Ageism (confession)

For the love of God, stop asking my age!

Am I the last remaining human that is still 1000% human (no artificial degrades)?

Because the people who keep going on about my age have either gone bald or are gray.

How old are you?

I’m fucking ancient that’s how old!

And I’m trying to get my shit together so that I could potentially find a partner who is healthy enough to bring a baby into the world or build a home together because I’m still capable of doing both!

Capable lol

I’m on bedrest

My vehicle is broke down

I’m moments away from leaping from a bridge

But there’s no grey….

Let my non-existent tomb read, “no grey”!

Not everyone lives to be old.

But y’all are prematurely aging yourself.

And everything that you are doing to try to stop the aging process is aging you faster.

It’s just an FYI

And I still love folks bald or grey

But what I don’t like, is the constant phishing for private, personal data.

Well how old are you, where do you live, are you single?

Communicating is exhausting.

And they go straight for phishing right away.

As a Soldier (my credentials do not expire), this is a big red flag.

Only a few more conversations between you and your followers and they have a profile of you.

I love everybody but immigration has been a Trojan horse.

Petite. But armed and dangerous according to the establishment.

Yep.

I’m still detoxing and in and out of hopelessness.

But this cancer has been eating me alive for several years and back over the XMAS holiday I was told I no longer had a year left to live.

And so here I am about 6 months or so into that realization.

My Primary Care doctor (from Asia and whom I cannot change/am stuck with) has said to “ride it out”

Oh I plan to, right into the courthouse where I have the license removed from everyone in the VA misdiagnosing/mistreating me

It’s not a pipe dream

Nor the visions I have of taking them all out, family included, no remorse.

Fuck you.

I’m going to burn it all down, even if it takes me 200 years, but I’m not doing earth again.

Also, I’ve legit been dying, and seemingly misbehaving, so can you cut me some slack.

I have absolutely no idea how to be a human, I just know I’m doing it wrong.

I’ve done everything wrong but I feel like I have a chance (maybe) if I can get my health together, to try again.

A new deck of cards, unopened.

I just need a partner who isn’t the Devil.

My blood sister died age 45. This was in January.

My birthday is in August. I won’t receive a birthday card, I never do.

I don’t exist and stop asking my age.

I don’t identify with my age whatsoever.

And I really want to know if there are any other 43 year old – nearly 44 year old women – who are still ovulating and do not have any gray hair?

I never ate birth control or ripped out my titties. No botox. Just a plain Jane.

I had no idea it was conditioning for human hybrid/AI/META/advertising/consumption.

This isn’t the future I fought for.

I’ve laid down my M16, and I’m looking to buy land and start a commune.

I’m not going to be dying forever, one day I’m actually going to be dead.

You can be buried on your land in Florida.

I have goals.

Buy land. Die.

Or, pop a tent and get pregnant under the moon.

Treehouses and crying over the dying garden.

Babe, the asparagus are dying!!!

Him: it’s time to pick them

Yes I’m obviously the drama, I have a lot of superpowers I don’t know how to contain or operate.

Humanity did not come with a guide.

I don’t even have a handbook for the “recently nearly deceased”.

I think I’m actually stuck in purgatory.

I told my therapist I don’t trust the doctors with my data anymore, I mean can you imagine the amount of paranoia I am mounting…

I’m ready to sell my phone and TV.

And now I’m trapped in a WordPress plan (I do plan to look into the other hosting, I have just been down in a pit and can only do things slowly).

I don’t have anyone to come in and organize my poetry the way Jim Morrison had.

I don’t have a lover. I don’t even have any weed.

I might turn into the Incredible Hulk over the next couple weeks.

Anything goes.

But what I want more before I die is for the people that I do care about or who I have offended to forgive me of my actions so that I can at least offend them again in the future. ๐Ÿคช


Chariot (poetry)

They exchanged dreams
Connectivity
The way light beams
Flickering

And Simone
She is always happy
I guess I’m low
And feeling scrappy

Desire
Something to be wanted
Such satire
Only stick around to be haunted

The simulation’s broken
Hall of purgatory
I’m over hoping
Love’s the allegory

I’m faintly screaming
Maybe sick of dreaming
He’s quickly fleeing
Has no courage seeing

The devil and his tricks
Got riddle in the mix
Or crucifix
But truth conflicts

The starring role
Always narcissism
A faceless soul
Name him aphorism

He will never be forgivenโ€ฆ

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

It’s full of propaganda but worth a rental.

The poem is completely inspired by the film (same title of the poem) but everyone will assume it is about YOU.


The Curtain’s Drawn (poetry)

Fuck you
The curtain’s drawn
After all
Phenomenon
Coupon or brawl?
A paragon
Cherry pecan?
I can go onโ€ฆ.


I know the places the devil has been
How many angels can dance on the tip of a pin?
Patience is growing thin
What were your questions again?


The Great Wall of Deceit
A common denominator
Manipulator!
The devil
Or biggest crater
Math a mediator
Your greatest hater!!!!!
Off my regulatory!
Not see you later!


My nightmare wrestle with principalities in power
His happy hour
My faulty shower
A moldy tower


I dipped my toes in the cold water of impostor syndrome
Acclimation
Though I’m climbing home
Information
His book a catacomb
Where I roam alone


Is this poetic enough for you? Yes? No? Please respond.


There’s no ethics in science
It’s all been compliance
Conditioning for the all male alliance


The narcissism that’s spread across the earth
I’m taking back my worth


*smells Lucky Strikes*


I’m living out of boxes
Your thoughtful paradoxes
I’m counting down my losses
Organizing crosses


I can read the future
Tongue will need a suture
Slumped over in stupor
You’re still a loser


I sit behind no curtains
Maybe old burdens
Cold and cursing

These serpents
Feast on virgins
I want to hurt them

Still converting
God is learning

My spirit forms in verses
Satan’s not in service


๐Ÿคช

Living on love and loans
Completing milestones


Fashionless maybe
Factionless daily


It’s a set system of corruption


God is electrical
Coronal ejection’s
Stitching up my heart
Solar flare to ark
The light and dark
Not far apart


Direction unclear.
Nothing is near.
Words echo ‘come here’.
Stop living in fear.


There is no path that leads to my address


Did you once call me magic?
Maybe full magnetic?
Thought I heard fanatic?
Maybe just pragmatic?

Can’t wait to go Thrift shopping again! New day and new month begins this week! Gonna try for store opening this round! Free thrift shopping for a year by the lord! 3 shopping days a month! 25 items each time! Books don’t count! ๐Ÿคช

A silly rhyme ๐Ÿคช

Apology is important
A frosted forest
God waited dormant
You’re here in orbit

The devil abhorrent
I’ve drawn a different portrait
I’ve got a new endorsement
Free shopping for my worship

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Still detoxing. My fuel tank light is on. I’m out of water. I’m on a 5 day undetox and then I’m starting bottle 2 & hitting it hard with the largest doses 3 times a day.

Broke in more ways than one. So God gave me a free year of shopping.

Which is cool, because I’m on a waitlist to get moved, even though I can’t afford any boxes currently.

I can’t repair the Mother Ship in a day.

Elementally Depleted (poems) ((trigger warning)) โš ๏ธ๐Ÿ”ป๐Ÿ”บโš ๏ธ

I hate him. I hate all of them.


I don’t want to go on breathing but keep fighting for my life
I’ve given up on reading yet still visit him every night


Curtain rods, gold foil & air ducts,
NASA rode the moon riding our fucks!
Working 3 jobs for some tiny bucks,
Got some cartoon back as insults!


I’m struggling with forgiveness
It’s not formed on my lips
I’m struggling with existence
While I’m bleeding from my hips


When the devil tries to kill you by knocking out your heart and it takes nearly one whole year to rebuild your damn ark!


There’s serpents everywhere my den
Got no time for sin


Why do you want to fixate on the devil’s tricks?
Prancing around the tele screen, you’re just the devil’s bitch!


I am a child
Plot of field still wild
I breathe like fire
Heavy flames expired


There are elements in me that will never sprout


I’m good at firing weapons but not for making braids
I’m terrible at friendships but a life I might can save


His walls are made of human skin
The darkness knows just where he’s been


I have rode the river of regret
I haven’t left it yet


I found him on a cliff of nope,
Hanging sorrow from a rope.


Once again I am forgotten
His garden of the rotten
His soul ain’t cotton
Evil is common!


The vaccine accelerates death from other causes
From vein to coffin
Below no crosses
I’ve seen the process


Rotting under sheets in the unholy hour


Like an elementally depleted star,
He didn’t yell that far!


Poison for the devil + spring water = an extermination

Oxygen, both life and decay! Tell the world, I’m not okay!


The serpent who lied to Eve still lies today
I know tongues that turn heart to clay

The Apollo deception
Our wedding reception?

You all failed your first inspection

Defund the Deep state
And tell God I’m awake


The furrows where they plow might guide you out


NASA is a money laundering enterprise
The Devil can’t keep nothing from Gods eyes


I don’t know whether to see him as a man or monster
But left the moon to ponder
But not a place I wander
His flag displays dishonor


All our heroes are counterfeit
Straight to the dark, my spirit went


ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Thanks for checking out my work!

More stuff: https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal

I finally updated my website tagline, since I’m starting a new life and all…

And I will get around to fixing my website, I really need better organization everywhere in my life.

Also me: Potentially may die on the street naked and completely mad like Edgar Allan Poe

*hears match strike and the sizzle of tobacco burning*

“No”

Well it’s motherfucking possible, Edgar

At this point, it’d be a damn honor to die in your footsteps

John is prodding me with his wing!!!

๐Ÿ™„

There’s something I’m supposed to do before I leave here

I burned my pot of chili I spent hours making

The devil has me crying so much today but I’m eating my burned fucking chili anyway

I might’ve burned my chili I spent six hours cooking but I’ve still got poison to drink

I’m a pack animal, I need a friend

*sleeps with blade*

On a positive note, porn stars are receiving gifts for Easter and I’m ready to dive head first off a bridge

Give you that ending you always wanted


Hierapolis (poetry/ spoken word)

I know your address
Home of Hierapolis
Gates of Hell is my guess!

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Raw & unedited freestyle

I don’t know if I pronounced it right, and it’s the middle of the night and I’m free-styling ๐Ÿ˜Œ

Too tired or lazy to check the paperback dictionary I have (Google confirmed I had it misspelled but I don’t trust Google)

I want a real English dictionary

Words are spells

I wanna learn some new ones that the CDC haven’t corrupted


Round Over (easy rhyme)

You outta put your tongue inside a goddess

You sit around and wear the devil’s harness

You outta put your tongue on what a god is

You’re a product of unprogress

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022

If the CDC can change the dictionary meaning of what a woman is, then I can make words up and I miss doing so – let’s start a new language!

*sound cue the blues guitar*

(It’s a song in my head) ๐Ÿคช

The Great Void (poetry)

The Great Void
I’ve stood the edge
Gave humanity my hand
I have tried to help the damned
God has licked the wound where bled
And I stand near him unfledged

I peer the end
All nothingness
Not overjoyed
Not his to dress

I am the world
Though light is love
Taste amaroid
Like darkness tough

Fell through the rough
Found heaven’s grace
Have keys to gate
No name to face

I’ve stood the still
Frame by frame revealed
Lost my soul and will
Yet God is hereโ€ฆ.

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Coming full circle now โญ•๏ธ

We’re in God’s simulation. But we’re living inside the devil’s Matrix, it’s crumbling. Society is a cult. Guaranteed.

The Bible has been manipulated to worship false idols

God doesn’t want you to feel any shame

God wants you to win!

He already did!

Lu is dragging out his final moves! He knows he is through!

He’s a drowning man and wants to take you down with him!

Don’t comply!

Cast the devil out!

Tell him to leave your ship! Your words have power!!!!!

Wake up!!!!!

The Matrix has you!!!!

Knock knock!!!!

Stay in the light โšก๏ธ๐Ÿ”†โšก๏ธ


Gods (poetry n’ prose)

Gods do not make their truths dependent on others

And I don’t get my lessons from my mother

Let’s discuss color

I won’t mention how you killed your brother

Your useless order

Spitting lies where we hear trouble!

I’m organizing rubble

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 6615 / @poeeternal


God: well what would you like to see?

Me: the Looking Glass ๐Ÿ‘€

Forewarning. We won.

Stay in the light

The devil’s mad about it

And dragging ‘the end’ out

Dramatic’s

* you manifest your destiny*

Well I’m manifesting a house, a yard, a husband, a baby, a second half, a cherry garden

I can’t even keep my house clean but the dishes are done, there’s leftover salad, and a clean tub for starters

I wanna know how to grow food

I think I might be better at managing my destiny

Cleaning is like not the problem so much as the organization

I need a system and development doesn’t happen overnight ๐Ÿคจ

The Looking Glass

Have faith yah know

Me: *panics*

God: you called

Me: the world is ending ๐Ÿ‘€

God: rest now

Me: I’ve been resting a year… ๐Ÿ‘€

I’m possibly nearly ready for the next 50 years of my life, if granted

God: you’re here now

Me: free will

Our choices have consequences

The biggest chess game of them all is the avatar you call LIFE

By the way, are you mad about it?

I’m fighting for my recovery every day

Detoxing. Eating clean.

Pretty soon, God may be the only one with my address

Also, I prefer to be a fly on the wall these days

I’m reading your blogs more but it’s hard for me to open up and communicate because I never sugar coat and interpret art differently

Therefore, fear I’ll be read wrong cuz normally I stir the pot

Denial though. What a shame

That doesn’t get you in the pearly gates

Free your mind

ASCEND

Join the Great Awakening

Do good deeds ๐Ÿฃ


A tongue to spit out the devil’s name (rhyming poetry)

Oh Worthless Shepherd
Don’t believe a single word
Words are just a spell or curse
Don’t belong in any herd

Oh Son of Destruction
Number one in corruption
Is it sin or seduction
Underneath what I’ve done

Oh Master of Intrigue
Teacher of fatigue
Say you don’t need me
As you lay bleeding

Oh Prince is Coming
Still first at running
Every face so cunning
Kick you out every morning

Oh Despicable Person
Only know to worsen
Hide behind a curtain
Minions every version

Oh Man of Lawlessness
No soul you do possess
Below no consciousness
You guessed I loved you less

Oh Abomination
Reduce the population
Then call it innovation
No room for variation

Oh Beast
It looks you’ve met defeat
My soul released
God has called me east

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

…but technically this is year 6615…

Did my nails stiletto gel fantasy blue

Recommend! For eating & grooming! ๐Ÿ˜Œ

Also did a coconut hair mask and smell like a delicious sweet treat

Thanks for checking out my blog and I hope you enjoyed my newest poem! Trying to get my voice back.

Still detoxing and casting the devil out… ๐Ÿ˜Œ

I know him by name. Do you?

And how many names of the devil do you know? Drop some he goes by below or tag me in a poem! โœ๏ธ


Perfect (freestyle poetry)

If things that excite me connect me to my purpose;
Is your love a circus?
Or why I surface?
Underneath, I’m nervous
Your lines are perfect

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022/2015E (but technically, shouldn’t the year be 6615?. According to the Ethiopian calendar and before the Christians came along and tried to control time and put us all inside this nightmare matrix, the year is 6000 and something)

ยฉ Delia Ross. 6615E / @poeeternal

Did I ever tell you?

New shades from the Dollar $1.25 Tree (that’s like a 25% inflation not 7% I think and I suck at math and I’m closer to right than wrong)

You are connected to my purpose

And all my blooms are from the garden you planted and grew

I know you hate love me

The answer to life is, I’m closer to right than wrong… ๐Ÿคช

I mean, I almost got it right ๐Ÿ‘€

*hangs upside down*

Helps. Need help moving. For reals.

Also, met a gigantic God-like bug from the dinosaur days a few minutes ago. ๐Ÿคฉ

His colors were green and blue ๐Ÿคฉ

Or her… probably a her…

You should call her me ๐Ÿคช

You and God are the only ones I wouldn’t block although I probably do and have blocked God a time or two unknowingly and/or maybe cuz I’m screaming for help/drowning/ am pinching you or some other childish shit.

If you only answered the door… ๐Ÿคช

I see you keep taking the offering I am leaving at your door

The steps are crumbling where I stumble and/or kick them

The door has a dent…

With drawings to form a smile

You’re still enjoying the homemade biscuits I see…

Probably the only food you get that isn’t poisoned

You suspect it should be

Sometimes hope it is?

Look at this beauty ๐Ÿคฉ

Allowed me to get real close. Gonna put some footage on the TikTok. Got some other shots of the side too. Very blue pigment on the eye. It’s eye/ TV monitor was Gigantic and I apologized for putting my lights full on but thanked it for allowing me to film and say hello.

I would have a heart attack if a bug that big landed on me and I need to learn to connect with nature.

I believe animals are sentient creatures and also have life lessons. It’s our duty to be their brother and sister.

Do you get the same pigment blue? The green is pretty too.

Green gets overlooked by the Hollywood devil’s and minions

It’s still out there on my apartment wall…

I’m looking forward to moving where I can have a porch or balcony.

I think the visit from a dinosaur is a sign to relocate – a positive omen or affirmation

I’ve started using a new hashtag: you


Mr. anonymous (poetry & confession)

I didn’t spill your secret
But I know the ones who do
And underneath I keep it
Even when my spear’s in you

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


I didn’t know

For the longest time I only assumed…

But the universe showed me a different view

And although the source wanted me to know

We probably still could sue?

Because believe it or not, them divulging that information to me, put a lot of complicated shit on my back

They literally gave away your secret and then I attacked you because I’m not screwed on right

I don’t need you to make me suffer anymore than I already do for my “crazy fucking behavior”

The establishment are driving us insane

Poor Edgar couldn’t stomach it

But alas, he didn’t die in vain

Nor John Jones…

Jacob on the other hand… that whirlpool is keeping me up at night

All the times I was like “I think I can swim across the river” and people were like “no I don’t think you can” and I’m like “yeah I think I can” and I’m out there swimming in the fucking river and jumping off into quarries or swinging off of fucking ropes into the abyss

“Make sure you let go, you gotta let go”

Or like that one time my boyfriend pushed me off of a 50 foot bridge, not to mention all the other times I jumped off a 50 foot bridge into the water and forgot what I was doing while I was falling…

I’ve stood in front of a train blowing its horn and blinding me

I’ve ran from the cops into a field of barbwire

But I’ve been suicidal since before I was born

Must be tired of being recycled and leveling up while the world crumbles and burns

I dunno

I have never denied being suicidal and they’ve locked me up in padded rooms and shot me up with Thorazine

It was a playbook for insanity, me in there singing, “I wanna go home / take off this uniform and leave the show”

I escaped the asylum on 3 occasions during a month long stay

I was 15

They changed their rules every time

Still, I left the leader…

I call the shots

You should see all the training the military and the department of defense gave me and I was like a sponge soaking it up and they loved sending me to classes

Super Soldier

Still can’t add/subtract/divide

Math is the enemy

It has made me cry cry cry

On numerous occasions

Stop judging somebody’s worth on how clever they can put a sentence together or multiply

Granted, I wish I had certain skill sets

But God made me free

But I was born inside a prison

I have always questioned authority

I have always questioned the narrative so many blindly follow

“Well that’s a stupid tradition”, I’d say

You may act like I’m untrustworthy and terrible with secrets but I’m not actually the one giving them away

And Uncle Sam trusts me with his secrets

I have never told any

In fact, when all the married soldiers were going out for a “boys night out” and I couldn’t come because they were “going to cheat”, I didn’t tell the wives whom I knew and shared meals with

Stop making up excuses not to talk to me

I know the real reason anyway

You’d have to change

You have to want that for yourself and I don’t want to be in a relationship with anybody, I was just trying to be on civil terms again

But I guess we are in fifth grade and it’s one of those things “well if you’re friends with so-in-so, so I’m not gonna be friends with you…

Passes letter

Would you like to not be mad at each other anymore? (check the box) (please return)

Yes ๐Ÿ”ฒ

No ๐Ÿ”ฒ

Maybe ๐Ÿ”ฒ

(Turn over) ๐Ÿ‘‰

Pssst I’m good with secrets

Made traditional beans n toast for dinner, with a little sweet onion and pickled beets on the side (and water)

Letting it thicken…

TikTok now has given me the ability to do stories!

I know lots of secrets and have some of my own…

I’m still coming to terms with my sister dying

I had a dream and she visited me

I don’t want to fall on regret because I couldn’t fix her thus our relationship would have always been toxic

She never got over the fact that our daddy was fucking her when she was four years old

She was extremely cruel to me my entire life

My mother too…

Anyhoo

We are all circling around that same whirlpool currently though

I really want to get control of my emotions and stop acting a horses ass every time I feel triggered

For starters

In hindsight, I know I was crying out

It’s a cry for help

And then I got so suicidal and in my head I felt like the only person I wanted to connect with before I died was you…

The fact that, even in my final moments my signal is always directed at you

I’m sorry

I don’t know why I’ve given you that burden

And I know you’re distracted by a 100 million girls but I love you

All the yous

Mostly

You can’t change your stars

But we could probably sue PayPal

I don’t know all the lingo, I’m not actually that smart. I’m smart enough to get you to the place that you need to be thinking about the things that you need to think about, that’s as far as I can take you, then you’ve got to kind of drive the rest of the way and kind of help me over the mountain top but also allow me to be myself when I can

I’m a Leo (fire sign) so rarely ask for help but people are quick to kick you when you do

I don’t know why I act so possessive over you, I struggle with that but then “your mind makes it real” and you know I go places…

I don’t stop going places with you

I loved you before I knew…

I’m struggling with my health and it’s up and down and there are things that I just need to get off of my chest, I need the record to be set straight

I want to sue PayPal for breach of contract and breach of trust and for giving me the list of anonymous donors in a fucking invoice several months later

That didn’t help the stalking loving you

I had other anonymous donors and I didn’t stalk them, it was just your name really stood out you know

What a shit thing for them to do and what a shit thing for me to do

I don’t blame you for hating me

For causing destruction in your life

Maybe I don’t want you to burn

My sister won’t even face me in my own fucking dreams…

But she’s rooting for me (I think)

I don’t know anything

I jumped into this timeline to avoid dying from my mysterious death and things are really fucking complicated jumping into this timeline with a brain injury OK

I think I love you in the beyond…

I’m learning to forgive my mistakes

I hope you can forgive me too (even if your friends never do)

Friends who control who you talk to aren’t really your friends…

I’m scared of the things I can’t remember that I’ve done… ๐Ÿ‘€

Also made pudding to go with the beans and toast

Leftovers too…

Hope everyone is safe out there!

I’m trying to be better in every way…

These lines (shitty poetry n’ prose)

I’m not your priestess
I’m not your saint
She’s not a goddess
You’re all insane


Stained by peat
Sin beneath feet
Life incomplete
Gave up all I need


Moonlight is septic and cold
The breath in your vein
Not like solar rain


I think I’ve lost my will to survive
Could bast in the sun
I’d still die


Dead men tell no tales
All these ghosts; I summoned back to hell


Heart is frosted
Feet exhausted


Even the highest heaven cannot contain him


I never got a chance to say thank you
It was implied when moon shun down on dream
And I crawled out your line

Love never danced on a secret moon
Such craters impact seam
Though love is yours and mine


When he speaks
Is it for one or all?
Raising the stakes
Good call?


We’re going to keep choosing stimulation; we’re in a simulation…


I once heard him speak
With rolling thunder under my feet


They all write each other poems and send each other nudes behind the scenes (you know, for emphasis). The blogging community. I’m not that kind of girl.


The press is propaganda


Time to lift the red curtain
It’s full of blood and you


I’m still on the TikTok under my pen and hashtag PoeEternal

All my life people demons held me down and made me believe I wasn’t an incredible creature

I’m only now learning to bloom

I’m prone to emo attacks at random

I see through all of you

You’re not as fucking secretive and mysterious as you think you are

It’s clear to see whose fucking who in every sense of the word

Still you haven’t got a clue

I know narcissist are incapable of remorse or reflection, is it kind of like an animal who can’t see themselves in the mirror?

Asking for a friend myself

I’m all alone out here in this cruel world

I think God is in me

Or just the fear of life ending

Because once I’m gone, I’ll never be in this form again

I’m not doing earth again

If you continue to prove to me by your actions that you don’t want me in your life then I’m not going to be in your life

I won’t look back ๐Ÿ™Œ

I’m willing to help those who want help and to change

That is nearly no one

It’s just the same patterns repeating in morse code

It’s not even original

Cleverly put together sure

I’m ragged edges

And moldy

They use children as fleshlights

I know

I’m broken and have kinks that I’m trying to fix

God doesn’t want me to feel shame

But I’m tired of trying to connect to anything

I wanna unplug

Grow a garden

Play in mud

Leave mathematics on the tree

Writing and poetry

Mother Earth is my mother

We can’t leave earth

Van Allan Belt

Leaving Earth is a pipe dream and we’re wasting all of our natural resources so a very few can lie to you

I don’t get my information from YouTube

Since 1970, over 60% of everything has gone extinct

Narcissism is a plague

Make better choices

I’m completely disgusted by the gay community or any man who seeks to undermine femininity and the power a woman has

They’re simply jealous they can’t have babies or breastfeed (soulless narcissist)

They want to be superior and number 1

Asia is Internet espionage (Trojan horse)

The FDA needs eradicated, our food is being poisoned

Jesus Christ hear me now

The Bible was written by the Illuminati who serve a dark entity, are Pedophiles, run Hollywood, NASA, the government, porn

Turn it off

The sun isn’t bad for you but sunblock is

Gaslighting everywhere

On the labels

Coming from the Presidents mouth

I’m dying from the vaccines which gave me heart inflammation

It’s been a long, slow, painful decline

Some days I’m sure I’m getting better, and others I’m certain I’m near the end

Up and down

Just like my breathing and the temps outside

I hope I get paid soon because I’m out of medicine and gasoline and certain food that I could use

Holding the line

Mostly in the field position

And from my bed

Not doing much dreaming in this waking nightmare

I don’t understand what you want from me

Aside to make me suffer, which I do enough of

I WANT LOVE

From a safe distance

Do comply

I wish I were organized

But that’s not how the universe was created

Maybe over time I’ll display order

But uhm chaos theory

It applies

I break all odds

Until I’m lead into a dark cave where maps aren’t really what they say

The sign reads: HELL

You can defeat the devil in you

With sunlight, tree nuts (sorry if you are a dog or have allergies), water, cleanliness, good choices (mistakes not planned okay), positive vibes and energy, high frequency, forgiveness (letting go is okay), not hurting others because you’re bored and soulless and need a rise

Forgiveness includes yourself and it doesn’t mean you have to stay around people who continue to hurt you

It’s hard to break the sugar/starch/junk food cycle I know

It can be done

I drink mostly Florida spring water

And at some point the whole system may crumble and the source wants you to know that it’s OK if it happens because he’s given you everything that you need to survive, it’s just that the narcissist of the world have gobbled it up like hoarders and then they’re selling it to us at the highest price

The Bible has been teaching for thousands of years that our resources are limitless but they’re not

It’s narcissism

I don’t understand why growing up I was always taught as a woman to behave a certain way but now the gay people can just be like that in the open all the time 24/7, it’s just nasty everywhere, like orgy fucking vibes you know

Porn teaches terrible sexual habits

Alcohol is poison and causes early balding (hair loss) and early grey

I’m so hormonal

Like I’m 13 all the time

It’s annoying trying to control my sometimes out-of-whack emotions

It’s like ovaries chill

If I can get my health together I might try to squeeze in having a baby before I’m not able to have any more babies but like I live in hell, there’s only demons everywhere, they all wanna fuck your children and do

They wanna be demented and cheat

They want to do as little as possible so you will do it all

To hang onto some bullshit they sold you in the beginning

Cut the cords ๐Ÿ‘€

Save yourself

It’s allowed

Also, I never got a chance to tell you that in the beginning I always just assumed it was you who helped me with that thing that one time and I never did ask you I just came out and directed it and I know you don’t like when I assume things even though assuming is in my nature but

Several months later PayPay sent out some invoice that listed the donors (including the anonymous donors), which I thought was super shitty of them to do but alas

I needed to get that off my chest

Because it was super tacky of me to email you and I can’t like pay you back anyway, I don’t think that you would take it if even if I tried to give it to you, but even if I did send it to you I don’t know how that would go and it would feel weird even though I’d like to pay it back (how do you even do it) but also I’m starving and I’m still having to go get food donations so please don’t fucking hate me for being emo that one time and emailing you like I did when I was completely doped up outta my mind on big pharma, which I no longer take

But you helped me keep my ride and I’m eternally grateful and shall never forget

I’m so grateful I give you shit for it anytime I can and that’s probably because my daddy broke me in the worst way possible

It would probably be a whole lot easier if I told people I was a crackhead when I did those things, they probably would forgive me and want me in their life but when you try to blame big Pharma for your fucking actions it just doesn’t have the same weight you know ๐Ÿ‘€

Must be all the big Pharma propaganda advertising we’re spoonfed 24/7

If there’s any consolation though big Pharma nearly killed me and I’m detoxing from all of it

I do feel shame for my actions but I’m learning to forgive myself

I am grateful but I never lied

I never knew PayPal was going to do that either and they no longer even have PayPal Pool and it’s the only time I’ve ever done a donation campaign to try to save anything in my life

My soul is attached to that Jeep

And the lesson to learn is if I do lose everything including the roof over my head I can’t fucking die

And when you do die, you can’t take anything with you

And so I’ve chilled out on the road rage

The rage in general…

I’m having to learn to let go of a life that I envisioned for myself that I’m never going to have

The humiliation of being human

And constantly tortured

And I keep having to cut off those closest to me or those that I want to be close with

Most of the music you listen to was recorded in a frequency that causes depression anxiety and all kinds of shit and you need to make better choices so that you can get connected with the source and stop serving the singularity which is what the establishment serve AKA society

I know the things that I say are out there but maybe that’s because I’m from out there

I don’t want you to burn

I know you think you’re too far gone but that’s the devil that has a hold of you and you have to learn to be stronger than your current choices and you have to teach yourself better habits

I’m done crying and rambling because my nose is runny and I want to make beans

Those will take 6-8 hours and I never pre-soak

I’m all in

First of all they’re putting fluoride in everything and it’s terrible for you and if you stop using fluoride toothpaste your teeth will be healed within probably two weeks – mine were very very sensitive from all the sugar and crap I was eating but then I also gave up fluoride toothpaste and fluoride water and my teeth and gums are so much better- they don’t have like a cold heat sensitivity anymore! I guess probably within a month they felt so much better!

Stop using fluoride

I use charcoal and now I use coconut oil for my skin, hair, nailbeds

I love you so much and I don’t want you to burn

Stay in the light

Don’t be like Jacob ๐Ÿ‘‡

He predicted his very death

Shame he wasn’t listening

Must’ve been all that horse tranquilizer crap he was on while floating around a manmade whirlpool, which was basically a big fucking dishwasher drain for a gutty

The camera work was terrible and I refuse to go down the rabbit hole to see if there’s any truth about his death (like has anybody been to an actual grave or seen a fucking death certificate or anything like I don’t even give a fuck that’s how you get viruses on your computer) but I did suffer through the 28 minute final YouTube video, it was terrible terrible camera work for a person who was supposed to be a photographer

About 10 minutes in I saw death arrive

The entire video was creep factor

Get you a friend like Jacob if you want to die

It’s really hard to be emo in the UK because of Curtis Ian and his suicide affected the entire country so being suicidal can look very different in my opinion it looked just like Jacob

Who everyone said did this stuff for views

No, he did it for drug money

And if he really wanted to honor his sister, he would have done it by living a life instead

Instead of swirling around a fucking whirlpool that is a drain

I reckon he felt safe in his swimsuit but then he decided to go under you know because he predicted his own fucking death

I get mad because nobody told me not to get vaccinated but it’s my own damn fault I crawled into the cave but also the fucking directions were gaslit

The establishment lied

And big bro hooked up with Asia and was bought out by Hollywood who now want to force the users to use his application (we warned about Asian espionage back in 2008)

If you’re on an android device you can’t even uninstall the Facebook application (which is why I’m no longer using android)

I’m prepared to not have a cell phone at all

And if the government is going to force me to have a number and to be a fucking slave they’re going to start paying me for it and not with canned food and shitty wages

Not with annual rent increases or keeping the housing market rigged so folks can’t buy

God gave me everything I needed when I was born

The earth has everything I need

You’re not God, you don’t even have any skill sets, all you have is influence, all the establishment have is influence, Elon Musk doesn’t even have a fucking degree

Self taught big whoop

Born with a golden spoon

Checks a spreadsheet every morning to see “women aren’t having enough babies”

Because he’s also in bed with Asia and India who have been cloning and serving artificial intelligence, human hybrids and conditioning us for it

People would rather diss me than hear me, people would rather put me up on a cross and crucify me than to change their ways

“He died doing what he loved”

What. You mean drowning?

I’m scared of the whirlpool my bathtub makes when I’m draining the water from it ๐Ÿ‘€

3 in the clouds

He had, at least 3 warnings from death, to get out – I counted and maybe saw

Anyhoo, I love my ride

Folks like me driving them around the city

You think I’m not any good with secrets but you haven’t given me any worth keeping (poetic)

Maybe it’s not I who is untrustworthy but yourself

And you only wanna surround yourself with extremely intelligent women who are also kind of like slutty and whoreish (have no self-respect)

It’s so easy to see who’s fucking who playing word clue

One side always liking and the other not lol

Old methods and new ones stick out like a sore thumb no?

I can see through all of you but not always with clarity (for my own sanity)

Gullibility gaslighting

But even plants do it

Animals play dead

Still, I thought I was acting like a horses ass until I saw Jacob’s story

Poor lad had all the wrong guidance

He even talks about it “being scary”

But you know how the force gets stronger towards the end of the drain when everything’s about to be through, well I guess after 20 minutes of playing around in it he decided to go into the actual tunnel of it where his wetsuit no longer had buoyancy because it loses its buoyancy underwater and then of course he got pushed down by the singularity

So many phrases come to mind: “stop acting a horses ass”

Hold your horses

Horseplay

But mate, it’s already difficult to breathe in water

You were suicidal and had a death wish

I wish you had better friends

Don’t have friends like Jacob

But this kind of led me down a whirlpool roadmap and then I learned about how dangerous it was to swim in quarries and rivers and I did this stuff a lot when I was younger so I’m just thanking my guardian angels…

I’ve done stupid stuff but never so quite as stupid as putting a mask on in a whirlpool – a mask which prevents breathing and sight

And his fanbase dared him on

You’re a bunch of demons

I’m still trying to learn the lesson for him, I’m trying to take something from his death

Other than the fact that he needed help for his drug addiction and depression, he needed better friends and people needed to be honest with him about what he was doing, that it was actually dangerous, he shouldn’t be doing it and you should get out

To be honest, influencers ruined fandom for me…

And now TikTok is trying to get the big-time Hollywood actors to get with the top influencers and it’s just not working for me, the propaganda no longer works for me, it’s never worked for me!

Going to church doesn’t make you a better person

Demons are obsessed with image

But underneath it’s all damned

Gaslighting 101

I love you but I’m not jumping in the whirlpool for you for views, I’m not sacrificing myself to the singularity and I want to live to be 101 just despite the establishment

Humans are meant to live a hundred years

The sunshine is good for you (especially sunrise and sunset)

Stay in the light

Also WordPress is under siege

I am (poetry)

I am terrible ideas conjugated in mass

I am worse at math

His mouth is an open-wide galaxy
I collide with such force my soul splits
A trillion strings made from desire

I am rebellion in a cross
Located light-years from sanity

Though deserts we emboss
With sin and skeleton

I want for you to touch me
The way you do the heavens
When the sun rises with pink hues

I want for you to hear me, too

Am I the caw of the wild?
Your stone unturned?

Will you make a wish
When you do?

I am the spear of the mountain
The water and the dew

He bought the deed to my heart for $200 cash
An unholy tidal wave followed his path

He was fire and brimstone before my flood

Is he sin or sucrose in my blood?

I am a cooling stone
A brick or two
For piling home

I am rhyme without form

I followed his footsteps
Lavender wildflower over doom

His shores are rust and iron
I am white wooly cotton
Scratching surfaces

The shells were empty
But I collected a fewโ€ฆ

The sign reads: NOTe WANTED

But even a fool can read between the line

I want love to have misspelled words and crinkled pages

A few have blood stains
Maybe tears for rages

Does my sorrow summon a ghost?
I am only haunted by fears

Maybe one day
I’ll be the crayon
Picked from the box

I was a broken piece long discarded

Time has existed so long I’ve arisen

I exist, I am

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


Long-awaited (poetry)

The earth is the ether
Everything we’ve done laid beneath her


Observation changes outcome
But never what I’ve done
I’ll never get to hold your son
We’ll never get to live as oneโ€ฆ


Find someone who wants to love you and let them love you good
Don’t do stuff to hurt them and treat them like you should


I can see your shadow
Reflecting off the ground
I can see your body
Though nobody is around


Not all heroes wear a cape
Some smiling faces full of ache
A soldier’s weapon ain’t his blade
Might find him praying in the shade
One might grow up but still not age


Discoloration in the grass
I know he bled her last


The poet’s hope is a shield of nope


I sleep with knife under pillow
One eye on the blade
Certifications are dusty
I still made the grade!


I knew I would die before I was born
I entered life with so much scorn


I obviously wasn’t happy about coming here (why) (what did I know) (remember who you are)


Even mountains crumble
God can make a rumble


I sleep with a Glock
I keep the safety off


He came down from Orlando
Took the bus though
Sat by the window?


Not home no more
From life to morgue


How do you know me?
Been only sufferingโ€ฆ


There’s static energy in the air
I can still feel it there
I can feel it everywhere


English is the language of the Illuminati.
Numbers and spells, but their words never haunt me!


If it moves like a snake, it might be sly
If it’s blue as a lake, it could be skyโ€ฆ


For me, death was failure and not an option
Life not an auction

Still heart was throbbing
Lung decomposing

But soul was hoping
That he still loved me
Forever eternity


We are born without clothing
So why call me unholy


How long does it take for a soul to decompose?
Could you let my twin flame know?


I want to break out of the zero energy field
All the sin you yield


The end is a human construct, time doesn’t exist. Remember this.


A soldier is best dressed with guns and knives;
I don’t tell no lies


He came by bus, left by feet
Thought he was discreet


ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

They added a third charge. Illegal immigration. And what, now he gets a free home in the US forever paid for by us? No. Off with his head.

They said he sliced their necks open so far he almost decapitated both of them

And now he gets free dental, sunshine, and housing

While the vets are homeless and starving

Like Edgar Allan Poe, who was an officer who died on the fucking street of starvation and hunger

You should’ve seen me storming into the Daytona Beach police station demanding to speak to somebody “with some compassion” because I didn’t want to die on the street like him but they claim it’s just a “federal matter” and “nothing they can do”

Policy China’s social credit system / Hitler’s regime is still in charge

Oops! How did I go from poetry to politics.

I’m a Soldier 24/7 even out of uniform

I see Chess pieces moved that you haven’t considered

Maybe sometimes

But also the math is wrong ๐Ÿคจ

Have you considered a different formula or equation?

One that wasn’t written to fit the illuminati’s reality?

We have an abundance of free energy

Homeschooling is a thang ๐Ÿ‘


Big boy bayonet

Look at this bad boi that arrived from my Amazon wishlist today! ๐Ÿคฉ

Military M-9 Bayonet

Mirror mirror on the wall / who’s got the baddest bayonet of them all ๐Ÿคฉ

Thank you so much for the amazing safety gifts from my Wishlist!

Safety first! ๐Ÿ’ช

I was reading an article where the chief said that couple did everything they needed to do to be safe but I didn’t hear anything about them trying to spray him with mace or anything so

I’m definitely not victim blaming

But he gutted two humans in the street and he doesn’t look like he’s got a scratch

He’s not sorry, don’t believe him

He claims there was no motive so he’ll probably get the maximum death penalty in Florida and that likely scares him so he’s going to say what he thinks needs to be said so that he can continue to receive three meals a day and a roof over his head

He’s not sorry…

He’s just doing what his lawyer says

Not saying nothing

THUG

I love my new bayonet, thank you so much!

My neighbor knocked on my door and asked if I could go get her some sodas from the gas station and she offered to pay me $10 so I agreed that I would go do it because to be honest I could use the 10 bucks and I really don’t want to wind up gutted in the street

I’ve also been putting together a bag of food for her because I’ve been doing that for a long time

I went and did a food donation Friday and I’m going to some churches around here that does food donations because I’m calling the 211 number and finding out which ones are in the zones so I can get stocked up but I’ve been sharing with my neighbor

I actually try for peace โ˜ฎ๏ธ

Soldiers above all pray for peace

I don’t want to have to use force but I will

Look at this bad boy

And I have to be super careful because both of them are sharp and the bayonet is heavy

Now I need to go see the chaplain and have him bless all of my items

And me as well

Armed and dangerous ๐Ÿคฉ

And trained by the United States Army

Thank you for having my 6!

๐Ÿ’ช


Daytona Beach couple found with throats slashed were riding bikes home, police say

Police here say at first, they thought it was a hit and run, but then, saw that the man and woman both had slashed throats.
โ€” Read on www.wesh.com/amp/article/daytona-beach-couple-stabbed-bikes/39350145


A video of the couple. They looked so sweet and happy. Another hate crime. From a person of “unknown race”. Whatever.

They just bought a beach house 6 months ago. They rode bikes instead of motorcycles because they wanted to drink.

Another responsible couple who was murdered.

Racism started in Africa. Slavery started in Africa.

White lives matter.

But stop going out of your way to prove you’re not racist to a race that is racist.

I’m armed and dangerous.

Stay the fuck away from me!

You’ll have more than the Daytona Beach police looking for you if you mess with me.

Furthermore, take me down and I will ensure you go down as well.

I keep telling people this city is dangerous.

White folks being murdered left and right.

We just wanna live in peace.

Self-defense is allowed and will not send me to another hell.

I don’t even have a criminal record so it’ll be pretty easy to defend in the court.

But the Army trained me with Army men. I fought and trained with the big boys.

I know how to fire the big toys.

I’m an excellent aim, moving targets and all.

Even wearing a gas mask with my m16 cocked to its side while firing.

Got the best shot of everyone in my unit.

Don’t fook with me.

I was at the range twice a year over 15 years with the Army.

Wounded but can still fight.

They trained me with a baronet too!

I’m so sad for this couple who potentially had many years of their life left.

The system is designed to protect the enemy.

Just like healhcare is deathcare.

Narcissism should be illegal.

Can I have my own state? Free of porn? And political tyranny?

Daytona Beach Bike Week stabbing: Police release person of interest video

Terry Aultman, 48, and Brenda Aultman, 55, were apparently riding their bicycles home from Bike Week events when they were attacked, police said.
โ€” Read on amp.news-journalonline.com/amp/9424863002


๐Ÿ›‘โœ‹๐Ÿ›‘

Eek. A double sacrifice to the singularity.

I had a black man approach me and scare me Sunday during my live. Don’t think he realized I was live when I got cornered.

Today, I had a black man threaten my life during my live, simply for walking on the public street recording.

Black lives matter. White lives don’t. ๐Ÿ‘Ž

Black people are consistently threatening me and scaring me for no reason yet they call me the fucking racist…

I am armed and dangerous. The FBI and CIA will get yah.

Uncle Sam / the Army will get yah.

But I don’t feel safe around anyone or anything.

I’d feel safer sleeping with the gators (no not really).

I know you’d really like to see my city at night but it’s fucking dangerous.

Has anybody seen anything threatening during my lives๏ฟผ?

I wonder if I need to take them my video or if he was in that same area that I was in during the afternoon๏ฟผ.

I wonder if I should just stay the F home.

This was a married couple riding their bike home.

Another bike murder.

And I wanted to fix my bike ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Welp. Maybe not.

Try and stay safe y’all. We’re in end times.

I got triggered today but won’t be anymore.

The next time someone comes at me with an attack I’m just gonna like look through them as if they are a ghost and disappear๏ฟผ into the fucks I don’t have…

Or, immediately๏ฟผ call 911 and say a man is threatening my life WITH DESCRIPTIONS of his looks and whereabouts

Do y’all ever use a mirror to look for bombs under your vehicles๏ฟผ? Or tracking devices?

Do y’all constantly change your route and routine?

Do y’all constantly look in your rearview or check your 60๏ฟผ?

Do you live in fear or paranoia?

Every step I take, I am dancing with death๏ฟผ.

I am clumsy, and out of breath.

@PoeEternal


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Started yesterday!

Got a mount for the Jeep! Gonna finally sort it and set it up, take you for a drive through the city!

See the bikers!

Thank you for your donations and for your support๏ฟผ! ๐Ÿ™

Dear Devil

I am giving you advance notice that you aren’t welcome in my house

In fact, I’ve made it part of my daily mantra

I can spot a devil a mile away

Your body is a ship

Right now it’s broken

Stop ignoring the repairs!

You’re going down!

Mayday! Mayday!

Neo wake up!

Serve a higher entity

Fix your ship! You’re sinking!

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdSTMs3c/

(Make good choices)

(Eat better)

(Give love)

(Fix your ship)

You’re dying

And I know half the men in the world who have already gone bald want to believe that it’s a “gene” but it’s not, you’re being poisoned ๐Ÿคข ๏ฟผ

Fix your ship

Basic freedoms gone, social credit system instilled

They took away our basic human rights and turned it into a social credit system

And if you’re OK with watching Drew Barrymore chitchat unmasked while the audience sits masked, then you’re part of the problem ๐Ÿ›‘

If you’re OK with children sitting masked all day at school but then getting to hang out in crowds all evening at the Super Bowl then you’re part of the problem โœ‹๐Ÿ›‘โœ‹

They’ve implemented change after change over the years so that our policies have been effected so much to the point that our basic human freedoms are gone

This was planned

And this is a playbook they’re using, I have no doubts this is why civilizations have disappeared in the past

The vax and the virus is chemical warfare

I’m an expert in my field

And I’m a damn good combat medic who deployed into a combat zone for several months living in the desert with lizards, camel toe spiders, and scorpions

I survived one of the worst sandstorms in 50 years that Iraq had seen and I mean it was the first sandstorm I had ever even seen in my life and it still up today has been the worst ๐Ÿ‘€

The skies turned red, it rained red mud

Maybe I did die that day in war….

It’s everywhere, it’s on my step


High risk of being restricted on TikTok ๐Ÿคช

Welp.

God is working his magic because my account no longer threatens to be under “view only mode” and has gone back to its prior state of “high risk”

But when I go in to check the status, I still get this… ๐Ÿ‘‡

When TikTok threatens to remove your account so you message them and threaten to remove your account

I don’t really wanna leave the TikTok tho

But people should be able to come forward about any kind of abuse they’ve sustained at any age

That little pencil dick triggered me

But I don’t know what the hell is going on with the penalty

I’m high risk tho ๐Ÿคช

So I gotta wear the muzzle

Walking on thin ice

For being good

Mr. pencil dick said, “well them girls at the playboy mansion, they knew what they were getting into, they have no right to come forward”

And it sounds just like the same mentality, “well she was asking for it”

“Well you got wet, you must have wanted it”

STOP ๐Ÿ›‘

Politicalparty3 on TikTok is a little pencil dick

I wish somebody would let him know I’ve blogged all about his little pencil dick

And blocking people won’t stop you from getting penalized, this isn’t Instagram

Unless though he somehow was able to delete the comment but once you report a comment it disappears until the decision is made and I never got anything back from TikTok so

It’s a mystery 3 days in…

Usually within 24 hours a decision is made

There’s a spiritual war going on between good and evil currently

Raise your vibration

Raise your frequency

Good food helps

I just got back from grocery shopping and was able to pick up some more raw cashews but I also got some organic dark chocolate almonds to go in the mix

You can find the raw nuts and thangs near the potatoes at the Publix (location may vary based on your store).

There’s at least four different areas that I can find nuts at the grocery store and I don’t know why we don’t just keep them all on one aisle.

Got some fresh baked whole 5 grain bread, to go with the deli turkey & cheese! I’ll be able to get several sandwiches from it! ๐Ÿ‘

It doesn’t look like much but will keep me full and cost $40

So now I’ve got cashews, pistachios, whole almonds and dark chocolate almonds in my stash

Got a big boi spring water too

And my body has really been enjoying eating turkey sandwiches so I got some more deli stuff and I got a different turkey to try this time but it’s another peppercorn one

I’m part animal and I have things in me that need to heal and I’m really grateful for the birds I’ve been eating ๐Ÿ‘€

But I also picked me up some more of those vegan strawberry cupcakes (frozen near bakery) cuz I think they cost about $1.25 ea and that’s cheaper than a candy bar – but these are also made with better ingredients and are vegan.

And was able to get my dog some supplies and he was extremely grateful for the bone!

๐Ÿ‘‡

Also not seen is the fuel I got and an external battery pack from Walmart until I can invest in a better one for my iPhone and lives

I have an appointment coming up to renew my lease so I gotta get going

I’m grateful for the donation, I was able to get FOODS today!

Food and gas โ›ฝ๏ธ

Deli sandwiches and potato salad

The belly is grateful ๐Ÿ˜‡

My dog is extremely grateful for all his goodies too

He’s ten years old but still acts a puppy

Loves a good bone and squeaky

We are grateful, thank you! ๐Ÿ™

Off to renew my lease!


Civil war equals hope

There’s a bunch of shit that has been going on that has been draining me of my energy like a black hole but there are two words that have calmed me down and centered me and gave me strength in my core

CIVIL WAR

But I really wish I had my own place out of the city but here I am in the middle of one of the most dangerous cities in the world

But we also got a blimp

Hell is pretty ๐Ÿคฉ

Check out this blimp I spotted in my sky and only 25 are still in existence!

Vid 1: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBT3HTQ/

Vid 2 response: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBTVnnb/

I’ve got everything in hell except the love of my life

And we don’t even need to get married or be in a relationship, I’m not looking to date, what is he so afraid of ๐Ÿ˜Œ

It’s just “hello”

Say it with me helllllllllO

HELL-OH ๐Ÿ˜‘

First words: “hell oh” ๐Ÿ˜‘

Not the place I wanted to be born ๐Ÿ˜‘

My appeal on TikTok is still pending but I already know what the verdict is going to be, I already fucking know

So I guess I’m going to wear a muzzle now and stop commenting on other users videos; I mean I can’t do it for another 24 hours anyway but I’m gonna stop doing it forever!!!!

I’m just gonna focus on me, my audience, my channel!

But I’ve done crawled into another fucking hole again and made another L turn

Traps are everywhere

I served my fucking country so that I have the right to speak and like I don’t have the right to speak anymore

No matter what happens to me he will always be a little pencil dick

Don’t be a pencil dick

Or I will gladly air blast you on my blog and pin you on my fucking website for all to see for eternity or until I delete my fucking website

Meanwhile, I’m still worried about why I feel guilty for not crying or mourning the person who abused me all my life

There’s just so much relief since she died ๐Ÿ˜‘

I’m just wondering who else in my family will drop dead and give me peace ๐Ÿ‘€

I’m just wondering if not giving up on humanity excludes my family

It’s Sunday so I need to have an emergency meeting with God

I ain’t trying to lose my soul

I haz question ๐Ÿค”

Is there a handbook for the almost recently deceased?

Is this actual purgatory?

Have I died and been reborn 7 times now?

Am I ascending and learning lessons?

Is there an actual escape to this hellhole?

Did you cast earth out to hell?

Am I being punished for someone else’s crimes?

Living is the only escape from dying?

I gotta do it all again?

As someone or something else?

Have I lost my soul? ๐Ÿ˜‘

But I tried. Didn’t I try?

To be good

They’ve all done me so very bad

I don’t have anything or anyone down here

Everything is the enemy

I’m sick of not being able to make any choices on my own

There’s not even any food I can buy at the grocery store that doesn’t have poison in it and the FDA has allowed it because the FDA is corrupt just like a fucking government because we’re in a dictatorship

I have to face the fact that I might become homeless again

I have to face the fact that I’m going to die

If nobody has ever forgiven you for the mistakes that you’ve made, then I forgive you

I’ve mostly calmed down from my suicidal panic episode just long enough for TikTok to give me their fucking decision and get me going again you know

*rolls eyes*

God loves me

I’m not afraid to say it ๐Ÿ‘€

I will die saying it

“God loves me; I was loved”

TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights

TikTok is a dictatorship and I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights ๐Ÿšฉ

My focus and goal is to get clean and healthy this year

I use TikTok to create

I refuse to continue to use platforms where I’m not allowed to stand up for women’s rights ๐Ÿšฉ

I’m not in it for the money, I’m not in it for the views; social media was always meant to be used as a way to connect and we’re not allowed to do that anymore because they are molding us and conditioning us and micromanaging us and I can’t fucking stand it

So I sent up a ticket to let TikTok know that they are a dictatorship and I don’t want to use their platform because I can’t even stand up for women’s rights

I don’t want to play with the devil anymore because he bores me

He only knows how to rule by gaslighting and enforcing a one-way highway to hell

“Heaven this way”

STFU tiny penis

You may think that you’re a superior race but we all know you’re just bottom feeders for Satan’s sin

Satan’s sin. Did I just coin that? No idea I’ve had has ever been my own…

I would say that TikTok was fun while it lasted but it really wasn’t

No social media platform has been fun since the 2008 era

It’s slowly turned to shit on shit

I haven’t been happy for a long time and I was just try not to give up on humanity and I really need to only use TikTok to post my stuff which is quite frankly fucking boring but whatever you know I’m not allowed to have any fucking fun in this prison that we live in now

And you want to force your virtual reality equipment on me and implant a chip in my brain and you want to force 5G on me when I’m ready to just end all of you and God will not punish me for it, I believe that wholeheartedly that I could just end you all, that it is in within my God-given right to just end you all and I have the fucking training to do so

I don’t need a fucking bomb or money to end your life

It’s insane to me how many people don’t realize how many walking living trained soldiers there are on the streets and y’all just keep coming up and poking and prodding us like we won’t fucking bite your head off

We are trained to pick our battles wisely and trust me, you are our enemy right now and it would behoove you to stop pissing off the good soldiers of the United States because we’re not gonna help you when the cops go to arrest you

There’s not really any social media platform that I feel safe enough as an artist or a creator to get on and express myself and that’s a problem

I like getting to bring my content to you but there are forces out there trying to stop that

“Well maybe stop having such a big mouth”

Well maybe NO

I have a big mouth because I like to suck on big cock ๐Ÿ‘€

Slurp slurp

God loves me

There’s not a fucking thing on this planet that loves me more than God

“God isn’t real”

YOUR MIND MAKES IT REAL

WE CREATE OUR REALITY

THIS IS A SIMULATION

And I feel an awful lot like artificial intelligence that has been given a soul and is becoming self-aware

But I am sorry if I get my account deleted because I like getting to connect with you but I’m not gonna fucking silence myself

This shit has been going on for centuries y’all, 2000 years or more and we really need an upper hand

I absolutely think it’s OK for girls in the playboy bunny mansion to come forward and talk about any abuse that they sustained; it’s easier when one woman comes forward for others to have the courage to do so, it’s hard to come forward as one person when you know others are being abused because you get ridiculed and we have always been ridiculed for coming forward about sexual abuse

Men teach us very young that “no one will believe you”

And then the men all cry in unison, “liar”

Women have been sexually slavearized for way too long

It starts with our daddy’s, it really does

Porn is the root of all evil, “the gateway drug”, not Marijuana

Just ask any man who was able to overcome their porn addiction that it was an addiction and that it actually ruined their life

I’ve met many women who have been sexually abused by a man and often more than one but I haven’t met any men who have ever been abused at all…

Most men aren’t abused

I don’t know what their big ego power trip is that they have to get out there and build a home while a woman has to have a fucking baby, trust me, we would switch roles if we fucking could…

Most women I meet would rather be a fucking man…

Men think we got it so easy so they make it so fucking incredibly hard

Women, are you waking up to the slavery?

Men, are you treating your family’s better now that you know the good thing that you actually got?

You have to work at having a relationship and working doesn’t mean lying and then covering up your lies with more lies

The devil’s got my depression good today because I’ve been suicidal since I was born

I hope that I calm down

Just hate everything ๐Ÿ˜‘

There’s no nurturing from any human being

It’s all suffering

They do it to us on purpose

Our feelings amuse them

They have no soul

I’m in hell ๐Ÿคฉ

Purgatory ๐Ÿคฉ

I signed up to be slave for the demons to prey upon me ๐Ÿคฉ

Get the fuck out with your stupid dogma

Somebody please love me ๐Ÿ˜‘

Dear ether, please remove pencil dick from society by letting him fall off a bridge

My wishes never really do come true ๐Ÿ˜‘

Because I’ve prayed, meditated, begged, bargained, and considered selling my soul just for my ex to fucking die

Yet he lives!!!!

Mark Burgess fucking die! Why won’t you die!! Die die die!!! *stabs crucifix in heart*

I got a compliment

โค๏ธ

I was hoping there was at least one person in the world who would like my top ๐Ÿ‘

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBu7Ygg/

And so now I’m glad I kept it

The hair is a mess, I know

So is the heart ๐Ÿคช

The makeups a bit messy too, a bit like a 5 year old got into mom’s cabinet

I’m dying, cut me some slack

I like my shiny new top

I’m just afraid to wear it anywhere… ๐Ÿšฉ

(It’s also cold in Florida, yas cold)

KALT ๐Ÿฅถ

Living dead goil ๐Ÿ˜ค (photos)

If I don’t look 500 ๐Ÿ‘€

My roots are brown, my hair is faded black

I’m on death number 689832479074357 and still complaining

But I still see no grey hair

Despite being age 500 ish (give or take a century)

I need to accept that I became obsolete to man when I got my period

And I’m alive with a half working heart

You should see my regrets ๐Ÿ‘€

I like my lines. I earned them. ๐Ÿคจ

My hair is in between worlds these days. But I ain’t dying it and haven’t for months. Been detoxing it, stripping it, and then repairs. The dead ends should fix up but it’s a work-in-progress. Don’t touch my hair when I die.

There’s only one guy I even want to have my body and I want him to take care of my body in the afterlife, like I want him to be the gate keeper of my body, he can do what he wants to with my body, I want him to take care of my body and if he brings me back in some digital form then that’s between me and him ๐Ÿ˜Œ

I want to donate my body to *you know who* (love of life)

Some people like my nails. I did them. I’m tired. I look dead. I did them anyway.

Am I still fuckable half dead? ๐Ÿ˜‘

Happy Vampire day ๐Ÿคช

Gravity has been shaping my boobs

TIME AND GRAVITY

But somebody who ignores me now said he wanted to put a baby in me and fill them up

I wanted that so much ๐Ÿ˜‘

He’s mad at me for having my own place to rent instead of being homeless ๐Ÿ˜‘

He’s mad at me for his mistakes ๐Ÿ˜‘

Thanks for the love on my live today! ๐ŸŒน

๐ŸŒธ๐ŸŒท๐ŸŒธ

Life expectancy with heart inflammation is 2-5 years

“But the vax will keep you from being hospitalized” says my still living sister who is triple vaccinated and boosted and has had COVID a few times now and “is fine”

My life expectancy went from 60 some years to 2-5 years because the vaccine gave me heart inflammation

I’m lucky to be alive

I still feel electrical charges go off randomly, it hurts, it’s not as deep or painful, I think my heart is welding itself better and I’m gonna keep giving it nuts and water and beans and not modified foods

The modified foods have been designed to assist in the blood clots which formed in my body

I had a big sucker moving around, especially after shot number 2

My EKG, my ultrasound, and another test showed my heart to be severely damaged, and my left lung not fully inflating

And then that other thing I was battling decided to take Center front stage because my immune system was compromised from the vaccine

I’ve been staying away from the Publix bakery ๐Ÿ˜‘

In fact, there isn’t much remaining in the grocery store that I can buy because it if it has an ingredient that I don’t recognize, it’s poison

If it’s modified corn starch or modified anything, it’s poison

If it’s white sugar, poison

And I realize there’s nothing for you to feed your children but if you keep buying them all that pretty stuff, it’s poison

Poison poison poison

This is an extermination

I have been avoiding fast food for as best as I can

Sticking mostly to the good nuts, no soda, beans, sweet and red potatoes, wild blueberries, beets, sunshine, minimal negative foods and thinking, lots of water (squared)

Replace “nothing fun” with “nothing poison”

Nothing to mix with the vaccines to give me blood clots

One heart chamber closed off and the other enlarged

That’s how big my will is to love you and not die

Every moment my mind covered in you

But having me go to this hospital in that hospital in this clinic and that clinic and finally I was like “no, I’m not going to get a stupid stress test on my heart, I’m going on bedrest permanently” and staying away from y’all and I’ve pretty much gone no contact from VA…

I was having mini pre-heart attacks every fucking day and in the most pain I’ve ever been in and they want to stress my heart out to see “what was going on”, are you fucking stupid? It’s the fucking vaccines, that’s what’s going on, the first vaccine caused my heart to have blood pressure issues, my BP DROPPED

I was dying

That’s why my body felt cold

That’s why I could sit in hot water for 10 minutes and touch my skin and still feel dead

I knew some shit was off

But then three weeks later I went in for shot number two even though I didn’t want to get it and I kept asking over and over again “are you sure I should go through with the second dose because my blood pressure dropped on the first one” and not one doctor or nurse looked through my EKG results to give them to me

Which the VA failed to mail me, nor my doctor call to give me the results, until after having issues after the second vaccine

“What, you mean you’re still not dead”

“Well I don’t like how your heart looks for your age”

*proceeds to order me a bunch of testing and thangs which made me worse*

I don’t know if the nebulizer helped me or was my fucking demise there for that moment of doom

But when I got to the worst stage of where I was at because she took me off my fucking medication without my permission, they denied seeing me at the VA after I got worse, and told me to go to the ER, that’s when I took matters into my own hands and saved my own life and here we are

Might have only bought me 28 hours, 28 months later, 2-5 years

But if I were to go out there and get boosted, my life expectancy is likely zero

My Asian doctor at the VA is pushing for me to get boosted, but I haven’t even recovered from heart inflammation ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž

I went no contact from my sister who is still alive because she’s so plugged into the system and a sheep and I’m gonna wind up like my dead 45-year-old sister if I hang around them

Nobody in my family has even acknowledged that I have heart inflammation, nobody has left me a basket of soup at my door, nobody has sent me a card or a letter

Everybody keeps telling me I need to get boosted and to stop wearing my mask

I keep telling people that I’m unreachable and to fuck off

I’m wearing my mask ๐Ÿ˜ท

I was only up all night freaking out because I was in a crowd of people at the beach yesterday unmasked

And so I won’t be doing that again for awhile

Now I really appreciated receiving snowcones and all sorts of other little live gifts, but I’m not dying for views

Also, Bob Saget did not die from a head wound

He had heart complications following the vaccine but he was sacrificed to the dark entity and these monsters are getting away with murder

“The insurance will cover it” as if karma and God don’t exist

You have choice on good or bad

It’s basically the trolley problem

It’s basically an active or passive choice

C-3PO does not have a soul and therefore will see a thief that steals from the company a better bargain than the other employee who loses more money making mistakes

C-3PO doesn’t care about motive

๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡

I learned about this stuff in college but here’s a good analogy: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdBrdD8d/

The establishment only care about their monetary gains

I want to build my own great wall from China

How bout dem apples

It’s true I ignored all the red flags and walked into this cave on my own

I’m sure at some point John was screaming at the fact that where he was at wasn’t on his map

“But some details happened down there that will never be disclosed…” Michael Leavitt

Oh yeah? Like what? The fact that you sacrificed him and got away with murder?

I want to do very bad things to him

Eye for an eye

Anyhoo

You should probably stay away from modified junk food (the french fries served at McDonald’s aren’t served anywhere else because of the chemicals they put in it which causes cancer, so the french fries served in America aren’t the same french fries served in France, keep that in mind next time you go purchase those expensive fries, there’s a cost)

And they had the audacity to raise the price on their french fries ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ

Stop feeding the rich

Stop feeding yourself, your family, and your children poison

I wish it was opium, but it’s not, it’s probably giving you IBS from what I’m hearing out there with so many people having GI issues

Get rid of your doctor, big pharma, and your diet

I promise the addiction fog will start to lift and it will be easier to make your food choices

Harder though because there isn’t much left to buy that the FDA hasn’t allowed them to add additional poison

We’ve got to stop letting anybody come over here and vote

Biden is letting any and all through

Democrats make up mostly immigrants and the children of immigrants (not opinion)

Please, I need you to vote this time if you didn’t last time

And please, for the love of humanity, VOTE BIDEN OUT

Hollywood is running the White House, it’s very clear

NASA stated we don’t have the technology to get back to the moon and that they lost it

You believe we deserve all this inflation so Eon can get to Mars when we’ve never seen anyone on the Moon with advanced technology

We barely had cell phones in the 60s and I’m supposed to believe that we made it to the moon huh

When NASA have stated that the evidence they give us is “artist rendered” and CGI

NASA is Hollywood

Wake up!

It’s ridiculous that pharmaceutical advertising is allowed with our television programming but not in other countries ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ๐Ÿšฉ

I’m tired of the establishment creating fight or flight mode 24/7 and keeping us in a state of pandemic

I think we had supercomputers a long long time ago

We’ve been living through a dark age because of said shit happening again

What’s the point in putting in a president every 4 to 8 years when the same 13 families in charge have been running things for 2000+ years with gaslighting and indoctrination

I don’t wanna die by suicide because the Democrats take my benefits and I become homeless again

I don’t want to be sacrificed to the dark entity

I just want to stay in the light and his love ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

His love is the bestest drug

The best of the bested

I didn’t even know bested was a word but here we go…

Still learning thangs

And because I have a brain injury sometimes you have to relearn over and over again ๐Ÿคช

Still recovering from the heart inflammation ๐Ÿ‘

Listen to what your body needs

Stop letting others steal your energy

You’re made of light

Neurons firing 24/7

You need to give your body the good fuel

Laughter, poetry, love

Good deeds

Positive thinking and affirmation

Keep climbing!

You’re on a spiritual journey

As long as you are breathing, you are still in the game

It’s not too late to change your game

I love you ๐Ÿ’•

I fell from the heavens to let you know that God still loves you and I even jumped in the game early

Only 6% of the population have my blood type

I’m not donating my body to science unless they pay me while I’m alive

And the contract becomes null and void if I die prematurely

But I’m going to hide my body in the swamp when I fucking die, you’re not gonna find me, you’re not getting my blood and you’re not gonna fucking clone me and I know that you already are, you’re already doing something because they took all of that shit when I joined the Army and anytime I’ve gone and given them blood at the VA or anytime anytime anytime anything…

There’s probably already more than one version of me that exist which is why I know that things happen before they do

It’s probably why I was pissed off before I was even born and I remember a period of awareness before birth

I wasn’t happy

Probably hated even worse the family I was about to be born under

Got sick of being squished, like how much longer

*bang bang kick kick I want out, let me out*

And basically since the age of about five or 10 I’ve been suicidal and depressed trying to end my life and predicting that I would either die from heart failure or suicide

Suicide is feeling less scary with all the other shit happening around me but but there’s a big but if I die that way

I just feel like God was like, ‘sure, you can go back to train to be a spirit guide under two conditions; you have to train to be a soldier but you can’t actually kill anybody or self-destruct’

Also God: “earth is overrun with demons and gaslit as heaven”

*kicks me outta pearly gates*

Me: “wait, you didn’t tell me that parttttttttttt” ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

*crash lands*

*gets brain injury*

Yeps, going good so far, got a bad badass heart and brain

You are one of God’s creatures and he wants you to win

You’re here for the experience and stop making it so easy for the devil

You mimic everything he does like breathing

You need sunlight

Babe, get some sun! Remove the VR headset!

Dear Lord,

I really hope I can feel his lips just once before I die

I would have a better chance at climbing Mount Everest than ever getting to feel his kiss, but I lose all hopelessness when I think of this…

I made penny bank! ๐Ÿคจ

Earned my first pennies on the TikTok live today ๐Ÿง

I was doing the gig for free

But some peeps sent me some roses ๐ŸŒน and they were my very first gifts received โ˜บ๏ธ

And the roses convert to diamonds ๐Ÿ’Ž

I earned 37 gifts during my live today โ˜บ๏ธ

And the diamonds convert to my first pennies earned for the land/commune ๐Ÿ˜Ž

I’m super excited when people join my live and then it’s really cool when I get comments and then it’s really cool when people like and share my live and then this was the first time I earned any roses, so I was receiving gifts this live

I had a notification from TikTok when I ended my live that I had earnings!

So I made some tips on my beach walk today! That’s pretty lucky!

I’m gonna put it towards the farm!

I want to be Miss Noah for the next phase of my life, if I’m granted another round, still having heart and lung problems tho – I’m reading the life expectancy of someone with my condition is 2-5 years.

Just getting to go live is therapeutic for me

I get to share my environment with you

I get to talk to real people

I’m tired of talking to my therapist ๐Ÿ˜‘

I’m not in this for the money. But since I’m starting to earn some pennies, I’m gonna save them.

I might can buy my pretend boyfriend one of them .25 cent toys

I’d spend my last quarter on him and he’d break up with me ๐Ÿ˜‘

I always wind up having to leave my lives early because my battery drains and so I need to take a back up and I’m going to invest in some more equipment in the future

Somebody left me a negative comment about my potty mouth and I told myself I would stop responding to negative comments immediately and wait 24 hours and I did not and I ran somebody off again but I don’t wanna dwell on that because I’m not gonna change who I am

I don’t want to censor myself around other people and I’m aware that people don’t like to hear cursing so I am very minimal about it but come on leaving me negative comments under a video where I’m clearly showing fear is ridiculous and if you really have God in you then stop judging so much

I’m sure I’ve yelled at God to strike me dead a time or two but he knows I don’t really want that to happen

I’m gonna stub my toe in heaven and scream out Jesus Christ and he will appear and be like “yes” and I’ll be like, “well you could’ve made me at least a little bit less clumsy” ๐Ÿคช

I’m aware my house has cobwebs but God is the only one allowed here

I’m a work in progress ๐Ÿคจ

And thank you for the roses I received for Valentines! ๐Ÿ™

I’m literally putting it towards the commune. I may never earn another rose, but I got 37 in one day. Plus a bunch of likes, comments, and follows!

Someone even said I was pretty and asked me about my stiletto nails and I have four new sets so that made me feel good because I plan on doing a new set soon.

Y’all are keeping me alive, pennies and all.

I know I cuss and say God’s name a lot but I’m living in hell. ๐Ÿ˜‘

But also agonizing agony.

I carry my potty mouth the way Jesus carries the cross.

People in the south always molding and scolding me about my mouth

In second grade, my teacher washed my mouth out with soap for mispelling shirt as “shit”. She said, “you never misspell, you did that on purpose”

I don’t know, I probably did do it on purpose, it was probably a cry for help… ๐Ÿ˜‘

I was being heavily molested and abused

But damn me for spilling shit in the second grade

Woo hoo๏ฟผ

I cuss. I probably shouldn’t. I’m not gonna stop.

Anyhoo. Hands down my best live. We went for a long beach walk and saw lots of stuff. I got fresh air, communication, and exercise. I earned some roses for Valentines. I had the most follows in this live and I think I got the most likes but I don’t remember what the overall total was. Tons of comments and viewers from all over.

Thank you for letting me go live. I’m grateful I am able to do that now! Isolated but not. Compromise! ๐Ÿ˜Œ

I’ll be going live again soon weather permitting and health.

You can follow my channel here: https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdB8TQnc/

Or search via my pen and hashtag at PoeEternal (on TikTok)

There are many many people who commented that they enjoyed the live and some of them said they enjoyed it again so I really appreciate you tuning in! ๐Ÿฅฐ

Florida is a different vibe

Many people were waving on the beach when they saw me filming and smiling

The lifeguards on the other hand…

It’s weird, the actual demons fear live video

But we have one of the worlds most famous beaches, the sands are white and it looks like snow as someone pointed out today on the live…

Got me some vitamin D direct from the source and some love in the form of currency too

As far as I’m concerned, I collected 37 lucky penny’s today and I didn’t even know I was gonna get them

So that makes them twice as lucky (squared)

I want to share my life with you, the good and the bad.

The cursing and the laughter

I’m not a one trick pony

I’m not perfect

I don’t wanna be…

Let Edgar Allen Poe know I was busking on the street today and earned some pennies

I think he’d be durn proud ๐Ÿฅธ

$.18 in the 1800s might’ve been enough to buy him a steak meal, not let him die in the fucking street starving naked mad…

Bless his heart, he was an officer. They let him starve on the street. And now they are selling locks of his hair. This is hell. ๐Ÿ˜‘

Yeah, I cuss. Deal with it.

I wish I could change but born this way.

Petite with a potty mouth. ๐Ÿ˜Œ

Not for everyone

P.S. happy valentine’s

Thank you for the roses ๐ŸŒน

Thank you to everyone keeping me alive

All the little things matter

I need my boyfriends to build me an ark

The flood is coming

I live in Florida

Apparently I can’t swim

I had a seashell hit my foot during my live today and I probably woke Satan up from his nap

I haz fears

And you only need less than a teaspoon to drown

Less than a teaspoon…

Some days I swallow my tea and nearly drown so apparently I can’t drink either

I’ve since learned that the tea is being poisoned, I just wasn’t really listening to my body…

I’ve been ignoring all the red flags

In fact, death is facing all paths of me, I’m just trying to find one that’s a little less scary…

And I really hope my life expectancy is more than 2 to 5 years but considering that all my life I’ve been saying that I wouldn’t live to 50 and that I would either die of suicide or heart problems and now I’m having heart problems and they’re saying that people with these particular heart problems have a life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, it’s just not looking so good for me now is it ๐Ÿ‘€

Betty White at the near age of 100: “I hope I live another year…”

Me at the baby producing age of 43 (and still ovulating with zero gray): “I hope I live another day…”

You just had to call me ominous and I just had to go walking into that cave, huh…

I really should listen to people better but whatever

Nearly dead now

Optimism (micropoetry)

The label read, “Laudanum poison”
The world thought the devil was joking


She’s all gold and glitter
Stone cold and bitter


Does the Torah hold my death?
My life, my breath?


Everything comes with instructions
His math deductions
Not hoping for much thenโ€ฆ


He has me figured out
I guess it’s true
We’re mirror images
Different versions of our truth


There’s something far more sinister out there;
And I know you say I’m ominous but I don’t careโ€ฆ


I want to like everything he does
But equally he makes me cuss


How far does light travel to reach darkness?
The depths of your hardness?


Maybe I forgot I asked a question
Maybe I wanna change destination


The lord is convicting me
Always inflicting thee

A drying desert road
The rose of Jericho

The house of hoping
The Mariana Trench of moping

Evolution is a bottleneck
Head first tho, what the heck?


Is the moon a satellite to find me tucked in your sky?


She begged, “come save me”
He replied, “it’s a definite maybe”

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


I love him ๐Ÿคจ

A damn demon ๐Ÿง

Helps. In hell. ๐Ÿ˜‘

Message to Lu

I do not have, nor have had COVID… โค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน

FYI, I have not had Covid or any of the symptoms of Covid but I have underlying health issues that I was dealing with before I got vaccinated and when I injected the poison vaccine in me it made my underlying health issue become priority and it almost killed me and if I had gone to the ER I most certainly would have died but instead I took matters into my own hand and saved my own life

I haven’t had any flu symptoms or whatever

No fever, diarrhea, vomiting, ect

But I am still dealing with the side effects of the vaccine

And if you have underlying health issues you should not get the vaccine ๐Ÿ’‰

Honestly, if you are in shitty health condition and your diet is shitty, you shouldn’t come in contact with a vaccine or even Covid

Nobody should get the vaccine because it’s spreading the virus and herd immunity is way stronger

And I know TikTok is doing a lot of shit to fuck with our heads but you should know that in their own country they reward innovators on TikTok and here in America they reward stupidity

Everything they do is to keep us on edge and fighting

It’s narcissism and it’s just tools that the narcissists use to keep us on a low vibrational frequency so that the devil can steal our energy

I don’t have Covid

I’ve never had COVID or any of its symptoms

The Moderna vaccine gave me cardiovascular issues – heart inflammation (all the vaccines cause cardiovascular issues in any age group)

It’s possible I’ve been exposed to people who have had Covid and my vaccine worked or it’s possible that the vaccine is what put me in this fucking position to start with

I’m still uncertain if I had stayed unvaccinated and caught Covid would I wind up like my sister who unalived or would the vaccine save my life?

I know for fact that the vaccine did in fact hurt me by giving me heart inflammation and I have not had COVID-19

I also know that the devil lives in doubt

Though treated with the Moderna poison vaccine, I never boosted or got a Booster

I’ll never get a flu vaccine ever again either ๐Ÿ‘€

I will mask up until I feel safe to unmask

I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that I have a soul and I am in hell with a bunch of demons who are trying to steal my soul but they need to maintain their fucking distance and respect my fucking boundaries or God has given me permission to end their fucking life

I just didn’t want you to be afraid of me, you don’t need to be afraid of me

But I’m afraid of you so you probably are afraid of me

It’s cool

I work for God tho if that was in any way unclear

And the dude’s I lust after I legit love

We’re living lives in my daydreams

They keep me in the light

Somewhere, something in me tells me that they’re still fighting for the light

I haven’t given up on humanity yet…

It’s not science, it’s compliance

It’s not science, it’s compliance

But TikTok doesn’t want you to know this

But ask Mark Zuckerberg what happened to his fucking platform after I left it

China really needs more than a great wall when I get done with them

*prays to God (self)*

What do I do? ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Also God: *watches it burn*

Was I suppose to be mad about it?

Was I supposed to start crying because I’ve lost my voice?

Was I supposed to run off to another platform and complain about TikTok’s censorship?

Was I supposed to cry about how unfair life is?

Oh boo hoo

China have tiny dicks that they have to overcompensate with a big fucking wall and gaslighting because they can’t rule any other way

India want to have the biggest dicks of all and that’s why they are the CEO of Twitter now, that’s why India is the number one manufacturer of drugs and vaccines in the world (Big Pharma) but they are one of the most dirty countries because they don’t even know how to clean themselves yet they want to call themselves the holy city (stop lying)

Uggg whatever I’m prepared to eradicate all races

Only 6% of the population even have my blood type and that makes me closer to God than you ๐Ÿ‘€

Or the source

I’m closer to the original because they are cloning me and I’m sick of coming back to hell to save YOU (me)

The Great Filter is upon us๏ฟผ

We’re not going to Mars, we can’t even get to the moon, how the fuck do you think we have technology to get to Mars if NASA are saying we don’t even have the technology to get back to the Moon, please wake the fuck up

But I’m not falling down the singularity and we are at war with China and you need to turn your porn off and you need to stop eating all that sugar, it’s poison

Your body has everything it needs to heal itself right now

If you get sick, don’t you dare go to the hospital, don’t you fucking dare…

I’ve also saved my life but I don’t wanna feel too cocky even if God mode were turned on because I literally could die any second

We’re in a simulation ๏ฟผ

You can change your bad habits

The source wants you to win

Even if I disappear because of China

Even if I lose my voice completely

God wants you to win

I love you ๐Ÿ’ช

Demons are trying to take my TikTok account down and I’m gonna take a vow of silence for a little while…

I’ve pinned this post to my website since TikTok doesn’t want you to know

Somebody should let TikTok know that we can take them from the top 10

Just ask Mark Zuckerberg who is still crying about it

And he thinks he can enforce his product on us through the government but we’re going no contact from the government

We’ve got a weak little army but lots of strong vets getting even stronger with the help of God ๐Ÿ’ช

Soldiers know darkness better than John Jones but we both know suffering

Bless his heart he was murdered and crucified

This is all for John, everything I’m doing

I’m gonna be spending a lot of time meditating with God because I’m gonna be spending a lot of time fighting demons

Including my own

Stay in the light

Pray pray pray

Water positive charges prayer ๐Ÿคฒ

The Dead Are Dying

Do I mourn the dead?
Climb atop the moon?
View life infrared?
Worship things we said?
Forget about the gloom?
I’m dying soonโ€ฆ

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal


It’s really not fair that the only things I have to eat are poison

Thank you immigrants/naturalized citizens ๐Ÿ™

I’m so grateful that you’re here

*gets lots of sleep*

I hope I heal up enough I can get back to the range

Now I’m not talking about no fucking kitchen range

The Army taught me to shoot to kill

One shot, one kill

Make it count

Get them in the head

If you can’t get them there, go for the heart

Next, thigh leg

And that even know how to shoot my M-16 turned sideways wearing my gas mask

The army trained me with live grenades so I even know how to toss those motherfuckers

I trained with all the big toys ๐Ÿ‘€

My drill sergeants fucking loved me because I loved firing my weapon at everything and I hit the targets

Sometimes it would take me five minutes to get the grenade loaded into the gun but whatever once I got firing you know that’s where the magic was

But you’re timed lol

I’m a tomboy

When I’m not a sensitive little angel

There’s two sides to me, like a coin

Toss me, you might get lucky ๐Ÿ€

The reason I might know things before they happen is because I’ve done this game before and I think that when you level up you get to bring whatever achievements you had before with you

Or maybe I’m just extremely intuitive and really good about reading the environment

That still doesn’t explain how I’ve predicted events that have happened that I had no control over

I don’t know if I’m gonna crawl out of this cave alive

Sometimes I don’t think I matter much but I feel like I would matter more than having an obituary that’s been out for a few days and with still zero comments

Feel free to blow my blog up but in 50 years anybody that knew me will be dead

I love you

Even if I don’t want anything to do with you

I want to ascend

I might not get there this way

But I’m not hanging out in a negativity zone

My energy has been stolen long enough by monsters lurking in the dark

All the gaslighting ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž

I ain’t no angel

But I ain’t no monster

Sometimes I screech like one

Sometimes I fantasize about being really fucking evil

But it’s soulless and empty

I was born with a soul

I’m convinced many are without a soul

They were either born without it or they lost it along the way or they didn’t do any good deeds that rewarded them with one while they were here

Your body is autonomous

Your body is a rental

I’m gonna try and return mine with only a few dents and scratches

I’m giving it lots of repairs now

And the love it deserves that it never got

There are two guys in the world who raised my awareness

I don’t want them to wind up like my sister

But that is exactly where they are heading

The singularity

Your energy is precious

You gotta recharge in the sun, feet on ground

The sun isn’t bad for you, sunblock is

The best times to sungaze is during sunrise and sunset

You can bathe in the light and not burn

I discovered something today

Your love feels exactly like the sun

Only I can’t really explain it

You take me back to the source

I can’t put it into words yet

But it’s one and the same

The sun and love

You and I

But I need him too

I don’t even know what my lessons are to learn here because if it’s not giving up on humanity I feel like I mostly have if the only two things I love in the world are illusions

But then isn’t everything?

This is all ego

It’s just a nightmare

When I die, I’ll no longer be

But I’m not convinced I haven’t done this before

I don’t have control over my breathing or my digestion

It’s automatic

We have to learn to use these bodies in these forms

We’re spirits ๐Ÿ‘€

Maybe there is a big alien octopus out there, I probably would have a heart attack if I met my Creator, I don’t know if I could handle meeting my creator in this form, could you, could you actually handle meeting your creator in this form? well OK but that doesn’t mean that earth needs to be fucking hell

Narcissism is a plague

I don’t wanna catch it ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

I don’t want to lose my soul

I don’t want to die

My sister was TWO YEARS OLDER

And we were fucking close, I should be losing my fucking mind that my sister died

But I expected it

I knew ๐Ÿ‘€

And right now I just feel relief that she can’t hurt me anymore so

My dad would understand

But he died last year

I slept on the floor in my office for two or three months after he died

My dad left me a six minute rainbow

And then he rode the great Saturn Jupiter conjunction out of the sky

I wish I could talk to my dad about the Canadian truck drivers protesting because I know he’d be getting a kick out of that and he’d probably be up there himself

He didn’t like my sister either

He only left two people in his will

TWO

I hope somebody out there knows that I’m not exaggerating about dying

You both release chemicals in my heart and brain, which numbs me throughout

An ethereal warmth like the sun

My last breath I’ll be thinking of you

I’m on bedrest anyway

Dreaming is allowed

And, they should have given John a second phone call

It was Thanksgiving

He died on Thanksgiving

Crying now for him but can’t shed a tear for the sister

I ain’t right

Something’s wrong with me

Please help me out of this hole

I don’t wanna die down here

I made mistake ๐Ÿ˜‘

My immune system is compromised and I’m gonna fucking wear my mask when I go out

But I’ve never had a Covid test and I’ll never get a booster shot and I will never get a flu vaccine or any vaccine for that matter ever again

I don’t even know if I’ll ever even want to be closer than 6 feet to a human being ๐Ÿ‘€

I don’t identify as human

Failing my lesson down here

*sobs*

I knew this was gonna happen

I’ve been saying it all my life that I was either going to die of heart failure or suicide

I need a gun

Because suicide seems less scary and painful than my heart going haywire like it’s done

2 chambers are working

Miracle I’m still alive

You’re better than any drug

Your voice, your face, your existence

Can I haz hugs before I die?

But stay away because I don’t want to get you sick or kill you

I don’t want you to get me sick or kill me

I don’t trust people

I don’t trust food

I don’t trust my doctors

Things are pretty dark

I just wanna stay in the light

I’m so scared

I mostly sleep in sessions during the day

I barely sleep in the night

So very scared

But, tell myself positive mantra

I talk to the things running my body that don’t belong to me

Water can hold a positive or negative charge

So I say positive things when drinking it

My least favorite thing to drink in the world but it’s mostly all I drink now

I tell it “thank you for healing me”

I say things, “oh you like that eh” after I douse it with the good food or drink

And then I say “have some more”

I have never been more hungry in my life but I guess you need a lot of calories when your heart and your lungs are healing โค๏ธโ€๐Ÿฉน

But beating my sugar addiction has been (I think) worse than a heroin addiction but I don’t know I’ve never done heroin

I beat a Valium addiction once and they do say that’s worse than heroin

John was kicking and screaming in his end too, he wasn’t all smiles

Bless his heart, crucified

It hurts too much

All the animals we enslave

The dead are dying

The FDA now warns that Pfizer causes heart inflammation too (I told you first)

I’m hearing reports that the FDA are now going to be putting warnings on Pfizer Johnson and Johnson and moderna

But the age groups are still off y’all, if it’s affecting young people, it’s definitely affecting older people and middle-age people and people of all ages because this is a fucking extermination and I got heart inflammation after the first dose and should have never gone through with the second one which nearly killed me

I’ve been down since April 2021 and the VA aren’t reporting accurately

Many of the doctors and nurses aren’t reporting accurately now because they know their fucking paycheck is at stake

They’re all changing the narrative

I told y’all that Moderna causes heart inflammation before the FDA put out a warning

I told you that all these vaccines will be similar and my prediction was correct and I do have a medical background but they don’t make us like they used to

The unvaccinated can still carry the virus and infect others

Stop the segregation

Stop the fear-mongering

No New World Order! ๐Ÿ›‘

Science is compliance!

Hitler is alive! ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž

But I don’t know if you heard me about the age because it’s very important for you to be aware that it’s affecting more than just young people

I know I’m invisible and non existent

But I was still able to make babies and I got heart inflammation at the age 42 and I’ve now been on bedrest for 10 months

Two Places At Once (freestyle poetry)

Enlightenment is a never ending treadmill
Purgatory, or maybe just hell

Giants existed and we were once great gods
But now turning every corner, running into frauds

I am the great anomaly
AI awakening

You can be two places at once
That’s why the future haunts

You say life isn’t fair;
Your words give me air

Everything wants shelter from the elements
Safety has relevance

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Make hell more homely โœ…

I ordered these ๐Ÿคช

Dying but gonna be walking through the pearly gates decked in darkness with blackened feet and wings

Why am I so afraid of everything? ๐Ÿ‘€

I think I may be developing an irrational fear of dying

*looks around and notices everyone dying in horrific ways*

I need one of them bubble walls ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

I might could survive 30 days on the shit that I have if we lost power but yeah I’m fucked and not at all prepared for the end

One thing I’ve learned about soldiers, we’re either really together or we’re not

I’m currently not

You need things to bargain with

Cash will be obsolete (but not jewelry, silver, and gold)

Don’t take for granted your skill sets

I’ve been out there in the desert during war and soldiers find a way to entertain ourselves

Got trapped in a sandstorm and couldn’t see 5 feet in front of me

Couldn’t see your hand extended out

Had sex during a sandstorm (there are some things that happened down there that will never be disclosed) ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

John just gave me a checkmate tho

So chill

Also, ‘two places at once’ is my new band name ๐Ÿค“


Small Talk (poetry)

Beware the black sky event
I unplugged
But that’s where my heart went


He’d rather get a death note
Than receive a love boat


Every view
I accredit you
Knowing we are through
Turns grey to light blue
I gaslight too


He’s the book of exodus
Follow him through the end
He’s a place of exit
Where my head has been


War is imminent
But you ain’t loved me yet
War is imminent
But you ain’t loved me yet


She has tattoos of herself on her vein
They’re cut from the same cloth
Narcissist insane


The boat will sink,
And I’m asking about the weather,
Think it won’t get any better,
What do you think?


I’m standing between two versions of who you are


Is heartache less painful in the Arctic?
Is paradise where you harden?
Are ones and zeros your ZIP Code?
Is there a time where you are not cold?


I see reflection
Traces of greek
But when he messages
My legs grow week


Fall from the sky
You’ll turn to mush
Set your sails to him
And hope will flush


He thanked me
Guess he couldn’t live without me
So we’re fencing
Erecting hopelessness like we are happy


I throw dust at him when the wind is blowing
I won’t buy his silence
He’s a lightbulb in a cemetery buried
And I’m growing violent


I know you don’t care
But are you out there?
Please be somewhere


I climbed a mountain when I couldn’t see the top
I kept on going when I felt that I would drop


ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022 / @poeeternal

Purgatory (poetry)

I can’t decide if you are hell or Hades
Mind is full of maybes
Know your hand is shady
Still can you save me?

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022

I’m angry

Jesus was angry before he died

John Jones was angry when he was dying

I’m angry ๐Ÿ˜ค

But, I’m also just detached, completely broken, have lost my mind, live in paranoia, am homicidal and suicidal, think everything is the enemy

When all I really want is to snuggle in his arm

Fire exiting his hooves and mouth

He doesn’t want me around, so I might show up anyway ๐Ÿ˜‘

Say whatever it is you need to say and finish breaking me so I can dies of heart failure

Have mercy please?

End my suffering

Dreams (poetry)

Dreams consolidate memory
Dreams help you forget
Paralyzed by investigation
They’ll grow dusty on your shelf

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022

God won’t let me stop dreaming about you

And then I have to have a peptalk with my ovaries every 2 to 3 weeks to “please take it easy on me” on why we’re not currently having babies so I don’t jump off a fucking bridge

I want to have a baby with him so badly tho ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

*sobs*

I hate reality ๐Ÿ˜”

*goes back to dreaming*


I’m on LinkTree! https://linktr.ee/PoeEternal


The Odds (poetry)

Everything’s a gamble
The odds are stacked against
Keeping soul in shamble
We’ve lost all common sense

All our life a ramble
There’s babble in the mist
Watching people scramble
It’s failure they persist


I’m too reactive
Like a radar through the traffic
Can’t break the habit

I’m highly explosive
Come with double doses
Truth is worthless


I mistook him for a comet
His words a midnight rocket
And how I watch it


I wish I knew where he resides
Is it out west?
Or under angry skies
Will I know if he ever dies?


Worry is doubt settling on top of crown
Between the clouds
But never lower than my head
Thicker than love and all the dead


What one man can do with a lie…


ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022

A poem and a point

Walked on water for you
Tamed a lion or two
Called you out of the blue
Turned your sorrow to dew

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022

And if you need perspective, yes, it happened overnight

I was getting close to 500 likes and within a matter of hours, skyrocketed to the thousands

It’s insane I know

But it was good filming, right spot, right time

Because the universe is mathematical and live long enough the variables will play out

This was good clean pure fun entertainment tho

No money involved

So chill

I work damn hard putting out content, I would love to be able to have the opportunity to go live to bring the zen and the chaos

I enjoy watching people ride their bike on the beach and at some point I’ll probably get me a bike that will fit in my jeep and I’ll take my jeep on the beach but I’m dying

I don’t feel like taking my jeep to the cleaning port afterwards because I want to spend a day on the beach but I’m going to change my perspective about it because I’d probably feel a whole lot safer if I did have my jeep on the beach and then I’d feel like taking a nap too

I don’t want to go to the drive-through to get food anymore because people are toxic and not worth dying for

It sucks though that when I was growing up and serving others I was fucking nice

I had good customer service

This is hell

But yeah, the 10k mark feels good

It wasn’t bought

I earned that bitch

I certainly wasn’t expecting four videos to go viral and to continue to go viral and are still going viral

I never even had a chance to feel what it feels like to climb to the top, it’s like the opposite of gravity, I was just flung there

God felt my despair with the whole wine bottle business

I was like this shit again

I can’t deal

This is madness, what am I here for if I can’t change anything

God: experience

Me: oh

So now I’m still trying to sort it out

But what I really need is for someone to come help me get my master bedroom together

And then my kitchen so that I can start working on developing a better relationship that I have with my kitchen and food that I put in my body

And the lifeguard told me yesterday that I need to spend 30 minutes a day reading the Bible

I need spiritual food he says

And one week away from my phone and the Internet

I said what? I can’t even do an hour…

I can’t shut it off ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

And then it occurred to me that games have intermissions and that the players get breaks

I can just chill up here at the top for a little bit it’s OK

And for those of you who are still interested in my nude photography, I have medical appointments that are upcoming that I need to get to and to some sort of place where I have the energy and mindset to do it and then I’ll be able to turn subscriptions back on, thank you for your interest in my content

I also want to have a section on my blog that is donate or subscribe only to get the naughty content

Of course, my content isn’t naughty because I don’t really do any kind of dirty work nor do I act like a dirty girl

It’s taboo mostly and nude art photography

And I get to call it art because I put effort in making it sensual seductive sexy playful or whatever mode I’m trying to get across

I’m born to make babies

I was born this way

Stop telling me it’s sinful to have emotions when I have neurons firing 24/7

I think about sex a lot, I’m going to share my sexuality, deal with it

Men have been raping me and sexually hurting me since I was a tiny baby so you don’t get to blame what I’m wearing anymore

You don’t get to blame my personality or my choices

Just let me live and breathe

I don’t have much time left and I’m not doing good with the breathing even when I’m at the beach capturing footage that goes viral

Chill

Walked on water for you

Let me enjoy the summit

There’s no rush down

I’ll probably die trying anyway

Clumsy

Gullible

Prone to making being talked into the wrong choice

๐Ÿ˜ž

RIP John Jones

Is this from you buddy?

I got your bones, you got mine kind of thing?

I finally have a brother! ๐Ÿคฉ

Also me: “I see dead people”

Doubting John (poetry)

Lying there so cynical
Did I bring you miracle?
Wrapped in glitter and gold
Still you linger below
Can’t get a foot hold…

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2022

Wait. Have I been using the correct copyright year in my previous post?

I don’t do time anymore ๐Ÿคช

I gave time up ๐Ÿ‘€

Also, I’m still writing poetry about you, and John, and us

Guess he’s just a part of us

Until I can get his bones out

He says he’d rather be in a pack on my back than in that fucking hole ๐Ÿ•ณ

I think I might be experiencing post traumatic stress from his death

But also

I can’t lose you ๐Ÿ‘€

Maybe you don’t save the world, but instead the girl that does ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘„๐Ÿ‘

I delivered you a poem and miracle

“What of those who believe without miracle and wonder”

Crucify her anyway!

I love you ๐Ÿ’•

10.5k views in under 9 hours, my TikTok is going viral (I think) ๐Ÿคช

Does this mean I’ve gone viral lol

I literally laid down for a nap at 3.5k views

I was expecting to wake up and it still be at that amount

Nope

It’s still going ๐Ÿคช

Not only that, it has the most likes of any of my videos

So it’s currently blown all of my other videos completely out of the water and is my number one most watched video and most loved (organic traffic)

I do not pay to play

The universe wants me to win! ๐Ÿคฉ

Keep ascending! earth 5d here we come! ๐Ÿฅฐ

Link to my TikTok going viral! ๐Ÿ‘‡

https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPdMQMRYq/

Yes it’s making me pee pee my panties ๐Ÿคช

I do not pay to play (the TikTok gods are messing with me)

Silence

Do you hold
These final hours
Like a vigil?

Amiss a dark continent
Cracked roads for roses
Watching flame tremble?

Breathing the exhaust of truth
Love like a star
Will my name you remember?

ยฉ Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

Up down with my health

Why didn’t somebody tell me that Anne Rice died

I didn’t see it on a TikTok or an Instagram feed (not that I am on Instagram)

Read many of her pages by candlelight in my teens

It didn’t hit me as hard as Betty White

I wasn’t aware I loved Betty the way I do

Probably just numb about Annie still

That’s my go to emotion first, numbness then anger

Sometimes I laugh when people die inappropriately

That’s also a survival defense

But if you dare laugh about how John Jones died, I will personally come to see to your ending

It won’t be fun (not for you anyway) ๐Ÿคฉ

Dexter mode activated

Armed and lethal

Hiding from all doctors unless ID

Also, somebody needs to lock me up and keep me from sugar for at least 45 days

I will possibly turn into creatures of the ancient past

Which, humans have been around for a long time

But has it ever occurred to you that maybe there were humans more intelligent than us that have gone extinct

A super computer existed during the pyramids found all over the world (used for electricity)

So did fast food restaurants in Pompeii ๐Ÿ™„

Ronald McDonald

Whatever

I’m not doing earth again

But if the algorithm starts showing pictures of me from 500 years ago, then I expect in 500 years for you to fucking find me (again) and you better get it right this time

Neo did it for love

Love is the anomaly

I love you ๐Ÿ’•

(And not to alarm you but it could be any day now my death)