISS
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Mandatory Social Distancing

Hi my loves. My introvertness has met maximum overload and I feel I am about to go cause some trouble in town. Maybe a toilet paper riot is what I need after all? This social distancing is starting to do my head in. How are you holding up? Tells me!!

MANDATORY SOCIAL DISTANCING. UGGGGG OVER IT! 2 AM BOREDOMS
I mean, it’s a good idea if you don’t want to catch the Corona
I iz boreddddddd (2 AM insomniac who sleeps in her eye makeup and wakes up looking like a $2 whore)
Make it stops
If you’re going crazzzzy out of your mind during this mandatory social distancing, just remember, it’s a normal response.

I LOVE YOU!

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Skin

These sharks go into frenzy
With my patience running thin
Predators come to surface
From places made of sin

These waters are infested
And there’s more that’s creeping in
These lessons make me nervous
I have a right to shed my skin

© Delia Ross. 2020

I wish I could express my sexuality how I wanted, without the flood of sexual harassment that swarms in.

I wish I could dress how I wanted, without the flood of sexual harassment that comes in.

I wish I could go to the beach or the club, without the fear of being raped or having unwanted hands grab my body.

I wish I could dress sexy and go out and not be catcalled.

I wish dudes wouldn’t send me a play-by-play of how they’re masturbating.

I wish dudes wouldn’t ask me for nudes.

I wish I could express my sexuality without being reduced to simply a sex object.

Eh, but I guess I “asked for it”…

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My Survivor CBS Casting Call/Auditions

How many of you would watch Survivor CBS if I got cast on it? It’s a possible “what if” cuz I’m actively auditioning for it. ALOT. 3 auditions in 1 year with a 4th incoming! I keep blowing my auditions & casting calls, I gotta ace this 4th attempt!! But, the very first rule of Survivor is never give up! And I ain’t! I am more determined than ever to get on and show these players how this game needs to be played!!! It’s THE BEST GAME ON EARTH. GET ME ON THE SHOW, PLEASE RECRUIT ME SURVIVOR CBS!

I can’t tell you how badly I want to play this game…yes I can, I can go on and on and on cuz, GOALS. (It’s not about fame, that isn’t my objective. I want to be SOUL SURVIVOR and go home with that million-dollar prize). It is the number 1 show still on CBS, but the best game ever and I am a huge gamer). I really get into gameplay. 🙂

I went to a Survivor casting call this year. Plus submitted TWO video auditions. I have terrible stage fright and keep blowing them. Getting ready for a 4th audition, wish me luck!!!
Myself and Dan from Season 37 at the Survivor auditions April (2019). They actually said I’d be perfect for the show. 😆
Self with 3 Survivor players and Zeke (far right) was auditioning like me. Zeke and I have stayed in contact! He lives near me. 😊
I waited hours to get my 60 seconds and I blew it. I forgot everything I was supposed to say and didn’t use my full 60 Seconds. Stage fright ugggggg!!!!!
Finally, my turn next after hours of waiting in line. I nearly peed myself.
These are all from my Instagram and you can revisit my stories & wall, I have a SURVIVOR story tab and a few post on my wall. With better shots.
This is how I’ve escaped the “you can only apply to Survivor one time a year” rule. Survivor CBS will lift it. And that’s pretty much what’s going on now so I can get a fourth audition in. My first time applying was Halloween of 2018 so technically it’s been 1 year now. My casting call was in April. And I will drive to another casting call as well if they have one nearby. GETTING ON THIS SHOW
That’s what Dan was saying to me as he was filming me filming him HAHA. He’s hot stuffs, you should go check out his Instagram.
I was in Jessica Peet’s story, she was a castaway on Survivor!!! She also said I would be great for the show.
Dan!
Y’all have no idea how hard it is for me to socialize, but that’s part of the great challenge of playing Survivor, it’s not about being the strongest player and winning all the challenges because if the players won’t vote for you in the end you won’t be a soul survivor, it’s just as much a social game, as it is physical. But, I’m facing my fears and reaching for the stars and planets.
MY TURN TO AUDITION FOR SURVIVOR CBS, SMILE!!! I drove I think for an hour to get to the casting call and I got there really early in the morning and the line was already extremely long and I made it on the news as well! LOL That’s the third time I’ve made the news in my life. Albeit, this time more brief.
People find love on Survivor y’all. LOVE. GET ME ON THE SHOW!
I went live at the casting call LOL
Survivor players plus myself at the casting call

So what I’ve learned is, it’s not that I’m not good enough to be on the show, it’s just I’m not exactly what they need for that particular season yet. You have to keep auditioning because you might be exactly what they need for an upcoming season. So, I nearly gave up and lost hope but the first rule of Survivor is never give up! 😆

Follow me on my socials if you wanna see more of what I’m up to. I’ve mostly kept my blog about my writing. I’m more transparent on my Twitter and Insta (@POEETERNAL).

So, I hope you enjoyed these behind-the-scene photos of my life. ☺

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OOPS (Blog boo boos again)

I am inadvertently unfollowing accounts that I don’t want to unfollow when I’m trying to unfollow multiple accounts that I do not interact with or whom do not interact with me. When I first opened up my account, I was following any Tom, Dick and Harry, or suggestions recommended to me and I’m trying to clean up my feed so I can interact with the people I DO want to interact with more. I suffered a brain injury while in the Army, so when I accidentally unfollow accounts, I can’t always remember your Blog name, and most of you do not have your actual blog link in your Gravatar profile and so I can’t find you. Sometimes I’m aware of the mistake right away and sometimes I don’t realize it until days later when I’m like ‘why the fuck aren’t you posting and in my feed’. Then I have to go on a hunt to find a post where you commented or something. I still have around 300 accounts I need to unfollow so these boo-boos might happen again.

Please don’t let me go days without you, if you’ve noticed I’ve unfollowed you and it doesn’t seem normal can you at least shoot me a comment or something? Just say “hey, did you mean to unfollow” or something and I’ll correct it right away! If I unfollowed you and you have any kind of negative reaction about it, please message me, because it was more than likely a mistake. And it’s already happened a few times to accounts I didn’t want to unfollow. And so all that lingering confusion and doubt was festering. Just shoot me a message or comment! Uh oh’s happen, I come with mistakes.

Nosferatu (selfie)
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Prozac

I told the doctor I don’t want to be issued Prozac
He guarantees, it’ll help the things, my future lack
I told the pharmacist, I had things I needed to get off my back
And with a smile, or a devil’s grin, I reached and took my sack

I told my friends, I’m sleeping well, though an insomniac
I tell them still, I’m up the hill, but I can’t relax
I take a knee, and pray to God, that was the climax
Both depression and anxiety yelling back at me to face the facts

© Delia Ross. 2019

Sidenote: I don’t really take Prozac but I could throw at you a slew of other prescriptions. Though I’m advocating for medical mary to be written for vets…because truthfully, it’s the ONE thing that works (and I feel less like ripping someone’s head off). If vets had access to medicinal mary, there’d be less suicides because big Pharma actually does make you more suicidal and so the propaganda and fear-mongering against that plant needs to stop *pops pill*