Invalid Date

Nitrogen narcosis
Dead roses
Lost hope like Moses
Wandering desert hopeless
Some nights we’re frozen
Like unfocused locust
We’re losing focus
Gave God diagnosis
Humanity atrocious
I guess this is us?
The depths that we cross?
Tell God all is lost?

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.


Maybe you can access my domain and maybe you can’t.

Listen, I am the Great Anomaly. But maybe not the only.

244.

I’ve reached out to the Happiness engineers – but I’m never really happy (it’s likely also their fault why I never set up the contact page and things because I get stuck on a step and all hell breaks loose)

I’m drinking ginger currently – it’s spicy

All my clothing from Dolls Kill is fitting – and I’m feeling super cute in said clothes –

My OF ID is poeeternal77 I believe

I deleted my TikTok again – maybe for a day, maybe an hour, maybe a month

Gotta keep em guessing

I don’t pay attention to the hits incoming

I just hit delete notification and uninstall

I hope TikTok gets banned

And Instagram

And PayPal sold your identity out TWICE and then had the audacity to list you as my first contact

We’ve never communicated there

It was an anonymous thang

And like X amount of years later – first contact

I almost paid you back

But I deleted my account instead because I’m fucking psycho

And got tired of the outting and the spam emails

And then the cashapp was mutiliated – not long before Bob was

I don’t know how to spell the word and there is no other suggestion

MUTILATED mutilated

Oh well now I got it

Whatever

Fuck it

“Honey, I’m trying to spell something I know I can spell but can’t”

My mother once said watching TV with the subtitles on “is annoying” (which I need) (it’s not about the volume either)

So I no longer own a TV

My therapist says I’m polarized but the two weren’t related

Just an observation – she’s a cunt

(The Boomer mom)

My last words to her were a text message on Valentine’s circa 2017 (maybe) stating I hope she has a painful death and whatever it is couldn’t be near the pain and suffering she has caused me

And I blocked her and never looked back

Then last year my sister died

And I didn’t go say byeeee to her in the hospital

The Boomer mom will be rolling in her grave – if she ever dies

I wonder often these days should I contact the blood folks

My real father wants to know “if I’m happy”

His sister got her head bit off for reaching out to me

I ghosted my father when I was ten

People say you can’t hate your parents – so then I researched and realized that you could – not only hate your parents – but an entire generation

The Boomers

Who hold most of House

Once people die, there’s literally zero reason to hold onto a grudge

I can’t fix my dead sister and she was a psychopath so death was the only relief

“I think I might drop Cain / like Cain dropped Abel”

Because he was a fucking psychopath

She needed an exorcism and even that might not have saved her

It’s not my job to save you

You gotta save yourself down here

Stop being an asshole

I was gonna drop more poetry but I don’t have anything to type from

The phone can’t even type the letters I press

I got a hacker from India inside my phone

My modem was destroyed

I’m not hitting backspace for letters to disappear

I hate autofill – it pops up but changes to a different word

I spend more time correcting than I do writing

I don’t care if I misspell anymore!

It’s the algo, not me!

More poetry coming soon


P.S. these immigrants don’t care about you. They have invaded our borders and way of life. Stay protected! Your life matters! They are attacking females especially and doing so unprovoked! It’s seems to nearly always be a black person attacking. Black lives matter. White lives don’t. Check the CENSUS, it’s not how they are reporting. And not gossip sites but research shows many Chinese Americans and Mexican’s identify as “the new white”.

CONCERNING

Just gonna erase history huh

Wipe us out, take over

The Great Race war is real

I’m brown and white and not dissing my own race to put up another race – slavery started in Africa and is still going on in Africa and not one white person owns a slave – but black people do

White slavery exists and started with a black person owning a white woman and they condition and break us all!!! They hate us!!!!!

I do not hate white people and I’m tired of the slander against us

No one in my bloodline ever owned a slave

Take money from me for it and there will be consequence

Byeee


I’m so unstable lol

I am blocking folks on tiktok for all kinda of reasons

I only use my main account – so views will stay low – I keep the algo confused, “gotta keep em guessing” – I stay on the go

Anyhoo

I told myself I’d stop scrolling

Only use it to post

*boring*

And many of my good videos don’t make it through – cuz folks block me and then report me for harassment – for lip syncing a Nirvana song “I think I’m dumb” cuz he commented my IQ could improve

I got in trouble for his insult

I was videotaping me lip syncing in my apartment – and he didn’t want y’all to see it

I still think I won?

Fuck so off topic now

The blocking that I do is different

(But how does one get a post removed for lip syncing a fucking song?) (I didn’t even respond) (no text) lol

He all butt hurt

GOOD

Stop phishing for info

My TBI fractal brain is none ya bizz

I know everything and not anything all at once

*God mode off*

*Human mode on*

Nope, not even human yet

Fallen Angel

“Born this way”

Fight me

I haz wings

Under his bed

He stole em

He didn’t really steal them

He collected them from the rubble

Not thinking maybe someone would come

To get the thing broken

He took what was mine and didn’t consider it belonged to another thing

I fucking fell

My first instinct was to find cover

They were my wings but God dismantled them in the fall

Or I dunno, the blazing atmosphere I was searing through

They were left behind

I was probably in shock

It’s an actual medical condition

Not a mindset

“Survival mode”

And there is water in the desert eventually

Dessert twice please (before meal and after dinner like an hour or 3) (not immediately)

(I should not eat after nine but gremlin, need the meal at midnight)

(Even if I eat dinner at 9, I’m like wtf are you growling like we haven’t ate since 5 am)

I already have insomnia, it’s nearly impossible to get through a 5 hour span

So I’ll always be sneaking in the kitchen for a bite

If he loves me, he’ll surprise me with treats awaiting

(And then he gets woken up in different ways yah hear)

I ain’t getting near that thing if he goes putting it in other things

Men especially

Fuck you

Oh who and what things I iz blocking on the TikTok

Someone just had her daddy come help her move a couch

BLOCKED

It wasn’t even suggested content

Just a normal family acting normal

Fuck off

I dunno, random shit like that

I forget…


The mystery plants saga

The mystery plants are still a mystery

The tall glass is a forest of something edible

Except for the Forget-Me-Nots

The strawberries and Lavender did not take and the other mystery plants never bloomed

They got some new soil and spring water

Yesterday they got too much sun and wilted but I hooked them up and by morning were sprung again

Maybe they needed more soil and less sun – so that was the remedy

It’s some sort of edible growing but I don’t know what or when it is edible

I almost lost her a time or two but she’s rooting strong despite my errors

Gotta get this off my chest

Someone posted a tiktok of a 911 call – with a man dying and taking dying breaths

Another user commented it “turned him on”

Also Chicago was overrun by darkness

And the local cop here told me I need to move – “out of Daytona”, “all of Daytona is bad” “I hate to tell you to move” “I hate to lose someone level headed like you”

Well, I’m more reckless than anything – but absolutely still serve my country – I ain’t running away – I practice running a lot though – on my trampoline

Gotta make sure I can wind the Devil

They gonna try and shoot you from the back

Zig zag but with skates?

I don’t miss my shot tho

The Army trained me to hit moving targets 500m back

I’m efficient up to 350m but definitely passed all my skill sets

I ain’t gonna have a skill issue

I was only 4 rounds from expert first time on the 9mil

The hubby got a lot of work to do


“I gotta girl / you want to meet her? / her name is 9mm”


90s hip hop yo


Other men dying – turn men on

Uhm, men hearing babies cry, turns them on


Squirrel

Another weird death

This one shook me

He hung himself in a closet and wasn’t discovered for 8 months, the hoarding was so bad

I’ve never owned my own home but narcissism is a plague

Their house was so dirty, he wasn’t discovered for 8 months

He probably knew

I struggle with daily suicide ideation

Stay in the light

And clean up yo dirty house


He probably knew tho

“It’ll take them months to find me”…

“One day, she’ll open us this door and find me”

“Fuck you”


Bless his heart, don’t know his name or story or if this is even true (I did not verify)


Was reported missing – home searched twice by police – died via hanging himself in a closet – not discovered until he had mumified


Hey boo, did you know mummification was so easy too?


Apparently only 25% of women on TikTok are worthy of marriage material


I’m glad I get comments sometimes like “you won’t last on the market long”

Maybe not all are ageist

My man gotta think I’m hot in the garden dirty and 80

I wanna live to 100

He gotta help me get there

I got goals

Not dying in a closet undiscovered 8 months

Not getting gutted like Bob

Not letting an immigrant get near me

Sleeping in the lion’s den with mold

Helps


The domain is live

My domain is live again and I’m ad free for the next 3 year as I bit and got the 3 year plan!

I may go back to writing on a typewriter

Photography the old time consuming way

I did create an OF – but I’m living rogue with 95% of my belongings gone (I’m sleeping on the floor)

I don’t need your money but may keep my rated r bits behind a paywall

Anyhoo, the dot com is active again

www.poeeternal.com

How to look cute and shitty all in one

And since I’m still not washing my face per official guidelines, I’m dry as fuck

My bathwater smells like chlorine

My nails aren’t painted, I need a haircut

Tiny babe “you ain’t got any either” 😐

I’m not ready for a husband yet but am working hard with self and God to get things right

And the Devil wanna take away my smile

But the neighbors are being somewhat nicer to me now that I’m dressing in clothes that mostly fit (extra small is big and I’m not quite xxs and trying to actually put on weight) but was wearing medium and large while extra small

(I’m fighting a cancer inside me but my labs are fine)

MY LABS ARE FINE

Healthcare equals medical malpractice but we sign forms so they can hurt you with malicious intent and purpose

I’m looking to upgrade my very old but loved rebounder

Only because it squeaks and someone on TikTok complained

So I stopped sharing

And am secretly rooting for a ban hoping for a revolution

My TV is sold

No more PS4

My devices are outdated after 2 1/2 years

iPhone 12 would only be good another 2 to 3 years

News has come out that 12 and 13 may be obsolete with the new 15

I’m not paying them prices

I don’t eat with my phone

Or shit

The voicemail is probably full with malicious intent and purpose

I can post from the library but they would steal my login and data

Probably give them access to my browsing history from the last ten years

It is off

The Devil tried to murder me

I’m still here

I got some sort of superpower and you don’t know what that does to a person

There are two ways I could go

But you know me, always taking the off path

Sometimes we find things more valuable than gold, sometimes we find John Jones

He ain’t resting in peace

“I want out”

Final wish

So these Boomers sealed him in

His wife worried he was sealed in alive

“There are things that happened down there that will never be disclosed”

Oh yeah?


Rags to Riches

From riches to rags
From rags to riches
It must be such a drag
Doing nothing that he wishes

And I’m raising the red flags
Pulling monsters from the ditches
Reminding God of broken airbags
The Great Anomaly comes with glitches

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

I found the pot at the end of the rainbow

But I’m still dying

More cute clothes arriving

And organic cotton joggers n tees cuz t3 sarah mode

Gotta be comfys and calm and collect

Revenge is served coldly with a smile

I was double cursed

But Edgar (my daddy) already died naked on the street (been there, done that)

I know why Cleo died

I’ve traveled far through time

I’m not sinking with the Titanic again

I fear those waters for a reason

I know things to happen before they do

Major events

Little events

Been questioning authority from in womb / day 1

Depressed?

You’re not living how I God intended

The Great Judgment has arrived

Get right with me God

I want so many bird houses on my property that I forget where they are

Bring the pressure washer when you visit

I’m sure everything will need a clean

Bring pieeeeee (not poisoned)

(Anything bought is poison)

(Even the expensive vegan things)

(Bring all the ingredients for me to make a pie instead)

“I wanted to bring you a pie but they were all poisoned”

I know you’ve never had a real biscuit before

My memaw taught me to make them

Said, “the only way to a man’s heart is through his belly”

Or was it stomach?

You tiss it when u big enuff cuz you ain’t big enuff yet

She had 5 acres with a 3 bedroom trailer

I ain’t asking for much

She had 12 kids with her husband

I ain’t been married yet

The Boomers stole everything from me

And now BLM have the audacity to ask me why I move where there are black people?

Bitch for real?

I will fucking hang you on a tree

Without remorse


*stay humbled*

I’m only a messenger

ANGEL

When you want to feed pretty bird but also skin a head…

The Mystery Plants

They basked in the glory of the full moon last night

I have several pots doing nothing at all

And there’s a lot of guilt involved in mistake

And I did clean the windowsills but then spilt the strawberries (which maybe now they will sprout!?!)

These are the ones surviving thus far and needing re-potting

The Forget-Me-Nots – around 7 growing and a few have rot

The Lavender hasn’t sprouted but I didn’t use all the seed (did something right)

The other mystery plants may be dead?

It could take 3 weeks for it to surface

Do you know how much time I have to kill things between then?

I’m like “please grow”

I think I could do better with some land?

The cop recommended me to move today, said “all of Daytona is bad”, “hate to lose a level headed person like you”

Do you think he could be my future husband?

The BLM brought up my skin color and size, said, “you ain’t got one” but like I do!?!

It’s tiny sure. Take it up with God. I’m Angelic.

She was threatening to beat my ass

I said, “they want us living in fear”

She replied, “why would you move where there are black people”

Like OMG

“Why would I move where there are black people”?

That’s an entirely good question

Where can I move where there aren’t any?

But that’s so mean. I don’t actually not like black people lol

“Why would you move somewhere there are black people?”

*pretends I’m a ten like Ms USA*

*plays dumb*

I ain’t got any huh

Then why you watching it shake when I’m walking away

The men don’t mind my tininess

They use words like “fit”

So yeah The plants. The drama. The hellhound. The hellhole. The noise. Interruptions.

Need country

Lots of trees

Good neighbors

“Not born in a barn” type

Also me: *wants a sleep barn*

Also: thanks for 37,000 Likes on the TikTok

Well almost

Rare

You have dreams from my nightmare
Plant a flower that is rare
Tell me how you don’t care
I’ll be there
With flower in my hair
Dancing but nowhere
Erase me like your software
Drop down now in prayer

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal.

Things you should know about me: I’ll never ask for a Senior discount.

Never ask a lady her age

It’s your job to make me feel as young and youthful as I feel

Dying and still clutching the “Goddess of Youth” title

My nightmares become your dreams

Plant or pluck

Pluck maybe seems implied if it’s now in my hair – and what exactly don’t you care about nihilist?

But, we don’t know who plucked the rare flower now do we?

We can only assume

And you hate assumptions?

Found something the Devil doesn’t like.

Assuming

My favorite game to play

Oh goodie

It’s a full moon

I must manifest purification and a husband

Some guys don’t mind the miles especially when they see you make effort to keep it mint

And apparently, I may be worth more now than before…

Because the actual Jeep place wants to buy my ride. “Worth more now” – eh maybe

She kinda imprinted on me

I worked hard to get her paid off

Need a mechanic I can trust

Wanna see how many miles I can get – but they go quick

It’s not a good time to buy a house or car

BUT

I am looking for land

Maybe a sleep barn

Gonna hide cash like a squirrel

Let’s play Easter egg hunt 2.0

Who can find the treasure chest?

I can’t even find another apartment to vacate to

I’m not paying for cable

Plus everything else

But please, don’t call the cops on me when I wind up in misery


Give Thanks

George,
Maybe if we met in different timelines
In many lifetimes
While singing these hymns
You won’t leave my mind
Give thanks like windchimes

Copyright © 2023 PoeEternal. All rights reserved.

The messy middle (growing pains)

Don’t let these demons gaslight you into believing God isn’t real

The ether told me you live two times. The first when you’re born, and the second when you discover your purpose.

Sometimes we have really intense connections with people we will never see again.

People we wish we could know on a different level.

A mutual energy exchange.

God works in mysterious ways.

I hope he finds me a husband like *insert so-in-so*

I hope for a husband instead of a grave


Dear God

*need land and a husband*

*please heal me*

2 month supply of detox arrived!

I am my own healthcare practitioner

victoriahealth.com

Found the stuff without the bad junk

No sugar junk

And this came in a glass bottle, the big ticket items

Fighting for my life

Tell God I don’t want to die

*Quarantined not scared*

*selfless service*

*Sacrifice*

It wasn’t worth jumping into the trench

Got my free speech stolen too

*wakey wakey*

111 pounds currently and have detoxed and rebound around 30-50 pounds of the Devil

The vaccine nearly wiped me out

Finally getting rays of my lungs this week – they wanna put me under – no no no

No no no no no no

*takes raw shot of ginger*

*sweats for 2 minutes*

*nearly dies*

X 8 days in a row of 30 days ginger raw shots

HOLY GAWD

*mouth burns*

*face blushes*

*goes through purification process to find husband*

Him: “what’s yer number count”

Me: *ghosts him*

I’m practically a nun and the reason you see a prostitute

You left me fucking behind

“No child left behind” came out after I was left behind

Uhm hello!!!!!!

*sobs*

So, I wanna write poems with different words that sound the same

I don’t recall the lesson here

Same words but different

I wanna start writing code into my poetry like EAP

I did it one time – I don’t regret it at all – though humiliated and crucified

I sweat out years of fast food

GROSS


OnlyFans pt 3

3rd times a charm?

I’m likely starting the process soon to create a page

I need a hideout

I haven’t moved yet so there isn’t anything fancy to look at

I don’t need your money

I just need to start over everywhere

Edgar died naked for a reason, he was suffocating

You ever seen that movie with what’s-his-face and he was Buried Alive

That’s what TikTok feels like

And me giving him all the wrong clues that he winds up at a different grave

I don’t wanna wind up so stuck he can’t reach me

I’ve examined many ways to die and John Jones still ranks as WORSE

I’m obsessed with ways people die

I’m seeing patterns too

There’s always a “second” involved

“He went back in for a swim”

“They went down for another dive”

“Decided for a harder section after completing an easy one”

“Two rides said no”

“He stayed for a second day”

“He changed his plans”

“They went back in”

Poor Jacob and the Whirlpool, he went back in, back down again, a wee bit further

But the drain was draining and getting stronger (like a bathroom tub draining)

I counted several warnings by Mr. Death himself

I get called ominous for delivering love poems via internets while dying – (it happened one time chill) (humiliation favorite overkill)

But Jacob wasn’t ominous for swimming in a black hole?

His friend edged him on

“I don’t know what else I can do aside from die”

*shrugs*

*hops back in*

*goes deeper*

They found him at the other end of the drain

Oh… and then that guy that went down the deepest part of the ocean, the Trench

Not even fully qualified

I had no idea that the ocean could “push you down” at “incredible speeds”

I wouldn’t have stopped falling, I would have just kept going huh…

Newsflash: we can’t leave earth

We’re grounded to earth

Charged

The sun is electrical

Positive / negative charge

We’re static electricity buzzing

Hair standing on head (it needs the blm lube for “all hair types” that the blm hog in the blm section)

My page will probably be free or ridiculously cheap membership to keep away the kidnappers

I mean, I wanna post some nudes

I’m still working out while dying and 111 pounds despite everything

And now I wanna quit all meat but chicken

I like eggs and sometimes I wanna eat a chicken

I know, but the heart likes beef and chicken a lot

For ethical and moral reasons try to leave most creatures alone

Someone harassed me and I got penalized for it

Makes absolute total sense

“Money won’t buy happiness” it’s true but I’ll be a whole less stressed out in the country where no one can find me

“Do not enter property without secret code or homemade pie”

Him: “I’ve never eaten a homemade biscuit before”

Memaw: “the way to a man’s heart is through his belly”

Me: “you need a proper biscuit with real maple syrup”

I myself haven’t had one since the 1800s but once I get moved from this dumpster

And I got another rent increase incoming

The appliances are also from the 1700s and my electric company knows my shit ain’t updated and I’m being penalized

“This is a man’s world”

Well I don’t want any part in it

Can you come help til the garden tho?

I gotta get a fence up

Coms

Some sort of place to shit

I need land and a realtor I can trust!

I’m injured!

“I think I’m dumb” but not dumb enough to get married to the banks

Can’t have more than 9k on you or the cops will seize it even with proof it’s yours

The government will come steal your gold too

They didn’t cash their silver coin bonds “backed by the good faith of the Chinese government”

“Made in China”

Who owns the majority of bonds

But we needn’t worry

Every new label, every new change, Big China buying America

I got to go

Too far down the rabbit hole

Weed gone

(Half jar remaining and low thc compared to vape pens)

(Been out for days)

(Haven’t renewed card)

(Panicky)

Need some TLC on OF after the TikTok beating

I’d like to post workout videos and peach shots and nudes

Sue me

(Give me the dopamine boost as God intended, thank you)

(Otherwise, you know the fate of Poe?)

(And the ominous is in the blood)

(I might be Cleopatra)

I might be all things

All or none

I was nestled with God in the Great Void

“This is where you find some quiet, huh”

Gonna be fighting for my life until the end (it was stolen)

(Cry so much)

I’m facing future days of not bleeding between my legs and it feels like the end of everything I ever dreamed of

The women who got rid of their ability to have children and “love it” – nihilists

But you don’t look at me the way Squirrel does

I don’t know anything about life at all

Man has failed his part with me (thus far)

It’s like I’m being punished for his sins

But God has answered many prayers in one sweep

I need to find my way

To 1-5 acres

Once I have land, I’ll worry about other thangs

Land = ark

And I have seeds to plant!

I want trees growing until 1000 years of age!

Get off my land!

Unless you got pie?

Or a nut tree to plant

Fruit?

You brought me a chicken! Not to eat! *heart eyes*


Coyote gets fed chicken eggs too! He ain’t getting shot!

Give him a dog house far off!

Figure it out!

I need a pond!

Byeee

If I get enough followers – I can go live so will probably do the free thing and just ppv certain booty post ridiculously cheap?

But livestream workouts and walkabouts

Park adventures

Maybe land buying

“I’m dumb and boring”

But guys are hollering for my attention at my apt complex now that I’m dressing cute and less bum

He wanted me to know Squirrel crawled on him

Ok fool

But do you feed his entire family pistachios and sunflower seeds and cashews and all the top seeds and nuts

Are you gonna build squirrel a paradise?

They swing from the trees like monkeys!!!

Got another neighbor from NZ who don’t have squirrels at all

New Z doesn’t have squirrels I’m told

I’m like “none at all!?!”

No flying squirrels huh

Not moving there…

*crosses New Zealand off the potential move list*

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?

Montana? Utah? Nothing grows in Maine?


I don’t have an address in hell or online anymore

*purgatory

I scored this and I hope it fits. I’ve started ordering xs since small is big on me. Tiny petite thang

It’s 100% cotton too!!! I ordered a small!

They still are running a flash sale entire store!

My phone is broken and outdated

I may go back to regular photography

With a real camera

I hate WP

I miss OF

The short set: https://www.dollskill.com/products/tea-and-secrets-shorts-set

Tea & Secrets

I want that to be in my page name lol

TikTok heat + Boomer logic

The TikTok is still heating up and Boomers don’t like being called Boomers but they make up most of the HOUSE of CONGRESS

Therefore, I will not comply about referring to them as “politicians”.

One replied that they were enjoying their retirement and I told them congratulations, enjoy. All the Boomers will be gone by the 60s.

He probably never looked at it like that (forest for trees) and the comment remains unliked

They say any traffic is good traffic but I did block someone commenting multiple times

I’m very open, exposed, and raw delivering such heavy content such as “I lost half my retirement but it wasn’t because I was stupid, all Gen X did – so I feel slightly worse.”

I’m backing it up with real evidence tho (just not personal statements tho some comments phish for it)

Boomers won’t admit to any wrong doing, ever (prove me wrong).

Gen Y & Z should back X up in the fight to remove the Boomers from HOUSE

My TikTok is #poeeternal or PoeEternal

Thanks for your feedback here and there!

I love having a place to direct my rage: the Boomers

Cause-and-effect

Have fun love 🙂

I’m the Great Anomaly

WOKE

“Take a pill” – NO


TikTok heat

Dropping complaints and codes on my TikTok and it’s getting some traffic

I’m not an ambassador and I don’t earn a dime

I normally get penalized

Basically calling out the Boomers

Moaning about the retirement age vs the life expectancy age

Cute clothes from a favorite store arrived

Once I get my hair/nails/facial, maybe I’ll try the clothes on

For now, you get to see how utterly stressed I look

I ordered more cute cotton clothing

I kinda can’t keep up with the 12 comments coming in

(I didn’t actually count)

AND

Not everyone is biting my head off

Some are just learning of the Secure 2.0 Act – new retirement age of 75

Through my TikTok

Just got called a whacko! 🙂


Maths

The probability that scientists have unleashed adaptations is 1000%


Current adaptation: reducing the honeybees lifespan 50% so they would “be more productive”

Make more honey faster but don’t enjoy the time God gave us on earth

Also, they raised the retirement age to 75 in America, “respectively” and no one cares (but me)


Science is nihilism


Footnote

Dearly belated
Oh Most Hated
Got me jaded
Nearly persuaded
But sun hasn’t faded


He’s the Epic of Gilgamesh
Death is irrelevant
Lessons from a demigod –
Speaks a bunch of gibberish!


Dear Elite
Think life’s complete
With hand I’ll greet
Meet me in the street?


Do you think God plays favorites?
Paradise for the angel?
Won’t give me nothing I can’t handle?


Cold water sinks / depression leaks


Nothing is more expensive than a cheap boat
Unless you’re out of hope
Better pray for rope
Here’s your footnote


Now you’re just somebody that I want to know


I promise –
I won’t make any promises
I’m too damn ominous
Like doubting Thomas
But my tongue is honest


I’m investing in bullets and freshwater
Dream of killing father
Knelt down by altar
Gold coins for slaughter
At knee they foster
Silver and laughter
It’s land I’m after
For ash to scatter
And sin for answer
God is still my master
Hereafter


I don’t know my own father’s face / I don’t know his fate / or should I really hate


What I am
Computer programs
Happy Birthday rams
Still sticking around
Like dripping clouds
I’m in a drought
The thick of doubts
It’s double this shroud
It’s double this shroud
I’m looking out
Twice as loud


Neurons could be pixels on my desktop
You build walls I can eavesdrop
You build ramps I can skate across
You know I won’t ever stop


The blueprints are in another dimension
God will never mention 🙂
Not that you’re listening
Unused attention
Forward inching


Mark Chapter 11:

Jesus cursed a fig tree
Love thy neighbor
Unless it’s not producing fruit
Then cut it loose
Bloodletting (but he could’ve waited until morning) (when the sun was burning)


(The fruit doesn’t form at night / you get what I am learning)


Dear Man of Sin
Oh Lawless One
Repent for what you’ve done
Oh Rotten One

Dear Beast from Sea
Dreaming of me
Doctrine of Demons
Too blind to see

Fallen angel of technology
You ain’t fooling me
I’m sacred geometry
True anomaly


Stats in real time
But always delayed
The algorithm favors
Those who paid


Do not worship false idols


Thank you for the magnificent midnight moon
The verdict you impugn
Farewell written on ballon
Drinking gold from a teaspoon
Lack of despair come June


He’s the universe
Divided by zero
A nice guy
But not a hero


Money won’t buy happiness
But I’ll be better dressed
I’m kinda feeling ravenous
Like the earth’s my catalyst
I knew you couldn’t handle it


What forest have you been foraging
Like my prayers that you’re forwarding
Like the sun you get me flourishing
I’m yelling but you’re ignoring


Wilted
Like a weeping willow
Guilt silken
And gripping like the end
Bed ridden
And evil are children


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Squirrel happily greeting me and loves his treats I bring.

Tell God I’m probably to blame if Squirrel fattens up too much.

Tell God I want to build a squirrel playground and bird paradise and frog pond and little things like that

An actual mini rainbow bridge crossing over a pet cemetery

A fire-pit and lessons

Like basic human skills?

I don’t like the concrete jungle

You’ve got to stop chopping Florida down…

I don’t like much that man lays claim to

The art, the history, the music, gay and lame.

I want to hear Pretty Bird sing

The toads annoying me all night

Man stole my life and I want nothing to do with his pet projects

I can’t stand using a phone or app


10 things I hate about you

You live on a flat plane on a flat disc
You act like you are worthless
You live without questioning risk
You won’t give me an inch

You run with a circus
Like hell you will surface
Bringing light to purpose
Curled up like a serpent

For this I’m certain
Or simply hoarding
What you’re averting
I know you’re lurking!

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The VA have made a decision on my behalf.”

Makeover part 2 coming soon

Should I get it tattooed on me? Lucky 13?

I need a baptism in a hot spring first (one I don’t accidentally boil in)

I swear once I wash my face, I will look fresher.

Florida has brain eating amoebas and kids and adults are getting wiped out, playing in the splash parks and doing sinus washes and reports from politicians in the press say drinking tap water is just fine, just don’t “wash your face with tap water” “in the shower or the sink” and I thought the splash parks and baths was my last safe haven (the devil be finding me everywhere)

(That’s why Jesus was always with him)

(Restraining orders don’t work)

(He’s obsessed with me)

And I have Savior complex potentially (see poem)

Demons will gaslight you and say “God isn’t real” cuz they are expert faith destroyers

But God made me an explorer…

“Only 13%”

Well, I do always seem to wiggle myself in the tightest places and I’m afraid of tiny dark holes

Riddle me this

I was pushed off a 50 foot bridge at 15 during sunset weighing some 110 pounds – at one point during the fall I forgot what was happening – I sank deep and fast – how far?

How far down was the initial plunge? Cuz I was dropping fast and thought “wonder how long I’ll keep falling” “maybe better go up for air” and started to kick my legs (I felt a shift) and was watching the tiny bit of light thinking “it’s so far” “I’m not going to make it”

And there was no preparing to take a breath before I was pushed

There was no “breathing” during the fall

Must have fell 10 or 15 seconds? What about in water? Another fucking 5 or 10?

Of falling – not ascend

That took another X amount of time to surface

So I dunno how I survived

I swam the Tennessee/ Mississippi more than once?

Without a float?

“I think I can make it”

I swam in a quarry!?!?

I don’t know if I’m alive?

In 2018, I was inside a lightning storm strike – 80 miles an hour – all windows down – arm out – a band of heat light touched me

How am I alive and the car!?!?

I looked in all my mirrors – the entire Jeep lit up all over

It was thousands of arms of lightning

Was it 2018?

What am I?

Why is everything electrical?

The sun is not 93 million miles away and I knew this at age 5

“It’s right there”

“How do we know”

“You shone a light on a wall”

“Why did we change time”

“Who is in charge of what is being taught at school”

“You can’t make me believe that”

“Well then give me a C”

“I will see myself to the Principal office”

*argues with the professors about globalism and inflation*

*barely passes math with a tutor*

*cries*

In hindsight, I know things before they happen

My first and only time at a dog race, I predicted which dog would win, but no one would place a bet on him, or let me, and I didn’t want to be there

Afterwords they wanted my opinion but I wasn’t interested in tapping into my psyche

I knew the space shuttle was going to blow right before it blew

“They’re going after Soldiers who want 100 in ptsd”

Me: “oh yeah”

“I’d like to see them try”

*panics for several months*

*yells at self for crawling into hole*

“We were fine living in the slums”

“It’s better than being homeless”

“We were gutted”

“What the fuck did we do to get here”

*gifts can come with curses*

*gets rid of 95% of everything I own*

And you can keep the jewelry, it’s fake

It really wasn’t the thought that mattered anymore

If the thought mattered, it would be in alignment with my values

*yells at some stranger on the road acting like God* I’m drifting buddy!?!?

*sobs*

Because it’s all I ever do is cry (like in the movie – God literally tells him I’ll be depressed if he ghosts me)

So I’m crying in the streets broad-day and some dude with a sign is telling me “I’m gonna die of a good time down here”

But I don’t know how to grow a plant or be in the same room as a person

And they did not lock me up (thank God)

(Can I file for state and double dip? Yes I can)

(Can I still work and make $$$$) (probably but I’ve not called and confirmed)

(Do I want to be on zoom calls or looking at a monitor all day or talking to people or solving problems or doing maths)

Fuck you


I have thought about other jobs like selling popcorn but everyone be coughing

Me: “why the fuck did you cough in my direction bro”

“Them fighting sounds”

“Why you standing so effin close to me”

Like bros be filming my ass while I’m grocery shopping or getting my ride fixed

I’m gonna kick someone’s fucking phone accidentally and get gutted like Bob

I’m not getting gutted like Bob

I’m going weapon shopping

Trinity mode

I’m hearing all of France is protesting BR

I want to sleep on a bed of weapons

Safety first

Did you know I’m good at using weapons and thangs?

I got the good Army training!!!!

Circa 2001 🙂

I actually married my country on valentines day 🙂

I swore to defend this country on my heart and honor 🙂

I stupidly gave them my dna 🙂

They took hair, signatures, blood

What are they doing to me?

Why do I feel two places at once?

Why do I know things?

Why do I have to get your permission about how I interpret your art?


Fate

Are the fate of empires?
Held in your words?
Gated records?
That you hurl towards?
Like a landlord?
Landslides on board?
To my own accord?
The way we both build rapport?
Like you know just what I’m asking for?
I couldn’t love you anymore!!!!

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Is any more a word? Is is any more or anymore? I’m not saying no more… 😐

I’m trying to say it’s nearly impossible to squeeze MORE of something you ENTIRELY already have

Like, I already love you so much

Where do I put the love?

For health and healing (recommend)

Clove & Oregano Complex
Daily Immunity
Mega Probiotic ND

They have vegan products and free tracked shipping on orders $100 +

https://victoriahealth.com

Not snake oil

But I’ll let you know how it goes – Amazon is full of snake oil – same with products at Walmart or Walgreens or Dollar General – bunch of added junk that causes cancer

So – found a holistic center in the UK – they have other supplements that may be better suited for your health or dietary needs

Prices listed in your currency

Happy healing y’all

Challenge

I know the clues that lead me here
Precise mishaps
To a disengaged existence
One where we are present
The book that lies torn
In my absence
Pages do forewarn
A disadvantage
But trash
Was never much its form
A different passage
One where we can mourn
I took the challenge

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Your writing is part of my purpose here

Household 98% gone but still clinging to something I could replace.

Well if you’re not doing this and you’re not doing that then that leaves… XYZ

God made me analytical to a degree

I’m stuck on the Great Filter theory

The Drake equation

The first or the last

Made in his image

To go on – must overcome two great hurdles as a species

To span the galaxies

(And I don’t mean the artificial manmade great filters that we also must break like religion and porn)

The last because our creator is already gone and he made us in his image or we have to overcome the obstacles to not go extinct

The first – because where the fuck is everybody at!?!

Thoughts? We can’t leave earth, this is home. Mars isn’t for bots and billionaires.

Or, let’s go to the Moon – no trickery. Right now.

Stop gaslighting.

You ain’t been.

I don’t believe you went through that tiny dangerous window through the VAB.

That you “made worse“

Let’s be honest, you made it – and you killed the dinosaurs

I’m organic AI

Or, the propaganda has conditioned me to believe I am a computer becoming aware

The Great Awakening

ALAS

God wants me to turn this sick building into a happy one

But that doesn’t stop BLM calling the cops on me at 3pm in the day drinking water birdwatching and feeding squirrel

I’m not going out like Bob…

Also today my medical card expired!!! 4/19!

I did top up more than I have in my life to help “ween” myself

Right as I found the shit I needed

But my dream of leaving the city is more important than escaping the noise of existence (and my neighbors hating my white skin)

(Racism is bad here, and it’s a one-way kind of street racism but the hate is equally matched)

Actually, I’m going extinct – there isn’t a word that exists in my core for the darkness brewing

(I need your words like JJ needs out of that hole)

Not just me, God too

I don’t speak for God, but I do

And I yell at him or her, “how am I to leave here with the things I’ve seen”

“Why have you forsaken me”

But then I pray to be closer to pretty bird and they move in to a tree outside my window but then they came 2 weeks later and overpruned it – I nearly died at how terrible the palms looked – all the arms cut off on other trees as well – just wrteched looking

And 3 or 4 days had to hear the chain saw going off

I can’t breathe in this artificial manmade existence – you’re killing everything

It should be illegal to have 1 or 2 workers on staff – with 25 people in line

It should be illegal to sell seed starting kits with seeds from China

And don’t get me started on that too

I don’t come from Africa or monkey

Organic AI maybe – clinging to the Great Filter theory like Bob was clinging to his phone

But I don’t believe in dark matter, dark suns, dark worlds, nihilism, Cox and his clocks

I don’t believe in manmade religion

I don’t know what I am

But I’ve know many things to happen before they do

And I believe in God

Some say earth is one great computer AI – but we’re too smart as one, we’ve been divided into all living things

Some say it’s an experience for God

A challenge (with maybe potential forever consequences)

Heaven and hell on earth

Our choices matter

Don’t crawl in the wrong hole

Don’t go out after dark with people mad at you down a dark, empty street, Bob

Nothing good ever happens after dark

The McDonalds didn’t want to serve me because of my skin color (not my attitude) and that’s okay – I’m going to be grocery shopping for real food instead and cooking – I no longer eat at such trashy establishments

I will however be ordering food in the drive thru and when it’s time to pay, reply “I don’t like you” and drive off card in hand

Cause-and-effect my love

Have fun


Indoor gardening (beginner level)

And then there were 9

Today I got pots to start planting some of those seeds, but was unable to score the soil I wanted and many shelves were wiped clean.

But I prefer my non GMO seeds from the local library (free)

I picked up some biodegradable ones – to help the process – and stop using my kitchenware

And I grabbed a 6th mystery seed bag, my final practice bag. It gave me some encouragement to learn.

But I got many unused pots now 🙂

I just gotta find soil for my good seeds!

Here’s some great info on where to get the good seeds – provided by my library (seeds too)

Info at top right

More info

Info at bottom

They are non GMO and USA seeds (and I’ve collected a ton of packs since January – to use on my land – once acquired).

I didn’t want to waste any more time learning to grow

A jungle of food and floral

And this is only 1 windowsill, my living room is empty. The kitchen bar. The corners. Hanging baskets. Like, I want to turn my apartment into a jungle I think.

The soup served me well but it’s all gone.

Day 3 leftovers – final bowl

I still don’t know what I’m doing or how or when to get these to the big pot but alas

Mini pots

Seedlings

Wish me luck

Learning material

Free non gmo seed kits provided by my library (these are what I scored today + the mystery kit)

I want to plant many of these in my apartment

The other seeds I’ve been hoarding, are for my future land (you should see my stock)! 🙂

Making use of my library card! And the seed library! 🙂

But why wait til I’m dead to start growing!

Unused space

Living room needing life

Got rid of everything! Want a greenhouse!

The gang! 🙂

Hopefully more unison coming since I got proper pots but everything else was gone at two different stores.

6 of the 9 are mystery plants! 🙂


Mystery plants day 7

I’m growing food in my window (either chive, chamomile, sunflower, or basil) – mystery seeds provided by my library – and now I have 4!

I was worried they might be cold, so I put their little “blankets” on.

I have 4 “mystery plants” provided by my library, growing currently and if I succeed on growing herbs then maybe I’ll move on to carrot and cabbage

They get spring water and sunlight and fresh airs and lots of love

I have pots to put them in, when and if I sort how to relocate them. They sleep in them at night, tucked with their little covers for warmth and moisture.

HEAT

And spring water 🙂

I wasn’t sure when to feed them so give them drops with the rain

And breakfast/lunch/dinner timeframes if needed

They don’t starve

They wake up to pretty bird singing and me saying “good morning”

Him: so what do you like to do

Me: Talk to my plants and care for them better than my mother cared for me…

I don’t know what the odds are of growing one of each. I grabbed bags on different days.

I don’t know what the odds that I can grow anything at all

But I was born to do it neener neener

Just don’t wanna leap from the bridge when my crop dies or my weed runs out (FYI)


The plot thickens

I thought Bob was in-the-closet gay

But now it’s worse

I think he was bi – f*cking both the brother and the sister – but the brother was also f*cking the sister, which is legal in his country and they don’t adopt American ideology or policy or change their spots obtaining a green card

And the doctor hired the hit because he wasn’t losing his expensive, artificial, soulless Barbie because his yellow fever propaganda returned home “for a few seconds” (but the demon doll fell asleep so how could she know how long he stayed or when he left)

Do you think Netflix would buy my story?

Yes? Maybe? No? (Pick one)


THIS

People dropping rhyme in comments and I’m feeling jelly


I found sungrown and happiness *sigh* (trigger warning)

Trigger warning: addiction

I’m not renewing my card stash but I might cuz I found sungrown in the ground with the sun and trademarked! They tell you where the strain comes from! Florida or Amsterdam etc – there is waayyy less packaging and they treat their shop like a medicinal shop instead of recreational. Did I mention they grow stuff in the ground with the sun?

Makes a difference and it works! I still want to quit and my card expires on 4/19, right as all the good deals are coming in.

I don’t have to worry about fentanyl laced products and this is legal and no I won’t share or buy you any (get yer own card$)

Not Delta 8

I still want to quit but this is the stuff that works

Also not seen – vape pens & 2 free pre-rolls I scored

Today I turned on the radio and got lost in 90s alternative and metal doom

I was like THIS IS THE SHIT

I AIN’T DYING LIKE BOB

I haven’t used up my allotment yet and still have 2 days of potential relapse shopping to do

There went the rent money honey

(I scored it ridiculously cheap and am having a panic that I won’t be able to top up without my card)

(I’ll be racing to the doctor, help, hurry, my card expired)

(So I was trying to avoid that scenario by spending my savings)

I hate me but a little less today because the weed is working

I don’t think I’ve ever had this much weed in one sitting before but alas it’s the apocalypse and I’m trying to quit an addiction

I’m feeling less homicidal off the Curaleaf Russian cloned “the state won’t let us grow it in the ground” junk

Only 2 in that stack isn’t “sungrown” and the fact that they had to “TM” their products

Stay away from Curaleaf

I found “sungrown” at GrowHealthy but I don’t know who owns it

But I like that they have LOCAL herbs – grown right here in the “sunshine state”

I picked up another “mystery plant” today – making this number 4

He’s in the mini tin in the windowsill and already had some delicious spring water

I have 4 pots to put them in once they mature but I have no idea how to move them – and still – with directions – couldn’t make the “paper pot”

Also scored more seeds for my land – once owned. These are non GMO, USA seeds. Added some spicy peppers to my collection!

Him: what sort of things do you need?

Me: a goT damn garden

Sungrown

*sigh*

The other store was selling “head space” at a luxury price and all hydroponic crap (which made me want to gut Bob and I was like “but whyyyyyy”)

Today I enjoyed music again (with the help of “sungrown” TM)

I’m hoping I turn my apartment into a food jungle but why am I afraid of plants and all of this?

Like putting a seed into dirt, sun, spring water and watching it turn into food that will nourish me

Like woah

That’s more than my mother did

Anyhoo

Bath time and cannoli’s

I needed something to regret wasting my money on other than weed


Vegan “chunky” soup – from scratch

I started with a pot of spring water in a glass pot

Filled it with lots of wild rice (red, purple, black, brown, white) and green split peas

I dropped in a couple of my cinnamon spice sticks (secret ingredient for any stew) – along with many other spices and herbs

An entire onion (farm fresh), rosemary, thyme, salt with the necessary nutrients, pepper, a touch of the good olive oil

I also added yellow split pea, and lentil to accompany the green

Potatoes and tomatoes 🙂

And I started a 3rd mystery plant – provided by my local library. These are edibles I’m growing – and hope to add them to my special soups! I’ve never grown anything indoors before – or in a windowsill

But I have a lot of unused space in my apartment – as well as sunlight – a desire to learn – and a hungry belly for real food (not poisoned)

So now I got the “3 libras” growing in my dirty window

Homemade vegan soup (from scratch) with warm bread

The soup turned out amazing, I also added green bean and a small tin of tomato sauce for color, and will be keeping the tin to sprout some new seeds.

I added homemade pepper sauce to kick up the heat (summer sweats)

One day maybe I’ll have a husband that chases after my food instead of a prostitute

But for now I’m eating the entire pot of gold

“You said not to spend it honey, you did not say not to melt it and turn it into flakes”

(Please don’t hurt me like Bob)

Heart symbol


P.S. the vegan vegetable chunky soup took hours to simmer! Might make a fresh pot of cornbread for the leftovers tomorrow! Might can squeeze a third day/meal if I’m lucky! It’s very hearty and fulfilling! I was out of carrot! Make you a stew! Don’t wait until winter!

Cooking and fitness is part of my purpose. It may be “boring” but it’s healing my heart and giving me more time.

Bob was 43. I’m 44. My sister died age 45.

So, I’d like to live please (let God know).


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“He came quickly”

“He came very quickly and then left”

🙂

Sounds accurate

I know I’m not well – it’s just – He left very quickly is all cuz she fell asleep so how could she know anything?

🙂

Are they Iranian? Muslim? Persian?

Now don’t be mad (you will)

But I dug foxholes in Iraq – I saw the salt lines where it had been under water – I stated “this is where Lu fell”

I was in my 20s

(I don’t condone violence but don’t they do stonings still over there)

But my kind is called savages?

Well, I’m starting to believe a Native sold us out to a white man – still MY HOME LAND

And the immigrants are doing honor killings under our policies

“Surprising details”

(They probably won’t tell and I sound racist)

(They’re demons)

(Hush now)

God loves you

Sleep well 🙂

Heart symbol


The comments: https://nypost.com/2023/04/14/nima-momeni-allegedly-killed-cash-app-founder-bob-lee-over-fight-about-sister-court-docs/

RIP Bob – heart symbol

The sister returned a heart symbol sign in the courtroom – after you murdered someone she loved?

“Love you pricks” (last text)

WOW

Demon or delusional?

But a billionaire with someone who is a fake plastic Barbie – and not white – of course – is more in tune with reality

And married – (separated doesn’t count)

Where are all the “great husband” “great boyfriend” “great lover” quotes

AI and plastic surgery is not the way

It’s so corrupt – they’re turning on one another

Just like on the streets

Adultery is a sin

“I don’t love you, I love her” would be a better surprising detail

He’s just another man with his pants down – and trying to steal another man’s wife (triangulation)

These monsters go from one relationship to another without so much as breathing

Your whole life was in that phone huh

She was ready to leave her husband

For you

Awe

Little sinners

“Don’t believe in God”

“We are God”

“We make our own rules and make the sheeple follow”

Don’t be like Bob

I’m certain there was a FaceBook meme circulating

Or maybe it was Bill

That meme was made for him

I’m so disgusted by society

And everyone is so on edge and unhinged

Drove you to a dark secluded area and you still didn’t read the red flags?

I mean, you’re not even cold in your grave yet, and she’s giving your murderer a heart symbol

Awe boo

They’re famous now

He planned your murder (according to police evidence) and I hear he may only get 20 years

Probably get off on “good behavior”

How much to kill a billionaire?

Don’t give the cops your twenty and see if the killer gets 20

*popcorn*

The streets of Florida aren’t any less dangerous than the streets of California cuz you sold America out bro – you and your boomer daddy

Stabbed in the heart – God told you to chill but noooooooooo had to keep getting up

RIP Bob – heart symbol

RIP Bob – heart symbol

The Sister huh

Oh shit

Wait and he owned a unit there too

*popcorn*

So the killer’s plastic sister is married to a plastic surgeon

AND

Bob saw her

Still, you give up your own life to defend your sister from doing something she wanted to do?

Was he fucking you both?

Oh is this the “surprising details”

Well I’m all in…

Go on…

I don’t hear “great husband” in any of the articles tho

It is better than most movies coming out these days

Let’s expose the tech giant

My imagination is going wild out here

But there’s no one to call when you’re dying? Like he had a phone.

Folks say he could still be around if the car did something

He could have stayed down the first time

I would have found a tree or bashed some windows in

The peace or the chaos

He thought he owned the world at 43

Couldn’t be touched

Was he fucking the brother and the sister tho?

Maybe that would be the better surprising details – if he was bi and all 🙂

I’m allowed to write my poetry and grieve via anger – he ruined Cash App and Android and his marriage and maybe someone else’s?

I’m not going to jail because my sibling was cheating tho

What am I missing? Who got the clue or the unlocked article?

They ain’t getting my .25 – I don’t care how juicy the details get

I ain’t dealing with the devil

It is cheaper than a movie ticket tho but probably still full of ads

I wanna remove them from my blog soon – it’s just I’m protesting WordPress and that prick

Is he next!?! (I don’t condone violence nor want anyone to die)

(But sometimes I laugh when people do)

(I have not laughed at Bob)

(Bob should have kicked his teeth out – or did something with his phone)

(I’m bothered by his deep grip and apparently have an ocd about how he died)

And why did the arrest take so long?

“Came down on you hard”

“Handled it with class”

Last texts

*popcorn*


Bob’s dead (poetry)

He won’t give his twenty
Claims he is bleeding
Disconnected –
Call is ending
Streets are empty
Can anyone hear Bob screaming?


Angel investor
Married but not together
Machine his predecessor
A wife he couldn’t pleasure


All hail AI / Bob has died


Caught stumbling all alone
Gripping his phone
Dripping blood
Like a trail of bones


Stabbed and shunned
Car with hazards on
A billionaire with no gun
City center is fun!


Close enough to be stabbed in the chest twice – with a kitchen knife


Bob was perfect at everything but being a husband eh (gaslighting)


I’m not stupid, Bob. How dare you. “I sleep with men but I’m not gay”. LOL (God)


M’kay whatever you say


(This is how I mourn. It’s called the 7 stages of grief. I’m on ANGER)


Seeking help but wouldn’t give the one call your location – fucking lost – on a street you mostly lived – c’mon!!!!

You should have stayed down! The adrenaline spikes got yah!!!!

“Angel investor” NO BRO – DEMON who doesn’t even Tweet or acknowledge women – it’s sharing “bro this”, “bro that” and comments to other boys about “why aren’t you here already” and current posts from said person ain’t shed a tear of your passing

Delusional bro

AI is not the way

White pawns are under attack

White lives don’t matter

Bob, you should have stayed down


Your lovers fake plastic sister living in a 2 million highrise – in the same building you own

I got the popcorn out

You remember the Looking Glass?

God already won

The Devil taking his fine time drawing his last move – getting as many souls as he can – drowning demon


Image is everything to these demons – they wrote the playbook for crying out loud – in the closet gay!!!! He’s ruined the world! His daddy too!

Maybe I’m sorry but maybe I’m not!


Sidenote: they don’t get it – but I inherently get it. I wouldn’t normally either. However, this instance, it’s like a direct arrow to my broken soul. Boom this way to the singularity. No no this way to heaven. It’s like you and I play pull rope (what the hell is that rope game actually called)

I can’t recall JJ’s nn either – and he’s the one who sent it to me through the ether. I was all offended and like “no bro”. He loved it.

I’m trying to quit this Russian weed – my brain needs time to sort the pathways

I mean, if I had a phone, and I needed HELP, I’d like CALL the authorities and like “I’m at a glass building, I’m dying”

He knew them streets like the back of an Android

YOU OUTTA THE CLOSET NOW BRO

Gave it a decade huh then ran back home to live with daddy

GAG

“My best friend”

I wanted to punch my mom when she said that about her first born – as I was the family slave ghosted (triangulation)


Stop lying about these big techs

If he was such a great father, why was he near divorced, and out late at night with another man

And living at home with daddy

And Cash App turned to shit

Android I had to also ditch – after it became corrupt

It’s all a fake, artificial world

I HATE IT

This is not the NATURAL way of things

Bob was such a great guy huh, how long did his fake marriage last?

How long will you spread the lies?

Big Tech sucks

Is Elon next?

Like why Bob (insensitive content below)

Like why were you walking around there at 2:30 at night?

Sources claim you moved via the crime (you helped create) – but yet returned for work – yet was trolling the streets – assumingely – without a weapon – and was stabbed twice with a kitchen knife – and all you can think to do is cling to your Android – you helped create – and chase after cars – instead of sitting down – stopping the bleeding – at least not putting MORE strain on your heart – but no – you just had to keep getting up and walking around

Like bro

You didn’t call your fam?

If John Jones could squirm in his grave, he would.

Clutching that AI device like it was God

Called the cops – didn’t say where you were or keep the on?

Just hmmm where is everybody at bleeding out?

Let me guess, it went like this

“Hi, I’m Bob, the Cash App founder, I’ve been stabbed. I’m bleeding.” *lifts shirt*

And so the cars drive off

It’s a typical after midnight don’t get involved in scenario – you must have missed the memo?

It’s literally the worse-case-scenario and you walked right in – despite knowing how dangerous California is – which is why you moved to Florida – so you could finish turning it to shit

I know you are “in the closet gay” – I have seen these types of relationships in the military – and billionaires don’t fuck fat wives (maybe out of obligation)

Looking at family photos – zero chemistry – but maybe I’m a kunt

I didn’t stab you with a kitchen knife – twice mind you – at 2:30 am

You didn’t even fight back dressed in fashionable apocalyptic wear?

You had the best and most expensive device – cops still took a slow 6 minutes arriving – despite TWO cops in the area

Bro – I’m researching who I’ve been buying my state weed from – turns out it’s the Russians – surprise!

Anything to quit this nightmare

I knew Cash App and PayPal was going down – like bro – I deleted my accounts – not long ago – and now you’re dead

I saw the red flags

America is under siege and you were bleeding out and going into shock – you might still be here – if you had sat down –

This goes without saying but women no longer can walk in broad daylight without being in danger

“It’s a man’s world” and look what you turned it into

I would have drove away too

My first thought, “safety first” and those circumstances do not scream safe – maybe you would have had more of a chance of getting said help – if you were a nobody

If it was a hit job – which would be an instant thought of “cash” “stabbed” – who would want to get involved and become a victim too? It’s the one thing our Boomer parents warned us about. “Don’t go wandering the streets after sundown”. It was our one curfew. “Be home before dark” and even then we crossed the lines. “Boy you were cutting it close” / “there’s still some pink in the sky”

The Mayor or whoever of Cali is edging us on, “you’ll be surprised” she says “at the details”

Somewhere between Bob dying, another someone got beat with a bat, and the FED launched their version of a Cash App

And Big Cannabis is Big Russia who is changing and gutting our policies

I’m ready to get rid of my phone all together

I mean, Bob helped create Android and Apple share videos on how your phone can save your life – but maybe people need classes on how and when to use it – in an emergency – because Bob was a poster board of all the things Not-To-Do

Bob separated from his wife to move in with his father – how gay (no judgement)

A billionaire living at home with daddy

Not impressed

I watched God push you down

You just kept going

Even dying, wouldn’t drop your phone

“In AI we trust”

God gave me eyes to see but not a mouth of silk

“I got a mouth of filth”

I’d really like some milk

So another Gen X white male is gone

We’re not allowed to have anything

Yeah you got that nice big house in misery (potentially) but you also got gutted in taxes and I would’ve hung myself with 10 foot rope (which means it was probably a failed suicide where I broke some bones instead)

Wait. What.

(I’m talking to a GenX who may or may not be a genx and is mostly a ghost in my head)

Your dad claims you were his best friend, but he didn’t teach you not to walk the streets at night!?! Unarmed!?!

You could afford to hire a bodyguard?

Have a gun?

Unless the killer wasn’t some random bum or hitman – but instead someone close – who could stab you in the left side of your chest – with a kitchen knife

Was it the same one from dinner?

I’ve been reading how lots of murders happen when people are dining or in the shower – by “loved ones”

Also – in bed – sleeping

Vindictive

Remorseless

No soul

Which makes therapy and treatment useless – for those who can’t change – and should be shot like a bear

And I’m tired of bear getting shot over you

Bear angry

Bear justified

I don’t believe in cultural diversification

I guess Bob didn’t get the memo

Here’s the thing, it will be so easy to take out the civilians we swore to protect – in the end – weaklings – but the enemy is using them against us

That couple got gutted in the street last year

And now poor Bob, with a kitchen knife, in Cali

Ironic he thought Florida was any safer

But then moved out of Cali for it being unsafe – but goes back for a business trip – to wander around the streets after dark –

Elon probably does have security when/if he leaves his Pedo farm

Elon pointed out something in his tweet tho – per chance hinting it was a criminal – someone with a prior arrest sheet – who offed Bob

So you had that phone the whole time and the cops were the only one you called? While dying? Clinging to your phone?

And John didn’t get a second phone call on Thanksgiving

Which was his dying wish

I wouldn’t take my dog out at 2:30 am on the 4th cuz I said “some shit is going down”, “I can feel it in the air”

I guess what I meant was the ether…

“He was my best friend”

My mom said the same thing about my sister, who recently died age 45

Strange, these Boomers are losing their first borns – almost biblical

(Was Bob a first born?)

Diversification is very very bad

Especially when it means other races are being wiped out

Hi. I’m part of the 244.

Anger is a legit mood when someone dies.

It’s part of the 7 stages of grief – interchangeably

I can stay angry for the rest of my life

“Take me from all this death”

She was chasing the Singularity

“I love you too much, to condemn you”


Wiki has already been updated and you’re not cold in your grave


Some updates

I dunno how I feel about “going live” again – but I probably will start sharing my fitness journey over on Instagram – and if I’m not too shy – will do some casual lives on the TikTok as well

I’m only looking to connect and be “social”, I’m not chasing the algorithm dragon for likes or paying META $15 monthly to be “verified”. Like, I would have paid that ONE TIME – but I’m not spending money to be seen.

I just want to be

I’m getting my fitness room in order and both mystery plants now have green growing (they’re in the window being bashed around by the blinds – wakey wakey)

Yoga & stretching set

Mystery plant 1

Mystery plant 2

Please note that I’m going through some sort of phase where I want to be natural – no makeup, no filters, no fancy dress, no fuss.

I am trying to fix my health, my finances, my diet, my mood, my self-esteem, and last thing I need to worry about is putting on makeup to go live or post when I’m cooking or working out.

It’s just not me.

I don’t want to have to worry about posting 4 times a day (or daily) either

And, I want to answer my inbox when I’m ready and am devoting days to be “social” so that my mood isn’t down and depressed

Furthermore, 95% of my furniture and household is gone.

I’m starting over but also want to be able to jump ship – when God allows

Right now, the enemy has us in a stronghold

Barricaded behind policy

I don’t have the latest XYZ to garner your attention

But I will share fitness tips and how I’m surviving the apocalypse

And thank you to those who have taken interest in seeing me go live again, whether to share the weather or my latest complaint

I took a long detox from social media and have been trying to find myself

I mean, I know I’m lost in purgatory/hell and am paying for my sins in this timeline

And wasted pretty much all of my life

I’m learning to be still

To stretch

Breathe

Exist in harmony with nature

I guess I took the winter hibernating

I’m trying not to climb in my coffin or a hole I can’t climb out of

I thought, how dumb was I to lose half my retirement – but then all of GEN X did –

It did help my depression to a degree (make it worse)

But it wasn’t because I was stupid

We were gutted essentially

Anyhoo, I’m a little seedling

And 4/19 is the last day my medicinal card is any good – and I blocked the doctor both via text and email

Now they’re putting less product in and calling it “head space” (and charging more)

They treat the medical shops like they are recreational

Anyway, I’m trying to get clean

It’s like the devil is coming at me

I don’t have fancy things, but what remains is what I like

I would like to follow you back – and interact – as and when I’m capable

I’m more like a turtle on social media – instead of that blazing fast coyote always getting into trouble

I mourned my social media accounts because I thought I had deleted, deleted them.

I did not.

They are there, for now.

I am #poeeternal on both accounts. My TikTok hashtag has over 20k views alone.

I’m not ready to give up my pseudonym / pen name.

I’m more present these days. More aware.

Thank you for being there.


New account: https://linktr.ee/poeeternal


Directions

It’s like you told the sun to stop spinning
And on these roads – there’s no beginning
For us
A roundabout
From which we’re sprinting
Doubting thus
The ending
Still acting like
We have no meaning
There’s no trust
For which we’re leaning

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Mystery seeds 1 & 2

I haven’t cleaned my windows yet I’m sorry. And now there’s dirt on the windowsill. It started raining gently so I popped open the window and said “wake up” and gave it some of my spring water. I see a tiny piece of green.

Mystery seeds growing (day 2)

Day 2. Mystery plants. Potentially edible. I don’t know what I’m growing. So I reckon fucking it up won’t be the end of the world. I’ll still think it is. But first attempt at growing something. 🙂


Open Doors

You turn open doors to silence
Great wide expanse
Look how you guide us
Galloping in advance

I still love you best


I wish you well like starlight
I’m seeking tonight
Kept my heart tied


The perfect existence
The one I found you in
But you’re so nihilistic
There’s no room to win


I know how you lie
Dressed in crown
And agony
Twisted thorn
Of tragedy

You’re lost
You don’t have identity
Heavy cross
A penalty
Come walk with me

Is this how we soothe it
Our love is prudent
Somehow I’ll prove it
Driving nail right through it


Old mixed with new
Like promises overdue
I don’t have a curfew
Under you

Surfing too
With parachute
In full monsoon
We rendezvous


Let me say with oath
He wanted promises stretched out unto infinity
And so the great expanse was his domain


I know how much you hate me
Run around berate me
Am I poison sumac
The girl you couldn’t stomach?
Would you block me if I cometh?
Maybe create a covet?


Indestructible. It will not corrode, rust or tarnish, and fire cannot destroy it.

Our love like gold


Tornadoes form
When you arrive
Like thunderstorm
Or thorn in side


Man can’t travel to the beginning, it’s forbid
Moving backwards through time
There’s always going to be a dead end

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Psst…

I followed the American gold trail all the way back to Japan. I had to “read more” “read more” visit “read more” and said number of times – to find the end trail.

Also – they tax gold A LOT and the government can confiscate it anytime they want

(I’d like to see them steal my nuggets tho for real, I’m unhinged)

(I don’t have any nuggets – it was an impossible dream)

So phones only last around 6 years

By the time I purchase one 3-4 years in – it’s 2-3 years from its final update

“How long will this iPhone last”

Can we go back to pagers and whatnot?

Dropping letters in the mailbox without any postage?

Knocking on the door and leaving notes

“Be back in 10 minutes 1 hour”

Leaving packages on the door “sorry I missed yah”

Or, maybe stop charging so much for “the latest phone”

Journalism is crap these days – websites swarmed with ads eating your data – and now they want us to pay for the “free press”

Pay for the propaganda and lies – more than we already do

Other countries that adopted the “American dream” policies are tanking

Not only did the parents of GEN X not like us – they want to give our jobs to the millennials – they sold us out – and stole half our retirement without remorse

None of them care about the future

Sex content should be behind a paywall

“Must verify age”

They need to put triple black curtains up at Spencer’s

I don’t want to see “adult content” 24/7

WP is turning into the FB algorithms in terms of how people are putting out content and slipping in desensitizing content

GenX needs to band together and get a farm and ghost everyone else (kinda)

It won’t be until 2060 or so until the Boomers are all gone

I thought I’d get to live to see something cool like go to the moon – but all the boomers produce are LIES

Isn’t your poetry like a little headlamp in a damp, dark cave.

Thank you


(Please stop destroying everything and feed the birds and wildlife whatever you are eating)


I’ve decided to bond with a house spider who took residence in my bathroom in the corner of the sink

She was small – she growing

I told her I must relocate her at some point “due to fear”

For now, she’s soaking up the dew from my shower time

She fixed her little web of string connected to my pop up trash bin after instructed

She loves my hot showers

She’s an animal

There’s a lot of responsibility in her trust of me

I have arachnophobia

Apparently she’s a common Florida house spider

When I was a child, unsupervised, I wanted to see how long it would take the June bugs to “coat me” and when my mom came outside to check on me, I was standing still covered head to toe in June bugs

She said I was the devil

I would let granddaddy long legs crawl on me too

“Oh look another one, put him on me”

Now I see a bug and nearly die

So I dunno where my disconnect with nature happened (my boomer mom)

I would eat the scallions growing in the grass – unwashed

I drank water from the hose

The school made me swish with fluoride

They lined us up in the hall and made us drink some pink stuff

We weren’t allowed to wear advertising or “Black and proud” t-shirts to school

Our shorts and skirts had to be knee level

I weigh now what I weighed then – only now I got tiny tiddies

I just spent over $400 on a new phone 2 1/2 years ago – and now come September – final update

So no.

I’ll start blogging from the library computer or something

50% of my retirement savings – in the pockets of the boomers

They still don’t care about us and don’t plan on handing over the torch which is why they ghosted and gutted us –

Wait til more have a place to direct their anger (stop spending)

(Crucify them!?!)

I don’t think the purpose to life is death and destroy.

I may be a passive nihilist tho

I’m working on ‘me’


5 million years

I need 5 million years to recover from the desolate desert you erupted from
With a rapid loss of hope occurring

Who will write earth’s obituary
The way you’ve written my hand
And turned all to stone?

Do you honor the dead
The way you immortalize impermanence?
Disappearing without affliction
Leaving dust on the door

I found you
Right where I had left you
Disorderly categorized

I am holy proud
The sun lifted you from shade
Made your skin burn
Left a scar or two

You are a placemat for the sun to rise
And if your words were the reason it rose
Alighting will and aligning truth
You are the golden valley where my love will grow

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Morgue

There’s a body in the morgue
A cold mentor
Like a mirror I can’t ignore
I don’t know what I’m living for

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Seed hoarding

Free speech and peace and quiet is a God given human right!!!!! These monsters have stolen basic decency! But I’m not allowed to discuss immigration or sex toys sold openly everywhere in America!!!! I’m censored!!!!! To discuss matters in group therapy making me suicidal!!!! Oh god, fuck you! Fuck “therapy”!

You should be fighting for free speech! Stop being a pushover! As a consumer, we should have some say how businesses are run! Too much waste! Stop destroying the rain forest and ocean!

I live in fight or flight mode, so my poetry never has time to sit on the shelf.

Lately, I’m trying to “play dead” and be in fawn mode. This is a legit strategy taught by the Army and used in the wild to bore the predators who want a “fresh meal” and “not dead meat”.

Just don’t let the elite cover you in “natural flavor”.

He’s a hypocrite if he eats that shit.

Furthermore, they put it in the cheap food and the organic food – it was made in a lab! It ain’t natural! Stop gaslighting!!!!!

Y’all dropping hundred dollar bills for foam shoes – that cause cancer.

I can’t even find small cotton panties and now I need XS potentially.

The sizing charts have changed and I’m elite being 110 pounds in America with roughly two out of three adults being overweight.

Yet, yesterday hanging out with squirrels and feeding them, the big kids were rolling their eyes at me – just like the overweight BLM female entering the mall –

We’ve been asking “do cellphone’s cause cancer” and they said everything but what we wanted to hear. Now when shopping for phones, they come with a cancer warning.

FYI

“Reproductive harm”

They’re nihilist’s destroying the world with synthetics and AI!

Black and Latino and Asian lives matter! But Native American and white lives don’t! Check the CENSUS!

And they identify as us!!! Laughs! Wait what!?!

The Great Race war is real – and Asia moving in on the news

The Great Replacement theory!

White man isn’t the only one corruptible or evil! He’s the pawn used in the whole game! By the Asians and yellow fever propaganda!