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I work hard at my writing and modeling.
I work hard at being a content creator.
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It’s also nice to be able to pay a bill or feed my belly!
Many people around me don’t support me because they think this work comes easy but it doesn’t.
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Your feedback literally fuels me.
There are many people who have tried to shame me for what I do.
I’m not ashamed.
As you can see, I am still understanding my lessons as a woman and what it really means to be alive! I think my growth as an artist shows! I’m not talking about monetary gain.
I’m learning to be okay in THIS body without any botox or plastic surgery! And with gravity playing its part.
Sure my boobs are saggy but I don’t want boulders that and sit there and never move!
Boring!!!
Jiggle wiggle!
I prefer movement! The universe is made of energy!
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I’m not a cash cow and I don’t milk the people who walk through my door
I always get really scared when someone joins my OnlyFans because I get nervous and think they are going to body shame me like the real ones have done
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He said he wants to dig deep Experience life behind the angel’s wing Far from heaven’s keep Beneath the iron swing Where the stars can’t breathe
You’re the reason I jumped into this timeline
Careful what you wish for Cuz it won’t come around no more
He’s sitting on a pot of gold Or maybe hinting on impossible He hangs it on a line for me Like his dream’s a possibility
He wants us broken from our roots Then we are wild and loose
He’s like a sudden eruption And the one thing I am always wanting
You’re like hiking a new terrain A secret I can’t contain You are the wind but never rain You move with freedom where I see chain
I keep calling Fickle and thorny Under moon and mourning
I didn’t mean to follow But the lines were yellow And the cries so hollow The flags were screaming hello
160 miles to the end of the world To the end of the world
You were never friend You were never foe Light you only bend Into something unknown Stars can’t comprehend What they’re never shown
My endings must be your first steps
It may be Iceland But he is midnight sun He’s got the world to burn
There’s poison in the water Radiation leaking from the towers There’s too many now in power We are slaves at every hour
Liberty, please free me
Your book got stained By tears of an angel Maybe mangled Hollowed and chained
Hello, where are you?
I want
I want to be
I want to be your hotel
I want to be your gal, your hotel
I want you endlessly, with no sleep
And when the sun should rise
So to my dreams
Look at how time pulls him To the center of my being He is swinging from creation To bring me everything
I buried your book today Six feet betrayed Pages burned with the rage Torn and decayed I spit on the grave So that’s the price you pay
I’m always awake Dreams never come I’ve stood atop of sorrow Cried for all they’ve done
You’re a loser but you get to lose last
He was a stream she followed into a river that flew from November And everything she couldn’t remember Frozen along a seaside where all condemned her A mirage getting nearer
He’s like a long lost love ripe from the vine Picked from the hands of time
He’s the fresh air filtered from hope A twisted tongue untangled from rope A fixed hole in her boat
We need to be more stronger in our courage than our fear
The mood is morbid More dark awarded
Where do days go wasted Dying in the dunes So many words we hasted Watching how light communes
I ripped it right from the spine I never even read a line
A place for two Fit for me or you With just a tiny view Enough to kill the blue
I want to earn So I can spend Bred to consume Until the end Not born with spoon But fed with sand Give me more doom ‘Til world can’t stand
We’ve only ever seen ourselves in reflections or pictures Double dirty mirrors They sell us any sin by preaching the holy scriptures Watching how light flickers But they all have the same figures Endless filthy triggers And the devils’ are getting richer
Oh to be a sunflower instead the weeping willow
He doesn’t mind if I’m awake or doped Love’s the cure no matter the diagnose
He’s definitely not the hero With a population zero
Did you ever care your dreams were stitched to mine? And choice was chosen farther back in time?
An older view but a heart of gold Maybe reckless But I’m dying young
I can feel him tugging like the tide In between serendipity There’s nothing we won’t try
I want you to come first How earth is spinning You should feel thirst
He’s gone but then he’s back He’s super focused, then off track I think it’s over when that ain’t fact It’s never excitement we ever lack
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Y’all, I have nearly died on him and he hasn’t ghosted me yet.
I went from young and wistful to 94 years old and knocking on my grave overnight and that still hasn’t pushed him away.
He’s still into me half-dead
And I’ve shared weird thoughts and had innocent embarrassing moments and like… he ain’t gone.
I know I live in a land of fantasy but he gives my sky color
I don’t even like the real world
I went to the park today at high noon, and spent the afternoon with a wild, sable duck grooming himself, eating, yawning, and napping. I saw a duck yawn. I never knew I needed to see that until I saw. 👇
So if you ever wondered what you’d find at the end of the rainbow, it’s this. ❤️
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I really hope I feel good enough to hit the city and beach soon and go live to show you the ocean and things that inspire me 😊
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Just yesterday I got a new subscriber there too! ☺️
My OF is slowly growing!
I want to go live but I’ve literally been on bedrest!
The content has been lacking but the growth has kept me breathing! 🤪
I love Florida and I’m missing out on summer 😫
I love the weather here tho
And the parks and the city life
The nightlife
The park and beach life
I would love to show you my city
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I appreciate my viewers everywhere!
Even my TikTok channel is getting attention, just yesterday I got a new follower and some love on my videos!
Organic views, likes, and follows
It feels good because I don’t pay for it and it comes naturally, it’s natural growth.
I have lost followers that I didn’t want to lose simply because I couldn’t give them my time or energy.
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I don’t want to look in my rearview.
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I’ve been very nervous to share any body positive images because I haven’t been able to keep up with my fitness but I have been able to keep up with my diet!
I’ve been eating very healthy (mostly)!
And I was really grateful to get my heart monitor removed July 29th, that boosted my self-esteem significantly.
I’m still hurting but no longer look 80.
I was able to finally take a bath where I could submerge myself or a shower where I could fully submerge myself.
That alone will boost your self-esteem
There’s nothing a bath won’t cure 👀
I’m dying but people still love my ass 🤪
Thank you!!!
Your comments on my Insta post are super encouraging!
Your subscriptions to my OF are encouraging!
My blog views and followers continue to increase, despite a loss here and there!
Thank you for following me!!
Thank you for your subscriptions, thank you for your donations, thank you for your tips, thank you for your comments, your likes, your views, your love! 🤩
Coming back to life!!
Appreciate your patience with me as my heart and lung heals! 💞
Yahoo has a bunch of advertisement settings including this “sale my personal information” that was selected to yes without my permission
I never authorized this when I first started using Yahoo but they snuck in a lot of updates that you need to go check out. This was automatically selected as “yes” until I just discovered it and turned it off.
I don’t believe companies or apps should be allowed to choose yes for you when they include an update…
Most advertising is spam and just a way to control you.
Stay woke and turn off your advert settings everywhere! They are spying on you!!!! You don’t need adverts telling you what to buy!!! Wake up!!!!
Tell your friends!!
There are a bunch of settings regarding your privacy and advertising!!
I’ve worked for a few Indian owners here in the US and they worked us just like slaves, they paid us the least and worked us the most – but just not enough hours to get the work benefits like insurance and things
Globalism has ruined America
I mean the American dream is great for anyone who isn’t an actual American
My doc just called and she told me that there is some fluid in the sac of my heart and she said it could be from the virus or something else (perhaps a blood clot) but she also said my lung looks like it’s having a hard time expanding on the left side and I told her I was having difficulty breathing and she is still waiting the results back for some tests but my heart and my lung is damaged
We haven’t discussed surgery yet but I imagine it’s a possibility if they need to remove the fluid buildup in my heart
But I have hope now because I’ve had a change in the intensity of the pain levels but I’m not in the clear yet and I’ve got this heart monitor strapped on me until July 29!
I also told my doctor that I didn’t really want to get the stress tests but that I would likely do the exercise one but I don’t know that I want to do the one where they pump you full of chemicals because I’m already in this mess because they pumped me full of chemicals and she did not fuss at me
So there’s that
🤓
I would just like to add, the only time I came in contact with the COVID-19 virus, was when I received both the Moderna vaccines
So just to sum things up, my heart and left lung were damaged receiving the Moderna vaccines
I’m so deprived and devoid of life, that even if he was a predator, I’d let him eat me! 😩
Or, maybe that’s just suicidal, welp 😩
Helps 😑
He said it’s just fantasy and they all tire of me quickly
Most take one look and run! 😫
I wish the need didn’t feel so real
I need him like air 👀
*dies on street* 😩
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I hope I can start rebounding again soon! Been down over 2 months! 😩
They’re starting to put restrictions on unvaccinated people, no entry mandates
Told you
So let’s just not go
Over 40% of the unvaccinated US population hold so much power currently
Don’t let them fearmonger you
Your body, your choice!
If we’re doing all this simply to have electricity, well I’m ready to live without it honey
Solar
I’m vaccinated but I still could get somebody sick and I got hit with heart inflammation because they chose to not let the population know that it was causing heart damage and people have died from it and people have gotten hurt from it and they have silenced and shunned us from communicating and letting you know because they turned this vaccine into peer pressure and big brother is illuminati owned
They may not be knocking down your door like Hitler, but it’s the same thing with mandates
I’m sure there’s someone else who could do a better job of telling you what it is I’m about to tell you but I need you to listen and hear 💪
I’ve turned off ad tracking on every app I’m currently on and in the system of my iPhone itself
Apple ad tracking is found under your settings on your iPhone (mine was under privacy)Apple ad tracking is found under your settings on your iPhone (mine was under privacy)
I’m no longer on android because you cannot uninstall Facebook from the device itself and big bro has penalized me and took away my freedom of speech so I no longer support android
Mark Zuckerberg is starting to have way too much control with his little social media mind control game (both Biden and Trump say the aps are toxic)
I’m making it extremely hard for them to track me through ads and I am not giving them permission to do so
It’s getting ridiculous and clear that ads infringe on our privacy and rights and most everyone seems cool with it
Yet most of the ads that we do find on Facebook, Instagram, or even TikTok or Twitter are spam and people are coming on saying it’s spam so I’m sure it’s somebody from India who has learned how to trick the account and use us to get our money.
Most of the ads are spam and junk
I am not such a consumer where I’m having a conversation with someone on Twitter and then head to Instagram and there’s an ad pop up for what we were just talking about. I don’t need that sort of control in my life.
I can make decisions of what I want to buy on my own
They are using ads to manipulate us and legally spy on us
Well I’m making it hard for them to legally spy on me and that’s why I’m turning off all those things and I’ll just stop using the app if enforced
Instagram has sneaked in a bunch of new updates so go check out your settings – on Twitter and FB too (I’m sure any app you are using, I’ve downsized)
I had to unselect a bunch of ad stuff that they sneaked in and was already activated – I unselected the ad choice options on Instagram and they sneak in updates like this all the time
Instagram, Facebook and Twitter are so toxic and both Trump and Biden are calling Facebook toxic and Big Bro (Mark Zuckerberg Illuminati owned) is butt hurt over these accusations
Good
Let’s start boycotting these corporations who micromanage our every move and even what we’re allowed to post or say
At least turn off the ad tracking – you could start there.
They will still bombard you with the same amount of ads but they’re not gonna be able to track what you do and say even though they will still be tracking it illegally but you’ve not given them permission to do so on the apps and on your phone…
Anybody can make an ad and track you
You’re giving hackers, spammers, thefts, the boogeyman access to track you
What’s the point in having all that security in your home if you’re just gonna give them a Birdseye view from your devices?
Do you really need to be eye raped by that ad that’s probably likely spam which is why there’s a ton of people who fell for it and they’re leaving comments about how it’s spam, they never got the item, or it doesn’t work or blah blah blah
If you see an ad where comments are turned off, beware.
Ads are red flags
Why are you giving them permission to be in your phone? Have you actually read what it means, have you gone under Twitter and read what permissions you’re giving them to track you with?
When has an ad changed your life?
Turn if off
So if you need help finding anything just reach out to me and I’ll do my best to help you or to help you find the answer
I recently switched to an iPhone for the first time after being a Samsung/Android user and reason number 1 was the fact that you cannot uninstall the Facebook application from the device
Woah 👎👎
But I’m also finding that there’s been a lot of security threats all around with the safety of phones in general
This was a fairly scary article to read but wasn’t shocking that the attacks are coming from the Middle East / Asia) 🙄
There are a lot of people out there that doesn’t have the IQ or intelligence that we have or the critical thinking skills so they’re being manipulated and taken from their money and it’s not a positive experience for them and it’s young people and old people and middle-age people, they know how to use words and steal identity or money
Please turn off ad tracking everywhere, you are legally letting hackers spy on you through ad campaigns
It’s really scary if I’m honest
These ads are tracking and manipulating our children, not just us
What’s the point of even locking your doors at night when we’re letting the bogeyman spy on us through ad tracking?
But can we please stop having them spam us, turn the ads off please, for the love of God, turn the ad tracking off!!!!
*takes a deep breath*
I am an American soldier and I am trying to protect the American way of life, which is completely under threat right now
Please wake up
And turn off ad tracking everywhere
Safety first
You’re letting strangers track you through ads
Turn it off, tell your friends
I love you
Reporting the important topics to you today from ground zero: my bed
Haven’t even brushed my tooths yet – just thought you should be aware of how dangerous ad tracking really is because nobody’s telling you or talking about it
And I was trained in the army that safety is everybody’s job and it’s everybody’s place to let people know when there’s a safety issue so knock knock, safety issue, turn your ad tracking off
You don’t need it, I promise you
And go help your mom turn their ad tracking off and help your children and your friends, spread the word, let’s make it difficult for these assholes to spam us, spy on us, take our money, give us bad days
I take a clue then cut it into pieces I make a square just to see how it will fit I am a pupil and adapt to what he teaches But there’s no lessons for me ever to submit
I watch to see how space and time increases And if there’s information that I should omit I’ll spin in circles until my breathing wheezes I guess we’ll find that I’m just illiterate
This was not the direction I was wanting the poem to go at all but the truth is living with a brain injury gets very confusing and I can take conversation to the left field in no time and I often feel aloof and lost because sometimes I’ll just completely forget what we were even talking about while we are talking… 👀
I think I’m dumb
Like that Nirvana song 👀
Completely put together vs completely torn apart in a matter of seconds
Imagine standing in front of a classroom and being the instructor but then having to ask the class what we were talking about 👀
Now put it in a smaller setting and add anxiety and people 👀
Or, talking to your crush and acting a proper idiot, I’ve done them all 👀
No officer, not high, just stupid 👀
It’s embarrassing being so dumb 👀
And the doctors don’t seem to understand that being a writer who can’t spell is a problem for me 👀
And it’s not that I can’t spell, it’s that I can’t even form words or remember names, it’s all these things 👀
I tell them I’m losing my mind but you know, I don’t think people can hear me at all 👀
Most people make me cry when I act stupid but not him 👀
The way he deals with my stupidness and my insecurities makes me want to do the naughties instead of cry 👀
I like him a lot 👀
Just waiting for him to dump me in the trash the way everybody else does when they’re disappointed with me or annoyed by my inexperience 👀
But sometimes I’m running away because I think he deserves something better than already dying and half dead 👀
Unless you’re into necrophilia, it’s kind of the closest and most legal thing 👀
I have a walking cane and I wear pigtails 👀
Where’s the AA meeting for, “hi, my name is Delia and I identify as young”?
Jim Morrison identified as a lizard, I identify as a kid. 👀
I’m not allowed to act like a kid but I could split my tongue, tattoo my entire body into lizard skin, tattoo my eyeballs, and hiss at people 👀
I’m definitely in the wrong timeline, the doctors don’t understand my level of paranoia 👀
I have guys trying to kidnap me in broad daylight just for being petite and cute 👀
I guess I’ve been asking for it since the day I was born 👀
Can’t even be myself 👀
Okay, it’s 3 am and my favorite time and need the moonshine
Not the alcohol, the Moon!!!!!!
I don’t fucking drink
I’m part of the 1% of the population that is not an alcoholic 👀
These things rotate inside at super sonic speeds but it was entirely less traumatic than getting an MRI which made me 1000% claustrophobic when I got one. And the CT scan only took a few minutes.
Now I got a heart monitor glued to me capturing every heartbeat for the next 14 days and this patch cannot be removed by anyone according to this security statement – except my physician. I reckon that there’s some asshole out there that’s probably demanded people to do this which is why it has a warning.
It’ll turn orange and start glowing and beeping if it stops working. So not hearing anything is good.
They say though the patch can get irritating.
And obviously I can’t get it wet. Gotta be careful with the shower or bath.
Dying is so much fun. 👀
It’s also degrading and humiliating but my actual death isn’t something I’ll be able to worry over
Even though we all shit ourselves when we finally kick the bucket 👀
I’m not looking forward to all the disgusting shit that happens after I’m dead and I’m glad I won’t be alive for the humiliation
And I have demanded no funeral or showing so there won’t be any humiliation of only seven people attending and it being only enemies 👀
Poor Edgar Allan Poe tossed in an unmarked box
That actually sounds pretty wonderful and I’ll have an unmarked box myself please 👀
I don’t have a box at all 👀
And since no one is going to visit me in the eternal afterlife, we don’t really need a marked grave. Just drop me in the earth.
Slowly deleting every app from my phone The ad personalization has been dezoned Buried in the earth somewhere my bone The only destination left is alone
Feeling increasingly paranoid and withdrawn and it’s only 5:43 AM. How’s your day going?
If you’re walking on egg shells, it’s molten around here 👀
In 2019 some Australians decided to go with a tour company hike up a volcano and the tour guide was like “yeah it’s a level two currently” and these people didn’t know anything about volcanoes but the tour guide was like “it’s currently a level 2, level 3 is exploding” and then the Volcano exploded and the rescue helicopter company right next to the tour guide didn’t come pick up any of the hikers on the volcano that was exploding, it was some random helicopter that decided to play rescue and hero and a lot of people died on that volcano 🌋 in 2019, a lot of people died…
It’s basically the Titanic everywhere, and buildings are falling down 3 1/2 hours from me 👀
The tour company took them hiking on a level 2 volcano and the rescue company didn’t come rescue them when the volcano went off 👀
People got burned
People died
The rescue company left them on an erupting volcano
And the mayors and the governors who pretend they give a fuck about us, they’re just playing an acting role
The White Island Volcano eruption – that’s you (the volcano) and me consistently climbing up while you’re erupting
A level 3 volcano and me hop scotching along with the tour guide
👀
But if a tour guide took me on a level two volcano that turned into a level three, he’d probably get kicked into the fucking volcano 👀
I ain’t out there doing tours during an apocalypse tho
I’m not suicidal enough to go hiking up an active volcano tho
But I am homicidal enough to get into fights with the gas station clerk
What’s weird is when you’re actually trying to be reachable but you’re not.
And also, when you feel your life could be shut at any moment and there’d be nothing left to say.
So you actually have lots of things that you need to say but you’re not getting through
And part of the reason could be your own fault because you block people
Or, the fact that everything we’re saying is being tracked right now and stored on a private server – and they control what we’re going to do through advertising – they also control the flow of information – that we’re basically slaves to them and consumerism but most people don’t care because they are narcissist and they don’t believe in anything therefore I guess they get off on being a monster!?!?
Do you remember what communicating was like back in the 90s? I mean, when you had to page people or ride your bike to a payphone?
There would be mass panic if communication systems were destroyed but do y’all know that stuff is happening out there – pipe lines and hacks and oh my fucking God I’m getting ready to take my communication back to that sort of level anyway because I’m reaching new levels of paranoia with the shadowbans and toxicity of social media in general and blocking hayfever
Blocking hayfever is that like a thing that I just coined or if I Google it does it already exist because I hate coming up with ideas that have already been thought of already, it’s been a huge disappointment throughout my entire life. I can remember coming up with ideas when I was like 10 and someone already had come up with that idea and Google didn’t even exist
I would say people today have it easier but they’re being controlled and in 200 years will cursing even exist?
Because I don’t want to live in a future where freedom of speech is under threat but yet freedom of speech is under threat as I speak
The New World order are closing in and they have us surrounded.
Oh fuck man
I’ve always been afraid of heights but I think I’m equally afraid of pits. Still, go further in.
Dig
Go under
If you want to know what’s inside a black hole, just die, because it’s the same thing.
Light enters our eye and never leaves. When you die, the color in your eye also goes. No more information can get through.
But they do say the brain has activity for several minutes after you die and we don’t really know how long that really is and we don’t really know much about consciousness do we? But we do know energy can’t be destroyed so your energy goes somewhere.
I’m circling way too close to the event horizon of my own death.
They say there’s seven levels of consciousness (this thang) 👇
I mean, I’m pretty certain I’ve met them all
Miracle to still be alive 🤔
But currently in lots of pain – was trying to clean up – Nearly put my heart into something I couldn’t get it out of and I’m not dying at the ER I won’t be calling 911
Would rather die by the ocean or outside or the forest – or home
No hospitals
No embalming
No organ donation
No funeral
No cremation
Just a box please. The cheapest one y’all can scurry. It doesn’t need a case.
I can be buried on my own land so I’m trying to stay alive for that OK and it’s cheaper to buy land and quicker to get a piece of land than it is to try to get onto the housing market and whatever
I’d rather just live in my jeep you know – nomad
I’ll just buy a camper and travel around Florida live at different campgrounds move around
I am fucking done with being a renter
😑
Or I’ll join the homeless crew in California you know they have an entire section called Skid Row
I wouldn’t last five minutes on the streets but whatever
Being a girl basically has been men trying to fuck me since I was born
And have been..
We’re nothing more than fucking sex objects
And I don’t really give a fuck about stuff
I mean I do because I’m a baby hoarder but
My ride is the thing I appreciate the most
I guess second up would be my intellectual property
What, what. No reverse that lol
But is intellectual property comparative to like a fucking vehicle? 🧐
I mean a jaguar probably does have more value than my life 😑
I mean the CDC already valued what our worth was when they decided for us that whoever got hurt with heart inflammation was worth the risk because they certainly didn’t let 60% of the population know that beforehand and many have died or been wounded like me and like my life is teetering on the line as we fucking speak and I may not recover but I wasn’t given all the facts about these vaccines and the CDC withheld information to us and they said they knew it was going to cause a certain amount of heart inflammation but that they thought it would happen in a lower number than what it did so they made the decision for us what our lives where worth
We all have the same value to them
How many billionaires and millionaires have been vaccinated? 🤔
Whatever
I need foodz
GTG
But also my TikTok’s are starting to get some views so I can breathe again
I mean yesterday I had one up for like three hours and it didn’t get one view so that bitch got destroyed
I also got in trouble for sharing the TikTok on my Instagram wall – it didn’t like me using Nirvana but that track was pulled from TikTok like all the other songs I use IN the app.
But I’m scared to share another one on my Instagram wall
😑
Whatever
You still blocked and everything’s my fault
😑
I don’t know how I’ve known tragic events to happen before they do but I do…
Predictions
A prophet
There are a lot of people out there that know because they were there and I said things and then they happened
Being who I truly am around others has never been easy for me and conforming in school or being forced to be a certain way is not something that’s be an easy path for me
Dying is fucking hard, I’ve been trying to get my affairs in order 👀
I always knew I was gonna die from heart troubles 👀
Told my kid that it’s not actually junk, it’s just all out and about 👀
My intellectual property is chaos 👀
That bill may be poetry scribbled 👀
I do it on toilet paper too 👀
Paper napkins 👀
Nothing is junk 👀
Although I could do with less clothes 👀
But I don’t actually know how to part with anything 👀
My kid said it’s because we’re poor and will never get it again 👀
Psychological and I do place attachments on things 👀
It’s not a t-shirt with a hole, it’s a memory 👀
And instead of fixing our hoarding issues, I told them that while it may feel overwhelming, they’d want the stuff. Put it in storage when I die until you can go through it. 👀
Don’t let anybody in the fam take advantage of your mental state after I die and take the stuff 👀
So I’ve contributed to their hoarding problem as well 👀
Albeit, I’m not actually hoarding trash but I haven’t been left alone with my own property, I’d probably have a tunnel dug to hell 👀
Trespassers shot on sight 👀
I am the dog 👀
Might catch me howling under the Moon 👀
Stood up too fast tonight and started slipping into death 👀
I don’t know what lessons I’m supposed to be learning. If the lesson is love by not getting any love, then I accept my fate and am ready to die on the street.
If I’m still here because someone else hasn’t learned the lesson, can we hurry up?
I know things before they happen but yet still manage to make the wrong choices?
Because they were already decided before I took this form 👀
I’m here to teach you a lesson but who hath eyes to see?
Don’t fucking embalm me when I die, don’t fucking cremate me, don’t fucking embalm me
I don’t think the bugs will eat my hair
I want my bones to take 10,000 years to decay
Don’t let them embalm me!
I don’t want to be preserved!
I want to recycle into the Earth.
It’s pretty fucking simple and Florida allows you to be buried on your own land
I can have my own little family cemetery, it’ll be a cemetery of fucking one just like my life but whatever all I need to do is buy my plot of land
I don’t even need to have cemetery space
I’m gonna have my own goddamn land bitches were my body can be buried because Florida allows you to bury yourself on your land
I can crawl into my own fucking ditch and die
Plant an apple tree by the cemetery
It’s cheaper to buy land for me to live on than cemetery space to be buried
I struggled with posting this TikTok even though I worked hard on it because it wasn’t perfect but I need to get use to making mistakes in front of people or I’m never gonna be able to read my poetry live and I have a brain injury and anxiety and all kinds of other fucking things that I’m pushing through 😑
Yelling at everybody on TikTok who keeps talking about the baby boomers, the millennials, and generation Z and completely ignoring the fact that generation X exist – just like my goddamn childhood – I have no fucking identity 😑
Statistically speaking, I guarantee you there have been more people who have dropped dead by suicide by generation X than of all the generations that have gone before or after
I’d like to see that chart
Suicides per generation
I bet my goddamn life on it that Generation X will have the most deaths via suicide
And I’m not just yelling at them but blocking them
Jesus was pretty angry at the establishment before he died though too
Wanted to do some stuff today – but feeling blockage in the heart – like a blood clot is trying to pass – or it could just be the fact that one of my chambers is enlarged 👀
Apparently you have to post a lot if you want the algorithm bots to know that you’re alive and since I’m on bedrest and can’t do much else I really really really wanna get better with TikTok’s and the only way you will get better is by making them so I have another one 👀
50% don’t recover from “heart inflammation” and they’re only talking about the teens and young adults 👀
They’re not even including my age group and I warned you before it was even in the fucking news or before teens and young adults could even get the vaccination
You know it’s true
I say Cardiovascular issues and blood clots but the CDC says “heart inflammation” I say extreme lethargy but the CDC says “tiredness” – they like to sugarcoat everything don’t they
Well it’s more than circulatory issues, people are fucking dying over it
Teens and young adults from heart inflammation
Only 50% of that age group recovers
*slightly starts to panic again*
👀
I list my symptoms now:
Chest pains – constant pain like a pulled or torn muscle and then random electric charges or shocks that last for several seconds followed by intense burning 👀
I generally stop breathing during these episodes and they come at random at rest or activity – and activity definitely makes the pain worse! Lately the shocks have been more intense. Today I’ve been feeling like I’m going to pass out. I started slipping earlier and thought for sure it was my last breath 👀
Feeling extremely cold – this correlated with my Blood Pressure (BP) dropping as the nurse recorded my BP – the results led to my doctor ordering an EKG – which showed an enlarged chamber, and one closed off – creating blood flow issues- basically my heart is having a hard time pumping blood throughout my body and it doesn’t have enough kick or force to be able to do it on its own so instead of it pushing blood throughout my entire body it only worries about my vital organs which are inside my ribcage which is why I start feeling extremely cold because in reality I’m actually fucking dying and your skin is not considered a vital organ. People dying feel cold. I told my doctor I felt like Antarctica and I live in Florida. My electric bill was $11 last month but not running the air caused a mold problem in my closet that I had to fix by myself – while dying – cuz mold is ancient and it too was trying to kill me 👀
Dizziness and extreme lethargy – like I’m on my deathbed and can’t keep my eyes open even though I’m getting more sleep now than I’ve done over the last decade 👀
I don’t like the taste of food anymore. The vaccines have changed my sense of smell and taste. A minor setback compared to my chest pains!
I’ve had a lot of anxiety and stress over this – the fears get me and then I spend hours under my heating pad crying because it’s the only thing that brings any relief to my heart (except him – there’s a guardian angel looking over me and feeding me in every way he can. But that’s a whole nother story!)
I’ve been down 2 months! The heart doesn’t feel better and the chest pains are getting worse. The reality is, I might not pull through.
There’s a good chance I’m gonna die from a heart attack over this.
I’m trying to get my affairs in order – and just want to die in peace.
When I was talking to my doctor on the phone about my EKG results, she specifically said she didn’t like how my heart looked for my age and that my heart should not look like it does. She then went on to tell me that an EKG is not a good test to measure the chambers (size) of the heart (but my EKG clearly shows signs of distress). She’s ordered several more tests And I’m pending receiving those with care outside of the VA because the clinic here can’t give me the test so the only nearest VA to me that can do it is 176 miles away so I had to get it approved locally and they only called me last week with a list of providers that I could go see so I finally have a provider but I’m still waiting on the appointment time.
Vets die on waiting lists.
👀
I was in so much pain the night my Holy Ghost visited me and he’s my guardian angel and the reason I’m still alive plus the universe and maybe because I really want to kiss him before I die 👀
I’m glad my spoken word made top 3 but the nasty “wtf” comments don’t help my stage fright 😑
I’m an introvert with severe stage fright.
I want to make more TikTok’s tho and I appreciate your views to my channel!
I’ve been writing a lot of poetry but I want to make more spoken word videos AND go live on TikTok for the very first time to read my poetry – since I’ve had a request on TikTok to do that, just this week!
Pushing through fears and listening to my audience!! 💪
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I’m going live on Twitch again soon too!! I’m going to be live-streaming more of the new Resident Evil chapter that came out on Dead By Daylight!
Fun stuff planned!
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You made a mockery of my house these bruises vivid Fleeing reason Like lying to the wind Consequences rigid Or maybe gods to blame my wings unfitted Now trapped beneath the cross I’m scorched and livid Did you ever stop to think Your words imprinted Whether I was meant to see Your light emitted Is forgiveness in the tree You were acquitted
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Got 4 new fans just today!!!!! 🍑🥰🍑
I’ll be livestreaming again this week on Twitch, possibly even this evening!
He leaves me clues confessing They could be lies to keep me guessing There’s trouble around always pressing He’s pouring poison on the gauze I’m here dressing
When he says he’s full But comes back for seconds When he draws a plan But never changes his methods When he’s seen it all But it’s just nightly rejections When he’s looked beneath the stone But worships all imperfections
Why am I fascinated in the shape that light can make? Is it equilibrium or a reflection of mistake? Is it heading towards chances I can never take? Is this really freedom or a cage I have to break?
Lately he’s been sweeping out the cobwebs The devil’s interested in the details He’s focused on the way my story unveils He claims I am the reason that the earth swells
See, this is why I already like the Twitch platform and I do plan to start using it more once I get my master bedroom set up the way I want and move my TV and my gaming system and everything back here
I’ve been getting hit on Instagram about my posts not being seen by other users because of my background music – so thank you Twitch for letting me understand what Big Bro has been doing to my account.
👇👇👇
Instagram has become a dreadful platform to use. Not only do I have to worry about my content being erroneously reported or having to fight the algorithm bots, but now I’m dealing with even more censorship because of the background music I chose to be playing when I’m dancing or working out.
Street teaming was once glorified and now you get in trouble for it literally!!!!
It’s nice to see though that Twitch is actually upset that Big Bro is messing with peoples accounts like that even though this isn’t Instagram or Facebook, it’s Twitch.
But it also means not every company or app is bowing down to Big Bro.
My new free OF is still pending – and I intend to start using Twitch to livestream more – even for the nights I’m gaming. I had Twitch set up with my computer in my home studio but when I did my poetry livestream, the audio was cutting in and out – but not during the performance, I could only hear the technical issues after. It wasn’t an issue with my mic.
I don’t really know what I’m doing and I have a brain injury so when something goes wrong I get stuck and I don’t have anybody to help me. 😏
Unless I am selling you a product on Instagram, Insta has made sure I become obsolete.
“We believe they used automatic tools to scan”
Yup!!! No god damn privacy! We’ve moved into an actual Hitler state and 1984 is now but you can go get a free donut at Krispy Kreme for just obeying!!!!
It’s hip, it’s cool to peer pressure somebody into doing something that they don’t want to do or to steal someone else’s ideas and copy them!!! Bullying is okay because it’ll become a TikTok that has gone viral!
It’s no wonder all the good people like me are going unhinged and taking all you motherfuckers out!
I hope to watch the next shootout with a livestream at the next one with my little fucking cheerleading outfit and a goddamn stick on a pole cheerin the motherfuckers
Woo hoo you got another!!!!
The entire morning shift!!!!
Go you!!!!
And look at you not even messing with the fucking law, you didn’t even care about the cops, you knew cops were gonna take you out, you were going to get as much of the motherfuckers that pissed you off on the morning shift!!!
You are now my effing hero!!!
I’m going to start sensationalizing the fucking gun shooters!!!
Woo hoo yee hawwwww!!!!
1984 is now and I’ve been ridiculed and silenced by the same system I fought to protect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you Twitch for having the little guy’s back!!!! I love you!!!!!!!
PoeEternal 