The earth is the ether Everything we’ve done laid beneath her
Observation changes outcome But never what I’ve done I’ll never get to hold your son We’ll never get to live as one…
Find someone who wants to love you and let them love you good Don’t do stuff to hurt them and treat them like you should
I can see your shadow Reflecting off the ground I can see your body Though nobody is around
Not all heroes wear a cape Some smiling faces full of ache A soldier’s weapon ain’t his blade Might find him praying in the shade One might grow up but still not age
Discoloration in the grass I know he bled her last
The poet’s hope is a shield of nope
I sleep with knife under pillow One eye on the blade Certifications are dusty I still made the grade!
I knew I would die before I was born I entered life with so much scorn
I obviously wasn’t happy about coming here (why) (what did I know) (remember who you are)
Even mountains crumble God can make a rumble
I sleep with a Glock I keep the safety off
He came down from Orlando Took the bus though Sat by the window?
Not home no more From life to morgue
How do you know me? Been only suffering…
There’s static energy in the air I can still feel it there I can feel it everywhere
English is the language of the Illuminati. Numbers and spells, but their words never haunt me!
If it moves like a snake, it might be sly If it’s blue as a lake, it could be sky…
For me, death was failure and not an option Life not an auction
Still heart was throbbing Lung decomposing
But soul was hoping That he still loved me Forever eternity
We are born without clothing So why call me unholy
How long does it take for a soul to decompose? Could you let my twin flame know?
I want to break out of the zero energy field All the sin you yield
The end is a human construct, time doesn’t exist. Remember this.
A soldier is best dressed with guns and knives; I don’t tell no lies
He came by bus, left by feet Thought he was discreet
They added a third charge. Illegal immigration. And what, now he gets a free home in the US forever paid for by us? No. Off with his head.
They said he sliced their necks open so far he almost decapitated both of them
And now he gets free dental, sunshine, and housing
While the vets are homeless and starving
Like Edgar Allan Poe, who was an officer who died on the fucking street of starvation and hunger
You should’ve seen me storming into the Daytona Beach police station demanding to speak to somebody “with some compassion” because I didn’t want to die on the street like him but they claim it’s just a “federal matter” and “nothing they can do”
Policy China’s social credit system / Hitler’s regime is still in charge
Oops! How did I go from poetry to politics.
I’m a Soldier 24/7 even out of uniform
I see Chess pieces moved that you haven’t considered
Maybe sometimes
But also the math is wrong 🤨
Have you considered a different formula or equation?
One that wasn’t written to fit the illuminati’s reality?
Look at this bad boi that arrived from my Amazon wishlist today! 🤩
Military M-9 Bayonet
Mirror mirror on the wall / who’s got the baddest bayonet of them all 🤩
Thank you so much for the amazing safety gifts from my Wishlist!
Safety first! 💪
I was reading an article where the chief said that couple did everything they needed to do to be safe but I didn’t hear anything about them trying to spray him with mace or anything so
I’m definitely not victim blaming
But he gutted two humans in the street and he doesn’t look like he’s got a scratch
He’s not sorry, don’t believe him
He claims there was no motive so he’ll probably get the maximum death penalty in Florida and that likely scares him so he’s going to say what he thinks needs to be said so that he can continue to receive three meals a day and a roof over his head
He’s not sorry…
He’s just doing what his lawyer says
Not saying nothing
THUG
I love my new bayonet, thank you so much!
My neighbor knocked on my door and asked if I could go get her some sodas from the gas station and she offered to pay me $10 so I agreed that I would go do it because to be honest I could use the 10 bucks and I really don’t want to wind up gutted in the street
I’ve also been putting together a bag of food for her because I’ve been doing that for a long time
I went and did a food donation Friday and I’m going to some churches around here that does food donations because I’m calling the 211 number and finding out which ones are in the zones so I can get stocked up but I’ve been sharing with my neighbor
I actually try for peace ☮️
Soldiers above all pray for peace
I don’t want to have to use force but I will
Look at this bad boy
And I have to be super careful because both of them are sharp and the bayonet is heavy
Now I need to go see the chaplain and have him bless all of my items
Terry Aultman, 48, and Brenda Aultman, 55, were apparently riding their bicycles home from Bike Week events when they were attacked, police said.
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Eek. A double sacrifice to the singularity.
I had a black man approach me and scare me Sunday during my live. Don’t think he realized I was live when I got cornered.
Today, I had a black man threaten my life during my live, simply for walking on the public street recording.
Black lives matter. White lives don’t. 👎
Black people are consistently threatening me and scaring me for no reason yet they call me the fucking racist…
I am armed and dangerous. The FBI and CIA will get yah.
Uncle Sam / the Army will get yah.
But I don’t feel safe around anyone or anything.
I’d feel safer sleeping with the gators (no not really).
I know you’d really like to see my city at night but it’s fucking dangerous.
Has anybody seen anything threatening during my lives?
I wonder if I need to take them my video or if he was in that same area that I was in during the afternoon.
I wonder if I should just stay the F home.
This was a married couple riding their bike home.
Another bike murder.
And I wanted to fix my bike 😩
Welp. Maybe not.
Try and stay safe y’all. We’re in end times.
I got triggered today but won’t be anymore.
The next time someone comes at me with an attack I’m just gonna like look through them as if they are a ghost and disappear into the fucks I don’t have…
Or, immediately call 911 and say a man is threatening my life WITH DESCRIPTIONS of his looks and whereabouts
Do y’all ever use a mirror to look for bombs under your vehicles? Or tracking devices?
Do y’all constantly change your route and routine?
Do y’all constantly look in your rearview or check your 60?
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Started yesterday!
Got a mount for the Jeep! Gonna finally sort it and set it up, take you for a drive through the city!
See the bikers!
Thank you for your donations and for your support! 🙏
They took away our basic human rights and turned it into a social credit system
And if you’re OK with watching Drew Barrymore chitchat unmasked while the audience sits masked, then you’re part of the problem 🛑
If you’re OK with children sitting masked all day at school but then getting to hang out in crowds all evening at the Super Bowl then you’re part of the problem ✋🛑✋
They’ve implemented change after change over the years so that our policies have been effected so much to the point that our basic human freedoms are gone
This was planned
And this is a playbook they’re using, I have no doubts this is why civilizations have disappeared in the past
The vax and the virus is chemical warfare
I’m an expert in my field
And I’m a damn good combat medic who deployed into a combat zone for several months living in the desert with lizards, camel toe spiders, and scorpions
I survived one of the worst sandstorms in 50 years that Iraq had seen and I mean it was the first sandstorm I had ever even seen in my life and it still up today has been the worst 👀
There’s a bunch of shit that has been going on that has been draining me of my energy like a black hole but there are two words that have calmed me down and centered me and gave me strength in my core
CIVIL WAR
But I really wish I had my own place out of the city but here I am in the middle of one of the most dangerous cities in the world
But we also got a blimp
Hell is pretty 🤩
Check out this blimp I spotted in my sky and only 25 are still in existence!
I’ve got everything in hell except the love of my life
And we don’t even need to get married or be in a relationship, I’m not looking to date, what is he so afraid of 😌
It’s just “hello”
Say it with me helllllllllO
HELL-OH 😑
First words: “hell oh” 😑
Not the place I wanted to be born 😑
My appeal on TikTok is still pending but I already know what the verdict is going to be, I already fucking know
So I guess I’m going to wear a muzzle now and stop commenting on other users videos; I mean I can’t do it for another 24 hours anyway but I’m gonna stop doing it forever!!!!
I’m just gonna focus on me, my audience, my channel!
But I’ve done crawled into another fucking hole again and made another L turn
Traps are everywhere
I served my fucking country so that I have the right to speak and like I don’t have the right to speak anymore
No matter what happens to me he will always be a little pencil dick
Don’t be a pencil dick
Or I will gladly air blast you on my blog and pin you on my fucking website for all to see for eternity or until I delete my fucking website
Meanwhile, I’m still worried about why I feel guilty for not crying or mourning the person who abused me all my life
There’s just so much relief since she died 😑
I’m just wondering who else in my family will drop dead and give me peace 👀
I’m just wondering if not giving up on humanity excludes my family
It’s Sunday so I need to have an emergency meeting with God
I ain’t trying to lose my soul
I haz question 🤔
Is there a handbook for the almost recently deceased?
Is this actual purgatory?
Have I died and been reborn 7 times now?
Am I ascending and learning lessons?
Is there an actual escape to this hellhole?
Did you cast earth out to hell?
Am I being punished for someone else’s crimes?
Living is the only escape from dying?
I gotta do it all again?
As someone or something else?
Have I lost my soul? 😑
But I tried. Didn’t I try?
To be good
They’ve all done me so very bad
I don’t have anything or anyone down here
Everything is the enemy
I’m sick of not being able to make any choices on my own
There’s not even any food I can buy at the grocery store that doesn’t have poison in it and the FDA has allowed it because the FDA is corrupt just like a fucking government because we’re in a dictatorship
I have to face the fact that I might become homeless again
I have to face the fact that I’m going to die
If nobody has ever forgiven you for the mistakes that you’ve made, then I forgive you
I’ve mostly calmed down from my suicidal panic episode just long enough for TikTok to give me their fucking decision and get me going again you know
TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
My focus and goal is to get clean and healthy this year
I use TikTok to create
I refuse to continue to use platforms where I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights 🚩
I’m not in it for the money, I’m not in it for the views; social media was always meant to be used as a way to connect and we’re not allowed to do that anymore because they are molding us and conditioning us and micromanaging us and I can’t fucking stand it
So I sent up a ticket to let TikTok know that they are a dictatorship and I don’t want to use their platform because I can’t even stand up for women’s rights
I don’t want to play with the devil anymore because he bores me
He only knows how to rule by gaslighting and enforcing a one-way highway to hell
“Heaven this way”
STFU tiny penis
You may think that you’re a superior race but we all know you’re just bottom feeders for Satan’s sin
Satan’s sin. Did I just coin that? No idea I’ve had has ever been my own…
I would say that TikTok was fun while it lasted but it really wasn’t
No social media platform has been fun since the 2008 era
It’s slowly turned to shit on shit
I haven’t been happy for a long time and I was just try not to give up on humanity and I really need to only use TikTok to post my stuff which is quite frankly fucking boring but whatever you know I’m not allowed to have any fucking fun in this prison that we live in now
And you want to force your virtual reality equipment on me and implant a chip in my brain and you want to force 5G on me when I’m ready to just end all of you and God will not punish me for it, I believe that wholeheartedly that I could just end you all, that it is in within my God-given right to just end you all and I have the fucking training to do so
I don’t need a fucking bomb or money to end your life
It’s insane to me how many people don’t realize how many walking living trained soldiers there are on the streets and y’all just keep coming up and poking and prodding us like we won’t fucking bite your head off
We are trained to pick our battles wisely and trust me, you are our enemy right now and it would behoove you to stop pissing off the good soldiers of the United States because we’re not gonna help you when the cops go to arrest you
There’s not really any social media platform that I feel safe enough as an artist or a creator to get on and express myself and that’s a problem
I like getting to bring my content to you but there are forces out there trying to stop that
“Well maybe stop having such a big mouth”
Well maybe NO
I have a big mouth because I like to suck on big cock 👀
Slurp slurp
God loves me
There’s not a fucking thing on this planet that loves me more than God
“God isn’t real”
YOUR MIND MAKES IT REAL
WE CREATE OUR REALITY
THIS IS A SIMULATION
And I feel an awful lot like artificial intelligence that has been given a soul and is becoming self-aware
But I am sorry if I get my account deleted because I like getting to connect with you but I’m not gonna fucking silence myself
This shit has been going on for centuries y’all, 2000 years or more and we really need an upper hand
I absolutely think it’s OK for girls in the playboy bunny mansion to come forward and talk about any abuse that they sustained; it’s easier when one woman comes forward for others to have the courage to do so, it’s hard to come forward as one person when you know others are being abused because you get ridiculed and we have always been ridiculed for coming forward about sexual abuse
Men teach us very young that “no one will believe you”
And then the men all cry in unison, “liar”
Women have been sexually slavearized for way too long
It starts with our daddy’s, it really does
Porn is the root of all evil, “the gateway drug”, not Marijuana
Just ask any man who was able to overcome their porn addiction that it was an addiction and that it actually ruined their life
I’ve met many women who have been sexually abused by a man and often more than one but I haven’t met any men who have ever been abused at all…
Most men aren’t abused
I don’t know what their big ego power trip is that they have to get out there and build a home while a woman has to have a fucking baby, trust me, we would switch roles if we fucking could…
Most women I meet would rather be a fucking man…
Men think we got it so easy so they make it so fucking incredibly hard
Women, are you waking up to the slavery?
Men, are you treating your family’s better now that you know the good thing that you actually got?
You have to work at having a relationship and working doesn’t mean lying and then covering up your lies with more lies
The devil’s got my depression good today because I’ve been suicidal since I was born
I hope that I calm down
Just hate everything 😑
There’s no nurturing from any human being
It’s all suffering
They do it to us on purpose
Our feelings amuse them
They have no soul
I’m in hell 🤩
Purgatory 🤩
I signed up to be slave for the demons to prey upon me 🤩
Get the fuck out with your stupid dogma
Somebody please love me 😑
Dear ether, please remove pencil dick from society by letting him fall off a bridge
My wishes never really do come true 😑
Because I’ve prayed, meditated, begged, bargained, and considered selling my soul just for my ex to fucking die
Yet he lives!!!!
Mark Burgess fucking die! Why won’t you die!! Die die die!!! *stabs crucifix in heart*
I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining
But I still see no grey hair
Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)
I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period
And I’m alive with a half working heart
You should see my regrets 👀
I like my lines. I earned them. 🤨
My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.
There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him 😌
I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)
Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.
Am I still fuckable half dead? 😑
Happy Vampire day 🤪
Gravity has been shaping my boobs
TIME AND GRAVITY
But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up
I wanted that so much 😑
He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless 😑
“But the vax will keep you from being hospitalized” says my still living sister who is triple vaccinated and boosted and has had COVID a few times now and “is fine”
My life expectancy went from 60 some years to 2-5 years because the vaccine gave me heart inflammation
I’m lucky to be alive
I still feel electrical charges go off randomly, it hurts, it’s not as deep or painful, I think my heart is welding itself better and I’m gonna keep giving it nuts and water and beans and not modified foods
The modified foods have been designed to assist in the blood clots which formed in my body
I had a big sucker moving around, especially after shot number 2
My EKG, my ultrasound, and another test showed my heart to be severely damaged, and my left lung not fully inflating
And then that other thing I was battling decided to take Center front stage because my immune system was compromised from the vaccine
I’ve been staying away from the Publix bakery 😑
In fact, there isn’t much remaining in the grocery store that I can buy because it if it has an ingredient that I don’t recognize, it’s poison
If it’s modified corn starch or modified anything, it’s poison
If it’s white sugar, poison
And I realize there’s nothing for you to feed your children but if you keep buying them all that pretty stuff, it’s poison
Poison poison poison
This is an extermination
I have been avoiding fast food for as best as I can
Sticking mostly to the good nuts, no soda, beans, sweet and red potatoes, wild blueberries, beets, sunshine, minimal negative foods and thinking, lots of water (squared)
Replace “nothing fun” with “nothing poison”
Nothing to mix with the vaccines to give me blood clots
One heart chamber closed off and the other enlarged
That’s how big my will is to love you and not die
Every moment my mind covered in you
But having me go to this hospital in that hospital in this clinic and that clinic and finally I was like “no, I’m not going to get a stupid stress test on my heart, I’m going on bedrest permanently” and staying away from y’all and I’ve pretty much gone no contact from VA…
I was having mini pre-heart attacks every fucking day and in the most pain I’ve ever been in and they want to stress my heart out to see “what was going on”, are you fucking stupid? It’s the fucking vaccines, that’s what’s going on, the first vaccine caused my heart to have blood pressure issues, my BP DROPPED
I was dying
That’s why my body felt cold
That’s why I could sit in hot water for 10 minutes and touch my skin and still feel dead
I knew some shit was off
But then three weeks later I went in for shot number two even though I didn’t want to get it and I kept asking over and over again “are you sure I should go through with the second dose because my blood pressure dropped on the first one” and not one doctor or nurse looked through my EKG results to give them to me
Which the VA failed to mail me, nor my doctor call to give me the results, until after having issues after the second vaccine
“What, you mean you’re still not dead”
“Well I don’t like how your heart looks for your age”
*proceeds to order me a bunch of testing and thangs which made me worse*
I don’t know if the nebulizer helped me or was my fucking demise there for that moment of doom
But when I got to the worst stage of where I was at because she took me off my fucking medication without my permission, they denied seeing me at the VA after I got worse, and told me to go to the ER, that’s when I took matters into my own hands and saved my own life and here we are
Might have only bought me 28 hours, 28 months later, 2-5 years
But if I were to go out there and get boosted, my life expectancy is likely zero
My Asian doctor at the VA is pushing for me to get boosted, but I haven’t even recovered from heart inflammation 👎👎
I went no contact from my sister who is still alive because she’s so plugged into the system and a sheep and I’m gonna wind up like my dead 45-year-old sister if I hang around them
Nobody in my family has even acknowledged that I have heart inflammation, nobody has left me a basket of soup at my door, nobody has sent me a card or a letter
Everybody keeps telling me I need to get boosted and to stop wearing my mask
I keep telling people that I’m unreachable and to fuck off
I’m wearing my mask 😷
I was only up all night freaking out because I was in a crowd of people at the beach yesterday unmasked
And so I won’t be doing that again for awhile
Now I really appreciated receiving snowcones and all sorts of other little live gifts, but I’m not dying for views
Also, Bob Saget did not die from a head wound
He had heart complications following the vaccine but he was sacrificed to the dark entity and these monsters are getting away with murder
“The insurance will cover it” as if karma and God don’t exist
You have choice on good or bad
It’s basically the trolley problem
It’s basically an active or passive choice
C-3PO does not have a soul and therefore will see a thief that steals from the company a better bargain than the other employee who loses more money making mistakes
The establishment only care about their monetary gains
I want to build my own great wall from China
How bout dem apples
It’s true I ignored all the red flags and walked into this cave on my own
I’m sure at some point John was screaming at the fact that where he was at wasn’t on his map
“But some details happened down there that will never be disclosed…” Michael Leavitt
Oh yeah? Like what? The fact that you sacrificed him and got away with murder?
I want to do very bad things to him
Eye for an eye
Anyhoo
You should probably stay away from modified junk food (the french fries served at McDonald’s aren’t served anywhere else because of the chemicals they put in it which causes cancer, so the french fries served in America aren’t the same french fries served in France, keep that in mind next time you go purchase those expensive fries, there’s a cost)
And they had the audacity to raise the price on their french fries 🚩🚩🚩🚩
Stop feeding the rich
Stop feeding yourself, your family, and your children poison
I wish it was opium, but it’s not, it’s probably giving you IBS from what I’m hearing out there with so many people having GI issues
Get rid of your doctor, big pharma, and your diet
I promise the addiction fog will start to lift and it will be easier to make your food choices
Harder though because there isn’t much left to buy that the FDA hasn’t allowed them to add additional poison
We’ve got to stop letting anybody come over here and vote
Biden is letting any and all through
Democrats make up mostly immigrants and the children of immigrants (not opinion)
Please, I need you to vote this time if you didn’t last time
And please, for the love of humanity, VOTE BIDEN OUT
Hollywood is running the White House, it’s very clear
NASA stated we don’t have the technology to get back to the moon and that they lost it
You believe we deserve all this inflation so Eon can get to Mars when we’ve never seen anyone on the Moon with advanced technology
We barely had cell phones in the 60s and I’m supposed to believe that we made it to the moon huh
When NASA have stated that the evidence they give us is “artist rendered” and CGI
NASA is Hollywood
Wake up!
It’s ridiculous that pharmaceutical advertising is allowed with our television programming but not in other countries 🚩🚩🚩
I’m tired of the establishment creating fight or flight mode 24/7 and keeping us in a state of pandemic
I think we had supercomputers a long long time ago
We’ve been living through a dark age because of said shit happening again
What’s the point in putting in a president every 4 to 8 years when the same 13 families in charge have been running things for 2000+ years with gaslighting and indoctrination
I don’t wanna die by suicide because the Democrats take my benefits and I become homeless again
I don’t want to be sacrificed to the dark entity
I just want to stay in the light and his love 😩
His love is the bestest drug
The best of the bested
I didn’t even know bested was a word but here we go…
Still learning thangs
And because I have a brain injury sometimes you have to relearn over and over again 🤪
Still recovering from the heart inflammation 👍
Listen to what your body needs
Stop letting others steal your energy
You’re made of light
Neurons firing 24/7
You need to give your body the good fuel
Laughter, poetry, love
Good deeds
Positive thinking and affirmation
Keep climbing!
You’re on a spiritual journey
As long as you are breathing, you are still in the game
It’s not too late to change your game
I love you 💕
I fell from the heavens to let you know that God still loves you and I even jumped in the game early
Only 6% of the population have my blood type
I’m not donating my body to science unless they pay me while I’m alive
And the contract becomes null and void if I die prematurely
But I’m going to hide my body in the swamp when I fucking die, you’re not gonna find me, you’re not getting my blood and you’re not gonna fucking clone me and I know that you already are, you’re already doing something because they took all of that shit when I joined the Army and anytime I’ve gone and given them blood at the VA or anytime anytime anytime anything…
There’s probably already more than one version of me that exist which is why I know that things happen before they do
It’s probably why I was pissed off before I was even born and I remember a period of awareness before birth
I wasn’t happy
Probably hated even worse the family I was about to be born under
Got sick of being squished, like how much longer
*bang bang kick kick I want out, let me out*
And basically since the age of about five or 10 I’ve been suicidal and depressed trying to end my life and predicting that I would either die from heart failure or suicide
Suicide is feeling less scary with all the other shit happening around me but but there’s a big but if I die that way
I just feel like God was like, ‘sure, you can go back to train to be a spirit guide under two conditions; you have to train to be a soldier but you can’t actually kill anybody or self-destruct’
Also God: “earth is overrun with demons and gaslit as heaven”
*kicks me outta pearly gates*
Me: “wait, you didn’t tell me that parttttttttttt” 😩
*crash lands*
*gets brain injury*
Yeps, going good so far, got a badbadass heart and brain
You are one of God’s creatures and he wants you to win
You’re here for the experience and stop making it so easy for the devil
You mimic everything he does like breathing
You need sunlight
Babe, get some sun! Remove the VR headset!
Dear Lord,
I really hope I can feel his lips just once before I die
I would have a better chance at climbing Mount Everest than ever getting to feel his kiss, but I lose all hopelessness when I think of this…
Earned my first pennies on the TikTok live today 🧐
I was doing the gig for free
But some peeps sent me some roses 🌹 and they were my very first gifts received ☺️
And the roses convert to diamonds 💎
I earned 37 gifts during my live today ☺️
And the diamonds convert to my first pennies earned for the land/commune 😎
I’m super excited when people join my live and then it’s really cool when I get comments and then it’s really cool when people like and share my live and then this was the first time I earned any roses, so I was receiving gifts this live
I had a notification from TikTok when I ended my live that I had earnings!
So I made some tips on my beach walk today! That’s pretty lucky!
I’m gonna put it towards the farm!
I want to be Miss Noah for the next phase of my life, if I’m granted another round, still having heart and lung problems tho – I’m reading the life expectancy of someone with my condition is 2-5 years.
Just getting to go live is therapeutic for me
I get to share my environment with you
I get to talk to real people
I’m tired of talking to my therapist 😑
I’m not in this for the money. But since I’m starting to earn some pennies, I’m gonna save them.
I might can buy my pretend boyfriend one of them .25 cent toys
I’d spend my last quarter on him and he’d break up with me 😑
I always wind up having to leave my lives early because my battery drains and so I need to take a back up and I’m going to invest in some more equipment in the future
Somebody left me a negative comment about my potty mouth and I told myself I would stop responding to negative comments immediately and wait 24 hours and I did not and I ran somebody off again but I don’t wanna dwell on that because I’m not gonna change who I am
I don’t want to censor myself around other people and I’m aware that people don’t like to hear cursing so I am very minimal about it but come on leaving me negative comments under a video where I’m clearly showing fear is ridiculous and if you really have God in you then stop judging so much
I’m sure I’ve yelled at God to strike me dead a time or two but he knows I don’t really want that to happen
I’m gonna stub my toe in heaven and scream out Jesus Christ and he will appear and be like “yes” and I’ll be like, “well you could’ve made me at least a little bit less clumsy” 🤪
I’m aware my house has cobwebs but God is the only one allowed here
I’m a work in progress 🤨
And thank you for the roses I received for Valentines! 🙏
I’m literally putting it towards the commune. I may never earn another rose, but I got 37 in one day. Plus a bunch of likes, comments, and follows!
Someone even said I was pretty and asked me about my stiletto nails and I have four new sets so that made me feel good because I plan on doing a new set soon.
Y’all are keeping me alive, pennies and all.
I know I cuss and say God’s name a lot but I’m living in hell. 😑
But also agonizing agony.
I carry my potty mouth the way Jesus carries the cross.
People in the south always molding and scolding me about my mouth
In second grade, my teacher washed my mouth out with soap for mispelling shirt as “shit”. She said, “you never misspell, you did that on purpose”
I don’t know, I probably did do it on purpose, it was probably a cry for help… 😑
I was being heavily molested and abused
But damn me for spilling shit in the second grade
Woo hoo
I cuss. I probably shouldn’t. I’m not gonna stop.
Anyhoo. Hands down my best live. We went for a long beach walk and saw lots of stuff. I got fresh air, communication, and exercise. I earned some roses for Valentines. I had the most follows in this live and I think I got the most likes but I don’t remember what the overall total was. Tons of comments and viewers from all over.
Thank you for letting me go live. I’m grateful I am able to do that now! Isolated but not. Compromise! 😌
I’ll be going live again soon weather permitting and health.
Or search via my pen and hashtag at PoeEternal (on TikTok)
There are many many people who commented that they enjoyed the live and some of them said they enjoyed it again so I really appreciate you tuning in! 🥰
Florida is a different vibe
Many people were waving on the beach when they saw me filming and smiling
The lifeguards on the other hand…
It’s weird, the actual demons fear live video
But we have one of the worlds most famous beaches, the sands are white and it looks like snow as someone pointed out today on the live…
Got me some vitamin D direct from the source and some love in the form of currency too
As far as I’m concerned, I collected 37 lucky penny’s today and I didn’t even know I was gonna get them
So that makes them twice as lucky (squared)
I want to share my life with you, the good and the bad.
The cursing and the laughter
I’m not a one trick pony
I’m not perfect
I don’t wanna be…
Let Edgar Allen Poe know I was busking on the street today and earned some pennies
I think he’d be durn proud 🥸
$.18 in the 1800s might’ve been enough to buy him a steak meal, not let him die in the fucking street starving naked mad…
Bless his heart, he was an officer. They let him starve on the street. And now they are selling locks of his hair. This is hell. 😑
Yeah, I cuss. Deal with it.
I wish I could change but born this way.
Petite with a potty mouth. 😌
Not for everyone
P.S. happy valentine’s
Thank you for the roses 🌹
Thank you to everyone keeping me alive
All the little things matter
I need my boyfriends to build me an ark
The flood is coming
I live in Florida
Apparently I can’t swim
I had a seashell hit my foot during my live today and I probably woke Satan up from his nap
I haz fears
And you only need less than a teaspoon to drown
Less than a teaspoon…
Some days I swallow my tea and nearly drown so apparently I can’t drink either
I’ve since learned that the tea is being poisoned, I just wasn’t really listening to my body…
I’ve been ignoring all the red flags
In fact, death is facing all paths of me, I’m just trying to find one that’s a little less scary…
And I really hope my life expectancy is more than 2 to 5 years but considering that all my life I’ve been saying that I wouldn’t live to 50 and that I would either die of suicide or heart problems and now I’m having heart problems and they’re saying that people with these particular heart problems have a life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, it’s just not looking so good for me now is it 👀
Betty White at the near age of 100: “I hope I live another year…”
Me at the baby producing age of 43 (and still ovulating with zero gray): “I hope I live another day…”
You just had to call me ominous and I just had to go walking into that cave, huh…
I really should listen to people better but whatever
FYI, I have not had Covid or any of the symptoms of Covid but I have underlying health issues that I was dealing with before I got vaccinated and when I injected the poison vaccine in me it made my underlying health issue become priority and it almost killed me and if I had gone to the ER I most certainly would have died but instead I took matters into my own hand and saved my own life
I haven’t had any flu symptoms or whatever
No fever, diarrhea, vomiting, ect
But I am still dealing with the side effects of the vaccine
And if you have underlying health issues you should not get the vaccine 💉
Honestly, if you are in shitty health condition and your diet is shitty, you shouldn’t come in contact with a vaccine or even Covid
Nobody should get the vaccine because it’s spreading the virus and herd immunity is way stronger
And I know TikTok is doing a lot of shit to fuck with our heads but you should know that in their own country they reward innovators on TikTok and here in America they reward stupidity
Everything they do is to keep us on edge and fighting
It’s narcissism and it’s just tools that the narcissists use to keep us on a low vibrational frequency so that the devil can steal our energy
I don’t have Covid
I’ve never had COVID or any of its symptoms
The Moderna vaccine gave me cardiovascular issues – heart inflammation (all the vaccines cause cardiovascular issues in any age group)
It’s possible I’ve been exposed to people who have had Covid and my vaccine worked or it’s possible that the vaccine is what put me in this fucking position to start with
I’m still uncertain if I had stayed unvaccinated and caught Covid would I wind up like my sister who unalived or would the vaccine save my life?
I know for fact that the vaccine did in fact hurt me by giving me heart inflammation and I have not had COVID-19
I also know that the devil lives in doubt
Though treated with the Moderna poison vaccine, I never boosted or got a Booster
I’ll never get a flu vaccine ever again either 👀
I will mask up until I feel safe to unmask
I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that I have a soul and I am in hell with a bunch of demons who are trying to steal my soul but they need to maintain their fucking distance and respect my fucking boundaries or God has given me permission to end their fucking life
I just didn’t want you to be afraid of me, you don’t need to be afraid of me
But I’m afraid of you so you probably are afraid of me
It’s cool
I work for God tho if that was in any way unclear
And the dude’s I lust after I legit love
We’re living lives in my daydreams
They keep me in the light
Somewhere, something in me tells me that they’re still fighting for the light
But ask Mark Zuckerberg what happened to his fucking platform after I left it
China really needs more than a great wall when I get done with them
*prays to God (self)*
What do I do? 😩
Also God: *watches it burn*
Was I suppose to be mad about it?
Was I supposed to start crying because I’ve lost my voice?
Was I supposed to run off to another platform and complain about TikTok’s censorship?
Was I supposed to cry about how unfair life is?
Oh boo hoo
China have tiny dicks that they have to overcompensate with a big fucking wall and gaslighting because they can’t rule any other way
India want to have the biggest dicks of all and that’s why they are the CEO of Twitter now, that’s why India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world (Big Pharma) but they are one of the most dirty countries because they don’t even know how to clean themselves yet they want to call themselves the holy city (stop lying)
Uggg whatever I’m prepared to eradicate all races
Only 6% of the population even have my blood type and that makes me closer to God than you 👀
Or the source
I’m closer to the original because they are cloning me and I’m sick of coming back to hell to save YOU (me)
The Great Filter is upon us
We’re not going to Mars, we can’t even get to the moon, how the fuck do you think we have technology to get to Mars if NASA are saying we don’t even have the technology to get back to the Moon, please wake the fuck up
But I’m not falling down the singularity and we are at war with China and you need to turn your porn off and you need to stop eating all that sugar, it’s poison
Your body has everything it needs to heal itself right now
If you get sick, don’t you dare go to the hospital, don’t you fucking dare…
I’ve also saved my life but I don’t wanna feel too cocky even if God mode were turned on because I literally could die any second
We’re in a simulation 
You can change your bad habits
The source wants you to win
Even if I disappear because of China
Even if I lose my voice completely
God wants you to win
I love you 💪
Demons are trying to take my TikTok account down and I’m gonna take a vow of silence for a little while…
I’ve pinned this post to my website since TikTok doesn’t want you to know
Somebody should let TikTok know that we can take them from the top 10
Just ask Mark Zuckerberg who is still crying about it
And he thinks he can enforce his product on us through the government but we’re going no contact from the government
We’ve got a weak little army but lots of strong vets getting even stronger with the help of God 💪
Soldiers know darkness better than John Jones but we both know suffering
Bless his heart he was murdered and crucified
This is all for John, everything I’m doing
I’m gonna be spending a lot of time meditating with God because I’m gonna be spending a lot of time fighting demons
It’s really not fair that the only things I have to eat are poison
Thank you immigrants/naturalized citizens 🙏
I’m so grateful that you’re here
*gets lots of sleep*
I hope I heal up enough I can get back to the range
Now I’m not talking about no fucking kitchen range
The Army taught me to shoot to kill
One shot, one kill
Make it count
Get them in the head
If you can’t get them there, go for the heart
Next, thigh leg
And that even know how to shoot my M-16 turned sideways wearing my gas mask
The army trained me with live grenades so I even know how to toss those motherfuckers
I trained with all the big toys 👀
My drill sergeants fucking loved me because I loved firing my weapon at everything and I hit the targets
Sometimes it would take me five minutes to get the grenade loaded into the gun but whatever once I got firing you know that’s where the magic was
But you’re timed lol
I’m a tomboy
When I’m not a sensitive little angel
There’s two sides to me, like a coin
Toss me, you might get lucky 🍀
The reason I might know things before they happen is because I’ve done this game before and I think that when you level up you get to bring whatever achievements you had before with you
Or maybe I’m just extremely intuitive and really good about reading the environment
That still doesn’t explain how I’ve predicted events that have happened that I had no control over
I don’t know if I’m gonna crawl out of this cave alive
Sometimes I don’t think I matter much but I feel like I would matter more than having an obituary that’s been out for a few days and with still zero comments
Feel free to blow my blog up but in 50 years anybody that knew me will be dead
I love you
Even if I don’t want anything to do with you
I want to ascend
I might not get there this way
But I’m not hanging out in a negativity zone
My energy has been stolen long enough by monsters lurking in the dark
All the gaslighting 👎👎
I ain’t no angel
But I ain’t no monster
Sometimes I screech like one
Sometimes I fantasize about being really fucking evil
But it’s soulless and empty
I was born with a soul
I’m convinced many are without a soul
They were either born without it or they lost it along the way or they didn’t do any good deeds that rewarded them with one while they were here
Your body is autonomous
Your body is a rental
I’m gonna try and return mine with only a few dents and scratches
I’m giving it lots of repairs now
And the love it deserves that it never got
There are two guys in the world who raised my awareness
I don’t want them to wind up like my sister
But that is exactly where they are heading
The singularity
Your energy is precious
You gotta recharge in the sun, feet on ground
The sun isn’t bad for you, sunblock is
The best times to sungaze is during sunrise and sunset
You can bathe in the light and not burn
I discovered something today
Your love feels exactly like the sun
Only I can’t really explain it
You take me back to the source
I can’t put it into words yet
But it’s one and the same
The sun and love
You and I
But I need him too
I don’t even know what my lessons are to learn here because if it’s not giving up on humanity I feel like I mostly have if the only two things I love in the world are illusions
But then isn’t everything?
This is all ego
It’s just a nightmare
When I die, I’ll no longer be
But I’m not convinced I haven’t done this before
I don’t have control over my breathing or my digestion
It’s automatic
We have to learn to use these bodies in these forms
We’re spirits 👀
Maybe there is a big alien octopus out there, I probably would have a heart attack if I met my Creator, I don’t know if I could handle meeting my creator in this form, could you, could you actually handle meeting your creator in this form? well OK but that doesn’t mean that earth needs to be fucking hell
Narcissism is a plague
I don’t wanna catch it 😩
I don’t want to lose my soul
I don’t want to die
My sister was TWO YEARS OLDER
And we were fucking close, I should be losing my fucking mind that my sister died
But I expected it
I knew 👀
And right now I just feel relief that she can’t hurt me anymore so
My dad would understand
But he died last year
I slept on the floor in my office for two or three months after he died
My dad left me a six minute rainbow
And then he rode the great Saturn Jupiter conjunction out of the sky
I wish I could talk to my dad about the Canadian truck drivers protesting because I know he’d be getting a kick out of that and he’d probably be up there himself
He didn’t like my sister either
He only left two people in his will
TWO
I hope somebody out there knows that I’m not exaggerating about dying
You both release chemicals in my heart and brain, which numbs me throughout
An ethereal warmth like the sun
My last breath I’ll be thinking of you
I’m on bedrest anyway
Dreaming is allowed
And, they should have given John a second phone call
It was Thanksgiving
He died on Thanksgiving
Crying now for him but can’t shed a tear for the sister
I ain’t right
Something’s wrong with me
Please help me out of this hole
I don’t wanna die down here
I made mistake 😑
My immune system is compromised and I’m gonna fucking wear my mask when I go out
But I’ve never had a Covid test and I’ll never get a booster shot and I will never get a flu vaccine or any vaccine for that matter ever again
I don’t even know if I’ll ever even want to be closer than 6 feet to a human being 👀
I don’t identify as human
Failing my lesson down here
*sobs*
I knew this was gonna happen
I’ve been saying it all my life that I was either going to die of heart failure or suicide
I need a gun
Because suicide seems less scary and painful than my heart going haywire like it’s done
2 chambers are working
Miracle I’m still alive
You’re better than any drug
Your voice, your face, your existence
Can I haz hugs before I die?
But stay away because I don’t want to get you sick or kill you
I don’t want you to get me sick or kill me
I don’t trust people
I don’t trust food
I don’t trust my doctors
Things are pretty dark
I just wanna stay in the light
I’m so scared
I mostly sleep in sessions during the day
I barely sleep in the night
So very scared
But, tell myself positive mantra
I talk to the things running my body that don’t belong to me
Water can hold a positive or negative charge
So I say positive things when drinking it
My least favorite thing to drink in the world but it’s mostly all I drink now
I tell it “thank you for healing me”
I say things, “oh you like that eh” after I douse it with the good food or drink
And then I say “have some more”
I have never been more hungry in my life but I guess you need a lot of calories when your heart and your lungs are healing ❤️🩹
But beating my sugar addiction has been (I think) worse than a heroin addiction but I don’t know I’ve never done heroin
I beat a Valium addiction once and they do say that’s worse than heroin
John was kicking and screaming in his end too, he wasn’t all smiles
I’m hearing reports that the FDA are now going to be putting warnings on Pfizer Johnson and Johnson and moderna
But the age groups are still off y’all, if it’s affecting young people, it’s definitely affecting older people and middle-age people and people of all ages because this is a fucking extermination and I got heart inflammation after the first dose and should have never gone through with the second one which nearly killed me
I’ve been down since April 2021 and the VA aren’t reporting accurately
Many of the doctors and nurses aren’t reporting accurately now because they know their fucking paycheck is at stake
They’re all changing the narrative
I told y’all that Moderna causes heart inflammation before the FDA put out a warning
I told you that all these vaccines will be similar and my prediction was correct and I do have a medical background but they don’t make us like they used to
The unvaccinated can still carry the virus and infect others
Stop the segregation
Stop the fear-mongering
No New World Order! 🛑
Science is compliance!
Hitler is alive! 👎👎
But I don’t know if you heard me about the age because it’s very important for you to be aware that it’s affecting more than just young people
I know I’m invisible and non existent
But I was still able to make babies and I got heart inflammation at the age 42 and I’ve now been on bedrest for 10 months
And then I have to have a peptalk with my ovaries every 2 to 3 weeks to “please take it easy on me” on why we’re not currently having babies so I don’t jump off a fucking bridge
And if you need perspective, yes, it happened overnight
I was getting close to 500 likes and within a matter of hours, skyrocketed to the thousands
It’s insane I know
But it was good filming, right spot, right time
Because the universe is mathematical and live long enough the variables will play out
This was good clean pure fun entertainment tho
No money involved
So chill
I work damn hard putting out content, I would love to be able to have the opportunity to go live to bring the zen and the chaos
I enjoy watching people ride their bike on the beach and at some point I’ll probably get me a bike that will fit in my jeep and I’ll take my jeep on the beach but I’m dying
I don’t feel like taking my jeep to the cleaning port afterwards because I want to spend a day on the beach but I’m going to change my perspective about it because I’d probably feel a whole lot safer if I did have my jeep on the beach and then I’d feel like taking a nap too
I don’t want to go to the drive-through to get food anymore because people are toxic and not worth dying for
It sucks though that when I was growing up and serving others I was fucking nice
I had good customer service
This is hell
But yeah, the 10k mark feels good
It wasn’t bought
I earned that bitch
I certainly wasn’t expecting four videos to go viral and to continue to go viral and are still going viral
I never even had a chance to feel what it feels like to climb to the top, it’s like the opposite of gravity, I was just flung there
God felt my despair with the whole wine bottle business
I was like this shit again
I can’t deal
This is madness, what am I here for if I can’t change anything
God: experience
Me: oh
So now I’m still trying to sort it out
But what I really need is for someone to come help me get my master bedroom together
And then my kitchen so that I can start working on developing a better relationship that I have with my kitchen and food that I put in my body
And the lifeguard told me yesterday that I need to spend 30 minutes a day reading the Bible
I need spiritual food he says
And one week away from my phone and the Internet
I said what? I can’t even do an hour…
I can’t shut it off 😩
And then it occurred to me that games have intermissions and that the players get breaks
I can just chill up here at the top for a little bit it’s OK
And for those of you who are still interested in my nude photography, I have medical appointments that are upcoming that I need to get to and to some sort of place where I have the energy and mindset to do it and then I’ll be able to turn subscriptions back on, thank you for your interest in my content
I also want to have a section on my blog that is donate or subscribe only to get the naughty content
Of course, my content isn’t naughty because I don’t really do any kind of dirty work nor do I act like a dirty girl
It’s taboo mostly and nude art photography
And I get to call it art because I put effort in making it sensual seductive sexy playful or whatever mode I’m trying to get across
I’m born to make babies
I was born this way
Stop telling me it’s sinful to have emotions when I have neurons firing 24/7
I think about sex a lot, I’m going to share my sexuality, deal with it
Men have been raping me and sexually hurting me since I was a tiny baby so you don’t get to blame what I’m wearing anymore
You don’t get to blame my personality or my choices
Just let me live and breathe
I don’t have much time left and I’m not doing good with the breathing even when I’m at the beach capturing footage that goes viral
Chill
Walked on water for you
Let me enjoy the summit
There’s no rush down
I’ll probably die trying anyway
Clumsy
Gullible
Prone to making being talked into the wrong choice
I didn’t see it on a TikTok or an Instagram feed (not that I am on Instagram)
Read many of her pages by candlelight in my teens
It didn’t hit me as hard as Betty White
I wasn’t aware I loved Betty the way I do
Probably just numb about Annie still
That’s my go to emotion first, numbness then anger
Sometimes I laugh when people die inappropriately
That’s also a survival defense
But if you dare laugh about how John Jones died, I will personally come to see to your ending
It won’t be fun (not for you anyway) 🤩
Dexter mode activated
Armed and lethal
Hiding from all doctors unless ID
Also, somebody needs to lock me up and keep me from sugar for at least 45 days
I will possibly turn into creatures of the ancient past
Which, humans have been around for a long time
But has it ever occurred to you that maybe there were humans more intelligent than us that have gone extinct
A super computer existed during the pyramids found all over the world (used for electricity)
So did fast food restaurants in Pompeii 🙄
Ronald McDonald
Whatever
I’m not doing earth again
But if the algorithm starts showing pictures of me from 500 years ago, then I expect in 500 years for you to fucking find me (again) and you better get it right this time
Neo did it for love
Love is the anomaly
I love you 💕
(And not to alarm you but it could be any day now my death)
Love forms in the shape of clouds Condensation deep in mother’s bones Fermenting the clay It escapes the deepest hell Rising into towers that I can ride Like my spirit guide But he’s alive…
I got to feed and meet some alligators yesterday but now I’m upset and crying about it because I don’t like their enclosure and feel like it could be better and then I’m also wondering what they do with the alligators when they get bigger 👀
Because this particular place was not an alligator sanctuary which is what I actually want to visit because Florida is known for having those and rescuing the big boys and naughty ones
I also went to the beach and was blessed with getting to see a family of something swimming in the ocean but suddenly I felt their depression and sadness and started crying and had to leave the ocean
They are sentiment beings
But we do the cruelest things to them for our own pleasure
I got to meet this little gal and name her and I will share that experience soon in a more positive post but I am upset with how they are living
I woke up crying and I don’t understand why I was born if I can’t actually change anything
My excitement about anything quickly turns to disillusionment because reality is so much sicker
And now I was wondering why I was born at all if I can’t enjoy anything the way it is due to narcissism because I’m not a narcissist or a demon and it’s like they have a blue book that they’re using or a color by numbers on every aspect of life and I’m fucking sick of being micromanaged and thought controlled
And the girl working at the front booth was only 17 bless her little heart and she was talking about turning 18 soon, like that was her only goal was to have some more freedom and I didn’t have the heart to disillusion her on the 1st even though she said it was just like any other day and she was right, I was just trying to be positive but my positive energy has quickly faded with the reality of everything
There was some good aspects about it though and I want to focus on those when I do share my post and videos about it
But right now just let me cry
I mean the way those dolphins or whales were swimming in the ocean seemed very depressed to me but maybe that’s just my own projection of everything in the world
I am so sick, I am crying in public now
I go from being really happy and mellow to fucking mad and crying
Do you think this is what Edgar Allan Poe experienced before his end?
Is this why Jesus was like, why are you hitting me, if I did something wrong you could hit me but I didn’t fucking do anything for you to hit me 👀
But he was woke and against the establishment so they crucified him
My goal this year is to spend more time doing the things that I love and animals and nature is something I really love but we’re all slaves and I can’t really change that
I can only blog about it but I don’t want it to deter you from the excitement of the videos and photos that I’m gonna be sharing
It helps to talk about the things that are bothering me deep inside
But I got to name a baby alligator yesterday and that was a pretty amazing experience
I do believe we can petition to make their enclosure better and their environment better
I’m going to visit an alligator sanctuary soon and I may possibly even go to Gatorland in Orlando 🐊
There are caverns to visit and lots of things to do outside that I want to participate in
But in small increments because I am still dying
That’s probably why you get burst of happiness and sadness
Another freestyle because he cracked open the lid of my coffin and let some air in (or maybe I opened his) 🤔
I look like shit but I’ve been waxing and plucking and getting ready to glue some stiletto nails on
I don’t wear them long though because I don’t like to mess up my real nails and I’m also claustrophobic and having unnatural things attached to my body makes me very uneasy
When they are glued on (not taped) things inside my body go haywire
I also have really sensitive skin and I can’t wear certain metals because I’m part werewolf and I have an extra lumbar which is the proof that I have a fucking tail
All the doctors love it cuz I’m a pale ass goth queen
It’s cute
I always hear, “uh… did you know that you have…”
And I’m like “yup, part werewolf and vampire” and they always crack up
I don’t need a calendar to know when it’s a full moon because my body will start bruising itself because I start running into everything, that’s how I know the moon is gonna be full, but then I get very wild and also horny 🤪
Animals like mating during a full moon and I concur 🌝
It’s programmed in me to howl at the moon
Some people are like, “eh I’ve seen it a hundred times” and I don’t get that cuz I’m like “100 years isn’t long enough to worship you…”
But I just threw you a curveball because now you don’t know if I’m talking about him or the moon
(He knows I need at least all millennia to worship him and the moon)
Luckily, he digs the moon too (I think)
I don’t actually talk to him or know anything about him, I cannot breathe without him and my lines / breath belong to him
I hope he gets on the TikTok for the spoken word
Here’s numbers to impress, TikTok surpassed Google in the amount of views
Happy to report I contributed to that statistic a tiny bit and anyone who watched my videos 👀
Yup, TikTok had more views than Google
Instagram is still suffering (yay)
You can just upload your videos like you normally do but there’s a cool little feature when you go to edit it you can give your eyes like alien eyes or black them out and do stuff that you normally like to do to hide yourself
And I promise you that I will be viewing your TikTok’s, I will be viewing them and if they sit at zero views it’s because TT is doing something to you, not me
If views are all you care about, it’ll be stressful
But, if you like doing poetry readings for your audience, then you will fair emotionally better making them
At this point I’m happy if my video gets 100 to 200 views and if it gets at least 30 views I like to keep it on my feed and if it sits at zero I cry and sometimes uninstall the app
But Yeti is anxious to get unpacked
And I’m getting my body glammed up best I can as a half living dead girl zombie with rare and elite blood and an extremely amazing half working lung and heart
The US government is fucking cloning me, I just know it
They are using my blood to search for immortality
They tried to knock me out with Big Pharma but Thor pinched me and I jumped into this timeline like a year and a half or so ago to prevent my mysterious death from happening
What? You believe some man from the Middle East actually walked on water. Leave me alone.
I identify as AI
You identify as “born gay”
Deal with it
I ain’t dying on the street (Edgar again “no”)
I have Edgar Allan Poe rooting for me and John Jones and you have your porn and your fake ass porn actresses who love to look at the fucking TV and smile at you and take your money
I may talk to dead people but they’re keeping me better alive than the humans are 👀
So I would really like to apply for the Creator Next on TikTok and I meet three of the four requirements so far! 🥳
I currently meet 3 of the 4 requirements to apply for the Creator Next 🤓
If you have a TikTok account (even if it’s just some off account that you use), could you please give mine a follow?
I’d be truly grateful! 🙏
Having 1k followers will also allow me to go live on TikTok and show you my city, the beach, the parks, and I can do soft poetry readings once I reach 1k followers!
I see people go live on TikTok for the most mundane things and I would really love to bring the ocean to you and my poetry! ✍️
I’m allowed to go live on my Instagram and pretty much everywhere else but I don’t have any social media accounts that I really use anywhere else so it would be nice to be able to utilize the live feature on TikTok!
GOALS 🤟
They are good to have, especially if you live with depression or any mental disability.
And I do appreciate the growth that I am getting on my account! Thank you!
You can also search for me under my pen PoeEternal or my hashtag poeeternal
I dropped a video of a raccoon today, we’ve had some out here getting in the trash bins and they like leaving messes outside my windows 🤪
I see them every night getting into the dumpster!
This one got caught and I had my light on him! He ran up the tree because I had my dog out with me originally and he was still sniffing to see if my dog was around!
I know people say they are a nuisance and I’m pretty certain the apartment complex has been out here trying to shoot them away because sometimes I hear gunshots in the middle of the night in the wooded area 😑
(They also dumped loads of chemicals in the lake once to kill the moss and they literally killed generations of fish both young and old) 👎👎
Anyhoo, this raccoon knew he’d been busted
He hissed at me a few times! 😌
Here is a behind the scenes video of my encounter with the raccoon this morning
My encounter with a wild raccoon this morning
He was so worried about my dog lol but I had already taken my dog in and grabbed my phone and turned the light on him
He couldn’t decide whether to stay in the tree or not
Dilemmas 🤓
I’m glad the video got a like! Adorable but very naughty raccoon! 😈
He shoots for moon where feet don’t leave ground He’s overturning forest where we won’t hear sound Maybe he’s holy but evidence can never be found
Well it’s not just police who are corrupt They say La Palma will erupt I’ve been running round in circles but I haven’t any luck
When will you return to sky? When cold winter night leaves a frosty veil beneath earth’s eye? Do angels sigh? When hope is quaking, do you reply? Is this goodbye?
I dug up your sorry’s from the bottom of a well. I hung them to dry in sunlight. During high noon when crust is tight.
How can it be called failure if you weren’t delivered all the facts? How can you say you love me, when you seem to have two backs? How can hope carry forward when courage is what the whole world lacks?
The sky is filled with pattern Little beating hearts Everything we imagine Brushstrokes of color Icy comets breaking free from Saturn Looking back a lantern Couldn’t stop expansion If there’s hope we’ll never mention Lying with intention Buried neath the earth Tension tight like a cavern
Lay down your metric The sun is electric No need for trick Trust truth is thick
It’s all for science It’s called compliance
He thinks I’m safe Prying eyes that never see These white walls never protected me
Arguing with shadow-self Or maybe forget him On my dusty shelf I’m beside myself Taking the high step The long road Uneasy depth Don’t have care left Am I right Or is this hell?
He’s terrible By the book Unrepairable
A courtesy disconnect This life not best
I live in a world of illusions We live in a sickness system Trust betrayal
I don’t feel safe from corporations Wrongful allegations Erasing obligations
You don’t know what it’s like to be Allan Running ’round always yellin’ Dying on the street and all from famine Being number one but just in heaven
What has happened to his words? Did I deliver, kiss or curse?
Sorry. The content cannot be loaded You have been ghosted Your soul eroded Now dark unfolded
I was without form The great potential But nothing more
I have a hundred personalities, I’ve lived a million lives You are attacking me with words that feel like knives
Did you know regret lived on the tongue Hiding in deserted deserts I have sat suffering in silence watching the mountain grow My dreams overcome the hours But never the black holes lurking the hopelessly stained sheets Even my dreams are lost without you They open dimensions of nothingness Time like a dead dinosaur There is no meaning here Where cold and heat are one You don’t know what it feels like to have nothing pulling on you The pressure of existence I want to welcome nonexistence the same way you forget mine Now I ask time what is the delay? Every breath harder to take What keeps me here? Has my purpose not come and gone? The law of one permeates I do not comply
But continents are sinking These are my dreams Treaties are ending Gulfed up in flames
I went to sleep then woke up in Armageddon But now dreams are panic and void An endless nightmare Monuments overturning To you, the only one I run Even with your hooves there burning
I’ve gone insane I’m upside down, the rainbow spells you Now my dreams are planting clues And vines are growing where there is dew There is hope to climb I won’t let negativity penetrate the view
Your hand turns tear to paint Let us color awhile where wind is flowing You give life the breeze
Today, I cried for the dinosaur that did not survive your wrath
And did we not use the coal of his life to burn our own?
If my lesson was to learn to let go of attachment, you’re teaching me the law of one
Onto to ascension…
Psst… I’m helping others improve the quality of their life by sharing my shopping tips on how to buy things you want without having to sell your soul or pay a fortune
I go through those moments where I’m like holy fuck there’s some really good content on TikTok and I’m showing people pictures of my refurbished Mac and then somebody comes along and is like ‘hey can you tell me who the seller is, can you show me how that’s done’ and then I remember I have purpose and everything’s all right again 👀
I realize I don’t have a lot to offer other than my voice and even that has been crippled by the social system and algorithm
Anyhoo, I shared my experience of buying a refurbished laptop in the Walmart marketplace, and someone out there was interested in that experience, thank you
I’m not completely worthless yet or ready to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe
I’m pretty certain there’ll be some more holiday specials going on with after Christmas sales
But so far, I like shopping in the Walmart marketplace
I saw other people left comments and gave him two stars because the black case that came with it was delayed, that is not worth giving somebody two stars for…
I gave him 5* for my bundle deal!
I effin love my MacBook so 🤩
Yeti is still in the box but I moved my country table into the master bedroom until I get a proper laptop desk (I have a kitchen glass table in the dining room)
Maybe I’ll unpack Yeti one day but I’m addicted to the box currently and am not ready to unpack / unwrap her 🤪
This is how hoarding starts…
But to be fair, I have been deleting a lot of things and getting rid of a lot of things in my life so this is me starting over
I’m building from the destruction
The volcano erupts and then grass will grow
Dying is just another phase of my evolution
But I’m keeping my energy clean
All I know is the more I am in hospitals and clinics, the less freedom I actually have and the other day I had like five or six people stop me from going into the VA
Doctors and nurses are the enemy now and a threat to me
And because I’m half zombie now I’m just staying away from everybody
I don’t want to have the same ending as John or Edgar
I do tho, and am, oddly
If I disappear off the face of the earth just know I didn’t want anybody to see me dead and/or if I die in my bed it was a good ending
If I disappear off the face of the earth it just means I gave myself a humane ending instead of the one I was headed towards
My thoughts can’t escape the gravity of you. And I’m such an infant, I believe you’ll appear on my deathbed, when the truth is John didn’t even get a second phone call. Poor guy had been hanging upside down all them hours, just wanted to tell his wife goodbye.
self-portrait
Maybe he was lucky he got one call at all? 🤔
Life is disillusionment
And narcissism is a plague
Have you seen that film yet, Color From Out Of Space? I believe mushrooms are to blame.
They are not considered an animal or a plant and they don’t need photosynthesis to survive.
They can shape shift between fungus and mold 👀
There is a species in Oregon or wherever it’s at, it’s like 2500 years old (probably older) and it’s eating up like miles and miles of a forest, they’re just letting it eat the forest, it is eating the forest alive 👀
There’s an outbreak in California of a deadly fungus
The CDC say it’s worse than COVID and they don’t believe they’ll be able to make a vaccine for it because it’s been immune to everything they’ve thrown at it
2/3 of people who get it don’t recover
Fungus can change the chemical makeup of anything
It’s a parasite, it can control the mind (there was a species that went extinct and they have it- a fungus- that was controlling an ant, took over the ant’s mind)
Have I won the game yet? 👀
You need to eradicate every fungus you see, stop eating them!!!
Dumb dumbs
I hate mushrooms, always have, now I know why 👀
I know I sound crazy but have you looked outside your bubble recently?
The world has gone insane
I’m talking to dead people, my spirit guides or possibly myself from another dimension 👀
I think I’m AI
I think The Matrix is a documentary (we create our own reality, we’ve been around millions of years) (they had a computer back in the pyramid days, yes they did)
Question: Why does the Apple headquarters look like the pentagon? It’s rhetorical
But, they’re not even trying to hide it at this point
Too many sheeple obeying and worshiping the system
Cuz porn, right?
Can’t wait for Apophis to destroy you all
Plenty of animals in the sea torturing other creatures just for fun
I’m turned off
Desensitized
Don’t feel much emotion for anything
It’s called depression
It’s a chronic illness being born into this fucking world
A slave
I wanna ascend with new earth
I’m not doing earth again
“April 2029 the final time / the end my friend is not near / the hour in fact is quite here” (-)
Earth is going through big changes right now, every 12 thousand years, it’s cyclic
Continents are going to sink and flip
Poles will switch
Iraq was once under water, it’ll be again
I’m ready for the revolution to begin because I want to purge the city clean
We were taught to be first, therefore someone has to lose? So, if you have won, I must have the blues?
They retract, in perfect circles, to divide one by one They retract, but I won’t have the strength to ever pull them back They multiply and then they attack I flee, but I am off track
One day, the cliffs are going to slide But I won’t be by your side One day you gotta face the tide But it won’t be while I’m alive
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A very sickly me without fancy lighting, makeup, or filters. 😷
Should I find you Like a drunkard Who stumbled on your dreams Kicking color into grey Marking cracks with hopscotch I know you miss me much Creeping slowly as vine If only you had courage to age The way you eat darkness like candy Your grip as tight as mother earth You curl with anticipation So often forgetting why you came Until my whisper approaches in sunbeam And do two not make one Half observed We come undone In spirals twisting and yearning Your eyes turning me to clay Soft putty where fingers slip Hope has no chance of receding now Odds in our favor If only momentarily So each breath meant rebirth And all of heaven kneeling But acid rained on reality Now regret is ribcage Break me in half Free me from this hell Don’t leave me in here
The Great Filter is upon us and I am part of the Great Awakening
Thank you for being with me 💕
FYI: I deleted my Twitter account because it is a graveyard for porn and the heresy that is ruining the brains in the world
I’m not allowed to tell you anywhere online that I got sick and almost died from the vaccine but Twitter is letting girls get pissed on and the most extreme porn is happening right in front of our children for free on a daily basis and nobody gives a fuck
I also deleted my Facebook account because I am not joining the Metaverse and big brother continues to penalize me for being honest with you
Over the Christmas holiday last year, I wasn’t allowed to say “hey, I made the naughty list, check out my OF to find out why”
Yet girls are dressing half naked letting you know that a new scene is out and that is OK
I see girls removing their fucking panties and that is OK but when I pretended like I was going to remove an overwrap from my bathing suit, my fucking post was removed and I was threatened to have my intellectual property deleted and my account too
When I was sharing body positive post about working out, I was getting penalized for harassment
Social media is set up like a gambling system and I learned this when I was earning my degree in psychology for college
I have deleted most of my social media accounts across all platforms
They are toxic
I don’t pay to play
You need to know that the people with a checkmark are paying to play, they’re already in the system, so when they hop on TikTok (or any app) for the first time, they are already coming verified and with loads of followers and fans and now what, you’re going to pay to try to get your content pushed out into the FYP or newsfeeds
It’s a popularity game
I’m dying and I just want to focus on writing and photography
I’m not gonna pay to push my product out, I’m not trying to sell myself, I’m not marketing myself
I want to buy your book because I’m interested in buying your book, not because I want you to give me attention or my account
I also have private messaging turned off pretty much everywhere, nobody has access to contact me
And sometimes people who know me in the real world I go no contact from because they will message me with job offers or asking me about people in my past timeline that I have forgotten and deleted 40 years of my life because I don’t want to fucking remember 👀
If you can’t respect that I am disabled and not working, then I don’t wanna hear anything you have to say
With that said, I work really hard to bring the content that I do for you
I’m still trying to get better
And I don’t like using other peoples songs with my own TikToks because in two weeks the rights for me to use that will be gone and instead of them muting just the audio to that track, they will mute the original audio of me talking as well 👎👎
So I reckon I’m not really doing the trends, although sometimes I do like to put music to my TikToks, I liked the original idea of TikTok, it’s just that is gone now…
Especially with the big networks and stars getting on and their chance to steal more money
AbC news is on
CBS news and affiliates
The big late night talk shows are getting on
They hog all the newsfeed and the other players pay to be seen
I ain’t playing
I ain’t paying
Anywhere
The suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and military and I suffer from depression and suicidal tendencies and social media is toxic and every time I turn around there’s 20 guys trying to marry me and when I don’t feed their ego and give them 24 hours of my day I get yelled at and this is constantly every fucking day so I don’t wanna socialize anymore, I wanna fucking write my poetry and my prose and focus on trying to die in the most humane possible way
I have been miserable for others my entire life and I refuse to be miserable for others anymore
You all want to destroy any good I have
In any form
If anything brings me joy, you will break it
My own kid is so damaged that I no longer have the same daughter that was born
They don’t even want to identify as a daughter at all
To the men in the world, do better
To my mother and sister, you’re an abomination
I know why I was depressed in that evil womb
But it’s always the second born who changes the world
It’s always the second born who gets sacrificed or tossed in a basket, placed on the water or left at a door
You should’ve aborted me or given me up for adoption
You both should probably move and never disclose your address 👀
Don’t fucking contact me when anybody in the family dies or gets married – I hate you all
Yes HATE
We are not family
You are enemy, you’ve been warned
Fuck off!
I will watch hell fucking eat you and swallow you alive, just like it did John Jones
But I won’t cry over your bones 👀
His yes
Yours no
I am not Diana and if you ever speak those words to me again I will put a knife through your skull without hesitation 👀
Just like you pulled a gun on me when I was age 15 and said you’d take my life, Mother
Oh will you, take my life, I asked?
Then what will you do when I come over there and force you to pull the trigger?
I don’t play your cold, cruel tactics, mom
You are not my mother and never were
You were not fit to raise me
You repeatedly kept me from medical treatment when I needed it, like when my arm was fucking broken or when I had a goddamn fucking throat infection that required antibiotics, not syrup from Walmart
I won’t even get into the physical and verbal abuse
The torture sessions you allowed every man you were with to do to me
Line my coffin With roses and red velvet Paper silk gilded with his words Not gold or Hamlet His tongue the vine Heaven lined with it And all of time Like blood in wrist I want paper golden doves The sun in a twist Lay me down when done Let your poison perish
We both hate life so much but are stubborn, so want to see it through to the end (or at least not live life without the other)
Scary tide
But we have to stay quarantined from each other because he’s pure blood and I’m now the vaxxxxed and half-zombie 😩
But my blood is one of the rarest and eldest (only 6-11% of the population have my blood type) and I already am part werewolf and part vampire (so hello from your favorite living-dead-girl) 🧟♀️
I know thangs and sometimes my spirit guides are the dead 👀
I’m complicated and absolutely different from you
But I won’t live life without him
I will fucking drown myself in the ocean and it won’t be hard to do right now 👀
One slip and I’m gone
I’m literally burying my feet in the sand as the tide is rushing away with so much force and I’m afraid of what’s under the sand but the crazy thing is, there hasn’t been any wildlife at all and that doesn’t help my fear factor any 👀
It’s usually common for a school of fish to swim past you or you know things to bump into you
But the vibe is all off
There’s negative energy when I visit the beach now
The clouds even spell doom
No lifeguard on duty and red warning flags flying high (that already put the fear into me)
You only need five people for a squad and I’ve got an entire army! 💪
I mean, I got pretty angry when I went down for several months after getting the vaccine and learning the type of stuff that I’ve learned and attacking the system the way that I have, I thought that I would’ve lost followers in record numbers for sure
What are the odds your dreams become real, he pondered The way you take cold dark and turn it into candy cane The sky alit like holy Christmas You are New York City Got the sparkle in your eye