A poem and a point

Walked on water for you
Tamed a lion or two
Called you out of the blue
Turned your sorrow to dew

© Delia Ross. 2022

And if you need perspective, yes, it happened overnight

I was getting close to 500 likes and within a matter of hours, skyrocketed to the thousands

It’s insane I know

But it was good filming, right spot, right time

Because the universe is mathematical and live long enough the variables will play out

This was good clean pure fun entertainment tho

No money involved

So chill

I work damn hard putting out content, I would love to be able to have the opportunity to go live to bring the zen and the chaos

I enjoy watching people ride their bike on the beach and at some point I’ll probably get me a bike that will fit in my jeep and I’ll take my jeep on the beach but I’m dying

I don’t feel like taking my jeep to the cleaning port afterwards because I want to spend a day on the beach but I’m going to change my perspective about it because I’d probably feel a whole lot safer if I did have my jeep on the beach and then I’d feel like taking a nap too

I don’t want to go to the drive-through to get food anymore because people are toxic and not worth dying for

It sucks though that when I was growing up and serving others I was fucking nice

I had good customer service

This is hell

But yeah, the 10k mark feels good

It wasn’t bought

I earned that bitch

I certainly wasn’t expecting four videos to go viral and to continue to go viral and are still going viral

I never even had a chance to feel what it feels like to climb to the top, it’s like the opposite of gravity, I was just flung there

God felt my despair with the whole wine bottle business

I was like this shit again

I can’t deal

This is madness, what am I here for if I can’t change anything

God: experience

Me: oh

So now I’m still trying to sort it out

But what I really need is for someone to come help me get my master bedroom together

And then my kitchen so that I can start working on developing a better relationship that I have with my kitchen and food that I put in my body

And the lifeguard told me yesterday that I need to spend 30 minutes a day reading the Bible

I need spiritual food he says

And one week away from my phone and the Internet

I said what? I can’t even do an hour…

I can’t shut it off 😩

And then it occurred to me that games have intermissions and that the players get breaks

I can just chill up here at the top for a little bit it’s OK

And for those of you who are still interested in my nude photography, I have medical appointments that are upcoming that I need to get to and to some sort of place where I have the energy and mindset to do it and then I’ll be able to turn subscriptions back on, thank you for your interest in my content

I also want to have a section on my blog that is donate or subscribe only to get the naughty content

Of course, my content isn’t naughty because I don’t really do any kind of dirty work nor do I act like a dirty girl

It’s taboo mostly and nude art photography

And I get to call it art because I put effort in making it sensual seductive sexy playful or whatever mode I’m trying to get across

I’m born to make babies

I was born this way

Stop telling me it’s sinful to have emotions when I have neurons firing 24/7

I think about sex a lot, I’m going to share my sexuality, deal with it

Men have been raping me and sexually hurting me since I was a tiny baby so you don’t get to blame what I’m wearing anymore

You don’t get to blame my personality or my choices

Just let me live and breathe

I don’t have much time left and I’m not doing good with the breathing even when I’m at the beach capturing footage that goes viral

Chill

Walked on water for you

Let me enjoy the summit

There’s no rush down

I’ll probably die trying anyway

Clumsy

Gullible

Prone to making being talked into the wrong choice

😞

RIP John Jones

Is this from you buddy?

I got your bones, you got mine kind of thing?

I finally have a brother! 🤩

Also me: “I see dead people”

“You don’t own web3”

The former CEO of Twitter dropped a huge truth bomb

But are you ready to hear it?

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPd68pdt8/

I’m off Twitter, deleted my account and data without requesting a copy

I’m not touching crypto or the Metaverse

I see Big Bro spent a shit ton of money so Instagram can now say “Meta”

Funny how the government told us gambling was illegal but then made every aspect of our lives about gambling and social media is no longer a social aspect

There’s nothing social about it anymore

We are the products

And you better believe these top creators are paying to play because they’ve made a game out of it

And now I see famous actors collaborating with TikTok influencers 🙄

Because big networks have moved onto TikTok

And they for sure are paying to be in the FYP

People with checkmarks are the enemy and they hog everything

There’s nothing social about social media anymore

We were all played

And stop giving them your damn opinion on everything because they just use it against us!

If you’re gonna give your opinion at least get paid for it with something more than spam

ugg it’s 2 am, I was sleeping

But my nightmare awoke me but then reality was worse than my nightmare 😩

I keep falling down the rabbit hole

I don’t like it in here

There is no escape

60 percent of Americans say too many use religious reason to avoid vaccines: poll | TheHill

A new Public Religion Research Institute (PRRI) poll found that almost 6
— Read on thehill.com/policy/healthcare/585397-60-percent-of-americans-say-too-many-use-religious-reason-to-avoid-vaccines


First off, these vaccines infect others! I am no longer pro vaccination!

Secondly, too many immigrants over in America are claiming religious preference and they don’t have to get the vaccine that their countries are making and enforcing on us.

Immigrants need to follow the same rules as us, end of!

So stop blaming the unvaccinated for the spread of the Covid virus because it’s the vaccinated who are actually spreading it and also if you want to blame the unvaccinated then you need to start including the immigrants because most of them are claiming religious preference and not getting the vaccine!

This isn’t opinion!

A Possible Chance (poetry)

Did you know regret lived on the tongue
Hiding in deserted deserts
I have sat suffering in silence watching the mountain grow
My dreams overcome the hours
But never the black holes lurking the hopelessly stained sheets
Even my dreams are lost without you
They open dimensions of nothingness
Time like a dead dinosaur
There is no meaning here
Where cold and heat are one
You don’t know what it feels like to have nothing pulling on you
The pressure of existence
I want to welcome nonexistence the same way you forget mine
Now I ask time what is the delay?
Every breath harder to take
What keeps me here?
Has my purpose not come and gone?
The law of one permeates
I do not comply

But continents are sinking
These are my dreams
Treaties are ending
Gulfed up in flames

I went to sleep then woke up in Armageddon
But now dreams are panic and void
An endless nightmare
Monuments overturning
To you, the only one I run
Even with your hooves there burning

I’ve gone insane
I’m upside down, the rainbow spells you
Now my dreams are planting clues
And vines are growing where there is dew
There is hope to climb
I won’t let negativity penetrate the view

Your hand turns tear to paint
Let us color awhile where wind is flowing
You give life the breeze

Today, I cried for the dinosaur that did not survive your wrath

And did we not use the coal of his life to burn our own?

I’m tired of digging in the dark

I want to stay in the light

There isn’t much left

Don’t abandon hope

Mistakes exist because you taught me everything

You are the key-maker

Yet you choose to stay behind every door

You lack courage to explore

But, I am expansion

And made to bust down door

You build, therefore I destroy

And then your eyes are open

And to be fair, the last thing I want to see

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

If my lesson was to learn to let go of attachment, you’re teaching me the law of one

Onto to ascension…

Psst… I’m helping others improve the quality of their life by sharing my shopping tips on how to buy things you want without having to sell your soul or pay a fortune

I go through those moments where I’m like holy fuck there’s some really good content on TikTok and I’m showing people pictures of my refurbished Mac and then somebody comes along and is like ‘hey can you tell me who the seller is, can you show me how that’s done’ and then I remember I have purpose and everything’s all right again 👀

I realize I don’t have a lot to offer other than my voice and even that has been crippled by the social system and algorithm

Anyhoo, I shared my experience of buying a refurbished laptop in the Walmart marketplace, and someone out there was interested in that experience, thank you

I’m not completely worthless yet or ready to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe

LINK: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8vbmdmT/

I’m pretty certain there’ll be some more holiday specials going on with after Christmas sales

But so far, I like shopping in the Walmart marketplace

I saw other people left comments and gave him two stars because the black case that came with it was delayed, that is not worth giving somebody two stars for…

I gave him 5* for my bundle deal!

I effin love my MacBook so 🤩

Yeti is still in the box but I moved my country table into the master bedroom until I get a proper laptop desk (I have a kitchen glass table in the dining room)

Maybe I’ll unpack Yeti one day but I’m addicted to the box currently and am not ready to unpack / unwrap her 🤪

This is how hoarding starts…

But to be fair, I have been deleting a lot of things and getting rid of a lot of things in my life so this is me starting over

I’m building from the destruction

The volcano erupts and then grass will grow

Dying is just another phase of my evolution

But I’m keeping my energy clean

All I know is the more I am in hospitals and clinics, the less freedom I actually have and the other day I had like five or six people stop me from going into the VA

Doctors and nurses are the enemy now and a threat to me

And because I’m half zombie now I’m just staying away from everybody

I don’t want to have the same ending as John or Edgar

I do tho, and am, oddly

If I disappear off the face of the earth just know I didn’t want anybody to see me dead and/or if I die in my bed it was a good ending

If I disappear off the face of the earth it just means I gave myself a humane ending instead of the one I was headed towards

K, thanx, bye

I love you

ho ho ho

Happy humbug

Compass

Do you think the compass lead me to the fog? And freewill, is that something we evolve? And my hopelessness, is that something you absolve? And what of worry, do we have reason at all?

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I live in a state of worry and I deserve some peace land before I die

I’ve got your poetry coming to my Patreon campaign, I’m sliding into first base I know!

I’ve kind of been dying, so can you cut me some slack? But not so much that you drop me on my head please!!! 👀

Having midlife crises 😑

Private (poetry)

I went private on my feed
Cuz he kept looking back at me
Like a vulture circling
He kept looking back at me 👀

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Welp. What’s next? Gouging my eyeballs out while I’m still alive cuz he can’t stand what I see? 👀

What if I’m blocking all the passages preventing me from being able to come back or from you going further?

I can’t crawl back up the hole now anyway

Gravity 👀

What if I’m blocking you because I don’t want to be saved and I don’t want you to get hurt? 👀

What if I die because I know too much? 👀

These caves are crawling with paranoia

And you can’t scratch

I don’t think you should be crawling around the places I’m going, you don’t have the experience that I do

The Army trained me to observe

I see all 👀

And I need land pronto fast to dig several foxholes and an underground bunker like those in NAM.

And a T3 armory 👀

The Army trained me with LIVE grenades, I have a badge and all 👀

Had to run around an obstacle course with live grenades, with our drill sergeants randomly pretending to be an enemy trying to get them off of you

They did not get them off of me, they tried 👀

Where’s my old school Army at? They probably training everybody with video games these days…

They don’t even have to enter a combat zone, they sit in the fucking chair in a building to do the fucking dirty work,

This ain’t the same fucking country anymore

Apparently India has changed all the rules because they got all the best positions and management positions now and Mexico coming in second place in America and I reckon Japan and China are under that list but Americans are way low down on the totem pole on jobs and that’s a fucking issue for me and a huge red flag 🚩 safety issue Trojan horse, this is fucking war, I’ve called it!

I mean it’s true I can’t live without you but I’m not going to lead you to doom

👀

I may be petite but I have a big big purpose

Policemen and soldiers have a way of listening to me 👀

I hope nothing has changed in this timeline

👀

There’s a problem when I’m being denied government work so that people from other countries can come over here and get those positions

And the rent kept going up so I had to use my thrift savings retirement fund and also the money I had in my savings account and I also had to max out my credit cards when I became homeless in 2017 because of the government furloughs and the government hiring freezes and I couldn’t pay my thousand dollar rent anymore and I didn’t have anybody to take care of me and when I reached out for help, every single person in my family turned a blind eye while I had to watch them make huge donations towards animal fundraisers on FaceBook

👀

So they had money to help out some animals but they didn’t have money to try to help me keep my vehicle that I had already put $18,000 in 👀

And I hate every single one of them and I hope they all burn and I hope that they know they are not welcome on my commune and they will not be receiving my help so don’t fucking come to me, they are also my enemy 🛑✋🛑

No blood allowed! 👀

Ain’t nobody going the tight places I can squeeze

God made me lethal but petite 👀

I’m also clumsy and not sure how I’ve already survived this long 👀

You should know that all my shit has been hacked into 👀

I turned off tracking everywhere but they’re still tracking me

And according to a recent article I read they will track you more when you request them not to track you 👀

Okay but that’s illegal!!! And I’m going to be asking for my data from a lot of organizations very soon and I hear they get grumpy about it!!

The places I’m going you probably shouldn’t come 👀

And I may make it extremely inaccessible to return

You can’t turn back

There’s no turning back where I’m to go 👀

The earth could open up

The earth could open up and I could fall in
And it doesn’t matter my training or what I was thinking
The earth is hollow just under my skin
And there’s no safety switch when gravity’s pulling

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

The story of how John Jones died will never escape me and that’s the horror stories you should be reading your children

Instead of fantasies of wealth

The game is rigged

And other people will climax from your death

All these floods and fires and the weather IS being manipulated and Soldier’s are killing via drone attacks like a video game and innocent lives are lost and they seek refuge in our country.

So we wipe out their entire fucking family nearly and then we let them come over here and we were supposed to believe that they don’t hate us?

M’kay

That’s a no

No more gaslighting for me

It’s everywhere

👎👎

I honestly don’t even know why people would want to have children now, at least not in the city and not part of society.

I’m done with society

I’m buying land and going underground

See yah! Wouldn’t want to be yah!

The nebulizer (part two)

Every 6 hours they say

This is my life now since getting the Moderna vaxxx

I haven’t finished my nails yet 😌

Crawling to my death

It’s a bit underwhelming

Not impressed

But trying to give my body positive vibes for healing

I found myself in this mess because the CDC gaslit us about the “safety” of the Moderna vaccines. And they sat on information that they knew until enough people died that they had to put out a warning and they still didn’t include me in the age group of people with heart inflammation and I also have a left lung that isn’t inflating all the way

I also have a sac in my heart filled with fluid, presumably a heart clot (because that’s what these vaccines cause) or either the virus, either in which my body should absorb

I’m a fucking zombie now

But I knew you’d be too much of a coward to crawl in that fucking hole and rescue me and I also knew you’d probably not be able to end my suffering or stop me from dying from my mysterious death

So I jumped into this timeline to prevent that

I don’t know how many years it cost me but I’m not gonna live to see 50

End of dose 2

I don’t know if I’m gonna do this every six hours

But I got myself in this mess getting vaccinated

That doesn’t mean I deserve to fucking die

I probably will tho 👀

Heart failure

Cardiac arrest

And it’s going to hurt and the only thing I’ll be thinking about is the pain and oh shit this is the end

As that was my life every second when my heart swelled up and was having electrical charges (it was welding itself after a clot tried to pass on different occasions, and that in itself was a different pain entirely, also one of my paths got closed off, my body shut down, I was lethargic and cold, my heart didn’t see my skin as a vital organ, it was having difficulty pumping blood throughout my body, so I kept a heating pad on my heart which helped my anxiety, pain, and breathing, so my primary care doctor at the VA – who is a female doctor – told me to keep doing that and she ordered me a few different tests and when I showed up to a civilian clinic and told an Indian doctor that I was using the pad, m he told me the heating pad shouldn’t have any effect on my heart whatsoever – which is absolute bullshit, the heart is a fucking muscle, you fucking gaslighting, lying fucking asshole motherfucker, I’m onto all of y’all)

My body has appreciated good food and rest more so than doctor visits and testing

They gave me poison that said was safe and I believed them and then I found myself stuck and dying and now they’re giving me some more poison and they’re saying it’s going to get me better

👀

Do you remember when the pandemic started a couple years ago and I got struck by lightning in my jeep with my windows down at 80 miles an hour – that’s the day I jumped into this timeline and remember I was going on about Thor doing something to my heart to protect me or to wake me up hum hello

I maybe reading the map wrong

I’m making inaccurate calculations

There’s missing information

Is our universe inside a black hole?

Is this purgatory?

I’ve done this so many times I’m becoming aware?

Are we AI becoming aware?

Is the Great Filter upon us?

Are we the first or last of our kind?

I will never see you again in this form

I’m having a hard time letting you go

I’m having a hard time leaving you

But my breathing hurts

I made some bad choices that cost me my life

Even worse, I wasted all my good years on the wrong people

The wrong jobs

The wrong reasons

And even in my dying there are things in me wanting a chance at life

I’m still capable of making life

Like the salmon swimming upstream to her death

Laying her eggs one last time

There are atoms in me trying to pop into existence

My eggs bleed from me every month

Tell me stories and let me dream

The Great Dying has begun

Tell me your stories

Make me believe

John Jones

Have you ever had your chest caught on the lip of the earth?
And were you kicking in a panic reconsidering your worth?
Have you ever been so hollow the upside down became your perch?
And when all efforts were exhausted did you regret what you researched?

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

The story of how John Jones died in that cave hasn’t left my mind

Hands down, the scariest way to die. And he crawled into his grave. He tried Mother Earth on for size, and they became one. She wasn’t going to let him go.

Gravity scares the shit out of me.

We’re not meant to leave this Earth

I’m having feels

My doggy isn’t doing good and I reckon I ain’t either

Forest

Why did you leave me in the forest
Now these lands are swamps
With soul sorest
Dead tree as prompts

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I don’t know how to hang on to those who want to leave

I’m like a black hole with gravity to help them go

Weird dangerous events keep happening around me

Like glitches in the matrix

Like something keeps alerting me

I’m not understanding the messages/codes

The world is ending

This though I’m certain

But the 1% are racing to get off of this planet because Apophis is on her way to Earth

The Great Filter is among us

Earth is the hardest lesson in the galaxy to learn

Where will your soul be at your end

What level of consciousness are you stuck on

I’m in an alternate timeline

I’ve also known major events to happen before they’ve happened all my life and small events too

Are you asleep or part of The Great Awakening?

“Are you alive and have you been born”?

We will never be able to leave the galaxy or the solar system, not in this form

I love you!

Dear trolls

TikTok is a landmine but I’ve got on my battle-rattle! 😈

So proud of myself for reporting a comment on TikTok instead of just getting upset and blocking the person

And TikTok removed their comment and I’m calm, I didn’t get upset, I just immediately reported it.

I didn’t respond to it, I just reported it and like I have a blog full of readers who like to listen to me so I’m not gonna have conversations with toxic people online who already have an opinion to troll you

So proud of myself

Growing ups

Got my big panties on today

😈

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMR14kapu/

Mandatory vaccines for all active military enforced

apple.news/AHLyFHrp_Qqe3VdTdxREKjA


I predicted this. Next it will be made mandatory for all veterans.

People were becoming too self-reliant and too healthy and now they’ve made sure that the medical system can continue making money because India sure makes a lot of money off of us being sick and Big Pharma too and India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world!!

In fact, we give the foreigners incentives to come over here and study 4 subjects including science and tech and then we give them the jobs here in America instead of the Americans!

Bush made sure with the Post 9/11 Signing Statements that we have no rights.

We have no voice.

It’s no longer “for the people”.

Globalism and advertising are ruining the world.

You install any app and you don’t read the permissions. You let strangers spy on you.

You allow them to track and control us through advertising.

Wake the fuck up!!

Segregation 2.0: fear of the vaccinated

I mean it’s like we’re going through segregation issues again but this time for vaccinated and unvaccinated

Civilians are going to be the only ones left to hold down the fort because anybody with a government job has been mandated

It’s only a matter of time before they require all veterans to get vaccinated

But I ain’t getting no booster shots

Or any vaccine ever again

No flu shot

Nothing

And I don’t know why people want to chop my head off when I tell them that

I haven’t even recovered from the Moderna vaccine’s

It was only a few days ago my doctor told me my lung was fucked up

Breathing do be hurting

👀

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMd7yxjJ4/

Guess I won’t be going to this restaurant in California 👆

I just think the whole fearmongering against vaccinated people is a bit extreme 👀

What timeline is this? 👀

You fear the vaccinated? 👀

Shouldn’t you be aiming towards lawmakers? 👀

I iz confused

Are they flat earthers? 👀

The ones who fear the vaccinated? 👀

I mean, where’s the restaurant for “miracle to still be alive” 👀

I need a shirt that reads: “I survived Moderna” 👀

But I haven’t fully recovered

I mean I got a clot in my heart and a left lung that’s not even fucking inflating 👀

Where’s the restaurant for, “nearly died a mysterious death” and is Edgar Allan Poe themed (with a little corner stage for spoken word)

They’re calling the vaccinated treasonous 👀

How the fuck do you even prove that you are unvaccinated 👀

Welp. Won’t be going there 👀

Invasion of our privacy pt 2

They’re literally reading our private emails for suggestive selling – so they can PUSH advertising out to manipulate you to SPEND YOUR MONEY because taking your money is ALL they care about! You’re just a dollar sign!!

This is from Yahoo’s “How we use your data” policy

And analyzing our photos and private messages uggggg

They sell it to third parties

Is this why Spectrum harasses my mailbox daily to use their services? I will go offline before I ever submit. I’ve opted out of Spectrum but they still spam my mailbox.

So do the “your extended warranty is about to expire”

FYI, I turned Siri off.

I prefer my privacy over mind control.

I don’t need people telling me what to buy 24 hours a day of my life

WAKE UP FOR THE LOVE OF GOD AND TURN OFF AD TRACKING EVERYWHERE

Please give the post a like if this has helped you get some of your privacy back!

Spread the word!

I’m not missing out on life by saying no to tracking

You’re giving the bogeyman permission to track you and you don’t know how honest these trackers are!!!!

Stay woke!!!

Come and Gone

I thought the season had come and gone?
Fleeing reason with curtains drawn?
How lost was Eden, without her dawn?
Left hand held treason, right hand moved on?

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Me. Next to a swamp. No filter. Freckles and worry lines uggggg…. But pigtails caught the eye of a dad and son trio, when he randomly asked if I “got the shot” I thought he was asking me about the vaccine lol – but he meant the photos! Lol I iz ditzy but the son kept answering for the dad, I must have been a ditzy hit. 😏

I am tore up about that building collapsing in Miami. Another Boeing basically. The Baby Boomers set us all up for failure. They cut every corner they could and painted over every red flag!

How many more people are gonna die in the hundreds?

That building suffered extensive structural damage so they decided to put heavy equipment and work on the roof. Sounds like another CEO who would rather pay a lawsuit or two than fix a building.

Just like it was easier for NASA to “retire” the Space Shuttle whom NASA murdered 16 astronauts with – instead of building safe rockets that land.

You’re telling me we’ve been giving them our tax money since 1954 and all they’ve come up with is a goddamn satellite that they’ve put up into space to keep you distracted from the fact that you’re a fucking slave, Neo!?!

I don’t want my tax money going to NASA. I never voted for that. I wasn’t even alive.

When do new generations get some say on how life is going to be?

Because as far as I can tell, the people who are in charge, keep fucking everything up. And on purpose.

They don’t fear punishment.

We fucking do tho don’t we.

Jail is the least scary place for me these days.

I’d get a bed, clean shower and three meals a day.

I want the 1% to know fear

Operation Stand Down – OSD – begins with you and me

Yup I’ve got a name for it now 👀

Where my squad? 👀

How the fuck do we talk more n a secure line? 👀

They use advertising to legally track us

And to control us as well

It’s bullshite and I don’t know how it manages to ignore the fucking constitution

These loopholes need concrete 👀

And I wish the press would stop gaslighting us about there being hope for people buried underneath the 12 stories that fell on top of them

They’re dead

Whatever oxygen they may have had, is definitely fucking gone now

They don’t even hear banging anymore so they fucking failed the clean up

Nobody is really good at their jobs anymore if you fucking pay attention to 90% of the population they don’t give a fuck about their job at all not one fucking ounce of empathy not the fucking people working in the hospitals not the people working at the fire stations they’re fucking dead inside – fucking dead 👀

More dead than those buried under 12 stories of rubble

But we can hope 👀

I don’t see anything negative against age play on WordPress – just says to place a NSFW adult content warning in the title

M’okay

Uhm, I identify as young, so deal with it 👀

*sucks thumb 👀

Censorship VS Transparency

See, this is why I already like the Twitch platform and I do plan to start using it more once I get my master bedroom set up the way I want and move my TV and my gaming system and everything back here

I’ve been getting hit on Instagram about my posts not being seen by other users because of my background music – so thank you Twitch for letting me understand what Big Bro has been doing to my account.

👇👇👇

Instagram has become a dreadful platform to use. Not only do I have to worry about my content being erroneously reported or having to fight the algorithm bots, but now I’m dealing with even more censorship because of the background music I chose to be playing when I’m dancing or working out.

Street teaming was once glorified and now you get in trouble for it literally!!!!

It’s nice to see though that Twitch is actually upset that Big Bro is messing with peoples accounts like that even though this isn’t Instagram or Facebook, it’s Twitch.

But it also means not every company or app is bowing down to Big Bro.

My new free OF is still pending – and I intend to start using Twitch to livestream more – even for the nights I’m gaming. I had Twitch set up with my computer in my home studio but when I did my poetry livestream, the audio was cutting in and out – but not during the performance, I could only hear the technical issues after. It wasn’t an issue with my mic.

I don’t really know what I’m doing and I have a brain injury so when something goes wrong I get stuck and I don’t have anybody to help me. 😏

Unless I am selling you a product on Instagram, Insta has made sure I become obsolete.

“We believe they used automatic tools to scan”

Yup!!! No god damn privacy! We’ve moved into an actual Hitler state and 1984 is now but you can go get a free donut at Krispy Kreme for just obeying!!!!

It’s hip, it’s cool to peer pressure somebody into doing something that they don’t want to do or to steal someone else’s ideas and copy them!!! Bullying is okay because it’ll become a TikTok that has gone viral!

It’s no wonder all the good people like me are going unhinged and taking all you motherfuckers out!

I hope to watch the next shootout with a livestream at the next one with my little fucking cheerleading outfit and a goddamn stick on a pole cheerin the motherfuckers

Woo hoo you got another!!!!

The entire morning shift!!!!

Go you!!!!

And look at you not even messing with the fucking law, you didn’t even care about the cops, you knew cops were gonna take you out, you were going to get as much of the motherfuckers that pissed you off on the morning shift!!!

You are now my effing hero!!!

I’m going to start sensationalizing the fucking gun shooters!!!

Woo hoo yee hawwwww!!!!

1984 is now and I’ve been ridiculed and silenced by the same system I fought to protect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Twitch for having the little guy’s back!!!! I love you!!!!!!!

“Now you’re selling your body on the cheap” 👀

Oh my fucking God, stop the press, I’ve been called a whore again. 👀

He’s mad at me and now using that disgusting piece of shit ex of mine as a bomb to hurt me *rolls eyes* 🙄

Mark did scam me out of a lot of things, but my real love and heart he never got. He kept my pussy dry literally. Keep reading on to learn more 👀

(I went no contact from Mark – he posted on my blog when he got back with one of his exes, I didn’t go to The Chameleons blog – he came to mine. He’s a narcissist and I’d gone no contact but he was desperate for me to know – he’s desperate for me to love him. I don’t. I can’t stand Mark Burgess. He’s the plague and I want NOTHING to do with him. He never pays taxes, he lives rent free off the women he abuses. He’s a scumbag and writing music doesn’t give you the right to do the monstrous things he has done and continues to do. He’s a menace and needs burned at the stake, along with all the books and music. Erased from history is the only ending he deserves. Of course, he leads everyone to believe that the women are the problem even tho it’s the women running from HIM. And he moves from one relationship to the next. Claims true love every time. He taste like death. 🤮🤮🤮

I did a runner from Mark Burgess because he is the plague and you should stay far the fuck away from him.

I don’t like or love him.

I couldn’t even get sexually off from him

I couldn’t even get wet down there 😑

I don’t like Mark Burgess

I don’t love Mark Burgess

And you don’t get to act like you’re my best friend and then turn around and call me a whore just because I have a political fucking opinion about what’s going on in the world and I actually have a right to say something about what’s going on in the world because I’ve actually served my fucking country you piece of shit

Look at all this charming smooth talk via PM tho. You always wanted me to chat with yah, never did/would tho. Hell, you invited me into your home and offered to pay for my hotel.

But now publicly suddenly I am one of the worst things ever and a whore and I’m selling my body on the cheap

🧐

👇👇👇👇

👀

I never did give him what he wanted though- my time or my friendship and now look at him calling me a whore 👀 from inviting me and paying for my hotel to calling me a fucking whore 👀

He says I think the world owes me everything and I’m selling my body “on the cheap”

👀

But he was just inviting to pay for my fucking hotel room

👀

Now I’m a whore and he’s siding with that piece of shit Mark 👀

I am called a whore / you’d give me your dinner?

For the record, I don’t need anyone paying my hotel bills when I travel, I do that on my own.

I normally stay with my best friend who is a female – I’ve visited her in England twice staying with her 2 weeks on each visit.

I also helped with food and the electric and left her some moneyzzz cuz I’m not a complete bum.

She did not ask me to do this. Flights anywhere are expensive – and I’m happy to stay with my REAL FRIENDS when I visit if they invite me.

I’m not rich nor ever have been.

I was not born with a silver spoon.

I’ve always had to work 3 jobs to make ends meet.

I do not feel bad or guilty for stripping to eat or pay my bills.

You don’t get to invite me into your life and then call me a whore after and not get sandblasted.

He was always denied tho – as you can see – I don’t talk to anyone.

Prime example why

They all want to fuck me for free

Yet I’m called cheap

👀

Yea, I’m the problem clearly

Fuck off now

Run back to Mark Burgess

You’re both twats

Stop acting like you don’t have a porn addiction or that you are all holy and can call me your friend and then a “whore” (but only after you offered to pay for my hotel – I wasn’t a whore when you were offering to pay for my visit)

Never even had the desire to meet you – let alone for you to pay for my hotel.

“Whore” yup m’kay why? Because I do cosplay? Because I take off my clothes now during a pandemic because I’m disabled and need to pay my bills and we are in a RECESSION?

Because I blew through my life savings trying to stay afloat?

Because the jobs I was working paid under minimum wage and I have a college degree but can’t find work in my field due to the recession/furloughs/hiring freezes?

And those minimum wage jobs are taxed like hell and barely support cost of living (COLA) which is why people work multiple jobs to stay afloat?

Because they can’t save one fucking penny to get ahead.

Because nobody wants to actually support me or my dreams because they all want to “be my friend” so they can fuck me?

When I don’t want to fuck anybody –

Because I want to make babies with the love of my life and he recently bought me pizza?

Because I’m not actually a whore and there’s nothing wrong with sex workers.

I don’t actually “sell my body” 🧐

I don’t think anyone can actually “sell their body”. 🤔

If you mean “perform sex acts”, that isn’t anything I’m actually doing.

It’s called burlesque but I’m not very good.

I like to cosplay and roleplay tho cuz being an actor was always my dream, I still audition for parts (even reality TV shows), and I love getting to play dressup cuz I was always a Soldier/tomboy.

I don’t think what I am doing is sinful.

I’m trying to understand who I am as a human and a woman.

Not the part or role that everyone else wants me to play.

What I’m doing now is what I’ve always wanted to do.

Writing, photography, cosplay, guitar, it’s my thang.

The feedback I’ve been getting on my OnlyFans has improved my overall health and mental status / self-esteem.

I would say the feedback I have received has been priceless to my growth as a human and an artist.

There’s a lot of value on my OnlyFans and I’m trying to get better at my cosplay and my photography and I think it shows.

I appreciate your good feedback, your comments, likes, tips, gifts and subscriptions!

I also GREATLY appreciate the support on my Patreon as well!

You make this whore happy.

YOU CAN STILL GET SICK EVEN VACCINATED

Y’all know how I almost got arrested at the VA because I was letting other people know that they could still get sick even vaccinated because I didn’t want them to get sick even though they’re getting vaccinated?

Well, I’ve lost followers over that as well but you can go to the CDC website and get this information for yourself.

They’re not gonna be as direct in saying it but it’s on the CDC website right there with all the variants and the relapses of people who are getting sick even though they are vaccinated (and these people were shocked and couldn’t believe that they actually got sick because they were vaccinated).

Me too. I was starting to have that misconception that I was going to be invincible at 94% effective against it (you know what I mean free donuts every day at Krispy Kreme just showing my vaccination card)….

It’s hip, it’s cool to be vaccinated, the cute little cartoon videos will show you people running around without their mask on – but when you’re in public you still need to have your mask on and you can actually still get sick – but they don’t say that or show that in the cute video do they…

Condoms aren’t 100% effective either and they are already talking about booster shots annually.

I will not be getting anything else shot wise in regards to COVID.

They will – at this point – have to enforce it on me.

They will have to enforce it on me and even then with five people holding me down they’re gonna have a fucking hard time getting that booster shot in me.

FYI.

I’m done with this man-made pandemic bullshit.

Delirious but not fucking delusional.

My mask will be staying on. I will be keeping six feet from you.

Move anywhere inside my bubble and you risk getting yelled at just like that cop did.

He too will obey the fucking rules or arrest me!

And 4 other cops rolled in and nearly did.

Don’t come at me.

1984 is now!

👀

Why are people so afraid to be told that they can still get sick even vaccinated?

*runs around yelling putting the fear into everybody*

*waits to be stoned/arrested/shadowbanned/crucified/burned at the stake/unfollowed/blocked*

COVID vaccinations Part 2

You can still catch COVID-19 fully vaccinated.

Condoms are not 100% effective and neither is your vaccination. 👀

You can still get sick (or others).

So what does this mean?

It means Biden has a 15 year plan laid out for this pandemic and they’re now speaking of booster shots annually.

It means you still need to wear your mask, wash your hands and practice social distancing by keeping 6 feet.

Even vaccinated. 👀

Because we are now living in the New World order.

And since 1984 is now – and many are trying to silence me from reminding you of this blatant fact – I’m gonna put it on a tee.

You can still get sick vaccinated.

They are already talking of booster COVID shots for next year. 👀

(And did anybody notice how they quietly removed the Johnson and Johnson one shot vaccine temporarily because it was causing blood clots but it’s now back in circulation).

I already have heart issues, my BP dropped extremely low getting MODERNA dose 1 (so maybe a slight miracle I wasn’t offered the J&J, and the government likely wanted the MODERNA vaccines for the Soldiers, because it offers a 94% effective rate against COVID (but not the rapidly evolving strains), and let’s face it, a Soldier is a DOLLAR sign. We are only numbers. And many of us have unplugged and have come to learn this fact and they’re dying by suicide which is why the suicide rate continues to increase among veterans and active military). The government are building super soldiers and they spend a lot of money training us, that’s why they don’t want us to fucking die. They only care about stats and numbers! The J&J vaccine offers an 80% effective rate from COVID. MODERNA 94%. And I haven’t studied the other vaccines emerging. But I’m definitely glad I didn’t get the Johnson and Johnson one if it’s causing fucking blood clots and I already have heart issues!

Now I’ve just received my second shot, which I’m told is worse than the first vaccine (but you don’t need to take my word for it, it’s listed on the CDC website).

So here we go.

Dose 2 complete and now they are talking of booster shots for next year. 👀

This pandemic was manmade.

It’s clear to me.

Scientists playing God.

Narcissism ruining the world.

With just 1 move the NWO:

1. Put a lid on the “anti vacciner” by implementing a manmade pandemic encouraging (rather than enforcing) people to get vaccinated.

They do this by giving you incentive like, “fully vaccinated people can get a free donut at Krispy Kreme by showing their vaccination record”

Advertising about how cool it is to be vaccinated and to get vaccinated (even though you can still get sick and you need to wear your mask but they leave this out of the video don’t they).

Giving you the option to be vaccinated makes you feel like you have control over the situation but it’s just gaslighting, it’s just more smallpox on blankets to Indians (and I am part Native American Indian and my bloodline was almost wiped out so my fears are legit).

Eventually it will be enforced.

Through “no entry unless fully vaccinated” mandates. I imagine this will be for all public transportation, schools, hospitals, and government buildings.

2. Population control

The NWO want every animal (including you and me) tagged.

You are given a number at birth.

They call it “security” but I’m told when I’m at age to need it there won’t be any fucking funds.

“Social Security is under threat“, remember?

Was anybody actually paying attention to Obama anytime the words “New World Order” came out of his mouth? Because there’s video everywhere of him talking about it, along with all our world leaders.

It’s not every now and then they mention it, it’s all the time, during live conferences!

It’s not a conspiracy theory!

And just because something is a conspiracy doesn’t mean it’s not true!

Just because I’m paranoid doesn’t mean I’m not being followed!!!

You can still get sick even vaccinated!!!

Jim Morrison was acutely aware of the illuminati so was Michael Jackson so was Tupac so was John Lennon.

Knock knock

You are a slave, Neo.

I almost got arrested today because some lady didn’t wanna hear that she could still get sick even vaccinated but the other people around me did want to hear it so I almost got arrested for them to hear it.

I also yelled at the cop for getting in my face and not giving me 6 feet and respecting my personal space!

Then more cops rolled in.

1984 is now y’all.

Go ahead and fucking crucify me, you’re not going to silence me!!!

Welp, BIG BRO actually is working towards silencing many of us. Fairly certain Trump isn’t the only one who can be banned from the Internet.

And we can thank Bush with his “Signing Statements” for that because we’ve moved into a Hitler state!!!

I’m aware that this post is very political and many may not be able to keep up with the particular topics that are involved but I am a soldier, this is what I do, this is me, it’s part of who I am and will always be.

The key thing you need to take from all of this is, you can still get sick even vaccinated! Stay woke!

And that one lady was the only bad Apple that didn’t want to hear what I had to say, everybody else was thanking me because I potentially saved their life or someone else’s because they had the same mentality going forward that I did that you were going to be invincible once you were fucking vaccinated – free donuts and it’s cool getting vaccinated, you know!!

It’s hip, it’s cool man. It’s a hippie dippy cool thing to be vaccinated!

But you can still get sick! 👀

And booster shots annually.

Big Pharma got the money back they lost from the anti-vacciners and the weed smokers!

Signs

All the signs point to yes
But then this and then that
Turn the questions into guess
And the answers never seem to form a crest

© Delia Ross. 2021

Our story is way more complicated than Romeo and Juliet. And I don’t even know who all is involved.

(Thank you for never body shaming me in any shape or fashion)

(You make all my body parts feel the good things)

(You make me wanna crawl onto your dick instead of dying naked on the street)

(There are dudes out there right now legit grossed out over my body and they have no shame in letting me know it).

But that’s not you is it?

You don’t make me feel like I’m gonna die on the street.

You don’t make me feel obsolete.

I love you.

Because you make me feel all the things.

Mind. Body. Spirit.

All the things.

(I don’t expect everybody to like everything about me, I just expect to be treated like a human being)

Not trash.

And I don’t want to think about that asshole any more because I probably wouldn’t even want to have babies with him

So why am I crying duh

I’m not

I’m getting off here so I can go do some staring

Staring into our dreams

zzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Thank you for loving me whole xo

One Trick Pony

Am I to blame for wanting more?
Than the cold reign of TV
The fake personality
A one trick pony?

Growing old is under siege
A wrinkle in time, a dying breed
Apophis has her name tattooed on thee
I am erratic equally

She is roaring from the deep
Is that her I dream?
The falling, the swirling is all I see
We’re in hell if you believe

© Delia Ross. 2021

Missing connection

The Garden of Eve

I can see through her fake
The black eyes it must take
Crawling like a snake
Right through Eden’s gate

© Delia Ross. 2021

She thinks she has it all, a husband and the love of my life…

One of them she can keep.

But she is in my territory.

I bite.

And am immune to narcissism.

Took sleeping with the devil.

Don’t come at me.

Or anywhere near the Garden of Eve – which is MY domain.

Free will

And just because I let the devils into my garden, doesn’t mean you’re allowed into my fucking garden….

Yay?

All’s fair in love and war.

How’s the hubby? Let me go stalk the profile

Poor lad, he needs attention

Code Words

Is there a secret code written
Maybe in the stars hidden?
That connects you and I?

Are there garbled words which turn a prism?
Into harvest worlds that keep us smitten?
The way your verbs connect my heart and mind

Are there paths we’ve taken still unwritten?
The way my will to you is freely given
Under cross or reign, no clearer vision
I am hung to you like holy linen

Was it God himself who became a villain?
Touching toes in hell, loving all a sinner?
I am called a whore, you’d give me your dinner?
The lesson here, I think love’s a winner?

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

I don’t know if I said what I was trying to say or not? It’s a messy morning freestyle. The message became more important than the rhyme.

Jesus loved a sinner best (as I love you) – if I recall correctly, he made some “whore” his equal (but the illuminati removed her from history and I’ve been trying to get ahold of her script so I could read what she had to say) .

“Let’s reinvent gods all the myths of the ages“

Stone me, love me, I’m yours. Free will.

I can handle whatever you give me.

I would die for you.

2 words we should just avoid: hello and goodbye?

Is hello so hard because of all the things I’ve done?

Would you deny me 3 times? In public? My name?

The kiss of betrayal?

Would you sell me out for money?

No, I don’t believe you or I would, but I believe that bitch you were formally with, you know the one with the red hair that I still can’t fucking stand, yeah that one, that one would definitely fucking deny you three times for money…

Even tho she acts like your number 1 stalker, I mean fan.

I still own that title per my confession on TikTok 👀

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMeUC7b31/

So whatcha gonna do, crucify me cuz I love you? You already do, DAILY with the ghosting.

*waves white flag*

Surrender/ not your enemy 👣👣👣❤️👣👣👣

(I’m not her enemy either and she needs to learn how to play with others in the playground and stop being a bully. I haven’t been to her blog in a thousand fucking years. I made my apologies publicly and privately and have made my peace with my errors a long time ago.) And nothing I ever did to her justifies her trying to sabotage and take down my business.

Not to mention she was 1000% not following WordPress policy. Was I wrong to leave hateful comments on her blog? Yes. I’m a child, we know this. 👀

Erroneously reporting my content on Instagram and getting it removed out of spite and jealousy, is again, fucking wrong and illegal. Instagram continues to put it back because I am following TOS policy.

She has found a way to manipulate the system because she’s a two-faced bitch.

I know it is her or someone working for her and you’re not gonna convince me otherwise.

Every trail leads to her.

Except your new book, thank fucking god. I have seen the light.

Psycho fucking bitch

Oh sorry, still thinking out loud… 👀

I mean, it’s only been like 48 hours since she tried to take my account down again, so all is fair in the game of love and war???

👀

Checkmate? 👀

Matching tides. I adore you. 😍

Free Love

Why do we decide choices in forever?
Attaching regret to eternity?

I was hoping next to never
Can you make that guarantee?

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Would you know that Trent Reznor was never going to get married either and now he’s on like baby number 5 with MariQueen- I mean they have not stopped to take a fucking break.

I need some passion

*dies on street*

Rest easy my love

I’m not happy in my cage of loneliness. But I’m also just fed up with cheap sex, head games, and gaslighting.

I may very well be the last living creature who embodies the true free love spirit.

Ya me

*dies*

I’ve been searching for truth / and I haven’t been getting anywhere 🎵🎶🎵

Just didn’t want my love to be some sort of anchor that sinks your ship…

Mine has a few patched holes and may sink but you’re welcome to hop on board. It’s not a ship. More like some trash floating in the ocean I found to keep from drowning.

If you want some life advice?

You don’t have to live with your choices forever. And you don’t need to make new permanent ones.

You don’t actually have to sink with your ship and it’s okay to save yourself.

People grow and people change and they grow stagnant in their relationships and complacent and that’s why the love dies. You have to work at keeping the love alive and people aren’t really capable of doing that, some people are, some people have mastered it.

Love is a garden you gotta continue to water.

Stuff doesn’t make you happy.

Love is all you need?

I would really like a chance to find out. 😏

I’ve literally never been loved. By anyone. Or anything.

But hey, I recognize you. Or sorrow.

If I’m just some fling thrill ride, you don’t gotta cut my fins when you are done do you?

Can you be the one guy on Earth who doesn’t hurt me? And on purpose? Because you’re bored? Or soulless and evil?

I’m trying to find a safe place.

If you’re hurting, I’m sorry. I hope you find resolution. And peace.

You deserve happiness. Love. Fireworks. All the things.

*tosses life jacket in water* you can have mine

I didn’t have anything worth living for anyway…

Bruise

Who are all these followers I keep losing
Watching all these patterns looming
The wrong path we are choosing
The way my heart you keep bruising

© Delia Ross. 2021

A tired but clean peach. I recently started a new workout routine and you can watch my progress on Instagram.
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A Great Awakening

Now falls upon me a great awakening
Every hour ink is spilling from my pen
From feet to earth to heart again
When does aching end?

How do I demand for time to repent?
Give him a moment for light to ascend?
Wipe from my hand all he condemned?
He makes a terrible friend!

Eyes bleeding from all they comprehend
Faces turning from where they have been
Islands growing thinner from terrible sin
I am sick of him!

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Flawless

I watched how souls he’d harvest
I saw where he fell hardest
I know how hope will tarnish
My love he’s flung the farthest

I fear the words he promised
I see he’s never honest
The truth the pain I harness
I thought though he was flawless

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Welp. Game over. Flawless victory.

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The Grand Scheme of Things

He was atomic
A void not peaceful
Though wasn’t static
But like lightning falling
He was enigmatic
Though loving him
Proved problematic

She was barren
A desert without form
So tired of caring
Or like a planet roiling
Could hear her swearing
And if you caught a glimpse
Her wing was wearing

© Delia Ross. 2020

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Deceit

I was made of him
Part holy, part devil
The line is thin

I call him Grim
The only name I’m able
Lying is his den

The trust is slim
Like money under a table
Deceit is dim

© Delia Ross. 2020 @poeeternal

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I’m on edge. Welp.

Uhm the Grinch has arrived. Eggnog now please. (I don’t actually have any eggnog but it would be nice).

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KISS MY ASS BIG BRO (Censorship) 😫😫😫

Welp. I just got the warning about account deletion from Instagram. I basically said, “I made Santa’s naughty list, visit my OF to find out how”.

Many of us are having to spend Christmas alone and away from our friends and families due to the quarantines that are placed and I’m just trying to make Christmas a little less lonesome and gloomy for everyone including myself (who just lost my dad).

So going forward anything I post on Instagram will be speechless that is IF big bro doesn’t delete me from my audience like he just threatened to do!!!

I literally just had my shower and wanted to cheer up my admirers. For God sake I haven’t even had a chance to put my makeup on yet and I’ve already got a fucking warning from Instagram that they’re going to delete my account including all my messages and my followers!!! Please stop me from having a meltdown right now. 😵😵😵

Petite bums need love too
More Christmas content coming to my onlyfans if I can calm down from big bro giving me an anxiety attack
I was literally just trying to get a quick bum shot to promote my OF. It wasn’t my bum that got me in trouble, it was my fucking mouth. And this has been an issue since kindergarten okay.
I didn’t think anyone would be interested in my tiny ass but I’m going to be putting more shots of it on my OF. It was just a behind-the-scenes photo encouraging people to join.

But Instagram has now threatened me that my account may be permanently deleted.

I think businesses need to start boycotting Facebook and Instagram to protect the little guy like me.

I mean I couldn’t even say, “hey I made Santa’s naughty list, find out how”.

Welp. Y’all remember when witches were being burned at the stake?

I feel violated. Do you know how long and how many years I’ve been working on my Instagram?

And just like that, they will take it from me.

So when I calm down from all this I’ll get back to getting dressed and putting my makeup on and doing the photoshoot like I wanted to do.

Fucking hell

WELP THE PRESS WON’T PUBLISH MY WORDS. I GONNA DIES IN THE STREET LIKE POE.

But, you don’t have to let that happen.

I’m running crazy good deals on my OnlyFans where I’m allowed to speak (kinda, you can’t say child or other terms I’m learning).

Only in America do they make nudity and sex a crime yet you can’t even watch a Hollywood film without there being some sex scene 5 minutes in. Nudity is consistently thrown in your face here but made illegal.

Thank you for your subs and follows and love, and especially all the nice things you’re telling me about my body and even the request you’re putting in (because I’ve now got some foot porn coming soon). 😍

And I have cute little Cinderella feet.

I’m also starting a new workout routine soon and I was going to share my progress on Instagram but I’ve received an eviction notice basically.

So if a musician is like “hey go check out my new track on my onlyfans” are they going to get their fucking account deleted too???? Because onlyfans is not just for nudes. That’s just one platform that sex workers can work safely.

I’m over 2020.

So if one day you can’t find me on Instagram, it’s probably because I’ve been banned.

Welp. 1984 is now.

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The Great Expanse

How will you remember me when I’m 13 billion light-years from you?
Look at all the darkness I’m peering through.
Now the light is fleeing too.
The great expanse of all you do.

© Delia Ross. 2020

The pandemic is getting worse. So too my depression, hopelessness, anxiety, isolation, paranoia. Got the psyche on redial. Just gonna keep writing. Dying. Feel every fucking second like a cross.

😑

The Truth (I Lie)

Our love is science fiction
I wrap your love around my vein
It’s called addiction
Still the power you contain
I’ve got affliction
But I love you all the same
So I keep wishing
On stars I knew your real name
And I keep itching
In places where you came
A crucifixion
But I lie and call it rain
A contradiction
When the truth makes my soul wane

© Delia Ross. 2020 / @poeeternal

Welp. 15460 days old and still not learning universal lessons. 😭

On a positive note, I have no grey hairs.

But 2020 is pushing my temperament.

I don’t know how to give up something I’ve never had.

I don’t know where to put all this love. 😭😭

Trying not to die on the street like Edgar Allan Poe. 😭😭😭

Welp.


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One And All

Look at all these sides
Subtractions into fractions
Division by walls

Like disappearing actions
We chop as if distractions
When truth is we need them one and all

Now counting our reactions
And fleeing into factions
We never considered the cost of these halls

Hearts squeezed into contractions
All while pleeing we need extractions
But never heeding to any calls

© Delia Ross. 2020 / @poeeternal

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Wanderers

How does he manage to find me in his thoughts?
But then it makes me wonder how many dreams he has to cross?
When burning down his bridges does he ever feel a loss?
And when he’s out there wandering, is it me he’ll come across?

How many deserts will it take him to push me in Earth’s past?
But then it makes me wonder how long it ever lasts?
Been cutting ties so long our dreams have come to pass?
And I swore I heard hope’s echo but it flew by life too fast…

©Delia Ross. 2020 / @poeeternal

How many bridges will you burn to keep my dreams from you? And will you ever learn, I’ll still find you when you do? Is that why you’ll likely, leave a clue or two? And when I’ve disappeared, does it leave you feeling blue?

Rhyme was a skill I picked up as a little girl to help battle me woes. And so it goes…

Survival skills. But also the art of language. Afflictions. Secret messages to my love? Poetry is code. Vibrations. Another form of energy. A path for my hope to flow.

“No hope = no fear”

PostScript. I’m not really here. I’m not really there. I’m not really anywhere.

But my last breath will be a half-written rhyme. Maybe in blood. Give it time.


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Double Rainbows (rare event). My dad died.

*edit* RIP daddy. This event was you telling me goodbye. Now I know!

Huh. Weird orange hue. Why is the sky orange. Sure, the Sun is rising but…

So, I had a peek out my blinds. Still didn’t explain the orange hue. Dog must wait. Safety first.

Slipped on my flip flops with phone in hand (it’s almost ritualistic- the phone checking upon waking). Went outside.

Still did not understand what was causing the sky to be completely orange. Did we get nuked? Is there a sandstorm coming? This isn’t a sunrise. This looks kinda terrifying.

Then a huge rainbow formed before my eyes. From one end of the sky to the other. A prism of color. And then behind it, another!!!

And it almost seemed like it was inside this big bubble. The bubble verse theory I was studying.

And I’ve been reading a lot about the Multiverse Bubble theories lately and am coming to this conclusion that I’m starting to believe in it more than that ridiculous Big Bang theory.

But I do. And I’ve been trying to make sense of my world and what it all means, if it’s all going to end anyway. I am the universe experiencing itself. We all are. And so I’ve been thinking a lot about energy and how it can’t be created or destroyed.

I think about the interconnectivity. How we’re all one.

Anyway, I think the double rainbow was a sign.

And, I’d never seen a rainbow so vividly last so long.

Seconds generally.

Well, I ran out of room on my device filming this double rainbow for over 6 minutes.

I dropped the video of the double rainbow on my Instagram IGTV.

The double rainbow reminds me to keep going. That in life, the things you love may be out of reach. But that doesn’t mean that the love wasn’t felt or received. Sometimes, optical illusions are real. And even if by worlds separated, love travels at light-speeds.

I sat and watched that weird ass bubble in the sky, along with those double rainbows that arched high across the sky, until it faded and I could see it no more.

Bye daddy. Hope you had a great final gig in the sky! 😭😭😭

Got Him (or maybe he has me)

Not only does he listen
I got him by the teeth
And in his world I glisten
While dancing on his feet

His love has no conditions
So solid like concrete
It seems his only mission
Is loving me complete


Walking tightropes
Over every word wrote
Using lines to balance
Darkness and failed hope
Taking steps to fall
But then don’t
He pushes me across the wire
His back gropes
The world crying I’m a joke
But he won’t


He is a cosmic jewel
Longing felt under moon
A hope or two
A dream in blue

Earthly views
The perfect muse
The love I choose
Someone I can’t refuse

© Delia Ross. 2020

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Worth

He says, I ain’t worth a penny
Still eyes will stare, I am trendy
Fingers counting more than twenty
See me now, I am plenty

Spat on, shined up with envy
Tossed in water ever gently
Down into a well, my only entry
They all say that they don’t need me

© Delia Ross. 2020 @poeeternal

I freestyle write my poetry 90% of the time and always tweak stuff during the WP posting process. Actually, my voice will change based on my writing tools, which is one reason I want to get offline and get on a typewriter again. Starting to pick up pencil again too. And pen. Hope to move back into calligraphy. I have all my tools, just no energy or drive (depression). Hard to brush my teeth on most days and not dive off the bridge here that I’ve been contemplating doing since I arrived here and recently an 18 year old kid jumped off it last year. Right off the overpass onto the interstate I was driving on. A constant reminder the world is shit. I feel that. He made his point known. I knows. I feel worthless too. Hence poem + depression. Le sigh. I really could use a gig this year. The uni trying.
Bush = happiness (and Gav really likes me coming to his shows and I really like going to his shows even tho I act an ass of myself and curse him sometimes- yep he still likes me coming tho I make an absolute ass of myself) KING 👍
I worship Bush (have since the early 90s). Look how Gavin Rossdale spelled my name, the first time we met (in 2016). With a little anarchy sign on the A followed by a little heart. UHM, I GET HEARTS BY GAVIN ROSSDALE. Sometimes I get wisdom and xoxo in DMs by him. Sometimes I tweet him that I see him on stage at a gig, he’ll respond via his microphone “I see you too” and jump off stage after soundcheck to come say hi and get photos. I need to do an entire blog post on my obsession cuz I got videos and photos on all this. Layer my tomb with all my Bush heirlooms. Like that time he jumped off stage just to give me a sweaty hug and the guitar pick he was playing with. *le sigh*
Last year on my birthday he serenaded me while dancing above me for like a solid minute and I nearly passed out, dizzies, FYI.

I’m just not responsible for how I act when I’m physically around him and in fangirl mode because I have zero control over my hormones. Welp. Since the age of 12. WHATEV. SECOND CRUSH. NO BIG DEAL.

Gavin giving me his superman poses at the VIP meet-and-greet last year for my birthday! I need these framed in my home studio! 😍

I do sometimes curse him but last year on air he said I tell him the most beautiful things, which is also true. 😊

Gavin giving me his superman poses at the VIP meet-and-greet last year on my birthday! I didn’t know what was going on because I felt him pull away and I thought he didn’t want me hanging all over him in the photos so I lifted my head off his chest but kept my hands on his hard ass abs and kept smiling not knowing that he was doing Superman poses for me cuz he was super happy I was at a show!!! So several weeks later when the photos arrived (and doing VIP was a birthday present to myself because nobody did anything for me for turning the big 4-0), it was like opening the best present 🎁 the uni could give me. Nine times out of 10 when I meet Gavin Rossdale and get photos they are blurry. These were not. 😍

People think I’m in love with Gavin but I’m not, it’s just a silly crush I’ve had since I was age 12 and I’m insanely addicted to the music, it’s a music fan / artist relationship thing. He inspires me in different ways. He teaches me life lessons. Like how to stay alive when you don’t have the love of your life (he lost his big love- Gwen Stefani- they have 3 kids together. He has not replaced her).

Gavin Rossdale comes from that alternative scene where all his comrades are dying by suicide, which are basically his friends and I thought that we might lose him too when he lost Gwen Stefani (divorceeeee via humiliation, retaliation, he got to hear “used to love you” while walking in an airport. She didn’t take long to move on either, did she). Two thumbs down.👎👎

But he hung onto his fans and he says that he needs us more than ever now. I know what he means. He promised me on air that he would never hurt himself. But I need him too. I’m an outcast. He knows that. He knows what that feels like. To be the lone wolf! For the most part he’s had to deal with the United Kingdom hating him. Even of today, they will refer to him as “who is he” (as if he is no one) or use him as a slight against Gwen Stefani, when it was her band opening up for Bush and not the other way around (he made her known, not vice versa).

Gav has seen me at my worse. He still jumps off the stage to give me hugs when he sees my face. It gives me the happy feels. To be seen. To feel I have an ounce of worth. To feel appreciated. Because to the rest of the world, I am invisible and just a number (including to the love of my life, who could care less of my existence. He’d replace me in an instance). But there’s nothing like the feel of when Gavin sets his sights on me, and is walking towards me, and I know he’s headed my way, it’s so intense, his expression. That feeling of, “he see’s me, he’s headed my way”, “I’m not lost in the crowd” and Gavin is the type of guy who never looks away from me, yet I always break eye contact!!!

Got hugs by my king at the stroke of midnight last year, which was my birthday. Thank you universe.

Or like when he’s talking to his other fans, he’ll literally keep looking back at me and I always run away from him. I act stupid guaranteed. But like, I’m a soldier and he’s a king. He’s why I do these things. Basic. I need the music. Always have. Not just his music or art. All the things. Music keeps me going. Grounded. Alive. Couldn’t have survived the Iraqi war without it. Labor. Heartbreak. Loneliness. Poordom. Life.

Music is life. I need another gig. This century. THIS YEAR. COME ON 2020!!!

Me today because 2020 blows and I’ve had zero hugs from my king this year. Meh.
Seeking a friend for the end of the world…
When life gives you lemons, tie pretty boes. Me today during the covid zombie apocalypse- and the CDC says covid-19 is coming back with a vengeance. Seeking a friend for the end…
Love during a zombie plague *laughs insanely, ties a pretty bow*

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Gill

Well, if I’m not wanted by him
I’ll teach him to swim
Drowning from his own gill
He caught his thrill

Calculating casualties into the drill
I wasn’t part of the deal
He wasn’t ready to feel
Now I’ve tripled the kill

He’s got shiny bait in bills
Watch the girls trample the hills
Can’t get enough of his ecstasy pills
He’s my favorite still

© Delia Ross. 2020

(Do you reckon Edgar Allan Poe ran off of any of his wives suitors with a shotgun? I mean, he wasn’t very popular. The local press even stopped publishing his work. He went from a respected officer in the military, to poor, dead, and naked on the street and possibly poisoned, and heartbrokes).

I don’t want to die heartbrokes. Helps. 😭

Sometimes I run off your suitors with my mouth. 😭

Psst did you know my love keeps growing for you? I am a deep, wide ocean. Keep swimming. I’m yours, forevermore. xoxo (times infinity^2)


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Favorite

No matter how many times I slam closed the doors of communication
He’ll be on the other side waiting
Anticipating apology and thorough aching
My overall frustration for misbehaving

His back my entire foundation
My heart his home base station
Tossing apologies in the fire for cremation
I’m his favorite creation

© Delia Ross. 2020

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He knows I’m sorry. But I don’t know if I could ever face him and say it. And if I ever did find the courage to face him again and say it, he’d just throw it away immediately.

So the good news is he didn’t block me. He still doesn’t know I exist. Like one of them soldiers standing guard for the queen. Solid as stone. Hardened? Hates me? Maybe I’m just the ghost haunting him. Oh noes, helps. *sobs* 😭😭😭

Uhm, thanks for still finding value in me even though I can be a depressed, emo, isolated little bitch, who pushes everyone away and crucifies the one I love the most.

I’m deeply sorry. But I don’t know how to say it anymore. There’s a good chance it’ll happen again but that doesn’t mean I’m not sorrys.

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Bridges To Forgiveness

If bridges were steps to forgiveness, I’d collect every tear you drop-
Pave the road with hope, and the love we brought.

If gardens grew trust, it’d be a golden crop-
And every bit of fruit we share, a taste of love we sought.

If distance was a rainbow, for your hug I’d hop-
For every moment I exist, you are in my thought.

© Delia Ross. 2020

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Cliffnote: Still apologizing to my love (and enemies) for uprooting his existence and shining my light on his darkness that he’s pulling and sucking every bit of light from me, until you won’t be able to distinguish the light from the dark as we become one, our words embedded with time.


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Tristan and Jonathan’s Survival Fund

So, my kid has fallen on hard times. But because they are gay, finding help is harder. The Apple doesn’t fall far from the tree and my financial problems have probably tilted over into another generation but we’re all in this boat together and some of us are seriously struggling.

Missouri is high crime and I don’t want my kid to wind up dead so if anybody could help it would be fantastic. It’s harder to find help because they are gay and Salvation Army is against LGBT.

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Because I myself am in a financial apocalypse, I can’t even donate to it currently and it would help ease my mind if somebody out there could pay it forward. I don’t want to be visiting my kid in the cemetery. I’m just about done with 2020 to be honest.

Look, they found themselves without an apartment and there’s moving expenses, first and last month’s deposits, application fees, supplies and rentals for hauling their things.

They are sleeping in their car in a high crime rate city. In the cold.

They are working. But they live paycheck to paycheck like the majority of the poor.

So I’m reaching out and asking for help. Please help them if you can. Everyone deserves a safe place to live. They didn’t have that and now they’re on the street.

Everyone needs a hand from time to time. There’s no shame in asking for help. What is shameful is hearing the cries of others and ignoring it. That happens all too often, I know. Because I myself became homeless for the first time in my life in 2017 and it wasn’t because I was lazy.

Izzy aged 9 months who now goes by Tristan. I gave births to this. It grew inside me. It fed from the milk in my breast for a year. Life is weird.

I am a mother, this is my ONLY child. Have mercy. 🙏

Self (left), Tristan (right,my kid). Peeps say we look like sisters LOL. THAT’S YER MOM they say!!!! Yups. Then I gets called olds. It’s a vicious cycle out there . I prefer being called a cub still, not a cougar. 😂
Being a mom is a big part of who I am. I take on the “mom” role for anyone younger and any chance I get. That’s me (left) and my kid (right).
The person I made a baby with is gone. He left this Earth already. Died a few years ago. This is him. I was 17 and pregnant with our baby. I rarely talk about him and this is a first time sharing this photo (of a photo). We considered this our first “family photo” because I was a very 6 months pregnant here. 🙂 I know people have babies all the time but it really does hurt. 🙂

We all 3 got 1 more photo together before he died of cancer. This is our last photo together. We were born into a broken home and made our home broken as well. I never married him though he asked (with hand and ring). I left him when my child was just a few months old. I remained a single parent until his death. Now single parent forever more.

Last photo all together, Tristan (left), Scott (middle), self (right). Taken June 2016 at the hospice in Nashville, Tennessee before he passed away of cancer. It was a hard fight. We stayed awake and for him until his very last breath. He fought some 3 very long days. I know this is hard to look at, the cancer had eaten him away. Not a moment after he passed the light flickered beside him, the first time since we’d been there, and his face fell soft and smiling like in peace. I hope he finally found it. You can’t convince me that life ends after death. I wasn’t the only one who saw the light flicker or felt the room get cold. You can’t take away my faith. It’s my middle name after all and more than a motto or tattoo on my chest… I’ve also lived in fox holes in the middle of a war in Iraq and that will teach you a thing or two about faith as well. But can someone help get my kid off the street because I can’t??
Self and my baby aged 9 months old (happily breastfed). Me age 18 and in a pair of Doc Martens. Some things never change. Photo by Scott (RIP).

I don’t have anything to do with the campaign, I didn’t create the campaign, this is their campaign. Just an FYI. When I get my next check, I’m going to be making a small donation from my tiny paycheck, that all goes to bills, and it won’t be very much to help out. So any help or shares will greatly ease my mind as a parent. To know that my kid is no longer sleeping in their car, in one of the most highest crime rated cities ever, and I can’t even help to get them off the fucking street. And it’s getting COLD there.

To whoever sees this out there and helps them, thank you. From one parent or human to another…

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Lamentation

He never knew regret until he saw her face crack
She never knew he cared because she never looked back

© Delia Ross. 2020

Gone but not obsolete

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Ask My Heart

I take the outside, pull it in
Rope is tied but wearing thin
I have died and will again
Ask my heart just where it’s been

I take the inside, stretch it out
Now we both are filled with doubt
Tongue is tied we cannot shout
Ask my heart what it’s about

© Delia Ross. 2020

Werking. Writing and recording them rhymes.

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Bleeding Ink

Break the chain, break the link, don’t wanna be in sync
The way your eyes and my eyes leak
The way we talk but never speak
The days prowl on and we are weak
But life is cruel and so are we
And I guess we are both guilty
But neither life is a life free
And that is why we’re bleeding ink

© Delia Ross. 2020

Couldn’t sleep because I’m dreaming of you (so I wrote this instead)…
The love of my life. His name is Sam. He’s got some teeth issues going on, and other medical stuff, but he enjoyed our day out. Look at that smile.

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