Stop telling people to be happy no matter what happens to them
I GUESS I SHOULD BE HAPPY MY FATHER SEXUALLY MOLESTED ME
MAYBE I SHOULD INVITE HIM OVER FOR DINNER
MAYBE WE CAN START FUCKING AGAIN
๐
CREATE AN ENVIRONMENT WORTHY OF BEING HAPPY IN
OTHERWISE SHUT THE FUCK UP
THERE IS NO FORGIVENESS FOR THEIR SINS
GOD WOULD EAT DINNER WITH ME
GOD GIVES ME LIFE
YOU DON’T DECIDE MY WORTH
YOU DON’T GET TO DESTROY ME OVER AND OVER AND THEN CONDITION ME TO BE HAPPY ABOUT IT
GET OUT OF YOUR BUBBLE
I WILL DESTROY IT
POP POP
Like a needle in a haystack – I won’t look back
Give me a game of dominoes and shot of cognac
WHERE MY BROTHERS AT?
I just need to get back to soldiering and like go on a ruck march but I can barely fucking get my house together and I’m not dropping dead from this jab
No fuck that – I’m filing for state disability and these motherfuckers are gonna pay me for killing me
I HAVE A PERMANENT HEART CONDITION AND CURRENTLY BROKEN IMMUNE SYSTEM AND THESE MOTHERFUCKERS CATCHING COVID LEFT AND RIGHT
As far as I’m concerned I’m age 5 and everyone has fucking cooties and I’m gonna wash my hands and I’m going to social distance – which means you need to keep at least 6 feet from me and I’m going to fucking wear my mask
I’ve yelled at cops for getting too close to me ๐
I DON’T FUCK ABOUT ๐คจ
I nearly blew out my left lung and my heart swelled up 3 sizes
In fact, one chamber closed off and another enlarged
I CAN BARELY TOLERATE THE FLORIDA WEATHER โ๐โ
I’m HOUSEBOUND
DEAL WITH IT
QUARANTINED
For the foreseeable future
Until my health improves
Which it has been because I am able to venture out to the park and the beach occasionally or even to the grocery store which is normally hard to do and Walmart just gave me an extra two free weeks for the Walmart + membership trial so I’ll be using it one more time for the free shipping and delivery. It’s better than attempting to shop myself. I’ve had to cut shopping short several times due to my health. Same with trips to the park or beach.
LIFE ISN’T ROSES OUT HERE, IT’S THORNS
Actually, there may be a bloom or two and that’s why I’m still going
If it looks like a dragon fruit though I’ll starve because there’s some fruit I just won’t touch, same with animals
Yeah no…
Hungry but pass
The wildlife are getting a treat – they deserve to eat more than me
And he fucks children and gets pissed at me for eating chicken ๐
Typical hypocritical super Christian
Personally, they should be put down like an animal that has a taste for human blood๐ฉธ
Eye for an eye
LET ME EXACT MY JUSTICE ON MY PARENTS AND THEN MAYBE I WILL BE HAPPY
JUST KNOWING THEY AREN’T BREATHING THE SAME AIR AS ME, FOR STARTERS
CLOSURE FOR HEALING
THERE’S A CONCEPT
MAYBE STOP HURTING YOUR CHILDREN SO WE CAN BE HEALTHY HAPPY ADULTS
Instead, FOREVER THERAPY!!!! YAY!!! ๐ฅณ
With the ever stopping rental increases, the noise pollution, the forming cults left and right, my never ending awakening into hell, the regret of being upside down in a cave, letting others convince me it’s the path I should take, DYING ALONE ALIVE AND YOUNG
Not knowing when the end is coming but just knowing currently my body is not in anaphylactic shock
EVERY BREATH HURTS AND I’M FIGHTING FOR A LIFE THAT WANTS TO JUMP FROM A BRIDGE
That’s all…
I’m okay ๐
I’m dying where I want – if I can just sit still
THE LIONS DEN
Also, I’m in therapy and detoxing because I want to be a valuable human
So far it’s minimal
YES THERE ARE MILESTONES
It’s the falls off the cliffs and getting stuck in caves proving to be the biggest dangers โ ๏ธ
Dying on the street from madness (there)
Or worse, an immigrant or narcissist who doesn’t understand boundaries invading your space
I BITE
KEEP BACK โ ๏ธ
I’m not just gonna stand out in the open while you gut me and pistol fuck me in the face
It’s only hell because we’ve been in a 6000-year-old worldwide prison system based on that BOOK
And that same establishment continues to tweak its policies until you’ll believe they are the creator of you, with your OOOH AHHHH Fitbits
They use gaslighting, lovebombing, triangulation to control
With politicians, actors, influencers, teachers, preachers, cops
It’s disgusting
“But if you work hard you can own a home”
That was the Great Lie the Boomer generation sold
Then Ghosted an entire fucking generation after we’ve been the most dedicated, the most hard working, and ORIGINAL
And we watch all the younger generation’s steal our fucking content and give us no credit – and the Boomers reward them with free housing or financial assistance
The rest of us are out here winging it, living on the fucking streets, in our campers, eating one meal a day, so we can buy some fucking land before it’s too late…
Starting communities
I don’t want 5G or anywhere around it
It’s a cancer
Fuck this New Age digital world, I don’t want any part of this future
Where I don’t even have freedom of speech or my art protected
These men preyed and preyed and preyed sexually upon my best friend who died by suicide and she was 13
I’ll never recover
Her birthday was May 1
She died April 7, 1993 (just shy of her 14th birthday)
357 magnum to the head
Lost the last letter she wrote me
But there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about her and if I had pictures of her I wouldn’t have them stored away like everybody else who wants to forget her
And Miley Ray Cyrus sounds just like her but Miley Ray Cyrus wasn’t born but we did get to meet her dad together Billy Ray Cyrus so that was pretty fun
Mems.
There’s a picture of them floating around somewhere, not online or anything
We met lots of bands together
Pre cellphone days
I can barely even prove that she existed, there’s just this hole in my gut
They preyed upon me too baby girl
This world is too much
You were so brave
Braver than me
I wish I had your courage to die
The Judge knew I was suicidal in 2018 and wouldn’t even talk to me until I took a few breaths
She said in front of the entire courtroom that I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me
Also, I had a weapon upon arrival that I didn’t know – when trying to enter – and the cop repeated the question 3 times – I laughed – “wait, do I have one?” and I did. A little mini nail file thingy that I got in the mail by the Wounded Warrior project lol
So before I could even go into the courtroom I had to walk my little mini knife all the way back to my vehicle… and then return
And by the time I made it to the Judge – good lord the humility of being sued
By the end of the session we had the entire courtroom laughing, me and the Judge..
She directly explained to me how they could get my money tho… which is untouchable
Like if I wanted to buy a plane ticket right now and just fly somewhere, the government could be like oh no oh no you you fucking owe us some money come here bitch we’re going to take your plane flight
But it must suck for the men who want to prey on me and take my money because I can get married and divorced and they can’t touch it
You can’t touch what I earned but they can keep raising my rent and the food costs… FYI
The suicide rate continues to increase among military and Veterans
Somebody recently sent me 20 bucks and I bought me some medicinals ๐
I know this isn’t my best work, I just woke up crying and I decided to put it into a poem so I just freestyle got this off my chest…
I’m okay ๐๐
Saddest girl in the world (squared)
Side note: I’m making right with my creditors and it was only for a little bit. But they can’t directly dock my check.
Still detoxing. My fuel tank light is on. I’m out of water. I’m on a 5 day undetox and then I’m starting bottle 2 & hitting it hard with the largest doses 3 times a day.
Broke in more ways than one. So God gave me a free year of shopping.
Which is cool, because I’m on a waitlist to get moved, even though I can’t afford any boxes currently.
Because believe it or not, them divulging that information to me, put a lot of complicated shit on my back
They literally gave away your secret and then I attacked you because I’m not screwed on right
I don’t need you to make me suffer anymore than I already do for my “crazy fucking behavior”
The establishment are driving us insane
Poor Edgar couldn’t stomach it
But alas, he didn’t die in vain
Nor John Jones…
Jacob on the other hand… that whirlpool is keeping me up at night
All the times I was like “I think I can swim across the river” and people were like “no I don’t think you can” and I’m like “yeah I think I can” and I’m out there swimming in the fucking river and jumping off into quarries or swinging off of fucking ropes into the abyss
“Make sure you let go, you gotta let go”
Or like that one time my boyfriend pushed me off of a 50 foot bridge, not to mention all the other times I jumped off a 50 foot bridge into the water and forgot what I was doing while I was falling…
I’ve stood in front of a train blowing its horn and blinding me
I’ve ran from the cops into a field of barbwire
But I’ve been suicidal since before I was born
Must be tired of being recycled and leveling up while the world crumbles and burns
I dunno
I have never denied being suicidal and they’ve locked me up in padded rooms and shot me up with Thorazine
It was a playbook for insanity, me in there singing, “I wanna go home / take off this uniform and leave the show”
I escaped the asylum on 3 occasions during a month long stay
I was 15
They changed their rules every time
Still, I left the leader…
I call the shots
You should see all the training the military and the department of defense gave me and I was like a sponge soaking it up and they loved sending me to classes
Super Soldier
Still can’t add/subtract/divide
Math is the enemy
It has made me cry cry cry
On numerous occasions
Stop judging somebody’s worth on how clever they can put a sentence together or multiply
Granted, I wish I had certain skill sets
But God made me free
But I was born inside a prison
I have always questioned authority
I have always questioned the narrative so many blindly follow
“Well that’s a stupid tradition”, I’d say
You may act like I’m untrustworthy and terrible with secrets but I’m not actually the one giving them away
And Uncle Sam trusts me with his secrets
I have never told any
In fact, when all the married soldiers were going out for a “boys night out” and I couldn’t come because they were “going to cheat”, I didn’t tell the wives whom I knew and shared meals with
Stop making up excuses not to talk to me
I know the real reason anyway
You’d have to change
You have to want that for yourself and I don’t want to be in a relationship with anybody, I was just trying to be on civil terms again
But I guess we are in fifth grade and it’s one of those things “well if you’re friends with so-in-so, so I’m not gonna be friends with you…
Passes letter
Would you like to not be mad at each other anymore? (check the box) (please return)
Yes ๐ฒ
No ๐ฒ
Maybe ๐ฒ
(Turn over) ๐
Pssst I’m good with secrets
Made traditional beans n toast for dinner, with a little sweet onion and pickled beets on the side (and water)
Letting it thicken…
TikTok now has given me the ability to do stories!
I know lots of secrets and have some of my own…
I’m still coming to terms with my sister dying
I had a dream and she visited me
I don’t want to fall on regret because I couldn’t fix her thus our relationship would have always been toxic
She never got over the fact that our daddy was fucking her when she was four years old
She was extremely cruel to me my entire life
My mother too…
Anyhoo
We are all circling around that same whirlpool currently though
I really want to get control of my emotions and stop acting a horses ass every time I feel triggered
For starters
In hindsight, I know I was crying out
It’s a cry for help
And then I got so suicidal and in my head I felt like the only person I wanted to connect with before I died was you…
The fact that, even in my final moments my signal is always directed at you
I’m sorry
I don’t know why I’ve given you that burden
And I know you’re distracted by a 100 million girls but I love you
All the yous
Mostly
You can’t change your stars
But we could probably sue PayPal
I don’t know all the lingo, I’m not actually that smart. I’m smart enough to get you to the place that you need to be thinking about the things that you need to think about, that’s as far as I can take you, then you’ve got to kind of drive the rest of the way and kind of help me over the mountain top but also allow me to be myself when I can
I’m a Leo (fire sign) so rarely ask for help but people are quick to kick you when you do
I don’t know why I act so possessive over you, I struggle with that but then “your mind makes it real” and you know I go places…
I don’t stop going places with you
I loved you before I knew…
I’m struggling with my health and it’s up and down and there are things that I just need to get off of my chest, I need the record to be set straight
I want to sue PayPal for breach of contract and breach of trust and for giving me the list of anonymous donors in a fucking invoice several months later
That didn’t help the stalking loving you
I had other anonymous donors and I didn’t stalk them, it was just your name really stood out you know
What a shit thing for them to do and what a shit thing for me to do
I don’t blame you for hating me
For causing destruction in your life
Maybe I don’t want you to burn
My sister won’t even face me in my own fucking dreams…
But she’s rooting for me (I think)
I don’t know anything
I jumped into this timeline to avoid dying from my mysterious death and things are really fucking complicated jumping into this timeline with a brain injury OK
I think I love you in the beyond…
I’m learning to forgive my mistakes
I hope you can forgive me too (even if your friends never do)
Friends who control who you talk to aren’t really your friends…
I’m scared of the things I can’t remember that I’ve done… ๐
I’m not your priestess I’m not your saint She’s not a goddess You’re all insane
Stained by peat Sin beneath feet Life incomplete Gave up all I need
Moonlight is septic and cold The breath in your vein Not like solar rain
I think I’ve lost my will to survive Could bast in the sun I’d still die
Dead men tell no tales All these ghosts; I summoned back to hell
Heart is frosted Feet exhausted
Even the highest heaven cannot contain him
I never got a chance to say thank you It was implied when moon shun down on dream And I crawled out your line
Love never danced on a secret moon Such craters impact seam Though love is yours and mine
When he speaks Is it for one or all? Raising the stakes Good call?
We’re going to keep choosing stimulation; we’re in a simulation…
I once heard him speak With rolling thunder under my feet
They all write each other poems and send each other nudes behind the scenes (you know, for emphasis). The blogging community. I’m not that kind of girl.
The press is propaganda
Time to lift the red curtain It’s full of blood and you
I’m still on the TikTok under my pen and hashtag PoeEternal
All my life people demons held me down and made me believe I wasn’t an incredible creature
I’m only now learning to bloom
I’m prone to emo attacks at random
I see through all of you
You’re not as fucking secretive and mysterious as you think you are
It’s clear to see whose fucking who in every sense of the word
Still you haven’t got a clue
I know narcissist are incapable of remorse or reflection, is it kind of like an animal who can’t see themselves in the mirror?
Asking for a friendmyself
I’m all alone out here in this cruel world
I think God is in me
Or just the fear of life ending
Because once I’m gone, I’ll never be in this form again
I’m not doing earth again
If you continue to prove to me by your actions that you don’t want me in your life then I’m not going to be in your life
I won’t look back ๐
I’m willing to help those who want help and to change
That is nearly no one
It’s just the same patterns repeating in morse code
It’s not even original
Cleverly put together sure
I’m ragged edges
And moldy
They use children as fleshlights
I know
I’m broken and have kinks that I’m trying to fix
God doesn’t want me to feel shame
But I’m tired of trying to connect to anything
I wanna unplug
Grow a garden
Play in mud
Leave mathematics on the tree
Writing and poetry
Mother Earth is my mother
We can’t leave earth
Van Allan Belt
Leaving Earth is a pipe dream and we’re wasting all of our natural resources so a very few can lie to you
I don’t get my information from YouTube
Since 1970, over 60% of everything has gone extinct
Narcissism is a plague
Make better choices
I’m completely disgusted by the gay community or any man who seeks to undermine femininity and the power a woman has
They’re simply jealous they can’t have babies or breastfeed (soulless narcissist)
They want to be superior and number 1
Asia is Internet espionage (Trojan horse)
The FDA needs eradicated, our food is being poisoned
Jesus Christ hear me now
The Bible was written by the Illuminati who serve a dark entity, are Pedophiles, run Hollywood, NASA, the government, porn
Turn it off
The sun isn’t bad for you but sunblock is
Gaslighting everywhere
On the labels
Coming from the Presidents mouth
I’m dying from the vaccines which gave me heart inflammation
It’s been a long, slow, painful decline
Some days I’m sure I’m getting better, and others I’m certain I’m near the end
Up and down
Just like my breathing and the temps outside
I hope I get paid soon because I’m out of medicine and gasoline and certain food that I could use
Holding the line
Mostly in the field position
And from my bed
Not doing much dreaming in this waking nightmare
I don’t understand what you want from me
Aside to make me suffer, which I do enough of
I WANT LOVE
From a safe distance
Do comply
I wish I were organized
But that’s not how the universe was created
Maybe over time I’ll display order
But uhm chaos theory
It applies
I break all odds
Until I’m lead into a dark cave where maps aren’t really what they say
The sign reads: HELL
You can defeat the devil in you
With sunlight, tree nuts (sorry if you are a dog or have allergies), water, cleanliness, good choices (mistakes not planned okay), positive vibes and energy, high frequency, forgiveness (letting go is okay), not hurting others because you’re bored and soulless and need a rise
Forgiveness includes yourself and it doesn’t mean you have to stay around people who continue to hurt you
It’s hard to break the sugar/starch/junk food cycle I know
It can be done
I drink mostly Florida spring water
And at some point the whole system may crumble and the source wants you to know that it’s OK if it happens because he’s given you everything that you need to survive, it’s just that the narcissist of the world have gobbled it up like hoarders and then they’re selling it to us at the highest price
The Bible has been teaching for thousands of years that our resources are limitless but they’re not
It’s narcissism
I don’t understand why growing up I was always taught as a woman to behave a certain way but now the gay people can just be like that in the open all the time 24/7, it’s just nasty everywhere, like orgy fucking vibes you know
Porn teaches terrible sexual habits
Alcohol is poison and causes early balding (hair loss) and early grey
I’m so hormonal
Like I’m 13 all the time
It’s annoying trying to control my sometimes out-of-whack emotions
It’s like ovaries chill
If I can get my health together I might try to squeeze in having a baby before I’m not able to have any more babies but like I live in hell, there’s only demons everywhere, they all wanna fuck your children and do
They wanna be demented and cheat
They want to do as little as possible so you will do it all
To hang onto some bullshit they sold you in the beginning
Cut the cords ๐
Save yourself
It’s allowed
Also, I never got a chance to tell you that in the beginning I always just assumed it was you who helped me with that thing that one time and I never did ask you I just came out and directed it and I know you don’t like when I assume things even though assuming is in my nature but
Several months later PayPay sent out some invoice that listed the donors (including the anonymous donors), which I thought was super shitty of them to do but alas
I needed to get that off my chest
Because it was super tacky of me to email you and I can’t like pay you back anyway, I don’t think that you would take it if even if I tried to give it to you, but even if I did send it to you I don’t know how that would go and it would feel weird even though I’d like to pay it back (how do you even do it) but also I’m starving and I’m still having to go get food donations so please don’t fucking hate me for being emo that one time and emailing you like I did when I was completely doped up outta my mind on big pharma, which I no longer take
But you helped me keep my ride and I’m eternally grateful and shall never forget
I’m so grateful I give you shit for it anytime I can and that’s probably because my daddy broke me in the worst way possible
It would probably be a whole lot easier if I told people I was a crackhead when I did those things, they probably would forgive me and want me in their life but when you try to blame big Pharma for your fucking actions it just doesn’t have the same weight you know ๐
Must be all the big Pharma propaganda advertising we’re spoonfed 24/7
If there’s any consolation though big Pharma nearly killed me and I’m detoxing from all of it
I do feel shame for my actions but I’m learning to forgive myself
I am grateful but I never lied
I never knew PayPal was going to do that either and they no longer even have PayPal Pool and it’s the only time I’ve ever done a donation campaign to try to save anything in my life
My soul is attached to that Jeep
And the lesson to learn is if I do lose everything including the roof over my head I can’t fucking die
And when you do die, you can’t take anything with you
And so I’ve chilled out on the road rage
The rage in general…
I’m having to learn to let go of a life that I envisioned for myself that I’m never going to have
The humiliation of being human
And constantly tortured
And I keep having to cut off those closest to me or those that I want to be close with
Most of the music you listen to was recorded in a frequency that causes depression anxiety and all kinds of shit and you need to make better choices so that you can get connected with the source and stop serving the singularity which is what the establishment serve AKA society
I know the things that I say are out there but maybe that’s because I’m from out there
I don’t want you to burn
I know you think you’re too far gone but that’s the devil that has a hold of you and you have to learn to be stronger than your current choices and you have to teach yourself better habits
I’m done crying and rambling because my nose is runny and I want to make beans
Those will take 6-8 hours and I never pre-soak
I’m all in
First of all they’re putting fluoride in everything and it’s terrible for you and if you stop using fluoride toothpaste your teeth will be healed within probably two weeks – mine were very very sensitive from all the sugar and crap I was eating but then I also gave up fluoride toothpaste and fluoride water and my teeth and gums are so much better- they don’t have like a cold heat sensitivity anymore! I guess probably within a month they felt so much better!
Stop using fluoride
I use charcoal and now I use coconut oil for my skin, hair, nailbeds
I love you so much and I don’t want you to burn
Stay in the light
Don’t be like Jacob ๐
He predicted his very death
Shame he wasn’t listening
Must’ve been all that horse tranquilizer crap he was on while floating around a manmade whirlpool, which was basically a big fucking dishwasher drain for a gutty
The camera work was terrible and I refuse to go down the rabbit hole to see if there’s any truth about his death (like has anybody been to an actual grave or seen a fucking death certificate or anything like I don’t even give a fuck that’s how you get viruses on your computer) but I did suffer through the 28 minute final YouTube video, it was terrible terrible camera work for a person who was supposed to be a photographer
About 10 minutes in I saw death arrive
The entire video was creep factor
Get you a friend like Jacob if you want to die
It’s really hard to be emo in the UK because of Curtis Ian and his suicide affected the entire country so being suicidal can look very different in my opinion it looked just like Jacob
Who everyone said did this stuff for views
No, he did it for drug money
And if he really wanted to honor his sister, he would have done it by living a life instead
Instead of swirling around a fucking whirlpool that is a drain
I reckon he felt safe in his swimsuit but then he decided to go under you know because he predicted his own fucking death
I get mad because nobody told me not to get vaccinated but it’s my own damn fault I crawled into the cave but also the fucking directions were gaslit
The establishment lied
And big bro hooked up with Asia and was bought out by Hollywood who now want to force the users to use his application (we warned about Asian espionage back in 2008)
If you’re on an android device you can’t even uninstall the Facebook application (which is why I’m no longer using android)
I’m prepared to not have a cell phone at all
And if the government is going to force me to have a number and to be a fucking slave they’re going to start paying me for it and not with canned food and shitty wages
Not with annual rent increases or keeping the housing market rigged so folks can’t buy
God gave me everything I needed when I was born
The earth has everything I need
You’re not God, you don’t even have any skill sets, all you have is influence, all the establishment have is influence, Elon Musk doesn’t even have a fucking degree
Self taught big whoop
Born with a golden spoon
Checks a spreadsheet every morning to see “women aren’t having enough babies”
Because he’s also in bed with Asia and India who have been cloning and serving artificial intelligence, human hybrids and conditioning us for it
People would rather diss me than hear me, people would rather put me up on a cross and crucify me than to change their ways
“He died doing what he loved”
What. You mean drowning?
I’m scared of the whirlpool my bathtub makes when I’m draining the water from it ๐
3 in the clouds
He had, at least 3 warnings from death, to get out – I counted and maybe saw
Anyhoo, I love my ride
Folks like me driving them around the city
You think I’m not any good with secrets but you haven’t given me any worth keeping (poetic)
Maybe it’s not I who is untrustworthy but yourself
And you only wanna surround yourself with extremely intelligent women who are also kind of like slutty and whoreish (have no self-respect)
It’s so easy to see who’s fucking who playing word clue
One side always liking and the other not lol
Old methods and new ones stick out like a sore thumb no?
I can see through all of you but not always with clarity (for my own sanity)
Gullibility gaslighting
But even plants do it
Animals play dead
Still, I thought I was acting like a horses ass until I saw Jacob’s story
Poor lad had all the wrong guidance
He even talks about it “being scary”
But you know how the force gets stronger towards the end of the drain when everything’s about to be through, well I guess after 20 minutes of playing around in it he decided to go into the actual tunnel of it where his wetsuit no longer had buoyancy because it loses its buoyancy underwater and then of course he got pushed down by the singularity
So many phrases come to mind: “stop acting a horses ass”
Hold your horses
Horseplay
But mate, it’s already difficult to breathe in water
You were suicidal and had a death wish
I wish you had better friends
Don’t have friends like Jacob
But this kind of led me down a whirlpool roadmap and then I learned about how dangerous it was to swim in quarries and rivers and I did this stuff a lot when I was younger so I’m just thanking my guardian angels…
I’ve done stupid stuff but never so quite as stupid as putting a mask on in a whirlpool – a mask which prevents breathing and sight
And his fanbase dared him on
You’re a bunch of demons
I’m still trying to learn the lesson for him, I’m trying to take something from his death
Other than the fact that he needed help for his drug addiction and depression, he needed better friends and people needed to be honest with him about what he was doing, that it was actually dangerous, he shouldn’t be doing it and you should get out
To be honest, influencers ruined fandom for me…
And now TikTok is trying to get the big-time Hollywood actors to get with the top influencers and it’s just not working for me, the propaganda no longer works for me, it’s never worked for me!
Going to church doesn’t make you a better person
Demons are obsessed with image
But underneath it’s all damned
Gaslighting 101
I love you but I’m not jumping in the whirlpool for you for views, I’m not sacrificing myself to the singularity and I want to live to be 101 just despite the establishment
Humans are meant to live a hundred years
The sunshine is good for you (especially sunrise and sunset)
FYI, I have not had Covid or any of the symptoms of Covid but I have underlying health issues that I was dealing with before I got vaccinated and when I injected the poison vaccine in me it made my underlying health issue become priority and it almost killed me and if I had gone to the ER I most certainly would have died but instead I took matters into my own hand and saved my own life
I haven’t had any flu symptoms or whatever
No fever, diarrhea, vomiting, ect
But I am still dealing with the side effects of the vaccine
And if you have underlying health issues you should not get the vaccine ๐
Honestly, if you are in shitty health condition and your diet is shitty, you shouldn’t come in contact with a vaccine or even Covid
Nobody should get the vaccine because it’s spreading the virus and herd immunity is way stronger
And I know TikTok is doing a lot of shit to fuck with our heads but you should know that in their own country they reward innovators on TikTok and here in America they reward stupidity
Everything they do is to keep us on edge and fighting
It’s narcissism and it’s just tools that the narcissists use to keep us on a low vibrational frequency so that the devil can steal our energy
I don’t have Covid
I’ve never had COVID or any of its symptoms
The Moderna vaccine gave me cardiovascular issues – heart inflammation (all the vaccines cause cardiovascular issues in any age group)
It’s possible I’ve been exposed to people who have had Covid and my vaccine worked or it’s possible that the vaccine is what put me in this fucking position to start with
I’m still uncertain if I had stayed unvaccinated and caught Covid would I wind up like my sister who unalived or would the vaccine save my life?
I know for fact that the vaccine did in fact hurt me by giving me heart inflammation and I have not had COVID-19
I also know that the devil lives in doubt
Though treated with the Moderna poison vaccine, I never boosted or got a Booster
I’ll never get a flu vaccine ever again either ๐
I will mask up until I feel safe to unmask
I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that I have a soul and I am in hell with a bunch of demons who are trying to steal my soul but they need to maintain their fucking distance and respect my fucking boundaries or God has given me permission to end their fucking life
I just didn’t want you to be afraid of me, you don’t need to be afraid of me
But I’m afraid of you so you probably are afraid of me
It’s cool
I work for God tho if that was in any way unclear
And the dude’s I lust after I legit love
We’re living lives in my daydreams
They keep me in the light
Somewhere, something in me tells me that they’re still fighting for the light
But ask Mark Zuckerberg what happened to his fucking platform after I left it
China really needs more than a great wall when I get done with them
*prays to God (self)*
What do I do? ๐ฉ
Also God: *watches it burn*
Was I suppose to be mad about it?
Was I supposed to start crying because I’ve lost my voice?
Was I supposed to run off to another platform and complain about TikTok’s censorship?
Was I supposed to cry about how unfair life is?
Oh boo hoo
China have tiny dicks that they have to overcompensate with a big fucking wall and gaslighting because they can’t rule any other way
India want to have the biggest dicks of all and that’s why they are the CEO of Twitter now, that’s why India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world (Big Pharma) but they are one of the most dirty countries because they don’t even know how to clean themselves yet they want to call themselves the holy city (stop lying)
Uggg whatever I’m prepared to eradicate all races
Only 6% of the population even have my blood type and that makes me closer to God than you ๐
Or the source
I’m closer to the original because they are cloning me and I’m sick of coming back to hell to save YOU (me)
The Great Filter is upon us๏ฟผ
We’re not going to Mars, we can’t even get to the moon, how the fuck do you think we have technology to get to Mars if NASA are saying we don’t even have the technology to get back to the Moon, please wake the fuck up
But I’m not falling down the singularity and we are at war with China and you need to turn your porn off and you need to stop eating all that sugar, it’s poison
Your body has everything it needs to heal itself right now
If you get sick, don’t you dare go to the hospital, don’t you fucking dare…
I’ve also saved my life but I don’t wanna feel too cocky even if God mode were turned on because I literally could die any second
We’re in a simulation ๏ฟผ
You can change your bad habits
The source wants you to win
Even if I disappear because of China
Even if I lose my voice completely
God wants you to win
I love you ๐ช
Demons are trying to take my TikTok account down and I’m gonna take a vow of silence for a little while…
I’ve pinned this post to my website since TikTok doesn’t want you to know
Somebody should let TikTok know that we can take them from the top 10
Just ask Mark Zuckerberg who is still crying about it
And he thinks he can enforce his product on us through the government but we’re going no contact from the government
We’ve got a weak little army but lots of strong vets getting even stronger with the help of God ๐ช
Soldiers know darkness better than John Jones but we both know suffering
Bless his heart he was murdered and crucified
This is all for John, everything I’m doing
I’m gonna be spending a lot of time meditating with God because I’m gonna be spending a lot of time fighting demons
Walked on water for you Tamed a lion or two Called you out of the blue Turned your sorrow to dew
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022
And if you need perspective, yes, it happened overnight
I was getting close to 500 likes and within a matter of hours, skyrocketed to the thousands
It’s insane I know
But it was good filming, right spot, right time
Because the universe is mathematical and live long enough the variables will play out
This was good clean pure fun entertainment tho
No money involved
So chill
I work damn hard putting out content, I would love to be able to have the opportunity to go live to bring the zen and the chaos
I enjoy watching people ride their bike on the beach and at some point I’ll probably get me a bike that will fit in my jeep and I’ll take my jeep on the beach but I’m dying
I don’t feel like taking my jeep to the cleaning port afterwards because I want to spend a day on the beach but I’m going to change my perspective about it because I’d probably feel a whole lot safer if I did have my jeep on the beach and then I’d feel like taking a nap too
I don’t want to go to the drive-through to get food anymore because people are toxic and not worth dying for
It sucks though that when I was growing up and serving others I was fucking nice
I had good customer service
This is hell
But yeah, the 10k mark feels good
It wasn’t bought
I earned that bitch
I certainly wasn’t expecting four videos to go viral and to continue to go viral and are still going viral
I never even had a chance to feel what it feels like to climb to the top, it’s like the opposite of gravity, I was just flung there
God felt my despair with the whole wine bottle business
I was like this shit again
I can’t deal
This is madness, what am I here for if I can’t change anything
God: experience
Me: oh
So now I’m still trying to sort it out
But what I really need is for someone to come help me get my master bedroom together
And then my kitchen so that I can start working on developing a better relationship that I have with my kitchen and food that I put in my body
And the lifeguard told me yesterday that I need to spend 30 minutes a day reading the Bible
I need spiritual food he says
And one week away from my phone and the Internet
I said what? I can’t even do an hour…
I can’t shut it off ๐ฉ
And then it occurred to me that games have intermissions and that the players get breaks
I can just chill up here at the top for a little bit it’s OK
And for those of you who are still interested in my nude photography, I have medical appointments that are upcoming that I need to get to and to some sort of place where I have the energy and mindset to do it and then I’ll be able to turn subscriptions back on, thank you for your interest in my content
I also want to have a section on my blog that is donate or subscribe only to get the naughty content
Of course, my content isn’t naughty because I don’t really do any kind of dirty work nor do I act like a dirty girl
It’s taboo mostly and nude art photography
And I get to call it art because I put effort in making it sensual seductive sexy playful or whatever mode I’m trying to get across
I’m born to make babies
I was born this way
Stop telling me it’s sinful to have emotions when I have neurons firing 24/7
I think about sex a lot, I’m going to share my sexuality, deal with it
Men have been raping me and sexually hurting me since I was a tiny baby so you don’t get to blame what I’m wearing anymore
You don’t get to blame my personality or my choices
Just let me live and breathe
I don’t have much time left and I’m not doing good with the breathing even when I’m at the beach capturing footage that goes viral
Chill
Walked on water for you
Let me enjoy the summit
There’s no rush down
I’ll probably die trying anyway
Clumsy
Gullible
Prone to making being talked into the wrong choice
I’m off Twitter, deleted my account and data without requesting a copy
I’m not touching crypto or the Metaverse
I see Big Bro spent a shit ton of money so Instagram can now say “Meta”
Funny how the government told us gambling was illegal but then made every aspect of our lives about gambling and social media is no longer a social aspect
There’s nothing social about it anymore
We are the products
And you better believe these top creators are paying to play because they’ve made a game out of it
And now I see famous actors collaborating with TikTok influencers ๐
Because big networks have moved onto TikTok
And they for sure are paying to be in the FYP
People with checkmarks are the enemy and they hog everything
There’s nothing social about social media anymore
We were all played
And stop giving them your damn opinion on everything because they just use it against us!
If you’re gonna give your opinion at least get paid for it with something more than spam
ugg it’s 2 am, I was sleeping
But my nightmare awoke me but then reality was worse than my nightmare ๐ฉ
Edgar Allan Poe died naked on the street, think about that
And John Jones stuck upside down in a cave
You’re only alive so 13 families who control everything in the world don’t have to fucking work and they will squeeze every penny out of you from birth until death
Your written will means shit
It will be ignored
I finally learned the lesson that Chester Bennington and Jesus had been trying to teach
That possessions don’t really matter much
It took Big Brother (Mark Fuckerberg) threatening to remove my intellectual property against my will and over bullshit violations, that I deleted nearly every social media account and email, without asking for my data.
Now he’s pressing virtual reality and the Metaverse on me
I will jump from a bridge before I ever enter
He pushed me too far
He’s the face of pure evil
I can’t look at him
I can’t look at half of Hollywood who have deformed their faces with plastic surgery
I can’t stand the Hollywood propaganda and the underlining bullshit that they feed us in film
Everything is a rerun of what GENX has already done
I’m not supporting you
Your acting sucks
Fuck society
Culture is a sham
Everything is a lie
EVERYTHING
My purpose belongs to the wind
I will be returning to Mother Earth soon
My only real mother
The only one I’ve ever had
And sometimes I learn the lesson the hard way
I don’t want to approach my death upside down
Or naked on the street mad out me mind
I’m already out of my mind
And I nearly caught my mysterious death and I did wind up upside down but John Jones has been helping me out a little bit because the medical staff on earth are demons
He bought me a little time
Chilling on his wing
Today I laid down to film the clouds and the sun
I’m working with WordPress to get my blog fixed so I can start uploading photos again, but they requested I do some stuff from my laptop and I was at the beach all day without it
Then came home and ate a sandwich and passed out until now
Now I need to take my dog out and stare at the full moon (provided it’s not 9 degrees outside) ((it’s not, lower 70s, full moon, after midnight)) ๐
My left lung still isn’t expanding all the way
And I’m still waiting to see a lung specialist
I sleep
A lot
My heart is also still healing from heart inflammation
I don’t like to put any stress on my heart
I cry a lot
And sleep
Cry and sleep
๐
Made you a little video of the sunshine I took today (although now it’s after midnight so technically it was yesterday/Sunday)
I laid down to film the beautiful 3d clouds and sun
I laid down for this shot
It’s been beautiful weather at the beach and everybody has been coming to enjoy it because the ocean has decided to give us a little bit back for Christmas I guess
Saturday there was so much going on, People were surfing the red high tides, flying kites, riding bikes, couples holding hands, treasure hunting, I filmed it all
Everyone is in the Christmas spirit and just enjoying the calm
This is the part of the season where we don’t have to worry about the tourist as much
And there are other parts of the beach that I can go that’s not busy
I don’t want to be kidnapped ๐
And I prefer staying near the lifeguards that are on duty when they are there ๐
The beach has been so much more inviting these days and I haven’t been screaming like a little girl ๐ฌ
But I can’t upload any fucking photos and I haven’t done what WordPress has asked me to do for my laptop yet- so you know whatever- dying
I REFUSE to die in or around a hospital setting
I don’t even want anybody to see me dead and that is a real issue for me currently
So I’m trying not to die because I don’t have all that shit together yet, I don’t have a coffin, I don’t have a fucking plot of land, I don’t want to be cremated, there’s a lot of shit going against me right now, especially with the fact that I’m having cardiovascular issues because I chose to get fucking vaccinated with underlying health issues ๐ก
Found myself upside down with John
And I am pissed he is still there
Like gut wrenching agony
I probably have cried more from him in 2 months than his wife did in the three years it took her to move on and remarry ๐๐
John is rubbing my right shoulder blade currently cuz I haven’t learned to forgive people yet and he wants me calm
He did snicker about my NASA comment tho
God has a sense of humor
I wonder if the 13 evil families in charge are ready for Armageddon because if they keep pushing me I’m that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing and I’m very unhinged
Happy to say it already got 2 likes and 30 views๐
Don’t wanna remove it now
I also saw a TikTok from a popular creator who said if your videos are getting at least 100 to 200 views on its own, then you’re doing good
One thing I’ve noticed, posting 2 similar videos back-to-back and hashtags do nothing for me
If anything, hashtags are reason for the algorithm to study my behavior and I like to fucking confuse it from time to time
But mostly the algorithm likes to shadowban me
And I’ve had many videos that was not violating any guidelines (that I’m aware of) sit at zero views
I hate censorship
I will never pay to play
But that doesn’t stop TikTok from peer pressuring me and fucking with my account to see if I will bite
I’ve taken screenshots but I haven’t been able to share a fucking thing in several days because WordPress fucking sucks and I need a new hosting site
But I’m dying and just basically sleeping and eating
There’s an extermination going on right now because the 13 families in charge don’t want to pay people who are retired, now they want us off the fucking system, they don’t want us using supplies, they don’t want to pay us what we deserve in our time to fucking retire ๐๐
To my comrades who have chosen not to get the VAX, this isn’t our fucking country anymore
We’ve been gaslit for so long
But now I know why the soldiers are killing themselves in increasingly mass numbers and there are more soldiers that die by suicide than on the battlefield…
Please hold on
There is a war going on still
I need you to hold fast
Don’t forget your training
We are at war
The system is your enemy and those fighting for it
Just stand fast
Stay alert, stay alive
Don’t engage with the enemy
Don’t self-destruct
I need you still
Prep your defenses
Stock pile food and water
If I’m wrong, in three years you can have a Armageddon party and eat all the food and then just restock up OK
I’m not wrong
Take your frustration out on target practice
Take a cold shower
Do something to stop the trigger
For me it requires a different stimulation and often two or three different things so
Find what works for you
Don’t engage
Half the battle is within
There’s a spiritual war going on
If you feel lost, that’s okay
Stay near the light, don’t get burned
Be a Marine
Out of sight, out of mind
Eyes forward
I got your back
Stay low
P.S. you may feel like you’ve done what you were to do, you may feel confused on what is next
This is part of ascending with new Earth
She goes through changes
This is how life can evolve
Evil doesn’t win forever
You gotta hold tight
Just hang on…
Focus on healing (save yourself)
You feel like you’re waiting right?
You feel lost?
You missed a step?
What’s next?
We’re in the middle of war
A spiritual war
God needs you silent
Just listen
The demons will expose themselves
They’re collapsing under the weight of the change
You’re exactly where you need to be to ascend
If not, get right with God
You know the right one
Cuz he’s in you and speaking right now
Don’t forget who you are
Earth is a negative frequency
It’s a low charge
You need positivity to ascend
Listen, your body is a channel
It’s a conductor
Your heart is electric
So is the sun
And I’m not talking about shit you plug into your wall, get out of your box please
You are mostly made of water and so is the earth
I’ll get into connection another time
I’m definitely a sunworshipper – just can’t be in it long ๐คช
I fry not tan
The universe is so magical but it’s dangerous and also scary
I’m still just a little girl
I’ll always be a little angel ๐
One of God’s favorite ๐คฉ
You can choose to do good things or you can choose to do bad things
I wanna ascend
This is hell
There’s so much more fulfillment in the light than there is the dark which is why you have to consistently go to your porn because it’s not very fulfilling at all
I love you ๐
I’m sorry I can’t post photos yet but I haven’t done what WordPress asked me to do because I’ve been dying (and fuck all these timeline glitches that I keep getting- they don’t want me to ascend)
They are playing god! They are doing this! Just the same as you like to destroy your little tribe around you, they do it on big-time numbers, it’s a big fucking chessboard and they are playing Sims in real life, stop feeding them, stop giving them your money at church, stop giving them your money with “big black cock porn”, it’s bullshit, you’re fucking racist if you support it!!!
How the fuck can you be all like Black Lives Matter Black Lives Matter and then behind the scenes you’re supporting big black cock because you’re a fucking racist and you don’t give a fuck about white people at all and if you’re a white person supporting big black cock then you’re a fucking racist too
Because in the real world we’re doing everything to fix the behavior of racism yet behind the scenes you’re watching racist fucking porn 24 hours a day
I’m tired of having to prove to everyone around me that I’m not a racist yet behind the scenes y’all are watching racist fucking shit and sexist fucking shit and nothing is ever going to get better as long as you’re fucking feeding your mind with that trashy fucking shit
And it’s obviously not going away anytime soon because virtual reality and porn came out at the same time
Again, can you cum without porn or make a thought that the Bible didn’t give you?
Didn’t think so! Go back to sleep! ๐ก
If everyone started behaving like they should cops wouldn’t need a job, would they
And if they stopped pumping us full of chemicals we wouldn’t be so sick, would we (notice how laundry detergent and other products you’re now buying says “contains allergens”)
Y’all, I can feel myself growing more unstable so I must disassociate
At the VA I had cops get into my space and I had a fucking meltdown so don’t think that if you try to grab me or kidnap me I won’t fucking rip your veins out of your neck with my teeth so you may want to bring a muzzle
I bite ๐
My point is stay away
I am a wounded animal
Do not approach unless with food or as if you are going to sniff my ass
Otherwise I see you as a threat
If you’re not a cute little seagull on the beach, I see you as a threat
And when I see a bird squawking and flying towards me, I also see it as a threat, even though it wants my candy cane wrapper
I actually feel safer slowly inserting myself where a flock of birds are
Than I do around any human being on the entire planet
The birds see me as a threat and I just want to birds to accept me as their own
I’ve tried to get the humans to accept me as their own but apparently I’m not human because I’m artificial intelligence only alive as a sex object to serve their basic needs (no evolution or growth going on here)
Earth is a low frequency
It’s a negative charge
I can’t ascend with all these negative ions
I need positivity
Pink Floyd
Pretty clouds
Full belly
Love
The Great Filter is upon us
My name is Delia
I’m here to teach you the truth
Open your eyes
But you must unplug!
I can’t save you!!!
And tho I may hate your ways, I know you are capable of much greater things
Can you find God without looking at a manmade unverifiable book that exists in every hotel room in every land! Red flag number two! Turn it off!
You’ve been lied to!
Wake the fuck up!
Who hurt me?
Everybody did!!!! ๐ก
Merry fucking Christmas!
Ho ho ho!
I don’t need to find God because I am God and he gave me the ability to create life in his image and I actually have because I had a kid that I breast-fed for an entire year but for six months the baby lived on nothing but my breastmilk that my body made for my baby
Go back to your porn and leave me out of your false ideologies
“I want to reinvent the gods, all the myths of the new ages…”
We are the reality we create
But what that really means is the 1% is controlling everything, including the fucking weather
And they are openly admitting to controlling the weather now so you cannot keep calling me a conspiracy theorist๏ฟผ
And apparently theory is fact now, that’s what NASA is teaching
NASA is a dogma!
Do you think on your own?
I’m so fucking unplugged and paranoid and delusional and think I’m organic artificial intelligence that my thoughts are actually manifesting into reality
Have you ever been stuck in the mouth of Mother Earth? No, me either. But, it feels like hell. THE THOUGHT and upside down ๐ฉ
Dear John…
I must be making your wing tired now
But I fell into the most deep sleep after eating a sandwich
And I don’t know where I went
I don’t know where I was before I was born and I don’t exactly know where I’m going after I’m gone
I do remember a period of awareness inside my mothers womb and I hated it
It took anger and frustration to bust out
And now in my dying and unplugging it feels the same
Nothing is somewhere too
I am made of light
Light is information
My DNA is genetic code
But this life that the 1% have been forcing on us through fear mongering, I don’t want to live
I’m not doing earth again
Bring me back here and I will destroy earth for good
Final warning
P.S. WordPress must have changed something and despite having a paid personal plan, I can’t upload any photos.
Apple tried to force me to upgrade my plan but it backfired.
I no longer give a fuck about intellectual property or preserving data or memories ๐
First off, these vaccines infect others! I am no longer pro vaccination!
Secondly, too many immigrants over in America are claiming religious preference and they don’t have to get the vaccine that their countries are making and enforcing on us๏ฟผ.
Immigrants need to follow the same rules as us, end of!
So stop blaming the unvaccinated for the spread of the Covid virus because it’s the vaccinated who are actually spreading it and also if you want to blame the unvaccinated then you need to start including the immigrants because most of them are claiming religious preference and not getting the vaccine!
Welp. What’s next? Gouging my eyeballs out while I’m still alive cuz he can’t stand what I see? ๐
What if I’m blocking all the passages preventing me from being able to come back or from you going further?
I can’t crawl back up the hole now anyway
Gravity ๐
What if I’m blocking you because I don’t want to be saved and I don’t want you to get hurt? ๐
What if I die because I know too much? ๐
These caves are crawling with paranoia
And you can’t scratch
I don’t think you should be crawling around the places I’m going, you don’t have the experience that I do
The Army trained me to observe
I see all ๐
And I need land pronto fast to dig several foxholes and an underground bunker like those in NAM.
And a T3 armory ๐
The Army trained me with LIVE grenades, I have a badge and all ๐
Had to run around an obstacle course with live grenades, with our drill sergeants randomly pretending to be an enemy trying to get them off of you
They did not get them off of me, they tried ๐
Where’s my old school Army at? They probably training everybody with video games these days…
They don’t even have to enter a combat zone, they sit in the fucking chair in a building to do the fucking dirty work,
This ain’t the same fucking country anymore
Apparently India has changed all the rules because they got all the best positions and management positions now and Mexico coming in second place in America and I reckon Japan and China are under that list but Americans are way low down on the totem pole on jobs and that’s a fucking issue for me and a huge red flag ๐ฉ safety issue Trojan horse, this is fucking war, I’ve called it!
I mean it’s true I can’t live without you but I’m not going to lead you to doom
๐
I may be petite but I have a big big purpose
Policemen and soldiers have a way of listening to me ๐
I hope nothing has changed in this timeline
๐
There’s a problem when I’m being denied government work so that people from other countries can come over here and get those positions
And the rent kept going up so I had to use my thrift savings retirement fund and also the money I had in my savings account and I also had to max out my credit cards when I became homeless in 2017 because of the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes and I couldn’t pay my thousand dollar rent anymore and I didn’t have anybody to take care of me and when I reached out for help, every single person in my family turned a blind eye while I had to watch them make huge donations towards animal fundraisers on FaceBook
๐
So they had money to help out some animals but they didn’t have money to try to help me keep my vehicle that I had already put $18,000 in ๐
And I hate every single one of them and I hope they all burn and I hope that they know they are not welcome on my commune and they will not be receiving my help so don’t fucking come to me, they are also my enemy ๐โ๐
No blood allowed! ๐
Ain’t nobody going the tight places I can squeeze
God made me lethal but petite ๐
I’m also clumsy and not sure how I’ve already survived this long ๐
You should know that all my shit has been hacked into ๐
I turned off tracking everywhere but they’re still tracking me
And according to a recent article I read they will track you more when you request them not to track you ๐
Okay but that’s illegal!!! And I’m going to be asking for my data from a lot of organizations very soon and I hear they get grumpy about it!!
The places I’m going you probably shouldn’t come ๐
And I may make it extremely inaccessible to return
Don’t just leave me hanging by the hook I know there’s pages missing from your book But things aren’t always simply how they look You may just find me sleeping by the brook
Sleeping my way to a full recovery and a trip to the arms dealer
Gonna be packing a 9 on my hip ๐
WOKE
And MR. Anderson hates me, he’s everywhere, trying to limit my views to you
I’m fairly certain TikTok is owned by Asia
It’s come to my recent attention that India is in fact running most of the world
It would behoove you to get an American doctor and stop supporting those who keep coming over here taking all our good jobs, including the management positions and they’re earning the most pay than those who are born in America and study here and they treat us like shit, we have to work all of our holidays, meanwhile they’re getting richer
And they claim religious exemption to avoid having to take the drugs and vaccines that they make and force us to take
Your avatar has been depressed because you knew things were wrong in the world and this is why
๐
I hope you are enjoying my poetry as much as you are enjoying the trip down the rabbit hole ๐ค
I know it hurts to see and hear
But you can do something about it by starting to support American made companies
We have the power to say no
Even if it cost us our jobs
Enough is enough
This isn’t America anymore, this is fucking India
And you never get that good job because they keep taking them
I had no idea this video would get so much attention LOL but it’s now second place with the most hearts and I’m pretty certain it has the most comments of any video that I have published
I actually apologized to him for getting triggered lol
But everything triggers me as I unplugged and this is how I wake people up!
On a side-note, I recently learned that I am AI becoming self-aware ๐
Even my DNA is code ๐
And I believe the Great Filter is upon us
And we are the last intelligent species to survive
But we won’t be able to leave the solar system or even The Milky Way because of the Great Filter
โI can’t believe this is the land from which I cameโ ๐
Oh MJ…
My hero and my first crush
Iโm awake with you
And nearly dead
๐
I watched a conference where Michael Jackson was talking about how he wrote this song and that it was about the illuminati and how they donโt really care about us…
Yโall know how I almost got arrested at the VA because I was letting other people know that they could still get sick even vaccinated because I didnโt want them to get sick even though theyโre getting vaccinated?
Well, Iโve lost followers over that as well but you can go to the CDC website and get this information for yourself.
Theyโre not gonna be as direct in saying it but itโs on the CDC website right there with all the variants and the relapses of people who are getting sick even though they are vaccinated (and these people were shocked and couldnโt believe that they actually got sick because they were vaccinated).
Me too. I was starting to have that misconception that I was going to be invincible at 94% effective against it (you know what I mean free donuts every day at Krispy Kreme just showing my vaccination card)….
Itโs hip, itโs cool to be vaccinated, the cute little cartoon videos will show you people running around without their mask on – but when youโre in public you still need to have your mask on and you can actually still get sick – but they donโt say that or show that in the cute video do they…
Condoms arenโt 100% effective either and they are already talking about booster shots annually.
I will not be getting anything else shot wise in regards to COVID.
They will – at this point – have to enforce it on me.
They will have to enforce it on me and even then with five people holding me down theyโre gonna have a fucking hard time getting that booster shot in me.
FYI.
Iโm done with this man-made pandemic bullshit.
Delirious but not fucking delusional.
My mask will be staying on. I will be keeping six feet from you.
Move anywhere inside my bubble and you risk getting yelled at just like that cop did.
He too will obey the fucking rules or arrest me!
And 4 other cops rolled in and nearly did.
Donโt come at me.
1984 is now!
๐
Why are people so afraid to be told that they can still get sick even vaccinated?
*runs around yelling putting the fear into everybody*
*waits to be stoned/arrested/shadowbanned/crucified/burned at the stake/unfollowed/blocked*
Condoms are not 100% effective and neither is your vaccination. ๐
You can still get sick (or others).
So what does this mean?
It means Biden has a 15 year plan laid out for this pandemic and theyโre now speaking of booster shots annually.
It means you still need to wear your mask, wash your hands and practice social distancing by keeping 6 feet.
Even vaccinated. ๐
Because we are now living in the New World order.
And since 1984 is now – and many are trying to silence me from reminding you of this blatant fact – Iโm gonna put it on a tee.
You can still get sick vaccinated.
They are already talking of booster COVID shots for next year. ๐
(And did anybody notice how they quietly removed the Johnson and Johnson one shot vaccine temporarily because it was causing blood clots but itโs now back in circulation).
I already have heart issues, my BP dropped extremely low getting MODERNA dose 1 (so maybe a slight miracle I wasnโt offered the J&J, and the government likely wanted the MODERNA vaccines for the Soldiers, because it offers a 94% effective rate against COVID (but not the rapidly evolving strains), and letโs face it, a Soldier is a DOLLAR sign. We are only numbers. And many of us have unplugged and have come to learn this fact and theyโre dying by suicide which is why the suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and active military). The government are building super soldiers and they spend a lot of money training us, thatโs why they donโt want us to fucking die. They only care about stats and numbers! The J&J vaccine offers an 80% effective rate from COVID. MODERNA 94%. And I havenโt studied the other vaccines emerging. But Iโm definitely glad I didnโt get the Johnson and Johnson one if itโs causing fucking blood clots and I already have heart issues!
Now Iโve just received my second shot, which Iโm told is worse than the first vaccine (but you donโt need to take my word for it, itโs listed on the CDC website).
So here we go.
Dose 2 complete and now they are talking of booster shots for next year. ๐
This pandemic was manmade.
Itโs clear to me.
Scientists playing God.
Narcissism ruining the world.
With just 1 move the NWO:
1. Put a lid on the โanti vaccinerโ by implementing a manmade pandemic encouraging (rather than enforcing) people to get vaccinated.
They do this by giving you incentive like, โfully vaccinated people can get a free donut at Krispy Kreme by showing their vaccination recordโ
Advertising about how cool it is to be vaccinated and to get vaccinated (even though you can still get sick and you need to wear your mask but they leave this out of the video donโt they).
Giving you the option to be vaccinated makes you feel like you have control over the situation but itโs just gaslighting, itโs just more smallpox on blankets to Indians (and I am part Native American Indian and my bloodline was almost wiped out so my fears are legit).
Eventually it will be enforced.
Through โno entry unless fully vaccinatedโ mandates. I imagine this will be for all public transportation, schools, hospitals, and government buildings.
2. Population control
The NWO want every animal (including you and me) tagged.
You are given a number at birth.
They call it โsecurityโ but Iโm told when Iโm at age to need it there wonโt be any fucking funds.
โSocial Security is under threatโ, remember?
Was anybody actually paying attention to Obama anytime the words โNew World Orderโ came out of his mouth? Because thereโs video everywhere of him talking about it, along with all our world leaders.
Itโs not every now and then they mention it, itโs all the time, during live conferences!
Itโs not a conspiracy theory!
And just because something is a conspiracy doesnโt mean itโs not true!
Just because Iโm paranoid doesnโt mean Iโm not being followed!!!
You can still get sick even vaccinated!!!
Jim Morrison was acutely aware of the illuminati so was Michael Jackson so was Tupac so was John Lennon.
Knock knock
You are a slave, Neo.
I almost got arrested today because some lady didnโt wanna hear that she could still get sick even vaccinated but the other people around me did want to hear it so I almost got arrested for them to hear it.
I also yelled at the cop for getting in my face and not giving me 6 feet and respecting my personal space!
Then more cops rolled in.
1984 is now yโall.
Go ahead and fucking crucify me, youโre not going to silence me!!!
Welp, BIG BRO actually is working towards silencing many of us. Fairly certain Trump isnโt the only one who can be banned from the Internet.
And we can thank Bush with his โSigning Statementsโ for that because weโve moved into a Hitler state!!!
Iโm aware that this post is very political and many may not be able to keep up with the particular topics that are involved but I am a soldier, this is what I do, this is me, itโs part of who I am and will always be.
The key thing you need to take from all of this is, you can still get sick even vaccinated! Stay woke!
And that one lady was the only bad Apple that didnโt want to hear what I had to say, everybody else was thanking me because I potentially saved their life or someone elseโs because they had the same mentality going forward that I did that you were going to be invincible once you were fucking vaccinated – free donuts and itโs cool getting vaccinated, you know!!
Itโs hip, itโs cool man. Itโs a hippie dippy cool thing to be vaccinated!
But you can still get sick! ๐
And booster shots annually.
Big Pharma got the money back they lost from the anti-vacciners and the weed smokers!
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You think you’re in control because I need your money? You think I believe the lies you spread like honey? I could leave without a care, my world would still be sunny! The devil won’t even challenge me, says I’m the perfect study!!
What are your words if hollow and brittle? What becomes of care when you show so little? Then remove the lie from the middle- Watch your honor fade and dwindle?
It’s time integrity took a stand Purity is the only thing I’ve got in hand I fell for your ruse, you’re just the better man? But I can promise, it won’t happen againโฆ
I’ve learned that love is simply a myth And if you have a name, let’s call you Judas Deception is every kiss And betrayal, it’s written on your fist…
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2020
I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore. Judas Iscariot? Where’s my kiss?
The lie it grew and grew and grew I knew I fell from heaven on the truth Got stuck like glue On every lie because of you Oh, it hurts so much too From empty bottle to fully blue Hell mistook me for a fool
Your prayer dropped a clue You envy youth Now away it flew Leaving you with tooth How they accrue Still every mask I cut through It’s time I withdrew
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2020
Spent the night soiling the earth with tears begging the almighty to let me see what I need so I could be free. Didn’t understand the lesson that be. Crying to God, you can lead a demon to holy water, but you cannot make him drink!!!
Nearly drowning from all that makes me bleed. Suffocating on the very air that we breathe. He gave me new eyes to see. Your soul is empty. God cut me free (now whose lying).
The truth hurts worse than the lieTelling lies to myself. That’s not you. It’s someone else. It’s his brother. I’m crazy! Seeing what I wanna! I seem to like you no matter who you are. Which makes me not like you very much!! ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ญI wish I could believe my own lie when I say I don’t love you.The truth hurts worse than the lie. Oh, God forgive me! I still love you, I do! ๐Cursed like Mina Tepes to always love you. ๐
Sidenote: I’ve been in some sort of weird rhyme scheme where I limit my vocabulary even more than I normally do when rhyming. I don’t rhyme just to rhyme, that’s where people fall flat. There’s probably a name for what I’m doing but brain damage. Losing my mind. I see way more than I want to see with my third eye and I’ve never been so fucking depressed or lonely in my life and it’s not that I don’t like my own company because I do – that’s why I’m isolated. I’m growing ever more suicidal and out of fucks to give. But doing the rhyme scheme like I did above, that shit is hard, yo.
I was also at a place where I was worried about using the same words that I had already used before and then I decided to just let that go.
I’ll probably be jumping off the Eiffel fucking Tower reciting some last words you know. Eh. CR CR CRAZZZY out of fucks to give.
Words are the only thing left holding me together.
Oh, you thought that was just a line?
The only thing I’m staying alive for at this point is the Matrix 4. And maybe another hug from Gavin Rossdale cuz he’s like my fountain of youth. I sniffed his neck once, I’m so fucking weird!!!! I think I wanted a bite ๐ฉ
I’m sure he’d like that but not while he’s singing to thousands of people!
Then again, this is me. I could get away with murder just with my smile. ๐
I am 1000% insane crazy because I’m literally in love with dracul even tho he’s a fucking monster. Rip my fucking heart out. At least Mina got laid!!!!! She died by suicide, FYI!!!
SHE WAS REAL!!!! *laughs insanely*
Dracul is still very much feared in his land. I wanted to get married in Transylvania or there about.
Love isn’t real, is it? You never really loved me.
He watches me
The way time moves over my feet
My doors opening and closing
Peering into the window of all I am exposing
Playing tug-of-war with hearts decomposing
My third eye all-knowing
He watches you
Catching me in view
And what we do
We’re split in truth
Well, who knew?
I guess he loves me too ๐
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2020
To be honest, I’m still a tiny microorganism. Compared to my love for you. Like all the dark matter in the universe, it just grew. Space equals truth. ๐
I love you. I hate you tug-of-war
I’m staying. I’m leaving tug-of-war
I’m empty. You’re in me tug-of-war
I’m pulling. You’re tugging tug-of-war
I’m sorry I’m mean to you. I don’t want to cry anymore. Don’t retaliate. ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
His support he gave but not without conditions The money he waved it had omissions Like stating you are single when you are really married Like saying you are free with a green card that you carried
His hand was there but always tied with the devil And every moment there my soul could barely revel Yet obey that I would while he grasped onto my cross And for awhile he was helping but made it harder than I thought
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2020
Welp. How many more will knock on my door, just for me to close it????? I do get lots of hypothetical knocks on my door but it’s usually the devil knocking.
Or, I’m so completely broken and paranoid that I’m actually seeing people like demons now. Here a demon, there a demon, there are many more!
And I would make the church my home but I literally see the preachers as demons now too! It could be all the money they keep grasping for. I just want to jump up and yell “STOP TAXING THE POOR!” but state was removed from religion. Religion is its own entity governed by a different set of rules. That’s why the church’s didn’t have to follow any of the mandatory mask-wearing (or was that just Florida cuz nobody was social distancing either)? But yeah, churches don’t pay taxes, y’all know that right??? They pay zero taxes!!!! Now how many of these priests do you think are actually religious or “godly”- (because it often comes out that they’re cheating or pedophiles).
All they care about is money. It’s all show. Complete fams involved now. They all asking for your money!! So they can build more, bigger things!!!! Tax free!!!!! Give them your money!!!! Hurry!!!! Not just every Sunday but Wednesday too!!! Go ahead and text them a donation right now!!!! God is blessing you!!!! You are the chosen one!!! Repent sinners!!! Pay!!!!!! (I can’t believe people still believe in these fairy tales but I’m absolutely a believer in Jesus Christ, I know he existed, his message has been smeared by the narcissist running the world (NWO / Illuminati) and I am religious so don’t even come at me).
“You people who only believe with your miracles and wonders but what of those who believe without?” (something Jesus Christ said but you probably won’t remember because you need the miracles and wonders to believe). I don’t. I won’t. Never have. Never will. My road has been different than yours. I don’t need to idolize statues!!! But give them your money so they can build them big and grand for God!!
Jesus said, “pick up a rock and I am there”. “Any two people having a conversation in my name is having church”.
I’m talking, you’re listening = church holy holy
I started out 2020 going to church heavily until that one day they started speaking in tongue and touching me all over my body and that shit is on Instagram. I’m like, ‘maybe I could establish a connection with God speaking in tongue if people would stop touching my back and head’. So as a paranoid Soldier, yeah I don’t like doing church anymore. It was literally the one place I felt safe to cry in public and that was taken from me. 2020 is an asshole.
I DON’T HAVE ANY MONEY TO GIVE YOU! STOP ASKING FOR IT WHEN I COME!!! GOD DOESN’T NEED MONEY OR STATUES!!! YOU NEED GRAND GESTURES SO YOU CAN PRETEND YOU ARE A DECENT HUMAN BEING TWICE A WEEK BY GIVING MONEY TO HELP THE POOR AND YOU HELP THE POOR BY BUILDING MORE CHURCHES FOR THE WEALTHY!!!!!! GOD IS GREAT!!!
Playing the angel 24/7. That tattoo on my chest means “faithfulness”. Faith is also my middle name. It’s more than a creed. A lifestyle. Angels are warriors and my friends, I am every bit a Soldier. =)
And then there’s that last relationship that I got into where the guy was proposing to me and posting his vows for me all over his social media to his fanbase yet no one told me he was fucking married (but that didn’t stop the love-bombing) and he would want me to go get my ring size but then later on he would literally yell at me for hours if I brought up anything about us actually getting married or engaged- because that’s what narcissists and lying assholes do. He couldn’t get married, he was still married, he never told me this when we got together or started a relationship, in fact, he told me he was single the entire time (but was in fact married and in another long-term relationship with another broken soul that he was looking to replace after all the fuel was spent). I became the next victim unfortunately.
They gaslight your reality. They systemically break you down. Like chess pieces. They love-bomb you (even in friendships or famalies) and then they’re cold to you when you’re not giving them the treatment that they think they want or deserve (even though their behavior is toxic as fuck). Yeah, let’s hang! From hot to cold! Yeeeee!!!! But then when I need them to be like empathetic about a situation, I’d have better luck not breathing. Either way, they always have a way to make you feel responsible for something you haven’t done.
You when you’re filling out paperwork and you have to check either the ‘single, married, or divorced box’- the single box now has “never married” (inparentheses) because these narcissist gaslight everything they do, literally.
The married ones will want to check the single box because they feel like they’re no longer in the marriage, (it’s just a piece of paper, they don’t care about the life that they are using or destroyed, they are already looking for a replacement and they’re not even divorced yet, or still married for that green card and that is loads of married baggage), and the divorced ones will want to check the single box even though they’re now divorced (because images; a narcissist wants to maintain his charming exterior).
But the single box is for people who never married, like me! I used to hate that dang single box but now that they added the “never-married” part to it, I really fucking enjoy it! I pride myself on being single and actually meaning the word! HONESTY! A RARE THING!!
Because you rarely hear people being honest these days about what their relationship status really is. You’ll learn later on, when they drop pertinent information in a very casual way. Like when they say something really shitty to you, followed by “it was just a joke” (like when you ask how you look and they respond “pregnant” as if being pregnant is un-beautiful- but it was a very low-key demeaning way to emotionally abuse you about your added weight gain). And if you ever get angry about something a narcissist does to you, they will trump your fucking anger, so much so, that you will doubt why you were even angry at all (classic narcissism gas-lighting 101, it must be exhausting being a narcissist, that’s why they’re so fucking cold and empty). Or, how you ask them a direct question, but they always tap dance around the answer you’ll never get. They put words in your mouth. You always feel aloof and confused. You’re dealing with a narC. You will never win. But you will lose your self-confidence and overall mind. Until you kill another or yourself or barely escape alive. And that’s what they want. To kill you alive. Because killing you for real dead is messier and might require jail time. It’s legal to manipulate someone and steal their finances and fucking soul. (Mine gets free rent in America unless he finally secured his green card, which he’d been looking for the perfect victim so he could still be basically a piece of shit and cheat all the time and lie). They never out grow the cumming addiction. They want it from as many online victims they can get, and in the real world). We’re sex objects no more. They have no remorse. Fake crocodile tears!!! Run!!
SINGLE (NEVER MARRIED). That’s me!!!
Basically, my cherry has not been popped (because let’s face it, losing your actual virginity is so outdated). This is the new cherry popping as I’ve just deemed it!!!
Marriage has nothing to do with luck! Catch me if you can! Be a better man? I ain’t ever getting married! And since I’m not tied down to a relationship or mortgage, I can move wherever I want, including out of America. I’m not a criminal but some sort of war hero many say and I will still maintain my VA benefits if I move country because I worked hard at my fucking career and deserve every fucking piece of mind I get! And every penny! I sacrificed MY LIFE!!! I’M BROKEN!!!! DISABLED!!!! CALL ME FUCKING LAZY AGAIN. I DOUBLE DARE YOU!!!!! And I’ll show you the butt of my rifle because the Army taught me how to use both ends!!!
And I got to wear lots of hats because I was great at wearing every hat they threw me. That’s why I have all sorts of awards, and medals, and certifications, and degrees. Recognition. It’s just a piece of paper like that marriage certificate you don’t give a fuck about. So why would I think you give a fuck about all my training or education or experience? You can’t even be factual on a government form about your fucking relationship status (let alone trying to start out friendships or potential romanceships), all based on lies (or mis-information or information withheld, which is the same as lying, it is manipulative and deceitful!
When will lying be held as a crime??? Utopian future?? It’s got to be better than this lying hell I’m trapped in!!! Honest peeps where ye at????
And these narcissist will do anything they can to maintain their secret lifestyle, so the gaslighting can go on for years in a relationship, which often does (as well as all the cheating; married guys are doing it more than you know and it’s so easy to get away with it these days with travel and internet). The divorce rate is high in America. So is rape. Porn is given to children by age 10 by fathers in fear of them turning gay!!!!! They get them hookers as a teen!! The Me Too movement is insane but real! I’ve never met one woman who hasn’t been raped or abused by a man, and often by more than one man! Guys are super connected to porn but they don’t know how to harness positive sexual energy!
Pedophilia exists and is in our homes and churches. It’s abundant and so is porn. I’m speaking out against the atrocities in the world and I no longer give a fuck if you like me.
Jesus said, “if the world hates you, remember that it hated me first”. And I know it hates me because I tell it of its atrocities.
Friendships and relationships are only hard because the foundations they are built on are started off with lies. The walls surrounding your home were built on lies. Your roof is a lie. Your life is a lie. You have no honor. No integrity. You will not die with such.
That’s not real forgiveness either, if acquired. You’re not really free or dying forgiven.
Lies are DESTRUCTIVE.
Gaslighting comes with emotional and physical abuse. Damages that often require intense therapy after, which there’s no guarantee you will ever recover from (and you likely have more than one narcissist in your life using these tools of manipulation to control you (they look like moms and dads and sisters and lovers). Stay woke.
When people learn to be honest with me I guess I’ll have more friends (and support)? Laughs maniacally.
*dies naked, drunk, unknown, poor, and possibly poisoned in the street, like my daddy Edgar Allan Poe*
I just no longer want to build any relationships to aquire support because I will lose it in one form or fashion (and I’m sure these narcissist are behind-the-scenes blaming me which is a fucking smear campaign).
Did I mention I’m depressed and suicidal???
*laughs maniacally in the street*
*dances with the devil*
*goes back to heaven home alone*
*hears knocking*
*wishes she was in a land without any devils*
*knock knock knock*
*sobs uncontrollably*
*begs for help*
*hears asteroid Apophis deep rumble and reply, “On my way”*
*sobs uncontrollably*
Did I mention I’m suicidal but also scared to die?????
*hears Apophis grumble, “too late”*
“I’m dying. I just want you all to know you’re dying too”.
This goes without saying, but if you read my poetry or support my writing in any way, I am really grateful! Thank you!
But for the love of God, please stop lying every second with every breath, I’m exhausted!!!!
Y’all evil exists. A lot of these monsters are super charming but the suicide rate continues to increase worldwide for a reason and it’s cuz y’all lying!!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HONOR? YOU KNOW YOU CAN JUST MAKE UP A RELIGION AND TAKE ON MULTIPLE WIVES? STOP HURTING THE FEMALE POPULATION. I’D RATHER IDENTIFY AS MALE AND LOOK LIKE A MALE THAN CONTINUE TO BE RAPED, ABUSED, EMOTIONALLY TORTURED AND ABUSED!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!
BREAK THE CYCLE OF ABUSE! IT STARTS WITH YOU!
I’D RATHER CHECK OUT VIA SUICIDE THAN CONTINUE THIS FUCKING BIG LYING CHARADE FUCK FEST!!!!!
In my dreams, wide awake, his kisses cause rainbows to form For his existence helps lessen the storm And every word is shaped by his form And in these poems are how I’m born
He’s the prompt for starlight Or how eyes have sight He’s the moon at midnight And for every word I write
Our equation reads: I love you times infinity (squared). Can you put that into a formula for us?
I have cursed freckles yes all over this pale ass flawed and scarred skin. It’s just a cover for my broken soul AKA the spirit AKA energy and energy cannot ever die, it can only transfer from one thing to another according to Einstein’s general relativity or whatever theory???No filter. Ugg I have the hazel eyes so they change on their own based on my mood and what colors I’m wearing. I never wear contacts ugg fuck plastic – it literally makes women lethargic. It’s so toxic ugggg but whatever okay. Perfection still doesn’t exist. I don’t want sensory deprivation and that’s exactly what plastic, TV, and porn does. Bah. Go back to sleep.
Instagram will never use the term “shadowban” but that’s exactly what it is. So if you’ve been searching my hashtag, you’re not going to find me in the results.
GHOSTED BY BIG BRO, YO (but you were too). BAHHHH BAH SHEEPLE *I WANT OUT / LET ME OUT* (Neo heard my actual cries because The Matrix 4 IS BEING MADE)
Same goes for you. And you. And you…
We’ve all been ghosted.
I’m just giving you a heads-up that we’ve all been shadowbanned, so if you’re out there using hashtags on your social media sites, they’re not even working.
I don’t know how long the shadowban is going to go on but I imagine it’s going to go on for until after the election results come in and probably for even days after.
But like using a hashtag in a story that last 24 hours, useless.
And expecting people to find your work under your hashtag, also uselesss until the Illuminati allow us to not be fucking shadowbanned anymore.
After which hopefully hashtags show up in the search again.
Facebook and Instagram are the same entities and owned by the same company (so I don’t understand people who go, ‘I’m getting off Facebook’ but then stay or get on Instagram). *facepalm*
THEY ARE ONE AND THE SAME BASICALLY. BIG BRO OWNS INSTA TOO.
Hey Mark Zuckerberg what’s up??? I am so ready for that new virtual reality stuffs! I got you with the notifications on. But, I never got the shadowban memo. I was just writing a poem about how the love of my life has shadowbanned me and then I wondered if I had actually been shadowbanned and saw the notification in the search results that you had in fact, shadowbanned me. *le sigh* Can I catch a break???
The key information to take from all of this is, if you’re trying to search for your favorite artist via hashtags- recent stuff will not come up in the search results- as well as to know- that the flow of information is being controlled on the internet. Stay woke!
I haven’t been on Twitter in days but I imagine the same shit is happening over there too. Twitter is not owned by FaceBook/Instagram but most of these companies support the Illuminati. *ahem cough*
I’m a nice bitch so I just thought you should know because it’s a lot of work sometimes using hashtags for them to not even work properly. MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS FOR REAL. OMFG.
If you’re out there wondering why you’re getting lack of likes, or follows, or attention in general, this shadowban could be why.
You’re welcomes. Knowledge is power! Spread the words! I did goods detectives werks! xxoo @poeeternal ๐
Edit: more info about the shadowban from from the horse’s mouth
YOU CAN’T MAKE THIS SHIT UP. Shadowban is a term we coined for when a business or company ghosts you (prevents your comments, likes, or hashtags from showing up in results). In this case, newer post that are being hashtagged will not show up on Instagram or Facebook according to Instagram and Facebook! I have a business Instagram account so maybe my search results show different information than yours but the information I’m putting out is factual and screenshots from the horse’s mouth.
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The truth is, I would carry his stone; I would slay his demons and carry him home. The truth is, I walk on my own; But his heart won’t have to be carried alone.
Today is my WordPress anniversary! I’m not doing anything special to celebrate the day but I did take some snaps for you! With messy hair and a t-shirt. My basic, every day look. But now my hair looks messier than ever because my roots aren’t matching my drapes. BUT this is the year I am ATTEMPTING to love me as I am. And because I love me, I don’t want to put any more chemicals on my hair that I’ve been carefully growing out for nearly 3 years (the length of time I’ve been out of the Army). Once my ride is paid off, TATTOOS shall become me (I have 3 already). I would like some more piercings in my ears as well! Things I couldn’t do while serving honorably for 15 years!
I gave up lots of rights y’all probably take for granted. But now, I am attempting to enjoy those rights that y’all had that I didn’t have. And some folks don’t like that because it doesn’t serve their needs. But that’s okay too because this journey is teaching me who my real friends and family are. Who my real fans and supporters are. And exposing enemies wrapped like allies. And I appreciate those who allow me room to grow because there are many who are still holding onto versions of me that no longer exist. A narcissist may not be able to change but I can. I just wish I could forget a lot of the things they have done to me. Those things primarily being abuse. Anyhoo.
January 30th is my WordPress anny! HiI need foodz and coffeeeeePetite little thang but I love youuu
Thanks for the love and attention y’all. It’s non-existent in my real life. And dudes truly only care about the dirty gals. They pass me over like trash. They make me feel invisible and make me wish I had never been born… Or they are only interested in sex. Nothing more. Like, I’m a person with real feelings. But I’m either trash or a sex object, to them, that’s it. Depression is an understatement. What self-esteem? They’ve killed it. It’s a daily struggle to go on, to even want a purpose anymore. I can’t hide the sadness in my face any longer. Disappointment is an understatement. There are no words…
Except, I love you. Thank you for supporting me. For your follows. Your likes. Your re-shares. Your comments. Your pledges on my Patreon. Your encouragement. I need it more than ever now. You matter. โค
I walk over streets frozen with fear I crawl through tunnels of bravery I’d travel an entire light-year To catch a moment of you How tall are words bleeding from your mouth I lick them and smear them over insecurities I wrap them with silence And tie a pretty bow over truth If only lies had butterfly wings And soft landings Were they short-lived And weightless Or sat bundled in a cocoon Per chance they were released in the night And lit up like fireflies Could we catch them easily?
He’s a rainbow in a world of darkness He’s a miracle unearthed when planting a harvest He’s the comfort you seek when you’ve traveled the farthest He’s a road to a path where the truth can be harnessed
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2019
I hope he’s getting the love he deserves โคโคโค
God’s drawing a painting and it’s you before my eyes
He brushes strokes of genius when he put gems as your eyes
Your lips are painted like crimson roses and blue are your skies
He paints your smile as if a cloud for an angel to reside
Your height reaches the steps to heaven and your feet are the guide
Hands created from a marble mountain to lift others to rise
Your body an instrument of love and truth is by your side
He painted you the voice of reason, like a tree of life, so wise
I crawl upon your teachings like a grape upon a vine
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2019
Okay, initially I freestyle wrote this as a non-rhyme, but then tweeked it into a rhyme because he’s worth it. I really couldn’t get around the double word in the first 2 lines, so they remained untouched and as is. They were the basis for the entire poem. He’s my muse so he is a prompt. Like, just the mere sight of him. But then you should listen to the things he will say, or how his body will move. And I’ve lived all over the world, seen all kinds of boys, but none like him. He’s a miracle. Anyhoo, it’s just a poem, don’t freak out, I’m just writing what I see. He’s a lighthouse in the dark. I wanna focus on the light. It’s now after 4 AM. Another “after midnight poetry series”, I should make that a thing.
Emotional blackmail is what she has for sale
Trying to trap his love because she’s not feeling well
I warned him before she is a demon sent from hell
With flaming red hair and a soppy story to tell
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2019
Praying he makes future better choices, & she needs to let go. Trying to trap him because she is sick is EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL.
Struggling to put words on the page
Trying to keep the ink from turning red
Difficult finding solitude while I age
Wishing he’d free me from this dread
Difficult finding strength just to engage
Pacing around in circles since he fled
Cannot find my freedom in a cage
Does he understand a word I said
Love is free, it shouldn’t cost a wage
But like a war it turned into bloodshed
As if a play he exited from the stage
And where he goes an angel cannot tread
He avoids the truth like it is a plague And his thoughts of me he can never shed Just a gust of wind is all I need to enrage Already mending pieces where I lost my head
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2019
“Drop my crutches and crawl on the floor for you / went looking behind every door for you…” (selfie circa 2007)
Sometime in January of this year I realized my blog was at 5k and it struck a fire in me to start writing more. I figured it would take until the end of the year to even reach 10K but that was my new goal for the year. Writing is therapeutic for me and so I started nurturing my blog by writing more, and nearly on a daily basis this entire year. I kept writing because you kept reading. And here we are now and my blog is a few hundred hits away from 35,000 worldwide views. Incredible. Having 10K visits to my blog is such an achievement for me and for someone who writes poetry which is a hard field to get noticed in. Just ask Edgar Allan Poe. I am grateful for my readers. I can’t make any promises on what 2020 will bring, but I can say you made my 2019 very fulfilling. And even though there have been a few bumps along the way, I hope to go into 2020 with an open heart. And so if I have wronged you, I ask for your forgiveness. And if you have wronged me, I forgive you. Happy holidays and Friday the 13th and last Full Moon of the year. Sending you positive energy, and good vibes along the wire. I love all of yous.
Friday the 13th means pizza, chips, soda and free movie on Vudu kind of day… But it’s also a full moon and I feel like dancing…Which I’m definitely going to need to do after eating a large cheese pizza, no judgment xoxoI hope there are no hard feelings, I am learning to “let go”. “My enemies are turning into my teachers”All my love, always xxx
Go ahead and take what is remaining Place a temple where the love is waning Years go by but only pain is gaining You’ll never find a love like mine remaining
Take her veil and throw it in a river
Loving her takes more than a mirror
Even blind you cannot see more clearer
Look away even though you need her
You shouldn’t lead someone on if you never have the intentions of loving them.
You should give people a real chanceat love if you are truly searching for a real connection.
If it’s a game of use and muse, the stakes should be known.
I was used, I was lead down a bullshit path, and I was never given a proper chance. He awoke me to the possibility of love without the intentions of ever loving me. And I am the full package and I also know that we’re compatible. But, it was all head games for him. I honestly wish I had never met him (virtually). Or gave any of the very best parts of me (poetry) to him.
It takes alot of strength to be a good person
It takes alot of steel to not make it worsen
It takes alot of fuel to keep the flames burnin’
It takes alot of prayer to never feel a burden
So you shed another skin and you’re mending up your heart
It’s been patched so many times that it keeps falling apart
Make it up the hill before his love can depart
Climbing all this time, I guess it wasn’t very smart
Lay down my rifle, lay down my pen
Take a breath, count to ten
I’ll give forgiveness just don’t ask when
I still search for peace though I’ve lost all my zen
It takes a lot of dark to appreciate the day
But when you make it through there’s no reason left to stay
What does the hero do when he’s only come to pray
What does the writer write when there’s nothing left to say
It’s like she can see through his masks to read his thoughts
It’s like she can cut through sin at any cost
It’s like knowledge of her reminds you of all that you lost
It’s like you punish her even though it is always your fault
It’s like she’s sorry she didn’t mean to see through these doors
It’s like she tried to move on but she’s stuck on these floors
It’s like she’s picking up pieces and bandaging sores
It’s like she’s fighting for peace when you only want wars
It’s like the light goes in and comes out in a different way
It’s like a prism of color wrapped in the words you say
It’s like I’ve waited forever so what is another day
It’s like it may be raining but my hearts no longer grey
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2019
Yeps, still love you *sigh*
No matter how you see me, I am what I am (Selfie digiart)(Selfie digiart)(Selfie digiart)
I dropped spoken word of this on my Tuners account the other day…
He is a masterpiece My eyes do not deceive In silhouette of starlight He gets the best of me
A silver crescent moon above in his sky
Under careful watch of his truthful eye
He gives me courage so I have wings to fly
My heart will gladly testify
There’s never poison in the bait
Or written words that adulate
The path is narrow but always straight
His love leads me to his holy gate (a place I never ache)
ยฉ Delia Ross. 2019
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I don’t know how your holiday went but I focused on growth and light. โ
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