Invalid Date

Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.


Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.

Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.

244.

I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)

I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy

All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –

My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe

I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month

Gotta keep em guessing

I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming

I just hit delete notification and uninstall

I hope TikTok gets banned

And Instagram

And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact

We’ve never communicated there

It was an anonymous thang

And like X amount of years later – first contact

I almost paid you back

But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho

And got tired of the outting and the spam emails

And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was

I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion

MUTILATED mutilated

Oh well now I got it

Whatever

Fuck it

“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”

My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)

So I no longer own a TV

My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related

Just an observation – she’s a cunt

(The Boomer mom)

My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me

And I blocked her and never looked back

Then last year my sister died

And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital

The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies

I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks

My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”

His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me

I ghosted my father when I was ten

People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation

The Boomers

Who hold most of House

Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge

I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief

“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”

Because he was a fucking psychopath

She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her

It’s not my job to save you

You gotta save yourself down here

Stop being an asshole

I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from

The phone can’t even type the letters I press

I got a hacker from India inside my phone

My modem was destroyed

I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear

I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word

I spend more time correcting than I do writing

I don’t care if I misspell anymore!

It’s the algo, not me!

More poetry coming soon


P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.

CONCERNING

Just gonna erase history huh

Wipe us out, take over

The Great Race war is real

I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do

White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!

I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us

No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave

Take money from me for it and there will be consequence

Byeee


Gotta get this off my chest

Someone posted a tiktok of a 911 call – with a man dying and taking dying breaths

Another user commented it “turned him on”

Also Chicago was overrun by darkness

And the local cop here told me I need to move – “out of Daytona”, “all of Daytona is bad” “I hate to tell you to move” “I hate to lose someone level headed like you”

Well, I’m more reckless than anything – but absolutely still serve my country – I ain’t running away – I practice running a lot though – on my trampoline

Gotta make sure I can wind the Devil

They gonna try and shoot you from the back

Zig zag but with skates?

I don’t miss my shot tho

The Army trained me to hit moving targets 500m back

I’m efficient up to 350m but definitely passed all my skill sets

I ain’t gonna have a skill issue

I was only 4 rounds from expert first time on the 9mil

The hubby got a lot of work to do


“I gotta girl / you want to meet her? / her name is 9mm”


90s hip hop yo


Other men dying – turn men on

Uhm, men hearing babies cry, turns them on


Squirrel

Another weird death

This one shook me

He hung himself in a closet and wasn’t discovered for 8 months, the hoarding was so bad

I’ve never owned my own home but narcissism is a plague

Their house was so dirty, he wasn’t discovered for 8 months

He probably knew

I struggle with daily suicide ideation

Stay in the light

And clean up yo dirty house


He probably knew tho

“It’ll take them months to find me”…

“One day, she’ll open us this door and find me”

“Fuck you”


Bless his heart, don’t know his name or story or if this is even true (I did not verify)


Was reported missing – home searched twice by police – died via hanging himself in a closet – not discovered until he had mumified


Hey boo, did you know mummification was so easy too?


Apparently only 25% of women on TikTok are worthy of marriage material


I’m glad I get comments sometimes like “you won’t last on the market long”

Maybe not all are ageist

My man gotta think I’m hot in the garden dirty and 80

I wanna live to 100

He gotta help me get there

I got goals

Not dying in a closet undiscovered 8 months

Not getting gutted like Bob

Not letting an immigrant get near me

Sleeping in the lion’s den with mold

Helps


The plot thickens

I thought Bob was in-the-closet gay

But now it’s worse

I think he was bi – f*cking both the brother and the sister – but the brother was also f*cking the sister, which is legal in his country and they don’t adopt American ideology or policy or change their spots obtaining a green card

And the doctor hired the hit because he wasn’t losing his expensive, artificial, soulless Barbie because his yellow fever propaganda returned home “for a few seconds” (but the demon doll fell asleep so how could she know how long he stayed or when he left)

Do you think Netflix would buy my story?

Yes? Maybe? No? (Pick one)


THIS

People dropping rhyme in comments and I’m feeling jelly


“He came quickly”

“He came very quickly and then left”

🙂

Sounds accurate

I know I’m not well – it’s just – He left very quickly is all cuz she fell asleep so how could she know anything?

🙂

Are they Iranian? Muslim? Persian?

Now don’t be mad (you will)

But I dug foxholes in Iraq – I saw the salt lines where it had been under water – I stated “this is where Lu fell”

I was in my 20s

(I don’t condone violence but don’t they do stonings still over there)

But my kind is called savages?

Well, I’m starting to believe a Native sold us out to a white man – still MY HOME LAND

And the immigrants are doing honor killings under our policies

“Surprising details”

(They probably won’t tell and I sound racist)

(They’re demons)

(Hush now)

God loves you

Sleep well 🙂

Heart symbol


The comments: https://nypost.com/2023/04/14/nima-momeni-allegedly-killed-cash-app-founder-bob-lee-over-fight-about-sister-court-docs/

RIP Bob – heart symbol

The sister returned a heart symbol sign in the courtroom – after you murdered someone she loved?

“Love you pricks” (last text)

WOW

Demon or delusional?

But a billionaire with someone who is a fake plastic Barbie – and not white – of course – is more in tune with reality

And married – (separated doesn’t count)

Where are all the “great husband” “great boyfriend” “great lover” quotes

AI and plastic surgery is not the way

It’s so corrupt – they’re turning on one another

Just like on the streets

Adultery is a sin

“I don’t love you, I love her” would be a better surprising detail

He’s just another man with his pants down – and trying to steal another man’s wife (triangulation)

These monsters go from one relationship to another without so much as breathing

Your whole life was in that phone huh

She was ready to leave her husband

For you

Awe

Little sinners

“Don’t believe in God”

“We are God”

“We make our own rules and make the sheeple follow”

Don’t be like Bob

I’m certain there was a FaceBook meme circulating

Or maybe it was Bill

That meme was made for him

I’m so disgusted by society

And everyone is so on edge and unhinged

Drove you to a dark secluded area and you still didn’t read the red flags?

I mean, you’re not even cold in your grave yet, and she’s giving your murderer a heart symbol

Awe boo

They’re famous now

He planned your murder (according to police evidence) and I hear he may only get 20 years

Probably get off on “good behavior”

How much to kill a billionaire?

Don’t give the cops your twenty and see if the killer gets 20

*popcorn*

The streets of Florida aren’t any less dangerous than the streets of California cuz you sold America out bro – you and your boomer daddy

Stabbed in the heart – God told you to chill but noooooooooo had to keep getting up

RIP Bob – heart symbol

RIP Bob – heart symbol

The Sister huh

Oh shit

Wait and he owned a unit there too

*popcorn*

So the killer’s plastic sister is married to a plastic surgeon

AND

Bob saw her

Still, you give up your own life to defend your sister from doing something she wanted to do?

Was he fucking you both?

Oh is this the “surprising details”

Well I’m all in…

Go on…

I don’t hear “great husband” in any of the articles tho

It is better than most movies coming out these days

Let’s expose the tech giant

My imagination is going wild out here

But there’s no one to call when you’re dying? Like he had a phone.

Folks say he could still be around if the car did something

He could have stayed down the first time

I would have found a tree or bashed some windows in

The peace or the chaos

He thought he owned the world at 43

Couldn’t be touched

Was he fucking the brother and the sister tho?

Maybe that would be the better surprising details – if he was bi and all 🙂

I’m allowed to write my poetry and grieve via anger – he ruined Cash App and Android and his marriage and maybe someone else’s?

I’m not going to jail because my sibling was cheating tho

What am I missing? Who got the clue or the unlocked article?

They ain’t getting my .25 – I don’t care how juicy the details get

I ain’t dealing with the devil

It is cheaper than a movie ticket tho but probably still full of ads

I wanna remove them from my blog soon – it’s just I’m protesting WordPress and that prick

Is he next!?! (I don’t condone violence nor want anyone to die)

(But sometimes I laugh when people do)

(I have not laughed at Bob)

(Bob should have kicked his teeth out – or did something with his phone)

(I’m bothered by his deep grip and apparently have an ocd about how he died)

And why did the arrest take so long?

“Came down on you hard”

“Handled it with class”

Last texts

*popcorn*


Bob’s dead (poetry)

He won’t give his twenty
Claims he is bleeding
Disconnected –
Call is ending
Streets are empty
Can anyone hear Bob screaming?


Angel investor
Married but not together
Machine his predecessor
A wife he couldn’t pleasure


All hail AI / Bob has died


Caught stumbling all alone
Gripping his phone
Dripping blood
Like a trail of bones


Stabbed and shunned
Car with hazards on
A billionaire with no gun
City center is fun!


Close enough to be stabbed in the chest twice – with a kitchen knife


Bob was perfect at everything but being a husband eh (gaslighting)


I’m not stupid, Bob. How dare you. “I sleep with men but I’m not gay”. LOL (God)


M’kay whatever you say


(This is how I mourn. It’s called the 7 stages of grief. I’m on ANGER)


Seeking help but wouldn’t give the one call your location – fucking lost – on a street you mostly lived – c’mon!!!!

You should have stayed down! The adrenaline spikes got yah!!!!

“Angel investor” NO BRO – DEMON who doesn’t even Tweet or acknowledge women – it’s sharing “bro this”, “bro that” and comments to other boys about “why aren’t you here already” and current posts from said person ain’t shed a tear of your passing

Delusional bro

AI is not the way

White pawns are under attack

White lives don’t matter

Bob, you should have stayed down


Your lovers fake plastic sister living in a 2 million highrise – in the same building you own

I got the popcorn out

You remember the Looking Glass?

God already won

The Devil taking his fine time drawing his last move – getting as many souls as he can – drowning demon


Image is everything to these demons – they wrote the playbook for crying out loud – in the closet gay!!!! He’s ruined the world! His daddy too!

Maybe I’m sorry but maybe I’m not!


Sidenote: they don’t get it – but I inherently get it. I wouldn’t normally either. However, this instance, it’s like a direct arrow to my broken soul. Boom this way to the singularity. No no this way to heaven. It’s like you and I play pull rope (what the hell is that rope game actually called)

I can’t recall JJ’s nn either – and he’s the one who sent it to me through the ether. I was all offended and like “no bro”. He loved it.

I’m trying to quit this Russian weed – my brain needs time to sort the pathways

I mean, if I had a phone, and I needed HELP, I’d like CALL the authorities and like “I’m at a glass building, I’m dying”

He knew them streets like the back of an Android

YOU OUTTA THE CLOSET NOW BRO

Gave it a decade huh then ran back home to live with daddy

GAG

“My best friend”

I wanted to punch my mom when she said that about her first born – as I was the family slave ghosted (triangulation)


Stop lying about these big techs

If he was such a great father, why was he near divorced, and out late at night with another man

And living at home with daddy

And Cash App turned to shit

Android I had to also ditch – after it became corrupt

It’s all a fake, artificial world

I HATE IT

This is not the NATURAL way of things

Bob was such a great guy huh, how long did his fake marriage last?

How long will you spread the lies?

Big Tech sucks

Is Elon next?

Like why Bob (insensitive content below)

Like why were you walking around there at 2:30 at night?

Sources claim you moved via the crime (you helped create) – but yet returned for work – yet was trolling the streets – assumingely – without a weapon – and was stabbed twice with a kitchen knife – and all you can think to do is cling to your Android – you helped create – and chase after cars – instead of sitting down – stopping the bleeding – at least not putting MORE strain on your heart – but no – you just had to keep getting up and walking around

Like bro

You didn’t call your fam?

If John Jones could squirm in his grave, he would.

Clutching that AI device like it was God

Called the cops – didn’t say where you were or keep the on?

Just hmmm where is everybody at bleeding out?

Let me guess, it went like this

“Hi, I’m Bob, the Cash App founder, I’ve been stabbed. I’m bleeding.” *lifts shirt*

And so the cars drive off

It’s a typical after midnight don’t get involved in scenario – you must have missed the memo?

It’s literally the worse-case-scenario and you walked right in – despite knowing how dangerous California is – which is why you moved to Florida – so you could finish turning it to shit

I know you are “in the closet gay” – I have seen these types of relationships in the military – and billionaires don’t fuck fat wives (maybe out of obligation)

Looking at family photos – zero chemistry – but maybe I’m a kunt

I didn’t stab you with a kitchen knife – twice mind you – at 2:30 am

You didn’t even fight back dressed in fashionable apocalyptic wear?

You had the best and most expensive device – cops still took a slow 6 minutes arriving – despite TWO cops in the area

Bro – I’m researching who I’ve been buying my state weed from – turns out it’s the Russians – surprise!

Anything to quit this nightmare

I knew Cash App and PayPal was going down – like bro – I deleted my accounts – not long ago – and now you’re dead

I saw the red flags

America is under siege and you were bleeding out and going into shock – you might still be here – if you had sat down –

This goes without saying but women no longer can walk in broad daylight without being in danger

“It’s a man’s world” and look what you turned it into

I would have drove away too

My first thought, “safety first” and those circumstances do not scream safe – maybe you would have had more of a chance of getting said help – if you were a nobody

If it was a hit job – which would be an instant thought of “cash” “stabbed” – who would want to get involved and become a victim too? It’s the one thing our Boomer parents warned us about. “Don’t go wandering the streets after sundown”. It was our one curfew. “Be home before dark” and even then we crossed the lines. “Boy you were cutting it close” / “there’s still some pink in the sky”

The Mayor or whoever of Cali is edging us on, “you’ll be surprised” she says “at the details”

Somewhere between Bob dying, another someone got beat with a bat, and the FED launched their version of a Cash App

And Big Cannabis is Big Russia who is changing and gutting our policies

I’m ready to get rid of my phone all together

I mean, Bob helped create Android and Apple share videos on how your phone can save your life – but maybe people need classes on how and when to use it – in an emergency – because Bob was a poster board of all the things Not-To-Do

Bob separated from his wife to move in with his father – how gay (no judgement)

A billionaire living at home with daddy

Not impressed

I watched God push you down

You just kept going

Even dying, wouldn’t drop your phone

“In AI we trust”

God gave me eyes to see but not a mouth of silk

“I got a mouth of filth”

I’d really like some milk

So another Gen X white male is gone

We’re not allowed to have anything

Yeah you got that nice big house in misery (potentially) but you also got gutted in taxes and I would’ve hung myself with 10 foot rope (which means it was probably a failed suicide where I broke some bones instead)

Wait. What.

(I’m talking to a GenX who may or may not be a genx and is mostly a ghost in my head)

Your dad claims you were his best friend, but he didn’t teach you not to walk the streets at night!?! Unarmed!?!

You could afford to hire a bodyguard?

Have a gun?

Unless the killer wasn’t some random bum or hitman – but instead someone close – who could stab you in the left side of your chest – with a kitchen knife

Was it the same one from dinner?

I’ve been reading how lots of murders happen when people are dining or in the shower – by “loved ones”

Also – in bed – sleeping

Vindictive

Remorseless

No soul

Which makes therapy and treatment useless – for those who can’t change – and should be shot like a bear

And I’m tired of bear getting shot over you

Bear angry

Bear justified

I don’t believe in cultural diversification

I guess Bob didn’t get the memo

Here’s the thing, it will be so easy to take out the civilians we swore to protect – in the end – weaklings – but the enemy is using them against us

That couple got gutted in the street last year

And now poor Bob, with a kitchen knife, in Cali

Ironic he thought Florida was any safer

But then moved out of Cali for it being unsafe – but goes back for a business trip – to wander around the streets after dark –

Elon probably does have security when/if he leaves his Pedo farm

Elon pointed out something in his tweet tho – per chance hinting it was a criminal – someone with a prior arrest sheet – who offed Bob

So you had that phone the whole time and the cops were the only one you called? While dying? Clinging to your phone?

And John didn’t get a second phone call on Thanksgiving

Which was his dying wish

I wouldn’t take my dog out at 2:30 am on the 4th cuz I said “some shit is going down”, “I can feel it in the air”

I guess what I meant was the ether…

“He was my best friend”

My mom said the same thing about my sister, who recently died age 45

Strange, these Boomers are losing their first borns – almost biblical

(Was Bob a first born?)

Diversification is very very bad

Especially when it means other races are being wiped out

Hi. I’m part of the 244.

Anger is a legit mood when someone dies.

It’s part of the 7 stages of grief – interchangeably

I can stay angry for the rest of my life

“Take me from all this death”

She was chasing the Singularity

“I love you too much, to condemn you”


Wiki has already been updated and you’re not cold in your grave


Matthew 7:13

John Jones took the narrow gate
He did not hesitate
But ohh the words he cried
Upside down he died

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

The moon from my window

My poetry is so elementary huh

He yells at me to grow up and I cry that I never did

Men aren’t doing what they were originally programmed to do

I’ve been busy trying to save the world while they destroy it – I haven’t had a chance to work on me

America was sold out and topics are being censored in group therapy which means my free speech has been impeded upon, I will throw a fit and not participate (quit/disconnect the video call/walk out)

I draw lines

Sometimes I draw guns

Disabled not dead

Trigger happy

Able and capable

Don’t think I can play with the big toys yet – like my m16 – kickback

I got a girl / you want to meet her / her name is 9mm


Regret (poem)

I regret crawling into that cave
Claw marks where I engrave
Rage like a heatwave
Headlamp won’t light the way
I rest here today

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

I don’t want wifi anymo

It’s got to go

More seeds for the dream yard

They are non GMO so I don’t have to burn them

Also scored a free book (limited supply) from the library

Unfortunately, despite NASA being a great joke, The Martian is still a favorite film (minus the gay hollywood music)

I don’t know what I’m allowed to have in life, or keep

Like why am I hoarding seeds and dreams?

And can things grow at Yellowstone? (Pro)

Will I accidentally boil myself in a hotspring? (Con)

Land near Yellowstone is cheap (pro)

But it’s also near a volcano (con) (unless maybe you’re suicidal!?!) (tbd)

Cheap land comes at a cost huh

So does visiting your old url

Fuck you


US sees recent rise in maternal deaths, CDC report shows

US sees recent rise in maternal deaths, CDC report shows – CNN
— Read on amp.cnn.com/cnn/2022/02/23/health/maternal-deaths-increase-us-report/index.html


Keep tap dancing over the fact that the death jab is the enemy! White Lab coats! Nurses in comfy shoes!

We got all these pedos running around and no mamas or babies. Just an FYI

Most young women have clotty periods now. Listed as “heavy flow”.

Been sterilized yah know

An entire race

Enjoy yer porn

Global study on homicide

About 90 per cent of all homicides recorded worldwide were committed by male perpetrators
— Read on www.unodc.org/unodc/en/data-and-analysis/global-study-on-homicide.html


90% of all murders happen by MEN

Porn activates the PRIMAL side of the BRAIN 🧠

Females go in heat too

Learn to control your urges

Clearly you can’t handle leading a double/triple life

Local Void (poetry)

Alas, The Great Nothing
I warned what was coming
Every single morning
Why’s no one running?

I’m sick of slumming
Overlord act cunning
Tell him I’m humming
I’m done succumbing

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Postscript *please do not read*

You ever have a near death experience that lasted a long time?

I just saw a demon toss a live tree in the trash.

Onto the next holiday.

Apparently honey bees have a reduced lifespan by 50% thanks to science.

I don’t recall voting on whether we were allowed to edit the DNA of bees.

Like I. Give. Up.


I’d really appreciate it if the doctors and scientists would stop killing everything. I know there’s a DNA ark in Antartica and since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct and honey bees are half life cycle now – so chill.

Not made by China India Mexico

Stop World War 3! 🛑✋🛑

Wakey wakey!!!

The weed don’t work cuz they fucked with it

Stop wasting your money

Unless you got some non gmo herb from before the 90s

Asking for a friend


Mold kills more trees every year than fires or people

Mold is of intelligent design and evil

Mold is from the fucking void

It’s in the walls

It can shapeshift

It can control animals

It loves darkness, death, and decay

Violence

I’m convinced we’re in hell

And holidays aren’t real – manmade time traps

Stop cutting down trees to decorate and trash

Stop murdering everything you fucking demons

I fed the lizards chilling on the air conditioning units today

Feed the god damn animals

Save the trees 🌲


I live for God now (poetry in 8 words)

Tender mercy
Sharpening knives
Overwhelming worry
Ending lives

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

I apparently don’t believe in abortion or euthanasia.

“Thou shall not kill” hits differently for Angel Baby.

Non stop worry and crying followed by a dopamine boost of milk, cinnamon and sugar… left before my free refill, welp… (and left crying lol) (also learned I’m not into normal things)

The little mutt may be a Frankenstein made in a lab, but he has a soul and a heartbeat, and I’m not getting in the way of God or his plans and whatnot.

So I have a hellhound in this timeline. He hates it here (this location) as much as John Jones hates that cave.

Hear, hear

The crows were never here the prior four years.

Neither was BlackRock – who took control of this building

I need out the city

The Titanic is sinking overrun with racism and murder of white folk by Black Lives Matter but white lives don’t

Check the census. It’s not just how people are reporting stupid.

“So you don’t believe in interracial marriage”

You can marry who you want but I don’t want to live in a predominantly black neighborhood ever again…

I’m autistic angelic

I curse and say “autistic”

I’m gonna get committed

The enemy is in a white coat and White House

My mama think I got a “dirty mouth”

Over and out…


To those still lurking, thank you. Maybe one day, a night bloom.

Hell is freezing waters. Heaven has daughters.


Little Black Book (poem)

I got a little black book
Of all the names I hate
Some contain a face
Some I advocate

I got a little black book
But I own no estate
And I’m always running late
Procrastinate

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


I love how a Taco Bell subscription is $10 a month – Walmart $13 a month, the car wash $19.99 per month, but because I’m a commoner, and most men have a porn and gambling addiction, and most men wouldn’t spend a dime on me, let alone a penny, because they’d rather send me marriage proposals or tell me how much I make their dick hard, for three years on social media, because “your pretty” is the validation one needs and they just sold their house or whatever, and I’m suppose to chat with these men on the daily, without them so much as ever buying me a coffee, or joining my incredibly cheap Patreon tier of ONE DOLLAR, even though they tell me they visit my blog and “enjoy” the content and “I’m gonna go far”

You’re right

Far the fuck away

Under a new identity already born


Half (poetry)

Would you still love me
If I broke in half?
And would you still want me
If I came in last?

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


Sitting at the VA writing him rhyme ✍️

When I was age 10, I had a dream about a blonde haired, blue-eyed boy from Maine or Maryland, and he was driving down a long road on a motorcycle.

I knew he was the one from my dream when we met in my 20s briefly

Even if I lose all my teeth, I’m still gonna wanna suck his fucking cock…

Welp.


John was willing to be broken in half to carry on with his life

I know I’m just a dying fantasy

Clinging to hope

He’s young and has the world

I keep having visions of hanging from a tree and him finding me 😑

John would’ve kept crawling if he could…

“I’m not where I thought I was”

“I thought it was going to open up”

“Why did you put me here”

On a positive note, it’s warm today. Hot warm.

I called the skate park. I don’t need safety equipment.

I’m in good spirits despite no self-worth

Whatever you do, don’t get the vaccine or flu shot

Don’t do it…


Utah, JOHN JONES (poetry)

Maybe I’m in Utah
Under martial law
Digging under nightfall
In a low crawl


Hopelessly trapped
Where new earth mapped

Sealed
To keep out the curious
But I am delirious


Don’t keep crawling
At the place you’re getting stuck (says John Jones)


Remember Jones?
Went digging for gemstones
Got stuck; earth clinging to his bones
God bless John Jones


John,
I know the depths you crawled
The barriers
I know how much you bawled
Earth superior

John,
I know you clawed
None merrier
I know once you called
And broke hopes area


Died upside down
Shit rolling along his back
Lost hope
In the black
28 hours later
Dies of heart attack


The constant variable
I find unbearable
My soul unwearable
I just feel terrible


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Fake skull on my bookshelf

Victim blame all you want. The map was changed.

“I’m not where I thought I was”

“I thought I was someplace else on the map”

“I thought it was going to open up”

“Why did you put me here”

BRO, YOU WERE GASLIT AND MURDERED

BRO, THEY ARE DOING THE SAME TO ME ABOVE GROUND

THEY WANT TO COMMIT ME BECAUSE I KNOW THEY ARE MURDERING ME

IT’S A HITLER DEATHCAMP INSIDE THE MEDICAL SYSTEM

I FOUND THE ENEMY EVERYWHERE

BRO, POETRY ALL WEEK FOR YOU

I can’t sleep at night for what they’ve done to us

To what they’re doing

I fantasize about digging you out

“I want out”

“I hate this cave”

Bro, I’m so angry at the folks at the VA

I’m fantasizing about *insert positive context*

Recovery huh

You’re 400 feet from the entrance 100 feet below

Tattoo your name on my heart already

I’m coming to get you bro… come hell or high water

Don’t want the water, already contemplate some shit like that happening digging

“What the hell is that sound”

Desert floods. Welp.

Do I need to worry about gas being built up down there?

I have no problem dragging you out one bone at a time

He literally doesn’t want to be down there

His last will and testament verbally was he wanted to be broken in half to be pulled out

“Break me in half”

They dropped him on his head instead 👍👍

Tied the main pulley support on some clay

AND

Jerked harder when everything was going just fine

“It’s working, it’s working, pull harder”

WHY CHANGE IT UP IF IT WAS WORKING

GREAT RESCUE Y’ALL

Terrible management

Two kids got stuck there in that same section 6 months prior and it took like a 10 hour rescue and instead of marking that territory off they made a new map with MISSING DANGEROUS FEATURES

“I’m not where I thought I was…” John Jones

Well let’s go ahead and victim blame OK

See it in every article

NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

And once our enemy gets the people with the paychecks to kill off us then they’re going to come kill them off

Sometimes I want to let the darkness take over

John Jones died on Thanksgiving so

THAT IS WHY

Also, might’ve kinda met while I’ve been dying

“I talk to dead people” tearfully

Anyhoo there may be more poetry about the shit happening

His story is the icing on the cake in this hell

Nobody should be jealous of a dead boy (new band name)


A Letter to John (freestyle rhyme)

John,

Prayers for insane. Payers don’t get blamed. Layers for the game.

John,

Doomsayers say. Favors come with maim. Strayers have timeframe. I counterclaim.

John,

I have nightmares. Downstairs lost your way. Wares have minimal wage. Flares now come with rage.

John,

Affairs decay. Players turn the page. But what of you became?

John,

I’m not okay.

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

John, I haven’t forgot you were crucified upside down for Thanksgiving. Worst way to die. The very worse. “I’m spitting” hear, hear

Your story is a guidepost for my own wrongdoing.

I can’t get past the, “I thought it was going to open up”

“Yeah, we took that off the map. Figured people with common sense would know dusty means don’t go”

I want to rip his fucking dick off with my teeth, I mean Lorena Bobbitt cut her husbands dick off with scissors and they’re doing fine…

Just saying

Michael Levitt murdered John Jones

Psst… John is here. He’s refractive.


Everything’s OK (the best I got) (freestyle rhyme)

“Everything’s okay”
The sky is grey
The streets are flooded
May sound cliché
But hope cold-blooded
And hell to pay
My faith is studded
And he is my valet
The Devil mudded
Dirty like the clay
He won’t sound thudded
Rotting on display
His position rugged
New earth to survey

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

RIP JOHN JONES

New Christmas fitness skates by Dolls Kill

Hope you’re enjoying the poetry! 🙂


Hopeless (poetry)

Black were the colors
The rain came down in clusters
Like the sky was broken
A black hole formed open

Kneeling on all regret
Footing he’d soon forget
Black roses bleeding
Felt the moon was grieving

Wind blew brunette
Deep pain in his chest
Never saw her cheerleading
No hope proceeding

Hell fell upwards
Hell gained a new monster
The moment potent
Her body hopeless

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


Happy Halloween 🎃

I’ll get more content posted soon.


Risk

He risked it all for that if
He risked it all for her kiss
He risked it all at that cliff
He risked it all and did not miss

He did not miss…

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


I’m sorry they left out details on an updated map not showing risk or location where 2 others had been stuck – and took hours to rescue

I’m sorry that management thought it best to remove features on a map – instead of blocking off entrance and stating instead that anyone with common sense would know “dusty” means “don’t go” “not well traveled” (victim blaming)

I’m sorry you thought you were somewhere you weren’t

And that the dangers and risks weren’t disclosed

“Why did you put me here…?”

Could you imagine if my last mission was a suicidal attempt to come get your bones

Last we saw of her was outside the cave location of John Jones, we think she went inside….

200 years later: bones of John Jones found in mysterious location with the remains of missing….

What’s even stranger is the position they were found in….

*cue the fairytales the establishment dish out as fact*

And thus a new religion was born

Hail whoever the fuck I become in the future

I mean, I do wanna go get his bones tho

*leaves suicide note near dug up entrance / and a black backpack*

CHECKMATE FUTURE ME

*doesn’t die*

*turns 44*

I was screaming for John recently tho – silently from my soul

He came up and was like, “you’re screaming like I’m in Utah..”

Cuz he haz jokes 😌


P.S. if you don’t know who or what I’m talking about, only the greatest tragedy in my living history. An angel was crucified upside down by a demon – who later received a bonus and likely a promotion for “heroic efforts”.

I want to throw up 🤢

His body was left there with over 100 rescue personnel on the clock.

Our tax dollars hard at work.

His bones are still in that cave and one day I’m gonna go get em’…

He hates that fucking cave…

There are things that had happened down there that Michael Leavitt says “will never be disclosed” and I’m gonna make him disclose them…

The patience and the craft of a warrior gone rogue

30 years time

This ain’t Minority Report

Although a kid did get arrested for making a threat during a video game

My PS4 has been factory reset and is in the STUFF TO BE SOLD AT THE PAWN box

The content is propaganda and subliminal messaging

I’m trying to get through to you

Espionage everywhere

But what do you see

Also – PayPal has listed someone as a contact who once donated to me anonymously

I found out about the anonymous donor – or rather who it was – about six months or so later – in an end-of-the-year PayPal statement

Fucking fantastic

The goddamn glitches in this timeline

The anomalies

And now Instagram tells people “followed by so-in-so”

There is no privacy here

My TV hasn’t been turned on in weeks

I wanna turn into one of them vets who live in the country with their own radio coms

Telephone? We ain’t got one of them here. You gotta drive into town…

I made it to 44, thanks to John Jones

I don’t know if I’m gonna get out alive, but he’s down here with me

And those electrical jolts to my heart was him repairing the damage big pharma caused when I injected myself twice with that deadly poison

I was barely alive, hanging on by a thread

I’m spitting less in a cup but I’m still spitting in a cup

I keep hearing people say they’re catching Covid and I can’t catch Covid, my immune system has been compromised from the death jab and heart inflammation and people are now dropping dead by that adult death syndrome which I’m at risk of

I need to be quarantined

I need to be that girl in a bubble

I wanted to have photos for you today

But then that 7 day treatment is taxing on the liver, this detox I’m doing – coupled with me starting my period with the full moon like clock work

I’m spent…

But I made it to 44!!!!

I’ve lived 43 years!!!

Now it ain’t easy

My sister died in January at age 45

She didn’t make it to 46

And I’ve been saying since I was a little kid that I wouldn’t live past 50 so I have that weighing on me

I’ve been saying since I was about 12 years old that Leo’s have heart and feet problems so I predicted my own fucking death

I’m paying better attention to the red flags now I hope

And when I feel myself falling into a violent dark rage – I’m gonna paint my nails instead and play dress up or ride my bike or bake a delicious meal

That’s the intention anyway

I’m still in intensive therapy and putting in the work…

I’m starting this new detox regime soon

And then probably the liver cleanse

And some of the other formulas he has

Vegetarian too from what I’ve seen

It’s less expensive than dying or treatments from Big Pharma which nearly all include toxic poisons – yellow/red/blue dyes

These nurses and doctors don’t give a fuck about you

They think the NDA they made you sign trumps their oath

IT DON’T

Take revenge in the courtroom and not on the street (or self-destruct)

Stay woke

P.S.S. America is a corporation where its occupants are owned by communistic China – who holds hands with the Russian mafia – who is the Illuminati – and keeps you distracted with porn, religion, politics, Hollywood, propaganda and subliminal messaging

TikTok says I’m a threat

Instagram says I’m a threat

You better know it


Hell (poetry)

Things I keep unpacking
I’m moving or I’m not
Got love stored in a box
Hell is a paradox
Just like my life then
I’m alive but not a lot


Finalized my living will and directives
Burning every bridge I know
I’ve got objectives
YOU ARE UNRECEPTIVE


I’m dead inside
So there won’t be a spark
If that is what you are after
Then you shouldn’t kill the laughter


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Yes you can live in my closet and eat pizza from a box

Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal


Saving lives with the 2A is cool

“We’re sickened by…” as the cops sit around and do nothing

“It’s a federal matter” as our country and policies get destroyed by propaganda and immigration

More civilians are aware that cops are USELESS to protect the citizens

And just like that the 2A was used to stop a gunman at the Mall who was targeting and killing innocent women

A 22 year old male STOPPED the gunman

And now more people will start playing hero of the day

I suspect subliminal messaging is being used – on those who watch porn and horror or listen to certain music

“You will buy a gun”

Yes you will

And you will go to the range and you will start practicing to learn to defend yourself and those around you 👍👍

And maybe you’ll save a 12 year old girl from being shot at the mall

SHE SURVIVED

(Another shooting happened in Indiana on Thursday. Just stay home or get you a weapon and a carry permit)

If you’re a soldier with a DD 214 you won’t need to go to any kind of civilian classes because you’ve already been trained by the fucking militia so you’ll just need to worry about your carry permit and whatever else your state requires

But you get to pass Go, you’ll still need to pay some dollars for the permit 🤪

We wasn’t worried about immigration when we were playing Monopoly were we

Hollywood is pumping you full of mental trash – that causes mood and behavioral changes – as well as brain damage

I’m glad you and your porn star can talk about the latest Batman movie though but you won’t catch me in the fucking theaters

FUCK YOU and the Minions too 🖕

And I hate Google. I’m not sharing any articles because many of them are forcing you to pay for their junk now – which is mostly gaslighting and propaganda – so you can just Google a different article until you find one that is free information. Fuck subscribing to this insanity. You’re literally funding it. I SAID LITERAL. DEAL WITH IT

Circa April 2021 ish

Florida teen drowns in Daytona Beach during ocean swim Thursday evening

A 14-year-old Altamonte Springs boy drowned during a swim in the ocean in Daytona Beach, according to Volusia County Beach Safety Ocean Rescue.
— Read on www.news-journalonline.com/story/news/local/volusia/2022/07/08/florida-teen-drowns-daytona-beach-during-ocean-swim-thursday-evening/10012010002/


14 😞

Bless his heart 😞

I’M NOT GETTING IN THE OCEAN. EVERY TIME I GO TO THE BEACH THERE ARE RED FLAGS. IF YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND MY FEAR, WATCH THE PINNED VIDEO ON MY TIKTOK.

I DON’T WANT TO DROWN. I DON’T WANT TO DIE.

JUST STAY HOME. CAN’T EVEN GO FOR A BIKE RIDE WITHOUT NEARLY DYING.

GOD IS TRYING TO KEEP ME SAFE

I have the WORST fear of drowning

I’m scared of all bodies of water, sometimes including my bath tub.

DEATH IS EVERYWHERE

Fixed (poetry)

It broke my heart
Then fixed my vision
I’m deconstructing
With loose precision

No color chart
Mouth found derision
My soul eructing
Opposing decision

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

So change is hard. Reprogramming requires commitment. Daily sacrifice. Stopping negative thoughts. Mindfulness. You gotta climb after that shit like Mount Everest. YOU GOTTA WANT IT.

“But I like being sinister”. You’ve never tried anything else. And that’s the Devil talking. You should be put down. Like a homeless pet. Or an animal with the taste for human blood.

You shouldn’t be allowed to wander the streets of a “civilized society”. 🙄

Personally, I’m under development currently.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

I want to learn to exist with another when the time comes.

I also need a class on organization or for somebody to help me but I am still trying to figure it all out.

Windows open. Fresh air. Detoxing on Apple Cider Vinegar and Black Walnut & Wormwood DAILY

I MADE IT THROUGH ANOTHER NIGHT

I’M GOING TO TRY TO MAKE IT THROUGH ANOTHER DAY

I don’t have any design skills

I move furniture and things around from one spot to another

There’s got to be some better order

I hang things up with thumb tacks

Curtain’s are a foreign concept

I’ll eat food cold from the can 😑

Some people are rich and eat from pizza boxes while judging from their empty thrones

Meanwhile, spirits hang with me in the foxholes

I talk to the dead

I HAVE BETTER RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE DEAD 💀

I WANT TO BE HUMAN

*In therapy*

That’s what my welcome mat should say… 🤪

Self-portrait circa 2020

Hot spots: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal


Pebbles (freestyle poetry)

Because I know
I’ll cross the threshold
And when gravity
Tips its scales
All eternity will fall

And heaven
Will gently
Fumble at your
Footsteps

The way pebbles
Form smooth edges
Over time

My dreams
Are baptized
By your words

Like prayers whispered
Into passing clouds
On sunless days

I am tiptoeing death
Leaving pieces of me
In only places you will find

There is grand justice
In knowing
Only you will crawl the distance

Might my heart
Be dust and ash
But love lieth here

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Dying and just want to matter how ever briefly…

His existence is a breathing apparatus

He exists, therefore I am

Self-portrait

Isolation (poetry) *trigger warning*

Hello.

I’m in the isolation zone

Quarantined to hell below

Thought you couldn’t reach me though

There’s still climbing to go

Stop.

Can’t you see where the dust divides

There’s too much distance between you and I

I’d rather commit suicide

Wave goodbye

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


I’m okay. Crying a lot. Expected.

I’m safe. Here. Mostly. To an extinct.

A bridge is a walk away.

The Grand Finale awaits.

Will I even know?

ROBOTS ARE NOT SENTIENT

It’s only hell because we’ve been in a 6000-year-old worldwide prison system based on that BOOK

And that same establishment continues to tweak its policies until you’ll believe they are the creator of you, with your OOOH AHHHH Fitbits

They use gaslighting, lovebombing, triangulation to control

With politicians, actors, influencers, teachers, preachers, cops

It’s disgusting

“But if you work hard you can own a home”

That was the Great Lie the Boomer generation sold

Then Ghosted an entire fucking generation after we’ve been the most dedicated, the most hard working, and ORIGINAL

And we watch all the younger generation’s steal our fucking content and give us no credit – and the Boomers reward them with free housing or financial assistance

The rest of us are out here winging it, living on the fucking streets, in our campers, eating one meal a day, so we can buy some fucking land before it’s too late…

Starting communities

I don’t want 5G or anywhere around it

It’s a cancer

Fuck this New Age digital world, I don’t want any part of this future

Where I don’t even have freedom of speech or my art protected

These men preyed and preyed and preyed sexually upon my best friend who died by suicide and she was 13

I’ll never recover

Her birthday was May 1

She died April 7, 1993 (just shy of her 14th birthday)

357 magnum to the head

Lost the last letter she wrote me

But there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about her and if I had pictures of her I wouldn’t have them stored away like everybody else who wants to forget her

And Miley Ray Cyrus sounds just like her but Miley Ray Cyrus wasn’t born but we did get to meet her dad together Billy Ray Cyrus so that was pretty fun

Mems.

There’s a picture of them floating around somewhere, not online or anything

We met lots of bands together

Pre cellphone days

I can barely even prove that she existed, there’s just this hole in my gut

They preyed upon me too baby girl

This world is too much

You were so brave

Braver than me

I wish I had your courage to die

The Judge knew I was suicidal in 2018 and wouldn’t even talk to me until I took a few breaths

She said in front of the entire courtroom that I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me

Also, I had a weapon upon arrival that I didn’t know – when trying to enter – and the cop repeated the question 3 times – I laughed – “wait, do I have one?” and I did. A little mini nail file thingy that I got in the mail by the Wounded Warrior project lol

So before I could even go into the courtroom I had to walk my little mini knife all the way back to my vehicle… and then return

And by the time I made it to the Judge – good lord the humility of being sued

By the end of the session we had the entire courtroom laughing, me and the Judge..

She directly explained to me how they could get my money tho… which is untouchable

Like if I wanted to buy a plane ticket right now and just fly somewhere, the government could be like oh no oh no you you fucking owe us some money come here bitch we’re going to take your plane flight

But it must suck for the men who want to prey on me and take my money because I can get married and divorced and they can’t touch it

You can’t touch what I earned but they can keep raising my rent and the food costs… FYI

The suicide rate continues to increase among military and Veterans

Somebody recently sent me 20 bucks and I bought me some medicinals 👍

I know this isn’t my best work, I just woke up crying and I decided to put it into a poem so I just freestyle got this off my chest…

I’m okay 👍👍

Saddest girl in the world (squared)

Side note: I’m making right with my creditors and it was only for a little bit. But they can’t directly dock my check.

They can keep raising the rent though huh


Personal Hell (poetry & prose)

I don’t cast stones
I throw grenades
I check for backbones
But not here to save


I’m not Jesus
Ask not of forgiveness
Got light of Venus
But I’m not Jesus


Look at him all mighty
Judging from his throne
Only wants the children
He can do no wrong


He never shows me love, just judgment
With him, I’ll never reach the summit


I don’t want to talk to him about the Holy Spirit
He ain’t anywhere near it


I still talk to him
Through ink and pen
Through thick and thin
There and hell herein


How do you go from creator to singularity
So sparingly?


My brain is an artifact
Don’t have a heart attack


I follow
The voices in your head
Every murky shadow
Leaking trails of thick red
I’ve met the dead
Down in the Bayou
Your sins are widespread
Walking on gravestone
I hear the cries where the wind blows
I hear your echoes on the radio


His smile is an ice-shelf breaking free


Put up a plaque for my humiliation
What’s the will of a freemason?


We need to watch our agreements
Human not demon
Give God a good reason


© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

From today

Gonna start using the gym where I live. In an attempt to work on my booty gains. But I’m still dying and cannot go hard.

People are dropping dead by what I have.

10,000 steps and gone.

I think it might be a better solution than bike riding since I almost got murdered twice in a week but I will not be giving up my riding because I need to listen to the birds and get the fresh air where I feel free.

Not secure. But it helps me remember what I’m fighting for. Why I’m fighting for humanity, including my own.

And I’m currently in my own personal hell.

My spirit has been broken and I am only a fragment of what I could be.

His poetry, that is absolutely 1000% not about me (?), gives me glimpses of who I am.

Or want to be.

There really is no difference. I live in his mind. He’s my sanctuary.

I hope it’s his arms I get to crawl into and die, even if a word is never said.

I want him to be my final avenue and I want him to lay me to rest.

No other.

He must hide my body from the establishment. Give me back to earth. 👀

Not prematurely. I’m still putting up the good fight to live but that’s not where my thoughts are.

I’m still red flagged at the VA for being suicidal. The very very bad kind.

One slip up and I’m off to the funny farm via the pigs against my will.

And I’m a Soldier, not a rich boy, we eat mystery meat.

And I’ve always identified as Native American and I want to find my tribe and get out there and hunt and slay a buffalo, so get off my dick

Child fucker

Hypocrite


Mouth (poetry)

He thinks if he opens his mouth
Pandora will be exposed
Or maybe he is trotting south
Where the devil steals your soul

He often comes with drought
Sitting like he is composed
But if you wait it out
You will watch his head explode

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

I get so tired and start falling into a deep sleep wherein I’m jousted awake with the reality that my blood sister died

She was 2 years older than me

My sister died of COVID January 21st

And it’s a hard one to swallow

The things that wake you up in the middle of the night when you’re trying to sleep

The things

No one ever taught me to have compassion and it’s not something I was born with

When I was 15 my horoscope said that Leo’s are known to have feet and heart problems

Why does everything feel like a simulation

The establishment hope that we are the first intelligent life because they want to control all life in the universe like they are gods

Everything God created or that is natural, they’ve made artificial

Fallen Angel technology

Why does 11:11 always follow me

What did I do to deserve this hell

Why have I always been woke but stupid

Why did I get in trouble in kindergarten on the playground for trying to off myself because I wrapped a piece of string around my neck

Why am I so bothered by schools of fish that are people doing trends and acting like robots

Why do I know things before they happen

Why can’t I lie to you

Why why why why why

Do I always make the wrong choices

I get so emotional when I make a mistake

Especially when I’ve attempted to not fuck up

My sister didn’t get vaccinated and she died of COVID, I got vaccinated and got heart inflammation and am still dying and my half-sister has been triple vaccinated and double boosted and has had COVID several times but “is fine”

It’s a bio weapon

Why does nobody in my family listen to me

Why was I born without an identity

I had a period of awareness inside my mother’s womb and was depressed before escaping out into this hell hole

I don’t want to die this young and I’m really scared

God wants me sleeping in the lion’s den

I have complied

It was not worth my life

But alas, my indecision is final

I will sink with the ship

Stubborn Soldier

Temper like solar

I’ve got a cold shoulder

Death will never bring you closure


Daytona Beach couple found with throats slashed were riding bikes home, police say

Police here say at first, they thought it was a hit and run, but then, saw that the man and woman both had slashed throats.
— Read on www.wesh.com/amp/article/daytona-beach-couple-stabbed-bikes/39350145


A video of the couple. They looked so sweet and happy. Another hate crime. From a person of “unknown race”. Whatever.

They just bought a beach house 6 months ago. They rode bikes instead of motorcycles because they wanted to drink.

Another responsible couple who was murdered.

Racism started in Africa. Slavery started in Africa.

White lives matter.

But stop going out of your way to prove you’re not racist to a race that is racist.

I’m armed and dangerous.

Stay the fuck away from me!

You’ll have more than the Daytona Beach police looking for you if you mess with me.

Furthermore, take me down and I will ensure you go down as well.

I keep telling people this city is dangerous.

White folks being murdered left and right.

We just wanna live in peace.

Self-defense is allowed and will not send me to another hell.

I don’t even have a criminal record so it’ll be pretty easy to defend in the court.

But the Army trained me with Army men. I fought and trained with the big boys.

I know how to fire the big toys.

I’m an excellent aim, moving targets and all.

Even wearing a gas mask with my m16 cocked to its side while firing.

Got the best shot of everyone in my unit.

Don’t fook with me.

I was at the range twice a year over 15 years with the Army.

Wounded but can still fight.

They trained me with a baronet too!

I’m so sad for this couple who potentially had many years of their life left.

The system is designed to protect the enemy.

Just like healhcare is deathcare.

Narcissism should be illegal.

Can I have my own state? Free of porn? And political tyranny?

Daytona Beach Bike Week stabbing: Police release person of interest video

Terry Aultman, 48, and Brenda Aultman, 55, were apparently riding their bicycles home from Bike Week events when they were attacked, police said.
— Read on amp.news-journalonline.com/amp/9424863002


🛑✋🛑

Eek. A double sacrifice to the singularity.

I had a black man approach me and scare me Sunday during my live. Don’t think he realized I was live when I got cornered.

Today, I had a black man threaten my life during my live, simply for walking on the public street recording.

Black lives matter. White lives don’t. 👎

Black people are consistently threatening me and scaring me for no reason yet they call me the fucking racist…

I am armed and dangerous. The FBI and CIA will get yah.

Uncle Sam / the Army will get yah.

But I don’t feel safe around anyone or anything.

I’d feel safer sleeping with the gators (no not really).

I know you’d really like to see my city at night but it’s fucking dangerous.

Has anybody seen anything threatening during my lives?

I wonder if I need to take them my video or if he was in that same area that I was in during the afternoon.

I wonder if I should just stay the F home.

This was a married couple riding their bike home.

Another bike murder.

And I wanted to fix my bike 😩

Welp. Maybe not.

Try and stay safe y’all. We’re in end times.

I got triggered today but won’t be anymore.

The next time someone comes at me with an attack I’m just gonna like look through them as if they are a ghost and disappear into the fucks I don’t have…

Or, immediately call 911 and say a man is threatening my life WITH DESCRIPTIONS of his looks and whereabouts

Do y’all ever use a mirror to look for bombs under your vehicles? Or tracking devices?

Do y’all constantly change your route and routine?

Do y’all constantly look in your rearview or check your 60?

Do you live in fear or paranoia?

Every step I take, I am dancing with death.

I am clumsy, and out of breath.

@PoeEternal


Life expectancy with heart inflammation is 2-5 years

“But the vax will keep you from being hospitalized” says my still living sister who is triple vaccinated and boosted and has had COVID a few times now and “is fine”

My life expectancy went from 60 some years to 2-5 years because the vaccine gave me heart inflammation

I’m lucky to be alive

I still feel electrical charges go off randomly, it hurts, it’s not as deep or painful, I think my heart is welding itself better and I’m gonna keep giving it nuts and water and beans and not modified foods

The modified foods have been designed to assist in the blood clots which formed in my body

I had a big sucker moving around, especially after shot number 2

My EKG, my ultrasound, and another test showed my heart to be severely damaged, and my left lung not fully inflating

And then that other thing I was battling decided to take Center front stage because my immune system was compromised from the vaccine

I’ve been staying away from the Publix bakery 😑

In fact, there isn’t much remaining in the grocery store that I can buy because it if it has an ingredient that I don’t recognize, it’s poison

If it’s modified corn starch or modified anything, it’s poison

If it’s white sugar, poison

And I realize there’s nothing for you to feed your children but if you keep buying them all that pretty stuff, it’s poison

Poison poison poison

This is an extermination

I have been avoiding fast food for as best as I can

Sticking mostly to the good nuts, no soda, beans, sweet and red potatoes, wild blueberries, beets, sunshine, minimal negative foods and thinking, lots of water (squared)

Replace “nothing fun” with “nothing poison”

Nothing to mix with the vaccines to give me blood clots

One heart chamber closed off and the other enlarged

That’s how big my will is to love you and not die

Every moment my mind covered in you

But having me go to this hospital in that hospital in this clinic and that clinic and finally I was like “no, I’m not going to get a stupid stress test on my heart, I’m going on bedrest permanently” and staying away from y’all and I’ve pretty much gone no contact from VA…

I was having mini pre-heart attacks every fucking day and in the most pain I’ve ever been in and they want to stress my heart out to see “what was going on”, are you fucking stupid? It’s the fucking vaccines, that’s what’s going on, the first vaccine caused my heart to have blood pressure issues, my BP DROPPED

I was dying

That’s why my body felt cold

That’s why I could sit in hot water for 10 minutes and touch my skin and still feel dead

I knew some shit was off

But then three weeks later I went in for shot number two even though I didn’t want to get it and I kept asking over and over again “are you sure I should go through with the second dose because my blood pressure dropped on the first one” and not one doctor or nurse looked through my EKG results to give them to me

Which the VA failed to mail me, nor my doctor call to give me the results, until after having issues after the second vaccine

“What, you mean you’re still not dead”

“Well I don’t like how your heart looks for your age”

*proceeds to order me a bunch of testing and thangs which made me worse*

I don’t know if the nebulizer helped me or was my fucking demise there for that moment of doom

But when I got to the worst stage of where I was at because she took me off my fucking medication without my permission, they denied seeing me at the VA after I got worse, and told me to go to the ER, that’s when I took matters into my own hands and saved my own life and here we are

Might have only bought me 28 hours, 28 months later, 2-5 years

But if I were to go out there and get boosted, my life expectancy is likely zero

My Asian doctor at the VA is pushing for me to get boosted, but I haven’t even recovered from heart inflammation 👎👎

I went no contact from my sister who is still alive because she’s so plugged into the system and a sheep and I’m gonna wind up like my dead 45-year-old sister if I hang around them

Nobody in my family has even acknowledged that I have heart inflammation, nobody has left me a basket of soup at my door, nobody has sent me a card or a letter

Everybody keeps telling me I need to get boosted and to stop wearing my mask

I keep telling people that I’m unreachable and to fuck off

I’m wearing my mask 😷

I was only up all night freaking out because I was in a crowd of people at the beach yesterday unmasked

And so I won’t be doing that again for awhile

Now I really appreciated receiving snowcones and all sorts of other little live gifts, but I’m not dying for views

Also, Bob Saget did not die from a head wound

He had heart complications following the vaccine but he was sacrificed to the dark entity and these monsters are getting away with murder

“The insurance will cover it” as if karma and God don’t exist

You have choice on good or bad

It’s basically the trolley problem

It’s basically an active or passive choice

C-3PO does not have a soul and therefore will see a thief that steals from the company a better bargain than the other employee who loses more money making mistakes

C-3PO doesn’t care about motive

👇👇👇

I learned about this stuff in college but here’s a good analogy: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBrdD8d/

The establishment only care about their monetary gains

I want to build my own great wall from China

How bout dem apples

It’s true I ignored all the red flags and walked into this cave on my own

I’m sure at some point John was screaming at the fact that where he was at wasn’t on his map

“But some details happened down there that will never be disclosed…” Michael Leavitt

Oh yeah? Like what? The fact that you sacrificed him and got away with murder?

I want to do very bad things to him

Eye for an eye

Anyhoo

You should probably stay away from modified junk food (the french fries served at McDonald’s aren’t served anywhere else because of the chemicals they put in it which causes cancer, so the french fries served in America aren’t the same french fries served in France, keep that in mind next time you go purchase those expensive fries, there’s a cost)

And they had the audacity to raise the price on their french fries 🚩🚩🚩🚩

Stop feeding the rich

Stop feeding yourself, your family, and your children poison

I wish it was opium, but it’s not, it’s probably giving you IBS from what I’m hearing out there with so many people having GI issues

Get rid of your doctor, big pharma, and your diet

I promise the addiction fog will start to lift and it will be easier to make your food choices

Harder though because there isn’t much left to buy that the FDA hasn’t allowed them to add additional poison

We’ve got to stop letting anybody come over here and vote

Biden is letting any and all through

Democrats make up mostly immigrants and the children of immigrants (not opinion)

Please, I need you to vote this time if you didn’t last time

And please, for the love of humanity, VOTE BIDEN OUT

Hollywood is running the White House, it’s very clear

NASA stated we don’t have the technology to get back to the moon and that they lost it

You believe we deserve all this inflation so Eon can get to Mars when we’ve never seen anyone on the Moon with advanced technology

We barely had cell phones in the 60s and I’m supposed to believe that we made it to the moon huh

When NASA have stated that the evidence they give us is “artist rendered” and CGI

NASA is Hollywood

Wake up!

It’s ridiculous that pharmaceutical advertising is allowed with our television programming but not in other countries 🚩🚩🚩

I’m tired of the establishment creating fight or flight mode 24/7 and keeping us in a state of pandemic

I think we had supercomputers a long long time ago

We’ve been living through a dark age because of said shit happening again

What’s the point in putting in a president every 4 to 8 years when the same 13 families in charge have been running things for 2000+ years with gaslighting and indoctrination

I don’t wanna die by suicide because the Democrats take my benefits and I become homeless again

I don’t want to be sacrificed to the dark entity

I just want to stay in the light and his love 😩

His love is the bestest drug

The best of the bested

I didn’t even know bested was a word but here we go…

Still learning thangs

And because I have a brain injury sometimes you have to relearn over and over again 🤪

Still recovering from the heart inflammation 👍

Listen to what your body needs

Stop letting others steal your energy

You’re made of light

Neurons firing 24/7

You need to give your body the good fuel

Laughter, poetry, love

Good deeds

Positive thinking and affirmation

Keep climbing!

You’re on a spiritual journey

As long as you are breathing, you are still in the game

It’s not too late to change your game

I love you 💕

I fell from the heavens to let you know that God still loves you and I even jumped in the game early

Only 6% of the population have my blood type

I’m not donating my body to science unless they pay me while I’m alive

And the contract becomes null and void if I die prematurely

But I’m going to hide my body in the swamp when I fucking die, you’re not gonna find me, you’re not getting my blood and you’re not gonna fucking clone me and I know that you already are, you’re already doing something because they took all of that shit when I joined the Army and anytime I’ve gone and given them blood at the VA or anytime anytime anytime anything…

There’s probably already more than one version of me that exist which is why I know that things happen before they do

It’s probably why I was pissed off before I was even born and I remember a period of awareness before birth

I wasn’t happy

Probably hated even worse the family I was about to be born under

Got sick of being squished, like how much longer

*bang bang kick kick I want out, let me out*

And basically since the age of about five or 10 I’ve been suicidal and depressed trying to end my life and predicting that I would either die from heart failure or suicide

Suicide is feeling less scary with all the other shit happening around me but but there’s a big but if I die that way

I just feel like God was like, ‘sure, you can go back to train to be a spirit guide under two conditions; you have to train to be a soldier but you can’t actually kill anybody or self-destruct’

Also God: “earth is overrun with demons and gaslit as heaven”

*kicks me outta pearly gates*

Me: “wait, you didn’t tell me that parttttttttttt” 😩

*crash lands*

*gets brain injury*

Yeps, going good so far, got a bad badass heart and brain

You are one of God’s creatures and he wants you to win

You’re here for the experience and stop making it so easy for the devil

You mimic everything he does like breathing

You need sunlight

Babe, get some sun! Remove the VR headset!

Dear Lord,

I really hope I can feel his lips just once before I die

I would have a better chance at climbing Mount Everest than ever getting to feel his kiss, but I lose all hopelessness when I think of this…

I do not have, nor have had COVID… ❤️‍🩹

FYI, I have not had Covid or any of the symptoms of Covid but I have underlying health issues that I was dealing with before I got vaccinated and when I injected the poison vaccine in me it made my underlying health issue become priority and it almost killed me and if I had gone to the ER I most certainly would have died but instead I took matters into my own hand and saved my own life

I haven’t had any flu symptoms or whatever

No fever, diarrhea, vomiting, ect

But I am still dealing with the side effects of the vaccine

And if you have underlying health issues you should not get the vaccine 💉

Honestly, if you are in shitty health condition and your diet is shitty, you shouldn’t come in contact with a vaccine or even Covid

Nobody should get the vaccine because it’s spreading the virus and herd immunity is way stronger

And I know TikTok is doing a lot of shit to fuck with our heads but you should know that in their own country they reward innovators on TikTok and here in America they reward stupidity

Everything they do is to keep us on edge and fighting

It’s narcissism and it’s just tools that the narcissists use to keep us on a low vibrational frequency so that the devil can steal our energy

I don’t have Covid

I’ve never had COVID or any of its symptoms

The Moderna vaccine gave me cardiovascular issues – heart inflammation (all the vaccines cause cardiovascular issues in any age group)

It’s possible I’ve been exposed to people who have had Covid and my vaccine worked or it’s possible that the vaccine is what put me in this fucking position to start with

I’m still uncertain if I had stayed unvaccinated and caught Covid would I wind up like my sister who unalived or would the vaccine save my life?

I know for fact that the vaccine did in fact hurt me by giving me heart inflammation and I have not had COVID-19

I also know that the devil lives in doubt

Though treated with the Moderna poison vaccine, I never boosted or got a Booster

I’ll never get a flu vaccine ever again either 👀

I will mask up until I feel safe to unmask

I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that I have a soul and I am in hell with a bunch of demons who are trying to steal my soul but they need to maintain their fucking distance and respect my fucking boundaries or God has given me permission to end their fucking life

I just didn’t want you to be afraid of me, you don’t need to be afraid of me

But I’m afraid of you so you probably are afraid of me

It’s cool

I work for God tho if that was in any way unclear

And the dude’s I lust after I legit love

We’re living lives in my daydreams

They keep me in the light

Somewhere, something in me tells me that they’re still fighting for the light

I haven’t given up on humanity yet…

The Dead Are Dying

Do I mourn the dead?
Climb atop the moon?
View life infrared?
Worship things we said?
Forget about the gloom?
I’m dying soon…

© Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


It’s really not fair that the only things I have to eat are poison

Thank you immigrants/naturalized citizens 🙏

I’m so grateful that you’re here

*gets lots of sleep*

I hope I heal up enough I can get back to the range

Now I’m not talking about no fucking kitchen range

The Army taught me to shoot to kill

One shot, one kill

Make it count

Get them in the head

If you can’t get them there, go for the heart

Next, thigh leg

And that even know how to shoot my M-16 turned sideways wearing my gas mask

The army trained me with live grenades so I even know how to toss those motherfuckers

I trained with all the big toys 👀

My drill sergeants fucking loved me because I loved firing my weapon at everything and I hit the targets

Sometimes it would take me five minutes to get the grenade loaded into the gun but whatever once I got firing you know that’s where the magic was

But you’re timed lol

I’m a tomboy

When I’m not a sensitive little angel

There’s two sides to me, like a coin

Toss me, you might get lucky 🍀

The reason I might know things before they happen is because I’ve done this game before and I think that when you level up you get to bring whatever achievements you had before with you

Or maybe I’m just extremely intuitive and really good about reading the environment

That still doesn’t explain how I’ve predicted events that have happened that I had no control over

I don’t know if I’m gonna crawl out of this cave alive

Sometimes I don’t think I matter much but I feel like I would matter more than having an obituary that’s been out for a few days and with still zero comments

Feel free to blow my blog up but in 50 years anybody that knew me will be dead

I love you

Even if I don’t want anything to do with you

I want to ascend

I might not get there this way

But I’m not hanging out in a negativity zone

My energy has been stolen long enough by monsters lurking in the dark

All the gaslighting 👎👎

I ain’t no angel

But I ain’t no monster

Sometimes I screech like one

Sometimes I fantasize about being really fucking evil

But it’s soulless and empty

I was born with a soul

I’m convinced many are without a soul

They were either born without it or they lost it along the way or they didn’t do any good deeds that rewarded them with one while they were here

Your body is autonomous

Your body is a rental

I’m gonna try and return mine with only a few dents and scratches

I’m giving it lots of repairs now

And the love it deserves that it never got

There are two guys in the world who raised my awareness

I don’t want them to wind up like my sister

But that is exactly where they are heading

The singularity

Your energy is precious

You gotta recharge in the sun, feet on ground

The sun isn’t bad for you, sunblock is

The best times to sungaze is during sunrise and sunset

You can bathe in the light and not burn

I discovered something today

Your love feels exactly like the sun

Only I can’t really explain it

You take me back to the source

I can’t put it into words yet

But it’s one and the same

The sun and love

You and I

But I need him too

I don’t even know what my lessons are to learn here because if it’s not giving up on humanity I feel like I mostly have if the only two things I love in the world are illusions

But then isn’t everything?

This is all ego

It’s just a nightmare

When I die, I’ll no longer be

But I’m not convinced I haven’t done this before

I don’t have control over my breathing or my digestion

It’s automatic

We have to learn to use these bodies in these forms

We’re spirits 👀

Maybe there is a big alien octopus out there, I probably would have a heart attack if I met my Creator, I don’t know if I could handle meeting my creator in this form, could you, could you actually handle meeting your creator in this form? well OK but that doesn’t mean that earth needs to be fucking hell

Narcissism is a plague

I don’t wanna catch it 😩

I don’t want to lose my soul

I don’t want to die

My sister was TWO YEARS OLDER

And we were fucking close, I should be losing my fucking mind that my sister died

But I expected it

I knew 👀

And right now I just feel relief that she can’t hurt me anymore so

My dad would understand

But he died last year

I slept on the floor in my office for two or three months after he died

My dad left me a six minute rainbow

And then he rode the great Saturn Jupiter conjunction out of the sky

I wish I could talk to my dad about the Canadian truck drivers protesting because I know he’d be getting a kick out of that and he’d probably be up there himself

He didn’t like my sister either

He only left two people in his will

TWO

I hope somebody out there knows that I’m not exaggerating about dying

You both release chemicals in my heart and brain, which numbs me throughout

An ethereal warmth like the sun

My last breath I’ll be thinking of you

I’m on bedrest anyway

Dreaming is allowed

And, they should have given John a second phone call

It was Thanksgiving

He died on Thanksgiving

Crying now for him but can’t shed a tear for the sister

I ain’t right

Something’s wrong with me

Please help me out of this hole

I don’t wanna die down here

I made mistake 😑

My immune system is compromised and I’m gonna fucking wear my mask when I go out

But I’ve never had a Covid test and I’ll never get a booster shot and I will never get a flu vaccine or any vaccine for that matter ever again

I don’t even know if I’ll ever even want to be closer than 6 feet to a human being 👀

I don’t identify as human

Failing my lesson down here

*sobs*

I knew this was gonna happen

I’ve been saying it all my life that I was either going to die of heart failure or suicide

I need a gun

Because suicide seems less scary and painful than my heart going haywire like it’s done

2 chambers are working

Miracle I’m still alive

You’re better than any drug

Your voice, your face, your existence

Can I haz hugs before I die?

But stay away because I don’t want to get you sick or kill you

I don’t want you to get me sick or kill me

I don’t trust people

I don’t trust food

I don’t trust my doctors

Things are pretty dark

I just wanna stay in the light

I’m so scared

I mostly sleep in sessions during the day

I barely sleep in the night

So very scared

But, tell myself positive mantra

I talk to the things running my body that don’t belong to me

Water can hold a positive or negative charge

So I say positive things when drinking it

My least favorite thing to drink in the world but it’s mostly all I drink now

I tell it “thank you for healing me”

I say things, “oh you like that eh” after I douse it with the good food or drink

And then I say “have some more”

I have never been more hungry in my life but I guess you need a lot of calories when your heart and your lungs are healing ❤️‍🩹

But beating my sugar addiction has been (I think) worse than a heroin addiction but I don’t know I’ve never done heroin

I beat a Valium addiction once and they do say that’s worse than heroin

John was kicking and screaming in his end too, he wasn’t all smiles

Bless his heart, crucified

It hurts too much

All the animals we enslave

The dead are dying

The FDA now warns that Pfizer causes heart inflammation too (I told you first)

I’m hearing reports that the FDA are now going to be putting warnings on Pfizer Johnson and Johnson and moderna

But the age groups are still off y’all, if it’s affecting young people, it’s definitely affecting older people and middle-age people and people of all ages because this is a fucking extermination and I got heart inflammation after the first dose and should have never gone through with the second one which nearly killed me

I’ve been down since April 2021 and the VA aren’t reporting accurately

Many of the doctors and nurses aren’t reporting accurately now because they know their fucking paycheck is at stake

They’re all changing the narrative

I told y’all that Moderna causes heart inflammation before the FDA put out a warning

I told you that all these vaccines will be similar and my prediction was correct and I do have a medical background but they don’t make us like they used to

The unvaccinated can still carry the virus and infect others

Stop the segregation

Stop the fear-mongering

No New World Order! 🛑

Science is compliance!

Hitler is alive! 👎👎

But I don’t know if you heard me about the age because it’s very important for you to be aware that it’s affecting more than just young people

I know I’m invisible and non existent

But I was still able to make babies and I got heart inflammation at the age 42 and I’ve now been on bedrest for 10 months

Purgatory (poetry)

I can’t decide if you are hell or Hades
Mind is full of maybes
Know your hand is shady
Still can you save me?

© Delia Ross. 2022

I’m angry

Jesus was angry before he died

John Jones was angry when he was dying

I’m angry 😤

But, I’m also just detached, completely broken, have lost my mind, live in paranoia, am homicidal and suicidal, think everything is the enemy

When all I really want is to snuggle in his arm

Fire exiting his hooves and mouth

He doesn’t want me around, so I might show up anyway 😑

Say whatever it is you need to say and finish breaking me so I can dies of heart failure

Have mercy please?

End my suffering

Silence

Do you hold
These final hours
Like a vigil?

Amiss a dark continent
Cracked roads for roses
Watching flame tremble?

Breathing the exhaust of truth
Love like a star
Will my name you remember?

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Up down with my health

Why didn’t somebody tell me that Anne Rice died

I didn’t see it on a TikTok or an Instagram feed (not that I am on Instagram)

Read many of her pages by candlelight in my teens

It didn’t hit me as hard as Betty White

I wasn’t aware I loved Betty the way I do

Probably just numb about Annie still

That’s my go to emotion first, numbness then anger

Sometimes I laugh when people die inappropriately

That’s also a survival defense

But if you dare laugh about how John Jones died, I will personally come to see to your ending

It won’t be fun (not for you anyway) 🤩

Dexter mode activated

Armed and lethal

Hiding from all doctors unless ID

Also, somebody needs to lock me up and keep me from sugar for at least 45 days

I will possibly turn into creatures of the ancient past

Which, humans have been around for a long time

But has it ever occurred to you that maybe there were humans more intelligent than us that have gone extinct

A super computer existed during the pyramids found all over the world (used for electricity)

So did fast food restaurants in Pompeii 🙄

Ronald McDonald

Whatever

I’m not doing earth again

But if the algorithm starts showing pictures of me from 500 years ago, then I expect in 500 years for you to fucking find me (again) and you better get it right this time

Neo did it for love

Love is the anomaly

I love you 💕

(And not to alarm you but it could be any day now my death)