“He came quickly”

“He came very quickly and then left”

🙂

Sounds accurate

I know I’m not well – it’s just – He left very quickly is all cuz she fell asleep so how could she know anything?

🙂

Are they Iranian? Muslim? Persian?

Now don’t be mad (you will)

But I dug foxholes in Iraq – I saw the salt lines where it had been under water – I stated “this is where Lu fell”

I was in my 20s

(I don’t condone violence but don’t they do stonings still over there)

But my kind is called savages?

Well, I’m starting to believe a Native sold us out to a white man – still MY HOME LAND

And the immigrants are doing honor killings under our policies

“Surprising details”

(They probably won’t tell and I sound racist)

(They’re demons)

(Hush now)

God loves you

Sleep well 🙂

Heart symbol


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Bob’s dead (poetry)

He won’t give his twenty
Claims he is bleeding
Disconnected –
Call is ending
Streets are empty
Can anyone hear Bob screaming?


Angel investor
Married but not together
Machine his predecessor
A wife he couldn’t pleasure


All hail AI / Bob has died


Caught stumbling all alone
Gripping his phone
Dripping blood
Like a trail of bones


Stabbed and shunned
Car with hazards on
A billionaire with no gun
City center is fun!


Close enough to be stabbed in the chest twice – with a kitchen knife


Bob was perfect at everything but being a husband eh (gaslighting)


I’m not stupid, Bob. How dare you. “I sleep with men but I’m not gay”. LOL (God)


M’kay whatever you say


(This is how I mourn. It’s called the 7 stages of grief. I’m on ANGER)


Seeking help but wouldn’t give the one call your location – fucking lost – on a street you mostly lived – c’mon!!!!

You should have stayed down! The adrenaline spikes got yah!!!!

“Angel investor” NO BRO – DEMON who doesn’t even Tweet or acknowledge women – it’s sharing “bro this”, “bro that” and comments to other boys about “why aren’t you here already” and current posts from said person ain’t shed a tear of your passing

Delusional bro

AI is not the way

White pawns are under attack

White lives don’t matter

Bob, you should have stayed down


Your lovers fake plastic sister living in a 2 million highrise – in the same building you own

I got the popcorn out

You remember the Looking Glass?

God already won

The Devil taking his fine time drawing his last move – getting as many souls as he can – drowning demon


Image is everything to these demons – they wrote the playbook for crying out loud – in the closet gay!!!! He’s ruined the world! His daddy too!

Maybe I’m sorry but maybe I’m not!


Sidenote: they don’t get it – but I inherently get it. I wouldn’t normally either. However, this instance, it’s like a direct arrow to my broken soul. Boom this way to the singularity. No no this way to heaven. It’s like you and I play pull rope (what the hell is that rope game actually called)

I can’t recall JJ’s nn either – and he’s the one who sent it to me through the ether. I was all offended and like “no bro”. He loved it.

I’m trying to quit this Russian weed – my brain needs time to sort the pathways

I mean, if I had a phone, and I needed HELP, I’d like CALL the authorities and like “I’m at a glass building, I’m dying”

He knew them streets like the back of an Android

YOU OUTTA THE CLOSET NOW BRO

Gave it a decade huh then ran back home to live with daddy

GAG

“My best friend”

I wanted to punch my mom when she said that about her first born – as I was the family slave ghosted (triangulation)


Bonds

Bonds come in many forms / the way the sun warms / love arriving in thunderstorms / ghosting has become the norms \

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

TMI below – be warned


I put my 30% towards my 20% so I’m definitely not doing it right but the “government” stole half my retirement savings during my disassociation through the pandemic and now I’m seeking alternative means to “save” in such ways where I don’t have such “easy access” such as a regular savings (which also got depleted, and the jeep wants every penny cuz she don’t have a trustworthy mechanic in this town) – so the rent and electric was paid – and I looked into gym membership prices (they keep adding on fees) and I doubt anyone cleans that sweaty equipment and folks can’t stop touching their privates, I’m fine working out from home in my extra bedroom that I don’t know what to do with (fortunate even in the slums) – not to mention – the new carpet was hard fought and won and I wound up securing a baby EE at that historic rate – and I will be nearly 65 when it doubles in value. Being suicidal homicidal and giving the government my money is fun!!!

They already stole half of my retirement but it’s still drawing interest and I refuse to move it to any other zones (unless to withdraw) (with penalty) (fuck you)

They stole half my moneyzzz and have the audacity to want to charge me 30% to get it all.

Again, fuck you.

Not to mention the state gave me an addiction and I don’t want them getting my 30%. Nor the gym, the terrible service at the fast food shops, nor the clothing retailers selling highly flammable polyester clothing (extremely hard to extinguish) (I can’t even find small cotton panties at Victoria’s Secret – who are stealing from their customers with their high interest rates)

Jesus wore a cotton robe because it didn’t cause cancer

Furthermore, they are putting cancer causing and hormonal disrupters in the tampons and hygiene pads – and tho I’m still ovulating, I cry that the vaccine made me sterile

The thought that man stole my life and generations – and they have – because my grandmother had 12 children and I’ve never been married and the divorce rate is over 85%

Men hate women

Men want love with prostitutes (according to the latest studies)

If you don’t let me have my acre of land – far away from civilization – there will be dire consequences and no remorse

Now, I already have a baby I bond but part of me desperately wanted to hook an EE too – especially knowing it is a fixed rate

It’s weird saving for a future you don’t believe will exist or that you will have

But what is worse, giving all my money to the medicinal shop when I don’t wanna

Me: “we’re supposed to have 30% to play with”

Also me: “yeah well fuck you. You have new carpet, roll around and wallow…”

My apartment got new carpet!

I need plants growing. Big beautiful greenery. I like gym equipment that doesn’t require electricity. Upgrading the rebounder potentially. I want a white noise machine. And a big timer or stopwatch for the wall – one that doesn’t require electricity (is that possible)

Maybe even a large wall calendar to track my rebounding – instead of the regular calendar from the library that I’m currently using

A calendar without advertising – and just the dates/times

The old bookshelf will have plants growing – eventually – instead of the items currently on it

I got rid of all my storage – I donated my couch and dresser, basically kept my “seating” stools and benches of sorts – donated the bed!

I am not spending money on furniture, no.

This is not home. This is a curse.

Lots of people lost their lives and homes during the Great Invasion, I nearly lost mine, I’m having nightmares

The new carpet improved my mental health

They wanted $15 dollars for a fucking cotton mop – not even a wood handle – fuck you

I kept the receipt in case it breaks during “elbow grease” and I will try not to turn into the Incredible Hulk if it does.

Cinderella was on her knees for a reason. She didn’t want to chase her tail in a circle buying snake oil from the demons at the supermarket.

“Here’s your crappy product back” – I wasted gas/time/energy while you gut America. Fuck you

And now my therapist is censoring topics discussed during group therapy. Laughs

Fucking grateful for the new carpet tho

I think carpet should be abolished

But grateful that I can invite God to step on my floor

I could answer the door if he knocked

It’s doubtful I would answer, there’s too much shame

I’m coming off my period and I wanted to have a family so badly

I remind myself women go until 50 (until I check the census and read articles about how we’re having less – but they are having more)

I’m going extinct like the dinosaur

Also, Britain is now at 60% – so they too are the minority, having lost power and position, and many of us are ready to fight back for what we had

Hear, hear

Some say karma

But I am both Native American and white and I want what is mine

I read Mexican’s and Chinese identify as “white”

Oh yeah

Bleaching yer skin eh

I might go blonde soon myself

Want to look my absolute best while ghosting every man

And hope they cross my shadow so I can defend my right to exist

Still – men are illegally filming my ass when I’m out and about – disturbingly

Men will follow me and chase me to my car

No means no

Also, because my lightsource is incredibly scarce and rich, these demons show themselves immediately everywhere

They all wanna blow my house down

God dammnit how am I supposed to quit weed?

Me: pays bills then dumps every cent into propoganda

WELPS

But I have access to the other thing too easily and the jeep wants it

I’m speaking to someone as if he understands what I’m saying

He thinks me being autistic is like a crime (I thought he wanted hillbilly babies)

Anyhoo, it just means I’m an oracle

I’m angelic

I’m different

Than them

“I see dead people” (and talk to them)

Googly eyes

I am less sick these days but still sick

So the quarantine remains (even for God)

(No you can’t come in)

(I don’t want you to see me this way)

(Stop looking)

(That’s still looking)

I get the entire weekend to ponder my existence

I’d like to write more

People are starting to get “automatic comments” on WordPress for business proposals. WordPress sold out and this should be illegal.

I desperately want somewhere to reach you, I’m losing ground.

“This offer is automatically generated”. Just remember that as you dump money into WP.

Automation should be a crime

AI is the enemy

Asian Americans identity as “Chinese American and honor Chinese culture only”

They come here and destroy our way of life

These nihilists, they are destroying anything God made, and creating “manmade artificial in place” – to own you

To destroy it all

Think they are Gods

They destroyed the dinosaurs

They probably destroyed Mars

All them cracks on the moon, probably bombs

Those 500 whales dead on the beach, BOMBS


The Hunger (poetry)

Did you ever think God needs you here to keep this place from going under
You’re light and thunder
Relax your plunder
I need you longer
To wake from slumber
Realize the hunger

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Postscript

I write for God now.

Could you please let God know I’m exhausted and need to rest a bit longer.

These demons have not stopped pounding me since I was born.

My dreams consist of multiple murder and full vape pens.

The mind normally gets what the mind wants

The face may show sadness, the eyes show rage

“The scientists” say that once bees are dead – all life will vanish

“The scientists” have fucked around with the genetic coding of honey bees, which has resulted in a 50% life reduction drop.

The honeybees only live 50% of the life God had intended for them – now that the “scientists” have reduced their genes to half life.

They thought the bees would be “more productive”. Pay attention

These demons are killing EVERYTHING

I do not fear imprisonment, my heart would self-annihilate or I’d ensure humane ending via a cop ending my life prematurely

Keep swinging your dick on the road like you have more importance than everyone women

Tell me something is wrong with me again

I’ll respond: what’s the matter honey? You in-love with a prostitute?

Yes. We know you all are.

The studies say over 50% of men want love with a prostitute and would legalize prostitution

There’s also a direct link to sex trafficking and prostitution – with testimony from men, “she looked trafficked and frightened and underage but it’s what I want”

Fuck you

Cut me off again, anywhere, anyday

You only treat prostitutes with respect huh

Like this book “racing the light” that I checked out from the library just yesterday – nowhere in the synopsis did I know porn would be the subject.

So far, the writer has used his characters to complain about the daily women, one being a “skinny scarecrow”, the other being “fat” – yet glorifying the porn star on the poster, how she looks amazing wearing “all black”. How they wouldn’t fuck her during a podcast show because they have boundaries

GET IN THE FUCKING SEA

I’m done reading!

Chapter 7! He’s on his way to meet the famous pornstar!

Gag me! I’d rather die than live in this porn infested society!

Stop conditioning!

This book should not be at the library!

Walmart and the mall should not be selling sex equipment in front of children or me!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YOU

Tell God I’m angry!!!!!!!

The honeybees deserve more!

Science is unethical!

Art is sin!

90% of all murder happen by men!!!!!!!!!

The other ten percent I’m contemplating falling in!

So many men are committing crimes they are reducing sentences – opposite for women – hardly any do so punishment is more severe

Rules for thee, not for me

I’m gonna fuck you up if you smile at me incorrectly or refuse to open the door when you see me

Cut me off again

I triple dare you

Money don’t mean shit to me

Ending your pathetic society tho – like Bonnie and Clyde

I dream of it

DAYDREAMS

Of bloodletting

With the de-lite

BLACK LIVES MATTER / ASIAN HATE ✓

All before morning coffee

Born this way

Need him to go where I’m going

The library is no longer a safe place for me – I’m angry and contending with that now

I sensed this with the LGBT and Boomer staff lurking and the “smell of lies” and the street political thugs in gold begging for my signature

Still there was hope

Briefly

It didn’t last very long

People ruin everything

I’m finely crafting my monster and angelic side –

Men have suppressed me from sex and defense

They get sex and murder – with the slap of a hand

Cut me off again

I can’t be the only woman feeling this way

Gonna start a riot

The way doctor lady swallowed when I told her “according to the latest studies over 51% want love with a prostitute and would vote yes”

Gutted her right there in her stool

Continued gutting her with more facts

I’m maybe the Oracle but get treated like Agent Smith

I’m maybe Neo Trinity Morpheus too

“Why me Gabriel” (you’re going to hell for the life you took – you’re fucked)

Should I join the order of Satanism? I was reading over their website – I read the DR book age 16 – it cost money to join – they say titles are earned – whatev, give me Priestess or fuck off – I will keep my $$$

Also, should I join? The order?

Of Satanism?

Revenge is a dish served by an Angel rogue in hell

It’s just another form of narcissism carefully crafted

“We’re not religious but we are, we think we’re Gods”

LAUGHS

Oh yeah?

So adorable

I really enjoy spending time in the sun getting “weathered” and feeding all God’s creatures

Probably causing them more harm but the intention is good

Tell God I’m sorry for being such a fuck up

I know I’m suffering cuz I died via suicide – this hell

But when do I?

I’ve been conditioning myself to do it since in womb

Age 5 on the kindergarten – got in trouble for putting “string around my neck and pulling” – wasn’t allowed sunshine or going outdoors for weeks (fuck you)

You treat prisoners better than civilians

I’ve got scars from cutting on my body

Charming

I worry more about my stretch marks than I do scars over my big veins

LOOK: TRIED TO KILL MYSELF THAT DAY

Wanna get married?

*jumps from bridge


Domuso – third party rental payment processors – SCAM

A total scam

Delete your account

Write a paper check

Pay a money order

Protest

It should be illegal anyway – forcing us to pay rent online

Fucking move

Into a tent if you gotta…


I’m still waiting for my rent payment to go through – since the 31st

Paid my rent ahead of schedule – now collecting late fees – new management in the apartment instructed to “not even call Domuso support” and they have to call – to give permission to cancel it – since it’s in an “authorized status” according to Domuso – whom I contacted myself.

I guess they want me chasing my tail about my rent – worrying about fees and whatnot. I’m not.

Back to check writing.

And I dare you to make me homeless for refusal to “pay online” like you are enforcing other apartment buildings to do.

Go check the reviews about this company. They out there stealing money from folks.

It’s now day 9 and my payment is still pending and I’m not allowed to cancel it in an “authorized status” – the apartment complex must call Domuso and give the approval – but management says to “wait” and “we’re not allowed to call…”

Meanwhile, the fees are collecting and I went in with my checkbook ready to fix THEIR MISTAKE (I’m using the same bank I’ve been – no changes, my bank isn’t withholding my payment – nor do they have any reason to) but they refuse to do anything about my pending payment in cyber space and were ready to put a late notice on my door.

Do.

I dare you.


I have contacted Domuso via email and phone – same generic response, “your property needs to accept the transaction” but why should they when they can quietly quit and rack up charges and evictions on poor unsuspecting dumb folk

Touche

Hope you like your job very much…


“What’s the matter honey, you depressed?” (true tales)

“What’s the matter honey, you depressed?”

“Get help”

Those were the questions asked of me after I was rudely cut off on the road, so I rudely began following him, to wherever we were now going.

We wound up in a parking lot for several minutes – he threatened the cops – they never came.

Got his license plate number anyway

Stalked him until he was sweating anyway

But y’all keep giving yourself away

I should have responded “homicidal” but asked “was he in a rush to get to his prostitute.”

Of course, he called me a “manhater” LAUGHS

I’m ready to rip your veins from your neck – and your cock – with my teeth

Please keep risking my life – and then insulting me when I call you out

When he threatened to call the cops, I responded: “I hear restraining orders don’t work – and the more you have the less they work. Please call the cops.”

He retreated to inside his vehicle – but it didn’t stop me circling his vehicle like a vulture

So – y’all are making us depressed with malicious intent and purpose – so we’ll “get a job” and “see a therapist” – something must be wrong – we cry and boys don’t. Ohh boo

90% of all murders happen by men.

Please keep pissing me off


P.S. the jobs and medications to keep me asleep while you live a double and triple evil life – no longer work

Maybe you should have treated ALL WOMEN with respect, not just the prostitutes you’re “in love with” according to the latest studies “most men want love with a prostitute”

*throws up

Fuck you

Cut me off again

I double dare you


P.S.S. That’s TWO days in a row I’ve had the cops threatened on me.


P.S.S.S. Might be meeting my future husband soon and getting a new home. Do you think I’ll get visitation?

Yes. No. Maybe (select one) (please return)


Too Calm (journal log)

I’m told I’ll be getting a renewal invite to remain at the heart of darkness.

It’s been nearly one year since that couple was gutted in the street – by a black immigrant – simply because they were “white” – and now they’re dead – and he gets 3 meals a day, a free roof over his head, dental, and an HOUR of sunshine for his MENTAL HEALTH – on us (the tax slave payers dollars = time/energy)

The political thugs in gold chains now want your signature – soliciting anywhere they legally can: the library, the mall, the medicinal shops.

Overjoyed.

I don’t know where I’m going – but I don’t have to prove anything to “remain here” as I’ve been stuck in purgatory so long now – I don’t have to provide any evidence of my existence.

Just keep paying the rent….

Do as say

But I yelled at the boomer Publix employee, “no bitch, you lost a fucking customer FOREVERRrrr”

Apparently we became a cashless society and she felt the need to rub it in, three times, scolding me in front of everyone around, my cash in hand, unable to pay.

“It says it right there” (honestly, you only need to point out my failure ONCE)

I’ve boycotted Publix forever

There’s poison and sugar and “natural flavor” in everything now anyway

“How did she die”

“Starved to death…”

“White people work out one time and be skinny” (latest neighborhood report on me)

The upside: they think I’ve only worked out once. Skinny. Weak bitch.

Let that be my fucking gain

In fact, at Burger King yesterday, the Mexican manager came out with two of her BLM pimps, when I told her to “step outside”

He was very upset when he heard me say, “oh you had to bring your pimps with you huh”

Very upset he got

Truth in fact hurts

I drove off too calm

The adrenal glands were not working

Even pulling off

“I’m too calm”

“Had to bring your pimps huh” I continue to yell, as traffic at the window was at a stop

They gonna run off all their white costumers with their terrible service

I ordered the “impossible king” and apparently that’s too complicated for certain species to get right

Though I repeated my order THREE times

Fuck it

I like starving anyway

I got my library card tho

And holyshit, that’s where I’ll be at the end of the world

Check the libraries

Leave clues a 5 year old could solve (anything harder and I’ll read the data wrong and wind up stuck in a fucking hole – as is now – with a heart condition – thanks to “television” and government – whom I no longer listen to in any capacity)

At least the library is ad free

I can read in silence

Love the smell of the old books

All them lies

There are perks to not being homeless (yet)

Aside from the thugs trying to solicit my signature in the parking lot – everywhere I go

In their gold chains…

I wanna puke

Stop talking to me

From now on

When someone interrupts whatever I’m doing solo

“Did I give you permission to talk to me”

And the ghosting will begin

And please cross my shadow

I know you’re trying so hard to break me out here

Of being a good Soldier, a good soul

But I swore my hand before the flag and God – and on my heart – and signed the dotted line – took my blood and all – to protect and defend the USA and its citizens – not DEMONS

And right now you stepping all up in the “fine print”

I dated for a lifetime and have nothing to show for it

STOP LOOKING AT ME

I’m ready to spit on these thug politicians in the street

FUCK OFF BRO

You can’t have my signature, my name, or my soul

Go back to your porn and prostitutes

I was trying to enjoy the jazz event – and men breaking their eyeballs to get a look

STOP LOOKING

I had to hold back the tears

Pretend the music was getting to me

Next week I hang with a cop who teaches about a Daytona Beach serial killer

Exciting! They want us living in fear!

Do I want to say yes to the “true encounters Daytona Beach serial killer” event. Yes I do.

I’m not even a jazz fan – but I went – and enjoyed (still cry anywhere)

The audiobook helped me not stalk anyone

But apparently I’m not allowed to order food anymore anywhere

Unless a yuppie place

I found something that sparked joy in me

It matches my values – it offers self-improvement and the entertainment is how it should be – without disruptions or ads

Easy scrolling interface

Eventually I’ll make my way to the science museum

The skate park and rinks

I checked out an express book

I’m 8 chapters in

I’m becoming present – and creating boundaries and discipline

My mind needs exercise – the books provide

The 2 week express lane gives me a challenge

You can’t renew those

I got my library card and it’s bringing me happies – can’t describe

So much to do too – free classes, movies at the auditorium, events…

I was also the youngest person at the jazz event

If you’re thinking about killing yourself – maybe get a library card instead

And be present

Read what you check out

Set time aside to read

Luckily – my first book was large print – that’s made reading a pleasure – no headaches or squinting – though the writer is a pedo – he’s brilliant – it’s no wonder I grabbed his book – of all books on the “new” shelf (express check out and no renewal)

I like all the digital perks that come with my card – as well as the real world perks – and I’m tapping into all

NOT READY TO DIE

But these monsters are ready for me to shed my light

I’m too calm…


US sees recent rise in maternal deaths, CDC report shows

US sees recent rise in maternal deaths, CDC report shows – CNN
— Read on amp.cnn.com/cnn/2022/02/23/health/maternal-deaths-increase-us-report/index.html


Keep tap dancing over the fact that the death jab is the enemy! White Lab coats! Nurses in comfy shoes!

We got all these pedos running around and no mamas or babies. Just an FYI

Most young women have clotty periods now. Listed as “heavy flow”.

Been sterilized yah know

An entire race

Enjoy yer porn

44 Shocking Animal Shelter Statistics (2022 UPDATE) | Petpedia

Unfortunately, most animal shelter statistics paint a sad story. Though the progress in the years is evident, there’s plenty that can be done in 2022.
— Read on petpedia.co/animal-shelter-statistics/


Hail Hitler! He’s alive!

I’m old and sick! Euthanize me!!!!!

It’s not 60k annually anymore. The numbers are much much worse.

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

And children are being conditioned as children to support prostitution and porn. That’s why the divorce rate is 100%!

3 Reasons Why Watching Porn Is Harmful (And Research Is Proving It)

Just like it took decades for science to prove that smoking cigarettes was harmful, we are learning a similar lesson with porn in our society today. Science and research are proving that porn harms…
— Read on fightthenewdrug.medium.com/3-reasons-why-watching-porn-is-harmful-and-research-is-proving-it-bc572b1b0abf


The elite are building a society of psychopaths and narcissists period. They serve Satan, Black Holes, Dark suns, worlds, darkness in general, they are demented demons without a soul. They are nihilistic at their core.

Big Porn & prostitution (not opinion, FACT)

They’re in-love with the porn stars and prostitutes (according to scientific studies)

Except, it’s not real.

The prostitutes – according to studies – create alternative personas while doing sex work – causes negative mental health – and men do not need to be tested for STD or STI – even though they are the silent carriers – often without any signs or symptoms – which can lay dormant for years – and parasites and cancer can be spread from semem, as well as simple skin-to-skin contact.

I’ve shared every study backing this up.

The prostitutes “rub their back” before doing sex work – and they do not use the same style to connect in their personal lives – they make up personas to get through the sex work – many were abused as children, forced into sex work.

Prostitution is a direct link to sex trafficking – making prostitution legal creates MORE human trafficking – which they now have undeniable proof of.

Many countries have made prostitution legal, while other countries have made it illegal but still sell sex via entertainment – creating street hookers, violence, and other negative social impacts. The doors to America remain open for sex trafficking.

Furthermore, the divorce rate is over 85%.

Prostitutes do not “enjoy” their line of work – disassociating from what they do – separating personal life from work – over 75% remain “single” and “would never marry the men they service” – even though they program them to love them (some maintaining sex relations with “repeat customers for years”)

And the fact that they can’t fall in love or show signs – makes it more exciting to them

They walk in with their dicks hard and ballsack full – ready to shoot them their biggest load

These prostitutes don’t even like the line of work

Porn and prostitution is creating monsters in a soulless society

Women and children at home – suffer extreme abuse

Porn isn’t real – it’s fantasy football. It’s soap operas in the nude on repeat. Porn stars fucking themselves in the ass with a wine bottle for decades – then taking a drink

Same story over and over

And the men get hooked as CHILDREN – many get into porn and prostitution by their own fathers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have brain rot! Their primal side of the brain is activated – hence all the crime!!!!!!!!!

It’s the devil!

They’re selling sex toys at the mall and Walmart, CVS, Walgreens, Dolls Kill, and many more! It’s not behind a curtain!!!

It’s a society of sickness

Our very foundation is built on a sin and lie

All so men can go to war in exotic lands and experience exotic women – while the wives are at home

It’s turned into a well-oiled beast

It’s demon vs human down here (likely opinion but I identify as Angel Baby)

They say in the press that “narcissism is rare” but it’s actually a plague

They say psychopaths “are born” but a “narcissist is made”

Yeah, and it starts in the Bible (narcissism is throughout), with porn and prostitution

Big government is to blame

“The sins of the father”

Apparently you will experience 3 deaths: one when you die, the second when you are buried, and third and finally, the last time your name is ever said.

I’ll probably wind back in “Misery” because there’s only one person I want to see me dead – or bury me.

So if I wind up in his yard half-alive, it won’t be long. I will likely be nude – like our dear Edgar, to keep with tradition

Don’t make fun of my emaciated frame

You don’t know what holes I crawled out to get here

I was reaching depth blackout – but I am slowly retreating – and repenting these days – I think that’s what the holes in the wall mean – repentance and awakening

God put me down here on this earth to judge you

Taking my freedom of speech – silencing me from atrocities – will not stop me from truthmonging

But I’m still a woman with needs unmet, with a private strip club, where the devil is kept (poetry)

LAUGHS

Apparently it’s not a good time to move but I feel I will die if I stay here (it’s not just a “feeling”, there are many red flags)

90% of all homicide happen by men (verifiable)

Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct (verifiable)

We are in a 6th mass extinction (verifiable) (over never ending porn, prostitution, sex trafficking over 6000 years)

The leaders running things serve Luci

Apparently I was right about the enemy in the White House because the females are upset the law was changed (mostly voted in by men) – that they cannot show their shoulders

LAUGHS

They kept fucking with the female Soldiers changing the regulations telling us how to wear our hair, nails, makeup. I got out.

It was already strict when I swore my life to “America and our way of life” – which has been completely destroyed by immigration

Had no idea the waters I was swimming in

I had no idea the seabed could drag you down due to gravity – and with the pressure of the ocean above – you sink quickly

They are turning Florida into Dubai – but FL is limestone – and sinking – so not a good idea

The floods, the condos collapsing, I ain’t all talk

You have to turn it off if you want to change

I know you think you want how you are – but I don’t buy it

You have to remove predictive programming

I never said it was easy

I’m done supporting toxic masculinity society

I just still have hope I might get through to someone – who might change for the better

As far as the hypocrisy of doing nude art, I’m not compromising my soul, I find it therapeutic, I’m not disassociating to make photography or poetry

At the moment I’m overcoming dying and a major illness – heart inflammation and depression

I’m barely working or putting out content unless you count my blog work – and WordPress says I’m on a 19 day streak or something

I’m also in the middle of getting rid of everything I own – either in an attempt to save my life or end it

The odds are set

I’m just awaiting the verdict

And if I’m gonna be “responsive or reactive”

Don’t judge me

That’s my job, that’s what God put me here to do (potentially)

In the court room: “because God ordered me to do it”

The only thing God should be ordering you to do, is “tender mercy” (tho I’m not obliged to be telling him what you outta do)

God can hear me cursing outside his church

I live in hell…


But it’s what men want…

catwinternational.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Ten-Reasons-for-NOT-Legalizing-Prostitution.pdf


Prostitution is a root cause of sex trafficking, but it’s what men want…

They want us living in fear, not just Black Lives Matter.

Yesterday I was having chest pains and no weed but today some birds moved in next to me and I got a nap

The sun is finally out 

Principalities and Powers

Demonic forces never stopped running through human affairs. We just stopped seeing them.
— Read on www.theamericanconservative.com/principalities-and-powers/


People like killing dogs and cats too. Facing my own issues with an animal; I find end-of-life services to be inhumane and Hitler regime.

Many just give up, shelter’s are full – animals will be sacrificed.

I’m not making this up. They are eager to take that money too.

One humane society charges more for you to “go back”. A significant amount more.

I’m autistic, “what do you mean “go back” and she explained – “to watch – to be with them” – “that cost more”.

And, an additional cost if you want a “box or urn”.

He’s had 3 end of life appointments made – one with his primary veterinarian, two with the humane society.

I called eventually a third time and stated, “I won’t be able to do this by appointment, I’m having a hard time letting go”

Because – I researched the chemical used to stop their heart – their bodies jerking around.

When someone ODs they go out peacefully and you can call it humane, but I disagree that End Of Life Services are anywhere but “humane” when their bodies are literally jerking around.

My grandmother let her dog “die naturally”.

Anyhoo – I’m against abortion and apparently against manmade animals from a lab getting sacrificed to the dark entity

My dog has a strong heartbeat and will to live. He may be a hellhound – but he’s my hellhound for “better or for worse”.

He may qualify for end-of-life services, and that may be the “easier” path for me – but it requires ending a life, stopping a heart. I do not comply.

And I’m so fucking depressed and suicidal that I would rather jump off a fucking bridge than figure out what to do with my dog, which means I’ve quit weed so that I can figure out what to do with my fucking dog because apparently this new age weed complicates PTSD (hear, hear) and causes suicidal ideation

Also, these drugs folks are doing, probably have code written in them, that’s why they see “the same thing”. 

Autistic doesn’t mean “dumb”.

Gullible sure. I know that they use art and cartoons to imprint on us.

NASA is extreme religiousness – they “the physicist” now are pushing “dark worlds” with “dark suns” and “dark planets” – made of “dark matter”.

It’s one extreme to the next – from walking on water to miracle pregnancies – to “dark worlds”.

They serve a dark entity.

Can I please have a tech free zone? Tech free state? 

Forsaken (freestyle poetry)

Father,
I’ve been forsaken
Fell on earth
Still shaking

Whole world undertaking
You feel me aching?
Cursing while I’m breaking?
Nightmare got me waking!

I am awaken?

How light will break in?
Always knocking, Satan!
Tell him, I hate him!

My soul ain’t vacant!
I hope God is patient
Before world naked
I’m basic

Darkness so pervasive
I’m growing complacent
Getting stuck in places!
Knowing what John faces!

I’m faceless!
Falling down ain’t gracious!
I’m persuasive!

Smiling where I’m hated!
Holes in wall frustrated!
Emaciated!
Hung on cross related!

© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal

“Where do you get your truth?”

I am the truth – that’s why I’m facing you

6000 years of deleting my word

But you don’t know what’s coming

Or you do

So I expect you’re running

Split in two

Soulless, too

Through and through


I don’t actually have a problem with “dry rot write” (dry well, writing droughts)

I need to learn to shut the fuck up

And I felt like I could continue this poem on for several more lines…

So I stop for fear of going “overboard” but I really wanna just keep going four pages if I must…

I write. With brain fog edit. Post.

I don’t know when I will get another chance

The clock is ticking

I’m obsolete forsaken

😑


Mess (poetry & free speech)

I don’t like showing him pictures
When I know he’s into perfection
And I’m leaning a different direction
Part of his daily “mess” collection!?!

© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal

I suppose when they’re paying for it, in their mind, they believe they’re getting top-tier sex, huh?

File me under Dante’s 7th level

You should have a file system like Inception – 9 levels deep (put me level 7)

Lucky number 7

Not first, not last. Made top ten.

Maybe with a ⭐️ on the file folder

Locked

“The chosen one”

Oddly enough my lifeline was 7 – I’ve done this seven times!?!

I’m on 7 now

The Matrix twas 6 times

If love is the anomaly, and they all think they love the fucking fake porn stars, and the prostitutes… uggggg

My grandmother stated “you must have a tapeworm”

She wasn’t far off potentially

My horoscope read age 15: “leo’s suffer from feet and heart issues”

My best friend before she died of suicide age 13, “something bad will happen to the world in 2003” – she was distraught – it was 1993

She didn’t live long enough to see her prediction come true

We went to war in 2003, I was part of the initial push into Baghdad, as a combat medic during the start of the war (she was long dead but it still fucks with me)

She literally came to school freaking out saying that she had a bad dream and that “something bad was going to happen in the year 2003, but she didn’t know what”

She died by suicide maybe a month later

She was 13…

Several years later her mother also died by suicide and they are buried next to one another. Their bones got a coffin! ❤️

A coffin plus one of those metal boxes that goes over the coffin…

Her bones have a home for now… ❤️

The point tho – predictions coming true

How!?!

I crawled into them!?!?

Someone up there is looking out for me!?!

I think it’s possible I might actually be locked in a computer against my will somewhere

The government took my DNA, blood, hair, signature, pledges and swears before the flag, like I was sold an idea about the US and that training imprinted on me 🙂

Just like porn imprinted on you

I’m trying to stay alive – get fit enough – to go down in battle

Total warrior

Like I’m still a Soldier who holds rank

They may have changed the uniforms, but I was never stripped of mine

I know the enemy wants me and my comrades dead

I’ve already lost family and friends

And I don’t know how responsible I am for my other family members who never even listen to me because they’re so fucking demented and toxic

My sister is dead, age 45

My fucking parents are still alive – and I’m growing resentful and weary of it

Agent Smith didn’t like the stench of humanity and I feel the same of narcissists 

Every state should make sex offenders, lifelong. I wanna know who my fucking neighbors are.

And pedophiles say that they were born that way, they swear they were fucking born that way, so they can’t change, so it’s not like they’re going to be different in five or six years or 10 or 15 or 25, that’s just long enough for them to start fucking your grandchildren

They will have the best relationship with their own children just so they can fuck their grandchildren, and there are studies out there of this, it’s not hearsay

I also have a degree in psychology, so I study human nature

I swear pretty bird has started saying “thank u” instead of “pretty bird” lately – and normally soon after I’ve tossed out seeds n’ nuts

I swear it

“Thank u thank u thank u”

I don’t care about these abandoned cats tho – not natural to the environment – made in a fucking lab – carry disease – and are terrorizing the wildlife here

I will fuck a motherfucker up

And it’s extremely hard being an angel because I don’t know what I’m allowed to hurt, and what I’m allowed to not hurt

Fuck that demented cat, but it shouldn’t be my karma to call the pound on him

He didn’t even eat the tuna I put out

What a fat kunt

I like lions but hate “man’s best lab friend”

So the American Asians identify as a Chinese American, and probably wish to drop Americans all together once they fully take over our country – they value “Chinese culture” and are pushing their way of life on us here

I don’t recognize my own country

I come from a generation where we had to page people to communicate or go to their fucking door, and I’m kinda ready to go back to that sort of lifestyle…

I sold my TV

I don’t even want a smart phone

I want sex toys behind a black curtain because I don’t want to see it and I’m a fucking adult

I need food

But I stopped going to the grocery store buying anything and I’m trying to eat what I have in my house

When was it acceptable to blow your horn in the parking lot for someone to come down?

What is this trend of people turning their fucking cars off at the red light?

I’m done with society

They want a 15% tip for ringing you up and they can’t even get your order right or smile

I don’t want to do any of this anymore

If I wanted to live in Asia I’d fucking move there

I do not have yellow fever

And I will never support another Asian franchise in America ever again or buy anything from China, India, or Mexico

“You’re racist”

Correction: I’m homicidal

If you’re gonna accuse me of something, make sure you get it right

Homicidal is the new suicidal and we don’t fucking talk about it these days 🙂

Happy to help

Remember heal and save

Sharpen your blades (they will invade at night, at rest, they will not follow GENEVA)

I’d really like to show God what sort of warrior I am and it’s not getting gutted it in the street

And this is like minority report now, they will fucking commit you for saying something

I’m still on the good side of god (I fight and live for God) – this establishment worldwide needs to END and be dismantled and destroyed

The entire reason they do these wars is just so they can have their fucking prostitutes in different countries…

It’s mostly military and white men apparently (according to studies)

An entire nation lost

They are also making the animals suffer and it has to stop

What the fuck are they doing to these gators at the amusement parks? Selling teeth? I have some. As a reminder – of how fucked up immigration ruined my country – turning everything into a Sims theme park – creating depression – addiction – addicts – monsters – lost souls

The doctors and nurses are criminals

I still have my medical background that the enemy didn’t account for

“No one will listen to her”

“Censor her”

Me: sells TV, stops supporting society

And I spend time in the sun now without sunblock, and I don’t get burned

I absolutely can be taken down by the elements very quickly though, the cold, the heat, I have a heart condition

Thanks to the government and my gullibility

RIP John Jones


P.S. your rugs are dirty

Study Finds Men Want Love With Prostitutes

Are Men Looking For Love With Prostitutes?
— Read on www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2012/08/13/relationships-men-fall-in-love-with-prostitutes_n_1772680.html


It’s all been conditioning – these men have been buying sex since children

And now children can see and buy sex toys – toys aren’t behind a black curtain….

The Devil’s society…

Give it time, LGBT will have an orgy in the street.

Porn has ruined man

They fall in love with an idea – and the porn industry repeats the same story throughout years – with all sex workers.

They need the girls in the pictures so much that they use “commoners” as fleshlights

“No one knows why” – ahem bullshite it’s porn

Porn segregates us from unity, imprinting

Well – these boys are exposed to porn at a very young age and it imprints on them.

And image is important to them – gaslighting – so the Church offers a safe haven for these demons – who want us paying for their housing and meals.

They disassociate when they use porn so it’s like they become a completely different person and that’s why there’s no remorse when they do the shit that they do to you

They have an addiction created by the enemy to break up the traditional family value home – all while the immigrants take throne during “yellow fever”

Suicide is a top leading cause of death worldwide

Porn is the gateway drug to ruin

It could be easily censored like they do my free-speech

All the little commoners who get on onlyfans, they just use us up like they do in the real world 

Most anyway

OnlyFans say most users loose out – it’s only the top folks with value (society is the Titanic)

They steal money from users too

And as much as I love blogging, I don’t want to continue paying the enemy

Pay to play

I’d rather die than give the state another penny

And I can’t even visit Orlando without having to pay four tolls to return and they aren’t cheap anymore 

It’s the same fucking county, but I have to pay to return to the city I’m registered to live in.

Florida is gone

Overrun with evil and immigration

I mean immigrants get here and naturalize faster than we can even procreate or vote 

Native Americans were doing just fine here until my bloodline was nearly wiped out by the fucking immigrants that you say bring so much greatness to our country

I fantasize about dying by suicide in terrible and terrifying ways

I know you’re a nihilist and do not care what happens to me…

”To be seen and not heard” while man destroys everything

But as long as we are making him a meal and doing everything for him

While he jerks off to the pretty women prostitutes

And by telling a man not to fall in love with you, they probably absolutely fucking do fall in love with these prostitutes (not commoners)

Because even the guys without any teeth, think they deserve a ten star 

And I’ve never been rated a 10 or treated with any value

Lots of marriage proposals though 

Fleshlights….

And you’re a fucking child…

Please don’t refer to me as an “older woman” again

Or group me there

I know you’re a pedophile

And I’m GENX

But I’m only your 8 years senior

And that’s with the 10 year “decade” window

It’s considered NORMAL

And the couple that was recently murdered here in Daytona Beach – during bike week – double homicide from a BLM immigrant – she was only 8 years older than him – they had recently bought their dream home that they were biking home to

He stalked them and gutted them near a school

Now he gets better treatment for his mental health than I do and I served my fucking country and am facing homelessness (again) (sigh)

“You will own nothing and you will be happy”

You mean like stalk people?

Hunting them down like you want to gut them in the street.

I mean, yeah

You get 3 meals a day, an hour of sunshine, dental, free rent.

Where is the punishment?

I sit in an overpriced run down 4×4

The amenities aren’t even opened on the weekends, no 24/7 gym pool but paying the price like a fool

But due to gentrification in the housing market – it’s kinda hard to move up to the east side

This entire society is built on narcissism, the very foundation is a lie

Did all your dreams come true in Nam?

I’m about to jump off a fucking dam…

Don’t call me older ever again

It’s barely 8 years

Oh, it’s because I’m over 29 huh

And you’re a pedo

Don’t call me old when I’m still bleeding from my legs every three weeks you fucking insensitive asshole

I hate you


But, I do have the eldest blood of all the bloodlines

It’s kind of hard to bleed yourself dry when you think on yer superpowers

Fucking old

Like 13.7 billion years or something

At least get it right…

I’m not old, I’m glorious and that’s why guys are chasing me down when I’m in the isles crying

They just wanna spend time with me

I look like a dying zombie but many are mesmerized

I don’t know what they see

The age always disappoints them

I don’t talk to men anymore anyway

The new responses will be, “oh honey, I’m not Asian”

“I’m not a fleshlight”

OR

“You can’t afford my fleshlight”

That’ll really fuck em’ up

God didn’t make me hush

It’s possible he left his ministry to me because everybody seems to keep calling me a whore

And treating me with little value

I probably have a fortune in Bibles lying around, but you know

“I asked you to prove to me the Bible was re-written and not give opinion”

“The version is on the cover”

“This comment no longer exists”

Pop goes a demon

This is why heaven is empty

This is why my views are low

“Because of you, I can only smoke down here now”

Oh goodie, I’m glad I make messes in heaven still

The way I do on earth…

“God is love”

“Love is the great anomaly”

God was here!?!

God lives here!?!

Gotta get his house cleaned up

He doesn’t treat me ill

Creating bonds just to break

Breaking souls

To get a rise cuz you are numb and void and soulless and without remorse

Women over 40 have value – even if society has ruled us obsolete

Because you’ve been brainwashed by society to be a pedophile

And we’re meant to socially bond very young…

Imprinting

We’re not born to be your fleshlights

I got educated to save a life

It’s not my fault that doesn’t impress you

Or my tiny savings

One and five men have an STD and a divorce under their belt

Not interested in your opinion of me any longer…

Dig?

Women over boost men’s egos to not get murdered – in general

Men obviously are crazy and go through hormonal changes if “90% of all murders happen by men” and you know women get prosecuted harder for crimes cuz we rarely do

If more women committed crimes, the punishment would be less severe (like men)

And a demon has no remorse so therapy is invalid

My mental health is being destroyed with malicious intent and purpose, and has been since I was born

But I get called crazy for having to deal with being told what to do 24/7

Man has put his overrule over everything – trying to be god

Changing time

Literally trying to control women’s periods with birth control and everything else they do

Trying to control every aspect of time

“Time is energy” and they control the energy crisis too

Trying to fix the weed – the premium weed is weaker than homegrown from the 90s – it ain’t premium – it’s expensive junk and shite

Trying to control the food supply

“Natural flavor” in everything

The Great Filter of nihilism

Destroy everything God created

Man trying to take over and control

Making humans in a lab

Cloning

Honestly, you can’t even listen to the music because they did something to the frequency to cause depression

They are using weather modification and they openly talk about it now, so you can’t keep calling me a conspiracy theorist

It’s ruining the earth

Causing disasters

“But the insurance will cover it” (another filter)

No one wanted insurance, but they pushed it on us, just like they pushed the one child law on China residents (whom had been brainwashed into believing it was a good thing) (over 1 million parents lost their only child – and too late for many women to conceive after it was lifted – and many men left their wives for a younger one. But there aren’t enough women anymore and “too many men” due to their science! (All planned)

The white race is systematically being destroyed through racism (it’s not how we’re reporting dummy)

I don’t want to live my life through a computer screen or an algorithm

Most of China is depressed – apart from gentrification and “them”

Also, that Chinese politician who implemented that law and went to jail, he lives in America now

All the bad ones are allowed entry here…

They are fighting wars from a computer screen now and accidentally blowing up families an Afghan and going Oh sorry you can come live in America though.

They bring their entire family here

Violent upbringing and all…

Black Lives Matter

RIP couple gutted in the street – this isn’t the same country I fought for – I’ve wanted out of Daytona Beach since that violent crime – and crime continues to rise here despite reports of “best place to live” (it is not)

And they are forcing workers to work alone, and people are robbing the place and getting murdered – fuck that – I’m not dying for you and your goddamn taco

Jim Morrison was from Florida and loved tacos 🌮

And I love a little taco job – but I ain’t dying for this society – which is sinking faster than the Titanic

Go USA (the American Asians identity as “CHINESE American” and value Chinese culture” and only vote 1 way

We’re just pawns in their sick game

Just because you work in a factory 18 hours a day and allow your fucking government to dictate how many children you have – it doesn’t make you smarter – it makes you fucking dumb, not hardworking

And I’m so glad that family value and living together generations together like cockroaches is valuable to you because you’ve broken up the family home in America to have this – to fucking have America

Immigration is a Trojan horse and only the immigrants are happy here

FYI

They’re miserable in China too, because they fucking brown nose their government

My boomer mom believes anything the Bible or government says too

And you can’t tell her otherwise

It’s been cold here all day. The lizards haven’t even come out and I wish I had a little heater for them.

I made a vegan dish and I’m eating it and I also got a rebound session in

I may take a break from blogging for awhile, while I try to figure out how to detox from fucking weed – never had a problem with weed until government and science got involved

But now I have an addiction and suicidal ideation, and PTSD complications for voting yes for medicinal

I’m done voting – anyone can do it

And the immigrants who come here and their fucking teenage children, they actually get naturalized and get to vote sooner than the people fucking born here

I’m no longer participating in society therefore, I am not voting or doing any of this man-made bullshit anymore

Toxic masculinity

You barely hear of any women in the Bible, and when you do, they’re called a whore

“Men can have babies” (you see the conditioning) (cloning LGBT human rights vs AI has feelings)

The men are just monsters who are pedophiles and will do anything to get to the children fleshlights

I read about how y’all are buying wives and how horribly you treat them because you bought them

Shame you can’t take care of your creators (men come from vagina)

I’m sorry you’re mad about it – we didn’t make the rules

Men do spread parasites through their cum which can cause cancer and other health problems

It doesn’t affect men the way it does women (many men have no signs but are ill)

Anyhoo

The government gave me an addiction with malicious intent and purpose

“Premium content”

And pay the state to enter a medical building for wellness – while sex toys are sold in front of children (conditioning)

LGBT is a cult and all over the walls of the VA now

Why was I always shamed for being a girl and told to cross my legs growing up but gay men are fucking dry humping everything and dressing tacky in public 24/7

Just because it’s a song or art doesn’t make it okay or right

That stuff was always at the gay bars and that’s where it should be along with the sex toys at the 21+ stores

I said what I said

Apparently, China have a “savings problem” and they don’t want to spend and that’s my problem now, I have a savings problem, I don’t want to spend either…

I don’t have a man who wants to build me a house, but it would be fucking amazing if we could build one together

I’ve never even been valued enough to be taken to the opera, or given a piece of jewelry with any worth

Still – men seem taken back by my ugliness or beauty (I’m undecided which)

Pretty enough for them – just don’t like my petite frame (but you do Asians huh)

I don’t remember the guy I was dating for three or four months, but he was really into me I thought until one day he broke up with me and said that my pussy was great. He liked my personality, but he hated my tits.

I was in my early 20s

And even with all the negative conditioning, I still did not go get plastic surgery, even though there were times I could afford to do so, instead of traveling

But I got to breast-feed, and had hopes of doing it again

I think I’m human still

It’s human vs demon here (and many of you disassociate from what you truly are, a monster)

But you choose to be despite things and entities trying to push you that direction

Every time my true soulmate gives himself away to another lover, I go further extinct

I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore because none of you want to change anything

You all want the world to end

I’m outnumbered unfortunately


You had me believing I had no worth when it was really you


I was hoping to save someone

And are you paying attention to the 18-year-old and 56 year olds dying?

Vaccine death jab (I’m at risk for ASDS)

Adult sudden death syndrome

I’ll never get another flu shot or vaccine again and I’ll never trust a doctor and I’m just gonna go with what God gave me

Men are pulling the veil on us while destroying the world

90% of all murders happen by men

There’s enough food, and everything to go around for everybody, but they have us in this dark field

The holy inquisition yellow fever madness (free speech)

Let him get back to the holy inquisition yellow fever madness
Magical pussies
Walking on water
Delusions of grandeur

Hello God

*waves*

It’s astounding to me that these yellow fever men do not have the sensibility to see – on the cover itself – which edition of the Bible they are reading

Because there are many versions

And they are different

The Old Testament versus the New Testament

The new revised standard version

The King James version

New International version

New Living translation

Just the fact that it was translated is a red flag – I watch basic movies in both languages – the original or translated – and the translated version most always certainly changes the meaning

Remember that study, where you tell someone something – and by the time it reaches the other end of the room – it’s completely changed.

Something simple like “the sky is red” will turn into “the sky is bleeding”! It’s obviously misleading (The Bible)

(I think I’ve read them all – I have a stack of varyingly different versions, some with the word of Christ “in red” (the conditioning), some that are super tiny, some large, and the first I ever received age 4 – in color, with a map).

Men try to control my every thought and move – but didn’t think I’d be smart enough to study the Bible and learn anything other than “to be seen and not heard”, “women come from rib of man”

No Asia, everyone comes from vagina – and not just magical Asian ones

Men come from vagina

Men cannot have babies

I will go down fighting

God exists outside the yellow fever Bible – that has been re-written many times – and the edition can be found on the cover – it’s not opinion asshole

Furthermore, I do have a degree and did study World Religions.

But because I’m white and female – my word will always just be “opinion” to man who creates and controls this entire delusional world – that I don’t want to participate in!

I don’t have value because I’m not an Asian with a magical sideways pussy.

Y’all are fucking insane

Porn destroyed you

But keep blaming marijuana as the gateway drug OK?

You’ll soon be selling sex toys at the church for health and wellness

The way you are now selling sex toys at Walmart, Dolls Kill, CVS, Walgreens, the mall…

You don’t even need to be 21+ anymore to enter

It’s all been conditioning

And because Asians supposedly are the “most educated and hard working” they come over here and they take all our best jobs too and that’s also not fucking opinion

I’m pretty much done voting, dating, or looking at men

If you are white, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you support the Bible, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you are married to an Asian, you most definitely have yellow fever

If you look at me with any interest, I’m gonna assume you have yellow fever

If you are alive, you have yellow fever

If you act interested in me, I’m just gonna reply “I’m not a ten, I’m not Asian”

“I don’t want to be your fleshlight”

And that’s what living with real autism is like

Many of Genzie and millennials, who claim to be “autistic” are really just emancipated

I’m kinda disgusted with humanity and those “in charge” ruining everything with religion and race

They use art and cartoon to get yeah

And NASA admitted it’s all “CGI artist interpretation”

James Webb only sees in red

I don’t know how else to get through

The rest is just data and numbers

Dots

They assign colors to numbers

It’s not even art, it’s an algorithm

And I’m tired of being conditioned to think that AI is art, it’s fucking not

It’s cutting corners

It’s lazy

It’s cheap (tho expensive lol)

Like I worked really hard to be a decent woman for man

And you all have yellow fever

At least the majority do

The fact that I’m still ascending (descending into hell)

The fact that God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore

“Where do you get your truth”

Not from the Bible – it uncovers the grand lie

The Great Pyramid scheme

The Great Wall of Deceit (is being disassembled on the black market and sold to build homes yassssssss – tear down the wall)!!!!!!!!

Did it ever occur to you that I am the truth

I’m one of God’s angels (I declare this and identify as angelic)

I am a truthmonger

I’ve been questioning my parents and the establishment since I was very young and I knew this was all bullshit

“How do you know the sun is so far away, you’ve been?” (Asked age 5)

“We shon a laser on a wall”

And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, or whatever news it is because you won’t believe me anyway, but the sun is electrical and closer to us than you’ve been told

Now I don’t mean plug in a socket electrical

But water exists as a fourth stage: plasma

Also, the Moon is a dead star (earth probably actually formed from her but whatev)

Again, I never believed the earth-moon theory

Never believed in the Big Bang model

Or the evolution theory

Or, that “women come from the rib of man”

If that somehow makes Asian women better than me – because I don’t believe in delusions of grandeur – and instead equality – then so be it. I’ll die alone without any worth from man cuz I’m not plastic surgery or yellow nor will bow to them simply to bow

Respect is earned

I know my worth even though I’m constantly crying to God “I’m worthless”, “I don’t deserve anything”

Apparently, this new age weed can cause suicidal ideation, and further complicate PTSD.

I’m getting off it now as I’ve never been more suicidal in my life

Big pharma also made me extremely homicidal

I will be real with you – so-in-so needs to go ahead and file multiple restraining orders- and I hear the more you have – the less they work

“90% of all murders happen by men“

But the other 10% – !?!

Are people worth going to jail for? No

But if you’re already dying and dead…

And you’ve sold or trashed everything you own…

What’s to lose!?!

It’s not murder if eye for eye

“You took my life”

But I have faith that God wants more for me than dying on the street or revenge from atrocities

It can go either way

I’m prepared for the worst outcome – dying

It won’t be jail or committed

DO NOT MOURN FOR ME

Porn has made it that man has no value at all – though he is racist to his core

I read into many articles about yellow fever – and migration patterns to the USA

It’s only the immigrants who say that are satisfied with their income and family here – and I summed it up to gentrification.

And now Biden made it so non- citizens can vote.

Americans are slaves to the Asian and Asian Americans who identify mostly as “Chinese American” and mostly only care about Chinese culture

Chinese culture has taken over America including yellow fever

Magical childlike pussies huh

Y’all are disgusting

I don’t wanna look at anybody in the eye

Some guy paying me a compliment: “I’m not Asian, shut up”

I don’t even wanna hear what any have to say…

I’m not Asian therefore white lives don’t matter


Demons (poetry)

He’s got demons on his back
An angel full on attack
In an order of the fallen
His heart is black
But I bet –
He can hear me calling!


I know where success recedes
I hope God notices my little deeds
Despite making mistakes in excessive speeds
Crawling headfirst to sacred needs
I know where hatred breeds
How repentance precedes

© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal


Free speech below 🛑⚠️🛑


It should be illegal to sell our data or spam us at our private home address.

The rain forest is being turned into a McDonald’s coupon

I’ve always felt uneasy wiping my ass with a tree

Since age 5 or something

FYI

We’re turning earth into mars

Remember the great dust bowl? Here on earth

Keep chopping down the trees…

Earth will turn into a dead planet

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

Don’t shoot me if I wind up in your yard

Naked out of my mind….

Don’t have me committed

Don’t do anything

Just pretend I don’t exist like you do now


Hell Responded (poetry)

I lost all my worth, but Jesus has loved the worst


The Moon
A dead star
God’s mirror
Of a big scar


The start and finish are harder than the middle
But I’m not with good with riddle
Games that cost so little
Will leave your soul so brittle


Faith can neither be created or destroyed
It must be born
Crippling sky torn
Heaven scorn

“Love is the anomaly” they wanna kill it all
Watch God fall
Satan’s protocol
Written on the wall

I’m judgment call
Duly sworn


It’s what we wanted
Hell responded
Despondent
Regret is constant
Trust not an option
The cost of conscience
Into the sun a comet
☄️
Blame me I done it
But the sun won’t quit


I’m sincere in my insincerity
I’ve done stopped caring
Veins swollen from crying
Waiting on the greys from climbing


I’m not moving to Astoria
A town of euphoria


Urgent! Your plan is going to expire!
Like your book, it’s going in the fire!
It’s time to retire!


From sea to summit
Tell God I’ve done it?


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


I made an experimental toasted coconut almond lemon cranberry pound cake – and I love cooking thangs God grows. Even melted 1 teaspoon of butter and squeezed an entire lemon over the butter – added zero sugar – and glazed the top of the loaf with the sugar-free lemon butter nom.

My life is a mess and I might soon be homeless but today there’s a lemon loaf God bless.

The shit at the deli / bakery is poisoned. And they are charging triple to murder you.

My loaf was made with love, 3 eggs, coconut milk and coconut oil. I tried to better it. Especially with unsweetened coconut flakes, cranberries, and whole almonds.

My entire kitchen is ripped out and boxed up. My lease is up in April. I’ve no idea what’s happening next.

This is why Edgar wound up on the street.

And, I’m selling everything I own.

Do you remember that scene in Made in Heaven?

Emmett (playing as himself as God)

“Because of you, I can only smoke on earth now…”

I am a troublemaker but do not want to fall to Satan (sidenote)

But the scene was on the road and Mikey looked like shit

And Emmit was scolding him still and calling him a drifter

Mikey got offended and puffing off away from said stranger accusing him of “only being able to smoke down here on earth” and “a drifter”

“Me… I’m drifting buddy…”

Emmit demanded, “where are you going” and with a puff of the wind knocked him down

Put his foot on him and told him he was running out of time to find her…

That entire scene of Mikey ripping off his cheap, fake jewelry and throwing his cup of beer in the mirror.

THAT SCENE IS MY LIFE

I’m also the girl crying in the street

Because time is running out…


Warn (poetry)

This must be what it’s like for God to mourn
Fall down with thorn
Hope stillborn
I’m here to warn

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

The sign read: buy, sell, trade. But the sign was a lie. I plan to return and pass a note to the demon owner: it will flood again.

LAUGHS


“I’m only doing trades right now”.

I can’t wait to pass him a note like a little kid from school. Gonna skip off too.

He’ll be watching his monitors for weeks in a panic. Thinking I’m unhinged.

Laughs.


“The floods will come again”.


Christmas is Canceled (poetry)

I blame the world
For all my problems
Every single one
☝️

But I’m responsible
For what I’ve done
Every circumstance
The Devil spun

Drawing blanks
Loaded gun
Eyes clearly focused
Though in the sun

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

If I cut the cord, I’ll never be the same

In hindsight, it’s what I want, but not this way

An opportunity, to fix mistake

To save oneself

But at the cost of another…

So who is really being saved

Have you seen that zombie film with Arnold Schwarzenegger?

He couldn’t fix his mistake either

Prolonged the suffering…

It’s one of his best films next to Terminator. Highly underrated.

Cuz it’s all emotion.

That ending scene…

He couldn’t do the one thing she asked her dad.

Coward.

Being vague, because I don’t want to spoil the details.

No one cares about that film but me

Currently I’m going through a situation in where I don’t wanna do what I probably clearly outta

And my only outlet of expression is a poem to a private blog

*laughs insanely*

The isolation is starting to drown me

And you know what they say about a drowning man

Revenge

It really is better served cold and calculated


Walmart is selling sex toys online in the health department (proof)

When I was growing up, sex toys were in the “Adult stores” that were age 21+ and only

But now anyone can buy sex toys at any age – (the Mall is also selling adult toys in front of children; conditioning).

Look how the algorithm includes suggestions

And over 1000+ search results….

So this is America now.

I am LOUDLY quitting

And I just thought you should know

What our children have been exposed to

And how you should stop supporting the enemy

Boycott Walmart

Boycott Walmart

I did send up feedback in the app to the AI in control

I am uninstalling the app

I’m gonna keep starving until I find food that isn’t poisoned 🤢

No one is doing anything to protect my precious energy

I do not own sex toys and have not for years

They desensitize

It’s not actually “healthy” despite being sold in the health department online

What’s next? The gas stations? Next to the crack pipes?

Also, Walmart is adding natural flavor to the beef. It ain’t vegan if it’s got natural flavor in it.

Go look for yourself if it will help you transition

The firming agent in the beans is actually ruining the beans!

When is the uprising again?

Y’all all have so many addictions.

Synthetic material is highly flammable, and when they go to drop their little bombs in the air, you’re gonna go poof poof

It’s extremely hard to extinguish

Corduroy was always 100% cotton (no synthetic fibers)

But now that the Chinese government openly control everything – they are changing the literal definition and meanings of words.

The first Bible can be traced back to Asia.

“Made in China”

The Bible has also been rewritten so many times that it’s Luciferian in nature.

Still think porn should be widely circulated on social media – while our free speech is not?

The Internet should be made 21+

I see one little thing and get traumatized

My sexual energy is pure

My body

There are parts of me untouched and untainted

I have a shit ton to learn with a man

If and when the time ever comes

And God knows the sacrifices I’ve made to cleanse myself of a curse

I’ve got holes in my fucking wall…

I need out of the city

I don’t want to support the enemy

There are people in China suffering from their own fucking government that I can’t fucking stand who has taken over America.

I’m still a Soldier!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are going after soldiers who want 100% for PTSD. They’re trying to fucking commit us because the goddamn enemy is inside the White House.

Can anyone hear me through their addictions and own personal hell?

Or naw? Pretty certain naw…

Because sex toys are being sold at the health department at Walmart


The Day (poetry)

The day
He abandons me
I’ll be homeless
Complete psychosis
Without notice
Earth my focus
Death the prognosis


This site has been deleted!
Surprise! You were never needed!
Cast out and weeded!
All hope receded!


Compass points
To my heart
Upside down
In you


Without love
It’s all useless
The daily excuses
If we’re not exclusive
Hope is useless


He wasn’t ready for me
Giving himself away
He arrived late
Demanding me to stay


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Still writing my heart out – despite being completely cast out by the blogging community *bows*

Full unlocked exclusive set on my Onlyfans (where I snuck into Top 39 Thanksgiving. Thank you!!) 🥰

If I become homeless, I don’t wanna become homeless where it floods (perspective)


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The End (a poem)

I know why everybody’s gone, halfheartedly
The Devil is a finely-tuned mistake
Just off center front stage
Sitting in a black box
Drinking champagne
His eye a spotlight

He keeps a letter in his pocket
Dark corduroy lint free
He smells of oak and pine
And her expression is a look of expectation she will never meet
He finds her in the most desolate ruin

Out of breath
Wasted time
Ready to die

Regret is a curtain pulled aside
And she dances with fury
He’s convinced the moon is under her spell
Gazing
Engorged

She prefers the clouds her audience
The quiet solitude
Where destiny won’t find her
Where broken promises and debts will never be paid…

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


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Everything’s OK (the best I got) (freestyle rhyme)

“Everything’s okay”
The sky is grey
The streets are flooded
May sound cliché
But hope cold-blooded
And hell to pay
My faith is studded
And he is my valet
The Devil mudded
Dirty like the clay
He won’t sound thudded
Rotting on display
His position rugged
New earth to survey

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

RIP JOHN JONES

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Protect the second amendment 💪

At all costs!

They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health

Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS

Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16

I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence

I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose

That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time

COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES

Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration

Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?

I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere

I feel a stranger in my own land

But I’m not allowed to talk about it

I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect

I swore an oath

I SWORE

To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism

The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers

And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either

I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health

And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012

IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated

And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty “I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”

He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀

He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs

He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)

But God will be reigning on him soon

He was warned

Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel

Possibly his guardian angel

He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!

Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

😤

I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd

I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment

I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people

I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge

But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art

I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people

I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband

I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn

And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if

CLUELESS

I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment

We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet

Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy

The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system 

Especially as a female….

“Never go anywhere alone”

“If you get lost, stand still”

Like, I can keep going…

I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits

I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)

Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪

You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control

I’m trying to save you

I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace

I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)

He can have his freedom I fought for

But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God

I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies


He doesn’t like my style 🌝

He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget

I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that

How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!

I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even

SOLD OUT!

I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.

Yeah, I’m 44 and still a goth

BITE ME

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRacSGFp/

P.S. I don’t even know what my style is because I wasn’t allowed an identity growing up!!!! I like it now, maybe not forever!!!!!!

GET OFF YOUR HIGH THRONE!!!! YOU’RE GONNA DIE ALONE!!!!!!!!

May God Pray For You (poetry & photography) NSFW

You taste of Judas Iscariot
Betrayal you’ll marry it
I’ve paid twice for sins
Won’t pay again

144 awakening
7th seal opening
Judgment hour
No hoping (John’s still coping)

One, two
See through all of you

Hell hath arrived
THERE ARE NO GOODBYES

Oh, Prince of This World
They aren’t your gifts to give
Heaven rules over all but this
God is the Void
But Satan rules this world

I am a beggar
Crawling eternally

Helpless to stop it
Remove self from equation
The devil is invasion
I’m losing patience!
Careful crossing occasion
Will get stuck persuading
Hopeful helpful information

Nature becomes conscious of itself through you

I NEED YOU LIKE ETERNITY
Hell is separation
I’M BURNING

If I die here
Nobody will know
I didn’t want to
But nobody will ask you

Fallen
Angelic
Trying to ascend

Need him more and then
Eleven hours spent
Not bad omen

Number signs godsend
I do listen
And then repent

Foreshadowing
But if he’s dropping flags
I’m walking in
Red carpet rolling
With a halo full of sin
God said keep walking
But I want him instead

He turns me SOFT
Like the Grand Canyon will flow
Paradigm shift halo
He owns my soul

I’m sorry he betrayed you
A devil said to shrewd
I think with gratitude
The sun burns the moon
I rest in solitude
Black as blue
But oh so devalued

I do not dream of labor
The moon a gaper
Place our love on paper
He calls –
I turn to vapor

We’re reaching terminal velocity
Death is nearing
Is this the correct speed?
Thought you needed me?

He’s wrapped up in deceit
Like a sheet
Am I a ghost
I am discreet

I’m without kingdom
Guarding eternity
Trident
I’m not lying

WHAT LIES
Beyond the horizon
CRIMINAL EYES
But the sun’s still rising
AND I’M HERE FOR BLOOD

Touch me
So the curse will lift
Kiss me on the lip
Keep me near your hip

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


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I didn’t like the milk 😑

The label is red

States it is “sold as animal feed” (I’m an animal m’kay but)

There is no date anywhere

It smelled of rot

I did a sniff and taste taste

The dog sniffed and passed

Didn’t even get a taste…

It’s opened

I know they won’t take it back

The yuppies

I mean Peggy’s Discount stole $8 from me

“Free will”

I could have said no 😑

I had some dry milk on the shelf FOR THE SAME PRICE

And just made me a fresh batch for my coffee

And about to toss some marmalade on this pumpkin bread full of seeds and nuts and spices

And enjoy my coffee with powered milk

And the yuppies can BURN IN HELL

You sold one of God’s angels some rotten fucking milk

I don’t even know how many years an eternity is but it ain’t enough!!!!!

🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

I do recommend that big bag of great value dry powdered milk for eight dollars and never ever ever fucking raw milk without a goddamn date on it that’s labeled animal feed and why are they selling it to humans you fucking assholes

This is exactly why John Jones got stuck in a fucking hole and I’m allowed to be pissed off about it because that eight dollars could’ve gone towards some shit at Dolls Kill that I want

I’m nearly fucking vegan after all this shit

“You could of said no”

They stole $8 from me 😑

And I don’t know what to do with the milk because my dog doesn’t even want to drink it so if I put it outside it might contaminate the water

Tempted

TEMPTED TO ACCIDENTALLY SPILL IT ALL OVER THEIR DOOR

Helps. I’m in hell. 😑

If I had a husband I wouldn’t be buying animal feed 😑

IT WAS RIGHT THERE ON THE LABEL

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME

How long had it been sitting on their shelf in the fridge?

HOW LONG?????????

There’s no date anywhere!!!!

How many red flags does a person need???????

HARD LESSONS LEARNED IN HELL

It was a lesson though

777 numbers from the heaven

The discount didn’t even cover the cost of the rotten milk 😑

There’s consequences to timeline jumping, you get brain injuries and become really fucking stupid 😑

I don’t even think I can use this milk as a photo shoot to pour on my body because it’s chunky even though the label says to “shake well”

For the record, I wasn’t studying every single label in the new shop which was a Health store

It was almost as if I was being chastised for looking at the prices or the labels and then they sold me some rotten milk and God knows how good the eggs are now because I’m fucking afraid of the eggs

RETURN THIS CARTOON

SOLD AS ANIMAL FEED

MOTHERFUCKING DAMN

That’s another $8 stolen 😑

Those motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!

AVOID AT EVERY COST 🖕

I didn’t even have this bad of an experience drinking goats milk in Kuwait and Iraq

My mama didn’t breast-feed me and I apparently like milk because I’m undernurtured and I’m trying to get rid of my milk addiction but they are poisoning everything including the soy beans

Some good news with the coffee…

This Doll model has a very tiny peach (this is not my peach)

I mean her peach is TINY

And I’ve been freaking out over losing over 18 pounds detoxing and my peach getting smaller even though I do work out, bike ride and walk and rebound and clean fucking house even though it doesn’t look like it

Babes with a small peach are worthy of affection and love too

And I’m not gonna show you the entire outfit because I got it 🎃

I got a Halloween bodysuit 🤪

This holiday slowing down the shipments but at least when they say they’re doing a mega sale they fucking mean it and they sell you really good quality stuff that is 1000 times better than Amazon or Walmart

Or Peggy’s Discount whom sale rotten food to despairing hungry humans 😑

My doc appointment is tomorrow

I can’t stop laughing about how incredibly stupid I was though, I mean I know I was hungry and gaslit

I know I have a brain injury

It was a new environment

But the red flags were there

I mean, they failed to even list the price of the nuts on the container or the shelf

Just like Michael Leavitt failed to put features on the map showing danger zones

“But he said he was an expert”

“But there was dust on the walls”

Like, I’m out $16+ bucks over gaslighting and not reading signs and ignoring red flags

I’m an animal, I will drink milk straight from the cow tit OK, I’ll be frank with you, but that shit was fucking ruined

Like, I would have a goat around for milk and cheese

There are certain species of animals that I have never eaten nor touched nor plan to digest

Goat is one

But their cheese and milk and fur – in the right conditionsI wouldn’t be opposed to

There was no cow milk in Iraq or Kuwait and the only milk we were offered was goats milk but the only way I would drink it was warm

Warm goats milk in my box cereal

My king needs to know the conditions in which I starve

I will bite the hand that feeds when the food is rotten and poisoned

THIS IS WHY EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET

I am grateful for your support because people out here stealing from me left and right

“You didn’t have to buy the milk”

YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO LIE

How long has that lie been sitting on the shelf?

HOW LONG

I am nearly vegan and it isn’t because you have a heavy hand because you can’t have a heavy hand and also eat pizza from a fucking box and be part of the fucking problem

THEY ARE SELLING ROTTEN MILK 🥛

“Shake well”

I FUCKING PLAN TO

KEEP PISSING ON ME

JUDGMENT HOUR

I’m gonna expose you all

Narcissism is not rare

NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

Despite the fact that I had nearly $20 stolen from me (and I’m still out eggs and milk now by the way, that I can’t replace)

These goddamn demons make it so hard for me not to commit a criminal act

It’s better to blog than spray paint

I really want to be the best efficient hunter killer but I’ve got to learn how to control my emotions especially my anger when it arises

“Hunter killer”

UHM

I am efficiently trained by the United States Army to take down a human with one shot one kill and with my bayonet

You don’t think they just played with us in basic training do you? 😈

God: you wanna go to heaven?

Me: oh yeah for sho

God: you need special training that in which I cannot say and you cannot kill

Me: I’m up for the challenge 🤨

God: everything will be a lie

Me: I WANT OUT, LET ME OUT

Anyhoo

The Great Filter is narcissism

Every society has at least two great filters they need to overcome if they want to be a species that doesn’t go extinct

What are your Great Filters?

We must have individual filters as well

Don’t shop at Peggy’s Discount

I’ve got eggs and milk I don’t know what to do with

I have lessons I still need to learn

I’m trying to share even the smallest ones with you

I don’t like to lose money

I don’t like to gamble

I don’t like being gaslit

I don’t like being wasteful

I’m curious and like trying new things

“How quickly should I drink it”

“Uh within a few days. Bacteria”

Dear Gen Z

That isn’t bacteria, that is fucking rot

Your parents look like cruel dictators and I can tell you are confused about your sex and wanna please the parents but never do

You still sold me rotten milk…

The eggs don’t have a date either

Your boomer parents have a house and a business and I’m struggling to pay my rent

I’m condemning you all to hell

Take it up with God

He sent me here to see what you do through my eyes

He sent me here to judge

144,000

SAY MY NAME

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

All that vegan packaging with natural flavor in it from a fucking lab

I AM WOKE BUT BLIND

“Free will” but “they will do anything”

He gonna divorce me

“You spent $18 on a tiny container of nuts and another $16 on animal food”. “What are we eating this month, honey?” 😑

(I did get the money back for the unopened nuts)

I should call though to say the milk was expired

But I want to cut the cord on that experience which was a fucking nightmare and I will spend many days potentially months or even a year trying to figure out why why why why when I was hungry I did this shit

I was completely out of my comfort zone at Peggy’s but because I’m nice and programmed to not say no or offend these demons, I made bad mistake 😑

Welp. How to ignore red flags 101. The fear was very real. God is in information. Listen to the source when he is calling. Those warnings are like little fingertips by God touching you

Tickle tickle

Don’t go that way

And you may get an additional warning or two, like Jacob in the whirlpool, he got three, that I counted

But he got out

And he went back in

A second time….

I have an irrational fear of dying but there is a pattern and Apophis is a nuclear bomb if we do not stop the NEW WORLD ORDER

(With those bad shrooms we’re not allowed to touch)

THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES

HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF

Black Walnut Wormwood detox if you wanna save your life or purge the Devil (is that what’s stopping you) 🧐

Tsk tsk

I can’t believe I bought some rotten fucking milk and eggs that literally says animal food on it but it’s being sold as human food on human shelving without a date and shouldn’t that be illegal?

Gaslighting should be a crime

I’m in fucking hell…

I am a witch though and I love spooky season

I make the best damn pot of stew

WITCHES STEW

Dash of burn in hell, dash of I don’t give a fuck… pinch of they’re all out of luck

You should see the writings on the wall where heavens gone mad

50 years ago they would have drilled a hole in my head

The way we treat depression is barbaric

We need to ban big pharma commercials

I don’t mind drinking milk past the expiration date or eating expired food but what the fuck

Wanna turn somebody vegan?

SELL THEM ROTTEN MILK

I curse in hell because it’s the only way I don’t commit a crime and they’re trying to take my freedom of speech in the real world

If you take my speech, I take my money and business

And I will never shop where I can’t spend cash which is what I’d like to start doing but find me a place I can shop that isn’t selling sex toys in front of children…

I don’t want to support businesses that are selling sex toys in front of children like Walmart and the mall

I don’t want to support a business that sells you rotten fucking produce that you can’t return

“Has it been opened”

*THROWS BOTTLE AND EGGS AT BRICK WALL*

*gets arrested*

*doesn’t get money back, gets fined instead*

(Stays home to avoid potential downfall)

You remember that Nirvana song, “I think I’m dumb”

SAME

Also, Kurt had gut issues which directly impacts mental health, he needed to debug 🤨

When you see one lie, you start seeing them all


REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE

Part of the 144

Here to JUDGE

ANGELIC

KNOW THINGS BEFORE THEY HAPPEN

MIGHT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR SOME OF THOSE THINGS HAPPENING

“But what’s really going to boggle your noodle later is, would you have still broken it if I hadn’t of said anything…?”

I’ve been spending a lot of time detoxing and purging the devil from my system not watching TV or propaganda except for the shit that I see when I do open up the newsfeed regretfully on Instagram or TikTok

I want to spend more time looking at things that other people do but the invasive ads that cause brain damage and probably do have subliminal messaging in it because I learned in college is a scam that they are using subliminal messaging

I’m ready to have the Internet removed from my home

There is a lot of cancer being exposed from these phones

I’M TRYING TO REACH YOU

THE SOURCE WANTS YOU TO WIN

The Devil already lost and you’re on the wrong side

Final warning

(Iraq is where the Devil fell)

(I lived inside foxholes during war freezing with my m16 praying for the sun to rise and looking at the salt lines)

Iraq once was underwater, 3 times to my count

I know I told you to be still but don’t get too settled

I told you things were going to get harder

Apophis is closer

If I’m only living to 50, according to my very own calculations, I have six years remaining or less

John Jones had a favor

He used it on me

I am not taking for granted the second chance at life he is giving me

His life was not in vain

I will honor him by living mine as clean and honest as I can

But I cuss, I have stretch marks, I’m not a fucking virgin…

Fucking pedophiles everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SAFETY ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh it’s 7:15 am

*DROPS BOTTLE IN THE TUB*

Sometimes I’m so aware about how insane they have made me that I go into these laughing spells but it feels so much better having the laughing spells than it does going into a fit of dark madness where I want to take out the city block so laughing definitely does feel closer to my purpose 🤪


Hell (poetry)

Things I keep unpacking
I’m moving or I’m not
Got love stored in a box
Hell is a paradox
Just like my life then
I’m alive but not a lot


Finalized my living will and directives
Burning every bridge I know
I’ve got objectives
YOU ARE UNRECEPTIVE


I’m dead inside
So there won’t be a spark
If that is what you are after
Then you shouldn’t kill the laughter


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Yes you can live in my closet and eat pizza from a box

Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal


Keys (journal entry)

I gave you keys to my trust and you broke it when I was vulnerable
Barging into the night a maniac drunken on furor
All around you the ground dishonor
You’ve been AWOL in spirit and now demand rescue
Your only form of payment sabotage

You’ve pissed all over my door
And even now the stench is more than I can handle
Full throttle now as I drop my stern
There are bodies collecting under the hull

My regrets are tiny fractions compared to your sin’s shadow
And every moment now it is growing taller: see what you’ve done
Your bridge is so far burned that galaxies are splitting dimensions

I sat in the dark void dying
How the ocean crushes you the deeper you fall
God was the only one who heard my crying
Even now, my heart beats differently

He makes me feel 1000 years old 👎👎

You should have left it fantasy. Or, at the very least, not reduced me to a working free whore.

I don’t need anyone or anything devaluing my life.

Therapy is a lot work, you’re a train wreck.

You act a child as if a prize.

You’re gonna get blocked.

Even better, a restraining order.

I had a little fun with you behind closed doors, attempting to role-play, but your intentions are clearly sinister.

I never asked you to divulge who you were, or personal details of your life, mixing fantasy with real life.

And having the audacity to treat me like trash during the worst time of my life. 👍

Yeah cool but we’re done.

You can fuck off now.

I want to work on building healthy relationships with normal human beings.

I am in intense therapy to change my bad habits and thoughts.

I don’t owe you a fucking thing.

I don’t have to tell you to never call me again because I’ll change my fucking number and address.

I’ll never make the mistake of having fun behind closed doors either.

I am not a sex worker nor have I ever taken or sent photos of me performing sex acts.

I have done nude modeling in the past, I’m not ashamed.

I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TACKY WITH ANYONE.

You’re a disgusting individual.

Stay away from me.

I don’t need you coming into my inbox treating me like a sex object and I know you keep all your favorite porn stars number one – so get the fuck out of my life

I’m a GOOD GIRL

I’ve just fallen on some hard times and unfortunately bad people take advantage of that.

You’re two different people.

I wouldn’t even give a fuck if you knew how to treat me with an ounce of dignity and respect but you don’t even know how to treat yourself that way.

I don’t wish any harm of you.

I’m just not gonna waste my time praying you will get better.

You’re sinking my ship.

Don’t make me cut you off.

You’re crossing lines you cannot return from.

I CANNOT RETURN FROM THE DEPTHS YOU ARE PUSHING ME.

YOU MUST LET ME GO NOW


Conditioning for AI! (an outcry)

The conditioning for human hybrid AI continues

And thus, after a few generations, it’ll be easier to accept that we’re virtual reality and turning us into a walking computer

Because we create our own reality

And you’ll be able to trace technology back to the Asian AI Gods, everyone will worship AI and be further separated from our true creator

A man does not bleed from his legs for a week every month in agony and emotional distress

He does not carry life inside his womb

Nor does he feed another life from the milk created from his breasts

Man has turned everything artificial in an attempt to play the almighty God creator

He’s insane

Wants what we’ve got

When asking a man why he’d like to experience being a woman, the answer is always “multiple orgasms” – it’s disgusting

I’m having difficulty living in any of these realities you force upon me

Men blame women for everything and all species are going extinct

In the name of AI

All hail AI

But so many are incapable of a personality or a soul

So they shame the free thinkers

They call sexually free women whores

Everything has been conditioning so that science can play morals and ethics and come along and say “we’ve got the cure” but they caused the disease 🦠

White people and Native American are being systematically terminated – and they use Black people against us – propaganda – when slavery started in Africa

The Bible is bad – the one that is mass circulated and taught – the one that has been re-written many times

When I was young, “how can they change time”

“How do they know the sun is that far”

Turns out everything has been a lie

And any time I got in the sun with “sun block” I burned – with gaslighting – never do put two and two together

I do not burn in the sun without sunblock 

The sun is good for you 👀

I also hated eating sugary products for breakfast, I would tell my mother that it made me sick

They also forced me to eat meat when I didn’t want to

“Chicken or beef” they’d say

“But I want the grilled cheese it’s cheaper too”

“Chicken or beef” they’d say

Fucking dictators

I hate this life

There’s no way I chose my family before coming here, there’s no way

It’s been torture

This life

And he condemns me for my food choices when he eats from a cardboard box

It’s unhealthy and those cows are definitely not being treated well – those junk food establishments – they have zero ethics and ensure the animals suffer

But he sits there eating from his box casting his stones

He thinks he’s reached Christ consciousness and he doesn’t even understand compassion for a dying person who should have the obligation and the right to choose how they want to fucking eat 👀

Also, notice how rich people always want things for cheap or free

Free rides, free rent, whatever they can get for free

As long as they don’t have to spend their money

But they will always act like it’s the end of the fucking world anytime something comes up for them and it always turns out that their options are really fucking good

The entire world is lost and I have to just watch the Titanic sink while people are playing music and rescuing gems on boats that could hold and save more people but ewww I would not share a table with her

“But weren’t you just fucking her”

Because men have been conditioned by the porn that they watch day in and day out over decades that women are sex objects only

We’re not entitled to an opinion

I have to bleed every fucking month, in pain, it’s fucking painful

Growing a baby inside you is painful

Birthing a baby is excruciating

Breastfeeding is challenging, painful for the first couple weeks, and not easy. The percentage of women who breastfeed at all is low – and now the establishment are saying that breastfeeding is unnatural and causes mistrust within the government

GET IN THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA

I’m sorry you hate your life and blame us for your existence but this abuse has to stop!!!!

Our society can heal if we turn off the television!!!!!

Stop listening to the bullshite!!!

Stop putting money on the tray at church!!!

Get to know your local community!

Grow and share food!!!!

We can thrive!!!!

I’m sorry you’ll be bored doing stuff we were born to do, get over it!!!!!

I’m sorry you’re not as handsome or charming to find love as others. It’s bullshite! Learn to be a human instead of a monster!!!!

They’re just jealous of things they can’t have so wanna keep others from having it!

Narcissism is a plague!!!!

I can’t stand the now we live in! I can’t stand the future!!

I’m trying not to die by my own hand in this hell!

You’re all insane!!!

You don’t live in reality

I don’t care about the double slit experiment! It’s conditioning for cloning – for human hybrid AI

You’re not a computer!

It will damage your real CPU!

Please wake up now!!!!! My soul is screaming from the ether!!!!!! I produce eggs!!!! I’m alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My God does not come from the Middle East!!!!!

I’m sick of hearing about China this and China that!!!!

Let us all live in peace!!

Black, brown, and white bear’s exists! Deal with it!!! We’re all special!!!! Your powers are being suppressed!!!

I don’t even know how to be a hunter/gatherer! I’d probably eat the wrong herb!

None of us are living up to our potential

Living through a monitor!!!!!

They’re making us sick intentionally!

Psychopaths

One bad apple spoils the bunch

It’s lazy parenting if you let your child watch toxic TV and play video games constantly

I wouldn’t even want to teach my child what they are teaching them in school

They were teaching my child how to twerk on stage when she was 8

I pulled her from the lesson and the show, I was appalled

It’s just gonna keep going on, we aren’t punishing or removing the bad seeds, we’re birthing them

The criminals are on top

And quite frankly I’m tired of fighting, I’m ready to go live in the woods, I don’t need a government or a piece of paper to tell me that I’m allowed to grow food or to build shelter, or to use solar

I’m sick of the narcissism and dictatorship

I’m still detoxing and putting up the good fight

I’m on a new mission to learn how to control my crying and angry spells

Like, I need to go into automatic shut down mode if/when triggered

I am organic and real

I am capable of creating life

Many women have been programmed to remove their organs, their breasts, their ovaries, or popping birth control or having their tubes tied – which all causes premature aging – as well as all the “anti aging” products they buy – it ages you

The FDA has been compromised, the CDC, the WhiteHouse, we have more than a mole

I knew English before I was born, I understood language and energy and mood

I could hear my mom, my sister, my father scheming

I was depressed before I was born

I HATED BEING IN MY MOTHERS WOMB

She was a terrible mother and my father a monster

They’re both monsters, I came from monsters

Civilized monsters under the guise of Christianity

Image is so important to these monsters

But they don’t have a soul inside, they’re possessed by the Devil and they choose to be who they are

Half the amenities where I live do not work but the rent continues to go up and they continue to list these amenities as a incentive to rent/live here

“They won’t do anything about it”, the establishment’s motto

By law, we should be able to withhold our rent until they fix these things

I know I’m not the only one experiencing this where I live

It’s listed, the rent goes up, nothing gets fixed. The front gate, the exercise equipment, the carwash, the recycling, still listed, rent goes up, not working (and I’ve been here 5 years now and it’s still not fixed)

The establishment are greedy and lazy

I don’t want to fund their bullshite anymore

We need to boycott all the major big names and corporations

Celebrities and influencers are not worth worshiping

I’m going to continue fixing my credit so that I can play the game and buy a house if I don’t die before then (I’m begging and praying to God daily for protection vibes)

Man has made life so very depressing and agonizing that an invisible entity is better than he

DO BETTER

I’m gonna be spending most of my time riding, instead of utilizing this crappy gym. The piece of equipment I wanted to use for booty gains, is still non-working after 5 years. I’m not ready to leg, arm, and bench press.

I want a cute, feminine figure. I don’t want big bulky looking man’s body like Britney Spears. She’s training with her dude and doing what he does and everything she wears is a selling point for the gays!! The gays!!!! What about me!!!! See me!!! It’s okay to be gay!!!! We love women!!!! *snickers evilly and stuffs tampons up ass for pleasure*

Religion and LGBT is a cult! Politics and Hollywood too! I said it, fight me!!!

P.S. China censors their people from the US. They’d be appalled if they knew… but maybe they do.

My American Chinese doctor was very interested in my detox, he wrote down specifically the Black Walnut Wormwood. The only thing he wrote down during the session. THE ONLY THING

He’s also sending a team out to me since I can’t get to them

He did not tell me to stop or reduce my detox

That’s an ancient remedy right there

I gotta stock up before the establishment poison it or change the formula

You’re right, I’m terrible with secrets and I can’t blame PayPal this time (tho we should sue)

Byeeeeee

P.S.S. I wholeheartedly believe I jumped into this timeline during that crazy storm, it struck my vehicle and one of the hands of lightning touched my elbow

I FELT THE BURN FOR DAYS – there was no physical burn

I FELT IT

GOD TOUCHED ME

HE WAS LIKE HEYYYYYY

I spent days researching electrical discharges

It’s pure energy

IT WAS SO LOUD!!!! AND BRIGHT!!!

They’re gonna have y’all believing you can go through portals at CERN. In given time, they’ll sacrifice you to the singularity and upload you into the METAVERSE.

I’m beyond sick at society and “entertainment”. They’re turning the Matrix into reality in the name of science!

Science is compliance!!!!


Personal Hell (poetry & prose)

I don’t cast stones
I throw grenades
I check for backbones
But not here to save


I’m not Jesus
Ask not of forgiveness
Got light of Venus
But I’m not Jesus


Look at him all mighty
Judging from his throne
Only wants the children
He can do no wrong


He never shows me love, just judgment
With him, I’ll never reach the summit


I don’t want to talk to him about the Holy Spirit
He ain’t anywhere near it


I still talk to him
Through ink and pen
Through thick and thin
There and hell herein


How do you go from creator to singularity
So sparingly?


My brain is an artifact
Don’t have a heart attack


I follow
The voices in your head
Every murky shadow
Leaking trails of thick red
I’ve met the dead
Down in the Bayou
Your sins are widespread
Walking on gravestone
I hear the cries where the wind blows
I hear your echoes on the radio


His smile is an ice-shelf breaking free


Put up a plaque for my humiliation
What’s the will of a freemason?


We need to watch our agreements
Human not demon
Give God a good reason


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

From today

Gonna start using the gym where I live. In an attempt to work on my booty gains. But I’m still dying and cannot go hard.

People are dropping dead by what I have.

10,000 steps and gone.

I think it might be a better solution than bike riding since I almost got murdered twice in a week but I will not be giving up my riding because I need to listen to the birds and get the fresh air where I feel free.

Not secure. But it helps me remember what I’m fighting for. Why I’m fighting for humanity, including my own.

And I’m currently in my own personal hell.

My spirit has been broken and I am only a fragment of what I could be.

His poetry, that is absolutely 1000% not about me (?), gives me glimpses of who I am.

Or want to be.

There really is no difference. I live in his mind. He’s my sanctuary.

I hope it’s his arms I get to crawl into and die, even if a word is never said.

I want him to be my final avenue and I want him to lay me to rest.

No other.

He must hide my body from the establishment. Give me back to earth. 👀

Not prematurely. I’m still putting up the good fight to live but that’s not where my thoughts are.

I’m still red flagged at the VA for being suicidal. The very very bad kind.

One slip up and I’m off to the funny farm via the pigs against my will.

And I’m a Soldier, not a rich boy, we eat mystery meat.

And I’ve always identified as Native American and I want to find my tribe and get out there and hunt and slay a buffalo, so get off my dick

Child fucker

Hypocrite