journal – Page 5 – PoeEternal

Posted on January 13, 2023January 13, 2023 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

Charts show immigration have our best jobs

In 2019, there were 28.4 million foreign-born people in the U.S. labor force, comprising 17.4 percent of the total.
— Read on www.bls.gov/opub/ted/2020/foreign-born-workers-made-up-17-point-4-percent-of-labor-force-in-2019.htm

I know what it says but look at the chart – immigrants have overtaken 3 of those categories and are quickly nearing the other 2 categories of work filled

And, according to the color, Florida is absolutely gone (same as California and New York – all owned by immigrants)

THEY HAVE ALL OUR BEST JOBS

Posted on January 13, 2023January 14, 2023 by poeeternal

And you’re a fucking child…

Please don’t refer to me as an “older woman” again

Or group me there

I know you’re a pedophile

And I’m GENX

But I’m only your 8 years senior

And that’s with the 10 year “decade” window

It’s considered NORMAL

And the couple that was recently murdered here in Daytona Beach – during bike week – double homicide from a BLM immigrant – she was only 8 years older than him – they had recently bought their dream home that they were biking home to

He stalked them and gutted them near a school

Now he gets better treatment for his mental health than I do and I served my fucking country and am facing homelessness (again) (sigh)

“You will own nothing and you will be happy”

You mean like stalk people?

Hunting them down like you want to gut them in the street.

I mean, yeah

You get 3 meals a day, an hour of sunshine, dental, free rent.

Where is the punishment?

I sit in an overpriced run down 4×4

The amenities aren’t even opened on the weekends, no 24/7 gym pool but paying the price like a fool

But due to gentrification in the housing market – it’s kinda hard to move up to the east side

This entire society is built on narcissism, the very foundation is a lie

Did all your dreams come true in Nam?

I’m about to jump off a fucking dam…

Don’t call me older ever again

It’s barely 8 years

Oh, it’s because I’m over 29 huh

And you’re a pedo

Don’t call me old when I’m still bleeding from my legs every three weeks you fucking insensitive asshole

I hate you

But, I do have the eldest blood of all the bloodlines

It’s kind of hard to bleed yourself dry when you think on yer superpowers

Fucking old

Like 13.7 billion years or something

At least get it right…

I’m not old, I’m glorious and that’s why guys are chasing me down when I’m in the isles crying

They just wanna spend time with me

I look like a dying zombie but many are mesmerized

I don’t know what they see

The age always disappoints them

I don’t talk to men anymore anyway

The new responses will be, “oh honey, I’m not Asian”

“I’m not a fleshlight”

“You can’t afford my fleshlight”

That’ll really fuck em’ up

God didn’t make me hush

It’s possible he left his ministry to me because everybody seems to keep calling me a whore

And treating me with little value

I probably have a fortune in Bibles lying around, but you know

“I asked you to prove to me the Bible was re-written and not give opinion”

“The version is on the cover”

“This comment no longer exists”

Pop goes a demon

This is why heaven is empty

This is why my views are low

“Because of you, I can only smoke down here now”

Oh goodie, I’m glad I make messes in heaven still

The way I do on earth…

“God is love”

“Love is the great anomaly”

God was here!?!

God lives here!?!

Gotta get his house cleaned up

He doesn’t treat me ill

Creating bonds just to break

Breaking souls

To get a rise cuz you are numb and void and soulless and without remorse

Women over 40 have value – even if society has ruled us obsolete

Because you’ve been brainwashed by society to be a pedophile

And we’re meant to socially bond very young…

Imprinting

We’re not born to be your fleshlights

I got educated to save a life

It’s not my fault that doesn’t impress you

Or my tiny savings

One and five men have an STD and a divorce under their belt

Not interested in your opinion of me any longer…

Dig?

Women over boost men’s egos to not get murdered – in general

Men obviously are crazy and go through hormonal changes if “90% of all murders happen by men” and you know women get prosecuted harder for crimes cuz we rarely do

If more women committed crimes, the punishment would be less severe (like men)

And a demon has no remorse so therapy is invalid

My mental health is being destroyed with malicious intent and purpose, and has been since I was born

But I get called crazy for having to deal with being told what to do 24/7

Man has put his overrule over everything – trying to be god

Changing time

Literally trying to control women’s periods with birth control and everything else they do

Trying to control every aspect of time

“Time is energy” and they control the energy crisis too

Trying to fix the weed – the premium weed is weaker than homegrown from the 90s – it ain’t premium – it’s expensive junk and shite

Trying to control the food supply

“Natural flavor” in everything

The Great Filter of nihilism

Destroy everything God created

Man trying to take over and control

Making humans in a lab

Cloning

Honestly, you can’t even listen to the music because they did something to the frequency to cause depression

They are using weather modification and they openly talk about it now, so you can’t keep calling me a conspiracy theorist

It’s ruining the earth

Causing disasters

“But the insurance will cover it” (another filter)

No one wanted insurance, but they pushed it on us, just like they pushed the one child law on China residents (whom had been brainwashed into believing it was a good thing) (over 1 million parents lost their only child – and too late for many women to conceive after it was lifted – and many men left their wives for a younger one. But there aren’t enough women anymore and “too many men” due to their science! (All planned)

The white race is systematically being destroyed through racism (it’s not how we’re reporting dummy)

I don’t want to live my life through a computer screen or an algorithm

Most of China is depressed – apart from gentrification and “them”

Also, that Chinese politician who implemented that law and went to jail, he lives in America now

All the bad ones are allowed entry here…

They are fighting wars from a computer screen now and accidentally blowing up families an Afghan and going Oh sorry you can come live in America though.

They bring their entire family here

Violent upbringing and all…

Black Lives Matter

RIP couple gutted in the street – this isn’t the same country I fought for – I’ve wanted out of Daytona Beach since that violent crime – and crime continues to rise here despite reports of “best place to live” (it is not)

And they are forcing workers to work alone, and people are robbing the place and getting murdered – fuck that – I’m not dying for you and your goddamn taco

Jim Morrison was from Florida and loved tacos 🌮

And I love a little taco job – but I ain’t dying for this society – which is sinking faster than the Titanic

Go USA (the American Asians identity as “CHINESE American” and value Chinese culture” and only vote 1 way

We’re just pawns in their sick game

Just because you work in a factory 18 hours a day and allow your fucking government to dictate how many children you have – it doesn’t make you smarter – it makes you fucking dumb, not hardworking

And I’m so glad that family value and living together generations together like cockroaches is valuable to you because you’ve broken up the family home in America to have this – to fucking have America

Immigration is a Trojan horse and only the immigrants are happy here

FYI

They’re miserable in China too, because they fucking brown nose their government

My boomer mom believes anything the Bible or government says too

And you can’t tell her otherwise

It’s been cold here all day. The lizards haven’t even come out and I wish I had a little heater for them.

I made a vegan dish and I’m eating it and I also got a rebound session in

I may take a break from blogging for awhile, while I try to figure out how to detox from fucking weed – never had a problem with weed until government and science got involved

But now I have an addiction and suicidal ideation, and PTSD complications for voting yes for medicinal

I’m done voting – anyone can do it

And the immigrants who come here and their fucking teenage children, they actually get naturalized and get to vote sooner than the people fucking born here

I’m no longer participating in society therefore, I am not voting or doing any of this man-made bullshit anymore

Toxic masculinity

You barely hear of any women in the Bible, and when you do, they’re called a whore

“Men can have babies” (you see the conditioning) (cloning LGBT human rights vs AI has feelings)

The men are just monsters who are pedophiles and will do anything to get to the ~~children~~ fleshlights

I read about how y’all are buying wives and how horribly you treat them because you bought them

Shame you can’t take care of your creators (men come from vagina)

I’m sorry you’re mad about it – we didn’t make the rules

Men do spread parasites through their cum which can cause cancer and other health problems

It doesn’t affect men the way it does women (many men have no signs but are ill)

Anyhoo

The government gave me an addiction with malicious intent and purpose

“Premium content”

And pay the state to enter a medical building for wellness – while sex toys are sold in front of children (conditioning)

LGBT is a cult and all over the walls of the VA now

Why was I always shamed for being a girl and told to cross my legs growing up but gay men are fucking dry humping everything and dressing tacky in public 24/7

Just because it’s a song or art doesn’t make it okay or right

That stuff was always at the gay bars and that’s where it should be along with the sex toys at the 21+ stores

I said what I said

Apparently, China have a “savings problem” and they don’t want to spend and that’s my problem now, I have a savings problem, I don’t want to spend either…

I don’t have a man who wants to build me a house, but it would be fucking amazing if we could build one together

I’ve never even been valued enough to be taken to the opera, or given a piece of jewelry with any worth

Still – men seem taken back by my ugliness or beauty (I’m undecided which)

Pretty enough for them – just don’t like my petite frame (but you do Asians huh)

I don’t remember the guy I was dating for three or four months, but he was really into me I thought until one day he broke up with me and said that my pussy was great. He liked my personality, but he hated my tits.

I was in my early 20s

And even with all the negative conditioning, I still did not go get plastic surgery, even though there were times I could afford to do so, instead of traveling

But I got to breast-feed, and had hopes of doing it again

I think I’m human still

It’s human vs demon here (and many of you disassociate from what you truly are, a monster)

But you choose to be despite things and entities trying to push you that direction

Every time my true soulmate gives himself away to another lover, I go further extinct

I don’t even know who I’m talking to anymore because none of you want to change anything

You all want the world to end

I’m outnumbered unfortunately

You had me believing I had no worth when it was really you

I was hoping to save someone

And are you paying attention to the 18-year-old and 56 year olds dying?

Vaccine death jab (I’m at risk for ASDS)

Adult sudden death syndrome

I’ll never get another flu shot or vaccine again and I’ll never trust a doctor and I’m just gonna go with what God gave me

Men are pulling the veil on us while destroying the world

90% of all murders happen by men

There’s enough food, and everything to go around for everybody, but they have us in this dark field

Posted on January 13, 2023 by poeeternal

In China, growth policy compounds the toll on parents who lose a child

One-child policy leaves some parents childless, hopeless and facing financial ruin in old age
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/in-china-one-child-policy-compounds-loss-of-child-for-parents/2013/08/07/063716fe-e877-11e2-a301-ea5a8116d211_story.html

It’s tragic. Our mental health is directly connected to our dicks and vaginas. They sterilized and aborted an entire nation!

They’re still doing it with vaccines!!!!!!

I also learned the vaccines contain aborted babies (it’s real)!

The government needs shut down!!!!!!

This is tragic!!!!

It’s narcissism! It’s all serving the Devil!!!! Or darkness! It’s not unity or being one with earth!

Stop killing everything! Women and babies especially!!!!!!

Y’all are insane but want to commit me!!!

Immigrants have taken over California and New York and they are coming after Florida. Most Floridians say Florida has changed for the worse.

The VA is corrupt and so is the White House

And according to the official stats, the majority of immigrants vote one way

I will rise up

And if it takes five people to arrest me, five people will go fucking down

I’m fed up!

The fact that most Chinese thought the one child law policy was a good idea….

It also creates narcissism

They’ve ruined America with insurance and taxes and COLA

They’ve ruined everything and everyone it seems

Too much control

And Genzie and millennials don’t give a fuck about anything so they’re not gonna rise up and fight anything except for the wind to light the fucking lighter for the goddamn weed

And their sex toys

LGBT is a cult

Sex toys are being sold everywhere in front of any age…. little curious boys looking at the anal plugs at Spencer’s

Can buy online at Walmart, CVS, Dolls Kill, Walgreens, ect

Dildo’s and vibrators for “health and wellness”

Disgusting 🤢

Posted on January 13, 2023January 13, 2023 by poeeternal

China drops one-child policy

Lavishing attention on an only child takes its toll on parents.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/china-drops-one-child-policy-but-exhausted-tiger-moms-say-one-is-plenty/2016/10/14/336f1890-8ae7-11e6-8a68-b4ce96c78e04_story.html

China is the biggest political fuck up power in the world 🛑🥴⚠️🫣👀🛑

And they took over America 🇺🇸

Constantly telling us what we can and cannot do

Crippling a nation with divorce, disease, depression!

I don’t fucking trust you if you’re in a position of power or brown-nosing these ridiculous policies.

And I think a lot of Americans are ready for the big immigration push back.

Too much conflict of interest – everything benefiting other nations (who took throne here).

Check the migration stats, jobs, and census. Do you have reading comprehension though?

This is 2023 (not really – it’s a manmade calendar and they took away a month! April fools! The gaslighting in this society never ends.)

Always got us chasing our tail!!!!

It’s 7 years behind in Ethiopia

I wasn’t learning about that in school when they were teaching about “time zones”

I hated every moment of school and working 90 hours a week (2-3 jobs) to pay my electric and rent

I keep hoping to have hope – that my future includes a real bond with a man, as God intended. A pure love where he isn’t giving his best energy and time to other women.

But, even if a man is going through a Great Awakening, when he settles down, he’ll go for the young one.

I’m obsolete

Thank you for pushing me into the extinction zone

“Men can have babies”

Have fun with that

Posted on January 13, 2023January 13, 2023 by poeeternal

In China and India, men outnumber women on a massive scale.

China and India have 70 million more men than women. The consequences are far-reaching.
— Read on www.washingtonpost.com/graphics/2018/world/too-many-men/

All the violence. And we open our borders in America and let them extend the same violent upbringing on us. Porn is an issue but let’s just destroy the world so you can keep gaslighting and jerking off.

He bought his wife and demanded sex four times a day and beat her when she did not comply. Then she fled and left her 3 year old daughter with him.

Pedophilia starts in the home.

“Too many men” and too much violence. Porn activates the primitive side of the brain. Rape, murder, lies.

This society is all built on a crumbling lie.

Those in power want the world end so they can rebuild it under their fucking rule – using AI, and the DNA ark in Antartica.

They are playing god and creating a matrix filter (the great filter is real) where generations born will be made under them.

So they can claim all this as their own – as they believe they are god

The Bible has been re-written many times (it’s called versions dummy) and is Satanic

There is so much fearmongering and narcissism in the Bible. Just like Hollywood and NASA (asteroids are bombs)

I’m not saying asteroids aren’t real, but they can’t stop dropping bombs everywhere….

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

“6th mass extinction”

But as long as you can cum….

Posted on January 13, 2023 by poeeternal

The blogging community is full of demons

The way these narcissist delete lives and comments without any remorse

Therapy is just a stage for them to practice lying

Narcissism isn’t rare, it’s a fucking plague…

Spread by the Bible via Yellow Fever propagandist

And scientist say we’re in a six mass extinction and the Bible has been around 6000 years so you do the fucking math or don’t ~~I don’t fucking care anymore~~

The census show BLM at over 230% rise and White Lives Don’t matter at a 10% decrease

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

Nihilism!!!!!

Women create. Men destroy.

And they don’t give anything enough time to replenish. The sea is not endless food for us. Your Bible is a lie!!!!!!

And it’s been pushed down my throat since I was born.

NASA is a dogma stealing your money

I don’t think CGI cartoon is what I had in mind when being taxed to death – to visit a dead planet because you can’t sit still long enough to stop killing this one

“90% of all murders happen by men..”

Yeah but…. don’t even look at me unless you want WW4

The wars will never end because the people in power have delusions of grandeur and are sending cars into fucking space

And now they’re moving asteroids and shit around?

My cell service continues to drop and lines are all in the ocean…

So basically, if you’re talking to me, you’re lying

That’s how fucking woke I am

Y’all believe aliens are real, and that computers have feelings

I do have one question for God and that’s: do Asians have the smallest penis of all and that’s why they fucking gaslight and do all this!?!

“Mirror mirror on the wall, Asian men have the smallest penis of all”

“So we’ll lie and program the world to think our childlike women have magical vaginas!!!!!!”

It’s all full circle now

It’s a game of the elite and I’m sick of playing delusions of grandeur

The cookie crumb traces back to Asia

And I’m sort of getting to the point if you don’t get me away to my own land and away from these fucking immigrants – things are gonna go fucking west pretty quick, and I don’t give a fuck if I wind up in a goddamn ditch

The fact that they raised taxes so much crippling a nation

But if you read articles about immigration, they will all claim they are doing well family and financially, but Americans will say the opposite, and the low paying wage jobs and homelessness proves it.

But you won’t listen over your green card or Yellow Fever

I’m fed up!

This is why I say I’m homicidal instead of suicidal and this is why I encourage people to just go fucking mad in the streets because fuck everything – they probably had it coming that goddamn street

That fucking morning shift deserved everything they got

How much you like your job again?

You like it that much huh

To treat customers and residents like we ain’t got no value

That calm you see from me

Ain’t really good

But I guess I’m learning to gaslight too

I’m starting to stalk people on the road

And I will wind up on a ditch if I don’t leave the city

At least I’m quitting the new age weed

So more emoness incoming

And poetry too

If God allows me to continue making a mess of everything

Those NASA images are just a fairytale

Elon’s education and hair is fake

He had connections

I can’t believe the fucking moon landings were rehearsed

If the government is talking, I don’t care to hear what they have to say

Posted on January 13, 2023 by poeeternal · 10 Comments

The holy inquisition yellow fever madness (free speech)

Let him get back to the holy inquisition yellow fever madness
Magical pussies
Walking on water
Delusions of grandeur

Hello God

*waves*

It’s astounding to me that these yellow fever men do not have the sensibility to see – on the cover itself – which edition of the Bible they are reading

Because there are many versions

And they are different

The Old Testament versus the New Testament

The new revised standard version

The King James version

New International version

New Living translation

Just the fact that it was translated is a red flag – I watch basic movies in both languages – the original or translated – and the translated version most always certainly changes the meaning

Remember that study, where you tell someone something – and by the time it reaches the other end of the room – it’s completely changed.

Something simple like “the sky is red” will turn into “the sky is bleeding”! It’s obviously misleading (The Bible)

(I think I’ve read them all – I have a stack of varyingly different versions, some with the word of Christ “in red” (the conditioning), some that are super tiny, some large, and the first I ever received age 4 – in color, with a map).

Men try to control my every thought and move – but didn’t think I’d be smart enough to study the Bible and learn anything other than “to be seen and not heard”, “women come from rib of man”

No Asia, everyone comes from vagina – and not just magical Asian ones

Men come from vagina

Men cannot have babies

I will go down fighting

God exists outside the yellow fever Bible – that has been re-written many times – and the edition can be found on the cover – it’s not opinion asshole

Furthermore, I do have a degree and did study World Religions.

But because I’m white and female – my word will always just be “opinion” to man who creates and controls this entire delusional world – that I don’t want to participate in!

I don’t have value because I’m not an Asian with a magical sideways pussy.

Y’all are fucking insane

Porn destroyed you

But keep blaming marijuana as the gateway drug OK?

You’ll soon be selling sex toys at the church for health and wellness

The way you are now selling sex toys at Walmart, Dolls Kill, CVS, Walgreens, the mall…

You don’t even need to be 21+ anymore to enter

It’s all been conditioning

And because Asians supposedly are the “most educated and hard working” they come over here and they take all our best jobs too and that’s also not fucking opinion

I’m pretty much done voting, dating, or looking at men

If you are white, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you support the Bible, I will boldly presume you have yellow fever

If you are married to an Asian, you most definitely have yellow fever

If you look at me with any interest, I’m gonna assume you have yellow fever

If you are alive, you have yellow fever

If you act interested in me, I’m just gonna reply “I’m not a ten, I’m not Asian”

“I don’t want to be your fleshlight”

And that’s what living with real autism is like

Many of Genzie and millennials, who claim to be “autistic” are really just emancipated

I’m kinda disgusted with humanity and those “in charge” ruining everything with religion and race

They use art and cartoon to get yeah

And NASA admitted it’s all “CGI artist interpretation”

James Webb only sees in red

I don’t know how else to get through

The rest is just data and numbers

Dots

They assign colors to numbers

It’s not even art, it’s an algorithm

And I’m tired of being conditioned to think that AI is art, it’s fucking not

It’s cutting corners

It’s lazy

It’s cheap (tho expensive lol)

Like I worked really hard to be a decent woman for man

And you all have yellow fever

At least the majority do

The fact that I’m still ascending (descending into hell)

The fact that God doesn’t want me disassociating anymore

“Where do you get your truth”

Not from the Bible – it uncovers the grand lie

The Great Pyramid scheme

The Great Wall of Deceit (is being disassembled on the black market and sold to build homes yassssssss – tear down the wall)!!!!!!!!

Did it ever occur to you that I am the truth

I’m one of God’s angels (I declare this and identify as angelic)

I am a truthmonger

I’ve been questioning my parents and the establishment since I was very young and I knew this was all bullshit

“How do you know the sun is so far away, you’ve been?” (Asked age 5)

“We shon a laser on a wall”

And I hate to be the bearer of bad news, or whatever news it is because you won’t believe me anyway, but the sun is electrical and closer to us than you’ve been told

Now I don’t mean plug in a socket electrical

But water exists as a fourth stage: plasma

Also, the Moon is a dead star (earth probably actually formed from her but whatev)

Again, I never believed the earth-moon theory

Never believed in the Big Bang model

Or the evolution theory

Or, that “women come from the rib of man”

If that somehow makes Asian women better than me – because I don’t believe in delusions of grandeur – and instead equality – then so be it. I’ll die alone without any worth from man cuz I’m not plastic surgery or yellow nor will bow to them simply to bow

Respect is earned

I know my worth even though I’m constantly crying to God “I’m worthless”, “I don’t deserve anything”

Apparently, this new age weed can cause suicidal ideation, and further complicate PTSD.

I’m getting off it now as I’ve never been more suicidal in my life

Big pharma also made me extremely homicidal

I will be real with you – so-in-so needs to go ahead and file multiple restraining orders- and I hear the more you have – the less they work

“90% of all murders happen by men“

But the other 10% – !?!

Are people worth going to jail for? No

But if you’re already dying and dead…

And you’ve sold or trashed everything you own…

What’s to lose!?!

It’s not murder if eye for eye

“You took my life”

But I have faith that God wants more for me than dying on the street or revenge from atrocities

It can go either way

I’m prepared for the worst outcome – dying

It won’t be jail or committed

DO NOT MOURN FOR ME

Porn has made it that man has no value at all – though he is racist to his core

I read into many articles about yellow fever – and migration patterns to the USA

It’s only the immigrants who say that are satisfied with their income and family here – and I summed it up to gentrification.

And now Biden made it so non- citizens can vote.

Americans are slaves to the Asian and Asian Americans who identify mostly as “Chinese American” and mostly only care about Chinese culture

Chinese culture has taken over America including yellow fever

Magical childlike pussies huh

Y’all are disgusting

I don’t wanna look at anybody in the eye

Some guy paying me a compliment: “I’m not Asian, shut up”

I don’t even wanna hear what any have to say…

I’m not Asian therefore white lives don’t matter

Posted on January 10, 2023 by poeeternal

I’m done voting (free speech)

Non-citizens are allowed to vote now

Our best jobs are given to the brightest and most brilliant immigrants who move here and naturalize – have children – and give those children the good jobs; the president said “they come here and take our best jobs”. Yep.

Our children (native) must wait 18 years to get a say…

They come here, and ruin Americans with propaganda and take their right to vote away, thousands of Americans are not allowed to vote because of crimes they already paid for.

I love everything

But the immigrants continue to destroy the environment to build a mall or shopping center that will be abandoned in a few years

Narcissism is a plague

Nihilism

I can’t stand it

And I’m tired of people trying to force my mouth closed when I am a soldier and politics is what I’m aware of

Florida is sinking

The whole of America has sunk

This isn’t about your green card!

Native Americans live on plantation’s like suppressed little slaves

Unless Hollywood TikTok has given them limelight

Narcissism

Manmade cats are unnatural for the environment – destroying nature

Dogs and cats spread disease

Also “made in China” and the first Bible can be traces back to Asia

Gonna follow the trails to the caves in Antartica and cut off their heads

(Thinking out loud again)

They keep adding all these additional charges to carry a smart phone and I’m ready to sell mine or downsize to a boring dumb phone.

The Internet is all predator, propaganda, and porn. Spam and spyware. Viruses. And they make us pay for it….

I’m over everything

Voting especially.

It’s all glaringly corrupt

I will not shut up…

Things need to be fixed

People from other countries shouldn’t get to move here and vote sooner than our own children and selves who are native to here

But that’s not what the article’s will say

Just like the bullshite globalism agenda spread through the college professors – that I always argued with – the articles will say non-citizens being allowed to vote is a good thing

I disagree

Conflict-of-interest

Period!

Remember them telling us “don’t discuss your income in the workplace”

That’s because shady business was going down

Now some states are requiring full income disclosure

I don’t believe the government can have transparency without gaslighting and a lie

This whole society is built on lovebombing, triangulation, gaslighting, lying.

“Don’t block me out, Emmet. I know you can hear me!”

Because the Christian God is narcissistic and evil. The Bible today is a fallacy – and to your own accord – a sin.

Emmet was always around the children. And smoking.

He can’t keep a straight face!

Pedo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Scene forward:

“And you can keep the jewelry! It’s fake!” *sinister laugh

And I was holding onto the gold like it had value because I put value on the cheapest things

“The thought NO LONGER counts” fixed

Men have devalued me for so long I no longer wanna look them in the eye

Annie no longer cares about the toys, she stated this.

Annie was depressed because Emmet said she would be

Tough love

“Keep your eye on the toys Annie, you know about toys”

How about stop conditioning me!!!!!!!!

Free will please!!!!!!!!

But not so much free will I jump in a whirlpool on ketamine like Jacob!

God bless what the fuck

I barely can dip my toes in the water without screaming

I don’t like anything in this society

Edgar was right to die on the street – naked – out of his mind

“The children have gone insane” and are boomers in position of power

Gen X the silent dangerous generation

I’m glad we’ve been ghosted by society

Won’t see me coming

And… while we’re on the subject

That cheap junk you’re wearing, that isn’t cotton, actually causes insanity, is extremely flammable and hard to put out

I bet the people in Pompeii were wearing synthetics

People dropping bills to buy foam shoes (which cause cancer/insanity)

All that sports clothing

JUNK

And I hate how they came over here and changed the meaning of silk, satin, and Cordaroy to now mean synthetics

“Men can have babies!!!!”

Well, I mean that’s good and all that you’re growing babies now because you’ve pretty much made most women infertile with nihilism or the death jab or emancipation

Fake tits are gross

Plastic surgery is the devil

Narcissism at its root

I said what I said

Happy to help

I can’t even look at Melanie Griffith anymore, because of what she did to herself

I’m ghosting HollyWood

Grooming everyone to fuck children

Many famous people won’t let their children around TV

Red flag!

Rules for thee, not for me!

I hate it here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feed the wildlife! They’re crying asshole!!!!!! Stop destroying everything to build a shopping center!!!!

Get the fuck out of my house!

Immigration is a Trojan horse!

Feed the birds! Squirrels! Trees!

Start bonding with earth!

As intended and designed!

“Since 1970 68% of all life has gone extinct”

Please wake up now!!!!!!!

Sell your TV!!!!

Posted on January 3, 2023 by poeeternal

Bond (poetry)

I come without bond
Broken
Look inside
Heart ain’t coping

Like leaping ledge
Just barely hoping
Your foot will land
But surface sloping

Man I am obsessed with cave diving deaths. Death in general because we were holding hands. Depth blackout terrifies me.

We can’t leave earth. We can’t even explore past 150 feet safely inside the earth.

What were you doing down there, John.

People will easily talk you into your death.

Give you maps withholding information needed to make valid decisions.

These demons try and avoid karma and fate by getting you to choose the wrong door.

I don’t want to go down with the ship.

There’s gonna be light at the end of the tunnel for me and that’s gonna be my way out of here.

Got an online offer on my Jeep. Not sure the avenue I’m going here – but why not downsize my ride.

I love her too much and I can’t take anything with me to heaven.

I also looked to see what they were being sold at with my mileage and year.

An SUV no longer serves my purpose here.

Would go down with the ship but why.

There were spaces on the lifeboat’s.

Lives could have been saved…

I’ve stopped crawling headfirst (still headstrong unfortunately)

“The answers are coming, rest Neo”

Nearly died, completely turning my life around.

Still learning basic concepts

Like how no man has ever seen me with any value – and destroyed everything I owned – while watching me work so hard to prove my worth/existence

But gentrification exists, because the rich hoard everything and they love us watching us fight for the cheap shit

A bone just to survive

I’m resetting my game. I’m allowed.

End game/Quit. Reset/Start over.

This time I go forward knowing my value to man is NONE.

Which is fine because 1-5 have an STD and I can’t look at any of them and take them serious.

Even if I wanted to date, the pool is tainted.

It ain’t worth the dive.

I live for God now. Sorry not sorry.

And I went back to the Mall. Spencer’s had even more hardcore sex toys out – and little boys were around.

I nearly threw up.

I don’t want anything to do with this porn infested devil society.

I’ll never know what it’s like to be valued or loved by a man – because I don’t have fake tits or come with “instant gratification” mode.

Sex with us commoners is boring to them

They hate our existence in general

The divorce rate is 85% and 1 in 5 men have an STD.

I know I’m boring and cheap so why you looking anyway.

You can’t afford me.

Honestly, it’ll take a miracle to get me to date now knowing one in five can give you cancer (there are some known parasites that can be spread through human contact) (they didn’t give us the nitty gritty in school but I got the good education some of the time)

Research parasites that cause cancer – then “human contact” (they won’t tell you it’s in the man’s sperm)

But you can catch a parasite from a cat box or kissing on an animal or eating food

The labs aren’t designed to see them (with malicious intent and purpose)

The elites were plagued with parasites

LAUGHS

I live for God now (unless he finds me a husband without an STI/STD or porn addiction or addiction of any kind unless to me)

🤪

BABES you can do this

It’s not end all

I did a CARMAX offer

If the physical offer holds up near as good as the digital, I may bite

Suddenly want a car…

Love the Jeep to much

Took good care of her, she’s at 75K miles

Feel frighteningly suicidal but at least this way she’s safe out of my hands

I want a little feminine car

And maybe some work from home or a hotdog stand

Do not want to die here

Do not want this hand

RESET GAME

“Are you sure, all data will be removed”

NO YES

No car, no address!

LAUGHS

Needed to lighten my load

Buoyancy

So many people have died exploring caves.

The earth is alive

Stop selling sex toys in front of minors. Like what the fuck

1 in 5 men have an STD and a divorce or three on their belt.

I got new skates for Christmas. Too much value, too much fun.

I once lived for man but they are obsessed with porn stars and always have money to impress and spoil and buy sex workers.

They love the backdoors and backrooms. Even the cleanest of them, the ones you’d never suspect cheating most definitely are. They use burner phones, identities, and make good use of work away from home.

In college I learned one husband gave his wife HIV/AIDS but started medication without telling her thus sealing her fate (it’s illegal to do this but men do not care) (the medication did not work for her because they did not start it together and he kept infecting her)

1 in 5 y’all

I may leave America all together

It’s disgusting here

My neighbors are gross

I want my neighbors to be the crocodiles and the crows

And a man that isn’t infected or at risk or risky behavior

Stop looking at me

Keep back ten feet

(I also researched other countries and their sexual health isn’t any better)

My best friend always said before she died by suicide age thirteen, “don’t be silly, put a condom on your willy” – Meika Capps

Miss yah babe!

Posted on December 27, 2022December 27, 2022 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

Pornography Destroys American Morals and Culture

Step-by-step, pornography decays moral character, and when character decays, so does culture.
— Read on www.nationalreview.com/2016/04/pornography-destroys-american-morals-culture/

Men have been programmed to be monsters (and most men got into porn age 6)

They have no soul

Posted on December 26, 2022December 26, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

The ‘E-Pimps’ of OnlyFans

Clever marketers have figured out how easy it is to simulate online intimacy at scale, ventriloquizing alluring models with cheap, offshore labor.
— Read on www.nytimes.com/2022/05/16/magazine/e-pimps-onlyfans.html

Y’all getting off on ghost writers.

Justice maybe.

You got an addiction and wasting your dough on e-pimps.

Selling sex toys at Walmart and turning every woman into a sex worker.

At least some are making money at it and not having their mental health destroyed.

Posted on December 16, 2022 by poeeternal

Christmas is Canceled (poetry)

I blame the world
For all my problems
Every single one
☝️

But I’m responsible
For what I’ve done
Every circumstance
The Devil spun

Drawing blanks
Loaded gun
Eyes clearly focused
Though in the sun

If I cut the cord, I’ll never be the same

In hindsight, it’s what I want, but not this way

An opportunity, to fix mistake

To save oneself

But at the cost of another…

So who is really being saved

Have you seen that zombie film with Arnold Schwarzenegger?

He couldn’t fix his mistake either

Prolonged the suffering…

It’s one of his best films next to Terminator. Highly underrated.

Cuz it’s all emotion.

That ending scene…

He couldn’t do the one thing she asked her dad.

Coward.

Being vague, because I don’t want to spoil the details.

No one cares about that film but me

Currently I’m going through a situation in where I don’t wanna do what I probably clearly outta

And my only outlet of expression is a poem to a private blog

*laughs insanely*

The isolation is starting to drown me

And you know what they say about a drowning man

Revenge

It really is better served cold and calculated

Posted on December 12, 2022 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Walmart is selling sex toys online in the health department (proof)

When I was growing up, sex toys were in the “Adult stores” that were age 21+ and only

But now anyone can buy sex toys at any age – (the Mall is also selling adult toys in front of children; conditioning).

Look how the algorithm includes suggestions

And over 1000+ search results….

So this is America now.

I am LOUDLY quitting

And I just thought you should know

What our children have been exposed to

And how you should stop supporting the enemy

Boycott Walmart

I did send up feedback in the app to the AI in control

I am uninstalling the app

I’m gonna keep starving until I find food that isn’t poisoned 🤢

No one is doing anything to protect my precious energy

I do not own sex toys and have not for years

They desensitize

It’s not actually “healthy” despite being sold in the health department online

What’s next? The gas stations? Next to the crack pipes?

Also, Walmart is adding natural flavor to the beef. It ain’t vegan if it’s got natural flavor in it.

Go look for yourself if it will help you transition

The firming agent in the beans is actually ruining the beans!

When is the uprising again?

Y’all all have so many addictions.

Synthetic material is highly flammable, and when they go to drop their little bombs in the air, you’re gonna go poof poof

It’s extremely hard to extinguish

Corduroy was always 100% cotton (no synthetic fibers)

But now that the Chinese government openly control everything – they are changing the literal definition and meanings of words.

The first Bible can be traced back to Asia.

“Made in China”

The Bible has also been rewritten so many times that it’s Luciferian in nature.

Still think porn should be widely circulated on social media – while our free speech is not?

The Internet should be made 21+

I see one little thing and get traumatized

My sexual energy is pure

My body

There are parts of me untouched and untainted

I have a shit ton to learn with a man

If and when the time ever comes

And God knows the sacrifices I’ve made to cleanse myself of a curse

I’ve got holes in my fucking wall…

I need out of the city

I don’t want to support the enemy

There are people in China suffering from their own fucking government that I can’t fucking stand who has taken over America.

I’m still a Soldier!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They are going after soldiers who want 100% for PTSD. They’re trying to fucking commit us because the goddamn enemy is inside the White House.

Can anyone hear me through their addictions and own personal hell?

Or naw? Pretty certain naw…

Because sex toys are being sold at the health department at Walmart

Posted on December 12, 2022December 12, 2022 by poeeternal

Amazon is sharing your address Wishlist with the buyer

I went in to make changes to my Amazon Wishlist and they have new features – already selected for you – about disclosing your address to the buyer

“The seller may disclose your address to the buyer”

Wait. What. 👀

I have a brain injury and maybe I’m misinterpreting what that says!?!

I’ve since unchecked the box – and I’ve no one spoiling me – but I very much intend to spoil me – as these are items I want/need.

That’s a dangerous new feature Amazon has added

I wasn’t even aware until I was acting emo and making privacy changes

Anyhoo…

If you have children using it or anyone under the age of 18 and they have an Amazon wishlist account and people spoiling them, then they may be getting access to your home address now.

I care about the unsuspecting adults too (like self) and people with mental illness who may try and obtain an address for harm

I don’t understand how it’s legal for a business to do something like this, it’s fucking dangerous

They are using grams as weight now cuz America belongs to the immigrants and their children born here naturalized

The immigrants get to vote before our children legally turn 18 to do so

LMAO

I wish I had known all this before I started College is a scam.

~~Quietly~~ LOUDLY quitting society

Information is knowledge so please let folks know that their lives are in danger now – unless they want complete strangers with their shipping address!?!?

I don’t like giving out my phone number or email and now we’re just giving folks our home address huh.

Why not just give the buyer your address and fuck Amazon all together?

Why use a third party at all? Which was the entire fucking point I thought.

Amazon is dead

There’s hardly a place worth shopping

I like thrift stores and antique furniture shops

I will find the most ugly shop in Florida you can find.

Get on my knees and hunt

Getting offline forever soon…

I don’t understand the point

Posted on December 4, 2022 by poeeternal · 9 Comments

Thrift finds 🤩 (journal log)

This is a special Christian thrift store – you can only visit X amount of times to shop

Sitting near the entrance of the store – cookie instructions

But anyone in the world is allowed to shop free there (free shopping, I know it’s weird)

Loaded the Jeep up – all 3 bags from the Thrift shop 🙂

I never know what I will find and there is a 25 item limit each visit. The Jeep was stocked.

One worker said, “I got a bag fresh in if you want it” cuz I had found a cool vintage wicker basket and they thought I’d like this. They were right. In fact, I’ve been looking all over for something but didn’t like the plastic junk currently out there. Universe said “gotcha, know just the thing you need”. Precisely.

Zero holes or tears. Zips correctly and without aggravation (thus far). I think it might be insulated and for kitchen/food use… not what I’ll be using it for. Or will I? 🤔

Also scored a full size Cannon quilt – these thing’s don’t ever run cheap

It’s comfy and making my terribly uncomfortable bed more comfies. It’ll fit the Jeep when I’m homeless again. I already put it through the wash. Need some sheets to match. Love the colors. Not too thick for Florida. Absolutely nothing wrong with it.

Also scored a hardback dictionary from back in the 70s, before the timelime was switched.

A book I’ll understand.

And got this magical purple velvet box with an angel inside – and one of a kind – she’s resting on clouds – but the art is painstakingly done on the inside of the ornament (I mostly wanted the box)

Purple velvet box with special ornament inside

Because it’s glass and has a mirror effect, it’s hard to get a picture of…

She is special and resting on clouds. I don’t know how to get a better photo. All you see is me in the reflection. Inside under her contains this note.

But the wicker basket was a nice find. I mostly cared about the basket.

Inside was three all cotton embroidered Christmas hand towels from Thailand – along with vintage soup with hand drawn art on it. Vintage.

I removed the soap and washed the towels and cleaned up the wicker basket.

100% cotton Christmas embroidered hand towels from Thailand

Vintage art soap from Thailand (my guess is this was also hand painted)

There was also non-edible cinnamon bark with decorations inside with the towels and soap.

Vintage handwoven wicker basket

Got 2 matching sets of 100% all cotton bath towels

And a couple plates

A ceramic spoon holder (now in the wash)

Some clothing like sweaters and nice fancy t-shirts

A small petite robe by Pink

A very long and beautiful crotchet table runner with my small dream home and a tree

Also this paper tablecover and a little Gospel of John propaganda book about the story of God

It’s a special thrift store and can only be visited a certain amount of times.

Anyhoo. The cost is absolutely free and it’s not junk. I’ve been all over town trying to find a bag.

Online too. God hooked me up. Special delivery fresh in. “It just arrived, thought you might like it”. I absolutely did. God bless. I didn’t know I needed a food delivery bag, but hey, have you watched made in heaven yet?

I don’t know if it’s a food delivery bag, but it would work well for picnics and things like that or to put in the back of my Jeep in the trunk area and put items in it like groceries

You could store blankets and things in it. Love my wicker basket and black travel bag! Absolutely great to store the groceries to and from! If that’s what I’ll use it for…

Mikey didn’t know what to do with the shovel. I’m in a similar boat.

I have things part of my purpose that I haven’t sorted yet.

I don’t know how to store and organize the important things.

Got 3 important boxes. All varying sizes. Velvet and satin lining. Wicker woven. Black potentially insulated. Do I keep the ornament and box together?

I thought that little wicker basket would be great to store my pads and tampons in, but surely there’s a better use for it than that…

Already washed and put out… love that all my towels and blankets are cotton! (Synthetic fibers are highly flammable and hard to put out)

Check out Frog Ministry of Edgewater, Florida (free to anyone in the world – but you get X amount of visits) 🎄

Pay-it-forward when you can. 🎄🎁🎄

Posted on November 14, 2022 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

I learned a secret and am telling it

Recently I received a gift of Cinnamon bark.

And being the observant that I am, I read the details. It included a secret on the back. God wanted me to know. I feel it is a universal sign. I’ve been making many stews after all. And today, included cinnamon bark.

(Protein of choice can be used – I’m avoiding lab made proteins – but am Flexitarian and mostly consume a vegetarian/vegan diet. I’m a picky meat eater too; beef, chicken, turkey mostly and fish on the occasion).

Making stew with spring water and cinnamon bark

I made my broth from scratch again – but memaw (my grandmother passed) never tossed out the fat from the meat and today I decided to do the same. Since I keep skin and seeds on, FAT PLEASE.

Ingredients used: spring water, Tomatoes from the Vine, cherry tomato medley (later popped), cinnamon bark, fresh garlic, onion, celery, cilantro, sweet yellow, orange, and green peppers with seeds, rainbow carrots, dry green split peas, wild rice blend, rosemary, thyme, parsley, salt with the necessary nutrients (maybe), pepper, potato with skin on and washed, red kidney bean (but I can’t buy canned beans anymore because they are putting things in them that they should not and I’ll stick to adding dry lentils, split pea, rice, ect). Added half can of tomato sauce too which it absolutely did not need and the stew would have survived without it)

I cooked up ethically sourced organic beef with onion and spices and put 4 spoons of the fat into the stew. I continued cooking the beef to a nice texture and gently added it to the stew – and then a shit ton of cabbage 🤪

I let the cabbage cook down some and then I added even more cabbage

But that wasn’t enough. So more.

IT’S THE BEST SOUP I’VE EVER MADE AND I SAY THAT ABOUT EVERY POT BUT THIS ONE CONTAINS A SPECIAL SECRET INGREDIENT

Cinnamon bark. It’ll be going in everything now. Practicing gratitude. Thank you Lord. Now maybe my stew is fit for a king.

A lump of cinnamon bark in the leftovers

And I put it with the leftovers. Apparently cinnamon is a great anti-parasitic and pet friendly too.

The dog went mad for my soup. He got second’s plus additional bites.

My bowl consumed in light-speeds – did not add a pinch of anything.

So the stew would be good without a meat protein source but the heart demanded. Just don’t add meat.

I made homemade vegetable beef this time. Probably not like anyone else makes it.

I’m terribly full but already greedy for another bowl. I’m stuffed. And definitely wanna enjoy leftovers so gotta ration and need a bigger pot! 🙂

Happy holidays. Still eating my nuts and things. I’m going to a food drive on Friday. Curious to know if the universe will gift me any secrets. I’m invested. 🙂

Oh and, scored my 3 pack detox for the price of 1. Grateful. The detox continues…. the heart journey, the healing.

Posted on November 11, 2022 by poeeternal

XMAS and thangs ahhhh

Oh hi. My package arrived. People were complaining this hat was small.

I’m small too.

My package arrived on Veteran’s Day. I wasn’t expecting to see it today.

Satin Christmas nightgown, and Santa hat and leg warmers for any part of the day (tis fall)

But scored more items from ROMWE

And got a special XMAS teddy plus other special items I don’t want to show (I don’t even know if they fit yet, I haven’t had a try on)

Despite the semi-holiday and storm Nicole, my package arrived in rather quick time

Socks

And sunshades for the Jeep. Happy they arrived. And the lord blessed me with a week of rain while I went without. Great price. Great quality.

Got some shop rags and a cleaning tool

Scored some foot socks. Soft feet.

And…

A crop top and pair of leggings (if they fit)

Clothing and cleaning and protection and I’m not spending a fortune and everything comes in a neat little bag. There’s minimal cleanup or waste.

Unlike America where you spend half your time chasing your tail just getting into the package and SO MUCH WASTE

I had 1 bag arrive with little bags of goodies and all trash fit back in the bag it came. I didn’t have to make a huge trip to the dump.

I like shopping at Shein but they are changing

So far my experience has been good

My first Christmas lingerie (will it fit?)

Posted on November 11, 2022 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Veteran’s Day (Soldiering)

So today is VETS day. I went out and enjoyed some of the free goods.

Also, my Shein package arrived (separate post coming)

They do verify if you qualify. I show proof of service with my ID card. But there are many methods.

I went to AppleBee’s to enjoy the free meal from the limited menu. I went with the HEALTHIEST option and my least favorite choice.

The steak. I requested well done twice but it came out bloody and medium. I ate that bitch. Practicing gratitude. 🙃

Water with extra lemon. And seating outside (it’s packed inside and fresh air please). I am not masked.

It’s been decades probably since I had a steak. This clocked in at nearly $15 on the menu (free today for VET’s).

While waiting on my meal, they gave me a gift card for $5 off my next visit (with an expiration date of like soon)

I’ll probably come get a brownie and use it! Get it to go. Fall into a sugar coma. 🙃

I’m buying a brownie bite today in fact. To go.

It’s here now and the plate is clean (minus the bites for the dog).

I also scored free donuts 🍩

That I absolutely do not need

It’s raining and packed outside now and I want to go. Eat my mini brownie. At home. Happy Veterans Day.

Posted on November 9, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

John (poem and things)

Saving souls
Going roads
Where caves are closed
Nobody knows –
I’m where John erodes

It fits! 🙂

The dust is on the mirror, not the clothes. I can’t keep up. 🤪

I didn’t really know it was there. It’s only been two weeks since I last dusted it. How dare it. Get dirty. Just sitting there.

Today I shook hands with the Devil. He extended his hand. I took it with grip. Said “thanks for seeing me, Happy Holidays”. Practicing gratitude.

Also, nearly was not seen at the VA clinic because they are under orders to evacuate, as is everyone beachside. Scary storm again. Arrives tomorrow. Been raining two days non-stop.

Instead, a male doc took me on since the female care team are “insert something nice”

EVAC in order. Everyone had to exit the building by noon. Appointment over.

Clocked in at 112 pounds too (weight not speed)

Anyhoo

Everything has been halted again

And I’m still drinking Black Walnut Wormwood religiously

Herbals of the gods

I made the most amazing soup again – had a bowl today – God grows the most amazing things, and I need a bigger pot to put cook them in

I was slurping the broth out of the bowl, “thank you for healing me”

My skirt fits. I may have a future. I may not be yeeted out of society yet.

I’m ready to say yes to some of these side gigs

“I’ll give you 10-12 hours, with the potential for an additional 8, under one condition”

But I also filed for an increase again, and those take time, and it needs to be done right

Tests have been ordered

I’m lucky to be alive

This year has been a straight up fight for my life but no wonder no clothes was fitting me at 112 pounds 🤪

Gingerbread cookies are definitely in my future

Love me skirt. Denim. Perfect fall attire. I went with a medium (size 6). ROMWE. Said it would not be restocked. Doesn’t matter. I’ll wear it til it works no more.

Made the peach look good, not flat. Or maybe that’s the rebound fitness sessions 👀

I’m not allowed to go beachside, it’s shut down and under strict curfew and EVAC orders

Do you think me and that group hanging out on the beach last storm (the dude swimming in it) had anything to do with it?

Because they weren’t this pressed about Ian

According to all the official stats out here, Daytona Beach is going to continue to experience “severe flooding over the next 30 years”

Wanna go skating so bad but it’s been raining so much. Wanna do the outdoor skate parks first. Open air. Sky. Zero costs. Fitness exercise. The rinks cost the dollars. I’ll hit those up eventually.

I’m not wearing a mask skating tho no – just to take it off to eat.

Free skate park built here in 2019. 👍👍

Gonna test the new skates there.

I’m sorta nearly done shopping at Dolls Kill and Shein tho 🙂

Walmart is selling sex toys under the health department online. We once had to visit “adult bookstores” for any adult content.

21+ to enter

If Walmart is selling anal plugs, I guess the gas stations will be doing it next

America is toxic

I want out or far far away from society

And definitely stop supporting the enemy 🙂

I’ve scored some awesome things that will improve my life tho

Kinda need clothing that fits

Or that I want to wear

That isn’t business attire or military related

The whole mothership getting a makeover

Been getting so many job offers in the real world that I know I over qualify for, that’d I’d love to say, “I’ll give yah 10-20 hours”

But I have a hard time breathing 🙂

Skating will be so greattttttrttttrrttttrtr

“It can’t rain all the time…”

Some places it feels like it never ends. And I ain’t complaining. It looks creepy and scary out. Floods incoming again. End of the world.

Shook the devil’s hand today

Hold on, level up! 🤪

Challenge accepted

What are the terms? 🤪

“You go where I go”

112 pounds eh. Still gotta tone up. Shedding fat. But also need to fatten up and plan to include real butter in my diet again. Not vegetable oil. Not soybean. Not natural flavor lab made.

I’m still eating good

Until I fucked things all up with that Halloween candy

And nearly wound up in Urgent Care

And thank fuck the female team couldn’t do their job and the male doctor listened to me and things are moving forward with progress even though everything’s been halted because of the storm and the Evacuation orders

Happy holidays y’all

There are people out here still fighting for their life because of the vaccines and other things

Gulf war related thangs

Real soldier. Real battle wounds.

Friday is Veterans Day! HOOAH

I don’t know if anything will be open for me to go out and get any of the free meals or benefits due to the storm

I do like getting all the free thangs

Subs. Coffee. Donuts. Meals from Applebee’s and all sorts of places. Usually start early in the morn, pace myself, and make a day, evening included.

I am hungry. To eat another bowl had amazing soup.

THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD, I SHALL NOT WANT

Posted on November 8, 2022November 9, 2022 by poeeternal

Shotgun (poetry)

I wish I’d hear news of your death
I’d be winded
Overcome with giddy
You think I’m kidding?

I’d start a committee
Organize their pity
Piss on your city
Sorrow is silly

He likes to use the word “our”
But I’m not allowed in his yard
At any hour
The wind blows hard

I need to bunker down
Spend six months alone
Get out of this town
Let him feel the undertow

I’m reactive
Chemical explosive proactive
Positive attracted
Faith compacted

“Baby’s not allowed to see”
Words said cruelly
Cut right through me
Trust left fully
Got nowhere left to be

He wants me in a red bow
Lingering low
Black night and espresso
Staggering combo

He’s not a friend
He’s a one-way street
To a dead end
Devil called “shotgun” seat

I spend too much time and money for simple validation
Guys are cheap
There’s never a rose or coffee waiting
But another message complaining they are aching
Meanwhile, bills are paid and fridge is full – none of which they are responsible for
None of them would pick me off the floor
So I’m closing my own door

It feels redundant
Swimming up a current
I know I’m not stunning
Losing’s unbecoming

I deserve the cold earth
Rotting in the ground
Born with so little worth
Not gonna stick around

Kink and Coffee
Blowjobs and toffee

Posted on November 3, 2022November 3, 2022 by poeeternal · 5 Comments

Special Christmas incoming (shopping at Shein)

HOLY GAWD

The special Christmas lingerie sets I was picking out on Shein was SELLING OUT as I was attempting to load my cart up and shop

And there were other things I was shopping for. Sunshades for my Jeep (dashboard and steering wheel), cleaning rags, regular clothing, and special Christmas stuff (got a hat, socks, satin night cami) + silicone moisturizing socks for the feet (baby soft) 🛼

BUT THE BIG TICKET ITEM I WANTED WAS SELLING OUT. All I’d do is blink and another was sold. 🎄

I WAS LIKE – COULD YOU SAVE ONE FOR ME

Now I know I’m not a busty 10 star but damn I’m an original so that makes have value thank you. I’m here. Deal with it. Plus this is my first time ever shopping for Christmas lingerie. I got a good tip.

I got some really cool Christmas leggings if they fit me and a really cool crop top to wear to events or to go skating in (it’s versatile)

There was a skirt from a favorite designer and I bought the last one potentially. The same designer I scored my Halloween spider witches hat, to be buried in. 🤪

But the big ticket Christmas special lingerie outfit was selling out!!! I wanted it!

IT DID IN FACT SALE OUT (I got a set coming) 🎄

So shopping hour was over!!!! Time to checkout! 🤪

And I got it, in a small, and I hope it will fit! I hope I didn’t spoil the fucking surprise

I hope you like the special lingerie set that I got and it’s incoming, I’ll have a shipping status soon!

I’m glad I was able to budget in the big ticket items because I really wanted those but I had to put some stuff back because the other stuff started selling out! 🤪

My wishlist is growing full. But I’m not just buying lingerie. 🎄

I’ll probably wear that little satin Cami nightgown all through December and January (well it’ll get washed, but you know what I mean, sleep gown)

I like the quality and price of Shein. Shipping is never as long as it estimates – unless you get hit with a category 5 hurricane – that will set you back.

I really hope those black Christmas leggings fit because they remind me of Greese and I can go skating in them (you know the movie right)

I think it was John Travolta’s first film

If they fit, they will look good with my black and gold skates, and I busted out my measurements.

28 inch waist currently, 117 pounds 👀

Shoe size 6 1/2 – 7 (sometimes a 6)

34B (sometimes 36C unless lactating) (then like DD) 🤪

STOP PICKING ON ME

My mini tree is out and first ornament I ever made in kindergarten (school is slavery)

Posted on November 3, 2022November 3, 2022 by poeeternal · 8 Comments

Cosmic Skates by Dolls Kill (fitness)

My skates arrived earlier than the scheduled delivery date 🤩

No one stole my package

They fit 🤩

I’m keeping them 🤩

Forever

Put your foot forward for balance and to break

It’s 4 AM – my box was waiting for me early. It wasn’t stolen. They fit. My Cosmic skates fit.

I might never take them off again. I was moving around in them easier. The heart approves.

I can’t believe no stickers came. I mean WTF is going on in this timeline.

I’m keeping the box. The millennials don’t understand the importance of an original box and how it adds value.

Arrived in cosmic speeds too. Meant to be. Thanks uni.

Heaven is a skating rink y’all. I’m allowed to skate in the halls.

Posted on October 28, 2022October 29, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Demigod (freestyle poetry) NSFW- soft nudity

You want divine spark?
Required: one dark heart
Break it apart;
Destroy the patriarch!

He wants the benefits without putting in the work
I’ll give it my all and still get rated the worst

I’m top of your list?
But you’re never around?
Cuz life it must persist?
Or hell will keep you down?

But where do I exist?
The lesson is too profound?
The truth I must have missed?
But who is safe and sound?

He fucking mimics
Everything I do
Wandering avenue
My biggest critic

He fucking limits
The destiny we construe
My sin his residue
Cuz sin’s an epidemic

Closest by a distance
No wall to break through
No sunlight where we grew
We’re outta minutes

P.S.

I got a new lace veil today at Spirit Halloween but would you know they were out of their infamous bleeding candles here and at every store nearby! Sold out! So wasn’t able to score another pair, nor will they have any at the huge after Halloween blowout sales lol

New lace comb veil (because she kept poison in the comb and this is a black comb lace veil) MINE

I got a military discount today and will likely sneak back and see what the vultures left behind for the huge blowout sale

But I still have one candle unburned and one that I just lit for a set that is still more than half (and now they feel even more special for the set I’ll use them since I wasn’t able to score any replacements this season. Boo)

Sometimes I score tee-shirts (plain but black or green or some other color but 100% cotton or near)

I really wanna save my dough for Dolls Kill and Shein – see what I can grab there this time – got my trick or treat shopping in early tho at Spirit – and with that military discount – but dammnit if they didn’t have the ONE THING I WANTED and really no point in going back but I know I will 👻

I do like grabbing the journals and the home stuff at discounted prices and I did score a really cool lunchbox that includes a poem 🎃

I can use it when I take my walks to the beach and park or travel wherever OR as a keepsake box or to store my gun in 🙃

It’s practical and my first real lunchbox since a kid that doesn’t look like I’m going to work or a hike. But remember when lunchboxes would have really cool things inside them (kind of like vinyl records).

😈

Oh and I got a new skull for the bookshelf 💀

And my military discount paid for those decals but I don’t know if I can use them in any of the photo sets on onlyfans because we’re not allowed to use blood, or say the word blood, or bleeding, so I don’t know if I can have bloody handprints even though they’re decals 💀

I can use them to decorate my Jeep tho or a wall or put it on forever furniture – I DON’T KNOW

I HORDE THINGS LIKE A SQUIRREL

I WAS INVITED TO A HALLOWEEN EVENT THAT INCLUDES PRIZES AND A SMALL MEAL

I RSVPD

I HOPE I GO 🎃

(Please go)

(I’ll let you know if I go)

(Free food even if I win nothing I won a free meal and I wanna get invited to the bigger Jeep events on beachside on Main Street when ONLY JEEPS ARE ALLOWED TO DRIVE ON IT

I’m trying to be a positive part of my community

My little Jeep is old and it could win a free part but I’m not decorating it but if I go – I could go in a costume, maybe I might win something for it or myself, but still free small meal) (networking)

(It requires communication and I’m an introvert so I probably won’t go)

Or go but not leave my ride 👻

Also more writing and stuff to come

My poetry is so fresh it normally comes with mistakes (no editor). ☠️

Yo. I mean, I have more content coming. But I make everything hot. 🤪

I don’t use a poem generator.

I don’t have a husband who could be my poem generator (like David Gilmour and his wife write lyrics together, I don’t have that)

But y’all inspire me

So I’m still here

Trying to get better

In how I hold myself

In how I present myself

On with the show…

The full set: https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual

Posted on October 26, 2022October 27, 2022 by poeeternal · 4 Comments

Halloween Dark Chocolate cupcakes with chocolate tombs (vegetarian) 🎃

I made Dark chocolate cupcakes with dark chocolate “tombs” and decorated them with Halloween cake rings (that can be worn)

I’m still detoxing so am not using icing (I think that stuff is overrated)

My cake was experimental

The cake is vegetarian cuz I used 3 brown eggs, unsweetened applesauce (about half a cup), coconut oil, pumpkin seeds, blanched and whole almonds, rolled oats, flax seed, and love 💕

Started off with 2 eggs but needed a third

It started with two brown eggs but I needed 1 more (or more applesauce so the egg won since I ate too much of the applesauce) 🤪

I did not want the batter dry because I was gonna add all the other ingredients and I had zero guidebook cookbook for the RECENTLY NEAR DECEASED

But I experimented by adding nuts, seeds, and oats

A semi-healthy Halloween treat that would have been good with some instant coffee tossed in the batter (next time)

Flax for the gut health

And I made a cake too

I was gonna share with the neighbors but naw

I should have sprinkled it with oats before tossing in the oven (next time)

Turned the whole house smelling good

I’m gonna enjoy with coffee over breakfast and/or treat time

Decoration isn’t my thing but A for effort?

And they actually do taste good which is why I wanna be greedy 🎃

Happy Boo season 👻

Uhm check the current census for a scare 👀

I used broken dark chocolate bits as the “tombs” 👻

Sidenote: some sort of non cancerous marshmallow could be used as spider webbing and edible decoration

I’m just throwing out ideas

If you make it better, show me

I don’t have a mama or daddy or brother or hubby

K, thanx, bye

HAPPY HALLOWEEN 🎃

P.S. If you have those little spiders – the black and orange ones that hang on your Halloween decorations – you can use those for your cakes – but please don’t eat your wearable cake decorations – get photos in them instead or actually share the cupcakes and let folks keep the Halloween jewelry (or ask for them back) 🤪

Let me know if you liked my idea or if it gave you any good ideas for treats of your own

I think some cute edible spider webbing would have been the spooky sweet perfection around the chocolate tombs (which could be a tad bigger and these are 70% and 90% dark chocolate bits)

70% & 90% dark chocolate broken bits (used with coffee and as cupcake “tombs”

You could carve initials or dates into the edible tombs for extra spooky vibes and put small white chocolate drizzle near the tombs as spider webbing

Posted on October 25, 2022October 25, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Happy Witch photography

The saddest witch ever likes to smile

God (nor John Jones) wants me leaping from a building

But I’d do it with a smile

Sometimes suicide is docile

And death is more humane than life

That assisted suicide doc was my hero – but we’d all want to leave this Hitler regime immediately

Wouldn’t we?

I am dropping Rated R Halloween sets on my OnlyFans (I was born naked and Edgar Allan Poe died naked on the bloody street).

I’m holding TOP 49 currently and that’s cool 🎃

Top 49 for a petite ghoul from the deep deep south; cotton capital of the world (not Asia hint hint) 👻 https://onlyfans.com/poeeternal_sensual

Side-note: If you “don’t want your children to see this” stop letting them loose at Walmart and the Mall. 💀

Psst…

Halloween spider mesh bodysuit by Dolls Kill 💀

Witches Spider Cap by ROMWE on Shein 😈

Both sold out but may restock 🎃

One of my favorite new cosplay sets. I feel more myself in this attire and without loads of makeup making it theatrical and whatnot

I’m the real thang 🎃

You can’t burn me legally at the stake anymore 👻

So just wanted to see what it would feel like to do a midnight Halloween set without all the makeup and flare

I was wearing vegan flavored strawberry kissy lips and that made for an extra sweet midnight smile set (I can hook you up with a free glam bag on Ipsy) (most products are vegan) (cancellation is easy but I’m staying on for awhile) (I got a free Halloween glam kit for sign-up and love it) (you can adjust the frequency of delivery as well) 🎃

Halloween is my favorite season perhaps 🤔

Do you like my new set?

How is my petite pumpkin looking? 👀

“I don’t like your ass when you bend over, it disappears” (something someone said to me in my 20s directly after sex)

Yeah, just like any empathy I ever had for you.

Everyone has had such high standards of how my body should look 24/7 because apparently I’m supposed to be posing 24/7 that I’m afraid to even show my fucking skin because I’ll probably get yelled at for being fucking white anyway

Always told I need to “cover up” cuz they like it too much to “just be friends”

Heaven is empty and I cry a lot lol

I also talk to the dead

I have a budding relationship with John Jones

I also keep having images of him (not John) finding me hanging from a tree

The way he breaks and the strength it takes for him to not look away

To get me down…

I don’t know what’s real anymore

I’m focusing on my blog and OnlyFans for now

I’m sorry I’m not posting more yet on my free one – which I can go live on but I can’t go live on my subscribed one 😑

The way the wheels turn 💀

But I’ve started posting playful sensual videos on my OF

And as long as someone wants to support my content I’ll keep going

WordPress just emailed me telling me that I owe them $100 to keep the blog going but web links are broken and everything is chaotic inside the algorithm since they split it into

I need new web hosting and all sorts of cleanup in my life

My blog continues to remain advertising free

All my content is original

Trends make me feel obsolete and always behind

There’s always someone who can come along and do it better, I’m only ever average at anything even when I give it my all

Self-portrait October 2022 (the timeline is wrong)

Posted on October 19, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Home cooking 101

Soups, stews, treats, and pepper sauce – all made from scratch and with love

Memaw always said heat the vinegar to extract “the heat” from the pepper

Measure out what you need in the jar, then heat to a simmer and remove from heat and pour over your peppers (you can leave them whole but remove the stems)

Slowly pour the vinegar over the peppers and set aside and let them cool and then put them in the fridge and forget about them for at least two weeks

The longer they sit in the fridge the hotter they will be and you can top up the vinegar by adding more hot vinegar to the peppers as it diminishes

I’ll eventually eat the peppers too but memaw said they are good for at least one year in the fridge – I’m gonna need a bigger jar 🤪

Currently I’m making stew with green cabbage

Fresh vegetables and herbs 🌿

It’s been simmering ten thousand years and I’m investing in a bigger pot soon

I also recently made spicy pasta

It was tasty and I’ll try different versions soon

Lots of fresh tomatoes, herbs, and peppers 🌶 🫑

Fresh garlic, olive oil, onions….

Tomatoes, more tomatoes, and a small tin of organic tomato sauce

I was out of penne pasta but had whole wheat spaghetti but used bow-tie noodles instead

I also added 3 bean trio cuz protein (it’s good)

Overall, my experimental spicy pasta was a hit (could make minor changes) (more garlic too)

And then, there’s the oatmeal peanut butter protein balls

Take 1 cup of peanut butter (a good one) and gently mix over low heat with 1 cup of maple syrup (a good one)

Once it has a light bubble – remove from heat (takes maybe 2-3 minutes) (maybe 5)

Add 1 cup of rolled oats by gently folding

I added flax and raw pumpkin seed to the mix – cuz tis the season 🎃

Put them in a better cooling tray and set in the fridge until they harden – then put in a storage container – these protein balls make around 2 1/2 dozen and could last you two weeks in the fridge but mine never go past 1 week

I could have used more oats cuz they were kinda sticky this time. Full of protein, vegan, and organic. That’s all for now. Gotta get back to the pot on the stove… 🤪

Posted on October 12, 2022October 12, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

One Pot Wonder Witches Stew (organic cooking)

First off, you can use whatever veggies, herbs, and meats you like. But this pot is organic and vegan and made with love. No recipe book! ❤️

Jesus said when he comes back he’s hitting my door for some soups

I didn’t use all my cherry rainbow tomatoes or tomatoes on the vine (or peppers and herbs) cuz I’m using some to make pasta sauce

I don’t have a fancy kitchen setup yet but I’m using a glass pot and Florida spring water

I do advise that you drink spring water locally wherever you are

I used a can of tomato sauce this time – it made absolutely no difference in taste turn out – it did however help since I was using less tomatoes this time to make my base

Glass pot + Spring water + sauce + handful of medley cherry tomatoes 🍅 + low heat (simmer around 3-4 heat)

Start dropping herbs and spices (you will be cooking with your eyes and nose for the next few hours)

I tossed in a couple small handfuls of green split peas + lentils

2 + 2 and stir frequently but gently so they don’t stick (I do not presoak in poison)

We’re making witches stew (vegetable soup – can be made with a fire and cauldron potentially)

Now I’m dicing peppers and celery to get the broth nice and tasty – these can be diced small – we’ll add more later towards the end – so don’t put it all in now

This is how it’s going

You can add salt and pepper now – slow and steady wins the race (no taste testing until the potatoes are being tried) (we haven’t put any potatoes in the pot yet so stop freaking out). I use about a quarter amount of salt in my palm – about 4 pinches worth – THIS TIME AND EACH TIME

I also used a dash of sea salt that states it does not provide the necessary nutrients – and I’m still on the hunt for the correct salt to use

My doctor did say I needed more salt and that was when I was just using the sea salt that doesn’t provide the necessary nutrient

You wanna add all your spices now – but not at one time. They were out of fresh rosemary but I had some dry herbs on stock (I am not growing my own herbs and peppers and tomatoes because I don’t have a balcony or porch to do that and all the apartments I lived in before I could at least grow some herbs and peppers and shit)

I did use fresh cilantro and parsley 🌿 and lots of it too (saved some for the upcoming pasta)

And you’ll likely need to add a touch more water later – you don’t want the beans using up all your water and the extra fiber will be very hearty (also these require half an hour at normal temps to cook on their own, these will require the full simmer time of 2-3 hours, you’ll need to stir gently and often to ensure proper rotation

At this point I’m still dicing peppers, onions, and adding herbs 🪴

I use seeds yes – skins and seeds 🙌

My soup turns out mild so I gotta kick up the heat soon

During the broth making session, the items are diced (celery, onion, tomatoes on the vine – I kept the cherry tomatoes whole and did not pop them unless they popped on their own)

Celery makes for a delicious broth

I generally add more to the soup during the end – so I have a slightly crunchy celery and pepper (no carrots this time but lots of cabbage)

With the rosemary (pre stir)

But now you can start adding yer tators! I used 3 this time! I wanted extra potato since I had no fresh carrots!

And I plan on making homemade baked fries with skins on! Potato logs!

Trying new thangs!

LOOK AT IT 🤩

I kept skins on! All the thangs! (Not the onion)

Once the tators are near done, you can add cabbage, more peppers, celery, onion, salt n spices

It’ll smell divine

It’s soup fit for a king 👑

I’m carefully adding MORE cabbage

Don’t spill a drop!

It’s almost done and you can add more salt and pepper but once I put mine in a bowl it does not need anything else but I literally could add salt and pepper until I was dead

I also carefully added dark red kidney beans because the heart needs!!!

And this is the end result of hard work and love

Several bowls and will last several days in a fridge if eating alone (unless you go hog wire)

I didn’t add any jalapeño sauce or cheese or extra salt or pepper or anything afterwards but it probably could use any of those things and make it taste even better

I GOT ONE GIANT DOUBLE BOWL REMAINING

I’ve also been drinking this tea and I recommend it or any version that is a healthy version without the poison but it’s the ginger turmeric that helps inflammation/heart/gut health

I gotta start using the real stuff

Coffee and tea and soup. It’s like my soul purpose.

I made Vegan oatmeal protein balls and I’ll do an upcoming blog post and how to make those! Simple! Easy! Maybe 20 minutes from prep to finish!

Thanks for stopping by my blog! 🙌

I reactivated my Insta but with boundaries 🤪

My awesome hot pants workout set will be arriving Friday! They shipped it out same day! 🎃

The vegan treats are worth sticking around for and don’t let the word vegan scare you. PROTEIN BALLS 🤤

Posted on October 3, 2022October 4, 2022 by poeeternal · 6 Comments

I want Gordon Ramsay to taste my soup

I don’t like to brag about the places I’ve been but today I went to the grocery store 😎

I made the whole thing from scratch, no guidebook

Him: any addictions?

Me: I’ll die without food 👀

Posted on October 3, 2022 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

I got food for the month (minimal water)

The pantry and fridge is full!!!! 🤩

Walmart was completely out of eggs, coffee, red potatoes, and other items I ordered

When I asked if they had “less eggs available”, the employee replied, “we have no eggs”, and there were a few items that got substituted instead and I was actually grateful for that

The organic maple syrup was being bought out online as I was buying, along with many items, and the time slots available for delivery or pickup were already filled until 9 am Monday (today)

So I’m lucky I got any items at all

2 pounds of rolled oats! Only need 1 cup (uncooked) for the vegan protein balls! 🤪

The substituted Maple will do just fine (and can be used for pancakes too)

I recommend using a good peanut butter but I didn’t fit it into the budget – mostly because I have six jars of donated jars I wanna use up – and I’m relying less on the food banks as my main source of food

Got all sorts of edible thangs!

I still have regular pumpkin seeds to add to my nut and seed mix, but topped up on the roasted seeds and glad I scored a bag cuz they only had 4 left!

Food is healing and I got stuff I can eat if the lights go out

Tomatoes on the vine!

Fresh herbs, peppers, spices!

Apparently you can sprinkle flax on anything so it’ll probably get in the trail mix for starters 🤪

Peppers galore

I’m famished 🤪

Scored a purple and green head of cabbage!!! 🤩

Witchy vegan stew incoming soon 🤪

My dog is driving me insane and I do wish our nightmare would come to an end

6 excellent years followed by 5 terrible

And no, I don’t want him anymore. He ain’t a dog.

5 pounds of potatoes and despite how terrible the dog treats me, he eats like a king

Pound of dry beans + canned beans in case

Him: any additions?

Me: beans

Loads and loads of good eating this month

More of the good salt which may not be good after all but SALT

And this tea to help with inflammation but I need to learn to use the real stuff and baby steps….

The only water available…

And I still have a pound of raw cashews and 3 bottles of detox incoming

They were out of coffee and eggs tho and this was the only dairy I got (I’m trying to quit cheese and yogurt currently)

I didn’t show all the herbs but I’ve got some fresh cilantro and parsley to toss in the soup – not to mention like 6 or 7 fresh jalapeños (and a bag of sweet peppers).

Unfortunately the banana chips and the dark chocolate have natural flavor in it so I won’t be able to do those again but for now it will be a good snack. The dark chocolate is intended for the coffee. Luckily, the container I just popped makes 148 cups! But wasn’t able to restock this month!

Him: any addictions?

Me: coffee and cabbage 🤪

I got green and purple! I just desperately wanted a head! God made sure I got two!!! I’ll make good use! No eggs but protein balls and extra cabbage! Plus, that bag of oats was bigger than I thought! 2 pounds! My nuts are also the big boys!!! Happy to have a stocked fridge and pantry tis all!

I’ll find water but I need a filter for the sink! God wants me to become more self-reliant! Less plastic! Less waste!!! Less poison!!!!!! I can’t believe nobody is protesting the water being poisoned but I may start showing up at City Hall soon. But I’d rather buy an acre with a mobile home. Witchy stew and protein balls.

THANK THE LORD! 🙏

Gonna make some hot pepper sauce with the fresh peppers and vinegar! Homemade soup and pepper sauce!!! 🎃

Posted on September 29, 2022 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

My power is out!!!

Power is out

And everything went dark

But bro inspired me so much

I’ve been writing and in survival mode

Need to save the juice

I’ll post more when I can

Say hello to Hurricane Ian

These shots were taken before the power went out

The dark was Ian…

Could be out of power for days…

I posted stuff on TikTok and Insta before I went down

That dude was not drunk

He was walking a straight line in hurricane winds

Now meybeeee he had a drink

But he was not staggering and had full control

I was worried I was gonna get booted off of my live for dangerous activities so I was letting people know that I was not part of that group but looking back on it he had so much courage, will, and strength

He was exercising and taking dips in Hurricane Ian

The way that bird hovered near him

It was like watching a real life gladiator undergoing some sort of spiritual thang

THIS COULD BE NORMAL ACTIVITY FOR HIM

Meanwhile, I was standing with my legs shoulder length apart holding the damn camera arm with both hands with all my might being blown left and right!!!

My lower back was hurting from being beat by the wind!!!

There were two others in his group that were undressing to go in that chose not to

I was live on TikTok so it took me by surprise – didn’t want dude to drown

That motherfucker is the son of Poseidon or some shit – like he is in god mode or something exercising his demons or gaining full control of them

I get chills watching back on it lol

I’m afraid for the water to touch me and this dude was baptizing in the storm

LOL

Not just any storm either…

Apparently one of the worst hurricanes to hit Florida in 100 years

My power has been down an hour or so

I definitely was not prepared but I have several hours maybe days worth of candle light that I can use and I’ll probably mostly use it at night time for 2 to 3 hours only

Posted on September 28, 2022 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

Top 48 👀 (journaling)

Woah. Phenomenal. Thanks.

If I lose power, there will be no warning, and last two hurricanes my area went dark for a week

I ain’t ghosting no one

I was unable to stock up on water as it was ALL OUT EVERYWHERE 🤨

I went beachside again and this dude TOOK A SWIM/WALK/CAT BATH in the damn sea!

Think he was attempting to step on water at some point 🎃

👇

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRmAKqTS/

FYI the wind was so gnarly I had to stand with my feet shoulder with apart, leaning into the wind battering me to death AND it required TWO HANDS just to hold my device

I was getting blown away and he was taking dips like a bird

Sidestepping a hurricane

And the way the bird kept rhythm with him entering the ocean

Not a sign of doom

GLADIATOR DUDE

I want him on my team for the apocalypse

Let’s feed him good

💪

He conquered something because his step was getting more powerful the closer in

STOMPING THE STORM

I’m terrified of the ocean calm so this was kind of incredible to see

He didn’t seem drunk, more determined

STUPID COURAGEOUS (oxymoron!?!)

He woke

And he definitely pissed off

SEA MONSTER CONQUERED SOMETHING TODAY

His fears? 🌀

I could barely stand and the wind nearly blew my Jeep door off

GUSTY

Also, I met a one legged bird and nearly wept

And an outcast because weak

But that seabird was so strong 😑

Sad but strong

Struggling to survive with one leg 😑

Now I’m gonna cry again 😑

The one legged bird and gladiator vibes at the beach today

It’s never dull even when it’s dull

Because people were complaining about the live lmao

Not all but some

🤪

Most enjoyed getting to see the fury but I can’t do anything about the sound quality

Got some photos I’ll upload and maybe that bird

Bless its heart one leg and all 😑

I’m too sensitive and too empathetic

I nearly lost it on the live – emo 😑

Posted on September 28, 2022 by poeeternal · 14 Comments

Hurricane Ian has arrived

Water is sold out everywhere

I’m not wasting time, energy, gas, running around for scraps

TIME TO RATION SUPPLIES – SOMETHING THESE GREEDY NARCISSIST KNOW NOTHING ABOUT

The town is under curfew

Most businesses are closed or are closing early (I was gonna cheat and get fast food after finding zero water but the universe said NOPE don’t want you eating that crap)

The lights were on and they were open and workers were inside on the clock getting paid to do nothing – quiet quitting every chance they get on our dime

THE LAZY GENERATION

WANTS TIPS BEFORE SERVICE AND ZERO QUALITY SERVICE AT THAT

DELUSIONAL

I’ll post some videos on TikTok if I’m allowed and while I still have power

It might not get that bad but I have lived through two hurricanes where I live and power was out for a week

No fucking water anywhere

NONE

I’m gonna look on Walmart delivery or pickup if they have it…

I’M EXPECTING THEM TO NOT OR TO HAVE JACKED UP THEIR PRICES FOR BASIC LIVING NECESSITIES WHICH SHOULD BE ILLEGAL

Haven’t had any Evec orders but we are under curfew

I still have 4 gallons of water so hopefully I’m okay

I need out of the city tho

It’s not safe here

In any capacity

I went live for a few minutes, got entirely soaked walking around the ocean, I’ll get the videos posted since none of the locations had drinking water

Had some pissy people on the live apparently. Acting as if hurricane ocean is safe. 🤡

I ain’t dying for views. But I am a blogger and I do share my environment.

Things are taking forever to upload too 🤪

My fridge is empty and so are the stores which are closing early

The power can go out and my electric bill probably still gonna be through the roof

I don’t want modern luxury if it takes three jobs to pay your electric and your rent

Posted on September 27, 2022September 27, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Governor Ron DeSantis Issues Updates on State Preparedness for Hurricane Ian | Florida Disaster

20220926 Governor Ron DeSantis Issues Updates on State Preparedness for Hurricane Ian | Florida Disaster
— Read on www.floridadisaster.org/news-media/news/20220926-governor-ron-desantis-issues-updates-on-state-preparedness-for-hurricane-ian2/

Just an FYI my county is under hurricane watch:

Volusia county is listed in the warning link above – The Governor of Florida recommended it! ⚠️

I promptly went to visit.

I have lived through TWO hurricanes where I currently live and did lose power both times for a week!

I am not prepared at all… 🤪

But hopefully I can get some necessities in a few days.

I’ve got 4 gallons of water currently so the panic is setting in.

Boo season is here!!! 🎃

Just an FYI if I lose power and whatnot

I don’t need power to jump on my rebounder and I don’t need power to ride my bicycle unless it’s flooding but we’ll see how it goes…

The fridge and pantry is low tho and I’m living on the edge (Mostly paycheck to paycheck like every American and I’m not gonna feel ashamed about it)

But if I disappear from the face of the earth, I’m just surviving Hurricane Ian – headed directly my way. Same county and all.

Yay!!!!!!!!!’ Scary season!!!!! 🎃

Pray for me. For safety and thangs. 🙌🙏📿

I’ve survived TWO living right here.

🌀🌀

Posted on September 27, 2022 by poeeternal

Protect the second amendment 💪

At all costs!

They trying to take away our Second Amendment through mental health

Luckily I live down in the deep south where us white folk don’t give a fuck about the paperwork because we like our motherfucking GUNS

Next they’re gonna start removing the soldiers for being too depressed so they can’t have their M-16

I was afraid to carry for a long time because I was so fucking depressed and falling down the propaganda hole and I nearly yeeted myself out of existence

I’m still suicidal because this society doesn’t connect me to my purpose

That’s why I go completely haywire during voting time

COLLEGE IS A SCAM MET WITH GOVERNMENT FURLOUGHS AND HIRING FREEZES

Notice how all the management positions and really good jobs have gone to the LGBT community Black Lives Matter community and immigration

Who is on the other end of the phone when you call to pay a bill?

I’m almost relieved when I get an American who speaks native English almost anywhere

I feel a stranger in my own land

But I’m not allowed to talk about it

I’m not allowed to talk about the country I signed up to protect

I swore an oath

I SWORE

To defend the citizens of the United States – the same citizens that the immigrants are using propaganda against to drive us fucking insane with hate, fearmongering, racism

The suicide rate continues to increase among Veterans and soldiers

And just because I’m graduating to group therapy doesn’t mean I’m not fucking depressed and that doesn’t mean you get to take my fucking gun from me either

I mean, you will see an uprising real fucking fast if people go to buy a gun and then they are flagged for mental health

And we’d be fine if we could get some peace and fucking quiet but they lifted the city noise ordinance in 2012

IMMIGRANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m a soldier and yet I’m not allowed to talk about immigration or how it’s a fucking problem in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sick of being forced into my masculine because the men here are emancipated

And then when I do take my clothes off so I can feel like a fucking female and human because I have no interpersonal relationships going on at all – then I’m fucking told I need to fucking cover up because I’m shameful and a fucking whore and I’m pretty “I’m to be seen, but not fucking heard”

He can buy whatever he wants but why buy it when you can manipulate someone and get it for free 👀

He has it all and he enjoys watching me run circles for breadcrumbs

He likes girls, he likes to gamble (there’s a poem here)

But God will be reigning on him soon

He was warned

Thinks he can piss all over God’s angel

Possibly his guardian angel

He wants me to beg for him to piss on me!!!!!!

Delusional!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

😤

I don’t care how married you are and how much connection you have – a great way to lose it is to piss on your fucking wife or shit on them OK that’s a great way to fucking lose whatever fucking connection you have because in the moment they may say yes to it but later on it’s going to eat at their fucking soul and then you’re probably gonna wanna do it again aren’t you, you gonna wanna keep pissing on them oh my fucking God oh my fucking gawddddd

I was a medic and I was a damn good medic and I’ve worked in the hospital, I’ve worked in the ER, I’ve worked in the ear nose and throat clinic, I’ve done all of it OK and I don’t want to be pissed on or shit on ever in any fucking kind of moment

I’D RATHER BEG FOR MY GRAVE

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to look at other images of people and using it in a healthy manner that’s not hurting other people

I personally would not want to know that my husband was getting off on other girls, it would make me wanna jump off a fucking bridge

But I like looking at nude art images, including gothic horror vampire nude art

I’m not out here worshiping the devil or doing satanic rituals or lying to people

I personally do not use any kind of porn or toys for fulfillment because I’m undegoing a spiritual cleansing because I want a husband

I am naïve enough to believe that maybe there’s one man out there who will choose me over porn

And the guy who called me for 11 hours, he only drops me breadcrumbs now and he doesn’t think I have any worth, he hates my style, and he wants me to beg him to pee on me, I mean as if

CLUELESS

I’m just ready for payday to come so I can fill up my gas tank and get the fuck out of my apartment

We still have hot weather but I would like to get out early enough to take my mini trampoline and do some fitness outside and it would be nice if I could go on my bike rides which I haven’t faced my fear of leaving the fucking apartment yet

Yes I do get out from time to time but I need a battle buddy

The Army instilled in me “use a battle buddy” system

Especially as a female….

“Never go anywhere alone”

“If you get lost, stand still”

Like, I can keep going…

I mean, with the KNOWLEDGE IS POWER bits

I served in the Army when the Army was at its best (we got Gen Z and the quiet quitter now who want reward before service)

Now I believe it’s quite literally up to the veterans to save the world and we are trying to get our shit together, most of us are graduating into group therapy but that doesn’t mean that we are fucking better and it also doesn’t mean you are going to take away our guns or gun rights!!! 💪

You should be aware that the government likes to use emergencies to fuck you over and they invent the emergency to push control

I’m trying to save you

I love him so much but he keeps me on a low vibrational frequency and every time he comes around he’s disrupting my peace

I’m not ghosting him, I’m just setting healthy boundaries because he doesn’t realize what he has (but I do)

He can have his freedom I fought for

But I’m watching him fall all down the government millennial traps and his safety net is going to be removed by God

I have fantasies about spitting on my mother in her coffin when she dies

Posted on September 24, 2022 by poeeternal

Black black black black no.1

Trent Reznor is rich and he dresses like a goth

He married a witch!!!

She dresses in black!!!!!!!!!

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU

*proceeds to move goth bookshelf near bed*

*continues doing goth thangs*

I don’t have to change who I am or the things that bring me purpose to find a fucking husband

I’m gonna goth the fuck outta my bedroom

As soon as the things in the dolls home goes on sale and I refurbish my little bit of savings money to do a little bit more splurging for the home 🤪

YOU SHOULD SEE THE ITEMS IN MY WISHLIST

THE GOTHY PINKY BLACK THANGS

MAKE MY COFFIN GOTH

K, thanks, bye

EDGAR ALLAN POE WAS GOTH AND I AM HIS DAUGHTER INCARNATE

I don’t know if he would’ve been my dad or my brother or my cousin because he married his fucking blood cousin but whatever

HE WAS GOTH

DUHHHHHHHHHHHHH

YOU KNOW YOU LIKE IT

STOP GASLIGHTING

I’m in a cult – it’s a goth cult – and no amount of money will ever get me to leave

That’s like asking me not to breathe 🙄

Maybe if Trent Reznor drops out

MAYBE

He married an effing witch

Yeah no

Ain’t happening

My calling is being called

I AM A VAMPIRE GODDESS

I DO NOT BOW WITH FORCE OR MANIPULATION OR LIES

A KING HAS NOT A KINGDOM WITHOUT A QUEEN

I deleted you from my phone contact list and I’m not ghosting you, I’m setting fucking boundaries since you clearly, clearly have expressed differences with callous and stone

Fairly certain God is spitting on you and if he’s not, he will be reigning on you soon…

IT IS WRITTEN, IT IS SO

Posted on September 24, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

He doesn’t like my style 🌝

He said he doesn’t like my style and like I’m doing my best to not dress how society expects someone my age to dress and within my budget

I don’t need pretentious self-righteous friends like that

How hard is it for someone to say, “you’re pajamas are so effing cute” and why are only ugly people or supermodels allowed any nurturing!?!

I no longer like his existence so I guess we’re even

I know I’m not as cute as the model but I scored this super cute pajama set for under four dollars and it was a limited edition item and will not be restocked. Super soft lace and satin. NOT USED, NOT FROM THE THRIFT. I’D HOPE MY KING WOULD BE PROUD OF THE GOOD BARGAIN AND FIND. GOTTA BE QUICK ON SHEIN. QUALITY MATERIAL, TOP DESIGNERS. Stuff arrives faster than anticipated- IT ALWAYS ARRIVES, I EARN POINTS. Zero bad experience on Shein.

Yeah, I’m 44 and still a goth

BITE ME

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRacSGFp/

P.S. I don’t even know what my style is because I wasn’t allowed an identity growing up!!!! I like it now, maybe not forever!!!!!!

GET OFF YOUR HIGH THRONE!!!! YOU’RE GONNA DIE ALONE!!!!!!!!

Posted on September 23, 2022September 23, 2022 by poeeternal · 4 Comments

Burning bridges and taking names (I’m autistic)

DISPLAYING MYSELF PHOTOGRAPHY COMING SOON

COLLECTING STONES FOR PHOTOGRAPHY AND POETRY

Jesus completely submitted to his queen and gave over his ministry to her, FYI

SMART KING 👑

Anyhoo, just some comments that came on my blog today about how I should manner myself

My art is unbecoming

(Still holding top 51 tho thank you)

I MIGHT CAN GET GROCERIES NEXT WEEK TO MAKE MORE HEALING VEGAN SOUP AND GOD APPROVES

He thanks you because most men want to look but not share their fucking bread!!!!!

It’s written in the Bible!!!!!!

“Nice peach”. No, I ain’t got nothing for you to eat. Word of advice tho….”

I’VE GONE INSANE WITH HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF

GOD IS HELPING ME GET MYSELF AND MY KING TOGETHER SO WE CAN UNITE

THERE ARE FORCES AT WORK OUTSIDE OF AI OR THE ALGORITHM OR THE EVIL ELITES

COSMIC THANGS

MY KING AND I ARE UNDERGOING AWAKENING AND CLEANSING BEFORE WE UNITE

IMPATIENT IS OUR MIGHT

I WANT MY KING TO ENCOURAGE ME TO WEAR A THONG ON THE BEACH

I AM SICK OF BEING A NUN COVERED UP IN JAB

FUCK THE PATRIARCH!!!!!!!!

God loves my improv cooking!!!

God doesn’t want me starving or dying on the street!

God wants to see me more self-reliant and less having to rely on food banks for canned food

I do tasteful nude modeling and cosplay photography and art to accompany my poetry and it often correlates with the things that I am discussing in my poetry or what I’m even complaining about in the real world

I do full 36 page spreads (as they were once called) and now upload them somewhere I can earn some money – if I have anyone of interest and currently I’m grateful I do

Hmmmm starve or do photography that I enjoy that earns me a shopping trip to the health food shop for vegetables and stew

Hmmm starve or do something I’m passionate about 🧐

Die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe or try to overcome the odds 🤨

Most of them will say I wish I could buy you the moon while locking you on the bottom of the Titanic

I’d like to get to a point where I don’t have to fear losing my income or my housing

I’m already living under my means but yeah starve or stop displaying myself

Hmm I mean it’s a tough one cuz I apparently like to eat 🙄

But I have absolutely had this conversation with God 1 million times and I am not doing anything to disrespect myself or my future husband or anyone who is supporting my content

That’s the real problem and why I don’t have more supporters because I’m not an online nasty girlfriend

I’m not saying all men or bad or this fits all shoes

But I’ve maintained my purity and I’m only getting married once

I like producing content for my blog

Some of my stuff is very controversial and taboo 🤪

I think I’m autistic a bit because I always say what I think and I curse and I can be unempathetic during critical times as a survival mechanism and I always give too much info

I haven’t learned safe boundaries or acting on these sorts of online triggers

I don’t hate people for having incorrect opinions or viewpoints on me

These viewpoints are why I’m so isolated in the real world

Nudity wasn’t seen as a crime in Europe and nudity was in the commercials there

Now Walmart and the mall is openly selling sex toys – XXX sex toys in front of children

It traumatized me so much I don’t want to shop at Walmart or return to the mall

I don’t even own a sex toy and I’m not doing anything with my art that is shameful

I’m not into anything artificial and have been preserving myself for my king

Most people shame me for showing my body because it’s not full of plastic surgery or for not being thick

PRETTY BIAS ALSO EXISTS

You can tell by a lot of the comments these types of commenters leave me that they think I just stand in front of a fucking camera and have a photo taken and there is so much work involved in modeling and photography and directing and editing

“They got it so easy”

STOP GASLIGHTING ✋🛑✋

Since 1970, 68% of all life has gone extinct

HOPE YOU ARE ENJOYING FARM AND FAMILY LIFE AND 3 MEALS A DAY

NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

I’m now too small for a small 😫

Gotta start shopping extra small for the peach 😤

PLEASE VALIDATE ME BEFORE I DISAPPEAR INTO NON EXISTENCE

Posted on September 15, 2022November 2, 2022 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Vegan stew (from scratch & with love)

I made the stew! I stopped by Publix and grabbed a few items to enhance the pot!

But I wanted to celebrate getting pushed into the top 50s by going and getting some additional ingredients to put into the vegan stew

Fresh rosemary, 2 red potatoes, 1 purple onion, bag of sweet peppers red orange yellow, celery stalks, and 1 giant Jalapeño pepper

Just a few fresh items from the produce section

Also stocked up on my spring water from the Dollar Tree

And I’m avoiding those little plastic bags and bottles as much as possible

I AM STILL EATING HEALTHY AND THRIFTING

But I found TWO better stores to thrift – where the prices are clearance prices and the items are NEW

Both the stores are also very popular, so it’s really challenging to get the items that I want and personally I’m starting to find it a whole lot more fun than driving around to all these different thrift stores around the city and only finding over priced used items (gas prices are killing me)

People coughing left and right from God knows what

I’M STILL RECOVERING FROM HEART INFLAMMATION

And I’m taking the little bit of income I am earning from the hard work that I’m doing and I’m investing it back into my health and my work which is the sole purpose of me doing all this anyway 🤪

I don’t want to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe

I don’t want to drop dead of COVID like my sister did in January at the age of 45

There are people out there who don’t want to see me get healthy or to move and basically they want to see me drop dead

THEY ARE ROOTING FOR ME TO DIE

*sigh* the aliens are us. Religion. It’s all just us. We do have a creator tho. But this society is a false entity. Anyhoo.

Chris Cornell (FROWN GARDEN) had just performed a sold out show before he went back to his hotel room and tapped the lights on and off from an app to let his wife know that he was checking out permanently and BOOM he’s gone

MONEY ISN’T THE ANSWER

I make my stew with spring water. Fill the pot half up.

His mother follows me on Instagram and they don’t care about nudity, they don’t care about that fucking shit, but what they care about is mental health and me not fucking dying

I do not need a fancy kitchen to make soup for a king

It’s weird when the love of your life does not watch your stories but Chris Cornell’s mother does (hello heaven)

Making a tomato vegetable broth from scratch

My best friend died by suicide and Soundgarden was her favorite band

😑

Everything I love is going extinct

Start adding your spices – a little here and there will do. Use REAL SALT THAT SUPPLIES THE NECESSARY NUTRIENTS

They spent weeks tearing up the earth and now I no longer hear pretty bird sing 😑

I’m being driven insane 😑

I cook in a glass pot I scored from the thrift. My kitchen is under a SLOW REMODEL. Ditching all plastic and Teflon. Stainless steel, glass, bronze, or copper only.

In 2018 when I had to go to court ONE TIME (I’ve sorted everything so chill) – the female judge would not even speak to me until I took a few breaths

Fresh rosemary. Use a lot! I think I could have used it all!!!!!!! I was afraid it would overpower. It did not! I used 1 stem! Should have tossed the entire pack in! It gonna turn to broth!!!!!!!!!!!

She stated I looked like I was about to jump from the bridge behind me

I told her my parents didn’t teach me about those monsters under the bed

She said her parents did teach her but she still made mistakes

By the end of the court session we had everyone in the room laughing and it was full

I had zero reasons to be humiliated even though I was

And she knew the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes nearly

I lost everything I had saved for many years

My Thrift retirement savings GONE

My personal savings GONE

SEEN: Brown & red potatoes. Medley sweet peppers. Rainbow carrots. Red onion. Purple/red cabbage. Sweet onion. Celery stalks. Giant Jalapeño. Tomato from the vine.

Then they went after my physical health with this pandemic because this is biological warfare

I’m doing everything that I can to climb up out of this hell hole

I have no reason to feel shame

So far in the pot: cherry tomatoes (the rainbow kind), tomatoes from the vine diced, fresh rosemary DO MORE, finely chopped celery, real salt and pepper

But for some reason these monsters have drilled it into me to feel bad if I’m not giving them the attention that they don’t deserve

Read it again…

I’m struggling with answers on what to do with my own blood line

And I’m trying to fix my health so that I can create my own tribe before I check the fuck out permanently

All I know is I love eating homemade vegan soup more than I like eating canned expired food from the food pantries

The vegan soup is healing my heart

The can soup has poison in it

No taste testing yet. Use your nose and eyes to cook as well. Does it smell good? Keep going. 👀

All the pretty labels are lies

Natural flavor was mad in a lab with MAD SCIENTISTS!!!!!!

SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE

I spent hours cooking up this pot to perfection

I AM STILL SIMMERING AND MAKING THE BROTH – WE ARE NOT ADDING THICK CUT VEGGIES YET

I HAVE LEFTOVERS

And 1 bowl was so hearty I struggled to get through it 🤪

No bread this time! Just soup!

So without further ado I took photos for you but I don’t use directions and I make everything from scratch – just like my memaw taught me

She always said a way to a man’s heart is through his belly

MINE TOO

A way to my heart is through my belly

She wasn’t wrong

Our mental health is directly connected to our gut

I even tossed in dry rosemary cuz I’m still learning to perfect perfection 🤪 (this soup is perfection make no doubt)

I can’t stand living with these insane children around me and no more pretty bird singing

I HATE LIVING HERE LIKE JOHN JONES HATES THAT CAVE

AND ALL THE CHILDREN ARE INSANE – Jim Morrison

It’s been simmering 15-20 minutes on low heat – now time to POP THE CHERRIES 🤪

Because they need to fucking deworm

*starts slamming bathroom doors*

MY FAVORITE PLACE TO LIVE 🤩

*STARTS MAKING MORE LOUD NOISES

I’m taking a shot of detox soon so I don’t fucking shoot myself 🙄

Now drinking from stainless steel instead of plastic (kinda) (reducing my plastic consumption waste)

I get to wake up to the racist children now and no longer pretty bird

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANT TO MOVE

I WOULD RATHER LIVE IN A MUD SHACK ON MY OWN TINY PIECE OF LAND

THAN TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS DEVIL SOCIETY

LOOK AT ALL THOSE RAINBOW CARROTS GOING IN THE POT – I KEEP THEM WHOLE FOR A “MEATY MEAL”. I make vegan witches stew 🤨

Despite this, y’all don’t want us living in fear so ensure you do everything to make sure we are indeed living in fear

Stopped by the beach after my vegan feast to enjoy after sunset and no…

The beach is green

I ain’t going in or near naw. God wants me making content for y’all and stew at home. I’m healing.

Ya no

My feet ain’t touching that

I haven’t forgot that a 14-year-old drowned here a couple months ago

He was found an hour later 1 mile away – that’s how far that riptide took him

Also evening death like John Jones

Went for another round

Got out and went back in

Bye bye 👋

I’m sorry you died in fear so young

It’s not safe here

I was afraid of the fucking vegetables growing

They so good

Start filling your pot up and don’t forget to put pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper pinches of salt and pepper

More spices, more herbs

I keep the skins on the potatoes and I also leave all the seeds in 🎃

At this point I’m still cutting and adding

I simmer it on low until the potatoes are nearly done and then I add the cabbage

I carefully push in slices of the head

Vertically I reckon

And then as it cooks down the top bits I’ll gently push in

You can dice all your vegetables really small and probably take less time to cook it and it won’t be as hearty and the vegetables will be mushy like fucking canned soup but

You will spend a lot of time dicing your vegetables as well so I don’t really know if you’re saving time

It turned out delicious. Doesn’t need a thang! But going in the belly!! 🤪

If you eat the leftovers up slowly the vegetables will maintain their yumminess and freshness!

Lemme know if you have any questions and how it goes! You can use whatever veggies you like when making soup. I call this a ONE POT WONDER STEW (vegan and magically healing)

Let me know if you want me to share more of my cooking adventures.

Made from scratch and with love. Good ole country cooking! Heart healthy! Loaded with vitamins and thangs the heart needs! Yes, the cabbage bleeds purple. You can eat it crunchy. Don’t over cook it!!!!

Posted on September 8, 2022 by poeeternal · 4 Comments

Getting spoiled 🤩🤩🤩

It’s not even my birthday! 😍

I received a gift from my Amazon wishlist 🤩

Vegan eyeshadow makeup!!!!!!!!!! 😍

It includes a brush kit!!!! 🤩

And 16 gorgeous plant based colors!!! 🎃

Thank you for the amazing gift!!!!!!!

So inspired! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

I have taken the feedback from my prior sets and invested in some additional things that I can’t wait to arrive –

I’d like to give you a sneak peek on one thing that I scored – which was probably the biggest ticket item for the best price – and I was willing to starve next month for them…

And before I show you – don’t have doubt about the boot style – I am a Soldier and could wear this to an actual event without killing my precious feet – I could wear these into battle potentially – I thought they’d look good with a school skirt or lingerie. I thought maybe I could be buried in them. I thought maybe they were worth missing a meal next month. And, at less than $8 a boot, it was still less than the rotten eggs and milk that Peggy’s Discount Health Food store sold me on Monday….

Should I cancel the order? 🤪

In the wishlist… 👇

They just put out this Halloween costume (which I think is better than the one that I did get – but Every day is Halloween)

This costume includes the headband, the pentagram bra, the gloves, and the skirt with attached devil’s tail (not the tights)

And I will absolutely fucking cry if it sells out before I can purchase it but I’m tapped out for the month 🤪

I did score some really good stuff for the Labor Day sale though because I’m an excellent bargain hunter and I’m still throwing away clothes in my closet and throughout my home that are size medium and large (boys T-shirts with holes in them and business attire uniforms)

So grateful to share my makeover progress with you

THE THIGH HIGH BOOTS ARE VEGAN 🤩

I’ve been extremely busy in the real world but I’ve also been writing poetry and I do plan to get another set out to you before I release the poetry

I’ll show you one more surprise from the shopping makeover (and please note I’m paying thrift store prices or less for brand new items)

THIS WAS NEARLY SOLD OUT ON SHEIN

COMING SOON

(I picked up other Daddy cosplay stuff but don’t want to spoil the good surprise)

I would just like to add that I’ve never had a makeover in my life or got to dress pretty

All the men prior in my life body shamed me

I wore oversized baggy clothing and kept my head down 😑

I’m grateful for your readership and feedback and support

It’s all being invested back into my blog and photography and thank you for being patient with me while I get content out to you

I’ve been writing lots of poetry in between paying the bills and doc appointments

Getting rebound sessions in when the heart allows

DETOXING DETOXING DETOXING

I’ll be glad when I can turn the dating sign back on 🤪

Do you think my potential future husband would take me to the altar immediately to marry me if I opened the door up wearing those boots and a school skirt?

I NEED TO KNOW

My feet shouldn’t have to hurt to look amazing – so really hope you like em!!! My first vegan thigh highs!!!!!!!!!!! And R-E-D 🎃

CAN’T WAIT TO USE THE PRETTY MAKEUP – THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE GIFT 🎁

Posted on September 7, 2022September 7, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Cheeky

Dropping this here

So glad I’m replacing the oversized boy t-shirts with cute crop tops and thangs

I’m muting it tho because I don’t need to be sued by the algorithm – in some distant future – thank you Metallica- greedy fucks

Gotta go back to street teaming like in the old days

Before the millennials were born and before there were cell phones or computers handy

Spyware

Can’t opt out

Gotta flee the city

The Devil he everywhere in everything

Society has been around so long and narcissism has spread everywhere

I’m trying not to self-destruct or get thrown into a rubber room

Detox detox detox

I’m on dose 2 today

2 large doses in

I don’t fuck around 🤨

I’m fighting hard to get better, to not leap from a bridge, for the potential possibility to find a partner

The hubby will produce the feel good hormones

Find your tribe and nurture the fuck outta it

Everything is going extinct

Be careful with adrenaline spikes to your heart

It’s okay to stop for 30 seconds – drink water – get back on

But my first day back rebounding caused me to have consistent chest pain for two days that didn’t go away so I couldn’t do anything

After a 2.5 mile walk, I puked 3 hours later when my body was having difficulty regulating temperature

I felt like that family who died in the valley recently, dog, baby and all

The sun was barreling on me, not much shade

I’d find a tree, rest a couple minutes, drink water, and trek a bit further

I barely made it home

And at one point I almost got kidnapped by a guy who got out of his truck with completely blacked out windows and opened up the passenger back side door

He watched me for ten minutes head both ways

I was prepared to remove his head with my blade

I was fucking dying with a heart complication (and this was recently by the way) but I had to put my water away so I could have both hands free – you know – just in case he made his move

I DON’T LIKE LIVING HERE

And unfortunately, I’ve almost been run over twice on the bike rides…

The beach was getting crazy with tourist and “no vehicles” unless “4×4” because of “soft sand”

I’m not paying that expensive parking

America is a fucking scam

The yuppie shops are selling rotten eggs and milk

That one’s gonna have my asshole tore up for a minute

I did get a small rebound session in – I avoided the high ab jumps this time – kept it to simple bouncing (still resistance training but less adrenaline spikes)

The Army trained me as a medic to run for miles from the enemy

And I did do a full 4 years active overseas

I’m still running from the Devil and I got a strong little heart

It’s still fighting for its life so I’m making it some vegan soup soon

It demands…

The heart gets what the heart wants 💪

It’s magical stew – big and chunky – heart healing

Got the red cabbage too and rainbow carrots and tomatoes (noms)

One stove top, 1 pot, is all you need (to anyone still eating pizza from a box)

(You can buy electric stove tops or ask a family member if you can have their extra one they use on the holidays)

They come as 1 or 2 (I’d get the 2)

It’s probably cheaper than turning on the big stove top)

I’m downsizing soon

Need a mini oven too

I don’t own a microwave nor use them

But I would like a small toaster oven and a crockpot

I don’t know if I can use my indoor grill anymore because I think it’s made out of that stuff that’s bad for you

I cook the stew in a glass pot

And make my breads and cakes and loaves in glass…

I’m going to start sharing more of my cooking process with you even though I don’t have a fancy kitchen but my rent keeps going up but all the appliances are old

But I don’t use measuring cups, I cook the way my grandmother taught, a pinch of this and a pinch of that…

A bigger pinch

Bigger

Now do it again… 🎃

Posted on September 7, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

NEWSFLASH

DON’T BUY RAW MILK WITHOUT A DATE LABELED ANIMAL FEED

Nobody ever taught me this 🙄

“I think I’m dumb…”

Or eggs…

THEY WERE PRICED FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION 😳

Farm Fresh? Eh. WHO KNOWS

THERE IS NO DATE

I THOUGHT I WAS SOMEWHERE ELSE ON THE MAP

HUGE GOT DAMN MISTAKE

Even with the MEGA SALE and all

The milk and eggs cost MORE than a normal store or health food shop

~~I WANT TO EGG THEIR SHOP~~

Halloween is coming 🎃

And I have Halloween goodies coming from dolls kill and I hope it gets here quickly so I can start redecorating my bathroom and my bedroom and not get arrested

THAT IS ALL

I wish I did have a husband though because he would probably be making a phone call saying you sold my wife some rotten eggs and milk

And then had the audacity to not “list the price of the nuts because they had gone up”

MEGA BURN IN HELL

Posted on September 7, 2022September 7, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

I didn’t like the milk 😑

The label is red

States it is “sold as animal feed” (I’m an animal m’kay but)

There is no date anywhere

It smelled of rot

I did a sniff and taste taste

The dog sniffed and passed

Didn’t even get a taste…

It’s opened

I know they won’t take it back

The yuppies

I mean Peggy’s Discount stole $8 from me

“Free will”

I could have said no 😑

I had some dry milk on the shelf FOR THE SAME PRICE

And just made me a fresh batch for my coffee

And about to toss some marmalade on this pumpkin bread full of seeds and nuts and spices

And enjoy my coffee with powered milk

And the yuppies can BURN IN HELL

You sold one of God’s angels some rotten fucking milk

I don’t even know how many years an eternity is but it ain’t enough!!!!!

🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

I do recommend that big bag of great value dry powdered milk for eight dollars and never ever ever fucking raw milk without a goddamn date on it that’s labeled animal feed and why are they selling it to humans you fucking assholes

This is exactly why John Jones got stuck in a fucking hole and I’m allowed to be pissed off about it because that eight dollars could’ve gone towards some shit at Dolls Kill that I want

I’m nearly fucking vegan after all this shit

“You could of said no”

They stole $8 from me 😑

And I don’t know what to do with the milk because my dog doesn’t even want to drink it so if I put it outside it might contaminate the water

Tempted

TEMPTED TO ACCIDENTALLY SPILL IT ALL OVER THEIR DOOR

Helps. I’m in hell. 😑

If I had a husband I wouldn’t be buying animal feed 😑

IT WAS RIGHT THERE ON THE LABEL

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME

How long had it been sitting on their shelf in the fridge?

HOW LONG?????????

There’s no date anywhere!!!!

How many red flags does a person need???????

HARD LESSONS LEARNED IN HELL

It was a lesson though

The discount didn’t even cover the cost of the rotten milk 😑

There’s consequences to timeline jumping, you get brain injuries and become really fucking stupid 😑

I don’t even think I can use this milk as a photo shoot to pour on my body because it’s chunky even though the label says to “shake well”

For the record, I wasn’t studying every single label in the new shop which was a Health store

It was almost as if I was being chastised for looking at the prices or the labels and then they sold me some rotten milk and God knows how good the eggs are now because I’m fucking afraid of the eggs

RETURN THIS CARTOON

SOLD AS ANIMAL FEED

MOTHERFUCKING DAMN

That’s another $8 stolen 😑

Those motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!

AVOID AT EVERY COST 🖕

I didn’t even have this bad of an experience drinking goats milk in Kuwait and Iraq

My mama didn’t breast-feed me and I apparently like milk because I’m undernurtured and I’m trying to get rid of my milk addiction but they are poisoning everything including the soy beans

Some good news with the coffee…

This Doll model has a very tiny peach (this is not my peach)

I mean her peach is TINY

And I’ve been freaking out over losing over 18 pounds detoxing and my peach getting smaller even though I do work out, bike ride and walk and rebound and clean fucking house even though it doesn’t look like it

Babes with a small peach are worthy of affection and love too

And I’m not gonna show you the entire outfit because I got it 🎃

I got a Halloween bodysuit 🤪

This holiday slowing down the shipments but at least when they say they’re doing a mega sale they fucking mean it and they sell you really good quality stuff that is 1000 times better than Amazon or Walmart

Or Peggy’s Discount whom sale rotten food to despairing hungry humans 😑

My doc appointment is tomorrow

I can’t stop laughing about how incredibly stupid I was though, I mean I know I was hungry and gaslit

I know I have a brain injury

It was a new environment

But the red flags were there

I mean, they failed to even list the price of the nuts on the container or the shelf

Just like Michael Leavitt failed to put features on the map showing danger zones

“But he said he was an expert”

“But there was dust on the walls”

Like, I’m out $16+ bucks over gaslighting and not reading signs and ignoring red flags

I’m an animal, I will drink milk straight from the cow tit OK, I’ll be frank with you, but that shit was fucking ruined

Like, I would have a goat around for milk and cheese

There are certain species of animals that I have never eaten nor touched nor plan to digest

Goat is one

But their cheese and milk and fur – in the right conditions – I wouldn’t be opposed to

There was no cow milk in Iraq or Kuwait and the only milk we were offered was goats milk but the only way I would drink it was warm

Warm goats milk in my box cereal

My king needs to know the conditions in which I starve

I will bite the hand that feeds when the food is rotten and poisoned

THIS IS WHY EDGAR ALLAN POE DIED ON THE STREET

I am grateful for your support because people out here stealing from me left and right

“You didn’t have to buy the milk”

YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO LIE

How long has that lie been sitting on the shelf?

HOW LONG

I am nearly vegan and it isn’t because you have a heavy hand because you can’t have a heavy hand and also eat pizza from a fucking box and be part of the fucking problem

THEY ARE SELLING ROTTEN MILK 🥛

“Shake well”

I FUCKING PLAN TO

KEEP PISSING ON ME

JUDGMENT HOUR

I’m gonna expose you all

Narcissism is not rare

NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE

Despite the fact that I had nearly $20 stolen from me (and I’m still out eggs and milk now by the way, that I can’t replace)

These goddamn demons make it so hard for me not to commit a criminal act

It’s better to blog than spray paint

I really want to be the best efficient hunter killer but I’ve got to learn how to control my emotions especially my anger when it arises

“Hunter killer”

UHM

I am efficiently trained by the United States Army to take down a human with one shot one kill and with my bayonet

You don’t think they just played with us in basic training do you? 😈

God: you wanna go to heaven?

Me: oh yeah for sho

God: you need special training that in which I cannot say and you cannot kill

Me: I’m up for the challenge 🤨

God: everything will be a lie

Me: I WANT OUT, LET ME OUT

Anyhoo

The Great Filter is narcissism

Every society has at least two great filters they need to overcome if they want to be a species that doesn’t go extinct

What are your Great Filters?

We must have individual filters as well

Don’t shop at Peggy’s Discount

I’ve got eggs and milk I don’t know what to do with

I have lessons I still need to learn

I’m trying to share even the smallest ones with you

I don’t like to lose money

I don’t like to gamble

I don’t like being gaslit

I don’t like being wasteful

I’m curious and like trying new things

“How quickly should I drink it”

“Uh within a few days. Bacteria”

Dear Gen Z

That isn’t bacteria, that is fucking rot

Your parents look like cruel dictators and I can tell you are confused about your sex and wanna please the parents but never do

You still sold me rotten milk…

The eggs don’t have a date either

Your boomer parents have a house and a business and I’m struggling to pay my rent

I’m condemning you all to hell

Take it up with God

He sent me here to see what you do through my eyes

He sent me here to judge

144,000

SAY MY NAME

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

All that vegan packaging with natural flavor in it from a fucking lab

I AM WOKE BUT BLIND

“Free will” but “they will do anything”

He gonna divorce me

“You spent $18 on a tiny container of nuts and another $16 on animal food”. “What are we eating this month, honey?” 😑

(I did get the money back for the unopened nuts)

I should call though to say the milk was expired

But I want to cut the cord on that experience which was a fucking nightmare and I will spend many days potentially months or even a year trying to figure out why why why why when I was hungry I did this shit

I was completely out of my comfort zone at Peggy’s but because I’m nice and programmed to not say no or offend these demons, I made bad mistake 😑

Welp. How to ignore red flags 101. The fear was very real. God is in information. Listen to the source when he is calling. Those warnings are like little fingertips by God touching you

Tickle tickle

Don’t go that way

And you may get an additional warning or two, like Jacob in the whirlpool, he got three, that I counted

But he got out

And he went back in

A second time….

I have an irrational fear of dying but there is a pattern and Apophis is a nuclear bomb if we do not stop the NEW WORLD ORDER

(With those bad shrooms we’re not allowed to touch)

THE ELITES WERE PLAGUED WITH PARASITES

HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF

Black Walnut Wormwood detox if you wanna save your life or purge the Devil (is that what’s stopping you) 🧐

Tsk tsk

I can’t believe I bought some rotten fucking milk and eggs that literally says animal food on it but it’s being sold as human food on human shelving without a date and shouldn’t that be illegal?

Gaslighting should be a crime

I’m in fucking hell…

I am a witch though and I love spooky season

I make the best damn pot of stew

WITCHES STEW

Dash of burn in hell, dash of I don’t give a fuck… pinch of they’re all out of luck

You should see the writings on the wall where heavens gone mad

50 years ago they would have drilled a hole in my head

The way we treat depression is barbaric

We need to ban big pharma commercials

I don’t mind drinking milk past the expiration date or eating expired food but what the fuck

Wanna turn somebody vegan?

SELL THEM ROTTEN MILK

I curse in hell because it’s the only way I don’t commit a crime and they’re trying to take my freedom of speech in the real world

If you take my speech, I take my money and business

And I will never shop where I can’t spend cash which is what I’d like to start doing but find me a place I can shop that isn’t selling sex toys in front of children…

I don’t want to support businesses that are selling sex toys in front of children like Walmart and the mall

I don’t want to support a business that sells you rotten fucking produce that you can’t return

“Has it been opened”

*THROWS BOTTLE AND EGGS AT BRICK WALL*

*gets arrested*

*doesn’t get money back, gets fined instead*

(Stays home to avoid potential downfall)

You remember that Nirvana song, “I think I’m dumb”

SAME

Also, Kurt had gut issues which directly impacts mental health, he needed to debug 🤨

When you see one lie, you start seeing them all

Posted on September 6, 2022 by poeeternal · 3 Comments

Breakdowns & red cabbage (journal entry)

So grateful for the donation I received 🥰

I took my Jeep to Pep Boys and got my tires sorted and they said I needed to replace three of them soon, that the tread is showing

I stopped by the store after and got the produce!

Got the good red purple cabbage + rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes + tomatoes on the vine

It’s gonna be a great stew

Got my nuts ordered online since that mega sale was mega bullshite and they were charging $18 for ounces, not pounds, and not listing the prices anywhere 🙄

I HAVE A BRAIN INJURY

I don’t need my husband yelling at me when I come home because I somehow got charged $18 for some tiny little nuts – despite asking questions here and there – and doing my best to budget and buy stuff without NATURAL FLAVOR

I’ve got 2 1/2 pounds of nuts arriving at some point – shipping dates are bullshite these days – but currently it says Sunday

$27 for pounds – not ounces – that will last me all month – and I can snack daily

The price varies over there, but the price in the grocery store was MORE for LESS (They’ve turned into convenient store prices)

I’m buying these nuts directly from the seller – they’ve been doing me alright for the few months I’ve been switching to a vegetarian diet

Sometimes the price is cheaper

But now knowing that main businesses are being absolutely GREEDY GASLIGHTING ASSHOLES – they can keep selling to the yuppies

I need my own land with nut trees growing

A nut and fruit garden

Chickens running around!!!

But I am so happy that I have several pounds of red cabbage in my fridge again, tomatoes from the vine, plus garden medley tomatoes and rainbow carrots (I still have sweet & baking potatoes and onions)

I probably should learn to make something other than stew but currently I don’t want to

I like the stew 🤨

I make it completely from scratch and it’s healing me

Minus the fact that the herbs are dry and not fresh

BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE MY OWN GARDEN YET

I’ve got my first bodysuit and my first Halloween costume that included accessories from dolls kill arriving whenever the fuck the package gets here and it’s worth living for the soup and the packages are worth living for and the potential possibility of finding a fucking partner in the future when I’m not quarantined

I hope moving to the country is less noisy

I am going out of mind

I woke up fucking crying

“Get up Trinity, get up”

And I did

I headed right to Pep Boys to sort my tire issue as the light was on the entire way I was driving yesterday

But the shops were closed for the holiday…

I saw a video on TikTok of a guy stating he was snowboarding and decided to go back “one more time” (A SECOND RETURN) and now he’s got a brain injury and can’t do shit for life

And I have a brain injury so I’m grateful I can still make soup

I mean maybe he can make soup I don’t know but like he went back a second time and that’s the thing I’ve been noticing – pay attention to that – pay attention to how people go back a second time and fucking die or nearly do (like me with that damn vaccine)

I also picked up some pumpkin spice bread with lots of nuts & seeds, no GMO, no natural flavor from a lab…

I need to learn to make my own bread (aside from homemade biscuits and cornbread)

It was this or the pumpkin pie 🎃

I may make my own pumpkin pie this season

Get a pumpkin

Carve that bitch out

I’m not buying meat anymore but I did buy some ancient grains and pumpkin seeds yesterday

Some have already gone in my homemade trail mix and I’m anticipating my pistachios and my cashews to arrive as I’m nearly out and was in a panic

The store yesterday was out of most things I needed

And the only milk they had was the milk with the red label and bacteria and I’m terrified to even open it but I will – I’m gonna get around to trying it

But I think I’m done with dairy after this

Milk was the only thing I got for this month, I didn’t get any cheese or yogurt

I’m gonna see how my gut does giving it a load of probiotics

But I’m learning dairy is terrible for hums…

And I had no idea they were walking and standing in lime or whatever it was

I’ve been seeing videos on TikTok and I’m just like “thank you for turning me vegan” and this is direct to farmers

“It doesn’t hurt the cow”

IT HURTS MY EYES TO SEE THO 👀

I’m gonna shrivel up into nothing 😑

I’m working on a new set soon!

Just need a day or two to recover from the madness 🤪

I also have a doctors appointment on Thursday so I’m just in the mindset of getting shit done as the first week of the month is usually chaotic

My dog is driving me absolutely out of my mind but I cannot send them to the gas chamber

I was able to buy his special Vienna sausage today and he took his medicine without a problem because he’s stubborn as fuck and apparently he will only take his medication with these Vienna sausages now

He’s got a 50mg dose of Trazodone in him now so he’s knocked out

I learned that I don’t like shopping at Publix today and I had been avoiding it for several months because of the bullshit pricing that they have going on and how most of the food is poisoned and I’m trying to get away from the big chains and buy local produce

Gosh it ain’t easy

The farmers don’t make it easy…

I miss the days of people selling produce on the side of the street and not fearing buying it

I PLAN TO HIT UP SOME FARMER MARKETS NEXT MONTH

There are a few in New Smyrna Beach and surrounding areas

PROBABLY RICH YUPPIE PRICES

We’ll see…

They don’t make it easy for poor people to eat healthy

I’m sorry I’m so thin 😑

I am eating and working out 😑

I can’t participate in the slaughter of animals when 68% of all life has gone extinct

Humans had to adapt a gene to consume dairy

I’m in descension still

I woke up crying hard

Haven’t even had a coffee because I’m afraid to touch the milk… 😑

I gave up drinking coffee for awhile because I thought I could only drink coffee with sugar but then I learned that I could drink coffee without sugar and now I’m gonna have to maybe learn to drink it without milk too 🤨

I would like to try making my own almond milk

I don’t have my poor ass kitchen set up to be a dream kitchen

I recently got one glass pot from the thrift store and I’ve been cooking out of that bitch

I would like to go thrifting again for my kitchen makeover

I’ve been getting rid of everything that causes cancer or is plastic

The Teflon, the aluminum, the plastic

Switching to glass, stainless steel, and eventually hopefully copper too

I really want to start drinking my water out of copper

And at some point get away from plastic jugs and containers and invest in water filters

They are putting Covid in the fucking bathwater

I KID YOU NOT

Your skin will soak that shit up

The devil is everywhere in society, everywhere, in everything, he is there…

This is inspiring so thank you!! 👇

I’ve already got an item or two in the Dolls Kill cart 🤪

Got the bills paid, the groceries bought, I’m not alive just to pay the bills…

I was able to get my cabbage and nuts today!!!!!! It literally stopped me from crying.

Having a head of cabbage in the fridge

Gives me the happies 🤪

The heart needs the red and blue thangs

Red cabbage, beats, wild blueberries (there’s more thangs that directly boost the heart)

Him: honey what do you need to be happy today

Me: a head of purple cabbage and rainbow carrots and rainbow tomatoes

And a kiss 🤪

Me: what are you doing

Him: planting you a cabbage garden 😍

Not starving this month (even tho I’m thin af)

Be careful with adrenaline spikes that will crash your heart

That’s the ticket out if you’ve been vaccinated and triple boosted

IT AFFECTS PEOPLE OVER THE AGE OF 40 TOO

People of all ages are dropping dead and it’s not from the fucking sun

This just in: “fresh air now the rising cause of depression”

I crash landed and woke up so hard I don’t believe in alien propaganda anymore

People think robots have feelings and that you can get abducted by an alien

They probably injected a parasite in you too

The establishment is going to drop a bomb and call it Apophis

APRIL 2-0-2-9

THE FINAL TIME

THE END MY FRIEND IS NOT NEAR

THE HOUR IN FACT IS QUITE HERE

Posted on September 5, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

Gaslighting at the health food store 😑

I drove to the health market down the road which was closed – maybe for the holiday – maybe always on Monday too

So I looked up another location and called and decided to drive to Port Orange

The sign read on the door huge sale!

Mega bullshite in fact…

But I was positive and hopeful to find some nuts as my stash is depleting and I was avoiding online shopping for them

This store does not have a cafe or outdoor seating and is a 20 minute drive away – one way

BUT THEY WERE OPEN FOR THE HOLIDAY AND THERE THE SIGN READ MEGA SALE

So I entered

And I begin putting things in a basket (which they do provide an actual basket that I overlooked and asked, “do you have a buggy or basket?”. Welp. Starring right at me. The real kind. Not plastic. Duh)

I asked about pricing as some things weren’t listed or were incorrectly placed

Now I’m on a budget but was a tiny bit flexible

I knew I needed to get produce and thangs they did not have

But, I opted to get the “raw milk” and farm eggs despite the pricing

Understanding that I’d get some sort of discount the Gen Z employee assured me…

The eggs weren’t much more than store

They were out of most nuts and seeds

But I’m trying thangs I never have before like these wheat berries (ancient grains I hope)

You just boil them and put them in a bowl

Maybe might make a good protein treat

Ginger is supposed to be ridiculously healthy and the bag was not expensive

I thought for the most part, aside from the big ticket items like the eggs and milk, that I was doing alright “mega sale” and all 🙄

Got one bottle of this, I mostly drink water, milk, coffee, (hopefully tea again)

I gave up juice and soda detoxing

This has elderflower –

Anyhoo time came to check out

And I was confused by the total, maybe even shell shocked and asked, “you applied the discount”

But I didn’t think to check the receipt in the car, and waited until I got home to “inspect” the prices like I normally do (to see if I got the discount prices or whatever)

My stupid ass should have checked before I left town – as it was 3 bags only

Sometimes having a brain injury ptsd get home don’t die routine is costly BECAUSE

The nuts turned out to be nearly $18 for a few ounces

I nearly cried. Welp.

I just seen just now that the can of duck food that I thought I bought for my dog’s medicine was actually cat food…🙄

Apparently I fucked the nuts and the one can of dog food – which is cat

Him: you spent how much on the nuts 👀

Seriously tho, don’t ever threaten divorce because I was gaslit

Anyhoo

I called the store and she said I could return the nuts tomorrow for a refund which means I’m gonna be driving a 40 mile round-trip which would likely use up all my gas money and gas tank

She stated the prices went up and they didn’t have them listed

Anyhoo. By very principle I cannot eat the nuts. I can buy 1.5 pounds of Pistachios for less than that and I can buy a pound of raw cashew nuts for less than that

So I’m going for a drive – tomorrow – humiliation factor and all

To return 9 ounces of dark chocolate almonds that I very badly want to consume – but not at that price 👀

And I have no idea if I’m supposed to put the wear and tear on my precious vehicle to get my $18 back but whatever

I don’t want my husband yelling at me for spending too much at the grocery store because they lied

Thank fuck I can get a refund but…

I’m gonna stick to local shopping only (and online until I can fully cut the cord)

Sex toys are meant to be sold at the adult stores, not at the fucking mall, and not at Walmart

Now I gotta waste my precious time and energy returning a tiny tub of nuts because the SIGN ON THE DOOR LIED

A second trip

I feel uneasy 😫

It’s a hard lesson to learn

I tried to do so good and within my budget

I still gotta buy produce to get me through the month

More soup is planned

I just thought I could buy my nuts and seeds at a health food store this time instead of off of Amazon and Walmart

I went back for that second Moderna vaccine which nearly fucking killed me

That kid went back “one more time” and the riptide took him

2 recent cave divers nearby drowned when they went back a second time (came up, went back down)

I wish someone would have stopped me from going back for that second vaccine even though the first one injured me

“It’s safe”

“The CDC”

The numbers 777 appeared before me today

I have information channeling to me but I don’t know what to do with it

I’m trying to eat healthy and within budget

I’m tired of having to chase my tail because of the narcissism and gaslighting

Go get the refund? Don’t get the refund?

Go back a second time when I don’t wanna…

I knew that would be the last shopping trip at Peggy’s for me

Asking for a refund is humiliating 😑

Running around chasing my tail

I WANT MY OWN PLOT OF LAND WITH A CHICKEN OR TWO FOR EGGS

I want my neighbors to be the roosters and the croaking toads

Apparently spiders will take water from you

The animals need our help

WE ARE ANIMALS TOO

STOP GASLIGHTING

What was mega about that sale??????????

I NEED TO KNOW

Angelic numbers keep following me. I don’t know what to do about the nuts. I’m returning the nuts.

MAYBE RIGHT NOW

Posted on September 5, 2022 by poeeternal

Let women have sex when they are ready, here’s a concept (as teens)

“Researchers” are injecting OrganEx to revive dead pigs

ZERO ETHICS IN SCIENCE.

JUST REPLACE REINCARNATION WITH CLONING! THEY LOVE DIGGING UP THE DEAD!!!

It’s been going on thousands of years

Trying to reincarnate Ramses the great third fuck you I’m gonna fucking goddamn crush you

Sorry channel glitching 😝

Building an army of zombies

I’M SELLING MY TV AND MOVING TO THE JUNGLE

HUSBAND WANTED

I wasn’t allowed to imprint on a man at the age I wanted

RELIGION AND SOCIETY SHAMMED ME

Said I must wait until I’m 18 or married

GOD GAVE ME THE ABILITY TO START MAKING BABIES AT AT 13

YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO STOP ME FROM MY PURPOSE

NOW YOU CALL ME OLD AND SAY I HAVE NO WORTH

SOCIETY IS THE DEVIL BUT NARCISSISM IS A PLAGUE SPREAD BY ASIA INDIA MEXICO

68% OF ALL LIFE HAS GONE EXTINCT

I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME

I’VE TRIED SO HARD TO REMAIN PURE

NOT REMOVING MY SEX ORGANS FOR PLASTIC

NOT EATING BIRTH CONTROL

NOT DOING DIRTY COMPROMISING THINGS IN THE CHAT

MAN HAS CREATED HIS VERY OWN HELL IN WHICH HE MAKES ALL LIFE SUFFER FROM HIS HEAVY HAND

LIFE CAN HAVE MEANING BUT YOU STOLE IT FROM ME AND FORCED ME INTO SLAVERY

NOW CHINA HAVE “TOO MANY MEN”

They aren’t up to anything good digging up the dead

I’M SICK OF SCIENCE IS COMPLIANCE

ZERO ETHICS!!!!!!!!!

THEY HAVE NO SOUL OR REMORSE!!!!!!!

PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!

NEO TRINITY NEEDS HELP!!!!!!!

Don’t forget the scene when her heart goes down and don’t forget who you are

TURN OFF THE PROPAGANDA

CONNECT TO THE SOURCE

Find your purpose!!!

You have many!!!

It’s not watching hardcore desensitizing xxx porn any chance you

Sneaking around

BEING UNJUST

Your very own actions are destroying the world and everything you love

Porn is a distraction while they do the bad things 😑

We need to course correct

MAYDAY MAYDAY!!!!!

THIS IS OUR ONLY EARTH!!!!!!!!

WE CANNOT DESTROY WHERE WE SPAWNED TO GO TO MARS!!!! MAKE IT STOP!!!

We need to start protesting the spam mail coming into our mailboxes, the rainforest needs our help!!!!!!!!

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT!!!!!!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m gonna go put a pot of coffee on and walk my dog and get a little rebound session in so I don’t jump off the fucking bridge

I just needed to channel that information out

My device was off

I recommend you turning your devices off and protecting your brain waves and your energy as much as you can

I have to venture out into the world and go buy supplies

I’m avoiding Walmart like a plague but may have to get some thangs there

Looking for local health shops but I’m on a budget

Stay strong y’all

WATCH YOUR BACK

When I got vaccinated, I climbed into the hole head first but then I went again despite getting injured the first time

I let them fucking talk me into it to getting the second one in which I nearly died

😑

There have been a lot of people dying lately and I think what I’m learning is when they go back the second time that’s their mistake – so pay attention to the moves you’re making when you’re on vacation or having fun or whatever it is you’re doing if you get a bad vibe about something and then you decide to go do it again it’s probably gonna be your ending

Don’t ignore the signs or uneasy feelings

WE DO HAVE A CREATOR

IT IS NOT ASIA (sorry)

I think they did something bad to him when he was visiting an exotic location

He’s lost

I’m here

Trying to reach him

You can’t confess all your sins to your priestess and then crucify her for your own actions

Dumb dumb

We imprinted on one another

I imprinted on you

That’s love

God is in love

God is imprinting

Stop the segregation!!!!!!

68% all life includes us!

Life has purpose!

You could have started your purpose when I was 13 🤪

By 15 I was absolutely miserable and ready but not allowed

PRISONER IN HELL

😡

My grandmother was married to my granddaddy at 15 years of age and they had 12 babies together and he was buried across the street from where they lived

I’m tired of the elder women stopping the younger pretty things from having a fucking life when they are young and capable

That does not mean monsters preying on children but that is what porn propaganda and the Bible program

They are selling sex toys in front of the children at Walmart and the mall and I don’t want to go to the mall anymore because I was exposed to sex toys while browsing for a hat so I don’t wanna go to Walmart either because someone told me they were selling sex toys there as well

Sex toys were always at the adult stores

STOP CONDITIONING THE CHILDREN TO BE SEX BOTS

I was not prepared to see triple X content when I was in the mindset of shopping for a fucking hat and all in child like mode at the mall wanting a cute outfit and pretzel

I got the pretzel and left the mall immediately and have never return since

I’m still shopping for my hat and will probably get one from dolls kill eventually if I can catch one on sale but the ones that I have found that I wanted sold out so fast that by the time I hit purchase they were gone lol

I’ve learned to put things in my favorites because they do restock and eventually maybe I’ll get what I want, like a husband 🤪

I always defined a woman as someone who could carry a baby, as someone who bled between their legs and had periods- but then that would diminish the fact that when I stop bleeding that I’m no longer a woman and I don’t think that’s true either because I’m gonna wanna have sex past having babies age I’m sure of it…

The devil wants me to believe that I have no worth when my ability to create children ends while men get to continue the ability to have children up until they’re 80 but women only get it until they’re 50 and then they keep a huge portion of our good years away from us from having children by shaming us

I started having periods at age 13

I should’ve been popping them babies out at 15 like my grandmother

I should have imprinted on a husband and vice versa but porn makes a lot of money doesn’t it

I still have the ability to imprint on someone and vice versa

Got a therapy session incoming

I can’t run marathons anymore but I can at least get up with you and go on part of the hike

I’m still running from the devil with a wounded heart snd lung (soup is healing) (not from can) (nuts and spring water) (need nurturing and love)

(Thank you for your support in any capacity. It’s all healing me)

Posted on September 5, 2022 by poeeternal

I DID NOT GET MURDERED

The good neighbors were sitting outside

They aren’t normally sitting out that late

It was almost as if they were telling the gang to “back off”

If anything, there would be a witness

The dog wasn’t impressed and did not pee despite begging me to take him out

He hates living here as much as John Jones hates that fucking cave

SAME

Also can we stop attacking character and start attacking the propaganda that are uploading on us 24/7

You can’t change or cure addiction overnight

awe – it’s so nice to see the woke dudes

I block Tate content lol

The more I block something or hit the “not interested”, the algorithm will feed me more of the content I don’t want (gaslighting)

I’m starting to turn off the wifi and the data and phone when I sleep

If I knew the love of my life was going to call me or to text me, I probably wouldn’t mind having a Fitbit

It’s just espionage these days

I HIGHLY RECOMMEND PROTECTING YOUR BRAIN WAVES

Plus it sends a mass FUCK YOU call sign to the elite

MASSIVE

UNPLUG

They are trying to give you cancer with your phones and phones are putting out a lot more of it these days

I’m glad there’s still some people in Daytona Beach who got my back

And God from the heaven

I finally got a nap and was wondering why it was so quiet

Just the neighbs chilling outside

THANX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Needed the rest!

And before you tell me to move, my job was stolen from me with the government furloughs and hiring freezes and forced me to live somewhere which compromised my safety and allowed the cops to push their propaganda so the devil could have us self-destruct sooner or commit a crime

The suicide rate continues to rise among veterans

BLACK WALNUT WORMWOOD

HIT IT HARD AND GO STRONG!

Don’t take any breaks!!!!!!!

Drink lots of water – spring water from the earth if you can and eat lots of nuts from the trees if your body allows you too because it’s healing me and get you some soup in and if you want chicken in it go for it but 68% of all life has gone extinct so just remember that when you’re consuming it

I think moderation is key but narcissism ensures we live in excess

The Bible clearly is spreading lies when it says the ocean is limitless with fish for us to eat

Over fishing has wiped out ocean life

That and the establishment continue to drop nuclear bombs everywhere on our precious earth space land sea

MORE TIMES THAN YOU KNOW

So the next time a whale washes up on the beach or people are going but why is the sealife dying we don’t know but the scientist say we don’t know – they fucking know – the scientist are destroying everything so that they can make everything artificial – they can turn everything artificial and make money from it and make you believe that they created this fucking hell

IT IS A LIE

WAKE UP NEO

DEBUG

And just because I’m paranoid doesn’t mean I’m not being followed….

Posted on September 4, 2022 by poeeternal · 2 Comments

The makeover continues…

I took the tip money and bought something nice! 🥰

I took advantage of that labor day sale!

I scored the curtains for under $8!! I really wanted that set!! Cheaper than Walmart too and absolutely cuter (and gothy)

I got a Halloween costume from the new Halloween section on Dolls Kill for 80% off 😍

The curtains and the costume!! 👁👄👁

And a lace bodysuit (my first) ☺️

But that wasn’t all

BARGAIN HUNTER

Was able to pick up accessories like thigh high socks, jewelry, daddy cosplay attire, and other thangs

I spent the $3 extra for the 3-5 day delivery

They get your order out so much quicker

Or you can wait two weeks for them to mail your stuff out to you or pay the three dollars extra and they’ll get it mailed out to you within 3 to 5 days

I love the secret and flash sales! 🤩

Stuff goes so quickly

I saw they had the valentine set back up and I was going to go ahead and get another set because it was $.96 and I thought what the fuck I haven’t received my first set but I’ll go ahead and get those and double it since they’re only $.96 and I’ll be damned if those bitches weren’t already sold out…

I really hope y’all let me mail you some snail mail

I’m excited to get that Mixed Messages card set, especially knowing how popular it is ☺️

But my set will be arriving any day, they already shipped

I got them for a good price but not under $1

I think the mixed messages would be fun to mail out for Halloween Thanksgiving Christmas and all the way up through Valentine’s so I’m not waiting months or however long it is

Hopefully somebody will let me mail them a card to their work or wherever!! 🥰

Anyhoo

There’s enough to go around

Trying to send some despairing cheer

I got some Daddy cosplay stuff with the tip money 🤪

Goth BB will be making a future appearance

Especially since spooky season is here

And I used that tip money to buy my Halloween costume from my favorite store!!!!! Thank you!!!

I’m buying size small which feels really weird because I have not been a small since I was probably 17

And this is my first time in my life ever buying lingerie

I don’t want to show you the costume, you just have to wait!!

It was originally $60 but I got it 80% off for their labor day sale + a mystery code!!! Extra bonus discount!!!!!!

I’d love to celebrate Halloween this year and go on a haunted hayride but I’d get kidnapped especially in that costume

I have guys who follow me out to my vehicle in my little shorts with no make up on and I don’t have a fucking filter on when I walk outside

It’s dangerous where I live especially for a gal like me

He was scanning the parking lot…

His truck was big…

Anyhoo

Maybe I’ll just stay home and take photos for you 🤪

I’m excited!!!

I have a Halloween costume and I really wanna show you the daddy cosplay stuff but I can’t, I can’t show you yet, I can’t fucking show you yet

I’m not dropping anything about it in my story

Sorry

Halloween feels like Christmas

And BB wants to look cute for you

Maybe a lethal doll

DOLLS KILL (let the neighbors know)

😋

Should I show you?

I really wanna show you 🤪

Well I got the curtains and you know the curtains I wanted to get and I do think I got a good deal for them and everybody needs fucking curtains

I have no curtains in my apartment

I’ve lived here for five years without any fucking curtains, if anybody is giving me shit for spending less than eight dollars for some fucking curtains right now, you just need to go away with your negative energy, these are for my master bedroom privacy

I made a tip and I spent it

I invested it in myself and my art and mental health

WITH YOU IN MIND

You inspire me

And I got the rent paid

I still need to go grocery shopping so I didn’t spend that much money over there and again I used my tip money

I’m not gonna stop sharing my life experience just because I’m over there working now

God wants me to have a husband

I ain’t out here doing anything to disrespect him

I don’t have a man but you know I’m out here, I’m out here doing the hard work for him to fucking destroy my self-esteem and tell me I have no value

I would have married him at 12…

He tells me his secrets then punishes me 😑

He hasn’t spoke to me in weeks 😑

He’s got another girl 😑

She probably does dirty things for him 😑

He makes me regret being born 😑

But ordered my first bodysuit and the regret is less

Plus my first proper Halloween costume in years

God said it was OK if I spent my tip money on myself

GOD LOVES MY IMAGINATION

And the child in me was not compromised or tainted

God says I’m special, not broken

And all the things I feel are part of being human

There’s good nature and bad nature

Sometimes we make mistakes but when you acknowledge something that doesn’t suit your soul purpose and you stop doing those things, that makes you human not a demon

Waking up was part of my journey and it has taken me so long…

Can’t quit now

The Devil trying hard to get me…

But he can’t have me and I got a cute Halloween costume to mock him instead 😈

Halloween is my favorite season I think

I’m pretty certain I was burned at the stake in a past life

Also, there are ways in which I never want to die

“Haven’t you died 12,000 ways”

“I ain’t going that way, the answer is still no…”

Prime example:

Nope. Leaving that convo between me and God

Ain’t putting it in the ether…

FLORIDA IS KNOWN FOR THEM THO

Fuck it

SINKHOLE

The earth just opens up and swallows you

This guy was in his bed sleeping or jerking off and it was the only place in his entire house that went under and now that whole area is condemned with a fucking piece of plastic do not enter tape line

My fears about dying are starting to get irrational and I already have a therapist so I need a husband…

I got some thigh high socks to combat the fears

That red satin bow set was my first

And now I’ve got another set incoming soon

All these years and never wore socks over the knees and now I don’t wanna stop

I love you 💕

I wanna dress cute for you

Deadly but cute

DANGER CANDY LIKE THE SHROOMS

Sometimes good, sometimes bad 🤪

I just need a husband to sort me

But I’m absolutely grateful for your viewership

You keep me going

The tip did not go for something bad (like alcohol or gambling)

I’ve never had a makeover in my life!!!!!!!

I’m glad I can share it with you

xoxo

(Could you let him know I need him)

I CAN’T BREATHE WITHOUT HIM

He released feel good hormones when I was dying

That’s why John wanted one more phone call

But he was denied 😑

He lost all hope 😑

But I’m not gonna jump from the bridge because I’ve got shit coming but the gang is out and about and they’re probably going to taunt me again tonight so I probably won’t get any fucking sleep tonight either

Where the fuck can I ride my bike with my LED lights and not feel like I’m gonna get murdered???

CUZ THE BIRTHDAY LED SETS ARE ON THE WAY

I even got a wall butterfly!!!!!!!!!!!! LED!!

And I’m gonna burn this grey shower curtain from Walmart

Or put a bunch of old oversized clothes in it and roll it up and make it look like a body and toss some of my cosplay blood on it and take it to the dump as the kids are off to school

I don’t think it’s normal to be having these ideas or laughing the way I do 🤨

Thank fuck for curtains and pretty lights tho

THEY’RE COMING

Ah fuck yeah, and bed sheets

I’ve been so caught up on getting murdered

I’m not allowed to enjoy my life

They want us living in fear

I REFUSE

Halloween is here 🎃🎃🎃

TELL ME YOU LOVE ME BEFORE THEY MURDER ME

Posted on September 4, 2022 by poeeternal · 6 Comments

Imprinting

He imprinted on me 😑

He knows

At least, I think now

Or we both do 🤔

Because no matter what form he appears

He is the ONLY ONE I respond to in such a manner

He probably thinks I’m like that with all guys

I’m not 😑

He took advantage of our bond 😑

He gave me a map with details not disclosed 😑

I thought I was starting to experience Stockholm syndrome

But it was just him 😑

And he abandoned me 😑

I don’t respond well to trauma bonding or narcissism

He can’t use those tools on me

He needs to learn control 😑

He’s never gonna make me cum if I fear him 😑

He’s not a sex god

He’s an abuser 😑

I never did nothing like that in that chat

But I did do role play stuff with him that I’ve never done with anyone 😑

I was already imprinted on him because my soul knew it was him 😑

But my mind didn’t know 😑

And then he slowly started disclosing details about his life

Things I probably would rather not know

Because he can’t handle the fact that he told me

He thinks I’ll use the information against him 😑

He shoots the listener 😑

I thought I was falling in love with some guy with no teeth and was ready to be kidnapped and settle down with some guy with no teeth but it turned out to be the love of my life

And he abandoned me after he video called and said, “I need you”

He ghosted me 😑

And the Daytona Beach gang are taunting me 😑

And I ran off my favorite poet 😑

I’m all alone 😑

And everyone is leaving toxic Instagram

EVERYONE

And the ones that are staying on Instagram are just simply unfollowing me 😑

And I’m ascending into another level 😑

But I’ve got one more bowl of vegan soup to eat and that immediately stopped my tears

I also have lingerie sets I haven’t got to try on, a brand new pair of shoes, new make up and eye tattoos from my recent birthday

But I need to be in the headspace to create

I need to not be crying while I’m putting my makeup on 😑

I want to move 😑

I’m gonna spend my tip money and buy something nice I think

I LOST EVERYTHING IN 2017

I wanna get these curtains I found at Dolls Kill and I found several cute outfits – including a Halloween set, all for the tip price

I need clothes to wear and if I had a husband maybe people wouldn’t be fucking with me

I wanna imprint on someone who wants me 😑

I’m an organic computer 😑

God made me 😑

GET THE CURTAINS BABE

WE DON’T HAVE ANY

YOU ARE ALLOWED TO WEAR CLOTHES THAT FIT YOU

YOU’RE AN AMAZING BARGAIN HUNTER

WE’RE NOT ALIVE JUST TO PAY THE BILLS

YOU ARE NOT OBSOLETE

Keep detoxing and doing the hard work

He tried to make me feel shameful 😑

He’s mean 😑

I can’t trust myself around him 😑

He’s untrustworthy 😑

I need a safe space to imprint 😑

I’m tired of being in my masculine role 😑

I want a real husband 😑

I’ve never done anything in the chatroom that was porn or triple x

I don’t compromise myself 😑

He said he needed me then cut the cord 😑

He lied 😑

How can he be so cruel 😑

He’s always cutting holes and damaging our true love

I’m moving on 😑

I want my heart, mind, and soul pure for my partner

I’m not putting in the hard work to quit

Eventually, I’ll slow down and halt

But right now I’m in therapy and detoxing and cleansing my spirit

I think I just need to get these things off my chest

So I can figure out who I am and be the best version of myself

Even when/if I’m wrinkled

I want to bond with a man

A true bond

I want to imprint on him and him on me 😑

He’s gotta be out there

Let him know I’m trying to get better

❤️‍🩹

I don’t want him to be my therapist

I don’t want to fear him 😑

I fear enough 😑

Posted on September 4, 2022 by poeeternal · 1 Comment

DEAR DAYTONA BEACH GANG

I just let the entire medicinal shop know that the Daytona Beach gang was after me but that the universe was speaking to me right now with this song and that y’all are the dumbest criminals ever

THEY WERE ALL SMILING

And then I started feeding off of that energy and bouncing up and down

THE STAFF WAS SMILING

I even said I was going to do a TikTok video with this song dedicated to you

I stated that

YOU WILL NEED A RESTRAINING ORDER TO STOP ME

Cause-and-effect

HAVE FUN

And I’m already skipping up and down the sidewalk with this playing on repeat

Just checking my mail skipping

Just taking my dog for a pee

Minding my own business

I hope the gaslighting is working

The vehicles have mirrors

I can hear you breathe

GET OFF MY DICK

🖕

*skips*

*smiles*

*song on repeat any time I leave the house*

The devil has an invite to bust my fucking door down I double fucking triple dare you to fucking bust my goddamn doors down bust my fucking doors down cross my motherfucking shadow do it fucking do it you little fucking piss ants that will never amount to anything and you’re never coming to heaven with me I fucking dare you to fucking cross my shadow

IT’S THE END OF THE WORLD AND I FEEL FINE

Let the love of my life know I’m nearly healed

I might let him near me in the future for a hug

I threw a glass Coke bottle at his head once a long time ago but I knew he wasn’t gonna move so I put a slight spin on the bottle right at the very end

God has mercy sometimes

He’s lucky

But don’t push his luck…

I need more weapons

Like that scene in the Matrix

But I got my teeth

I bite 👀

Posted on September 4, 2022 by poeeternal

Soup is calming

The cops are going to make a martyr out of me and then the press will list it as a hate crime

Having a bowl of leftover vegan soup

Homemade with love

I’ve never invited the devil to my kitchen and I think that’s the real offense here, he’s just gaslighting and sick of eating pizza from a box…

Edgar would still be around if he had someone to make him some soup

He was into incest and maybe for the best (sorry dear)

I’m never eating anything but rainbow carrots ever again…

Not forever and only

This has got to be the destroying death Angel

I don’t know if it is edible or not

I don’t eat mushrooms

But many species are popping up everywhere

With gills. With pores. Red. Yellow. White.

They all seem like danger

Or a message from the lord

“How do we destroy the elite”

God: GIVE THEM A TASTE OF THEIR OWN MEDICINE

I’m scared of them

All of them

Terrified

A fear as big as the ocean

I want to wear a mask near them

Are they allowed to just invade another planet and destroy a species?

Why am I mostly here to observe and to judge?

Why do I know things to happen before they happen, major things to happen before they happen, directly to just me or to the world!?!

What are these mushrooms popping up all around me and what am I supposed to do with the information that John Jones continues to feed me?

Apparently angels know how to cook soup

God will give you special thangs he grew from the ground

And they will HEAL YOU

THIS IS A MAGICAL BOWL OF SOUP

Not artificial pizza from a box

Humans had to develop a gene to consume dairy

THIS AIN’T NO ORDINARY SOUP

YOU CAN MAKE IT TOO

The crazy thing is, food can be grown for free 🙄

But we have to pay triple the price for health food because that doesn’t serve their purpose of keeping us sick

Magical soup

Can be made over a fire pit

Soup and spring water

Not only does it connect me to my purpose and calm me and fill up my belly, but it’s healing me

I need to move so will get back to sorting and packing again soon

Avoiding the beast

I need as far away from the city as possible

Can’t stand the fake ass devil gaslighting propaganda racist society

You don’t need a fancy kitchen or pot to cook a healing meal

Enjoy your cold pizza dear…