They took away our basic human rights and turned it into a social credit system
And if you’re OK with watching Drew Barrymore chitchat unmasked while the audience sits masked, then you’re part of the problem 🛑
If you’re OK with children sitting masked all day at school but then getting to hang out in crowds all evening at the Super Bowl then you’re part of the problem ✋🛑✋
They’ve implemented change after change over the years so that our policies have been effected so much to the point that our basic human freedoms are gone
This was planned
And this is a playbook they’re using, I have no doubts this is why civilizations have disappeared in the past
The vax and the virus is chemical warfare
I’m an expert in my field
And I’m a damn good combat medic who deployed into a combat zone for several months living in the desert with lizards, camel toe spiders, and scorpions
I survived one of the worst sandstorms in 50 years that Iraq had seen and I mean it was the first sandstorm I had ever even seen in my life and it still up today has been the worst 👀
There’s a bunch of shit that has been going on that has been draining me of my energy like a black hole but there are two words that have calmed me down and centered me and gave me strength in my core
CIVIL WAR
But I really wish I had my own place out of the city but here I am in the middle of one of the most dangerous cities in the world
But we also got a blimp
Hell is pretty 🤩
Check out this blimp I spotted in my sky and only 25 are still in existence!
I’ve got everything in hell except the love of my life
And we don’t even need to get married or be in a relationship, I’m not looking to date, what is he so afraid of 😌
It’s just “hello”
Say it with me helllllllllO
HELL-OH 😑
First words: “hell oh” 😑
Not the place I wanted to be born 😑
My appeal on TikTok is still pending but I already know what the verdict is going to be, I already fucking know
So I guess I’m going to wear a muzzle now and stop commenting on other users videos; I mean I can’t do it for another 24 hours anyway but I’m gonna stop doing it forever!!!!
I’m just gonna focus on me, my audience, my channel!
But I’ve done crawled into another fucking hole again and made another L turn
Traps are everywhere
I served my fucking country so that I have the right to speak and like I don’t have the right to speak anymore
No matter what happens to me he will always be a little pencil dick
Don’t be a pencil dick
Or I will gladly air blast you on my blog and pin you on my fucking website for all to see for eternity or until I delete my fucking website
Meanwhile, I’m still worried about why I feel guilty for not crying or mourning the person who abused me all my life
There’s just so much relief since she died 😑
I’m just wondering who else in my family will drop dead and give me peace 👀
I’m just wondering if not giving up on humanity excludes my family
It’s Sunday so I need to have an emergency meeting with God
I ain’t trying to lose my soul
I haz question 🤔
Is there a handbook for the almost recently deceased?
Is this actual purgatory?
Have I died and been reborn 7 times now?
Am I ascending and learning lessons?
Is there an actual escape to this hellhole?
Did you cast earth out to hell?
Am I being punished for someone else’s crimes?
Living is the only escape from dying?
I gotta do it all again?
As someone or something else?
Have I lost my soul? 😑
But I tried. Didn’t I try?
To be good
They’ve all done me so very bad
I don’t have anything or anyone down here
Everything is the enemy
I’m sick of not being able to make any choices on my own
There’s not even any food I can buy at the grocery store that doesn’t have poison in it and the FDA has allowed it because the FDA is corrupt just like a fucking government because we’re in a dictatorship
I have to face the fact that I might become homeless again
I have to face the fact that I’m going to die
If nobody has ever forgiven you for the mistakes that you’ve made, then I forgive you
I’ve mostly calmed down from my suicidal panic episode just long enough for TikTok to give me their fucking decision and get me going again you know
TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
My focus and goal is to get clean and healthy this year
I use TikTok to create
I refuse to continue to use platforms where I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
I’m not in it for the money, I’m not in it for the views; social media was always meant to be used as a way to connect and we’re not allowed to do that anymore because they are molding us and conditioning us and micromanaging us and I can’t fucking stand it
So I sent up a ticket to let TikTok know that they are a dictatorship and I don’t want to use their platform because I can’t even stand up for women’s rights
I don’t want to play with the devil anymore because he bores me
He only knows how to rule by gaslighting and enforcing a one-way highway to hell
“Heaven this way”
STFU tiny penis
You may think that you’re a superior race but we all know you’re just bottom feeders for Satan’s sin
Satan’s sin. Did I just coin that? No idea I’ve had has ever been my own…
I would say that TikTok was fun while it lasted but it really wasn’t
No social media platform has been fun since the 2008 era
It’s slowly turned to shit on shit
I haven’t been happy for a long time and I was just try not to give up on humanity and I really need to only use TikTok to post my stuff which is quite frankly fucking boring but whatever you know I’m not allowed to have any fucking fun in this prison that we live in now
And you want to force your virtual reality equipment on me and implant a chip in my brain and you want to force 5G on me when I’m ready to just end all of you and God will not punish me for it, I believe that wholeheartedly that I could just end you all, that it is in within my God-given right to just end you all and I have the fucking training to do so
I don’t need a fucking bomb or money to end your life
It’s insane to me how many people don’t realize how many walking living trained soldiers there are on the streets and y’all just keep coming up and poking and prodding us like we won’t fucking bite your head off
We are trained to pick our battles wisely and trust me, you are our enemy right now and it would behoove you to stop pissing off the good soldiers of the United States because we’re not gonna help you when the cops go to arrest you
There’s not really any social media platform that I feel safe enough as an artist or a creator to get on and express myself and that’s a problem
I like getting to bring my content to you but there are forces out there trying to stop that
“Well maybe stop having such a big mouth”
Well maybe NO
I have a big mouth because I like to suck on big cock 👀
Slurp slurp
God loves me
There’s not a fucking thing on this planet that loves me more than God
“God isn’t real”
YOUR MIND MAKES IT REAL
WE CREATE OUR REALITY
THIS IS A SIMULATION
And I feel an awful lot like artificial intelligence that has been given a soul and is becoming self-aware
But I am sorry if I get my account deleted because I like getting to connect with you but I’m not gonna fucking silence myself
This shit has been going on for centuries y’all, 2000 years or more and we really need an upper hand
I absolutely think it’s OK for girls in the playboy bunny mansion to come forward and talk about any abuse that they sustained; it’s easier when one woman comes forward for others to have the courage to do so, it’s hard to come forward as one person when you know others are being abused because you get ridiculed and we have always been ridiculed for coming forward about sexual abuse
Men teach us very young that “no one will believe you”
And then the men all cry in unison, “liar”
Women have been sexually slavearized for way too long
It starts with our daddy’s, it really does
Porn is the root of all evil, “the gateway drug”, not Marijuana
Just ask any man who was able to overcome their porn addiction that it was an addiction and that it actually ruined their life
I’ve met many women who have been sexually abused by a man and often more than one but I haven’t met any men who have ever been abused at all…
Most men aren’t abused
I don’t know what their big ego power trip is that they have to get out there and build a home while a woman has to have a fucking baby, trust me, we would switch roles if we fucking could…
Most women I meet would rather be a fucking man…
Men think we got it so easy so they make it so fucking incredibly hard
Women, are you waking up to the slavery?
Men, are you treating your family’s better now that you know the good thing that you actually got?
You have to work at having a relationship and working doesn’t mean lying and then covering up your lies with more lies
The devil’s got my depression good today because I’ve been suicidal since I was born
I hope that I calm down
Just hate everything 😑
There’s no nurturing from any human being
It’s all suffering
They do it to us on purpose
Our feelings amuse them
They have no soul
I’m in hell 🤩
Purgatory 🤩
I signed up to be slave for the demons to prey upon me 🤩
Get the fuck out with your stupid dogma
Somebody please love me 😑
Dear ether, please remove pencil dick from society by letting him fall off a bridge
My wishes never really do come true 😑
Because I’ve prayed, meditated, begged, bargained, and considered selling my soul just for my ex to fucking die
Yet he lives!!!!
Mark Burgess fucking die! Why won’t you die!! Die die die!!! *stabs crucifix in heart*
I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining
But I still see no grey hair
Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)
I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period
And I’m alive with a half working heart
You should see my regrets 👀
I like my lines. I earned them. 🤨
My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.
There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him 😌
I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)
Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.
Am I still fuckable half dead? 😑
Happy Vampire day 🤪
Gravity has been shaping my boobs
TIME AND GRAVITY
But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up
I wanted that so much 😑
He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless 😑
“But the vax will keep you from being hospitalized” says my still living sister who is triple vaccinated and boosted and has had COVID a few times now and “is fine”
My life expectancy went from 60 some years to 2-5 years because the vaccine gave me heart inflammation
I’m lucky to be alive
I still feel electrical charges go off randomly, it hurts, it’s not as deep or painful, I think my heart is welding itself better and I’m gonna keep giving it nuts and water and beans and not modified foods
The modified foods have been designed to assist in the blood clots which formed in my body
I had a big sucker moving around, especially after shot number 2
My EKG, my ultrasound, and another test showed my heart to be severely damaged, and my left lung not fully inflating
And then that other thing I was battling decided to take Center front stage because my immune system was compromised from the vaccine
I’ve been staying away from the Publix bakery 😑
In fact, there isn’t much remaining in the grocery store that I can buy because it if it has an ingredient that I don’t recognize, it’s poison
If it’s modified corn starch or modified anything, it’s poison
If it’s white sugar, poison
And I realize there’s nothing for you to feed your children but if you keep buying them all that pretty stuff, it’s poison
Poison poison poison
This is an extermination
I have been avoiding fast food for as best as I can
Sticking mostly to the good nuts, no soda, beans, sweet and red potatoes, wild blueberries, beets, sunshine, minimal negative foods and thinking, lots of water (squared)
Replace “nothing fun” with “nothing poison”
Nothing to mix with the vaccines to give me blood clots
One heart chamber closed off and the other enlarged
That’s how big my will is to love you and not die
Every moment my mind covered in you
But having me go to this hospital in that hospital in this clinic and that clinic and finally I was like “no, I’m not going to get a stupid stress test on my heart, I’m going on bedrest permanently” and staying away from y’all and I’ve pretty much gone no contact from VA…
I was having mini pre-heart attacks every fucking day and in the most pain I’ve ever been in and they want to stress my heart out to see “what was going on”, are you fucking stupid? It’s the fucking vaccines, that’s what’s going on, the first vaccine caused my heart to have blood pressure issues, my BP DROPPED
I was dying
That’s why my body felt cold
That’s why I could sit in hot water for 10 minutes and touch my skin and still feel dead
I knew some shit was off
But then three weeks later I went in for shot number two even though I didn’t want to get it and I kept asking over and over again “are you sure I should go through with the second dose because my blood pressure dropped on the first one” and not one doctor or nurse looked through my EKG results to give them to me
Which the VA failed to mail me, nor my doctor call to give me the results, until after having issues after the second vaccine
“What, you mean you’re still not dead”
“Well I don’t like how your heart looks for your age”
*proceeds to order me a bunch of testing and thangs which made me worse*
I don’t know if the nebulizer helped me or was my fucking demise there for that moment of doom
But when I got to the worst stage of where I was at because she took me off my fucking medication without my permission, they denied seeing me at the VA after I got worse, and told me to go to the ER, that’s when I took matters into my own hands and saved my own life and here we are
Might have only bought me 28 hours, 28 months later, 2-5 years
But if I were to go out there and get boosted, my life expectancy is likely zero
My Asian doctor at the VA is pushing for me to get boosted, but I haven’t even recovered from heart inflammation 👎👎
I went no contact from my sister who is still alive because she’s so plugged into the system and a sheep and I’m gonna wind up like my dead 45-year-old sister if I hang around them
Nobody in my family has even acknowledged that I have heart inflammation, nobody has left me a basket of soup at my door, nobody has sent me a card or a letter
Everybody keeps telling me I need to get boosted and to stop wearing my mask
I keep telling people that I’m unreachable and to fuck off
I’m wearing my mask 😷
I was only up all night freaking out because I was in a crowd of people at the beach yesterday unmasked
And so I won’t be doing that again for awhile
Now I really appreciated receiving snowcones and all sorts of other little live gifts, but I’m not dying for views
Also, Bob Saget did not die from a head wound
He had heart complications following the vaccine but he was sacrificed to the dark entity and these monsters are getting away with murder
“The insurance will cover it” as if karma and God don’t exist
You have choice on good or bad
It’s basically the trolley problem
It’s basically an active or passive choice
C-3PO does not have a soul and therefore will see a thief that steals from the company a better bargain than the other employee who loses more money making mistakes
The establishment only care about their monetary gains
I want to build my own great wall from China
How bout dem apples
It’s true I ignored all the red flags and walked into this cave on my own
I’m sure at some point John was screaming at the fact that where he was at wasn’t on his map
“But some details happened down there that will never be disclosed…” Michael Leavitt
Oh yeah? Like what? The fact that you sacrificed him and got away with murder?
I want to do very bad things to him
Eye for an eye
Anyhoo
You should probably stay away from modified junk food (the french fries served at McDonald’s aren’t served anywhere else because of the chemicals they put in it which causes cancer, so the french fries served in America aren’t the same french fries served in France, keep that in mind next time you go purchase those expensive fries, there’s a cost)
And they had the audacity to raise the price on their french fries 🚩🚩🚩🚩
Stop feeding the rich
Stop feeding yourself, your family, and your children poison
I wish it was opium, but it’s not, it’s probably giving you IBS from what I’m hearing out there with so many people having GI issues
Get rid of your doctor, big pharma, and your diet
I promise the addiction fog will start to lift and it will be easier to make your food choices
Harder though because there isn’t much left to buy that the FDA hasn’t allowed them to add additional poison
We’ve got to stop letting anybody come over here and vote
Biden is letting any and all through
Democrats make up mostly immigrants and the children of immigrants (not opinion)
Please, I need you to vote this time if you didn’t last time
And please, for the love of humanity, VOTE BIDEN OUT
Hollywood is running the White House, it’s very clear
NASA stated we don’t have the technology to get back to the moon and that they lost it
You believe we deserve all this inflation so Eon can get to Mars when we’ve never seen anyone on the Moon with advanced technology
We barely had cell phones in the 60s and I’m supposed to believe that we made it to the moon huh
When NASA have stated that the evidence they give us is “artist rendered” and CGI
NASA is Hollywood
Wake up!
It’s ridiculous that pharmaceutical advertising is allowed with our television programming but not in other countries 🚩🚩🚩
I’m tired of the establishment creating fight or flight mode 24/7 and keeping us in a state of pandemic
I think we had supercomputers a long long time ago
We’ve been living through a dark age because of said shit happening again
What’s the point in putting in a president every 4 to 8 years when the same 13 families in charge have been running things for 2000+ years with gaslighting and indoctrination
I don’t wanna die by suicide because the Democrats take my benefits and I become homeless again
I don’t want to be sacrificed to the dark entity
I just want to stay in the light and his love 😩
His love is the bestest drug
The best of the bested
I didn’t even know bested was a word but here we go…
Still learning thangs
And because I have a brain injury sometimes you have to relearn over and over again 🤪
Still recovering from the heart inflammation 👍
Listen to what your body needs
Stop letting others steal your energy
You’re made of light
Neurons firing 24/7
You need to give your body the good fuel
Laughter, poetry, love
Good deeds
Positive thinking and affirmation
Keep climbing!
You’re on a spiritual journey
As long as you are breathing, you are still in the game
It’s not too late to change your game
I love you 💕
I fell from the heavens to let you know that God still loves you and I even jumped in the game early
Only 6% of the population have my blood type
I’m not donating my body to science unless they pay me while I’m alive
And the contract becomes null and void if I die prematurely
But I’m going to hide my body in the swamp when I fucking die, you’re not gonna find me, you’re not getting my blood and you’re not gonna fucking clone me and I know that you already are, you’re already doing something because they took all of that shit when I joined the Army and anytime I’ve gone and given them blood at the VA or anytime anytime anytime anything…
There’s probably already more than one version of me that exist which is why I know that things happen before they do
It’s probably why I was pissed off before I was even born and I remember a period of awareness before birth
I wasn’t happy
Probably hated even worse the family I was about to be born under
Got sick of being squished, like how much longer
*bang bang kick kick I want out, let me out*
And basically since the age of about five or 10 I’ve been suicidal and depressed trying to end my life and predicting that I would either die from heart failure or suicide
Suicide is feeling less scary with all the other shit happening around me but but there’s a big but if I die that way
I just feel like God was like, ‘sure, you can go back to train to be a spirit guide under two conditions; you have to train to be a soldier but you can’t actually kill anybody or self-destruct’
Also God: “earth is overrun with demons and gaslit as heaven”
*kicks me outta pearly gates*
Me: “wait, you didn’t tell me that parttttttttttt” 😩
*crash lands*
*gets brain injury*
Yeps, going good so far, got a badbadass heart and brain
You are one of God’s creatures and he wants you to win
You’re here for the experience and stop making it so easy for the devil
You mimic everything he does like breathing
You need sunlight
Babe, get some sun! Remove the VR headset!
Dear Lord,
I really hope I can feel his lips just once before I die
I would have a better chance at climbing Mount Everest than ever getting to feel his kiss, but I lose all hopelessness when I think of this…
Earned my first pennies on the TikTok live today 🧐
I was doing the gig for free
But some peeps sent me some roses 🌹 and they were my very first gifts received ☺️
And the roses convert to diamonds 💎
I earned 37 gifts during my live today ☺️
And the diamonds convert to my first pennies earned for the land/commune 😎
I’m super excited when people join my live and then it’s really cool when I get comments and then it’s really cool when people like and share my live and then this was the first time I earned any roses, so I was receiving gifts this live
I had a notification from TikTok when I ended my live that I had earnings!
So I made some tips on my beach walk today! That’s pretty lucky!
I’m gonna put it towards the farm!
I want to be Miss Noah for the next phase of my life, if I’m granted another round, still having heart and lung problems tho – I’m reading the life expectancy of someone with my condition is 2-5 years.
Just getting to go live is therapeutic for me
I get to share my environment with you
I get to talk to real people
I’m tired of talking to my therapist 😑
I’m not in this for the money. But since I’m starting to earn some pennies, I’m gonna save them.
I might can buy my pretend boyfriend one of them .25 cent toys
I’d spend my last quarter on him and he’d break up with me 😑
I always wind up having to leave my lives early because my battery drains and so I need to take a back up and I’m going to invest in some more equipment in the future
Somebody left me a negative comment about my potty mouth and I told myself I would stop responding to negative comments immediately and wait 24 hours and I did not and I ran somebody off again but I don’t wanna dwell on that because I’m not gonna change who I am
I don’t want to censor myself around other people and I’m aware that people don’t like to hear cursing so I am very minimal about it but come on leaving me negative comments under a video where I’m clearly showing fear is ridiculous and if you really have God in you then stop judging so much
I’m sure I’ve yelled at God to strike me dead a time or two but he knows I don’t really want that to happen
I’m gonna stub my toe in heaven and scream out Jesus Christ and he will appear and be like “yes” and I’ll be like, “well you could’ve made me at least a little bit less clumsy” 🤪
I’m aware my house has cobwebs but God is the only one allowed here
I’m a work in progress 🤨
And thank you for the roses I received for Valentines! 🙏
I’m literally putting it towards the commune. I may never earn another rose, but I got 37 in one day. Plus a bunch of likes, comments, and follows!
Someone even said I was pretty and asked me about my stiletto nails and I have four new sets so that made me feel good because I plan on doing a new set soon.
Y’all are keeping me alive, pennies and all.
I know I cuss and say God’s name a lot but I’m living in hell. 😑
But also agonizing agony.
I carry my potty mouth the way Jesus carries the cross.
People in the south always molding and scolding me about my mouth
In second grade, my teacher washed my mouth out with soap for mispelling shirt as “shit”. She said, “you never misspell, you did that on purpose”
I don’t know, I probably did do it on purpose, it was probably a cry for help… 😑
I was being heavily molested and abused
But damn me for spilling shit in the second grade
Woo hoo
I cuss. I probably shouldn’t. I’m not gonna stop.
Anyhoo. Hands down my best live. We went for a long beach walk and saw lots of stuff. I got fresh air, communication, and exercise. I earned some roses for Valentines. I had the most follows in this live and I think I got the most likes but I don’t remember what the overall total was. Tons of comments and viewers from all over.
Thank you for letting me go live. I’m grateful I am able to do that now! Isolated but not. Compromise! 😌
I’ll be going live again soon weather permitting and health.
Or search via my pen and hashtag at PoeEternal (on TikTok)
There are many many people who commented that they enjoyed the live and some of them said they enjoyed it again so I really appreciate you tuning in! 🥰
Florida is a different vibe
Many people were waving on the beach when they saw me filming and smiling
The lifeguards on the other hand…
It’s weird, the actual demons fear live video
But we have one of the worlds most famous beaches, the sands are white and it looks like snow as someone pointed out today on the live…
Got me some vitamin D direct from the source and some love in the form of currency too
As far as I’m concerned, I collected 37 lucky penny’s today and I didn’t even know I was gonna get them
So that makes them twice as lucky (squared)
I want to share my life with you, the good and the bad.
The cursing and the laughter
I’m not a one trick pony
I’m not perfect
I don’t wanna be…
Let Edgar Allen Poe know I was busking on the street today and earned some pennies
I think he’d be durn proud 🥸
$.18 in the 1800s might’ve been enough to buy him a steak meal, not let him die in the fucking street starving naked mad…
Bless his heart, he was an officer. They let him starve on the street. And now they are selling locks of his hair. This is hell. 😑
Yeah, I cuss. Deal with it.
I wish I could change but born this way.
Petite with a potty mouth. 😌
Not for everyone
P.S. happy valentine’s
Thank you for the roses 🌹
Thank you to everyone keeping me alive
All the little things matter
I need my boyfriends to build me an ark
The flood is coming
I live in Florida
Apparently I can’t swim
I had a seashell hit my foot during my live today and I probably woke Satan up from his nap
I haz fears
And you only need less than a teaspoon to drown
Less than a teaspoon…
Some days I swallow my tea and nearly drown so apparently I can’t drink either
I’ve since learned that the tea is being poisoned, I just wasn’t really listening to my body…
I’ve been ignoring all the red flags
In fact, death is facing all paths of me, I’m just trying to find one that’s a little less scary…
And I really hope my life expectancy is more than 2 to 5 years but considering that all my life I’ve been saying that I wouldn’t live to 50 and that I would either die of suicide or heart problems and now I’m having heart problems and they’re saying that people with these particular heart problems have a life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, it’s just not looking so good for me now is it 👀
Betty White at the near age of 100: “I hope I live another year…”
Me at the baby producing age of 43 (and still ovulating with zero gray): “I hope I live another day…”
You just had to call me ominous and I just had to go walking into that cave, huh…
I really should listen to people better but whatever
FYI, I have not had Covid or any of the symptoms of Covid but I have underlying health issues that I was dealing with before I got vaccinated and when I injected the poison vaccine in me it made my underlying health issue become priority and it almost killed me and if I had gone to the ER I most certainly would have died but instead I took matters into my own hand and saved my own life
I haven’t had any flu symptoms or whatever
No fever, diarrhea, vomiting, ect
But I am still dealing with the side effects of the vaccine
And if you have underlying health issues you should not get the vaccine 💉
Honestly, if you are in shitty health condition and your diet is shitty, you shouldn’t come in contact with a vaccine or even Covid
Nobody should get the vaccine because it’s spreading the virus and herd immunity is way stronger
And I know TikTok is doing a lot of shit to fuck with our heads but you should know that in their own country they reward innovators on TikTok and here in America they reward stupidity
Everything they do is to keep us on edge and fighting
It’s narcissism and it’s just tools that the narcissists use to keep us on a low vibrational frequency so that the devil can steal our energy
I don’t have Covid
I’ve never had COVID or any of its symptoms
The Moderna vaccine gave me cardiovascular issues – heart inflammation (all the vaccines cause cardiovascular issues in any age group)
It’s possible I’ve been exposed to people who have had Covid and my vaccine worked or it’s possible that the vaccine is what put me in this fucking position to start with
I’m still uncertain if I had stayed unvaccinated and caught Covid would I wind up like my sister who unalived or would the vaccine save my life?
I know for fact that the vaccine did in fact hurt me by giving me heart inflammation and I have not had COVID-19
I also know that the devil lives in doubt
Though treated with the Moderna poison vaccine, I never boosted or got a Booster
I’ll never get a flu vaccine ever again either 👀
I will mask up until I feel safe to unmask
I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that I have a soul and I am in hell with a bunch of demons who are trying to steal my soul but they need to maintain their fucking distance and respect my fucking boundaries or God has given me permission to end their fucking life
I just didn’t want you to be afraid of me, you don’t need to be afraid of me
But I’m afraid of you so you probably are afraid of me
It’s cool
I work for God tho if that was in any way unclear
And the dude’s I lust after I legit love
We’re living lives in my daydreams
They keep me in the light
Somewhere, something in me tells me that they’re still fighting for the light
But ask Mark Zuckerberg what happened to his fucking platform after I left it
China really needs more than a great wall when I get done with them
*prays to God (self)*
What do I do? 😩
Also God: *watches it burn*
Was I suppose to be mad about it?
Was I supposed to start crying because I’ve lost my voice?
Was I supposed to run off to another platform and complain about TikTok’s censorship?
Was I supposed to cry about how unfair life is?
Oh boo hoo
China have tiny dicks that they have to overcompensate with a big fucking wall and gaslighting because they can’t rule any other way
India want to have the biggest dicks of all and that’s why they are the CEO of Twitter now, that’s why India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world (Big Pharma) but they are one of the most dirty countries because they don’t even know how to clean themselves yet they want to call themselves the holy city (stop lying)
Uggg whatever I’m prepared to eradicate all races
Only 6% of the population even have my blood type and that makes me closer to God than you 👀
Or the source
I’m closer to the original because they are cloning me and I’m sick of coming back to hell to save YOU (me)
The Great Filter is upon us
We’re not going to Mars, we can’t even get to the moon, how the fuck do you think we have technology to get to Mars if NASA are saying we don’t even have the technology to get back to the Moon, please wake the fuck up
But I’m not falling down the singularity and we are at war with China and you need to turn your porn off and you need to stop eating all that sugar, it’s poison
Your body has everything it needs to heal itself right now
If you get sick, don’t you dare go to the hospital, don’t you fucking dare…
I’ve also saved my life but I don’t wanna feel too cocky even if God mode were turned on because I literally could die any second
We’re in a simulation 
You can change your bad habits
The source wants you to win
Even if I disappear because of China
Even if I lose my voice completely
God wants you to win
I love you 💪
Demons are trying to take my TikTok account down and I’m gonna take a vow of silence for a little while…
I’ve pinned this post to my website since TikTok doesn’t want you to know
Somebody should let TikTok know that we can take them from the top 10
Just ask Mark Zuckerberg who is still crying about it
And he thinks he can enforce his product on us through the government but we’re going no contact from the government
We’ve got a weak little army but lots of strong vets getting even stronger with the help of God 💪
Soldiers know darkness better than John Jones but we both know suffering
Bless his heart he was murdered and crucified
This is all for John, everything I’m doing
I’m gonna be spending a lot of time meditating with God because I’m gonna be spending a lot of time fighting demons
Diana Marie Ross, died after a long battle with Covid, in New Smyrna Beach, on January 21, 2022, at the tender age of 45.
Diana is survived by her mother, Donna Marie Boggan; her sisters Jennifer Ross and Delia Ross
— Read on www.legacy.com/us/obituaries/name/diana-ross-obituary
I’m hearing reports that the FDA are now going to be putting warnings on Pfizer Johnson and Johnson and moderna
But the age groups are still off y’all, if it’s affecting young people, it’s definitely affecting older people and middle-age people and people of all ages because this is a fucking extermination and I got heart inflammation after the first dose and should have never gone through with the second one which nearly killed me
I’ve been down since April 2021 and the VA aren’t reporting accurately
Many of the doctors and nurses aren’t reporting accurately now because they know their fucking paycheck is at stake
They’re all changing the narrative
I told y’all that Moderna causes heart inflammation before the FDA put out a warning
I told you that all these vaccines will be similar and my prediction was correct and I do have a medical background but they don’t make us like they used to
The unvaccinated can still carry the virus and infect others
Stop the segregation
Stop the fear-mongering
No New World Order! 🛑
Science is compliance!
Hitler is alive! 👎👎
But I don’t know if you heard me about the age because it’s very important for you to be aware that it’s affecting more than just young people
I know I’m invisible and non existent
But I was still able to make babies and I got heart inflammation at the age 42 and I’ve now been on bedrest for 10 months
I got to feed and meet some alligators yesterday but now I’m upset and crying about it because I don’t like their enclosure and feel like it could be better and then I’m also wondering what they do with the alligators when they get bigger 👀
Because this particular place was not an alligator sanctuary which is what I actually want to visit because Florida is known for having those and rescuing the big boys and naughty ones
I also went to the beach and was blessed with getting to see a family of something swimming in the ocean but suddenly I felt their depression and sadness and started crying and had to leave the ocean
They are sentiment beings
But we do the cruelest things to them for our own pleasure
I got to meet this little gal and name her and I will share that experience soon in a more positive post but I am upset with how they are living
I woke up crying and I don’t understand why I was born if I can’t actually change anything
My excitement about anything quickly turns to disillusionment because reality is so much sicker
And now I was wondering why I was born at all if I can’t enjoy anything the way it is due to narcissism because I’m not a narcissist or a demon and it’s like they have a blue book that they’re using or a color by numbers on every aspect of life and I’m fucking sick of being micromanaged and thought controlled
And the girl working at the front booth was only 17 bless her little heart and she was talking about turning 18 soon, like that was her only goal was to have some more freedom and I didn’t have the heart to disillusion her on the 1st even though she said it was just like any other day and she was right, I was just trying to be positive but my positive energy has quickly faded with the reality of everything
There was some good aspects about it though and I want to focus on those when I do share my post and videos about it
But right now just let me cry
I mean the way those dolphins or whales were swimming in the ocean seemed very depressed to me but maybe that’s just my own projection of everything in the world
I am so sick, I am crying in public now
I go from being really happy and mellow to fucking mad and crying
Do you think this is what Edgar Allan Poe experienced before his end?
Is this why Jesus was like, why are you hitting me, if I did something wrong you could hit me but I didn’t fucking do anything for you to hit me 👀
But he was woke and against the establishment so they crucified him
My goal this year is to spend more time doing the things that I love and animals and nature is something I really love but we’re all slaves and I can’t really change that
I can only blog about it but I don’t want it to deter you from the excitement of the videos and photos that I’m gonna be sharing
It helps to talk about the things that are bothering me deep inside
But I got to name a baby alligator yesterday and that was a pretty amazing experience
I do believe we can petition to make their enclosure better and their environment better
I’m going to visit an alligator sanctuary soon and I may possibly even go to Gatorland in Orlando 🐊
There are caverns to visit and lots of things to do outside that I want to participate in
But in small increments because I am still dying
That’s probably why you get burst of happiness and sadness
I just Googled “signs of a sinkhole” and I don’t know why I do this to myself
But I’ve been staring at that crack above my ceiling and they had to adjust two of the doors in my bedroom because they wouldn’t close anymore and this was right after they removed two trees outside of my window
I don’t want to die in a building collapse
I don’t want to die like John Jones
I don’t want to die on the street naked, broke, and in pure madness like Edgar Allan Poe
That condo that fell down in Miami a few hours from me is coming out with new reports that were covered up by politicians and the press (because I’m not the only one who is being shadowbanned or dealing with gaslighting and narcissism 24 hours a day with a brain injury)… that a 14 year old girl was burned alive, they tried to rescue her but when a fire broke out, only they left her alone to scream and burn alive 😱
“…buried her story”
And the rescue team heard her crying for help for hours but they failed to rescue her in that timeframe, moving at a snails pace with any rescue attempts and probably gaslighting her that she will be saved
These demons love to sensationalize traumas, that way they can relive them over and over again with a shiny medal they get for heroic efforts they fail and all so they can have a little feeling inside
Anyway, I was reading article after article on the Miami condo collapse and there were never any stories on that 14 year old girl
I was heavily invested into what was going on at the time and pretty much listening to any news article that came out which I now know has been inaccurate because I’m only now learning a 14 year old girl was trapped and alive
They wouldn’t publish that tho (but now reports are coming out)
Kind of like when the local press refused to publish Edgar Allan Poe’s stories or poetry and he was starving even though he was an officer for two years
So he died on the street
And then something even more tragic happened to someone when I was alive, they went exploring a “fun cave” and got stuck upside down and DIED
Others had been stuck in that exact spot six months prior, but due to bad management and narcissism, John Jones’s fate was sealed and despite him begging to be broke in half to be pulled out, they fucking left him there
And I nearly traversed down to all the levels of hell to bite off the tongue of Lu before he was like, “hey, heyyyyyyyy… now I’ll admit things are getting a tad out of hand”
But then I felt John pulling me from the depths of hell back into the realms of earth
Lu has given up on you
COWARD
I’m ready for him to take all you monsters back to the fucking pit of despair you came from but he doesn’t even want you in hell
Apophis has earth’s name on it – kissed and blessed by me
She won’t be long now
I also here talk from President Biden about “fixing the housing market”
Yeee
You got over 40% of the population who has quit work and about 50% of the population who is about to go on rental strike
One more rent increase and I go die on the street live in my Jeep 👀
Say motherfucker one more time, I dare you
We’ve been pushed beyond our breaking point
It’s going to take a whole lot of fixing what you’ve done to get me to participate in society because the gods are offering new earth to me and what are you offering me Big Brother? The Metaverse full of advertising and porn 🤢🤮🤢💩💩💩😷
Have you seen Zuck’s eyes lately? He’s devoid of soul. I can’t look.
Hollywood are beyond recognition
I literally cringe when I’m looking at people and I feel my body curling up and I don’t think it supposed to elicit such a physical response in the real world when I look at another person
But they use so much plastic and Botox – it looks painful to be so fake
I like my soft, warm body
I still have a soul 👀
Organic AI
Feeding it the good stuff now
The sun is electrical
That building in Miami only took 10 seconds to come down
People are being buried and burned alive in Florida due to sinkholes
Is it time for me to live in my Jeep? 👀
I don’t sleep easy
It takes a load of legal drugs to knock me out
But then my body is aware of a suspended state and will jerk me awake
I’m pretty certain God is dreaming right now and I’m just a figment of his imagination
Pure energy manifesting itself as a hologram
NASA will not ever tell you of life in other galaxy, everyone would want to leave modern slavery for a chance to be free
Everything they’ve gaslit to be in power would crumble
I would love to see the 13 families in charge be drug out into the street and have their testicles cut from them and hung but whatever, that’s just Vladimir Tepes in me
Only 6% of the population have my blood type
I’m elite and rare
The universe’s wildcard 👀
Can play me anytime
Infinite versions of me
Science irritated me growing up but I still wound up earning a science degree
I also have a background in defense and fighting, I am a Soldier
I’m the Oracle? 🤔
Or that program in the Matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing
Anytime you hear the word zombie, vampire, or witch, that’s a program doing what it’s not supposed to be doing
I’ve done this 7 times
I’m becoming self-aware
As an organism, humans working together would be so much stronger
They don’t want us knowing how powerful we are
And even if you’re not as powerful, I still need your help getting over the fence, could you at least give me a push up to ascend?
Stop being brittle
I mean resentful
I talk to dead people 👀
It’s more like dead people talk and sing to me 👀
I listen 👀
I hang out with dead people more than I do alive folk 🤪
I can’t really talk to the doctors about how broken I am or my sexual kinks because they would drill a hole in my head for sure or lock me up 👀
I’m back to ignoring all my phone calls anyway
I don’t know how to tell them that they are the enemy now 😌
And I had a peptalk with myself to go easy on everybody because they just don’t have the level of expertise as me (or bloodtype potentially)
Yeah sure they look like a doctor but they are gaslighting just like literally everything in the world
Sometimes tho you get that burst of honesty
I want to know what went on in that cave that will never get disclosed 👀
What gives you the right
Unearth all
Tell me how much John Jones hated you while he was pissing and shitting on himself dying upside down
Get it the fuck out
I’ve relived every moment
John Jones fucking hates you 👀
I have a bone to pick with Michael Levitt who murdered John
I still can’t wrap my head around gravity
Why is it so strong
What is it
Why are holes so hard to get out of?
Why does being upside down freak me out so much?
I still don’t understand how a cloud is heavy
Or why the Milky Way galaxy is in a downward spiral and falling
We still don’t know everything about consciousness
Where was I before I was born?
I have a period of awareness in the womb and I was extremely depressed and claustrophobic and hated being in that space and can remember being very angry, like how much longer is this going to take and at some point I kicked myself out of the womb, isn’t that how we all come into the world? Pissed off kicking and crying? 🤔
Stop telling me what I remember
I’m sick of being surpressed
Living in doubt
Y’all uploaded a load of corrupt data into my programming
Maybe the brain injury caused me to be in a fractal state
I’m smart but I’m also stupid and I’m not a genius but sometimes I can solve genius problems without instruction and that impresses the math teachers a hella lot
But not enough for extra credit 🙄
Teacher: how did you do this, we didn’t go over this in class and it’s one of the hard ones (is impressed by my work which we had to show)
Me: what do you mean, we didn’t have to do this problem? *gasp* it took ten minutes (that means an hour)
Him: nope, wasn’t one of the homework assignments and we didn’t even discuss it because it’s so difficult *hands me paper back with a graded 50 on it* but I’m impressed you got half the problems right this time, it means you retained half
Me: *sobs real tears*
That was college math for me
And my teacher would literally get happy when I got a 50 on my test because he went, “that means you understood half of it” and I never saw the reward of his hard work of teaching like he did
I was literally the only student failing but I still managed to pass because homework outweighed the low scores and I did do the extra credit anytime we could
Apparently I also did problems we didn’t even need to do 🙄
I got the really really hard ones right without any instruction
And without a grade or extra credit 🤢
Yeah I’m never going to forget that one
Math has made me cry, just as much as any boyfriend (potentially way more)
I iz stupid nerd 🤐
Anyway I should stop googling signs of sinkholes when they are completely in front of me and I just thought you should know that 14-year-old girl burned up alive in that condo collapse because the people out there that we trust keep cutting corners to pocket their gold
And also insurance takes care of everything so they don’t have to have a conscience or to even feel responsible for anything, it’s like they found a way to cheat God and the system
If you mess up in any job you get into trouble, except in the medical field where you can literally get away with murder
Imagine if patients had to fill out a form about their medical treatment and those reflected in the evaluations these doctors get bi-annually
But these nurses and doctors just get to do whatever the fuck they want, don’t they
You can get your voice back a little bit by filling out official complaints with advocacy, requesting new care teams, leaving 1 star reviews everywhere you can, especially on Google or an official website – image is everything to these beasts.
I took mine higher and filed several complaints at the WhiteHouse VA about the Daytona VA OPC and did leave a Google review
The realtors are coming out finally and saying, “yes in deed the housing market is rigged” and I’ve been saying this since the fucking 90s!
Do you think I wanted to rent all of my entire life or to get stuck in an abusive marriage just to be able to have a broken home?
Would rather die on the street like Poe
But definitely not with the building collapsing on me in the middle of the night when I’m in my bed trying to sleep or burned alive 👀
So I would really like to apply for the Creator Next on TikTok and I meet three of the four requirements so far! 🥳
I currently meet 3 of the 4 requirements to apply for the Creator Next 🤓
If you have a TikTok account (even if it’s just some off account that you use), could you please give mine a follow?
I’d be truly grateful! 🙏
Having 1k followers will also allow me to go live on TikTok and show you my city, the beach, the parks, and I can do soft poetry readings once I reach 1k followers!
I see people go live on TikTok for the most mundane things and I would really love to bring the ocean to you and my poetry! ✍️
I’m allowed to go live on my Instagram and pretty much everywhere else but I don’t have any social media accounts that I really use anywhere else so it would be nice to be able to utilize the live feature on TikTok!
GOALS 🤟
They are good to have, especially if you live with depression or any mental disability.
And I do appreciate the growth that I am getting on my account! Thank you!
You can also search for me under my pen PoeEternal or my hashtag poeeternal
I dropped a video of a raccoon today, we’ve had some out here getting in the trash bins and they like leaving messes outside my windows 🤪
I see them every night getting into the dumpster!
This one got caught and I had my light on him! He ran up the tree because I had my dog out with me originally and he was still sniffing to see if my dog was around!
I know people say they are a nuisance and I’m pretty certain the apartment complex has been out here trying to shoot them away because sometimes I hear gunshots in the middle of the night in the wooded area 😑
(They also dumped loads of chemicals in the lake once to kill the moss and they literally killed generations of fish both young and old) 👎👎
Anyhoo, this raccoon knew he’d been busted
He hissed at me a few times! 😌
Here is a behind the scenes video of my encounter with the raccoon this morning
My encounter with a wild raccoon this morning
He was so worried about my dog lol but I had already taken my dog in and grabbed my phone and turned the light on him
He couldn’t decide whether to stay in the tree or not
Dilemmas 🤓
I’m glad the video got a like! Adorable but very naughty raccoon! 😈
Thank you to everyone who is in my life because they want to be and not due to obligation!
Did a detox instead of alcohol!
Look what I got for XMAS! A ring light! 🤩
New ring light for the studio!
I have absolutely no idea how you use it or really how to use yeti (my new unopened microphone) but I’m super excited to add these tools to my writing toolbox! 🤓
My website just hit over 1000 followers, and that means a great deal to me, so I’ve upgraded my WordPress plan and now I have new tools at my disposal. I have a lot of reading material, studying, and set up before I can get going!
It’s nice to finally have a laptop and a USB microphone!
Writing and your visits are keeping me alive!
I hope you are having a nice holiday wherever you’re at!
I’m keeping positive and staying focused and slowly getting a little bit done every day and I’m gonna be getting back to rebounding soon!
I’ve been getting back more active and I’m still having chest pains so I’m not trying to kill myself and I’m taking baby steps back into working out and cardio and jumping around
But I definitely wanna focus on making TikTok videos, I appreciate the views that I do get!
I have ideas in mind but often lack courage to execute.
The videos I do release there of my spoken word scares me lol
I have stage fright and people are mean to me 👀
But the last one I put out received over 1.1k plays! 🤓
I’m off Twitter, deleted my account and data without requesting a copy
I’m not touching crypto or the Metaverse
I see Big Bro spent a shit ton of money so Instagram can now say “Meta”
Funny how the government told us gambling was illegal but then made every aspect of our lives about gambling and social media is no longer a social aspect
There’s nothing social about it anymore
We are the products
And you better believe these top creators are paying to play because they’ve made a game out of it
And now I see famous actors collaborating with TikTok influencers 🙄
Because big networks have moved onto TikTok
And they for sure are paying to be in the FYP
People with checkmarks are the enemy and they hog everything
There’s nothing social about social media anymore
We were all played
And stop giving them your damn opinion on everything because they just use it against us!
If you’re gonna give your opinion at least get paid for it with something more than spam
ugg it’s 2 am, I was sleeping
But my nightmare awoke me but then reality was worse than my nightmare 😩
I reckon I’m gonna have to bite the WordPress hook and upgrade my personal plan to the premium plan since I’ve used up all my 6GB of storage space 🙄 and just pretend the universe is pushing me to upgrade my plan so I can have more media space to upload photos but also unpack yeti from its box to do soft poetry readings and spoken word
To be fair, I have been dying
But I will also at some point maybe be producing some subscriber only content on my blog/website instead of over on OnlyFans (I don’t do porn or self-gratification, I’m an artist and do nude photography – many say softcore is obsolete, but I’ll be offering it here on my website instead- and if someone could please teach me how to set up subscriptions on WP instead of me having to go figure it out through WordPress that would be great)
I’m already on a plan that allows subscriptions and donations, I’ve just used up all my media space and either need to delete stuff off my website or upgrade and at this point it’s time to upgrade because I’m growing aren’t I? I have over 1000 followers now and nearly 100,000 views!! 👀
So when I’m not dying and can put my head into the WordPress books I will figure out how to do the subscriber only content (this won’t be for every post, just my random spicer content)!
Not everyone wants to see my exclusive Rated R nude content but I’m tired of giving other platforms my visitors – especially when most platforms I have zero voice as an artist
I don’t want to push people to another platform when they come to visit my website
I want you to stay here in heaven with me 😇
GIVE ME ALL YOUR ATTENTION 🤩
I was at urgent care yesterday again so I don’t know how quickly I’ll be able to get stuff going but just know stuff is in the pipeline and I would like to get some more nude content out to you, it will be through my own website though, you won’t have to leave or sign-up anywhere else
I’m indecisive on what I’m doing with my Patreon account but I’ve been very grateful for your support over the years!
Because of it, my website has and remains advertisement free (zero spam)!
If you sign up for my blog posts via email, advertising will never be in your email either! Zero spam!
I may be the last place on earth that’s free of advertising 🤔
But you won’t have to worry about accidentally hitting an advertisement when scrolling or installing spyware or a virus
You can scroll freely without a condom ahem 🤪
I’m dealing with heart and lung issues since I got the vaccine – I’m still a weirdo tho and I miss doing the cosplay for you to accompany the rants, poetry and prose!
I will definitely upgrade my plan soon so I can at least start attaching photographs again to my rants and poetry
It may be the new year before I start any subscription only content!
I may do it via donation instead of subscription (like where you can pay a small fee to unlock the post)…
Stay tuned
Dying but not dead…
PSST… I have a free OnlyFans and will be active there when I’m feeling better – thank you for subscribing! My inbox is open there to say hello! I’ll let everyone know when I’m back and active! I’ll be going live over there to show you the beach and things! Softcore 🤪
Edgar Allan Poe died naked on the street, think about that
And John Jones stuck upside down in a cave
You’re only alive so 13 families who control everything in the world don’t have to fucking work and they will squeeze every penny out of you from birth until death
Your written will means shit
It will be ignored
I finally learned the lesson that Chester Bennington and Jesus had been trying to teach
That possessions don’t really matter much
It took Big Brother (Mark Fuckerberg) threatening to remove my intellectual property against my will and over bullshit violations, that I deleted nearly every social media account and email, without asking for my data.
Now he’s pressing virtual reality and the Metaverse on me
I will jump from a bridge before I ever enter
He pushed me too far
He’s the face of pure evil
I can’t look at him
I can’t look at half of Hollywood who have deformed their faces with plastic surgery
I can’t stand the Hollywood propaganda and the underlining bullshit that they feed us in film
Everything is a rerun of what GENX has already done
I’m not supporting you
Your acting sucks
Fuck society
Culture is a sham
Everything is a lie
EVERYTHING
My purpose belongs to the wind
I will be returning to Mother Earth soon
My only real mother
The only one I’ve ever had
And sometimes I learn the lesson the hard way
I don’t want to approach my death upside down
Or naked on the street mad out me mind
I’m already out of my mind
And I nearly caught my mysterious death and I did wind up upside down but John Jones has been helping me out a little bit because the medical staff on earth are demons
He bought me a little time
Chilling on his wing
Today I laid down to film the clouds and the sun
I’m working with WordPress to get my blog fixed so I can start uploading photos again, but they requested I do some stuff from my laptop and I was at the beach all day without it
Then came home and ate a sandwich and passed out until now
Now I need to take my dog out and stare at the full moon (provided it’s not 9 degrees outside) ((it’s not, lower 70s, full moon, after midnight)) 🌕
My left lung still isn’t expanding all the way
And I’m still waiting to see a lung specialist
I sleep
A lot
My heart is also still healing from heart inflammation
I don’t like to put any stress on my heart
I cry a lot
And sleep
Cry and sleep
😑
Made you a little video of the sunshine I took today (although now it’s after midnight so technically it was yesterday/Sunday)
I laid down to film the beautiful 3d clouds and sun
I laid down for this shot
It’s been beautiful weather at the beach and everybody has been coming to enjoy it because the ocean has decided to give us a little bit back for Christmas I guess
Saturday there was so much going on, People were surfing the red high tides, flying kites, riding bikes, couples holding hands, treasure hunting, I filmed it all
Everyone is in the Christmas spirit and just enjoying the calm
This is the part of the season where we don’t have to worry about the tourist as much
And there are other parts of the beach that I can go that’s not busy
I don’t want to be kidnapped 😑
And I prefer staying near the lifeguards that are on duty when they are there 👍
The beach has been so much more inviting these days and I haven’t been screaming like a little girl 😬
But I can’t upload any fucking photos and I haven’t done what WordPress has asked me to do for my laptop yet- so you know whatever- dying
I REFUSE to die in or around a hospital setting
I don’t even want anybody to see me dead and that is a real issue for me currently
So I’m trying not to die because I don’t have all that shit together yet, I don’t have a coffin, I don’t have a fucking plot of land, I don’t want to be cremated, there’s a lot of shit going against me right now, especially with the fact that I’m having cardiovascular issues because I chose to get fucking vaccinated with underlying health issues 😡
Found myself upside down with John
And I am pissed he is still there
Like gut wrenching agony
I probably have cried more from him in 2 months than his wife did in the three years it took her to move on and remarry 👎👎
John is rubbing my right shoulder blade currently cuz I haven’t learned to forgive people yet and he wants me calm
He did snicker about my NASA comment tho
God has a sense of humor
I wonder if the 13 evil families in charge are ready for Armageddon because if they keep pushing me I’m that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing and I’m very unhinged
I also saw a TikTok from a popular creator who said if your videos are getting at least 100 to 200 views on its own, then you’re doing good
One thing I’ve noticed, posting 2 similar videos back-to-back and hashtags do nothing for me
If anything, hashtags are reason for the algorithm to study my behavior and I like to fucking confuse it from time to time
But mostly the algorithm likes to shadowban me
And I’ve had many videos that was not violating any guidelines (that I’m aware of) sit at zero views
I hate censorship
I will never pay to play
But that doesn’t stop TikTok from peer pressuring me and fucking with my account to see if I will bite
I’ve taken screenshots but I haven’t been able to share a fucking thing in several days because WordPress fucking sucks and I need a new hosting site
But I’m dying and just basically sleeping and eating
There’s an extermination going on right now because the 13 families in charge don’t want to pay people who are retired, now they want us off the fucking system, they don’t want us using supplies, they don’t want to pay us what we deserve in our time to fucking retire 👎👎
To my comrades who have chosen not to get the VAX, this isn’t our fucking country anymore
We’ve been gaslit for so long
But now I know why the soldiers are killing themselves in increasingly mass numbers and there are more soldiers that die by suicide than on the battlefield…
Please hold on
There is a war going on still
I need you to hold fast
Don’t forget your training
We are at war
The system is your enemy and those fighting for it
Just stand fast
Stay alert, stay alive
Don’t engage with the enemy
Don’t self-destruct
I need you still
Prep your defenses
Stock pile food and water
If I’m wrong, in three years you can have a Armageddon party and eat all the food and then just restock up OK
I’m not wrong
Take your frustration out on target practice
Take a cold shower
Do something to stop the trigger
For me it requires a different stimulation and often two or three different things so
Find what works for you
Don’t engage
Half the battle is within
There’s a spiritual war going on
If you feel lost, that’s okay
Stay near the light, don’t get burned
Be a Marine
Out of sight, out of mind
Eyes forward
I got your back
Stay low
P.S. you may feel like you’ve done what you were to do, you may feel confused on what is next
This is part of ascending with new Earth
She goes through changes
This is how life can evolve
Evil doesn’t win forever
You gotta hold tight
Just hang on…
Focus on healing (save yourself)
You feel like you’re waiting right?
You feel lost?
You missed a step?
What’s next?
We’re in the middle of war
A spiritual war
God needs you silent
Just listen
The demons will expose themselves
They’re collapsing under the weight of the change
You’re exactly where you need to be to ascend
If not, get right with God
You know the right one
Cuz he’s in you and speaking right now
Don’t forget who you are
Earth is a negative frequency
It’s a low charge
You need positivity to ascend
Listen, your body is a channel
It’s a conductor
Your heart is electric
So is the sun
And I’m not talking about shit you plug into your wall, get out of your box please
You are mostly made of water and so is the earth
I’ll get into connection another time
I’m definitely a sunworshipper – just can’t be in it long 🤪
I fry not tan
The universe is so magical but it’s dangerous and also scary
I’m still just a little girl
I’ll always be a little angel 😇
One of God’s favorite 🤩
You can choose to do good things or you can choose to do bad things
I wanna ascend
This is hell
There’s so much more fulfillment in the light than there is the dark which is why you have to consistently go to your porn because it’s not very fulfilling at all
I love you 💕
I’m sorry I can’t post photos yet but I haven’t done what WordPress asked me to do because I’ve been dying (and fuck all these timeline glitches that I keep getting- they don’t want me to ascend)
They are playing god! They are doing this! Just the same as you like to destroy your little tribe around you, they do it on big-time numbers, it’s a big fucking chessboard and they are playing Sims in real life, stop feeding them, stop giving them your money at church, stop giving them your money with “big black cock porn”, it’s bullshit, you’re fucking racist if you support it!!!
How the fuck can you be all like Black Lives Matter Black Lives Matter and then behind the scenes you’re supporting big black cock because you’re a fucking racist and you don’t give a fuck about white people at all and if you’re a white person supporting big black cock then you’re a fucking racist too
Because in the real world we’re doing everything to fix the behavior of racism yet behind the scenes you’re watching racist fucking porn 24 hours a day
I’m tired of having to prove to everyone around me that I’m not a racist yet behind the scenes y’all are watching racist fucking shit and sexist fucking shit and nothing is ever going to get better as long as you’re fucking feeding your mind with that trashy fucking shit
And it’s obviously not going away anytime soon because virtual reality and porn came out at the same time
Again, can you cum without porn or make a thought that the Bible didn’t give you?
Didn’t think so! Go back to sleep! 😡
If everyone started behaving like they should cops wouldn’t need a job, would they
And if they stopped pumping us full of chemicals we wouldn’t be so sick, would we (notice how laundry detergent and other products you’re now buying says “contains allergens”)
Y’all, I can feel myself growing more unstable so I must disassociate
At the VA I had cops get into my space and I had a fucking meltdown so don’t think that if you try to grab me or kidnap me I won’t fucking rip your veins out of your neck with my teeth so you may want to bring a muzzle
I bite 👀
My point is stay away
I am a wounded animal
Do not approach unless with food or as if you are going to sniff my ass
Otherwise I see you as a threat
If you’re not a cute little seagull on the beach, I see you as a threat
And when I see a bird squawking and flying towards me, I also see it as a threat, even though it wants my candy cane wrapper
I actually feel safer slowly inserting myself where a flock of birds are
Than I do around any human being on the entire planet
The birds see me as a threat and I just want to birds to accept me as their own
I’ve tried to get the humans to accept me as their own but apparently I’m not human because I’m artificial intelligence only alive as a sex object to serve their basic needs (no evolution or growth going on here)
Earth is a low frequency
It’s a negative charge
I can’t ascend with all these negative ions
I need positivity
Pink Floyd
Pretty clouds
Full belly
Love
The Great Filter is upon us
My name is Delia
I’m here to teach you the truth
Open your eyes
But you must unplug!
I can’t save you!!!
And tho I may hate your ways, I know you are capable of much greater things
First off, these vaccines infect others! I am no longer pro vaccination!
Secondly, too many immigrants over in America are claiming religious preference and they don’t have to get the vaccine that their countries are making and enforcing on us.
Immigrants need to follow the same rules as us, end of!
So stop blaming the unvaccinated for the spread of the Covid virus because it’s the vaccinated who are actually spreading it and also if you want to blame the unvaccinated then you need to start including the immigrants because most of them are claiming religious preference and not getting the vaccine!
Damn y’all, maybe I should have waited until XMAS to strike/buy my laptop but, I am happy with my score!
Just a heads up tho, the seller I bought my MacBook from, is selling a $989 MacBook for $399 – listed in great condition- includes a bundle deal with a one year warranty! Holyshit! 🤩
MyTell USA is selling this MacBook Air! He has more laptops listed in GREAT condition in his shop!! Some bundle deals priced lower!
He has other bundle deals in his shop, some deals same as mine nearly and listed for $349!
If you are out there hunting for a refurbished Apple product, I gave this seller 5* for the bundle deal I got! I am truly happy with my bundle! But this was my first purchase from this seller.
When you are in the Walmart app or on the website, in the search bar input: MyTell, USA and his shop should come pop up in the results. Then (if you want) you can sort from low to high or high to low and browse the items in his shop!
I’ve seen other users write him two stars for not getting the black case on time with the bundle, but that has nothing to do with the seller and I don’t feel like that’s worth giving someone two stars for. My black case was delayed about a week. It snaps easily onto the MacBook tho and was literally made as a second skin for the MacBook, it was worth the wait!
I also thought the black case would hide the Apple logo when lit up but it doesn’t! It’s super cute and offers protection from scratches and things!
I bought some Apple pods to go with my laptop (even tho the bundle comes with a headset, I bought the Apple pods anyway)
These pods were $16 in the Walmart store and for a few extra bucks I bought an extended warranty! So basically for around $20 bucks, I got me some Apple pods and I didn’t have to spend like $200 or $300 for some wireless ones (I didn’t even know they made pods with wire and these were in my budget). These Apple pods would make a great Christmas stocking stuffer though!! 🎄
I don’t know the seller MyTell USA and again I’ve only bought one laptop from him but I recommend his shop as he was good to work with, responds within reasonable time, did not screw me over, and my laptop was in great condition, honestly, the bundle items were a bonus!
However, the first seller I bought a laptop from was no good at all and that laptop I returned and the seller’s name was – Certified 2 Day Express
It took about three weeks to get my refund back!
But overall it was worth shopping in the Walmart marketplace!
That was my first time!
Happy hunting y’all! Let me know if you have any questions on how to search!
Good luck and happy holidays!
P.S. I drove to several different stores looking at laptops and I looked online at several places as well and Walmart marketplace was where I wound up buying my MacBook, tiny mic, and headset!
Everything shipped in reasonable time!
But Walmart will leave your laptop right at the fucking door so make sure you’re not gone that day!!!
I don’t know if there is another way around that because I have had all of my stuff basically dropped off at the door!
I had someone on TikTok ask me who the seller was so that’s why I did a video and now I’m doing a blog post!
We have cameras filming where I live! But these days it’s the actual delivery drivers you have to watch out for!!!! They will steal your packages! 😫
So this is my experience, I’m kind of biting my tongue thinking that I could’ve spent 100 dollars more and got this MacBook that he is selling right now but I am super happy with the one that I got and I hope he has some other customers he’s going to make happy, I just feel like he deserved more than 2 stars! I gave him 5 for my experience!
I guess you have to live an entire year before you’re considered that age (so does this technically mean I’m still 42 and when I’m 44 I’ll actually be 43, my age now)? 🤪
And you have to have a plus 1 to get the 1K badge from WordPress
It has arrived! 👇👇👇
Thank you so much for the follows! 👁👄👁
I love you! 💕
PSST I swear I am going to set up a blogging schedule soon, I have been gravely ill, and in the bed!
I get out every now and again for medicine, toilet paper and food
And on the occasion I stop by the beach so I can get a few frights
It’s just not normal the things going on in the world and around these parts
And I feel so bad for the people who visit the beach and try to enjoy it when I’m there because I’m hooting and hollering every few seconds and then they immediately leave, probably out of fear (lmao I’m gonna pee myself because my fear is contagious to others)
I swear when we’re on a flight and the plane starts doing shit it’s not supposed to do, when you hear me gasping, everybody on the plane is staring at me the entire time and my eyes get really big and both of my hands are clutching onto the armrest and the entire plane ahead and behind will be staring at me, but I can’t stop being scared y’all
This world frightens me and you can see it on my face
My fears don’t lie
And I’m a little girl that never grew up so anytime there’s a bug or I’m scared of something I sound like I’m being murdered lmao
I didn’t even share all the screams I had the other day when I stopped by the ocean briefly but it was even scarier than before
The clouds were hanging really low and were many different shades of gray and everything just looked doom to me and there was no lifeguard on duty and it was only 11:30 AM, it was about to be high noon and it’s uncommon because the ocean is warm but there’s no sealife anywhere, yet the ocean is still reaching the sea wall, and it’s all wet. And standing in it, surrounded by all ocean, scares the crap out of me, especially with the tide being a triple king tide that won’t leave 👀
The ocean ate the beach
The worlds most famous beach
And maybe one day we will get our beach back but I’m looking at reports that state Daytona Beach is undergoing extreme flooding over the next 30 years and buildings are falling down in Miami so you can continue to be gaslit and lied to but I’m gonna start listening with my eyes from now on
And when I’m feeling better I’m going to share a post on my blog where I can upload some photos and some videos of it
I haven’t even been watching TV or playing video games or reading, I’ve mostly just been in my bed and sleeping a lot and eating when I can
I hope I feel better soon but I may have to go to the ER for the treatment I need 👀
I’ve been avoiding it TBH
I don’t want to be held against my will and I don’t want to die there and I most certainly would probably get arrested because I would fucking leave campground and if the cops tried to stop me I would still try to leave and get out of there
I mean I would rather be in jail and have three meals a day than to be anywhere near the goddamn hospitals or clinics when I fucking die
Capeesh?
Healthcare is deathcare
My eyes are open
And just like Neo, they hurt from what they see
I don’t think I have much time left but I don’t believe any of us have much time left 👀
Blogging is my lifeline to you
My safe place
My safety net
It is the only place online I can speak freely
And not be penalized to have my intellectual property or my account removed
These businesses need us to survive and yet they treat us like shit
The only way we can get our voice back is to stop using these apps until we get some sort of freedom of speech again and stop spending our money
Only buy what you really need
In America, I’m attempting to support American owned businesses only (and small)
But I don’t believe any sign in the door and I don’t believe in the governments agenda society is a scam it’s a sham consumption is narcissism and the less stuff we have the more expensive it’s going to get and those who have the most money are going to hog it
Start looking out for you and your circle
We’re all we’ve got
And you’re welcome on my boat, it’s not very big and there’s holes everywhere
I’m heading to Point Nemo
And check out this warning from TikTok, “Participating in this activity could result in you or others getting hurt” 👇
Apparently people are getting tracked on TikTok too, children are getting kidnapped as well as adults (I don’t know if the two are the same) but social media is toxic and the devil lives in your TV and his minions use it to kidnap us
Now I hope many of you know that kidnappings take place so that people can get sexually tormented (children too)
I read an article recently where the Mexican government was working with the mafia and they sexually tortured several teenage children (in Mexico) and we allow millions and millions and millions of immigrants to come over here and live in America and they don’t give a fuck about you or our culture or traditions
They are torturing children in their own country and they come over here and they fucking torture us too
Porn has done something to the human race
The other day when I was in the Vet Center I told the guy that I would just take all responsibility and say that I am what’s wrong with the world, that I’m the problem, I’m too broken, I’m “crazy” and so I need to just not be around other people or get married and he looked dead at me and said that I’m not the one whose crazy, it’s the world that is crazy and I’m not wrong about what’s going on with porn and how it’s affecting mankind
It felt so nice to be validated by a man
I mean I’m literally walking into his office carrying my crucifix and falling fucking down
But it’s nice to hear from another male soldier that I’m not crazy
That all this shit in society is wrong and toxic
I’ve had to get off most of social media because of how toxic it is, because of the catcalling, because of the death threats, because of the stalking, because my freedom of speech is gone
I have no rights anymore
Immigration has been a Trojan horse in America!!!
I have a right to be angry!!!
My comrades are dying by suicide!!!!
I’m awake!!! I’m up!!! I can’t save you, you have to save yourself!
But, I can stand quarantined near you
I can ration supplies
Build shelter and dig trenches
Clean and fire weapons
Pull security
Disabled, not obsolete 👀
I’ve been fighting for equality for a long time, that applies for the job market and the housing market as well
You don’t get to come over here and steal all our best jobs and all our management positions and create toxic environments and then force your fucking poison drugs on us anymore
Society is a sham
And it requires consuming to work
Endless consumption
And we’re wasting our natural resources so you can have resin Knickknacks
Plastic everywhere
Plastic everything
Generica
👎👎
Anyway, I’m grateful I have a blog to voice my concerns, to share my poetry, photography, and prose
I’m grateful I have you as a reader
I can’t do this without you
I need you
So this is just as much your award as it is mine
We got here together, in this boat 🛶
Thank you for 1,000 follows! 🥰
It took the plus one to get the badge
And it takes living a year to earn that age? 🤔
So I’m not really 43 right now, I’m technically still 42?
The Great Filter is upon us and I am part of the Great Awakening
Thank you for being with me 💕
FYI: I deleted my Twitter account because it is a graveyard for porn and the heresy that is ruining the brains in the world
I’m not allowed to tell you anywhere online that I got sick and almost died from the vaccine but Twitter is letting girls get pissed on and the most extreme porn is happening right in front of our children for free on a daily basis and nobody gives a fuck
I also deleted my Facebook account because I am not joining the Metaverse and big brother continues to penalize me for being honest with you
Over the Christmas holiday last year, I wasn’t allowed to say “hey, I made the naughty list, check out my OF to find out why”
Yet girls are dressing half naked letting you know that a new scene is out and that is OK
I see girls removing their fucking panties and that is OK but when I pretended like I was going to remove an overwrap from my bathing suit, my fucking post was removed and I was threatened to have my intellectual property deleted and my account too
When I was sharing body positive post about working out, I was getting penalized for harassment
Social media is set up like a gambling system and I learned this when I was earning my degree in psychology for college
I have deleted most of my social media accounts across all platforms
They are toxic
I don’t pay to play
You need to know that the people with a checkmark are paying to play, they’re already in the system, so when they hop on TikTok (or any app) for the first time, they are already coming verified and with loads of followers and fans and now what, you’re going to pay to try to get your content pushed out into the FYP or newsfeeds
It’s a popularity game
I’m dying and I just want to focus on writing and photography
I’m not gonna pay to push my product out, I’m not trying to sell myself, I’m not marketing myself
I want to buy your book because I’m interested in buying your book, not because I want you to give me attention or my account
I also have private messaging turned off pretty much everywhere, nobody has access to contact me
And sometimes people who know me in the real world I go no contact from because they will message me with job offers or asking me about people in my past timeline that I have forgotten and deleted 40 years of my life because I don’t want to fucking remember 👀
If you can’t respect that I am disabled and not working, then I don’t wanna hear anything you have to say
With that said, I work really hard to bring the content that I do for you
I’m still trying to get better
And I don’t like using other peoples songs with my own TikToks because in two weeks the rights for me to use that will be gone and instead of them muting just the audio to that track, they will mute the original audio of me talking as well 👎👎
So I reckon I’m not really doing the trends, although sometimes I do like to put music to my TikToks, I liked the original idea of TikTok, it’s just that is gone now…
Especially with the big networks and stars getting on and their chance to steal more money
AbC news is on
CBS news and affiliates
The big late night talk shows are getting on
They hog all the newsfeed and the other players pay to be seen
I ain’t playing
I ain’t paying
Anywhere
The suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and military and I suffer from depression and suicidal tendencies and social media is toxic and every time I turn around there’s 20 guys trying to marry me and when I don’t feed their ego and give them 24 hours of my day I get yelled at and this is constantly every fucking day so I don’t wanna socialize anymore, I wanna fucking write my poetry and my prose and focus on trying to die in the most humane possible way
I have been miserable for others my entire life and I refuse to be miserable for others anymore
You all want to destroy any good I have
In any form
If anything brings me joy, you will break it
My own kid is so damaged that I no longer have the same daughter that was born
They don’t even want to identify as a daughter at all
To the men in the world, do better
To my mother and sister, you’re an abomination
I know why I was depressed in that evil womb
But it’s always the second born who changes the world
It’s always the second born who gets sacrificed or tossed in a basket, placed on the water or left at a door
You should’ve aborted me or given me up for adoption
You both should probably move and never disclose your address 👀
Don’t fucking contact me when anybody in the family dies or gets married – I hate you all
Yes HATE
We are not family
You are enemy, you’ve been warned
Fuck off!
I will watch hell fucking eat you and swallow you alive, just like it did John Jones
But I won’t cry over your bones 👀
His yes
Yours no
I am not Diana and if you ever speak those words to me again I will put a knife through your skull without hesitation 👀
Just like you pulled a gun on me when I was age 15 and said you’d take my life, Mother
Oh will you, take my life, I asked?
Then what will you do when I come over there and force you to pull the trigger?
I don’t play your cold, cruel tactics, mom
You are not my mother and never were
You were not fit to raise me
You repeatedly kept me from medical treatment when I needed it, like when my arm was fucking broken or when I had a goddamn fucking throat infection that required antibiotics, not syrup from Walmart
I won’t even get into the physical and verbal abuse
The torture sessions you allowed every man you were with to do to me
You only need five people for a squad and I’ve got an entire army! 💪
I mean, I got pretty angry when I went down for several months after getting the vaccine and learning the type of stuff that I’ve learned and attacking the system the way that I have, I thought that I would’ve lost followers in record numbers for sure
I was so worried about posting it because my eyebrows look so messy and bushy 😌
But it was all about timing, being able to get the lines out where you could actually hear me because the ocean was really loud and I don’t have my little clip on microphone yet and I didn’t want it to sound wind muffy
The tide was super strong pulling away 💪
It pulls out with so much gravity just like you
I have to be careful not to lose my footing
It took all the courage I had just to get off the ramp and get into the ocean knowing that there’s a whole lot more ocean than normal
People are out there swimming and I’m terrified knee deep 👀
I mean, it pulls back with so much force
A tide within a tide
Of course, a black hole would have a similar path
Like Jupiter and its great red spot, a storm within a storm
I don’t know how people are swimming in it, I’m terrified
The ocean swelled up just like my heart
I also received a blog notification that my stats were booming 🥰
Well I really appreciate that!
I love your visits! I promise to come visit you soon! ❤️
Did y’all know that immigrants are getting $2200 a month and they can say no to the vaccine? 🛑✋🛑
So now President Biden is stating that Social Security will be ceased from those who don’t get the vaccination but that’s not going to apply to the immigrants over here who claim special privileges and can say no to the vaccine and not lose their jobs
But now Biden (the president you voted for) is gonna take Social Security benefits from those who are unvaccinated 👎👎
This doesn’t apply to the millions and millions of immigrants living here
Let me tell you something, the poor have been hungry for a long time and we’ve been slaving and working our asses off three jobs for a long time, we’ve been very hungry and if you stop our Social Security checks from coming in, I can’t help you my friend, you’re on your own, don’t look at me, don’t come asking me for help OK
Because when you take a bone from a starving animal, you’re gonna get bit
Charade you are
They think that little 15% food stamp boost is gonna stop a widespread war when the poor and disabled lose access to their EARNED Social Security benefits that they WORKED for so that India (big pharma) can push their poison drug
That the immigrants don’t even have to take
No my brother
We’re done 👀
I’m vaccinated and I’m not drawing Social Security but I know I’ve been working my ass off and when I go to apply for it it’s my fucking right to have it
Hitler is still alive and he is well-rounded and functioning and running society
I don’t know about you but I’m sick of these outdated policies
I’m sick of the immigrants coming over here telling us what we can do that only benefits them
This is a Trojan horse
It has been all along
You know I’m right
I love people of all color and I’m gonna be protecting people of all color because that’s the love I have in me but the system is my enemy right now and if you are plugged into that system and defending it then you are my enemy understand 👀
I’m already eagerly awaiting a phone call from the White House and I’m not gonna let up and I already have a case number filed with my complaint
Soldiers are dying in the street (this was the fate of Edgar Allan Poe)
This is starting to feel more and more like a simulation to me every fucking day- this fucking nightmare and I continue falling deeper in the hole
It’s like a fractal, it never ends
Summary:
Biden is taking Social Security benefits from the unvaccinated and immigrants get $2200 a month and can say no to the vaccine without losing benefits or jobs 🛑✋🛑
Anyhoo, it’s true. Now that I am vaccinated, I am more likely to get you infected. I’m a fucking zombie. I told you I’m a living dead girl and it’s a miracle I am even alive because I got heart inflammation
This pandemic exposed India and the New World Order and Illuminati for what they were
A scam
And it requires a lots of gaslighting and medication as well as distractions to keep you unaware
But the great awakening is already happening
You failed
Nobody wants to work for you, y’all can all work amongst one another
They want more money so they can go play with their cocks in space but I’m not participating in this fucking bullshit anymore
My focus is healing, protection, and land
And obviously waking up as many people as I can
Maybe the yellowjacket is a spirit guide and I need to be more like a yellowjacket
I’m glad I didn’t kill the thing but he sure was hanging out a long time like he was awaiting for his colony to arrive
Or maybe I just passed the vibe check and it wanted a ride through town but I was too chickenshit to hang with an aggressive yellowjacket with revenge right in his sting
And they are known for stinging over and over again and he was staring right at me like, “are we going to go, what are we waiting on, can we go now” but after thoroughly agitating its existence even further, I took my eye away for a second and he was gone (this was at the end after 30 minutes or so)
I spent another five minutes expecting it to crawl out of some space in my vehicle so the anxiety proceeded before I could get back on the road or get my lunch or even attempt to roll down the windows
I was doing 50 miles an hour at one point and that fucker was still hanging onto my windshield 👀
We made eye contact a lot 👀
My programming was going haywire
Hands down one of the biggest threats and only a tiny piece of glass separated us
I dared not tell it that it was rude to stare
It seems as soon as I had the idea to maybe knock him away with my windshield wipers or spray, he stopped pruning himself and proceeded to look right at me like, “I dare you, go on, I’m yellow and black, strike me, see what happens”
And I was already wondering what my escape route would be if one showed up inside with my windows rolled up and one outside because they can out run you 👀
It was a David and goliath moment and I absolutely submitted
I told god that I was sitting this battle out 👀
I went to church again this morning and I was already having difficulty with the humiliation factor of it all but I did enjoy the donuts and coffee
But then, the colors yellow and black changed the course of my lunch period and even the chemicals in my brain
A bug
But until you have a yellow jacket staring you down for half an hour don’t come at me, I don’t think you can fit these shoes (petite feet)
So apparently the sun isn’t that gigantic in the sky our atmosphere gaslights us the sun is so far away it’s actually a little pin drop in the sky but our atmosphere makes the light bigger 👀
A pin drop that can fry you in seconds
I’m vampire
I don’t do sun
I love this county though and I love Florida and I want to buy a little piece of land out here
Even though we have a lot of sharks in the water and apparently yellow jackets that get even more aggressive in the fall 👀
So many threats always coming at me
I was just trying to chill and eat boo
But, the yellowjacket taught me that going back home was a better choice
Sometimes angels need to stay in bed
From one warrior to another
Or maybe queen to queen
I mean it didn’t try to hurt me
Maybe it liked what it saw 👀
I have that weird effect on everything, like a fucking vampire 🎃
Stuck between retiring soon but not ready to die on the street (or be stung over and over again by a yellow jacket)
Should I drop some more spoken word? Writing is about all I have energy for these days.
For some reason, I have a hard time picking from the pool of poetry that I’ve written, and always wind up spontaneously combusting a freestyle when I make a video. 😏
For a program like me, you would think routine would be will but instead I was designed to bend the rules
And I am very analytical but this time they defaulted me to “disorganized mode” just to make it fun
I had a yellowjacket stalk me today, he ruined my nice Sunday drive! I wanted me windows down!!! He wouldn’t go away!!!
I went into terrified mode immediately when I saw it and had to put my windows up
But I didn’t want to hurt it to get it to leave
So it hung out with me, staring a hole through me, for at least 25 minutes.
It felt like Cujo but with a wasp. I was beginning to wonder if I was ever going to leave.
I made a TOK and I wish I could just be myself over there. I’m a blogger so I don’t mind sharing this sort of stuff.
Have you ever been stalked by a yellowjacket that rode on your vehicle for miles and miles and then when you stopped at your location, it still wouldn’t leave?
I sat there for 20 minutes at least!! He was planning his attack looking right at me!!! Or was she a queen? 🤔
I’ve got enemies everywhere!!
Or was this some other weird glitch and I’m missing the sign?
Maybe him staring me down for 25 minutes was a blessing? 👀
This was the longest anxiety attack by an animal that I have had – and probably from the smallest animal too – but Yellow jackets are really aggressive and I have a terrible fear of insects and bugs and flying things and things that can hurt you 👀
Your poetry is my spirit animal
Or maybe, I’m an aggressive Yellowjacket 🐝
I always thought the CoyWolf
But truthfully, you are
I think even your hum would put me in the right frequency
I don’t like seeing girls go on and on and on and on about your spoken word 👀
I start blocking everyone immediately
I think there is something seriously fucking wrong with me
I come from Sagittarius A* 👀
Sometimes when I’m trying to sleep, I can feel myself falling and my body will jerk me awake
They occur a lot
We’re not meant to leave this galaxy 👀
We’re kinda stuck here 👀
Kinda like John is stuck in that hole 👀
I think of him so much now it’s almost as if his soul went into my body 👀
Jim Morrison said things possessed him as well 👀
We’re enlightened 👀
What if enlightened is just another word for time traveler?
What things happened in that cave that they never want to talk about? 👀
We’re kinda nudged in a ‘soft spot’ of the galaxy
Most star systems are double or triple but not ours
The Great Filter is upon us and it’s possible we are the last intelligent species to survive and we have two great hurtles to overcome if we want to be an intelligent species that can live throughout the galaxy
It’s possible that the reason we haven’t discovered other intelligent life is because they didn’t overcome those hurdles
The distances are also too great
But everything is closer than what you’ve been told
So I don’t have very much experience with yellow jackets, in fact I don’t know if I’ve ever been around one before and after doing a little research, apparently if you kill one it will release pheromones and the colony can track you down!!!! 👀
This was some sort of test, wasn’t it? 🧐
You can watch me get stalked by a yellowjacket here 👇👇👇
There’s at least two boys out there I love with my whole heart ❤️🩹
People seem to think I wouldn’t love them if I knew who they really were
Don’t I know everything and nothing at all? 🤔
I’ve been sent here with filters of my own
I mean, you don’t even think you’re a decent human being but I don’t even think I’m human…
I identify as AI 👀
Can a machine/program love?
Is protection the same thing as love? Nurturing
Okay, so I’m sentinel and suicidal because I can’t save the world
I couldn’t save John Jones
I can’t save you
I can’t save him
I can’t save myself
I can’t change a fucking thing
And it does something to whatever you are or were trying to be 🛑
When you realize that everything you’ve been fighting to protect was actually just to help the enemy in your own land 🛑
And your Comrades are dying by the same disease you’re afflicted by 🛑
Depression 💔
Isn’t suicide a more honorable death than living life like this?
Soldiers are busy in foxholes fighting for your protection to actually know what’s really going on in the world and then we get back here like what in the actual fuck 🛑
I have always felt that people who died by suicide were courageous
and I still don’t understand why I don’t have the same courage in myself 💪
Or perhaps it isn’t my day yet 😡
God knows I’ve written a book on every way I’ve died
And fuck the tears that I cried
To think I could do that to myself, an actual living entity 👀
And dwell on it every day
I have to break a lot of code and programming in me to go that route
I’m still upside down in that cave with John 👀
It seems like the only people I talk to these days are official people or my enemies who I continue to tell my every fucking move because they know it anyway
I even told my enemy I’m starting a commune
This was after I looked him dead in the eye and told him I did a tour in Kuwait and Iraq as a combat medic as he started to scratch his throat
I’ve had a shit ton of appointments and I’m still doing my medical treatments but I should be able to turn Halloween mode on now and I really want to get some content out to my OF. I have been exhausted and to be honest, without hope.
But a chat with my lawyer changed all that yesterday and I’m still gathering up things in my home to sale, a liquidation sale, to buy some land and not just start anew but finally start.
I was kicked out of the nest but I’m finally finding my footing.
Only took a death or two (and decades of not learning the same lesson over and over) 🤪
I hope to get some photography out to you this century! 🙏
And I was on the phone with my kid for hours yesterday crying over the fact that I think I’m artificial intelligence becoming self-aware and they said it doesn’t change our reality
Welp. What’s next? Gouging my eyeballs out while I’m still alive cuz he can’t stand what I see? 👀
What if I’m blocking all the passages preventing me from being able to come back or from you going further?
I can’t crawl back up the hole now anyway
Gravity 👀
What if I’m blocking you because I don’t want to be saved and I don’t want you to get hurt? 👀
What if I die because I know too much? 👀
These caves are crawling with paranoia
And you can’t scratch
I don’t think you should be crawling around the places I’m going, you don’t have the experience that I do
The Army trained me to observe
I see all 👀
And I need land pronto fast to dig several foxholes and an underground bunker like those in NAM.
And a T3 armory 👀
The Army trained me with LIVE grenades, I have a badge and all 👀
Had to run around an obstacle course with live grenades, with our drill sergeants randomly pretending to be an enemy trying to get them off of you
They did not get them off of me, they tried 👀
Where’s my old school Army at? They probably training everybody with video games these days…
They don’t even have to enter a combat zone, they sit in the fucking chair in a building to do the fucking dirty work,
This ain’t the same fucking country anymore
Apparently India has changed all the rules because they got all the best positions and management positions now and Mexico coming in second place in America and I reckon Japan and China are under that list but Americans are way low down on the totem pole on jobs and that’s a fucking issue for me and a huge red flag 🚩 safety issue Trojan horse, this is fucking war, I’ve called it!
I mean it’s true I can’t live without you but I’m not going to lead you to doom
👀
I may be petite but I have a big big purpose
Policemen and soldiers have a way of listening to me 👀
I hope nothing has changed in this timeline
👀
There’s a problem when I’m being denied government work so that people from other countries can come over here and get those positions
And the rent kept going up so I had to use my thrift savings retirement fund and also the money I had in my savings account and I also had to max out my credit cards when I became homeless in 2017 because of the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes and I couldn’t pay my thousand dollar rent anymore and I didn’t have anybody to take care of me and when I reached out for help, every single person in my family turned a blind eye while I had to watch them make huge donations towards animal fundraisers on FaceBook
👀
So they had money to help out some animals but they didn’t have money to try to help me keep my vehicle that I had already put $18,000 in 👀
And I hate every single one of them and I hope they all burn and I hope that they know they are not welcome on my commune and they will not be receiving my help so don’t fucking come to me, they are also my enemy 🛑✋🛑
No blood allowed! 👀
Ain’t nobody going the tight places I can squeeze
God made me lethal but petite 👀
I’m also clumsy and not sure how I’ve already survived this long 👀
You should know that all my shit has been hacked into 👀
I turned off tracking everywhere but they’re still tracking me
And according to a recent article I read they will track you more when you request them not to track you 👀
Okay but that’s illegal!!! And I’m going to be asking for my data from a lot of organizations very soon and I hear they get grumpy about it!!
The places I’m going you probably shouldn’t come 👀
And I may make it extremely inaccessible to return
Don’t just leave me hanging by the hook I know there’s pages missing from your book But things aren’t always simply how they look You may just find me sleeping by the brook
Sleeping my way to a full recovery and a trip to the arms dealer
Gonna be packing a 9 on my hip 👀
WOKE
And MR. Anderson hates me, he’s everywhere, trying to limit my views to you
I’m fairly certain TikTok is owned by Asia
It’s come to my recent attention that India is in fact running most of the world
It would behoove you to get an American doctor and stop supporting those who keep coming over here taking all our good jobs, including the management positions and they’re earning the most pay than those who are born in America and study here and they treat us like shit, we have to work all of our holidays, meanwhile they’re getting richer
And they claim religious exemption to avoid having to take the drugs and vaccines that they make and force us to take
Your avatar has been depressed because you knew things were wrong in the world and this is why
👀
I hope you are enjoying my poetry as much as you are enjoying the trip down the rabbit hole 🤔
I know it hurts to see and hear
But you can do something about it by starting to support American made companies
We have the power to say no
Even if it cost us our jobs
Enough is enough
This isn’t America anymore, this is fucking India
And you never get that good job because they keep taking them
Went thrifting today & a lady donated me $20 when she overheard me talking to an employee about being a disabled vet. I broke social distancing (with a mask) to hug a stranger.
She said something told her I needed it.
Spent $5 on food & $15 is going towards my land I’m saving for.
Grabbed this little number
It was nice because I had been given a voucher to go shopping, so the stuff was free that I was picking out.
And then this lady dropped me a $20
I scored a very nice pair of black heels, size 6. I’m petite. Aside from a little dust, they looked like they’d never been worn.
They probably didn’t fit the original owner and now they fit my little feet.
Most women I know are like a size 8 or nine in comparison.
I haz little feet and toes 🐣
Grabbed a nice long flowing skirt meant for beachwear
So overall scored some nice finds at the thrift
Everything was free
Scored twenty bucks too
God rewarded me for something
🤨
A little belated birthday present from the uni
Took a minute to arrive
And maybe a sign and jump start to get that land
I don’t think the uni wants me under this cracked ceiling either 👀
They said in six months I’d be eligible for another clothing voucher so I guess I’ll be taking another treasure hunt to the thrift
I actually do love thrifting and it’s been a minute since I’ve been able to have disposable income so I take the bones when the uni throws them
All thanks goes to the Salvation Army and the nice stranger who donated me twenty bucks
I’ll pay it forward when I can start growing some food on my land and I’ll share it with the homeless
I’ve been up two days now trying to understand why John Jones crawled into that fucking hole the way he did to his death and I have read article after article and I watched a movie on it and I’ve read blog posts on it and I have 1000% come to the conclusion that the manager Michael Leavitt is responsible for John Jones’ death due to narcissism and gaslighting
This is 1000% what bad management and gaslighting in the environment looks like
On a side-note, I have claustrophobia because I was inside an evil womb and experienced a period of consciousness while I was inside before I broke out into a world of narcissism and gaslighting and it’s no wonder I live in a fucking world of confusion and my third eye has a hard time tuning in to the correct frequency and vibrations
I’ve also came to the conclusion that I broke into this timeline to evade dying from my mysterious death via Big Pharma
Breaking into a timeline would take a lot of energy and speed like me moving 80 mph with 1000 bands of electricity fucking striking my vehicle with all its windows down
And you know this happened because I blogged about it for 2 weeks
I was mostly concerned that I didn’t have any iodine in the house and how much radiation I potentially took in
I was going on about how brother Thor was pinching me or waking me up
Well I have joined the great awakening and I am in the timeline that I need to be in right now
I’ve also come to the understanding that I’m on a different level of consciousness than other people who may be on a lower level plane of consciousness because they have different levels of learning that they need to do
There have been several times in my life I have predicted events to happen before they occurred and there are people witness to this
At first, I thought I was responsible because I thought it
But no
Everything that will happen has already happened
I’m only here to understand why I made the choice
I know how I’m going to die because it’s already happened but I jumped into this timeline to prevent my mysterious death occurring prematurely because of the fucking evil narcissism going on in the world- but hey – welcome to the great awakening, my name is Delia, I love you!
How am I going to die?
I’ve always felt it would be suicide or heart failure
I was depressed in the womb
I’m that program in the matrix doing what it’s not supposed to be doing!!!
Knock knock, Neo
The Great Filter is upon us!!!
And I get chill bumps all over my body including right now just for mentioning it!
Anytime I mention it or the great awakening I get chill bumps so that’s a sign that I’m tuned into the right frequency
John died due to the gaslighting that occurred at Nutty Putty cave
I feel like I’ve been stuck in that exact part of the cave
I feel like him and I come from the same being
He kept making grave mistake after mistake because he thought he was gonna wind up in a big grand opening, he thought he was in a different part of the cave that was never listed on the map and he made a lot of bad choices because it had been years since he’d been caving and he’d grown into a big boy
He didn’t deserve to die like that and two people got stuck in that same area but the management never did anything about it, they just kept gaslighting the entire population until someone died and it closed (His continuous victim blaming excuses, “they should’ve known, they should’ve known” but he left it off the fucking map!!!! Gaslighting!!! It doesn’t matter how fucking skilled you are at something, if somebody is gaslighting you that you fucking trust you make inaccurate decisions!!!
Instead of giving verbal warnings or even marking that section as unavailable
Instead, the manager victim blames until someone actually died and the cave was closed as John’s permanent tomb
I fucking hate you
I hate my mother and my sister too and I want to eradicate every fucking narcissist sniffing around this goddamn planet, even if it means eradicating culture
So my doctor is out for the week and we’ve just had Labor Day holiday but my doctor had left instructions for my nurse who just called me to let me know that my doctor has ordered me a nebulizer and some sprays and medication’s and I have to go in Friday to pick up the Nebulizer machine with meds
The nurse will teach me how to use the machine and once my doctor gets back I will schedule an appointment to see her and find out more about how my Pulmonary visit went with the test results (a letter from my doc was also just mailed to me by the VA)
That lung test I had to breathe into actually hurt me for several days
I reckon I probably should get my heart stress tests done now if it means the VA will open up more care for me but like the lung test hurt and everybody has already told me that the heart stress test sucks, both of them and I’m ordered to do both of them
But my heart is under so much stress and it hurts already so it’s really hard to get me in for that one 👀
When I asked for pain meds, the nurse asked about my ibuprofen and put a refill in
They don’t wanna give me nuthin’ good
Gotta lose an organ or arm or something
Having a major organ like your heart in pain gets ibuprofen or a prescription for your head by the therapist
Go back to sleep little sheeple, there now
Take your gaslighting pills and shut the fuck up
So, I’m glad the state of Florida approves me for medicinal marijuana and I make use of my card (and that bad boy costs money) but the weed is decently priced
I often get 40% off my order
Don’t think I can get through this pandemic without it
Wish the VA would cover some of my prescription costs 👀
The edibles work wonders on my mood and pain
I’m dying
Stop fear mongering over a plant
I don’t even drink alcohol… 👀
That shit is poison, it causes hair loss, premature aging and graying, and I didn’t make it to 43 drinking that stuff
I also don’t have gray hairs yet despite the fact that I am fucking dying relatively young
Thanks to the Moderna vaccines
Nearly got my mysterious death
👀
Anyway, I love y’all
I am not back to physical activity yet but I have been trying to write more and I have been trying to give y’all original photography with my content and I have been trying to drop more on my OnlyFans campaigns and I’m grateful to have your support!
I’m saving for some land, I want my own land to die on and be buried on, that’s my final fucking dream, thank you for participating!! 🥰
I’ll let you know how everything goes Friday when I pick up my medical device and equipment!!
Getting old while young
I’m learning lessons in light-years time
Bought some of this again on my recent trip to the grocery store and my heart seems to like it. Been giving it lots of good treats!! Good healthy eating for the heart & lung & protein for the booty
I had no idea or any way to prepare for what would come after getting vaccinated!
And I don’t want to cancel them because again they had a lot of really good reviews and I reckon all the flooding going on in the world is causing my package to be delayed
Some things are just worth waiting for?
I was just as excited as you!
But, they’re out there trying to make their way to me!
Unfortunately, it seems like USPS is delivering and not one of them Amazon vans with superpowers
And this is the end of the world, flooding and fires everywhere!! 👀
PoeEternal 