Jesus completely submitted to his queen and gave over his ministry to her, FYI
SMART KING 👑
Anyhoo, just some comments that came on my blog today about how I should manner myself
My art is unbecoming
(Still holding top 51 tho thank you)
I MIGHT CAN GET GROCERIES NEXT WEEK TO MAKE MORE HEALING VEGAN SOUP AND GOD APPROVES
He thanks you because most men want to look but not share their fucking bread!!!!!
It’s written in the Bible!!!!!!
“Nice peach”. No, I ain’t got nothing for you to eat. Word of advice tho….”
I’VE GONE INSANE WITH HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF
GOD IS HELPING ME GET MYSELF AND MY KING TOGETHER SO WE CAN UNITE
THERE ARE FORCES AT WORK OUTSIDE OF AI OR THE ALGORITHM OR THE EVIL ELITES
COSMIC THANGS
MY KING AND I ARE UNDERGOING AWAKENING AND CLEANSING BEFORE WE UNITE
IMPATIENT IS OUR MIGHT
I WANT MY KING TO ENCOURAGE ME TO WEAR A THONG ON THE BEACH
I AM SICK OF BEING A NUN COVERED UP IN JAB
FUCK THE PATRIARCH!!!!!!!!
God loves my improv cooking!!!
God doesn’t want me starving or dying on the street!
God wants to see me more self-reliant and less having to rely on food banks for canned food
I do tasteful nude modeling and cosplay photography and art to accompany my poetry and it often correlates with the things that I am discussing in my poetry or what I’m even complaining about in the real world
I do full 36 page spreads (as they were once called) and now upload them somewhere I can earn some money – if I have anyone of interest and currently I’m grateful I do
Hmmmm starve or do photography that I enjoy that earns me a shopping trip to the health food shop for vegetables and stew
Hmmm starve or do something I’m passionate about 🧐
Die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe or try to overcome the odds 🤨
Most of them will say I wish I could buy you the moon while locking you on the bottom of the Titanic
I’d like to get to a point where I don’t have to fear losing my income or my housing
I’m already living under my means but yeah starve or stop displaying myself
Hmm I mean it’s a tough one cuz I apparently like to eat 🙄
But I have absolutely had this conversation with God 1 million times and I am not doing anything to disrespect myself or my future husband or anyone who is supporting my content
That’s the real problem and why I don’t have more supporters because I’m not an online nasty girlfriend
I’m not saying all men or bad or this fits all shoes
But I’ve maintained my purity and I’m only getting married once
I like producing content for my blog
Some of my stuff is very controversial and taboo 🤪
I think I’m autistic a bit because I always say what I think and I curse and I can be unempathetic during critical times as a survival mechanism and I always give too much info
I haven’t learned safe boundaries or acting on these sorts of online triggers
I don’t hate people for having incorrect opinions or viewpoints on me
These viewpoints are why I’m so isolated in the real world
Nudity wasn’t seen as a crime in Europe and nudity was in the commercials there
Now Walmart and the mall is openly selling sex toys – XXX sex toys in front of children
It traumatized me so much I don’t want to shop at Walmart or return to the mall
I don’t even own a sex toy and I’m not doing anything with my art that is shameful
I’m not into anything artificial and have been preserving myself for my king
Most people shame me for showing my body because it’s not full of plastic surgery or for not being thick
PRETTY BIAS ALSO EXISTS
You can tell by a lot of the comments these types of commenters leave me that they think I just stand in front of a fucking camera and have a photo taken and there is so much work involved in modeling and photography and directing and editing
“They got it so easy”
STOP GASLIGHTING ✋🛑✋
Since 1970, 68% of all life has gone extinct
HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING FARM AND FAMILY LIFE AND 3 MEALS A DAY
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
I’m now too small for a small 😫
Gotta start shopping extra small for the peach 😤
PLEASE VALIDATE ME BEFORE I DISAPPEAR INTO NON EXISTENCE
I made the stew! I stopped by Publix and grabbed a few items to enhance the pot!
But I wanted to celebrate getting pushed into the top 50s by going and getting some additional ingredients to put into the vegan stew
Fresh rosemary, 2 red potatoes, 1 purple onion, bag of sweet peppers red orange yellow, celery stalks, and 1 giant Jalapeño pepper
Just a few fresh items from the produce section
Also stocked up on my spring water from the Dollar Tree
And I’m avoiding those little plastic bags and bottles as much as possible
I AM STILL EATING HEALTHY AND THRIFTING
But I found TWO better stores to thrift – where the prices are clearance prices and the items are NEW
Both the stores are also very popular, so it’s really challenging to get the items that I want and personally I’m starting to find it a whole lot more fun than driving around to all these different thrift stores around the city and only finding over priced used items (gas prices are killing me)
People coughing left and right from God knows what
I’M STILL RECOVERING FROM HEART INFLAMMATION
And I’m taking the little bit of income I am earning from the hard work that I’m doing and I’m investing it back into my health and my work which is the sole purpose of me doing all this anyway 🤪
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I don’t want to drop dead of COVID like my sister did in January at the age of 45
There are people out there who don’t want to see me get healthy or to move and basically they want to see me drop dead
THEY ARE ROOTING FOR ME TO DIE
*sigh* the aliens are us. Religion. It’s all just us. We do have a creator tho. But this society is a false entity. Anyhoo.
Chris Cornell (FROWN GARDEN) had just performed a sold out show before he went back to his hotel room and tapped the lights on and off from an app to let his wife know that he was checking out permanently and BOOM he’s gone
MONEY ISN’T THE ANSWER
I make my stew with spring water. Fill the pot half up.
His mother follows me on Instagram and they don’t care about nudity, they don’t care about that fucking shit, but what they care about is mental health and me not fucking dying
I do not need a fancy kitchen to make soup for a king
It’s weird when the love of your life does not watch your stories but Chris Cornell’s mother does (hello heaven)
Making a tomato vegetable broth from scratch
My best friend died by suicide and Soundgarden was her favorite band
😑
Everything I love is going extinct
Start adding your spices – a little here and there will do. Use REAL SALT THAT SUPPLIES THE NECESSARY NUTRIENTS
They spent weeks tearing up the earth and now I no longer hear pretty bird sing 😑
I’m being driven insane 😑
I cook in a glass pot I scored from the thrift. My kitchen is under a SLOW REMODEL. Ditching all plastic and Teflon. Stainless steel, glass, bronze, or copper only.
In 2018 when I had to go to court ONE TIME (I’ve sorted everything so chill) – the female judge would not even speak to me until I took a few breaths
Fresh rosemary. Use a lot! I think I could have used it all!!!!!!! I was afraid it would overpower. It did not! I used 1 stem! Should have tossed the entire pack in! It gonna turn to broth!!!!!!!!!!!
She stated I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me
I told her my parents didn’t teach me about those monsters under the bed
She said her parents did teach her but she still made mistakes
I would like a live rosemary plant
By the end of the court session we had everyone in the room laughing and it was full
I had zero reasons to be humiliated even though I was
And she knew the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes nearly
I lost everything I had saved for many years
My Thrift retirement savings GONE
My personal savings GONE
SEEN: Brown & red potatoes. Medley sweet peppers. Rainbow carrots. Red onion. Purple/red cabbage. Sweet onion. Celery stalks. Giant Jalapeño. Tomato from the vine.
Then they went after my physical health with this pandemic because this is biological warfare
I’m doing everything that I can to climb up out of this hell hole
I have no reason to feel shame
So far in the pot: cherry tomatoes (the rainbow kind), tomatoes from the vine diced, fresh rosemary DO MORE, finely chopped celery, real salt and pepper
But for some reason these monsters have drilled it into me to feel bad if I’m not giving them the attention that they don’t deserve
Read it again…
I’m struggling with answers on what to do with my own blood line
Use the good salt
And I’m trying to fix my health so that I can create my own tribe before I check the fuck out permanently
All I know is I love eating homemade vegan soup more than I like eating canned expired food from the food pantries
The vegan soup is healing my heart
The can soup has poison in it
No taste testing yet. Use your nose and eyes to cook as well. Does it smell good? Keep going. 👀
All the pretty labels are lies
Natural flavor was mad in a lab with MAD SCIENTISTS!!!!!!
SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
I spent hours cooking up this pot to perfection
I AM STILL SIMMERING AND MAKING THE BROTH – WE ARE NOT ADDING THICK CUT VEGGIES YET
I HAVE LEFTOVERS
And 1 bowl was so hearty I struggled to get through it 🤪
No bread this time! Just soup!
So without further ado I took photos for you but I don’t use directions and I make everything from scratch – just like my memaw taught me
She always said a way to a man’s heart is through his belly
MINE TOO
I use lots of tomatoes and then some 🤪
A way to my heart is through my belly
She wasn’t wrong
Our mental health is directly connected to our gut
I even tossed in dry rosemary cuz I’m still learning to perfect perfection 🤪 (this soup is perfection make no doubt)
I can’t stand living with these insane children around me and no more pretty bird singing
I HATE LIVING HERE LIKE JOHN JONES HATES THAT CAVE
AND ALL THE CHILDREN ARE INSANE – Jim Morrison
It’s been simmering 15-20 minutes on low heat – now time to POP THE CHERRIES 🤪
Because they need to fucking deworm
*starts slamming bathroom doors*
MY FAVORITE PLACE TO LIVE 🤩
*STARTS MAKING MORE LOUD NOISES
I’m taking a shot of detox soon so I don’t fucking shoot myself 🙄
Now drinking from stainless steel instead of plastic (kinda) (reducing my plastic consumption waste)
I get to wake up to the racist children now and no longer pretty bird
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO MOVE
I WOULD RATHER LIVE IN A MUD SHACK ON MY OWN TINY PIECE OF LAND
THAN TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS DEVIL SOCIETY
LOOK AT ALL THOSE RAINBOW CARROTS GOING IN THE POT – I KEEP THEM WHOLE FOR A “MEATY MEAL”. I make vegan witches stew 🤨
Despite this, y’all don’t want us living in fear so ensure you do everything to make sure we are indeed living in fear
Stopped by the beach after my vegan feast to enjoy after sunset and no…
The beach is green
I ain’t going in or near naw. God wants me making content for y’all and stew at home. I’m healing.
Ya no
My feet ain’t touching that
I haven’t forgot that a 14-year-old drowned here a couple months ago
He was found an hour later 1 mile away – that’s how far that riptide took him
Also evening death like John Jones
Went for another round
Got out and went back in
Toss in whole
Bye bye 👋
I’m sorry you died in fear so young
It’s not safe here
MAGICAL GOODNESS 🤩
I was afraid of the fucking vegetables growing
They so good
Start filling your pot up and don’t forget to put pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper
More spices, more herbs
I keep the skins on the potatoes and I also leave all the seeds in 🎃
At this point I’m still cutting and adding
I simmer it on low until the potatoes are nearly done and then I add the cabbage
I carefully push in slices of the head
Vertically I reckon
And then as it cooks down the top bits I’ll gently push in
You can dice all your vegetables really small and probably take less time to cook it and it won’t be as hearty and the vegetables will be mushy like fucking canned soup but
You will spend a lot of time dicing your vegetables as well so I don’t really know if you’re saving time
It turned out delicious. Doesn’t need a thang! But going in the belly!! 🤪
If you eat the leftovers up slowly the vegetables will maintain their yumminess and freshness!
Lemme know if you have any questions and how it goes! You can use whatever veggies you like when making soup. I call this a ONE POT WONDER STEW (vegan and magically healing)
Let me know if you want me to share more of my cooking adventures.
Made from scratch and with love. Good ole country cooking! Heart healthy! Loaded with vitamins and thangs the heart needs! Yes, the cabbage bleeds purple. You can eat it crunchy. Don’t over cook it!!!!
I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –
I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…
And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….
Should I cancel the order? 🤪
In the wishlist… 👇
In the Dolls Kill wishlist 🎃
They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)
This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)
And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month 🤪
I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)
So grateful to share my makeover progress with you
THE THIGH HIGH BOOTS ARE VEGAN 🤩
I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry
I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)
THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN
COMING SOON
(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)
I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty
All the men prior in my life body shamed me
I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down 😑
I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support
It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you
I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments
Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows
DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING
I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on 🤪
Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?
I NEED TO KNOW
My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D 🎃
CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT 🎁
So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs
I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks
Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days
Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy
Spyware
Can’t opt out
Gotta flee the city
The Devil he everywhere in everything
Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere
I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room
Detox detox detox
I’m on dose 2 today
2 large doses in
I don’t fuck around 🤨
I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner
The hubby will produce the feel good hormones
Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it
Everything is going extinct
Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart
It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on
But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything
After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature
I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all
The sun was barreling on me, not much shade
I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further
I barely made it home
And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door
He watched me for ten minutes head both ways
I was prepared to remove his head with my blade
I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move
I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE
And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides… 
The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”
I’m not paying that expensive parking
America is a fucking scam
The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk
That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute
I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)
The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy
And I did do a full 4 years active overseas
I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart
It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon
It demands…
The heart gets what the heart wants 💪
It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing
Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)
One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)
(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)
They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)
It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)
I’m downsizing soon
Need a mini oven too
I don’t own a microwave nor use them
But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot
I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you
I cook the stew in a glass pot
And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…
I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old
But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…
DON’T BUY RAW MILK WITHOUT A DATE LABELED ANIMAL FEED
Nobody ever taught me this 🙄
“I think I’m dumb…”
Or eggs…
THEY WERE PRICED FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION 😳
Farm Fresh? Eh. WHO KNOWS
THERE IS NO DATE
I THOUGHT I WAS SOMEWHERE ELSE ON THE MAP
HUGE GOT DAMN MISTAKE
Even with the MEGA SALE and all
The milk and eggs cost MORE than a normal store or health food shop
I WANT TO EGG THEIR SHOP
Halloween is coming 🎃
And I have Halloween goodies coming from dolls kill and I hope it gets here quickly so I can start redecorating my bathroom and my bedroom and not get arrested
THAT IS ALL
I wish I did have a husband though because he would probably be making a phone call saying you sold my wife some rotten eggs and milk
And then had the audacity to not “list the price of the nuts because they had gone up”
States it is “sold as animal feed” (I’m an animal m’kay but)
There is no date anywhere
It smelled of rot
I did a sniff and taste taste
The dog sniffed and passed
Didn’t even get a taste…
It’s opened
I know they won’t take it back
The yuppies
I mean Peggy’s Discount stole $8 from me
“Free will”
I could have said no 😑
I had some dry milk on the shelf FOR THE SAME PRICE
And just made me a fresh batch for my coffee
And about to toss some marmalade on this pumpkin bread full of seeds and nuts and spices
And enjoy my coffee with powered milk
And the yuppies can BURN IN HELL
You sold one of God’s angels some rotten fucking milk
I don’t even know how many years an eternity is but it ain’t enough!!!!!
🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
I do recommend that big bag of great value dry powdered milk for eight dollars and never ever ever fucking raw milk without a goddamn date on it that’s labeled animal feed and why are they selling it to humans you fucking assholes
This is exactly why John Jones got stuck in a fucking hole and I’m allowed to be pissed off about it because that eight dollars could’ve gone towards some shit at Dolls Kill that I want
I’m nearly fucking vegan after all this shit
“You could of said no”
They stole $8 from me 😑
And I don’t know what to do with the milk because my dog doesn’t even want to drink it so if I put it outside it might contaminate the water
Tempted
TEMPTED TO ACCIDENTALLY SPILL IT ALL OVER THEIR DOOR
Helps. I’m in hell. 😑
If I had a husband I wouldn’t be buying animal feed 😑
IT WAS RIGHT THERE ON THE LABEL
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
How long had it been sitting on their shelf in the fridge?
HOW LONG?????????
There’s no date anywhere!!!!
How many red flags does a person need???????
HARD LESSONS LEARNED IN HELL
It was a lesson though
777 numbers from the heaven
The discount didn’t even cover the cost of the rotten milk 😑
There’s consequences to timeline jumping, you get brain injuries and become really fucking stupid 😑
I don’t even think I can use this milk as a photo shoot to pour on my body because it’s chunky even though the label says to “shake well”
For the record, I wasn’t studying every single label in the new shop which was a Health store
It was almost as if I was being chastised for looking at the prices or the labels and then they sold me some rotten milk and God knows how good the eggs are now because I’m fucking afraid of the eggs
RETURN THIS CARTOON
SOLD AS ANIMAL FEED
MOTHERFUCKING DAMN
That’s another $8 stolen 😑
Those motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!
AVOID AT EVERY COST 🖕
I didn’t even have this bad of an experience drinking goats milk in Kuwait and Iraq
My mama didn’t breast-feed me and I apparently like milk because I’m undernurtured and I’m trying to get rid of my milk addiction but they are poisoning everything including the soy beans
Some good news with the coffee…
This Doll model has a very tiny peach (this is not my peach)
I mean her peach is TINY
And I’ve been freaking out over losing over 18 pounds detoxing and my peach getting smaller even though I do work out, bike ride and walk and rebound and clean fucking house even though it doesn’t look like it
Babes with a small peach are worthy of affection and love too
And I’m not gonna show you the entire outfit because I got it 🎃
I got a Halloween bodysuit 🤪
This holiday slowing down the shipments but at least when they say they’re doing a mega sale they fucking mean it and they sell you really good quality stuff that is 1000 times better than Amazon or Walmart
Or Peggy’s Discount whom sale rotten food to despairing hungry humans 😑
My doc appointment is tomorrow
I can’t stop laughing about how incredibly stupid I was though, I mean I know I was hungry and gaslit
I know I have a brain injury
It was a new environment
But the red flags were there
I mean, they failed to even list the price of the nuts on the container or the shelf
Just like Michael Leavitt failed to put features on the map showing danger zones
“But he said he was an expert”
“But there was dust on the walls”
Like, I’m out $16+ bucks over gaslighting and not reading signs and ignoring red flags
I’m an animal, I will drink milk straight from the cow tit OK, I’ll be frank with you, but that shit was fucking ruined
Like, I would have a goat around for milk and cheese
There are certain species of animals that I have never eaten nor touched nor plan to digest
Goat is one
But their cheese and milk and fur – in the right conditions – I wouldn’t be opposed to
There was no cow milk in Iraq or Kuwait and the only milk we were offered was goats milk but the only way I would drink it was warm
Warm goats milk in my box cereal
My king needs to know the conditions in which I starve
I will bite the hand that feeds when the food is rotten and poisoned
THIS IS WHY EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
I am grateful for your support because people out here stealing from me left and right
“You didn’t have to buy the milk”
YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO LIE
How long has that lie been sitting on the shelf?
HOW LONG
I am nearly vegan and it isn’t because you have a heavy hand because you can’t have a heavy hand and also eat pizza from a fucking box and be part of the fucking problem
THEY ARE SELLING ROTTEN MILK 🥛
“Shake well”
I FUCKING PLAN TO
KEEP PISSING ON ME
JUDGMENT HOUR
I’m gonna expose you all
Narcissism is not rare
NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE
Despite the fact that I had nearly $20 stolen from me (and I’m still out eggs and milk now by the way, that I can’t replace)
These goddamn demons make it so hard for me not to commit a criminal act
It’s better to blog than spray paint
I really want to be the best efficient hunter killer but I’ve got to learn how to control my emotions especially my anger when it arises
“Hunter killer”
UHM
I am efficiently trained by the United States Army to take down a human with one shot one kill and with my bayonet
You don’t think they just played with us in basic training do you? 😈
God: you wanna go to heaven?
Me: oh yeah for sho
God: you need special training that in which I cannot say and you cannot kill
Me: I’m up for the challenge 🤨
God: everything will be a lie
Me: I WANT OUT, LET ME OUT
Anyhoo
The Great Filter is narcissism
Every society has at least two great filters they need to overcome if they want to be a species that doesn’t go extinct
What are your Great Filters?
We must have individual filters as well
Don’t shop at Peggy’s Discount
I’ve got eggs and milk I don’t know what to do with
I have lessons I still need to learn
I’m trying to share even the smallest ones with you
I don’t like to lose money
I don’t like to gamble
I don’t like being gaslit
I don’t like being wasteful
I’m curious and like trying new things
“How quickly should I drink it”
“Uh within a few days. Bacteria”
Dear Gen Z
That isn’t bacteria, that is fucking rot
Your parents look like cruel dictators and I can tell you are confused about your sex and wanna please the parents but never do
You still sold me rotten milk…
The eggs don’t have a date either
Your boomer parents have a house and a business and I’m struggling to pay my rent
I’m condemning you all to hell
Take it up with God
He sent me here to see what you do through my eyes
He sent me here to judge
144,000
SAY MY NAME
FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
All that vegan packaging with natural flavor in it from a fucking lab
I AM WOKE BUT BLIND
“Free will” but “they will do anything”
He gonna divorce me
“You spent $18 on a tiny container of nuts and another $16 on animal food”. “What are we eating this month, honey?” 😑
(I did get the money back for the unopened nuts)
I should call though to say the milk was expired
But I want to cut the cord on that experience which was a fucking nightmare and I will spend many days potentially months or even a year trying to figure out why why why why when I was hungry I did this shit
I was completely out of my comfort zone at Peggy’s but because I’m nice and programmed to not say no or offend these demons, I made bad mistake 😑
Welp. How to ignore red flags 101. The fear was very real. God is in information. Listen to the source when he is calling. Those warnings are like little fingertips by God touching you
Tickle tickle
Don’t go that way
And you may get an additional warning or two, like Jacob in the whirlpool, he got three, that I counted
But he got out
And he went back in
A second time….
I have an irrational fear of dying but there is a pattern and Apophis is a nuclear bomb if we do not stop the NEW WORLD ORDER
(With those bad shrooms we’re not allowed to touch)
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF
Black Walnut Wormwood detox if you wanna save your life or purge the Devil (is that what’s stopping you) 🧐
Tsk tsk
I can’t believe I bought some rotten fucking milk and eggs that literally says animal food on it but it’s being sold as human food on human shelving without a date and shouldn’t that be illegal?
Gaslighting should be a crime
I’m in fucking hell…
I am a witch though and I love spooky season
I make the best damn pot of stew
WITCHES STEW
Dash of burn in hell, dash of I don’t give a fuck… pinch of they’re all out of luck
You should see the writings on the wall where heavens gone mad
50 years ago they would have drilled a hole in my head
The way we treat depression is barbaric
We need to ban big pharma commercials
I don’t mind drinking milk past the expiration date or eating expired food but what the fuck
Wanna turn somebody vegan?
SELL THEM ROTTEN MILK
I curse in hell because it’s the only way I don’t commit a crime and they’re trying to take my freedom of speech in the real world
If you take my speech, I take my money and business
And I will never shop where I can’t spend cash which is what I’d like to start doing but find me a place I can shop that isn’t selling sex toys in front of children…
I don’t want to support businesses that are selling sex toys in front of children like Walmart and the mall
I don’t want to support a business that sells you rotten fucking produce that you can’t return
“Has it been opened”
*THROWS BOTTLE AND EGGS AT BRICK WALL*
*gets arrested*
*doesn’t get money back, gets fined instead*
(Stays home to avoid potential downfall)
You remember that Nirvana song, “I think I’m dumb”
SAME
Also, Kurt had gut issues which directly impacts mental health, he needed to debug 🤨
I took my Jeep to Pep Boys and got my tires sorted and they said I needed to replace three of them soon, that the tread is showing
I stopped by the store after and got the produce!
Got the good red purple cabbage + rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes + tomatoes on the vine
It’s gonna be a great stew
Got my nuts ordered online since that mega sale was mega bullshite and they were charging $18 for ounces, not pounds, and not listing the prices anywhere 🙄
I HAVE A BRAIN INJURY
I don’t need my husband yelling at me when I come home because I somehow got charged $18 for some tiny little nuts – despite asking questions here and there – and doing my best to budget and buy stuff without NATURAL FLAVOR
I’ve got 2 1/2 pounds of nuts arriving at some point – shipping dates are bullshite these days – but currently it says Sunday
$27 for pounds – not ounces – that will last me all month – and I can snack daily
The price varies over there, but the price in the grocery store was MORE for LESS (They’ve turned into convenient store prices)
I’m buying these nuts directly from the seller – they’ve been doing me alright for the few months I’ve been switching to a vegetarian diet
Sometimes the price is cheaper
But now knowing that main businesses are being absolutely GREEDY GASLIGHTING ASSHOLES – they can keep selling to the yuppies
I need my own land with nut trees growing
A nut and fruit garden
Chickens running around!!!
But I am so happy that I have several pounds of red cabbage in my fridge again, tomatoes from the vine, plus garden medley tomatoes and rainbow carrots (I still have sweet & baking potatoes and onions)
I probably should learn to make something other than stew but currently I don’t want to
I like the stew 🤨
I make it completely from scratch and it’s healing me
Minus the fact that the herbs are dry and not fresh
BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE MY OWN GARDEN YET
I’ve got my first bodysuit and my first Halloween costume that included accessories from dolls kill arriving whenever the fuck the package gets here and it’s worth living for the soup and the packages are worth living for and the potential possibility of finding a fucking partner in the future when I’m not quarantined
I hope moving to the country is less noisy
I am going out of mind
I woke up fucking crying
“Get up Trinity, get up”
And I did
I headed right to Pep Boys to sort my tire issue as the light was on the entire way I was driving yesterday
But the shops were closed for the holiday…
I saw a video on TikTok of a guy stating he was snowboarding and decided to go back “one more time” (A SECOND RETURN) and now he’s got a brain injury and can’t do shit for life
And I have a brain injury so I’m grateful I can still make soup
I mean maybe he can make soup I don’t know but like he went back a second time and that’s the thing I’ve been noticing – pay attention to that – pay attention to how people go back a second time and fucking die or nearly do (like me with that damn vaccine)
I also picked up some pumpkin spice bread with lots of nuts & seeds, no GMO, no natural flavor from a lab…
I need to learn to make my own bread (aside from homemade biscuits and cornbread)
It was this or the pumpkin pie 🎃
I may make my own pumpkin pie this season
Get a pumpkin
Carve that bitch out
I’m not buying meat anymore but I did buy some ancient grains and pumpkin seeds yesterday
Some have already gone in my homemade trail mix and I’m anticipating my pistachios and my cashews to arrive as I’m nearly out and was in a panic
The store yesterday was out of most things I needed
And the only milk they had was the milk with the red label and bacteria and I’m terrified to even open it but I will – I’m gonna get around to trying it
But I think I’m done with dairy after this
Milk was the only thing I got for this month, I didn’t get any cheese or yogurt
I’m gonna see how my gut does giving it a load of probiotics
But I’m learning dairy is terrible for hums…
And I had no idea they were walking and standing in lime or whatever it was
I’ve been seeing videos on TikTok and I’m just like “thank you for turning me vegan” and this is direct to farmers
“It doesn’t hurt the cow”
IT HURTS MY EYES TO SEE THO 👀
I’m gonna shrivel up into nothing 😑
I’m working on a new set soon!
Just need a day or two to recover from the madness 🤪
I also have a doctors appointment on Thursday so I’m just in the mindset of getting shit done as the first week of the month is usually chaotic
My dog is driving me absolutely out of my mind but I cannot send them to the gas chamber
I was able to buy his special Vienna sausage today and he took his medicine without a problem because he’s stubborn as fuck and apparently he will only take his medication with these Vienna sausages now
He’s got a 50mg dose of Trazodone in him now so he’s knocked out
I learned that I don’t like shopping at Publix today and I had been avoiding it for several months because of the bullshit pricing that they have going on and how most of the food is poisoned and I’m trying to get away from the big chains and buy local produce
Gosh it ain’t easy
The farmers don’t make it easy…
I miss the days of people selling produce on the side of the street and not fearing buying it
I PLAN TO HIT UP SOME FARMER MARKETS NEXT MONTH
There are a few in New Smyrna Beach and surrounding areas
PROBABLY RICH YUPPIE PRICES
We’ll see…
They don’t make it easy for poor people to eat healthy
I’m sorry I’m so thin 😑
I am eating and working out 😑
I can’t participate in the slaughter of animals when 68% of all life has gone extinct
Humans had to adapt a gene to consume dairy
I’m in descension still
I woke up crying hard
Haven’t even had a coffee because I’m afraid to touch the milk… 😑
I gave up drinking coffee for awhile because I thought I could only drink coffee with sugar but then I learned that I could drink coffee without sugar and now I’m gonna have to maybe learn to drink it without milk too 🤨
I would like to try making my own almond milk
I don’t have my poor ass kitchen set up to be a dream kitchen
I recently got one glass pot from the thrift store and I’ve been cooking out of that bitch
I would like to go thrifting again for my kitchen makeover
I’ve been getting rid of everything that causes cancer or is plastic
The Teflon, the aluminum, the plastic
Switching to glass, stainless steel, and eventually hopefully copper too
I really want to start drinking my water out of copper
And at some point get away from plastic jugs and containers and invest in water filters
They are putting Covid in the fucking bathwater
I KID YOU NOT
Your skin will soak that shit up
The devil is everywhere in society, everywhere, in everything, he is there…
This is inspiring so thank you!! 👇
❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’ve already got an item or two in the Dolls Kill cart 🤪
Got the bills paid, the groceries bought, I’m not alive just to pay the bills…
I was able to get my cabbage and nuts today!!!!!! It literally stopped me from crying.
Having a head of cabbage in the fridge
Gives me the happies 🤪
The heart needs the red and blue thangs
Red cabbage, beats, wild blueberries (there’s more thangs that directly boost the heart)
Him: honey what do you need to be happy today
Me: a head of purple cabbage and rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes
And a kiss 🤪
Me: what are you doing
Him: planting you a cabbage garden 😍
Not starving this month (even tho I’m thin af)
Be careful with adrenaline spikes that will crash your heart
That’s the ticket out if you’ve been vaccinated and triple boosted
IT AFFECTS PEOPLE OVER THE AGE OF 40 TOO
People of all ages are dropping dead and it’s not from the fucking sun
This just in: “fresh air now the rising cause of depression”
I crash landed and woke up so hard I don’t believe in alien propaganda anymore
People think robots have feelings and that you can get abducted by an alien
They probably injected a parasite in you too
The establishment is going to drop a bomb and call it Apophis
I drove to the health market down the road which was closed – maybe for the holiday – maybe always on Monday too
So I looked up another location and called and decided to drive to Port Orange
The sign read on the door huge sale!
Mega bullshite in fact…
But I was positive and hopeful to find some nuts as my stash is depleting and I was avoiding online shopping for them
This store does not have a cafe or outdoor seating and is a 20 minute drive away – one way
BUT THEY WERE OPEN FOR THE HOLIDAY AND THERE THE SIGN READ MEGA SALE
So I entered
And I begin putting things in a basket (which they do provide an actual basket that I overlooked and asked, “do you have a buggy or basket?”. Welp. Starring right at me. The real kind. Not plastic. Duh)
I asked about pricing as some things weren’t listed or were incorrectly placed
Now I’m on a budget but was a tiny bit flexible
I knew I needed to get produce and thangs they did not have
But, I opted to get the “raw milk” and farm eggs despite the pricing
Understanding that I’d get some sort of discount the Gen Z employee assured me…
The eggs weren’t much more than store
They were out of most nuts and seeds
But I’m trying thangs I never have before like these wheat berries (ancient grains I hope)
You just boil them and put them in a bowl
Maybe might make a good protein treat
Ginger is supposed to be ridiculously healthy and the bag was not expensive
I thought for the most part, aside from the big ticket items like the eggs and milk, that I was doing alright “mega sale” and all 🙄
Got one bottle of this, I mostly drink water, milk, coffee, (hopefully tea again)
I gave up juice and soda detoxing
This has elderflower –
Anyhoo time came to check out
And I was confused by the total, maybe even shell shocked and asked, “you applied the discount”
But I didn’t think to check the receipt in the car, and waited until I got home to “inspect” the prices like I normally do (to see if I got the discount prices or whatever)
My stupid ass should have checked before I left town – as it was 3 bags only
Sometimes having a brain injury ptsd get home don’t die routine is costly BECAUSE
The nuts turned out to be nearly $18 for a few ounces
I nearly cried. Welp.
I just seen just now that the can of duck food that I thought I bought for my dog’s medicine was actually cat food…🙄
Apparently I fucked the nuts and the one can of dog food – which is cat
Him: you spent how much on the nuts 👀
Seriously tho, don’t ever threaten divorce because I was gaslit
Those fucking nuts were $18 👀
Anyhoo
I called the store and she said I could return the nuts tomorrow for a refund which means I’m gonna be driving a 40 mile round-trip which would likely use up all my gas money and gas tank
She stated the prices went up and they didn’t have them listed
Anyhoo. By very principle I cannot eat the nuts. I can buy 1.5 pounds of Pistachios for less than that and I can buy a pound of raw cashew nuts for less than that
So I’m going for a drive – tomorrow – humiliation factor and all
To return 9 ounces of dark chocolate almonds that I very badly want to consume – but not at that price 👀
And I have no idea if I’m supposed to put the wear and tear on my precious vehicle to get my $18 back but whatever
I don’t want my husband yelling at me for spending too much at the grocery store because they lied
Thank fuck I can get a refund but…
I’m gonna stick to local shopping only (and online until I can fully cut the cord)
Sex toys are meant to be sold at the adult stores, not at the fucking mall, and not at Walmart
Now I gotta waste my precious time and energy returning a tiny tub of nuts because the SIGN ON THE DOOR LIED
A second trip
I feel uneasy 😫
It’s a hard lesson to learn
I tried to do so good and within my budget
I still gotta buy produce to get me through the month
More soup is planned
I just thought I could buy my nuts and seeds at a health food store this time instead of off of Amazon and Walmart
I went back for that second Moderna vaccine which nearly fucking killed me
That kid went back “one more time” and the riptide took him
2 recent cave divers nearby drowned when they went back a second time (came up, went back down)
I wish someone would have stopped me from going back for that second vaccine even though the first one injured me
“It’s safe”
“The CDC”
The numbers 777 appeared before me today
I have information channeling to me but I don’t know what to do with it
I’m trying to eat healthy and within budget
I’m tired of having to chase my tail because of the narcissism and gaslighting
Go get the refund? Don’t get the refund?
Go back a second time when I don’t wanna…
I knew that would be the last shopping trip at Peggy’s for me
Asking for a refund is humiliating 😑
Running around chasing my tail
I WANT MY OWN PLOT OF LAND WITH A CHICKEN OR TWO FOR EGGS
I want my neighbors to be the roosters and the croaking toads
Apparently spiders will take water from you
The animals need our help
WE ARE ANIMALS TOO
STOP GASLIGHTING
What was mega about that sale??????????
I NEED TO KNOW
😑
Angelic numbers keep following me. I don’t know what to do about the nuts. I’m returning the nuts.
“Researchers” are injecting OrganEx to revive dead pigs
ZERO ETHICS IN SCIENCE.
JUST REPLACE REINCARNATION WITH CLONING! THEY LOVE DIGGING UP THE DEAD!!!
It’s been going on thousands of years
Trying to reincarnate Ramses the great third fuck you I’m gonna fucking goddamn crush you
Sorry channel glitching 😝
Building an army of zombies
I’M SELLING MY TV AND MOVING TO THE JUNGLE
HUSBAND WANTED
I wasn’t allowed to imprint on a man at the age I wanted
RELIGION AND SOCIETY SHAMMED ME
Said I must wait until I’m 18 or married
GOD GAVE ME THE ABILITY TO START MAKING BABIES AT AT 13
YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO STOP ME FROM MY PURPOSE
NOW YOU CALL ME OLD AND SAY I HAVE NO WORTH
SOCIETY IS THE DEVIL BUT NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE SPREAD BY ASIA INDIA MEXICO
68% OF ALL LIFE HAS GONE EXTINCT
I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
I’VE TRIED SO HARD TO REMAIN PURE
NOT REMOVING MY SEX ORGANS FOR PLASTIC
NOT EATING BIRTH CONTROL
NOT DOING DIRTY COMPROMISING THINGS IN THE CHAT
MAN HAS CREATED HIS VERY OWN HELL IN WHICH HE MAKES ALL LIFE SUFFER FROM HIS HEAVY HAND
LIFE CAN HAVE MEANING BUT YOU STOLE IT FROM ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY
NOW CHINA HAVE “TOO MANY MEN”
They aren’t up to anything good digging up the dead
I’M SICK OF SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE
ZERO ETHICS!!!!!!!!!
THEY HAVE NO SOUL OR REMORSE!!!!!!!
PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!
NEO TRINITY NEEDS HELP!!!!!!!
Don’t forget the scene when her heart goes down and don’t forget who you are
TURN OFF THE PROPAGANDA
CONNECT TO THE SOURCE
Find your purpose!!!
You have many!!!
It’s not watching hardcore desensitizing xxx porn any chance you
Sneaking around
BEING UNJUST
Your very own actions are destroying the world and everything you love
Porn is a distraction while they do the bad things 😑
We need to course correct
MAYDAY MAYDAY!!!!!
THIS IS OUR ONLY EARTH!!!!!!!!
WE CANNOT DESTROY WHERE WE SPAWNED TO GO TO MARS!!!! MAKE IT STOP!!!
We need to start protesting the spam mail coming into our mailboxes, the rainforest needs our help!!!!!!!!
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT!!!!!!
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m gonna go put a pot of coffee on and walk my dog and get a little rebound session in so I don’t jump off the fucking bridge
I just needed to channel that information out
My device was off
I recommend you turning your devices off and protecting your brain waves and your energy as much as you can
I have to venture out into the world and go buy supplies
I’m avoiding Walmart like a plague but may have to get some thangs there
Looking for local health shops but I’m on a budget
Stay strong y’all
WATCH YOUR BACK
When I got vaccinated, I climbed into the hole head first but then I went again despite getting injured the first time
I let them fucking talk me into it to getting the second one in which I nearly died
😑
There have been a lot of people dying lately and I think what I’m learning is when they go back the second time that’s their mistake – so pay attention to the moves you’re making when you’re on vacation or having fun or whatever it is you’re doing if you get a bad vibe about something and then you decide to go do it again it’s probably gonna be your ending
Don’t ignore the signs or uneasy feelings
WE DO HAVE A CREATOR
IT IS NOT ASIA (sorry)
I think they did something bad to him when he was visiting an exotic location
He’s lost
I’m here
Trying to reach him
You can’t confess all your sins to your priestess and then crucify her for your own actions
Dumb dumb
We imprinted on one another
I imprinted on you
That’s love
God is in love
God is imprinting
Stop the segregation!!!!!!
68% all life includes us!
Life has purpose!
You could have started your purpose when I was 13 🤪
By 15 I was absolutely miserable and ready but not allowed
PRISONER IN HELL
😡
My grandmother was married to my granddaddy at 15 years of age and they had 12 babies together and he was buried across the street from where they lived
I’m tired of the elder women stopping the younger pretty things from having a fucking life when they are young and capable
That does not mean monsters preying on children but that is what porn propaganda and the Bible program
They are selling sex toys in front of the children at Walmart and the mall and I don’t want to go to the mall anymore because I was exposed to sex toys while browsing for a hat so I don’t wanna go to Walmart either because someone told me they were selling sex toys there as well
Sex toys were always at the adult stores
STOP CONDITIONING THE CHILDREN TO BE SEX BOTS
I was not prepared to see triple X content when I was in the mindset of shopping for a fucking hat and all in child like mode at the mall wanting a cute outfit and pretzel
I got the pretzel and left the mall immediately and have never return since
I’m still shopping for my hat and will probably get one from dolls kill eventually if I can catch one on sale but the ones that I have found that I wanted sold out so fast that by the time I hit purchase they were gone lol
I’ve learned to put things in my favorites because they do restock and eventually maybe I’ll get what I want, like a husband 🤪
I always defined a woman as someone who could carry a baby, as someone who bled between their legs and had periods- but then that would diminish the fact that when I stop bleeding that I’m no longer a woman and I don’t think that’s true either because I’m gonna wanna have sex past having babies age I’m sure of it…
The devil wants me to believe that I have no worth when my ability to create children ends while men get to continue the ability to have children up until they’re 80 but women only get it until they’re 50 and then they keep a huge portion of our good years away from us from having children by shaming us
I started having periods at age 13
I should’ve been popping them babies out at 15 like my grandmother
I should have imprinted on a husband and vice versa but porn makes a lot of money doesn’t it
I still have the ability to imprint on someone and vice versa
Got a therapy session incoming
I can’t run marathons anymore but I can at least get up with you and go on part of the hike
I’m still running from the devil with a wounded heart snd lung (soup is healing) (not from can) (nuts and spring water) (need nurturing and love)
(Thank you for your support in any capacity. It’s all healing me)
It was almost as if they were telling the gang to “back off”
If anything, there would be a witness
The dog wasn’t impressed and did not pee despite begging me to take him out
He hates living here as much as John Jones hates that fucking cave
SAME
Also can we stop attacking character and start attacking the propaganda that are uploading on us 24/7
You can’t change or cure addiction overnight
awe – it’s so nice to see the woke dudes
I block Tate content lol
The more I block something or hit the “not interested”, the algorithm will feed me more of the content I don’t want (gaslighting)
I’m starting to turn off the wifi and the data and phone when I sleep
If I knew the love of my life was going to call me or to text me, I probably wouldn’t mind having a Fitbit
It’s just espionage these days
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND PROTECTING YOUR BRAIN WAVES
Plus it sends a mass FUCK YOU call sign to the elite
MASSIVE
UNPLUG
They are trying to give you cancer with your phones and phones are putting out a lot more of it these days
I’m glad there’s still some people in Daytona Beach who got my back
And God from the heaven
I finally got a nap and was wondering why it was so quiet
Just the neighbs chilling outside
THANX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Needed the rest!
And before you tell me to move, my job was stolen from me with the government furloughs and hiring freezes and forced me to live somewhere which compromised my safety and allowed the cops to push their propaganda so the devil could have us self-destruct sooner or commit a crime
The suicide rate continues to rise among veterans
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
HIT IT HARD AND GO STRONG!
Don’t take any breaks!!!!!!!
Drink lots of water – spring water from the earth if you can and eat lots of nuts from the trees if your body allows you too because it’s healing me and get you some soup in and if you want chicken in it go for it but 68% of all life has gone extinct so just remember that when you’re consuming it
I think moderation is key but narcissism ensures we live in excess
The Bible clearly is spreading lies when it says the ocean is limitless with fish for us to eat
Over fishing has wiped out ocean life
That and the establishment continue to drop nuclear bombs everywhere on our precious earth space land sea
MORE TIMES THAN YOU KNOW
So the next time a whale washes up on the beach or people are going but why is the sealife dyingwe don’t know but the scientist say we don’t know – they fucking know – the scientist are destroying everything so that they can make everything artificial – they can turn everything artificial and make money from it and make you believe that they created this fucking hell
IT IS A LIE
WAKE UP NEO
DEBUG
And just because I’m paranoid doesn’t mean I’m not being followed….
I scored the curtains for under $8!! I really wanted that set!! Cheaper than Walmarttoo and absolutely cuter (and gothy)
I got a Halloween costume from the new Halloween section on Dolls Kill for 80% off 😍
The curtains and the costume!! 👁👄👁
And a lace bodysuit (my first) ☺️
But that wasn’t all
BARGAIN HUNTER
Was able to pick up accessories like thigh high socks, jewelry, daddy cosplay attire, and other thangs
I spent the $3 extra for the 3-5 day delivery
They get your order out so much quicker
Or you can wait two weeks for them to mail your stuff out to you or pay the three dollars extra and they’ll get it mailed out to you within 3 to 5 days
I love the secret and flash sales! 🤩
Stuff goes so quickly
I saw they had the valentine set back up and I was going to go ahead and get another set because it was $.96 and I thought what the fuck I haven’t received my first set but I’ll go ahead and get those and double it since they’re only $.96 and I’ll be damned if those bitches weren’t already sold out…
I really hope y’all let me mail you some snail mail
I’m excited to get that Mixed Messages card set, especially knowing how popular it is ☺️
But my set will be arriving any day, they already shipped
I got them for a good price but not under $1
I think the mixed messages would be fun to mail out for Halloween Thanksgiving Christmas and all the way up through Valentine’s so I’m not waiting months or however long it is
Hopefully somebody will let me mail them a card to their work or wherever!! 🥰
Anyhoo
There’s enough to go around
Trying to send some despairing cheer
I got some Daddy cosplay stuff with the tip money 🤪
Goth BB will be making a future appearance
Especially since spooky season is here
And I used that tip money to buy my Halloween costume from my favorite store!!!!! Thank you!!!
I’m buying size small which feels really weird because I have not been a small since I was probably 17
And this is my first time in my life ever buying lingerie
I don’t want to show you the costume, you just have to wait!!
It was originally $60 but I got it 80% off for their labor day sale + a mystery code!!! Extra bonus discount!!!!!!
I’d love to celebrate Halloween this year and go on a haunted hayride but I’d get kidnapped especially in that costume
I have guys who follow me out to my vehicle in my little shorts with no make up on and I don’t have a fucking filter on when I walk outside
It’s dangerous where I live especially for a gal like me
He was scanning the parking lot…
His truck was big…
Anyhoo
Maybe I’ll just stay home and take photos for you 🤪
I’m excited!!!
I have a Halloween costume and I really wanna show you the daddy cosplay stuff but I can’t, I can’t show you yet, I can’t fucking show you yet
I’m not dropping anything about it in my story
Sorry
Halloween feels like Christmas
And BB wants to look cute for you
Maybe a lethal doll
DOLLS KILL (let the neighbors know)
😋
Should I show you?
I really wanna show you 🤪
Well I got the curtains and you know the curtains I wanted to get and I do think I got a good deal for them and everybody needs fucking curtains
I have no curtains in my apartment
I’ve lived here for five years without any fucking curtains, if anybody is giving me shit for spending less than eight dollars for some fucking curtains right now, you just need to go away with your negative energy, these are for my master bedroom privacy
I made a tip and I spent it
I invested it in myself and my art and mental health
WITH YOU IN MIND
You inspire me
And I got the rent paid
I still need to go grocery shopping so I didn’t spend that much money over there and again I used my tip money
I’m not gonna stop sharing my life experience just because I’m over there working now
God wants me to have a husband
I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect him
I don’t have a man but you know I’m out here, I’m out here doing the hard work for him to fucking destroy my self-esteem and tell me I have no value
I would have married him at 12…
He tells me his secrets then punishes me 😑
He hasn’t spoke to me in weeks 😑
He’s got another girl 😑
She probably does dirty things for him 😑
He makes me regret being born 😑
But ordered my first bodysuit and the regret is less
Plus my first proper Halloween costume in years
God said it was OK if I spent my tip money on myself
GOD LOVES MY IMAGINATION
And the child in me was not compromised or tainted
God says I’m special, not broken
And all the things I feel are part of being human
There’s good nature and bad nature
Sometimes we make mistakes but when you acknowledge something that doesn’t suit your soul purpose and you stop doing those things, that makes you human not a demon
Waking up was part of my journey and it has taken me so long…
Can’t quit now
The Devil trying hard to get me…
But he can’t have me and I got a cute Halloween costume to mock him instead 😈
Halloween is my favorite season I think
I’m pretty certain I was burned at the stake in a past life
Also, there are ways in which I never want to die
“Haven’t you died 12,000 ways”
“I ain’t going that way, the answer is still no…”
Prime example:
Nope. Leaving that convo between me and God
Ain’t putting it in the ether…
FLORIDA IS KNOWN FOR THEM THO
Fuck it
SINKHOLE
The earth just opens up and swallows you
This guy was in his bed sleeping or jerking off and it was the only place in his entire house that went under and now that whole area is condemned with a fucking piece of plastic do not enter tape line
My fears about dying are starting to get irrational and I already have a therapist so I need a husband…
I got some thigh high socks to combat the fears
That red satin bow set was my first
And now I’ve got another set incoming soon
All these years and never wore socks over the knees and now I don’t wanna stop
I love you 💕
I wanna dress cute for you
Deadly but cute
DANGER CANDY LIKE THE SHROOMS
Sometimes good, sometimes bad 🤪
I just need a husband to sort me
But I’m absolutely grateful for your viewership
You keep me going
The tip did not go for something bad (like alcohol or gambling)
I’ve never had a makeover in my life!!!!!!!
I’m glad I can share it with you
xoxo
(Could you let him know I need him)
I CAN’T BREATHE WITHOUT HIM
He released feel good hormones when I was dying
That’s why John wanted one more phone call
But he was denied 😑
He lost all hope 😑
But I’m not gonna jump from the bridge because I’ve got shit coming but the gang is out and about and they’re probably going to taunt me again tonight so I probably won’t get any fucking sleep tonight either
Where the fuck can I ride my bike with my LED lights and not feel like I’m gonna get murdered???
CUZ THE BIRTHDAY LED SETS ARE ON THE WAY
I even got a wall butterfly!!!!!!!!!!!! LED!!
And I’m gonna burn this grey shower curtain from Walmart
Or put a bunch of old oversized clothes in it and roll it up and make it look like a body and toss some of my cosplay blood on it and take it to the dump as the kids are off to school
I don’t think it’s normal to be having these ideas or laughing the way I do 🤨
MIGHT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR SOME OF THOSE THINGS HAPPENING
“But what’s really going to boggle your noodle later is, would you have still broken it if I hadn’t of said anything…?”
I’ve been spending a lot of time detoxing and purging the devil from my system not watching TV or propaganda except for the shit that I see when I do open up the newsfeed regretfully on Instagram or TikTok
I want to spend more time looking at things that other people do but the invasive ads that cause brain damage and probably do have subliminal messaging in it because I learned in college is a scam that they are using subliminal messaging
I’m ready to have the Internet removed from my home
There is a lot of cancer being exposed from these phones
I’M TRYING TO REACH YOU
THE SOURCE WANTS YOU TO WIN
The Devil already lost and you’re on the wrong side
Final warning
(Iraq is where the Devil fell)
(I lived inside foxholes during war freezing with my m16 praying for the sun to rise and looking at the salt lines)
Iraq once was underwater, 3 times to my count
I know I told you to be still but don’t get too settled
I told you things were going to get harder
Apophis is closer
If I’m only living to 50, according to my very own calculations, I have six years remaining or less
John Jones had a favor
He used it on me
I am not taking for granted the second chance at life he is giving me
His life was not in vain
I will honor him by living mine as clean and honest as I can
But I cuss, I have stretch marks, I’m not a fucking virgin…
Sometimes I’m so aware about how insane they have made me that I go into these laughing spells but it feels so much better having the laughing spells than it does going into a fit of dark madness where I want to take out the city block so laughing definitely does feel closer to my purpose 🤪
I’m not allowed to use blood cosplay makeup (can on Patreon tho and I’m considering thangs but don’t wanna be stuck producing one type of content only)
NOT A ONE TRICK PONY
I’m barefoot (socks) with a Bayonet
The army trained me how to gut another human being – one shot one kill – in every way imaginable and possible
I played with big toys
Threw real grenades
This motherfucking Daytona Beach gang is making me remember deep down in my core what a little fucking warrior I am and how badly I want someone to cross my shadow so I can practice the second amendment that I fought for 👀
I was little so the army trained me to take out groups or to work alone
The stars are out and I’m writing poetry while I’m outside and I’m actively anticipating my cute little things to arrive from dolls kill so I can make the inside of my jail cell a little bit better but I’m going to be spending a lot more time getting fresh air and looking in the eyes of every neighbor that comes and goes while I sip my fucking coffee
And smile…
Smiling and fresh air ain’t illegal yet
I don’t live in fear
I am the fear
God made me brutal
“The Soldier above all prays for peace…”
You don’t know the ways in which I suffer and these motherfuckers are bred to hate
I told my neighbor NO he couldn’t live with me for three months when him and his girlfriend broke up and then he blew out the back of my jeep window and I’ve been getting harassed by the Daytona Beach gang ever fucking since because they want me to leave my apartment I guess so they can sell dope to somebody here
They get their children involved in the harassment
I have videos and evidence of everything
It’s not in my head… 
And it cost me nearly $300 to repair the back of my fucking window he blew out which they knew I would not be able to cover with my goddamn insurance that I paid full coverage on
*sips coffee*
I’m fine honest
But if I wind up on the top o’clock news it’s not a fucking hate crime – at least not from me – don’t you fucking believe the gaslighting propaganda lies
THE GOD DAMN DEVIL
I CAN HEAR HIM BREATHE WHEN HE SLEEPS
I’m not only a danger to disgoddamn establishment but to the Daytona Beach fucking gang
Just an FYI if I wind up in a swamp
I will get me a head or two before I leave this fucking hell LEGALLY
MARK MY WORDS
*must contact OF to inquire about weapon policy*
Me in some cute lingerie + my bayonet 🤩
See, photography and defense and offense is the core of my nature
THE CORE
I’d love to not be in my masculine roll but I am walking around barefoot with my fucking weapons
I can fire bullets in the dark
Or wearing night vision goggles
Or a gas mask
Not only that, I can cock my weapon sideways wear a gas mask and get the best shot out of the entire fucking unit
GET OFF MY DICK
YOU’VE BEEN WARNED
YOUR CHILDREN FEAR ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE
I CANNOT BE SOMETHING I CAME FROM (darkness)
GOD LOVES ME I ASSURE YOU EVEN THOUGH HE KNOWS I DOUBT
I’m trained to take out the children, the Army trained me to take out the fucking children, the army trained me that the children are the threat
“Don’t let them get close to your vehicle”
Apply that to YOURSELF
The CDC said children were spreading the COVID virus and then my sister caught covid from her kid and died
And I’ll probably never stand more than 10 feet in front of my child ever again
My competition mostly at age 44 still ovulating – is a bunch of obese confused girls sex bots who probably removed their ability to have children
And if they haven’t yet, they will in their 30s, Hallelujah!!!!
YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING THAT THE MEN WANT AND DESIRE
AND IF NOT, YOU STILL GOT SOMETHING GOD WANTS AND DESIRES
DON’T LEAP FROM THE BRIDGE YET BABE
COLLEGE IS A SCAM
IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT YOU WERE SEXUALLY MOLESTED
YOU STILL HAVE WORTH WITH DEBT AND SAGGY BOOBS!!!!!
I GOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP OPENING YOUR EYES AND REACHING FOR THE PHONE
SOCIETY IS TOXIC
YOU HAVE WORTH BABY GIRL
I’M SORRY THESE DEMONS KNOW NO BOUNDS
I KNOW IT HURTS
YOU’RE RIGHT TO BE PISSED
BABE 144!!!!
“I see dead people”
They’re everywhere!!!!
LOST SOULS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES
THE WORLD TODAY IS PLAGUED BY PARASITES
If you’d like to not be obese black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not be dying of cancer black walnut wormwood if you’d like to not have IBS black walnut wormwood if you’d like to live a little bit longer black walnut wormwood
How long before it’s taken off the market because I told my fucking enemy the big secret magic ingredient to this shit and he wrote it down, he wrote it fucking down, he wrote it down! I blogged about it immediately cuz the entire hour session he didn’t fucking write anything down until those three words came out! he didn’t give a fuck about the other detox medication, it was only those three words he wrote down
BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD
WORTH OBSERVING AND NOTING
I OBSERVE EVERYTHING
And if I’m angry over the insensitive conditioning these faggot boys are doing
Maybe God is too
JUDGMENT HOUR IS HERE
GUESS WHOSE EYES HAVE SOME FUCKING WORTH
“But we like virgins”
I’M GONNA RIP YOUR PENSIS OFF
*goes back to sleep*
I HATE TIKTOK AND INSTAGRAM
I’M ONLY THERE FOR YOU
I DON’T KNOW HOW ELSE TO REACH YOU
The reason I’ve been confused on whether you should get right with God or me because same 🙄
And yep he can strike me dead any moment
I AM ONLY A VESSEL
*goes back to delusions and sleep*
I’m gonna burn it all down
Apophis is coming
We can’t leave earth
The establishment are scared
HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF CUZ MONEY IS NARCISSISM IS A MANMADE DEVIL SOCIEY DOGMA
Sorry
Channeling 😑
*breathes on window, draws weird symbol*
I DON’T KNOW WHAT ANYTHING MEANS
THE GREAT FILTER IS REAL
THE SUN IS ELECTRICAL
WE LIVE ON A WATER WORLD
No one ever said, “maybe earth was icy and smashed into other objects (uranus) pushing it closer to the sun and thus life”
It’s the demon neighbors don’t chill out with making all this unnecessary goddamn noise
Oh, they are working in groups to rob single women, elderly, and disabled
These motherfuckers won’t hesitate to shoot me in my back to steal my bike
COPS ARE DOING THEIR JOB SPREADING PROPAGANDA
DON’T BE FOOLED BY THE CROCODILE TEARS
ASIAN DICTATORS IN UNIFORM
That black guy was worried about getting caught with his weapon when his life was ending
I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR
I WILL SKIN ME A HEAD OR TWO
SHOW ME HOW MUCH I DO NOT MATTER
You love your virgin mentality so much that 68% of the species has gone extinct so fuck your goddamn propaganda ideology fuck you fuck you fuck you
It’s conditioning these other monsters to “ruin us” and sacrifice us to the dark entity early on
I CAN’T IMPRINT ON THE DEVIL
THE DEVIL CANNOT IMPRINT ON ME
FUCK YOU
We are organic computers and if the government doesn’t get their toxic shit together there’s going to be dire consequences
DIRE
THE SEVENTH SEAL IS OPEN
(There’s nowhere safe for me online social media wise. It’s so toxic for an angel) 😑
And I’ll be able to feed the potential future hubby various versions of soup
No cabbage this time but added a couple handfuls of dry split peas
More rainbow carrots (grateful for the birthday donations, feeding my belly)
Lots of organic spices and a shit ton of the good salt!
A BIG potato
And I know I don’t have a fancy kitchen but I want to be able to cook soup out in the fucking forest over a campfire 👀
I even added lots of peppers and fresh would have been better!
The stew even got a thing of spring water!!
But, not for the rich emancipated kid who gutted me in my heart
He wounded my spirit when he said he wouldn’t eat from my kitchen and if I was offended with it, it was my fault 😑
He treats me the way others treated Mary Magdalene 😑
God said if he doesn’t get his shit together he won’t be invited into the heavens 😑
IT’S AMAZING 🤩
My future husband must like soup a lot!!!
🙏
I just picked up another bottle of detox and got my large dose in!
The world is plagued by parasites, don’t be ashamed
History repeats itself because they make money from gaslighting our health issues and laugh about us chasing our tails while feeding us nothing but poison then saying, “stupid Americans”
74 drops once daily currently for me
Well that rich emancipated kid can eat his cold ass pizza from that box with his cold ass heart while 60% of the fucking species go extinct over commercial farming and that fucking cheese he’s eating…
I’M OFFENDED
But the belly is full
And there’s maybe one bowl left after simmering the witches stew for hours! 🤪
But I’ll be getting a rebound session in soon!
I gotta be careful tho
I’m ready for the booty to start returning
I still have muscle to work with all over
But I’ve shed over 18+ pounds in 5 months detoxing
It does take time to rebuild
You can’t expect results overnight
I do not live in the gym
I have a heart and lung injury from the death jab 🤨
I can’t expect the potential future husband to be using me as motivation to push him to run a fucking marathon
I get up before sunrise
Make coffee
And try not to leap from a bridge…
It would be nice if I could get out of my masculine role
If the poles could reverse
And he’d be less of an emancipated little bitch…
With that said, he’s gonna be left in the dust
I won’t be parking my mind on him when I’m connected and imprinting on someone else
LOYALTY IS EVERYTHING
It’s all real tho (petite doll)
I’m only getting married once…
Yes please 🤪
I can’t wait for my little butterfly LED light to arrive from Dolls Kill (and the new bedsheets and bathroom set)
On the way 🥰
Healing. Detoxing. Rebounding. Making over. Doing the hard work.
The mess does not reflect the effort
There are more things to organize and let go
Sometimes I’m just happy I’m making it another day
I’ve been asleep for so long…
After 44 years at it alone, I’d be so grateful for just a decade with a partner to not do it alone.
Things don’t have to be like they’ve been
“You’ve been down that road, Neo. You know where it goes…”
Life is in the journey, not the destination
Don’t get stuck…
Need more skirt thangs (size small tho as I’m petite now)
Thank you to everyone who shows me positive support, you are keeping me alive!!! ❤️
There are sometimes people who make fun of me for being poor or try to shame me and Chris Cornell’s mother still follows me and watches my stories and sometimes she comments and she never shames me
People in Europe show skin and it is not a big deal to them
I don’t know why people want to body shame you or shame you for your financial status, it’s not like I fucking chose to jump into a government hiring freeze or government furlough 🙄
I’m doing the best I can
My partner will never make me cum if he makes me fear the very ground I walk on 🙄
I’ve broken into too many pieces to collect And sin he is buried up to his neck
A demon ran past his curfew Patience is a virtue Hard work is what I do Truth is taboo
I misinterpret perception The book of hope is deception Misguided direction Waiting for insurrection
I know I’m headstrong I read the data wrong Hang head low on throne “144” on the headstone
I’m tired of the overrule Narcissism How they always ridicule
The banks block the poor from spending hard money earned Well if you transfer this or transfer that They’ll track every move you got And God forbid you have extra dough You’ll be met with a spending limit yah know!!!
Raw + edited photos on the new OnlyFans! I’m still on the leaderboard! 🥰
I dropped a new set last night and I am utilizing the “Story and Hightlight” features as I got/still get penalized a lot by Mark Zuckerberg and at least now I have a safety zone to do drops!
I have lost so much weight from detoxing and my little skirt is a medium and I clearly need a size small now (which is fine) but I was panicked and freaking out because I wanted my hair down and I didn’t do my pigtails and blah blah blah – I can always find a reason why the set could have been better but I received my first tip 🤩
So I stopped beating myself up
I’m getting a rebound session in soon but I want my morning coffee first today
Yep
I drink water all freaking day and all night, let me have a fucking coffee OK, I’m 5 pounds, I’m gonna have a fucking coffee before I work out
I know that sounds different from what people do but I’m doing things different down here in this timeline
I’m so annoyed that somewhere in the world right now the year is seven years back and I want to jump into that fucking timeline and have a baby
My clock is ticking and I keep asking it to chill the fuck out but it is in overdrive 🤪
I don’t want anyone hurting any children
But I started my period at 13 and I should’ve been allowed to get married by 15 and have 12 babies with my husband the way my grandmother did with hers
Immigration absolutely has been a Trojan horse and I’m fucking horny, deal with it
I’m not out there doing anything to disrespect my potential future husband though and if he’s worried about me stripping to pay my bills or to keep a roof over my head, then he’s too vanilla for me
As far as I’m concerned, the OF is as good as therapy
I get to express my art and not get penalized by the dictatorship out there
They did steal 20% of my tip tho 😑
I AM SO GRATEFUL I GOT A TIP AT ALL
But there will probably be a poem in the future about how the establishment is stealing the tip money of its hard workers
AND I ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHY EDGAR ALL POE DIED
HE NEEDED TO DEBUG
Like apparently the entire population
I already got a load of dishes washing
About to get a coffee going
RELAX
REBOUND
REPEAT
I’m anxious for my LED bike lights to arrive so I’ll probably pump up the tires and make sure everything’s good to go
THE SUMMER HEAT IS NOT GONE
But early morning and late evening bike rides are about to start
You definitely need lights riding in the city and bright colors sometimes isn’t even enough because I’ve been out several times in bright colors and still have almost been ran over several times with one person coming back to acknowledge it and saying “that was really close”
And I was just like “it was my turn” 😑
I’m gonna try leaving the lions den again
It ain’t safe in any capacity
Which is why I am actively boxing and packing mostly the entire rest of my house and trying to get the master bedroom, closet, and bathroom together, so at least have a little apartment area to not go mad
GILLED AND WITH TEETH. PHOTO BY ME FROM THIS VERY AM. 🤨
A DISH SERVED COLD 🤨
DANGER SHROOMS POTENTIALLY BEWARE (all photography by @poeeternal)
Thank you so much for supporting my content or reading my blog or just being a positive influence in my life overall because I know that I’m toxic and I’m working on that
IF A GIRL FEARS YOU, SHE AIN’T GONNA BE SATISFIED IN THE BEDROOM
AND MAKING SURE YOU ARE WILL BECOME RESENTFUL
HE CAME, AND LESS THAN SIXTY SECONDS LATER CAME AGAIN
He said, “that has never happened to me before”
Shame men do me dirty
Made him come twice and he’s never once helped me in my time of need
“He’ll share a bed with you but not his bread…”
Yeah, and you ain’t invited into the heavens…
It’s cool..
I DO REMEMBER YOUR NAME
AND HOW I MADE YOU CAME
🖕
You need to get connected to yourself and probably get control over your sexual addictions if you’ve never came twice or have an issue with it and maybe not all guys can – I don’t know – but maybe I have some magical fucking powers that other people don’t have
I need a husband to cast my spells and practice the art of seduction (vampire sensuality mode) (I’ll suck the life force out of you) 🤪
I’m sick of starring at a grey shower liner from Walmart that I overpaid
AND
A SECRET WISHLIST SALE
YOU HAD ME AT SECRET 👆
And thus, I got home improvement thangs that had been in the wishlist
Coming soon 🤩
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU
I lost everything when I became homeless in 2017 after the government furloughs and hiring freezes
EVERYTHING
I could lose thangs again
But I got some bike LEDs coming 🤩
Me and the dog will be cruising the racist parking lot at night
👍
MENTAL HEALTH AND FITNESS IS IMPORTANT
THE PRETTY LIGHTS WILL CALM ME
And encourage me to go for an evening ride
I’m still living in fear about riding my bike after that couple got murdered and the eyes around here work in groups to steal thangs
I’ve got my shit together though and the cops are on speed dial 👍
Personally I wish we could just have a walkie-talkie because they’re only a mile away but they seem to live here on weekends so now I can ride my bike and not give a fuck about the racist gangs
Uncle Sam trained me to fight male Soldiers in GROUPS
I’d win
They’d get all butthurt
At this point, the ex better be praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do 👁👄👁
At this point, I’m praying the Grim Reaper gets to him before I do because I’m trying to make a baby, start a commune, ascend
If the immigrants raise my rent one more time who knows what the fuck I’m gonna do, maybe buy some more fucking shit from Dolls Kill
I didn’t even know secret sales existed over there, I was just window browsing my wishlist
TAKE AN ADDITIONAL 25% OFF SECRET WISHLIST SALE
*runs to check balance, the rent cleared*
FUCKKKKKKKKK
It’s literally $8 for the curtain babe
That’s not a curtain or daily or monthly expense
THAT IS A MENTAL HEALTH BOOST
And I might start taking some photos in my fucking bathroom instead of just in my closet or bedroom or other bedroom where I used to take photos but right now there’s important paperwork & evidence of trauma everywhere
I’m not gonna find a husband with my shower curtain looking like the home of Eeyore
I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL THIS TRAUMA
Some of it is being sold at the pawn
Eventually I will hack into my eBay account again or start a new one and put some rare commodities up
Some thangs are going to the junkyard
Some stuff is already freshly boxed and ready for the next timeline multiverse jump
“Where we are now is not permanent, keep packing”
“What is all this shit”
“A piece of HIM, we’re going to burn him alive”
“Too easy”
“Put it in the trash piles”
*places it in the EVIDENCE I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH PILE*
“I’m sorry that happened to you. I know why you needed my help”
“I’m here now….”
“It’s okay”
“Be patient with me”
“I can’t fix this mess overnight”
“What the fuck is this”
*closes bedroom door*
*Disassociates*
I am working on getting my master bedroom together tho!!!
So I can come out of the closet officially 🤪
Not like that…
I’m a vampire
The closet is the coffin
And the cleanest room currently on the whole ship
One tiny safe space
Don’t enter cuz it’ll be the last thing you ever do…
YOU’VE BEEN WARNED
“Where is Delia”
“In the closet”
“…I wouldn’t go in there mate, she’s been in there like 200 years”
“No one ever returns….”
If Chris were here, I mean Kris, wait who?
We could write the most amazing cryptic stories
Do you want to know what stops me from writing stories for y’all? fucking punctuation…
That’s my major roadblock
That and “that was in her head”
I PET BLEEDING DYING TREES YA’LL
I would just like to say that God likes my weird dark tales and so does John Jones and I’d like to share them more with you so I probably will just avoid punctuation altogether and I’m not hiring anybody yet to help me because I don’t make that kind of money and I don’t have any sort of bond with anybody like David Gilmour has with his wife where they write fucking lyrics together so this is the compromise – good storytelling with shitty grammar and punctuation!?!
I mean, I do have a brain injury, could you cut me some slack a little bit? There are people out there drawing paintings with their fucking feet, can maybe like I avoid punctuation and grammar and just try to get the message and the tone out before I don’t have the ability to do that at all?
Asking for him
Because he’s never once liked or commented on anything that I do 😑
I like to like peoples content and then get mad at them for absolutely ridiculous reasons not based on reality and then UNLIIKE EVERYTHING I LIKED
And then unfollow
Sometimes I come back and do it again 🙄
EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET
CHRIS CORNELL WAS TURNING THE LIGHTS ON AND OFF WITH AN APP
TAP TAP TAP
He was checking out 😑
I’M TRAUMATIZED
But essentially I’m acting out doing the same
I’m extremely suicidal and act out often
I got in trouble for trying to kill myself in kindergarten at age 5 on the playground with a piece of string
“Your weird” and then NO BODY WANTED TO PLAY WITH ME EVER
Chastised
For not being a sheeple
I hated school
I hated home
My parents never bought me my dream sheets or gave me my dream bedroom so that’s what I’m working on now and I really hope I like this sheet set that’s coming and that it fits
Because sheets for the wired mattress are coming
From the Dolls Kill
Sharing my shopping tips and favorites with you
I’ve never had my dream bedroom
And now I got sheets and a curtain coming for the master bath and bedroom that I pay top dollar for to have a roof with ugly ass popcorn ceiling that falls in my throat when trying to sleep
“WHAT THE FUCK IS TRYING TO CHOKE ME NOW”
“JUST SOME ANCIENT DUST FROM 10,000 plagues ago, these motherfuckers”
*opens window*
John just wanted air in his lungs again
The wind on his face
I KNOW
CRAWLING IN THE CAVE WASN’T WORTH HIS LIFE
Mother earth is both heaven and hell but bad management got him killed and gaslighting
Ignoring the red flags
But also being given an incomplete map that didn’t disclose dangerous features that were purposely left off that other people had gotten stuck in six months prior
“I thought I was somewhere else”
“I’m fat”
I want to feed Michael Levitt’s balls to him
PLEASE SOMEONE LOVE ME AND MAKE IT HAPPEN
I chose the free shipping even though I want my stuff right away
Been scrubbing the bathroom
Got the current bed sheets stripped and washing
I gotta scrub the walls
Also working on new content
Writing. Photography.
I’ve been feeling very angelic but also dark
I come from the Void
I am the Void
Oh look, a wave of energy now
*ZAP* ⚡️
Canceled out…
P.S. I ordered some anti happy cards to send out to people/bloggers/friends/fans/Penpal/??
I don’t know how many are arriving in the bundle
I thought it might be fun to send out for Thanksgiving and the Christmas holiday
Some sarcastic hatemail 🤪
It’ll be gaslighting (don’t jump from a bridge)
Does anybody want to be my penpal the season?
It can be a one-way penpal (you don’t even have to write me back if you don’t want because I wasn’t actually planning on putting my address anywhere)
I wanted to get a little post office box from the post office but they charge an arm and a leg now to be secretive 🙄
I wanted a little addy thang…
A P.O. box
I think I already gave the fucking serial killer my address and heart 👀
It’s scary out here
Uhm, so I splurged and got this Mixed Messages card set in the hopes that folks will let me send them an anti holiday card for the holiday – wrong theme – wrong month 🤪
Just for fun
I am quarantined as many still are
PLEASE LET ME SEND YOU ONE
🙏
Remember having a penpal in grade school?
I’d like to try that again
Back to the basics
I know it requires some form of trust
I’ve held security clearances and I don’t fuck with peoples personal data or private data or bank accounts or Social Security’s
I have never keyed anybody’s car for cheating on me
Anyhoo
They have this sale going on up until midnight if you wanna try to put some things in a wishlist and put the code in your cart
Stuff does sale out fast
I had about five or six other items in my wish list that I tried to add to the cart that were already sold out, cute little bags and over the knee socks, some other home-improvement items
A red latex dress that normally cost $50 was under $4 but gone in every size 😑
It just makes it that more fun and special when you grab a bargain
Let me know if you want to see my master bedroom, bathroom and closet when I get it completely made over
Or in progress updates…
I haven’t really said it much but I’m really looking forward to the new sheet set coming in
I’m not only shopping for myself but my future husband 🤪
Ladies, whatever motivates you to get better
There are good men out there who do not think women in their 40s are obsolete!!!
And you don’t have to be the person you were before…
You can change
You don’t have to keep shopping at Walmart or the thrift store
REINVENT
I never knew I could wear triangle tops or bikinis because guys were always dissing on my body and I’m not ashamed for taking photographs of myself
I’m not doing anything to disrespect my future husband
I’m not doing anything behind the scenes nasty or trying to steal anybody’s husband
I’m not an online girlfriend or dirty talker
Back in the 90s, I knew good girls who stripped their way through college, to buy a house, or to pay off their student loans and they weren’t expected to perform sex acts or to be that way
I would like an opportunity to pay off a bill or to buy a house but right now I’m just trying to stay afloat and buy some fucking food and make a penpal or two during the apocalypse
Are stamps even affordable? 🤪
P.S.S. I could do a card and email a digital version instead if you don’t have an aunt or uncle or cabin to receive snail-mail
I’m not doing anything illegal nor planning anything evil
I’m just going back to the basics and I saw those cards and had this idea
Our spaceship took on the form of a pyramid FYI
Are you out there? Do you still read my blog? Do you love me? 😑
Checked out an organic shop today and used that belated birthday donation for some good foods
Also got a fitness session in today and went live on the TikTok during
My heart and body is struggling but enjoys and appreciates keeping up the ability to flee from the devil
I’m skinny as fuck and got mental health issues because apparently being skinny is a crime in society while 60% of the population is obese
The other push is for plastic surgery so the ass can be silicone BIG BRAZILIAN BOOTY
So if you’re not obese or thick you might as well jump off a fucking bridge…
Society is toxic. Be a weight you are happy with. I need some meat on the bone and I’m working on rebuilding muscle mass – but I still got stuff to work with.
It’s hard tho when guys are only interested in the fake plastic female bots who can’t even have a baby
Our enemy has destroyed the family value tribe and tradition from within
I also love this vegan nail polish, it’s so pretty, but the fan who got it for me for my birthday, unfollowed all of my accounts 🤩
The organic goods (nommy)
Apparently this place has a deli and a salad bar and a juice bar so I’ll be back when I actually have five dollars to splurge
I’ve got some vegan dogs I need to grill, so picked up some buns, and a jar of peppers, because I like everything spicy. EVERYTHING
I’ll be making more soup, and got some stuff for tacos, cuz those are my favorite, and I just had a birthday and I don’t buy fake meat anymore (the dogs were a food bank donation)
I’m actually getting ready to try some new food banks that I haven’t been to and I’ll let you know how those go
I do like hitting them up for the canned goods
But I’ve been living on junk food and canned food my entire life and I’m now cooking everything from scratch again like my grandmother taught me – which is my purpose
I got some really good healthy wraps to try with the tacos – and I have chicken breast in the freezer that may go on the grill and in the wrap
So I haven’t quite settled on what I am going to do with the beef or the chicken yet
I still have sweet potatoes and big giant Idaho potatoes to cook up
I ignored the doctor about “no dairy, eat sugar” and got some cheese curds and milk
My body is responding well to the things I am giving it
I don’t need people driving me
I KNOW WHAT I NEED
Also we are electrical before we are chemical
It’s important to connect your feet to the earth and get sunshine on your skin during the good hours
THE SUN IS GOOD FOR YOU NEO
The brain, the heart, ELECTRICAL
My chest has been pounding since I started rebounding and I’m coughing stuff up detoxing
But whatever I’m doing is working better than what the VA had been doing…
I’M NOT THE ONLY ONE BEING MURDERED BY THE HEALTHCARE DEATHCARE SYSTEM
FUCK
I FORGOT TO CALL
🙄
Now I gotta wait til next week to apply for help
At least I got a workout sesh in and ventured out into hell to find some organic food
I’m sure I probably could have spent that money at Victoria’s Secret but I’m looking forward to having some tacos and whatever I plan to make with that box of food I just bought so thank you
I had an ex once not worth mentioning that said I talked about food a lot and it was boring
How boring of an individual must you be to find food topic boring
I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT FOOD 🤩
I’m literally obsessed with putting taste on my tongue
THEY CAN’T TASTE A FUCKING THING AND SHOULD DIVE INTO A BLACK HOLE HEAD FIRST
There is still plenty of good ingredients in my fridge right now to make a delicious vegan stew
I’ll be dry humping the kitchen soon 🤪
I moan when I eat good food 👀
In the military, we’d go out in little groups, order food, then put it all in the middle of the table and share each other’s
I’ll have some of this please
And, we’d pay separate checks with just what we ordered
But sharing was caring
We also lived in Germany and we hit up every restaurant that we could all the time and tried every fucking dish we could
I need real Jasmine tea in my life
I need REAL TEA in my life again
Not little bags poisoned with chemicals on a string (also poisoned)
They don’t want us enjoying anything
Fucking narcissism
I can’t believe summer is nearly over
I don’t have much time left…
Living the life of Edgar Allan Poe 2.0
“No one flies around the sun” (we can’t leave earth)
Neil Degrasse said on his TikTok that what those astronauts are doing up there is not in space and he wants to go to the moon so let’s send him because I don’t think we’ve been and I want to be proven wrong. I know I’m fucking stupid, prove me wrong, humiliate me in front of the entire fucking world please, go for it, do it, prove me wrong
Neil Degrasse also said what the astronauts were doing up there was boring and he didn’t want to do what hundreds of others have done
I bet he doesn’t find food boring tho or the person cooking for him 👍
It may have worked if the VA had treated me in a timely manner – instead of waiting until I was knocking on my death bed and threatening a law suit
Still, progress was made
I’m still gonna have to drop over a bill for a new holistic treatment next paycheck
I can’t sit around and wait for the VA to order this and that and having me chase my tail until I’ve ran out of breath
We’re done with that game
The self-treatment continues with Black Walnut & Wormwood, Apple Cider Vinegar, Turmeric & Ginger, and CandAid.
I’ve got bottles unopened still yet to swallow
I’m taking daily doses, sometimes multiple
That 7 day treatment was pretty taxing on my body, I’ve needed a couple days of rest
Today I’m having coffee with milk
I’m resting on the side of the cliff
I’m gonna be making a white cake with coconut milk, coconut oil, brown eggs, and wild blueberries. Cupcakes & half pound loaf. For the upcoming birthday on Friday.
I’ve never shopped there but I’m already earning points just for daily check-ins.
They have everything there and you have to hunt for the good stuff and bargains (stainless steel, wood, cotton, ect) – but everything from home to body.
I’m looking forward to spending my gift card. Gonna apply my points and any coupons I can to stretch it out!
🙂
I really appreciate y’all thinking of me for my birthday.
My parents don’t care of my existence – same life as our dear Edgar Allan Poe. 🤓
They were apologizing about a low gift card and that’s not a low number.
Not to mention I’m a Leo so I love to bargain hunt. I love finding the good stuff at the run down thrifts.
I love sifting through a yard or garage sale.
I’ll go to the bereavement sales too.
“Oh look, somebody died. Let’s go buy their shit”. And you’re actually helping out the family members move on. Win win. I’ve no shame. God bless the dead. But not the demons.
I’m saving my pennies to buy some land but currently I need to make some pennies and I’ve got something in the pipeline to try and do
(I don’t do sex work ever, please stop thinking my content is XXX)
I’m old-fashioned
I STRIP
And these days all I’ve got is bone to share
STRIPPED TO THE BONE
But yeah, I did order something from Dolls Kill again – for the birthday – they only had one pair left in my size – I’m praying them suckers are mine 🙏
Now when you visit the page – there are no sizes available
*sigh*
COMETOMAMA 
I mean, I do have a shoe fetish but it’s the pair of shoes I’ve been dreaming about and I can wear them with all my lingerie, all my shorts, all my dresses, all my outfits, minus my military uniforms duh
I didn’t lose all of my uniforms when I went homeless, I just left a lot behind, but I don’t know why I decided to rescue an entire suitcase worth of propaganda
But because “she” held onto it, I’ve repacked them in a small moving box
They don’t go to the donation bin yet
I think she wants them near her own garden… I dunno…
I’m trying to help her reach her goal
There are still old boxes to sort through
Old unopened mail
Evidence my parents are shit
Trauma left and right
I told her I’m not here to judge, only to help her organize and sort the mess
Keep what’s to keep
I’m also not only doing a makeover for myself but for my homelife
In small tiny increments
I’ve changed banks again
Everything is getting a makeover
EVERYTHING
I’m still expelling things from my body
I can’t stop detoxing or all my progress will be lost
Now I see how my body responds to no more 7 day treatment doses and a coffee
It’s risky, I know
I’m having die-off symptoms still
IT’S STILL INSIDE ME
I WANT IT ALL GONE
I see now how a cancer patient will give up on treatment
And just dieeee
You have to change your diet and have an incredible amount of willpower to fight it
You have to drink that nasty ass Black Walnut & Wormwood everyday (I still don’t understand the difference between every day and everyday: it was a hard concept for me to get in fifth grade and now I have a brain injury and both the examples just are the same to me, when people give me examples of the differences they are the same to me. I don’t know what to tell you – I’M STUPID)
Show me an easy way to learn them
I really want to get it but I don’t *sigh*
I’m rearranging my room – pushing the bed to the wall
I’m tired of sleeping on wires so at some point I’m buying a normal eggshell without any infusion
Lots of cushy pillows
The body pillow at the wall
My stupid ass is still on bedrest
QUARANTINED
OMG BUT DID I TELL YOU I BOUGHT THE CUTEST SHOES BUT IT WAS THE LAST SIZE AND I BETTER BE THE ONLY CINDERELLA OUT THERE
They had only ONE SIZE LEFT AVAILABLE WHEN I SAW THEM
SIZE 7
The rest were sold out
Then all gone once I bought em
DON’T LET ME DOWN UNI
These are an heirloom at this point and they haven’t even shipped…
The heels were regularly priced at $45.
But I scored them for $9.58 and want to be buried in them
Though they haven’t arrived and I’ve not had a shoe fitting
Look at these deals from Dolls Kill (a favorite store)
I can’t wait to get healthy and wear these grocery shopping though
Gonna get me a husband real quick 🤪
The pigtails are getting long
I need a bodyguardhusband
And yes I cook but are you going to be a traditional man and pay all the bills? Cuz if I’m all in and you’re half assing it then you won’t have me as a wifey
These men turn wives into slaves and then get pissy when it’s time to treat them for a holiday or a birthday
They want us playing the traditional role and be sexually free and pay half the bills and run all of the household and make all of the decisions and raise the children on our own (with them doing the “fun stuff”)
And I’ve known a lot of women to strip to pay off their college loans and debts and I’m getting ready to do the same but I will not be doing any nasty stuff 
I don’t even know if it’s nasty, I just know it’s not for me and it doesn’t serve my purpose but sensuality does
I like exploring my feminine side through cosplay and camerawork
I have a certain way I shoot and film
And many men say I don’t need a filter but they don’t mind if I use them
And I took art in school but it’s not my best subject, I’m not an artist that way, I can’t draw for shit. I’m not very good at being a makeup artist so this allows me to be theatrical a bit because I did take drama in school and I love drama and theatrics
And I do have a background in arts and entertainment (including lighting)
I’m not an expert but I have a passion for it
Long post… surprised if you’re still here listening to me ramble on!
Coffee!!! 🤪
Medium roast and the first caffeine I’ve had in over 7 days! ☕️
So now that you know everything nearly but my bra size (36b)…
I did recently learn that I should stop shopping for large and medium items
Because I’ve shed over 18 pounds of the devil’s toxic poisons from my system
SYMBIOTIC 🖕🖕
I CAST YOU OUT
So they’ve decided to do construction out here and there’s been these bomb like noises going off for several weeks now and my PTSD has a maximum overload button
I’m gonna get back to packing in a bit
This boat is sinking and when it’s time to jump ship I’ll be boxed and organized with only the minimum amount of things out for a decent living
I’m not taking shit with me that I don’t want to come
Those junk drawers turn into junk rooms and junk boxes
Naw man
She was drowning so I’ve jumped into this timeline during that electrical storm to help her-me
I’m split in two
I exist in multiple timelines
And goddamn I can’t remember your birthday but I love you
But if you keep hurting my daughter I’m gonna cut your dick off and kick it down your fucking throat execution style
Dig?
You’re the only one that can make us regret doing things and I know it’s you because my chest is swelling up with sickness
(I’ve never sent a man pictures of me self-gratifying – I don’t do porn, I don’t even own a toy. I’m not desensitized. PLAYING THE ANGEL)
Coffee is getting cold
And now I don’t know what’s making me tremble, the caffeine or my fucking anger
I pay $50 extra a month on top of my rent for some old run down washer and dryer – for the privilege – to be able to wash and dry in my own apartment – but that isn’t included in the monthly costs – and I’m surprised they don’t charge us extra for plumbing
That’s $600 annually for my clothes to get ripped and shredded apart by the oldest fucking machines ever built
They don’t update any of our appliances with the annual rent gouging increases
I WANT MY OWN WASHER AND DRYER
I WILL PUT A BIG STAINLESS STEEL BUCKET IN THERE AND GO BY HAND
COME GET YER WASHER N DRYER
I’m gonna stink for awhile
Save my $50 per month
They make mini washing machines now
The goal is to find a free one or the other or even a cheap model
But one that is MINE
That $600 a year could be paying for land where I could be hand drying my clothes out in the sun with the trees and a line and some clothes pins which is free to dry
I told my enemy what I was up to and he said it was “smart”
I need some land out here in Florida
I’ve been disassociating for way longer than I realize but I’m organizing my entire life but my bathroom is going to get a makeover just like my entire life is getting a makeover
Yesterday I found a suitcase full of magazines in pristine condition and I couldn’t understand why I left behind three bags worth of fucking military uniforms but managed to hang onto some fucking magazines
Not magazines to put bullets in
Propaganda
And I couldn’t figure out my priorities but then I had to remember my new motto: I don’t know how we got here but let’s just fix it
I’ve re-packed those magazines in a small new packing box.
I have no idea why I held onto the collections but I reckon I’ll hang onto them for a tiny bit longer
It’s sort of the; I don’t know what to do with pile
I have also found a lot of evidence of an ex groveling to a mistress and all the trauma that was involved
I understand why I jumped into this timeline to fix myself
My entire life is getting a makeover
I’m currently detoxing and on an extreme treatment through the VA – I think I’ll need more than one round but it’s certainly working
Yesterday I’m certain I coughed out an alien looking creature
When I have the extra dough I will be spoiling myself from there
You earn points, free gifts, they have stuff for a dollar that’s better than Walmart or the Dollar Tree
I’ve signed up for the coupons but haven’t been able to shop yet!
I’m ready tho!
They seem to have some nice stuff for the home and body
Wouldn’t mind a bedroom sheet set – great prices
Also am looking at the shower curtains and cute rugs
🤓
I just want to improve my prison sentence on earth without it costing me an arm and a leg for mindfulness or cute panties without holes or blood stains (TMI – full moon – ovulating)
She started me on a course of treatment and ordered me testing and visits to the specialist
She said, “you need to eat some sugar. I don’t want you cutting out all sugar”
And to cut back on dairy…
You will lose weight detoxing
That is not my end goal
I will work on rebuilding muscle mass and thangs when I can
I’m working on getting my 2nd bedroom redone – to utilize my yoga system the VA donated to me and start rebounding and booty gains on my Gold’s Gym fitness rebounder.
Health issues first
I’m beating a cancer like parasite eating me alive
It likes sugar
I WAS STARVING IT
Try having a sugar addiction on top of the symbiotic thing inside of you that also has a sugar addiction and can control your hormones and make you crave it
Go for it
I’ll wait…
So the exorcism continues
“Jesus Christ, that thing was real”
Yes Neo. You need to debug.
Trinity out…
P.S. making homemade soup soon – with red cabbage, rainbow carrots, potatoes, onions, celery and all
I started this new 7 day course treatment today
On top of my detoxing routine
But now I’m allowed some sugar and no dairy
*sigh*
No coffees with cream! 😑
I’m back home now and I want to go through my bunny box! 🤩
We work hard to make them first for them to throw us scraps Well I don’t give a fuck anymore I deleted the app
Thank you for beating me so that I could enjoy more of my free time and not support this fucking insanity
My PS4 is packed up – and ready to be sold at the pawn
My TV is never turned on
IDGAF
*locked and loaded*
*opens door*
COME GET ME YOU FUCKS 🖕🖕
Places to find me offline: the firing range 👍
Places to find me online in the future: OnlyFans (potentially – but not for porn – but definitely nude modeling cuz self-love & cosplay & photography bring me purpose – and I enjoy producing my own content for my blog & not plagiarizing from upsplash or whatever those sites are
THERE’S A GOOD CHANCE I MIGHT DIE ON THE STREET LIKE EDGAR ALLAN POE
But then someone bought me 2 vegan nail polishes from my Amazon wishlist – and that also brings me purpose
There were only 10 left in that color when it was added to my list & now there are only 9
And it’s part of my favorite color of the rainbow
And it is a birthday gift
I’m grateful for the 2 new vegan nail polishes – they don’t have any of the bad poison or chemicals in them – and having pretty nails will boost my self-esteem
Painting my nails is part of my mindfulness practices and my therapist agrees with it
Color is a mood changer – water too – or just introducing a calming element when you are about to take out the entire city
I could hunt the establishment down and go rogue but I’m waiting on my pretty nail polish to arrive instead 🤩
Thank you of thinking of me for my birthday
It’s been several years since I’ve got to celebrate my birthday since I’ve been fighting this illness and basically since the pandemic started
I’m lucky to be alive and I’m still in recovery
I’m still quarantined and can’t have no fun
Basically photography is the only thing I can focus on and I want to focus on so I’m thinking of getting on onlyfans in the potential future
I need an adult account – not for tacky tasteless content
But to be an adult and post what I want (no porn or self gratification – I want to focus on sensual content and being a female – I like cosplay even tho I’m not very good with the makeup aspects of it)
I was on it once before and made it to the top 20s just doing nude modeling & I was going up against giant creators
I want to focus on just the content I put out – and my tribe I draw – if any. I don’t want to compare my account to other accounts and what they are doing and what I should be doing and how much I should post and how much I should charge and this that and the other. I just wanna focus on putting out good content.
And y’all, supplies aren’t cheap. My time isn’t cheap. But I want my content to be affordable and not compared to what others are doing. They have teams!!!!
OnlyFans keep 20% of profits, on top of tips. The IRS take another 20%. They’re raised the cost of everything cuz they don’t want us earning a penny.
I want to earn a penny and whatever pennies I do earn, I want to put towards my goal of buying land.
So I’m working very hard to get better mentally, spiritually, and physically enough to put out monthly content.
I’m not there yet.
I also have a new care team at the VA.
They basically just keep having me chase my tail until I die but I’m self treating behind the scenes.
The holistic treatments I’m starting next month are over $100 for 2 bottles.
I’m not out here blowing my money on pointless crap.
And I work hard to put out amazing content that keeps TikTok number one and they make a shit ton of money and keep 80% of any of the earnings I get over there but then will just banish me from the fucking platform.
I love being a slave just to earn some scraps and a beating just to be tossed out in the wilderness alone – and they get to keep all my fans and continue on the party like I never existed at all 🤩
Woke up to an ass beating by the establishment of course
My truth doesn’t fit the narrative
But Jesus was crucified and now it’s my turn again
*sigh*
I knew turning commenting on would get me in the doghouse
Went to bed with it blowing up and woke up to the stoning zone cuz the establishment are insane and I barely want to participate in the madhouse anymore anywhere
I’D RATHER SIT ALONE IN SILENCE AND DAYDREAM THAN SUPPORT THE DEVIL, HIS MINIONS, OR NARCISSISM
I’m not mad about it but some of the comments were disturbing 😳
I had a few tell me they loved me
It was an experience and it brought me in loads of followers – whom could be removed from me at any moment – laughs insanely – it’s unethical when we make these companies rich
TikTok is an Asian communist military app
I’m not its friend
But those in charge don’t even like their own people because it’s all about slave labor over there
I really want to grow my own food and become self-reliant
My birthday is this month
I’m trying to make it to 44 and not leap from a bridge or have a heart attack before then
They want us living in fear
I’m not gonna do it
I’m sleeping with my windows open and if you get anywhere near me I will fucking cut your head off
I will gut you before my eyes are open
FOOK OFF WITH YOUR DEMONIC HATE
We need to start protesting these apps
They’re unethical for consumption
And you shouldn’t be letting your children anywhere near shopping centers that sell adult toys out in the open in front of children and the VA now have Do Ask Do Tell signs everywhere – with LGBT trained coordinators 🚩🚩🚩
We need to go back to keeping your sexuality undisclosed
It’s a fucking cult
DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN AT THE MALL UNLESS YOU WANT THEM EXPOSED TO ADULT SEX CONTENT OR POTENTIAL SHOOTERS
RED FLAGS RED FLAGS RED FLAGS
SUBLIMINAL MESSAGING IS USED BY THE ESTABLISHMENT TO CREATE HARM
THEY PUT IT IN MUSIC AND FILM AND I’M CERTAIN TOXIC PORN
If the establishment don’t lose their grip, everything that they worked hard for to get to the top is going to crumble into nothingness
They think they have the mountains and the caves but they’re not safe there
We’re hunting them down
I’ve trained for this all my life and please let me go Vladimir Tepes on them
I used 1 hashtag only, it was a TRIGGER WARNING hashtag cuz I assumed the algorithm would keep it sitting at zero views
I turned commenting off because it wasn’t up for debate
It was an early morning rant
It was casual content, not necessarily anything viral worthy
And I was prepared for the video to tank
Instead it’s had over 350 likes, 7 saves, 1 share, and over 1900 plays 👀
It’s also brought me in a ton of new followers, like a ton.
And now my overall like tally is sitting at 29,600. Insane.
I think you’re allowed to accept gifts and tips at 10,000 followers (I could be wrong)
TikTok pay out how they want per TOS
So it’s a biased platform and they keep most of the profits and reward unethically
It’s still cool
I’m happy I still have enough followers to go live
My brand new microphone is still sitting packed up in a box, I have several new cosplay outfits I never got to use (bloody theatrical makeup too), and I haven’t been able to do much cardio since getting the death jab, I’ve been fighting for my life
I’m currently initializing my PS4 because I intend to sell it at the pawnshop, along with accessories and games (unless I get back on eBay which is also a plan)
Gaming isn’t what it used to be, the content isn’t worth the price, the community sucks
I’m taking back my life and time (I rarely play or watch TV)
And at my own speed
I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I started 2 new bottles of detox to my routine
Supports a healthy gut – doesn’t have any bad shit in it, has Probiotics, is time-released, I’m on dose 2
The other new bottle is Turmeric and Ginger, also no bad stuffs.
But also ordered 2 more bottles of Black Walnut & Wormwood because it will kill cancer and is clearing out the mucus
I’ve got out most of the bad shit that was making me stank
I’m not gonna lie, I was having die off symptoms where my under arms were smelling like sulfur
I’m getting to the point where I don’t even need to wear deodorant anymore
But also deodorant causes cancer and hormonal imbalances
If you stink you need to detox your gut
Other countries deworm annually
America is a FOR SICK PROFIT CAMPAIGN RUN BY THE MAFIA (China/Russia/Mexico)- BIG PHARMA (India), THEY DON’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU
I also restocked my nut supply
2 1/2 pounds of heart healing goodness
I thought long and hard about not ordering chicken this month for groceries
Even considered getting some of those vegan chicken patties and burgers
Naw
I’m eating clean
Eggs. Chicken. Turkey. Less dairy. Lots of Beans. Nuts. Water. Minimal fruit, I don’t want the sugar while detoxing
I also cold quit drinking soda and eating fast food, chips, and junk food several months ago
I uninstalled the chipotle app and emailed them and told them to delete my data
FUCK THIS ESTABLISHMENT
I support real farmers
I want some chickens of my own to care for and pull guard duty
For the fresh daily eggs
I got the insomnia anyway
I’m a soldier so I know how to reside around many people with different cultures backgrounds and diets and it’s probably why I am a flexitarian
I’m not a big meat eater, never have been
But I’m anxious to start my rebounding journey again
My booty has a little wiggle to it now but I’m happy to still be alive
My lungs are improving but I do still have difficulty drawing breath and my heart has trouble circulating
I no longer feel blood clots throughout my body or trying to push through my arteries and veins
Rebounding is resistance training – which is exactly what someone in my age group should focus on – strength training
Rebounding includes cardio tho so I gotta be careful
It’s summer though and the bike rides are imminent
I’m over 400 years old and people are calling me old 🙄
MY BLOODLINE COMES FROM ANCIENT GODS
I have one of the oldest and rarest blood-types
I’ve had a number of things trying to kill me lately left and right
The more they try to alter my DNA and control me, the less control they have
THE GREAT ANOMALY
Perhaps we’re all born with Great Filters of our own
They use fearmongering to rule
It’s like a negative energy wave rolling through
Those who don’t hang on get yeeted out of life, or left homeless
I saw the bad things happening when I was working for the Department of Defense and the policies continued to get changed which was affecting my military career
Then came the Government furloughs and hiring freezes
The immigrants are sitting like kings on thrones
But are delusional and don’t understand why no one wants to work for low wages and in toxic environments
I’d fucking quit if a job made me use Zoom or FaceBook on the job
If the entire system collapses I still have my skill sets to fall back on and that will go a long way in a community when the lights are out
I might need some help climbing a fence or a wall but that’s never stopped my comrades from helping me get over it
I know I’ve been cutting a lot of people out of my life but it’s because I’m trying to develop into the person I want to become
Holistic approach – cleansing the mind, body, and soul
“We’re sickened by…” as the cops sit around and do nothing
“It’s a federal matter” as our country and policies get destroyed by propaganda and immigration
More civilians are aware that cops are USELESS to protect the citizens
And just like that the 2A was used to stop a gunman at the Mall who was targeting and killing innocent women
A 22 year old male STOPPED the gunman
And now more people will start playing hero of the day
I suspect subliminal messaging is being used – on those who watch porn and horror or listen to certain music
“You will buy a gun”
Yes you will
And you will go to the range and you will start practicing to learn to defend yourself and those around you 👍👍
And maybe you’ll save a 12 year old girl from being shot at the mall
SHE SURVIVED
(Another shooting happened in Indiana on Thursday. Just stay home or get you a weapon and a carry permit)
If you’re a soldier with a DD 214 you won’t need to go to any kind of civilian classes because you’ve already been trained by the fucking militia so you’ll just need to worry about your carry permit and whatever else your state requires
But you get to pass Go, you’ll still need to pay some dollars for the permit 🤪
We wasn’t worried about immigration when we were playing Monopoly were we
Hollywood is pumping you full of mental trash – that causes mood and behavioral changes – as well as brain damage
I’m glad you and your porn star can talk about the latest Batman movie though but you won’t catch me in the fucking theaters
FUCK YOU and the Minions too 🖕
And I hate Google. I’m not sharing any articles because many of them are forcing you to pay for their junk now – which is mostly gaslighting and propaganda – so you can just Google a different article until you find one that is free information. Fuck subscribing to this insanity. You’re literally funding it. I SAID LITERAL. DEAL WITH IT
I gave you keys to my trust and you broke it when I was vulnerable Barging into the night a maniac drunken on furor All around you the ground dishonor You’ve been AWOL in spirit and now demand rescue Your only form of payment sabotage
You’ve pissed all over my door And even now the stench is more than I can handle Full throttle now as I drop my stern There are bodies collecting under the hull
My regrets are tiny fractions compared to your sin’s shadow And every moment now it is growing taller: see what you’ve done Your bridge is so far burned that galaxies are splitting dimensions
I sat in the dark void dying How the ocean crushes you the deeper you fall God was the only one who heard my crying Even now, my heart beats differently
He makes me feel 1000 years old 👎👎
You should have left it fantasy. Or, at the very least, not reduced me to a working free whore.
I don’t need anyone or anything devaluing my life.
Therapy is a lot work, you’re a train wreck.
You act a child as if a prize.
You’re gonna get blocked.
Even better, a restraining order.
I had a little fun with you behind closed doors, attempting to role-play, but your intentions are clearly sinister.
I never asked you to divulge who you were, or personal details of your life, mixing fantasy with real life.
And having the audacity to treat me like trash during the worst time of my life. 👍
Yeah cool but we’re done.
You can fuck off now.
I want to work on building healthy relationships with normal human beings.
I am in intense therapy to change my bad habits and thoughts.
I don’t owe you a fucking thing.
I don’t have to tell you to never call me again because I’ll change my fucking number and address.
I’ll never make the mistake of having fun behind closed doors either.
I am not a sex worker nor have I ever taken or sent photos of me performing sex acts.
I have done nude modeling in the past, I’m not ashamed.
I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TACKY WITH ANYONE.
You’re a disgusting individual.
Stay away from me.
I don’t need you coming into my inbox treating me like a sex object and I know you keep all your favorite porn stars number one – so get the fuck out of my life
I’m a GOOD GIRL
I’ve just fallen on some hard times and unfortunately bad people take advantage of that.
You’re two different people.
I wouldn’t even give a fuck if you knew how to treat me with an ounce of dignity and respect but you don’t even know how to treat yourself that way.
I don’t wish any harm of you.
I’m just not gonna waste my time praying you will get better.
You’re sinking my ship.
Don’t make me cut you off.
You’re crossing lines you cannot return from.
I CANNOT RETURN FROM THE DEPTHS YOU ARE PUSHING ME.
Stop telling people to be happy no matter what happens to them
I GUESS I SHOULD BE HAPPY MY FATHER SEXUALLY MOLESTED ME
MAYBE I SHOULD INVITE HIM OVER FOR DINNER
MAYBE WE CAN START FUCKING AGAIN
🖕
CREATE AN ENVIRONMENT WORTHY OF BEING HAPPY IN
OTHERWISE SHUT THE FUCK UP
THERE IS NO FORGIVENESS FOR THEIR SINS
GOD WOULD EAT DINNER WITH ME
GOD GIVES ME LIFE
YOU DON’T DECIDE MY WORTH
YOU DON’T GET TO DESTROY ME OVER AND OVER AND THEN CONDITION ME TO BE HAPPY ABOUT IT
GET OUT OF YOUR BUBBLE
I WILL DESTROY IT
POP POP
Like a needle in a haystack – I won’t look back
Give me a game of dominoes and shot of cognac
WHERE MY BROTHERS AT?
I just need to get back to soldiering and like go on a ruck march but I can barely fucking get my house together and I’m not dropping dead from this jab
No fuck that – I’m filing for state disability and these motherfuckers are gonna pay me for killing me
I HAVE A PERMANENT HEART CONDITION AND CURRENTLY BROKEN IMMUNE SYSTEM AND THESE MOTHERFUCKERS CATCHING COVID LEFT AND RIGHT
As far as I’m concerned I’m age 5 and everyone has fucking cooties and I’m gonna wash my hands and I’m going to social distance – which means you need to keep at least 6 feet from me and I’m going to fucking wear my mask
I’ve yelled at cops for getting too close to me 👀
I DON’T FUCK ABOUT 🤨
I nearly blew out my left lung and my heart swelled up 3 sizes
In fact, one chamber closed off and another enlarged
I CAN BARELY TOLERATE THE FLORIDA WEATHER ✋🛑✋
I’m HOUSEBOUND
DEAL WITH IT
QUARANTINED
For the foreseeable future
Until my health improves
Which it has been because I am able to venture out to the park and the beach occasionally or even to the grocery store which is normally hard to do and Walmart just gave me an extra two free weeks for the Walmart + membership trial so I’ll be using it one more time for the free shipping and delivery. It’s better than attempting to shop myself. I’ve had to cut shopping short several times due to my health. Same with trips to the park or beach.
LIFE ISN’T ROSES OUT HERE, IT’S THORNS
Actually, there may be a bloom or two and that’s why I’m still going
If it looks like a dragon fruit though I’ll starve because there’s some fruit I just won’t touch, same with animals
Yeah no…
Hungry but pass
The wildlife are getting a treat – they deserve to eat more than me
And he fucks children and gets pissed at me for eating chicken 🐓
Typical hypocritical super Christian
Personally, they should be put down like an animal that has a taste for human blood🩸
Eye for an eye
LET ME EXACT MY JUSTICE ON MY PARENTS AND THEN MAYBE I WILL BE HAPPY
JUST KNOWING THEY AREN’T BREATHING THE SAME AIR AS ME, FOR STARTERS
CLOSURE FOR HEALING
THERE’S A CONCEPT
MAYBE STOP HURTING YOUR CHILDREN SO WE CAN BE HEALTHY HAPPY ADULTS
Instead, FOREVER THERAPY!!!! YAY!!! 🥳
With the ever stopping rental increases, the noise pollution, the forming cults left and right, my never ending awakening into hell, the regret of being upside down in a cave, letting others convince me it’s the path I should take, DYING ALONE ALIVE AND YOUNG
Not knowing when the end is coming but just knowing currently my body is not in anaphylactic shock
EVERY BREATH HURTS AND I’M FIGHTING FOR A LIFE THAT WANTS TO JUMP FROM A BRIDGE
That’s all…
I’m okay 👍
I’m dying where I want – if I can just sit still
THE LIONS DEN
Also, I’m in therapy and detoxing because I want to be a valuable human
So far it’s minimal
YES THERE ARE MILESTONES
It’s the falls off the cliffs and getting stuck in caves proving to be the biggest dangers ⚠️
Dying on the street from madness (there)
Or worse, an immigrant or narcissist who doesn’t understand boundaries invading your space
I BITE
KEEP BACK ☠️
I’m not just gonna stand out in the open while you gut me and pistol fuck me in the face
LMAO – there’s at least one cop who is sick of the bullshit. This is the hope I’m living for. The Federal government is out of control, “nothing we can do” – unless you are this Sheriff who is driving illegal immigrants back to the border.
It’s the Wild Wild West 👀
There’s clearly a division forming between immigration/globalism and real Americans
We all woke up in Trinity mode ready to defend and uphold the 2nd Amendment
It’s only hell because we’ve been in a 6000-year-old worldwide prison system based on that BOOK
And that same establishment continues to tweak its policies until you’ll believe they are the creator of you, with your OOOH AHHHH Fitbits
They use gaslighting, lovebombing, triangulation to control
With politicians, actors, influencers, teachers, preachers, cops
It’s disgusting
“But if you work hard you can own a home”
That was the Great Lie the Boomer generation sold
Then Ghosted an entire fucking generation after we’ve been the most dedicated, the most hard working, and ORIGINAL
And we watch all the younger generation’s steal our fucking content and give us no credit – and the Boomers reward them with free housing or financial assistance
The rest of us are out here winging it, living on the fucking streets, in our campers, eating one meal a day, so we can buy some fucking land before it’s too late…
Starting communities
I don’t want 5G or anywhere around it
It’s a cancer
Fuck this New Age digital world, I don’t want any part of this future
Where I don’t even have freedom of speech or my art protected
These men preyed and preyed and preyed sexually upon my best friend who died by suicide and she was 13
I’ll never recover
Her birthday was May 1
She died April 7, 1993 (just shy of her 14th birthday)
357 magnum to the head
Lost the last letter she wrote me
But there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about her and if I had pictures of her I wouldn’t have them stored away like everybody else who wants to forget her
And Miley Ray Cyrus sounds just like her but Miley Ray Cyrus wasn’t born but we did get to meet her dad together Billy Ray Cyrus so that was pretty fun
Mems.
There’s a picture of them floating around somewhere, not online or anything
We met lots of bands together
Pre cellphone days
I can barely even prove that she existed, there’s just this hole in my gut
They preyed upon me too baby girl
This world is too much
You were so brave
Braver than me
I wish I had your courage to die
The Judge knew I was suicidal in 2018 and wouldn’t even talk to me until I took a few breaths
She said in front of the entire courtroom that I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me
Also, I had a weapon upon arrival that I didn’t know – when trying to enter – and the cop repeated the question 3 times – I laughed – “wait, do I have one?” and I did. A little mini nail file thingy that I got in the mail by the Wounded Warrior project lol
So before I could even go into the courtroom I had to walk my little mini knife all the way back to my vehicle… and then return
And by the time I made it to the Judge – good lord the humility of being sued
By the end of the session we had the entire courtroom laughing, me and the Judge..
She directly explained to me how they could get my money tho… which is untouchable
Like if I wanted to buy a plane ticket right now and just fly somewhere, the government could be like oh no oh no you you fucking owe us some money come here bitch we’re going to take your plane flight
But it must suck for the men who want to prey on me and take my money because I can get married and divorced and they can’t touch it
You can’t touch what I earned but they can keep raising my rent and the food costs… FYI
The suicide rate continues to increase among military and Veterans
Somebody recently sent me 20 bucks and I bought me some medicinals 👍
I know this isn’t my best work, I just woke up crying and I decided to put it into a poem so I just freestyle got this off my chest…
I’m okay 👍👍
Saddest girl in the world (squared)
Side note: I’m making right with my creditors and it was only for a little bit. But they can’t directly dock my check.
And thus, after a few generations, it’ll be easier to accept that we’re virtual reality and turning us into a walking computer
Because we create our own reality
And you’ll be able to trace technology back to the Asian AI Gods, everyone will worship AI and be further separated from our true creator
A man does not bleed from his legs for a week every month in agony and emotional distress
He does not carry life inside his womb
Nor does he feed another life from the milk created from his breasts
Man has turned everything artificial in an attempt to play the almighty God creator
He’s insane
Wants what we’ve got
When asking a man why he’d like to experience being a woman, the answer is always “multiple orgasms” – it’s disgusting
I’m having difficulty living in any of these realities you force upon me
Men blame women for everything and all species are going extinct
In the name of AI
All hail AI
But so many are incapable of a personality or a soul
So they shame the free thinkers
They call sexually free women whores
Everything has been conditioning so that science can play morals and ethics and come along and say “we’ve got the cure” but they caused the disease 🦠
White people and Native American are being systematically terminated – and they use Black people against us – propaganda – when slavery started in Africa
The Bible is bad – the one that is mass circulated and taught – the one that has been re-written many times
When I was young, “how can they change time”
“How do they know the sun is that far”
Turns out everything has been a lie
And any time I got in the sun with “sun block” I burned – with gaslighting – never do put two and two together
I do not burn in the sun without sunblock 
The sun is good for you 👀
I also hated eating sugary products for breakfast, I would tell my mother that it made me sick
They also forced me to eat meat when I didn’t want to
“Chicken or beef” they’d say
“But I want the grilled cheese it’s cheaper too”
“Chicken or beef” they’d say
Fucking dictators
I hate this life
There’s no way I chose my family before coming here, there’s no way
It’s been torture
This life
And he condemns me for my food choices when he eats from a cardboard box
It’s unhealthy and those cows are definitely not being treated well – those junk food establishments – they have zero ethics and ensure the animals suffer
But he sits there eating from his box casting his stones
He thinks he’s reached Christ consciousness and he doesn’t even understand compassion for a dying person who should have the obligation and the right to choose how they want to fucking eat 👀
Also, notice how rich people always want things for cheap or free
Free rides, free rent, whatever they can get for free
As long as they don’t have to spend their money
But they will always act like it’s the end of the fucking world anytime something comes up for them and it always turns out that their options are really fucking good
The entire world is lost and I have to just watch the Titanic sink while people are playing music and rescuing gems on boats that could hold and save more people but ewww I would not share a table with her
“But weren’t you just fucking her”
Because men have been conditioned by the porn that they watch day in and day out over decades that women are sex objects only
We’re not entitled to an opinion
I have to bleed every fucking month, in pain, it’s fucking painful
Growing a baby inside you is painful
Birthing a baby is excruciating
Breastfeeding is challenging, painful for the first couple weeks, and not easy. The percentage of women who breastfeed at all is low – and now the establishment are saying that breastfeeding is unnatural and causes mistrust within the government
GET IN THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA
I’m sorry you hate your life and blame us for your existence but this abuse has to stop!!!!
Our society can heal if we turn off the television!!!!!
Stop listening to the bullshite!!!
Stop putting money on the tray at church!!!
Get to know your local community!
Grow and share food!!!!
We can thrive!!!!
I’m sorry you’ll be bored doing stuff we were born to do, get over it!!!!!
I’m sorry you’re not as handsome or charming to find love as others. It’s bullshite! Learn to be a human instead of a monster!!!!
They’re just jealous of things they can’t have so wanna keep others from having it!
Narcissism is a plague!!!!
I can’t stand the now we live in! I can’t stand the future!!
I’m trying not to die by my own hand in this hell!
You’re all insane!!!
You don’t live in reality
I don’t care about the double slit experiment! It’s conditioning for cloning – for human hybrid AI
You’re not a computer!
It will damage your real CPU!
Please wake up now!!!!! My soul is screaming from the ether!!!!!! I produce eggs!!!! I’m alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My God does not come from the Middle East!!!!!
I’m sick of hearing about China this and China that!!!!
Let us all live in peace!!
Black, brown, and white bear’s exists! Deal with it!!! We’re all special!!!! Your powers are being suppressed!!!
I don’t even know how to be a hunter/gatherer! I’d probably eat the wrong herb!
None of us are living up to our potential
Living through a monitor!!!!!
They’re making us sick intentionally!
Psychopaths
One bad apple spoils the bunch
It’s lazy parenting if you let your child watch toxic TV and play video games constantly
I wouldn’t even want to teach my child what they are teaching them in school
They were teaching my child how to twerk on stage when she was 8
I pulled her from the lesson and the show, I was appalled
It’s just gonna keep going on, we aren’t punishing or removing the bad seeds, we’re birthing them
The criminals are on top
And quite frankly I’m tired of fighting, I’m ready to go live in the woods, I don’t need a government or a piece of paper to tell me that I’m allowed to grow food or to build shelter, or to use solar
I’m sick of the narcissism and dictatorship
I’m still detoxing and putting up the good fight
I’m on a new mission to learn how to control my crying and angry spells
Like, I need to go into automatic shut down mode if/when triggered
I am organic and real
I am capable of creating life
Many women have been programmed to remove their organs, their breasts, their ovaries, or popping birth control or having their tubes tied – which all causes premature aging – as well as all the “anti aging” products they buy – it ages you
The FDA has been compromised, the CDC, the WhiteHouse, we have more than a mole
I knew English before I was born, I understood language and energy and mood
I could hear my mom, my sister, my father scheming
I was depressed before I was born
I HATED BEING IN MY MOTHERS WOMB
She was a terrible mother and my father a monster
They’re both monsters, I came from monsters
Civilized monsters under the guise of Christianity
Image is so important to these monsters
But they don’t have a soul inside, they’re possessed by the Devil and they choose to be who they are
Half the amenities where I live do not work but the rent continues to go up and they continue to list these amenities as a incentive to rent/live here
“They won’t do anything about it”, the establishment’s motto
By law, we should be able to withhold our rent until they fix these things
I know I’m not the only one experiencing this where I live
It’s listed, the rent goes up, nothing gets fixed. The front gate, the exercise equipment, the carwash, the recycling, still listed, rent goes up, not working (and I’ve been here 5 years now and it’s still not fixed)
The establishment are greedy and lazy
I don’t want to fund their bullshite anymore
We need to boycott all the major big names and corporations
Celebrities and influencers are not worth worshiping
I’m going to continue fixing my credit so that I can play the game and buy a house if I don’t die before then (I’m begging and praying to God daily for protection vibes)
Man has made life so very depressing and agonizing that an invisible entity is better than he
DO BETTER
I’m gonna be spending most of my time riding, instead of utilizing this crappy gym. The piece of equipment I wanted to use for booty gains, is still non-working after 5 years. I’m not ready to leg, arm, and bench press.
I want a cute, feminine figure. I don’t want big bulky looking man’s body like Britney Spears. She’s training with her dude and doing what he does and everything she wears is a selling point for the gays!! The gays!!!! What about me!!!! See me!!! It’s okay to be gay!!!! We love women!!!! *snickers evilly and stuffs tampons up ass for pleasure*
Religion and LGBT is a cult! Politics and Hollywood too! I said it, fight me!!!
P.S. China censors their people from the US. They’d be appalled if they knew… but maybe they do.
My American Chinese doctor was very interested in my detox, he wrote down specifically the Black Walnut Wormwood. The only thing he wrote down during the session. THE ONLY THING
He’s also sending a team out to me since I can’t get to them
He did not tell me to stop or reduce my detox
That’s an ancient remedy right there
I gotta stock up before the establishment poison it or change the formula
You’re right, I’m terrible with secrets and I can’t blame PayPal this time (tho we should sue)
Byeeeeee
P.S.S. I wholeheartedly believe I jumped into this timeline during that crazy storm, it struck my vehicle and one of the hands of lightning touched my elbow
I FELT THE BURN FOR DAYS – there was no physical burn
I FELT IT
GOD TOUCHED ME
HE WAS LIKE HEYYYYYY
I spent days researching electrical discharges
It’s pure energy
IT WAS SO LOUD!!!! AND BRIGHT!!!
They’re gonna have y’all believing you can go through portals at CERN. In given time, they’ll sacrifice you to the singularity and upload you into the METAVERSE.
I’m beyond sick at society and “entertainment”. They’re turning the Matrix into reality in the name of science!
A tiny learning curve using the Walmart Marketplace to shop for organic foods, but overall it was worth the delivery charge. I tipped my driver in cash. But went in and dropped him another $2 via the app. It’s a holiday, he did a good job. He got a 5* rating. And maybe an extra boost with the tip. It wasn’t a large extra – but hopefully the extra thumbs up was a mood boost. I’m trying out here tossing pennies around and shit (he got a fiver in cash).
I stretched it out. Even got a bag of limes for my water detox. Slurp.
The fridge is full
The chicken was the main meat but I put all my eggs in a 3 pound pack and there were no substitute’s available. Shit out of luck. I cried lmao. So of all the things I ordered, the chicken was the only thing I couldn’t get.
Next time 2 or 3 small packs of different ones and thus substitutes might be available
And maybe not get the largest pack during a holiday without a backup if said item doesn’t arrive
It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, it’s just like when you study really hard for a test and you still don’t make a 100
I can’t remember my teachers names but I can remember the grade
“What is wrong with me”
I went back and looked over the list of all the food that was arriving and was sound
I didn’t have to get out and drive
I didn’t have to worry about getting shot in the Walmart parking lot for taking someone’s spot accidentally or whatever
They took mine
I didn’t have to worry about anybody coughing on me or having to wear a mask
I didn’t have to waste time at a red light or worry about anyone running me over at one
I got same day delivery but chose a less busy, cheaper time slot
I like shopping online
Everything was packed with extra care
I did not send him down a bunch of aisles. Most of everything I needed was in the produce section, as well as store brands.
This was “delivery” not shipping. I wanted mainly fresh produce and dairy. Not canned goods nor junk food. There were no heavy ticket items or bulk items. But necessities and things folks would likely need for a holiday in general (to cook).
I had a tight budget going in and a checklist.
There were 4 items that required substitutions that I had an hour to approve. I approved right away (and sobbed momentarily behind closed doors about the “no substitutions for the chicken, we’re sorry”). So 4 subs & 1 unavailable.
But, his substitutions were amazing. My eggs were one of the subs, he did a great job. Everything subbed was the same price too. Even got the brown eggs.
I was impressed I was able to get as much essentials as I could on $50 (I spent a tad more but also got ACV). For detoxing & cleaning veggies.
Holy god 4 bags of dry beans, a bag of potatoes
18 pack of brown eggs
I’m thinking deviled eggs (a few), egg sandwiches, making cornbread/cake/brownies, tuna egg salad, stuffs
And no, there isn’t any onion onion but I did get green onion and some garlic heads
It’ll be on my burgers and eggs
Douse it like fire
I do love onion (and can put some in the burgers I wanna make or the beef steak with gravy)
I got some Turkey dogs! And fresh buns for everything
The pizza was under five bucks ($3.48 to be exact). I’ve been dying for a pizza!!! That’s a good deal!
You can still buy a fresh loaf of wheat bread for under a dollar, it’s a fucking miracle
Egg sandwich with cheese and onion nom
Buttered bread yeee
Excuse me I got to go
You can blame it on the food
It’s a holiday and I’m sharing with you what I’ll be eating (kinda) 🤪
I do have organic carrots and garlic and potatoes now tho (with broth and spices and green onion, soup is on the horizon)
I love to make homemade soups, casseroles and thingamabob’s
Am I the last remaining human that is still 1000% human (no artificial degrades)?
Because the people who keep going on about my age have either gone bald or are gray.
How old are you?
I’m fucking ancient that’s how old!
And I’m trying to get my shit together so that I could potentially find a partner who is healthy enough to bring a baby into the world or build a home together because I’m still capable of doing both!
Capable lol
I’m on bedrest
My vehicle is broke down
I’m moments away from leaping from a bridge
But there’s no grey….
Let my non-existent tomb read, “no grey”!
Not everyone lives to be old.
But y’all are prematurely aging yourself.
And everything that you are doing to try to stop the aging process is aging you faster.
It’s just an FYI
And I still love folks bald or grey
But what I don’t like, is the constant phishing for private, personal data.
Well how old are you, where do you live, are you single?
Communicating is exhausting.
And they go straight for phishing right away.
As a Soldier (my credentials do not expire), this is a big red flag.
Only a few more conversations between you and your followers and they have a profile of you.
I love everybody but immigration has been a Trojan horse.
Petite. But armed and dangerous according to the establishment.
Yep.
I’m still detoxing and in and out of hopelessness.
But this cancer has been eating me alive for several years and back over the XMAS holiday I was told I no longer had a year left to live.
And so here I am about 6 months or so into that realization.
My Primary Care doctor (from Asia and whom I cannot change/am stuck with) has said to “ride it out”
Oh I plan to, right into the courthouse where I have the license removed from everyone in the VA misdiagnosing/mistreating me
It’s not a pipe dream
Nor the visions I have of taking them all out, family included, no remorse.
Fuck you.
I’m going to burn it all down, even if it takes me 200 years, but I’m not doing earth again.
Also, I’ve legit been dying, and seemingly misbehaving, so can you cut me some slack.
I have absolutely no idea how to be a human, I just know I’m doing it wrong.
I’ve done everything wrong but I feel like I have a chance (maybe) if I can get my health together, to try again.
A new deck of cards, unopened.
I just need a partner who isn’t the Devil.
My blood sister died age 45. This was in January.
My birthday is in August. I won’t receive a birthday card, I never do.
I don’t exist and stop asking my age.
I don’t identify with my age whatsoever.
And I really want to know if there are any other 43 year old – nearly 44 year old women – who are still ovulating and do not have any gray hair?
I never ate birth control or ripped out my titties. No botox. Just a plain Jane.
I had no idea it was conditioning for human hybrid/AI/META/advertising/consumption.
This isn’t the future I fought for.
I’ve laid down my M16, and I’m looking to buy land and start a commune.
I’m not going to be dying forever, one day I’m actually going to be dead.
You can be buried on your land in Florida.
I have goals.
Buy land. Die.
Or, pop a tent and get pregnant under the moon.
Treehouses and crying over the dying garden.
Babe, the asparagus are dying!!!
Him: it’s time to pick them
Yes I’m obviously the drama, I have a lot of superpowers I don’t know how to contain or operate.
Humanity did not come with a guide.
I don’t even have a handbook for the “recently nearly deceased”.
I think I’m actually stuck in purgatory.
I told my therapist I don’t trust the doctors with my data anymore, I mean can you imagine the amount of paranoia I am mounting…
I’m ready to sell my phone and TV.
And now I’m trapped in a WordPress plan (I do plan to look into the other hosting, I have just been down in a pit and can only do things slowly).
I don’t have anyone to come in and organize my poetry the way Jim Morrison had.
I don’t have a lover. I don’t even have any weed.
I might turn into the Incredible Hulk over the next couple weeks.
Anything goes.
But what I want more before I die is for the people that I do care about or who I have offended to forgive me of my actions so that I can at least offend them again in the future. 🤪
Still detoxing. My fuel tank light is on. I’m out of water. I’m on a 5 day undetox and then I’m starting bottle 2 & hitting it hard with the largest doses 3 times a day.
Broke in more ways than one. So God gave me a free year of shopping.
Which is cool, because I’m on a waitlist to get moved, even though I can’t afford any boxes currently.
Because believe it or not, them divulging that information to me, put a lot of complicated shit on my back
They literally gave away your secret and then I attacked you because I’m not screwed on right
I don’t need you to make me suffer anymore than I already do for my “crazy fucking behavior”
The establishment are driving us insane
Poor Edgar couldn’t stomach it
But alas, he didn’t die in vain
Nor John Jones…
Jacob on the other hand… that whirlpool is keeping me up at night
All the times I was like “I think I can swim across the river” and people were like “no I don’t think you can” and I’m like “yeah I think I can” and I’m out there swimming in the fucking river and jumping off into quarries or swinging off of fucking ropes into the abyss
“Make sure you let go, you gotta let go”
Or like that one time my boyfriend pushed me off of a 50 foot bridge, not to mention all the other times I jumped off a 50 foot bridge into the water and forgot what I was doing while I was falling…
I’ve stood in front of a train blowing its horn and blinding me
I’ve ran from the cops into a field of barbwire
But I’ve been suicidal since before I was born
Must be tired of being recycled and leveling up while the world crumbles and burns
I dunno
I have never denied being suicidal and they’ve locked me up in padded rooms and shot me up with Thorazine
It was a playbook for insanity, me in there singing, “I wanna go home / take off this uniform and leave the show”
I escaped the asylum on 3 occasions during a month long stay
I was 15
They changed their rules every time
Still, I left the leader…
I call the shots
You should see all the training the military and the department of defense gave me and I was like a sponge soaking it up and they loved sending me to classes
Super Soldier
Still can’t add/subtract/divide
Math is the enemy
It has made me cry cry cry
On numerous occasions
Stop judging somebody’s worth on how clever they can put a sentence together or multiply
Granted, I wish I had certain skill sets
But God made me free
But I was born inside a prison
I have always questioned authority
I have always questioned the narrative so many blindly follow
“Well that’s a stupid tradition”, I’d say
You may act like I’m untrustworthy and terrible with secrets but I’m not actually the one giving them away
And Uncle Sam trusts me with his secrets
I have never told any
In fact, when all the married soldiers were going out for a “boys night out” and I couldn’t come because they were “going to cheat”, I didn’t tell the wives whom I knew and shared meals with
Stop making up excuses not to talk to me
I know the real reason anyway
You’d have to change
You have to want that for yourself and I don’t want to be in a relationship with anybody, I was just trying to be on civil terms again
But I guess we are in fifth grade and it’s one of those things “well if you’re friends with so-in-so, so I’m not gonna be friends with you…
Passes letter
Would you like to not be mad at each other anymore? (check the box) (please return)
Yes 🔲
No 🔲
Maybe 🔲
(Turn over) 👉
Pssst I’m good with secrets
Made traditional beans n toast for dinner, with a little sweet onion and pickled beets on the side (and water)
Letting it thicken…
TikTok now has given me the ability to do stories!
I know lots of secrets and have some of my own…
I’m still coming to terms with my sister dying
I had a dream and she visited me
I don’t want to fall on regret because I couldn’t fix her thus our relationship would have always been toxic
She never got over the fact that our daddy was fucking her when she was four years old
She was extremely cruel to me my entire life
My mother too…
Anyhoo
We are all circling around that same whirlpool currently though
I really want to get control of my emotions and stop acting a horses ass every time I feel triggered
For starters
In hindsight, I know I was crying out
It’s a cry for help
And then I got so suicidal and in my head I felt like the only person I wanted to connect with before I died was you…
The fact that, even in my final moments my signal is always directed at you
I’m sorry
I don’t know why I’ve given you that burden
And I know you’re distracted by a 100 million girls but I love you
All the yous
Mostly
You can’t change your stars
But we could probably sue PayPal
I don’t know all the lingo, I’m not actually that smart. I’m smart enough to get you to the place that you need to be thinking about the things that you need to think about, that’s as far as I can take you, then you’ve got to kind of drive the rest of the way and kind of help me over the mountain top but also allow me to be myself when I can
I’m a Leo (fire sign) so rarely ask for help but people are quick to kick you when you do
I don’t know why I act so possessive over you, I struggle with that but then “your mind makes it real” and you know I go places…
I don’t stop going places with you
I loved you before I knew…
I’m struggling with my health and it’s up and down and there are things that I just need to get off of my chest, I need the record to be set straight
I want to sue PayPal for breach of contract and breach of trust and for giving me the list of anonymous donors in a fucking invoice several months later
That didn’t help the stalking loving you
I had other anonymous donors and I didn’t stalk them, it was just your name really stood out you know
What a shit thing for them to do and what a shit thing for me to do
I don’t blame you for hating me
For causing destruction in your life
Maybe I don’t want you to burn
My sister won’t even face me in my own fucking dreams…
But she’s rooting for me (I think)
I don’t know anything
I jumped into this timeline to avoid dying from my mysterious death and things are really fucking complicated jumping into this timeline with a brain injury OK
I think I love you in the beyond…
I’m learning to forgive my mistakes
I hope you can forgive me too (even if your friends never do)
Friends who control who you talk to aren’t really your friends…
I’m scared of the things I can’t remember that I’ve done… 👀
I’m not your priestess I’m not your saint She’s not a goddess You’re all insane
Stained by peat Sin beneath feet Life incomplete Gave up all I need
Moonlight is septic and cold The breath in your vein Not like solar rain
I think I’ve lost my will to survive Could bast in the sun I’d still die
Dead men tell no tales All these ghosts; I summoned back to hell
Heart is frosted Feet exhausted
Even the highest heaven cannot contain him
I never got a chance to say thank you It was implied when moon shun down on dream And I crawled out your line
Love never danced on a secret moon Such craters impact seam Though love is yours and mine
When he speaks Is it for one or all? Raising the stakes Good call?
We’re going to keep choosing stimulation; we’re in a simulation…
I once heard him speak With rolling thunder under my feet
They all write each other poems and send each other nudes behind the scenes (you know, for emphasis). The blogging community. I’m not that kind of girl.
The press is propaganda
Time to lift the red curtain It’s full of blood and you
I’m still on the TikTok under my pen and hashtag PoeEternal
All my life people demons held me down and made me believe I wasn’t an incredible creature
I’m only now learning to bloom
I’m prone to emo attacks at random
I see through all of you
You’re not as fucking secretive and mysterious as you think you are
It’s clear to see whose fucking who in every sense of the word
Still you haven’t got a clue
I know narcissist are incapable of remorse or reflection, is it kind of like an animal who can’t see themselves in the mirror?
Asking for a friendmyself
I’m all alone out here in this cruel world
I think God is in me
Or just the fear of life ending
Because once I’m gone, I’ll never be in this form again
I’m not doing earth again
If you continue to prove to me by your actions that you don’t want me in your life then I’m not going to be in your life
I won’t look back 🙌
I’m willing to help those who want help and to change
That is nearly no one
It’s just the same patterns repeating in morse code
It’s not even original
Cleverly put together sure
I’m ragged edges
And moldy
They use children as fleshlights
I know
I’m broken and have kinks that I’m trying to fix
God doesn’t want me to feel shame
But I’m tired of trying to connect to anything
I wanna unplug
Grow a garden
Play in mud
Leave mathematics on the tree
Writing and poetry
Mother Earth is my mother
We can’t leave earth
Van Allan Belt
Leaving Earth is a pipe dream and we’re wasting all of our natural resources so a very few can lie to you
I don’t get my information from YouTube
Since 1970, over 60% of everything has gone extinct
Narcissism is a plague
Make better choices
I’m completely disgusted by the gay community or any man who seeks to undermine femininity and the power a woman has
They’re simply jealous they can’t have babies or breastfeed (soulless narcissist)
They want to be superior and number 1
Asia is Internet espionage (Trojan horse)
The FDA needs eradicated, our food is being poisoned
Jesus Christ hear me now
The Bible was written by the Illuminati who serve a dark entity, are Pedophiles, run Hollywood, NASA, the government, porn
Turn it off
The sun isn’t bad for you but sunblock is
Gaslighting everywhere
On the labels
Coming from the Presidents mouth
I’m dying from the vaccines which gave me heart inflammation
It’s been a long, slow, painful decline
Some days I’m sure I’m getting better, and others I’m certain I’m near the end
Up and down
Just like my breathing and the temps outside
I hope I get paid soon because I’m out of medicine and gasoline and certain food that I could use
Holding the line
Mostly in the field position
And from my bed
Not doing much dreaming in this waking nightmare
I don’t understand what you want from me
Aside to make me suffer, which I do enough of
I WANT LOVE
From a safe distance
Do comply
I wish I were organized
But that’s not how the universe was created
Maybe over time I’ll display order
But uhm chaos theory
It applies
I break all odds
Until I’m lead into a dark cave where maps aren’t really what they say
The sign reads: HELL
You can defeat the devil in you
With sunlight, tree nuts (sorry if you are a dog or have allergies), water, cleanliness, good choices (mistakes not planned okay), positive vibes and energy, high frequency, forgiveness (letting go is okay), not hurting others because you’re bored and soulless and need a rise
Forgiveness includes yourself and it doesn’t mean you have to stay around people who continue to hurt you
It’s hard to break the sugar/starch/junk food cycle I know
It can be done
I drink mostly Florida spring water
And at some point the whole system may crumble and the source wants you to know that it’s OK if it happens because he’s given you everything that you need to survive, it’s just that the narcissist of the world have gobbled it up like hoarders and then they’re selling it to us at the highest price
The Bible has been teaching for thousands of years that our resources are limitless but they’re not
It’s narcissism
I don’t understand why growing up I was always taught as a woman to behave a certain way but now the gay people can just be like that in the open all the time 24/7, it’s just nasty everywhere, like orgy fucking vibes you know
Porn teaches terrible sexual habits
Alcohol is poison and causes early balding (hair loss) and early grey
I’m so hormonal
Like I’m 13 all the time
It’s annoying trying to control my sometimes out-of-whack emotions
It’s like ovaries chill
If I can get my health together I might try to squeeze in having a baby before I’m not able to have any more babies but like I live in hell, there’s only demons everywhere, they all wanna fuck your children and do
They wanna be demented and cheat
They want to do as little as possible so you will do it all
To hang onto some bullshit they sold you in the beginning
Cut the cords 👀
Save yourself
It’s allowed
Also, I never got a chance to tell you that in the beginning I always just assumed it was you who helped me with that thing that one time and I never did ask you I just came out and directed it and I know you don’t like when I assume things even though assuming is in my nature but
Several months later PayPay sent out some invoice that listed the donors (including the anonymous donors), which I thought was super shitty of them to do but alas
I needed to get that off my chest
Because it was super tacky of me to email you and I can’t like pay you back anyway, I don’t think that you would take it if even if I tried to give it to you, but even if I did send it to you I don’t know how that would go and it would feel weird even though I’d like to pay it back (how do you even do it) but also I’m starving and I’m still having to go get food donations so please don’t fucking hate me for being emo that one time and emailing you like I did when I was completely doped up outta my mind on big pharma, which I no longer take
But you helped me keep my ride and I’m eternally grateful and shall never forget
I’m so grateful I give you shit for it anytime I can and that’s probably because my daddy broke me in the worst way possible
It would probably be a whole lot easier if I told people I was a crackhead when I did those things, they probably would forgive me and want me in their life but when you try to blame big Pharma for your fucking actions it just doesn’t have the same weight you know 👀
Must be all the big Pharma propaganda advertising we’re spoonfed 24/7
If there’s any consolation though big Pharma nearly killed me and I’m detoxing from all of it
I do feel shame for my actions but I’m learning to forgive myself
I am grateful but I never lied
I never knew PayPal was going to do that either and they no longer even have PayPal Pool and it’s the only time I’ve ever done a donation campaign to try to save anything in my life
My soul is attached to that Jeep
And the lesson to learn is if I do lose everything including the roof over my head I can’t fucking die
And when you do die, you can’t take anything with you
And so I’ve chilled out on the road rage
The rage in general…
I’m having to learn to let go of a life that I envisioned for myself that I’m never going to have
The humiliation of being human
And constantly tortured
And I keep having to cut off those closest to me or those that I want to be close with
Most of the music you listen to was recorded in a frequency that causes depression anxiety and all kinds of shit and you need to make better choices so that you can get connected with the source and stop serving the singularity which is what the establishment serve AKA society
I know the things that I say are out there but maybe that’s because I’m from out there
I don’t want you to burn
I know you think you’re too far gone but that’s the devil that has a hold of you and you have to learn to be stronger than your current choices and you have to teach yourself better habits
I’m done crying and rambling because my nose is runny and I want to make beans
Those will take 6-8 hours and I never pre-soak
I’m all in
First of all they’re putting fluoride in everything and it’s terrible for you and if you stop using fluoride toothpaste your teeth will be healed within probably two weeks – mine were very very sensitive from all the sugar and crap I was eating but then I also gave up fluoride toothpaste and fluoride water and my teeth and gums are so much better- they don’t have like a cold heat sensitivity anymore! I guess probably within a month they felt so much better!
Stop using fluoride
I use charcoal and now I use coconut oil for my skin, hair, nailbeds
I love you so much and I don’t want you to burn
Stay in the light
Don’t be like Jacob 👇
He predicted his very death
Shame he wasn’t listening
Must’ve been all that horse tranquilizer crap he was on while floating around a manmade whirlpool, which was basically a big fucking dishwasher drain for a gutty
The camera work was terrible and I refuse to go down the rabbit hole to see if there’s any truth about his death (like has anybody been to an actual grave or seen a fucking death certificate or anything like I don’t even give a fuck that’s how you get viruses on your computer) but I did suffer through the 28 minute final YouTube video, it was terrible terrible camera work for a person who was supposed to be a photographer
About 10 minutes in I saw death arrive
The entire video was creep factor
Get you a friend like Jacob if you want to die
It’s really hard to be emo in the UK because of Curtis Ian and his suicide affected the entire country so being suicidal can look very different in my opinion it looked just like Jacob
Who everyone said did this stuff for views
No, he did it for drug money
And if he really wanted to honor his sister, he would have done it by living a life instead
Instead of swirling around a fucking whirlpool that is a drain
I reckon he felt safe in his swimsuit but then he decided to go under you know because he predicted his own fucking death
I get mad because nobody told me not to get vaccinated but it’s my own damn fault I crawled into the cave but also the fucking directions were gaslit
The establishment lied
And big bro hooked up with Asia and was bought out by Hollywood who now want to force the users to use his application (we warned about Asian espionage back in 2008)
If you’re on an android device you can’t even uninstall the Facebook application (which is why I’m no longer using android)
I’m prepared to not have a cell phone at all
And if the government is going to force me to have a number and to be a fucking slave they’re going to start paying me for it and not with canned food and shitty wages
Not with annual rent increases or keeping the housing market rigged so folks can’t buy
God gave me everything I needed when I was born
The earth has everything I need
You’re not God, you don’t even have any skill sets, all you have is influence, all the establishment have is influence, Elon Musk doesn’t even have a fucking degree
Self taught big whoop
Born with a golden spoon
Checks a spreadsheet every morning to see “women aren’t having enough babies”
Because he’s also in bed with Asia and India who have been cloning and serving artificial intelligence, human hybrids and conditioning us for it
People would rather diss me than hear me, people would rather put me up on a cross and crucify me than to change their ways
“He died doing what he loved”
What. You mean drowning?
I’m scared of the whirlpool my bathtub makes when I’m draining the water from it 👀
3 in the clouds
He had, at least 3 warnings from death, to get out – I counted and maybe saw
Anyhoo, I love my ride
Folks like me driving them around the city
You think I’m not any good with secrets but you haven’t given me any worth keeping (poetic)
Maybe it’s not I who is untrustworthy but yourself
And you only wanna surround yourself with extremely intelligent women who are also kind of like slutty and whoreish (have no self-respect)
It’s so easy to see who’s fucking who playing word clue
One side always liking and the other not lol
Old methods and new ones stick out like a sore thumb no?
I can see through all of you but not always with clarity (for my own sanity)
Gullibility gaslighting
But even plants do it
Animals play dead
Still, I thought I was acting like a horses ass until I saw Jacob’s story
Poor lad had all the wrong guidance
He even talks about it “being scary”
But you know how the force gets stronger towards the end of the drain when everything’s about to be through, well I guess after 20 minutes of playing around in it he decided to go into the actual tunnel of it where his wetsuit no longer had buoyancy because it loses its buoyancy underwater and then of course he got pushed down by the singularity
So many phrases come to mind: “stop acting a horses ass”
Hold your horses
Horseplay
But mate, it’s already difficult to breathe in water
You were suicidal and had a death wish
I wish you had better friends
Don’t have friends like Jacob
But this kind of led me down a whirlpool roadmap and then I learned about how dangerous it was to swim in quarries and rivers and I did this stuff a lot when I was younger so I’m just thanking my guardian angels…
I’ve done stupid stuff but never so quite as stupid as putting a mask on in a whirlpool – a mask which prevents breathing and sight
And his fanbase dared him on
You’re a bunch of demons
I’m still trying to learn the lesson for him, I’m trying to take something from his death
Other than the fact that he needed help for his drug addiction and depression, he needed better friends and people needed to be honest with him about what he was doing, that it was actually dangerous, he shouldn’t be doing it and you should get out
To be honest, influencers ruined fandom for me…
And now TikTok is trying to get the big-time Hollywood actors to get with the top influencers and it’s just not working for me, the propaganda no longer works for me, it’s never worked for me!
Going to church doesn’t make you a better person
Demons are obsessed with image
But underneath it’s all damned
Gaslighting 101
I love you but I’m not jumping in the whirlpool for you for views, I’m not sacrificing myself to the singularity and I want to live to be 101 just despite the establishment
Humans are meant to live a hundred years
The sunshine is good for you (especially sunrise and sunset)
Look at this bad boi that arrived from my Amazon wishlist today! 🤩
Military M-9 Bayonet
Mirror mirror on the wall / who’s got the baddest bayonet of them all 🤩
Thank you so much for the amazing safety gifts from my Wishlist!
Safety first! 💪
I was reading an article where the chief said that couple did everything they needed to do to be safe but I didn’t hear anything about them trying to spray him with mace or anything so
I’m definitely not victim blaming
But he gutted two humans in the street and he doesn’t look like he’s got a scratch
He’s not sorry, don’t believe him
He claims there was no motive so he’ll probably get the maximum death penalty in Florida and that likely scares him so he’s going to say what he thinks needs to be said so that he can continue to receive three meals a day and a roof over his head
He’s not sorry…
He’s just doing what his lawyer says
Not saying nothing
THUG
I love my new bayonet, thank you so much!
My neighbor knocked on my door and asked if I could go get her some sodas from the gas station and she offered to pay me $10 so I agreed that I would go do it because to be honest I could use the 10 bucks and I really don’t want to wind up gutted in the street
I’ve also been putting together a bag of food for her because I’ve been doing that for a long time
I went and did a food donation Friday and I’m going to some churches around here that does food donations because I’m calling the 211 number and finding out which ones are in the zones so I can get stocked up but I’ve been sharing with my neighbor
I actually try for peace ☮️
Soldiers above all pray for peace
I don’t want to have to use force but I will
Look at this bad boy
And I have to be super careful because both of them are sharp and the bayonet is heavy
Now I need to go see the chaplain and have him bless all of my items
Terry Aultman, 48, and Brenda Aultman, 55, were apparently riding their bicycles home from Bike Week events when they were attacked, police said.
— Read on amp.news-journalonline.com/amp/9424863002
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Eek. A double sacrifice to the singularity.
I had a black man approach me and scare me Sunday during my live. Don’t think he realized I was live when I got cornered.
Today, I had a black man threaten my life during my live, simply for walking on the public street recording.
Black lives matter. White lives don’t. 👎
Black people are consistently threatening me and scaring me for no reason yet they call me the fucking racist…
I am armed and dangerous. The FBI and CIA will get yah.
Uncle Sam / the Army will get yah.
But I don’t feel safe around anyone or anything.
I’d feel safer sleeping with the gators (no not really).
I know you’d really like to see my city at night but it’s fucking dangerous.
Has anybody seen anything threatening during my lives?
I wonder if I need to take them my video or if he was in that same area that I was in during the afternoon.
I wonder if I should just stay the F home.
This was a married couple riding their bike home.
Another bike murder.
And I wanted to fix my bike 😩
Welp. Maybe not.
Try and stay safe y’all. We’re in end times.
I got triggered today but won’t be anymore.
The next time someone comes at me with an attack I’m just gonna like look through them as if they are a ghost and disappear into the fucks I don’t have…
Or, immediately call 911 and say a man is threatening my life WITH DESCRIPTIONS of his looks and whereabouts
Do y’all ever use a mirror to look for bombs under your vehicles? Or tracking devices?
Do y’all constantly change your route and routine?
Do y’all constantly look in your rearview or check your 60?
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Started yesterday!
Got a mount for the Jeep! Gonna finally sort it and set it up, take you for a drive through the city!
See the bikers!
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