catwinternational.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Ten-Reasons-for-NOT-Legalizing-Prostitution.pdf
Prostitution is a root cause of sex trafficking, but it’s what men want…
They want us living in fear, not just Black Lives Matter.
Yesterday I was having chest pains and no weed but today some birds moved in next to me and I got a nap
The sun is finally out 
They form attachments and bonds
— Read on www.scientificamerican.com/article/why-do-men-buy-sex-2012-10-23/
I’m no longer available as a girlfriend or a wife
Demonic forces never stopped running through human affairs. We just stopped seeing them.
— Read on www.theamericanconservative.com/principalities-and-powers/
People like killing dogs and cats too. Facing my own issues with an animal; I find end-of-life services to be inhumane and Hitler regime.
Many just give up, shelter’s are full – animals will be sacrificed.
I’m not making this up. They are eager to take that money too.
One humane society charges more for you to “go back”. A significant amount more.
I’m autistic, “what do you mean “go back” and she explained – “to watch – to be with them” – “that cost more”.
And, an additional cost if you want a “box or urn”.
He’s had 3 end of life appointments made – one with his primary veterinarian, two with the humane society.
I called eventually a third time and stated, “I won’t be able to do this by appointment, I’m having a hard time letting go”
Because – I researched the chemical used to stop their heart – their bodies jerking around.
When someone ODs they go out peacefully and you can call it humane, but I disagree that End Of Life Services are anywhere but “humane” when their bodies are literally jerking around.
My grandmother let her dog “die naturally”.
Anyhoo – I’m against abortion and apparently against manmade animals from a lab getting sacrificed to the dark entity
My dog has a strong heartbeat and will to live. He may be a hellhound – but he’s my hellhound for “better or for worse”.
He may qualify for end-of-life services, and that may be the “easier” path for me – but it requires ending a life, stopping a heart. I do not comply.
And I’m so fucking depressed and suicidal that I would rather jump off a fucking bridge than figure out what to do with my dog, which means I’ve quit weed so that I can figure out what to do with my fucking dog because apparently this new age weed complicates PTSD (hear, hear) and causes suicidal ideation
Also, these drugs folks are doing, probably have code written in them, that’s why they see “the same thing”. 
Autistic doesn’t mean “dumb”.
Gullible sure. I know that they use art and cartoons to imprint on us.
NASA is extreme religiousness – they “the physicist” now are pushing “dark worlds” with “dark suns” and “dark planets” – made of “dark matter”.
It’s one extreme to the next – from walking on water to miracle pregnancies – to “dark worlds”.
They serve a dark entity.
Can I please have a tech free zone? Tech free state? 

About 90 per cent of all homicides recorded worldwide were committed by male perpetrators
— Read on www.unodc.org/unodc/en/data-and-analysis/global-study-on-homicide.html
90% of all murders happen by MEN
Porn activates the PRIMAL side of the BRAIN 🧠
Females go in heat too
Learn to control your urges
Clearly you can’t handle leading a double/triple life
Norwegian women earn 9 per cent less than men, even if they work in the same workplace, have the same occupation and the same job. Fifteen countries, including Norway, have been investigated in a large international study.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/economy-gender-and-society/now-we-have-documentation-women-earn-less-than-men-in-the-same-job/2120512
“Never catch up”
It’s narcissism. They don’t want us in the game when we come from “rib of man” – like they see us as sex objects only. Why would we get equal pay when we belong in the kitchen.
Men do not care about us and neither do the gays.
Men who paid for sex were more often dissatisfied with their own sex lives.
— Read on sciencenorway.no/mens-health-sex-sexuality/what-distinguishes-the-men-who-buy-sex-from-men-who-dont/1821864
PORN
We could be teaching children healthy sexual habits and connections – instead of traumatizing them because of the BIG PORN industry.
We’re meant to bond and imprint young.
Not take your kids to the hooker and “not tell mom”
The reasons why many men pay for sex are revealed in the interviews that make up a major new piece of research
— Read on amp.theguardian.com/society/2010/jan/15/why-men-use-prostitutes
😑
When a man pays you for sex, you will feel many things — but arousal will not be one of them
— Read on www.salon.com/2015/09/30/the_sex_was_never_ever_fun_my_lessons_in_prostitution/
They convince themselves we want it, “so it’s okay”. He got a hard-on just looking at a 14 year old from the street.
These aren’t men, they are monsters.
But I’m censored everywhere online for mentioning “men” or “monsters” and they don’t have to be in the same sentence.
But I am a sexual abuse survivor, so why is my voice being censored.
Because China have us right where they want us. Segregated while they take command.
And the prostitutes exchange no love – it’s only transactional but the big dream by the men is they fall in love and run off together. Gag me.
Most of them say “men are terrible lovers” and it’s clear the prostitutes do all the work
The prostitutes hear them complain about fighting about money at home life but yet they’re paying for sex (and probably other addictions thus the fights with spouses) 
It’s all narcissism and nihilism.
And if you’re a woman over 40 without a chechmark, are you okay!?!
Why do ordinary, respectable men visit prostitutes? Jacquelynne Bailey spoke to customers at Australian brothels to find out. Her interviews provide a rare insight into how some men see not just sex, but women.
— Read on amp.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/08/gender.uk
“It’s always better with a whore”
“Older, but not over 35…”
Are Men Looking For Love With Prostitutes?
— Read on www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2012/08/13/relationships-men-fall-in-love-with-prostitutes_n_1772680.html
It’s all been conditioning – these men have been buying sex since children
And now children can see and buy sex toys – toys aren’t behind a black curtain….
The Devil’s society…
Give it time, LGBT will have an orgy in the street.
Porn has ruined man
They fall in love with an idea – and the porn industry repeats the same story throughout years – with all sex workers.
They need the girls in the pictures so much that they use “commoners” as fleshlights
“No one knows why” – ahem bullshite it’s porn
Porn segregates us from unity, imprinting
Well – these boys are exposed to porn at a very young age and it imprints on them.
And image is important to them – gaslighting – so the Church offers a safe haven for these demons – who want us paying for their housing and meals.
They disassociate when they use porn so it’s like they become a completely different person and that’s why there’s no remorse when they do the shit that they do to you
They have an addiction created by the enemy to break up the traditional family value home – all while the immigrants take throne during “yellow fever”
Suicide is a top leading cause of death worldwide
Porn is the gateway drug to ruin
It could be easily censored like they do my free-speech
All the little commoners who get on onlyfans, they just use us up like they do in the real world 
Most anyway
OnlyFans say most users loose out – it’s only the top folks with value (society is the Titanic)
They steal money from users too
And as much as I love blogging, I don’t want to continue paying the enemy
Pay to play
I’d rather die than give the state another penny
And I can’t even visit Orlando without having to pay four tolls to return and they aren’t cheap anymore 
It’s the same fucking county, but I have to pay to return to the city I’m registered to live in.
Florida is gone
Overrun with evil and immigration
I mean immigrants get here and naturalize faster than we can even procreate or vote 
Native Americans were doing just fine here until my bloodline was nearly wiped out by the fucking immigrants that you say bring so much greatness to our country
I fantasize about dying by suicide in terrible and terrifying ways
I know you’re a nihilist and do not care what happens to me…
”To be seen and not heard” while man destroys everything
But as long as we are making him a meal and doing everything for him
While he jerks off to the pretty women prostitutes
And by telling a man not to fall in love with you, they probably absolutely fucking do fall in love with these prostitutes (not commoners)
Because even the guys without any teeth, think they deserve a ten star 
And I’ve never been rated a 10 or treated with any value
Lots of marriage proposals though 
Fleshlights….

National Center for Health Statistics
— Read on www.cdc.gov/nchs/pressroom/nchs_press_releases/2022/20220831.htm
“Non-Hispanic white people in the United States had the second biggest decline in life expectancy”
VS
Asians: “slight decline“
WHITE LIVES DON’T MATTER
This Spotlight presents consumer price indexes for groups of households at the lowest and highest end of the income distribution for urban households to examine how different spending patterns can change measures of inflation.
— Read on www.bls.gov/spotlight/2022/inflation-experiences-for-lower-and-higher-income-households/home.htm
It’s gentrification and narcissism and those in power set the inflation rates.
They are the reason the rent keeps going up.
They weren’t hurting or remorseful when we were suffering. They were spending money on travel, entertainment, phones and cars. We were trying to pay rent and eat.
They’re amused by our suffering.
A 10% difference is a lot when the majority can’t eat while the rest are at play and having fun. Killing the world is fun!!! We’re kings!
I’m done. With everything. I no longer support society. I am withdrawing from everything. It does not serve God or the natural way.
This is so sad. We only get this one life. Our nation was crippled by immigrants who are not crippled.
Those at the top are the immigrants!
In 2019, there were 28.4 million foreign-born people in the U.S. labor force, comprising 17.4 percent of the total.
— Read on www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2020/foreign-born-workers-made-up-17-point-4-percent-of-labor-force-in-2019.htm
I know what it says but look at the chart – immigrants have overtaken 3 of those categories and are quickly nearing the other 2 categories of work filled
And, according to the color, Florida is absolutely gone (same as California and New York – all owned by immigrants)
THEY HAVE ALL OUR BEST JOBS
Please don’t refer to me as an “older woman” again
Or group me there
I know you’re a pedophile
And I’m GENX
But I’m only your 8 years senior
And that’s with the 10 year “decade” window
It’s considered NORMAL
And the couple that was recently murdered here in Daytona Beach – during bike week – double homicide from a BLM immigrant – she was only 8 years older than him – they had recently bought their dream home that they were biking home to
He stalked them and gutted them near a school
Now he gets better treatment for his mental health than I do and I served my fucking country and am facing homelessness (again) (sigh)
“You will own nothing and you will be happy”
You mean like stalk people?
Hunting them down like you want to gut them in the street.
I mean, yeah
You get 3 meals a day, an hour of sunshine, dental, free rent.
Where is the punishment?
I sit in an overpriced run down 4×4
The amenities aren’t even opened on the weekends, no 24/7 gym pool but paying the price like a fool
But due to gentrification in the housing market – it’s kinda hard to move up to the east side
This entire society is built on narcissism, the very foundation is a lie
Did all your dreams come true in Nam?
I’m about to jump off a fucking dam…
Don’t call me older ever again
It’s barely 8 years
Oh, it’s because I’m over 29 huh
And you’re a pedo
Don’t call me old when I’m still bleeding from my legs every three weeks you fucking insensitive asshole
I hate you
But, I do have the eldest blood of all the bloodlines
It’s kind of hard to bleed yourself dry when you think on yer superpowers
Fucking old
Like 13.7 billion years or something
At least get it right…
I’m not old, I’m glorious and that’s why guys are chasing me down when I’m in the isles crying
They just wanna spend time with me
I look like a dying zombie but many are mesmerized
I don’t know what they see
The age always disappoints them
I don’t talk to men anymore anyway
The new responses will be, “oh honey, I’m not Asian”
“I’m not a fleshlight”
OR
“You can’t afford my fleshlight”
That’ll really fuck em’ up
God didn’t make me hush
It’s possible he left his ministry to me because everybody seems to keep calling me a whore
And treating me with little value
I probably have a fortune in Bibles lying around, but you know
“I asked you to prove to me the Bible was re-written and not give opinion”
“The version is on the cover”
“This comment no longer exists”
Pop goes a demon
This is why heaven is empty
This is why my views are low
“Because of you, I can only smoke down here now”
Oh goodie, I’m glad I make messes in heaven still
The way I do on earth…
“God is love”
“Love is the great anomaly”
God was here!?!
God lives here!?!
Gotta get his house cleaned up
He doesn’t treat me ill
Creating bonds just to break
Breaking souls
To get a rise cuz you are numb and void and soulless and without remorse
Women over 40 have value – even if society has ruled us obsolete
Because you’ve been brainwashed by society to be a pedophile
And we’re meant to socially bond very young…
Imprinting
We’re not born to be your fleshlights
I got educated to save a life
It’s not my fault that doesn’t impress you
Or my tiny savings
One and five men have an STD and a divorce under their belt
Not interested in your opinion of me any longer…
Dig?
Women over boost men’s egos to not get murdered – in general
Men obviously are crazy and go through hormonal changes if “90% of all murders happen by men” and you know women get prosecuted harder for crimes cuz we rarely do
If more women committed crimes, the punishment would be less severe (like men)
And a demon has no remorse so therapy is invalid
My mental health is being destroyed with malicious intent and purpose, and has been since I was born
But I get called crazy for having to deal with being told what to do 24/7
Man has put his overrule over everything – trying to be god
Changing time
Literally trying to control women’s periods with birth control and everything else they do
Trying to control every aspect of time
“Time is energy” and they control the energy crisis too
Trying to fix the weed – the premium weed is weaker than homegrown from the 90s – it ain’t premium – it’s expensive junk and shite
Trying to control the food supply
“Natural flavor” in everything
The Great Filter of nihilism
Destroy everything God created
Man trying to take over and control
Making humans in a lab
Cloning
Honestly, you can’t even listen to the music because they did something to the frequency to cause depression
They are using weather modification and they openly talk about it now, so you can’t keep calling me a conspiracy theorist
It’s ruining the earth
Causing disasters
“But the insurance will cover it” (another filter)
No one wanted insurance, but they pushed it on us, just like they pushed the one child law on China residents (whom had been brainwashed into believing it was a good thing) (over 1 million parents lost their only child – and too late for many women to conceive after it was lifted – and many men left their wives for a younger one. But there aren’t enough women anymore and “too many men” due to their science! (All planned)
The white race is systematically being destroyed through racism (it’s not how we’re reporting dummy)
I don’t want to live my life through a computer screen or an algorithm
Most of China is depressed – apart from gentrification and “them”
Also, that Chinese politician who implemented that law and went to jail, he lives in America now
All the bad ones are allowed entry here…
They are fighting wars from a computer screen now and accidentally blowing up families an Afghan and going Oh sorry you can come live in America though.
They bring their entire family here
Violent upbringing and all…
Black Lives Matter
RIP couple gutted in the street – this isn’t the same country I fought for – I’ve wanted out of Daytona Beach since that violent crime – and crime continues to rise here despite reports of “best place to live” (it is not)
And they are forcing workers to work alone, and people are robbing the place and getting murdered – fuck that – I’m not dying for you and your goddamn taco
Jim Morrison was from Florida and loved tacos 🌮
And I love a little taco job – but I ain’t dying for this society – which is sinking faster than the Titanic
Go USA (the American Asians identity as “CHINESE American” and value Chinese culture” and only vote 1 way
We’re just pawns in their sick game
Just because you work in a factory 18 hours a day and allow your fucking government to dictate how many children you have – it doesn’t make you smarter – it makes you fucking dumb, not hardworking
And I’m so glad that family value and living together generations together like cockroaches is valuable to you because you’ve broken up the family home in America to have this – to fucking have America
Immigration is a Trojan horse and only the immigrants are happy here
FYI
They’re miserable in China too, because they fucking brown nose their government
My boomer mom believes anything the Bible or government says too
And you can’t tell her otherwise
It’s been cold here all day. The lizards haven’t even come out and I wish I had a little heater for them.
I made a vegan dish and I’m eating it and I also got a rebound session in
I may take a break from blogging for awhile, while I try to figure out how to detox from fucking weed – never had a problem with weed until government and science got involved
But now I have an addiction and suicidal ideation, and PTSD complications for voting yes for medicinal
I’m done voting – anyone can do it
And the immigrants who come here and their fucking teenage children, they actually get naturalized and get to vote sooner than the people fucking born here
I’m no longer participating in society therefore, I am not voting or doing any of this man-made bullshit anymore
Toxic masculinity
You barely hear of any women in the Bible, and when you do, they’re called a whore
“Men can have babies” (you see the conditioning) (cloning LGBT human rights vs AI has feelings)
The men are just monsters who are pedophiles and will do anything to get to the children fleshlights
I read about how y’all are buying wives and how horribly you treat them because you bought them
Shame you can’t take care of your creators (men come from vagina)
I’m sorry you’re mad about it – we didn’t make the rules
Men do spread parasites through their cum which can cause cancer and other health problems
It doesn’t affect men the way it does women (many men have no signs but are ill)
Anyhoo
The government gave me an addiction with malicious intent and purpose
“Premium content”
And pay the state to enter a medical building for wellness – while sex toys are sold in front of children (conditioning)
LGBT is a cult and all over the walls of the VA now
Why was I always shamed for being a girl and told to cross my legs growing up but gay men are fucking dry humping everything and dressing tacky in public 24/7
Just because it’s a song or art doesn’t make it okay or right
That stuff was always at the gay bars and that’s where it should be along with the sex toys at the 21+ stores
I said what I said
Apparently, China have a “savings problem” and they don’t want to spend and that’s my problem now, I have a savings problem, I don’t want to spend either…
I don’t have a man who wants to build me a house, but it would be fucking amazing if we could build one together
I’ve never even been valued enough to be taken to the opera, or given a piece of jewelry with any worth
Still – men seem taken back by my ugliness or beauty (I’m undecided which)
Pretty enough for them – just don’t like my petite frame (but you do Asians huh)
I don’t remember the guy I was dating for three or four months, but he was really into me I thought until one day he broke up with me and said that my pussy was great. He liked my personality, but he hated my tits.
I was in my early 20s
And even with all the negative conditioning, I still did not go get plastic surgery, even though there were times I could afford to do so, instead of traveling
But I got to breast-feed, and had hopes of doing it again
I think I’m human still
It’s human vs demon here (and many of you disassociate from what you truly are, a monster)
But you choose to be despite things and entities trying to push you that direction
Every time my true soulmate gives himself away to another lover, I go further extinct
I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore because none of you want to change anything
You all want the world to end
I’m outnumbered unfortunately
You had me believing I had no worth when it was really you
I was hoping to save someone
And are you paying attention to the 18-year-old and 56 year olds dying?
Vaccine death jab (I’m at risk for ASDS)
Adult sudden death syndrome
I’ll never get another flu shot or vaccine again and I’ll never trust a doctor and I’m just gonna go with what God gave me
Men are pulling the veil on us while destroying the world
90% of all murders happen by men
There’s enough food, and everything to go around for everybody, but they have us in this dark field
One-child policy leaves some parents childless, hopeless and facing financial ruin in old age
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/in-china-one-child-policy-compounds-loss-of-child-for-parents/2013/08/07/063716fe-e877-11e2-a301-ea5a8116d211_story.html
It’s tragic. Our mental health is directly connected to our dicks and vaginas. They sterilized and aborted an entire nation!
They’re still doing it with vaccines!!!!!!
I also learned the vaccines contain aborted babies (it’s real)!
The government needs shut down!!!!!!
This is tragic!!!!
It’s narcissism! It’s all serving the Devil!!!! Or darkness! It’s not unity or being one with earth!
Stop killing everything! Women and babies especially!!!!!!
Y’all are insane but want to commit me!!!
Immigrants have taken over California and New York and they are coming after Florida. Most Floridians say Florida has changed for the worse. 
The VA is corrupt and so is the White House
And according to the official stats, the majority of immigrants vote one way 
I will rise up
And if it takes five people to arrest me, five people will go fucking down
I’m fed up!
The fact that most Chinese thought the one child law policy was a good idea…. 
It also creates narcissism
They’ve ruined America with insurance and taxes and COLA 
They’ve ruined everything and everyone it seems
Too much control
And Genzie and millennials don’t give a fuck about anything so they’re not gonna rise up and fight anything except for the wind to light the fucking lighter for the goddamn weed
And their sex toys
LGBT is a cult
Sex toys are being sold everywhere in front of any age…. little curious boys looking at the anal plugs at Spencer’s
Can buy online at Walmart, CVS, Dolls Kill, Walgreens, ect
Dildo’s and vibrators for “health and wellness”
Disgusting 🤢
Lavishing attention on an only child takes its toll on parents.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/china-drops-one-child-policy-but-exhausted-tiger-moms-say-one-is-plenty/2016/10/14/336f1890-8ae7-11e6-8a68-b4ce96c78e04_story.html
China is the biggest political fuck up power in the world 🛑🥴⚠️🫣👀🛑
And they took over America 🇺🇸
Constantly telling us what we can and cannot do
Crippling a nation with divorce, disease, depression!
I don’t fucking trust you if you’re in a position of power or brown-nosing these ridiculous policies.
And I think a lot of Americans are ready for the big immigration push back.
Too much conflict of interest – everything benefiting other nations (who took throne here).
Check the migration stats, jobs, and census. Do you have reading comprehension though?
This is 2023 (not really – it’s a manmade calendar and they took away a month! April fools! The gaslighting in this society never ends.)
Always got us chasing our tail!!!! 
It’s 7 years behind in Ethiopia
I wasn’t learning about that in school when they were teaching about “time zones”
I hated every moment of school and working 90 hours a week (2-3 jobs) to pay my electric and rent
I keep hoping to have hope – that my future includes a real bond with a man, as God intended. A pure love where he isn’t giving his best energy and time to other women.
But, even if a man is going through a Great Awakening, when he settles down, he’ll go for the young one.
I’m obsolete
Thank you for pushing me into the extinction zone
“Men can have babies”
Have fun with that
China and India have 70 million more men than women. The consequences are far-reaching.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/graphics/2018/world/too-many-men/
All the violence. And we open our borders in America and let them extend the same violent upbringing on us. Porn is an issue but let’s just destroy the world so you can keep gaslighting and jerking off.
He bought his wife and demanded sex four times a day and beat her when she did not comply. Then she fled and left her 3 year old daughter with him.
Pedophilia starts in the home.
“Too many men” and too much violence. Porn activates the primitive side of the brain. Rape, murder, lies.
This society is all built on a crumbling lie.
Those in power want the world end so they can rebuild it under their fucking rule – using AI, and the DNA ark in Antartica.
They are playing god and creating a matrix filter (the great filter is real) where generations born will be made under them.
So they can claim all this as their own – as they believe they are god
The Bible has been re-written many times (it’s called versions dummy) and is Satanic
There is so much fearmongering and narcissism in the Bible. Just like Hollywood and NASA (asteroids are bombs)
I’m not saying asteroids aren’t real, but they can’t stop dropping bombs everywhere….
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
“6th mass extinction”
But as long as you can cum….
The way these narcissist delete lives and comments without any remorse
Therapy is just a stage for them to practice lying
Narcissism isn’t rare, it’s a fucking plague…
Spread by the Bible via Yellow Fever propagandist
And scientist say we’re in a six mass extinction and the Bible has been around 6000 years so you do the fucking math or don’t I don’t fucking care anymore
The census show BLM at over 230% rise and White Lives Don’t matter at a 10% decrease
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Nihilism!!!!!
Women create. Men destroy.
And they don’t give anything enough time to replenish. The sea is not endless food for us. Your Bible is a lie!!!!!!
And it’s been pushed down my throat since I was born.
NASA is a dogma stealing your money
I don’t think CGI cartoon is what I had in mind when being taxed to death – to visit a dead planet because you can’t sit still long enough to stop killing this one
“90% of all murders happen by men..”
Yeah but…. don’t even look at me unless you want WW4
The wars will never end because the people in power have delusions of grandeur and are sending cars into fucking space
And now they’re moving asteroids and shit around?
My cell service continues to drop and lines are all in the ocean…
So basically, if you’re talking to me, you’re lying
That’s how fucking woke I am
Y’all believe aliens are real, and that computers have feelings
I do have one question for God and that’s: do Asians have the smallest penis of all and that’s why they fucking gaslight and do all this!?!
“Mirror mirror on the wall, Asian men have the smallest penis of all”
“So we’ll lie and program the world to think our childlike women have magical vaginas!!!!!!”
It’s all full circle now
It’s a game of the elite and I’m sick of playing delusions of grandeur
The cookie crumb traces back to Asia
And I’m sort of getting to the point if you don’t get me away to my own land and away from these fucking immigrants – things are gonna go fucking west pretty quick, and I don’t give a fuck if I wind up in a goddamn ditch
The fact that they raised taxes so much crippling a nation
But if you read articles about immigration, they will all claim they are doing well family and financially, but Americans will say the opposite, and the low paying wage jobs and homelessness proves it.
But you won’t listen over your green card or Yellow Fever
I’m fed up!
This is why I say I’m homicidal instead of suicidal and this is why I encourage people to just go fucking mad in the streets because fuck everything – they probably had it coming that goddamn street
That fucking morning shift deserved everything they got
How much you like your job again?
You like it that much huh
To treat customers and residents like we ain’t got no value
That calm you see from me
Ain’t really good
But I guess I’m learning to gaslight too
I’m starting to stalk people on the road
And I will wind up on a ditch if I don’t leave the city
At least I’m quitting the new age weed
So more emoness incoming
And poetry too
If God allows me to continue making a mess of everything
Those NASA images are just a fairytale
Elon’s education and hair is fake
He had connections
I can’t believe the fucking moon landings were rehearsed
If the government is talking, I don’t care to hear what they have to say
Let him get back to the holy inquisition yellow fever madness
Magical pussies
Walking on water
Delusions of grandeur
Hello God
*waves*
It’s astounding to me that these yellow fever men do not have the sensibility to see – on the cover itself – which edition of the Bible they are reading
Because there are many versions
And they are different
The Old Testament versus the New Testament
The new revised standard version
The King James version
New International version
New Living translation
Just the fact that it was translated is a red flag – I watch basic movies in both languages – the original or translated – and the translated version most always certainly changes the meaning
Remember that study, where you tell someone something – and by the time it reaches the other end of the room – it’s completely changed.
Something simple like “the sky is red” will turn into “the sky is bleeding”! It’s obviously misleading (The Bible)
(I think I’ve read them all – I have a stack of varyingly different versions, some with the word of Christ “in red” (the conditioning), some that are super tiny, some large, and the first I ever received age 4 – in color, with a map).
Men try to control my every thought and move – but didn’t think I’d be smart enough to study the Bible and learn anything other than “to be seen and not heard”, “women come from rib of man”
No Asia, everyone comes from vagina – and not just magical Asian ones
Men come from vagina
Men cannot have babies
I will go down fighting
God exists outside the yellow fever Bible – that has been re-written many times – and the edition can be found on the cover – it’s not opinion asshole
Furthermore, I do have a degree and did study World Religions.
But because I’m white and female – my word will always just be “opinion” to man who creates and controls this entire delusional world – that I don’t want to participate in!
I don’t have value because I’m not an Asian with a magical sideways pussy.
Y’all are fucking insane
Porn destroyed you
But keep blaming marijuana as the gateway drug OK?
You’ll soon be selling sex toys at the church for health and wellness
The way you are now selling sex toys at Walmart, Dolls Kill, CVS, Walgreens, the mall…
You don’t even need to be 21+ anymore to enter
It’s all been conditioning
And because Asians supposedly are the “most educated and hard working” they come over here and they take all our best jobs too and that’s also not fucking opinion
I’m pretty much done voting, dating, or looking at men
If you are white, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever
If you support the Bible, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever
If you are married to an Asian, you most definitely have yellow fever
If you look at me with any interest, I’m gonna assume you have yellow fever
If you are alive, you have yellow fever
If you act interested in me, I’m just gonna reply “I’m not a ten, I’m not Asian”
“I don’t want to be your fleshlight”
And that’s what living with real autism is like
Many of Genzie and millennials, who claim to be “autistic” are really just emancipated
I’m kinda disgusted with humanity and those “in charge” ruining everything with religion and race
They use art and cartoon to get yeah
And NASA admitted it’s all “CGI artist interpretation”
James Webb only sees in red
I don’t know how else to get through
The rest is just data and numbers
Dots
They assign colors to numbers
It’s not even art, it’s an algorithm
And I’m tired of being conditioned to think that AI is art, it’s fucking not
It’s cutting corners
It’s lazy
It’s cheap (tho expensive lol)
Like I worked really hard to be a decent woman for man
And you all have yellow fever
At least the majority do
The fact that I’m still ascending (descending into hell)
The fact that God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore
“Where do you get your truth”
Not from the Bible – it uncovers the grand lie
The Great Pyramid scheme
The Great Wall of Deceit (is being disassembled on the black market and sold to build homes yassssssss – tear down the wall)!!!!!!!!
Did it ever occur to you that I am the truth
I’m one of God’s angels (I declare this and identify as angelic)
I am a truthmonger
I’ve been questioning my parents and the establishment since I was very young and I knew this was all bullshit
“How do you know the sun is so far away, you’ve been?” (Asked age 5)
“We shon a laser on a wall”
And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, or whatever news it is because you won’t believe me anyway, but the sun is electrical and closer to us than you’ve been told
Now I don’t mean plug in a socket electrical
But water exists as a fourth stage: plasma
Also, the Moon is a dead star (earth probably actually formed from her but whatev)
Again, I never believed the earth-moon theory
Never believed in the Big Bang model
Or the evolution theory
Or, that “women come from the rib of man”
If that somehow makes Asian women better than me – because I don’t believe in delusions of grandeur – and instead equality – then so be it. I’ll die alone without any worth from man cuz I’m not plastic surgery or yellow nor will bow to them simply to bow
Respect is earned
I know my worth even though I’m constantly crying to God “I’m worthless”, “I don’t deserve anything”
Apparently, this new age weed can cause suicidal ideation, and further complicate PTSD.
I’m getting off it now as I’ve never been more suicidal in my life
Big pharma also made me extremely homicidal
I will be real with you – so-in-so needs to go ahead and file multiple restraining orders- and I hear the more you have – the less they work
“90% of all murders happen by men“
But the other 10% – !?!
Are people worth going to jail for? No
But if you’re already dying and dead…
And you’ve sold or trashed everything you own…
What’s to lose!?!
It’s not murder if eye for eye
“You took my life”
But I have faith that God wants more for me than dying on the street or revenge from atrocities
It can go either way
I’m prepared for the worst outcome – dying
It won’t be jail or committed
DO NOT MOURN FOR ME
Porn has made it that man has no value at all – though he is racist to his core
I read into many articles about yellow fever – and migration patterns to the USA
It’s only the immigrants who say that are satisfied with their income and family here – and I summed it up to gentrification.
And now Biden made it so non- citizens can vote.
Americans are slaves to the Asian and Asian Americans who identify mostly as “Chinese American” and mostly only care about Chinese culture
Chinese culture has taken over America including yellow fever
Magical childlike pussies huh
Y’all are disgusting
I don’t wanna look at anybody in the eye
Some guy paying me a compliment: “I’m not Asian, shut up”
I don’t even wanna hear what any have to say…
I’m not Asian therefore white lives don’t matter
Non-citizens are allowed to vote now
Our best jobs are given to the brightest and most brilliant immigrants who move here and naturalize – have children – and give those children the good jobs; the president said “they come here and take our best jobs”. Yep.
Our children (native) must wait 18 years to get a say…
They come here, and ruin Americans with propaganda and take their right to vote away, thousands of Americans are not allowed to vote because of crimes they already paid for.
I love everything
But the immigrants continue to destroy the environment to build a mall or shopping center that will be abandoned in a few years
Narcissism is a plague
Nihilism
I can’t stand it
And I’m tired of people trying to force my mouth closed when I am a soldier and politics is what I’m aware of
Florida is sinking
The whole of America has sunk
This isn’t about your green card!
Native Americans live on plantation’s like suppressed little slaves
Unless Hollywood TikTok has given them limelight
Narcissism
Manmade cats are unnatural for the environment – destroying nature
Dogs and cats spread disease
Also “made in China” and the first Bible can be traces back to Asia
Gonna follow the trails to the caves in Antartica and cut off their heads
(Thinking out loud again)
They keep adding all these additional charges to carry a smart phone and I’m ready to sell mine or downsize to a boring dumb phone.
The Internet is all predator, propaganda, and porn. Spam and spyware. Viruses. And they make us pay for it….
I’m over everything
Voting especially.
It’s all glaringly corrupt
I will not shut up…
Things need to be fixed
People from other countries shouldn’t get to move here and vote sooner than our own children and selves who are native to here
But that’s not what the article’s will say
Just like the bullshite globalism agenda spread through the college professors – that I always argued with – the articles will say non-citizens being allowed to vote is a good thing
I disagree
Conflict-of-interest
Period!
Remember them telling us “don’t discuss your income in the workplace”
That’s because shady business was going down
Now some states are requiring full income disclosure
I don’t believe the government can have transparency without gaslighting and a lie
This whole society is built on lovebombing, triangulation, gaslighting, lying.
“Don’t block me out, Emmet. I know you can hear me!”
Because the Christian God is narcissistic and evil. The Bible today is a fallacy – and to your own accord – a sin.
Emmet was always around the children. And smoking.
He can’t keep a straight face!
Pedo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scene forward:
“And you can keep the jewelry! It’s fake!” *sinister laugh
And I was holding onto the gold like it had value because I put value on the cheapest things
“The thought NO LONGER counts” fixed
Men have devalued me for so long I no longer wanna look them in the eye
Annie no longer cares about the toys, she stated this.
Annie was depressed because Emmet said she would be
Tough love
“Keep your eye on the toys Annie, you know about toys”
How about stop conditioning me!!!!!!!!
Free will please!!!!!!!!
But not so much free will I jump in a whirlpool on ketamine like Jacob!
God bless what the fuck
I barely can dip my toes in the water without screaming
I don’t like anything in this society
Edgar was right to die on the street – naked – out of his mind
“The children have gone insane” and are boomers in position of power
Gen X the silent dangerous generation
I’m glad we’ve been ghosted by society
Won’t see me coming
And… while we’re on the subject
That cheap junk you’re wearing, that isn’t cotton, actually causes insanity, is extremely flammable and hard to put out
I bet the people in Pompeii were wearing synthetics
People dropping bills to buy foam shoes (which cause cancer/insanity)
All that sports clothing
JUNK
And I hate how they came over here and changed the meaning of silk, satin, and Cordaroy to now mean synthetics
“Men can have babies!!!!”
Well, I mean that’s good and all that you’re growing babies now because you’ve pretty much made most women infertile with nihilism or the death jab or emancipation
Fake tits are gross
Plastic surgery is the devil
Narcissism at its root
I said what I said
Happy to help
I can’t even look at Melanie Griffith anymore, because of what she did to herself
I’m ghosting HollyWood
Grooming everyone to fuck children
Many famous people won’t let their children around TV
Red flag!
Rules for thee, not for me!
I hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feed the wildlife! They’re crying asshole!!!!!! Stop destroying everything to build a shopping center!!!!
Get the fuck out of my house!
Immigration is a Trojan horse!
Feed the birds! Squirrels! Trees!
Start bonding with earth!
As intended and designed!
“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”
Please wake up now!!!!!!!
Sell your TV!!!!
There the offer stood
Like humiliation in the door
I guess life ain’t good
Unless you’re in a brotherhood
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Apparently the thing I was fighting for does have value.
Most everything else that was gifted to me was cheap, fake shit.
LAUGHS
Jumping ship
To where, to which?
To be continued…. (praying)
“Don’t let me go, Murph”
“Don’t let me sell, Murph”
Great time to sell, not-so-much to buy.
Couldn’t really turn things around.
Sometimes nurturing old faithful is the better (and less expensive choice) (lesson learned after much research)
3 too many doors too many
I’ll chill here awhile
God: “what are you doing out here, it’s been ten years.”
Me: fuck the god damn doors, they all lead to hell…
God: “come inside”
Me: I’m fine in purgatory thanks
The noise is sometimes reduced to soul screaming only
“I talk to dead people”
God: “I made hot chocolate”
Me: why didn’t you say!!!!!!!!
*crawls inside*
Did y’all know the Bible that has been re-written many times (red flag) is actually Luciferian
Tis is…
The earth is alive
We spawned from here
Nihilism is a plague
“Too many men” according to Asian science (with malicious intent and purpose)
Narcissism is a plague
Sold/donated/trashed nearly 44 years of my life
Was gonna sell my uniforms but probably outdated and old (tho some new lol)
But not old enough to be vintage sought after
Just basically obsolete because gentrification exists lol
Once the uniforms are gone, I’m completely lost down here
Can’t even take my training with me when I die
Welp
I come without bond
Broken
Look inside
Heart ain’t coping
Like leaping ledge
Just barely hoping
Your foot will land
But surface sloping
© Delia Ross. 2023 / @poeeternal
Man I am obsessed with cave diving deaths. Death in general because we were holding hands. Depth blackout terrifies me.
We can’t leave earth. We can’t even explore past 150 feet safely inside the earth.
What were you doing down there, John.
People will easily talk you into your death.
Give you maps withholding information needed to make valid decisions.
These demons try and avoid karma and fate by getting you to choose the wrong door.
I don’t want to go down with the ship.
There’s gonna be light at the end of the tunnel for me and that’s gonna be my way out of here.
Got an online offer on my Jeep. Not sure the avenue I’m going here – but why not downsize my ride.
I love her too much and I can’t take anything with me to heaven.
I also looked to see what they were being sold at with my mileage and year.
An SUV no longer serves my purpose here.
Would go down with the ship but why.
There were spaces on the lifeboat’s.
Lives could have been saved…
I’ve stopped crawling headfirst (still headstrong unfortunately)
“The answers are coming, rest Neo”
Nearly died, completely turning my life around.
Still learning basic concepts
Like how no man has ever seen me with any value – and destroyed everything I owned – while watching me work so hard to prove my worth/existence
But gentrification exists, because the rich hoard everything and they love us watching us fight for the cheap shit
A bone just to survive
I’m resetting my game. I’m allowed.
End game/Quit. Reset/Start over.
This time I go forward knowing my value to man is NONE.
Which is fine because 1-5 have an STD and I can’t look at any of them and take them serious.
Even if I wanted to date, the pool is tainted.
It ain’t worth the dive.
I live for God now. Sorry not sorry.
And I went back to the Mall. Spencer’s had even more hardcore sex toys out – and little boys were around.
I nearly threw up.
I don’t want anything to do with this porn infested devil society.
I’ll never know what it’s like to be valued or loved by a man – because I don’t have fake tits or come with “instant gratification” mode.
Sex with us commoners is boring to them
They hate our existence in general
The divorce rate is 85% and 1 in 5 men have an STD.
I know I’m boring and cheap so why you looking anyway.
You can’t afford me.
Honestly, it’ll take a miracle to get me to date now knowing one in five can give you cancer (there are some known parasites that can be spread through human contact) (they didn’t give us the nitty gritty in school but I got the good education some of the time)
Research parasites that cause cancer – then “human contact” (they won’t tell you it’s in the man’s sperm)
But you can catch a parasite from a cat box or kissing on an animal or eating food
The labs aren’t designed to see them (with malicious intent and purpose)
The elites were plagued with parasites
LAUGHS
I live for God now (unless he finds me a husband without an STI/STD or porn addiction or addiction of any kind unless to me)
🤪
BABES you can do this
It’s not end all
I did a CARMAX offer
If the physical offer holds up near as good as the digital, I may bite
Suddenly want a car…
Love the Jeep to much
Took good care of her, she’s at 75K miles
Feel frighteningly suicidal but at least this way she’s safe out of my hands
I want a little feminine car
And maybe some work from home or a hotdog stand
Do not want to die here
Do not want this hand
RESET GAME
“Are you sure, all data will be removed”
NO YES
No car, no address!
LAUGHS
Needed to lighten my load
Buoyancy
So many people have died exploring caves.
The earth is alive
Stop selling sex toys in front of minors. Like what the fuck
1 in 5 men have an STD and a divorce or three on their belt.
I got new skates for Christmas. Too much value, too much fun.
I once lived for man but they are obsessed with porn stars and always have money to impress and spoil and buy sex workers.
They love the backdoors and backrooms. Even the cleanest of them, the ones you’d never suspect cheating most definitely are. They use burner phones, identities, and make good use of work away from home.
In college I learned one husband gave his wife HIV/AIDS but started medication without telling her thus sealing her fate (it’s illegal to do this but men do not care) (the medication did not work for her because they did not start it together and he kept infecting her)
1 in 5 y’all
I may leave America all together
It’s disgusting here
My neighbors are gross
I want my neighbors to be the crocodiles and the crows
And a man that isn’t infected or at risk or risky behavior
Stop looking at me
Keep back ten feet
(I also researched other countries and their sexual health isn’t any better)
My best friend always said before she died by suicide age thirteen, “don’t be silly, put a condom on your willy” – Meika Capps
Miss yah babe!
There’s no ethics stored in science
And complaining is not compliance
I’m in hell on the wrong alliance
Now switching teams without guidance
Father is a predator
“I’m not good with metaphor”
Lies spun from the tongue
Feasting off the young
I’m so far segregated from my family tree
My neck is hanging
This place is cursed 🛑✋🛑
I’d rather live in a box
Out in the boondocks
Hunting with the crocs
Open meadows, zero locks
I hate it here
The neighbors in the rear
The cheaply atmosphere
Acting fake when not sincere
The fights always near
The loud knocking dear!!!
I wish therapy came with a cleaning course, demons have no remorse…
Like princess and the pea, I woke up with a needle under me….
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
So the reason I am so sensitive to sex toys being sold in front of children is because I was sexually abused as a child and my therapist kind of brought this point up to me yesterday, but it was a revelation point – like oh – I started crying.
And I am extremely triggered being exposed to sex toys especially when teenagers and children are around (my recent experience at the mall for example – I’ll never return). Humiliated and frightened to death. I don’t even own sex toys. It desensitizes the area. It’s Satanic (sorry not sorry) (manmade not of original design or use)
That stuff was always behind 21+ adult stores – behind black walls – the secret backrooms have become open orgy in the street.
This isn’t the same country I fought for. My values don’t match with what’s being forced on me.
My therapist has seen the worst of me and is proud of me. FYI. I’m like okay but there’s holes in my wall…
It took a lot to stop disassociating just to figure out what my values were and I know that they are not being a band, groupie propaganda whore, or sex bot
I have done some stripping in my life yes. But I was terrible at it. They all wanted more from me and got pissed when the answer was no. Pretty bias exists. The money no. I was rated a 5 in my 20s. Laughs out loud.
How to get rid of mold? Evacuate the premises. Don’t build on top a swamp ran by an evil Chinese dictator slumlord.
Gentrification is a thing, and the Fair Housing act just means this:
Base pay + give it time and they will start charging to wipe your ass
So forced to live in deplorable conditions – where white lives are in deletion (check the census asshole, it’s not just how people are reporting)
Black Lives Matter!!! White lives don’t!
Yay!!!!!!!
Being on fixed income doesn’t mean one can’t pay rent but now they are including all this other bullshit to keep people out 🚩
Who the fuck wants to pay $95 a month for cable reruns when the Internet is free?
Who the fuck wants to pay an extra $250 a month just to park their vehicle where they live?
Who the fuck wants someone else controlling their electricity and the temperature of their home?
The rich gents do. Gentrification. The Fair Housing act is bullshit.
Who the fuck wants to pay an extra $40 a month just to have storage space? Oh yeee a garage! That’ll be an extra fifty please. Go to jail. Do not pass go.
And… 100k in insurance for the cheap shit I no longer own!
$100 app fee ($25 in the 90s, it keeps creeping up each year) + now an additional $200 “admin fee”
Tell the pedos to get fucked
I’d rather live in a box
Than under BlackRock who are taking ownership of all the major towns and cities in the ungreat state of Florida, which has quickly turned to shit like California and New York, because the immigrants have fucking ruined it
I said what I said
Narcissism is a plague
Dogs were made in a lab in Asia and now they want to charge you for owning one in your home because pet rent you know and slavery
I hate living here as much as John Jones hates that cave
The map is hangman everywhere I go
And now they are fucking with the Second Amendment and trying to take our guns. By creating rules on who can own one if plagued by a mental illness (that they caused). Just like they changed the definition of a woman to benefit man. Anything to get closer to the children. Porn could be censored like our free speech. The way Elon Musk can censor a picture circulating of himself that he don’t like. Too much control and power. They don’t believe in God and they think they are gods. Just like they edited the Bible to suit their agenda. Condition you, change the rules. History rewritten before our eyes. But as long as you keep hitting your vape pen and being poly cuz lgbt is a cult and Satan is in society.
This timeline ain’t even real. Manmade traps to serve man only. They fucking hate women being in charge of creation and are destroying everything and plan to edit dna and rebuild a new earth where they are gods. It must end. 90% of all murders happen by men. Honeybees have a 50% reduced lifespan now thanks to gene editing. Human population is also down.
Doctors aren’t your friend. I’m not here to make amends; judgment hour: angel. What’s hard to comprehend? It’s hell or ascend.
Follow me if you wanna go off map and get lost….
RIP John Jones (as above, so below)
(What’s happening to me, happened to him)
Patterns are key to survival. Don’t ignore warnings or red flags.
The Great Void isn’t real. I want it to be but then I studied it. It’s made up to fit their expansion model. The Big Bang isn’t real. Science is fake. “We create our own reality”. Computers can’t feel. Please wake up.
I sold my TV.
I might be selling my military uniforms, but then I think oh my God, how fucking suicidal am I now
It’s this or the mold
I’m trying to escape gravity
Mold comes from the deep void
But the void ain’t real and we can’t leave earth
Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct
But now the honeybees are at 50% half-life thanks to science 😍
I watched a demon toss a live tree in the trash. Christmas is over. No remorse. What’s next to own and/or destroy? Fuck the poor. Fuck the white.
Fuck Native American too
Asia number one
Hurry die
Checkmate
Step-by-step, pornography decays moral character, and when character decays, so does culture.
— Read on www.nationalreview.com/2016/04/pornography-destroys-american-morals-culture/
Men have been programmed to be monsters (and most men got into porn age 6)
They have no soul
Clever marketers have figured out how easy it is to simulate online intimacy at scale, ventriloquizing alluring models with cheap, offshore labor.
— Read on www.nytimes.com/2022/05/16/magazine/e-pimps-onlyfans.html
Y’all getting off on ghost writers.
Justice maybe.
You got an addiction and wasting your dough on e-pimps.
Selling sex toys at Walmart and turning every woman into a sex worker.
At least some are making money at it and not having their mental health destroyed.
When I was growing up, sex toys were in the “Adult stores” that were age 21+ and only
But now anyone can buy sex toys at any age – (the Mall is also selling adult toys in front of children; conditioning).
Look how the algorithm includes suggestions
And over 1000+ search results….
So this is America now.
I am LOUDLY quitting
And I just thought you should know
What our children have been exposed to
And how you should stop supporting the enemy
Boycott Walmart
Boycott Walmart
I did send up feedback in the app to the AI in control
I am uninstalling the app
I’m gonna keep starving until I find food that isn’t poisoned 🤢
No one is doing anything to protect my precious energy
I do not own sex toys and have not for years
They desensitize
It’s not actually “healthy” despite being sold in the health department online
What’s next? The gas stations? Next to the crack pipes?
Also, Walmart is adding natural flavor to the beef. It ain’t vegan if it’s got natural flavor in it.
Go look for yourself if it will help you transition
The firming agent in the beans is actually ruining the beans!
When is the uprising again?
Y’all all have so many addictions.
Synthetic material is highly flammable, and when they go to drop their little bombs in the air, you’re gonna go poof poof
It’s extremely hard to extinguish
Corduroy was always 100% cotton (no synthetic fibers)
But now that the Chinese government openly control everything – they are changing the literal definition and meanings of words.
The first Bible can be traced back to Asia.
“Made in China”
The Bible has also been rewritten so many times that it’s Luciferian in nature.
Still think porn should be widely circulated on social media – while our free speech is not?
The Internet should be made 21+
I see one little thing and get traumatized
My sexual energy is pure
My body
There are parts of me untouched and untainted
I have a shit ton to learn with a man
If and when the time ever comes
And God knows the sacrifices I’ve made to cleanse myself of a curse
I’ve got holes in my fucking wall…
I need out of the city
I don’t want to support the enemy
There are people in China suffering from their own fucking government that I can’t fucking stand who has taken over America.
I’m still a Soldier!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They are going after soldiers who want 100% for PTSD. They’re trying to fucking commit us because the goddamn enemy is inside the White House.
Can anyone hear me through their addictions and own personal hell?
Or naw? Pretty certain naw…
Because sex toys are being sold at the health department at Walmart
I went in to make changes to my Amazon Wishlist and they have new features – already selected for you – about disclosing your address to the buyer
Wait. What. 👀
I have a brain injury and maybe I’m misinterpreting what that says!?!
I’ve since unchecked the box – and I’ve no one spoiling me – but I very much intend to spoil me – as these are items I want/need.
That’s a dangerous new feature Amazon has added
I wasn’t even aware until I was acting emo and making privacy changes
Anyhoo…
If you have children using it or anyone under the age of 18 and they have an Amazon wishlist account and people spoiling them, then they may be getting access to your home address now.
I care about the unsuspecting adults too (like self) and people with mental illness who may try and obtain an address for harm
I don’t understand how it’s legal for a business to do something like this, it’s fucking dangerous
They are using grams as weight now cuz America belongs to the immigrants and their children born here naturalized
The immigrants get to vote before our children legally turn 18 to do so
LMAO
I wish I had known all this before I started College is a scam.
Quietly LOUDLY quitting society
Information is knowledge so please let folks know that their lives are in danger now – unless they want complete strangers with their shipping address!?!?
I don’t like giving out my phone number or email and now we’re just giving folks our home address huh.
Why not just give the buyer your address and fuck Amazon all together?
Why use a third party at all? Which was the entire fucking point I thought.
Amazon is dead
There’s hardly a place worth shopping
I like thrift stores and antique furniture shops
I will find the most ugly shop in Florida you can find.
Get on my knees and hunt
Getting offline forever soon…
I don’t understand the point
Don’t seek things in places that won’t be found
Connection’s bound
I’m not around
Going underground
John Jones profound
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
Recently I received a gift of Cinnamon bark.
And being the observant that I am, I read the details. It included a secret on the back. God wanted me to know. I feel it is a universal sign. I’ve been making many stews after all. And today, included cinnamon bark.
(Protein of choice can be used – I’m avoiding lab made proteins – but am Flexitarian and mostly consume a vegetarian/vegan diet. I’m a picky meat eater too; beef, chicken, turkey mostly and fish on the occasion).
I made my broth from scratch again – but memaw (my grandmother passed) never tossed out the fat from the meat and today I decided to do the same. Since I keep skin and seeds on, FAT PLEASE.
Ingredients used: spring water, Tomatoes from the Vine, cherry tomato medley (later popped), cinnamon bark, fresh garlic, onion, celery, cilantro, sweet yellow, orange, and green peppers with seeds, rainbow carrots, dry green split peas, wild rice blend, rosemary, thyme, parsley, salt with the necessary nutrients (maybe), pepper, potato with skin on and washed, red kidney bean (but I can’t buy canned beans anymore because they are putting things in them that they should not and I’ll stick to adding dry lentils, split pea, rice, ect). Added half can of tomato sauce too which it absolutely did not need and the stew would have survived without it)
I cooked up ethically sourced organic beef with onion and spices and put 4 spoons of the fat into the stew. I continued cooking the beef to a nice texture and gently added it to the stew – and then a shit ton of cabbage 🤪
I let the cabbage cook down some and then I added even more cabbage
But that wasn’t enough. So more.
IT’S THE BEST SOUP I’VE EVER MADE AND I SAY THAT ABOUT EVERY POT BUT THIS ONE CONTAINS A SPECIAL SECRET INGREDIENT
Cinnamon bark. It’ll be going in everything now. Practicing gratitude. Thank you Lord. Now maybe my stew is fit for a king.
And I put it with the leftovers. Apparently cinnamon is a great anti-parasitic and pet friendly too.
The dog went mad for my soup. He got second’s plus additional bites.
So the stew would be good without a meat protein source but the heart demanded. Just don’t add meat.
I made homemade vegetable beef this time. Probably not like anyone else makes it.
I’m terribly full but already greedy for another bowl. I’m stuffed. And definitely wanna enjoy leftovers so gotta ration and need a bigger pot! 🙂
Happy holidays. Still eating my nuts and things. I’m going to a food drive on Friday. Curious to know if the universe will gift me any secrets. I’m invested. 🙂
Oh and, scored my 3 pack detox for the price of 1. Grateful. The detox continues…. the heart journey, the healing.
Oh hi. My package arrived. People were complaining this hat was small.
I’m small too.
My package arrived on Veteran’s Day. I wasn’t expecting to see it today.
Satin Christmas nightgown, and Santa hat and leg warmers for any part of the day (tis fall)
But scored more items from ROMWE
And got a special XMAS teddy plus other special items I don’t want to show (I don’t even know if they fit yet, I haven’t had a try on)
Despite the semi-holiday and storm Nicole, my package arrived in rather quick time
Socks
And sunshades for the Jeep. Happy they arrived. And the lord blessed me with a week of rain while I went without. Great price. Great quality.
Got some shop rags and a cleaning tool
Scored some foot socks. Soft feet.
And…
A crop top and pair of leggings (if they fit)
Clothing and cleaning and protection and I’m not spending a fortune and everything comes in a neat little bag. There’s minimal cleanup or waste.
Unlike America where you spend half your time chasing your tail just getting into the package and SO MUCH WASTE
I had 1 bag arrive with little bags of goodies and all trash fit back in the bag it came. I didn’t have to make a huge trip to the dump.
I like shopping at Shein but they are changing
So far my experience has been good
My first Christmas lingerie (will it fit?)
So today is VETS day. I went out and enjoyed some of the free goods.
Also, my Shein package arrived (separate post coming)
They do verify if you qualify. I show proof of service with my ID card. But there are many methods.
I went to AppleBee’s to enjoy the free meal from the limited menu. I went with the HEALTHIEST option and my least favorite choice.
The steak. I requested well done twice but it came out bloody and medium. I ate that bitch. Practicing gratitude. 🙃
Water with extra lemon. And seating outside (it’s packed inside and fresh air please). I am not masked.
It’s been decades probably since I had a steak. This clocked in at nearly $15 on the menu (free today for VET’s).
While waiting on my meal, they gave me a gift card for $5 off my next visit (with an expiration date of like soon)
I’ll probably come get a brownie and use it! Get it to go. Fall into a sugar coma. 🙃
I’m buying a brownie bite today in fact. To go.
It’s here now and the plate is clean (minus the bites for the dog).
I also scored free donuts 🍩
That I absolutely do not need
It’s raining and packed outside now and I want to go. Eat my mini brownie. At home. Happy Veterans Day.
Saving souls
Going roads
Where caves are closed
Nobody knows –
I’m where John erodes
© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal
It fits! 🙂
The dust is on the mirror, not the clothes. I can’t keep up. 🤪
I didn’t really know it was there. It’s only been two weeks since I last dusted it. How dare it. Get dirty. Just sitting there.
Today I shook hands with the Devil. He extended his hand. I took it with grip. Said “thanks for seeing me, Happy Holidays”. Practicing gratitude.
Also, nearly was not seen at the VA clinic because they are under orders to evacuate, as is everyone beachside. Scary storm again. Arrives tomorrow. Been raining two days non-stop.
Instead, a male doc took me on since the female care team are “insert something nice”
EVAC in order. Everyone had to exit the building by noon. Appointment over.
Clocked in at 112 pounds too (weight not speed)
Anyhoo
Everything has been halted again
And I’m still drinking Black Walnut Wormwood religiously
Herbals of the gods
I made the most amazing soup again – had a bowl today – God grows the most amazing things, and I need a bigger pot to put cook them in
I was slurping the broth out of the bowl, “thank you for healing me”
My skirt fits. I may have a future. I may not be yeeted out of society yet.
I’m ready to say yes to some of these side gigs
“I’ll give you 10-12 hours, with the potential for an additional 8, under one condition”
But I also filed for an increase again, and those take time, and it needs to be done right
Tests have been ordered
I’m lucky to be alive
This year has been a straight up fight for my life but no wonder no clothes was fitting me at 112 pounds 🤪
Gingerbread cookies are definitely in my future
Love me skirt. Denim. Perfect fall attire. I went with a medium (size 6). ROMWE. Said it would not be restocked. Doesn’t matter. I’ll wear it til it works no more.
Made the peach look good, not flat. Or maybe that’s the rebound fitness sessions 👀
I’m not allowed to go beachside, it’s shut down and under strict curfew and EVAC orders
Do you think me and that group hanging out on the beach last storm (the dude swimming in it) had anything to do with it?
Because they weren’t this pressed about Ian
According to all the official stats out here, Daytona Beach is going to continue to experience “severe flooding over the next 30 years”
Wanna go skating so bad but it’s been raining so much. Wanna do the outdoor skate parks first. Open air. Sky. Zero costs. Fitness exercise. The rinks cost the dollars. I’ll hit those up eventually.
I’m not wearing a mask skating tho no – just to take it off to eat.
Free skate park built here in 2019. 👍👍
Gonna test the new skates there.
I’m sorta nearly done shopping at Dolls Kill and Shein tho 🙂
Walmart is selling sex toys under the health department online. We once had to visit “adult bookstores” for any adult content.
21+ to enter
If Walmart is selling anal plugs, I guess the gas stations will be doing it next
America is toxic
I want out or far far away from society
And definitely stop supporting the enemy 🙂
I’ve scored some awesome things that will improve my life tho
Kinda need clothing that fits
Or that I want to wear
That isn’t business attire or military related
The whole mothership getting a makeover
Been getting so many job offers in the real world that I know I over qualify for, that’d I’d love to say, “I’ll give yah 10-20 hours”
But I have a hard time breathing 🙂
Skating will be so greattttttrttttrrttttrtr
“It can’t rain all the time…”
Some places it feels like it never ends. And I ain’t complaining. It looks creepy and scary out. Floods incoming again. End of the world.
Shook the devil’s hand today
Hold on, level up! 🤪
Challenge accepted
What are the terms? 🤪
“You go where I go”
112 pounds eh. Still gotta tone up. Shedding fat. But also need to fatten up and plan to include real butter in my diet again. Not vegetable oil. Not soybean. Not natural flavor lab made.
I’m still eating good
Until I fucked things all up with that Halloween candy
And nearly wound up in Urgent Care
And thank fuck the female team couldn’t do their job and the male doctor listened to me and things are moving forward with progress even though everything’s been halted because of the storm and the Evacuation orders
Happy holidays y’all
There are people out here still fighting for their life because of the vaccines and other things
Gulf war related thangs
Real soldier. Real battle wounds.
Friday is Veterans Day! HOOAH
I don’t know if anything will be open for me to go out and get any of the free meals or benefits due to the storm
I do like getting all the free thangs
Subs. Coffee. Donuts. Meals from Applebee’s and all sorts of places. Usually start early in the morn, pace myself, and make a day, evening included.
I am hungry. To eat another bowl had amazing soup.
THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD, I SHALL NOT WANT
The US white majority will soon disappear forever – The Chicago Reporter
— Read on www.chicagoreporter.com/the-us-white-majority-will-soon-disappear-forever/
RACISM IS BRED
ACCORDING TO OFFICIAL STATS COVID KNOCKS OUT WHITE PEOPLE LESS
OUR ENEMY HAS BEEN TAKING US DOWN
THEY ALWAYS USE A WHITE MAN TO PIN AND BLAME
COLUMBUS
MARK ZUCKERBERG
THEY AIN’T IN CHARGE
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
HOLY GAWD
The special Christmas lingerie sets I was picking out on Shein was SELLING OUT as I was attempting to load my cart up and shop
And there were other things I was shopping for. Sunshades for my Jeep (dashboard and steering wheel), cleaning rags, regular clothing, and special Christmas stuff (got a hat, socks, satin night cami) + silicone moisturizing socks for the feet (baby soft) 🛼
BUT THE BIG TICKET ITEM I WANTED WAS SELLING OUT. All I’d do is blink and another was sold. 🎄
I WAS LIKE – COULD YOU SAVE ONE FOR ME
Now I know I’m not a busty 10 star but damn I’m an original so that makes have value thank you. I’m here. Deal with it. Plus this is my first time ever shopping for Christmas lingerie. I got a good tip.
I got some really cool Christmas leggings if they fit me and a really cool crop top to wear to events or to go skating in (it’s versatile)
There was a skirt from a favorite designer and I bought the last one potentially. The same designer I scored my Halloween spider witches hat, to be buried in. 🤪
But the big ticket Christmas special lingerie outfit was selling out!!! I wanted it!
So shopping hour was over!!!! Time to checkout! 🤪
And I got it, in a small, and I hope it will fit! I hope I didn’t spoil the fucking surprise
I hope you like the special lingerie set that I got and it’s incoming, I’ll have a shipping status soon!
I’m glad I was able to budget in the big ticket items because I really wanted those but I had to put some stuff back because the other stuff started selling out! 🤪
My wishlist is growing full. But I’m not just buying lingerie. 🎄
I’ll probably wear that little satin Cami nightgown all through December and January (well it’ll get washed, but you know what I mean, sleep gown)
I like the quality and price of Shein. Shipping is never as long as it estimates – unless you get hit with a category 5 hurricane – that will set you back.
I really hope those black Christmas leggings fit because they remind me of Greese and I can go skating in them (you know the movie right)
I think it was John Travolta’s first film
If they fit, they will look good with my black and gold skates, and I busted out my measurements.
28 inch waist currently, 117 pounds 👀
Shoe size 6 1/2 – 7 (sometimes a 6)
34B (sometimes 36C unless lactating) (then like DD) 🤪
STOP PICKING ON ME
My mini tree is out and first ornament I ever made in kindergarten (school is slavery)
My skates arrived earlier than the scheduled delivery date 🤩
No one stole my package
They fit 🤩
I’m keeping them 🤩
Forever
Put your foot forward for balance and to break
It’s 4 AM – my box was waiting for me early. It wasn’t stolen. They fit. My Cosmic skates fit.
I might never take them off again. I was moving around in them easier. The heart approves.
I can’t believe no stickers came. I mean WTF is going on in this timeline.
I’m keeping the box. The millennials don’t understand the importance of an original box and how it adds value.
Arrived in cosmic speeds too. Meant to be. Thanks uni.
Heaven is a skating rink y’all. I’m allowed to skate in the halls.
I made Dark chocolate cupcakes with dark chocolate “tombs” and decorated them with Halloween cake rings (that can be worn)
I’m still detoxing so am not using icing (I think that stuff is overrated)
My cake was experimental
The cake is vegetarian cuz I used 3 brown eggs, unsweetened applesauce (about half a cup), coconut oil, pumpkin seeds, blanched and whole almonds, rolled oats, flax seed, and love 💕
It started with two brown eggs but I needed 1 more (or more applesauce so the egg won since I ate too much of the applesauce) 🤪
I did not want the batter dry because I was gonna add all the other ingredients and I had zero guidebook cookbook for the RECENTLY NEAR DECEASED
But I experimented by adding nuts, seeds, and oats
A semi-healthy Halloween treat that would have been good with some instant coffee tossed in the batter (next time)
Flax for the gut health
And I made a cake too
I was gonna share with the neighbors but naw
I should have sprinkled it with oats before tossing in the oven (next time)
Turned the whole house smelling good
I’m gonna enjoy with coffee over breakfast and/or treat time
Decoration isn’t my thing but A for effort?
And they actually do taste good which is why I wanna be greedy 🎃
Happy Boo season 👻
Uhm check the current census for a scare 👀
I used broken dark chocolate bits as the “tombs” 👻
Sidenote: some sort of non cancerous marshmallow could be used as spider webbing and edible decoration
I’m just throwing out ideas
If you make it better, show me
I don’t have a mama or daddy or brother or hubby
K, thanx, bye
HAPPY HALLOWEEN 🎃
P.S. If you have those little spiders – the black and orange ones that hang on your Halloween decorations – you can use those for your cakes – but please don’t eat your wearable cake decorations – get photos in them instead or actually share the cupcakes and let folks keep the Halloween jewelry (or ask for them back) 🤪
Let me know if you liked my idea or if it gave you any good ideas for treats of your own
I think some cute edible spider webbing would have been the spooky sweet perfection around the chocolate tombs (which could be a tad bigger and these are 70% and 90% dark chocolate bits)
You could carve initials or dates into the edible tombs for extra spooky vibes and put small white chocolate drizzle near the tombs as spider webbing
The saddest witch ever likes to smile
God (nor John Jones) wants me leaping from a building
But I’d do it with a smile
Sometimes suicide is docile
And death is more humane than life
That assisted suicide doc was my hero – but we’d all want to leave this Hitler regime immediately
Wouldn’t we?
I am dropping Rated R Halloween sets on my OnlyFans (I was born naked and Edgar Allan Poe died naked on the bloody street).
I’m holding TOP 49 currently and that’s cool 🎃
Top 49 for a petite ghoul from the deep deep south; cotton capital of the world (not Asia hint hint) 👻 https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual
Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. 💀
Psst…
Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill 💀
Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein 😈
Both sold out but may restock 🎃
One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot
I’m the real thang 🎃
You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore 👻
So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare
I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) 🎃
Halloween is my favorite season perhaps 🤔
Do you like my new set?
How is my petite pumpkin looking? 👀
“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)
Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.
Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway
Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”
Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol
I also talk to the dead
I have a budding relationship with John Jones
I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree
The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away
To get me down…
I don’t know what’s real anymore
I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now
I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one 😑
The way the wheels turn 💀
But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF
And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going
WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into
I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life
My blog continues to remain advertising free
All my content is original
Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind
There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all
Soups, stews, treats, and pepper sauce – all made from scratch and with love
Memaw always said heat the vinegar to extract “the heat” from the pepper
Measure out what you need in the jar, then heat to a simmer and remove from heat and pour over your peppers (you can leave them whole but remove the stems)
Slowly pour the vinegar over the peppers and set aside and let them cool and then put them in the fridge and forget about them for at least two weeks
The longer they sit in the fridge the hotter they will be and you can top up the vinegar by adding more hot vinegar to the peppers as it diminishes
I’ll eventually eat the peppers too but memaw said they are good for at least one year in the fridge – I’m gonna need a bigger jar 🤪
Currently I’m making stew with green cabbage
Fresh vegetables and herbs 🌿
It’s been simmering ten thousand years and I’m investing in a bigger pot soon
I also recently made spicy pasta
It was tasty and I’ll try different versions soon
Lots of fresh tomatoes, herbs, and peppers 🌶 🫑
Fresh garlic, olive oil, onions….
Tomatoes, more tomatoes, and a small tin of organic tomato sauce
I was out of penne pasta but had whole wheat spaghetti but used bow-tie noodles instead
I also added 3 bean trio cuz protein (it’s good)
Overall, my experimental spicy pasta was a hit (could make minor changes) (more garlic too)
And then, there’s the oatmeal peanut butter protein balls
Take 1 cup of peanut butter (a good one) and gently mix over low heat with 1 cup of maple syrup (a good one)
Once it has a light bubble – remove from heat (takes maybe 2-3 minutes) (maybe 5)
Add 1 cup of rolled oats by gently folding
I added flax and raw pumpkin seed to the mix – cuz tis the season 🎃
Put them in a better cooling tray and set in the fridge until they harden – then put in a storage container – these protein balls make around 2 1/2 dozen and could last you two weeks in the fridge but mine never go past 1 week
I could have used more oats cuz they were kinda sticky this time. Full of protein, vegan, and organic. That’s all for now. Gotta get back to the pot on the stove… 🤪
First off, you can use whatever veggies, herbs, and meats you like. But this pot is organic and vegan and made with love. No recipe book! ❤️
Jesus said when he comes back he’s hitting my door for some soups
I didn’t use all my cherry rainbow tomatoes or tomatoes on the vine (or peppers and herbs) cuz I’m using some to make pasta sauce
I don’t have a fancy kitchen setup yet but I’m using a glass pot and Florida spring water
I do advise that you drink spring water locally wherever you are
I used a can of tomato sauce this time – it made absolutely no difference in taste turn out – it did however help since I was using less tomatoes this time to make my base
Glass pot + Spring water + sauce + handful of medley cherry tomatoes 🍅 + low heat (simmer around 3-4 heat)
Start dropping herbs and spices (you will be cooking with your eyes and nose for the next few hours)
I tossed in a couple small handfuls of green split peas + lentils
2 + 2 and stir frequently but gently so they don’t stick (I do not presoak in poison)
We’re making witches stew (vegetable soup – can be made with a fire and cauldron potentially)
Now I’m dicing peppers and celery to get the broth nice and tasty – these can be diced small – we’ll add more later towards the end – so don’t put it all in now
This is how it’s going
You can add salt and pepper now – slow and steady wins the race (no taste testing until the potatoes are being tried) (we haven’t put any potatoes in the pot yet so stop freaking out). I use about a quarter amount of salt in my palm – about 4 pinches worth – THIS TIME AND EACH TIME
I also used a dash of sea salt that states it does not provide the necessary nutrients – and I’m still on the hunt for the correct salt to use
My doctor did say I needed more salt and that was when I was just using the sea salt that doesn’t provide the necessary nutrient
You wanna add all your spices now – but not at one time. They were out of fresh rosemary but I had some dry herbs on stock (I am not growing my own herbs and peppers and tomatoes because I don’t have a balcony or porch to do that and all the apartments I lived in before I could at least grow some herbs and peppers and shit)
I did use fresh cilantro and parsley 🌿 and lots of it too (saved some for the upcoming pasta)
And you’ll likely need to add a touch more water later – you don’t want the beans using up all your water and the extra fiber will be very hearty (also these require half an hour at normal temps to cook on their own, these will require the full simmer time of 2-3 hours, you’ll need to stir gently and often to ensure proper rotation
At this point I’m still dicing peppers, onions, and adding herbs 🪴
I use seeds yes – skins and seeds 🙌
My soup turns out mild so I gotta kick up the heat soon
During the broth making session, the items are diced (celery, onion, tomatoes on the vine – I kept the cherry tomatoes whole and did not pop them unless they popped on their own)
Celery makes for a delicious broth
I generally add more to the soup during the end – so I have a slightly crunchy celery and pepper (no carrots this time but lots of cabbage)
With the rosemary (pre stir)
But now you can start adding yer tators! I used 3 this time! I wanted extra potato since I had no fresh carrots!
And I plan on making homemade baked fries with skins on! Potato logs!
Trying new thangs!
LOOK AT IT 🤩
I kept skins on! All the thangs! (Not the onion)
Once the tators are near done, you can add cabbage, more peppers, celery, onion, salt n spices
It’ll smell divine
It’s soup fit for a king 👑
I’m carefully adding MORE cabbage
Don’t spill a drop!
It’s almost done and you can add more salt and pepper but once I put mine in a bowl it does not need anything else but I literally could add salt and pepper until I was dead
I also carefully added dark red kidney beans because the heart needs!!!
And this is the end result of hard work and love
Several bowls and will last several days in a fridge if eating alone (unless you go hog wire)
I didn’t add any jalapeño sauce or cheese or extra salt or pepper or anything afterwards but it probably could use any of those things and make it taste even better
I GOT ONE GIANT DOUBLE BOWL REMAINING
I’ve also been drinking this tea and I recommend it or any version that is a healthy version without the poison but it’s the ginger turmeric that helps inflammation/heart/gut health
I gotta start using the real stuff
Coffee and tea and soup. It’s like my soul purpose.
I made Vegan oatmeal protein balls and I’ll do an upcoming blog post and how to make those! Simple! Easy! Maybe 20 minutes from prep to finish!
Thanks for stopping by my blog! 🙌
I reactivated my Insta but with boundaries 🤪
My awesome hot pants workout set will be arriving Friday! They shipped it out same day! 🎃
The vegan treats are worth sticking around for and don’t let the word vegan scare you. PROTEIN BALLS 🤤
I don’t like to brag about the places I’ve been but today I went to the grocery store 😎
I made the whole thing from scratch, no guidebook
Him: any addictions?
Me: I’ll die without food 👀
The pantry and fridge is full!!!! 🤩
Walmart was completely out of eggs, coffee, red potatoes, and other items I ordered
When I asked if they had “less eggs available”, the employee replied, “we have no eggs”, and there were a few items that got substituted instead and I was actually grateful for that
The organic maple syrup was being bought out online as I was buying, along with many items, and the time slots available for delivery or pickup were already filled until 9 am Monday (today)
So I’m lucky I got any items at all
2 pounds of rolled oats! Only need 1 cup (uncooked) for the vegan protein balls! 🤪
The substituted Maple will do just fine (and can be used for pancakes too)
I recommend using a good peanut butter but I didn’t fit it into the budget – mostly because I have six jars of donated jars I wanna use up – and I’m relying less on the food banks as my main source of food
Got all sorts of edible thangs!
I still have regular pumpkin seeds to add to my nut and seed mix, but topped up on the roasted seeds and glad I scored a bag cuz they only had 4 left!
Food is healing and I got stuff I can eat if the lights go out
Tomatoes on the vine!
Fresh herbs, peppers, spices!
Apparently you can sprinkle flax on anything so it’ll probably get in the trail mix for starters 🤪
Peppers galore
I’m famished 🤪
Scored a purple and green head of cabbage!!! 🤩
Witchy vegan stew incoming soon 🤪
My dog is driving me insane and I do wish our nightmare would come to an end
6 excellent years followed by 5 terrible
And no, I don’t want him anymore. He ain’t a dog.
5 pounds of potatoes and despite how terrible the dog treats me, he eats like a king
Pound of dry beans + canned beans in case
Him: any additions?
Me: beans
Loads and loads of good eating this month
More of the good salt which may not be good after all but SALT
And this tea to help with inflammation but I need to learn to use the real stuff and baby steps….
The only water available…
And I still have a pound of raw cashews and 3 bottles of detox incoming
They were out of coffee and eggs tho and this was the only dairy I got (I’m trying to quit cheese and yogurt currently)
I didn’t show all the herbs but I’ve got some fresh cilantro and parsley to toss in the soup – not to mention like 6 or 7 fresh jalapeños (and a bag of sweet peppers).
Unfortunately the banana chips and the dark chocolate have natural flavor in it so I won’t be able to do those again but for now it will be a good snack. The dark chocolate is intended for the coffee. Luckily, the container I just popped makes 148 cups! But wasn’t able to restock this month!
Him: any addictions?
Me: coffee and cabbage 🤪
I got green and purple! I just desperately wanted a head! God made sure I got two!!! I’ll make good use! No eggs but protein balls and extra cabbage! Plus, that bag of oats was bigger than I thought! 2 pounds! My nuts are also the big boys!!! Happy to have a stocked fridge and pantry tis all!
I’ll find water but I need a filter for the sink! God wants me to become more self-reliant! Less plastic! Less waste!!! Less poison!!!!!! I can’t believe nobody is protesting the water being poisoned but I may start showing up at City Hall soon. But I’d rather buy an acre with a mobile home. Witchy stew and protein balls.
THANK THE LORD! 🙏
Gonna make some hot pepper sauce with the fresh peppers and vinegar! Homemade soup and pepper sauce!!! 🎃
Power is out
And everything went dark
But bro inspired me so much
I’ve been writing and in survival mode
Need to save the juice
I’ll post more when I can
Say hello to Hurricane Ian
These shots were taken before the power went out
The dark was Ian…
Could be out of power for days…
I posted stuff on TikTok and Insta before I went down
That dude was not drunk
He was walking a straight line in hurricane winds
Now meybeeee he had a drink
But he was not staggering and had full control
I was worried I was gonna get booted off of my live for dangerous activities so I was letting people know that I was not part of that group but looking back on it he had so much courage, will, and strength
He was exercising and taking dips in Hurricane Ian
The way that bird hovered near him
It was like watching a real life gladiator undergoing some sort of spiritual thang
THIS COULD BE NORMAL ACTIVITY FOR HIM
Meanwhile, I was standing with my legs shoulder length apart holding the damn camera arm with both hands with all my might being blown left and right!!!
My lower back was hurting from being beat by the wind!!!
There were two others in his group that were undressing to go in that chose not to
I was live on TikTok so it took me by surprise – didn’t want dude to drown
That motherfucker is the son of Poseidon or some shit – like he is in god mode or something exercising his demons or gaining full control of them
I get chills watching back on it lol
I’m afraid for the water to touch me and this dude was baptizing in the storm
LOL
Not just any storm either…
Apparently one of the worst hurricanes to hit Florida in 100 years
My power has been down an hour or so
I definitely was not prepared but I have several hours maybe days worth of candle light that I can use and I’ll probably mostly use it at night time for 2 to 3 hours only
Woah. Phenomenal. Thanks.
If I lose power, there will be no warning, and last two hurricanes my area went dark for a week
I ain’t ghosting no one
I was unable to stock up on water as it was ALL OUT EVERYWHERE 🤨
I went beachside again and this dude TOOK A SWIM/WALK/CAT BATH in the damn sea!
Think he was attempting to step on water at some point 🎃
👇
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRmAKqTS/
FYI the wind was so gnarly I had to stand with my feet shoulder with apart, leaning into the wind battering me to death AND it required TWO HANDS just to hold my device
I was getting blown away and he was taking dips like a bird
Sidestepping a hurricane
And the way the bird kept rhythm with him entering the ocean
Not a sign of doom
GLADIATOR DUDE
I want him on my team for the apocalypse
Let’s feed him good
💪
He conquered something because his step was getting more powerful the closer in
STOMPING THE STORM
I’m terrified of the ocean calm so this was kind of incredible to see
He didn’t seem drunk, more determined
STUPID COURAGEOUS (oxymoron!?!)
He woke
And he definitely pissed off
SEA MONSTER CONQUERED SOMETHING TODAY
His fears? 🌀
I could barely stand and the wind nearly blew my Jeep door off
GUSTY
Also, I met a one legged bird and nearly wept
And an outcast because weak
But that seabird was so strong 😑
Sad but strong
Struggling to survive with one leg 😑
Now I’m gonna cry again 😑
The one legged bird and gladiator vibes at the beach today
It’s never dull even when it’s dull
Because people were complaining about the live lmao
Not all but some
🤪
Most enjoyed getting to see the fury but I can’t do anything about the sound quality
Got some photos I’ll upload and maybe that bird
Bless its heart one leg and all 😑
I’m too sensitive and too empathetic
I nearly lost it on the live – emo 😑
Water is sold out everywhere
I’m not wasting time, energy, gas, running around for scraps
TIME TO RATION SUPPLIES – SOMETHING THESE GREEDY NARCISSIST KNOW NOTHING ABOUT
The town is under curfew
Most businesses are closed or are closing early (I was gonna cheat and get fast food after finding zero water but the universe said NOPE don’t want you eating that crap)
The lights were on and they were open and workers were inside on the clock getting paid to do nothing – quiet quitting every chance they get on our dime
THE LAZY GENERATION
WANTS TIPS BEFORE SERVICE AND ZERO QUALITY SERVICE AT THAT
DELUSIONAL
I’ll post some videos on TikTok if I’m allowed and while I still have power
It might not get that bad but I have lived through two hurricanes where I live and power was out for a week
No fucking water anywhere
NONE
I’m gonna look on Walmart delivery or pickup if they have it…
I’M EXPECTING THEM TO NOT OR TO HAVE JACKED UP THEIR PRICES FOR BASIC LIVING NECESSITIES WHICH SHOULD BE ILLEGAL
Haven’t had any Evec orders but we are under curfew
I still have 4 gallons of water so hopefully I’m okay
I need out of the city tho
It’s not safe here
In any capacity
I went live for a few minutes, got entirely soaked walking around the ocean, I’ll get the videos posted since none of the locations had drinking water
Had some pissy people on the live apparently. Acting as if hurricane ocean is safe. 🤡
I ain’t dying for views. But I am a blogger and I do share my environment.
Things are taking forever to upload too 🤪
My fridge is empty and so are the stores which are closing early
The power can go out and my electric bill probably still gonna be through the roof
I don’t want modern luxury if it takes three jobs to pay your electric and your rent
20220926 Governor Ron DeSantis Issues Updates on State Preparedness for Hurricane Ian | Florida Disaster
— Read on www.floridadisaster.org/news-media/news/20220926-governor-ron-desantis-issues-updates-on-state-preparedness-for-hurricane-ian2/
Just an FYI my county is under hurricane watch:
Volusia county is listed in the warning link above – The Governor of Florida recommended it! ⚠️
I promptly went to visit.
I have lived through TWO hurricanes where I currently live and did lose power both times for a week!
I am not prepared at all… 🤪
But hopefully I can get some necessities in a few days.
I’ve got 4 gallons of water currently so the panic is setting in.
Boo season is here!!! 🎃
Just an FYI if I lose power and whatnot
 I don’t need power to jump on my rebounder and I don’t need power to ride my bicycle unless it’s flooding but we’ll see how it goes…
The fridge and pantry is low tho and I’m living on the edge (Mostly paycheck to paycheck like every American and I’m not gonna feel ashamed about it)
But if I disappear from the face of the earth, I’m just surviving Hurricane Ian – headed directly my way. Same county and all.
Yay!!!!!!!!!’ Scary season!!!!! 🎃
Pray for me. For safety and thangs. 🙌🙏📿
I’ve survived TWO living right here.
🌀🌀
At all costs!
They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health
Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS
Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16
I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence
I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose
That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time
COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES
Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration
Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?
I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere
I feel a stranger in my own land
But I’m not allowed to talk about it
I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect
I swore an oath
I SWORE
To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism
The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers
And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either
I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health
And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012
IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated
And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty “I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”
He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀
He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs
He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)
But God will be reigning on him soon
He was warned
Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel
Possibly his guardian angel
He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!
Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
😤
I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd
I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment
I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people
I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge
But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art
I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people
I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband
I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn
And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if
CLUELESS
I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment
We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet
Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy
The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system 
Especially as a female….
“Never go anywhere alone”
“If you get lost, stand still”
Like, I can keep going…
I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits
I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)
Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪
You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control
I’m trying to save you
I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace
I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)
He can have his freedom I fought for
But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God
I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies
DISPLAYING IT ALL 🤪
God said galaxies were made to be seen and all things in-between; including me
That is all…
Trent Reznor is rich and he dresses like a goth
He married a witch!!!
She dresses in black!!!!!!!!!
THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU
*proceeds to move goth bookshelf near bed*
*continues doing goth thangs*
I don’t have to change who I am or the things that bring me purpose to find a fucking husband
I’m gonna goth the fuck outta my bedroom
As soon as the things in the dolls home goes on sale and I refurbish my little bit of savings money to do a little bit more splurging for the home 🤪
YOU SHOULD SEE THE ITEMS IN MY WISHLIST
THE GOTHY PINKY BLACK THANGS
MAKE MY COFFIN GOTH
K, thanks, bye
EDGAR ALLAN POE WAS GOTH AND I AM HIS DAUGHTER INCARNATE
I don’t know if he would’ve been my dad or my brother or my cousin because he married his fucking blood cousin but whatever
HE WAS GOTH
DUHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU KNOW YOU LIKE IT
STOP GASLIGHTING
I’m in a cult – it’s a goth cult – and no amount of money will ever get me to leave
That’s like asking me not to breathe 🙄
Maybe if Trent Reznor drops out
MAYBE
He married an effing witch
Yeah no
Ain’t happening
My calling is being called
I AM A VAMPIRE GODDESS
I DO NOT BOW WITH FORCE OR MANIPULATION OR LIES
A KING HAS NOT A KINGDOM WITHOUT A QUEEN
I deleted you from my phone contact list and I’m not ghosting you, I’m setting fucking boundaries since you clearly, clearly have expressed differences with callous and stone
Fairly certain God is spitting on you and if he’s not, he will be reigning on you soon…
IT IS WRITTEN, IT IS SO
He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget
I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that
How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!
I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even
I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.
Yeah, I’m 44 and still a goth
BITE ME
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRacSGFp/
P.S. I don’t even know what my style is because I wasn’t allowed an identity growing up!!!! I like it now, maybe not forever!!!!!!
GET OFF YOUR HIGH THRONE!!!! YOU’RE GONNA DIE ALONE!!!!!!!!
PoeEternal 