PoeEternal

He left me
He filled me with curse
Heart swelled and I feel worse
Just like I’m dying

You gotta be 16 to even get this fucking thing because it hurts so bad

and they probably know it’s causing blood clots and all kinds of other undisclosed shit

“Just wait until enough happen, pause it, put it back out”

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I don’t have a box for my bones

I want a box

Other people want to find God

I want to find a box

I need a box

Unmarked is okay at this point

I don’t even have my legacy in print

I’d like to think I wrote one or two that may be worth of value in 200 years when they make me their inspiration to uprise against the NWO

“Safe for people with underlying health issues”

Ha!

Blankets with smallpox

Gaslighting

She said “You’re too young for your heart to be looking like that, I don’t like how your EKG looks”.

Who is she? My Primary care doctor who ordered my EKG.

I’m blaming COVID vaccinations

After dose 1 when my blood pressure dropped really low.

Remember?

But the CDC quietly pushed under the rug the blood clots this shit is causing and I was already having fucking issues so I just played Russian Roulette.

I know I’m not gonna wait around for the VA to fucking call me to schedule me for my ultrasound

I hope I drag my ass into the ER in the morning

I can’t even think about what’s going on right now, it only causes my fucking heart to hurt worse.

Under a heating pad cuz warmth is life

I didn’t have to get this fucking thing

Yeah crawling to the emergency room and hopefully because it’s heart related I won’t have to stay there for hours and hours but that’s better than waiting on the VA to call me for a fucking ultrasound

So I’ll call my doctor from the ER in the morning and ask her to approve my ER visit

Because I have to get permission like a good little sheeple if I wanna use any kind of fucking hospitals outside of the VA system.

The VA will more than likely cover it but I gotta fucking ask.

There’s been a time or two I have thrown the bill at them and told them they were going to pay it despite me not getting permission first.

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Have hyper-ventilated a couple times since getting the information this morning.

This shit causes blood clots and people have died over it and it may be some miracle that I’m even still a fucking live….

I didn’t even need to get this fucking thing since were mingling together vaccinated and un-vaccinated now.

It’s safe it’s relatively safe it’s fucking safe you’ll be OK oh it’s safe you’ll be fine it’s safe millions of Americans have done it it’s safe meanwhile the CDC quietly hushed about the fact that it’s causing blood cots huh

Thanks guys

I played along and I fucking lost

Hey you’re burying me under the fucking Titanic!!!!

*drowns*

Can Instagram / BIG BRO do something about the annoying spam accounts that follow us?

Because they aren’t “inactive” are they?

They are liking my content, following me, and then commenting – because now the only way people can even comment on my public profile is if you follow me.

I’ve had to get that strict with my public account about these fake spam promotion accounts that now my public profile isn’t even available for public commenting. 🤬

Annoying.

But that doesn’t stop the problem, it seems now it makes it worse? 🤔

And my real followers are very quiet, so I likely wouldn’t even show up in the explore feed.

I did one thing yesterday and got overloaded with a bunch of promotion spam accounts that followed me, liked a bunch of my content, and commented.

Toxic as fuck.

I simply followed OnlyFans on Instagram.

That’s it. I didn’t like any of their content, I did not tag them in any kind of post, or comment, I did not share any of their content on my profile. I simply followed them.

And within five seconds a bunch of spam accounts showed up and made my profile active and maybe now it’ll show up in the explore feed but I know I’ve got to go in there and weed them all out now, right? 🤔

Or, do I report them one by one and see if Instagram will actually do their fucking job?

That’s probably likely what I will do but it’s going to take an annoying amount of time and I actually have to work today and tomorrow.

So I’m busy.

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I’m too busy to babysit my fucking Instagram of all the spam accounts that keep annoying me.

Does anybody else deal with this problem? How do you manage it?

The annoying, UNWANTED spam paid promotion accounts?

Cuz I’m at my wits end dealing with Instagram.

FYI: I don’t buy followers – the people who do follow me do so mostly in secret which is why you never see my numbers really change or grow (despite the glaring growth via my blog).

I don’t buy likes which is also why you never see my numbers really change.

Most of them just want to drown me on the bottom of the fucking Titanic.

I don’t use third party apps for my accounts either.

For the most part I follow the TOS rules but I still get in trouble. 👀

It’s bad enough I’ve been shadowbanned and I have to deal with these annoying promotion accounts all the time and it isn’t just when I follow someone on Instagram. Sometimes I don’t have to do anything at all but wake the fuck up.

Social media is toxic.

I try not to be toxic.

Transparent but not toxic.

Truthful and emo because I wear my heart on my sleeve.

It would be cool if I could find an account that actually wanted me to be a real ambassador or something (because let’s face it, most of those ambassador accounts are just spam accounts too), most of the shit that I come in contact with is just spam, it’s just spam, more spam collecting in my fucking life!!!

Add it to the Spectrum mailing offers that never cease despite a direct order by me to do so! Via phone, email, written, etcetera!

I’m seriously about to go Russell Crowe Unhinged on Spectrum.

You feel me?

I’m sick to fuck of spam clogging up my life!!!!

Anyhoo, it’s not even 8 AM and I’m already venting.

Life is exhausting.

I need a gig soon.

The army is building super soldiers (the regulations were getting so ridiculous that after 15 years I was done). The new regulations on hair, nails, and tattoos were insane. They don’t just want us all to be the same, they want us all to look the same now too. The Army moved past the “don’t ask, don’t tell”, and now we’re all just eh… androgynous.

Big Bro is building sheeple who will behave and he is molding us and monitoring us and watching us every second of the day.

From what we buy to what we say.

We must obey

Or what, risk being banned from all Internet like Trump?

They made an example of him just like they did Jesus Christ.

Well how did they earn our trust you ask?

This pandemic. Being skimpy on passing out vaccines to build demand for it and offering incentives to behave. Free donuts. Free beer. Free hotdogs. Other freebies.

Watching the government sweep in with cures so we can trust them.

Mother, should I trust the government? 👀

In recent lessons past, like smallpox with blankets, the answer is no.

Question everything.

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But in 200 years, things will be very ordered.

I really hope for a Terminator style revolution or that Apophis gives us a chance to start again or maybe even Elon musk if we can get to Mars.

I don’t like things.

Pets exist to keep us distracted.

Racism. Politics.

We don’t actually have a say.

It’s all a ploy.

I’ve never once voted for any of my taxes to go to NASA nor do I want them to.

Why isn’t that on the fucking ballots?

So something gets voted in 1954 and we just agree with it forever?

NASA are murderers.

Basically Boeing.

And if it’s Boeing, I ain’t going, even if they change their fucking name.

NASA unnecessarily took a risk they didn’t need.

Everybody said no but there was that one person in power every time who overrode it.

NASA had to retire the space shuttle because it’s fucking dangerous.

They weren’t advancing.

Space agency is a rue to keep us distracted from the fact that we’re fucking slaves.

Elon Musk is landing rockets now.

I want my tax money going to him!!!

He cares about the safety of his crew and doesn’t take unnecessary risk!!!!

NASA = Titanic and everybody worships what they’ve done!!!!

It’s madness.

I’ve gone insane.

Trump had to shut Boeing down because they also didn’t care about safety.

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And when I found out Boeing was behind NASA it all made fucking sense.

When I found out Bush owned most of the oil stock in the world, while a President, even though he had been arrested for cocaine use, I almost choked on my own saliva.

There’s been many soldiers I’ve spoken with who also believe that 9/11 was an inside job (as do I).

I generally study things thoroughly before I gain an opinion and I don’t get my Intel from Wikipedia.

Paranoid?

Absolutely.

You studied Stuxnet yet?

Jesus fucking Christ

They need to invent a better word than paranoia

I got to stop avoiding my therapist calls now.

I’m sure he can see that I’m attending my medical appointments so he hasn’t called the cops on me or anything he doesn’t think I’m dead or whatever that’s good but I got a lot of stuff to catch up on.

Let me pull a pickle from my bag and tell you what makes me cry today.

Or wanna jumps from a bridge

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Pssst Pink Floyd + weed = bliss

I’m okay.

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Although my dog just nearly made me have a melt down from his loud ass barking randomly for no reason other than he isn’t a dog anymore since my neighbor chased him around the fucking parking lot and threatened him

He’s a 20 pound ball of anxiety now

And I can’t deals.

I seriously want to go all John Wick on my neighbor sometimes you know?

I’m on bed rest and I’m gonna watch Unhinged with Russell Crowe because I did that on dose one and it was such a good movie.

I want to go all Russell Crowe with the system

Or Like Trinity in the Mayrix

Bonnie and Clyde’s attitude but with authority

I’ve been heavily programmed by the army to fuck the enemy up and to protect you at all cost.

It is my code.

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And they got to program me for 15 years.

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I’m like the Terminator assigned to protect you.

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I’m a damn good soldier

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But even in the Army I pressed the rules a time or two.

I was made to do it.

Like escaping mental asylums.

Easy Peezy

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I need to go work for the FBI and the CIA

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In the “special” unit

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I was watching this documentary where they were having a buzzer that was going off at a clinic that people would come to and someone would stand up every time the buzzer would go off so then everybody else started standing up every time the buzzer would go off even though nobody knew why they stood up every time the buzzer went off but everybody started doing it and I would’ve been the one person yelling like “what the fuck are you doing, have you all gone mad”.

And in psychology there’s a term for this but I can’t remember it.

Or, Like how when someone will stand on the corner of the street and look up at a building and then everybody else will come and start looking up but nobody even knows why they’re doing it but if they gain a crowd of people just standing there looking up at the fucking building like, “what the fuck is wrong with y’all“?

So no, I’m not a sheeple.

Monkey see but monkey don’t do.

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Monkey get mad

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*starts bouncing all over the room*

*crowd turns and looks at the lone monkey and stones her “crazy”*

LOCK HER AWAY!

Yeah because clearly I’m the fucking problem

The rules are fucking ridiculous and I’m not gonna follow them.

Ban me!!!

Crucify me!!!!

You’re all a bunch of fucking slaves!!!!

(Me too)

*sobs*

Just because everybody is doing it, it doesn’t mean it’s right.

NASA Religion Porn it’s all the same entity and it exists to keep you distracted from the fact that you are a slave, Neo.

Red pill or blue?

How far into the rabbit hole do you want me to take you?

Do you want to be free?

You can feel that somethings wrong, you’ve always known?

Douglas MacArthur once said that above all the soldier prays for peace and he wasn’t wrong.

Monday wasn’t the first time I was almost arrested nor will it be my last and I’ll probably be nearly getting arrested on my deathbed.

Wild child full of grace / savior of the human race

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I think that’s my actual motto

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So much writing on the wall, can you read it all?
Can you see through the haze when the writing’s small?
Can you read what it means, is it making sense?
‘Cause it’s all dollar, bills, and pounds, and pence
Telling you what to do and what pills to take,
When your head’s in your hands and your belly aches,
Where to go in the world when you need a change,
Don’t you worry about the bill, that can be arranged.
Make me sad, make me sleep, make me question,
Give me things that can calm this depression.
Let me know what to do when my money’s spent,
Let me know how to smell and to pay the rent,
Let me know what to do when my hair is gone,
Let me know who to kill when the war is on.
There’s a woman of your dreams and she’s on the phone,
Better send her a text when you’re on your own.
Make me sad, make me sleep, make me question,
Give me things that can calm this depression.
So much writing on the wall…
Feel, trust, obey…

https://youtu.be/QmmQYvuKErE

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How long before big bro convinces Apple to allow them to have Facebook installed in the devices as an app you cannot remove like they did for Android?

I had always been a Samsung galaxy gal and now I’m moving into the world of Apple which is like Alice in wonderland for me currently with a brain injury but whatever you can’t uninstall Facebook on android devices if you get the newer phones – it’s part of the phone now and one of the main reasons I went to Apple because big bro has been punishing me on Facebook and Instagram and threatening to ban me from both accounts but then yet I couldn’t remove his app from my fucking phone…

Is that like reason enough to go mad and die in the streets?

Yeah probably

But I ain’t gonna

It’s madness.

Did you actually hear though what I just told you?

I’m being threatened by both Facebook and Instagram to be banned from using their applications and yet I couldn’t uninstall the app from my android device because it’s part of the phones now.

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Depression awareness

(And the things I’m getting in trouble for it’s really confusing to me especially because there a girls out there actually doing sexual solicitation and are practically naked and their post gets to stay and they can talk about 0F)

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Edgar out Allan Poe ran into an issue when he couldn’t get the local press to publish his stories

He was broke

Hungry

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Died naked in the street

His family said they didn’t care for him alive so didn’t care for him dead and tossed him into an unmarked box on an unmarked grave

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I have trouble breathing some days

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Depression awareness

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Big bro has been working on making Facebook virtual reality hasn’t he

And now this fucking pandemic is keeping me forced inside these fucking walls like a prison

Though I’m fully vaccinated now I can still get sick and I still have to wear my mask when I go out and shit

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So I don’t really want to go out and shit because I don’t wanna wear my mask and I don’t wanna get sick

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*bow down before the one you serve*

Eh, I want in? Let me back in!!!!!

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Virtual reality now please

K, thanx, bye

(don’t ban me from internets)

All hail the Illuminati

*makes triangle shape by head*

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So other girls can say booty all day long and

Bootyworkout all day long but as soon as I do it I’m fucking threatened to have my account deleted

I’ve never had anybody buy me flowers or take me to the opera or spoil me in any form or fashion and I guess it’s because I don’t have experience being gangbanged up my ass hole

She stole from me and he rewards her and there’s nothing I can do

Experience? Okay? Let’s compare my resume to her resume and then let’s talk about experience

Someone had to teach her how to be like that and you don’t see all that behind the scenes

I’m agitated that I am overlooked because my experience doesn’t consist of guys gangbanging me in my asshole

I’m just some little gal that loves some dude that worships her

I’m just a little account making my own way doing my own thang

She has never moved like that once on her account

Every time I visit her page she’s got more and more worshipers

And now, she’s done my signature booty move

It will drive a person insane

Like when the local press wouldn’t publish Edgar Allan Poe’s stories so he died on the fucking street

It feels the fucking same

Especially when people plagiarize from me

Look – models have a signature move – and my booty move was mine.

Like my intellectual property is mine.

But I guess now it’s hers

She gets everything and I get to die on the street!!!!

Yay!!!!!

He think she’s utterly enchanting and she’s stealing my signature booty moves, so the story goes…

We both Top Creators (she is doing better, I’m only touching the tip of the summit)- she don’t need to be dipping her toes into my pool – but she has done!

Had he not told me he loved me and that he wanted to marry me, I may have already been dead on the fucking street…

She already has everything and now she has my signature booty move too on her fucking profile.

I might cry.

I know it was him who renewed for a year on her OF and he got her that thing off her Amazon wishlist and now she’s stealing my booty moves

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I know exactly why Edgar Allan Poe died on the street and these are the same motherfuckers that would’ve locked me on the bottom of the fucking Titanic

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Oh you stealing my signature booty moves and my man.

Cute

She stole my signature booty move

I swear to fuck

Yesterday he said he loved me and tonight he proposed and somewhere between all that excitement I fell asleep on him

Welp

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